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  XIII
  GladasAgneswaswhenherloverreturnedforlunch,shewasatthesametimeratherdismayed:sheknewthatMrs。Failingwouldnotlikeherplansaltered。Andherdismaywasjustified。Theirhostesswasalittlestiff,andaskedwhetherStephenhadbeenobnoxious。
  "Indeedhehasn’t。Hespentthewholetimelookingafterme。"
  "FromwhichIconcludehewasmoreobnoxiousthanusual。"
  Rickiepraisedhimdiligently。Buthiscandidnatureshowedeverythingthrough。Hisauntsoonsawthattheyhadnotgoton。
  Shehadexpectedthis——almostplannedit。Neverthelesssheresentedit,andherresentmentwastofallonhim。
  Thestormgatheredslowly,andmanyotherthingswenttoswellit。Weaklypeople,iftheyarenotcareful,hateoneanother,andwhentheweaknessishereditarythetemptationincreases。Elliotshadnevergotonamongthemselves。Theytalkedof"TheFamily,"
  buttheyalwaysturnedoutwardstothehealthandbeautythatliesopromiscuouslyabouttheworld。Rickie’sfatherhadturned,foratimeatallevents,tohismother。RickiehimselfwasturningtoAgnes。AndMrs。Failingnowwasirritable,andunfairtothenephewwhowaslamelikeherhorriblebrotherandlikeherself。
  Shethoughthiminvertebrateandconventional。Shewasenviousofhishappiness。Shedidnottroubletounderstandhisart。Shelongedtoshatterhim,butknowingasshedidthatthehumanthunderboltoftenreboundsandstrikesthewielder,sheheldherhand。
  Agneswatchedtheapproachingclouds。Rickiehadwarnedher;nowshebegantowarnhim。Asthevisitworeawaysheurgedhimtobepleasanttohisaunt,andsoconvertitintoasuccess。
  Hereplied,"Whyneeditbeasuccess?"——areplyinthemannerofAnsell。
  Shelaughed。"Oh,that’ssolikeyoumen——alltheory!Whataboutyourgreattheoryofhatingnoone?Assoonasitcomesinusefulyoudropit。"
  "Idon’thateAuntEmily。Honestly。ButcertainlyIdon’twanttobenearherorthinkabouther。Don’tyouthinktherearetwogreatthingsinlifethatweoughttoaimat——truthandkindness?
  Let’shavebothifwecan,butlet’sbesureofhavingoneortheother。Myauntgivesupbothforthesakeofbeingfunny。"
  "AndStephenWonham,"pursuedAgnes。"There’sanotherpersonyouhate——ordon’tthinkabout,ifyoupreferitputlikethat。"
  "Thetruthis,I’mchanging。I’mbeginningtoseethattheworldhasmanypeopleinitwhodon’tmatter。Ihadtimeforthemonce。
  Notnow。"Therewasonlyonegatetothekingdomofheavennow。
  Agnessurprisedhimbysaying,"ButtheWonhamboyisevidentlyapartofyouraunt’slife。Shelaughsathim,butsheisfondofhim。"
  "What’sthattodowithit?"
  "Yououghttobepleasanttohimonaccountofit。"
  "Whyonearth?"
