"Listentomeagain,monsieur,Iimploreyou。?IfI
donotgo,Ishalldiehereofgriefandlove。?IknowhowlongatimeIhavetolivethus。?Sendmeawayquickly,monsieur,oryouwillseemebaselydiebeforeyoureyes—inyourhouse—thisisstrongerthanmywill—strongerthanmystrength—youmayplainlyseethatwithinonemonthIhavelivedthirtyyears,andthatIapproachtheendofmylife。"
"Then,"
saidAthos,coldly,"yougowiththeintentionofgettingkilledinAfrica??Oh,tellme!donotlie!"
Raoulgrewdeadlypale,andremainedsilentfortwoseconds,whichweretohisfathertwohoursofagony。?Then,allatonce:
"Monsieur,"saidhe,"IhavepromisedtodevotemyselftoGod。?InexchangeforthesacrificeImakeofmyyouthandliberty,IwillonlyaskofHimonething,andthatis,topreservemeforyou,becauseyouaretheonlytiewhichattachesmetothisworld。?GodalonecangivemethestrengthnottoforgetthatIoweyoueverything,andthatnothingoughttostandinmyesteembeforeyou。"
Athosembracedhissontenderly,andsaid:
"Youhavejustrepliedtomeonthewordofhonorofanhonestman;intwodaysweshallbewithM。deBeaufortatParis,andyouwillthendowhatwillbeproperforyoutodo。?Youarefree,Raoul;
adieu。"
Andheslowlygainedhisbedroom。?Raoulwentdownintothegarden,andpassedthenightinthealleyoflimes。
ChapterXXVIII:
PreparationsforDeparture。
Athoslostnomoretimeincombatingthisimmutableresolution。?Hegaveallhisattentiontopreparing,duringthetwodaysthedukehadgrantedhim,theproperappointmentsforRaoul。?ThislaborchieflyconcernedGrimaud,whoimmediatelyappliedhimselftoitwiththegood—willandintelligenceweknowhepossessed。?AthosgavethisworthyservantorderstotaketheroutetoPariswhentheequipmentsshouldbeready;and,nottoexposehimselftothedangerofkeepingthedukewaiting,ordelayingRaoul,sothatthedukeshouldperceivehisabsence,hehimself,thedayafterthevisitofM。deBeaufort,setoffforPariswithhisson。
Forthepooryoungmanitwasanemotioneasilytobeunderstood,thustoreturntoParisamongstallthepeoplewhohadknownandlovedhim。?Everyfacerecalledapangtohimwhohadsufferedsomuch;tohimwhohadlovedsomuch,somecircumstanceofhisunhappylove。?Raoul,onapproachingParis,feltasifheweredying。?OnceinParis,hereallyexistednolonger。?WhenhereachedGuiche'sresidence,hewasinformedthatGuichewaswithMonsieur。?RaoultooktheroadtotheLuxembourg,andwhenarrived,withoutsuspectingthathewasgoingtotheplacewhereLaValli鑢ehadlived,heheardsomuchmusicandrespiredsomanyperfumes,heheardsomuchjoyouslaughter,andsawsomanydancingshadows,thatifithadnotbeenforacharitablewoman,whoperceivedhimsodejectedandpalebeneathadoorway,hewouldhaveremainedthereafewminutes,andthenwouldhavegoneaway,nevertoreturn。?But,aswehavesaid,inthefirstante—chamberhehadstopped,solelyforthesakeofnotmixinghimselfwithallthosehappybeingshefeltweremovingaroundhimintheadjacentsalons。?AndasoneofMonsieur'sservants,recognizinghim,hadaskedhimifhewishedtoseeMonsieurorMadame,Raoulhadscarcelyansweredhim,buthadsunkdownuponabenchnearthevelvetdoorway,lookingataclock,whichhadstoppedfornearlyanhour。?Theservanthadpassedon,andanother,betteracquaintedwithhim,hadcomeup,andinterrogatedRaoulwhetherheshouldinformM。deGuicheofhisbeingthere。?ThisnamedidnotevenarousetherecollectionsofRaoul。?ThepersistentservantwentontorelatethatDeGuichehadjustinventedanewgameoflottery,andwasteachingittotheladies。?Raoul,openinghislargeeyes,liketheabsentmaninTheophrastus,madenoanswer,buthissadnessincreasedtwoshades。?Withhisheadhangingdown,hislimbsrelaxed,hismouthhalfopenfortheescapeofhissighs,Raoulremained,thusforgotten,intheante—chamber,whenallatoncealady'srobepassed,rubbingagainstthedoorsofasidesalon,whichopenedonthegallery。?Alady,young,pretty,andgay,scoldinganofficerofthehousehold,enteredbythatway,andexpressedherselfwithmuchvivacity。?Theofficerrepliedincalmbutfirmsentences;itwasratheralittlelovepetthanaquarrelofcourtiers,andwasterminatedbyakissonthefingersofthelady。?Suddenly,onperceivingRaoul,theladybecamesilent,andpushingawaytheofficer:
"Makeyourescape,Malicorne,"saidshe;"Ididnotthinktherewasanyonehere。?Ishallcurseyou,iftheyhaveeitherheardorseenus!"
