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第11章

  “Nevermind,—waitaminute:Adèleisnotreadytogotobedyet。Myposition,MissEyre,withmybacktothefire,andmyfacetotheroom,favoursobservation。Whiletalkingtoyou,IhavealsooccasionallywatchedAdèle(Ihavemyownreasonsforthinkingheracuriousstudy,—reasonsthatImay,nay,thatIshall,imparttoyousomeday)。Shepulledoutofherbox,abouttenminutesago,alittlepinksilkfrock;rapturelitherfaceassheunfoldedit;coquetryrunsinherblood,blendswithherbrains,andseasonsthemarrowofherbones。‘Ilfautquejel’essaie!’criedshe,‘etàl’instantmême!’andsherushedoutoftheroom。SheisnowwithSophie,undergoingarobingprocess:inafewminutesshewillre—enter;andIknowwhatIshallsee,—aminiatureofCélineVarens,assheusedtoappearontheboardsattherisingof—Butnevermindthat。However,mytenderestfeelingsareabouttoreceiveashock:suchismypresentiment;staynow,toseewhetheritwillberealised。”
  Erelong,Adèle’slittlefootwasheardtrippingacrossthehall。Sheentered,transformedasherguardianhadpredicted。Adressofrose—colouredsatin,veryshort,andasfullintheskirtasitcouldbegathered,replacedthebrownfrockshehadpreviouslyworn;awreathofrosebudscircledherforehead;herfeetweredressedinsilkstockingsandsmallwhitesatinsandals。
  “Est—cequemarobevabien?”criedshe,boundingforwards;“etmessouliers?etmesbas?Tenez,jecroisquejevaisdanser!”
  Andspreadingoutherdress,shechasséedacrosstheroomtill,havingreachedMr。Rochester,shewheeledlightlyroundbeforehimontip—toe,thendroppedononekneeathisfeet,exclaiming—
  “Monsieur,jevousremerciemillefoisdevotrebonté;”thenrising,sheadded,“C’estcommecelaquemamanfaisait,n’est—cepas,monsieur?”
  “Pre—cise—ly!”wastheanswer;“and,‘commecela,’shecharmedmyEnglishgoldoutofmyBritishbreeches’pocket。Ihavebeengreen,too,MissEyre,—ay,grassgreen:notamorevernaltintfreshensyounowthanoncefreshenedme。MySpringisgone,however,butithasleftmethatFrenchfloweretonmyhands,which,insomemoods,Iwouldfainberidof。Notvaluingnowtherootwhenceitsprang;havingfoundthatitwasofasortwhichnothingbutgolddustcouldmanure,Ihavebuthalfalikingtotheblossom,especiallywhenitlookssoartificialasjustnow。IkeepitandrearitratherontheRomanCatholicprincipleofexpiatingnumeroussins,greatorsmall,byonegoodwork。I’llexplainallthissomeday。Good—night。”
  Chapter15
  Mr。Rochesterdid,onafutureoccasion,explainit。Itwasoneafternoon,whenhechancedtomeetmeandAdèleinthegrounds:andwhilesheplayedwithPilotandhershuttlecock,heaskedmetowalkupanddownalongbeechavenuewithinsightofher。
  HethensaidthatshewasthedaughterofaFrenchopera—dancer,CélineVarens,towardswhomhehadoncecherishedwhathecalleda“grandepassion。”ThispassionCélinehadprofessedtoreturnwithevensuperiorardour。Hethoughthimselfheridol,uglyashewas:hebelieved,ashesaid,thatshepreferredhis“tailled’athlète”totheeleganceoftheApolloBelvidere。
  “And,MissEyre,somuchwasIflatteredbythispreferenceoftheGallicsylphforherBritishgnome,thatIinstalledherinanhotel;gaveheracompleteestablishmentofservants,acarriage,cashmeres,diamonds,dentelles,&c。Inshort,Ibegantheprocessofruiningmyselfinthereceivedstyle,likeanyotherspoony。Ihadnot,itseems,theoriginalitytochalkoutanewroadtoshameanddestruction,buttrodetheoldtrackwithstupidexactnessnottodeviateaninchfromthebeatencentre。Ihad—asIdeservedtohave—thefateofallotherspoonies。HappeningtocalloneeveningwhenCélinedidnotexpectme,Ifoundherout;butitwasawarmnight,andIwastiredwithstrollingthroughParis,soIsatdowninherboudoir;happytobreathetheairconsecratedsolatelybyherpresence。No,—Iexaggerate;Ineverthoughttherewasanyconsecratingvirtueabouther:itwasratherasortofpastilleperfumeshehadleft;ascentofmuskandamber,thananodourofsanctity。Iwasjustbeginningtostiflewiththefumesofconservatoryflowersandsprinkledessences,whenIbethoughtmyselftoopenthewindowandstepoutontothebalcony。Itwasmoonlightandgaslightbesides,andverystillandserene。Thebalconywasfurnishedwithachairortwo;Isatdown,andtookoutacigar,—Iwilltakeonenow,ifyouwillexcuseme。”
