Andthentherebrokeonhimoneofthosedeliriouswavesofnaturaldesire,againstwhichhehadsooftenfought,sooftenwithgreatpainconquered。Hegotup,andrandownhill,leapingoverthestones,andthethickerclumpsofheather。
AudreyNoel,too,hadbeenearlyastir,thoughshehadgonelateenoughtobed。Shedressedlanguidly,butverycarefully,beingoneofthosewomenwhoputonarmouragainstFate,becausetheyareproud,anddislikethethoughtthattheirsufferingsshouldmakeotherssuffer;because,too,theirbodiesaretothemasitweresacred,havingbeengiventhemintrust,tocausedelight。Whenshehadfinished,shelookedatherselfintheglassrathermoredistrustfullythanusual。Shefeltthathersortofwomanwasatadiscountinthesedays,andbeingsensitive,shewasnevercontenteitherwithherappearance,orherhabits。But,forallthat,shewentonbehavinginunsatisfactoryways,becausesheincorrigiblylovedtolookascharmingasshecould;andevenifnooneweregoingtoseeher,sheneverfeltthatshelookedcharmingenough。Shewas——asLadyCasterleyhadshrewdlyguessed——thekindofwomanwhospoilsmenbybeingtoonicetothem;ofnousetothosewhowishwomentoassertthemselves;yethavingacertainpassivestoicism,verydisconcerting。Withlittleornopowerofinitiative,shewoulddowhatshewassettodowithathoroughnessthatwouldshameaninitiator;temperamentallyunabletobeganythingofanybody,sherequiredloveasaplantrequireswater;shecouldgiveherselfcompletely,yetremainoddlyincorruptible;inaword,hopeless,andusuallybelovedofthosewhothoughtherso。
Withallthis,however,shewasnotquitewhatiscalleda'sweetwoman——aphraseshedetested——fortherewasinheraqueerveinofgentlecynicism。She'saw'withextraordinaryclearness,asifshehadbeenborninItalyandstillcarriedthatcleardryatmosphereabouthersoul。Shelovedglowandwarmthandcolour;suchmysticismasshefeltwaspagan;andshehadfewaspirations——sufficienttoherwerethingsastheyshowedthemselvestobe。
Thismorning,whenshehadmadeherselfsmellofgeraniums,andfastenedallthesmallcontrivancesthatholdeventhebestofwomentogether,shewentdownstairstoherlittledining—room,setthespiritlampgoing,andtakinguphernewspaper,stoodwaitingtomaketea。
Itwasthehourofthedaymostdeartoher。Ifthedewhadbeenbrushedoffherlife,itwasstilloutthereeverymorningonthefaceofNature,andonthefacesofherflowers;therewasbeforeherallthepleasureofseeinghoweachofthoselittlecreaturesinthegardenhadslept;howmanychildrenhadbeenbornsincetheDawn;whowasailing,andneededattention。Therewasalsothefeeling,whichrenewsitselfeverymorninginpeoplewholivelonelylives,thattheyarenotlonely,until,thedaywearingon,assuresthemofthefact。Notthatshewasidle,forshehadobtainedthroughCourtiertheworkofreviewingmusicinawoman'spaper,forwhichshewasintuitivelyfitted。This,herflowers,herownmusic,andtheaffairsofcertainfamiliesofcottagers,fillednearlyallhertime。
Andsheaskednobetterfatethantohaveeveryminuteoccupied,havingthatpassionforworkrequiringnoinitiation,whichisnaturaltotheownersoflazyminds。
Suddenlyshedroppedhernewspaper,wenttothebowlofflowersonthebreakfast—table,andpluckedforthtwostalksoflavender;
holdingthemawayfromher,shewentoutintothegarden,andflungthemoverthewall。
