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第7章

  MissTemple,throughallchanges,hadthusfarcontinuedsuperintendentoftheseminary:toherinstructionIowedthebestpartofmyacquirements;herfriendshipandsocietyhadbeenmycontinualsolace;shehadstoodmeinthesteadofmother,governess,and,latterly,companion。Atthisperiodshemarried,removedwithherhusband(aclergyman,anexcellentman,almostworthyofsuchawife)toadistantcounty,andconsequentlywaslosttome。
  FromthedaysheleftIwasnolongerthesame:withherwasgoneeverysettledfeeling,everyassociationthathadmadeLowoodinsomedegreeahometome。Ihadimbibedfromhersomethingofhernatureandmuchofherhabits:moreharmoniousthoughts:whatseemedbetterregulatedfeelingshadbecometheinmatesofmymind。Ihadgiveninallegiancetodutyandorder;Iwasquiet;IbelievedIwascontent:totheeyesofothers,usuallyeventomyown,Iappearedadisciplinedandsubduedcharacter。
  Butdestiny,intheshapeoftheRev。Mr。Nasmyth,camebetweenmeandMissTemple:Isawherinhertravellingdressstepintoapost—chaise,shortlyafterthemarriageceremony;Iwatchedthechaisemountthehillanddisappearbeyonditsbrow;andthenretiredtomyownroom,andtherespentinsolitudethegreatestpartofthehalf—holidaygrantedinhonouroftheoccasion。
  Iwalkedaboutthechambermostofthetime。Iimaginedmyselfonlytoberegrettingmyloss,andthinkinghowtorepairit;butwhenmyreflectionswereconcluded,andIlookedupandfoundthattheafternoonwasgone,andeveningfaradvanced,anotherdiscoverydawnedonme,namely,thatintheintervalIhadundergoneatransformingprocess;thatmymindhadputoffallithadborrowedofMissTemple—orratherthatshehadtakenwithherthesereneatmosphereIhadbeenbreathinginhervicinity—andthatnowIwasleftinmynaturalelement,andbeginningtofeelthestirringofoldemotions。Itdidnotseemasifapropwerewithdrawn,butratherasifamotiveweregone:itwasnotthepowertobetranquilwhichhadfailedme,butthereasonfortranquillitywasnomore。MyworldhadforsomeyearsbeeninLowood:myexperiencehadbeenofitsrulesandsystems;nowIrememberedthattherealworldwaswide,andthatavariedfieldofhopesandfears,ofsensationsandexcitements,awaitedthosewhohadcouragetogoforthintoitsexpanse,toseekrealknowledgeoflifeamidstitsperils。
  Iwenttomywindow,openedit,andlookedout。Therewerethetwowingsofthebuilding;therewasthegarden;thereweretheskirtsofLowood;therewasthehillyhorizon。Myeyepassedallotherobjectstorestonthosemostremote,thebluepeaks;itwasthoseIlongedtosurmount;allwithintheirboundaryofrockandheathseemedprison—ground,exilelimits。Itracedthewhiteroadwindingroundthebaseofonemountain,andvanishinginagorgebetweentwo;howIlongedtofollowitfarther!IrecalledthetimewhenIhadtravelledthatveryroadinacoach;Iremembereddescendingthathillattwilight;anageseemedtohaveelapsedsincethedaywhichbroughtmefirsttoLowood,andIhadneverquitteditsince。Myvacationshadallbeenspentatschool:Mrs。ReedhadneversentformetoGateshead;neithershenoranyofherfamilyhadeverbeentovisitme。Ihadhadnocommunicationbyletterormessagewiththeouterworld:school—rules,school—duties,school—habitsandnotions,andvoices,andfaces,andphrases,andcostumes,andpreferences,andantipathies—suchwaswhatIknewofexistence。AndnowIfeltthatitwasnotenough;Itiredoftheroutineofeightyearsinoneafternoon。Idesiredliberty;forlibertyIgasped;forlibertyIutteredaprayer;itseemedscatteredonthewindthenfaintlyblowing。Iabandoneditandframedahumblersupplication;forchange,stimulus:thatpetition,too,seemedsweptoffintovaguespace:“Then,”Icried,halfdesperate,“grantmeatleastanewservitude!”
