Takingadvantageofthepropitiousmoment,Megslippedawayandrandowntogreetherhusbandwithasmilingfaceandthelittlebluebowinherhairwhichwashisespecialadmiration。Hesawitatonceandsaidwithpleasedsurprise,"Why,littlemother,howgaywearetonight。Doyouexpectcompany?"
"Onlyyou,dear。"
"No,I’mtiredofbeingdowdy,soIdressedupasachange。Youalwaysmakeyourselfnicefortable,nomatterhowtiredyouare,sowhyshouldn’tIwhenIhavethetime?’
"Idoitoutofrespectforyou,mydear,"saidold—fashionedJohn。
"Ditto,ditto,Mr。Brooke,"laughedMeg,lookingyoungandprettyagain,asshenoddedtohimovertheteapot。
"Well,it’saltogetherdelightful,andlikeoldtimes。Thistastesright。Idrinkyourhealth,dear。"AndJohnsippedhisteawithanairofreposefulrapture,whichwasofveryshortdurationhowever,forasheputdownhiscup,thedoorhandlerattledmysteriously,andalittlevoicewasheard,sayingimpatiently……
"Opydoy。Me’stummin!"
"It’sthatnaughtyboy。Itoldhimtogotosleepalone,andhereheis,downstairs,gettinghisdeatha—coldpatteringoverthatcanvas,"saidMeg,answeringthecall。
"Mornin’now,"announcedDemiinjoyfultoneasheentered,withhislongnightgowngracefullyfestoonedoverhisarmandeverycurlbobbinggaylyasheprancedaboutthetable,eyeingthe`cakies’withlovingglances。
"No,itisn’tmorningyet。Youmustgotobed,andnottroublepoorMamma。Thenyoucanhavethelittlecakewithsugaronit。"
"MelovesParpar,"saidtheartfulone,preparingtoclimbthepaternalkneeandrevelinforbiddenjoys。ButJohnshookhishead,andsaidtoMeg……
"Ifyoutoldhimtostayupthere,andgotosleepalone,makehimdoit,orhewillneverlearntomindyou。"
"Yes,ofcourse。Come,Demi。"AndMegledhersonaway,feelingastrongdesiretospankthelittlemarplotwhohoppedbesideher,laboringunderthedelusionthatthebribewastobeadministeredassoonastheyreachedthenursery。
Norwashedisappointed,forthatshortsightedwomanactuallygavehimalumpofsugar,tuckedhimintohisbed,andforbadeanymorepromenadestillmorning。
"Iss!"saidDemitheperjured,blissfullysuckinghissugar,andregardinghisfirstattemptaseminentlysuccessful。
Megreturnedtoherplace,andsupperwasprogressingpleasantly,whenthelittleghostwalkedagainandexposedthematernaldelinquenciesbyboldlydemanding,"Moresudar,Marmar。"
"Nowthiswon’tdo,"saidJohn,hardeninghisheartagainsttheengaginglittlesinner。"Weshallneverknowanypeacetillthatchildlearnstogotobedproperly。Youhavemadeaslaveofyourselflongenough。Givehimonelesson,andthentherewillbeanendofit。Puthiminhisbedandleavehim,Meg。"
"Hewon’tstaythere,heneverdoesunlessIsitbyhim。"
"I’llmanagehim。Demi,goupstairs,andgetintoyourbed,asMammabidsyou。"
"S’ant!"repliedtheyoungrebel,helpinghimselftothecoveted`cakie’,andbeginningtoeatthesamewithcalmaudacity。
"YoumustneversaythattoPapa。Ishallcarryyouifyoudon’tgoyourself。"
"Go’way,medon’tloveParpar。"AndDemiretiredtohismother’sskirtsforprotection。
Buteventhatrefugeprovedunavailing,forhewasdeliveredovertotheenemy,witha"Begentlewithhim,John,"whichstrucktheculpritwithdismay,forwhenMammadesertedhim,thenthejudgmentdaywasathand。Bereftofhiscake,defraudedofhisfrolic,andborneawaybyastronghandtothatdetestedbed,poorDemicouldnotrestrainhiswrath,butopenlydefiedPapa,andkickedandscreamedlustilyallthewayupstairs。Theminutehewasputintobedononeside,herolledoutontheother,andmadeforthedoor,onlytobeignominiouslycaughtupbythetailofhislittletogaandputbackagain,whichlivelyperformancewaskeptuptilltheyoungman’sstrengthgaveout,whenhedevotedhimselftoroaringatthetopofhisvoice。ThisvocalexerciseusuallyconqueredMeg,butJohnsatasunmovedasthepostwhichispopularlybelievedtobedeaf。Nocoaxing,nosugar,nolullaby,nostory,eventhelightwasputoutandonlytheredglowofthefireenlivenedthe`bigdark’whichDemiregardedwithcuriosityratherthanfear。Thisneworderofthingsdisgustedhim,andhehowleddismallyfor`Marmar’,ashisangrypassionssubsided,andrecollectionsofhistenderbondwomanreturnedtothecaptiveautocrat。TheplaintivewailwhichsucceededthepassionateroarwenttoMeg’sheart,andsheranuptosaybeseechingly……
