Thusmusinghelaydowntosleep,feelingdiseasedinbodyandsoul。Itwasnowonderthatthenightwasthemostterriblehehadeverknown。HerevisitedCambridge,andhisnamewasagreyghostoverthedoor。Thenthererecurredthevoiceofagentleshadowywoman,Mrs。Aberdeen,"Itdoesn’tseemhardlyright。"
Thosehadbeenherwords,heronlycomplaintagainstthemysteriesofchangeanddeath。Shebowedherheadandlabouredtomakeher"gentlemen"comfortable。Shewaslabouringstill。AshelayinbedheaskedGodtogranthimherwisdom;thathemightkeepsorrowwithinduebounds;thathemightabstainfromextremehatredandenvyofStephen。Itwasseldomthatheprayedsodefinitely,orventuredtoobtrudehisprivatewishes。Religionwastohimaservice,amysticcommunionwithgood;notameansofgettingwhathewantedontheearth。Buttonight,throughsuffering,hewashumbled,andbecamelikeMrs。Aberdeen。
Hourafterhourheawaitedsleepandtriedtoendurethefacesthatfrothedinthegloom——hisaunt’s,hisfather’s,and,worstofall,thetriumphantfaceofhisbrother。Oncehestruckatit,andawoke,havinghurthishandonthewall。Thenheprayedhystericallyforpardonandrest。
Yetagaindidheawake,andfromamoremysteriousdream。Heheardhismothercrying。Shewascryingquitedistinctlyinthedarkenedroom。Hewhispered,"Nevermind,mydarling,nevermind,"andavoiceechoed,"Nevermind——comeaway——letthemdieout——letthemdieout。"Helitacandle,andtheroomwasempty。Then,hurryingtothewindow,hesawabovemeanhousesthefrostygloriesofOrion。
Henceforwardhedeteriorates。Letthosewhocensurehimsuggestwhatheshoulddo。Hehaslosttheworkthatheloved,hisfriends,andhischild。Heremainedconscientiousanddecent,butthespiritualpartofhimproceededtowardsruin。
XXIV
Thecomingmonths,thoughfullofdegradationandanxiety,weretobringhimnothingsoterribleasthatnight。Itwasthecrisisofthisagony。Hewasanoutcastandafailure。Buthewasnotagainforcedtocontemplatethesefactssoclearly。Vardenleftinthemorning,carryingthefatalletterwithhim。Thewholehousewasrelieved。Thegoodangelwaswiththeboysagain,orelse(asHerbertpreferredtothink)theyhadlearntalesson,andweremorehumaneinconsequence。Atallevents,thedisastroustermconcludedquietly。
IntheChristmasholidaysthetwomastersmadeanabortiveattempttovisitItaly,andatEastertherewastalkofacruiseintheAegean。Herbertactuallywent,andenjoyedAthensandDelphi。TheElliotspaidafewvisitstogetherinEngland。TheyreturnedtoSawstonabouttendaysbeforeschoolopened,tofindthatWiddringtonwasagainstoppingwiththeJacksons。
Intercoursewaspainful,forthetwofamilieswerescarcelyonspeakingterms;nordidthetriumphantscaffoldingsofthenewboarding—housemakethingseasier。(Thepartyofprogresshadcarriedtheday。)Widdringtonwasbynaturetouchy,butonthisoccasionherefusedtotakeoffence,andoftendroppedintoseethem。Hismannerwasfriendlybutcritical。Theyagreedhewasanuisance。ThenAgnesleft,veryabruptly,toseeMrs。Failing,andwhileshewasawayRickiehadalittlestealthyintercourse。
Herabsence,convenientasitwas,puzzledhim。Mrs。Silt,halfgoose,halfstormy—petrel,hadrecentlypaidaflyingvisittoCadover,andthencehadflown,withoutaninvitation,toSawston。
Generallyshewasnotawelcomeguest。OnthisoccasionAgneshadwelcomedher,and——soRickiethought——hadmadeherpromisenottotellhimsomethingthatsheknew。Theladieshadtalkedmysteriously。"Mr。Siltwouldbeonewithyouthere,"saidMrs。
Silt。Couldtherebeanyconnectionbetweenthetwovisits?
