andthenhesaidwhathehadtosayonthesubjectofRoscoeandSibyl,hisopinionmeeting,asheexpected,awarmlyhostilereception。ButtheresultofthisconversationwasthatbytelephoniccommandRoscoeawaitedhisfather,anhourlater,inthelibraryattheNewHouse。
"Gurneysaysyourwife'sabletotravel,"Sheridansaidbrusquely,ashecamein。
"Yes。"Roscoeoccupiedadeepchairandsatinthedejectedattitudewhichhadbecomehishabit。"Yes,sheis。"
"Edithhadtoleavetown,andsoSibylthinksshe'llhaveto,too!"
"Oh,Iwouldn'tputitthatway,"Roscoeprotested,drearily。
"No,IhearYOUwouldn't!"Therewasabittergibeinthefather'svoice,andheadded:"It'sagoodthingshe'sgoin'abroad——ifshe'llstaythere。I
shouldn'tthinkanyofuswantherhereanymore——youleastofall!"
"It'snouseyourtalkingthatway,"saidRoscoe。"Youwon'tdoanygood。"
"Well,whenareyoucomin'backtoyouroffice?"Sheridanusedabrisker,kindertone。"Threeweekssinceyoushowedupthereatall。Whenyougoin'
tobereadytocutoutwhiskeyandalltheresto'thefoolishnessandstartinagain?Yououghttobeabletomakeupforaloto'losttimeandaloto'
spiltmilkwhenthatwomantakesherselfouto'thewayandletsyouandalltherestofusalone。"
"It'snouse,father,Itellyou。IknowwhatGurneywasgoingtosaytoyou。
I'mnotgoingbacktotheoffice。I'mDONE!"
"Waitaminutebeforeyoutalkthatway!"Sheridanbeganhissentry—goupanddowntheroom。"Isupposeyouknowit'stakentwoprettygoodmenaboutsixteenhoursadaytosetthingsstraightandget'emrunnin'rightagain,downinyouroffice?"
"Theymustbegoodmen。"Roscoenoddedindifferently。"IthoughtIwasdoingabouteightmen'swork。I'mgladyoufoundtwothatcouldhandleit。"
"Lookhere!IfIworkedyouitwasforyourowngood。Thereareplentymendriveharder'nIdo,and——"
"Yes。Therearesomethatbreakdownalltheothermenthatworkwith'em。
Theyeitherdie,orgocrazy,orhavetoquit,andarenousetherestoftheirlives。Thelast'smycase,Iguess——'complicatedbydomesticdifficulties'!"
"Yousetthereandtellmeyougiveup?"Sheridan'svoiceshook,andsodidthegesticulatinghandwhichheextendedappealinglytowardthedespondentfigure。"Don'tdoit,Roscoe!Don'tsayit!Sayyou'llcomedownthereagainandbeaman!Thiswomanain'tgoin'totroubleyouanymore。Theworkain'tgoin'tohurtyouifyouhaven'tgothertoworryyou,andyoucangetshuto'thisnastywhiskey—guzzlin';itain'tfastenedonyouyet。Don'tsay——"
"It'snouseonearth,"Roscoemumbled。"Nouseonearth。"
"Lookhere!Ifyouwantanothermonth'svacation——"
"IknowGurneytoldyou,sowhat'stheusetalkingabout'vacations'?"
"Gurney!"Sheridanvociferatedthenamesavagely。"It'sGurney,Gurney,Gurney!AlwaysGurney!Idon'tknowwhattheworld'scomin'towitheverybodyrunnin'aroundsquealin','Thedoctorsaysthis,'and,'Thedoctorsaysthat'!Itmakesmesick!How'sthiscountryexpecttogetitsWorkdoneifGurneyandalltheotheroldnanny—goatskeepupthisblattin'——'Oh,oh!
Don'tliftthatsticko'wood;you'llruinyourNERVES!'Sohesaysyougot'nervousexhaustioninducedbyoverworkandemotionalstrain。'TheyalwaysgottosticktheWorkiniftheyseeachance!Ireckonyoudidhavethe'emotionalstrain,'andthat'sall'sthematterwithyou。You'llbeoveritsoon'sthiswoman'sgone,andWork'stheverythingtomakeyouquitfrettin'
abouther。"
"DidGurneytellyouIwasfittowork?"