"Letmestaywithhim,he’llbegoodnow,John。"
"No,mydear。I’vetoldhimhemustgotosleep,asyoubidhim,andhemust,ifIstayhereallnight。"
"Buthe’llcryhimselfsick,"pleadedMeg,reproachingherselffordesertingherboy。
"No,hewon’t,he’ssotiredhewillsoondropoffandthenthematterissettled,forhewillunderstandthathehasgottomind。Don’tinterfere,I’llmanagehim。"
"He’smychild,andIcan’thavehisspiritbrokenbyharshness。"
"He’smychild,andIwon’thavehistemperspoiledbyindulgence。Godown,mydear,andleavetheboytome。"
WhenJohnspokeinthatmasterfultone,Megalwaysobeyed,andneverregrettedherdocility。
"Pleaseletmekisshimonce,John?"
"Certainly。Demi,saygoodnighttoMamma,andlethergoandrest,forsheisverytiredwithtakingcareofyouallday。"
Megalwaysinsisteduponitthatthekisswonthevictory,forafteritwasgiven,Demisobbedmorequietly,andlayquitestillatthebottomofthebed,whitherhehadwriggledinhisanguishofmind。
"Poorlittleman,he’swornoutwithsleepandcrying。I’llcoverhimup,andthengoandsetMeg’sheartatrest。"thoughtJohn,creepingtothebedside,hopingtofindhisrebelliousheirasleep。
Buthewasn’t,forthemomenthisfatherpeepedathim,Demi’seyesopened,hislittlechinbegantoquiver,andheputuphisarms,sayingwithapenitenthiccough,"Me’sdood,now。"
SittingonthestairsoutsideMegwonderedatthelongsilencewhichfollowedtheuproar,andafterimaginingallsortsofimpossibleaccidents,sheslippedintotheroomtosetherfearsatrest。Demilayfastasleep,notinhisusualspread—eagleattitude,butinasubduedbunch,cuddledcloseinthecircleofhisfather’sarmandholdinghisfather’sfinger,asifhefeltthatjusticewastemperedwithmercy,andhadgonetosleepasadderandwiserbaby。Soheld,Johnhadwaitedwithawomanlypatiencetillthelittlehandrelaxeditshold,andwhilewaitinghadfallenasleep,moretiredbythattusslewithhissonthanwithhiswholeday’swork。
AsMegstoodwatchingthetwofacesonthepillow,shesmiledtoherself,andthenslippedawayagain,sayinginasatisfiedtone,"IneverneedfearthatJohnwillbetooharshwithmybabies。Hedoesknowhowtomanagethem,andwillbeagreathelp,forDemiisgettingtoomuchforme。"
WhenJohncamedownatlast,expectingtofindapensiveorreproachfulwife,hewasagreeablysurprisedtofindMegplacidlytrimmingabonnet,andtobegreetedwiththerequesttoreadsomethingabouttheelection,ifhewasnottootired。Johnsawinaminutethatarevolutionofsomekindwasgoingon,butwiselyaskednoquestions,knowingthatMegwassuchatransparentlittleperson,shecouldn’tkeepasecrettosaveherlife,andthereforethecluewouldsoonappear。Hereadalongdebatewiththemostamiablereadinessandthenexplaineditinhismostlucidmanner,whileMegtriedtolookdeeplyinterested,toaskintelligentquestions,andkeepherthoughtsfromwanderingfromthestateofthenationtothestateofherbonnet。Inhersecretsoul,however,shedecidedthatpoliticswereasbadasmathematics,andthemissionofpoliticiansseemedtobecallingeachothernames,butshekeptthesefeminineideastoherself,andwhenJohnpaused,shookherheadandsaidwithwhatshethoughtdiplomaticambiguity,"Well,Ireallydon’tseewhatwearecomingto。"
Johnlaughed,andwatchedherforaminute,asshepoisedaprettylittlepreparationoflaceandflowersonherhand,andregardeditwiththegenuineinterestwhichhisharanguehadfailedtowaken。
"Sheistryingtolikepoliticsformysake,soI’lltryandlikemillineryforhers,that’sonlyfair,"thoughtJohntheJust,addingaloud,"That’sverypretty。Isitwhatyoucallabreakfastcap?"
