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第9章

  Thislaneinclinedup—hillallthewaytoHay;havingreachedthemiddle,Isatdownonastilewhichledthenceintoafield。Gatheringmymantleaboutme,andshelteringmyhandsinmymuff,Ididnotfeelthecold,thoughitfrozekeenly;aswasattestedbyasheetoficecoveringthecauseway,wherealittlebrooklet,nowcongealed,hadoverflowedafterarapidthawsomedayssince。FrommyseatIcouldlookdownonThornfield:thegreyandbattlementedhallwastheprincipalobjectinthevalebelowme;itswoodsanddarkrookeryroseagainstthewest。Ilingeredtillthesunwentdownamongstthetrees,andsankcrimsonandclearbehindthem。Ithenturnedeastward。
  Onthehill—topabovemesattherisingmoon;paleyetasacloud,butbrighteningmomentarily,shelookedoverHay,which,halflostintrees,sentupabluesmokefromitsfewchimneys:itwasyetamiledistant,butintheabsolutehushIcouldhearplainlyitsthinmurmursoflife。Myear,too,felttheflowofcurrents;inwhatdalesanddepthsIcouldnottell:butthereweremanyhillsbeyondHay,anddoubtlessmanybecksthreadingtheirpasses。Thateveningcalmbetrayedalikethetinkleoftheneareststreams,thesoughofthemostremote。
  Arudenoisebrokeonthesefineripplingsandwhisperings,atoncesofarawayandsoclear:apositivetramp,tramp,ametallicclatter,whicheffacedthesoftwave—wanderings;as,inapicture,thesolidmassofacrag,ortheroughbolesofagreatoak,drawnindarkandstrongontheforeground,effacetheaerialdistanceofazurehill,sunnyhorizon,andblendedcloudswheretintmeltsintotint。
  Thedinwasonthecauseway:ahorsewascoming;thewindingsofthelaneyethidit,butitapproached。Iwasjustleavingthestile;yet,asthepathwasnarrow,Isatstilltoletitgoby。InthosedaysIwasyoung,andallsortsoffanciesbrightanddarktenantedmymind:thememoriesofnurserystorieswerethereamongstotherrubbish;andwhentheyrecurred,maturingyouthaddedtothemavigourandvividnessbeyondwhatchildhoodcouldgive。Asthishorseapproached,andasIwatchedforittoappearthroughthedusk,IrememberedcertainofBessie’stales,whereinfiguredaNorth—of—Englandspiritcalleda“Gytrash,”which,intheformofhorse,mule,orlargedog,hauntedsolitaryways,andsometimescameuponbelatedtravellers,asthishorsewasnowcominguponme。
  Itwasverynear,butnotyetinsight;when,inadditiontothetramp,tramp,Iheardarushunderthehedge,andclosedownbythehazelstemsglidedagreatdog,whoseblackandwhitecolourmadehimadistinctobjectagainstthetrees。ItwasexactlyoneformofBessie’sGytrash—alion—likecreaturewithlonghairandahugehead:itpassedme,however,quietlyenough;notstayingtolookup,withstrangepretercanineeyes,inmyface,asIhalfexpecteditwould。Thehorsefollowed,—atallsteed,andonitsbackarider。Theman,thehumanbeing,brokethespellatonce。NothingeverrodetheGytrash:itwasalwaysalone;andgoblins,tomynotions,thoughtheymighttenantthedumbcarcassesofbeasts,couldscarcecovetshelterinthecommonplacehumanform。NoGytrashwasthis,—onlyatravellertakingtheshortcuttoMillcote。Hepassed,andIwenton;afewsteps,andIturned:aslidingsoundandanexclamationof“Whatthedeuceistodonow?”andaclatteringtumble,arrestedmyattention。Manandhorseweredown;theyhadslippedonthesheetoficewhichglazedthecauseway。Thedogcameboundingback,andseeinghismasterinapredicament,andhearingthehorsegroan,barkedtilltheeveninghillsechoedthesound,whichwasdeepinproportiontohismagnitude。Hesnuffedroundtheprostrategroup,andthenheranuptome;itwasallhecoulddo,—therewasnootherhelpathandtosummon。Iobeyedhim,andwalkeddowntothetraveller,bythistimestrugglinghimselffreeofhissteed。Hiseffortsweresovigorous,Ithoughthecouldnotbemuchhurt;butIaskedhimthequestion—
  “Areyouinjured,sir?”
