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第5章

  "He'sgettin'bettereveryday,"Jimsaid。"Dr。Gurneysaysso。There'snothingmuchthematterwithhim,really——it'snine—tenthsimaginary。
  'Nerves'!Peoplethatarewillingtobebusydon'thavenervousdiseases,becausetheydon'thavetimetoimagine'em。"
  "Youmeanhistroubleisreallymental?"
  "Oh,he'snotalunatic,"saidJim。"He'sjustqueer。Sometimeshe'llsaysomethingrightbright,buthalfthetimewhathesaysis'wayoffthesubject,orelsethereisn'tanysensetoitatall。Forinstance,theotherdayIheardhimtalkin'tooneofthedarkiesinthehall。Thedarkyaskedhimwhattimehewantedthecarforhisdrive,andanybodyelseintheworldwouldhavejustsaidwhattimetheyDIDwantit,andthatwouldhavebeenalltherewastoit;buthere'swhatBibbssays,andIheardhimwithmyownears。
  'WhattimedoIwantthecar?'hesays。'Well,now,thatdepends——thatdepends,'hesays。Hetalksslowlikethat,youknow。'I'lltellyouwhattimeIwantthecar,George,'hesays,'ifyou'lltellMEwhatyouthinkofthisstatue!'That'sexactlyhiswords!AskedthedarkywhathethoughtofthatArabEdithandmotherboughtforthehall!"
  Marypondereduponthis。"Hemighthavebeeninfun,perhaps,"shesuggested。
  "Askin'adarkywhathethoughtofapieceofstatuary——ofaworkofart!
  Whereonearthwouldbethefunofthat?No,you'rejustkind—hearted——andthat'sthewayyouOUGHTtobe,ofcourse——"
  "Thankyou,Mr。Sheridan!"shelaughed。
  "Seehere!"hecried。"Isn'tthereanywayforustogetoverthisMisterandMissthing?Amonth'sgotthirty—onedaysinit;I'vemanagedtobewithyouapartofprettynearallthethirty—one,andIthinkyouknowhowIfeelbythistime——"
  Shelookedpanic—strickenimmediately。"Oh,no,"sheprotested,quickly。"No,Idon't,and——"
  "Yes,youdo,"hesaid,andhisvoiceshookalittle。"Youcouldn'thelpknowing。"
  "ButIdo!"shedenied,hurriedly。"Idohelpknowing。Imean——Oh,wait!"
  "Whatfor?YoudoknowhowIfeel,andyou——well,you'vecertainlyWANTEDmetofeelthatway——orelsepretended——"
  "Now,now!"shelamented。"You'respoilingsuchacheerfulafternoon!"
  "'Spoilin'it!'"Hesloweddownthecarandturnedhisfacetohersquarely。
  "Seehere,MissVertrees,haven'tyou——"
  "Stop!Stopthecaraminute。"Andwhenhehadcompliedshefacedhimassquarelyasheevidentlydesiredhertofacehim。"Listen。Idon'twantyoutogoon,to—day。"
  "Whynot?"heasked,sharply。
  "Idon'tknow。"
  "Youmeanit'sjustawhim?"
  "Idon'tknow,"sherepeated。Hervoicewaslowandtroubledandhonest,andshekepthercleareyesuponhis。
  "Willyoutellmesomething?"
  "Almostanything。"
  "Haveyouevertoldanymanyoulovedhim?"
  Andatthat,thoughshelaughed,shelookedalittlecontemptuous。"No,"shesaid。"AndIdon'tthinkIevershalltellanymanthat——oreverknowwhatitmeans。I'minearnest,Mr。Sheridan。"
  "Thenyou——you'vejustbeenflirtingwithme!"PoorJimlookedbothfuriousandcrestfallen。
  "Notonbit!"shecried。"Notoneword!Notonesyllable!I'vemeanteverysinglething!"