"Mydearman,it’sabonnet!Myverybestgo—to—concert—and—theaterbonnet。"
"Ibegyourpardon,itwassosmall,Inaturallymistookitforoneoftheflyawaythingsyousometimeswear。Howdoyoukeepiton?"
"Thesebitsoflacearefastenedunderthechinwitharosebud,so。"AndMegillustratedbyputtingonthebonnetandregardinghimwithanairofcalmsatisfactionthatwasirresistible。
"It’saloveofabonnet,butIpreferthefaceinside,foritlooksyoungandhappyagain。"AndJohnkissedthesmilingface,tothegreatdetrimentoftherosebudunderthechin。
"I’mgladyoulikeit,forIwantyoutotakemetooneofthenewconcertssomenight。Ireallyneedsomemusictoputmeintune。Willyou,please?"
"OfcourseIwill,withallmyheart,oranywhereelseyoulike。Youhavebeenshutupsolong,itwilldoyounoendofgood,andIshallenjoyit,ofallthings。Whatputitintoyourhead,littlemother?"
"Well,IhadatalkwithMarmeetheotherday,andtoldherhownervousandcrossandoutofsortsIfelt,andshesaidIneededchangeandlesscare,soHannahistohelpmewiththechildren,andI’mtoseetothingsaboutthehousemore,andnowandthenhavealittlefun,justtokeepmefromgettingtobeafidgety,broken—downoldwomanbeforemytime。It’sonlyanexperiment,John,andIwanttotryitforyoursakeasmuchasformine,becauseI’veneglectedyoushamefullylately,andI’mgoingtomakehomewhatitusedtobe,ifIcan。Youdon’tobject,Ihope?"
NevermindwhatJohnsaid,orwhataverynarrowescapethelittlebonnethadfromutterruin。AllthatwehaveanybusinesstoknowisthatJohndidnotappeartoobject,judgingfromthechangeswhichgraduallytookplaceinthehouseanditsinmates。ItwasnotallParadisebyanymeans,buteveryonewasbetterforthedivisionoflaborsystem。Thechildrenthroveunderthepaternalrule,foraccurate,steadfastJohnbroughtorderandobedienceintoBabydom,whileMegrecoveredherspiritsandcomposedhernervesbyplentyofwholesomeexercise,alittlepleasure,andmuchconfidentialconversationwithhersensiblehusband。Homegrewhomelikeagain,andJohnhadnowishtoleaveit,unlesshetookMegwithhim。TheScottscametotheBrookes’now,andeveryonefoundthelittlehouseacheerfulplace,fullofhappiness,content,andfamilylove。EvenSallieMoffattlikedtogothere。"Itisalwayssoquietandpleasanthere,itdoesmegood,Meg,"sheusedtosay,lookingaboutherwithwistfuleyes,asiftryingtodiscoverthecharm,thatshemightuseitinhergreathouse,fullofsplendidloneliness,fortherewerenoriotous,sunny—facedbabiesthere,andNedlivedinaworldoflisown,wheretherewasnoplaceforher。
Thishouseholdhappinessdidnotcomeallatonce,butJohnandMeghadfoundthekeytoit,andeachyearofMarriedlifetaughtthemhowtouseit,unlockingthetreasuriesofrealhomeloveandmutualhelpfulness,whichthepoorestmaypossess,andtherichestcannotbuy。Thisisthesortofshelfonwhichyoungwivesandmothersmayconsenttobelaid,safefromtherestlessfretandfeveroftheworld,findingloyalloversinthelittlesonsanddaughterswhoclingtothem,undauntedbysorrow,poverty,orage,walkingsidebyside,throughfairandstormyweather,withafaithfulfriend,whois,inthetruesenseofthegoodoldSaxonword,the`house—band’,andlearning,asMeglearned,thatawoman’shappiestkingdomishome,herhighesthonortheartofrulingitnotasaqueen,butasawisewifeandmother。