  Hereabell,ringingthehourofsupper,calledmedownstairs。
  Iwasnotfreetoresumetheinterruptedchainofmyreflectionstillbedtime:eventhenateacherwhooccupiedthesameroomwithmekeptmefromthesubjecttowhichIlongedtorecur,byaprolongedeffusionofsmalltalk。HowIwishedsleepwouldsilenceher。Itseemedasif,couldIbutgobacktotheideawhichhadlastenteredmymindasIstoodatthewindow,someinventivesuggestionwouldriseformyrelief。
  MissGrycesnoredatlast;shewasaheavyWelshwoman,andtillnowherhabitualnasalstrainshadneverbeenregardedbymeinanyotherlightthanasanuisance;to—nightIhailedthefirstdeepnoteswithsatisfaction;Iwasdebarrassedofinterruption;myhalf—effacedthoughtinstantlyrevived。
  “Anewservitude!Thereissomethinginthat,”Isoliloquised(mentally,beitunderstood;Ididnottalkaloud),“Iknowthereis,becauseitdoesnotsoundtoosweet;itisnotlikesuchwordsasLiberty,Excitement,Enjoyment:delightfulsoundstruly;butnomorethansoundsforme;andsohollowandfleetingthatitismerewasteoftimetolistentothem。ButServitude!Thatmustbematteroffact。Anyonemayserve:Ihaveservedhereeightyears;nowallIwantistoserveelsewhere。CanInotgetsomuchofmyownwill?Isnotthethingfeasible?Yes—yes—theendisnotsodifficult;ifIhadonlyabrainactiveenoughtoferretoutthemeansofattainingit。”
  Isatupinbedbywayofarousingthissaidbrain:itwasachillynight;Icoveredmyshoulderswithashawl,andthenIproceededTOthinkagainwithallmymight。
  “WhatdoIwant?Anewplace,inanewhouse,amongstnewfaces,undernewcircumstances:Iwantthisbecauseitisofnousewantinganythingbetter。Howdopeopledotogetanewplace?Theyapplytofriends,Isuppose:Ihavenofriends。Therearemanyotherswhohavenofriends,whomustlookaboutforthemselvesandbetheirownhelpers;andwhatistheirresource?”
  Icouldnottell:nothingansweredme;Ithenorderedmybraintofindaresponse,andquickly。Itworkedandworkedfaster:Ifeltthepulsesthrobinmyheadandtemples;butfornearlyanhouritworkedinchaos;andnoresultcameofitsefforts。Feverishwithvainlabour,Igotupandtookaturnintheroom;undrewthecurtain,notedastarortwo,shiveredwithcold,andagaincrepttobed。
  Akindfairy,inmyabsence,hadsurelydroppedtherequiredsuggestiononmypillow;forasIlaydown,itcamequietlyandnaturallytomymind。—“Thosewhowantsituationsadvertise;youmustadvertiseinthe—shireHerald。”
  “How?Iknownothingaboutadvertising。”
  Repliesrosesmoothandpromptnow:—
  “YoumustenclosetheadvertisementandthemoneytopayforitunderacoverdirectedtotheeditoroftheHerald;youmustputit,thefirstopportunityyouhave,intothepostatLowton;answersmustbeaddressedtoJ。E。,atthepost—officethere;youcangoandinquireinaboutaweekafteryousendyourletter,ifanyarecome,andactaccordingly。”
  ThisschemeIwentovertwice,thrice;itwasthendigestedinmymind;Ihaditinaclearpracticalform:Ifeltsatisfied,andfellasleep。
  Withearliestday,Iwasup:Ihadmyadvertisementwritten,enclosed,anddirectedbeforethebellrangtorousetheschool;itranthus:—
  “Ayoungladyaccustomedtotuition”(hadInotbeenateachertwoyears?)“isdesirousofmeetingwithasituationinaprivatefamilywherethechildrenareunderfourteen(IthoughtthatasIwasbarelyeighteen,itwouldnotdotoundertaketheguidanceofpupilsnearermyownage)。SheisqualifiedtoteachtheusualbranchesofagoodEnglisheducation,togetherwithFrench,Drawing,andMusic”(inthosedays,reader,thisnownarrowcatalogueofaccomplishments,wouldhavebeenheldtolerablycomprehensive)。“Address,J。E。,Post—office,Lowton,—shire。”