  Hereensuedapause,filledupbytheproducingandlightingofacigar;havingplacedittohislipsandbreathedatrailofHavannahincenseonthefreezingandsunlessair,hewenton—
  “Ilikedbonbonstoointhosedays,MissEyre,andIwascroquant—(overlookthebarbarism)—croquantchocolatecomfits,andsmokingalternately,watchingmeantimetheequipagesthatrolledalongthefashionablestreetstowardstheneighbouringopera—house,wheninanelegantclosecarriagedrawnbyabeautifulpairofEnglishhorses,anddistinctlyseeninthebrilliantcity—night,Irecognisedthe‘voiture’IhadgivenCéline。Shewasreturning:ofcoursemyheartthumpedwithimpatienceagainsttheironrailsIleantupon。Thecarriagestopped,asIhadexpected,atthehoteldoor;myflame(thatistheverywordforanoperainamorata)alighted:thoughmuffedinacloak—anunnecessaryencumbrance,by—the—bye,onsowarmaJuneevening—Iknewherinstantlybyherlittlefoot,seenpeepingfromtheskirtofherdress,assheskippedfromthecarriage—step。Bendingoverthebalcony,Iwasabouttomurmur‘Monange’—inatone,ofcourse,whichshouldbeaudibletotheearoflovealone—whenafigurejumpedfromthecarriageafterher;cloakedalso;butthatwasaspurredheelwhichhadrungonthepavement,andthatwasahattedheadwhichnowpassedunderthearchedportecochèreofthehotel。
  “Youneverfeltjealousy,didyou,MissEyre?Ofcoursenot:Ineednotaskyou;becauseyouneverfeltlove。Youhavebothsentimentsyettoexperience:yoursoulsleeps;theshockisyettobegivenwhichshallwakenit。Youthinkallexistencelapsesinasquietaflowasthatinwhichyouryouthhashithertoslidaway。Floatingonwithclosedeyesandmuffledears,youneitherseetherocksbristlingnotfaroffinthebedoftheflood,norhearthebreakersboilattheirbase。ButItellyou—andyoumaymarkmywords—youwillcomesomedaytoacraggypassinthechannel,wherethewholeoflife’sstreamwillbebrokenupintowhirlandtumult,foamandnoise:eitheryouwillbedashedtoatomsoncragpoints,orliftedupandborneonbysomemaster—waveintoacalmercurrent—asIamnow。
  “Ilikethisday;Ilikethatskyofsteel;Ilikethesternnessandstillnessoftheworldunderthisfrost。IlikeThornfield,itsantiquity,itsretirement,itsoldcrow—treesandthorn—trees,itsgreyfacade,andlinesofdarkwindowsreflectingthatmetalwelkin:andyethowlonghaveIabhorredtheverythoughtofit,shunneditlikeagreatplague—house?HowIdostillabhor—”
  Hegroundhisteethandwassilent:hearrestedhisstepandstruckhisbootagainstthehardground。Somehatedthoughtseemedtohavehiminitsgrip,andtoholdhimsotightlythathecouldnotadvance。
  Wewereascendingtheavenuewhenhethuspaused;thehallwasbeforeus。Liftinghiseyetoitsbattlements,hecastoverthemaglaresuchasIneversawbeforeorsince。Pain,shame,ire,impatience,disgust,detestation,seemedmomentarilytoholdaquiveringconflictinthelargepupildilatingunderhiseboneyebrow。Wildwasthewrestlewhichshouldbeparamount;butanotherfeelingroseandtriumphed:somethinghardandcynical:self—willedandresolute:itsettledhispassionandpetrifiedhiscountenance:hewenton—
  “DuringthemomentIwassilent,MissEyre,Iwasarrangingapointwithmydestiny。Shestoodthere,bythatbeech—trunk—ahaglikeoneofthosewhoappearedtoMacbethontheheathofForres。‘YoulikeThornfield?’shesaid,liftingherfinger;andthenshewroteintheairamemento,whichraninluridhieroglyphicsallalongthehouse—front,betweentheupperandlowerrowofwindows,‘Likeitifyoucan!Likeitifyoudare!’
  “‘Iwilllikeit,’saidI;‘Idarelikeit;’and”(hesubjoinedmoodily)“Iwillkeepmyword;Iwillbreakobstaclestohappiness,togoodness—yes,goodness。IwishtobeabettermanthanIhavebeen,thanIam;asJob’sleviathanbrokethespear,thedart,andthehabergeon,hindranceswhichotherscountasironandbrass,Iwillesteembutstrawandrottenwood。”
  Adèlehereranbeforehimwithhershuttlecock。“Away!”hecriedharshly;“keepatadistance,child;orgointoSophie!”Continuingthentopursuehiswalkinsilence,Iventuredtorecallhimtothepointwhencehehadabruptlydiverged—
  “Didyouleavethebalcony,sir,”Iasked,“whenMdlle。Varensentered?”