GoodWives:Chapter16CHAPTER16LazyLaurenceLauriewenttoNiceintendingtostayaweek,andremainedamonth。Hewastiredofwanderingaboutalone,andAmy’sfamiliarpresenceseemedtogiveahomelikecharmtotheforeignscenesinwhichsheboreapart。Herathermissedthe`petting’heusedtoreceive,andenjoyedatasteofitagain,fornoattentions,howeverflattering,fromstrangers,werehalfsopleasantasthesisterlyadorationofthegirlsathome。Amyneverwouldpethimliketheothers,butshewasverygladtoseehimnow,andquiteclungtohim,feelingthathewastherepresentativeofthedearfamilyforwhomshelongedmorethanshewouldconfess。Theynaturallytookcomfortineachother’ssocietyandweremuchtogether,riding,walking,dancing,ordawdling,foratNicenoonecanbeveryindustriousduringthegayseason。But,whileapparentlyamusingthemselvesinthemostcarelessfashion,theywerehalf—consciouslymakingdiscoveriesandformingopinionsabouteachother。Amyrosedailyintheestimationofherfriend,buthesankinhers,andeachfeltthetruthbeforeawordwasspoken。Amytriedtoplease,andsucceeded,forshewasgratefulforthemanypleasureshegaveher,andrepaidhimwiththelittleservicestowhichwomanlywomenknowhowtolendanindescribablecharm。Lauriemadenoeffortofanykind,butjustlethimselfdriftalongascomfortablyaspossible,tryingtoforget,andfeelingthatallwomenowedhimakindwordbecauseonehadbeencoldtohim。Itcosthimnoefforttobegenerous,andhewouldhavegivenAmyallthetrinketsinNiceifshewouldhavetakenthem,butatthesametimehefeltthathecouldnotchangetheopinionshewasformingofhim,andheratherdreadedthekeenblueeyesthatseemedtowatchhimwithsuchhalf—sorrowful,half—scornfulsurprise。
"AlltheresthavegonetoMonacofortheday。Ipreferredtostayathomeandwriteletters。Theyaredonenow,andIamgoingtoValrosatosketch,willyoucome?’saidAmy,asshejoinedLaurieonelovelydaywhenheloungedinasusualaboutnoon。
"Well,yes,butisn’titratherwarmforsuchalongwalk?"heansweredslowly,fortheshadedsalonlookedinvitingaftertheglarewithout。
"I’mgoingtohavethelittlecarriage,andBaptistecandrive,soyou’llhavenothingtodobutholdyourumbrella,andkeepyourglovesnice,"returnedAmy,withasarcasticglanceattheimmaculatekids,whichwereaweakpointwithLaurie。
"ThenI’llgowithpleasure。"Andheputouthishandforhersketchbook。Butshetuckeditunderherarmwithasharp……
"Don’ttroubleyourself。It’snoexertiontome,butyoudon’tlookequaltoit。"
Laurieliftedhiseyebrowsandfollowedataleisurelypaceassherandownstairs,butwhentheygotintothecarriagehetookthereinshimself,andleftlittleBaptistenothingtodobutfoldhisarmsandfallasleeponhisperch。
Thetwoneverquarreled。Amywastoowell—bred,andjustnowLauriewastoolazy,soinaminutehepeepedunderherhat—brimwithaninquiringair。Sheansweredhimwithasmile,andtheywentontogetherinthemostamicablemanner。