Malicornehastenedaway。?TheyoungladyadvancedbehindRaoul,andstretchingherjoyousfaceoverhimashelay:
"Monsieurisagallantman,"saidshe,"andnodoubt—"
Shehereinterruptedherselfbyutteringacry。?"Raoul!"saidshe,blushing。
"MademoiselledeMontalais!"saidRaoul,palerthandeath。
Heroseunsteadily,andtriedtomakehiswayacrosstheslipperymosaicofthefloor;butshehadcomprehendedthatsavageandcruelgrief;shefeltthatintheflightofRaoultherewasanaccusationofherself。?Awoman,evervigilant,shedidnotthinksheoughttolettheopportunityslipofmakinggoodherjustification;butRaoul,thoughstoppedbyherinthemiddleofthegallery,didnotseemdisposedtosurrenderwithoutacombat。?Hetookitupinatonesocoldandembarrassed,thatiftheyhadbeenthussurprised,thewholecourtwouldhavenodoubtabouttheproceedingsofMademoiselledeMontalais。
"Ah!
monsieur,"saidshewithdisdain,"whatyouaredoingisveryunworthyofagentleman。?Myheartinclinesmetospeaktoyou;youcompromisemebyareceptionalmostuncivil;youarewrong,monsieur;andyouconfoundyourfriendswithenemies。?Farewell!"
RaoulhadswornnevertospeakofLouise,nevereventolookatthosewhomighthaveseenLouise;hewasgoingintoanotherworld,thathemightnevermeetwithanythingLouisehadseen,oreventouched。?Butafterthefirstshockofhispride,afterhavinghadaglimpseofMontalais,thecompanionofLouise—Montalais,whoremindedhimoftheturretofBloisandthejoysofyouth—allhisreasonfadedaway。
"Pardonme,mademoiselle;itentersnot,itcannotenterintomythoughtstobeuncivil。"
"Doyouwishtospeaktome?"saidshe,withthesmileofformerdays。?"Well!comesomewhereelse;forwemaybesurprised。"
"Oh!'
saidhe。
Shelookedattheclock,doubtingly,then,havingreflected:
"Inmyapartment,"saidshe,"weshallhaveanhourtoourselves。"?Andtakinghercourse,lighterthanafairy,sheranuptoherchamber,followedbyRaoul。?Shuttingthedoor,andplacinginthehandsofhercam閞istethemantleshehadhelduponherarm:
"YouwereseekingM。deGuiche,wereyounot?"saidshetoRaoul。
"Yes,mademoiselle。"
"I
willgoandaskhimtocomeuphere,presently,afterIhavespokentoyou。"
"Doso,mademoiselle。"
"Areyouangrywithme?"
Raoullookedatherforamoment,then,castingdownhiseyes,"Yes,"saidhe。
"YouthinkIwasconcernedintheplotwhichbroughtabouttherupture,doyounot?"
