"Tohelpus,"hereplied。Then,withanexplosionofnervousenergy,headded:"Dowhatyourhearttellsyoutodo。Giveyourbedandyourclothestothewoman,andletyourgirlspitchtheirbookstothedevilforafewdaysandmakesomethingforthesepoorlittlecreaturestowear。ThepoorhaveworkedhardenoughtoclotheTHEM。Letthemtaketheirturnnowandclothethepoor。"
"No,no。Steady,master,"saidtheman,steppingforwardtopropitiateMissWilson,andevidentlymuchoppressedbyasenseofunwelcomeness。"Itain'tanyfaultofthelady's。MightImakesoboldastoaskyoutoputthiswomanofmineanywherethatmaybeconvenientuntilmorning。Anysortofaplacewilldo;she'saccustomedtoroughit。JusttohavearoofoverheruntilIfindaroominthevillagewherewecanshakedown。"Here,ledbyhisownwordstocontemplatethefuture,helookeddesolatelyroundthecorniceofthehall,asifitwereashelfonwhichsomebodymighthaveleftasuitablelodgingforhim。
MissWilsonturnedherbackdecisivelyandcontemptuouslyonSmilash。Shehadrecoveredherself。"Iwillkeepyourwifehere,"
shesaidtotheman。"Everycareshallbetakenofher。Thechildrencanstaytoo。"
"Threecheersformoralscience!"criedSmilash,ecstaticallybreakingintotheoutrageousdialecthehadforgotteninhiswrath。"Wotwasmywordstoyou,neighbor,whenIsaidweshouldbringyourmissustothecollege,andyousaid,ironical—like,'Aye,andbloomin'gladthey'llbetoseeusthere。'DidInotsaytoyouthattheladyhadanoble'art,andwouldshowitwhenputtothetestbysechacalamityasthis?"
"Whyshouldyoubringmyhastywordsupagain'menow,master,whentheladyhasbeensokind?"saidthemanwithemotion。"Iamhumblygratefultoyou,Miss;andsoisBess。Wearesensibleoftheill—conveniencewe——"
MissWilson,whohadbeenconferringwiththehousekeeper,cuthisspeechshortbyorderinghimtocarryhiswifetobed,whichhedidwiththeassistanceofSmilash,nowjubilant。Whilsttheywereaway,oneoftheservants,biddentobringsomeblanketstothewoman'sroom,refused,sayingthatshewasnotgoingtowaitonthatsortofpeople。MissWilsongaveherwarningalmostfiercelytoquitthecollegenextday。Thisexcepted,noill—willwasshowntotherefugees。Theyoungladieswerethenrequestedtoreturntobed。
Meanwhiletheman,havinglaidhiswifeinachamberpalatialincomparisonwiththatwhichthestormhadblownaboutherears,wascongratulatingheronherluck,andthreateningthechildrenwiththemostviolentchastisementiftheyfailedtobehavethemselveswithstrictproprietywhilsttheyremainedinthathouse。Beforeleavingthemhekissedhiswife;andshe,reviving,askedhimtolookatthebaby。Hedidso,andpensivelyapostrophizeditwithashockingepithetinanticipationofthetimewhenitsappetitemustbesatisfiedfromtheprovisionshopinsteadoffromitsmother'sbreast。Shelaughedandcriedshameonhim;andsotheypartedcheerfully。WhenhereturnedtothehallwithSmilashtheyfoundtwomugsofbeerwaitingforthem。
Thegirlshadretired,andonlyMissWilsonandthehousekeeperremained。
"Here'syourhealth,mum,"saidtheman,beforedrinking;"andmayyoufindsuchanotherasyourselftohelpyouwhenyou'reintrouble,whichLordsendmaynevercome!"
"Isyourhousequitedestroyed?"saidMissWilson。"Wherewillyouspendthenight?"
