"Waitforme,myfriend。Imaybealittlelate,butIshallsurelycome。"
"Oh,ifheonlywould!Sokind,sogood,sopatientwithmealways,mydearoldFritz。Ididn’tvaluehimhalfenoughwhenIhadhim,butnowhowIshouldlovetoseehim,foreveryoneseemsgoingawayfromme,andI’mallalone。"
Andholdingthelittlepaperfast,asifitwereapromiseyettobefulfilled,Jolaidherheaddownonacomfortableragbag,andcried,asifinoppositiontotherainpatteringontheroof。
Wasitallself—pity,loneliness,orlowspirits?Orwasitthewakingupofasentimentwhichhadbideditstimeaspatientlyasitsinspirer?Whoshallsay?
GoodWives:Chapter2CHAPTER2TheFirstWeddingTheJunerosesovertheporchwereawakebrightandearlyonthatmorning,rejoicingwithalltheirheartsinthecloudlesssunshine,likefriendlylittleneighbors,astheywere。Quiteflushedwithexcitementweretheirruddyfaces,astheyswunginthewind,whisperingtooneanotherwhattheyhadseen,forsomepeepedinatthediningroomwindowswherethefeastwasspread,someclimbeduptonodandsmileatthesistersastheydressedthebride,otherswavedawelcometothosewhocameandwentonvariouserrandsingarden,porch,andhall,andall,fromtherosiestfull—blownflowertothepalestbabybud,offeredtheirtributeofbeautyandfragrancetothegentlemistresswhohadlovedandtendedthemsolong。
Meglookedverylikearoseherself,forallthatwasbestandsweetestinheartandsoulseemedtobloomintoherfacethatday,makingitfairandtender,withacharmmorebeautifulthanbeauty。Neithersilk,lace,nororangeflowerswouldshehave。"Idon’twantafashionablewedding,butonlythoseaboutmewhomIlove,andtothemIwishtolookandbemyfamiliarself。"
Soshemadeherweddinggownherself,sewingintoitthetenderhopesandinnocentromancesofagirlishheart。hersistersbraidedupherprettyhair,andtheonlyornamentssheworeweretheliliesofthevalley,which`herJohn’likedbestofalltheflowersthatgrew。
"YoudolookjustlikeourowndearMeg,onlysoverysweetandlovelythatIshouldhugyouifitwouldn’tcrumpleyourdress,"criedAmy,surveyingherwithdelightwhenallwasdone。
"ThenIamsatisfied。Butpleasehugandkissme,everyone,anddon’tmindmydress。Iwantagreatmanycrumplesofthissortputintoittoday。"AndMegopenedherarmstohersisters,whoclungaboutherwithAprilfacesforaminute,feelingthatthenewlovehadnotchangedtheold。
"NowI’mgoingtotieJohn’scravatforhim,andthentostayafewminuteswithFatherquietlyinthestudy。"AndMegrandowntoperformtheselittleceremonies,andthentofollowhermotherwherevershewent,consciousthatinspiteofthesmilesonthemotherlyface,therewasasecretsorrowhidinthemotherlyheartattheflightofthefirstbirdfromthenest。
Astheyoungergirlsstandtogether,givingthelasttouchestotheirsimpletoilet,itmaybeagoodtimetotellofafewchangeswhichthreeyearshavewroughtintheirappearance,forallarelookingtheirbestjustnow。
Jo’sanglesaremuchsoftened,shehaslearnedtocarryherselfwithease,ifnotgrace。Thecurlycrophaslengthenedintoathickcoil,morebecomingtothesmallheadatopofthetallfigure。Thereisafreshcolorinherbrowncheeks,asoftshineinhereyes,andonlygentlewordsfallfromhersharptonguetoday。