  Ialmostexpectedarebuffforthishardlywell—timedquestion,but,onthecontrary,wakingoutofhisscowlingabstraction,heturnedhiseyestowardsme,andtheshadeseemedtoclearoffhisbrow。“Oh,IhadforgottenCéline!Well,toresume。WhenIsawmycharmerthuscomeinaccompaniedbyacavalier,Iseemedtohearahiss,andthegreensnakeofjealousy,risingonundulatingcoilsfromthemoonlitbalcony,glidedwithinmywaistcoat,andateitswayintwominutestomyheart’score。Strange!”heexclaimed,suddenlystartingagainfromthepoint。“StrangethatIshouldchooseyoufortheconfidantofallthis,younglady;passingstrangethatyoushouldlistentomequietly,asifitwerethemostusualthingintheworldforamanlikemetotellstoriesofhisopera—mistressestoaquaint,inexperiencedgirllikeyou!Butthelastsingularityexplainsthefirst,asIintimatedoncebefore:you,withyourgravity,considerateness,andcautionweremadetobetherecipientofsecrets。Besides,IknowwhatsortofamindIhaveplacedincommunicationwithmyown:Iknowitisonenotliabletotakeinfection:itisapeculiarmind:itisauniqueone。HappilyIdonotmeantoharmit:but,ifIdid,itwouldnottakeharmfromme。ThemoreyouandIconverse,thebetter;forwhileIcannotblightyou,youmayrefreshme。”Afterthisdigressionheproceeded—
  “Iremainedinthebalcony。‘Theywillcometoherboudoir,nodoubt,’thoughtI:‘letmeprepareanambush。’Soputtingmyhandinthroughtheopenwindow,Idrewthecurtainoverit,leavingonlyanopeningthroughwhichIcouldtakeobservations;thenIclosedthecasement,allbutachinkjustwideenoughtofurnishanoutlettolovers’whisperedvows:thenIstolebacktomychair;andasIresumeditthepaircamein。Myeyewasquicklyattheaperture。Céline’schamber—maidentered,litalamp,leftitonthetable,andwithdrew。Thecouplewerethusrevealedtomeclearly:bothremovedtheircloaks,andtherewas‘theVarens,’shininginsatinandjewels,—mygiftsofcourse,—andtherewashercompanioninanofficer’suniform;andIknewhimforayoungroueofavicomte—abrainlessandviciousyouthwhomIhadsometimesmetinsociety,andhadneverthoughtofhatingbecauseIdespisedhimsoabsolutely。Onrecognisinghim,thefangofthesnakeJealousywasinstantlybroken;becauseatthesamemomentmyloveforCélinesankunderanextinguisher。Awomanwhocouldbetraymeforsucharivalwasnotworthcontendingfor;shedeservedonlyscorn;less,however,thanI,whohadbeenherdupe。
  “Theybegantotalk;theirconversationeasedmecompletely:frivolous,mercenary,heartless,andsenseless,itwasrathercalculatedtowearythanenragealistener。Acardofminelayonthetable;thisbeingperceived,broughtmynameunderdiscussion。Neitherofthempossessedenergyorwittobelabourmesoundly,buttheyinsultedmeascoarselyastheycouldintheirlittleway:especiallyCéline,whoevenwaxedratherbrilliantonmypersonaldefects—deformitiesshetermedthem。Nowithadbeenhercustomtolaunchoutintoferventadmirationofwhatshecalledmy‘beautémale:’whereinshediffereddiametricallyfromyou,whotoldmepoint—blank,atthesecondinterview,thatyoudidnotthinkmehandsome。Thecontraststruckmeatthetimeand—”
  Adèleherecamerunningupagain。
  “Monsieur,Johnhasjustbeentosaythatyouragenthascalledandwishestoseeyou。”
  “Ah!inthatcaseImustabridge。Openingthewindow,Iwalkedinuponthem;liberatedCélinefrommyprotection;gavehernoticetovacateherhotel;offeredherapurseforimmediateexigencies;disregardedscreams,hysterics,prayers,protestations,convulsions;madeanappointmentwiththevicomteforameetingattheBoisdeBoulogne。NextmorningIhadthepleasureofencounteringhim;leftabulletinoneofhispooretiolatedarms,feebleasthewingofachickeninthepip,andthenthoughtIhaddonewiththewholecrew。ButunluckilytheVarens,sixmonthsbefore,hadgivenmethisfiletteAdèle,who,sheaffirmed,wasmydaughter;andperhapsshemaybe,thoughIseenoproofsofsuchgrimpaternitywritteninhercountenance:Pilotismorelikemethanshe。SomeyearsafterIhadbrokenwiththemother,sheabandonedherchild,andranawaytoItalywithamusicianorsinger。IacknowledgednonaturalclaimonAdèle’sparttobesupportedbyme,nordoInowacknowledgeany,forIamnotherfather;buthearingthatshewasquitedestitute,Ie’entookthepoorthingoutoftheslimeandmudofParis,andtransplantedithere,togrowupcleaninthewholesomesoilofanEnglishcountrygarden。Mrs。Fairfaxfoundyoutotrainit;butnowyouknowthatitistheillegitimateoffspringofaFrenchopera—girl,youwillperhapsthinkdifferentlyofyourpostandprotégée:youwillbecomingtomesomedaywithnoticethatyouhavefoundanotherplace—thatyoubegmetolookoutforanewgoverness,&c。—Eh?”