  Ithinkhewasswearing,butamnotcertain;however,hewaspronouncingsomeformulawhichpreventedhimfromreplyingtomedirectly。
  “CanIdoanything?”Iaskedagain。
  “Youmustjuststandononeside,”heansweredasherose,firsttohisknees,andthentohisfeet。Idid;whereuponbeganaheaving,stamping,clatteringprocess,accompaniedbyabarkingandbayingwhichremovedmeeffectuallysomeyards’distance;butIwouldnotbedrivenquiteawaytillIsawtheevent。Thiswasfinallyfortunate;thehorsewasre—established,andthedogwassilencedwitha“Down,Pilot!”Thetravellernow,stooping,felthisfootandleg,asiftryingwhethertheyweresound;apparentlysomethingailedthem,forhehaltedtothestilewhenceIhadjustrisen,andsatdown。
  Iwasinthemoodforbeinguseful,oratleastofficious,Ithink,forInowdrewnearhimagain。
  “Ifyouarehurt,andwanthelp,sir,IcanfetchsomeoneeitherfromThornfieldHallorfromHay。”
  “Thankyou:Ishalldo:Ihavenobrokenbones,—onlyasprain;”andagainhestoodupandtriedhisfoot,buttheresultextortedaninvoluntary“Ugh!”
  Somethingofdaylightstilllingered,andthemoonwaswaxingbright:Icouldseehimplainly。Hisfigurewasenvelopedinaridingcloak,furcollaredandsteelclasped;itsdetailswerenotapparent,butItracedthegeneralpointsofmiddleheightandconsiderablebreadthofchest。Hehadadarkface,withsternfeaturesandaheavybrow;hiseyesandgatheredeyebrowslookedirefulandthwartedjustnow;hewaspastyouth,buthadnotreachedmiddle—age;perhapshemightbethirty—five。Ifeltnofearofhim,andbutlittleshyness。Hadhebeenahandsome,heroic—lookingyounggentleman,Ishouldnothavedaredtostandthusquestioninghimagainsthiswill,andofferingmyservicesunasked。Ihadhardlyeverseenahandsomeyouth;neverinmylifespokentoone。Ihadatheoreticalreverenceandhomageforbeauty,elegance,gallantry,fascination;buthadImetthosequalitiesincarnateinmasculineshape,Ishouldhaveknowninstinctivelythattheyneitherhadnorcouldhavesympathywithanythinginme,andshouldhaveshunnedthemasonewouldfire,lightning,oranythingelsethatisbrightbutantipathetic。
  Ifeventhisstrangerhadsmiledandbeengood—humouredtomewhenIaddressedhim;ifhehadputoffmyofferofassistancegailyandwiththanks,Ishouldhavegoneonmywayandnotfeltanyvocationtorenewinquiries:butthefrown,theroughnessofthetraveller,setmeatmyease:Iretainedmystationwhenhewavedtometogo,andannounced—
  “Icannotthinkofleavingyou,sir,atsolateanhour,inthissolitarylane,tillIseeyouarefittomountyourhorse。”
  HelookedatmewhenIsaidthis;hehadhardlyturnedhiseyesinmydirectionbefore。
  “Ishouldthinkyououghttobeathomeyourself,”saidhe,“ifyouhaveahomeinthisneighbourhood:wheredoyoucomefrom?”
  “Fromjustbelow;andIamnotatallafraidofbeingoutlatewhenitismoonlight:IwillrunovertoHayforyouwithpleasure,ifyouwishit:indeed,Iamgoingtheretopostaletter。”
  “Youlivejustbelow—doyoumeanatthathousewiththebattlements?”pointingtoThornfieldHall,onwhichthemooncastahoarygleam,bringingitoutdistinctandpalefromthewoodsthat,bycontrastwiththewesternsky,nowseemedonemassofshadow。
  “Yes,sir。”
  “Whosehouseisit?”
  “Mr。Rochester’s。”
  “DoyouknowMr。Rochester?”
  “No,Ihaveneverseenhim。”
  “Heisnotresident,then?”
  “No。”
  “Canyoutellmewhereheis?”