  "Idon't——"
  "Ofcourseyoudon't!"shesaid。"Now,Mr。Sheridan,Iwantyoutostartthecar。Now!Thankyou。Slowly,tillIfinishwhatIhavetosay。Ihavenotflirtedwithyou。Ihavedeliberatelycourtedyou。Onethingmore,andthenIwantyoutotakemestraighthome,talkingabouttheweatheralltheway。I
  saidthatIdonotbelieveIshallever'care'foranyman,andthatistrue。
  Idoubttheexistenceofthekindof'caring'wehearaboutinpoemsandplaysandnovels。IthinkitmustbejustakindofemotionalTALK——mostofit。
  Atallevents,Idon'tfeelit。Now,wecangofaster,please。"
  "Justwheredoesthatletmeout?"hedemanded。"Howdoesthatexcuseyoufor——"
  "Itisn'tanexcuse,"shesaid,gently,andgavehimonefinallook,whollydesolate。"Ihaven'tsaidIshouldnevermarry。"
  "What?"Jimgasped。
  Sheinclinedherheadinabrokensortofacquiescence,veryhumble,unfathomablysorrowful。
  "Ipromisenothing,"shesaid,faintly。
  "Youneedn't!"shoutedJim,radiantandexultant。"Youneedn't!ByGeorge!
  Iknowyou'resquare;that'senoughforme!Youwaitandpromisewheneveryou'reready!"
  "Don'tforgetwhatIasked,"shebeggedhim。
  "Talkabouttheweather?Iwill!Godblesstheoldweather!"criedthehappyJim。
  ThroughtheopencountryBibbswasborneflyingbetweenbrownfieldsandsun—fleckedgrovesofgraytrees,tobreathetherushing,cleanairbeneathaglorioussky——thatskysodespisedinthecity,andsomaltreatedthere,thatfromearlyOctobertomid—Mayitwasimpossibleformentorememberthatblueistherightfulcoloroverhead。
  UponeachofBibbs'scheekstherewasahintofsomethingalmostresemblingapinkishness;notactualcolor,butundeniablyitsphantom。Howlargelythisapparitionmayhavebeentheworkofthewinduponhisfaceitisdifficulttocalculate,forbeyondadoubtitwaspartlytheresultofalady'sbowingtohimuponnomoreformalintroductionthanthecircumstanceofhishavingcaughtherlookingintohiswindowamonthbefore。Shehadboweddefinitely;
  shehadbowedcharmingly。AnditseemedtoBibbsthatshemusthavemeanttoconveyherforgiveness。
  Therehadbeensomethinginherrecognitionofhimunfamiliartohisexperience,andherodethewarmerforit。Nordidhelacktheimpressionthathewouldlongrememberherashehadjustseenher:herveiltumultuouslyblowingback,herfaceglowinginthewind——andthatlookofgayfriendlinesstossedtohimlikeafreshroseincarnival。
  Byandby,uponarisingground,thedriverhaltedthecar,thenbackedandtacked,andsentitforwardagainwithitsnosetothesouthandthesmoke。
  FarbeforehimBibbssawthegreatsmudgeuponthehorizon,thatnestofcloudinwhichthecitystroveandpantedlikeanengineshroudedinitsownsteam。ButtoBibbs,whohadnowtogototheveryheartofit,foracommandedinterviewwithhisfather,thedistantcloudwaslikeanimplacablegeniusissuingthunderouslyinsmokefromhisenchantedbottle,andirresistiblydrawingBibbsnearerandnearer。
  Theypassedfromthefarmlands,andcame,intheamberlightofNovemberlateafternoon,tothefarthermostoutskirtsofthecity;andheretheskyshimmereduponthevergeofchangefrombluetogray;thesmokedidnotvisiblypermeatetheair,butitwasthere,nevertheless——impalpable,thin,nomorethanthedustofsmoke。Andthen,asthecardroveon,thechimneysandstacksoffactoriescameswimmingupintoviewlikemilesofsteamersadvancingabreast,everyfunnelwithitsvastplume,savageandblack,sweepingtothehorizon,drippingwealthanddirtandsuffocationoverleagueonleaguealreadyrichandvilewithgrime。