"Shutup!"Sheridanbellowed。"I'msosicko'thatman'snameIfeellikeshootin'anybodythatsaysittome!"Hefumedandchafed,swearingindistinctly,thencameandstoodbeforehisson。"Lookhere;doyouthinkyou'redoin'thesquarethingbyme?Doyou?Howmuchyouworth?"
"I'vegotbetweensevenandeightthousandayearclear,ofmyown,outsidethesalary。ThatmuchisminewhetherIworkornot。"
"Itis?Youcould'apulleditoutwithoutme,Isupposeyouthink,atyourage?"
"No。Butit'smine,andit'senough。"
"MyLord!It'saboutwhataCongressmangets,andyouwanttoquitthere!I
supposeyouthinkyou'llgettherestwhenIkickthebucket,andallyouhavetodoislaybackandwait!Youletmetellyourighthere,you'llneverseeonecentofit。Yougoouto'businessnow,andwhatwouldyouknowabouthandlin'itfiveortenortwentyyearsfromnow?BecauseIintendtoSTAY
herealittlewhileyet,myboy!They'deithergetitawayfromyouoryou'dsellforanickelandletitbesplitupand——"Hewhirledabout,marchedtotheotherendoftheroom,andstoodsilentamoment。Thenhesaid,solomnly:
"Listen。Ifyougooutnow,youleavemeinthelurch,withnothin'onGod'sgreenearthtodependonbutyourbrother——andyouknowwhatheis。I'vedependedonyouforitALLsinceJimdied。Nowyou'velistenedtothatdam'
doctor,andhesaysmaybeyouwon'teverbeasgoodamanasyouwere,andthatcertainlyyouwon'tbeforayearorso——probablymore。Now,that'sallalie。Mendon'tbreakdownthatwayatyourage。LookatME!AndItellyou,youcanshakethisthingoff。AllyouneedisalittleGET—upandalittlegumption。Mendon'tgoawayforYEARSandthencomebackintoMOVING
businesseslikeours——theylosethestrings。Andifyoucould,Iwon'tletyou——ifyoulaydownonmenow,Iwon't——andthat'sbecauseifyoulaydownyouproveyouain'tthemanIthoughtyouwere。"Heclearedhisthroatandfinishedquietly:"Roscoe,willyoutakeamonth'svacationandcomebackandgotoit?"
"No,"saidRoscoe,listlessly。"I'mthrough。"
"Allright,"saidSheridan。Hepickeduptheeveningpaperfromatable,wenttoachairbythefireandsatdown,hisbacktohisson。"Good—by。"
Roscoerose,hisheadhanging,buttherewasadullreliefinhiseyes。"BestIcando,"hemuttered,seemingabouttodepart,yetlingering。"Ifigureitoutagooddeallikethis,"hesaid。"Ididn'tKNOWmyjobwasanystrain,andImanagedallright,butfromwhatGur——fromwhatIhear,Iwasjustuptothelimitofmynervesfromoverwork,andthe——thetroubleathomewastheextrastrainthat'sfixedmethewayIam。Itriedtobrace,soIcouldstandtheworkandthetroubletoo,onwhiskey——andthatputthefinishtome!