  “Icannot。”
  “Youarenotaservantatthehall,ofcourse。Youare—”Hestopped,ranhiseyeovermydress,which,asusual,wasquitesimple:ablackmerinocloak,ablackbeaverbonnet;neitherofthemhalffineenoughforalady’s—maid。HeseemedpuzzledtodecidewhatIwas;Ihelpedhim。
  “Iamthegoverness。”
  “Ah,thegoverness!”herepeated;“deucetakeme,ifIhadnotforgotten!Thegoverness!”andagainmyraimentunderwentscrutiny。Intwominutesherosefromthestile:hisfaceexpressedpainwhenhetriedtomove。
  “Icannotcommissionyoutofetchhelp,”hesaid;“butyoumayhelpmealittleyourself,ifyouwillbesokind。”
  “Yes,sir。”
  “YouhavenotanumbrellathatIcanuseasastick?”
  “No。”
  “Trytogetholdofmyhorse’sbridleandleadhimtome:youarenotafraid?”
  Ishouldhavebeenafraidtotouchahorsewhenalone,butwhentoldtodoit,Iwasdisposedtoobey。Iputdownmymuffonthestile,andwentuptothetallsteed;Iendeavouredtocatchthebridle,butitwasaspiritedthing,andwouldnotletmecomenearitshead;Imadeeffortoneffort,thoughinvain:meantime,Iwasmortallyafraidofitstramplingfore—feet。Thetravellerwaitedandwatchedforsometime,andatlasthelaughed。
  “Isee,”hesaid,“themountainwillneverbebroughttoMahomet,soallyoucandoistoaidMahomettogotothemountain;Imustbegofyoutocomehere。”
  Icame。“Excuseme,”hecontinued:“necessitycompelsmetomakeyouuseful。”Helaidaheavyhandonmyshoulder,andleaningonmewithsomestress,limpedtohishorse。Havingoncecaughtthebridle,hemastereditdirectlyandsprangtohissaddle;grimacinggrimlyashemadetheeffort,foritwrenchedhissprain。
  “Now,”saidhe,releasinghisunderlipfromahardbite,“justhandmemywhip;itliesthereunderthehedge。”
  Isoughtitandfoundit。
  “Thankyou;nowmakehastewiththelettertoHay,andreturnasfastasyoucan。”
  Atouchofaspurredheelmadehishorsefirststartandrear,andthenboundaway;thedogrushedinhistraces;allthreevanished,
  “Likeheaththat,inthewilderness,
  Thewildwindwhirlsaway。”
  Itookupmymuffandwalkedon。Theincidenthadoccurredandwasgoneforme:itwasanincidentofnomoment,noromance,nointerestinasense;yetitmarkedwithchangeonesinglehourofamonotonouslife。Myhelphadbeenneededandclaimed;Ihadgivenit:Iwaspleasedtohavedonesomething;trivial,transitorythoughthedeedwas,itwasyetanactivething,andIwaswearyofanexistenceallpassive。Thenewface,too,waslikeanewpictureintroducedtothegalleryofmemory;anditwasdissimilartoalltheothershangingthere:firstly,becauseitwasmasculine;and,secondly,becauseitwasdark,strong,andstern。IhaditstillbeforemewhenIenteredHay,andslippedtheletterintothepost—office;IsawitasIwalkedfastdown—hillallthewayhome。WhenIcametothestile,Istoppedaminute,lookedroundandlistened,withanideathatahorse’shoofsmightringonthecausewayagain,andthatariderinacloak,andaGytrash—likeNewfoundlanddog,mightbeagainapparent:Isawonlythehedgeandapollardwillowbeforeme,risingupstillandstraighttomeetthemoonbeams;IheardonlythefaintestwaftofwindroamingfitfulamongthetreesroundThornfield,amiledistant;andwhenIglanceddowninthedirectionofthemurmur,myeye,traversingthehall—front,caughtalightkindlinginawindow:itremindedmethatIwaslate,andIhurriedon。