"Rupture!"
saidhe,withbitterness。?"Oh!
mademoiselle,therecanbenorupturewheretherehasbeennolove。"
"Youareinerror,"repliedMontalais;"Louisedidloveyou。"
Raoulstarted。
"Notwithlove,Iknow;butshelikedyou,andyououghttohavemarriedherbeforeyousetoutforLondon。"
Raoulbrokeintoasinisterlaugh,whichmadeMontalaisshudder。
"Youtellmethatverymuchatyourease,mademoiselle。?Dopeoplemarrywhomtheylike??Youforgetthatthekingthenkeptforhimselfashismistressherofwhomwearespeaking。"
"Listen,"
saidtheyoungwoman,pressingthehandsofRaoulinherown,"youwerewrongineveryway;amanofyourageoughtnevertoleaveawomanofhersalone。"
"Thereisnolongeranyfaithintheworld,then,"saidRaoul。
"No,vicomte,"saidMontalais,quietly。?"Nevertheless,letmetellyouthat,if,insteadoflovingLouisecoldlyandphilosophically,youhadendeavoredtoawakenhertolove—"
"Enough,Iprayyou,mademoiselle,"saidRaoul。?"Ifeelasthoughyouareall,ofbothsexes,ofadifferentagefromme。?Youcanlaugh,andyoucanbanteragreeably。?I,mademoiselle,I
lovedMademoisellede—"?Raoulcouldnotpronouncehername,—"Ilovedherwell!?Iputmyfaithinher—nowIamquitsbylovinghernolonger。"
"Oh,vicomte!"saidMontalais,pointingtohisreflectioninalooking—glass。
"I
knowwhatyoumean,mademoiselle;Iammuchaltered,amInot??Well!?Doyouknowwhy??Becausemyfaceisthemirrorofmyheart,theoutersurfacechangedtomatchthemindwithin。"
"Youareconsoled,then?"saidMontalais,sharply。
"No,Ishallneverbeconsoled。"
"I
don'tunderstandyou,M。deBragelonne。"
"I
carebutlittleforthat。?Idonotquiteunderstandmyself。"
"YouhavenoteventriedtospeaktoLouise?"
"Who!?I?"exclaimedtheyoungman,witheyesflashingfire;"I!—Whydoyounotadvisemetomarryher??Perhapsthekingwouldconsentnow。"?Andherosefromhischairfullofanger。
"I
see,"saidMontalais,"thatyouarenotcured,andthatLouisehasoneenemythemore。"
"Oneenemythemore!"
"Yes;
favoritesarebutlittlebelovedatthecourtofFrance。"
"Oh!
whileshehasherlovertoprotecther,isnotthatenough??Shehaschosenhimofsuchaqualitythatherenemiescannotprevailagainsther。"?But,stoppingallatonce,"Andthenshehasyouforafriend,mademoiselle,"
addedhe,withashadeofironywhichdidnotglideoffthecuirass。
"Who!?I?—Oh,no!?IamnolongeroneofthosewhomMademoiselledelaValli鑢econdescendstolookupon;but—"
Thisbut,sobigwithmenaceandwithstorm;thisbut,whichmadetheheartofRaoulbeat,suchgriefsdiditpresageforherwhomlatelyhelovedsodearly;thisterriblebut,sosignificantinawomanlikeMontalais,wasinterruptedbyamoderatelyloudnoiseheardbythespeakersproceedingfromthealcovebehindthewainscoting。?Montalaisturnedtolisten,andRaoulwasalreadyrising,whenaladyenteredtheroomquietlybythesecretdoor,whichsheclosedafterher。
"Madame!"
exclaimedRaoul,onrecognizingthesister—in—lawoftheking。
"Stupidwretch!"murmuredMontalais,throwingherself,buttoolate,beforetheprincess,"Ihavebeenmistakeninanhour!"?Shehad,however,timetowarntheprincess,whowaswalkingtowardsRaoul。
"M。
deBragelonne,Madame,"andatthesewordstheprincessdrewback,utteringacryinherturn。
"Yourroyalhighness,"saidMontalais,withvolubility,"iskindenoughtothinkofthislottery,and—"
Theprincessbegantolosecountenance。?Raoulhastenedhisdeparture,withoutdiviningall,buthefeltthathewasintheway。?Madamewaspreparingawordoftransitiontorecoverherself,whenaclosetopenedinfrontofthealcove,andM。deGuicheissued,allradiant,alsofromthatcloset。?Thepalestofthefour,wemustadmit,wasstillRaoul。?Theprincess,however,wasnearfainting,andwasobligedtoleanuponthefootofthebedforsupport。?Nooneventuredtosupporther。?Thissceneoccupiedseveralminutesofterriblesuspense。?ButRaoulbrokeit。?Hewentuptothecount,whoseinexpressibleemotionmadehiskneestremble,andtakinghishand,"Dearcount,"saidhe,"tellMadameIamtoounhappynottomeritpardon;tellheralsothatIhavelovedinthecourseofmylife,andthatthehorrorofthetreacherythathasbeenpracticedonmerendersmeinexorabletowardsallothertreacherythatmaybecommittedaroundme。?Thisiswhy,mademoiselle,"saidhe,smilingtoMontalais,"Ineverwoulddivulgethesecretofthevisitsofmyfriendtoyourapartment。?ObtainfromMadame—fromMadame,whoissoclementandsogenerous,—obtainherpardonforyouwhomshehasjustsurprisedalso。?Youarebothfree,loveeachother,behappy!"
