“Well,Iobservedtohimthatasyouwereunusedtocompany,Ididnotthinkyouwouldlikeappearingbeforesogayaparty—allstrangers;andhereplied,inhisquickway—‘Nonsense!Ifsheobjects,tellheritismyparticularwish;andifsheresists,sayIshallcomeandfetchherincaseofcontumacy。’”
“Iwillnotgivehimthattrouble,”Ianswered。“Iwillgo,ifnobettermaybe;butIdon’tlikeit。Shallyoubethere,Mrs。Fairfax?”
“No;Ipleadedoff,andheadmittedmyplea。I’lltellyouhowtomanagesoastoavoidtheembarrassmentofmakingaformalentrance,whichisthemostdisagreeablepartofthebusiness。Youmustgointothedrawing—roomwhileitisempty,beforetheladiesleavethedinner—table;chooseyourseatinanyquietnookyoulike;youneednotstaylongafterthegentlemencomein,unlessyouplease:justletMr。Rochesterseeyouarethereandthenslipaway—nobodywillnoticeyou。”
“Willthesepeopleremainlong,doyouthink?”
“Perhapstwoorthreeweeks,certainlynotmore。AftertheEasterrecess,SirGeorgeLynn,whowaslatelyelectedmemberforMillcote,willhavetogouptotownandtakehisseat;IdaresayMr。Rochesterwillaccompanyhim:itsurprisesmethathehasalreadymadesoprotractedastayatThornfield。”
ItwaswithsometrepidationthatIperceivedthehourapproachwhenIwastorepairwithmychargetothedrawing—room。Adèlehadbeeninastateofecstasyallday,afterhearingshewastobepresentedtotheladiesintheevening;anditwasnottillSophiecommencedtheoperationofdressingherthatshesobereddown。Thentheimportanceoftheprocessquicklysteadiedher,andbythetimeshehadhercurlsarrangedinwell—smoothed,droopingclusters,herpinksatinfrockputon,herlongsashtied,andherlacemittensadjusted,shelookedasgraveasanyjudge。Noneedtowarnhernottodisarrangeherattire:whenshewasdressed,shesatdemurelydowninherlittlechair,takingcarepreviouslytoliftupthesatinskirtforfearsheshouldcreaseit,andassuredmeshewouldnotstirthencetillIwasready。ThisIquicklywas:mybestdress(thesilver—greyone,purchasedforMissTemple’swedding,andneverwornsince)wassoonputon;myhairwassoonsmoothed;mysoleornament,thepearlbrooch,soonassumed。Wedescended。
Fortunatelytherewasanotherentrancetothedrawing—roomthanthatthroughthesaloonwheretheywereallseatedatdinner。Wefoundtheapartmentvacant;alargefireburningsilentlyonthemarblehearth,andwaxcandlesshininginbrightsolitude,amidtheexquisiteflowerswithwhichthetableswereadorned。Thecrimsoncurtainhungbeforethearch:slightaswastheseparationthisdraperyformedfromthepartyintheadjoiningsaloon,theyspokeinsolowakeythatnothingoftheirconversationcouldbedistinguishedbeyondasoothingmurmur。
Adèle,whoappearedtobestillundertheinfluenceofamostsolemnisingimpression,satdown,withoutaword,onthefootstoolIpointedouttoher。Iretiredtoawindow—seat,andtakingabookfromatablenear,endeavouredtoread。Adèlebroughtherstooltomyfeet;erelongshetouchedmyknee。
“Whatisit,Adèle?”