  Thisdocumentremainedlockedinmydrawerallday:aftertea,IaskedleaveofthenewsuperintendenttogotoLowton,inordertoperformsomesmallcommissionsformyselfandoneortwoofmyfellow—teachers;permissionwasreadilygranted;Iwent。Itwasawalkoftwomiles,andtheeveningwaswet,butthedayswerestilllong;Ivisitedashoportwo,slippedtheletterintothepost—office,andcamebackthroughheavyrain,withstreaminggarments,butwitharelievedheart。
  Thesucceedingweekseemedlong:itcametoanendatlast,however,likeallsublunarythings,andoncemore,towardsthecloseofapleasantautumnday,IfoundmyselfafootontheroadtoLowton。Apicturesquetrackitwas,bytheway;lyingalongthesideofthebeckandthroughthesweetestcurvesofthedale:butthatdayIthoughtmoreoftheletters,thatmightormightnotbeawaitingmeatthelittleburghwhitherIwasbound,thanofthecharmsofleaandwater。
  Myostensibleerrandonthisoccasionwastogetmeasuredforapairofshoes;soIdischargedthatbusinessfirst,andwhenitwasdone,Isteppedacrossthecleanandquietlittlestreetfromtheshoemaker’stothepost—office:itwaskeptbyanolddame,whoworehornspectaclesonhernose,andblackmittensonherhands。
  “ArethereanylettersforJ。E。?”Iasked。
  Shepeeredatmeoverherspectacles,andthensheopenedadrawerandfumbledamongitscontentsforalongtime,solongthatmyhopesbegantofalter。Atlast,havingheldadocumentbeforeherglassesfornearlyfiveminutes,shepresenteditacrossthecounter,accompanyingtheactbyanotherinquisitiveandmistrustfulglance—itwasforJ。E。
  “Isthereonlyone?”Idemanded。
  “Therearenomore,”saidshe;andIputitinmypocketandturnedmyfacehomeward:Icouldnotopenitthen;rulesobligedmetobebackbyeight,anditwasalreadyhalf—pastseven。
  Variousdutiesawaitedmeonmyarrival。Ihadtositwiththegirlsduringtheirhourofstudy;thenitwasmyturntoreadprayers;toseethemtobed:afterwardsIsuppedwiththeotherteachers。Evenwhenwefinallyretiredforthenight,theinevitableMissGrycewasstillmycompanion:wehadonlyashortendofcandleinourcandlestick,andIdreadedlestsheshouldtalktillitwasallburntout;fortunately,however,theheavysuppershehadeatenproducedasoporificeffect:shewasalreadysnoringbeforeIhadfinishedundressing。Therestillremainedaninchofcandle:Inowtookoutmyletter;thesealwasaninitialF。;Ibrokeit;thecontentswerebrief。
  “IfJ。E。,whoadvertisedinthe—shireHeraldoflastThursday,possessestheacquirementsmentioned,andifsheisinapositiontogivesatisfactoryreferencesastocharacterandcompetency,asituationcanbeofferedherwherethereisbutonepupil,alittlegirl,undertenyearsofage;andwherethesalaryisthirtypoundsperannum。J。E。isrequestedtosendreferences,name,address,andallparticularstothedirection:—
  “Mrs。Fairfax,Thornfield,nearMillcote,—shire。”
  Iexaminedthedocumentlong:thewritingwasold—fashionedandratheruncertain,likethatofinelderlylady。Thiscircumstancewassatisfactory:aprivatefearhadhauntedme,thatinthusactingformyself,andbymyownguidance,Irantheriskofgettingintosomescrape;and,aboveallthings,Iwishedtheresultofmyendeavourstoberespectable,proper,enrègle。InowfeltthatanelderlyladywasnobadingredientinthebusinessIhadonhand。Mrs。Fairfax!Isawherinablackgownandwidow’scap;frigid,perhaps,butnotuncivil:amodelofelderlyEnglishrespectability。Thornfield!that,doubtless,wasthenameofherhouse:aneatorderlyspot,Iwassure;thoughIfailedinmyeffortstoconceiveacorrectplanofthepremises。Millcote,—shire;IbrushedupmyrecollectionsofthemapofEngland,yes,Isawit;boththeshireandthetown。—shirewasseventymilesnearerLondonthantheremotecountywhereInowresided:thatwasarecommendationtome。Ilongedtogowheretherewaslifeandmovement:MillcotewasalargemanufacturingtownonthebanksoftheA—;abusyplaceenough,doubtless:somuchthebetter;itwouldbeacompletechangeatleast。Notthatmyfancywasmuchcaptivatedbytheideaoflongchimneysandcloudsofsmoke—“but,”Iargued,“Thornfieldwill,probably,beagoodwayfromthetown。”