Itwasalovelydrive,alongwindingroadsrichinthepicturesquescenesthatdelightbeauty—lovingeyes。Hereanancientmonastery,whencethesolemnchantingofthemonkscamedowntothem。Thereabare—leggedshepherd,inwoodenshoes,pointedhat,androughjacketoveroneshoulder,satpipingonastonewhilehisgoatsskippedamongtherocksorlayathisfeet。Meek,mouse—coloreddonkeys,ladenwithpanniersoffreshlycutgrasspassedby,withaprettygirlinacapalinesittingbetweenthegreenpiles,oranoldwomanspinningwithadistaffasshewent。Brown,soft—eyedchildrenranoutfromthequaintstonehovelstooffernosegays,orbunchesoforangesstillonthebough。Gnarledolivetreescoveredthehillswiththeirduskyfoliage,fruithunggoldenintheorchard,andgreatscarletanemonesfringedtheroadside,whilebeyondgreenslopesandcraggyheights,theMaritimeAlpsrosesharpandwhiteagainsttheblueItaliansky。
Valrosawelldeserveditsname,forinthatclimateofperpetualsummerrosesblossomedeverywhere。Theyoverhungthearchway,thrustthemselvesbetweenthebarsofthegreatgatewithasweetwelcometopassers—by,andlinedtheavenue,windingthroughlemontreesandfeatherypalmsuptothevillaonthehill。Everyshadowynook,whereseatsinvitedonetostopandrest,wasamassofbloom,everycoolgrottohaditsmarblenymphsmilingfromaveilofflowersandeveryfountainreflectedcrimson,white,orpalepinkroses,leaningdowntosmileattheirownbeauty。Rosescoveredthewallsofthehouse,drapedthecornices,climbedthepillars,andranriotoverthebalustradeofthewideterrace,whenceonelookeddownonthesunnyMediterranean,andthewhite—walledcityonitsshore。
"Thisisaregularhoneymoonparadise,isn’tit?Didyoueverseesuchroses?"askedAmy,pausingontheterracetoenjoytheview,andaluxuriouswhiffofperfumethatcamewanderingby。
"No,norfeltsuchthorns,"returnedLaurie,withhisthumbinhismouth,afteravainattempttocaptureasolitaryscarletflowerthatgrewjustbeyondhisreach。
"Trylowerdown,andpickthosethathavenothorns,"saidAmy,gatheringthreeofthetinycream—coloredonesthatstarredthewallbehindher。Sheputtheminhisbuttonholeasapeaceoffering,andhestoodaminutelookingdownatthemwithacuriousexpression,forintheItalianpartofhisnaturetherewasatouchofsuperstition,andhewasjusttheninthatstateofhalf—sweet,half—bittermelancholy,whenimaginativeyoungmenfindsignificanceintriflesandfoodforromanceeverywhere。HehadthoughtofJoinreachingafterthethornyredrose,forvividflowersbecameher,andshehadoftenwornoneslikethatfromthegreenhouseathome。ThepalerosesAmygavehimwerethesortthattheItalianslayindeadhands,neverinbridalwreaths,andforamomenthewonderediftheomenwasforJoorforhimself,butthenextinstanthisAmericancommonsensegotthebetterofsentimentality,andhelaughedaheartierlaughthanAmyhadheardsincehecame。
"It’sgoodadvice,you’dbettertakeitandsaveyourfingers,"shesaid,thinkingherspeechamusedhim。
"Thankyou,Iwill,"heansweredinjest,andafewmonthslaterhediditinearnest。
"Laurie,whenareyougoingtoyourgrandfather?"sheaskedpresently,asshesettledherselfonarusticseat。
"Verysoon。"
"Youhavesaidthatadozentimeswithinthelastthreeweeks。"
"Idaresay,shortanswerssavetrouble。"
"Heexpectsyou,andyoureallyoughttogo。"
"Hospitablecreature!Iknowit。"
"Thenwhydon’tyoudoit?"
