Thislaneinclinedup—hillallthewaytoHay;havingreachedthemiddle,Isatdownonastilewhichledthenceintoafield。Gatheringmymantleaboutme,andshelteringmyhandsinmymuff,Ididnotfeelthecold,thoughitfrozekeenly;aswasattestedbyasheetoficecoveringthecauseway,wherealittlebrooklet,nowcongealed,hadoverflowedafterarapidthawsomedayssince。FrommyseatIcouldlookdownonThornfield:thegreyandbattlementedhallwastheprincipalobjectinthevalebelowme;itswoodsanddarkrookeryroseagainstthewest。Ilingeredtillthesunwentdownamongstthetrees,andsankcrimsonandclearbehindthem。Ithenturnedeastward。
Onthehill—topabovemesattherisingmoon;paleyetasacloud,butbrighteningmomentarily,shelookedoverHay,which,halflostintrees,sentupabluesmokefromitsfewchimneys:itwasyetamiledistant,butintheabsolutehushIcouldhearplainlyitsthinmurmursoflife。Myear,too,felttheflowofcurrents;inwhatdalesanddepthsIcouldnottell:butthereweremanyhillsbeyondHay,anddoubtlessmanybecksthreadingtheirpasses。Thateveningcalmbetrayedalikethetinkleoftheneareststreams,thesoughofthemostremote。
Arudenoisebrokeonthesefineripplingsandwhisperings,atoncesofarawayandsoclear:apositivetramp,tramp,ametallicclatter,whicheffacedthesoftwave—wanderings;as,inapicture,thesolidmassofacrag,ortheroughbolesofagreatoak,drawnindarkandstrongontheforeground,effacetheaerialdistanceofazurehill,sunnyhorizon,andblendedcloudswheretintmeltsintotint。
Thedinwasonthecauseway:ahorsewascoming;thewindingsofthelaneyethidit,butitapproached。Iwasjustleavingthestile;yet,asthepathwasnarrow,Isatstilltoletitgoby。InthosedaysIwasyoung,andallsortsoffanciesbrightanddarktenantedmymind:thememoriesofnurserystorieswerethereamongstotherrubbish;andwhentheyrecurred,maturingyouthaddedtothemavigourandvividnessbeyondwhatchildhoodcouldgive。Asthishorseapproached,andasIwatchedforittoappearthroughthedusk,IrememberedcertainofBessie’stales,whereinfiguredaNorth—of—Englandspiritcalleda“Gytrash,”which,intheformofhorse,mule,orlargedog,hauntedsolitaryways,andsometimescameuponbelatedtravellers,asthishorsewasnowcominguponme。
Itwasverynear,butnotyetinsight;when,inadditiontothetramp,tramp,Iheardarushunderthehedge,andclosedownbythehazelstemsglidedagreatdog,whoseblackandwhitecolourmadehimadistinctobjectagainstthetrees。ItwasexactlyoneformofBessie’sGytrash—alion—likecreaturewithlonghairandahugehead:itpassedme,however,quietlyenough;notstayingtolookup,withstrangepretercanineeyes,inmyface,asIhalfexpecteditwould。Thehorsefollowed,—atallsteed,andonitsbackarider。Theman,thehumanbeing,brokethespellatonce。NothingeverrodetheGytrash:itwasalwaysalone;andgoblins,tomynotions,thoughtheymighttenantthedumbcarcassesofbeasts,couldscarcecovetshelterinthecommonplacehumanform。NoGytrashwasthis,—onlyatravellertakingtheshortcuttoMillcote。Hepassed,andIwenton;afewsteps,andIturned:aslidingsoundandanexclamationof“Whatthedeuceistodonow?”andaclatteringtumble,arrestedmyattention。Manandhorseweredown;theyhadslippedonthesheetoficewhichglazedthecauseway。Thedogcameboundingback,andseeinghismasterinapredicament,andhearingthehorsegroan,barkedtilltheeveninghillsechoedthesound,whichwasdeepinproportiontohismagnitude。Hesnuffedroundtheprostrategroup,andthenheranuptome;itwasallhecoulddo,—therewasnootherhelpathandtosummon。Iobeyedhim,andwalkeddowntothetraveller,bythistimestrugglinghimselffreeofhissteed。Hiseffortsweresovigorous,Ithoughthecouldnotbemuchhurt;butIaskedhimthequestion—
“Areyouinjured,sir?”