“Est—cequejenepuispasprendrieuneseuledecesfleursmagnifiques,mademoiselle?Seulementpourcompletermatoilette。”
“Youthinktoomuchofyour‘toilette,’Adèle:butyoumayhaveaflower。”AndItookarosefromavaseandfasteneditinhersash。Shesighedasighofineffablesatisfaction,asifhercupofhappinesswerenowfull。IturnedmyfaceawaytoconcealasmileIcouldnotsuppress:therewassomethingludicrousaswellaspainfulinthelittleParisienne’searnestandinnatedevotiontomattersofdress。
Asoftsoundofrisingnowbecameaudible;thecurtainwassweptbackfromthearch;throughitappearedthedining—room,withitslitlustrepouringdownlightonthesilverandglassofamagnificentdessert—servicecoveringalongtable;abandofladiesstoodintheopening;theyentered,andthecurtainfellbehindthem。
Therewerebuteight;yet,somehow,astheyflockedin,theygavetheimpressionofamuchlargernumber。Someofthemwereverytall;manyweredressedinwhite;andallhadasweepingamplitudeofarraythatseemedtomagnifytheirpersonsasamistmagnifiesthemoon。Iroseandcurtseyedtothem:oneortwobenttheirheadsinreturn,theothersonlystaredatme。
Theydispersedabouttheroom,remindingme,bythelightnessandbuoyancyoftheirmovements,ofaflockofwhiteplumybirds。Someofthemthrewthemselvesinhalf—recliningpositionsonthesofasandottomans:somebentoverthetablesandexaminedtheflowersandbooks:therestgatheredinagrouproundthefire:alltalkedinalowbutcleartonewhichseemedhabitualtothem。Iknewtheirnamesafterwards,andmayaswellmentionthemnow。
First,therewasMrs。Eshtonandtwoofherdaughters。Shehadevidentlybeenahandsomewoman,andwaswellpreservedstill。Ofherdaughters,theeldest,Amy,wasratherlittle:naive,andchild—likeinfaceandmanner,andpiquantinform;herwhitemuslindressandbluesashbecameherwell。Thesecond,Louisa,wastallerandmoreelegantinfigure;withaveryprettyface,ofthatordertheFrenchtermminoischiffoné:bothsisterswerefairaslilies。
LadyLynnwasalargeandstoutpersonageofaboutforty,veryerect,veryhaughty—looking,richlydressedinasatinrobeofchangefulsheen:herdarkhairshoneglossilyundertheshadeofanazureplume,andwithinthecircletofabandofgems。
Mrs。ColonelDentwaslessshowy;but,Ithought,morelady—like。Shehadaslightfigure,apale,gentleface,andfairhair。Herblacksatindress,herscarfofrichforeignlace,andherpearlornaments,pleasedmebetterthantherainbowradianceofthetitleddame。
Butthethreemostdistinguished—partly,perhaps,becausethetallestfiguresoftheband—weretheDowagerLadyIngramandherdaughters,BlancheandMary。Theywereallthreeoftheloftieststatureofwomen。TheDowagermightbebetweenfortyandfifty:hershapewasstillfine;herhair(bycandle—lightatleast)stillblack;herteeth,too,werestillapparentlyperfect。Mostpeoplewouldhavetermedherasplendidwomanofherage:andsoshewas,nodoubt,physicallyspeaking;butthentherewasanexpressionofalmostinsupportablehaughtinessinherbearingandcountenance。ShehadRomanfeaturesandadoublechin,disappearingintoathroatlikeapillar:thesefeaturesappearedtomenotonlyinflatedanddarkened,butevenfurrowedwithpride;andthechinwassustainedbythesameprinciple,inapositionofalmostpreternaturalerectness。Shehad,likewise,afierceandahardeye:itremindedmeofMrs。Reed’s;shemouthedherwordsinspeaking;hervoicewasdeep,itsinflectionsverypompous,verydogmatical,—veryintolerable,inshort。Acrimsonvelvetrobe,andashawlturbanofsomegold—wroughtIndianfabric,investedher(Isupposeshethought)withatrulyimperialdignity。