"Naturaldepravity,Isuppose。"
"Naturalindolence,youmean。It’sreallydreadful!"AndAmylookedsevere。
"Notsobadasitseems,forIshouldonlyplaguehimifIwent,soImightaswellstayandplagueyoualittlelonger,youcanbearitbetter,infactIthinkitagreeswithyouexcellently。"AndLauriecomposedhimselfforaloungeonthebroadledgeofthebalustrade。
Amyshookherheadandopenedhersketchbookwithanairofresignation,butshehadmadeuphermindtolecture`thatboy’andinaminuteshebeganagain。
"Whatareyoudoingjustnow?"
"Watchinglizards。"
"No,no。Imeanwhatdoyouintendandwishtodo?"
"Smokeacigarette,ifyou’llallowme。"
"Howprovokingyouare!Idon’tapproveofcigarsandIwillonlyallowitonconditionthatyouletmeputyouintomysketch。Ineedafigure。"
"Withallthepleasureinlife。Howwillyouhaveme,fulllengthorthree—quarters,onmyheadormyheels?Ishouldrespectfullysuggestarecumbentposture,thenputyourselfinalsoandcallit`Dolcefarniente’。"
"Stayasyouare,andgotosleepifyoulike。Iintendtoworkhard,"saidAmyinhermostenergetictone。
"Whatdelightfulenthusiasm!"Andheleanedagainstatallurnwithanirofentiresatisfaction。
"WhatwouldJosayifshesawyounow?"askedAmyimpatiently,hopingtostirhimupbythementionofherstillmoreenergeticsister’sname。
"Asusual,`Goaway,Teddy。I’mbusy!’"Helaughedashespoke,butthelaughwasnotnatural,andashadepassedoverhisface,fortheutteranceofthefamiliarnametouchedthewoundthatwasnothealedyet。BothtoneandshadowstruckAmy,forshehadseenandheardthembefore,andnowshelookedupintimetocatchanewexpressiononLaurie’sface——ahardbitterlook,fullofpain,dissatisfaction,andregret。Itwasgonebeforeshecouldstudyitandthelistlessexpressionbackagain。Shewatchedhimforamomentwithartisticpleasure,thinkinghowlikeanItalianhelooked,ashelaybaskinginthesunwithuncoveredheadandeyesfullofsoutherndreaminess,forheseemedtohaveforgottenherandfallenintoareverie。
"Youlookliketheeffigyofayoungknightasleeponhistomb,"shesaid,carefullytracingthewell—cutprofiledefinedagainstthedarkstone。
"WishIwas!"
"That’safoolishwish,unlessyouhavespoiledyourlife。Youaresochanged,Isometimesthink——"ThereAmystopped,withahalf—timid,half—wistfullook,moresignificantthanherunfinishedspeech。
Lauriesawandunderstoodtheaffectionateanxietywhichshehesitatedtoexpress,andlookingstraightintohereyes,said,justasheusedtosayittohermother,"It’sallright,ma’am。"
Thatsatisfiedherandsetatrestthedoubtsthathadbeguntoworryherlately。Italsotouchedher,andsheshowedthatitdid,bythecordialtoneinwhichshesaid……
"I’mgladofthat!Ididn’tthinkyou’dbeenaverybadboy,butIfanciedyoumighthavewastedmoneyatthatwickedBaden—Baden,lostyourhearttosomecharmingFrenchwomanwithahusband,orgotintosomeofthescrapesthatyoungmenseemtoconsideranecessarypartofaforeigntour。Don’tstayoutthereinthesun,comeandlieonthegrasshereand`letusbefriendly’,asJousedtosaywhenwegotinthesofacornerandtoldsecrets。"
Laurieobedientlythrewhimselfdownontheturf,andbegantoamusehimselfbystickingdaisiesintotheribbonsofAmy’shat,thatlaythere。
"I’mallreadyforthesecrets。"Andheglancedupwithadecidedexpressionofinterestinhiseyes。
"I’venonetotell。Youmaybegin。"
"Haven’tonetoblessmyselfwith。Ithoughtperhapsyou’dhadsomenewsfromhome……"
"Youhaveheardallthathascomelately。Don’tyouhearoften?IfanciedJowouldsendyouvolumes。"
"She’sverybusy。I’mrovingaboutso,it’simpossibletoberegular,youknow。Whendoyoubeginyourgreatworkofart,Raphaella?’heasked。changingthesubjectabruptlyafteranotherpause,inwhichhehadbeenwonderingifAmyknewhissecretandwantedtotalkaboutit。
"Never,"sheanswered,withadespondentbutdecidedair。"Rometookallthevanityoutofme,forafterseeingthewondersthere,Ifelttooinsignificanttoliveandgaveupallmyfoolishhopesindespair。"
"Whyshouldyou,withsomuchenergyandtalent?"