"Don'tyouthinkofme,mum。MasterSmilashherewillkindlyputmeup'tilmorning。"
"Hishealth!"saidSmilash,touchingthemugwithhislips。
"Theroofandsouthwallisbrowedrightaway,"continuedtheman,afterpausingforamomenttopuzzleoverSmilash'smeaning。
"Idoubtifthere'sastoneofitstandingbythis。"
"ButSirJohnwillbuilditforyouagain。Youareoneofhisherds,areyounot?"
"Iam,Miss。Butnothe;he'llbegladit'sdown。Hedon'tlikepeoplelivin'ontheland。Ihavetoldhimtimeandagainthattheplacewasreadytofall;buthesaidIcouldn'texpecthimtolayoutmoneyonahousethathegotnorentfor。Yousee,Miss,Ididn'tpayanyrent。Itooklowwages;andthebitofahutwasasortofset—offagain'whatIwaspaidshortoftheothermen。
Icouldn'taffordtohaveitrepaired,thoughIdidwhatIcouldtopatchandpropit。AndnowmostlikeIshallbeblamedforlettingitbeblewdown,andshallhavetoliveinhalfaroominthetownandpaytwoorthreeshillin'saweek,besideswalkin'
threemilestoandfrommyworkeveryday。AgentlemanlikeSirJohndon'thardlyknowwhatthevalueofapennyistouslaborin'folk,norhowcruelhardhisestaterulesandthelikecomesonus。"
"SirJohn'shealth!"saidSmilash,touchingthemugasbefore。
Themandrankamouthfulhumbly,andSmilashcontinued,"Here'stothegloriouslandedgentryofoldEngland:bless'em!"
"MasterSmilashisonlyjokin',"saidthemanapologetically。
"It'shisway。"
"Youshouldnotbringafamilyintotheworldifyouaresopoor,"saidMissWilsonseverely。"Canyounotseethatyouimpoverishyourselfbydoingso——toputthematteronnohighergrounds。"
"ReverendMr。Malthus'shealth!"remarkedSmilash,repeatinghispantomime。
"Somesayit'sthechildren,andsomesayit'sthedrink,Miss,"
saidthemansubmissively。"ButfromwhatIsee,familyornofamily,drunkorsober,thepoorgetspoorerandtherichrichereveryday。"
"Ain'titdisgustin'tohearamansoignorantoftheimprovementintheconditionofhisclass?"saidSmilash,appealingtoMissWilson。
"Ifyouintendtotakethismanhomewithyou,"shesaid,turningsharplyonhim,"youhadbetterdoitatonce。"
"Itakeitkindonyourpartthatyouaskmetodoanythink,afteryourupandtellingMr。WickensthatIamthelastpersoninLyvernyouwouldtrustwithajob。"
"Soyouare——theverylast。Whydon'tyoudrinkyourbeer?"
"Notinscornofyourbrewing,lady;butbecause,bein'acommonman,waterisgoodenoughforme。"
"Iwishyougood—night,Miss,"saidtheman;"andthankyoukindlyforBessandthechildren。"
"Good—night,"shereplied,steppingasidetoavoidanysalutationfromSmilash。Buthewentuptoherandsaidinalowvoice,andwiththeTrefusismannerandaccent:
"Good—night,MissWilson。Ifyoushouldeverbeinwantoftheservicesofadog,aman,oradomesticengineer,remindSmilashofBessandthechildren,andhewillactforyouinanyofthosecapacities。"
Theyopenedthedoorcautiously,andfoundthatthewind,conqueredbytherain,hadabated。MissWilson'scandle,thoughitflickeredinthedraught,wasnotextinguishedthistime;andshewaspresentlyleftwiththehousekeeper,boltingandchainingthedoor,andlisteningtothecrunchingoffeetonthegraveloutsidedyingawaythroughthesteadypatteringoftherain。
CHAPTERVII