I——I'mnothittingitashardasIwasforawhile,andIreckonprettysoon,ifIcangettofeelingalittlemoreenergy,Ibettertrytoquitentirely——I
don'tknow。I'mallin——andthedoctorsaysso。IthoughtIwasrunningalongfineuptoafewmonthsago,butallthetimeIwasreadytobust,anddidn'tknowit。Now,then,Idon'twantyoutoblameSibyl,andifIwereyouIwouldn'tspeakofheras'thatwoman,'becauseshe'syourdaughter—in—lawandgoingtostaythatway。Shedidn'tdoanythingwicked。Itwasashocktome,andIdon'tdenyit,tofindwhatshehaddone——encouragingthatfellowtohangaroundherafterhebegantryingtoflirtwithher,andlosingherheadoverhimthewayshedid。Idon'tdenyitwasashockandthatit'llalwaysbeahurtinsideofmeI'llnevergetover。Butitwasmyfault;Ididn'tunderstandawoman'snature。"PoorRoscoespokeinthemostprofoundanddesolateearnest。"Awomancravessociety,andgaiety,andmeetingattractivepeople,andtraveling。Well,Ican'tgivehertheotherthings,butIcangiveherthetraveling——realtraveling,notjustgoingtoAtlanticCityorNewOrleans,thewayshehas,two,threetimes。Awomanhastohavesomethinginherlifebesidesabusinessman。Andthat'sALLIwas。IneverunderstoodtillIheardhertalkingwhenshewassosick,andIbelieveifyou'dheardherthenyouwouldn'tspeaksohard—heartedlyabouther;IbelieveyoumighthaveforgivenherlikeIhave。That'sall。Inevercaredanythingforanygirlbutherinmylife,butIwassobusywithbusinessIputitaheadofher。IneverTHOUGHTabouther,Iwassobusythinkingbusiness。Well,thisiswhereit'sbroughtusto——andnowwhenyoutalkabout'business'tomeI
feelthewayyoudowhenanybodytalksaboutGurneytoyou。Theword'business'makesmedizzy——itmakesmehonestlysickatthestomach。I
believeifIhadtogodown—townandstepinsidethatofficedoorI'dfalldownonthefloor,deathlysick。Youtalkabouta'month'svacation'——andI
getjustassick。I'mrattled——Ican'tplan——Ihaven'tgotanyplans——can'tmakeany,excepttotakemygirlandgetjustasfarawayfromthatofficeasIcan——andstay。We'regoingtoJapanfirst,andifwe——"
Hisfatherrustledthepaper。"Isaidgood—by,Roscoe。"
"Good—by,"saidRoscoe,listlessly。
Sheridanwaiteduntilheheardthesoundoftheouterdoorclosing;thenheroseandpushedatinydisksetinthewall。Jacksonappeared。
"HasBibbsgothomefromwork?"
"Mist'Bibbs?No,suh。"
"TellhimIwanttoseehim,soonashecomes。"
"Yessuh。"
Sheridanreturnedtohischairandfixedhisattentionfiercelyuponthenewspaper。Hefounditdifficulttopursuetheitemsbeyondtheirexplanatoryrubrics——therewasnothingunusualorstartlingtoconcentratehisattention:
"MotormanPutsBlameonBrakes。ThreeKilledwhenCarSlides。"
"BurglarsMakeBigHaul。""BoardWorksApproveBigCar—lineExtension。""Hold—upMenInjureTwo。ManFoundinAlley,SkullFractured。""SickeningStoryToldinDivorceCourt。""PlanNewEighteen—storyStructure。""School—girlMeetsDeathunderAutomobile。""NegroCutsThree。OneDead。""LifeCrushedOut。
ThirdElevatorAccidentinSameBuildingCausesActionbyCoroner。""DeclareMilitiawillbeMenace。PolishSocietiesProtesttoGovernorinChurchRiotingCase。""Short$3,500inAccounts,TrustedManKillsSelfwithDrug。""FoundFrozen。
FamilyWithoutFoodorFuel。BabyDeadwhenParentsReturnHomefromSeekingWork。""MinisterReturnedfromTripAbroadLecturesonBigFutureofOurCity。SeesBigImprovementduringShortAbsence。SaysNoEuropeanCityHoldsCandle。"
(Sheridannoddedapprovinglyhere。)
Bibbscamethroughthehallwhistling,andenteredtheroombriskly。"Well,father,didyouwantme?"
"Yes。Sitdown。"Sheridangotup,andBibbstookaseatbythefire,holdingouthishandstothecracklingblaze,foritwascoldoutdoors。
"Icamewithinsevenoftheshoprecordto—day,"hesaid。"Ihandledmorestripsthandanyotherworkmanhasanydaythismonth。Thenearesttomeissixteenbehind。"
"There!"exclaimedhisfather,greatlypleased。"What'dItellyou?I'dliketohearGurneyhintagainthatIwasn'trightinsendingyouthere——Iwouldjustliketohearhim!Andyou——ain'tyouashamedofmakin'suchafussaboutit?Ain'tyou?"
"Ididn'tgoatitintherightspirittheothertime,"Bibbssaid,smilingbrightly,hisfaceruddyinthecheerfulfirelight。"Ididn'tknowthedifferenceitmeanttolikeathing。"
"Well,IguessI'veprettythoroughlyvindicatedmyjudgement。IguessI
HAVE!Isaidtheshop'dbegoodforyou,anditwas。Isaiditwouldn'thurtyou,andithasn't。It'sbeenjustexactlywhatIsaiditwouldbe。
Ain'tthatso?"