Ithinkhewasswearing,butamnotcertain;however,hewaspronouncingsomeformulawhichpreventedhimfromreplyingtomedirectly。
“CanIdoanything?”Iaskedagain。
“Youmustjuststandononeside,”heansweredasherose,firsttohisknees,andthentohisfeet。Idid;whereuponbeganaheaving,stamping,clatteringprocess,accompaniedbyabarkingandbayingwhichremovedmeeffectuallysomeyards’distance;butIwouldnotbedrivenquiteawaytillIsawtheevent。Thiswasfinallyfortunate;thehorsewasre—established,andthedogwassilencedwitha“Down,Pilot!”Thetravellernow,stooping,felthisfootandleg,asiftryingwhethertheyweresound;apparentlysomethingailedthem,forhehaltedtothestilewhenceIhadjustrisen,andsatdown。
Iwasinthemoodforbeinguseful,oratleastofficious,Ithink,forInowdrewnearhimagain。
“Ifyouarehurt,andwanthelp,sir,IcanfetchsomeoneeitherfromThornfieldHallorfromHay。”
“Thankyou:Ishalldo:Ihavenobrokenbones,—onlyasprain;”andagainhestoodupandtriedhisfoot,buttheresultextortedaninvoluntary“Ugh!”
Somethingofdaylightstilllingered,andthemoonwaswaxingbright:Icouldseehimplainly。Hisfigurewasenvelopedinaridingcloak,furcollaredandsteelclasped;itsdetailswerenotapparent,butItracedthegeneralpointsofmiddleheightandconsiderablebreadthofchest。Hehadadarkface,withsternfeaturesandaheavybrow;hiseyesandgatheredeyebrowslookedirefulandthwartedjustnow;hewaspastyouth,buthadnotreachedmiddle—age;perhapshemightbethirty—five。Ifeltnofearofhim,andbutlittleshyness。Hadhebeenahandsome,heroic—lookingyounggentleman,Ishouldnothavedaredtostandthusquestioninghimagainsthiswill,andofferingmyservicesunasked。Ihadhardlyeverseenahandsomeyouth;neverinmylifespokentoone。Ihadatheoreticalreverenceandhomageforbeauty,elegance,gallantry,fascination;buthadImetthosequalitiesincarnateinmasculineshape,Ishouldhaveknowninstinctivelythattheyneitherhadnorcouldhavesympathywithanythinginme,andshouldhaveshunnedthemasonewouldfire,lightning,oranythingelsethatisbrightbutantipathetic。
Ifeventhisstrangerhadsmiledandbeengood—humouredtomewhenIaddressedhim;ifhehadputoffmyofferofassistancegailyandwiththanks,Ishouldhavegoneonmywayandnotfeltanyvocationtorenewinquiries:butthefrown,theroughnessofthetraveller,setmeatmyease:Iretainedmystationwhenhewavedtometogo,andannounced—
“Icannotthinkofleavingyou,sir,atsolateanhour,inthissolitarylane,tillIseeyouarefittomountyourhorse。”
HelookedatmewhenIsaidthis;hehadhardlyturnedhiseyesinmydirectionbefore。
“Ishouldthinkyououghttobeathomeyourself,”saidhe,“ifyouhaveahomeinthisneighbourhood:wheredoyoucomefrom?”
“Fromjustbelow;andIamnotatallafraidofbeingoutlatewhenitismoonlight:IwillrunovertoHayforyouwithpleasure,ifyouwishit:indeed,Iamgoingtheretopostaletter。”
“Youlivejustbelow—doyoumeanatthathousewiththebattlements?”pointingtoThornfieldHall,onwhichthemooncastahoarygleam,bringingitoutdistinctandpalefromthewoodsthat,bycontrastwiththewesternsky,nowseemedonemassofshadow。
“Yes,sir。”
“Whosehouseisit?”
“Mr。Rochester’s。”
“DoyouknowMr。Rochester?”
“No,Ihaveneverseenhim。”
“Heisnotresident,then?”