Thisstrangeimmolationofthosetwopoorsprigs,bornsoearly,gatheredandplacedbeforeherwithsuchkindintentionbyhermaid,seemedofallactstheleasttobeexpectedofonewhohatedtohurtpeople'sfeelings,andwhoseeyesalwaysshoneatthesightofflowers。Butintruththesmelloflavender——thatscentcarriedonherhusband'shandkerchiefandclothes——stillaffectedhersostronglythatshecouldnotbeartobeinaroomwithit。Asnothingelsedid,itbroughtbeforeherone,tolivewithwhomhadslowlybecometorture。Andfreedbythatscent,thewholefloodofmemorybrokeinonher。Thememoryofthreeyearswhenherteethhadbeensetdoggedly,onherdiscoverythatshewaschainedtounhappinessforlife;thememoryoftheabruptend,andofhercreepingawaytoletherscorchednervesrecover。Ofhowduringthefirstyearofthisreleasewhichwasnotfreedom,shehadtwicechangedherabode,togetawayfromherownstory——notbecauseshewasashamedofit,butbecauseitremindedherofwretchedness。OfhowshehadthencometoMonkland,wherethequietlifehadslowlygivenherelasticityagain。AndthenofhermeetingwithMiltoun;theunexpecteddelightofthatcompanionship;thefrankenjoymentofthefirstfourmonths。Andsherememberedallhersecretrejoicing,hersilentidentificationofanotherlifewithherown,beforesheacknowledgedorevensuspectedlove。Andjustthreeweeksagonow,helpingtotieupherroses,hehadtouchedher,andshehadknown。
Buteventhen,untilthenightofCourtier'saccident,shehadnotdaredtorealize。Moreconcernednowforhimthanforherself,sheaskedherselfathousandtimesifshehadbeentoblame。Shehadlethimgrowfondofher,awomanoutofcourt,adeadwoman!Anunpardonablesin!Yetsurelythatdependedonwhatshewaspreparedtogive!Andshewasfranklyreadytogiveeverything,andaskfornothing。Heknewherposition,hehadtoldherthatheknew。Inherloveforhimshegloried,wouldcontinuetoglory;wouldsufferforitwithoutregret。Miltounwasrightinbelievingthatnewspapergossipwasincapableofhurtingher,thoughherreasonsforbeingsoimperviouswerenotwhathesupposed。Shewasnot,likehim,securedfrompainbecausesuchinsinuationsabouttheprivateaffairsofothersweremeanandvulgarandbeneathnotice;ithadnotasyetoccurredtohertolookatthematterinsoloftyandgeneralalight;shesimplywasnothurt,becauseshewasalreadysodeeplyMiltoun'spropertyinspirit,thatshewasalmostgladthattheyshouldassignhimalltherestofher。ButforMiltoun'ssakeshewasdisturbedtothesoul。Shehadtarnishedhisshieldintheeyesofmen;and(forshewasoddlypractical,andsawthingsinveryclearproportion)perhapsputbackhiscareer,whoknewhowmanyyears!
Shesatdowntodrinkhertea。Notbeingacryingwoman,shesufferedquietly。ShefeltthatMiltounwouldbecomingtoher。Shedidnotknowatallwhatsheshouldsaywhenhedidcome。Hecouldnotcareforhersomuchasshecaredforhim!Hewasaman;mensoonforget!Ah!buthewasnotlikemostmen。Onecouldnotlookathiseyeswithoutfeelingthathecouldsufferterribly!Inallthisherownreputationconcernedhernotatall。Life,andherclearwayoflookingatthings,hadrootedinhertheconvictionthattoawomanthepreciousnessofherreputationwasafictioninventedbymenentirelyforman'sbenefit;asecond—handfetishinsidiously,inevitablyset—upbymenforworship,innovels,plays,andlaw—
courts。Herinstincttoldherthatmencouldnotfeelsecureinthepossessionoftheirwomenunlesstheycouldbelievethatwomensettremendousstorebysexualreputation。Whattheywantedtobelieve,thattheydidbelieve!Butsheknewotherwise。Suchgreat—mindedwomenasshehadmetorreadofhadalwaysleftonhertheimpressionthatreputationforthemwasamatterofthespirit,havinglittletodowithsex。Fromherownfeelingssheknewthatreputation,forasimplewoman,meanttostandwellintheeyesofhimorherwhomshelovedbest。Forworldlywomen——andthereweresomanykindsofthose,besidesthemerelyfashionable——shehadalwaysnotedthatitsvaluewasnotintrinsic,butcommercial;notacrownofdignity,butjustamarketableasset。ShedidnotdreadintheleastwhatpeoplemightsayofherfriendshipwithMiltoun;nordidshefeelatallthatherindissolublemarriageforbadeherlovinghim。Shehadsecretlyfeltfreeassoonasshehaddiscoveredthatshehadneverreallylovedherhusband;shehadonlygoneondutifullyuntiltheseparation,fromsheerpassivity,andbecauseitwasagainsthernaturetocausepaintoanyone。Themanwhowasstillherhusbandwasnowasdeadtoherasifhehadneverbeenborn。Shecouldnotmarryagain,itwastrue;butshecouldanddidlove。Ifthatlovewastobestarvedanddieaway,itwouldnotbebecauseofanymoralscruples。