BlancheandMarywereofequalstature,—straightandtallaspoplars。Marywastooslimforherheight,butBlanchewasmouldedlikeaDian。Iregardedher,ofcourse,withspecialinterest。First,IwishedtoseewhetherherappearanceaccordedwithMrs。Fairfax’sdescription;secondly,whetheritatallresembledthefancyminiatureIhadpaintedofher;andthirdly—itwillout!—whetheritweresuchasIshouldfancylikelytosuitMr。Rochester’staste。
Asfaraspersonwent,sheansweredpointforpoint,bothtomypictureandMrs。Fairfax’sdescription。Thenoblebust,theslopingshoulders,thegracefulneck,thedarkeyesandblackringletswereallthere;—butherface?Herfacewaslikehermother’s;ayouthfulunfurrowedlikeness:thesamelowbrow,thesamehighfeatures,thesamepride。Itwasnot,however,sosaturnineapride!shelaughedcontinually;herlaughwassatirical,andsowasthehabitualexpressionofherarchedandhaughtylip。
Geniusissaidtobeself—conscious。IcannottellwhetherMissIngramwasagenius,butshewasself—conscious—remarkablyself—consciousindeed。SheenteredintoadiscourseonbotanywiththegentleMrs。Dent。ItseemedMrs。Denthadnotstudiedthatscience:though,asshesaid,shelikedflowers,“especiallywildones;”MissIngramhad,andsheranoveritsvocabularywithanair。Ipresentlyperceivedshewas(whatisvernacularlytermed)trailingMrs。Dent;thatis,playingonherignorance—hertrailmightbeclever,butitwasdecidedlynotgood—natured。Sheplayed:herexecutionwasbrilliant;shesang:hervoicewasfine;shetalkedFrenchaparttohermamma;andshetalkeditwell,withfluencyandwithagoodaccent。
MaryhadamilderandmoreopencountenancethanBlanche;softerfeaturestoo,andaskinsomeshadesfairer(MissIngramwasdarkasaSpaniard)—butMarywasdeficientinlife:herfacelackedexpression,hereyelustre;shehadnothingtosay,andhavingoncetakenherseat,remainedfixedlikeastatueinitsniche。Thesisterswerebothattiredinspotlesswhite。
AnddidInowthinkMissIngramsuchachoiceasMr。Rochesterwouldbelikelytomake?Icouldnottell—Ididnotknowhistasteinfemalebeauty。Ifhelikedthemajestic,shewastheverytypeofmajesty:thenshewasaccomplished,sprightly。Mostgentlemenwouldadmireher,Ithought;andthathedidadmireher,Ialreadyseemedtohaveobtainedproof:toremovethelastshadeofdoubt,itremainedbuttoseethemtogether。
Youarenottosuppose,reader,thatAdèlehasallthistimebeensittingmotionlessonthestoolatmyfeet:no;whentheladiesentered,sherose,advancedtomeetthem,madeastatelyreverence,andsaidwithgravity—
“Bonjour,mesdames。”
AndMissIngramhadlookeddownatherwithamockingair,andexclaimed,“Oh,whatalittlepuppet!”
LadyLynnhadremarked,“ItisMr。Rochester’sward,Isuppose—thelittleFrenchgirlhewasspeakingof。”
Mrs。Denthadkindlytakenherhand,andgivenherakiss。
AmyandLouisaEshtonhadcriedoutsimultaneously—“Whataloveofachild!”
Andthentheyhadcalledhertoasofa,whereshenowsat,ensconcedbetweenthem,chatteringalternatelyinFrenchandbrokenEnglish;absorbingnotonlytheyoungladies’attention,butthatofMrs。EshtonandLadyLynn,andgettingspoilttoherheart’scontent。
Atlastcoffeeisbroughtin,andthegentlemenaresummoned。Isitintheshade—ifanyshadetherebeinthisbrilliantly—litapartment;thewindow—curtainhalfhidesme。Againthearchyawns;theycome。Thecollectiveappearanceofthegentlemen,likethatoftheladies,isveryimposing:theyareallcostumedinblack;mostofthemaretall,someyoung。HenryandFrederickLynnareverydashingsparksindeed;andColonelDentisafinesoldierlyman。Mr。Eshton,themagistrateofthedistrict,isgentleman—like:hishairisquitewhite,hiseyebrowsandwhiskersstilldark,whichgiveshimsomethingoftheappearanceofa“pèrenobledethéatre。”LordIngram,likehissisters,isverytall;likethem,also,heishandsome;buthesharesMary’sapatheticandlistlesslook:heseemstohavemorelengthoflimbthanvivacityofbloodorvigourofbrain。
AndwhereisMr。Rochester?