Agathawasatthistimeinherseventeenthyear。Shehadalivelyperceptionofthefoiblesofothers,andnoreverenceforherseniors,whomshethoughtdull,cautious,andridiculouslyamenablebycommonplaces。Butshewassubjecttotheillusionwhichdisablesyouthinspiteofitssuperioritytoage。Shethoughtherselfanexception。CreditingMr。Janseniusandthegeneralmobofmankindwithnothingbutagrovellingconsciousnessofsomefewmaterialfacts,shefeltinherselfanexquisitesenseandall—embracingconceptionofnature,sharedonlybyherfavoritepoetsandheroesofromanceandhistory。
Henceshewasinthecommonyouthfulcaseofbeingamuchbetterjudgeofotherpeople'saffairsthanofherown。Atthefellow—studentwhoadoredsomeHenryorAugustus,notfromthedrivellingsentimentalitywhichtheworldcallslove,butbecausethisparticularHenryorAugustuswasaphoenixtowhomthelawsthatgoverntherelationsofordinaryladsandlassesdidnotapply,Agathalaughedinhersleeve。Themoreshesawofthisweaknessinherfellows,themoresatisfiedshewasthat,beingforewarned,shewasalsoforearmedagainstanattackofitonherself,muchasifadoctorweretoconcludethathecouldnotcatchsmallpoxbecausehehadseenmanycasesofit;orasifamastermariner,knowingthatmanyshipsarewreckedintheBritishchannel,shouldventuretherewithoutapilot,thinkingthatheknewitsperilstoowelltorunanyriskofthem。Yet,asthedoctormightholdsuchanopinionifhebelievedhimselftobeconstituteddifferentlyfromordinarymen;ortheshipmasteradoptsuchacourseundertheimpressionthathisvesselwasastar,Agathafoundfalsesecurityinthesubjectivedifferencebetweenherfellowsseenfromwithoutandherselfknownfromwithin。When,forinstance,shefellinlovewithMr。JeffersonSmilash(astepuponwhichsheresolvedthedayafterthestorm),herimaginationinvestedthepleasingemotionwithasacrednesswhich,toher,setitfarapartanddistinctfromthefrivolousfanciesofwhichHenryandAugustushadbeenthesubject,andshetheconfidant。
"Icanlookathimquitecoollyanddispassionately,"shesaidtoherself。"Thoughhisfacehasastrangeinfluencethatmust,I
know,correspondtosomeunexplainedpowerwithinme,yetitisnotaperfectface。Ihaveseenmanymenwhoare,strictlyspeaking,farhandsomer。Ifthelightthatneverwasonseaorlandisinhiseyes,yettheyarenotprettyeyes——nothalfsoclearasmine。Thoughhewearshiscommonclotheswithanamelessgracethatbetrayshistruebreedingateverystep,yetheisnottall,dark,andmelancholy,asmyidealherowouldbeifIwereasgreatafoolasgirlsofmyageusuallyare。IfIaminlove,Ihavesenseenoughnottoletmyloveblindmyjudgment。"
Shedidnottellanyoneofhernewinterestinlife。Strongestinthatstudentcommunity,shehadusedherpowerwithgood—natureenoughtowinthepopularityofaschoolleader,andoccasionallywithunscrupulousnessenoughtosecuretheprivilegesofaschoolbully。Popularityandprivilege,however,onlysatisfiedherwhenshewasinthemoodforthem。Girls,likemen,wanttobepetted,pitied,andmademuchof,whentheyarediffident,inlowspirits,orinunrequitedlove。Theseareserviceswhichtheweakcannotrendertothestrongandwhichthestrongwillnotrendertotheweak,exceptwhenthereisalsoadifferenceofsex。
Agathaknewbyexperiencethatthoughaweakwomancannotunderstandwhyherstrongersistershouldwishtoleanuponher,shemaytriumphinthefactwithoutunderstandingit,andgivechaffinsteadofconsolation。Agathawantedtobeunderstoodandnottobechaffed。Findingherselfunabletosatisfyboththeseconditions,sheresolvedtodowithoutsympathyandtoholdhertongue。Shehadoftenhadtodosobefore,andshewashelpedonthisoccasionbyasenseoftheridiculousappearanceherpassionmightwearinthevulgareye。Hersecretkeptitself,asshewassupposedinthecollegetobeinsensibletothesofteremotions。
