"It'snogood;stupidofmetobeworryingyou。"
"Itisquiteimpossibleforyoutoworryme。"
Hereyesliftedsuddenlyfromherglove,andlookedstraightintohis。
"AreyoureallygoingtoPersia?"
"Yes。"
"ButIdon'twantyouto,notyet!"andturningsuddenly,shelefthim。
Strangelydisturbed,Courtierremainedmotionless,consultingthegravestareofthegroupofGeorgianCaradocs。
Avoicesaid:
"Goodpainting,isn'tit?"
BehindhimwasLordHarbinger。AndoncemorethememoryofLadyCasterley'swords;thememoryofthetwofigureswithjoinedhandsonthebalconyabovetheelectioncrowd;allhislatentjealousyofthishandsomeyoungColossus,hisanimusagainstonewhomhecould,asitwere,smellouttobealwaysfightingonthewinningside;allhisconsciousnesstooofwhatalostcausehisownwas,hisdoubtwhetherhewerehonourabletolookonitasacauseatall,flaredupinCourtier,sothathisanswerwasastare。OnHarbinger'sface,too,therehadcomealookofstubbornviolenceslowlyworkinguptowardsthesurface。
"Isaid:'Good,isn'tit?'Mr。Courtier。"
"Iheardyou。"
"Andyouwerepleasedtoanswer?"
"Nothing。"
"Withthecivilitywhichmightbeexpectedofyourhabits。"
Coldlydisdainful,Courtieranswered:
"Ifyouwanttosaythatsortofthing,pleasechooseaplacewhereI
canreplytoyou,"andturnedabruptlyonhisheel。
Buthegroundhisteethashemadehiswayoutintothestreet。
InHydeParkthegrasswasparchedanddewlessunderaskywhosestarswereveiledbytheheatanddusthaze。NeverhadCourtiersobitterlywantedthesky'sconsolation——theblessedsenseofinsignificanceinthefaceofthenight'sdarkbeauty,which,dwarfingallpettyrageandhunger,mademenpartofitsmajesty,exaltedthemtoasenseofgreatness。
CHAPTERVII
Itwaspastfouro'clockthefollowingdaywhenBarbaraissuedfromValleysHouseonfoot;cladinapalebufffrock,chosenforquietness,sheattractedeveryeye。Verysoonenteringataxi—cab,shedrovetotheTemple,stoppedattheStrandentrance,andwalkeddownthelittlenarrowlaneintotheheartoftheLaw。ItsvotarieswerehurryingbackfromtheCourts,streamingupfromtheirChambersfortea,orescapingdesperatelytoLord'sorthePark——youngvotaries,unboundasyetbythefascinationoffameorfees。Andeach,ashepassed,lookedatBarbara,withhisfingersitchingtoremovehishat,andafeelingthatthiswasShe。Afteradayspentamongstprecedentsandpractice,aftersixhoursatleastoftryingtodiscoverwhatchanceAhadofstandingonhisrights,orBhadofpreventinghim,itwasdifficulttofeelotherwiseaboutthatcalmapparition——likeagoldenslimtreewalking。Oneofthem,askedbyherthewaytoMiltoun'sstaircase,precededherwithshyceremony,andwhenshehadvanishedupthosedustystairs,lingeredon,hopingthatshemightfindhervisiteeout,andbeobligedtoreturnandaskhimthewayback。Butshedidnotcome,andhewentsadlyaway,disturbedtotheverybottomofallthatheownedinfeesimple。
Infact,nooneansweredBarbara'sknock,anddiscoveringthatthedooryielded,shewalkedthroughthelobbypasttheclerk'sden,convertedtoakitchen,intothesitting—room。Itwasempty。ShehadneverbeentoMiltoun'sroomsbefore,andshestaredabouthercuriously。Sincehedidnotpractise,muchofthepropergearwasabsent。Theroomindeedhadaworncarpet,afewoldchairs,andwaslinedfromfloortoceilingwithbooks。ButthewallspacebetweenthewindowswasoccupiedbyanenormousmapofEngland,scoredalloverwithfiguresandcrosses;andbeforethismapstoodanimmensedesk,onwhichwerepilesofdoublefoolscapcoveredwithMiltoun'sneatandratherpointedwriting。Barbaraexaminedthem,puckeringupherforehead;sheknewthathewasworkingatabookonthelandquestion;butshehadneverrealizedthatthemakingofabookrequitedsomuchwriting。Papers,too,andBlueBookslitteredalargebureauonwhichstoodbronzebustsofAEschylusandDante。
