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第28章

  “Iamcometoseehowyouarespendingyourholiday,”hesaid。“Not,Ihope,inthought?No,thatiswell:whileyoudrawyouwillnotfeellonely。Yousee,Imistrustyoustill,thoughyouhaveborneupwonderfullysofar。Ihavebroughtyouabookforeveningsolace,”andhelaidonthetableanewpublication—apoem:oneofthosegenuineproductionssooftenvouchsafedtothefortunatepublicofthosedays—thegoldenageofmodernliterature。Alas!thereadersofoureraarelessfavoured。Butcourage!Iwillnotpauseeithertoaccuseorrepine。Iknowpoetryisnotdead,norgeniuslost;norhasMammongainedpowerovereither,tobindorslay:theywillbothasserttheirexistence,theirpresence,theirlibertyandstrengthagainoneday。Powerfulangels,safeinheaven!theysmilewhensordidsoulstriumph,andfeebleonesweepovertheirdestruction。Poetrydestroyed?Geniusbanished?No!Mediocrity,no:donotletenvypromptyoutothethought。No;theynotonlylive,butreignandredeem:andwithouttheirdivineinfluencespreadeverywhere,youwouldbeinhell—thehellofyourownmeanness。
  WhileIwaseagerlyglancingatthebrightpagesof“Marmion”(for“Marmion”itwas),St。Johnstoopedtoexaminemydrawing。Histallfiguresprangerectagainwithastart:hesaidnothing。Ilookedupathim:heshunnedmyeye。Iknewhisthoughtswell,andcouldreadhisheartplainly;atthemomentIfeltcalmerandcoolerthanhe:Ihadthentemporarilytheadvantageofhim,andIconceivedaninclinationtodohimsomegood,ifIcould。
  “Withallhisfirmnessandself—control,”thoughtI,“hetaskshimselftoofar:lockseveryfeelingandpangwithin—expresses,confesses,impartsnothing。IamsureitwouldbenefithimtotalkalittleaboutthissweetRosamond,whomhethinksheoughtnottomarry:Iwillmakehimtalk。”
  Isaidfirst,“Takeachair,Mr。Rivers。”Butheanswered,ashealwaysdid,thathecouldnotstay。“Verywell,”Iresponded,mentally,“standifyoulike;butyoushallnotgojustyet,Iamdetermined:solitudeisatleastasbadforyouasitisforme。I’lltryifIcannotdiscoverthesecretspringofyourconfidence,andfindanapertureinthatmarblebreastthroughwhichIcanshedonedropofthebalmofsympathy。”
  “Isthisportraitlike?”Iaskedbluntly。
  “Like!Likewhom?Ididnotobserveitclosely。”
  “Youdid,Mr。Rivers。”
  Healmoststartedatmysuddenandstrangeabruptness:helookedatmeastonished。“Oh,thatisnothingyet,”Imutteredwithin。“Idon’tmeantobebaffledbyalittlestiffnessonyourpart;I’mpreparedtogotoconsiderablelengths。”Icontinued,“Youobserveditcloselyanddistinctly;butIhavenoobjectiontoyourlookingatitagain,”andIroseandplaceditinhishand。
  “Awell—executedpicture,”hesaid;“verysoft,clearcolouring;verygracefulandcorrectdrawing。”
  “Yes,yes;Iknowallthat。Butwhatoftheresemblance?Whoisitlike?”
  Masteringsomehesitation,heanswered,“MissOliver,Ipresume。”
  “Ofcourse。Andnow,sir,torewardyoufortheaccurateguess,Iwillpromisetopaintyouacarefulandfaithfulduplicateofthisverypicture,providedyouadmitthatthegiftwouldbeacceptabletoyou。Idon’twishtothrowawaymytimeandtroubleonanofferingyouwoulddeemworthless。”
  Hecontinuedtogazeatthepicture:thelongerhelooked,thefirmerheheldit,themoreheseemedtocovetit。“Itislike!”hemurmured;“theeyeiswellmanaged:thecolour,light,expression,areperfect。Itsmiles!”