Agnes’sletterstoldhimnothing:theyneverdid。Shewastooclumsyortoocautioustoexpressherselfonpaper。AdrivetoStonehenge;ananthemintheCathedral;AuntEmily’slove。AndwhenhemetheratWaterloohelearntnothing(iftherewasanythingtolearn)fromherface。
"Howdidyouenjoyyourself?"
"Thoroughly。"
"Wereyouandshealone?"
"Sometimes。Sometimesotherpeople。"
"WillUncleTony’sEssaysbepublished?"
Hereshewasmorecommunicative。Thebookwasatlastinproof。
AuntEmilyhadwrittenacharmingintroduction;butshewassoidle,sheneverfinishedthingsoff。
TheygotintoanomnibusfortheArmyandNavyStores:shewantedtodosomeshoppingbeforegoingdowntoSawston。
"DidyoureadanyoftheEssays?"
"Everyone。Delightful。Couldn’tputthemdown。Nowandthenhespoiltthembystatistics——butyoushouldreadhisdescriptionsofNature。Heagreeswithyou:saysthehillsandtreesarealive!AuntEmilycalledyouhisspiritualheir,whichIthoughtniceofher。Webothsolamentedthatyouhavestoppedwriting。"
ShequotedfragmentsoftheEssaysastheywentupintheStores’
lift。
"Whatelsedidyoutalkabout?"
"I’vetoldyouallmynews。Nowforyours。Let’shaveteafirst。"
Theysatdowninthecorridoramidladiesineverystageoffatigue——haggardladies,scarletladies,ladieswithparcelsthattwistedfromeveryfingerlikejointsofmeat。Gentlemenwerescarcer,butallwereofthesub—fashionabletype,towhichRickiehimselfnowbelonged。
"Ihaven’tdoneanything,"hesaidfeebly。"Ate,read,beenrudetotradespeople,talkedtoWiddrington。Herbertarrivedthismorning。HehasbroughtamostbeautifulphotographoftheParthenon。"
"Mr。Widdrington?"
"Yes。"
"Whatdidyoutalkabout?"
Shemighthaveheardeveryword。Itwasonlythefeelingofpleasurethathewishedtoconceal。Evenwhenwelovepeople,wedesiretokeepsomecornersecretfromthem,howeversmall:itisahumanright:itispersonality。Shebegantocross—questionhim,buttheywereinterrupted。Ayoungladyatanadjacenttablesuddenlyroseandcried,"Yes,itisyou。Ithoughtsofromyourwalk。"ItwasMaudAnsell。
"Oh,docomeandjoinus!"hecried。"Letmeintroducemywife。"
Maudbowedquitestiffly,butAgnes,takingitforill—breeding,wasnotoffended。
"ThenIwillcome!"shecontinuedinshrill,pleasanttones,adroitlypoisingherteathingsoneitherhand,andtransferringthemtotheElliots’table。"Whyhaven’tyouevercometous,pray?"
"Ithinkyoudidn’taskme!"
"Youweren’ttobeasked。"Shesprawledforwardwithawaggingfinger。Buthereyeshadthehonestyofherbrother’s。"Don’tyourememberthedayyouleftus?Fathersaid,’Now,Mr。Elliot——’Ordidhecallyou’Elliot’?Howonedoesforget。Anyhow,fathersaidyouweren’ttowaitforaninvitation,andyousaid,’No,Iwon’t。’Oursisafair—sizedhouse,"——sheturnedsomewhathaughtilytoAgnes,——"andthesecondspareroom,onaccountofaharpthathangsonthewall,isalwaysreservedforStewart’sfriends。"
"HowisMr。Ansell,yourbrother?"
