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第6章

  Takingadvantageofthepropitiousmoment,Megslippedawayandrandowntogreetherhusbandwithasmilingfaceandthelittlebluebowinherhairwhichwashisespecialadmiration。Hesawitatonceandsaidwithpleasedsurprise,"Why,littlemother,howgaywearetonight。Doyouexpectcompany?"
  "Onlyyou,dear。"
  "No,I’mtiredofbeingdowdy,soIdressedupasachange。Youalwaysmakeyourselfnicefortable,nomatterhowtiredyouare,sowhyshouldn’tIwhenIhavethetime?’
  "Idoitoutofrespectforyou,mydear,"saidold—fashionedJohn。
  "Ditto,ditto,Mr。Brooke,"laughedMeg,lookingyoungandprettyagain,asshenoddedtohimovertheteapot。
  "Well,it’saltogetherdelightful,andlikeoldtimes。Thistastesright。Idrinkyourhealth,dear。"AndJohnsippedhisteawithanairofreposefulrapture,whichwasofveryshortdurationhowever,forasheputdownhiscup,thedoorhandlerattledmysteriously,andalittlevoicewasheard,sayingimpatiently……
  "Opydoy。Me’stummin!"
  "It’sthatnaughtyboy。Itoldhimtogotosleepalone,andhereheis,downstairs,gettinghisdeatha—coldpatteringoverthatcanvas,"saidMeg,answeringthecall。
  "Mornin’now,"announcedDemiinjoyfultoneasheentered,withhislongnightgowngracefullyfestoonedoverhisarmandeverycurlbobbinggaylyasheprancedaboutthetable,eyeingthe`cakies’withlovingglances。
  "No,itisn’tmorningyet。Youmustgotobed,andnottroublepoorMamma。Thenyoucanhavethelittlecakewithsugaronit。"
  "MelovesParpar,"saidtheartfulone,preparingtoclimbthepaternalkneeandrevelinforbiddenjoys。ButJohnshookhishead,andsaidtoMeg……
  "Ifyoutoldhimtostayupthere,andgotosleepalone,makehimdoit,orhewillneverlearntomindyou。"
  "Yes,ofcourse。Come,Demi。"AndMegledhersonaway,feelingastrongdesiretospankthelittlemarplotwhohoppedbesideher,laboringunderthedelusionthatthebribewastobeadministeredassoonastheyreachedthenursery。
  Norwashedisappointed,forthatshortsightedwomanactuallygavehimalumpofsugar,tuckedhimintohisbed,andforbadeanymorepromenadestillmorning。
  "Iss!"saidDemitheperjured,blissfullysuckinghissugar,andregardinghisfirstattemptaseminentlysuccessful。
  Megreturnedtoherplace,andsupperwasprogressingpleasantly,whenthelittleghostwalkedagainandexposedthematernaldelinquenciesbyboldlydemanding,"Moresudar,Marmar。"
  "Nowthiswon’tdo,"saidJohn,hardeninghisheartagainsttheengaginglittlesinner。"Weshallneverknowanypeacetillthatchildlearnstogotobedproperly。Youhavemadeaslaveofyourselflongenough。Givehimonelesson,andthentherewillbeanendofit。Puthiminhisbedandleavehim,Meg。"
  "Hewon’tstaythere,heneverdoesunlessIsitbyhim。"
  "I’llmanagehim。Demi,goupstairs,andgetintoyourbed,asMammabidsyou。"
  "S’ant!"repliedtheyoungrebel,helpinghimselftothecoveted`cakie’,andbeginningtoeatthesamewithcalmaudacity。
  "YoumustneversaythattoPapa。Ishallcarryyouifyoudon’tgoyourself。"
  "Go’way,medon’tloveParpar。"AndDemiretiredtohismother’sskirtsforprotection。
  Buteventhatrefugeprovedunavailing,forhewasdeliveredovertotheenemy,witha"Begentlewithhim,John,"whichstrucktheculpritwithdismay,forwhenMammadesertedhim,thenthejudgmentdaywasathand。Bereftofhiscake,defraudedofhisfrolic,andborneawaybyastronghandtothatdetestedbed,poorDemicouldnotrestrainhiswrath,butopenlydefiedPapa,andkickedandscreamedlustilyallthewayupstairs。Theminutehewasputintobedononeside,herolledoutontheother,andmadeforthedoor,onlytobeignominiouslycaughtupbythetailofhislittletogaandputbackagain,whichlivelyperformancewaskeptuptilltheyoungman’sstrengthgaveout,whenhedevotedhimselftoroaringatthetopofhisvoice。ThisvocalexerciseusuallyconqueredMeg,butJohnsatasunmovedasthepostwhichispopularlybelievedtobedeaf。Nocoaxing,nosugar,nolullaby,nostory,eventhelightwasputoutandonlytheredglowofthefireenlivenedthe`bigdark’whichDemiregardedwithcuriosityratherthanfear。Thisneworderofthingsdisgustedhim,andhehowleddismallyfor`Marmar’,ashisangrypassionssubsided,andrecollectionsofhistenderbondwomanreturnedtothecaptiveautocrat。TheplaintivewailwhichsucceededthepassionateroarwenttoMeg’sheart,andsheranuptosaybeseechingly……