“No。”
“Canyoutellmewhereheis?”
“Icannot。”
“Youarenotaservantatthehall,ofcourse。Youare—”Hestopped,ranhiseyeovermydress,which,asusual,wasquitesimple:ablackmerinocloak,ablackbeaverbonnet;neitherofthemhalffineenoughforalady’s—maid。HeseemedpuzzledtodecidewhatIwas;Ihelpedhim。
“Iamthegoverness。”
“Ah,thegoverness!”herepeated;“deucetakeme,ifIhadnotforgotten!Thegoverness!”andagainmyraimentunderwentscrutiny。Intwominutesherosefromthestile:hisfaceexpressedpainwhenhetriedtomove。
“Icannotcommissionyoutofetchhelp,”hesaid;“butyoumayhelpmealittleyourself,ifyouwillbesokind。”
“Yes,sir。”
“YouhavenotanumbrellathatIcanuseasastick?”
“No。”
“Trytogetholdofmyhorse’sbridleandleadhimtome:youarenotafraid?”
Ishouldhavebeenafraidtotouchahorsewhenalone,butwhentoldtodoit,Iwasdisposedtoobey。Iputdownmymuffonthestile,andwentuptothetallsteed;Iendeavouredtocatchthebridle,butitwasaspiritedthing,andwouldnotletmecomenearitshead;Imadeeffortoneffort,thoughinvain:meantime,Iwasmortallyafraidofitstramplingfore—feet。Thetravellerwaitedandwatchedforsometime,andatlasthelaughed。
“Isee,”hesaid,“themountainwillneverbebroughttoMahomet,soallyoucandoistoaidMahomettogotothemountain;Imustbegofyoutocomehere。”
Icame。“Excuseme,”hecontinued:“necessitycompelsmetomakeyouuseful。”Helaidaheavyhandonmyshoulder,andleaningonmewithsomestress,limpedtohishorse。Havingoncecaughtthebridle,hemastereditdirectlyandsprangtohissaddle;grimacinggrimlyashemadetheeffort,foritwrenchedhissprain。
“Now,”saidhe,releasinghisunderlipfromahardbite,“justhandmemywhip;itliesthereunderthehedge。”
Isoughtitandfoundit。
“Thankyou;nowmakehastewiththelettertoHay,andreturnasfastasyoucan。”
Atouchofaspurredheelmadehishorsefirststartandrear,andthenboundaway;thedogrushedinhistraces;allthreevanished,
“Likeheaththat,inthewilderness,
Thewildwindwhirlsaway。”
Itookupmymuffandwalkedon。Theincidenthadoccurredandwasgoneforme:itwasanincidentofnomoment,noromance,nointerestinasense;yetitmarkedwithchangeonesinglehourofamonotonouslife。Myhelphadbeenneededandclaimed;Ihadgivenit:Iwaspleasedtohavedonesomething;trivial,transitorythoughthedeedwas,itwasyetanactivething,andIwaswearyofanexistenceallpassive。Thenewface,too,waslikeanewpictureintroducedtothegalleryofmemory;anditwasdissimilartoalltheothershangingthere:firstly,becauseitwasmasculine;and,secondly,becauseitwasdark,strong,andstern。IhaditstillbeforemewhenIenteredHay,andslippedtheletterintothepost—office;IsawitasIwalkedfastdown—hillallthewayhome。WhenIcametothestile,Istoppedaminute,lookedroundandlistened,withanideathatahorse’shoofsmightringonthecausewayagain,andthatariderinacloak,andaGytrash—likeNewfoundlanddog,mightbeagainapparent:Isawonlythehedgeandapollardwillowbeforeme,risingupstillandstraighttomeetthemoonbeams;IheardonlythefaintestwaftofwindroamingfitfulamongthetreesroundThornfield,amiledistant;andwhenIglanceddowninthedirectionofthemurmur,myeye,traversingthehall—front,caughtalightkindlinginawindow:itremindedmethatIwaslate,andIhurriedon。