Theprincessfeltforamomentadespairthatcannotbedescribed;itwasrepugnanttoher,notwithstandingtheexquisitedelicacywhichRaoulhadexhibited,tofeelherselfatthemercyofonewhohaddiscoveredsuchanindiscretion。?Itwasequallyrepugnanttohertoaccepttheevasionofferedbythisdelicatedeception。?Agitated,nervous,shestruggledagainstthedoublestingsofthesetwotroubles。?Raoulcomprehendedherposition,andcameoncemoretoheraid。?Bendinghiskneebeforeher:"Madame!"saidhe,inalowvoice,"intwodaysIshallbefarfromParis;inafortnightIshallbefarfromFrance,whereIshallneverbeseenagain。"
"Areyougoingaway,then?"saidshe,withgreatdelight。
"WithM。deBeaufort。"
"IntoAfrica!"criedDeGuiche,inhisturn。?"You,Raoul—oh!myfriend—intoAfrica,whereeverybodydies!"
Andforgettingeverything,forgettingthatthatforgetfulnessitselfcompromisedtheprincessmoreeloquentlythanhispresence,"Ingrate!"saidhe,"andyouhavenotevenconsultedme!"?Andheembracedhim;duringwhichtimeMontalaishadledawayMadame,anddisappearedherself。
Raoulpassedhishandoverhisbrow,andsaid,withasmile,"Ihavebeendreaming!"?ThenwarmlytoGuiche,whobydegreesabsorbedhim,"Myfriend,"saidhe,"Iconcealnothingfromyou,whoaretheelectedofmyheart。?Iamgoingtoseekdeathinyondercountry;yoursecretwillnotremaininmybreastmorethanayear。"
"Oh,Raoul!aman!"
"Doyouknowwhatismythought,count??Thisisit—Ishalllivemorevividly,beingburiedbeneaththeearth,thanIhavelivedforthismonthpast。?WeareChristians,myfriend,andifsuchsufferingsweretocontinue,I
wouldnotbeanswerableforthesafetyofmysoul。"
DeGuichewasanxioustoraiseobjections。
"Notonewordmoreonmyaccount,"saidRaoul;"butadvicetoyou,dearfriend;whatIamgoingtosaytoyouisofmuchgreaterimportance。"
"Whatisthat?"
"WithoutdoubtyouriskmuchmorethanIdo,becauseyoulove。"
"Oh!"
"Itisajoysosweettometobeabletospeaktoyouthus!?Well,then,DeGuiche,bewareofMontalais。"
"What!
ofthatkindfriend?"
"Shewasthefriendof—heryouknowof。?Sheruinedherbypride。"
"Youaremistaken。"
"Andnow,whenshehasruinedher,shewouldravishfromhertheonlythingthatrendersthatwomanexcusableinmyeyes。"
"Whatisthat?"
"Herlove。"
"Whatdoyoumeanbythat?"
"I
meanthatthereisaplotformedagainstherwhoisthemistressoftheking—
aplotformedintheveryhouseofMadame。"
"Canyouthinkso?"
"I
amcertainofit。"
"ByMontalais?"
"TakeherastheleastdangerousoftheenemiesIdreadfor—theother!"