  "Letmestaywithhim,he’llbegoodnow,John。"
  "No,mydear。I’vetoldhimhemustgotosleep,asyoubidhim,andhemust,ifIstayhereallnight。"
  "Buthe’llcryhimselfsick,"pleadedMeg,reproachingherselffordesertingherboy。
  "No,hewon’t,he’ssotiredhewillsoondropoffandthenthematterissettled,forhewillunderstandthathehasgottomind。Don’tinterfere,I’llmanagehim。"
  "He’smychild,andIcan’thavehisspiritbrokenbyharshness。"
  "He’smychild,andIwon’thavehistemperspoiledbyindulgence。Godown,mydear,andleavetheboytome。"
  WhenJohnspokeinthatmasterfultone,Megalwaysobeyed,andneverregrettedherdocility。
  "Pleaseletmekisshimonce,John?"
  "Certainly。Demi,saygoodnighttoMamma,andlethergoandrest,forsheisverytiredwithtakingcareofyouallday。"
  Megalwaysinsisteduponitthatthekisswonthevictory,forafteritwasgiven,Demisobbedmorequietly,andlayquitestillatthebottomofthebed,whitherhehadwriggledinhisanguishofmind。
  "Poorlittleman,he’swornoutwithsleepandcrying。I’llcoverhimup,andthengoandsetMeg’sheartatrest。"thoughtJohn,creepingtothebedside,hopingtofindhisrebelliousheirasleep。
  Buthewasn’t,forthemomenthisfatherpeepedathim,Demi’seyesopened,hislittlechinbegantoquiver,andheputuphisarms,sayingwithapenitenthiccough,"Me’sdood,now。"
  SittingonthestairsoutsideMegwonderedatthelongsilencewhichfollowedtheuproar,andafterimaginingallsortsofimpossibleaccidents,sheslippedintotheroomtosetherfearsatrest。Demilayfastasleep,notinhisusualspread—eagleattitude,butinasubduedbunch,cuddledcloseinthecircleofhisfather’sarmandholdinghisfather’sfinger,asifhefeltthatjusticewastemperedwithmercy,andhadgonetosleepasadderandwiserbaby。Soheld,Johnhadwaitedwithawomanlypatiencetillthelittlehandrelaxeditshold,andwhilewaitinghadfallenasleep,moretiredbythattusslewithhissonthanwithhiswholeday’swork。
  AsMegstoodwatchingthetwofacesonthepillow,shesmiledtoherself,andthenslippedawayagain,sayinginasatisfiedtone,"IneverneedfearthatJohnwillbetooharshwithmybabies。Hedoesknowhowtomanagethem,andwillbeagreathelp,forDemiisgettingtoomuchforme。"
  WhenJohncamedownatlast,expectingtofindapensiveorreproachfulwife,hewasagreeablysurprisedtofindMegplacidlytrimmingabonnet,andtobegreetedwiththerequesttoreadsomethingabouttheelection,ifhewasnottootired。Johnsawinaminutethatarevolutionofsomekindwasgoingon,butwiselyaskednoquestions,knowingthatMegwassuchatransparentlittleperson,shecouldn’tkeepasecrettosaveherlife,andthereforethecluewouldsoonappear。Hereadalongdebatewiththemostamiablereadinessandthenexplaineditinhismostlucidmanner,whileMegtriedtolookdeeplyinterested,toaskintelligentquestions,andkeepherthoughtsfromwanderingfromthestateofthenationtothestateofherbonnet。Inhersecretsoul,however,shedecidedthatpoliticswereasbadasmathematics,andthemissionofpoliticiansseemedtobecallingeachothernames,butshekeptthesefeminineideastoherself,andwhenJohnpaused,shookherheadandsaidwithwhatshethoughtdiplomaticambiguity,"Well,Ireallydon’tseewhatwearecomingto。"
  Johnlaughed,andwatchedherforaminute,asshepoisedaprettylittlepreparationoflaceandflowersonherhand,andregardeditwiththegenuineinterestwhichhisharanguehadfailedtowaken。
  "Sheistryingtolikepoliticsformysake,soI’lltryandlikemillineryforhers,that’sonlyfair,"thoughtJohntheJust,addingaloud,"That’sverypretty。Isitwhatyoucallabreakfastcap?"