  “No:Adèleisnotanswerableforeitherhermother’sfaultsoryours:Ihavearegardforher;andnowthatIknowsheis,inasense,parentless—forsakenbyhermotheranddisownedbyyou,sir—Ishallclingclosertoherthanbefore。HowcouldIpossiblypreferthespoiltpetofawealthyfamily,whowouldhatehergovernessasanuisance,toalonelylittleorphan,wholeanstowardsherasafriend?”
  “Oh,thatisthelightinwhichyouviewit!Well,Imustgoinnow;andyoutoo:itdarkens。”
  ButIstayedoutafewminuteslongerwithAdèleandPilot—ranaracewithher,andplayedagameofbattledoreandshuttlecock。Whenwewentin,andIhadremovedherbonnetandcoat,Itookheronmyknee;keptherthereanhour,allowinghertoprattleassheliked:notrebukingevensomelittlefreedomsandtrivialitiesintowhichshewasapttostraywhenmuchnoticed,andwhichbetrayedinherasuperficialityofcharacter,inheritedprobablyfromhermother,hardlycongenialtoanEnglishmind。Stillshehadhermerits;andIwasdisposedtoappreciateallthatwasgoodinhertotheutmost。IsoughtinhercountenanceandfeaturesalikenesstoMr。Rochester,butfoundnone:notrait,noturnofexpressionannouncedrelationship。Itwasapity:ifshecouldbuthavebeenprovedtoresemblehim,hewouldhavethoughtmoreofher。
  ItwasnottillafterIhadwithdrawntomyownchamberforthenight,thatIsteadilyreviewedthetaleMr。Rochesterhadtoldme。Ashehadsaid,therewasprobablynothingatallextraordinaryinthesubstanceofthenarrativeitself:awealthyEnglishman’spassionforaFrenchdancer,andhertreacherytohim,wereevery—daymattersenough,nodoubt,insociety;buttherewassomethingdecidedlystrangeintheparoxysmofemotionwhichhadsuddenlyseizedhimwhenhewasintheactofexpressingthepresentcontentmentofhismood,andhisnewlyrevivedpleasureintheoldhallanditsenvirons。Imeditatedwonderinglyonthisincident;butgraduallyquittingit,asIfounditforthepresentinexplicable,Iturnedtotheconsiderationofmymaster’smannertomyself。Theconfidencehehadthoughtfittoreposeinmeseemedatributetomydiscretion:Iregardedandaccepteditassuch。Hisdeportmenthadnowforsomeweeksbeenmoreuniformtowardsmethanatthefirst。Ineverseemedinhisway;hedidnottakefitsofchillinghauteur:whenhemetmeunexpectedly,theencounterseemedwelcome;hehadalwaysawordandsometimesasmileforme:whensummonedbyformalinvitationtohispresence,IwashonouredbyacordialityofreceptionthatmademefeelIreallypossessedthepowertoamusehim,andthattheseeveningconferencesweresoughtasmuchforhispleasureasformybenefit。
  I,indeed,talkedcomparativelylittle,butIheardhimtalkwithrelish。Itwashisnaturetobecommunicative;helikedtoopentoamindunacquaintedwiththeworldglimpsesofitsscenesandways(Idonotmeanitscorruptscenesandwickedways,butsuchasderivedtheirinterestfromthegreatscaleonwhichtheywereacted,thestrangenoveltybywhichtheywerecharacterised);andIhadakeendelightinreceivingthenewideasheoffered,inimaginingthenewpicturesheportrayed,andfollowinghiminthoughtthroughthenewregionshedisclosed,neverstartledortroubledbyonenoxiousallusion。
  Theeaseofhismannerfreedmefrompainfulrestraint:thefriendlyfrankness,ascorrectascordial,withwhichhetreatedme,drewmetohim。Ifeltattimesasifheweremyrelationratherthanmymaster:yethewasimperioussometimesstill;butIdidnotmindthat;Isawitwashisway。Sohappy,sogratifieddidIbecomewiththisnewinterestaddedtolife,thatIceasedtopineafterkindred:mythincrescent—destinyseemedtoenlarge;theblanksofexistencewerefilledup;mybodilyhealthimproved;Igatheredfleshandstrength。
  AndwasMr。Rochesternowuglyinmyeyes?No,reader:gratitude,andmanyassociations,allpleasurableandgenial,madehisfacetheobjectIbestlikedtosee;hispresenceinaroomwasmorecheeringthanthebrightestfire。YetIhadnotforgottenhisfaults;indeed,Icouldnot,forhebroughtthemfrequentlybeforeme。Hewasproud,sardonic,harshtoinferiorityofeverydescription:inmysecretsoulIknewthathisgreatkindnesstomewasbalancedbyunjustseveritytomanyothers。Hewasmoody,too;unaccountablyso;Imorethanonce,whensentfortoreadtohim,foundhimsittinginhislibraryalone,withhisheadbentonhisfoldedarms;and,whenhelookedup,amorose,almostamalignant,scowlblackenedhisfeatures。ButIbelievedthathismoodiness,hisharshness,andhisformerfaultsofmorality(Isayformer,fornowheseemedcorrectedofthem)hadtheirsourceinsomecruelcrossoffate。Ibelievedhewasnaturallyamanofbettertendencies,higherprinciples,andpurertastesthansuchascircumstanceshaddeveloped,educationinstilled,ordestinyencouraged。Ithoughttherewereexcellentmaterialsinhim;thoughforthepresenttheyhungtogethersomewhatspoiledandtangled。IcannotdenythatIgrievedforhisgrief,whateverthatwas,andwouldhavegivenmuchtoassuageit。