Sheopenedherpaperlanguidly;andalmostthefirstwordssheread,undertheheadingofElectionNews,werethese:
'AproposoftheoutrageonMr。Courtier,wearerequestedtostatethattheladywhoaccompaniedLordMiltountotherescueofthatgentlemanwasMrs。LeesNoel,wifeoftheRev。StephenLeesNoel,vicarofClathampton,Warwickshire。'
Thisdubiouslittledaubofwhitewashonlybroughtarathersadsmiletoherlips。Shelefthertea,andwentoutintotheair。ThereatthegatewasMiltouncomingin。Herheartleaped。Butshewentforwardquietly,andgreetedhimwithcast—downeyes,asifnothingwereoutoftheordinary。
CHAPTERXV
ExaltationhadnotleftMiltoun。Hissallowfacewasflushed,hiseyesglowedwithasortofbeauty;andAudreyNoelwho,betterthanmostwomen,couldreadwhatwaspassingbehindaface,sawthoseeyeswiththedelightofamothflutteringtowardsalamp。Butinaveryunemotionalvoiceshesaid:
"Soyouhavecometobreakfast。Howniceofyou!
ItwasnotinMiltountoobservetheformalitiesofattack。Hadhebeengoingtofightadueltherewouldhavebeennopreliminary,justalook,abow,andtheswordscrossed。Sointhisfirstengagementofhiswiththesoulofawoman!
Heneithersatdownnorsufferedhertosit,butstoodlookingintentlyintoherface,andsaid:
"Iloveyou。"
Nowthatithadcome,withthisdisconcertingswiftness,shewasstrangelycalm,andunashamed。Theelationofknowingforsurethatshewaslovedwaslikeawandwavingawayalltremors,stillingthemtosweetness。Sincenothingcouldtakeawaythatknowledge,itseemedthatshecouldneveragainbeutterlyunhappy。Then,too,inhernature,sodeeply,unreasoninglyincapableofperceivingtheimportanceofanyprinciplebutlove,therewasasecretfeelingofassurance,oftriumph。Hedidloveher!Andshe,him!Well!Andsuddenlypanic—stricken,lestheshouldtakebackthosewords,sheputherhanduptohisbreast,andsaid:
"AndIloveyou。"
Thefeelofhisarmsroundher,thestrengthandpassionofthatmoment,weresoterriblysweet,thatshediedtothought,justlookingupathim,withlipspartedandeyesdarkerwiththedepthofherlovethanhehadeverdreamedthateyescouldbe。Themadnessofhisownfeelingkepthimsilent。Andtheystoodthere,somergedinoneanotherthattheyknewandcarednothingforanyothermortalthing。Itwasverystillintheroom;therosesandcarnationsinthelustrebowl,seemingtoknowthattheirmistresswascaughtupintoheaven,hadlettheirperfumestealforthandoccupyeverycrannyoftheabandonedair;ahoveringbee,too,circledroundthelovers'heads,scenting,itseemed,thehoneyintheirhearts。
IthasbeensaidthatMiltoun'sfacewasnotunhandsome;forAudreyNoelatthismomentwhenhiseyesweresonearhers,andhislipstouchingher,hewastransfigured,andhadbecomethespiritofallbeauty。Andshe,withheartbeatingfastagainsthim,hereyes,halfclosingfromdelight,andherhairaskingtobepraisedwithitsfragrance,hercheeksfaintingpalewithemotion,andherarmstoolanguidwithhappinesstoembracehim——she,tohim,wastheincarnationofthewomanthatvisitsdreams。
Sopassedthatmoment。
Thebeeendedit;who,impatientwithflowersthathidtheirhoneysodeep,hadentangledhimselfinAudrey'shair。Andthen,seeingthatwords,thosedreadedthings,wereonhislips,shetriedtokissthemback。Buttheycame:
"Whenwillyoumarryme?"