  Herethesocketofthecandledropped,andthewickwentout。
  Nextdaynewstepsweretobetaken;myplanscouldnolongerbeconfinedtomyownbreast;Imustimparttheminordertoachievetheirsuccess。Havingsoughtandobtainedanaudienceofthesuperintendentduringthenoontiderecreation,ItoldherIhadaprospectofgettinganewsituationwherethesalarywouldbedoublewhatInowreceived(foratLowoodIonlygot£15perannum);andrequestedshewouldbreakthematterformetoMr。Brocklehurst,orsomeofthecommittee,andascertainwhethertheywouldpermitmetomentionthemasreferences。Sheobliginglyconsentedtoactasmediatrixinthematter。ThenextdayshelaidtheaffairbeforeMr。Brocklehurst,whosaidthatMrs。Reedmustbewrittento,asshewasmynaturalguardian。Anotewasaccordinglyaddressedtothatlady,whoreturnedforanswer,that“ImightdoasIpleased:shehadlongrelinquishedallinterferenceinmyaffairs。”Thisnotewenttheroundofthecommittee,andatlast,afterwhatappearedtomemosttediousdelay,formalleavewasgivenmetobettermyconditionifIcould;andanassuranceadded,thatasIhadalwaysconductedmyselfwell,bothasteacherandpupil,atLowood,atestimonialofcharacterandcapacity,signedbytheinspectorsofthatinstitution,shouldforthwithbefurnishedme。
  ThistestimonialIaccordinglyreceivedinaboutamonth,forwardedacopyofittoMrs。Fairfax,andgotthatlady’sreply,statingthatshewassatisfied,andfixingthatdayfortnightastheperiodformyassumingthepostofgovernessinherhouse。
  Inowbusiedmyselfinpreparations:thefortnightpassedrapidly。Ihadnotaverylargewardrobe,thoughitwasadequatetomywants;andthelastdaysufficedtopackmytrunk,—thesameIhadbroughtwithmeeightyearsagofromGateshead。
  Theboxwascorded,thecardnailedon。Inhalf—an—hourthecarrierwastocallforittotakeittoLowton,whetherImyselfwastorepairatanearlyhourthenextmorningtomeetthecoach。Ihadbrushedmyblackstufftravelling—dress,preparedmybonnet,gloves,andmuff;soughtinallmydrawerstoseethatnoarticlewasleftbehind;andnowhavingnothingmoretodo,Isatdownandtriedtorest。Icouldnot;thoughIhadbeenonfootallday,Icouldnotnowreposeaninstant;Iwastoomuchexcited。Aphaseofmylifewasclosingto—night,anewoneopeningto—morrow:impossibletoslumberintheinterval;Imustwatchfeverishlywhilethechangewasbeingaccomplished。
  “Miss,”saidaservantwhometmeinthelobby,whereIwaswanderinglikeatroubledspirit,“apersonbelowwishestoseeyou。”
  “Thecarrier,nodoubt,”Ithought,andrandownstairswithoutinquiry。Iwaspassingtheback—parlourorteachers’sitting—room,thedoorofwhichwashalfopen,togotothekitchen,whensomeoneranout—
  “It’sher,Iamsure!—Icouldhavetoldheranywhere!”criedtheindividualwhostoppedmyprogressandtookmyhand。
  Ilooked:Isawawomanattiredlikeawell—dressedservant,matronly,yetstillyoung;verygood—looking,withblackhairandeyes,andlivelycomplexion。
  “Well,whoisit?”sheasked,inavoiceandwithasmileIhalfrecognised;“you’venotquiteforgottenme,Ithink,MissJane?”
  InanothersecondIwasembracingandkissingherrapturously:“Bessie!Bessie!Bessie!”thatwasallIsaid;whereatshehalflaughed,halfcried,andwebothwentintotheparlour。Bythefirestoodalittlefellowofthreeyearsold,inplaidfrockandtrousers。
  “Thatismylittleboy,”saidBessiedirectly。
  “Thenyouaremarried,Bessie?”
  “Yes;nearlyfiveyearssincetoRobertLeaven,thecoachman;andI’vealittlegirlbesidesBobbythere,thatI’vechristenedJane。”
  “Andyoudon’tliveatGateshead?”