Bethhasgrownslender,pale,andmorequietthanever。Thebeautiful,kindeyesarelarger,andinthemliesanexpressionthatsaddensone,althoughitisnotsaditself。Itistheshadowofpainwhichtouchestheyoungfacewithsuchpatheticpatience,butBethseldomcomplainsandalwaysspeakshopefullyof`beingbettersoon’。
Amyiswithtruthconsidered`theflowerofthefamily’,foratsixteenshehastheairandbearingofafull—grownwoman,notbeautiful,butpossessedofthatindescribablecharmcalledgrace。Onesawitinthelinesofherfigure,themakeandmotionofherhands,theflowofherdress,thedroopofherhair,unconsciousyetharmonious,andasattractivetomanyasbeautyitself。Amy’snosestillafflictedher,foritneverwouldgrowGrecian,sodidhermouth,beingtoowide,andhavingadecidedchin。Theseoffendingfeaturesgavecharactertoherwholeface,butshenevercouldseeit,andconsoledherselfwithherwonderfullyfaircomplexion,keenblueeyes,andcurlsmoregoldenandabundantthanever。
Allthreeworesuitsofthinsilvergray(theirbestgownsforthesummer),withblushrosesinhairandbosom,andallthreelookedjustwhattheywere,fresh—faced,happy—heartedgirls,pausingamomentintheirbusylivestoreadwithwistfuleyesthesweetestchapterintheromanceofwomanhood。
Thereweretobenoceremoniousperformances,everythingwastobeasnaturalandhomelikeaspossible,sowhenAuntMarcharrived,shewasscandalizedtoseethebridecomerunningtowelcomeandleadherin,tofindthebridegroomfasteningupagarlandthathadfallendown,andtocatchaglimpseofthepaternalministermarchingupstairswithagravecountenanceandawinebottleundereacharm。
"Uponmyword,here’sastateofthings!"criedtheoldlady,takingtheseatofhonorpreparedforher,andsettlingthefoldsofherlavendermoirewithagreatrustle。"Yououghtn’ttobeseentillthelastminute,child。"
"I’mnotashow,Aunty,andnooneiscomingtostareatme,tocriticizemydress,orcountthecostofmyluncheon。I’mtoohappytocarewhatanyonesaysorthinks,andI’mgoingtohavemylittleweddingjustasIlikeit。John,dear,here’syourhammer。"AndawaywentMegtohelp`thatman’inhishighlyimproperemployment。
Mr。Brookedidn’tevensay,"Thankyou,"butashestoopedfortheunromantictool,hekissedhislittlebridebehindthefoldingdoor,withalookthatmadeAuntMarchwhiskoutherpockethandkerchiefwithasuddendewinhersharpoldeyes。
Acrash,acry,andalaughfromLaurie,accompaniedbytheindecorousexclamation,"JupiterAmmon!Jo’supsetthecakeagain!"causedamomentaryflurry,whichwashardlyoverwhenaflockofcousinsarrived,and`thepartycamein’,asBethusedtosaywhenachild。
"Don’tletthatyounggiantcomenearme,heworriesmeworsethanmosquitoes,"whisperedtheoldladytoAmy,astheroomsfilledandLaurie’sblackheadtoweredabovetherest。
"Hehaspromisedtobeverygoodtoday,andhecanbeperfectlyelegantifhelikes,"returnedAmy,andglidingawaytowarnHerculestobewareofthedragon,whichwarningcausedhimtohaunttheoldladywithadevotionthatnearlydistractedher。
Therewasnobridalprocession,butasuddensilencefellupontheroomasMr。Marchandtheyoungcoupletooktheirplacesunderthegreenarch。Motherandsistersgatheredclose,asifloathtogiveMegup。Thefatherlyvoicebrokemorethanonce,whichonlyseemedtomaketheservicemorebeautifulandsolemn。Thebridegroom’shandtrembledvisibly,andnooneheardhisreplies。ButMeglookedstraightupinherhusband’seyes,andsaid,"Iwill!"withsuchtendertrustinherownfaceandvoicethathermother’sheartrejoicedandAuntMarchsniffedaudibly。