Ididnotlikere—enteringThornfield。Topassitsthresholdwastoreturntostagnation;tocrossthesilenthall,toascendthedarksomestaircase,toseekmyownlonelylittleroom,andthentomeettranquilMrs。Fairfax,andspendthelongwintereveningwithher,andheronly,wastoquellwhollythefaintexcitementwakenedbymywalk,—toslipagainovermyfacultiestheviewlessfettersofanuniformandtoostillexistence;ofanexistencewhoseveryprivilegesofsecurityandeaseIwasbecomingincapableofappreciating。Whatgooditwouldhavedonemeatthattimetohavebeentossedinthestormsofanuncertainstrugglinglife,andtohavebeentaughtbyroughandbitterexperiencetolongforthecalmamidstwhichInowrepined!Yes,justasmuchgoodasitwoulddoamantiredofsittingstillina“tooeasychair”totakealongwalk:andjustasnaturalwasthewishtostir,undermycircumstances,asitwouldbeunderhis。
Ilingeredatthegates;Ilingeredonthelawn;Ipacedbackwardsandforwardsonthepavement;theshuttersoftheglassdoorwereclosed;Icouldnotseeintotheinterior;andbothmyeyesandspiritseemeddrawnfromthegloomyhouse—fromthegrey—hollowfilledwithraylesscells,asitappearedtome—tothatskyexpandedbeforeme,—ablueseaabsolvedfromtaintofcloud;themoonascendingitinsolemnmarch;herorbseemingtolookupassheleftthehill—tops,frombehindwhichshehadcome,farandfartherbelowher,andaspiredtothezenith,midnightdarkinitsfathomlessdepthandmeasurelessdistance;andforthosetremblingstarsthatfollowedhercourse;theymademyhearttremble,myveinsglowwhenIviewedthem。Littlethingsrecallustoearth;theclockstruckinthehall;thatsufficed;Iturnedfrommoonandstars,openedaside—door,andwentin。
Thehallwasnotdark,noryetwasitlit,onlybythehigh—hungbronzelamp;awarmglowsuffusedbothitandthelowerstepsoftheoakstaircase。Thisruddyshineissuedfromthegreatdining—room,whosetwo—leaveddoorstoodopen,andshowedagenialfireinthegrate,glancingonmarblehearthandbrassfire—irons,andrevealingpurpledraperiesandpolishedfurniture,inthemostpleasantradiance。Itrevealed,too,agroupnearthemantelpiece:Ihadscarcelycaughtit,andscarcelybecomeawareofacheerfulminglingofvoices,amongstwhichIseemedtodistinguishthetonesofAdèle,whenthedoorclosed。
IhastenedtoMrs。Fairfax’sroom;therewasafiretheretoo,butnocandle,andnoMrs。Fairfax。Instead,allalone,sittinguprightontherug,andgazingwithgravityattheblaze,Ibeheldagreatblackandwhitelong—haireddog,justliketheGytrashofthelane。ItwassolikeitthatIwentforwardandsaid—“Pilot”andthethinggotupandcametomeandsnuffedme。Icaressedhim,andhewaggedhisgreattail;buthelookedaneeriecreaturetobealonewith,andIcouldnottellwhencehehadcome。Irangthebell,forIwantedacandle;andIwanted,too,togetanaccountofthisvisitant。Leahentered。
“Whatdogisthis?”
“Hecamewithmaster。”
“Withwhom?”
“Withmaster—Mr。Rochester—heisjustarrived。”
“Indeed!andisMrs。Fairfaxwithhim?”
“Yes,andMissAdèle;theyareinthedining—room,andJohnisgoneforasurgeon;formasterhashadanaccident;hishorsefellandhisankleissprained。”
“DidthehorsefallinHayLane?”
“Yes,comingdown—hill;itslippedonsomeice。”
“Ah!BringmeacandlewillyouLeah?”