  Ididnotlikere—enteringThornfield。Topassitsthresholdwastoreturntostagnation;tocrossthesilenthall,toascendthedarksomestaircase,toseekmyownlonelylittleroom,andthentomeettranquilMrs。Fairfax,andspendthelongwintereveningwithher,andheronly,wastoquellwhollythefaintexcitementwakenedbymywalk,—toslipagainovermyfacultiestheviewlessfettersofanuniformandtoostillexistence;ofanexistencewhoseveryprivilegesofsecurityandeaseIwasbecomingincapableofappreciating。Whatgooditwouldhavedonemeatthattimetohavebeentossedinthestormsofanuncertainstrugglinglife,andtohavebeentaughtbyroughandbitterexperiencetolongforthecalmamidstwhichInowrepined!Yes,justasmuchgoodasitwoulddoamantiredofsittingstillina“tooeasychair”totakealongwalk:andjustasnaturalwasthewishtostir,undermycircumstances,asitwouldbeunderhis。
  Ilingeredatthegates;Ilingeredonthelawn;Ipacedbackwardsandforwardsonthepavement;theshuttersoftheglassdoorwereclosed;Icouldnotseeintotheinterior;andbothmyeyesandspiritseemeddrawnfromthegloomyhouse—fromthegrey—hollowfilledwithraylesscells,asitappearedtome—tothatskyexpandedbeforeme,—ablueseaabsolvedfromtaintofcloud;themoonascendingitinsolemnmarch;herorbseemingtolookupassheleftthehill—tops,frombehindwhichshehadcome,farandfartherbelowher,andaspiredtothezenith,midnightdarkinitsfathomlessdepthandmeasurelessdistance;andforthosetremblingstarsthatfollowedhercourse;theymademyhearttremble,myveinsglowwhenIviewedthem。Littlethingsrecallustoearth;theclockstruckinthehall;thatsufficed;Iturnedfrommoonandstars,openedaside—door,andwentin。
  Thehallwasnotdark,noryetwasitlit,onlybythehigh—hungbronzelamp;awarmglowsuffusedbothitandthelowerstepsoftheoakstaircase。Thisruddyshineissuedfromthegreatdining—room,whosetwo—leaveddoorstoodopen,andshowedagenialfireinthegrate,glancingonmarblehearthandbrassfire—irons,andrevealingpurpledraperiesandpolishedfurniture,inthemostpleasantradiance。Itrevealed,too,agroupnearthemantelpiece:Ihadscarcelycaughtit,andscarcelybecomeawareofacheerfulminglingofvoices,amongstwhichIseemedtodistinguishthetonesofAdèle,whenthedoorclosed。
  IhastenedtoMrs。Fairfax’sroom;therewasafiretheretoo,butnocandle,andnoMrs。Fairfax。Instead,allalone,sittinguprightontherug,andgazingwithgravityattheblaze,Ibeheldagreatblackandwhitelong—haireddog,justliketheGytrashofthelane。ItwassolikeitthatIwentforwardandsaid—“Pilot”andthethinggotupandcametomeandsnuffedme。Icaressedhim,andhewaggedhisgreattail;buthelookedaneeriecreaturetobealonewith,andIcouldnottellwhencehehadcome。Irangthebell,forIwantedacandle;andIwanted,too,togetanaccountofthisvisitant。Leahentered。
  “Whatdogisthis?”
  “Hecamewithmaster。”
  “Withwhom?”
  “Withmaster—Mr。Rochester—heisjustarrived。”
  “Indeed!andisMrs。Fairfaxwithhim?”
  “Yes,andMissAdèle;theyareinthedining—room,andJohnisgoneforasurgeon;formasterhashadanaccident;hishorsefellandhisankleissprained。”
  “DidthehorsefallinHayLane?”
  “Yes,comingdown—hill;itslippedonsomeice。”
  “Ah!BringmeacandlewillyouLeah?”