Jodidnotcry,thoughshewasverynearitonce,andwasonlysavedfromademonstrationbytheconsciousnessthatLauriewasstaringfixedlyather,withacomicalmixtureofmerrimentandemotioninhiswickedblackeyes。Bethkeptherfacehiddenonhermother’sshoulder,butAmystoodlikeagracefulstatue,withamostbecomingrayofsunshinetouchingherwhiteforeheadandtheflowerinherhair。
Itwasn’tatallthething,I’mafraid,buttheminuteshewasfairlymarried,Megcried,"ThefirstkissforMarmee!"andturning,gaveitwithherheartonherlips。Duringthenextfifteenminutesshelookedmorelikearosethanever,foreveryoneavailedthemselvesoftheirprivilegestothefullestextent,fromMr。LaurencetooldHannah,who,adornedwithaheaddressfearfullyandwonderfullymade,felluponherinthehall,cryingwithasobandachuckle,"Blessyou,deary,ahundredtimes!Thecakeain’thurtamite,andeverythinglookslovely。"
Everybodyclearedupafterthat,andsaidsomethingbrilliant,ortriedto,whichdidjustaswell,forlaughterisreadywhenheartsarelight。Therewasnodisplayofgifts,fortheywerealreadyinthelittlehouse,norwasthereanelaboratebreakfast,butaplentifullunchofcakeandfruit,dressedwithflowers。Mr。LaurenceandAuntMarchshruggedandsmiledatoneanotherwhenwater,lemonade,andcoffeewerefoundtobetoonlysortsofnectarwhichthethreeHebescarriedaround。Noonesaidanything,tillLaurie,whoinsistedonservingthebride,appearedbeforeher,withaloadedsalverinhishandandapuzzledexpressiononhisface。
"HasJosmashedallthebottlesbyaccident?"hewhispered,"oramImerelylaboringunderadelusionthatIsawsomelyingaboutloosethismorning?"
"No,yourgrandfatherkindlyofferedushisbest,andAuntMarchactuallysentsome,butFatherputawayalittleforBeth,anddispatchedtheresttotheSoldier’sHome。Youknowhethinksthatwineshouldbeusedonlyinillness,andMothersaysthatneithershenorherdaughterswilleverofferittoanyyoungmanunderherroof。"
MegspokeseriouslyandexpectedtoseeLauriefrownorlaugh,buthedidneither,forafteraquicklookather,hesaid,inhisimpetuousway,"Ilikethat!ForI’veseenenoughharmdonetowishotherwomenwouldthinkasyoudo。"
"Youarenotmadewisebyexperience,Ihope?"AndtherewasananxiousaccentinMeg’svoice。
"No。Igiveyoumywordforit。Don’tthinktoowellofme,either,thisisnotoneofmytemptations。Beingbroughtupwherewineisascommonaswaterandalmostasharmless,Idon’tcareforit,butwhenaprettygirloffersit,onedoesn’tliketorefuse,yousee。"
"Butyouwill,forthesakeofothers,ifnotforyourown。Come,Laurie,promise,andgivemeonemorereasontocallthisthehappiestdayofmylife。"
Ademandsosuddenandsoseriousmadetheyoungmanhesitateamoment,forridiculeisoftenhardertobearthanself—denial。Megknewthatifhegavethepromisehewouldkeepitatallcosts,andfeelingherpower,useditasawomanmayforherfriend’sgood。Shedidnotspeak,butshelookedupathimwithafacemadeveryeloquentbyhappiness,andasmilewhichsaid,"Noonecanrefusemeanythingtoday。"
Lauriecertainlycouldnot,andwithanansweringsmile,hegaveherhishand,sayingheartily,"Ipromise,Mrs。Brooke!"