"Lookslikeit!"Bibbsagreed,gaily。
"Well,I'dliketoknowanyplaceIbeenwrong,firstandlast!Insteado'
hurtingyou,it'sbeenthemakin'ofyou——physically。You'reagoodinchtaller'nwhatIam,andyou'dbeabiggermanthanwhatIamifyou'dgetsomefleshonyourbones;andyouAREgettin'alittle。Physically,it'sstartedyououttobethehuskiestoneo'thewholefamily。Now,then,mentally——that'sdifferent。Idon'tsayitunkindly,Bibbs,butyougottodosomethingforyourselfmentally,justlikewhat'sbegunphysically。AndI'mgoin'tohelpyou。"
Sheridandecidedtositdownagain。Hebroughthischairclosetohisson's,and,leaningover,tappedBibbs'skneeconfidentially。"Igotplansforyou,Bibbs,"hesaid。
Bibbsinstantlylookedthoroughlyalarmed。Hedrewback。"I——I'mallrightnow,father。"
"Listen。"Sheridansettledhimselfinhischair,andspokeinthetoneofareasonablemanreasoning。"Listenhere,Bibbs。Ihadanotherblowto—day,anditwasahardoneandrightintheface,thoughIHAVEbeenexpectin'itsomelittletimeback。Well,it'sgottobemet。NowI'llbefrankwithyou。
AsIsaidaminuteago,mentallyIcouldn'tevercalledyouexactlystrong。
Youbeenalittleweakbothways,mostofyourlife。NotbutwhatIthinkyouGOTamentality,ifyou'dlearntouseit。Yougotwill—power,I'llsaythatforyou。Ineverknewboyormanthatcouldbestubborner——neveroneinmylife!Now,then,you'veshowedyoucouldlearntorunthatmachinebestofanymanintheshop,innotimeatall。Thatlookstomelikeyoucouldlearntodootherthings。Idon'tdenybutwhatit'sanencouragin'sign。Idon'tdenythat,atall。Well,thathelpsmetothinkthecaseain'tsohopelessasitlooks。You'reallIgottomeetthisblowwith,butmaybeyouain'taspoormaterialasIthought。Yourtellin'meaboutcomin'withinsevenstripsoftheshop'srecordto—daylookstomelikeencouragin'informationbroughtinatjustabouttherighttime。Now,then,I'mgoin'togiveyouaraise。I
wantedtosendyoustraightonupthroughtheshops——ayearortwo,maybe——
butIcan'tdoit。IlostJim,andnowI'velostRoscoe。He'squit。He'slaiddownonme。Ifheevercomesbackatall,he'llbealongtimepickin'
upthestrings,and,anyway,heain'tthemanIthoughthewas。Ican'tcountonhim。IgottohaveSOMEBODYIKNOWIcancounton。AndI'mdowntothis:
you'remylastchance。Bibbs,Igottolearnyoutousewhatbrainsyougotandseeifwecan'tdevelop'emalittle。Whoknows?AndI'mgoin'toputmytimeinonit。I'mgoin'totakeyourightdown—townwithME,andIwon'tbehardonyouifyou'realittleslowatfirst。AndI'mgoin'todothebigthingforyou。I'mgoin'tomakeyoufeelyougottodothebigthingforme,inreturn。I'vevindicatedmypolicywithyouabouttheshop,andnowI'mgoin'toturnrightaroundandswingyou'wayoveraheadofwheretheotherboysstarted,andI'mgoin'tomakeanappealtoyourambitionthat'llmakeyoudizzy!"Hetappedhissononthekneeagain。"Bibbs,I'mgoin'tostartyouoffthisway:I'mgoin'tomakeyouadirectorinthePumpWorksCompany;
I'mgoin'tomakeyouvice—presidentoftheRealtyCompanyandavice—presidentoftheTrustCompany!"
Bibbsjumpedtohisfeet,blanched。"Ohno!"hecried。
Sheridantookhisdismaytobetheexcitementofsuddenjoy。"Yes,sir!Andthere'ssomeprettyfatlittlesalariesgoeswiththosevice—presidencies,andapincho'stockinthePumpCompanywiththedirectorship。YouthoughtIwasprettymeanabouttheshop——oh,Iknowyoudid!——butyouseetheoldmancanplayitbothways。Andsorightnow,theminuteyou'vebeguntomakegoodthewayIwantedyouto,Idealfromthenewdeck。AndI'llkeeponhandin'itoutbiggerandbiggereverytimeyoushowmeyou'rebigenoughtoplaythehandIdealyou。I'mstartin'youwithaprettybigone,myboy!"