  Leahbroughtit;sheentered,followedbyMrs。Fairfax,whorepeatedthenews;addingthatMr。Carterthesurgeonwascome,andwasnowwithMr。Rochester:thenshehurriedouttogiveordersabouttea,andIwentupstairstotakeoffmythings。
  Chapter13
  Mr。Rochester,itseems,bythesurgeon’sorders,wenttobedearlythatnight;nordidherisesoonnextmorning。Whenhedidcomedown,itwastoattendtobusiness:hisagentandsomeofhistenantswerearrived,andwaitingtospeakwithhim。
  AdèleandIhadnowtovacatethelibrary:itwouldbeindailyrequisitionasareception—roomforcallers。Afirewaslitinanapartmentupstairs,andthereIcarriedourbooks,andarrangeditforthefutureschoolroom。IdiscernedinthecourseofthemorningthatThornfieldHallwasachangedplace:nolongersilentasachurch,itechoedeveryhourortwotoaknockatthedoor,oraclangofthebell;steps,too,oftentraversedthehall,andnewvoicesspokeindifferentkeysbelow;arillfromtheouterworldwasflowingthroughit;ithadamaster:formypart,Ilikeditbetter。
  Adèlewasnoteasytoteachthatday;shecouldnotapply:shekeptrunningtothedoorandlookingoverthebanisterstoseeifshecouldgetaglimpseofMr。Rochester;thenshecoinedpretextstogodownstairs,inorder,asIshrewdlysuspected,tovisitthelibrary,whereIknewshewasnotwanted;then,whenIgotalittleangry,andmadehersitstill,shecontinuedtotalkincessantlyofher“ami,MonsieurEdouardFairfaxdeRochester,”asshedubbedhim(Ihadnotbeforeheardhisprenomens),andtoconjecturewhatpresentshehadbroughther:foritappearshehadintimatedthenightbefore,thatwhenhisluggagecamefromMillcote,therewouldbefoundamongstitalittleboxinwhosecontentsshehadaninterest。
  “Etceladoitsignifier,”saidshe,“qu’ilyauralededansuncadeaupourmoi,etpeut—êtrepourvousaussi,mademoiselle。Monsieuraparledevous:ilm’ademandelenomdemagouvernante,etsiellen’etaitpasunepetitepersonne,assezminceetunpeupale。J’aiditqu’oui:carc’estvrai,n’est—cepas,mademoiselle?”
  IandmypupildinedasusualinMrs。Fairfax’sparlour;theafternoonwaswildandsnowy,andwepasseditintheschoolroom。AtdarkIallowedAdèletoputawaybooksandwork,andtorundownstairs;for,fromthecomparativesilencebelow,andfromthecessationofappealstothedoor—bell,IconjecturedthatMr。Rochesterwasnowatliberty。Leftalone,Iwalkedtothewindow;butnothingwastobeseenthence:twilightandsnowflakestogetherthickenedtheair,andhidtheveryshrubsonthelawn。Iletdownthecurtainandwentbacktothefireside。
  IntheclearembersIwastracingaview,notunlikeapictureIrememberedtohaveseenofthecastleofHeidelberg,ontheRhine,whenMrs。Fairfaxcamein,breakingupbyherentrancethefierymosaicIhadbeenpiercingtogether,andscatteringtoosomeheavyunwelcomethoughtsthatwerebeginningtothrongonmysolitude。
  “Mr。Rochesterwouldbegladifyouandyourpupilwouldtaketeawithhiminthedrawing—roomthisevening,”saidshe:“hehasbeensomuchengagedalldaythathecouldnotasktoseeyoubefore。”
  “Whenishistea—time?”Iinquired。
  “Oh,atsixo’clock:hekeepsearlyhoursinthecountry。Youhadbetterchangeyourfrocknow;Iwillgowithyouandfastenit。Hereisacandle。”
  “Isitnecessarytochangemyfrock?”