"Ithankyou,very,verymuch。"
"AndIdrink`longlifetoyourresolution’,Teddy,"criedJo,baptizinghimwithasplashoflemonade,asshewavedherglassandbeamedapprovinglyuponhim。
Sothetoastwasdrunk,thepledgemadeandloyallykeptinspiteofmanytemptations,forwithinstinctivewisdom,thegirlsseizedahappymomenttodotheirfriendaservice,forwhichhethankedthemallhislife。
Afterlunch,peoplestrolledabout,bytwosandthrees,throughthehouseandgarden,enjoyingthesunshinewithoutandwithin。MegandJohnhappenedtobestandingtogetherinthemiddleofthegrassplot,whenLauriewasseizedwithaninspirationwhichputthefinishingtouchtothisunfashionablewedding。
"Allthemarriedpeopletakehandsanddanceroundthenew—madehusbandandwife,astheGermansdo,whilewebachelorsandspinsterspranceincouplesoutside!"criedLaurie,promenadingdownthepathwithAmy,withsuchinfectiousspiritandskillthateveryoneelsefollowedtheirexamplewithoutamurmur。Mr。andMrs。March,AuntandUncleCarrolbeganit,othersrapidlyjoinedin,evenSallieMoffat,afteramoment’shesitation,threwhertrainoverherarmandwhiskedNedintothering。ButthecrowningjokewasMr。LaurenceandAuntMarch,forwhenthestatelyoldgentlemanchasséedsolemnlyuptotheoldlady,shejusttuckedhercaneunderarm,andhoppedbrisklyawaytojoinhandswiththerestanddanceaboutthebridalpair,whiletheyoungfolkspervadedthegardenlikebutterfliesonamidsummerday。
Wantofbreathbroughttheimpromptuballtoaclose,andthenpeoplebegantogo。
"Iwishyouwell,mydear,Iheartilywishyouwell,butIthinkyou’llbesorryforit,"saidAuntMarchtoMeg,addingtothebridegroom,asheledhertothecarriage,"You’vegotatreasure,youngman,seethatyoudeserveit。"
"ThatistheprettiestweddingI’vebeentoforanage,Ned,andIdon’tseewhy,fortherewasn’tabitofstyleaboutit,"observedMrs。Moffattoherhusband,astheydroveaway。
"Laurie,mylad,ifyoueverwanttoindulgeinthissortofthing,getoneofthoselittlegirlstohelpyou,andIshallbeperfectlysatisfied,"saidMr。Laurence,settlinghimselfinhiseasychairtorestaftertheexcitementofthemorning。
"I’lldomybesttogratifyyou,Sir,"wasLaurie’sunusuallydutifulreply,ashecarefullyunpinnedtheposyJohadputinhisbuttonhole。
Thelittlehousewasnotfaraway,andtheonlybridaljourneyMeghadwasthequietwalkwithJohnfromtheoldhometothenew。Whenshecamedown,lookinglikeaprettyQuakeressinherdove—coloredsuitandstrawbonnettiedwithwhite,theyallgatheredabouthertosaygoodby,astenderlyasifshehadbeengoingtomakethegrandtour。
"Don’tfeelthatIamseparatedfromyou,Marmeedear,orthatIloveyouanythelessforlovingJohnsomuch,"shesaid,clingingtohermother,withfulleyesforamoment。"Ishallcomeeveryday,Father,andexpecttokeepmyoldplaceinallyourhearts,thoughIammarried。Bethisgoingtobewithmeagreatdeal,andtheothergirlswilldropinnowandthentolaughatmyhousekeepingstruggles。Thankyouallformyhappyweddingday。Goodby,goodby!"