  ThoughIhadnowextinguishedmycandleandwaslaiddowninbed,Icouldnotsleepforthinkingofhislookwhenhepausedintheavenue,andtoldhowhisdestinyhadrisenupbeforehim,anddaredhimtobehappyatThornfield。
  “Whynot?”Iaskedmyself。“Whatalienateshimfromthehouse?Willheleaveitagainsoon?Mrs。Fairfaxsaidheseldomstayedherelongerthanafortnightatatime;andhehasnowbeenresidenteightweeks。Ifhedoesgo,thechangewillbedoleful。Supposeheshouldbeabsentspring,summer,andautumn:howjoylesssunshineandfinedayswillseem!”
  IhardlyknowwhetherIhadsleptornotafterthismusing;atanyrate,Istartedwideawakeonhearingavaguemurmur,peculiarandlugubrious,whichsounded,Ithought,justaboveme。IwishedIhadkeptmycandleburning:thenightwasdrearilydark;myspiritsweredepressed。Iroseandsatupinbed,listening。Thesoundwashushed。
  Itriedagaintosleep;butmyheartbeatanxiously:myinwardtranquillitywasbroken。Theclock,fardowninthehall,strucktwo。Justthenitseemedmychamber—doorwastouched;asiffingershadsweptthepanelsingropingawayalongthedarkgalleryoutside。Isaid,“Whoisthere?”Nothinganswered。Iwaschilledwithfear。
  AllatonceIrememberedthatitmightbePilot,who,whenthekitchen—doorchancedtobeleftopen,notunfrequentlyfoundhiswayuptothethresholdofMr。Rochester’schamber:Ihadseenhimlyingtheremyselfinthemornings。Theideacalmedmesomewhat:Ilaydown。Silencecomposesthenerves;andasanunbrokenhushnowreignedagainthroughthewholehouse,Ibegantofeelthereturnofslumber。ButitwasnotfatedthatIshouldsleepthatnight。Adreamhadscarcelyapproachedmyear,whenitfledaffrighted,scaredbyamarrow—freezingincidentenough。
  Thiswasademoniaclaugh—low,suppressed,anddeep—uttered,asitseemed,attheverykeyholeofmychamberdoor。Theheadofmybedwasnearthedoor,andIthoughtatfirstthegoblin—laugherstoodatmybedside—orrather,crouchedbymypillow:butIrose,lookedround,andcouldseenothing;while,asIstillgazed,theunnaturalsoundwasreiterated:andIknewitcamefrombehindthepanels。Myfirstimpulsewastoriseandfastenthebolt;mynext,againtocryout,“Whoisthere?”
  Somethinggurgledandmoaned。Erelong,stepsretreatedupthegallerytowardsthethird—storeystaircase:adoorhadlatelybeenmadetoshutinthatstaircase;Ihearditopenandclose,andallwasstill。
  “WasthatGracePoole?andisshepossessedwithadevil?”thoughtI。Impossiblenowtoremainlongerbymyself:ImustgotoMrs。Fairfax。Ihurriedonmyfrockandashawl;Iwithdrewtheboltandopenedthedoorwithatremblinghand。Therewasacandleburningjustoutside,andonthemattinginthegallery。Iwassurprisedatthiscircumstance:butstillmorewasIamazedtoperceivetheairquitedim,asiffilledwithsmoke;and,whilelookingtotherighthandandleft,tofindwhencethesebluewreathsissued,Ibecamefurtherawareofastrongsmellofburning。
  Somethingcreaked:itwasadoorajar;andthatdoorwasMr。Rochester’s,andthesmokerushedinacloudfromthence。IthoughtnomoreofMrs。Fairfax;IthoughtnomoreofGracePoole,orthelaugh:inaninstant,Iwaswithinthechamber。Tonguesofflamedartedroundthebed:thecurtainswereonfire。Inthemidstofblazeandvapour,Mr。Rochesterlaystretchedmotionless,indeepsleep。
  “Wake!wake!”Icried。Ishookhim,butheonlymurmuredandturned:thesmokehadstupefiedhim。Notamomentcouldbelost:theverysheetswerekindling,Irushedtohisbasinandewer;fortunately,onewaswideandtheotherdeep,andbothwerefilledwithwater。Iheavedthemup,delugedthebedanditsoccupant,flewbacktomyownroom,broughtmyownwater—jug,baptizedthecouchafresh,and,byGod’said,succeededinextinguishingtheflameswhichweredevouringit。
  Thehissofthequenchedelement,thebreakageofapitcherwhichIflungfrommyhandwhenIhademptiedit,and,aboveall,thesplashoftheshower—bathIhadliberallybestowed,rousedMr。Rochesteratlast。Thoughitwasnowdark,Iknewhewasawake;becauseIheardhimfulminatingstrangeanathemasatfindinghimselflyinginapoolofwater。
  “Isthereaflood?”hecried。
  “No,sir,”Ianswered;“buttherehasbeenafire:getup,do;youarequenchednow;Iwillfetchyouacandle。”
  “InthenameofalltheelvesinChristendom,isthatJaneEyre?”hedemanded。“Whathaveyoudonewithme,witch,sorceress?Whoisintheroombesidesyou?Haveyouplottedtodrownme?”