"Explainyourselfclearly,myfriend;andifIcanunderstandyou—"
"Intwowords。?Madamehasbeenlongjealousoftheking。"
"I
knowshehas—"
"Oh!
fearnothing—youarebeloved—youarebeloved,count;doyoufeelthevalueofthesethreewords??Theysignifythatyoucanraiseyourhead,thatyoucansleeptranquilly,thatyoucanthankGodeveryminuteofyoulife。?Youarebeloved;thatsignifiesthatyoumayheareverything,eventhecounselofafriendwhowishestopreserveyourhappiness。?Youarebeloved,DeGuiche,youarebeloved!?Youdonotendurethoseatrociousnights,thosenightswithoutend,which,witharideyeandfaintingheart,otherspassthroughwhoaredestinedtodie。?Youwilllivelong,ifyouactlikethemiserwho,bitbybit,crumbbycrumb,collectsandheapsupdiamondsandgold。?Youarebeloved!—allowmetotellyouwhatyoumustdothatyoumaybebelovedforever。"
DeGuichecontemplatedforsometimethisunfortunateyoungman,halfmadwithdespair,tilltherepassedthroughhisheartsomethinglikeremorseathisownhappiness。?Raoulsuppressedhisfeverishexcitement,toassumethevoiceandcountenanceofanimpassibleman。
"Theywillmakeher,whosenameIshouldwishstilltobeabletopronounce—theywillmakehersuffer。?Sweartomethatyouwillnotsecondtheminanything—butthatyouwilldefendherwhenpossible,asIwouldhavedonemyself。"
"I
swearIwill,"repliedDeGuiche。
"And,"
continuedRaoul,"someday,whenyoushallhaverenderedheragreatservice—somedaywhensheshallthankyou,promisemetosaythesewordstoher—'Ihavedoneyouthiskindness,madame,atthewarmrequestofM。deBragelonne,whomyousodeeplyinjured。'"
"IswearI
will,"murmuredDeGuiche。?"Thatisall。?Adieu!?Isetoutto—morrow,orthedayafter,forToulon。?Ifyouhaveafewhourstospare,givethemtome。"
"All!
all!"criedtheyoungman。
"Thankyou!"
"Andwhatareyougoingtodonow?"
"I
amgoingtomeetM。lecomteatPlanchet'sresidence,wherewehopetofindM。
d'Artagnan。"
"M。
d'Artagnan?"
"Yes,Iwishtoembracehimbeforemydeparture。?Heisabraveman,wholovesmedearly。?Farewell,myfriend;youareexpected,nodoubt;youwillfindme,whenyouwish,atthelodgingsofthecomte。?Farewell!"
Thetwoyoungmenembraced。?Thosewhochancedtoseethemboththus,wouldnothavehesitatedtosay,pointingtoRaoul,"Thatisthehappyman!"
ChapterXXIX:
Planchet'sInventory。
Athos,duringthevisitmadetotheLuxembourgbyRaoul,hadgonetoPlanchet'sresidencetoinquireafterD'Artagnan。?Thecomte,onarrivingattheRuedesLombards,foundtheshopofthegroceringreatconfusion;butitwasnottheencumbermentofaluckysale,orthatofanarrivalofgoods。?Planchetwasnotenthroned,asusual,onsacksandbarrels。?No。?Ayoungmanwithapenbehindhisear,andanotherwithanaccount—bookinhishand,weresettingdownanumberoffigures,whilstathirdcountedandweighed。?Aninventorywasbeingtaken。?Athos,whohadnoknowledgeofcommercialmatters,felthimselfalittleembarrassedbymaterialobstaclesandthemajestyofthosewhowerethusemployed。?Hesawseveralcustomerssentaway,andaskedhimselfwhetherhe,whocametobuynothing,wouldnotbemoreproperlydeemedimportunate。?HethereforeaskedverypolitelyifhecouldseeM。Planchet。?Thereply,quitecarelesslygiven,wasthatM。Planchetwaspackinghistrunks。?ThesewordssurprisedAthos。?"What!histrunks?"saidhe;
"isM。Planchetgoingaway?"
"Yes,monsieur,directly。"
"Then,ifyouplease,informhimthatM。leComtedelaF鑢edesirestospeaktohimforamoment。"
Atthementionofthecomte'sname,oneoftheyoungmen,nodoubtaccustomedtohearitpronouncedwithrespect,immediatelywenttoinformPlanchet。?ItwasatthismomentthatRaoul,afterhispainfulscenewithMontalaisandDeGuiche,arrivedatthegrocer'shouse。?Planchetlefthisjobdirectlyhereceivedthecomte'smessage。
"Ah!
monsieurlecomte!"exclaimedhe,"howgladIamtoseeyou!?Whatgoodstarbringsyouhere?"