  Sheflushedalittle。"I’mold—fashioned。Oneoughttoconsiderone’shostess,andfallinwithherlife。Afterweleaveit’sanotherthing。ButwhilewetakeherhospitalityIthinkit’sourduty。"
  Hergoodsensetriumphed。HenceforthhetriedtofallinwithAuntEmily’slife。AuntEmilywatchedhimtrying。Thestormbroke,asstormssometimesdo,onSunday。
  SundaychurchwasafunctionatCadover,thoughastrangeone。
  Thepompouslandaurolleduptothehouseataquartertoeleven。
  ThenMrs。Failingsaid,"WhyamIbeinghurried?"andafteranintervaldescendedthestepsinherordinaryclothes。Sheregardedthechurchasasortofsitting—room,andrefusedeventowearabonnetthere。Thevillagewasshocked,butatthesametimealittleproud;itwouldpointoutthecarriagetostrangersandgossipaboutthepalesmilingladywhosatinit,alwaysalone,alwayslate,herhairalwaysdrapedinanexpensiveshawl。
  ThisSunday,thoughlateasusual,shewasnotalone。MissPembroke,engrandetoilette,satbyherside。Rickie,lookingplainanddevout,perchedopposite。AndStephenactuallycametoo,murmuringthatitwouldbetheBenedicite,whichhehadneverminded。TherewasalsotheLitany,whichdrovehimintotheairagain,muchtoMrs。Failing’sdelight。Sheenjoyedthissortofthing。ItamusedherwhenherProtegeleftthepew,lookingbored,athletic,anddishevelled,andgropingmostobviouslyforhispipe。Shelikedtokeepathoroughbredpagantoshockpeople。
  "He’sgonetoworshipNature,"shewhispered。Rickiedidnotlookup。"Don’tyouthinkhe’scharming?"Hemadenoreply。
  "Charming,"whisperedAgnesoverhishead。
  Duringthesermonsheanalysedherguests。MissPembroke——
  undistinguished,unimaginative,tolerable。Rickie——intolerable。
  "Andhowpedantic!"shemused。"HesmellsoftheUniversitylibrary。Ifhewasstupidintherightwayhewouldbeadon。"
  Shelookedroundthetinychurch;atthewhitewashedpillars,thehumblepavement,thewindowfullofmagentasaints。Therewasthevicar’swife。AndMrs。Wilbraham’sbonnet。Ugh!Therestofthecongregationwerepoorwomen,withflat,hopelessfaces——shesawthemSundayafterSunday,butdidnotknowtheirnames——
  diversifiedwithafewreluctantplough—boys,andthevilelittleschoolchildrenrowuponrow。"Ugh!whatahole,"thoughtMrs。
  Failing,whoseChristianitywasthetypebestdescribedas"cathedral。""Whataholeforaculturedwoman!Idon’tthinkithasbluntedmysensations,though;Istillseeitssqualorasclearlyasever。Andmynephewpretendsheisworshipping。Pah!
  thehypocrite。"Aboveherthevicarspokeofthedangerofhurryingfromonedissipationtoanother。Shetreasuredhiswords,andcontinued:"Icannotstandsmugness。Itistheone,theunpardonablesin。Freshair!ThefreshairthathasmadeStephenWonhamfreshandcompanionableandstrong。Evenifitkills,Iwillletinthefreshair。"
  ThusreasonedMrs。Failing,inthefacileveinofIbsenism。Sheimaginedherselftobeacold—eyedScandinavianheroine。ReallyshewasanEnglisholdlady,whodidnotmindgivingotherpeopleachillprovideditwasnotinfectious。
  Agnes,onthewayback,notedthatherhostesswasalittlesnappish。Butoneissohungryaftermorningservice,andeithersohotorsocold,thathewouldbeasaintindeedwhobecomesasaintatonce。Mrs。Failing,afterassertingvindictivelythatitwasimpossibletomakealivingoutofliterature,wascourteouslyleftalone。Roast—beefandmosellemightyetworkmiracles,andAgnesstillhopedfortheintroductions——theintroductionstocertaineditorsandpublishers——onwhichherwholediplomacywasbent。Rickiewouldnotpushhimself。Itwashisbesettingsin。Wellforhimthathewouldhaveawife,andalovingwife,whoknewthevalueofenterprise。
  Unfortunatelylunchwasaquarterofanhourlate,andduringthatquarterofanhourtheauntandthenephewquarrelled。Shehadbeeninveighingagainstthemorningservice,andhequietlyanddeliberatelyreplied,"Iforganizedreligionisanything——anditissomethingtome——itwillnotbewreckedbyaharmoniumandadullsermon。"
  Mrs。Failingfrowned。"Ienvyyou。Itisagreatthingtohavenosenseofbeauty。"
  "IthinkIhaveasenseofbeauty,whichleadsmeastrayifIamnotcareful。"
  "Butthisisagreatrelieftome。Ithoughtthepresentdayyoungmanwasanagnostic!Isn’tagnosticismallthethingatCambridge?"