Lovewroughtnoexternalchangeuponher。Itmadeherbelievethatshehadlefthergirlhoodbehindherandwasnowawomanwithanewly—developedheartcapacityatwhichshewouldchildishlyhavescoffedalittlewhilebefore。Shefeltashamedofthebeeonthewindowpane,althoughitsomehowbuzzedasfrequentlyasbeforeinspiteofher。Hercalendar,formerlyamonotonouscycleofclasstimes,mealtimes,playtimes,andbedtime,wasnowirregularlydividedbywalkspastthechaletandaccidentalglimpsesofitstenant。
EarlyinDecembercameablackfrost,andnavigationonthecanalwassuspended。Wickens'sboywassenttothecollegewithnewsthatWickens'spondwouldbear,andthattheyoungladiesshouldbewelcomeatanytime。Thepondwasonlyfourfeetdeep,andasMissWilsonsetmuchstorebythephysicaleducationofherpupils,leavewasgivenforskating。Agatha,whowasexpertontheice,immediatelyproposedthataselectpartyshouldgooutbeforebreakfastnextmorning。Actionsnotinthemselvesvirtuousoftenappearsowhenperformedathoursthatcompelearlyrising,andsomeofthecandidatesfortheCambridgeLocal,whowouldnothavesacrificedtheafternoontoamusement,atoncefellinwithhersuggestion。Butforthemitmightneverhavebeencarriedout;forwhentheysummonedAgatha,athalf—pastsixnextmorning,toleaveherwarmbedandbravethebitingair,shewouldhaverefusedwithouthesitationhadshenotbeenshamedintocompliancebytheselaboriousoneswhostoodbyherbedside,blue—nosedandhungry,butreadyfortheice。Whenshehaddressedherselfwithmuchshudderingandchattering,theyallayedtheirinternaldiscomfortbyaslendermealofbiscuits,gottheirskates,andwentoutacrosstherimymeadows,pastpatientcowsbreathingcloudsofsteam,toWickens'spond。Here,totheirsurprise,wasSmilash,onelectro—platedacmeskates,practicingcomplicatedfigureswithintensediligence。Itsoonappearedthathisskillcameshortofhisambition;for,afterseveralnarrowescapesandsomefranticstaggering,hiscalves,elbows,andocciputsmotetheicealmostsimultaneously。Onrisingruefullytoasittingposturehebecameawarethateightyoungladieswerewatchinghisproceedingswithinterest。
"Thiscomesofacommonmanputtinghimselfabovehisstationbygettingintogentlemen'sskates,"hesaid。"HadIbeencontentwithahumbleslide,asmyfatherswas,Ishouldha'beenahappiermanatthepresentmoment。"Hesighed,rose,touchedhishattoMissWard,andtookoffhisskates,adding:"Good—morning,Miss。MissWilsonsentmewordtobeheresharpatsixtoputontheyoungladies'skates,andItookthelibertyoftryingafigureortwotokeepoutthecold。"
"MissWilsondidnottellmethatsheorderedyoutocome,"saidMissWard。
"Justlikehertobethoughtfulandyetnotletontobe!Sheisakindlady,andalearned——likeyourself,Miss。Sityourselfdownonthecamp—stool。andgivemeyourheel,ifImaybesoboldastostickagimletintoit。"
Hisassistancewaswelcome,andMissWardallowedhimtoputonherskates。ShewasaCanadian,andcouldskatewell。Jane,thefirsttofollowher,wasanxiousastothestrengthoftheice;
butwhenreassured,sheacquittedherselfadmirably,forshewasproficientinoutdoorexercises,andhadthesatisfactionoflaughinginthefieldatthosewholaughedatherinthestudy。