  “Woulditcomfort,orwoulditwoundyoutohaveasimilarpainting?Tellmethat。WhenyouareatMadagascar,orattheCape,orinIndia,woulditbeaconsolationtohavethatmementoinyourpossession?orwouldthesightofitbringrecollectionscalculatedtoenervateanddistress?”
  Henowfurtivelyraisedhiseyes:heglancedatme,irresolute,disturbed:heagainsurveyedthepicture。
  “ThatIshouldliketohaveitiscertain:whetheritwouldbejudiciousorwiseisanotherquestion。”
  SinceIhadascertainedthatRosamondreallypreferredhim,andthatherfatherwasnotlikelytoopposethematch,I—lessexaltedinmyviewsthanSt。John—hadbeenstronglydisposedinmyownhearttoadvocatetheirunion。Itseemedtomethat,shouldhebecomethepossessorofMr。Oliver’slargefortune,hemightdoasmuchgoodwithitasifhewentandlaidhisgeniusouttowither,andhisstrengthtowaste,underatropicalsun。WiththispersuasionInowanswered—
  “AsfarasIcansee,itwouldbewiserandmorejudiciousifyouweretotaketoyourselftheoriginalatonce。”
  Bythistimehehadsatdown:hehadlaidthepictureonthetablebeforehim,andwithhisbrowsupportedonbothhands,hungfondlyoverit。Idiscernedhewasnowneitherangrynorshockedatmyaudacity。Isaweventhattobethusfranklyaddressedonasubjecthehaddeemedunapproachable—tohearitthusfreelyhandled—wasbeginningtobefeltbyhimasanewpleasure—anunhoped—forrelief。Reservedpeopleoftenreallyneedthefrankdiscussionoftheirsentimentsandgriefsmorethantheexpansive。Thesternest—seemingstoicishumanafterall;andto“burst”withboldnessandgood—willinto“thesilentsea”oftheirsoulsisoftentoconferonthemthefirstofobligations。
  “Shelikesyou,Iamsure,”saidI,asIstoodbehindhischair,“andherfatherrespectsyou。Moreover,sheisasweetgirl—ratherthoughtless;butyouwouldhavesufficientthoughtforbothyourselfandher。Yououghttomarryher。”
  “Doesshelikeme?”heasked。
  “Certainly;betterthanshelikesanyoneelse。Shetalksofyoucontinually:thereisnosubjectsheenjoyssomuchortouchesuponsooften。”
  “Itisverypleasanttohearthis,”hesaid—“very:goonforanotherquarterofanhour。”Andheactuallytookouthiswatchandlaidituponthetabletomeasurethetime。
  “Butwhereistheuseofgoingon,”Iasked,“whenyouareprobablypreparingsomeironblowofcontradiction,orforgingafreshchaintofetteryourheart?”