  “Yes,youhadbetter:IalwaysdressfortheeveningwhenMr。Rochesterishere。”
  Thisadditionalceremonyseemedsomewhatstately;however,Irepairedtomyroom,and,withMrs。Fairfax’said,replacedmyblackstuffdressbyoneofblacksilk;thebestandtheonlyadditionaloneIhad,exceptoneoflightgrey,which,inmyLowoodnotionsofthetoilette,Ithoughttoofinetobeworn,exceptonfirst—rateoccasions。
  “Youwantabrooch,”saidMrs。Fairfax。IhadasinglelittlepearlornamentwhichMissTemplegavemeasapartingkeepsake:Iputiton,andthenwewentdownstairs。UnusedasIwastostrangers,itwasratheratrialtoappearthusformallysummonedinMr。Rochester’spresence。IletMrs。Fairfaxprecedemeintothedining—room,andkeptinhershadeaswecrossedthatapartment;and,passingthearch,whosecurtainwasnowdropped,enteredtheelegantrecessbeyond。
  Twowaxcandlesstoodlightedonthetable,andtwoonthemantelpiece;baskinginthelightandheatofasuperbfire,layPilot—Adèlekneltnearhim。HalfreclinedonacouchappearedMr。Rochester,hisfootsupportedbythecushion;hewaslookingatAdèleandthedog:thefireshonefullonhisface。Iknewmytravellerwithhisbroadandjettyeyebrows;hissquareforehead,madesquarerbythehorizontalsweepofhisblackhair。Irecognisedhisdecisivenose,moreremarkableforcharacterthanbeauty;hisfullnostrils,denoting,Ithought,choler;hisgrimmouth,chin,andjaw—yes,allthreewereverygrim,andnomistake。Hisshape,nowdivestedofcloak,Iperceivedharmonisedinsquarenesswithhisphysiognomy:Isupposeitwasagoodfigureintheathleticsenseoftheterm—broadchestedandthinflanked,thoughneithertallnorgraceful。
  Mr。RochestermusthavebeenawareoftheentranceofMrs。Fairfaxandmyself;butitappearedhewasnotinthemoodtonoticeus,forheneverliftedhisheadasweapproached。
  “HereisMissEyre,sir,”saidMrs。Fairfax,inherquietway。Hebowed,stillnottakinghiseyesfromthegroupofthedogandchild。
  “LetMissEyrebeseated,”saidhe:andtherewassomethingintheforcedstiffbow,intheimpatientyetformaltone,whichseemedfurthertoexpress,“WhatthedeuceisittomewhetherMissEyrebethereornot?AtthismomentIamnotdisposedtoaccosther。”
  Isatdownquitedisembarrassed。Areceptionoffinishedpolitenesswouldprobablyhaveconfusedme:Icouldnothavereturnedorrepaiditbyansweringgraceandeleganceonmypart;butharshcapricelaidmeundernoobligation;onthecontrary,adecentquiescence,underthefreakofmanner,gavemetheadvantage。Besides,theeccentricityoftheproceedingwaspiquant:Ifeltinterestedtoseehowhewouldgoon。
  Hewentonasastatuewould,thatis,heneitherspokenormoved。Mrs。Fairfaxseemedtothinkitnecessarythatsomeoneshouldbeamiable,andshebegantotalk。Kindly,asusual—and,asusual,rathertrite—shecondoledwithhimonthepressureofbusinesshehadhadallday;ontheannoyanceitmusthavebeentohimwiththatpainfulsprain:thenshecommendedhispatienceandperseveranceingoingthroughwithit。
  “Madam,Ishouldlikesometea,”wasthesolerejoindershegot。Shehastenedtoringthebell;andwhenthetraycame,sheproceededtoarrangethecups,spoons,&c。,withassiduouscelerity。IandAdèlewenttothetable;butthemasterdidnotleavehiscouch。
  “WillyouhandMr。Rochester’scup?”saidMrs。Fairfaxtome;“Adèlemightperhapsspillit。”
  Ididasrequested。Ashetookthecupfrommyhand,Adèle,thinkingthemomentpropitiousformakingarequestinmyfavour,criedout—
  “N’est—cepas,monsieur,qu’ilyauncadeaupourMademoiselleEyredansvotrepetitcoffre?”
  “Whotalksofcadeaux?”saidhegruffly。“Didyouexpectapresent,MissEyre?Areyoufondofpresents?”andhesearchedmyfacewitheyesthatIsawweredark,irate,andpiercing。
  “Ihardlyknow,sir;Ihavelittleexperienceofthem:theyaregenerallythoughtpleasantthings。”
  “Generallythought?Butwhatdoyouthink?”