Leahbroughtit;sheentered,followedbyMrs。Fairfax,whorepeatedthenews;addingthatMr。Carterthesurgeonwascome,andwasnowwithMr。Rochester:thenshehurriedouttogiveordersabouttea,andIwentupstairstotakeoffmythings。
Chapter13
Mr。Rochester,itseems,bythesurgeon’sorders,wenttobedearlythatnight;nordidherisesoonnextmorning。Whenhedidcomedown,itwastoattendtobusiness:hisagentandsomeofhistenantswerearrived,andwaitingtospeakwithhim。
AdèleandIhadnowtovacatethelibrary:itwouldbeindailyrequisitionasareception—roomforcallers。Afirewaslitinanapartmentupstairs,andthereIcarriedourbooks,andarrangeditforthefutureschoolroom。IdiscernedinthecourseofthemorningthatThornfieldHallwasachangedplace:nolongersilentasachurch,itechoedeveryhourortwotoaknockatthedoor,oraclangofthebell;steps,too,oftentraversedthehall,andnewvoicesspokeindifferentkeysbelow;arillfromtheouterworldwasflowingthroughit;ithadamaster:formypart,Ilikeditbetter。
Adèlewasnoteasytoteachthatday;shecouldnotapply:shekeptrunningtothedoorandlookingoverthebanisterstoseeifshecouldgetaglimpseofMr。Rochester;thenshecoinedpretextstogodownstairs,inorder,asIshrewdlysuspected,tovisitthelibrary,whereIknewshewasnotwanted;then,whenIgotalittleangry,andmadehersitstill,shecontinuedtotalkincessantlyofher“ami,MonsieurEdouardFairfaxdeRochester,”asshedubbedhim(Ihadnotbeforeheardhisprenomens),andtoconjecturewhatpresentshehadbroughther:foritappearshehadintimatedthenightbefore,thatwhenhisluggagecamefromMillcote,therewouldbefoundamongstitalittleboxinwhosecontentsshehadaninterest。
“Etceladoitsignifier,”saidshe,“qu’ilyauralededansuncadeaupourmoi,etpeut—êtrepourvousaussi,mademoiselle。Monsieuraparledevous:ilm’ademandelenomdemagouvernante,etsiellen’etaitpasunepetitepersonne,assezminceetunpeupale。J’aiditqu’oui:carc’estvrai,n’est—cepas,mademoiselle?”
IandmypupildinedasusualinMrs。Fairfax’sparlour;theafternoonwaswildandsnowy,andwepasseditintheschoolroom。AtdarkIallowedAdèletoputawaybooksandwork,andtorundownstairs;for,fromthecomparativesilencebelow,andfromthecessationofappealstothedoor—bell,IconjecturedthatMr。Rochesterwasnowatliberty。Leftalone,Iwalkedtothewindow;butnothingwastobeseenthence:twilightandsnowflakestogetherthickenedtheair,andhidtheveryshrubsonthelawn。Iletdownthecurtainandwentbacktothefireside。
IntheclearembersIwastracingaview,notunlikeapictureIrememberedtohaveseenofthecastleofHeidelberg,ontheRhine,whenMrs。Fairfaxcamein,breakingupbyherentrancethefierymosaicIhadbeenpiercingtogether,andscatteringtoosomeheavyunwelcomethoughtsthatwerebeginningtothrongonmysolitude。
“Mr。Rochesterwouldbegladifyouandyourpupilwouldtaketeawithhiminthedrawing—roomthisevening,”saidshe:“hehasbeensomuchengagedalldaythathecouldnotasktoseeyoubefore。”
“Whenishistea—time?”Iinquired。
“Oh,atsixo’clock:hekeepsearlyhoursinthecountry。Youhadbetterchangeyourfrocknow;Iwillgowithyouandfastenit。Hereisacandle。”
“Isitnecessarytochangemyfrock?”