  “Iliveatthelodge:theoldporterhasleft。”
  “Well,andhowdotheyallgeton?Tellmeeverythingaboutthem,Bessie:butsitdownfirst;and,Bobby,comeandsitonmyknee,willyou?”butBobbypreferredsidlingovertohismother。
  “You’renotgrownsoverytall,MissJane,norsoverystout,”continuedMrs。Leaven。“Idaresaythey’venotkeptyoutoowellatschool:MissReedistheheadandshoulderstallerthanyouare;andMissGeorgianawouldmaketwoofyouinbreadth。”
  “Georgianaishandsome,Isuppose,Bessie?”
  “Very。ShewentuptoLondonlastwinterwithhermama,andthereeverybodyadmiredher,andayounglordfellinlovewithher:buthisrelationswereagainstthematch;and—whatdoyouthink?—heandMissGeorgianamadeituptorunaway;buttheywerefoundoutandstopped。ItwasMissReedthatfoundthemout:Ibelieveshewasenvious;andnowsheandhersisterleadacatanddoglifetogether;theyarealwaysquarrelling—”
  “Well,andwhatofJohnReed?”
  “Oh,heisnotdoingsowellashismamacouldwish。Hewenttocollege,andhegot—plucked,Ithinktheycallit:andthenhisuncleswantedhimtobeabarrister,andstudythelaw:butheissuchadissipatedyoungman,theywillnevermakemuchofhim,Ithink。”
  “Whatdoeshelooklike?”
  “Heisverytall:somepeoplecallhimafine—lookingyoungman;buthehassuchthicklips。”
  “AndMrs。Reed?”
  “Missislooksstoutandwellenoughintheface,butIthinkshe’snotquiteeasyinhermind:Mr。John’sconductdoesnotpleaseher—hespendsadealofmoney。”
  “Didshesendyouhere,Bessie?”
  “No,indeed:butIhavelongwantedtoseeyou,andwhenIheardthattherehadbeenaletterfromyou,andthatyouweregoingtoanotherpartofthecountry,IthoughtI’djustsetof,andgetalookatyoubeforeyouwerequiteoutofmyreach。”
  “Iamafraidyouaredisappointedinme,Bessie。”Isaidthislaughing:IperceivedthatBessie’sglance,thoughitexpressedregard,didinnoshapedenoteadmiration。
  “No,MissJane,notexactly:youaregenteelenough;youlooklikealady,anditisasmuchaseverIexpectedofyou:youwerenobeautyasachild。”
  IsmiledatBessie’sfrankanswer:Ifeltthatitwascorrect,butIconfessIwasnotquiteindifferenttoitsimport:ateighteenmostpeoplewishtoplease,andtheconvictionthattheyhavenotanexteriorlikelytosecondthatdesirebringsanythingbutgratification。
  “Idaresayyouareclever,though,”continuedBessie,bywayofsolace。“Whatcanyoudo?Canyouplayonthepiano?”
  “Alittle。”
  Therewasoneintheroom;Bessiewentandopenedit,andthenaskedmetositdownandgiveheratune:Iplayedawaltzortwo,andshewascharmed。
  “TheMissReedscouldnotplayaswell!”saidsheexultingly。“Ialwayssaidyouwouldsurpasstheminlearning:andcanyoudraw?”
  “Thatisoneofmypaintingsoverthechimney—piece。”Itwasalandscapeinwatercolours,ofwhichIhadmadeapresenttothesuperintendent,inacknowledgmentofherobligingmediationwiththecommitteeonmybehalf,andwhichshehadframedandglazed。
  “Well,thatisbeautiful,MissJane!ItisasfineapictureasanyMissReed’sdrawing—mastercouldpaint,letalonetheyoungladiesthemselves,whocouldnotcomenearit:andhaveyoulearntFrench?”
  “Yes,Bessie,Icanbothreaditandspeakit。”
  “Andyoucanworkonmuslinandcanvas?”
  “Ican。”
  “Oh,youarequitealady,MissJane!Iknewyouwouldbe:youwillgetonwhetheryourrelationsnoticeyouornot。TherewassomethingIwantedtoaskyou。Haveyoueverheardanythingfromyourfather’skinsfolk,theEyres?”