  "Mydearman,it’sabonnet!Myverybestgo—to—concert—and—theaterbonnet。"
  "Ibegyourpardon,itwassosmall,Inaturallymistookitforoneoftheflyawaythingsyousometimeswear。Howdoyoukeepiton?"
  "Thesebitsoflacearefastenedunderthechinwitharosebud,so。"AndMegillustratedbyputtingonthebonnetandregardinghimwithanairofcalmsatisfactionthatwasirresistible。
  "It’saloveofabonnet,butIpreferthefaceinside,foritlooksyoungandhappyagain。"AndJohnkissedthesmilingface,tothegreatdetrimentoftherosebudunderthechin。
  "I’mgladyoulikeit,forIwantyoutotakemetooneofthenewconcertssomenight。Ireallyneedsomemusictoputmeintune。Willyou,please?"
  "OfcourseIwill,withallmyheart,oranywhereelseyoulike。Youhavebeenshutupsolong,itwilldoyounoendofgood,andIshallenjoyit,ofallthings。Whatputitintoyourhead,littlemother?"
  "Well,IhadatalkwithMarmeetheotherday,andtoldherhownervousandcrossandoutofsortsIfelt,andshesaidIneededchangeandlesscare,soHannahistohelpmewiththechildren,andI’mtoseetothingsaboutthehousemore,andnowandthenhavealittlefun,justtokeepmefromgettingtobeafidgety,broken—downoldwomanbeforemytime。It’sonlyanexperiment,John,andIwanttotryitforyoursakeasmuchasformine,becauseI’veneglectedyoushamefullylately,andI’mgoingtomakehomewhatitusedtobe,ifIcan。Youdon’tobject,Ihope?"
  NevermindwhatJohnsaid,orwhataverynarrowescapethelittlebonnethadfromutterruin。AllthatwehaveanybusinesstoknowisthatJohndidnotappeartoobject,judgingfromthechangeswhichgraduallytookplaceinthehouseanditsinmates。ItwasnotallParadisebyanymeans,buteveryonewasbetterforthedivisionoflaborsystem。Thechildrenthroveunderthepaternalrule,foraccurate,steadfastJohnbroughtorderandobedienceintoBabydom,whileMegrecoveredherspiritsandcomposedhernervesbyplentyofwholesomeexercise,alittlepleasure,andmuchconfidentialconversationwithhersensiblehusband。Homegrewhomelikeagain,andJohnhadnowishtoleaveit,unlesshetookMegwithhim。TheScottscametotheBrookes’now,andeveryonefoundthelittlehouseacheerfulplace,fullofhappiness,content,andfamilylove。EvenSallieMoffattlikedtogothere。"Itisalwayssoquietandpleasanthere,itdoesmegood,Meg,"sheusedtosay,lookingaboutherwithwistfuleyes,asiftryingtodiscoverthecharm,thatshemightuseitinhergreathouse,fullofsplendidloneliness,fortherewerenoriotous,sunny—facedbabiesthere,andNedlivedinaworldoflisown,wheretherewasnoplaceforher。
  Thishouseholdhappinessdidnotcomeallatonce,butJohnandMeghadfoundthekeytoit,andeachyearofMarriedlifetaughtthemhowtouseit,unlockingthetreasuriesofrealhomeloveandmutualhelpfulness,whichthepoorestmaypossess,andtherichestcannotbuy。Thisisthesortofshelfonwhichyoungwivesandmothersmayconsenttobelaid,safefromtherestlessfretandfeveroftheworld,findingloyalloversinthelittlesonsanddaughterswhoclingtothem,undauntedbysorrow,poverty,orage,walkingsidebyside,throughfairandstormyweather,withafaithfulfriend,whois,inthetruesenseofthegoodoldSaxonword,the`house—band’,andlearning,asMeglearned,thatawoman’shappiestkingdomishome,herhighesthonortheartofrulingitnotasaqueen,butasawisewifeandmother。