  “Don’timaginesuchhardthings。Fancymeyieldingandmelting,asIamdoing:humanloverisinglikeafreshlyopenedfountaininmymindandoverflowingwithsweetinundationallthefieldIhavesocarefullyandwithsuchlabourprepared—soassiduouslysownwiththeseedsofgoodintentions,ofself—denyingplans。Andnowitisdelugedwithanectarousflood—theyounggermsswamped—deliciouspoisoncankeringthem:nowIseemyselfstretchedonanottomaninthedrawing—roomatValeHallatmybrideRosamondOliver’sfeet:sheistalkingtomewithhersweetvoice—gazingdownonmewiththoseeyesyourskilfulhandhascopiedsowell—smilingatmewiththesecorallips。Sheismine—Iamhers—thispresentlifeandpassingworldsufficetome。Hush!saynothing—myheartisfullofdelight—mysensesareentranced—letthetimeImarkedpassinpeace。”
  Ihumouredhim:thewatchtickedon:hebreathedfastandlow:Istoodsilent。Amidstthishushthequartetsped;hereplacedthewatch,laidthepicturedown,rose,andstoodonthehearth。
  “Now,”saidhe,“thatlittlespacewasgiventodeliriumanddelusion。Irestedmytemplesonthebreastoftemptation,andputmyneckvoluntarilyunderheryokeofflowers。Itastedhercup。Thepillowwasburning:thereisanaspinthegarland:thewinehasabittertaste:herpromisesarehollow—heroffersfalse:Iseeandknowallthis。”
  Igazedathiminwonder。
  “Itisstrange,”pursuedhe,“thatwhileIloveRosamondOliversowildly—withalltheintensity,indeed,ofafirstpassion,theobjectofwhichisexquisitelybeautiful,graceful,fascinating—Iexperienceatthesametimeacalm,unwarpedconsciousnessthatshewouldnotmakemeagoodwife;thatsheisnotthepartnersuitedtome;thatIshoulddiscoverthiswithinayearaftermarriage;andthattotwelvemonths’rapturewouldsucceedalifetimeofregret。ThisIknow。”
  “Strangeindeed!”Icouldnothelpejaculating。
  “Whilesomethinginme,”hewenton,“isacutelysensibletohercharms,somethingelseisasdeeplyimpressedwithherdefects:theyaresuchthatshecouldsympathiseinnothingIaspiredto—co—operateinnothingIundertook。Rosamondasufferer,alabourer,afemaleapostle?Rosamondamissionary’swife?No!”
  “Butyouneednotbeamissionary。Youmightrelinquishthatscheme。”
  “Relinquish!What!myvocation?Mygreatwork?Myfoundationlaidonearthforamansioninheaven?Myhopesofbeingnumberedinthebandwhohavemergedallambitionsinthegloriousoneofbetteringtheirrace—ofcarryingknowledgeintotherealmsofignorance—ofsubstitutingpeaceforwar—freedomforbondage—religionforsuperstition—thehopeofheavenforthefearofhell?MustIrelinquishthat?Itisdearerthanthebloodinmyveins。ItiswhatIhavetolookforwardto,andtolivefor。”
  Afteraconsiderablepause,Isaid—“AndMissOliver?Areherdisappointmentandsorrowofnointeresttoyou?”
  “MissOliveriseversurroundedbysuitorsandflatterers:inlessthanamonth,myimagewillbeeffacedfromherheart。Shewillforgetme;andwillmarry,probably,someonewhowillmakeherfarhappierthanIshoulddo。”
  “Youspeakcoollyenough;butyousufferintheconflict。Youarewastingaway。”
  “No。IfIgetalittlethin,itiswithanxietyaboutmyprospects,yetunsettled—mydeparture,continuallyprocrastinated。Onlythismorning,Ireceivedintelligencethatthesuccessor,whosearrivalIhavebeensolongexpecting,cannotbereadytoreplacemeforthreemonthstocomeyet;andperhapsthethreemonthsmayextendtosix。”
  “YoutrembleandbecomeflushedwheneverMissOliverenterstheschoolroom。”
