Leightonopenedthedoor。Theysawalittleroom,bluewithtobacco—smoke。Flankingthefireweredeepsettleshidingallbutthelegsofthemenwholoungedinthem。Betweenthesettlesstoodatable,coveredwithmugsandglasses。Thescenewaspicturesque——fairerthanthecutglasspalacesofthetown。
"Ohyes,he’sthere,"hecalled,andafteramoment’shesitationcameout。
"Wouldhecome?"
"No。Ishouldn’tsayso,"repliedLeighton,withafurtiveglance。HeknewthatRickiewasamilksop。"Firstnight,youknow,sir,amongoldfriends。"
"Yes,Iknow,"saidRickie。"Buthemightlikeaturndownthevillage。Itlooksstuffyinsidethere,andpoorfunprobablytowatchothersdrinking。"
Leightonshutthedoor。
"Whatwasthathecalledafteryou?"
"Oh,nothing。Amanwhenhe’sdrunk——hesaystheworsthe’severheard。Atleast,sotheysay。"
"Amanwhenhe’sdrunk?"
"Yes,Sir。"
"ButStephenisn’tdrinking?"
"No,no。"
"Hecouldn’tbe。Ifhebrokeapromise——Idon’tpretendhe’sasaint。Idon’twanthimone。Butitisn’tinhimtobreakapromise。"
"Yes,sir;Iunderstand。"
"Inthetrainhepromisedmenottodrink——nothingtheatrical:
justapromiseforthesefewdays。"
"No,sir。"
"’No,sir,’"stampedRickie。"’Yes!no!yes!’Can’tyouspeakout?Ishedrunkorisn’the?"
Leighton,justlyexasperated,cried,"Hecan’tstand,andI’vetoldyousoagainandagain。"
"Stephen!"shoutedRickie,dartingupthesteps。Heatandthesmellofbeerawaitedhim,andhespokemorefuriouslythanhehadintended。"Isthereanyoneherewho’ssober?"hecried。Thelandlordlookedoverthebarangrily,andaskedhimwhathemeant。Hepointedtothedeepsettles。"Insidetherehe’sdrunk。
Tellhimhe’sbrokenhisword,andIwillnotgowithhimtotheRings。"
"Verywell。Youwon’tgowithhimtotheRings,"saidthelandlord,steppingforwardandslammingthedoorinhisface。
Intheroomhewasonlyangry,butoutinthecoolairherememberedthatStephenwasalawtohimself。Hehadchosentobreakhisword,andwouldbreakitagain。Nothingelseboundhim。
Toyieldtotemptationisnotfatalformostofus。Butitwastheendofeverythingforahero。
"He’ssuddenlyruined!"hecried,notyetrememberinghimself。
Foralittlehestoodbytheelm—tree,clutchingtheridgesofitsbark。Evensowouldhewrestletomorrow,andStephen,imperturbable,reply,"Mybodyismyown。"Orworsestill,hemightwrestlewithapliantStephenwhopromisedhimgliblyagain。Whileheprayedforamiracletoconverthisbrother,itstruckhimthathemustprayforhimself。Forhe,too,wasruined。
"Why,what’sthematter?"askedLeighton。"Stephen’sonlybeingwithfriends。Mr。Elliot,sir,don’tbreakdown。Nothing’shappenedbad。Noone’sdiedyet,orevenhurtthemselves。"Everkind,hetookholdofRickie’sarm,and,pityingsuchanervousfellow,setoutwithhimforhome。TheshouldersofOrionrosebehindthemoverthetopmostboughsoftheelm。Fromthebridgethewholeconstellationwasvisible,andRickiesaid,"MayGodreceivemeandpardonmefortrustingtheearth。"
"But,Mr。Elliot,whathaveyoudonethat’swrong?"
"Gonebankrupt,Leighton,forthesecondtime。Pretendedagainthatpeoplewerereal。MayGodhavemercyonme!"