  GoodWives:Chapter16CHAPTER16LazyLaurenceLauriewenttoNiceintendingtostayaweek,andremainedamonth。Hewastiredofwanderingaboutalone,andAmy’sfamiliarpresenceseemedtogiveahomelikecharmtotheforeignscenesinwhichsheboreapart。Herathermissedthe`petting’heusedtoreceive,andenjoyedatasteofitagain,fornoattentions,howeverflattering,fromstrangers,werehalfsopleasantasthesisterlyadorationofthegirlsathome。Amyneverwouldpethimliketheothers,butshewasverygladtoseehimnow,andquiteclungtohim,feelingthathewastherepresentativeofthedearfamilyforwhomshelongedmorethanshewouldconfess。Theynaturallytookcomfortineachother’ssocietyandweremuchtogether,riding,walking,dancing,ordawdling,foratNicenoonecanbeveryindustriousduringthegayseason。But,whileapparentlyamusingthemselvesinthemostcarelessfashion,theywerehalf—consciouslymakingdiscoveriesandformingopinionsabouteachother。Amyrosedailyintheestimationofherfriend,buthesankinhers,andeachfeltthetruthbeforeawordwasspoken。Amytriedtoplease,andsucceeded,forshewasgratefulforthemanypleasureshegaveher,andrepaidhimwiththelittleservicestowhichwomanlywomenknowhowtolendanindescribablecharm。Lauriemadenoeffortofanykind,butjustlethimselfdriftalongascomfortablyaspossible,tryingtoforget,andfeelingthatallwomenowedhimakindwordbecauseonehadbeencoldtohim。Itcosthimnoefforttobegenerous,andhewouldhavegivenAmyallthetrinketsinNiceifshewouldhavetakenthem,butatthesametimehefeltthathecouldnotchangetheopinionshewasformingofhim,andheratherdreadedthekeenblueeyesthatseemedtowatchhimwithsuchhalf—sorrowful,half—scornfulsurprise。
  "AlltheresthavegonetoMonacofortheday。Ipreferredtostayathomeandwriteletters。Theyaredonenow,andIamgoingtoValrosatosketch,willyoucome?’saidAmy,asshejoinedLaurieonelovelydaywhenheloungedinasusualaboutnoon。
  "Well,yes,butisn’titratherwarmforsuchalongwalk?"heansweredslowly,fortheshadedsalonlookedinvitingaftertheglarewithout。
  "I’mgoingtohavethelittlecarriage,andBaptistecandrive,soyou’llhavenothingtodobutholdyourumbrella,andkeepyourglovesnice,"returnedAmy,withasarcasticglanceattheimmaculatekids,whichwereaweakpointwithLaurie。
  "ThenI’llgowithpleasure。"Andheputouthishandforhersketchbook。Butshetuckeditunderherarmwithasharp……
  "Don’ttroubleyourself。It’snoexertiontome,butyoudon’tlookequaltoit。"
  Laurieliftedhiseyebrowsandfollowedataleisurelypaceassherandownstairs,butwhentheygotintothecarriagehetookthereinshimself,andleftlittleBaptistenothingtodobutfoldhisarmsandfallasleeponhisperch。
  Thetwoneverquarreled。Amywastoowell—bred,andjustnowLauriewastoolazy,soinaminutehepeepedunderherhat—brimwithaninquiringair。Sheansweredhimwithasmile,andtheywentontogetherinthemostamicablemanner。