Agatha,contrarytohercustom,gavewaytohercompanions,andherbootswerethelastuponwhichSmilashoperated。
"Howd'youdo,MissWylie?"hesaid,droppingtheSmilashmannernowthattherestwereoutofearshot。
"Iamverywell,thankyou,"saidAgatha,shyandconstrained。
Thisphaseofherbeingnewtohim,hepausedwithherheelinhishandandlookedupathercuriously。Shecollectedherself,returnedhisgazesteadily,andsaid:"HowdidMissWilsonsendyouwordtocome?Sheonlyknewofourpartyathalf—pastninelastnight。"
"MissWilsondidnotsendforme。"
"ButyouhavejusttoldMissWardthatshedid。"
"Yes。IfinditnecessarytotellalmostasmanyliesnowthatI
amasimplelaborerasIdidwhenIwasagentleman。More,infact。"
"Ishallknowhowmuchtobelieveofwhatyousayinthefuture。"
"Thetruthisthis。Iamperhapstheworstskaterintheworld,andtherefore,accordingtoanaturallaw,Icovetthefaintestdistinctionontheicemorethanimmortalfameforthethingsinwhichnaturehasgivenmeaptitudetoexcel。Ienvythatlargefriendofyours——Janeishername,Ithink——morethanIenvyPlato。Icamedownherethismorning,thinkingthattheskatingworldwasalla—bed,topracticeinsecret。"
"Iamgladwecaughtyouatit,"saidAgathamaliciously,forhewasdisappointingher。Shewantedhimtobeheroicinhisconversation;andhewouldnot。
"Isupposeso,"hereplied。"IhaveobservedthatWoman'sdearestdelightistowoundMan'sself—conceit,thoughMan'sdearestdelightistogratifyhers。ThereisatleastonecreaturelowerthanMan。Now,offwithyou。ShallIholdyouuntilyouranklesgetfirm?"
"Thankyou,"shesaid,disgusted:"_I_canskateprettywell,andIdon'tthinkyoucouldgivemeanyusefulassistance。"Andshewentoffcautiously,feelingthatamishapwouldbeverydisgracefulaftersuchaspeech。
Hestoodontheshore,listeningtothegrinding,swayingsoundoftheskates,andwatchingthegrowingcomplexityofthecurvestheywereengravingontheice。Asthegirlsgrewwarmandaccustomedtotheexercisetheylaughed,jested,screamedrecklesslywhentheycameintocollision,andsailedbeforethewinddownthewholelengthofthepondatperilousspeed。Themoreanimatedtheybecame,thegloomierlookedSmilash。"Nottwo—penn'orthofchoicebetweenthemandaparcelofpuppies,"hesaid;"exceptthatsomeofthemareconsciousthatthereisamanlookingatthem,althoughheisonlyablackguardlaborer。TheyremindmeofHenriettainahundredways。WouldIlaugh,now,ifthewholesheetoficeweretoburstintolittlebitsunderthem?"
Justthentheicecrackedwithastartlingreport,andtheskaters,exceptJane,skimmedawayinalldirections。
"Youarebreakingtheicetopieces,Jane,"saidAgatha,callingfromasafedistance。"Howcanyouexpectittobearyourweight?"
"Packoffools!"retortedJaneindignantly。"Thenoiseonlyshowshowstrongitis。"
TheshockwhichthereporthadgivenSmilashansweredhimhisquestion。"Makeanotethatwishesforthedestructionofthehumanrace,howeverrationalandsincere,arecontrarytonature,"hesaid,recoveringhisspirits。"Besides,whatapreciousfoolIshouldbeifIwereworkingataninternationalassociationofcreaturesonlyfitfordestruction!Hi,lady!Oneword,Miss!"ThiswastoMissWard,whohadskatedintohisneighborhood。"Itbein'acoldmorning,andmehavin'apoorandcommoncirculation,woulditbelookedonasalibertyifIwastocutaslidehereortakeaturninthecorneralltomyself?"