"Whatanuncomfortableplace!"shethought。Theroom,indeed,hadanatmosphere,aspirit,whichdepressedherhorribly。Seeingafewflowersdowninthecourtbelow,shehadalongingtogetouttothem。Thenbehindhersheheardthesoundofsomeonetalking。Buttherewasnooneintheroom;andtheeffectofthisdisruptedsoliloquy,whichcamefromnowhere,wassouncanny,thatsheretreatedtothedoor。Thesound,asoftwospiritsspeakinginonevoice,grewlouder,andinvoluntarilysheglancedatthebusts。Theyseemedquiteblameless。Thoughthesoundhadbeenbehindherwhenshewasatthewindow,itwasagainbehindhernowthatshewasatthedoor;andshesuddenlyrealizedthatitwasissuingfromabookcaseinthecentreofthewall。Barbarahadherfather'snerve,andwalkinguptothebookcasesheperceivedthatithadbeenaffixedto,andcovered,adoorthatwasnotquiteclosed。Shepulledittowardsher,andpassedthrough。AcrossthecentreofanunkemptbedroomMiltounwasstriding,dressedonlyinhisshirtandtrousers。
Hisfeetwerebare,andhisheadandhairdrippingwet;thelookonhisthindarkfacewenttoBarbara'sheart。Sheranforward,andtookhishand。Thiswasburninghot,butthesightofherseemedtohavefrozenhistongueandeyes。Andthecontrastofhisburninghandwiththisfrozensilence,frightenedBarbarahorribly。Shecouldthinkofnothingbuttoputherotherhandtohisforehead。
Thattoowasburninghot!
"Whatbroughtyouhere?"hesaid。
Shecouldonlymurmur:
"Oh!Eusty!Areyouill?"
Miltountookholdofherwrists。
"It'sallright,I'vebeenworkingtoohard;gotatouchoffever。"
"SoIcanfeel,"murmuredBarbara。"Yououghttobeinbed。Comehomewithme。"
Miltounsmiled。"It'snotacaseforleeches。"
Thelookofhissmile,thesoundofhisvoice,sentashudderthroughher。
"I'mnotgoingtoleaveyouherealone。
ButMiltoun'sgrasptightenedonherwrists。
"MydearBabs,youwilldowhatItellyou。Gohome,holdyourtongue,andleavemetoburnoutinpeace。"
Barbarasustainedthatpainfulgripwithoutwincing;shehadregainedhercalmness。
"Youmustcome!Youhaven'tanythinghere,notevenacooldrink。"
"MyGod!Barleywater!"
Thescornheputintothosetwowordswasmorewitheringthanawholephilippicagainstredemptionbycreaturecomforts。Andfeelingitdartintoher,Barbaraclosedherlipstight。Hehaddroppedherwrists,andagain,begunpacingupanddown;suddenlyhestopped:
"'Thestars,sun,moonallshrinkaway,Adesertvast,withoutabound,Andnothinglefttoeatordrink,Andadarkdesertallaround。'
YoushouldreadyourBlake,Audrey。"
Barbaraturnedquickly,andwentoutfrightened。Shepassedthroughthesitting—roomandcorridorontothestaircase。Hewasill—
raving!ThefeverinMiltoun'sveinsseemedtohavestolenthroughtheclutchofhishandsintoherownveins。Herfacewasburning,shethoughtconfusedly,breathedunevenly。Shefeltsore,andatthesametimeterriblysorry;andwithaltherekeptrisinginherthegustymemoryofHarbingerskiss。
Shehurrieddownthestairs,turnedbyinstinctdown—hillandfoundherselfontheEmbankment。Andsuddenly,withherinherentpowerofswiftdecision,shehailedacab,anddrovetothenearesttelephoneoffice。
CHAPTERVIII
ToawomanlikeAudreyNoel,borntobethecounterpartandcomplementofanother,——whoseoccupationsandeffortwereinherentlydivorcedfromthecontinuityofanystiffandstrenuouspurposeofherown,theuprootingshehadvoluntarilyundergonewasaseriousmatter。