  Againthesurprisedexpressioncrossedhisface。Hehadnotimaginedthatawomanwoulddaretospeaksotoaman。Forme,Ifeltathomeinthissortofdiscourse。Icouldneverrestincommunicationwithstrong,discreet,andrefinedminds,whethermaleorfemale,tillIhadpassedtheoutworksofconventionalreserve,andcrossedthethresholdofconfidence,andwonaplacebytheirheart’sveryhearthstone。
  “Youareoriginal,”saidhe,“andnottimid。Thereissomethingbraveinyourspirit,aswellaspenetratinginyoureye;butallowmetoassureyouthatyoupartiallymisinterpretmyemotions。Youthinkthemmoreprofoundandpotentthantheyare。YougivemealargerallowanceofsympathythanIhaveajustclaimto。WhenIcolour,andwhenIshadebeforeMissOliver,Idonotpitymyself。Iscorntheweakness。Iknowitisignoble:amerefeveroftheflesh:not,Ideclare,theconvulsionofthesoul。Thatisjustasfixedasarock,firmsetinthedepthsofarestlesssea。KnowmetobewhatIam—acoldhardman。”
  Ismiledincredulously。
  “Youhavetakenmyconfidencebystorm,”hecontinued,“andnowitismuchatyourservice。Iamsimply,inmyoriginalstate—strippedofthatblood—bleachedrobewithwhichChristianitycovershumandeformity—acold,hard,ambitiousman。Naturalaffectiononly,ofallthesentiments,haspermanentpoweroverme。Reason,andnotfeeling,ismyguide;myambitionisunlimited:mydesiretorisehigher,todomorethanothers,insatiable。Ihonourendurance,perseverance,industry,talent;becausethesearethemeansbywhichmenachievegreatendsandmounttoloftyeminence。Iwatchyourcareerwithinterest,becauseIconsideryouaspecimenofadiligent,orderly,energeticwoman:notbecauseIdeeplycompassionatewhatyouhavegonethrough,orwhatyoustillsuffer。”
  “Youwoulddescribeyourselfasamerepaganphilosopher,”Isaid。
  “No。Thereisthisdifferencebetweenmeanddeisticphilosophers:Ibelieve;andIbelievetheGospel。Youmissedyourepithet。Iamnotapagan,butaChristianphilosopher—afollowerofthesectofJesus。AsHisdiscipleIadoptHispure,Hismerciful,Hisbenignantdoctrines。Iadvocatethem:Iamsworntospreadthem。Woninyouthtoreligion,shehascultivatedmyoriginalqualitiesthus:—Fromtheminutegerm,naturalaffection,shehasdevelopedtheovershadowingtree,philanthropy。Fromthewildstringyrootofhumanuprightness,shehasrearedaduesenseoftheDivinejustice。Oftheambitiontowinpowerandrenownformywretchedself,shehasformedtheambitiontospreadmyMaster’skingdom;toachievevictoriesforthestandardofthecross。Somuchhasreligiondoneforme;turningtheoriginalmaterialstothebestaccount;pruningandtrainingnature。Butshecouldnoteradicatenature:norwillitbeeradicated‘tillthismortalshallputonimmortality。’”
  Havingsaidthis,hetookhishat,whichlayonthetablebesidemypalette。Oncemorehelookedattheportrait。
  “SheISlovely,”hemurmured。“SheiswellnamedtheRoseoftheWorld,indeed!”
  “AndmayInotpaintonelikeitforyou?”
  “Cuibono?No。”
  HedrewoverthepicturethesheetofthinpaperonwhichIwasaccustomedtorestmyhandinpainting,topreventthecardboardfrombeingsullied。Whathesuddenlysawonthisblankpaper,itwasimpossibleformetotell;butsomethinghadcaughthiseye。Hetookitupwithasnatch;helookedattheedge;thenshotaglanceatme,inexpressiblypeculiar,andquiteincomprehensible:aglancethatseemedtotakeandmakenoteofeverypointinmyshape,face,anddress;forittraversedall,quick,keenaslightning。Hislipsparted,asiftospeak:buthecheckedthecomingsentence,whateveritwas。
  “Whatisthematter?”Iasked。
  “Nothingintheworld,”wasthereply;and,replacingthepaper,Isawhimdexterouslytearanarrowslipfromthemargin。Itdisappearedinhisglove;and,withonehastynodand“good—afternoon,”hevanished。
  “Well!”Iexclaimed,usinganexpressionofthedistrict,“thatcapstheglobe,however!”