Theystoodwatchingher,withfacesfullofloveandhopeandtenderprideasshewalkedaway,leaningonherhusband’sarm,withherhandsfullofflowersandtheJunesunshinebrighteningherhappyface——andsoMeg’smarriedlifebegan。
GoodWives:Chapter20CHAPTER20SurprisesJowasaloneinthetwilight,lyingontheoldsofa,lookingatthefire,andthinking。Itwasherfavoritewayofspendingthehourofdusk。Noonedisturbedher,andsheusedtoliethereonBeth’slittleredpillow,planningstories,dreamingdreams,orthinkingtenderthoughtsofthesisterwhoneverseemedfaraway。Herfacelookedtired,grave,andrathersad,fortomorrowwasherbirthday,andshewasthinkinghowfasttheyearswentby,howoldshewasgetting,andhowlittlesheseemedtohaveaccomplished。Almosttwenty—five,andnothingtoshowforit。Jowasmistakeninthat。Therewasagooddealtoshow,andby—and—byshesaw,andwasgratefulforit。
"Anoldmaid,that’swhatI’mtobe。Aliteraryspinster,withapenforaspouse,afamilyofstoriesforchildren,andtwentyyearshenceamorseloffame,perhaps,when,likepoorJohnson,I’moldandcan’tenjoyit,solitary,andcan’tshareit,independent,anddon’tneedit。Well,Ineedn’tbeasoursaintnoraselfishsinner,and,Idaresay,oldmaidsareverycomfortablewhentheygetusedtoit,but……"AndthereJosighed,asiftheprospectwasnotinviting。
Itseldomis,atfirst,andthirtyseemstheendofallthingstofive—and—twenty。Butit’snotasbadasitlooks,andonecangetonquitehappilyifonehassomethinginone’sselftofallbackupon。Attwenty—five,girlsbegintotalkaboutbeingoldmaids,butsecretlyresolvethattheyneverwillbe。Atthirtytheysaynothingaboutit,butquietlyacceptthefact,andifsensible,consolethemselvesbyrememberingthattheyhavetwentymoreuseful,happyyears,inwhichtheymaybelearningtogrowoldgracefully。Don’tlaughatthespinsters,deargirls,foroftenverytender,tragicromancesarehiddenawayintheheartsthatbeatsoquietlyunderthesobergowns,andmanysilentsacrificesofyouth,health,ambition,loveitself,makethefadedfacesbeautifulinGod’ssight。Eventhesad,soursistersshouldbekindlydealtwith,becausetheyhavemissedthesweetestpartoflife,iffornootherreason。Andlookingatthemwithcompassion,notcontempt,girlsintheirbloomshouldrememberthattheytoomaymisstheblossomtime。Thatrosycheeksdon’tlastforever,thatsilverthreadswillcomeinthebonniebrownhair,andthat,by—and—by,kindnessandrespectwillbeassweetasloveandadmirationnow。
Gentlemen,whichmeansboys,becourteoustotheoldmaids,nomatterhowpoorandplainandprim,fortheonlychivalryworthhavingisthatwhichisthereadiesttopaydeferencetotheold,protectthefeeble,andservewomankind,regardlessofrank,age,orcolor。Justrecollectthegoodauntswhohavenotonlylecturedandfussed,butnursedandpetted,toooftenwithoutthanks,thescrapestheyhavehelpedyououtof,thetipstheyhavegivenyoufromtheirsmallstore,thestitchesthepatientoldfingershavesetforyou,thestepsthewillingoldfeethavetaken,andgratefullypaythedearoldladiesthelittleattentionsthatwomenlovetoreceiveaslongastheylive。Thebright—eyedgirlsarequicktoseesuchtraits,andwilllikeyouallthebetterforthem,andifdeath,almosttheonlypowerthatcanpartmotherandson,shouldrobyouofyours,youwillbesuretofindatenderwelcomeandmaternalcherishingfromsomeAuntPriscilla,whohaskeptthewarmestcornerofherlonelyoldheartfor`thebestnevvyintheworld’。
Jomusthavefallenasleep(asIdaresaymyreaderhasduringthislittlehomily),forsuddenlyLaurie’sghostseemedtostandbeforeher,asubstantial,lifelikeghost,leaningoverherwiththeverylookheusedtowearwhenhefeltagooddealanddidn’tliketoshowit。But,likeJennyintheballad……Shecouldnotthinkithe,andlaystaringupathiminstartledsilence,tillhestoopedandkissedher。Thensheknewhim,andflewup,cryingjoyfully……
"OhmyTeddy!OhmyTeddy!"
"DearJo,youaregladtoseeme,then?"
"Glad!Myblessedboy,wordscan’texpressmygladness。Where’sAmy?""YourmotherhasgotherdownatMeg’s。Westoppedtherebytheway,andtherewasnogettingmywifeoutoftheirclutches。"
"Yourwhat?"criedJo,forLaurieutteredthosetwowordswithanunconsciousprideandsatisfactionwhichbetrayedhim。
"Oh,thedickens!NowI’vedoneit。"AndhelookedsoguiltythatJowasdownonhimlikeaflash。
"You’vegoneandgotmarried!"