Hecomesinlast:Iamnotlookingatthearch,yetIseehimenter。Itrytoconcentratemyattentiononthosenetting—needles,onthemeshesofthepurseIamforming—IwishtothinkonlyoftheworkIhaveinmyhands,toseeonlythesilverbeadsandsilkthreadsthatlieinmylap;whereas,Idistinctlybeholdhisfigure,andIinevitablyrecallthemomentwhenIlastsawit;justafterIhadrenderedhim,whathedeemed,anessentialservice,andhe,holdingmyhand,andlookingdownonmyface,surveyedmewitheyesthatrevealedaheartfullandeagertooverflow;inwhoseemotionsIhadapart。HownearhadIapproachedhimatthatmoment!Whathadoccurredsince,calculatedtochangehisandmyrelativepositions?Yetnow,howdistant,howfarestrangedwewere!Sofarestranged,thatIdidnotexpecthimtocomeandspeaktome。Ididnotwonder,when,withoutlookingatme,hetookaseatattheothersideoftheroom,andbeganconversingwithsomeoftheladies。
NosoonerdidIseethathisattentionwasrivetedonthem,andthatImightgazewithoutbeingobserved,thanmyeyesweredrawninvoluntarilytohisface;Icouldnotkeeptheirlidsundercontrol:theywouldrise,andtheiridswouldfixonhim。Ilooked,andhadanacutepleasureinlooking,—apreciousyetpoignantpleasure;puregold,withasteelypointofagony:apleasurelikewhatthethirst—perishingmanmightfeelwhoknowsthewelltowhichhehascreptispoisoned,yetstoopsanddrinksdivinedraughtsnevertheless。
Mosttrueisitthat“beautyisintheeyeofthegazer。”Mymaster’scolourless,oliveface,square,massivebrow,broadandjettyeyebrows,deepeyes,strongfeatures,firm,grimmouth,—allenergy,decision,will,—werenotbeautiful,accordingtorule;buttheyweremorethanbeautifultome;theywerefullofaninterest,aninfluencethatquitemasteredme,—thattookmyfeelingsfrommyownpowerandfetteredtheminhis。Ihadnotintendedtolovehim;thereaderknowsIhadwroughthardtoextirpatefrommysoulthegermsoflovetheredetected;andnow,atthefirstrenewedviewofhim,theyspontaneouslyarrived,greenandstrong!Hemademelovehimwithoutlookingatme。
Icomparedhimwithhisguests。WhatwasthegallantgraceoftheLynns,thelanguideleganceofLordIngram,—eventhemilitarydistinctionofColonelDent,contrastedwithhislookofnativepithandgenuinepower?Ihadnosympathyintheirappearance,theirexpression:yetIcouldimaginethatmostobserverswouldcallthemattractive,handsome,imposing;whiletheywouldpronounceMr。Rochesteratonceharsh—featuredandmelancholy—looking。Isawthemsmile,laugh—itwasnothing;thelightofthecandleshadasmuchsoulinitastheirsmile;thetinkleofthebellasmuchsignificanceastheirlaugh。IsawMr。Rochestersmile:—hissternfeaturessoftened;hiseyegrewbothbrilliantandgentle,itsraybothsearchingandsweet。Hewastalking,atthemoment,toLouisaandAmyEshton。Iwonderedtoseethemreceivewithcalmthatlookwhichseemedtomesopenetrating:Iexpectedtheireyestofall,theircolourtoriseunderit;yetIwasgladwhenIfoundtheywereinnosensemoved。“Heisnottothemwhatheistome,”Ithought:“heisnotoftheirkind。Ibelieveheisofmine;—Iamsureheis—Ifeelakintohim—Iunderstandthelanguageofhiscountenanceandmovements:thoughrankandwealthseveruswidely,Ihavesomethinginmybrainandheart,inmybloodandnerves,thatassimilatesmementallytohim。