“Yes,youhadbetter:IalwaysdressfortheeveningwhenMr。Rochesterishere。”
Thisadditionalceremonyseemedsomewhatstately;however,Irepairedtomyroom,and,withMrs。Fairfax’said,replacedmyblackstuffdressbyoneofblacksilk;thebestandtheonlyadditionaloneIhad,exceptoneoflightgrey,which,inmyLowoodnotionsofthetoilette,Ithoughttoofinetobeworn,exceptonfirst—rateoccasions。
“Youwantabrooch,”saidMrs。Fairfax。IhadasinglelittlepearlornamentwhichMissTemplegavemeasapartingkeepsake:Iputiton,andthenwewentdownstairs。UnusedasIwastostrangers,itwasratheratrialtoappearthusformallysummonedinMr。Rochester’spresence。IletMrs。Fairfaxprecedemeintothedining—room,andkeptinhershadeaswecrossedthatapartment;and,passingthearch,whosecurtainwasnowdropped,enteredtheelegantrecessbeyond。
Twowaxcandlesstoodlightedonthetable,andtwoonthemantelpiece;baskinginthelightandheatofasuperbfire,layPilot—Adèlekneltnearhim。HalfreclinedonacouchappearedMr。Rochester,hisfootsupportedbythecushion;hewaslookingatAdèleandthedog:thefireshonefullonhisface。Iknewmytravellerwithhisbroadandjettyeyebrows;hissquareforehead,madesquarerbythehorizontalsweepofhisblackhair。Irecognisedhisdecisivenose,moreremarkableforcharacterthanbeauty;hisfullnostrils,denoting,Ithought,choler;hisgrimmouth,chin,andjaw—yes,allthreewereverygrim,andnomistake。Hisshape,nowdivestedofcloak,Iperceivedharmonisedinsquarenesswithhisphysiognomy:Isupposeitwasagoodfigureintheathleticsenseoftheterm—broadchestedandthinflanked,thoughneithertallnorgraceful。
Mr。RochestermusthavebeenawareoftheentranceofMrs。Fairfaxandmyself;butitappearedhewasnotinthemoodtonoticeus,forheneverliftedhisheadasweapproached。
“HereisMissEyre,sir,”saidMrs。Fairfax,inherquietway。Hebowed,stillnottakinghiseyesfromthegroupofthedogandchild。
“LetMissEyrebeseated,”saidhe:andtherewassomethingintheforcedstiffbow,intheimpatientyetformaltone,whichseemedfurthertoexpress,“WhatthedeuceisittomewhetherMissEyrebethereornot?AtthismomentIamnotdisposedtoaccosther。”
Isatdownquitedisembarrassed。Areceptionoffinishedpolitenesswouldprobablyhaveconfusedme:Icouldnothavereturnedorrepaiditbyansweringgraceandeleganceonmypart;butharshcapricelaidmeundernoobligation;onthecontrary,adecentquiescence,underthefreakofmanner,gavemetheadvantage。Besides,theeccentricityoftheproceedingwaspiquant:Ifeltinterestedtoseehowhewouldgoon。
Hewentonasastatuewould,thatis,heneitherspokenormoved。Mrs。Fairfaxseemedtothinkitnecessarythatsomeoneshouldbeamiable,andshebegantotalk。Kindly,asusual—and,asusual,rathertrite—shecondoledwithhimonthepressureofbusinesshehadhadallday;ontheannoyanceitmusthavebeentohimwiththatpainfulsprain:thenshecommendedhispatienceandperseveranceingoingthroughwithit。
“Madam,Ishouldlikesometea,”wasthesolerejoindershegot。Shehastenedtoringthebell;andwhenthetraycame,sheproceededtoarrangethecups,spoons,&c。,withassiduouscelerity。IandAdèlewenttothetable;butthemasterdidnotleavehiscouch。
“WillyouhandMr。Rochester’scup?”saidMrs。Fairfaxtome;“Adèlemightperhapsspillit。”
Ididasrequested。Ashetookthecupfrommyhand,Adèle,thinkingthemomentpropitiousformakingarequestinmyfavour,criedout—
“N’est—cepas,monsieur,qu’ilyauncadeaupourMademoiselleEyredansvotrepetitcoffre?”
“Whotalksofcadeaux?”saidhegruffly。“Didyouexpectapresent,MissEyre?Areyoufondofpresents?”andhesearchedmyfacewitheyesthatIsawweredark,irate,andpiercing。
“Ihardlyknow,sir;Ihavelittleexperienceofthem:theyaregenerallythoughtpleasantthings。”
“Generallythought?Butwhatdoyouthink?”