Maud’sfacefell。"Hadn’tyouheard?"shesaidinawe—strucktones。
"No。"
"Hehasn’tgothisfellowship。It’sthesecondtimehe’sfailed。
Thatmeanshewillnevergetone。Hewillneverbeadon,norliveinCambridgeandthat,aswehadhoped。"
"Oh,poor,poorfellow!"saidMrs。Elliotwitharemorsethatwassincere,thoughhercongratulationswouldnothavebeen。"Iamsoverysorry。"
ButMaudturnedtoRickie。"Mr。Elliot,youmightknow。Tellme。
WhatiswrongwithStewart’sphilosophy?Whatoughthetoputin,ortoalter,soastosucceed?"
Agnes,whoknewbetterthanthis,smiled。
"Idon’tknow,"saidRickiesadly。Theywerenoneofthemsoclever,afterall。
"Hegel,"shecontinuedvindictively。"Theysayhe’sreadtoomuchHegel。Buttheynevertellhimwhattoreadinstead。Theirownstuffybooks,Isuppose。Lookhere——no,that’sthe’Windsor。’"
Afteralittlegropingsheproducedacopyof"Mind,"andhandeditroundasifitwasageologicalspecimen。"Insidethatthere’saparagraphwrittenaboutsomethingStewart’swrittenaboutbefore,andthereitsayshe’sreadtoomuchHegel,anditseemsnowthatthat’sbeenthetroubleallalong。"Hervoicetrembled。
"Icallitmostunfair,andthefellowship’sgonetoamanwhohascountedthepetalsonananemone。"
Rickiehadnoinclinationtosmile。
"IwishStewarthadtriedOxfordinstead。"
"Idon’twishit!"
"Yousaythat,"shecontinuedhotly,"andthenyounevercometoseehim,thoughyouknewyouwerenottowaitforaninvitation。"
"Ifitcomestothat,MissAnsell,"retortedRickie,inthelaughingtonesthatoneadoptsonsuchoccasions,"Stewartwon’tcometome,thoughhehashadaninvitation。"
"Yes,"chimedinAgnes,"weaskMr。Ansellagainandagain,andhewillhavenoneofus。"
Maudlookedatherwithaflashingeye。"Mybrotherisaverypeculiarperson,andweladiescan’tunderstandhim。ButIknowonething,andthat’sthathehasareasonallroundforwhathedoes。Lookhere,Imustbegettingon。Waiter!Wai—ai—aiter!
Bill,please。Separately,ofcourse。CalltheArmyandNavycheap!Iknowbetter!"
"Howdoesthedraperydepartmentcompare?"saidAgnessweetly。
Thegirlgaveasharpchokingsound,gatheredupherparcels,andleftthem。Rickiewastoomuchdisgustedwithhiswifetospeak。
"Appallingperson!"shegasped。"Itwasnaughtyofme,butI
couldn’thelpit。Whatadreadfulfateforacleverman!Tofailinlifecompletely,andthentobethrownbackonafamilylikethat!"
"MaudisasnobandaPhilistine。But,inhercase,somethingemerges。"
Sheglancedathim,butproceededinhersuavesttones,"DoletusmakeonegreatunitedattempttogetMr。AnselltoSawston。"
"No。"
"Whatachangeablefriendyouare!Whenwewereengagedyouwerealwaystalkingabouthim。"
"Wouldyoufinishyourtea,andthenwewillbuythelinoleumforthecubicles。"
Butshereturnedtothesubjectagain,notonlyonthatdaybutthroughouttheterm。CouldnothingbedoneforpoorMr。Ansell?