  I,inmyturn,scrutinisedthepaper;butsawnothingonitsaveafewdingystainsofpaintwhereIhadtriedthetintinmypencil。Iponderedthemysteryaminuteortwo;butfindingitinsolvable,andbeingcertainitcouldnotbeofmuchmoment,Idismissed,andsoonforgotit。
  Chapter34
  WhenMr。St。Johnwent,itwasbeginningtosnow;thewhirlingstormcontinuedallnight。Thenextdayakeenwindbroughtfreshandblindingfalls;bytwilightthevalleywasdriftedupandalmostimpassable。Ihadclosedmyshutter,laidamattothedoortopreventthesnowfromblowinginunderit,trimmedmyfire,andaftersittingnearlyanhouronthehearthlisteningtothemuffledfuryofthetempest,Ilitacandle,tookdown“Marmion,”andbeginning—
  “DaysetonNorham’scastledsteep,
  AndTweed’sfairriverbroadanddeep,
  AndCheviot’smountainslone;
  Themassivetowers,thedonjonkeep,
  Theflankingwallsthatroundthemsweep,
  Inyellowlustreshone”—
  Isoonforgotstorminmusic。
  Iheardanoise:thewind,Ithought,shookthedoor。No;itwasSt。JohnRivers,who,liftingthelatch,cameinoutofthefrozenhurricane—thehowlingdarkness—andstoodbeforeme:thecloakthatcoveredhistallfigureallwhiteasaglacier。Iwasalmostinconsternation,solittlehadIexpectedanyguestfromtheblocked—upvalethatnight。
  “Anyillnews?”Idemanded。“Hasanythinghappened?”
  “No。Howveryeasilyalarmedyouare?”heanswered,removinghiscloakandhangingitupagainstthedoor,towardswhichheagaincoollypushedthematwhichhisentrancehadderanged。Hestampedthesnowfromhisboots。
  “Ishallsullythepurityofyourfloor,”saidhe,“butyoumustexcusemeforonce。”Thenheapproachedthefire。“Ihavehadhardworktogethere,Iassureyou,”heobserved,ashewarmedhishandsovertheflame。“Onedrifttookmeuptothewaist;happilythesnowisquitesoftyet。”
  “Butwhyareyoucome?”Icouldnotforbearsaying。
  “Ratheraninhospitablequestiontoputtoavisitor;butsinceyouaskit,Ianswersimplytohavealittletalkwithyou;Igottiredofmymutebooksandemptyrooms。Besides,sinceyesterdayIhaveexperiencedtheexcitementofapersontowhomatalehasbeenhalf—told,andwhoisimpatienttohearthesequel。”
  Hesatdown。Irecalledhissingularconductofyesterday,andreallyIbegantofearhiswitsweretouched。Ifhewereinsane,however,hiswasaverycoolandcollectedinsanity:Ihadneverseenthathandsome—featuredfaceofhislookmorelikechiselledmarblethanitdidjustnow,asheputasidehissnow—wethairfromhisforeheadandletthefirelightshinefreeonhispalebrowandcheekaspale,whereitgrievedmetodiscoverthehollowtraceofcareorsorrownowsoplainlygraved。Iwaited,expectinghewouldsaysomethingIcouldatleastcomprehend;buthishandwasnowathischin,hisfingeronhislip:hewasthinking。Itstruckmethathishandlookedwastedlikehisface。Aperhapsuncalled—forgushofpitycameovermyheart:Iwasmovedtosay—
  “IwishDianaorMarywouldcomeandlivewithyou:itistoobadthatyoushouldbequitealone;andyouarerecklesslyrashaboutyourownhealth。”
  “Notatall,”saidhe:“Icareformyselfwhennecessary。Iamwellnow。Whatdoyouseeamissinme?”
