Thesilencewasbrokenbythesoundoffeetonthegravel。Agnessaidhastily,"Isthatreallytrue——thatheknowsnothing?"
"You,Rickie,andIaretheonlypeoplealivethatknow。Herealizeswhatheis——withaprecisionthatissometimesalarming。
Whoheis,hedoesn’tknowanddoesn’tcare。IsupposehewouldknowwhenI’mdead。Therearepapers。"
"AuntEmily,beforehecomes,mayIsaytoyouI’msorryIwassorude?"
Mrs。Failinghadnotdislikedhercourage。"Mydear,youmay。
We’realloffourhingesthisSunday。Sitdownbymeagain。"
Agnesobeyed,andtheyawaitedthearrivalofStephen。Theywerecleverenoughtounderstandeachother。Thethingmustbehushedup。Thematronmustrepairtheconsequencesofherpetulance。Thegirlmusthidethestaininherfuturehusband’sfamily。Whynot?
Whowasinjured?Whatdoesagrown—upmanwantwithagrownbrother?Rickieupstairs,howgratefulhewouldbetothemforsavinghim。
"Stephen!"
"Yes。"
"I’mtiredofyou。Goandbatheinthesea。"
"Allright。"
Andthewholethingwassettled。Shelikednofuss,andsodidhe。Hesatdownonthesteptotightenhisbootlaces。Thenhewouldbeready。Mrs。Failinglaidtwoorthreesovereignsonthestepabovehim。Agnestriedtomakeconversation,andsaid,withavertedeyes,thattheseawasalongwayoff。
"Thesea’sdownhill。That’sallIknowaboutit。"Hesweptupthemoneywithawordofpleasure:hewaskeptlikeababyinsuchthings。Thenhestartedoff,butslowly,forhemeanttowalktillthemorning。
"Hewillbegonedays,"saidMrs。Failing。"Thecomedyisfinished。Letuscomein。"
Shewenttoherroom。Thestormthatshehadraisedhadshatteredher。Yet,becauseitwasstilledforamoment,sheresumedheroldemancipatedmanner,andspokeofitasacomedy。
AsforMissPembroke,shepretendedtobeemancipatednolonger。
Peoplelike"StephenWonham"weresocialthunderbolts,tobeshunnedatallcosts,oratalmostallcosts。Herjoywasnowunfeigned,andshehurriedupstairstoimpartittoRickie。
"Idon’tthinkwearerewardedifwedoright,butwearepunishedifwelie。It’sthefashiontolaughatpoeticjustice,butIdobelieveinhalfofit。Castbitterbreaduponthewaters,andaftermanydaysitreallywillcomebacktoyou。"
ThesewerethewordsofMr。Failing。TheywerealsotheopinionsofStewartAnsell,anotherunpracticalperson。Rickiewastryingtowritetohimwhensheenteredwiththegoodnews。
"Dear,we’resaved!Hedoesn’tknow,andheneveristoknow。I
can’ttellyouhowgladIam。Allthetimewesawthemstandingtogetherupthere,shewasn’ttellinghimatall。Shewaskeepinghimoutoftheway,incaseyouletitout。Oh,Ilikeher!Shemaybeunwise,butsheisnice,really。Shesaid,’I’vebeenafoolbutIhaven’tbeenafooltwice。’Youmustforgiveher,Rickie。I’veforgivenher,andsheme;foratfirstIwassoangrywithher。Oh,mydarlingboy,Iamsoglad!"
Hewasshiveringallover,andcouldnotreply。Atlasthesaid,"Whyhasn’tshetoldhim?"
"Becauseshehascometohersenses。"
"Butshecan’tbehavetopeoplelikethat。Shemusttellhim。"
"Becausehemustbetoldsucharealthing。"
"Sucharealthing?"thegirlechoed,screwingupherforehead。
"But——butyoudon’tmeanyou’regladaboutit?"
Hisheadbowedovertheletter。"MyGod——no!Butit’sarealthing。Shemusttellhim。Inearlytoldhimmyself——upthere——
whenhemademelookattheground,butyouhappenedtopreventme。"
HowProvidencehadwatchedoverthem!