"MydearPlanchet,"saidAthos,pressingthehandofhisson,whosesadlookhesilentlyobserved,—"wearecometolearnofyou—ButinwhatconfusiondoIfindyou!?Youareaswhiteasamiller;wherehaveyoubeenrummaging?"
"Ah,diable!takecare,monsieur;don'tcomenearmetillIhavewellshakenmyself。"
"Whatfor??Flourordustonlywhiten。"
"No,no;whatyouseeonmyarmsisarsenic。"
"Arsenic?"
"Yes;
Iamtakingmyprecautionsagainstrats。"
"Ay,Isupposeinanestablishmentlikethis,ratsplayaconspicuouspart。"
"ItisnotwiththisestablishmentIconcernmyself,monsieurlecomte。?Theratshaverobbedmeofmoreherethantheywilleverrobmeofagain。"
"Whatdoyoumean?"
"Why,youmayhaveobserved,monsieur,myinventoryisbeingtaken。"
"Areyouleavingtrade,then?"
"Eh!monDieu!yes。?Ihavedisposedofmybusinesstooneofmyyoungmen。"
"Bah!
youarerich,then,Isuppose?"
"Monsieur,Ihavetakenadisliketothecity;Idon'tknowwhetheritisbecauseIamgrowingold,andasM。d'Artagnanonedaysaid,whenwegrowoldwemoreoftenthinkoftheadventuresofouryouth;butforsometimepastIhavefeltmyselfattractedtowardsthecountryandgardening。?Iwasacountrymanformerly。"?AndPlanchetmarkedthisconfessionwitharatherpretentiouslaughforamanmakingprofessionofhumility。
Athosmadeagestureofapproval,andthenadded:"Youaregoingtobuyanestate,then?"
"I
haveboughtone,monsieur。"
"Ah!
thatisstillbetter。"
"A
littlehouseatFontainebleau,withsomethingliketwentyacresoflandroundit。"
"Verywell,Planchet!?Acceptmycomplimentsonyouracquisition。"
"But,monsieur,wearenotcomfortablehere;thecurseddustmakesyoucough。?Corbleu!?Idonotwishtopoisonthemostworthygentlemaninthekingdom。"
AthosdidnotsmileatthislittlepleasantrywhichPlanchethadaimedathim,inordertotryhisstrengthinmundanefacetiousness。
"Yes,"
saidAthos,"letushavealittletalkbyourselves—inyourownroom,forexample。?Youhavearoom,haveyounot?"
"Certainly,monsieurlecomte。"
"Upstairs,perhaps?"?AndAthos,seeingPlanchetalittleembarrassed,wishedtorelievehimbygoingfirst。
"Itis—but—"saidPlanchet,hesitating。
Athoswasmistakeninthecauseofthishesitation,and,attributingittoafearthegrocermighthaveofofferinghumblehospitality,"Nevermind,nevermind,"saidhe,stillgoingup,"thedwellingofatradesmaninthisquarterisnotexpectedtobeapalace。?Comeon。"
Raoulnimblyprecededhim,andenteredfirst。?Twocrieswereheardsimultaneously—wemaysaythree。?Oneofthesecriesdominatedtheothers;itemanatedfromawoman。?AnotherproceededfromthemouthofRaoul;itwasanexclamationofsurprise。?Hehadnosooneruttereditthanheshutthedoorsharply。?Thethirdwasfromfright;itcamefromPlanchet。
"I
askyourpardon!"addedhe;"madameisdressing。"
Raoulhad,nodoubt,seenthatwhatPlanchetsaidwastrue,forheturnedroundtogodownstairsagain。
"Madame—"saidAthos。?"Oh!pardonme,Planchet,Ididnotknowthatyouhadupstairs—"
"ItisTr點hen,"addedPlanchet,blushingalittle。
"Itiswhoeveryouplease,mygoodPlanchet;butpardonmyrudeness。"
"No,no;goupnow,gentlemen。"
"Wewilldonosuchthing,"saidAthos。
"Oh!
madame,havingnotice,hashadtime—"
"No,Planchet;farewell!"
"Eh,gentlemen!youwouldnotdisobligemebythusstandingonthestaircase,orbygoingawaywithouthavingsatdown。"