  Thiswassaidwithacareless,abstractedindifference,whichshowedthatmysolicitudewas,atleastinhisopinion,whollysuperfluous。Iwassilenced。
  Hestillslowlymovedhisfingeroverhisupperlip,andstillhiseyedweltdreamilyontheglowinggrate;thinkingiturgenttosaysomething,Iaskedhimpresentlyifhefeltanycolddraughtfromthedoor,whichwasbehindhim。
  “No,no!”herespondedshortlyandsomewhattestily。
  “Well,”Ireflected,“ifyouwon’ttalk,youmaybestill;I’llletyoualonenow,andreturntomybook。”
  SoIsnuffedthecandleandresumedtheperusalof“Marmion。”Hesoonstirred;myeyewasinstantlydrawntohismovements;heonlytookoutamoroccopocket—book,thenceproducedaletter,whichhereadinsilence,foldedit,putitback,relapsedintomeditation。Itwasvaintotrytoreadwithsuchaninscrutablefixturebeforeme;norcouldI,inimpatience,consenttobedumb;hemightrebuffmeifmyheliked,buttalkIwould。
  “HaveyouheardfromDianaandMarylately?”
  “NotsincetheletterIshowedyouaweekago。”
  “Therehasnotbeenanychangemadeaboutyourownarrangements?YouwillnotbesummonedtoleaveEnglandsoonerthanyouexpected?”
  “Ifearnot,indeed:suchchanceistoogoodtobefallme。”Baffledsofar,Ichangedmyground。Ibethoughtmyselftotalkabouttheschoolandmyscholars。
  “MaryGarrett’smotherisbetter,andMarycamebacktotheschoolthismorning,andIshallhavefournewgirlsnextweekfromtheFoundryClose—theywouldhavecometo—daybutforthesnow。”
  “Indeed!”
  “Mr。Oliverpaysfortwo。”
  “Doeshe?”
  “HemeanstogivethewholeschoolatreatatChristmas。”
  “Iknow。”
  “Wasityoursuggestion?”
  “No。”
  “Whose,then?”
  “Hisdaughter’s,Ithink。”
  “Itislikeher:sheissogood—natured。”
  “Yes。”
  Againcametheblankofapause:theclockstruckeightstrokes。Itarousedhim;heuncrossedhislegs,saterect,turnedtome。
  “Leaveyourbookamoment,andcomealittlenearerthefire,”hesaid。
  Wondering,andofmywonderfindingnoend,Icomplied。
  “Half—an—hourago,”hepursued,“Ispokeofmyimpatiencetohearthesequelofatale:onreflection,Ifindthematterwillbebettermanagedbymyassumingthenarrator’spart,andconvertingyouintoalistener。Beforecommencing,itisbutfairtowarnyouthatthestorywillsoundsomewhathackneyedinyourears;butstaledetailsoftenregainadegreeoffreshnesswhentheypassthroughnewlips。Fortherest,whethertriteornovel,itisshort。
  “Twentyyearsago,apoorcurate—nevermindhisnameatthismoment—fellinlovewitharichman’sdaughter;shefellinlovewithhim,andmarriedhim,againsttheadviceofallherfriends,whoconsequentlydisownedherimmediatelyafterthewedding。Beforetwoyearspassed,therashpairwerebothdead,andlaidquietlysidebysideunderoneslab。(Ihaveseentheirgrave;itformedpartofthepavementofahugechurchyardsurroundingthegrim,soot—blackoldcathedralofanovergrownmanufacturingtownin—shire。)Theyleftadaughter,which,atitsverybirth,Charityreceivedinherlap—coldasthatofthesnow—driftIalmoststuckfastinto—night。Charitycarriedthefriendlessthingtothehouseofitsrichmaternalrelations;itwasrearedbyanaunt—in—law,called(Icometonamesnow)Mrs。ReedofGateshead。Youstart—didyouhearanoise?Idaresayitisonlyaratscramblingalongtheraftersoftheadjoiningschoolroom:itwasabarnbeforeIhaditrepairedandaltered,andbarnsaregenerallyhauntedbyrats。—Toproceed。Mrs。Reedkepttheorphantenyears:whetheritwashappyornotwithher,Icannotsay,neverhavingbeentold;butattheendofthattimeshetransferredittoaplaceyouknow—beingnootherthanLowoodSchool,whereyousolongresidedyourself。Itseemshercareertherewasveryhonourable:fromapupil,shebecameateacher,likeyourself—reallyitstrikesmethereareparallelpointsinherhistoryandyours—sheleftittobeagoverness:there,again,yourfateswereanalogous;sheundertooktheeducationofthewardofacertainMr。Rochester。”