"Shewon’ttellhim。Iknowthatmuch。"
"Then,Agnes,darling"——hedrewhertothetable"wemusttalktogetheralittle。Ifshewon’t,thenweoughtto。"
"WEtellhim?"criedthegirl,whitewithhorror。"Tellhimnow,wheneverythinghasbeencomfortablyarranged?"
"Yousee,darling"——hetookholdofherhand——"whatonemustdoistothinkthethingoutandsettlewhat’sright,I’mstillalltremblingandstupid。Iseeitmixedupwithotherthings。Iwantyoutohelpme。Itseemstomethathereandthereinlifewemeetwithapersonorincidentthatissymbolical。It’snothinginitself,yetforthemomentitstandsforsomeeternalprinciple。Weacceptit,atwhatevercosts,andwehaveacceptedlife。Butifwearefrightenedandrejectit,themoment,sotospeak,passes;thesymbolisneverofferedagain。Isthisnonsense?Oncebeforeasymbolwasofferedtome——Ishallnottellyouhow;butIdidacceptit,andcherisheditthroughmuchanxietyandrepulsion,andintheendIamrewarded。Therewillbenorewardthistime。Ithink,fromsuchaman——thesonofsuchaman。ButIwanttodowhatisright。"
"Becausedoingrightisitsownreward,"saidAgnesanxiously。
"Idonotthinkthat。Ihaveseenfewexamplesofit。Doingrightissimplydoingright。"
"Ithinkthatallyousayiswonderfullyclever;butsinceyouaskme,itISnonsense,dearRickie,absolutely。"
"Thankyou,"hesaidhumbly,andbegantostrokeherhand。"Butallmydisgust;myindignationwithmyfather,mylovefor——"Hebrokeoff;hecouldnotbeartomentionthenameofhismother。
"Iwastryingtosay,Ioughtn’ttofollowtheseimpulsestoomuch。Thereareothersthings。Truth。Ourdutytoacknowledgeeachmanaccurately,howevervileheis。Andapartfromideals"
(hereshehadwonthebattle),"andleavingidealsaside,I
couldn’tmeethimandkeepsilent。Itisn’tinme。Ishouldblurtitout。"
"Butyouwon’tmeethim!"shecried。"It’sallbeenarranged。
We’vesenthimtothesea。Isn’titsplendid?He’sgone。Myownboywon’tbefantastic,willhe?"Thenshefoughtthefantasyonitsownground。"And,byethebye,whatyoucallthe’symbolicmoment’isover。YouhaditupbytheRings。Youtriedtotellhim,Iinterruptedyou。It’snotyourfault。Youdidallyoucould。"
Shethoughtthisexcellentlogic,andwassurprisedthathelookedsogloomy。"Sohe’sgonetothesea。Forthepresentthatdoessettleit。HasAuntEmilytalkedabouthimyet?"
"No。Askhertomorrowifyouwishtoknow。Askherkindly。Itwouldbesodreadfulifyoudidnotpartfriends,and——"
"What’sthat?"
ItwasStephencallingupfromthedrive。Hehadcomeback。Agnesthrewoutherhandindespair。
"Elliot!"thevoicecalled。
Theywerefacingeachother,silentandmotionless。ThenRickieadvancedtothewindow。Thegirldartedinfrontofhim。Hethoughthehadneverseenhersobeautiful。Shewasstoppinghisadvancequitefrankly,withwidespreadarms。
"Elliot!"
Hemovedforward——intowhat?Hepretendedtohimselfhewouldratherseehisbrotherbeforeheanswered;thatitwaseasiertoacknowledgehimthus。Butatthebackofhissoulheknewthatthewomanhadconquered,andthathewasmovingforwardtoacknowledgeher。"Ifhecallsmeagain——"hethought。
"Elliot!"