Itseemedthatshecouldnotrestuntilallthathehadoncehelddearwashumiliated。Inthisshestrayedoutsidehernature:shewasunpractica1。Andthosewhostrayoutsidetheirnatureinvitedisaster。Rickie,goadedbyher,wrotetohisfriendagain。Theletterwasinallwaysunlikehisoldself。Anselldidnotanswerit。ButhedidwritetoMr。Jackson,withwhomhewasnotacquainted。
"DearMr。Jackson,——
IunderstandfromWiddringtonthatyouhavealargehouse。I
wouldliketotellyouhowconvenientitwouldbeformetocomeandstopinit。Junesuitsmebest。——
Yourstruly,StewartAnsellTowhichMr。JacksonrepliedthatnotonlyinJunebutduringthewholeyearhishousewasatthedisposalofMr。Ansellandofanyonewhoresembledhim。
ButAgnescontinuedherlife,cheerfullybeatingtime。She,too,knewthathermarriagewasafailure,andinhersparemomentsregrettedit。Shewishedthatherhusbandwashandsomer,moresuccessful,moredictatorial。Butshewouldthink,"No,no;onemustn’tgrumble。Itcan’tbehelped。"Ansellwaswronginsup—
posingshemighteverleaveRickie。Spiritualapathypreventedher。Norwouldsheeverbetemptedbyajollierman。Herecriticismwouldwillinglyalteritstone。ForAgnesalsohashertragedy。Shebelongedtothetype——notnecessarilyanelevatedone——thatlovesonceandonceonly。HerloveforGeraldhadnotbeenanoblepassion:noimaginationtransfiguredit。Butsuchasitwas,itsprangtoembracehim,andhecarrieditawaywithhimwhenhedied。Lesamoursguisuivrentsontmoinsinvoluntaires:
byaneffortofthewillshehadwarmedherselfforRickie。
Sheisnotconsciousofhertragedy,andthereforeonlythegodsneedweepatit。Butitisfairtorememberthathithertoshemovesasonefromwhomtheinnerlifehasbeenwithdrawn。
XXV
"Iamafraid,"saidAgnes,unfoldingaletterthatshehadreceivedinthemorning,"thatthingsgofarfromsatisfactorilyatCadover。"
Thethreewerealoneatsupper。ItwastheJuneofRickie’ssecondyearatSawston。
"Indeed?"saidHerbert,whotookafriendlyinterest。"Inwhatway?
"DoyourememberustalkingofStephen——StephenWonham,whobyanoddcoincidence——"
"Yes。WhowrotelastyeartothatmiserablefailureVarden。I
do。"
"Itisabouthim。"
"Ididnotlikethetoneofhisletter。"
Agneshadmadeherfirstmove。Shewaitedforherhusbandtoreplytoit。Buthe,thoughfullofapainfulcuriosity,wouldnotspeak。Shemovedagain。
"Idon’tthink,Herbert,thatAuntEmily,muchasIlikeher,isthekindofpersontobringayoungmanup。Atalleventstheresultshavebeendisastrousthistime。"
"Whathashappened?"
"Atangleofthings。"Sheloweredhervoice。"Drink。"
"Dear!Really!WasMrs。Failingfondofhim?"
"Sheusedtobe。ShelethimliveatCadovereversincehewasalittleboy。Naturallythatcannotcontinue。"
Rickieneverspoke。
"Andnowhehastakentobeviolentandrude,"shewenton。
"Inshort,abeggaronhorseback。Whoishe?Hashegotrelatives?"
"Shehasalwaysbeenbothfatherandmothertohim。Nowitmustallcometoanend。Iblameher——andsheblamesherself——fornotbeingsevereenough。Hehasgrownupwithoutfixedprinciples。Hehasalwaysfollowedhisinclinations,andoneknowstheresultofthat"
Herbertassented。"TomeMrs。Failing’scourseisperfectlyplain。Shehasacertainresponsibility。Shemustpaytheyouth’spassagetooneofthecolonies,starthimhandsomelyinsomebusiness,andthenbreakoffallcommunications。"
"Howfunny!Itisexactlywhatsheisgoingtodo。"
"Ishallthenconsiderthatshehasbehavedinathoroughlyhonourablemanner。"Heheldouthisplateforgooseberries。"HislettertoVardenwasneitherhelpfulnorsympathetic,and,ifwrittenatall,itoughttohavebeenboth。Iamnotintheleastsurprisedtolearnthathehasturnedoutbadly。Whenyouwritenext,wouldyoutellherhowsorryIam?"