Leightondroppedhisarm。Thoughhedidnotunderstand,achillofdisgustpassedoverhim,andhesaid,"IwillgobacktoTheAntelope。IwillhelpthemputStephentobed。"
"Do。Iwillwaitforyouhere。"Thenheleantagainsttheparapetandprayedpassionately,forheknewthattheconventionswouldclaimhimsoon。Godwasbeyondthem,butah,howfarbeyond,andtobereachedafterwhatdegradation!Attheendofthischildishdetourhiswifeawaitedhim,notlesssurelybecauseshewasonlyhiswifeinname。Hewastooweak。Booksandfriendswerenotenough。Littlebylittleshewouldclaimhimandcorrupthimandmakehimwhathehadbeen;andthewomanhelovedwoulddieout,indrunkenness,indebauchery,andherstrengthwouldbedissipatedbyaman,herbeautydefiledinaman。Shewouldnotcontinue。Thatmysticroseandthefaceitilluminedmeantnothing。Thestream——hewasaboveitnow——meantnothing,thoughitburstfromthepureturfandranforevertothesea。Thebather,theshouldersofOrion—theyallmeantnothing,andweregoingnowhere。Thewholeaffairwasaridiculousdream。
Leightonreturned,saying,"Haven’tyouseenStephen?Theysayhefollowedus:hecanstillwalk:Itoldyouhewasn’tsobad。"
"Idon’tthinkhepassedme。Oughtonetolook?"HewanderedalittlealongtheRomanroad。Againnothingmattered。Atthelevel—crossingheleantonthegatetowatchaslowgoodstrainpass。Intheglareoftheenginehesawthathisbrotherhadcomethisway,perhapsthroughsomesoddenmemoryoftheRings,andnowlaydrunkovertherails。Wearilyhedidaman’sduty。Therewastimetoraisehimupandpushhimintosafety。Itisalsoaman’sdutytosavehisownlife,andthereforehetried。Thetrainwentoverhisknees。HediedupinCadover,whispering,"Youhavebeenright,"toMrs。Failing。
ShewroteofhimtoMrs。Lewinafterwardsas"onewhohasfailedinallheundertook;oneofthethousandswhosedustreturnstothedust,accomplishingnothingintheinterval。AgnesandI
buriedhimtothesoundofourcrackedbell,andpretendedthathehadoncebeenalive。Theother,whowasalwayshonest,keptaway。"
XXXV
>Fromthewindowtheylookedoverasobervalley,whosesideswerenottooslopingtobeploughed,andwhosetrendwasfollowedbyagrass—growntrack。ItwaslateonSundayafternoon,andthevalleywasdesertedexceptforonelabourer,whowascoastingslowlydownwardonarosybicycle。Theairwasveryquiet。Ajayscreamedupinthewoodsbehind,butthering—doves,whoroostearly,werealreadysilent。Sincethewindowopenedwestward,theroomwasfloodedwithlight,andStephen,findingithot,wasworkinginhisshirtsleeves。
"Youguaranteethey’llsell?"heasked,withapenbetweenhisteeth。Hewastidyingupapileofmanuscripts。
"Iguaranteethattheworldwillbethegainer,"saidMr。
Pembroke,nowaclergyman,whosatbesidehimatthetablewithanexpressionofrefineddisapprovalonhisface。
"I’dgottheideathatthelongstoryhaditspoints,butthattheseshorterthingsdidn’t——what’stheword?"
"’Convince’isprobablythewordyouwant。Butthattypeofcriticismisquiteathingofthepast。HaveyouseentheillustratedAmericanedition?"
"Idon’tremember。"
"MightIsendyouacopy?Ithinkyououghttopossessone。"
"Thankyou。"Hiseyewandered。Thebicyclehaddisappearedintosometrees,andthither,throughacloudlesssky,thesunwasalsodescending。
"Isallquiteplain?"saidMr。Pembroke。"Submitthesetenstoriestothemagazines,andmakeyourowntermswiththeeditors。Then——Ihaveyourwordforit——youwilljoinforceswithme;andthefourstoriesinmypossession,togetherwithyours,shouldmakeupavolume,whichwemightwellcall’PanPipes。’"
"Areyousure`PanPipes’haven’tbeenusedupalready?"