  "Nothingisthe’thing’atCambridge。Ifafewmenareagnosticthere,itisforsomegravereason,notbecausetheyareirritatedwiththewaytheparsonsayshisvowels。"
  Agnesintervened。"Well,IsidewithAuntEmily。Ibelieveinritual。"
  "Don’t,mydear,sidewithme。Hewillonlysayyouhavenosenseofreligioneither。"
  "Excuseme,"saidRickie,perhapshetoowasalittlehungry,——"I
  neversuggestedsuchathing。Ineverwouldsuggestsuchathing。
  Whycannotyouunderstandmyposition?Ialmostfeelitisthatyouwon’t。"
  "Itrytounderstandyourpositionnightanddaydear——whatyoumean,whatyoulike,whyyoucametoCadover,andwhyyoustopherewhenmypresenceissoobviouslyunpleasingtoyou。"
  "Luncheonisserved,"saidLeighton,buthesaidittoolate。
  Theydiscussedthebeefandthemoselleinsilence。Theairwasheavyandominous。EventheWonhamboywasaffectedbyit,shiveredattimes,chokedonce,andhastenedanewintothesun。
  Hecouldnotunderstandcleverpeople。
  Agnes,inabriefanxiousinterview,advisedtheculprittotakeasolitarywalk。ShewouldstopnearAuntEmily,andpavethewayforanapology。
  "Don’tworrytoomuch。Itdoesn’treallymatter。"
  "Isupposenot,dear。Butitseemsapity,consideringwearesoneartheendofourvisit。"
  "RudenessandGrossnessmatter,andI’veshownboth,andalreadyI’msorry,andIhopeshe’llletmeapologize。Butfromtheselfishpointofviewitdoesn’tmatterastraw。She’snomoretousthantheWonhamboyorthebootboy。"
  "Whichwaywillyouwalk?"
  "Ithinktothatentrenchment。Lookatit。"Theyweresittingonthesteps。HestretchedouthishandtoCadsburyRings,andthenletitrestforamomentonhershoulder。"You’rechangingme,"
  hesaidgently。"Godblessyouforit。"
  Heenjoyedhiswalk。Cadfordwasacharmingvillageandforatimehehungoverthebridgebythemill。Soclearwasthestreamthatitseemednotwateratall,butsomeinvisiblequintessenceinwhichthehappyminnowsandtheweedswerevibrating。AndhepausedagainattheRomancrossing,andthoughtforamomentoftheunknownchild。Thelinecurvedsuddenly:certainlyitwasdangerous。Thenheliftedhiseyestothedown。Theentrenchmentshowedliketherimofasaucer,andoveritsnarrowlinepeepedthesummitofthecentraltree。Itlookedinteresting。Hehurriedforward,withthewindbehindhim。
  TheRingswerecuriousratherthanimpressive。Neitherembankmentwasovertwelvefeethigh,andthegrassonthemhadnottheexquisitegreenofOldSarum,butwasgreyandwiry。ButNature(ifshearrangesanything)hadarrangedthatfromthem,atallevents,thereshouldbeaview。ThewholesystemofthecountrylayspreadbeforeRickie,andhegainedanideaofitthathenevergotinhiselaborateride。HesawhowallthewaterconvergesatSalisbury;howSalisburyliesinashallowbasin,justatthechangeofthesoil。HesawtothenorththePlain,andthestreamoftheCadflowingdownfromit,withatributarythatbrokeoutsuddenly,asthechalkstreamsdo:onevillagehadclusteredroundthesourceandclotheditselfwithtrees。HesawOldSarum,andhintsoftheAvonvalley,andthelandaboveStoneHenge。Andbehindhimhesawthegreatwoodbeginningunobtrusively,asifthedowntooneededshaving;andintoittheroadtoLondonslipped,coveringthebusheswithwhitedust。
  Chalkmadethedustwhite,chalkmadethewaterclear,chalkmadethecleanrollingoutlinesoftheland,andfavouredthegrassandthedistantcoronalsoftrees。Hereistheheartofourisland:theChilterns,theNorthDowns,theSouthDownsradiatehence。ThefibresofEnglanduniteinWiltshire,anddidwecondescendtoworshipher,hereweshoulderectournationalshrine。