  Theskyhadbecomeonlyadingythickeningofthesoiledair;andaroarandclangorofmetalsbeatdeafeninglyonBibbs'sears。Andnowthecarpassedtwogreatblocksoflongbrickbuildings,hideousinallwayspossibletomakethemhideous;doorwaysshowingdarkonemomentandluridthenextwiththeleapofsomevirulentinteriorflame,revealingblackenedgiants,halfnaked,inpassionateaction,strugglingwithformlessthingsinthehotillumination。Andbigastheseshopswere,theyweregrowingbigger,spreadingoverathirdblock,wheretwonewstructuresweremushroomingtocompletioninsomehastycementprocessofastabilitynotover—reassuring。
  Bibbspulledtherugcloserabouthim,andnoteventhephantomofcolorwasleftuponhischeeksashepassedthisplace,forheknewittoowell。
  Acrossthefaceofoneofthebuildingstherewasanenormoussign:"SheridanAutomaticPumpCo。,Inc。"
  Thencetheywentthroughstreetsofwoodenhouses,allgrimed,andaddingtheirowngrimefrommanyasootychimney;flimseywoodenhousesofathousandflimsywhimsiesinthefashioning,builtonnarrowlotsandnudgingoneanothercrossly,shuttingoutthestingysunlightfromoneanother;badneighborswhowoulddestroyoneanotherrootandbranchsomenightwhentherightwindblew。Theywereonlywaitingforthatwindandacigarette,andthentheywouldallbegonetogether——apinchofincenseburneduponthetripodofthegod。
  Alongthesestreetstherewereskinnyshade—trees,andhereandthereaforestelmorwalnuthadbeenleft;buttheseweredying。Somepeoplesaiditwasthescale;somesaiditwasthesmoke;andsomeweresurethatasphaltand"improving"thestreetsdidit;butBignesswasintooBigahurrytobothermuchabouttrees。Hehadtelegraph—polesandtelephone—polesandelectric—light—polesandtrolley—pollsbythethousandtotaketheirplaces。
  Soheletthetreesdieandputuphispoles。Theywerehideous,butnobodymindedthat;andsometimesthewiresfellandkilledpeople——butnotoftenenoughtomatteratall。
  ThenceonwardthecarboreBibbsthroughtheolderpartsofthetownwherethefewsolidoldhousesnotalreadydemolishedwereintransition:some,withtheirfrontstornaway,werebeingmadeintosegmentsofapartment—buildings;othershadgoneuproariouslyintotrade,brazenlyputtingforth"show—windows"ontheirfirstfloors,seemingtomeanitforajoke;oneortwowithunalteredfacadespeepedhumorouslyoverthetopsoftemporaryofficebuildingsofonestoryerectedintheoldfrontyards。
  Altogether,thetownherewaslikeaboarding—househashtheSundayafterThanksgiving;theoldingredientswerediscernible。
  ThiswasthefringeofBigness'sownsanctuary,andnowBibbsreachedtheroaringholyofholiesitself。Thecarmuststopateverycrossingwhilethedark—garbedcrowds,envelopedinmaelstromsofdust,hurriedbeforeit。
  Magnificentnewbuildings,alreadydingy,loomedhundredsoffeetabovehim;
  newerones,moremagnificent,wererisingbesidethem,risinghigher;oldbuildingswerecomingdown;middle—agedbuildingswerecomingdown;thestreetswerelaidopentotheirentrailsandmenworkedundergroundbetweenpalisades,andoverheadinmetalcobwebslikespidersinthesky。
  Trolley—carsandlonginterurbancars,builttosplitthewindliketorpedo—boats,clangedandshriekedtheirwayroundswarmingcorners;
  motor—carsofeverykindandshapeknowntomanbabbledfrightfulwarningsandfranticdemands;hospitalambulancesclamoredwildlyforpassage;
  steam—whistlessignaledtheswingingoftitanictentacleandclaw;rivetersrattledlikemachine—guns;thegroundshooktothethunderofgigantictrucks;andtheconglomeratesoundofitallwasthesoundofearthquakeplayingaccompanimentsforbattleandsuddendeath。Ononeofthenewsteelbuildingsnoworkwasbeingdonethatafternoon。Thebuildinghadkilledamaninthemorning——andthesteel—workersalwaysstopforthedaywhenthat"happens。"