“Ishouldbeobligedtotaketime,sir,beforeIcouldgiveyouananswerworthyofyouracceptance:apresenthasmanyfacestoit,hasitnot?andoneshouldconsiderall,beforepronouncinganopinionastoitsnature。”
“MissEyre,youarenotsounsophisticatedasAdèle:shedemandsa‘cadeau,’clamorously,themomentsheseesme:youbeataboutthebush。”
“BecauseIhavelessconfidenceinmydesertsthanAdèlehas:shecanprefertheclaimofoldacquaintance,andtherighttooofcustom;forshesaysyouhavealwaysbeeninthehabitofgivingherplaythings;butifIhadtomakeoutacaseIshouldbepuzzled,sinceIamastranger,andhavedonenothingtoentitlemetoanacknowledgment。”
“Oh,don’tfallbackonover—modesty!IhaveexaminedAdèle,andfindyouhavetakengreatpainswithher:sheisnotbright,shehasnotalents;yetinashorttimeshehasmademuchimprovement。”
“Sir,youhavenowgivenmemy‘cadeau;’Iamobligedtoyou:itisthemeedteachersmostcovet—praiseoftheirpupils’progress。”
“Humph!”saidMr。Rochester,andhetookhisteainsilence。
“Cometothefire,”saidthemaster,whenthetraywastakenaway,andMrs。Fairfaxhadsettledintoacornerwithherknitting;whileAdèlewasleadingmebythehandroundtheroom,showingmethebeautifulbooksandornamentsontheconsolesandchiffonnieres。Weobeyed,asindutybound;Adèlewantedtotakeaseatonmyknee,butshewasorderedtoamuseherselfwithPilot。
“Youhavebeenresidentinmyhousethreemonths?”
“Yes,sir。”
“Andyoucamefrom—?”
“FromLowoodschool,in—shire。”
“Ah!acharitableconcern。Howlongwereyouthere?”
“Eightyears。”
“Eightyears!youmustbetenaciousoflife。Ithoughthalfthetimeinsuchaplacewouldhavedoneupanyconstitution!Nowonderyouhaveratherthelookofanotherworld。Imarvelledwhereyouhadgotthatsortofface。WhenyoucameonmeinHayLanelastnight,Ithoughtunaccountablyoffairytales,andhadhalfamindtodemandwhetheryouhadbewitchedmyhorse:Iamnotsureyet。Whoareyourparents?”
“Ihavenone。”
“Noreverhad,Isuppose:doyourememberthem?”
“No。”
“Ithoughtnot。Andsoyouwerewaitingforyourpeoplewhenyousatonthatstile?”
“Forwhom,sir?”
“Forthemeningreen:itwasapropermoonlighteveningforthem。DidIbreakthroughoneofyourrings,thatyouspreadthatdamnediceonthecauseway?”
Ishookmyhead。“ThemeningreenallforsookEnglandahundredyearsago,”saidI,speakingasseriouslyashehaddone。“AndnoteveninHayLane,orthefieldsaboutit,couldyoufindatraceofthem。Idon’tthinkeithersummerorharvest,orwintermoon,willevershineontheirrevelsmore。”
Mrs。Fairfaxhaddroppedherknitting,and,withraisedeyebrows,seemedwonderingwhatsortoftalkthiswas。
“Well,”resumedMr。Rochester,“ifyoudisownparents,youmusthavesomesortofkinsfolk:unclesandaunts?”
“No;nonethatIeversaw。”
“Andyourhome?”
“Ihavenone。”
“Wheredoyourbrothersandsisterslive?”
“Ihavenobrothersorsisters。”
“Whorecommendedyoutocomehere?”
“Iadvertised,andMrs。Fairfaxansweredmyadvertisement。”
“Yes,”saidthegoodlady,whonowknewwhatgroundwewereupon,“andIamdailythankfulforthechoiceProvidenceledmetomake。MissEyrehasbeenaninvaluablecompaniontome,andakindandcarefulteachertoAdèle。”
“Don’ttroubleyourselftogiveheracharacter,”returnedMr。Rochester:“eulogiumswillnotbiasme;Ishalljudgeformyself。Shebeganbyfellingmyhorse。”
“Sir?”saidMrs。Fairfax。
“Ihavetothankherforthissprain。”
Thewidowlookedbewildered。
“MissEyre,haveyoueverlivedinatown?”
“No,sir。”
“Haveyouseenmuchsociety?”
“NonebutthepupilsandteachersofLowood,andnowtheinmatesofThornfield。”
“Haveyoureadmuch?”