"Youmayskateoverthereifyouwish,"shesaid,afterapauseforconsideration,pointingtoadesertedspotattheleewardendofthepond,wheretheicewastooroughforcomfortableskating。
"Noblyspoke!"hecried,withagrin,hurryingtotheplaceindicated,where,skatingbeingoutofthequestion,hemadeapairofslides,andgravelyexercisedhimselfuponthemuntilhisfaceglowedandhisfingerstingledinthefrostyair。Thetimepassedquickly;whenMissWardsentforhimtotakeoffherskatestherewasageneralgroananddeclarationthatitcouldnotpossiblybehalf—pasteighto'clockyet。Smilashkneltbeforethecamp—stool,andwaspresentlybusyunbucklingandunscrewing。
WhenJane'sturncame,thecamp—stoolcreakedbeneathherweight。
Agathaagainremonstratedwithher,butimmediatelyreproachedherselfwithflippancybeforeSmilash,towhomshewishedtoconveyanimpressionofdeepseriousnessofcharacter。
"Smallestfootofthelot,"hesaidcritically,holdingJane'sfootbetweenhisfingerandthumbasifitwereanarttreasurewhichhehadbeeninvitedtoexamine。"Andbelongingtothefinestbuiltlady。"
Janesnatchedawayherfoot,blushed,andsaid:
"Indeed!Whatnext,Iwonder?"
"T'other'unnext,"hesaid,settingtoworkontheremainingskate。Whenitwasoff,helookedupather,andshedartedaglanceathimassherosewhichshowedthathiscompliment(herfeetwere,infact,smallandpretty)wasappreciated。
"Allowme,Miss,"hesaidtoGertrude,whowasstandingononeleg,leaningonAgatha,andtakingoffherownskates。
"No,thankyou,"shesaidcoldly。"Idon'tneedyourassistance。"
"Iamwellawarethattheofferwasoverbold,"hereplied,withaself—complacencythatmadehisprofessionofhumilityexasperating。"Ifalltheskatesisoff,Iwill,byMissWilson'sorder,carrythemandthecamp—stoolbacktothecollege。"
MissWardhandedhimherskatesandturnedaway。GertrudeplacedhersonthestoolandwentwithMissWard。Therestfollowed,leavinghimtostareattheheapofskatesandconsiderhowheshouldcarrythem。Hecouldthinkofnobetterplanthantointerlacethestrapsandhangtheminachainoverhisshoulder。
Bythetimehehaddonethistheyoungladieswereoutofsight,andhisintentionofenjoyingtheirsocietyduringthereturntothecollegewasdefeated。Theyhadenteredthebuildinglongbeforehecameinsightofit。
Somewhatoutofconceitwithhisfolly,hewenttotheservants'
entranceandrangthebellthere。Whenthedoorwasopened,hesawMissWardstandingbehindthemaidwhoadmittedhim。
"Oh,"shesaid,lookingatthestringofskatesasifshehadhardlyexpectedtoseethemagain,"soyouhavebroughtourthingsback?"
"Suchweremyinstructions,"hesaid,takenabackbyhermanner。
"Youhadnoinstructions。Whatdoyoumeanbygettingourskatesintoyourchargeunderfalsepretences?Iwasabouttosendthepolicetotakethemfromyou。Howdareyoutellmethatyouweresenttowaitonme,whenyouknowverywellthatyouwerenothingofthesort?"
"Icouldn'thelpit,Miss,"herepliedsubmissively。"Iamanaturalbornliar——alwayswas。Iknowthatitmustappeardreadfultoyouthatnevertoldalie,anddon'thardlyknowwhatalieis,belongingasyoudotoaclasswherenoneisevertold。
Butcommonpeoplelikemetellsliesjustasaduckswims。Iaskyourpardon,Miss,mosthumble,andIhopetheyoungladies'llbeabletotellonesetofskatesfromt'other;forI'mblestifI
can。"
"Putthemdown。MissWilsonwishestospeaktoyoubeforeyougo。
Susan,showhimtheway。"
"Hopeyouain'tbeenandgotapoorcoveintotrouble,Miss?"