Mr。Pembrokeclenchedhisteeth。Hehadbeenbearingwiththissortofthingfornearlyanhour。"Ifthatisthecase,wecanselectanother。Atitleiseasytocomeby。Butthatistheideaitmustsuggest。Thestories,asIhavetwiceexplainedtoyou,allcentreroundaNaturetheme。Pan,beingthegodof——"
"Iknowthat,"saidStephenimpatiently。
"——Beingthegodof——"
"Allright。Let’sgetfurrard。I’velearntthat。"
Itwasyearssincetheschoolmasterhadbeeninterrupted,andhecouldnotstandit。"Verywell,"hesaid。"Ibowtoyoursuperiorknowledgeoftheclassics。Letusproceed。"
"Ohyestheintroduction。Theremustbeone。Itwastheintroductionwithallthosewrongdetailsthatsoldtheotherbook。"
"Youoverwhelmme。Ineverpennedthememoirwiththatintention。"
"Ifyouwon’tdoone,Mrs。Keynesmust!"
"Mysisterleadsabusylife。Icouldnotaskher。Iwilldoitmyselfsinceyouinsist。"
"Andthebinding?"
"Thebinding,"saidMr。Pembrokecoldly,"mustreallybelefttothediscretionofthepublisher。Wecannotbeconcernedwithsuchdetails。Ourtaskispurelyliterary。"Hisattentionwandered。Hebegantofidget,andfinallybentdownandlookedunderthetable。"Whathavewehere?"heasked。
Stephenlookedalso,andforamomenttheysmiledateachotherovertheprostratefigureofachild,whowascuddlingMr。
Pembroke’sboots。"She’saftertheblacking,"heexplained。"Ifweleftherthere,she’dlickthembrown。"
"Indeed。Isthatsoverysafe?"
"Itneverdidmeanyharm。Comeup!Yourtongue’sdirty。"
"CanI——"Shewasunderstoodtoaskwhethershecouldcleanhertongueonalollie。
"No,no!"saidMr。Pembroke。"Lollipopsdon’tcleanlittlegirls’
tongues。"
"Yes,theydo,"heretorted。"Butshewon’tgetone。"Heliftedheronhisknee,andraspedhertonguewithhishandkerchief。
"Dearlittlething,"saidthevisitorperfunctorily。Thechildbegantosquall,andkickedherfatherinthestomach。
Stephenregardedherquietly。"Youtriedtohurtme,"hesaid。
"Hurtingdoesn’tcount。Tryingtohurtcounts。Goandcleanyourtongueyourself。Getoffmyknee。"Tearsofanothersortcameintohereyes,butsheobeyedhim。"How’sthegreatBertie?"heasked。
"Thankyou。Mynephewisperfectlywell。Howcameyoutohearofhisexistence?"
"ThroughtheSilts,ofcourse。Itisn’tfivemilestoCadover。"
Mr。Pembrokeraisedhiseyesmournfully。"IcannotconceivehowthepoorSiltsgooninthatgreathouse。Whateversheintended,itcouldnothavebeenthat。Thehouse,thefarm,themoney,——
everythingdowntothepersonalarticlesthatbelongtoMr。
Failing,andshouldhaverevertedtohisfamily!"
"It’slegal。Interstatesuccession。"
"Idonotdisputeit。Butitisalessontoonetomakeawill。
Mrs。Keynesandmyselfwereelectrified。"
"They’lldothere。Theyofferedmetheagency,but——"Helookeddownthecultivatedslopes。Hismannersweregrowingrough,forhesawfewgentlemennow,andhewaseitherincoherentorelsealarminglydirect。"However,ifLawrieSilt’saCockneylikehisfather,andifmynextisaboyandlikeme——"Ashybeautifullookcameintohiseyes,andpassedunnoticed。"They’lldo,"herepeated。"TheyturnedoutWilbrahamandbuiltnewcottages,andbridgedtherailway,andmadeothernecessaryalterations。"Therewasamoment’ssilence。
Mr。Pembroketookouthiswatch。"IwonderifImighthavethetrap?Imustn’tmissmytrain,mustI?Itisgoodofyoutohavegrantedmeaninterview。Itisallquiteplain?"
"Yes。"
"Acaseofhalfandhalf—divisionofprofits。"
"Halfandhalf?"saidtheyoungfarmerslowly。"Whatdoyoutakemefor?Halfandhalf,whenIprovidetenofthestoriesandyouonlyfour?"
"I——I——"stammeredMr。Pembroke。
"Iconsideryoudidmeoverthelongstory,andI’mdamnedifyoudomeovertheshortones!"