  “Iwillfetchyouacandle,sir;and,inHeaven’sname,getup。Somebodyhasplottedsomething:youcannottoosoonfindoutwhoandwhatitis。”
  “There!Iamupnow;butatyourperilyoufetchacandleyet:waittwominutestillIgetintosomedrygarments,ifanydrytherebe—yes,hereismydressing—gown。Nowrun!”
  Ididrun;Ibroughtthecandlewhichstillremainedinthegallery。Hetookitfrommyhand,helditup,andsurveyedthebed,allblackenedandscorched,thesheetsdrenched,thecarpetroundswimminginwater。
  “Whatisit?andwhodidit?”heasked。Ibrieflyrelatedtohimwhathadtranspired:thestrangelaughIhadheardinthegallery:thestepascendingtothethirdstorey;thesmoke,—thesmelloffirewhichhadconductedmetohisroom;inwhatstateIhadfoundmattersthere,andhowIhaddelugedhimwithallthewaterIcouldlayhandson。
  Helistenedverygravely;hisface,asIwenton,expressedmoreconcernthanastonishment;hedidnotimmediatelyspeakwhenIhadconcluded。
  “ShallIcallMrs。Fairfax?”Iasked。
  “Mrs。Fairfax?No;whatthedeucewouldyoucallherfor?Whatcanshedo?Lethersleepunmolested。”
  “ThenIwillfetchLeah,andwakeJohnandhiswife。”
  “Notatall:justbestill。Youhaveashawlon。Ifyouarenotwarmenough,youmaytakemycloakyonder;wrapitaboutyou,andsitdowninthearm—chair:there,—Iwillputiton。Nowplaceyourfeetonthestool,tokeepthemoutofthewet。Iamgoingtoleaveyouafewminutes。Ishalltakethecandle。RemainwhereyouaretillIreturn;beasstillasamouse。Imustpayavisittothesecondstorey。Don’tmove,remember,orcallanyone。”
  Hewent:Iwatchedthelightwithdraw。Hepassedupthegalleryverysoftly,unclosedthestaircasedoorwithaslittlenoiseaspossible,shutitafterhim,andthelastrayvanished。Iwasleftintotaldarkness。Ilistenedforsomenoise,butheardnothing。Averylongtimeelapsed。Igrewweary:itwascold,inspiteofthecloak;andthenIdidnotseetheuseofstaying,asIwasnottorousethehouse。IwasonthepointofriskingMr。Rochester’sdispleasurebydisobeyinghisorders,whenthelightoncemoregleameddimlyonthegallerywall,andIheardhisunshodfeettreadthematting。“Ihopeitishe,”thoughtI,“andnotsomethingworse。”
  Here—entered,paleandverygloomy。“Ihavefounditallout,”saidhe,settinghiscandledownonthewashstand;“itisasIthought。”
  “How,sir?”
  Hemadenoreply,butstoodwithhisarmsfolded,lookingontheground。Attheendofafewminutesheinquiredinratherapeculiartone—
  “Iforgetwhetheryousaidyousawanythingwhenyouopenedyourchamberdoor。”
  “No,sir,onlythecandlestickontheground。”
  “Butyouheardanoddlaugh?Youhaveheardthatlaughbefore,Ishouldthink,orsomethinglikeit?”
  “Yes,sir:thereisawomanwhosewshere,calledGracePoole,—shelaughsinthatway。Sheisasingularperson。”
  “Justso。GracePoole—youhaveguessedit。Sheis,asyousay,singular—very。Well,Ishallreflectonthesubject。Meantime,Iamgladthatyouaretheonlyperson,besidesmyself,acquaintedwiththeprecisedetailsofto—night’sincident。Youarenotalkingfool:saynothingaboutit。Iwillaccountforthisstateofaffairs”(pointingtothebed):“andnowreturntoyourownroom。Ishalldoverywellonthesofainthelibraryfortherestofthenight。Itisnearfour:—intwohourstheservantswillbeup。”
  “Good—night,then,sir,”saidI,departing。
  Heseemedsurprised—veryinconsistentlyso,ashehadjusttoldmetogo。
  “What!”heexclaimed,“areyouquittingmealready,andinthatway?”