"IndeedIwill。Twoyearsago,whenshewasalreadyalittleanxious,shedidsowishyoucouldundertakehim。
"Icouldnotalteragrownman。"Butinhishearthethoughthecould,andsmiledathissisteramiably。"Terrible,isn’tit?"heremarkedtoRickie。Rickie,whowastryingnottomindanything,assented。Andanonlookerwouldhavesupposedthemadispassionatetrio,whoweresorrybothforMrs。Failingandforthebeggarwhowouldbestrideherhorses’backsnolonger。AnewtopicwasintroducedbythearrivaloftheeveningpostHerberttookupalltheletters,asheoftendid。
"Jackson?"heexclaimed。"Whatdoesthefellowwant?"Heread,andhistonewasmollified,"’DearMr。Pembroke,——Couldyou,Mrs。
Elliot,andMr。ElliotcometosupperwithusonSaturdaynext?I
shouldnotmerelybepleased,Ishouldbegrateful。MywifeiswritingformallytoMrs。Elliot’——(Here,Agnes,takeyourletter),——butIventuretowriteaswell,andtoaddmymoreuncouthentreaties。’——Anolive—branch。Itistime!But(ridiculousperson!)doeshethinkthatwecanleavetheHousedesertedandallgooutpleasuringintermtime?——Rickie,aletterforyou。"
"Mine’stheformalinvitation,"saidAgnes。"Howveryodd!Mr。
Ansellwillbethere。Surelyweaskedhimhere!DidyouknowheknewtheJacksons?"
"Thismakesrefusalverydifficult,"saidHerbert,whowasanxioustoaccept。"Atallevents,Rickieoughttogo。"
"Idonotwanttogo,"saidRickie,slowlyopeninghisownletter。"AsAgnessays,Ansellhasrefusedtocometous。I
cannotputmyselfoutforhim。"
"Who’syoursfrom?"shedemanded。
"Mrs。Silt,"repliedHerbert,whohadseenthehandwriting。
"Itrustshedoesnotwanttopayusavisitthisterm,withtheexaminationsimpendingandallthemachineryatfullpressure。
Though,Rickie,youwillhavetoaccepttheJacksons’
invitation。"
"Icannotpossiblygo。Ihavebeentoorude;withWiddringtonwealwaysmeethere。I’llstopwiththeboys——"Hisvoicecaughtsuddenly。HehadopenedMrs。Silt’sletter。
"TheSiltsarenotill,Ihope?"
"No。But,Isay,"——helookedathiswife,——"Idothinkthisisgoingtoofar。Really,Agnes。"
"Whathashappened?"
"Itisgoingtoofar,"herepeated。Hewasnervinghimselfforanotherbattle。"Icannotstandthissortofthing。Therearelimits。"
Helaidtheletterdown。ItwasHerbertwhopickeditup,andread:"AuntEmilyhasjustwrittentous。Wearesogladthathertroublesareover,inspiteoftheexpense。Itneverdoestoliveapartfromone’sownrelativessomuchasshehasdoneuptonow。
HegoesnextSaturdaytoCanada。Whatyoutoldherabouthimjustturnedthescale。Shehasaskedus——"
"No,it’stoomuch,"heinterrupted。"WhatItoldher——toldherabouthim——no,Iwillhaveitoutatlast。Agnes!"