"MissWilsonknowshowyouhavebehaved。"
HesmiledatherbenevolentlyandfollowedSusanupstairs。OntheirwaytheymetJane,whostoleaglanceathim,andwasabouttopassby,whenhesaid:
"Won'tyousayawordtoMissWilsonforapoorcommonfellow,honoredyounglady?Ihavegotintodreadfultroubleforhavingmadeboldtoassistyouthismorning。"
"Youneedn'tgiveyourselfthepainstotalklikethat,"repliedJaneinanimpetuouswhisper。"Weallknowthatyou'reonlypretending。"
"Well,youcanguessmymotive,"hewhispered,lookingtenderlyather。
"Suchstuffandnonsense!Ineverheardofsuchathinginmylife,"saidJane,andranaway,plainlyunderstandingthathehaddisguisedhimselfinordertoobtainadmissiontothecollegeandenjoythehappinessoflookingather。
"CursedfoolthatIam!"hesaidtohimself;"Icannotactlikearationalcreatureforfiveconsecutiveminutes。"
Theservantledhimtothestudyandannounced,"Theman,ifyouplease,ma'am。"
"JeffSmilash,"headdedinexplanation。
"Comein,"saidMissWilsonsternly。
Hewentin,andmetthedeterminedfrownwhichshecastonhimfromherseatbehindthewritingtable,bysayingcourteously:
"Good—morning,MissWilson。"
Shebentforwardinvoluntarily,asiftoreceiveagentleman。
Thenshecheckedherselfandlookedimplacable。
"Ihavetoapologize,"hesaid,"formakinguseofyournameunwarrantablythismorning——tellingalie,infact。Ihappenedtobeskatingwhentheyoungladiescamedown,andastheyneededsomeassistancewhichtheywouldhardlyhaveacceptedfromacommonman——excusemyborrowingthattiresomeexpressionfromouracquaintanceSmilash——Isettheirmindsateasebysayingthatyouhadsentforme。Otherwise,asyouhavegivenmeabadcharacter——thoughnotworsethanIdeserve——theywouldprobablyhaverefusedtoemployme,oratleastIshouldhavebeencompelledtoacceptpayment,whichI,ofcourse,donotneed。"
MissWilsonaffectedsurprise。"Idonotunderstandyou,"shesaid。
"Notaltogether,"hesaidsmiling。"ButyouunderstandthatIamwhatiscalledagentleman。"
"No。ThegentlemenwithwhomIamconversantdonotdressasyoudress,norspeakasyouspeak,noractasyouact。"
Helookedather,andhercountenanceconfirmedthehostilityofhertone。HeinstantlyrelapsedintoanaggravatedphaseofSmilash。
"Iwillnolongerattempttosetmyselfupasagentleman,"hesaid。"Iamacommonman,andyourladyship'shirecognizesmeassuchandisnottobedeceived。Butdon'tgofortosaythatIamnotcandidwhenIamascandidaseveryouwillletmebe。Whatfault,ifany,doyoufindwithmyputtingtheskatesontheyoungladies,andcarryin'thecampstoolforthem?"
"Ifyouareagentleman,"saidMissWilson,reddening,"yourconductinpersistingintheseanticsinmypresenceisinsultingtome。Extremelyso。"
"MissWilson,"hereplied,unruffled,"ifyouinsistonSmilash,youshallhaveSmilash;Itakeaninsanepleasureinpersonatinghim。IfyouwantSidney——myrealChristianname——youcancommandhim。Butallowmetosaythatyoumusthaveeitheroneortheother。Ifyoubecomefrankwithme,IwillunderstandthatyouareaddressingSidney。Ifdistantandsevere,Smilash。"
"Nomatterwhatyournamemaybe,"saidMissWilson,muchannoyed,"Iforbidyoutocomehereortoholdanycommunicationwhateverwiththeyoungladiesinmycharge。"
"Why?"