DidIsay,afewdayssince,thatIhadnothingtodowithhimbuttoreceivemysalaryathishands?DidIforbidmyselftothinkofhiminanyotherlightthanasapaymaster?Blasphemyagainstnature!Everygood,true,vigorousfeelingIhavegathersimpulsivelyroundhim。IknowImustconcealmysentiments:Imustsmotherhope;Imustrememberthathecannotcaremuchforme。ForwhenIsaythatIamofhiskind,IdonotmeanthatIhavehisforcetoinfluence,andhisspelltoattract;ImeanonlythatIhavecertaintastesandfeelingsincommonwithhim。Imust,then,repeatcontinuallythatweareforeversundered:—andyet,whileIbreatheandthink,Imustlovehim。”
Coffeeishanded。Theladies,sincethegentlemenentered,havebecomelivelyaslarks;conversationwaxesbriskandmerry。ColonelDentandMr。Eshtonargueonpolitics;theirwiveslisten。Thetwoprouddowagers,LadyLynnandLadyIngram,confabulatetogether。SirGeorge—whom,by—the—bye,Ihaveforgottentodescribe,—averybig,andveryfresh—lookingcountrygentleman,standsbeforetheirsofa,coffee—cupinhand,andoccasionallyputsinaword。Mr。FrederickLynnhastakenaseatbesideMaryIngram,andisshowinghertheengravingsofasplendidvolume:shelooks,smilesnowandthen,butapparentlysayslittle。ThetallandphlegmaticLordIngramleanswithfoldedarmsonthechair—backofthelittleandlivelyAmyEshton;sheglancesupathim,andchatterslikeawren:shelikeshimbetterthanshedoesMr。Rochester。HenryLynnhastakenpossessionofanottomanatthefeetofLouisa:Adèlesharesitwithhim:heistryingtotalkFrenchwithher,andLouisalaughsathisblunders。WithwhomwillBlancheIngrampair?Sheisstandingaloneatthetable,bendinggracefullyoveranalbum。Sheseemswaitingtobesought;butshewillnotwaittoolong:sheherselfselectsamate。
Mr。Rochester,havingquittedtheEshtons,standsonthehearthassolitaryasshestandsbythetable:sheconfrontshim,takingherstationontheoppositesideofthemantelpiece。
“Mr。Rochester,Ithoughtyouwerenotfondofchildren?”
“NoramI。”
“Then,whatinducedyoutotakechargeofsuchalittledollasthat?”(pointingtoAdèle)。“Wheredidyoupickherup?”
“Ididnotpickherup;shewasleftonmyhands。”
“Youshouldhavesenthertoschool。”
“Icouldnotaffordit:schoolsaresodear。”
“Why,Isupposeyouhaveagovernessforher:Isawapersonwithherjustnow—isshegone?Oh,no!theresheisstill,behindthewindow—curtain。Youpayher,ofcourse;Ishouldthinkitquiteasexpensive,—moreso;foryouhavethembothtokeepinaddition。”
Ifeared—orshouldIsay,hoped?—theallusiontomewouldmakeMr。Rochesterglancemyway;andIinvoluntarilyshrankfartherintotheshade:butheneverturnedhiseyes。
“Ihavenotconsideredthesubject,”saidheindifferently,lookingstraightbeforehim。
“No,youmenneverdoconsidereconomyandcommonsense。Youshouldhearmamaonthechapterofgovernesses:MaryandIhavehad,Ishouldthink,adozenatleastinourday;halfofthemdetestableandtherestridiculous,andallincubi—weretheynot,mama?”
“Didyouspeak,myown?”
Theyoungladythusclaimedasthedowager’sspecialproperty,reiteratedherquestionwithanexplanation。
“Mydearest,don’tmentiongovernesses;thewordmakesmenervous。Ihavesufferedamartyrdomfromtheirincompetencyandcaprice。IthankHeavenIhavenowdonewiththem!”