"Well,ifhecallsmeonceagain,Iwillanswerhim,vileasheis。"
Hedidnotcallagain。
Stephenhadreallycomebackforsometobacco,butashepassedunderthewindowshethoughtofthepoorfellowwhohadbeen"nipped"(nothingserious,saidMrs。Failing),anddeterminedtoshoutgood—byetohim。Andonceortwice,ashefollowedtheriverintothedarkness,hewonderedwhatitwasliketobesoweak,——nottoride,nottoswim,nottocareforanythingbutbooksandagirl。
Theyembracedpassionately。Thedangerhadbroughtthemveryneartoeachother。Theybothneededahometoconfrontthemenacingtumultuousworld。Andwhatwearyyearsofwork,ofwaiting,laybetweenthemandthathome!Stillholdingherfast,hesaid,"I
waswritingtoAnsellwhenyoucamein。"
"Doyouowehimaletter?"
"No。"Hepaused。"Iwaswritingtotellhimaboutthis。Hewouldhelpus。Healwayspicksouttheimportantpoint。"
"Darling,Idon’tliketosayanything,andIknowthatMr。
Ansellwouldkeepasecret,buthaven’twepickedouttheimportantpointforourselves?"
Hereleasedherandtoretheletterup。
XV
Thesenseofpurityisapuzzlingandattimesafearfulthing。
Itseemssonoble,anditstartsasonewithmorality。Butitisadangerousguide,andcanleadusawaynotonlyfromwhatisgracious,butalsofromwhatisgood。Agnes,inthistangle,hadfolloweditblindly,partlybecauseshewasawoman,anditmeantmoretoherthanitcanevermeantoaman;partlybecause,thoughdangerous,itisalsoobvious,andmakesnodemandupontheintellect。ShecouldnotfeelthatStephenhadfullhumanrights。Hewasillicit,abnormal,worsethanamandiseased。AndRickierememberingwhosesonhewas,graduallyadoptedheropinion。He,too,cametobegladthathisbrotherhadpassedfromhimuntried,thatthesymbolicmomenthadbeenrejected。
Stephenwasthefruitofsin;thereforehewassinful,He,too,becameasexualsnob。
Andnowhemustheartheunsavourydetails。Thateveningtheysatinthewalledgarden。Agues,accordingtoarrangement,lefthimalonewithhisaunt。Heaskedher,andwasnotanswered。
"Youareshocked,"shesaidinahard,mockingvoice,"Itisveryniceofyoutobeshocked,andIdonotwishtogrieveyoufurther。Wewillnotalludetoitagain。Letusallgoonjustasweare。Thecomedyisfinished。"
Hecouldnottoleratethis。Hisnerveswereshattered,andallthatwasgoodinhimrevoltedaswell。TothehorrorofAgnes,whowaswithinearshot,hereplied,"Youusedtopuzzleme,AuntEmily,butIunderstandyouatlast。Youhaveforgottenwhatotherpeoplearelike。Continualselfishnessleadstothat。Iamsureofit。Iseenowhowyoulookattheworld。’Niceofmetobeshocked!’Iwanttogotomorrow,ifImay。"
"Certainly,dear。Themorningtrainsarethebest。"Andsothedisastrousvisitended。
Ashewalkedbacktothehousehemetacertainpoorwoman,whosechildStephenhadrescuedatthelevel—crossing,andwhohaddecided,aftersomedelay,thatshemustthankthekindgentlemaninperson。"Hehasgotsomebrutecourage,"thoughtRickie,"anditwasdecentofhimnottoboastaboutit。"Buthehadlabelledtheboyas"Bad,"anditwasconvenienttoreverttohisgoodqualitiesasseldomaspossible。Hepreferredtobroodoverhiscoarseness,hiscaddishingratitude,hisirreligion。Outoftheseheconstructedarepulsivefigure,forgettinghowslovenlyhisownperceptionshadbeenduringthepastweek,howdogmaticandintoleranthisattitudetoallthatwasnotLove。