  Itwasalovelydrive,alongwindingroadsrichinthepicturesquescenesthatdelightbeauty—lovingeyes。Hereanancientmonastery,whencethesolemnchantingofthemonkscamedowntothem。Thereabare—leggedshepherd,inwoodenshoes,pointedhat,androughjacketoveroneshoulder,satpipingonastonewhilehisgoatsskippedamongtherocksorlayathisfeet。Meek,mouse—coloreddonkeys,ladenwithpanniersoffreshlycutgrasspassedby,withaprettygirlinacapalinesittingbetweenthegreenpiles,oranoldwomanspinningwithadistaffasshewent。Brown,soft—eyedchildrenranoutfromthequaintstonehovelstooffernosegays,orbunchesoforangesstillonthebough。Gnarledolivetreescoveredthehillswiththeirduskyfoliage,fruithunggoldenintheorchard,andgreatscarletanemonesfringedtheroadside,whilebeyondgreenslopesandcraggyheights,theMaritimeAlpsrosesharpandwhiteagainsttheblueItaliansky。
  Valrosawelldeserveditsname,forinthatclimateofperpetualsummerrosesblossomedeverywhere。Theyoverhungthearchway,thrustthemselvesbetweenthebarsofthegreatgatewithasweetwelcometopassers—by,andlinedtheavenue,windingthroughlemontreesandfeatherypalmsuptothevillaonthehill。Everyshadowynook,whereseatsinvitedonetostopandrest,wasamassofbloom,everycoolgrottohaditsmarblenymphsmilingfromaveilofflowersandeveryfountainreflectedcrimson,white,orpalepinkroses,leaningdowntosmileattheirownbeauty。Rosescoveredthewallsofthehouse,drapedthecornices,climbedthepillars,andranriotoverthebalustradeofthewideterrace,whenceonelookeddownonthesunnyMediterranean,andthewhite—walledcityonitsshore。
  "Thisisaregularhoneymoonparadise,isn’tit?Didyoueverseesuchroses?"askedAmy,pausingontheterracetoenjoytheview,andaluxuriouswhiffofperfumethatcamewanderingby。
  "No,norfeltsuchthorns,"returnedLaurie,withhisthumbinhismouth,afteravainattempttocaptureasolitaryscarletflowerthatgrewjustbeyondhisreach。
  "Trylowerdown,andpickthosethathavenothorns,"saidAmy,gatheringthreeofthetinycream—coloredonesthatstarredthewallbehindher。Sheputtheminhisbuttonholeasapeaceoffering,andhestoodaminutelookingdownatthemwithacuriousexpression,forintheItalianpartofhisnaturetherewasatouchofsuperstition,andhewasjusttheninthatstateofhalf—sweet,half—bittermelancholy,whenimaginativeyoungmenfindsignificanceintriflesandfoodforromanceeverywhere。HehadthoughtofJoinreachingafterthethornyredrose,forvividflowersbecameher,andshehadoftenwornoneslikethatfromthegreenhouseathome。ThepalerosesAmygavehimwerethesortthattheItalianslayindeadhands,neverinbridalwreaths,andforamomenthewonderediftheomenwasforJoorforhimself,butthenextinstanthisAmericancommonsensegotthebetterofsentimentality,andhelaughedaheartierlaughthanAmyhadheardsincehecame。
  "It’sgoodadvice,you’dbettertakeitandsaveyourfingers,"shesaid,thinkingherspeechamusedhim。
  "Thankyou,Iwill,"heansweredinjest,andafewmonthslaterhediditinearnest。
  "Laurie,whenareyougoingtoyourgrandfather?"sheaskedpresently,asshesettledherselfonarusticseat。
  "Verysoon。"
  "Youhavesaidthatadozentimeswithinthelastthreeweeks。"
  "Idaresay,shortanswerssavetrouble。"
  "Heexpectsyou,andyoureallyoughttogo。"
  "Hospitablecreature!Iknowit。"
  "Thenwhydon’tyoudoit?"