"Yes?"saidhiswife,raisinghereyesfromMrs。Jackson’sformalinvitation。
"It’syou——it’syou。Inevermentionedhimtoher。Why,I’veneverseenherorwrittentohersince。Iaccuseyou。"
ThenHerbertoverborehim,andhecollapsed。Hewasaskedwhathemeant。Whywashesoexcited?Ofwhatdidheaccusehiswife。
Eachtimehespokemorefeebly,andbeforelongthebrotherandsisterwerelaughingathim。Hefeltbewildered,likeaboywhoknowsthatheisrightbutcannotputhiscasecorrectly。Herepeated,"I’venevermentionedhimtoher。It’salibel。Neverinmylife。"Andtheycried,"MydearRickie,whatanabsurdfuss!"Thenhisbraincleared。Hiseyefellontheletterthathiswifehadreceivedfromhisaunt,andhereopenedthebattle。
"Agnes,givemethatletter,ifyouplease。"
"Mrs。Jackson’s?"
"Myaunt’s。"
Sheputherhandonit,andlookedathimdoubtfully。Shesawthatshehadfailedtobullyhim。
"Myaunt’sletter,"herepeated,risingtohisfeetandbendingoverthetabletowardsher。
"Why,dear?"
"Yes,whyindeed?"echoedHerbert。HetoohadbulliedRickie,butfromapurermotive:hehadtriedtostampoutadissensionbetweenhusbandandwife。Itwasnotthefirsttimehehadintervened。
"Theletter。Forthisreason:itwillshowmewhatyouhavedone。
IbelieveyouhaveruinedStephen。youhaveworkedatitfortwoyears。Youhaveputwordsintomymouthto’turnthescale’
againsthim。HegoestoCanada——andalltheworldthinksitisowingtome。AsIsaidbefore——Iadviseyoutostopsmiling——youhavegonealittletoofar。"
Theywereallontheirfeetnow,standingroundthelittletable。
Agnessaidnothing,butthefingersofherdelicatehandtightenedupontheletter。Whenherhusbandsnatchedatitsheresisted,andwiththeeffectofaharlequinadeeverythingwentonthefloor——lamb,mintsauce,gooseberries,lemonade,whisky。
Atoncetheywereswampedindomesticities。Sherangthebellfortheservant,criesarose,dusterswerebrought,brokencrockery(aweddingpresent)pickedupfromthecarpet;whilehestoodwrathfullyatthewindow,regardingtheobscuredsun’sdecline。
"IMUSTseeherletter,"herepeated,whentheagitationwasover。Hewastooangrytobedivertedfromhispurpose。Onlyslightemotionsarethwartedbyaninterludeoffarce。
"I’vehadenoughofthisquarrelling,"sheretorted。"YouknowthattheSiltsareinaccurate。Ithinkyoumighthavegivenmethebenefitofthedoubt。Ifyouwillknow——haveyouforgottenthatrideyoutookwithhim。?"
"I——"hewasagainbewildered。"TheridewhereIdreamt——"
"Theridewhereyouturnedbackbecauseyoucouldnotlistentoadisgracefulpoem?"
"Idon’tunderstand。"
"ThepoemwasAuntEmily。Hereadittoyouandastraysoldier。
Afterwardsyoutoldme。Yousaid,’Reallyitisshocking,hisingratitude。Sheoughttoknowaboutit’Shedoesknow,andI
shouldbegladofanapology。"
Hehadsaidsomethingofthesortinafitofirritation。Mrs。
Siltwasright——hehadhelpedtoturnthescale。
"WhateverIsaid,youknewwhatImeant。YouknewI’dsoonercutmytongueoutthanhaveitusedagainsthim。Eventhen。"Hesighed。Hadheruinedhisbrother?Acurioustendernesscameoverhim,andpassedwhenherememberedhisowndeadchild。"Wehaveruinedhim,then。Haveyouanyobjectionto’we’?Wehavedisinheritedhim。"
"Idecideagainstyou,"interposedHerbert。"Ihavenowheardbothsidesofthisdeplorableaffair。Youaretalkingmostcriminalnonsense。’Disinherit!’Sentimentaltwaddle。It’sbeencleartomefromthefirstthatMrs。FailinghasbeenimposeduponbytheWonhamman,apersonwithnolegalclaimonher,andanyonewhoexposeshimperformsapublicduty——"
"——Andgetsmoney。"
"Money?"Hewasalwaysuneasyattheword。"Whomentionedmoney?"