"ButIdon't——Idon't——Idon'twantit!"Bibbsstammered。
"What'dyousay?"Sheridanthoughthehadnotheardaright。
"Idon'twantit,father。Ithankyou——Idothankyou——"
Sheridanlookedperplexed。"What'sthematterwithyou?Didn'tyouunderstandwhatIwastellin'you?"
"Yes。"
"Yousure?Ireckonyoudidn't。Ioffered——"
"Iknow,Iknow!ButIcan'ttakeit。"
"What'sthematterwithyou?"Sheridanwashalfamazed,halfsuspicious。
"Yourheadfeelfunny?"
"I'veneverbeenquitesosaneinmylife,"saidBibbs,"asIhavelately。AndI'vegotjustwhatIwant。I'mlivingexactlytherightlife。I'mearningmydailybread,andI'mhappyindoingit。Mywagesareenough。Idon'twantanymoremoney,andIdon'tdeserveany——"
"Damnation!"Sheridansprangup。"You'veturnedSocialist!Youbeenlisteningtothosefellowsdownthere,andyou——"
"No,sir。Ithinkthere'sagreatdealinwhattheysay,butthatisn'tit。"
Sheridantriedtorestrainhisgrowingfury,andsucceededpartially。"Thenwhatisit?What'sthematter?"
"Nothing,"hesonreturned,nervously。"Nothing——exceptthatI'mcontent。I
don'twanttochangeanything。"
"Whynot?"
Bibbshadtheincrediblefollytotrytoexplain。"I'lltellyou,father,ifIcan。Iknowitmaybehardtounderstand——"
"Yes,Ithinkitmaybe,"saidSheridan,grimly。"WhatyousayusuallyisaLITTLEthatway。Goon!"
Perturbedanddistressed,Bibbsroseinstinctively;hefelthimselfateverypossibledisadvantage。Hewasasleeperclingingtoadream——aroughhandstretchedtoshakehimandwakenhim。Hewenttoatableandmadevaguedrawingsuponitwithafinger,andashespokehekepthiseyeslowered。
"Youweren'taltogetherrightabouttheshop——thatis,inonewayyouweren't,father。"Heglancedupapprehensively。Sheridanstoodfacinghim,expressionless,andmadenoattempttointerrupt。"That'sdifficulttoexplain,"Bibbscontinued,loweringhiseyesagain,tofollowthetracingsofhisfinger。"I——IbelievetheshopmighthavedoneformethistimeifI
hadn't——ifsomethinghadn'thelpedmeto——oh,notonlytobearit,buttobehappyinit。Well,IAMhappyinit。IwanttogoonjustasIam。AndofallthingsonearththatIdon'twant,Idon'twanttoliveabusinesslife——I
don'twanttobedrawnintoit。Idon'tthinkitISliving——andnowIAM
living。Ihavethehealthfultoil——andIcanthink。InbusinessasimportantasyoursIcouldn'tthinkanythingbutbusiness。Idon't——Idon'tthinkmakingmoneyisworthwhile。"
"Goon,"saidSheridan,curtly,asBibbspausedtimidly。
"Ithasn'tseemedtogetanywhere,thatIcansee,"saidBibbs。"Youthinkthiscityisrichandpowerful——butwhat'stheuseofitsbeingrichandpowerful?Theydon'tteachthechildrenanymoreintheschoolsbecausethecityisrichandpowerful。Theyteachthemmorethantheyusedtobecausesomepeople——notrichandpowerfulpeople——havethoughtthethoughtstoteachthechildren。Andyetwhenyou'vebeenreadingthepaperI'veheardyouobjectingtothechildrenbeingtaughtanythingexceptwhatwouldhelpthemtomakemoney。Yousaiditwaswastingthetaxes。Youwantthemtaughttomakealiving,butnottolive。WhenIwasalittleboythiswasn'tanuglytown;
nowit'shideous。What'stheuseofbeingbigjusttobehideous?ImeanI
don'tthinkallthishasmeantreallygoingahead——it'sjustbeengettingbiggeranddirtierandnoisier。Wasn'tthewholecountryhappierandinmanywayswiserwhenitwassmallerandcleanerandquieterandkinder?IknowyouthinkI'manutterfool,father,but,afterall,though,aren'tbusinessandpoliticsjustthehousekeepingpartoflife?Andwouldn'tyoudespiseawomanthatnotonlymadeherhousekeepingherambition,butdiditsonoisilyanddirtilythatthewholeneighborhoodwasinacontinualturmoiloverit?Andsupposedshetalkedandthoughtaboutherhousekeepingallthetime,andwasalwayshavingadditionsbuilttoherhousewhenshecouldn'tkeepcleanwhatshealreadyhad;andsuppose,withitall,shemadethehousealtogetherunpeacefulandunlivable——"
"Justoneminute!"Sheridaninterrupted,adding,withterriblecourtesy,"Ifyouwillpermitme?Haveyoueverbeenrightaboutanything?"