"Hush!ifyouplease,hush!——ifonlyforyourlittlegirl’ssake。"
Heliftedaclericalpalm。
"Youdidme,"hisvoicedrove,"andallthethirty—nineArticleswon’tstopmesayingso。Thatlongstorywasmeanttobemine。I
gotitwritten。You’vedonemeoutofeverypennyitfetched。
It’sdedicatedtome——flatout——andyouevencrossedoutthededicationandtidiedmeoutoftheintroduction。Listentome,Pembroke。You’vedonepeopleallyourlife——Ithinkwithoutknowingit,butthatwon’tcomfortus。Awretcheddevilatyourschooloncewrotetome,andhe’dbeendone。Shamfood,shamreligion,shamstraighttalks——andwhenhebrokedown,yousaiditwastheworldinminiature。"Hesnatchedathimroughly。"ButI’llshowyoutheworld。"Hetwistedhimroundlikeababy,andthroughtheopendoortheysawonlythequietvalley,butinitarivuletthatwouldintimebringitswaterstothesea。"Lookevenatthat——andupbehindwherethePlainbeginsandyougetonthesolidchalk——thinkofusridingsomenightwhenyou’reorderingyourhotbottle——that’stheworld,andthere’snominiatureworld。There’soneworld,Pembroke,andyoucan’ttidymenoutofit。Theyansweryoubackdoyouhear?——theyanswerbackifyoudothem。Ifyoutellamanthiswaythatfoursheepequalten,heanswersbackyou’realiar。"
Mr。Pembrokewasspeechless,and——suchishumannature——hechieflyresentedtheallusiontothehotbottle;anunmanlyluxuryinwhichheneverindulged;contentinghimselfwithnightsocks。"Enough——
thereisnowitnesspresent——asyouhavedoubtlessobserved。"Buttherewas。Foralittlevoicecried,"Oh,mummy,they’refighting——
suchfun——"andfeetwentpatteringupthestairs。"Enough。Youtalkof’doing,’butwhataboutthemoneyoutofwhichyou’did’mysister?Whataboutthispicture"——hepointedtoafadedphotographofStockholm——"whichyoucausedtobefilchedfromthewallsofmyhouse?Whatabout——enough!Letusconcludethisdishearteningscene。Youobjecttomyterms。Nameyours。Ishallacceptthem。
Itisfutiletoreasonwithonewhoistheworsefordrink。"
Stephenwasquietatonce。"Steadyon!"hesaidgently。"Steadyoninthatdirection。Takeone—thirdforyourfourstoriesandtheintroduction,andIwillkeeptwo—thirdsformyself。"Thenhewenttoharnessthehorse,whileMr。Pembroke,watchinghisbroadback,desiredtoburyaknifeinit。Thedesirepassed,partlybecauseitwasunclerical,partlybecausehehadnoknife,andpartlybecausehesoonblurredoverwhathadhappened。Tohimallcriticismwas"rudeness":heneverheededit,forheneverneededit:hewasneverwrong。Allhislifehehadorderedlittlehumanbeingsabout,andnowhewasequallymagisterialtobigones:Stephenwasafifth—formloutwhom,owingtosomeflawintheregulations,hecouldnotsenduptotheheadmastertobecaned。
Thisattitudemakesfortranquillity。Beforelonghefeltmerelyaninjuredmartyr。Hisbraincleared。Hestooddeepinthoughtbeforetheonlyotherpicturethatthebareroomboasted——theDemeterofCnidus。Outsidethesunwassinking,anditslastraysfellupontheimmortalfeaturesandtheshatteredknees。Sweet—
peasofferedtheirfragrance,andwithitthereenteredthosemoremysteriousscentsthatcomefromnooneflowerorclodofearth,butfromthewholebosomofevening。
Hetriednottobecynical。Butinhishearthecouldnotregretthattragedy,alreadyhalf—forgotten,conventionalized,indistinct。Ofcoursedeathisaterriblething。Yetdeathismercifulwhenitweedsoutafailure。Ifwelookdeepenough,itisallforthebest。Hestaredatthepictureandnodded。