  “YousaidImightgo,sir。”
  “Butnotwithouttakingleave;notwithoutawordortwoofacknowledgmentandgood—will:not,inshort,inthatbrief,dryfashion。Why,youhavesavedmylife!—snatchedmefromahorribleandexcruciatingdeath!andyouwalkpastmeasifweweremutualstrangers!Atleastshakehands。”
  Heheldouthishand;Igavehimmine:hetookitfirstinone,theminbothhisown。
  “Youhavesavedmylife:Ihaveapleasureinowingyousoimmenseadebt。Icannotsaymore。Nothingelsethathasbeingwouldhavebeentolerabletomeinthecharacterofcreditorforsuchanobligation:butyou:itisdifferent;—Ifeelyourbenefitsnoburden,Jane。”
  Hepaused;gazedatme:wordsalmostvisibletrembledonhislips,—buthisvoicewaschecked。
  “Good—nightagain,sir。Thereisnodebt,benefit,burden,obligation,inthecase。”
  “Iknew,”hecontinued,“youwoulddomegoodinsomeway,atsometime;—IsawitinyoureyeswhenIfirstbeheldyou:theirexpressionandsmiledidnot”—(againhestopped)—“didnot”(heproceededhastily)“strikedelighttomyveryinmostheartsofornothing。Peopletalkofnaturalsympathies;Ihaveheardofgoodgenii:therearegrainsoftruthinthewildestfable。Mycherishedpreserver,goodnight!”
  Strangeenergywasinhisvoice,strangefireinhislook。
  “IamgladIhappenedtobeawake,”Isaid:andthenIwasgoing。
  “What!youwillgo?”
  “Iamcold,sir。”
  “Cold?Yes,—andstandinginapool!Go,then,Jane;go!”Buthestillretainedmyhand,andIcouldnotfreeit。Ibethoughtmyselfofanexpedient。
  “IthinkIhearMrs。Fairfaxmove,sir,”saidI。
  “Well,leaveme:”herelaxedhisfingers,andIwasgone。
  Iregainedmycouch,butneverthoughtofsleep。TillmorningdawnedIwastossedonabuoyantbutunquietsea,wherebillowsoftroublerolledundersurgesofjoy。IthoughtsometimesIsawbeyonditswildwatersashore,sweetasthehillsofBeulah;andnowandthenafresheninggale,wakenedbyhope,boremyspirittriumphantlytowardsthebourne:butIcouldnotreachit,eveninfancy—acounteractingbreezeblewoffland,andcontinuallydrovemeback。Sensewouldresistdelirium:judgmentwouldwarnpassion。Toofeverishtorest,Iroseassoonasdaydawned。
  Chapter16
  IbothwishedandfearedtoseeMr。Rochesteronthedaywhichfollowedthissleeplessnight:Iwantedtohearhisvoiceagain,yetfearedtomeethiseye。Duringtheearlypartofthemorning,Imomentarilyexpectedhiscoming;hewasnotinthefrequenthabitofenteringtheschoolroom,buthedidstepinforafewminutessometimes,andIhadtheimpressionthathewassuretovisititthatday。
  Butthemorningpassedjustasusual:nothinghappenedtointerruptthequietcourseofAdèle’sstudies;onlysoonafterbreakfast,IheardsomebustleintheneighbourhoodofMr。Rochester’schamber,Mrs。Fairfax’svoice,andLeah’s,andthecook’s—thatis,John’swife—andevenJohn’sowngrufftones。Therewereexclamationsof“Whatamercymasterwasnotburntinhisbed!”“Itisalwaysdangeroustokeepacandlelitatnight。”“Howprovidentialthathehadpresenceofmindtothinkofthewater—jug!”“Iwonderhewakednobody!”“Itistobehopedhewillnottakecoldwithsleepingonthelibrarysofa,”&c。
  Tomuchconfabulationsucceededasoundofscrubbingandsettingtorights;andwhenIpassedtheroom,ingoingdownstairstodinner,Isawthroughtheopendoorthatallwasagainrestoredtocompleteorder;onlythebedwasstrippedofitshangings。Leahstoodupinthewindow—seat,rubbingthepanesofglassdimmedwithsmoke。Iwasabouttoaddressher,forIwishedtoknowwhataccounthadbeengivenoftheaffair:but,onadvancing,Isawasecondpersoninthechamber—awomansittingonachairbythebedside,andsewingringstonewcurtains。ThatwomanwasnootherthanGracePoole。
  Thereshesat,staidandtaciturn—looking,asusual,inherbrownstuffgown,hercheckapron,whitehandkerchief,andcap。Shewasintentonherwork,inwhichherwholethoughtsseemedabsorbed:onherhardforehead,andinhercommonplacefeatures,wasnothingeitherofthepalenessordesperationonewouldhaveexpectedtoseemarkingthecountenanceofawomanwhohadattemptedmurder,andwhoseintendedvictimhadfollowedherlastnighttoherlair,and(asIbelieved),chargedherwiththecrimeshewishedtoperpetrate。Iwasamazed—confounded。Shelookedup,whileIstillgazedather:nostart,noincreaseorfailureofcolourbetrayedemotion,consciousnessofguilt,orfearofdetection。Shesaid“Goodmorning,Miss,”inherusualphlegmaticandbriefmanner;andtakingupanotherringandmoretape,wentonwithhersewing。
  “Iwillputhertosometest,”thoughtI:“suchabsoluteimpenetrabilityispastcomprehension。”
  “Goodmorning,Grace,”Isaid。“Hasanythinghappenedhere?IthoughtIheardtheservantsalltalkingtogetherawhileago。”
  “Onlymasterhadbeenreadinginhisbedlastnight;hefellasleepwithhiscandlelit,andthecurtainsgotonfire;but,fortunately,heawokebeforethebed—clothesorthewood—workcaught,andcontrivedtoquenchtheflameswiththewaterintheewer。
  “Astrangeaffair!”Isaid,inalowvoice:then,lookingatherfixedly—“DidMr。Rochesterwakenobody?Didnoonehearhimmove?”