  "Naturaldepravity,Isuppose。"
  "Naturalindolence,youmean。It’sreallydreadful!"AndAmylookedsevere。
  "Notsobadasitseems,forIshouldonlyplaguehimifIwent,soImightaswellstayandplagueyoualittlelonger,youcanbearitbetter,infactIthinkitagreeswithyouexcellently。"AndLauriecomposedhimselfforaloungeonthebroadledgeofthebalustrade。
  Amyshookherheadandopenedhersketchbookwithanairofresignation,butshehadmadeuphermindtolecture`thatboy’andinaminuteshebeganagain。
  "Whatareyoudoingjustnow?"
  "Watchinglizards。"
  "No,no。Imeanwhatdoyouintendandwishtodo?"
  "Smokeacigarette,ifyou’llallowme。"
  "Howprovokingyouare!Idon’tapproveofcigarsandIwillonlyallowitonconditionthatyouletmeputyouintomysketch。Ineedafigure。"
  "Withallthepleasureinlife。Howwillyouhaveme,fulllengthorthree—quarters,onmyheadormyheels?Ishouldrespectfullysuggestarecumbentposture,thenputyourselfinalsoandcallit`Dolcefarniente’。"
  "Stayasyouare,andgotosleepifyoulike。Iintendtoworkhard,"saidAmyinhermostenergetictone。
  "Whatdelightfulenthusiasm!"Andheleanedagainstatallurnwithanirofentiresatisfaction。
  "WhatwouldJosayifshesawyounow?"askedAmyimpatiently,hopingtostirhimupbythementionofherstillmoreenergeticsister’sname。
  "Asusual,`Goaway,Teddy。I’mbusy!’"Helaughedashespoke,butthelaughwasnotnatural,andashadepassedoverhisface,fortheutteranceofthefamiliarnametouchedthewoundthatwasnothealedyet。BothtoneandshadowstruckAmy,forshehadseenandheardthembefore,andnowshelookedupintimetocatchanewexpressiononLaurie’sface——ahardbitterlook,fullofpain,dissatisfaction,andregret。Itwasgonebeforeshecouldstudyitandthelistlessexpressionbackagain。Shewatchedhimforamomentwithartisticpleasure,thinkinghowlikeanItalianhelooked,ashelaybaskinginthesunwithuncoveredheadandeyesfullofsoutherndreaminess,forheseemedtohaveforgottenherandfallenintoareverie。
  "Youlookliketheeffigyofayoungknightasleeponhistomb,"shesaid,carefullytracingthewell—cutprofiledefinedagainstthedarkstone。
  "WishIwas!"
  "That’safoolishwish,unlessyouhavespoiledyourlife。Youaresochanged,Isometimesthink——"ThereAmystopped,withahalf—timid,half—wistfullook,moresignificantthanherunfinishedspeech。
  Lauriesawandunderstoodtheaffectionateanxietywhichshehesitatedtoexpress,andlookingstraightintohereyes,said,justasheusedtosayittohermother,"It’sallright,ma’am。"
  Thatsatisfiedherandsetatrestthedoubtsthathadbeguntoworryherlately。Italsotouchedher,andsheshowedthatitdid,bythecordialtoneinwhichshesaid……
  "I’mgladofthat!Ididn’tthinkyou’dbeenaverybadboy,butIfanciedyoumighthavewastedmoneyatthatwickedBaden—Baden,lostyourhearttosomecharmingFrenchwomanwithahusband,orgotintosomeofthescrapesthatyoungmenseemtoconsideranecessarypartofaforeigntour。Don’tstayoutthereinthesun,comeandlieonthegrasshereand`letusbefriendly’,asJousedtosaywhenwegotinthesofacornerandtoldsecrets。"
  Laurieobedientlythrewhimselfdownontheturf,andbegantoamusehimselfbystickingdaisiesintotheribbonsofAmy’shat,thatlaythere。
  "I’mallreadyforthesecrets。"Andheglancedupwithadecidedexpressionofinterestinhiseyes。
  "I’venonetotell。Youmaybegin。"
  "Haven’tonetoblessmyselfwith。Ithoughtperhapsyou’dhadsomenewsfromhome……"
  "Youhaveheardallthathascomelately。Don’tyouhearoften?IfanciedJowouldsendyouvolumes。"
  "She’sverybusy。I’mrovingaboutso,it’simpossibletoberegular,youknow。Whendoyoubeginyourgreatworkofart,Raphaella?’heasked。changingthesubjectabruptlyafteranotherpause,inwhichhehadbeenwonderingifAmyknewhissecretandwantedtotalkaboutit。
  "Never,"sheanswered,withadespondentbutdecidedair。"Rometookallthevanityoutofme,forafterseeingthewondersthere,Ifelttooinsignificanttoliveandgaveupallmyfoolishhopesindespair。"
  "Whyshouldyou,withsomuchenergyandtalent?"