  Peopleatthattimeweretryingtothinkimperially,Rickiewonderedhowtheydidit,forhecouldnotimagineaplacelargerthanEngland。AndotherpeopletalkedofItaly,thespiritualfatherlandofusall。PerhapsItalywouldprovemarvellous。Butatpresentheconceiveditassomethingexotic,tobeadmiredandreverenced,butnottobelovedliketheseunostentatiousfields。
  Hedrewoutabook,itwasnaturalforhimtoreadwhenhewashappy,andtoreadoutloud,——andforalittletimehisvoicedisturbedthesilenceofthatgloriousafternoon。ThebookwasShelley,anditopenedatapassagethathehadcherishedgreatlytwoyearsbefore,andmarkedas"verygood。"
  "IneverwasattachedtothatgreatsectWhosedoctrineisthateachoneshouldselectOutoftheworldamistressorafriend,Andalltherest,thoughfairandwise,commendTocoldoblivion,——thoughitisthecodeOfmodernmorals,andthebeatenroadWhichthosepoorslaveswithwearyfootstepstreadWhotraveltotheirhomeamongthedeadBythebroadhighwayoftheworld,——andsoWithonesadfriend,perhapsajealousfoe,Thedreariestandthelongestjourneygo。"
  Itwas"verygood"——finepoetry,and,inasense,true。Yethewassurprisedthathehadeverselecteditsovehemently。Thisafternoonitseemedalittleinhuman。Halfamileofftwoloverswerekeepingcompanywhereallthevillagerscouldseethem。Theycaredfornooneelse;theyfeltonlythepressureofeachother,andsoprogressed,silentandoblivious,acrosstheland。HefeltthemtobenearerthetruththanShelley。Eveniftheysufferedorquarrelled,theywouldhavebeennearerthetruth。HewonderedwhethertheywereHenryAdamsandJessicaThompson,bothofthisparish,whosebannshadbeenaskedforthesecondtimeinthechurchthismorning。Whycouldhenotmarryonfifteenshillingsa—week?Andbelookedatthemwithrespect,andwishedthathewasnotacumbersomegentleman。
  Presentlyhesawsomethinglesspleasant——hisaunt’sponycarriage。Ithadcrossedtherailway,andwasadvancinguptheRomanroadalongbythestrawsacks。Hisimpulsewastoretreat,butsomeonewavedtohim。ItwasAgnes。Shewavedcontinually,asmuchastosay,"Waitforus。"Mrs。Failingherselfraisedthewhipinanonchalantway。StephenWonhamwasfollowingonfoot,somewaybehind。HeputtheShelleybackintohispocketandwaitedforthem。Whenthecarriagestoppedbysomehurdleshewentdownfromtheembankmentandhelpedthemtodismount。Hefeltrathernervous。
  Hisauntgavehimoneofherdisquietingsmiles,butsaidpleasantlyenough,"Aren’ttheRingsalittleimmense?AgnesandIcameherebecausewewantedanantidotetothemorningservice。"
  "Pang!"saidthechurchbellsuddenly;"pang!pang!"Itsoundedpettyandludicrous。Theyalllaughed。Rickieblushed,andAgnes,withaglancethatsaid"apologize,"dartedawaytotheentrenchment,asthoughunabletorestrainhercuriosity。
  "Theponywon’tmove,"saidMrs。Failing。"LeavehimforStephentotieup。Willyouwalkmetothetreeinthemiddle?Booh!I’mtired。Givemeyourarm——unlessyou’retiredaswell。"
  "No。Icameoutpartlyinthehopeofhelpingyou。"
  "Howsweetofyou。"ShecontrastedhisblatantunselfishnesswiththehardnessofStephen。Stephennevercameouttohelpyou。
  Butifyougotholdofhimhewassomegood。Hedidn’twobbleandbendatthecriticalmoment。HerfancycomparedRickietothecrackedchurchbellsendingforthitsmessageof"Pang!pang!"tothecountryside,andStephentotheyoungpaganswhoweresaidtolieunderthisfieldguardingtheirpagangold。
  "Thisplaceisfullofghosties,"sheremarked;"haveyouseenanyyet?"