DuringthepackinghewasobligedtogouptotheattictofindtheDryadmanuscriptwhichhadneverbeenreturned。Leightoncametoo,andforabouthalfanhourtheyhuntedintheflickeringlightofacandle。Itwasastrange,ghostlyplace,andRickiewasquitestartledwhenapictureswungtowardshim,andhesawtheDemeterofCnidus,shimmeringandgrey。Leightonsuggestedtheroof。Mr。Stephensometimesleftthingsontheroof。Sotheyclimbedoutoftheskylight——thenightwasperfectlystill——andcontinuedthesearchamongthegables。Enormousstarshungoverhead,andtheroofwasboundedbychasms,impenetrableandblack。"Itdoesn’tmatter,"saidRickie,suddenlyconvincedofthefutilityofallthathedid。"Oh,letuslookproperly,"saidLeighton,akindly,pliableman,whohadtriedtoshirkcoming,butwhowasgenuinelysympatheticnowthathehadcome。Theywererewarded:themanuscriptlayinagutter,charredandsmudged。
TherestoftheyearwasspentbyRickiepartlyinbed,——hehadacuriousbreakdown,——partlyintheattempttogethislittlestoriespublished。Hehadwritteneightornine,andhopedtheywouldmakeupabook,andthatthebookmightbecalled"PanPipes。"Hewasveryenergeticoverthis;helikedtowork,forsomeimperceptiblebloomhadpassedfromtheworld,andhenolongerfoundsuchacutepleasureinpeople。Mrs。Failing’soldpublishers,towhomthebookwassubmitted,repliedthat,greatlyastheyfoundthemselvesinterested,theydidnotseetheirwaytomakinganofferatpresent。Theywereverypolite,andsingledoutforspecialpraise"AndantePastorale,"whichRickiehadthoughttoosentimental,butwhichAgneshadpersuadedhimtoinclude。Thestoriesweresenttoanotherpublisher,whoconsideredthemforsixweeks,andthenreturnedthem。Afragmentofredcotton,PlacedbyAgnesbetweentheleaves,hadnotshifteditsposition。
"Can’tyoutrysomethinglonger,Rickie?"shesaid;
"Ibelievewe’reonthewrongtrack。Tryanout——and——outlove—story。"
"Mynotionjustnow,"hereplied,"istoleavethepassionsonthefringe。"Shenodded,andtappedforthewaiter:theyhadmetinaLondonrestaurant。"Ican’tsoar;Icanonlyindicate。
That’swherethemusicianshavethepull,formusichaswings,andwhenshesays’Tristan’andhesays’Isolde,’youareontheheightsatonce。Whatdopeoplemeanwhentheycalllovemusicartificial?"
"Iknowwhattheymean,thoughIcan’texactlyexplain。Orcouldn’tyoumakeyourstoriesmoreobvious?Idon’tseeanyharminthat。UncleWillieflounderedhopelessly。Hedoesn’treadmuch,andhegotmuddled。Ihadtoexplain,andthenhewasdelighted。Ofcourse,towritedowntothepublicwouldbequiteanotherthingandhorrible。Youhavecertainideas,andyoumustexpressthem。Butcouldn’tyouexpressthemmoreclearly?"
"Yousee——"Hegotnofurtherthan"yousee。"
"Thesoulandthebody。Thesoul’swhatmatters,"saidAgnes,andtappedforthewaiteragain。Helookedatheradmiringly,butfeltthatshewasnotaperfectcritic。Perhapsshewastooperfecttobeacritic。Actuallifemightseemtohersorealthatshecouldnotdetecttheunionofshadowandadamantthatmencallpoetry。Hewouldevengofurtherandacknowledgethatshewasnotascleverashimself——andhewasstupidenough!Shedidnotlikediscussinganythingorreadingsolidbooks,andshewasalittleangrywithsuchwomenasdid。Itpleasedhimtomaketheseconcessions,fortheytouchednothinginherthathevalued。Helookedroundtherestaurant,whichwasinSohoanddecidedthatshewasincomparable。
"Athalf—pasttwoIcallontheeditorofthe’Holborn。’He’sgotastraystorytolookat,andhe’swrittenaboutit。"
"Oh,Rickie!Rickie!Whydidn’tyouputonaboiledshirt!"