  Andinthehurryingcrowds,swirlingandsiftingthroughthebrobdingnagiancampofironandsteel,onesawthecamp—followersandthepaganwomen——therewouldbeworkto—dayanddancingto—night。ForthePuritan'sdryvoiceisbutthecracklingofaleafunderfootintherushandroarofthecomingofthenewEgypt。
  Bibbswasontime。Heknewitmustbe"totheminute"orhisfatherwouldconsideritanoutrage;andthebigchronometerinSheridan'sofficemarkedfourpreciselywhenBibbswalkedin。Coincidentallywithhisentrancefivepeoplewhohadbeenatworkintheoffice,underSheridan'sdirection,walkedout。Theydeparteduponnovisibleoraudiblesuggestion,andwithapromptnessthatseemedominoustothenew—comer。Asthemassivedoorclickedsoftlybehindtheelderlystenographer,thelastoftheprocession,Bibbshadafeelingthattheyallunderstoodthathewasafailureasagreatman'sson,adisappointment,the"queerone"ofthefamily,andthathehadbeensummonedtojudgment——awell—foundedimpression,forthatwasexactlywhattheyunderstood。
  "Sitdown,"saidSheridan。
  Itisfrequentlyanadvantagefordeans,school—masters,andworriedfatherstoplacedelinquentsinthesitting—posture。Bibbssat。
  Sheridan,standing,gazedenigmaticallyuponhissonforaperiodofsilence,thenwalkedslowlytoawindowandstoodlookingoutofit,hisbighands,looselyhookedtogetherbythethumbs,behindhisback。Theyweresoiled,aswereallotherhandsdown—town,exceptsuchasmightbestilldampfromabasin。
  "Well,Bibbs,"hesaidatlast,notalteringhisattitude,"doyouknowwhatI'mgoin'todowithyou?"
  Bibbs,leaningbackinhischair,fixedhiseyescontemplativelyupontheceiling。"IheardyoutellJim,"hebegan,inhisslowway。"Yousaidyou'dsendhimtothemachine—shopwithmeifhedidn'tproposetoMissVertrees。
  SoIsupposethatmustbeyourplanforme。But——"
  "Butwhat?"saidSheridan,irritably,asthesonpaused。
  "Isn'ttheresomebodyyou'dletMEproposeto?"
  Thatbroughthisfathersharplyroundtofacehim。"Youbeatthedevil!
  Bibbs,whatISthematterwithyou?Whycan'tyoubelikeanybodyelse?"
  "Liver,maybe,"saidBibbs,gently。
  "Boh!EvenoleDocGurneysaysthere'snothin'wrongwithyouorganically。
  No。You'readreamer,Bibbs;that'swhat'sthematter,andthat'sALLthematter。Oh,nooneo'theseBIGdreamersthatputthroughthebigdeals。!
  No,sir!You'rethekindo'dreamerthatjustsetsoutonthebackfenceandthinksabouthowmuchtroubletheremustbeintheworld!Thatain'tthekindthatbuildsthebridges,Bibbs;it'sthekindthatborrowsfifteencentsfromhiswife'suncle'sbrother—in—lawtogettencent'swortho'plugtobaccoandanickel'swortho'quinine!"
  Heputthefinishingtouchonthisetchingwithasnort,andturnedagaintothewindow。
  "Lookoutthere!"hebadehisson。"Lookouto'thatwindow!Lookatthelifeandevergydownthere!IshouldthinkANYyoungman'sbloodwouldtingletogetintoitandbepartofit。Lookatthebigthingsyoungmenaredoin'inthistown!"Heswungabout,comingtothemahoganydeskinthemiddleoftheroom。"LookatwhatIwasdoin'atyourage!Lookatwhatyourownbrothersaredoin'!LookatRoscoe!Yes,andlookatJim!ImadeJimpresidento'theSheridanRealtyCompanylastNew—Year's,withchargeofeveryincho'groundandeverybrickandeveryshingleandsticko'woodweown;andit'sanexampletoanyyoungman——oroleman,either——thewayhetookaholdofit。LastJulywefoundoutwewantedtwomorebigwarehousesatthePumpWorks——wanted'emquick。Contractorssaiditcouldn'tbedone;
  saidnineortenmonthsatthesoonest;couldn'tseeitanyotherway。What'dJimdo?Tookthecontracthimself;foundafellowwithanewcementandconcreteprocess;keptmenonthejobnightandday,andstayedonitnightanddayhimself——and,byGeorge!webegintoUSEthemwarehousesnextweek!