“Onlysuchbooksascameinmyway;andtheyhavenotbeennumerousorverylearned。”
“Youhavelivedthelifeofanun:nodoubtyouarewelldrilledinreligiousforms;—Brocklehurst,whoIunderstanddirectsLowood,isaparson,ishenot?”
“Yes,sir。”
“Andyougirlsprobablyworshippedhim,asaconventfullofreligieuseswouldworshiptheirdirector。”
“Oh,no。”
“Youareverycool!No!What!anovicenotworshipherpriest!Thatsoundsblasphemous。”
“IdislikedMr。Brocklehurst;andIwasnotaloneinthefeeling。Heisaharshman;atoncepompousandmeddling;hecutoffourhair;andforeconomy’ssakeboughtusbadneedlesandthread,withwhichwecouldhardlysew。”
“Thatwasveryfalseeconomy,”remarkedMrs。Fairfax,whonowagaincaughtthedriftofthedialogue。
“Andwasthattheheadandfrontofhisoffending?”demandedMr。Rochester。
“Hestarveduswhenhehadthesolesuperintendenceoftheprovisiondepartment,beforethecommitteewasappointed;andheboreduswithlonglecturesonceaweek,andwitheveningreadingsfrombooksofhisowninditing,aboutsuddendeathsandjudgments,whichmadeusafraidtogotobed。”
“WhatagewereyouwhenyouwenttoLowood?”
“Aboutten。”
“Andyoustayedthereeightyears:youarenow,then,eighteen?”
Iassented。
“Arithmetic,yousee,isuseful;withoutitsaid,Ishouldhardlyhavebeenabletoguessyourage。Itisapointdifficulttofixwherethefeaturesandcountenancearesomuchatvarianceasinyourcase。AndnowwhatdidyoulearnatLowood?Canyouplay?”
“Alittle。”
“Ofcourse:thatistheestablishedanswer。Gointothelibrary—Imean,ifyouplease。—(Excusemytoneofcommand;Iamusedtosay,‘Dothis,’anditisdone:Icannotaltermycustomaryhabitsforonenewinmate。)—Go,then,intothelibrary;takeacandlewithyou;leavethedooropen;sitdowntothepiano,andplayatune。”
Ideparted,obeyinghisdirections。
“Enough!”hecalledoutinafewminutes。“YouplayAlittle,Isee;likeanyotherEnglishschool—girl;perhapsratherbetterthansome,butnotwell。”
Iclosedthepianoandreturned。Mr。Rochestercontinued—“Adèleshowedmesomesketchesthismorning,whichshesaidwereyours。Idon’tknowwhethertheywereentirelyofyourdoing;probablyamasteraidedyou?”
“No,indeed!”Iinterjected。
“Ah!thatprickspride。Well,fetchmeyourportfolio,ifyoucanvouchforitscontentsbeingoriginal;butdon’tpassyourwordunlessyouarecertain:Icanrecognisepatchwork。”
“ThenIwillsaynothing,andyoushalljudgeforyourself,sir。”
Ibroughttheportfoliofromthelibrary。
“Approachthetable,”saidhe;andIwheeledittohiscouch。AdèleandMrs。Fairfaxdrewneartoseethepictures。
“Nocrowding,”saidMr。Rochester:“takethedrawingsfrommyhandasIfinishwiththem;butdon’tpushyourfacesuptomine。”
Hedeliberatelyscrutinisedeachsketchandpainting。Threehelaidaside;theothers,whenhehadexaminedthem,hesweptfromhim。
“Takethemofftotheothertable,Mrs。Fairfax,”saidhe,andlookatthemwithAdèle;—you”(glancingatme)“resumeyourseat,andanswermyquestions。Iperceivethosepicturesweredonebyonehand:wasthathandyours?”
“Yes。”
“Andwhendidyoufindtimetodothem?Theyhavetakenmuchtime,andsomethought。”
“IdidtheminthelasttwovacationsIspentatLowood,whenIhadnootheroccupation。”
“Wheredidyougetyourcopies?”
“Outofmyhead。”
“ThatheadIseenowonyourshoulders?”
“Yes,sir。”
“Hasitotherfurnitureofthesamekindwithin?”
“Ishouldthinkitmayhave:Ishouldhope—better。”
Hespreadthepicturesbeforehim,andagainsurveyedthemalternately。
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