Itallswayedalittle。Andwithmarvellousrapiditythewholepositionstartedupbeforeher。Shesaw,withpreternaturalinsight,intoitsnooksandcorners。Somethinghehadsaidoneday,whentheyweretalkingoftheChurchviewofmarriageanddivorce,lightedallup。Sohehadreallyneverknownabouther!Atthismomentofuttersickness,shewassavedfromfaintingbyhersenseofhumour——hercynicism。Notcontenttoletherbe,people'stongueshaddivorcedher;hehadbelievedthem!Andthecrownofironywasthatheshouldwanttomarryher,whenshefeltsoutterly,sosacredlyhis,todowhathelikedwithsansformsorceremonies。AsurgeofbitterfeelingagainstthemanwhostoodbetweenherandMiltounalmostmadehercryout。Thatmanhadcapturedherbeforesheknewtheworldorherownsoul,andshewastiedtohim,tillbysomebeneficentchancehedrewhislastbreathwhenherhairwasgrey,andhereyeshadnolovelight,andhercheeksnolongergrewpalewhentheywerekissed;
whentwilighthadfallen,andtheflowers,andbeesnolongercaredforher。
Itwasthatfeeling,thesuddenrevoltofthedesperateprisoner,whichsteeledhertoputoutherhand,takeupthepaper,andgiveittoMiltoun。
Whenhehadreadthelittleparagraph,therefollowedoneofthoseeternitieswhichlastperhapstwominutes。
Hesaid,then:
"It'strue,Isuppose?"And,athersilence,added:"Iamsorry。"
Thisqueerdrysayingwassomuchmoreterriblethananyoutcry,thatsheremained,deprivedevenofthepowerofbreathing,withhereyesstillfixedonMiltoun'sface。
ThesmileoftheoldCardinalhadcomeupthere,andwastoherlikealivingaccusation。Itseemedstrangethatthehumofthebeesandfliesandthegentleswishingofthelimetreeshouldstillgoonoutside,insistingthattherewasaworldmovingandbreathingapartfromher,andcarelessofhermisery。Thensomeofhercouragecameback,andwithitherwoman'smutepower。Itcamehauntingaboutherface,perfectlystill,aboutherlips,sensitiveanddrawn,abouthereyes,dark,almostmutinousundertheirarchedbrows。Shestood,drawinghimwithsilenceandbeauty。
Atlasthespoke:
"Ihavemadeafoolishmistake,itseems。Ibelievedyouwerefree。"
Herlipsjustmovedforthewordstopass:"Ithoughtyouknew。I
never,dreamedyouwouldwanttomarryme。"
Itseemedtohernaturalthatheshouldbethinkingonlyofhimself,butwiththesubtlestdefensiveinstinct,sheputforwardherowntragedy:
"IsupposeIhadgottoousedtoknowingIwasdead。"
"Istherenorelease?"
"None。Wehaveneitherofusdonewrong;besideswithhim,marriageis——forever。"
"MyGod!"