  "I’vekeptontheouterrimsofar。"
  "Let’sgotothetreeinthecentre。"
  "Here’sthepath。"Thebankofgrasswherehehadsatwasbrokenbyagap,throughwhichchariotshadentered,andfarmcartsenterednow。Thetrack,followingtheancienttrack,ledstraightthroughturnipstoasimilargapinthesecondcircle,andthencecontinued,throughmoreturnips,tothecentraltree。
  "Pang!"saidthebell,astheypausedattheentrance。
  "Youneedn’tunharness,"shoutedMrs。Failing,forStephenwasapproachingthecarriage。
  "Yes,Iwill,"heretorted。
  "Youwill,willyou?"shemurmuredwithasmile。"Iwishyourbrotherwasn’tquitesouppish。Let’sgeton。Doesn’tthatchurchdistractyou?"
  "It’ssofainthere,"saidRickie。Anditsoundedfainterinside,thoughtheearthworkwasneitherthicknortall;andtheview,thoughnothidden,wasgreatlydiminished。HewasremindedforaminuteofthatchalkpitnearMadingley,whoserampartsexcludedthefamiliarworld。Agneswashere,asshehadoncebeenthere。
  Shestoodonthefartherbarrier,waitingtoreceivethemwhentheyhadtraversedtheheartofthecamp。
  "Admiremymangel—wurzels,"saidMrs。Failing。"Theyaresaidtogrowsosplendidlyonaccountofthedeadsoldiers。Isn’titasweetthought?NeedIsayitisyourbrother’s?"
  "Wonham’s?"hesuggested。Itwasthesecondtimethatshehadmadethelittleslip。Shenodded,andheaskedherwhatkindofghostieshauntedthiscuriousfield。
  "TheD。,"washerpromptreply。"Heleansagainstthetreeinthemiddle,especiallyonSundayafternoonsandalltheworshippersrisethroughtheturnipsanddanceroundhim。"
  "Oh,theseweredecentpeople,"hereplied,lookingdownwards——
  "soldiersandshepherds。Theyhavenoghosts。TheyworshippedMarsorPan—Erdaperhaps;notthedevil。"
  "Pang!"wentthechurch,andwassilent,fortheafternoonservicehadbegun。Theyenteredthesecondentrenchment,whichwasinheight,breadth,andcomposition,similartothefirst,andexcludedstillmoreoftheview。Hisauntcontinuedfriendly。
  Agnesstoodwatchingthem。
  "Soldiersmayseemdecentinthepast,"shecontinued,"butwaittilltheyturnintoTommiesfromBulfordCamp,whorobthechickens。"
  "Idon’tmindBulfordCamp,"saidRickie,looking,thoughinvain,forsignsofitssnowytents。"Thementherearethesonsofthemenhere,andhavecomebacktotheoldcountry。War’shorrible,yetonelovesallcontinuity。Andnoonecouldmindashepherd。"
  "Indeed!Whataboutyourbrother——ashepherdifevertherewas?
  Lookhowheboresyou!Don’tbesosentimental。"
  "But——oh,youmean——"
  "YourbrotherStephen。"
  Heglancedathernervously。Hehadneverknownhersoqueerbefore。Perhapsitwassomeliteraryallusionthathehadnotcaught;butherfacedidnotatthatmomentsuggestliterature。
  Inthedifferentialtonesthatoneusestoanoldandinfirmpersonhesaid"StephenWonhamisn’tmybrother,AuntEmily。"
  "Mydear,you’rethatprecise。Onecan’tsay’half—brother’everytime。"
  Theyapproachedthecentraltree。
  "Howyoudopuzzleme,"hesaid,droppingherarmandbeginningtolaugh。"HowcouldIhaveahalf—brother?"