Mrs。Dentherebentovertothepiousladyandwhisperedsomethinginherear;Isuppose,fromtheanswerelicited,itwasareminderthatoneoftheanathematisedracewaspresent。
“Tantpis!”saidherLadyship,“Ihopeitmaydohergood!”Then,inalowertone,butstillloudenoughformetohear,“Inoticedher;Iamajudgeofphysiognomy,andinhersIseeallthefaultsofherclass。”
“Whatarethey,madam?”inquiredMr。Rochesteraloud。
“Iwilltellyouinyourprivateear,”repliedshe,waggingherturbanthreetimeswithportentoussignificancy。
“Butmycuriositywillbepastitsappetite;itcravesfoodnow。”
“AskBlanche;sheisneareryouthanI。”
“Oh,don’treferhimtome,mama!Ihavejustonewordtosayofthewholetribe;theyareanuisance。NotthatIeversufferedmuchfromthem;Itookcaretoturnthetables。WhattricksTheodoreandIusedtoplayonourMissWilsons,andMrs。Greys,andMadameJouberts!Marywasalwaystoosleepytojoininaplotwithspirit。ThebestfunwaswithMadameJoubert:MissWilsonwasapoorsicklything,lachrymoseandlow—spirited,notworththetroubleofvanquishing,inshort;andMrs。Greywascoarseandinsensible;noblowtookeffectonher。ButpoorMadameJoubert!Iseeheryetinherragingpassions,whenwehaddrivenhertoextremities—spiltourtea,crumbledourbreadandbutter,tossedourbooksuptotheceiling,andplayedacharivariwiththeruleranddesk,thefenderandfire—irons。Theodore,doyourememberthosemerrydays?”
“Yaas,tobesureIdo,”drawledLordIngram;“andthepooroldstickusedtocryout‘Ohyouvillainschilds!’—andthenwesermonisedheronthepresumptionofattemptingtoteachsuchcleverbladesaswewere,whenshewasherselfsoignorant。”
“Wedid;and,Tedo,youknow,Ihelpedyouinprosecuting(orpersecuting)yourtutor,whey—facedMr。Vining—theparsoninthepip,asweusedtocallhim。HeandMissWilsontookthelibertyoffallinginlovewitheachother—atleastTedoandIthoughtso;wesurprisedsundrytenderglancesandsighswhichweinterpretedastokensof‘labellepassion,’andIpromiseyouthepublicsoonhadthebenefitofourdiscovery;weemployeditasasortoflevertohoistourdead—weightsfromthehouse。Dearmama,there,assoonasshegotaninklingofthebusiness,foundoutthatitwasofanimmoraltendency。Didyounot,mylady—mother?”
“Certainly,mybest。AndIwasquiteright:dependonthat:thereareathousandreasonswhyliaisonsbetweengovernessesandtutorsshouldneverbetoleratedamomentinanywell—regulatedhouse;firstly—”
“Oh,gracious,mama!Spareustheenumeration!Aureste,weallknowthem:dangerofbadexampletoinnocenceofchildhood;distractionsandconsequentneglectofdutyonthepartoftheattached—mutualallianceandreliance;confidencethenceresulting—insolenceaccompanying—mutinyandgeneralblow—up。AmIright,BaronessIngram,ofIngramPark?”
“Mylily—flower,youarerightnow,asalways。”
“Thennomoreneedbesaid:changethesubject。”
AmyEshton,nothearingornotheedingthisdictum,joinedinwithhersoft,infantinetone:“LouisaandIusedtoquizourgovernesstoo;butshewassuchagoodcreature,shewouldbearanything:nothingputherout。Shewasnevercrosswithus;wasshe,Louisa?”
“No,never:wemightdowhatwepleased;ransackherdeskandherworkbox,andturnherdrawersinsideout;andshewassogood—natured,shewouldgiveasanythingweaskedfor。”
“Isuppose,now,”saidMissIngram,curlingherlipsarcastically,“weshallhaveanabstractofthememoirsofallthegovernessesextant:inordertoavertsuchavisitation,Iagainmovetheintroductionofanewtopic。Mr。Rochester,doyousecondmymotion?”
“Madam,Isupportyouonthispoint,asoneveryother。”
“Thenonmebetheonusofbringingitforward。SigniorEduardo,areyouinvoiceto—night?”