  “Mr。Rivers!”Iinterrupted。
  “Icanguessyourfeelings,”hesaid,“butrestrainthemforawhile:Ihavenearlyfinished;hearmetotheend。OfMr。Rochester’scharacterIknownothing,buttheonefactthatheprofessedtoofferhonourablemarriagetothisyounggirl,andthatattheveryaltarshediscoveredhehadawifeyetalive,thoughalunatic。Whathissubsequentconductandproposalswereisamatterofpureconjecture;butwhenaneventtranspiredwhichrenderedinquiryafterthegovernessnecessary,itwasdiscoveredshewasgone—noonecouldtellwhen,where,orhow。ShehadleftThornfieldHallinthenight;everyresearchafterhercoursehadbeenvain:thecountryhadbeenscouredfarandwide;novestigeofinformationcouldbegatheredrespectingher。Yetthatsheshouldbefoundisbecomeamatterofseriousurgency:advertisementshavebeenputinallthepapers;ImyselfhavereceivedaletterfromoneMr。Briggs,asolicitor,communicatingthedetailsIhavejustimparted。Isitnotanoddtale?”
  “Justtellmethis,”saidI,“andsinceyouknowsomuch,yousurelycantellitme—whatofMr。Rochester?Howandwhereishe?Whatishedoing?Ishewell?”
  “IamignorantofallconcerningMr。Rochester:theletternevermentionshimbuttonarratethefraudulentandillegalattemptIhaveadvertedto。Youshouldratheraskthenameofthegoverness—thenatureoftheeventwhichrequiresherappearance。”
  “DidnoonegotoThornfieldHall,then?DidnooneseeMr。Rochester?”
  “Isupposenot。”
  “Buttheywrotetohim?”
  “Ofcourse。”
  “Andwhatdidhesay?Whohashisletters?”
  “Mr。BriggsintimatesthattheanswertohisapplicationwasnotfromMr。Rochester,butfromalady:itissigned‘AliceFairfax。’”
  Ifeltcoldanddismayed:myworstfearsthenwereprobablytrue:hehadinallprobabilityleftEnglandandrushedinrecklessdesperationtosomeformerhauntontheContinent。Andwhatopiateforhisseveresufferings—whatobjectforhisstrongpassions—hadhesoughtthere?Idarednotanswerthequestion。Oh,mypoormaster—oncealmostmyhusband—whomIhadoftencalled“mydearEdward!”
  “Hemusthavebeenabadman,”observedMr。Rivers。
  “Youdon’tknowhim—don’tpronounceanopinionuponhim,”Isaid,withwarmth。
  “Verywell,”heansweredquietly:“andindeedmyheadisotherwiseoccupiedthanwithhim:Ihavemytaletofinish。Sinceyouwon’taskthegoverness’sname,Imusttellitofmyownaccord。Stay!Ihaveithere—itisalwaysmoresatisfactorytoseeimportantpointswrittendown,fairlycommittedtoblackandwhite。”
  Andthepocket—bookwasagaindeliberatelyproduced,opened,soughtthrough;fromoneofitscompartmentswasextractedashabbyslipofpaper,hastilytornoff:Irecognisedinitstextureanditsstainsofultra—marine,andlake,andvermillion,theravishedmarginoftheportrait—cover。Hegotup,helditclosetomyeyes:andIread,tracedinIndianink,inmyownhandwriting,thewords“JANEEYRE”—theworkdoubtlessofsomemomentofabstraction。
  “BriggswrotetomeofaJaneEyre:”hesaid,“theadvertisementsdemandedaJaneEyre:IknewaJaneElliott。—IconfessIhadmysuspicions,butitwasonlyyesterdayafternoontheywereatonceresolvedintocertainty。Youownthenameandrenouncethealias?”