Bereavedofthefacesofherflowers,thefriendlysighingofherlime—tree,thewantsofhercottagers;bereavedofthatbusymonotonyoflittlehomethingswhichisthestayandsolaceoflonelywomen,shewasextraordinarilylost。Evenmusicforreviewseemedtohavefailedher。ShehadneverlivedinLondon,sothatshehadnottherefugeofoldhauntsandhabits,buthadtomakeherown——andtomakehabitsandhauntsrequiredaheartthatcouldatleaststretchoutfeelersandlayholdofthings,andherheartwasnotnowable。WhenshehadstruggledwithherEdwardianflat,andlaiddownhersimpleroutineofmeals,shewasasstrandedaseverwas,convictletoutofprison。Shehadnoteventhatgreatsupport,thenecessityofhidingherfeelingsforfearofdisturbingothers。Shewasplantedthere,withherlongingandgrief,andnothing,nobody,totakeheroutofherself。Havingwilfullyembracedthisposition,shetriedtomakethebestofit,feelingitlessintolerable,atallevents,thanstayingonatMonkland,whereshehadmadethatgrievous,andunpardonableerror——fallinginlove。
Thisoffence,onthepartofonewhofeltwithinherselfagreatcapacitytoenjoyandtoconferhappiness,hadarisen——liketheothergrievousandunpardonableoffence,hermarriage——fromtoomuchdispositiontoyieldherselftothepersonalityofanother。Butitwascoldcomforttoknowthatthedesiretogiveandtoreceivelovehadtwiceoverlefther——adeadwoman。Whateverthenatureofthoseimmaturesensationswithwhich,asagirloftwenty,shehadacceptedherhusband,inherfeelingtowardsMiltountherewasnotonlyabandonment,butthehigherflameofself—renunciation。Shewantedtodothebestforhim,andhadnoteventheconsolationoftheknowledgethatshehadsacrificedherselfforhisadvantage。Allhadbeentakenoutofherhands!Yetwithcharacteristicfatalismshedidnotfeelrebellious。Ifitwereordainedthatsheshould,forfifty,perhapssixtyyears,repentinsterilityandashesthatfirsterrorofhergirlhood,rebellionwas,nonetheless,toofar—fetched。
Ifsherebelled,itwouldnotbeinspirit,butinaction。Generalprincipleswerenothingtoher;shelostnoforcebroodingoverthejusticeorinjusticeofhersituation,butmerelytriedtodigestitsfacts。
Thewholeday,succeedingCourtier'svisit,wasspentbyherintheNationalGallery,whoseroof,aloneofallinLondon,seemedtoofferherprotection。Shehadfoundonepainting,byanItalianmaster,thesubjectofwhichremindedherofMiltoun;andbeforethisshesatforaverylongtime,attractingatlastthegoutystareofanofficial。Thestillfigureofthislady,withtheovalfaceandgravebeauty,bothpiquedhiscuriosity,andstimulatedcertainmoralqualms。She,wasundoubtedlywaitingforherlover。Nowoman,inhisexperience,hadeversatsolongbeforeapicturewithoutulteriormotive;andhekepthiseyeswellopenedtoseewhatthismotivewouldbelike。Itgavehim,therefore,asensationalmostamountingtochagrinwhencomingroundoncemore,hefoundtheyhadeludedhimandgoneofftogetherwithoutcomingunderhisinspection。
Feelinghisfeetagooddeal,forhehadbeenonthemallday,hesatdowninthehollowwhichshehadleftbehindher;andagainsthiswillfoundhimselfalsolookingatthepicture。Itwaspaintedinastylehedidnotcarefor;thefaceofthesubject,too,gavehimthequeerfeelingthatthegentlemanwasbeingroastedinside。Hehadnotbeensittingtherelong,however,beforeheperceivedtheladystandingbythepicture,andthelipsofthegentlemaninthepicturemoving。Itseemedtohimagainsttherules,andhegotupatonce,andwenttowardsit;butashedidso,hefoundthathiseyeswereshut,andopenedthemhastily。Therewasnoonethere。
>FromtheNationalGallery,AudreyhadgoneintoanA。B。C。fortea,andthenhome。BeforetheMansionswasataxi—cab,andthemaidmetherwiththenewsthat'LadyCaradoc'wasinthesitting—room。