“DonnaBianca,ifyoucommandit,Iwillbe。”
“Then,signior,Ilayonyoumysovereignbehesttofurbishupyourlungsandothervocalorgans,astheywillbewantedonmyroyalservice。”
“WhowouldnotbetheRizzioofsodivineaMary?”
“AfigforRizzio!”criedshe,tossingherheadwithallitscurls,asshemovedtothepiano。“ItismyopinionthefiddlerDavidmusthavebeenaninsipidsortoffellow;IlikeblackBothwellbetter:tomymindamanisnothingwithoutaspiceofthedevilinhim;andhistorymaysaywhatitwillofJamesHepburn,butIhaveanotion,hewasjustthesortofwild,fierce,banditherowhomIcouldhaveconsentedtogiftwithmyhand。”
“Gentlemen,youhear!NowwhichofyoumostresemblesBothwell?”criedMr。Rochester。
“Ishouldsaythepreferencelieswithyou,”respondedColonelDent。
“Onmyhonour,Iammuchobligedtoyou,”wasthereply。
MissIngram,whohadnowseatedherselfwithproudgraceatthepiano,spreadingouthersnowyrobesinqueenlyamplitude,commencedabrilliantprelude;talkingmeantime。Sheappearedtobeonherhighhorseto—night;bothherwordsandherairseemedintendedtoexcitenotonlytheadmiration,buttheamazementofherauditors:shewasevidentlybentonstrikingthemassomethingverydashinganddaringindeed。
“Oh,Iamsosickoftheyoungmenofthepresentday!”exclaimedshe,rattlingawayattheinstrument。“Poor,punythings,notfittostirastepbeyondpapa’sparkgates:nortogoevensofarwithoutmama’spermissionandguardianship!Creaturessoabsorbedincareabouttheirprettyfaces,andtheirwhitehands,andtheirsmallfeet;asifamanhadanythingtodowithbeauty!Asiflovelinesswerenotthespecialprerogativeofwoman—herlegitimateappanageandheritage!Igrantanuglywomanisablotonthefairfaceofcreation;butastothegentlemen,letthembesolicitoustopossessonlystrengthandvalour:lettheirmottobe:—Hunt,shoot,andfight:therestisnotworthafillip。Suchshouldbemydevice,wereIaman。”
“WheneverImarry,”shecontinuedafterapausewhichnoneinterrupted,“Iamresolvedmyhusbandshallnotbearival,butafoiltome。Iwillsuffernocompetitornearthethrone;Ishallexactanundividedhomage:hisdevotionsshallnotbesharedbetweenmeandtheshapeheseesinhismirror。Mr。Rochester,nowsing,andIwillplayforyou。”
“Iamallobedience,”wastheresponse。
“HerethenisaCorsair—song。KnowthatIdoatonCorsairs;andforthatreason,singitconspirito。”
“CommandsfromMissIngram’slipswouldputspiritintoamugofmilkandwater。”
“Takecare,then:ifyoudon’tpleaseme,Iwillshameyoubyshowinghowsuchthingsshouldbedone。”
“Thatisofferingapremiumonincapacity:Ishallnowendeavourtofail。”
“Gardez—vousenbien!Ifyouerrwilfully,Ishalldeviseaproportionatepunishment。”
“MissIngramoughttobeclement,forshehasitinherpowertoinflictachastisementbeyondmortalendurance。”
“Ha!explain!”commandedthelady。
“Pardonme,madam:noneedofexplanation;yourownfinesensemustinformyouthatoneofyourfrownswouldbeasufficientsubstituteforcapitalpunishment。”
“Sing!”saidshe,andagaintouchingthepiano,shecommencedanaccompanimentinspiritedstyle。
“Nowismytimetoslipaway,”thoughtI:butthetonesthatthenseveredtheairarrestedme。Mrs。FairfaxhadsaidMr。Rochesterpossessedafinevoice:hedid—amellow,powerfulbass,intowhichhethrewhisownfeeling,hisownforce;findingawaythroughtheeartotheheart,andtherewakingsensationstrangely。Iwaitedtillthelastdeepandfullvibrationhadexpired—tillthetideoftalk,checkedaninstant,hadresumeditsflow;Ithenquittedmyshelteredcornerandmademyexitbytheside—door,whichwasfortunatelynear。Thenceanarrowpassageledintothehall:incrossingit,Iperceivedmysandalwasloose;Istoppedtotieit,kneelingdownforthatpurposeonthematatthefootofthestaircase。Iheardthedining—roomdoorunclose;agentlemancameout;risinghastily,Istoodfacetofacewithhim:itwasMr。Rochester。
“Howdoyoudo?”heasked。
“Iamverywell,sir。”
“Whydidyounotcomeandspeaktomeintheroom?”