  “Neverinmylife。”
  “Well,youknowMissisalwayssaidtheywerepoorandquitedespicable:andtheymaybepoor;butIbelievetheyareasmuchgentryastheReedsare;foroneday,nearlysevenyearsago,aMr。EyrecametoGatesheadandwantedtoseeyou;Mississaidyouwereitschoolfiftymilesoff;heseemedsomuchdisappointed,forhecouldnotstay:hewasgoingonavoyagetoaforeigncountry,andtheshipwastosailfromLondoninadayortwo。Helookedquiteagentleman,andIbelievehewasyourfather’sbrother。”
  “Whatforeigncountrywashegoingto,Bessie?”
  “Anislandthousandsofmilesoff,wheretheymakewine—thebutlerdidtellme—”
  “Madeira?”Isuggested。
  “Yes,thatisit—thatistheveryword。”
  “Sohewent?”
  “Yes;hedidnotstaymanyminutesinthehouse:Missiswasveryhighwithhim;shecalledhimafterwardsa‘sneakingtradesman。’MyRobertbelieveshewasawine—merchant。”
  “Verylikely,”Ireturned;“orperhapsclerkoragenttoawine—merchant。”
  BessieandIconversedaboutoldtimesanhourlonger,andthenshewasobligedtoleaveme:IsawheragainforafewminutesthenextmorningatLowton,whileIwaswaitingforthecoach。WepartedfinallyatthedooroftheBrocklehurstArmsthere:eachwentherseparateway;shesetoffforthebrowofLowoodFelltomeettheconveyancewhichwastotakeherbacktoGateshead,ImountedthevehiclewhichwastobearmetonewdutiesandanewlifeintheunknownenvironsofMillcote。
  Chapter11
  Anewchapterinanovelissomethinglikeanewsceneinaplay;andwhenIdrawupthecurtainthistime,reader,youmustfancyyouseearoomintheGeorgeInnatMillcote,withsuchlargefiguredpaperingonthewallsasinnroomshave;suchacarpet,suchfurniture,suchornamentsonthemantelpiece,suchprints,includingaportraitofGeorgetheThird,andanotherofthePrinceofWales,andarepresentationofthedeathofWolfe。Allthisisvisibletoyoubythelightofanoillamphangingfromtheceiling,andbythatofanexcellentfire,nearwhichIsitinmycloakandbonnet;mymuffandumbrellalieonthetable,andIamwarmingawaythenumbnessandchillcontractedbysixteenhours’exposuretotherawnessofanOctoberday:IleftLowtonatfouro’clocka。m。,andtheMillcotetownclockisnowjuststrikingeight。
  Reader,thoughIlookcomfortablyaccommodated,Iamnotverytranquilinmymind。Ithoughtwhenthecoachstoppedheretherewouldbesomeonetomeetme;IlookedanxiouslyroundasIdescendedthewoodenstepsthe“boots”placedformyconvenience,expectingtohearmynamepronounced,andtoseesomedescriptionofcarriagewaitingtoconveymetoThornfield。Nothingofthesortwasvisible;andwhenIaskedawaiterifanyonehadbeentoinquireafteraMissEyre,Iwasansweredinthenegative:soIhadnoresourcebuttorequesttobeshownintoaprivateroom:andhereIamwaiting,whileallsortsofdoubtsandfearsaretroublingmythoughts。
  Itisaverystrangesensationtoinexperiencedyouthtofeelitselfquitealoneintheworld,cutadriftfromeveryconnection,uncertainwhethertheporttowhichitisboundcanbereached,andpreventedbymanyimpedimentsfromreturningtothatithasquitted。Thecharmofadventuresweetensthatsensation,theglowofpridewarmsit;butthenthethroboffeardisturbsit;andfearwithmebecamepredominantwhenhalf—an—hourelapsedandstillIwasalone。Ibethoughtmyselftoringthebell。
  “IsthereaplaceinthisneighbourhoodcalledThornfield?”Iaskedofthewaiterwhoansweredthesummons。
  “Thornfield?Idon’tknow,ma’am;I’llinquireatthebar。”Hevanished,butreappearedinstantly—
  “IsyournameEyre,Miss?”