"Yes,please,butIneverwillagain。"Andhewentdownuponhisknees,withapenitentclaspingofhands,andafacefullofmischief,mirth,andtriumph。
"Actuallymarried?"
"Verymuchso,thankyou。"
"Mercyonus。Whatdreadfulthingwillyoudonext?"AndJofellintoherseatwithagasp。
"Acharacteristic,butnotexactlycomplimentary,congratulation,"returnedLaurie,stillinanabjectattitude,butbeamingwithsatisfaction。
"Whatcanyouexpect,whenyoutakeone’sbreathaway,creepinginlikeaburglar,andlettingcatsoutofbagslikethat?Getup,youridiculousboy,andtellmeallaboutit。"
"Notaword,unlessyouletmecomeinmyoldplace,andpromisenottobarricade。"
Jolaughedatthatasshehadnotdoneformanyalongday,andpattedthesofainvitingly,asshesaidinacordialtone,"Theoldpillowisupgarret,andwedon’tneeditnow。So,comeand’fess,Teddy。"
"Howgooditsoundstohearyousay`Teddy’!Nooneevercallsmethatbutyou。"AndLauriesatdownwithanairofgreatcontent。
"WhatdoesAmycallyou?"
"Mylord。"
"That’slikeher。Well,youlookit。"AndJo’seyeplainlybetrayedthatshefoundherboycomelierthanever。
Thepillowwasgone,buttherewasabarricade,nevertheless,anaturalone,raisedbytimeabsence,andchangeofheart。Bothfeltit,andforaminutelookedatoneanotherasifthatinvisiblebarriercastalittleshadowoverthem。Itwasgonedirectlyhowever,forLauriesaid,withavainattemptatdignity……
"Don’tIlooklikeamarriedmanandtheheadofafamily?""Notabit,andyouneverwill。You’vegrownbiggerandbonnier,butyouarethesamescapegraceasever。"
"Nowreally,Jo,yououghttotreatmewithmorerespect,"beganLaurie,whoenjoyeditallimmensely。
"HowcanI,whenthemereideaofyou,marriedandsettled,issoirresistiblyfunnythatIcan’tkeepsober!"answeredJo,smilingalloverherface,soinfectiouslythattheyhadanotherlaugh,andthensettleddownforagoodtalk,quiteinthepleasantoldfashion。
"It’snouseyourgoingoutinthecoldtogetAmy,fortheyareallcominguppresently。Icouldn’twait。Iwantedtobetheonetotellyouthegrandsurprise,andhave`firstskim’asweusedtosaywhenwesquabbledaboutthecream。"
"Ofcourseyoudid,andspoiledyourstorybybeginningatthewrongend。Now,startright,andtellmehowitallhappened。I’mpiningtoknow。"
"Well,IdidittopleaseAmy,"beganLaurie,withatwinklethatmadeJoexclaim……
"Fibnumberone。Amydidittopleaseyou。Goon,andtellthetruth,ifyoucan,sir。"
"Nowshe’sbeginningtomarmit。Isn’titjollytohearher?"saidLaurietothefire,andthefireglowedandsparkledasifitquiteagreed。"It’sallthesame,youknow,sheandIbeingone。WeplannedtocomehomewiththeCarrols,amonthormoreago,buttheysuddenlychangedtheirminds,anddecidedtopassanotherwinterinParis。ButGrandpawantedtocomehome。Hewenttopleaseme,andIcouldn’tlethimgoalong,neithercouldIleaveAmy,andMrs。CarrolhadgotEnglishnotionsaboutchaperonsandsuchnonsense,andwouldn’tletAmycomewithus。SoIjustsettledthedifficultybysaying,`Let’sbemarried,andthenwecandoaswelike’。"
"Ofcourseyoudid。Youalwayshavethingstosuityou。"
"Notalways。"AndsomethinginLaurie’svoicemadeJosayhastily……
"HowdidyouevergetAunttoagree?"