  “Ishouldbeobligedtotaketime,sir,beforeIcouldgiveyouananswerworthyofyouracceptance:apresenthasmanyfacestoit,hasitnot?andoneshouldconsiderall,beforepronouncinganopinionastoitsnature。”
  “MissEyre,youarenotsounsophisticatedasAdèle:shedemandsa‘cadeau,’clamorously,themomentsheseesme:youbeataboutthebush。”
  “BecauseIhavelessconfidenceinmydesertsthanAdèlehas:shecanprefertheclaimofoldacquaintance,andtherighttooofcustom;forshesaysyouhavealwaysbeeninthehabitofgivingherplaythings;butifIhadtomakeoutacaseIshouldbepuzzled,sinceIamastranger,andhavedonenothingtoentitlemetoanacknowledgment。”
  “Oh,don’tfallbackonover—modesty!IhaveexaminedAdèle,andfindyouhavetakengreatpainswithher:sheisnotbright,shehasnotalents;yetinashorttimeshehasmademuchimprovement。”
  “Sir,youhavenowgivenmemy‘cadeau;’Iamobligedtoyou:itisthemeedteachersmostcovet—praiseoftheirpupils’progress。”
  “Humph!”saidMr。Rochester,andhetookhisteainsilence。
  “Cometothefire,”saidthemaster,whenthetraywastakenaway,andMrs。Fairfaxhadsettledintoacornerwithherknitting;whileAdèlewasleadingmebythehandroundtheroom,showingmethebeautifulbooksandornamentsontheconsolesandchiffonnieres。Weobeyed,asindutybound;Adèlewantedtotakeaseatonmyknee,butshewasorderedtoamuseherselfwithPilot。
  “Youhavebeenresidentinmyhousethreemonths?”
  “Yes,sir。”
  “Andyoucamefrom—?”
  “FromLowoodschool,in—shire。”
  “Ah!acharitableconcern。Howlongwereyouthere?”
  “Eightyears。”
  “Eightyears!youmustbetenaciousoflife。Ithoughthalfthetimeinsuchaplacewouldhavedoneupanyconstitution!Nowonderyouhaveratherthelookofanotherworld。Imarvelledwhereyouhadgotthatsortofface。WhenyoucameonmeinHayLanelastnight,Ithoughtunaccountablyoffairytales,andhadhalfamindtodemandwhetheryouhadbewitchedmyhorse:Iamnotsureyet。Whoareyourparents?”
  “Ihavenone。”
  “Noreverhad,Isuppose:doyourememberthem?”
  “No。”
  “Ithoughtnot。Andsoyouwerewaitingforyourpeoplewhenyousatonthatstile?”
  “Forwhom,sir?”
  “Forthemeningreen:itwasapropermoonlighteveningforthem。DidIbreakthroughoneofyourrings,thatyouspreadthatdamnediceonthecauseway?”
  Ishookmyhead。“ThemeningreenallforsookEnglandahundredyearsago,”saidI,speakingasseriouslyashehaddone。“AndnoteveninHayLane,orthefieldsaboutit,couldyoufindatraceofthem。Idon’tthinkeithersummerorharvest,orwintermoon,willevershineontheirrevelsmore。”
  Mrs。Fairfaxhaddroppedherknitting,and,withraisedeyebrows,seemedwonderingwhatsortoftalkthiswas。
  “Well,”resumedMr。Rochester,“ifyoudisownparents,youmusthavesomesortofkinsfolk:unclesandaunts?”
  “No;nonethatIeversaw。”
  “Andyourhome?”
  “Ihavenone。”
  “Wheredoyourbrothersandsisterslive?”
  “Ihavenobrothersorsisters。”
  “Whorecommendedyoutocomehere?”
  “Iadvertised,andMrs。Fairfaxansweredmyadvertisement。”
  “Yes,”saidthegoodlady,whonowknewwhatgroundwewereupon,“andIamdailythankfulforthechoiceProvidenceledmetomake。MissEyrehasbeenaninvaluablecompaniontome,andakindandcarefulteachertoAdèle。”
  “Don’ttroubleyourselftogiveheracharacter,”returnedMr。Rochester:“eulogiumswillnotbiasme;Ishalljudgeformyself。Shebeganbyfellingmyhorse。”
  “Sir?”saidMrs。Fairfax。
  “Ihavetothankherforthissprain。”
  Thewidowlookedbewildered。
  “MissEyre,haveyoueverlivedinatown?”
  “No,sir。”
  “Haveyouseenmuchsociety?”
  “NonebutthepupilsandteachersofLowood,andnowtheinmatesofThornfield。”
  “Haveyoureadmuch?”
  “Onlysuchbooksascameinmyway;andtheyhavenotbeennumerousorverylearned。”
  “Youhavelivedthelifeofanun:nodoubtyouarewelldrilledinreligiousforms;—Brocklehurst,whoIunderstanddirectsLowood,isaparson,ishenot?”