Shehadbrokenhissmile,whichhadbeencruelwithoutmeaningtobecruel;andwithasmileofherownthatwascrueltoo,shesaid:
"Ididn'tknowthatyoubelievedinreleaseeither。"
Then,asthoughshehadstabbedherselfinstabbinghim,herfacequivered。
Helookedathernow,consciousatlastthatshewassuffering。Andshefeltthathewasholdinghimselfinwithallhismightfromtakingheragainintohisarms。Seeingthis,thewarmthcreptbacktoherlips,andalittlelightintohereyes,whichshekepthiddenfromhim。Thoughshestoodsoproudlystill,somewistfulforcewascomingfromher,asfromamagnet,andMiltoun'shandsandarmsandfacetwitchedasthoughpalsied。Thisstruggle,dumbandpitiful,seemednevertobecomingtoanendinthelittlewhiteroom,darkenedbythethatchoftheverandah,andsweetwiththescentofpinksandofawoodfirejustlightedsomewhereoutattheback。
Then,withoutaword,heturnedandwentout。Sheheardthewicketgateswingto。Hewasgone。
CHAPTERXVI
LordDeniswasfly—fishing——theweatherjusttoobrighttoallowthelittletroutofthatshallow,neversilentstreamtoembracewithaviditythesmallenticementswhichhethrewintheirdirection。
Neverthelesshecontinuedtoinvitethem,exploringeverynookoftheirwaterypathwaywithhissoft—swishingline。Inaroughsuitandbatteredhatadornedwiththoseartificialandotherflies,whichinfestHarristweed,hecreptalongamongthehazelbushesandthorn—
trees,perfectlyhappy。Likeanoldspaniel,whohasoncegloriedinthefetchingofhares,rabbits,andallmanneroffowl,andisnowgladifyouwillbutthrowastickforhim,soone,whohadbeenafamousfisherbeforetheLord,whohadharriedthewatersofScotlandandNorway,FloridaandIceland,nowpursuedtroutnobiggerthansardines。Theglamourofathousandmemorieshallowedthehourshethusspentbythatbrownwater。Hefishedunhasting,religious,likesomegoodCatholicaddingonemoretotherowofbeadsalreadytold,asthoughhewouldfishhimself,gravely,withoutcomplaint,intotheotherworld。Witheachfishcaughtheexperiencedasolemnsatisfaction。
ThoughhewouldhavelikedBarbarawithhimthatmorning,hehadonlylookedatheronceafterbreakfastinsuchawaythatshecouldnotseehim,andwithadrysmilegoneoffbyhimself。Downbythestreamitwasdappled,bothcoolandwarm,windless;thetreesmetovertheriver,andthereweremanystones,forminglittlebasinswhichhelduptheripple,sothatthecastingofaflyrequiredmuchcunning。Thislongdingleranformilesthroughthefoot—growthoffoldinghills。Itwasbelovedofjays;butofhumanbeingstherewerenone,exceptachicken—farmer'swidow,wholivedinahousethatchedalmosttotheground,andmadeherlivelihoodbydirectingtourists,withsuchcunningthattheysooncamebacktoherfortea。
ItwaswhilethrowingaratherlongerlinethanusualtoreachalittledarkpieceofcrispwaterthatLordDennisheardtheswishingandcracklingofsomeoneadvancingatfullspeed。Hefrownedslightly,feelingforthenervesofhisfishes,whomhedidnotwishstartled。TheinvaderwasMiltoun,hot,pale,dishevelled,withaqueer,huntedlookonhisface。Hestoppedonseeinghisgreat—
uncle,andinstantlyassumedthemaskofhissmile。
LordDenniswasnotthemantoseewhatwasnotintendedforhim,andhemerelysaid:
"Well,Eustace!"ashemighthavespoken,meetinghisnephewinthehallofoneofhisLondonClubs。
Miltoun,nolesspolite,murmured:
"HopeIhaven'tlostyouanything。"
LordDennisshookhishead,andlayinghisrodonthebank,said:
"Sitdownandhaveachat,oldfellow。Youdon'tfish,Ithink?"