"Itwashardwork,butbetweenus,wetalkedherover,forwehadheapsofgoodreasonsonourside。Therewasn’ttimetowriteandaskleave,butyoualllikedit,hadconsentedtoitby—and—by,anditwasonly`takingtimebythefetlock’,asmywifesays。"
"Aren’tweproudofthosetwoword,anddon’tweliketosaythem?"interruptedJo,addressingthefireinherturn,andwatchingwithdelightthehappylightitseemedtokindleintheeyesthathadbeensotragicallygloomywhenshesawthemlast。"Atrifle,perhaps,she’ssuchacaptivatinglittlewomanIcan’thelpbeingproudofher。Well,thenUncleandAuntweretheretoplaypropriety。Weweresoabsorbedinoneanotherwewereofnomortaluseapart,andthatcharmingarrangementwouldmakeeverythingeasyallround,sowedidit。"
"When,where,how?"askedJo,inafeveroffeminineinterestandcuriosity,forshecouldnotrealizeitaparticle。
"Sixweeksago,attheAmericanconsul’s,inParis,averyquietweddingofcourse,foreveninourhappinesswedidn’tforgetdearlittleBeth。"
Joputherhandinhisashesaidthat,andLauriegentlysmoothedthelittleredpillow,whichherememberedwell。
"Whydidn’tyouletusknowafterward?"askedJo,inaquietertone,whentheyhadsatquitestillaminute。
"Wewantedtosurpriseyou。Wethoughtwewerecomingdirectlyhome,atfirst,butthedearoldgentleman,assoonasweweremarried,foundhecouldn’tbereadyunderamonth,atleast,andsentusofftospendourhoneymoonwhereverweliked。AmyhadoncecalledValrosaaregularhoneymoonhome,sowewentthere,andwereashappyaspeoplearebutonceintheirlives。Myfaith!Wasn’titloveamongtheroses!"
LaurieseemedtoforgetJoforaminute,andJowasgladofit,forthefactthathetoldherthesethingssofreelyandsonaturallyassuredherthathehadquiteforgivenandforgotten。Shetriedtodrawawayherhand,butasifheguessedthethoughtthatpromptedthehalf—involuntaryimpulse,Lauriehelditfast,andsaid,withamanlygravityshehadneverseeninhimbefore……
"Jo,dear,Iwanttosayonething,andthenwe’llputitbyforever。AsItoldyouinmyletterwhenIwrotethatAmyhadbeensokindtome,Inevershallstoplovingyou,buttheloveisaltered,andIhavelearnedtoseethatitisbetterasitis。Amyandyouchangedplacesinmyheart,that’sall。Ithinkitwasmeanttobeso,andwouldhavecomeaboutnaturally,ifIhadwaited,asyoutriedtomakeme,butInevercouldbepatient,andsoIgotaheartache。Iwasaboythen,headstrongandviolent,andittookahardlessontoshowmemymistake。Foritwasone,Jo,asyousaid,andIfounditout,aftermakingafoolofmyself。Uponmyword,Iwassotumbledupinmymind,atonetime,thatIdidn’tknowwhichIlovedbest,youorAmy,andtriedtoloveyoubothalike。ButIcouldn’t,andwhenIsawherinSwitzerland,everythingseemedtoclearupallatonce。Youbothgotintoyourrightplaces,andIfeltsurethatitwaswelloffwiththeoldlovebeforeitwasonwiththenew,thatIcouldhonestlysharemyheartbetweensisterJoandwifeAmy,andlovethemdearly。Willyoubelieveit,andgobacktothehappyoldtimeswhenwefirstknewoneanother?"
"I’llbelieveit,withallmyheart,but,Teddy,wenevercanbeboyandgirlagain。Thehappyoldtimescan’tcomeback,andwemustn’texpectit。Wearemanandwomannow,withsoberworktodo,forplaytimeisover,andwemustgiveupfrolicking。I’msureyoufeelthis。Iseethechangeinyou,andyou’llfinditinme。Ishallmissmyboy,butIshalllovethemanasmuch,andadmirehimmore,becausehemeanstobewhatIhopedhewould。Wecan’tbelittleplaymatesanylonger,butwewillbebrotherandsister,toloveandhelponeanotherallourlives,won’twe,Laurie?"