"Justunderstandme,Herbert,andofwhatitisthatIaccusemywife。"Tearscameintohiseyes。"ItisnotthatIliketheWonhamman,orthinkthatheisn’tadrunkardandworse。He’stooawfulineveryway。Butheoughttohavemyaunt’smoney,becausehe’slivedallhislifewithher,andishernephewasmuchasI
am。Yousee,myfatherwentwrong。"Hestopped,amazedathimself。Howeasyithadbeentosay!Hewaswitheringup:thepowertocareaboutthisstupidsecrethaddied。
WhenHerbertunderstood,hisfirstthoughtwasforDunwoodHouse。
"WhyhaveIneverbeentold?"washisfirstremark。
"Wesettledtotellnoone,"saidAgnes。"Rickie,inhisanxietytoprovemealiar,hasbrokenhispromise。"
"Ioughttohavebeentold,"saidHerbert,hisangerincreasing。
"HadIknown,Icouldhaveavertedthisdeplorablescene。"
"Letmeconcludeit,"saidRickie,againcollapsingandleavingthedining—room。HisimpulsewastogostraighttoCadoverandmakeabusiness—likestatementofthepositiontoStephen。Thenthemanwouldbearmed,andperhapsfightthetwowomensuccessfully,Butheresistedtheimpulse。Whyshouldhehelponepowerofevilagainstanother?Letthemgointertwinedtodestruction。Toenrichhisbrotherwouldbeasbadasenrichinghimself。Iftheiraunt’smoneyeverdidcometohim,hewouldrefusetoacceptit。Thatwastheeasiestandmostdignifiedcourse。Hetroubledhimselfnolongerwithjusticeorpity,andthenextdayheaskedhiswife’spardonforhisbehaviour。
Inthedining—roomtheconversationcontinued。Agnes,withoutmuchdifficulty,gainedherbrotherasanally。Sheacknowledgedthatshehadbeenwronginnottellinghim,andhethendeclaredthatshehadbeenrightoneveryotherpoint。Sheslurredalittleovertheincidentofhertreachery,forHerbertwassometimesclearsightedoverdetails,thougheasilymuddledinageneralsurvey。Mrs。Failinghadhadplentyofdirectcausesofcomplaint,andshedweltonthese。Shedealt,too,ontheveryhandsomewayinwhichtheyoungman,"thoughheknewnothing,hadneveraskedtoknow,"wasbeingtreatedbyhisaunt。
"’Handsome’istheword,"saidHerbert。"Ihopenotindulgently。
Hedoesnotdeserveindulgence。"
Andsheknewthathe,likeherself,couldremembermoney,andthatitlentanacknowledgedhalotohercause。
"Itisnotasavourysubject,"hecontinued,withsuddenstiffness。"IunderstandwhyRickieissohysterical。
Myimpulse"——helaidhishandonhershoulder——"istoabandonitatonce。ButifIamtobeofanyusetoyou,Imusthearitall。
Therearemomentswhenwemustlookfactsintheface。"
Shedidnotshrinkfromthesubjectasmuchashethought,asmuchassheherselfcouldhavewished。Twoyearsbefore,ithadfilledherwithaphysicalloathing。Butbynowshehadaccustomedherselftoit。
"Iamafraid,Bertieboy,thereisnothingelsetobear,Ihavetriedtofindoutagainandagain,butAuntEmilywillnottellme。Isupposeitisnatural。ShewantstoshieldtheElliotname。
Sheonlytoldusinafitoftemper;thenweallagreedtokeepittoourselves;thenRickieagainmismanagedher,andeversinceshehasrefusedtoletusknowanydetails。"
"Amostunsatisfactoryposition。"
"SoIfeel。"Shesatdownagainwithasigh。Mrs。Failinghadbeenagreattrialtoherorderlymind。"Sheisanoddwoman。Sheisalwayslaughing。Sheactuallyfindsitamusingthatweknownomore。"
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