Barbarawasindeedstandinginthemiddleoftheroomwithalookonherfacesuchasherfatherworesometimesontheracecourse,inthehuntingfield,oratstormyCabinetMeetings,alookbothresoluteandsharp。Shespokeatonce:
"IgotyouraddressfromMr。Courtier。Mybrotherisill。I'mafraidit'llbebrainfever,IthinkyouhadbettergoandseehimathisroomsintheTemple;there'snotimetobelost。"
ToAudreyeverythingintheroomseemedtogoround;yetallhersenseswerepreternaturallyacute,sothatshecoulddistinctlysmellthemudoftheriveratlowtide。Shesaid,withashudder:
"Oh!Iwillgo;yes,Iwillgoatonce。"
"He'squitealone。Hehasn'taskedforyou;butIthinkyourgoingistheonlychance。Hetookmeforyou。Youtoldmeonceyouwereagoodnurse。"
"Yes。"
Theroomwassteadyenoughnow,butshehadlostthepreternaturalacutenessofhersenses,andfeltconfused。SheheardBarbarasay:
"Icantakeyoutothedoorinmycab,"andmurmuring:"Iwillgetready,"wentintoherbedroom。Foramomentshewassoutterlybewilderedthatshedidnothing。Theneveryotherthoughtwaslostinastrange,soft,almostpainfuldelight,asifsomenewinstinctwerebeingborninher;andquickly,butwithoutconfusionorhurry,shebeganpacking。Sheputintoavaliseherowntoiletthings;thenflannel,cotton—wool,eaudeCologne,hot—waterbottle,Etna,shawls,thermometer,everythingshehadwhichcouldserveinillness。
Changingtoaplaindress,shetookupthevaliseandreturnedtoBarbara。Theywentouttogethertothecab。Themomentitbegantobearhertothisordealatoncesolonged—forandsoterrible,fearcameoverheragain,sothatshescrewedherselfintothecorner,verywhiteandstill。ShewasawareofBarbaracallingtothedriver:"GobytheStrand,andstopatapoulterer'sforice!"And,whenthebagoficehadbeenhandedin,heardhersaying:"Iwillbringyouallyouwant——ifheisreallygoingtobeill。"
Then,asthecabstopped,andtheopendoorwayofthestaircasewasbeforeher,allhercouragecameback。
Shefeltthegirl'swarmhandagainstherown,andgraspinghervaliseandthebagofice,gotout,andhurriedupthesteps。
CHAPTERIX
OnleavingNettlefold,Miltounhadgonestraightbacktohisrooms,andbegunatoncetoworkathisbookonthelandquestion。Heworkedallthroughthatnight——histhirdnightwithoutsleep,andallthefollowingday。Intheevening,feelingqueerinthehead,hewentoutandwalkedupanddowntheEmbankment。Then,fearingtogotobedandliesleepless,hesatdowninhisarm—chair。Fallingasleepthere,hehadfearfuldreams,andawokeunrefreshed。Afterhisbath,hedrankcoffee,andagainforcedhimselftowork。Bythemiddleofthedayhefeltdizzyandexhausted,bututterlydisinclinedtoeat。HewentoutintothehotStrand,boughthimselfanecessarybook,andafterdrinkingmorecoffee,camebackandagainbegantowork。Atfouro'clockhefoundthathewasnottakinginthewords。Hisheadwasburninghot,andhewentintohisbedroomtobatheit。Thensomehowhebeganwalkingupanddown,talkingtohimself,asBarbarahadfoundhim。
Shehadnosoonergone,thanhefeltutterlyexhausted。Asmallcrucifixhungoverhisbed,andthrowinghimselfdownbeforeit,heremainedmotionlesswithhisfaceburiedinthecoverlet,andhisarmsstretchedouttowardsthewall。Hedidnotpray,butmerelysoughtrestfromsensation。Acrosshishalf—hypnotizedconsciousnesslittlethreadsofburningfancykeptshooting。Thenhecouldfeelnothingbututterphysicalsickness,andagainstthishiswillrevolted。Heresolvedthathewouldnotbeill,aridiculouslogforwomentohangover。Butthemomentsofsicknessgrewlongerandmorefrequent;andtodrivethemawayherosefromhisknees,andforsometimeagainwalkedupanddown;then,seizedwithvertigo,hewasobligedtositonthebedtosavehimselffromfalling。Frombeingburninghothehadbecomedeadlycold,gladtocoverhimselfwiththebedclothes。Theheatsoonflamedupinhimagain;butwithasickman'sinstincthedidnotthrowofftheclothes,andstayedquitestill。Theroomseemedtohaveturnedtoathickwhitesubstancelikeacloud,inwhichhelayenwrapped,unabletomovehandorfoot。