  “Yes—yes;butwhereisMr。Briggs?HeperhapsknowsmoreofMr。Rochesterthanyoudo。”
  “BriggsisinLondon。IshoulddoubthisknowinganythingatallaboutMr。Rochester;itisnotinMr。Rochesterheisinterested。Meantime,youforgetessentialpointsinpursuingtrifles:youdonotinquirewhyMr。Briggssoughtafteryou—whathewantedwithyou。”
  “Well,whatdidhewant?”
  “Merelytotellyouthatyouruncle,Mr。EyreofMadeira,isdead;thathehasleftyouallhisproperty,andthatyouarenowrich—merelythat—nothingmore。”
  “I!—rich?”
  “Yes,you,rich—quiteanheiress。”
  Silencesucceeded。
  “Youmustproveyouridentityofcourse,”resumedSt。Johnpresently:“astepwhichwilloffernodifficulties;youcanthenenteronimmediatepossession。YourfortuneisvestedintheEnglishfunds;Briggshasthewillandthenecessarydocuments。”
  Herewasanewcardturnedup!Itisafinething,reader,tobeliftedinamomentfromindigencetowealth—averyfinething;butnotamatteronecancomprehend,orconsequentlyenjoy,allatonce。Andthenthereareotherchancesinlifefarmorethrillingandrapture—giving:thisissolid,anaffairoftheactualworld,nothingidealaboutit:allitsassociationsaresolidandsober,anditsmanifestationsarethesame。Onedoesnotjump,andspring,andshouthurrah!athearingonehasgotafortune;onebeginstoconsiderresponsibilities,andtoponderbusiness;onabaseofsteadysatisfactionrisecertaingravecares,andwecontainourselves,andbloodoverourblisswithasolemnbrow。
  Besides,thewordsLegacy,Bequest,gosidebysidewiththewords,Death,Funeral。MyuncleIhadheardwasdead—myonlyrelative;eversincebeingmadeawareofhisexistence,Ihadcherishedthehopeofonedayseeinghim:now,Inevershould。Andthenthismoneycameonlytome:nottomeandarejoicingfamily,buttomyisolatedself。Itwasagrandboondoubtless;andindependencewouldbeglorious—yes,Ifeltthat—thatthoughtswelledmyheart。
  “Youunbendyourforeheadatlast,”saidMr。Rivers。“IthoughtMedusahadlookedatyou,andthatyouwereturningtostone。Perhapsnowyouwillaskhowmuchyouareworth?”
  “HowmuchamIworth?”
  “Oh,atrifle!Nothingofcoursetospeakof—twentythousandpounds,Ithinktheysay—butwhatisthat?”
  “Twentythousandpounds?”
  Herewasanewstunner—Ihadbeencalculatingonfourorfivethousand。Thisnewsactuallytookmybreathforamoment:Mr。St。John,whomIhadneverheardlaughbefore,laughednow。
  “Well,”saidhe,“ifyouhadcommittedamurder,andIhadtoldyouyourcrimewasdiscovered,youcouldscarcelylookmoreaghast。”
  “Itisalargesum—don’tyouthinkthereisamistake?”
  “Nomistakeatall。”
  “Perhapsyouhavereadthefigureswrong—itmaybetwothousand!”
  “Itiswritteninletters,notfigures,—twentythousand。”
  Iagainfeltratherlikeanindividualofbutaveragegastronomicalpowerssittingdowntofeastaloneatatablespreadwithprovisionsforahundred。Mr。Riversrosenowandputhiscloakon。
  “Ifitwerenotsuchaverywildnight,”hesaid,“IwouldsendHannahdowntokeepyoucompany:youlooktoodesperatelymiserabletobeleftalone。ButHannah,poorwoman!couldnotstridethedriftssowellasI:herlegsarenotquitesolong:soImuste’enleaveyoutoyoursorrows。Good—night。”
  Hewasliftingthelatch:asuddenthoughtoccurredtome。“Stoponeminute!”Icried。