  "That’sjustwhy,becausetalentisn’tgenius,andnoamountofenergycanmakeitso。Iwanttobegreat,ornothing。Iwon’tbeacommon—placedauber,soIdon’tintendtotryanymore。"
  "Andwhatareyougoingtodowithyourselfnow,ifImayask?"
  "Polishupmyothertalents,andbeanornamenttosociety,ifIgetthechance。"
  Itwasacharacteristicspeech,andsoundeddaring,butaudacitybecomesyoungpeople,andAmy’sambitionhadagoodfoundation。Lauriesmiled,buthelikedthespiritwithwhichshetookupanewpurposewhenalong—cherishedonedied,andspentnotimelamenting。
  "Good!AndhereiswhereFredVaughncomesin,Ifancy。"
  Amypreservedadiscreetsilence,buttherewasaconsciouslookinherdowncastfacethatmadeLauriesitupandsaygravely,"NowI’mgoingtoplaybrother,andaskquestions。MayI?"
  "Idon’tpromisetoanswer。"
  "Yourfacewill,ifyourtonguewon’t。Youaren’twomanoftheworldenoughyettohideyourfeelings,mydear。IheardrumorsaboutFredandyoulastyear,andit’smyprivateopinionthatifhehadnotbeencalledhomesosuddenlyanddetainedsolong,somethingwouldhavecomeofit,hey?"
  "That’snotformetosay,"wasAmy’sgrimreply,butherlipswouldsmile,andtherewasatraitoroussparkleoftheeyewhichbetrayedthatsheknewherpowerandenjoyedtheknowledge。
  "Youarenotengaged,Ihope?"AndLaurielookedveryelder—brotherlyandgraveallofasudden。
  "No。"
  "Butyouwillbe,ifhecomesbackandgoesproperlydownonhisknees,won’tyou?"
  "Verylikely。"
  "ThenyouarefondofoldFred?"
  "Icouldbe,ifItried。"
  "Butyoudon’tintendtotrytillthepropermoment?Blessmysoul,whatunearthlyprudence!He’sagoodfellow,Amy,butnotthemanIfanciedyou’dlike。"
  "Heisrich,agentleman,andhasdelightfulmanners,"beganAmy,tryingtobequitecoolanddignified,butfeelingalittleashamedofherself,inspiteofthesincerityofherintentions。
  "Iunderstand。Queensofsocietycan’tgetonwithoutmoney,soyoumeantomakeagoodmatch,andstartinthatway?Quiterightandproper,astheworldgoes,butitsoundsoddfromthelipsofoneofyourmother’sgirls。"
  "True,nevertheless。"
  Ashortspeech,butthequietdecisionwithwhichitwasutteredcontrastedcuriouslywiththeyoungspeaker。Lauriefeltthisinstinctivelyandlaidhimselfdownagain,withasenseofdisappointmentwhichhecouldnotexplain。Hislookandsilence,aswellasacertaininwardself—disapproval,ruffledAmy,andmadeherresolvetodeliverherlecturewithoutdelay。
  "Iwishyou’ddomethefavortorouseyourselfalittle,"shesaidsharply。
  "Doitforme,there’sadeargirl。"
  "Icould,ifItried。"Andshelookedasifshewouldlikedoingitinthemostsummarystyle。
  "Try,then。Igiveyouleave,"returnedLaurie,whoenjoyedhavingsomeonetotease,afterhislongabstinencefromhisfavoritepastime。
  "You’dbeangryinfiveminutes。"
  "I’mneverangrywithyou。Ittakestwoflintstomakeafire。Youareascoolandsoftassnow。"
  "Youdon’tknowwhatIcando。Snowproducesaglowandatingle,ifappliedrightly。Yourindifferenceishalfaffectation,andagoodstirringupwouldproveit。"
  "Stiraway,itwon’thurtmeanditmayamuseyou,asthebigmansaidwhenhislittlewifebeathim。Regardmeinthelightofahusbandoracarpet,andbeattillyouaretired,ifthatsortofexerciseagreeswithyou。"
  Beingdecidedlynettledherself,andlongingtoseehimshakeofftheapathythatsoalteredhim,Amysharpenedbothtongueandpencil,andbegan。
  "FloandIhavegotanewnameforyou。It’sLazyLaurence。Howdoyoulikeit?"