Hissenseofsmellandhearinghadbecomeunnaturallyacute;hesmelledthedistantstreets,flowers,dust,andtheleatherofhisbooks,eventhescentleftbyBarbara'sclothes,andacurious。
odourofrivermud。Aclockstrucksix,hecountedeachstroke;andinstantlythewholeworldseemedfullofstrikingclocks,thesoundofhorses'hoofs,bicyclebells,people'sfootfalls。Hissenseofvision,onthecontrary,wasabsorbedinconsciousnessofthiswhiteblanketofcloudwhereinhewasliftedabovetheearth,inthemidstofadullincessanthammering。Onthesurfaceofthecloudthereseemedtobeforminganumberoflittlegoldenspots;thesespotsweremoving,andhesawthattheyweretoads。Then,beyondthem,ahugefaceshapeditself,verydark,asifofbronze,witheyesburningintohisbrain。Themorehestruggledtogetawayfromtheseeyes,themoretheyboredandburnedintohim。Hisvoicewasgone,sothathewasunabletocryout,andsuddenlythefacemarchedoverhim。
Whenherecoveredconsciousnesshisheadwasdampwithmoisturetricklingfromsomethingheldtohisforeheadbyafigureleaningabovehim。Liftinghishandhetouchedacheek;andhearingasobinstantlysuppressed,hesighed。Hishandwasgentlytaken;hefeltkissesonit。
Theroomwassodark,thathecouldscarcelyseeherface——hissighttoowasdim;buthecouldhearherbreathingandtheleastsoundofherdressandmovements——thescenttooofherhandsandhairseemedtoenvelophim,andinthemidstofalltheacutediscomfortofhisfever,hefeltthebandroundhisbrainrelax。Hedidnotaskhowlongshehadbeenthere,butlayquitestill,tryingtokeephiseyesonher,forfearofthatface,whichseemedlurkingbehindtheair,readytomarchonhimagain。Thenfeelingsuddenlythathecouldnotholditback,hebeckoned,andclutchedather,tryingtocoverhimselfwiththeprotectionofherbreast。Thistimehisswoonwasnotsodeep;itgavewaytodelirium,withintervalswhenheknewthatshewasthere,andbytheshadedcandlelightcouldseeherinawhitegarment,floatingclosetohim,orsittingstillwithherhandonhis;hecouldevenfeelthefaintcomfortoftheicecap,andofthescentofeaudeCologne。Thenhewouldloseallconsciousnessofherpresence,andpassthroughintotheincoherentworld,wherethecrucifixabovehisbedseemedtobulgeandhangout,asifitmustfallonhim。Heconceivedaviolentlongingtotearitdown,whichgrewtillhehadstruggledupinbedandwrencheditfromoffthewall。Yetamysteriousconsciousnessofherpresencepermeatedevenhisdarkestjourneysintothestrangeland;andoncesheseemedtobewithhim,whereastrangelightshowedthemfieldsandtrees,adarklineofmoor,andabrightsea,allwhitened,andflashingwithsweetviolence。
Soonafterdawnhehadalongintervalofconsciousness,andtookinwithasortofwonderherpresenceinthelowchairbyhisbed。Sostillshesatinawhiteloosegown,palewithwatching,hereyesimmovablyfixedonhim,herlipspressedtogether,andquiveringathisfaintestmotion。Hedrankindesperatelythesweetnessofherface,whichhadsolostremembranceofself。
CHAPTERX
Barbaragavethenewsofherbrother'sillnesstonooneelse,commonsensetellinghertorunnoriskofdisturbance。Ofherowninitiative,shebroughtadoctor,andwentdowntwiceadaytohearreportsofMiltoun'sprogress。