  Sheagainraisedhereyestome,andthistimetherewassomethingofconsciousnessintheirexpression。Sheseemedtoexaminemewarily;thensheanswered—
  “Theservantssleepsofaroff,youknow,Miss,theywouldnotbelikelytohear。Mrs。Fairfax’sroomandyoursarethenearesttomaster’s;butMrs。Fairfaxsaidsheheardnothing:whenpeoplegetelderly,theyoftensleepheavy。”Shepaused,andthenadded,withasortofassumedindifference,butstillinamarkedandsignificanttone—“Butyouareyoung,Miss;andIshouldsayalightsleeper:perhapsyoumayhaveheardanoise?”
  “Idid,”saidI,droppingmyvoice,sothatLeah,whowasstillpolishingthepanes,couldnothearme,“andatfirstIthoughtitwasPilot:butPilotcannotlaugh;andIamcertainIheardalaugh,andastrangeone。”
  Shetookanewneedlefulofthread,waxeditcarefully,threadedherneedlewithasteadyhand,andthenobserved,withperfectcomposure—
  “Itishardlylikelymasterwouldlaugh,Ishouldthink,Miss,whenhewasinsuchdanger:Youmusthavebeendreaming。”
  “Iwasnotdreaming,”Isaid,withsomewarmth,forherbrazencoolnessprovokedme。Againshelookedatme;andwiththesamescrutinisingandconsciouseye。
  “Haveyoutoldmasterthatyouheardalaugh?”sheinquired。
  “Ihavenothadtheopportunityofspeakingtohimthismorning。”
  “Youdidnotthinkofopeningyourdoorandlookingoutintothegallery?”shefurtherasked。
  Sheappearedtobecross—questioningme,attemptingtodrawfrommeinformationunawares。TheideastruckmethatifshediscoveredIkneworsuspectedherguilt,shewouldbeplayingofsomeofhermalignantpranksonme;Ithoughtitadvisabletobeonmyguard。
  “Onthecontrary,”saidI,“Iboltedmydoor。”
  “Thenyouarenotinthehabitofboltingyourdooreverynightbeforeyougetintobed?”
  “Fiend!shewantstoknowmyhabits,thatshemaylayherplansaccordingly!”Indignationagainprevailedoverprudence:Irepliedsharply,“HithertoIhaveoftenomittedtofastenthebolt:Ididnotthinkitnecessary。IwasnotawareanydangerorannoyancewastobedreadedatThornfieldHall:butinfuture”(andIlaidmarkedstressonthewords)“IshalltakegoodcaretomakeallsecurebeforeIventuretoliedown。”
  “Itwillbewisesotodo,”washeranswer:“thisneighbourhoodisasquietasanyIknow,andIneverheardofthehallbeingattemptedbyrobberssinceitwasahouse;thoughtherearehundredsofpounds’worthofplateintheplate—closet,asiswellknown。Andyousee,forsuchalargehouse,thereareveryfewservants,becausemasterhasneverlivedheremuch;andwhenhedoescome,beingabachelor,heneedslittlewaitingon:butIalwaysthinkitbesttoerronthesafeside;adoorissoonfastened,anditisaswelltohaveadrawnboltbetweenoneandanymischiefthatmaybeabout。Adealofpeople,Miss,arefortrustingalltoProvidence;butIsayProvidencewillnotdispensewiththemeans,thoughHeoftenblessesthemwhentheyareuseddiscreetly。”Andheresheclosedherharangue:alongoneforher,andutteredwiththedemurenessofaQuakeress。