  Fourmonthsandahalf,andeveryinchfireproof!ItellyouJim'soneo'
  thesefellersthatmakemiracleshappen!Now,Idon'tsayeveryyoungmancanbelikeJim,becausethere'smightyfewgothisability,buteveryyoungmancangoinanddohisshare。ThistownisGod'sowncountry,andthere'sopportunityforanybodywithapoundofenergyandanounceo'gumption。I
  tellyoutheseyoungbusinessmenIwatchjustdomyheartgood!THEYdon'tsetaroundonthebackfence——no,sir!Theytakeenoughexercisetokeeptheirhealth;andtheygotoabaseballgameonceortwiceaweekinsummmer,maybe,andthey'reraisin'nicefamilies,withsonstotaketheirplacessometimeandcarryonthework——becausethework'sgottogoON!They'reputtin'theirlife—bloodintoit,Itellyou,andthat'swhywe'regettin'
  biggereveryminute,andwhyTHEY'REgettin'bigger,andwhyit'sallgoin'
  tokeepONgettin'bigger!"
  Heslappedthedeskresoundinglywithhisopenpalm,andthen,observingthatBibbsremainedinthesameimpassiveattitude,withhiseyesstillfixedupontheceilinginacontemplationsomewhatplaintive,Sheridanwasimpelledtogroan。"Oh,Lord!"hesaid。"Thisisthewayyoualwayswere。Idon'tbelieveyouunderstoodadarnwordIbeensayin'!Youdon'tLOOKasifyoudid。ByGeorge!it'sdiscouraging!"
  "Idon'tunderstandaboutgetting——aboutgettingbigger,"saidBibbs,bringinghisgazedowntolookathisfatherplacatively。"Idon'tseejustwhy——"
  "WHAT?"Sheridanleanedforward,restinghishandsuponthedeskandstaringacrossitincredulouslyathisson。
  "Idon'tunderstand——exactly——whatyouwantitallbiggerfor?"
  "GreatGod!"shoutedSheridan,andstruckthedeskablowwithhisclenchedfist。"Asonofmineasksmethat!Yougooutandaskthepoorestday—laboreryoucanfind!Askhimthatquestion——"
  "Ididonce,"Bibbsinterrupted;"whenIwasinthemachine—shop。I——"
  "Wha'dhesay?"
  "Hesaid,'Oh,hell!'"answeredBibbs,mildly。
  "Yes,Ireckonhewould!"Sheridanswungawayfromthedesk。"Ireckonhecertainlywould!AndIgotplentysympathywithhimrightnow,myself!"
  "It'sthesameanswer,then?"Bibbs'svoicewasserious,almosttremulous。
  "Damnation!"Sheridanroared。"DidyoueverhearthewordProsperity,youninny?DidyoueverhearthewordAmbition?DidyoueverhearthewordPROGRESS?"
  Heflunghimselfintoachairaftertheoutburst,hisbigchestsurging,histhroattumultuouswithgutteralincoherences。"Nowthen,"hesaid,huskily,whentheanguishhadsomewhatabated,"whatdoyouwanttodo?"
  "Sir?"
  "WhatdoyouWANTtodo,Isaid。"
  Takenbysurprise,Bibbsstammered。"What——whatdo——I——what——"
  "IfI'dletyoudoexactlywhatyouhadthewhimfor,whatwouldyoudo?"
  Bibbslookedstartled;thentimidityoverwhelmedhim——aprofoundshyness。Hebenthisheadandfixedhisloweredeyesuponthetoeofhisshoe,whichhemovedtoandfroupontherug,likeaculpritcalledtothedeskinschool。
  "Whatwouldyoudo?Loaf?"
  "No,sir。"Bibbs'svoicewasalmostinaudible,andwhatlittlesounditmadewasunquestionablyaguiltysound。"IsupposeI'd——I'd——"
  "Well?"
  "IsupposeI'dtryto——towrite。"
  "Writewhat?"
  "Nothingimportant——justpoemsandessays,perhaps。"
  "Thatall?"