Asafact,herfatherandmotherhadgonetoLordDennis,forGoodwood,andthechiefdifficultyhadbeentoexcuseherownneglectofthatfavouriteMeeting。Shehadfallenbackonthehalf—truththatEustacewantedherinTown;and,sinceLordandLadyValleyshadneitherofthemshakenoffacertainuneasinessabouttheirson,thepretextsufficed:
Itwasnotuntilthesixthday,whenthecrisiswaswellpastandMiltounquitefreefromfever,thatsheagainwentdowntoNettlefold。
Onarrivingsheatoncesoughtouthermother,whomshefoundinherbedroom,resting。IthadbeenveryhotatGoodwood。
Barbarawasnotafraidofher——shewasnot,indeed,afraidofanyone,exceptMiltoun,andinsomestrangeway,alittleperhapsofCourtier;yet,whenthemaidhadgone,shedidnotatoncebeginhertale。LadyValleys,whoatGoodwoodhadjusthearddetailsofaSocietyscandal,beganacarefullyexpurgatedaccountofitsuitabletoherdaughter'sears——forsomeaccountshefeltshemustgivetosomebody。
"Mother,"saidBarbarasuddenly,"Eustacehasbeenill。He'soutofdangernow,andgoingonallright。"Then,lookinghardatthebewilderedlady,sheadded:"Mrs。Noelisnursinghim。"
Thepasttenseinwhichillnesshadbeenmentioned,checkingatthefirstmomentanyrushofpanicinLadyValleys,leftherconfusedbythesituationconjuredupinBarbara'slastwords。Insteadoffeedingthatpartofmanwhichlovesascandal,shewasbeingfed,alwaysanunenviablesensation。Awomandidnotnurseamanundersuchcircumstanceswithoutbeingeverythingtohim,intheworld'seyes。Herdaughterwenton:
"Itookhertohim。Itseemedtheonlythingtodo——sinceit'sallthroughfrettingforher。Nobodyknows,ofcourse,exceptthedoctor,and——Stacey。"
"Heavens!"mutteredLadyValleys。
"Ithassavedhim。"
ThemotherinstinctinLadyValleystooksuddenfright。"Areyoutellingmethetruth,Babs?Ishereallyoutofdanger?Howwrongofyounottoletmeknowbefore?"
ButBarbaradidnotflinch;andhermotherrelapsedintorumination。
"Staceyisacat!"shesaidsuddenly。Theexpurgateddetailsofthescandalshehadbeenretailingtoherdaughterhadincludedtheusualmaid。Shecouldnotfinditinhertoenjoytheironyofthiscoincidence。Then,seeingBarbarasmile,shesaidtartly:
"Ifailtoseethejoke。"
"OnlythatIthoughtyou'denjoymythrowingStaceyin,dear。"
"What!Youmeanshedoesn'tknow?"
"Notaword。"
LadyValleyssmiled。
"Whatalittlewretchyouare,Babs!"Maliciouslysheadded:"ClaudandhismotherarecomingoverfromWhitewater,withBertieandLilyMalvezin,you'dbettergoanddress;"andhereyessearchedherdaughter'ssoshrewdly,thataflushrosetothegirl'scheeks。
Whenshehadgone,LadyValleysrangforhermaidagain,andrelapsedintomeditation。Herfirstthoughtwastoconsultherhusband;hersecondthatsecrecywasstrength。SincenooneknewbutBarbara,noonehadbetterknow。
Herastutenessandexperiencecomprehendedthefar—reachingprobabilitiesofthisaffair。Itwouldnotdototakeasinglefalsestep。Ifshehadnoone'sactiontocontrolbutherownandBarbara's,somuchthelesschanceofaslip。Hermindwasastrangemedleyofthoughtsandfeelings,almostcomic,well—nightragic;ofworldlyprudence,andmotherlyinstinct;ofwarm—bloodedsympathywithalllove—affairs,andcool—bloodedconcernforherson'scareer。
Itwasnotyettoolateperhapstopreventrealmischief;especiallysinceitwasagreedbyeveryonethatthewomanwasnoadventuress。
Whateverwasdone,theymustnotforgetthatshehadnursedhim——
savedhim,Barbarahadsaid!Shemustbetreatedwithallkindnessandconsideration。
Hasteninghertoilette,sheinturnwenttoherdaughter'sroom。
Barbarawasalreadydressed,leaningoutofherwindowtowardsthesea。
LadyValleysbeganalmosttimidly:
"Mydear,isEustaceoutofbedyet?"