  “Yes。”
  “Personherewaitingforyou。”
  Ijumpedup,tookmymuffandumbrella,andhastenedintotheinn—passage:amanwasstandingbytheopendoor,andinthelamp—litstreetIdimlysawaone—horseconveyance。
  “Thiswillbeyourluggage,Isuppose?”saidthemanratherabruptlywhenhesawme,pointingtomytrunkinthepassage。
  “Yes。”Hehoisteditontothevehicle,whichwasasortofcar,andthenIgotin;beforeheshutmeup,IaskedhimhowfaritwastoThornfield。
  “Amatterofsixmiles。”
  “Howlongshallwebebeforewegetthere?”
  “Happenanhourandahalf。”
  Hefastenedthecardoor,climbedtohisownseatoutside,andwesetoff。Ourprogresswasleisurely,andgavemeampletimetoreflect;Iwascontenttobeatlengthsoneartheendofmyjourney;andasIleanedbackinthecomfortablethoughnotelegantconveyance,Imeditatedmuchatmyease。
  “Isuppose,”thoughtI,“judgingfromtheplainnessoftheservantandcarriage,Mrs。Fairfaxisnotaverydashingperson:somuchthebetter;Ineverlivedamongstfinepeoplebutonce,andIwasverymiserablewiththem。Iwonderifshelivesaloneexceptthislittlegirl;ifso,andifsheisinanydegreeamiable,Ishallsurelybeabletogetonwithher;Iwilldomybest;itisapitythatdoingone’sbestdoesnotalwaysanswer。AtLowood,indeed,Itookthatresolution,keptit,andsucceededinpleasing;butwithMrs。Reed,Iremembermybestwasalwaysspurnedwithscorn。IprayGodMrs。FairfaxmaynotturnoutasecondMrs。Reed;butifshedoes,Iamnotboundtostaywithher!lettheworstcometotheworst,Icanadvertiseagain。Howfarareweonourroadnow,Iwonder?”
  Iletdownthewindowandlookedout;Millcotewasbehindus;judgingbythenumberofitslights,itseemedaplaceofconsiderablemagnitude,muchlargerthanLowton。Wewerenow,asfarasIcouldsee,onasortofcommon;buttherewerehousesscatteredalloverthedistrict;IfeltwewereinadifferentregiontoLowood,morepopulous,lesspicturesque;morestirring,lessromantic。
  Theroadswereheavy,thenightmisty;myconductorlethishorsewalkalltheway,andthehourandahalfextended,Iverifybelieve,totwohours;atlastheturnedinhisseatandsaid—
  “You’renoansofarfro’Thornfieldnow。”
  AgainIlookedout:wewerepassingachurch;Isawitslowbroadtoweragainstthesky,anditsbellwastollingaquarter;Isawanarrowgalaxyoflightstoo,onahillside,markingavillageorhamlet。Abouttenminutesafter,thedrivergotdownandopenedapairofgates:wepassedthrough,andtheyclashedtobehindus。Wenowslowlyascendedadrive,andcameuponthelongfrontofahouse:candlelightgleamedfromonecurtainedbow—window;alltherestweredark。Thecarstoppedatthefrontdoor;itwasopenedbyamaid—servant;Ialightedandwentin。
  “Willyouwalkthisway,ma’am?”saidthegirl;andIfollowedheracrossasquarehallwithhighdoorsallround:sheusheredmeintoaroomwhosedoubleilluminationoffireandcandleatfirstdazzledme,contrastingasitdidwiththedarknesstowhichmyeyeshadbeenfortwohoursinured;whenIcouldsee,however,acosyandagreeablepicturepresenteditselftomyview。
  Asnugsmallroom;aroundtablebyacheerfulfire;anarm—chairhigh—backedandold—fashioned,whereinsattheneatestimaginablelittleelderlylady,inwidow’scap,blacksilkgown,andsnowymuslinapron;exactlylikewhatIhadfanciedMrs。Fairfax,onlylessstatelyandmilderlooking。Shewasoccupiedinknitting;alargecatsatdemurelyatherfeet;nothinginshortwaswantingtocompletethebeau—idealofdomesticcomfort。Amorereassuringintroductionforanewgovernesscouldscarcelybeconceived;therewasnograndeurtooverwhelm,nostatelinesstoembarrass;andthen,asIentered,theoldladygotupandpromptlyandkindlycameforwardtomeetme。
  “Howdoyoudo,mydear?Iamafraidyouhavehadatediousride;Johndrivessoslowly;youmustbecold,cometothefire。”
  “Mrs。Fairfax,Isuppose?”saidI。
  “Yes,youareright:dositdown。”
  Sheconductedmetoherownchair,andthenbegantoremovemyshawlanduntiemybonnet—strings;Ibeggedshewouldnotgiveherselfsomuchtrouble。
  “Oh,itisnotrouble;Idaresayyourownhandsarealmostnumbedwithcold。Leah,makealittlehotnegusandcutasandwichortwo:herearethekeysofthestoreroom。”
  Andsheproducedfromherpocketamosthousewifelybunchofkeys,anddeliveredthemtotheservant。
  “Now,then,drawnearertothefire,”shecontinued。“You’vebroughtyourluggagewithyou,haven’tyou,mydear?”