"That’sjustwhy,becausetalentisn’tgenius,andnoamountofenergycanmakeitso。Iwanttobegreat,ornothing。Iwon’tbeacommon—placedauber,soIdon’tintendtotryanymore。"
"Andwhatareyougoingtodowithyourselfnow,ifImayask?"
"Polishupmyothertalents,andbeanornamenttosociety,ifIgetthechance。"
Itwasacharacteristicspeech,andsoundeddaring,butaudacitybecomesyoungpeople,andAmy’sambitionhadagoodfoundation。Lauriesmiled,buthelikedthespiritwithwhichshetookupanewpurposewhenalong—cherishedonedied,andspentnotimelamenting。
"Good!AndhereiswhereFredVaughncomesin,Ifancy。"
Amypreservedadiscreetsilence,buttherewasaconsciouslookinherdowncastfacethatmadeLauriesitupandsaygravely,"NowI’mgoingtoplaybrother,andaskquestions。MayI?"
"Idon’tpromisetoanswer。"
"Yourfacewill,ifyourtonguewon’t。Youaren’twomanoftheworldenoughyettohideyourfeelings,mydear。IheardrumorsaboutFredandyoulastyear,andit’smyprivateopinionthatifhehadnotbeencalledhomesosuddenlyanddetainedsolong,somethingwouldhavecomeofit,hey?"
"That’snotformetosay,"wasAmy’sgrimreply,butherlipswouldsmile,andtherewasatraitoroussparkleoftheeyewhichbetrayedthatsheknewherpowerandenjoyedtheknowledge。
"Youarenotengaged,Ihope?"AndLaurielookedveryelder—brotherlyandgraveallofasudden。
"No。"
"Butyouwillbe,ifhecomesbackandgoesproperlydownonhisknees,won’tyou?"
"Verylikely。"
"ThenyouarefondofoldFred?"
"Icouldbe,ifItried。"
"Butyoudon’tintendtotrytillthepropermoment?Blessmysoul,whatunearthlyprudence!He’sagoodfellow,Amy,butnotthemanIfanciedyou’dlike。"
"Heisrich,agentleman,andhasdelightfulmanners,"beganAmy,tryingtobequitecoolanddignified,butfeelingalittleashamedofherself,inspiteofthesincerityofherintentions。
"Iunderstand。Queensofsocietycan’tgetonwithoutmoney,soyoumeantomakeagoodmatch,andstartinthatway?Quiterightandproper,astheworldgoes,butitsoundsoddfromthelipsofoneofyourmother’sgirls。"
"True,nevertheless。"
Ashortspeech,butthequietdecisionwithwhichitwasutteredcontrastedcuriouslywiththeyoungspeaker。Lauriefeltthisinstinctivelyandlaidhimselfdownagain,withasenseofdisappointmentwhichhecouldnotexplain。Hislookandsilence,aswellasacertaininwardself—disapproval,ruffledAmy,andmadeherresolvetodeliverherlecturewithoutdelay。
"Iwishyou’ddomethefavortorouseyourselfalittle,"shesaidsharply。
"Doitforme,there’sadeargirl。"
"Icould,ifItried。"Andshelookedasifshewouldlikedoingitinthemostsummarystyle。
"Try,then。Igiveyouleave,"returnedLaurie,whoenjoyedhavingsomeonetotease,afterhislongabstinencefromhisfavoritepastime。
"You’dbeangryinfiveminutes。"
"I’mneverangrywithyou。Ittakestwoflintstomakeafire。Youareascoolandsoftassnow。"
"Youdon’tknowwhatIcando。Snowproducesaglowandatingle,ifappliedrightly。Yourindifferenceishalfaffectation,andagoodstirringupwouldproveit。"
"Stiraway,itwon’thurtmeanditmayamuseyou,asthebigmansaidwhenhislittlewifebeathim。Regardmeinthelightofahusbandoracarpet,andbeattillyouaretired,ifthatsortofexerciseagreeswithyou。"
Beingdecidedlynettledherself,andlongingtoseehimshakeofftheapathythatsoalteredhim,Amysharpenedbothtongueandpencil,andbegan。
"FloandIhavegotanewnameforyou。It’sLazyLaurence。Howdoyoulikeit?"