Hehadnot,intheleast,missedthesufferingbehindMiltoun'smask;
hiseyeswerestillgood,andtherewasalittlematterofsometwentyyears'sufferingofhisownonaccountofawoman——ancienthistorynow——whichhadlefthimquaintlysensitive,foranoldman,tosignsofsufferinginothers。
Miltounwouldnothaveobeyedthatinvitationfromanyoneelse,buttherewassomethingaboutLordDenniswhichpeopledidnotresist;
hispowerlayinadryironicsuavitywhichcouldnotbutpersuadepeoplethatimpolitenesswasaltogethertoonewandrawathingtobeindulgedin。
Thetwosatsidebysideontherootsoftrees。Atfirsttheytalkedalittleofbirds,andthenweredumb,sodumbthattheinvisiblecreaturesofthewoodsconsultedtogetheraudibly。LordDennisbrokethatsilence。
"Thisplace,"hesaid,"alwaysremindsmeofMarkTwain'swritings——
can'ttellwhy,unlessit'stheever—greenness。Iliketheevergreenphilosophers,TwainandMeredith。There'snosalvationexceptthroughcourage,thoughInevercouldstomachthe'strongman'——
captainofhissoul,HenleyandNietzscheandthatsort——goesagainstthegrainwithme。Whatdoyousay,Eustace?"
"Theymeantwell,"answeredMiltoun,"buttheyprotestedtoomuch。"
LordDennismovedhisheadinassent。
"Tobecaptainofyoursoul!"continuedMiltouninabittervoice;
"it'saprettyphrase!"
"Prettyenough,"murmuredLordDennis。
Miltounlookedathim。
"Andsuitabletoyou,"hesaid。
"No,mydear,"LordDennisanswereddryly,"alongwayoffthat,thankGod!"
Hiseyeswerefixedintentlyontheplacewherealargetrouthadriseninthestillesttoffee—colouredpool。Heknewthatfellow,ahalf—pounderatleast,andhisthoughtsbeganflightingroundthetopofhishead,hoveringoverthevariousmeritsoftheflies。Hisfingersitchedtoo,buthemadenomovement,andtheash—treeunderwhichhesatletitsleavestremble,asthoughinsympathy。
"Seethathawk?"saidMiltoun。
Ataheightmorethanlevelwiththetopsofthehillsabuzzardhawkwasstationaryinthebluedirectlyoverthem。Inspiredbycuriosityattheirstillness,hewaslookingdowntoseewhethertheywereedible;theupcurvedendsofhisgreatwingsflirtedjustoncetoshowthathewaspartofthelivinggloryoftheair——asymboloffreedomtomenandfishes。
LordDennislookedathisgreat—nephew。Theboy——forwhatelsewasthirtytoseventy—six?——wastakingithard,whateveritmightbe,takingitveryhard!Hewasthatsort——rantillhedropped。Theworstkindtohelp——thesortthatmadefortrouble——thatletthingsgnawatthem!Andthereflashedbeforetheoldman'smindtheimageofPrometheusdevouredbytheeagle。Itwashisfavouritetragedy,whichhestillreadperiodically,intheGreek,helpinghimselfnowandthenoutofhisoldlexicontothemeaningofsomewordwhichhadflowntoErebus。Yes,Eustacewasafellowfortheheightsanddepths!
Hesaidquietly:
"Youdon'tcaretotalkaboutit,Isuppose?"