  “Yes,sir。”
  “Andyougirlsprobablyworshippedhim,asaconventfullofreligieuseswouldworshiptheirdirector。”
  “Oh,no。”
  “Youareverycool!No!What!anovicenotworshipherpriest!Thatsoundsblasphemous。”
  “IdislikedMr。Brocklehurst;andIwasnotaloneinthefeeling。Heisaharshman;atoncepompousandmeddling;hecutoffourhair;andforeconomy’ssakeboughtusbadneedlesandthread,withwhichwecouldhardlysew。”
  “Thatwasveryfalseeconomy,”remarkedMrs。Fairfax,whonowagaincaughtthedriftofthedialogue。
  “Andwasthattheheadandfrontofhisoffending?”demandedMr。Rochester。
  “Hestarveduswhenhehadthesolesuperintendenceoftheprovisiondepartment,beforethecommitteewasappointed;andheboreduswithlonglecturesonceaweek,andwitheveningreadingsfrombooksofhisowninditing,aboutsuddendeathsandjudgments,whichmadeusafraidtogotobed。”
  “WhatagewereyouwhenyouwenttoLowood?”
  “Aboutten。”
  “Andyoustayedthereeightyears:youarenow,then,eighteen?”
  Iassented。
  “Arithmetic,yousee,isuseful;withoutitsaid,Ishouldhardlyhavebeenabletoguessyourage。Itisapointdifficulttofixwherethefeaturesandcountenancearesomuchatvarianceasinyourcase。AndnowwhatdidyoulearnatLowood?Canyouplay?”
  “Alittle。”
  “Ofcourse:thatistheestablishedanswer。Gointothelibrary—Imean,ifyouplease。—(Excusemytoneofcommand;Iamusedtosay,‘Dothis,’anditisdone:Icannotaltermycustomaryhabitsforonenewinmate。)—Go,then,intothelibrary;takeacandlewithyou;leavethedooropen;sitdowntothepiano,andplayatune。”
  Ideparted,obeyinghisdirections。
  “Enough!”hecalledoutinafewminutes。“YouplayAlittle,Isee;likeanyotherEnglishschool—girl;perhapsratherbetterthansome,butnotwell。”
  Iclosedthepianoandreturned。Mr。Rochestercontinued—“Adèleshowedmesomesketchesthismorning,whichshesaidwereyours。Idon’tknowwhethertheywereentirelyofyourdoing;probablyamasteraidedyou?”
  “No,indeed!”Iinterjected。
  “Ah!thatprickspride。Well,fetchmeyourportfolio,ifyoucanvouchforitscontentsbeingoriginal;butdon’tpassyourwordunlessyouarecertain:Icanrecognisepatchwork。”
  “ThenIwillsaynothing,andyoushalljudgeforyourself,sir。”
  Ibroughttheportfoliofromthelibrary。
  “Approachthetable,”saidhe;andIwheeledittohiscouch。AdèleandMrs。Fairfaxdrewneartoseethepictures。
  “Nocrowding,”saidMr。Rochester:“takethedrawingsfrommyhandasIfinishwiththem;butdon’tpushyourfacesuptomine。”
  Hedeliberatelyscrutinisedeachsketchandpainting。Threehelaidaside;theothers,whenhehadexaminedthem,hesweptfromhim。
  “Takethemofftotheothertable,Mrs。Fairfax,”saidhe,andlookatthemwithAdèle;—you”(glancingatme)“resumeyourseat,andanswermyquestions。Iperceivethosepicturesweredonebyonehand:wasthathandyours?”
  “Yes。”
  “Andwhendidyoufindtimetodothem?Theyhavetakenmuchtime,andsomethought。”
  “IdidtheminthelasttwovacationsIspentatLowood,whenIhadnootheroccupation。”
  “Wheredidyougetyourcopies?”
  “Outofmyhead。”
  “ThatheadIseenowonyourshoulders?”
  “Yes,sir。”
  “Hasitotherfurnitureofthesamekindwithin?”
  “Ishouldthinkitmayhave:Ishouldhope—better。”
  Hespreadthepicturesbeforehim,andagainsurveyedthemalternately。