  "Yes,sir。"
  "Isee,"saidhisfather,breathingquicklywiththerestrainthewasputtinguponhimself。"Thatis,youwanttowrite,butyoudon'twanttowriteanythingofanyaccount。"
  "Youthink——"
  Sheridangotupagain。"Itakemyhatofftothemanthatcanwriteagoodad,"hesaid,emphatically。"Thebestwritin'talentinthiscountryisrightspangintheadbusinessto—day。Youbuyamagazineforgoodwritin'——lookonthebackofit!LetmetellyouIpaymoneyforthatkindo'writin'。Maybeyouthinkit'seasy。Justtryit!I'vetriedit,andI
  can'tdoit。Itellyouanad'sgottobewrittensoitmakespeopledothehardestthinginthisworldtoGET'emtodo:it'sgottomake'emgiveuptheirMONEY!Youtalkabout'poemsandessays。'Itellyouwhenitcomestotheactualskillo'puttin'wordstogethersoastomakethingsHAPPEN,R。T。
  Bloss,righthereinthiscity,knowsmoreinaminutethanGeorgeWaldoEmersoneverknewinhiswholelife!"
  "You——youmaybe——"Bibbssaid,indistinctly,thelastwordsmotheredinacough。
  "OfCOURSEI'mright!Andifitain'tjustlikeyoutowanttotakeupwiththemostout—o'—datekindo'writin'thereis!'Poemsandessays'!MyLord,Bibbs,that'sWOMEN'Swork!Youcan'tpickupanewspaperwithouthavin'toseewhereMrs。Rumskididlereadapaperon'JaneEyre,'or'EastLynne,'attheGod—Knows—WhatClub。And'poetry'!Why,lookatEdith!Iexpectthatpoemo'herswouldsetaprettyhigh—watermarkforyou,youngman,andit'stheonlyoneshe'severmanagedtowriteinherwholeLIFE!WhenIwantedhertogoonandwritesomemoreshesaidittooktoomuchtime。Saidittookmonthsandmonths。AndEdith'sasmartgirl;she'sgotmoreenergyinherlittlefingerthanyouevergivemeachancetoseeinyourwholebody,Bibbs。Nowlookatthefacts:sayshecouldturnoutfourorfivepoemsayearandyoucouldturnoutmaybetwo。Thatmedalshegotwasworthaboutfifteendollars,sothere'syourincome——thirtydollarsayear!That'safinesuccesstomakeofyourlife!I'mnotsayin'awordagainstpoetry。I
  wouldn'ttaketenthousanddollarsrightnowforthatpoemofEdith's;andpoetry'sallrightenoughinitsplace——butyouleaveittothegirls。A
  man'sgottodoaman'sworkinthisworld!"
  Heseatedhimselfinachairathisson'ssideand,leaningover,tappedBibbsconfidentiallyontheknee。"Thiscity'sgotthegreatestfutureinAmerica,andifmysonsbehaverightbymeandbythemselvesthey'regoin'tohaveamightyfairshareofit——amightyfairshare。Ilovethistown。It'sGod'sownfootstool,andit'smademoneyformeeverydayrightalong,I
  don'tknowhowmanyyears。IloveitlikeIdomyownbusiness,andI'dfightforitasquickasI'dfightformyownfamily。It'sabeautifultown。
  Lookatourwholesaledistrict;lookatanydistrictyouwantto;lookattheparksystemwe'reputtin'through,andtheboulevardsandthepublicstatuary。Andshegrows。God!howshegrows!"Hehadbecomeintenselygrave;hespokewithsolemnity。"Now,Bibbs,Ican'ttakeanyofit——noranygoldorsilvernorbuildingsnorbonds——awaywithmeinmyshroudwhenI
  havetogo。ButIwanttoleavemyshareinittomyboys。I'veworkedforit;I'vebeenabuilderandamaker;andtwobladesofgrasshavegrownwhereonegrewbefore,wheneverIlaidmyhandonthegroundandwilled'emtogrow。I'vebuiltbig,andIwantthebuildin'togoon。AndwhenmylasthourcomesIwanttoknowthatmyboysarereadytotakecharge;thatthey'refittotakechargeandgoONwithit。Bibbs,whenthathourcomesIwanttoknowthatmyboysarebigmen,readyandfittoholdofbigthings。Bibbs,whenI'mupaboveIwanttoknowthatthebigshareI'vemademine,herebelow,isgrowin'biggerandbiggerinthechargeofmyboys。"