  Shethoughtitwouldannoyhim,butheonlyfoldedhisarmsunderhishead,withanimperturbable,"That’snotbad。Thankyou,ladies。"
  "DoyouwanttoknowwhatIhonestlythinkofyou?"
  "Piningtobetold。"
  "Well,Idespiseyou。"Ifshehadevensaid`Ihateyou’inapetulantorcoquettishtone,hewouldhavelaughedandratherlikedit,butthegrave,almostsad,accentinhervoicemadehimopenhiseyes,andaskquickly……
  "Why,ifyouplease?"
  "Because,witheverychanceforbeinggood,useful,andhappy,youarefaulty,lazy,andmiserable。"
  "Stronglanguage,mademoiselle。"
  "Ifyoulikeit,I’llgoon。"
  "Praydo,it’squiteinteresting。"
  "Ithoughtyou’dfinditso。Selfishpeoplealwaysliketotalkaboutthemselves。"
  "AmIselfish?"Thequestionslippedoutinvoluntarilyandinatoneofsurprise,fortheonevirtueonwhichhepridedhimselfwasgenerosity。
  "Yes,veryselfish,"continuedAmy,inacalm,coolvoice,twiceaseffectivejustthenasanangryone。"I’llshowyouhow,forI’vestudiedyouwhilewewerefrolicking,andI’mnotatallsatisfiedwithyou。Hereyouhavebeenabroadnearlysixmonths,anddonenothingbutwastetimeandmoneyanddisappointyourfriends。"
  "Isn’tafellowtohaveanypleasureafterafour—yeargrind?"
  "Youdon’tlookasifyou’dhadmuch。Atanyrate,youarenonethebetterforit,asfarasIcansee。Isaidwhenwefirstmetthatyouhadimproved。NowItakeitallback,forIdon’tthinkyouhalfsoniceaswhenIleftyouathome。Youhavegrownabominablylazy,youlikegossip,andwastetimeonfrivolousthings,youarecontentedtobepettedandadmiredbysillypeople,insteadofbeinglovedandrespectedbywiseones。Withmoney,talent,position,health,andbeauty,ahyoulikethatoldVanity!Butit’sthetruth,soIcan’thelpsayingit,withallthesesplendidthingstouseandenjoy,youcanfindnothingtodobutdawdle,andinsteadofbeingthemanyououghttobe,youareonly……"Thereshestopped,withalookthathadbothpainandpityinit。
  "SaintLaurenceonagridiron,"addedLaurie,blandlyfinishingthesentence。Butthelecturebegantotakeeffect,fortherewasawide—awakesparkleinhiseyesnowandahalf—angry,half—injuredexpressionreplacedtheformerindifference。
  "Isupposedyou’dtakeitso。Youmentellusweareangels,andsaywecanmakeyouwhatwewill,buttheinstantwehonestlytrytodoyougood,youlaughatusandwon’tlisten,whichproveshowmuchyourflatteryisworth。"Amyspokebitterly,andturnedherbackontheexasperatingmartyratherfeet。
  Inaminuteahandcamedownoverthepage,sothatshecouldnotdraw,andLaurie’svoicesaid,withadrollimitationofapenitentchild,"Iwillbegood,oh,Iwillbegood!"