  Shemadenoanswer。
  Thenahorrorleaptstraightathim,andhebeatitbackandsaid,"Iwillnotbefrightened。"Thetreeinthecentrerevolved,thetreedisappeared,andhesawaroom——theroomwherehisfatherhadlivedintown。"Gently,"hetoldhimself,"gently。"Stilllaughing,hesaid,"I,withabrother—youngerit’snotpossible。"Thehorrorleaptagain,andheexclaimed,"It’safoullie!"
  "Mydear,mydear!"
  "It’safoullie!Hewasn’t——Iwon’tstand——"
  "Mydear,beforeyousayseveralnoblethings,rememberthatit’sworseforhimthanforyou——worseforyourbrother,foryourhalf—brother,foryouryoungerbrother。"
  Butheheardhernolonger。Hewasgazingatthepast,whichhehadpraisedsorecently,whichgapedeverwider,likeanunhallowedgrave。Turnwherehewould,itencircledhim。Ittookvisibleform:itwasthisdoubleentrenchmentoftheRings。Hismouthwentcold,andheknewthathewasgoingtofaintamongthedead。Hestartedrunning,missedtheexit,stumbledontheinnerbarrier,fellintodarkness——
  "Gethisheaddown,"saidavoice。"Getthebloodbackintohim。
  That’sallhewants。Leavehimtome。Elliot!"——thebloodwasreturning——"Elliot,wakeup!"
  Hewokeup。Theearthhehaddreadedlayclosetohiseyes,andseemedbeautiful。Hesawthestructureoftheclods。Atinybeetleswungonthegrassblade。Onhisownneckahumanhandpressed,guidingthebloodbacktohisbrain。
  Therebrokefromhimacry,notofhorrorbutofacceptance。Foroneshortmomentheunderstood。"Stephen——"hebegan,andthenheheardhisownnamecalled:"Rickie!Rickie!"Agneshurriedfromherpostonthemargin,and,asifunderstandingalso,caughthimtoherbreast。
  Stephenofferedtohelpthemfurther,butfindingthathemadethingsworse,hesteppedasidetoletthempassandthensaunteredinwards。Thewholefield,withconcentriccircles,wasvisible,andthebroadleavesoftheturnipsrustledinthegatheringwind。MissPembrokeandElliotweremovingtowardstheCadoverentrance。Mrs。Failingstoodwatchinginherturnontheoppositebank。Hewasnotaninquisitiveboy;butasheleantagainstthetreehewonderedwhatitwasallabout,andwhetherhewouldeverknow。
  XIV
  Onthewayback——atthatverylevel—crossingwherehehadpausedonhisupwardroute——Rickiestoppedsuddenlyandtoldthegirlwhyhehadfainted。Hithertoshehadaskedhiminvain。Histonehadgonefromhim,andhetoldherharshlyandbrutally,sothatshestartedawaywithahorrifiedcry。Thenhismanneraltered,andheexclaimed:"Willyoumind?Areyougoingtomind?"