"Hewastogetupto—dayforanhourortwo。"
"Isee。Now,wouldtherebeanydangerifyouandIwentupandtookchargeoverfromMrs。Noel?"
"PoorEusty!"
"Yes,yes!But,exerciseyourjudgment。Woulditharmhim?"
Barbarawassilent。"No,"shesaidatlast,"Idon'tsupposeitwould,now;butit'sforthedoctortosay。"
LadyValleysexhibitedamanifestrelief。
"We'llseehimfirst,ofcourse。Eustacewillhavetohaveanordinarynurse,Isuppose,forabit。"
LookingstealthilyatBarbara,sheadded:
"Imeantobeverynicetoher;butonemustn'tberomantic,youknow,Babs。"
>FromthelittlesmileonBarbara'slipsshederivednosenseofcertainty;indeedshewasvisitedbyallherlatedisquietudeaboutheryoungdaughter,byallthefeelingthatshe,aswellasMiltoun,washoveringonthevergeofsomefolly。
"Well,mydear,"shesaid,"Iamgoingdown。"
ButBarbaralingeredalittlelongerinthatbedroomwheretennightsagoshehadlaintossing,tillindespairshewentandcooledherselfinthedarksea。
HerlastlittleinterviewwithCourtierstoodbetweenherandafreshmeetingwithHarbinger,whomattheValleysHousegatheringshehadnotsufferedtobealonewithher。Shecamedownlate。
Thatsameevening,outonthebeachroad,underaskyswarmingwithstars,thepeoplewerestrolling——folkfromthetowns,downfortheirfortnight'sholiday。Intwosandthrees,inpartiesofsixoreight,theypassedthewallattheendofLordDennis'slittledomain;andthesoundoftheirsparsetalkandlaughter,togetherwiththesighingoftheyoungwaves,wasblownoverthewalltotheearsofHarbinger,Bertie,Barbara,andLilyMalvezin,whentheystrolledoutafterdinnertosniffthesea。Theholiday—makersstareddullyatthefourfiguresineveningdresslookingoutabovetheirheads;theyhadotherthingsthanthesetothinkof,becomingmoreandmoresilentasthenightgrewdark。Thefouryoungpeopletoowererathersilent。Therewassomethinginthiswarmnight,withitssighing,anditsdarkness,anditsstars,thatwasnotfavourabletotalk,sothatpresentlytheysplitintocouples,driftingalittleapart。
Standingthere,grippingthewall,itseemedtoHarbingerthattherewerenowordsleftintheworld。Notevenhisworstenemycouldhavecalledthisyoungmanromantic;yetthatfigurebesidehim,thegleamofherneckandherpalecheekinthedark,gavehimperhapsthemostpoignantglimpseofmysterythathehadeverhad。Hismind,essentiallythatofamanofaffairs,bynatureandbyhabitathomeamongstthematerialaspectsofthings,wasbutgropinglyconsciousthathere,inthisdarknight,andthedarksea,andthepalefigureofthisgirlwhoseheartwasdarktohimandsecret,therewasperhapssomething——yes,something——whichsurpassedtheconfinesofhisphilosophy,somethingbeckoninghimonoutofhissnugcompoundintothedesertofdivinity。Ifso,itwassoongoneintheachingofhissensesatthescentofherhair,andthelongingtoescapefromthisweirdsilence。
"Babs,"hesaid;"haveyouforgivenme?"
Heranswercame,withoutturnofhead,natural,indifferent:
"Yes——Itoldyouso。"
"Isthatallyouhavetosaytoafellow?"
"Whatshallwetalkabout——therunningofCasetta?"
DeepdownwithinhimHarbingerutteredanoiselessoath。Somethingsinisterwasmakingherbehavelikethistohim!Itwasthatfellow—
—thatfellow!Andsuddenlyhesaid:
"Tellmethis————"thenspeechseemedtostickinhisthroat。No!
Iftherewereanythinginthat,hepreferrednottohearit。Therewasalimit!
Downbelow,apairofloverspassed,verysilent,theirarmsroundeachother'swaists。
Barbaraturnedandwalkedawaytowardsthehouse。
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