IthoughtImighthaveretortedthequestiononhimwhoputit:butIwouldnottakethatfreedom。Ianswered—
“Ididnotwishtodisturbyou,asyouseemedengaged,sir。”
“Whathaveyoubeendoingduringmyabsence?”
“Nothingparticular;teachingAdèleasusual。”
“Andgettingagooddealpalerthanyouwere—asIsawatfirstsight。Whatisthematter?”
“Nothingatall,sir。”
“Didyoutakeanycoldthatnightyouhalfdrownedme?”
“Notsheleast。”
“Returntothedrawing—room:youaredesertingtooearly。”
“Iamtired,sir。”
Helookedatmeforaminute。
“Andalittledepressed,”hesaid。“Whatabout?Tellme。”
“Nothing—nothing,sir。Iamnotdepressed。”
“ButIaffirmthatyouare:somuchdepressedthatafewmorewordswouldbringtearstoyoureyes—indeed,theyaretherenow,shiningandswimming;andabeadhasslippedfromthelashandfallenontotheflag。IfIhadtime,andwasnotinmortaldreadofsomepratingprigofaservantpassing,Iwouldknowwhatallthismeans。Well,to—nightIexcuseyou;butunderstandthatsolongasmyvisitorsstay,Iexpectyoutoappearinthedrawing—roomeveryevening;itismywish;don’tneglectit。Nowgo,andsendSophieforAdèle。Good—night,my—”Hestopped,bithislip,andabruptlyleftme。
Chapter18
MerrydaysweretheseatThornfieldHall;andbusydaystoo:howdifferentfromthefirstthreemonthsofstillness,monotony,andsolitudeIhadpassedbeneathitsroof!Allsadfeelingsseemednowdrivenfromthehouse,allgloomyassociationsforgotten:therewaslifeeverywhere,movementalldaylong。Youcouldnotnowtraversethegallery,oncesohushed,norenterthefrontchambers,oncesotenantless,withoutencounteringasmartlady’s—maidoradandyvalet。
Thekitchen,thebutler’spantry,theservants’hall,theentrancehall,wereequallyalive;andthesaloonswereonlyleftvoidandstillwhentheblueskyandhalcyonsunshineofthegenialspringweathercalledtheiroccupantsoutintothegrounds。Evenwhenthatweatherwasbroken,andcontinuousrainsetinforsomedays,nodampseemedcastoverenjoyment:indooramusementsonlybecamemorelivelyandvaried,inconsequenceofthestopputtooutdoorgaiety。
Iwonderedwhattheyweregoingtodothefirsteveningachangeofentertainmentwasproposed:theyspokeof“playingcharades,”butinmyignoranceIdidnotunderstandtheterm。Theservantswerecalledin,thedining—roomtableswheeledaway,thelightsotherwisedisposed,thechairsplacedinasemicircleoppositethearch。WhileMr。Rochesterandtheothergentlemendirectedthesealterations,theladieswererunningupanddownstairsringingfortheirmaids。Mrs。Fairfaxwassummonedtogiveinformationrespectingtheresourcesofthehouseinshawls,dresses,draperiesofanykind;andcertainwardrobesofthethirdstoreywereransacked,andtheircontents,intheshapeofbrocadedandhoopedpetticoats,satinsacques,blackmodes,lacelappets,&c。,werebroughtdowninarmfulsbytheabigails;thenaselectionwasmade,andsuchthingsaswerechosenwerecarriedtotheboudoirwithinthedrawing—room。
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