"Idon'tquite——"
"Iaskthesimplequestion:Haveyoueverbeenrightaboutanythingwhateverinthecourseofyourlife?Haveyoueverbeenrightuponanysubjectorquestionyou'vethoughtaboutandtalkedabout?Canyoumentiononesingletimewhenyouwereprovedtoberight?"
Hewasflourishingthebandagedhandashespoke,butBibbssaidonly,"IfI'vealwaysbeenwrongbefore,surelythere'smorechancethatI'mrightaboutthis。Itseemsreasonabletosupposesomethingwouldbeduetobringupmyaverage。"
"Yes,Ithoughtyouwouldn'tseethepoint。Andthere'sanotheryouprobablycouldn'tsee,butI'lltakethelibertytomentionit。Youbeenbalkin'allyourlife。PrettymucheverythingIeverwantedyoutodo,you'dletoutSOME
kindofaholler,likeyouarenow——andyetIcan'tseemtorememberoncewhenyoudidn'thavetolaydownanddowhatIsaid。Butgoonwithyourremarksaboutourcityandthebusinessofthiscountry。Goon!"
"Idon'twanttobeapartofit,"saidBibbs,withunwonteddecision。"I
wanttokeeptomyself,andI'mdoingitnow。Icouldn't,ifIwentdowntherewithyou。I'dbeswallowedintoit。Idon'tcareformoneyenoughtto——"
"No,"hisfatherinterrupted,stilldangerouslyquiet。"You'veneverhadtoearnaliving。Anybodycouldtellthatbywhatyousay。Now,letmeremindyou:you'resleepin'inaprettygoodbed;you'reeatin'prettyfairfood;
you'rewearin'prettyfineclothes。Justsupposeoneo'thesenoisyhousekeepers——me,forinstance——decidedtoletyoudoyourownhousekeepin'。
MayIaskwhatyourpropositionwouldbe?"
"I'mearningninedollarsaweek,"saidBibbs,sturdily。"It'senough。I
shouldn'tmindatall。"
"Who'spayin'youthatninedollarsaweek?"
"Mywork!"Bibbsanswered。"AndI'vedonesowellonthatclipping—machineI
believeIcouldworkuptofifteenoreventwentyaweekatanotherjob。I
couldbeafairplumberinafewmonths,I'msure。I'dratherhaveatradethanbeinbusiness——Ishould,infinitely!"
"Youbettersetaboutlearnin'oneprettydam'quick!"ButSheridanstruggledwithhistemperandagainwaspartiallysuccessfulincontrollingit。"YoubetterlearnatradeoverSunday,becauseyou'reeithergoin'downwithmetomyofficeMondaymorning——or——youcangotoplumbing!"
"Allright,"saidBibbs,gently。"Icangetalong。"
Sheridanraisedhishandssardonically,asinprayer。"OGod,"hesaid,"thisboywascrazyenoughbeforehebegantoearnhisninedollarsaweek,andnowhismoney'sgonetohishead!Can'tYoudonothin'forhim?"Thenheflunghishandsapart,palmsoutward,inafuriousgestureofdismissal。"Getouto'thisroom!Yougotaskullthat'sthicker'nawhale'sthigh—bone,butit'scrackedspangallthewayacross!Youhatedthemachine—shopsobadwhenI
sentyouthere,youwentandstayedsickforovertwoyears——andnow,whenI
offertotakeyououtofitandgiveyouthemint,youhollerfortheshoplikeacalfforitsmammy!You'recracked!Oh,butIgotafinelayouthere!