  "OfcourseImind,"shewhispered。Sheturnedfromhim,andsawuponthesky—linetwofiguresthatseemedtobeofenormoussize。
  "They’rewatchingus。Theystandontheedgewatchingus。Thiscountry’ssoopen——you——youcan’ttheywatchuswhereverwego。
  Ofcourseyoumind。"
  Theyheardtherumbleofthetrain,andshepulledherselftogether。"Come,dearest,weshallberunovernext。We’resayingthingsthathavenosense。"Butonthewaybackherepeated:
  "Theycanstillseeus。Theycanseeeveryinchofthisroad。
  Theywatchusforever。"Andwhentheyarrivedatthestepsthere,sureenough,werestillthetwofiguresgazingfromtheoutercircleoftheRings。
  Shemadehimgotohisroomatonce:hewasalmosthysterical。
  Leightonbroughtoutsometeaforher,andshesatdrinkingitonthelittleterrace。Ofcoursesheminded。
  Againshewasmenacedbytheabnormal。Allhadseemedsofairandsosimple,soinaccordancewithherideas;andthen,likeacorpse,thishorrorroseuptothesurface。Shesawthetwofiguresdescendandpausewhileoneofthemharnessedthepony;
  shesawthemdrivedownward,andknewthatbeforelongshemustfacethemandtheworld。Sheglancedatherengagementring。
  WhenthecarriagedroveupMrs。Failingdismounted,butdidnotspeak。ItwasStephenwhoinquiredafterRickie。She,scarcelyknowingthesoundofherownvoice,repliedthathewasalittletired。
  "Goandputupthepony,"saidMrs。Failingrathersharply。
  "Agnes,givemesometea。"
  "Itisratherstrong,"saidAgnesasthecarriagedroveoffandleftthemalone。ThenshenoticedthatMrs。Failingherselfwasagitated。Herlipsweretrembling,andshesawtheboydepartwithmanifestrelief。
  "Doyouknow,"shesaidhurriedly,asiftalkingagainsttime——
  "DoyouknowwhatupsetRickie?"
  "Idoindeedknow。"
  "Hashetoldanyoneelse?"
  "Ibelievenot。"
  "Agnes——haveIbeenafool?"
  "Youhavebeenveryunkind,"saidthegirl,andhereyesfilledwithtears。
  ForamomentMrs。Failingwasannoyed。"Unkind?Idonotseethatatall。Ibelieveinlookingfactsintheface。Rickiemustknowhisghostssometime。Whynotthisafternoon?"
  Sherosewithquietdignity,buthertearscamefaster。"Thatisnotso。Youtoldhimtohurthim。Icannotthinkwhatyoudiditfor。Isupposebecausehewasrudetoyouafterchurch。Itisamean,cowardlyrevenge。
  "What——whatifit’salie?"
  "Then,Mrs。Failing,itissickeningofyou。Thereisnootherword。Sickening。Iamsorry——anobodylikemyself——tospeaklikethis。HowCOULDyou,oh,howcouldyoudemeanyourself?Why,notevenapoorperson——Herindignationwasfineandgenuine。Buthertearsfellnolonger。Nothingmenacedheriftheywerenotreallybrothers。
  "Itisnotalie,myclear;sitdown。Iwillswearsomuchsolemnly。Itisnotalie,but——"
  Agneswaited。
  "——wecancallitalieifwechoose。"
  "Iamnotsochildish。Youhavesaidit,andwemustallsuffer。
  Youhavehadyourfun:Iconcludeyoudiditforfun。Youcannotgoback。He——"Shepointedtowardsthestables,andcouldnotfinishhersentence。
  "Ihavenotbeenafooltwice。"
  Agnesdidnotunderstand。
  "Mydenselady,can’tyoufollow?IhavenottoldStephenonesingleword,neitherbeforenornow。"
  Therewasalongsilence。
  Indeed,Mrs。Failingwasinanawkwardposition。
  Rickiehadirritatedher,and,inherdesiretoshockhim,shehadimperilledherownpeace。Shehadfeltsounconventionaluponthehillside,whensheloosedthehorroragainsthim;butnowitwasdartingatheraswell。Supposethescandalcameout。
  Stephen,whowasabsolutelywithoutdelicacy,wouldtellittothepeopleassoonastellthemthetime。Hispaganismwouldbetooassertive;itmightevenbeinbadtaste。Afterall,shehadaprominentpositionintheneighbourhood;shewastalkedabout,respected,lookedupto。Afterall,shewasgrowingold。Andtherefore,thoughshehadnotrueregardforRickie,norforAgnes,norforStephen,norforStephen’sparents,inwhosetragedyshehadassisted,yetshedidfeelthatifthescandalreviveditwoulddisturbtheharmonyofCadover,andthereforetriedtoretracehersteps。Itiseasytosayshockingthings:itissodifferenttobeconnectedwithanythingshocking。Lifeanddeathwerenotinvolved,butcomfortanddiscomfortwere。