  Heleanedback,deeplymoved。"There!"hesaid,huskily。"I'veneverspokenmorewhatwasinmyheartinmylife。IdoitbecauseIwantyoutounderstand——andnotthinkmeameanfather。IneverhadtotalkthatwaytoJimandRoscoe。Theyunderstoodwithoutanytalk,Bibbs。"
  "Isee,"saidBibbs。"AtleastIthinkIdo。But——"
  "Waitaminute!"Sheridanraisedhishand。"Ifyouseetheleastbitintheworld,thenyouunderstandhowitfeelstometohavemysonsethereandtalkabout'poemsandessays'andsuch—likefooleries。Andyoumustunderstand,too,whatitmeanttostartoneo'myboysandhavehimcomebackonmethewayyoudid,andhavetobesenttoasanitariumbecausehecouldn'tstandwork。Now,let'sgetrightdowntoit,Bibbs。I'vehadawholeloto'talkwitholeDocGurneyaboutyou,onetimeanother,andI
  reckonIunderstandyourcasejustaboutaswellashedoes,anyway!Nowhere,I'llbefrankwithyou。IstartedyouinharderthanwhatIdidtheotherboys,andthatwasforyourowngood,becauseIsawyouneededtobeshookupmore'ntheydid。Youwerealwayskindofmoodyandmopish——andyouneededworkthat'dkeepyouonthejump。Now,whydiditmakeyousickinsteadofbraceyouupandmakeamanofyouthewayitoughtofdone?I
  pinnedoleGurneydowntoit。Isays,'Lookhere,ain'titreallybecausehejustplainhatedit?''Yes,'hesays,'that'sit。Ifhe'denjoyedit,itwouldn't'a'hurthim。Heloathesit,andthataffectshisnervoussystemThemorehetriesit,themorehehatesit;andthemorehehatesit,themoreinjuryitdoeshim。'Thatain'tquitehiswords,butit'swhathemeant。Andthat'saboutthewayitis。"
  "Yes,"saidBibbs,"that'saboutthewayitis。"
  "Well,then,Ireckonit'suptomenotonlytomakeyoudoit,buttomakeyoulikeit!"
  Bibbsshivered。Andheturneduponhisfatheralookthatwasalmostghostly。"Ican't,"hesaid,inalowvoice。"Ican't。"
  "Can'tgobacktotheshop?"
  "No。Can'tlikeit。Ican't。"
  Sheridanjumpedup,hispatiencegone。Tohisownview,hehadreasonedexhaustively,hadexplainedfullyandhadpleadedmorethanafathershould,onlytobemetintheendwiththeunreasoningandmysteriousstubbornnesswhichhadbeenBibbs'sbafflingcharacteristicfromchildhood。"ByGeorge,youwill!"hecried。"You'llgobackthereandyou'lllikeit!Gurneysaysitwon'thurtyouifyoulikeit,andhesaysit'llkillyouifyougobackandhateit;soitlooksasifitwasaboutuptoyounottohateit。Well,Gurney'safool!Hatin'workdoesn'tkillanybody;andthisisn'tgoin'tokillyou,whetheryouhateitornot。I'venevermadeamistakeinaseriousmatterinmylife,anditwasn'tamistakemysendin'youthereinthefirstplace。AndI'mgoin'toproveit——I'mgoin'tosendyoubackthereandvindicatemyjudgment。Gurneysaysit'sall'mentalattitude。'Well,you'regoin'tolearntherightone!Hesaysinacouplemoremonthsthisfoolthingthat'sbeenthematterwithyou'llbedisappearedcompletelyandyou'llbebackinasgoodorbetterconditionthanyouwerebeforeyoueverwentintotheshop。Andrighttheniswhenyoubeginover——rightinthatsameshop!Nobodycancallmeahardmanorameanfather。IdothebestI
  canformychuldern,andItakefullresponsibilityforbringin'mysonsuptobemen。Now,sofar,I'vefailedwithyou。ButI'mnotgoin'tokeepON
  failin'。InevertackledajobYETIdidn'tputthrough,andI'mnotgoin'
  tobeginwithmyownson。I'mgoin'tomakeaMANofyou。ByGod!Iam!"
  Bibbsroseandwentslowlytothedoor,whereheturned。"Yousayyougivemeacoupleofmonths?"hesaid。
  Sheridanpushedabell—buttononhisdesk。"Gurneysaidtwomonthsmorewouldputyoubackwhereyouwere。Yougohomeandbegintogetyourselfintheright'mentalattitude'beforethosetwomonthsareup!Good—by!"
  "Good—by,sir,"saidBibbs,meekly。