Miltounshookhishead,andagaintherewassilence。
Thebuzzardhawkhavingseenthemmove,quiveredhiswingslikeamoth's,anddesertedthatplaneofair。Arobinfromthedappledwarmthofamossystone,wasregardingtheminstead。Therewasanothersplashinthepool。
LordDennissaidgently:
"Thatfellow'srisentwice;Ibelievehe'dtakea'Wistman'streasure。'"Extractingfromhishatitslatestfly,andbindingiton,hebegansoftlytoswishhisline。
"Ishallhavehimyet!"hemuttered。ButMiltounhadstolenaway……
ThefurtherpieceofinformationaboutMrs。Noel,alreadyknownbyBarbara,anddiffusedbythe'BucklandburyNews',hadnotbecomecommonknowledgeattheCourttillafterLordDennishadstartedouttofish。IncombinationwiththereportthatMiltounhadarrivedandgoneoutwithoutbreakfast,ithadbeenreceivedwithmingledfeelings。Bertie,Harbinger,andShropton,inashortconclave,afteragreeingthatfromthepointofviewoftheelectionitwasperhapsbetterthanifshehadbeenadivorcee,werestillinclinedtothebeliefthatnotimewastobelost——indoingwhat,however,theywereunabletodetermine。ApartfromtheimpossibilityofknowinghowafellowlikeMiltounwouldtakethematter,theywerefacedwiththedevilishsubtletyofallsituationstowhichtheproverb'Leastsaid,soonestmended'applies。Theywereinthepresenceofthatawe—inspiringthing,thepowerofscandal。Simplestatementsofsimplefacts,withoutmoraldrawn(towhichnolegalexceptioncouldbetaken)laidbeforethepublicaspiecesofinterestinginformation,orattheworstexposedinperfectgoodfaith,lestthepublicshouldblindlyelectastheirrepresentativeonewhoseprivatelifemightnotstandtheinspectionofdaylight——
whatcouldbemorejustifiable!AndyetMiltoun'ssupportersknewthatthissimplestatementofwherehespenthiseveningshadapoisonouspotency,throughitspowerofstimulatingthatsideofthehumanimaginationthemosteasilyexcited。Theyrecognizedonlytoowell,howstrongwasacertainprimitivedesire,especiallyinruraldistricts,byyieldingtowhichtheworldwasmadetogo,andhowremarkablyhardit,wasnottoyieldtoit,andhowinterestingandexcitingtoseeorhearofothersyieldingtoit,andhow(thoughhere,ofcourse,menmightdiffersecretly)reprehensibleofthemtodoso!Theyrecognized,toowell,howacertainkindofconsciencewouldappreciatethisrumour;andhowthepuritanswouldlicktheirlengthenedchops。Theyknew,too,howirresistibletopeopleofanyimaginationatall,wasthemerecombinationofamemberofaclass,traditionallysupposedtobeinclinedtohavingwhatitwanted,withaladywholivedalone!AsHarbingersaid:Itwasreallydevilishawkward!For,totakeanynoticeofitwouldbetomakemorepeoplethaneverbelieveittrue。Andyet,thatitwasworkingmischief,theyfeltbythesecretvoiceintheirownsouls,tellingthemthattheywouldhavebelieveditiftheyhadnotknownbetter。Theyhungabout,waitingforMiltountocomein。
ThenewswasreceivedbyLadyValleyswithasighofintenserelief,andtheremarkthatitwasprobablyanotherlie。WhenBarbaraconfirmedit,sheonlysaid:"PoorEustace!"andatoncewroteofftoherhusbandtosaythat'Anonyma'wasstillmarried,sothattheworstfortunatelycouldnothappen。
Miltouncameintolunch,butfromhisfaceandmannernothingcouldbeguessed。Hewasathoughtmoretalkativethanusual,andspokeofBrabrook'sspeech——someofwhichhehadheard。HelookedatCourtiermeaningly,andafterlunchsaidtohim:
"Willyoucomeroundtomyden?"
Inthatroom,theoldwithdrawing—roomoftheElizabethanwing——whereoncehadbeentheembroideries,tapestries,andmissalsofberuffleddameswerenowbooks,pamphlets,oak—panels,pipes,fencinggear,andalongonewallacollectionofRedIndianweaponsandornamentsbroughtbackbyMiltounfromtheUnitedStates。Highonthewallabovethesereignedthebronzedeath—maskofafamousApacheChief,castfromaplastertakenofthefacebyaprofessorofYaleCollege,whohaddeclaredittobeaperfectspecimenofthevanishingrace。
Thatvisage,whichhadacertainweirdresemblancetoDante's,presidedovertheroomwithcruel,tragicstoicism。Noonecouldlookonitwithoutfeelingthat,there,thehumanwillhadbeenpushedtoitsfarthestlimitsofendurance。
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