Helaughed,andteasedher。"’Thesoul’swhatmatters。Weliterarypeopledon’tcareaboutdress。"
"Well,yououghttocare。AndIbelieveyoudo。Can’tyouchange?"
"Toofar。"HehadroomsinSouthKensington。"AndI’veforgotmycard—case。There’sforyou!"
Sheshookherhead。"Naughty,naughtyboy!Whateverwillyoudo?"
"Sendinmyname,oraskforabitofpaperandwriteit。Hullo!
that’sTilliard!"
Tilliardblushed,partlyonaccountofthefauxpashehadmadelastJune,partlyonaccountoftherestaurant。HeexplainedhowhecametobepigginginSoho:itwassofrightfullyconvenientandsofrightfullycheap。
"JustwhyRickiebringsme,"saidMissPembroke。
"AndIsupposeyou’reheretostudylife?"saidTilliard,sittingdown。
"Idon’tknow,"saidRickie,gazingroundatthewaitersandtheguests。
"Doesn’tonewanttoseeagooddealoflifeforwriting?There’slifeofasortinSoho,——Unpeudefaisan,s’ilvowsplait。"
Agnesalsograbbedatthewaiter,andpaid。Shealwaysdidthepaying,Rickiemuddledwithhispurse。
"I’mcramming,"pursuedTilliard,"andsonaturallyIcomeintocontactwithverylittleatpresent。ButlateronIhopetoseethings。"Heblushedalittle,forhewastalkingforRickie’sedification。"Itismostfrightfullyimportantnottogetanarroworacademicoutlook,don’tyouthink?ApersonlikeAnsell,whogoesfromCambridge,home——home,Cambridge——itmusttellonhimintime。"
"ButMr。Ansellisaphilosopher。"
"Averykinkyone,"saidTilliardabruptly。"Notmyideaofaphilosopher。Howgoeshisdissertation?"
"Heneveranswersmyletters,"repliedRickie。"Heneverwould。
I’veheardnothingsinceJune。"
"It’sapityhesendsinthisyear。Therearesomanygoodpeoplein。He’dhaveafarbetterchanceifhewaited。"
"SoIsaid,buthewouldn’twait。He’ssokeenaboutthisparticularsubject。"
"Whatisit?"askedAgnes。
"Aboutthingsbeingreal,wasn’tit,Tilliard?"
"That’snearenough。"
"Well,goodlucktohim!"saidthegirl。"Andgoodlucktoyou,Mr。Tilliard!Lateron,Ihope,we’llmeetagain。"
Theyparted。Tilliardlikedher,thoughhedidnotfeelthatshewasquiteinhiscouchesociale。Hissister,forinstance,wouldneverhavebeenluredintoaSohorestaurant——exceptfortheexperienceofthething。Tilliard’scouchesocialepermittedexperiences。Providedhisheartdidnotgoouttothepoorandtheunorthodox,hemightstareatthemasmuchasheliked。Itwasseeinglife。
AgnesputherloversafelyintoanomnibusatCambridgeCircus。
Sheshoutedafterhimthathistiewasrisingoverhiscollar,buthedidnothearher。Foramomentshefeltdepressed,andpicturedquiteaccuratelytheeffectthathisappearancewouldhaveontheeditor。Theeditorwasatallneatmanofforty,slowofspeech,slowofsoul,andextraordinarilykind。HeandRickiesatoverafire,withanenormoustablebehindthemwhereonstoodmanybookswaitingtobereviewed。
"I’msorry,"hesaid,andpaused。
Rickiesmiledfeebly。
"Yourstorydoesnotconvince。"Hetappedit。"Ihavereaditwithverygreatpleasure。Itconvincesinparts,butitdoesnotconvinceasawhole;andstories,don’tyouthink,oughttoconvinceasawhole?"