Stephen,whohadmethisvisitoratthestation,hadintendedtodrivehimbackthere。Butaftertheirspurtoftemperhesenthimwiththeboy。Heremainedinthedoorway,gladthathewasgoingtomakemoney,gladthathehadbeenangry;whiletheglowoftheclearskydeepened,andthesilencewasperfected,andthescentsofthenightgrewstronger。Oldvagranciesawoke,andheresolvedthat,dearlyashelovedhishouse,hewouldnotenteritagaintilldawn。"Goodnight!"hecalled,andthenthechildcamerunning,andhewhispered,"Quick,then!Bringmearug。"
"Good—night,"herepeated,andapleasantvoicecalledthroughanupperwindow,"Whygood—night?"Hedidnotansweruntilthechildwaswrappedupinhisarms。
"Itistimethatshelearnttosleepout,"hecried。"Ifyouwantme,we’reoutonthehillside,whereIusedtobe。"
Thevoiceprotested,sayingthisandthat。
"Stewart’sinthehouse,"saidtheman,"anditcannotmatter,andIamgoinganyway。"
"Stephen,Iwishyouwouldn’t。Iwishyouwouldn’ttakeher。
Promiseyouwon’tsayfoolishthingstoher。Don’t——Iwishyou’dcomeupforaminute——"
Thechild,whosefacewaslaidagainsthis,feltthemusclesinitharden。
"Don’ttellherfoolishthingsaboutyourself——thingsthataren’tanylongertrue。Don’tworryherwitholddeaddreadfulness。Topleaseme——don’t。"
"JusttonightIwon’t,then。"
"Stevie,dear,pleasememore——don’ttakeherwithyou。"
Atthishelaughedimpertinently。"IsupposeI’mbeingkeptinline,"shecalled,and,thoughhecouldnotseeher,shestretchedherarmstowardshim。Foratimehestoodmotionless,underherwindow,musingonhishappytangiblelife。Thenhisbreathquickened,andhewonderedwhyhewashere,andwhyheshouldholdawarmchildinhisarms。"It’stimewewerestarting,"hewhispered,andshowedthesky,whoseorangewasalreadyfadingintogreen。"Wisheverythinggoodnight。"
"Good—night,dearmummy,"shesaidsleepily。"Goodnight,dearhouse。Good—night,youpictures——longpicture——stonelady。Iseeyouthroughthewindow——yourfacesarepink。"
Thetwilightdescended。Herestedhislipsonherhair,andcarriedher,withoutspeaking,untilhereachedtheopendown。Hehadoftensleptherehimself,alone,andonhiswedding—night,andheknewthattheturfwasdry,andthatifyoulaidyourfacetoityouwouldsmellthethyme。Foramomenttheeartharousedher,andshebegantochatter。"Myprayers——"shesaidanxiously。
Hegaveheronehand,andshewasasleepbeforeherfingershadnestledinitspalm。Theirtouchmadehimpensive,andagainhemarvelledwhyhe,theaccident,washere。Hewasaliveandhadcreatedlife。Bywhoseauthority?Thoughhecouldnotphraseit,hebelievedthatheguidedthefutureofourrace,andthat,centuryaftercentury,histhoughtsandhispassionswouldtriumphinEngland。Thedeadwhohadevokedhim,theunbornwhomhewouldevokehegovernedthepathsbetweenthem。Bywhoseauthority?
OutinthewestlayCadoverandthefieldsofhisearlieryouth,andoverthemdescendedthecrescentmoon。Hiseyesfollowedherdecline,andagainstherfinalradiancehesaw,orthoughthesaw,theoutlineoftheRings。Hehadalwaysbeengrateful,aspeoplewhounderstoodhimknew。Butthiseveninghisgratitudeseemedagiftofsmallaccount。Theearwasdeaf,andwhatthanksofhiscouldreachit?Thebodywasdust,andinwhatecstasyofhiscoulditshare?Thespirithadfled,inagonyandloneliness,nevertoknowthatitbequeathedhimsalvation。
Hefilledhispipe,andthensatpressingtheunlittobaccowithhisthumb。"WhatamItodo?"hethought。"Canhenoticethethingshegaveme?Aparsonwouldknow。Butwhat’samanlikemetodo,whoworksallhislifeoutofdoors?"Ashewondered,thesilenceofthenightwasbroken。ThewhistleofMr。Pembroke’straincamefaintly,andaluridspotpassedovertheland——
passed,andthesilencereturned。Onethingremainedthatamanofhissortmightdo。Hebentdownreverentlyandsalutedthechild;towhomhehadgiventhenameoftheirmother。
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