  “Yes,ma’am。”
  “I’llseeitcarriedintoyourroom,”shesaid,andbustledout。
  “Shetreatsmelikeavisitor,”thoughtI。“Ilittleexpectedsuchareception;Ianticipatedonlycoldnessandstiffness:thisisnotlikewhatIhaveheardofthetreatmentofgovernesses;butImustnotexulttoosoon。”
  Shereturned;withherownhandsclearedherknittingapparatusandabookortwofromthetable,tomakeroomforthetraywhichLeahnowbrought,andthenherselfhandedmetherefreshments。IfeltratherconfusedatbeingtheobjectofmoreattentionthanIhadeverbeforereceived,and,thattoo,shownbymyemployerandsuperior;butasshedidnotherselfseemtoconsidershewasdoinganythingoutofherplace,Ithoughtitbettertotakehercivilitiesquietly。
  “ShallIhavethepleasureofseeingMissFairfaxto—night?”Iasked,whenIhadpartakenofwhatsheofferedme。
  “Whatdidyousay,mydear?Iamalittledeaf,”returnedthegoodlady,approachinghereartomymouth。
  Irepeatedthequestionmoredistinctly。
  “MissFairfax?Oh,youmeanMissVarens!Varensisthenameofyourfuturepupil。”
  “Indeed!Thensheisnotyourdaughter?”
  “No,—Ihavenofamily。”
  Ishouldhavefollowedupmyfirstinquiry,byaskinginwhatwayMissVarenswasconnectedwithher;butIrecollecteditwasnotpolitetoasktoomanyquestions:besides,Iwassuretohearintime。
  “Iamsoglad,”shecontinued,asshesatdownoppositetome,andtookthecatonherknee;“Iamsogladyouarecome;itwillbequitepleasantlivingherenowwithacompanion。Tobesureitispleasantatanytime;forThornfieldisafineoldhall,ratherneglectedoflateyearsperhaps,butstillitisarespectableplace;yetyouknowinwinter—timeonefeelsdrearyquitealoneinthebestquarters。Isayalone—Leahisanicegirltobesure,andJohnandhiswifeareverydecentpeople;butthenyouseetheyareonlyservants,andonecan’tconversewiththemontermsofequality:onemustkeepthematduedistance,forfearoflosingone’sauthority。I’msurelastwinter(itwasaverysevereone,ifyourecollect,andwhenitdidnotsnow,itrainedandblew),notacreaturebutthebutcherandpostmancametothehouse,fromNovembertillFebruary;andIreallygotquitemelancholywithsittingnightafternightalone;IhadLeahintoreadtomesometimes;butIdon’tthinkthepoorgirllikedthetaskmuch:shefeltitconfining。Inspringandsummeronegotonbetter:sunshineandlongdaysmakesuchadifference;andthen,justatthecommencementofthisautumn,littleAdelaVarenscameandhernurse:achildmakesahousealiveallatonce;andnowyouarehereIshallbequitegay。”
  MyheartreallywarmedtotheworthyladyasIheardhertalk;andIdrewmychairalittlenearertoher,andexpressedmysincerewishthatshemightfindmycompanyasagreeableassheanticipated。
  “ButI’llnotkeepyousittinguplateto—night,”saidshe;“itisonthestrokeoftwelvenow,andyouhavebeentravellingallday:youmustfeeltired。Ifyouhavegotyourfeetwellwarmed,I’llshowyouyourbedroom。I’vehadtheroomnexttominepreparedforyou;itisonlyasmallapartment,butIthoughtyouwouldlikeitbetterthanoneofthelargefrontchambers:tobesuretheyhavefinerfurniture,buttheyaresodrearyandsolitary,Ineversleepinthemmyself。”