Hedidnotsayaword,buttookthehandsheofferedhim,andlaidhisfacedownonitforaminute,feelingthatoutofthegraveofaboyishpassion,therehadrisenabeautiful,strongfriendshiptoblessthemboth。PresentlyJosaidcheerfully,forshedidn’tthecominghometobeasadone,"Ican’tmakeittruethatyouchildrenarereallymarriedandgoingtosetuphousekeeping。Why,itseemsonlyyesterdaythatIwasbuttoningAmy’spinafore,andpullingyourhairwhenyouteased。Mercyme,howtimedoesfly!"
"Asoneofthechildrenisolderthanyourself,youneedn’ttalksolikeagrandma。IflattermyselfI’ma`gentlemangrowed’asPeggottysaidofDavid,andwhenyouseeAmy,you’llfindherratheraprecociousinfant,"saidLaurie,lookingamusedathermaternalair。
"Youmaybealittleolderinyears,butI’meversomucholderinfeeling,Teddy。Womenalwaysare,andthislastyearhasbeensuchahardonethatIfeelforty。"
"PoorJo!Weleftyoutobearitalone,whilewewentpleasuring。Youareolder。Here’saline,andthere’sanother。Unlessyousmile,youreyeslooksad,andwhenItouchedthecushion,justnow,Ifoundatearonit。You’vehadagreatdealtobear,andhadtobearitallalone。WhataselfishbeastI’vebeen!"AndLauriepulledhisownhair,witharemorsefullook。
ButJoonlyturnedoverthetraitorouspillow,andanswered,inatonewhichshetriedtomakemorecheerful,"No,IhadFatherandMothertohelpme,andthedearbabiestocomfortme,andthethoughtthatyouandAmyweresafeandhappy,tomakethetroubleshereeasiertobear。Iamlonely,sometimes,butIdaresayit’sgoodforme,and……"
"Younevershallbeagain,"brokeinLaurie,puttinghisarmabouther,asiftofenceouteveryhumanill。"AmyandIcan’tgetonwithoutyou,soyoumustcomeandteach`thechildren’tokeephouse,andgohalvesineverything,justasweusedtodo,andletuspetyou,andallbeblissfullyhappyandfriendlytogether。"
"IfIshouldn’tbeintheway,itwouldbeverypleasant。Ibegintofeelquiteyoungalready,forsomehowallmytroublesseemedtoflyawaywhenyoucame。Youalwayswereacomfort,Teddy。"AndJoleanedherheadonhisshoulder,justasshedidyearsago,whenBethlayillandLaurietoldhertoholdontohim。
Helookeddownather,wonderingifsherememberedthetime,butJowassmilingtoherself,asifintruthhertroubleshadallvanishedathiscoming。
"YouarethesameJostill,droppingtearsaboutoneminute,andlaughingthenext。Youlookalittlewickednow。Whatisit,Grandma?"
"IwaswonderinghowyouandAmygetontogether。"
"Likeangels!"
"Yes,ofcourse,butwhichrules?"
"Idon’tmindtellingyouthatshedoesnow,atleastIletherthinkso,itpleasesher,youknow。By—and—byweshalltaketurns,formarriage,theysay,halvesone’srightsanddoublesone’sduties。"
"You’llgoonasyoubegin,andAmywillruleyouallthedaysofyourlife。"
"Well,shedoesitsoimperceptiblythatIdon’tthinkIshallmindmuch。Sheisthesortofwomanwhoknowshowtorulewell。Infact,Iratherlikeit,forshewindsoneroundherfingerassoftlyandprettilyasaskeinofsilk,andmakesyoufeelasifshewasdoingyouafavorallthewhile。"
"ThateverIshouldlivetoseeyouahenpeckedhusbandandenjoyingit!"criedJo,withupliftedhands。
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