Onesondied,onequit,andone'saloon!Theloon'sallIgotleft!H。P。
Ellersly'swifehadacrazybrother,andtheyundertooktokeephimatthehouse。Firstmorninghewastherehewalkedstraightthoughaten—dollarplate—glasswindowoutintotheyard。Hesays,'Oh,lookattheprettydandelion!'That'swhatyou'redoin'!Youwanttospendyourlifesayin','Oh,lookattheprettydandelion!'andyoudon'tcareatinker'sdam'whatyoubust!Well,mister,loonornoloon,crackedandcrazyorwhateveryouare,I'lltakeyouwithmeMondaymorning,andI'llworkyouandlearnyou——yes,andI'lllamyou,ifIgotto——untilI'vemadesomethingoutofyouthat'sfittobecalledabusinessman!I'llkeepatyouwhileI'mabletostand,andifIhavetolaydowntodieI'llbewhisperin'atyoutilltheygettheembalmin'—fluidintome!Nowgoon,anddon'tletmehearfromyouagaintillyoucancomeandtellmeyou'vewakedup,youpoor,pitiful,dandelion—pickin'SLEEP—WALKER!"
Bibbsgavehimaqueerlook。Therewassomethinglikereproachinit,foronce;buttherewasmorethanthat——heseemedtobestartledbyhisfather'slastword。
Therewassleetthatevening,withawhoppingwind,butneitherthisstormnorthatotherwhichsoimminentlythreatenedhimheldplaceintheconsciousnessofBibbsSheridanwhenhecameoncemoretothepresenceofMary。Allwasrightinhisworldhashesatwithher,readingMauriceMaeterlinck'sAlladineandPalomides。Thesorrowfullightofthegas—jetmighthavebeenMaymorningsunshineflashingamberandrosethroughtheglowingwindowsoftheSainte—Chapelle,itwassobrightforBibbs。Andwhilethezinc—eaterheldouttobringhimsuchgoldennightsasthese,alltheking'shorsesandalltheking'smenmightnotservetobreakthespell。
Bibbsreadslowly,butinareasonablemanner,asifheweretalking;andMary,lookingathimsteadilyfrombeneathhercurvedfingers,appearedtodiscovernofault。Ithadgrowntobeherhabittolookathimwhenevertherewasanopportunity。Itmaybesaid,intruth,thatwhiletheyweretogether,anditwaslight,shelookedathimallthetime。
WhenhecametotheendofAlladineandPalomidestheyweresilentalittlewhile,consideringtogether;thenheturnedbackthepagesandsaid:"There'ssomethingIwanttoreadover。This:
YouwouldthinkIthrewawindowopenonthedawn……Shehasasoulthatcanbeseenaroundher——thattakesyouinitsarmslikeanailingchildandwithoutsayinganythingtoyouconsolesyouforeverything……Ishallneverunderstanditall。Idonotknowhowitcanallbe,butmykneesbendinspiteofmewhenIspeakofit……
Hestoppedandlookedather。
"Youboy!"saidMary,notveryclearly。
"Ohyes,"hereturned。"Butit'strue——especiallymyknees!"
"Youboy!"shemurmuredagain,blushingcharmingly。"Youmightreadanotherlineover。ThefirsttimeIeversawyou,Bibbs,youwerelookingintoamirror。Doitagain。Butyouneedn'treadit——Icangiveittoyou:"A
littleGreekslavethatcamefromtheheartofArcady!"
"I!I'moneofthehandsatthePumpWorks——andgoingtostayone,unlessI
havetodecidetostudyplumbing。"
"No。"Sheshookherhead。"Youloveandwantwhat'sbeautifulanddelicateandserene;it'sreallyartthatyouwantinyourlife,andhavealwayswanted。Youseemedtome,fromthefirst,themostwistfulpersonIhadeverknown,andthat'swhatyouwerewistfulfor。"
Bibbslookeddoubtfulandmorewistfulthanever;butafteramomentortwothematterseemedtoclarifyitselftohim。"Why,no,"hesaid;"Iwantedsomethingelsemorethanthat。Iwantedyou。"
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