Shethoughtitwouldannoyhim,butheonlyfoldedhisarmsunderhishead,withanimperturbable,"That’snotbad。Thankyou,ladies。"
"DoyouwanttoknowwhatIhonestlythinkofyou?"
"Piningtobetold。"
"Well,Idespiseyou。"Ifshehadevensaid`Ihateyou’inapetulantorcoquettishtone,hewouldhavelaughedandratherlikedit,butthegrave,almostsad,accentinhervoicemadehimopenhiseyes,andaskquickly……
"Why,ifyouplease?"
"Because,witheverychanceforbeinggood,useful,andhappy,youarefaulty,lazy,andmiserable。"
"Stronglanguage,mademoiselle。"
"Ifyoulikeit,I’llgoon。"
"Praydo,it’squiteinteresting。"
"Ithoughtyou’dfinditso。Selfishpeoplealwaysliketotalkaboutthemselves。"
"AmIselfish?"Thequestionslippedoutinvoluntarilyandinatoneofsurprise,fortheonevirtueonwhichhepridedhimselfwasgenerosity。
"Yes,veryselfish,"continuedAmy,inacalm,coolvoice,twiceaseffectivejustthenasanangryone。"I’llshowyouhow,forI’vestudiedyouwhilewewerefrolicking,andI’mnotatallsatisfiedwithyou。Hereyouhavebeenabroadnearlysixmonths,anddonenothingbutwastetimeandmoneyanddisappointyourfriends。"
"Isn’tafellowtohaveanypleasureafterafour—yeargrind?"
"Youdon’tlookasifyou’dhadmuch。Atanyrate,youarenonethebetterforit,asfarasIcansee。Isaidwhenwefirstmetthatyouhadimproved。NowItakeitallback,forIdon’tthinkyouhalfsoniceaswhenIleftyouathome。Youhavegrownabominablylazy,youlikegossip,andwastetimeonfrivolousthings,youarecontentedtobepettedandadmiredbysillypeople,insteadofbeinglovedandrespectedbywiseones。Withmoney,talent,position,health,andbeauty,ahyoulikethatoldVanity!Butit’sthetruth,soIcan’thelpsayingit,withallthesesplendidthingstouseandenjoy,youcanfindnothingtodobutdawdle,andinsteadofbeingthemanyououghttobe,youareonly……"Thereshestopped,withalookthathadbothpainandpityinit。
"SaintLaurenceonagridiron,"addedLaurie,blandlyfinishingthesentence。Butthelecturebegantotakeeffect,fortherewasawide—awakesparkleinhiseyesnowandahalf—angry,half—injuredexpressionreplacedtheformerindifference。
"Isupposedyou’dtakeitso。Youmentellusweareangels,andsaywecanmakeyouwhatwewill,buttheinstantwehonestlytrytodoyougood,youlaughatusandwon’tlisten,whichproveshowmuchyourflatteryisworth。"Amyspokebitterly,andturnedherbackontheexasperatingmartyratherfeet。
Inaminuteahandcamedownoverthepage,sothatshecouldnotdraw,andLaurie’svoicesaid,withadrollimitationofapenitentchild,"Iwillbegood,oh,Iwillbegood!"
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