"Theyoughtindeed,"saidRickie,andplungedintoself—depreciation。Buttheeditorcheckedhim。
"No——no。Pleasedon’ttalklikethat。Ican’tbeartohearanyonetalkagainstimagination。Therearecountlessopeningsforimagination,——forthemysterious,forthesupernatural,forallthethingsyouaretryingtodo,andwhich,Ihope,youwillsucceedindoing。I’mnotOBJECTINGtoimagination;onthecontrary,I’dadviseyoutocultivateit,toaccentit。Writeareallygoodghoststoryandwe’dtakeitatonce。Or"——hesuggesteditasanalternativetoimagination——"oryoumightgetinsidelife。It’sworthdoing。"
"Life?"echoedRickieanxiously。
Helookedroundthepleasantroom,asiflifemightbeflutteringtherelikeanimprisonedbird。Thenhelookedattheeditor:
perhapshewassittinginsidelifeatthisverymoment。
"Seelife,Mr。Elliot,andthensendusanotherstory。"Heheldouthishand。"IamsorryIhavetosay’No,thankyou’;it’ssomuchnicertosay,’Yes,please。’"Helaidhishandontheyoungman’ssleeve,andadded,"Well,theinterview’snotbeensoalarmingafterall,hasit?"
"Idon’tthinkthateitherofusisaveryalarmingperson,"wasnotRickie’sreply。Itwaswhathethoughtoutafterwardsintheomnibus。Hisreplywas"Ow,"deliveredwithaslightgiggle。
Asherumbledwestward,hisfacewasdrawn,andhiseyesmovedquicklytotherightandleft,asifhewoulddiscoversomethinginthesqualidfashionablestreetssomebirdonthewing,someradiantarchway,thefaceofsomegodbeneathabeaverhat。Heloved,hewasloved,hehadseendeathandotherthings;buttheheartofallthingswashidden。Therewasapasswordandhecouldnotlearnit,norcouldthekindeditorofthe"Holborn"teachhim。Hesighed,andthensighedmorepiteously。Forhadhenotknownthepasswordonce——knownitandforgottenitalready?
ButatthispointhisfortunesbecomeintimatelyconnectedwiththoseofMr。Pembroke。
PART2SAWSTON
XVI
InthreeyearsMr。Pembrokehaddonemuchtosolidifytheday—boysatSawstonSchool。Iftheywerenotsolid,theywereatalleventscurdling,andhisactivitiesmightreasonablyturnelsewhere。Hehadservedtheschoolformanyyears,anditwasreallytimeheshouldbeentrustedwithaboarding—house。Theheadmaster,animpulsivemanwhodartedaboutlikeaminnowandgavehismotheragreatdealoftrouble,agreedwithhim,andalsoagreedwithMrs。JacksonwhenshesaidthatMr。Jacksonhadservedtheschoolformanyyearsandthatitwasreallytimeheshouldbeentrustedwithaboarding—house。Consequently,whenDunwoodHousefellvacanttheheadmasterfoundhimselfinratheradifficultposition。
DunwoodHousewasthelargestandmostlucrativeoftheboarding—houses。Itstoodalmostoppositetheschoolbuildings。
Originallyithadbeenavillaresidence——ared—brickvilla,coveredwithcreepersandcrownedwithterracottadragons。Mr。
Annison,founderofitsglory,hadlivedhere,andhadhadoneortwoboystolivewithhim。Timeschanged。Thefameofthebishopsblazedbrighter,theschoolincreased,theoneortwoboysbecameadozen,andanadditionwasmadetoDunwoodHousethatmorethandoubleditssize。Ahugenewbuilding,repletewitheveryconvenience,wasstuckontoitsrightflank。Dormitories,cubicles,studies,apreparation—room,adining—room,parquetfloors,hot—airpipes——noexpensewasspared,andthetwelveboysroamedoveritlikeprinces。BaizedoorscommunicatedoneveryfloorwithMr。Annison’spart,andhe,ananxiousgentleman,wouldstrollbackwardsandforwards,alittledepressedatthehygienicsplendours,andconsciousofsomevanishedintimacy。