"BecauseIchoose。"
"Thereismuchforceinthatreason,MissWilson;butitisnotmoralforceinthesenseconveyedbyyourcollegeprospectus,whichIhavereadwithgreatinterest。"
MissWilson,sinceherquarrelwithAgatha,hadbeensoreonthesubjectofmoralforce。"Nooneisadmittedhere,"shesaid,"withoutatrustworthyintroductionorrecommendation。Adisguiseisnotasatisfactorysubstituteforeither。"
"Disguisesaregenerallyassumedforthepurposeofconcealingcrime,"heremarkedsententiously。
"Preciselyso,"shesaidemphatically。
"Therefore,Ibear,tosaytheleast,adoubtfulcharacter。
Nevertheless,Ihaveformedwithsomeofthestudentshereaslightacquaintance,ofwhich,itseems,youdisapprove。YouhavegivenmenogoodreasonwhyIshoulddiscontinuethatacquaintance,andyoucannotcontrolmeexceptbyyourwish——asortofinfluencenotusuallyeffectivewithdoubtfulcharacters。
SupposeIdisregardyourwish,andthatoneortwoofyourpupilscometoyouandsay:'MissWilson,inouropinionSmilashisanexcellentfellow;wefindhisconversationmostimproving。Asitisyourprincipletoallowustoexerciseourownjudgment,weintendtocultivatetheacquaintanceofSmilash。'Howwillyouactinthatcase?"
"Sendthemhometotheirparentsatonce。"
"IseethatyourprinciplesarethoseoftheChurchofEngland。
Youallowthestudentstherightofprivatejudgmentonconditionthattheyarriveatthesameconclusionsasyou。ExcusemysayingthattheprinciplesoftheChurchofEngland,howeverexcellent,arenotthoseyourprospectusledmetohopefor。Yourplaniscoercion,starkandsimple。"
"Idonotadmitit,"saidMissWilson,readytoargue,evenwithSmilash,indefenceofhersystem。"Thegirlsarequiteatlibertytoactastheyplease,butIreservemyequallibertytoexcludethemfrommycollegeifIdonotapproveoftheirbehavior。"
"Justso。Inmostschoolschildrenareperfectlyatlibertytolearntheirlessonsornot,justastheyplease;buttheprincipalreservesanequallibertytowhipthemiftheycannotrepeattheirtasks。"
"Idonotwhipmypupils,"saidMissWilsonindignantly。"Thecomparisonisanoutrage。"
"Butyouexpelthem;and,astheyaredevotedtoyouandtotheplace,expulsionisadreadedpunishment。Yoursistheoldsystemofmakinglawsandenforcingthembypenalties,andthesuperiorityofAltonCollegetoothercollegesisdue,nottoanydifferenceofsystem,buttothecomparativereasonablenessofitslawsandthemildnessandjudgmentwithwhichtheyareenforced。"
"Mysystemisradicallydifferentfromtheoldone。However,I
willnotdiscussthematterwithyou。Amindoccupiedwiththeprejudicesoftheoldcoercivedespotismcannaturallyonlyseeinthenewamodificationoftheold,insteadof,asmysystemis,anentirereversalorabandonmentofit。"
Heshookhisheadsadlyandsaid:"Youseektoimposeyourideasonothers,ostracizingthosewhorejectthem。Believeme,mankindhasbeendoingnothingelseeversinceitbegantopaysomeattentiontoideas。Ithasbeensaidthatabenevolentdespotismisthebestpossibleformofgovernment。Idonotbelievethatsaying,becauseIbelieveanotheronetotheeffectthathellispavedwithbenevolence,whichmostpeople,theproverbbeingtoodeepforthem,misinterpretasunfulfilledintentions。Asifabenevolentdespotmightnotbyanyerrorofjudgmentdestroyhiskingdom,andthensay,likeRomeowhenhegothisfriendkilled,'Ithoughtallforthebest!'Excusemyrambling。Imeanttosay,inshort,thatthoughyouarebenevolentandjudiciousyouarenonethelessadespot。"