Somehowhehadknownhisboysbetterwhentheyhadallmuddledtogetherasonefamily,andalgebraslaystrewnuponthedrawingroomchairs。Asthehousefilled,hisinterestinitdecreased。
Whenheretired——whichhedidthesamesummerthatRickieleftCambridge——ithadalreadypassedthesummitofexcellenceandwasbeginningtodecline。Itsnumberswerestillsatisfactory,andforalittletimeitwouldsubsistonitspastreputation。Butthatmysteriousassetthetonehadlowered,anditwasthereforeofgreatimportancethatMr。Annison’ssuccessorshouldbeafirst—classman。Mr。Coates,whocamenextinseniority,waspassedover,andrightly。ThechoicelaybetweenMr。PembrokeandMr。Jackson,theoneanorganizer,theotherahumanist。Mr。
JacksonwasmasteroftheSixth,and——withtheexceptionoftheheadmaster,whowastoobusytoimpartknowledge——theonlyfirst—classintellectintheschool。Buthecouldnotorratherwouldnot,keeporder。Hetoldhisformthatifitchosetolistentohimitwouldlearn;ifitdidn’t,itwouldn’t。Onehalflistened。Theotherhalfmadepaperfrogs,andboredholesintheraisedmapofItalywiththeirpenknives。Whenthepenknivesgrittedhepunishedthemwithundueseverity,andthenforgottomakethemshowthepunishmentsup。Yetoutofthischaostwofactsemerged。HalftheboysgotscholarshipsattheUniversity,andsomeofthem——includingseveralofthepaper—frogsort——
remainedfriendswithhimthroughouttheirlives。Moreover,hewasrich,andhadacompetentwife。HisclaimtoDunwoodHousewasstrongerthanonewouldhavesupposed。
ThequalificationsofMr。Pembrokehavealreadybeenindicated。
Theyprevailed——butunderconditions。Ifthingswentwrong,hemustpromisetoresign。
"Inthefirstplace,"saidtheheadmaster,"youaredoingsosplendidlywiththeday—boys。Yourattitudetowardstheparentsismagnificent。I——don’tknowhowtoreplaceyouthere。Whereas,ofcourse,theparentsofaboarder——"
"Ofcourse,"saidMr。Pembroke。
Theparentofaboarder,whoonlyhadtoremovehissonifhewasdiscontentedwiththeschool,wasnaturallyinamoreindependentpositionthantheparentwhohadbroughtallhisgoodsandchattelstoSawston,andwasrentingahousethere。
"Nowtheparentsofboarders——thisismysecondpoint——
practicallydemandthatthehouse—mastershouldhaveawife。"
"Amostunreasonabledemand,"saidMr。Pembroke。
"Tomymindalsoabrightmotherlymatronisquitesufficient。
Butthatiswhattheydemand。Andthatiswhy——doyousee?——weHAVEtoregardyourappointmentasexperimental。PossiblyMissPembrokewillbeabletohelpyou。OrIdon’tknowwhetherifever——"Heleftthesentenceunfinished。TwodayslaterMr。
PembrokeproposedtoMrs。Orr。
Hehadalwaysintendedtomarrywhenhecouldaffordit;andoncehehadbeeninlove,violentlyinlove,buthadlaidthepassionaside,andtoldittowaittillamoreconvenientseason。Thiswas,ofcourse,theproperthingtodo,andprudenceshouldhavebeenrewarded。Butwhen,afterthelapseoffifteenyears,hewent,asitwere,tohisspirituallarderandtookdownLovefromthetopshelftoofferhimtoMrs。Orr,hewasratherdismayed。
Somethinghadhappened。Perhapsthegodhadflown;perhapshehadbeeneatenbytherats。Atallevents,hewasnotthere。
Mr。Pembrokewasconscientiousandromantic,andknewthatmarriagewithoutloveisintolerable。Ontheotherhand,hecouldnotadmitthatlovehadvanishedfromhim。Toadmitthis,wouldarguethathehaddeteriorated。
Whereasheknewforafactthathehadimproved,yearbyyear。
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