`MissCathy,'Iinterrupted,`itwillbethreehoursinsteadofonethatweareout,presently。Wereallymustgoback。'
`No,thatmanisnotmyson,'answeredHeathcliff,pushingmeaside。`ButIhaveone,andyouhaveseenhimbeforetoo;and,thoughyournurseisinahurry,Ithinkbothyouandshewouldbethebetterforalittlerest。Willyoujustturnthisnabofheath,andwalkintomyhouse?
You'llgethomeearlierfortheease;andyoushallreceiveakindwelcome。
IwhisperedCatherinethatshemustn't,onanyaccount,accedetotheproposal:itwasentirelyoutofthequestion。
`Why?'sheasked,aloud。`I'mtiredofrunning,andthegroundisdewy:Ican'tsithere。Letusgo,Ellen。Besides,hesaysIhaveseenhisson。He'smistaken,Ithink;butIguesswherehelives:atthefarmhouseIvisitedincomingfromPenistoneCrags。Don'tyou?'
`Ido。Come,Nelly,holdyourtongue——itwillbeatreatforhertolookinonus。Hareton,getforwardswiththelass。Youshallwalkwithme,Nelly。'
`No,she'snotgoingtoanysuchplace,'Icried,strugglingtoreleasemyarm,whichhehadseized:butshewasalmostatthedoorstonesalready,scamperingroundthebrowatfullspeed。Herappointedcompaniondidnotpretendtoescorther:heshiedoffbytheroadside,andvanished。
`MrHeathcliff,it'sverywrong,'Icontinued:`youknowyoumeannogood。Andthereshe'llseeLinton,andallwillbetoldassoonaseverwereturn;andIshallhavetheblame。
`IwanthertoseeLinton,'heanswered;`he'slookingbetterthesefewdays:it'snotoftenhe'sfittobeseen。Andwe'llsoonpersuadehertokeepthevisitsecret:whereistheharmofit?'
`Theharmofitis,thatherfatherwouldhatemeifhefoundIsufferedhertoenteryourhouse;andIamconvincedyouhaveabaddesigninencouraginghertodoso,'Ireplied。
`Mydesignisashonestaspossible。I'llinformyouofitswholescope,'hesaid。`Thatthetwocousinsmayfallinlove,andgetmarried。
I'mactinggenerouslytoyourmaster:hisyoungchithasnoexpectations,andshouldshesecondmywishes,she'llbeprovidedforatonceasjointsuccessorwithLinton。'
`IfLintondied,'Ianswered,`andhislifeisquiteuncertain,Catherinewouldbetheheir。'
`No,shewouldnot,'hesaid。`Thereisnoclauseinthewilltosecureitso:hispropertywouldgotome;but,topreventdisputes,Idesiretheirunion,andamresolvedtobringitabout。'
`AndI'mresolvedsheshallneverapproachyourhousewithmeagain,'Ireturned,aswereachedthegate,whereMissCathywaitedourcoming。
Heathcliffbidmebequiet;and,precedingusupthepath,hastenedtoopenthedoor。Myyoungladygavehimseverallooks,asifshecouldnotexactlymakeuphermindwhattothinkofhim;butnowhesmiledwhenhemethereye,andsoftenedhisvoiceinaddressingher;andIwasfoolishenoughtoimaginethememoryofhermothermightdisarmhimfromdesiringherinjury。Lintonstoodonthehearth。Hehadbeenoutwalkinginthefields,forhiscapwason,andhewascallingtoJosephtobringhimdryshoes。Hehadgrowntallofhisage,stillwantingsomemonthsofsixteen。
Hisfeatureswereprettyyet,andhiseyeandcomplexionbrighterthanIrememberedthem,thoughwithmerelytemporarylustreborrowedfromthesalubriousairandgenialsun。
`Now,whoisthat?'askedMrHeathcliff,turningtoCathy。`Canyoutell?'
`Yourson?'shesaid,havingdoubtfullysurveyed,firstoneandthentheother。
`Yes,yes,'answeredhe:`butisthistheonlytimeyouhavebeheldhim?Think!Ah!youhaveashortmemory。Linton,don'tyourecallyourcousin,thatyouusedtoteaseussowithwishingtosee?'
`What,Linton!'criedCathy,kindlingintojoyfulsurpriseatthename。`IsthatlittleLinton?He'stallerthanIam!Areyou,Linton?'
Theyouthsteppedforward,andacknowledgedhimself:shekissedhimfervently,andtheygazedwithwonderatthechangetimehadwroughtintheappearanceofeach。Catherinehadreachedherfullheight;herfigurewasbothplumpandslender,elasticassteel,andherwholeaspectsparklingwithhealthandspirits。Linton'slooksandmovementswereverylanguid,andhisformextremelyslight;buttherewasagraceinhismannerthatmitigatedthesedefects,andrenderedhimnotunpleasing。Afterexchangingnumerousmarksoffondnesswithhim,hiscousinwenttoMrHeathcliff,wholingeredbythedoor,dividinghisattentionbetweentheobjectsinsideandthosethatlaywithout:pretending,thatis,toobservethelatter,andreallynotingtheformeralone。
`Andyouaremyuncle,then!'shecried,reachinguptosalutehim。`IthoughtIlikedyou,thoughyouwerecrossatfirst。Whydon'tyouvisitattheGrangewithLinton?Tolivealltheseyearssuchcloseneighbours,andneverseeus,isodd:whathaveyoudonesofor?'
`Ivisiteditonceortwicetoooftenbeforeyouwereborn,'heanswered。`There——damnit!Ifyouhaveanykissestospare,givethemtoLinton:theyarethrownawayonme。
`NaughtyEllen!'exclaimedCatherine,flyingtoattackmenextwithherlavishcaresses。`WickedEllen!totrytohindermefromentering。
ButI'lltakethiswalkeverymorninginfuture:mayI,uncle?andsometimesbringpapa。Won'tyoubegladtoseeus?'
`Ofcourse!'repliedtheuncle,withahardlysuppressedgrimace,resultingfromhisdeepaversiontoboththeproposedvisitors。`Butstay,'
hecontinued,turningtowardstheyounglady。`NowIthinkofit,I'dbettertellyou。MrLintonhasaprejudiceagainstme:wequarrelledatonetimeofourlives,withunchristianferocity;and,ifyoumentioncomingheretohim,he'llputavetoonyourvisitsaltogether。Therefore,youmustnotmentionit,unlessyoubecarelessofseeingyourcousinhereafter:
youmaycome,ifyouwill,butyoumustnotmentionit。'
`Whydidyouquarrel?'askedCatherine,considerablycrest-fallen。
`Hethoughtmetoopoortowedhissister,'answeredHeathcliff,`andwasgrievedthatIgother:hispridewashurt,andhe'llneverforgiveit。'
`That'swrong!'saidtheyounglady:`sometime,I'lltellhimso。ButLintonandIhavenoshareinyourquarrel。I'llnotcomehere,then;heshallcometotheGrange。'
`Itwillbetoofarforme,'murmuredhercousin:`towalkfourmileswouldkillme。No,comehere,MissCatherine,nowandthen:noteverymorning,butonceortwiceaweek。'
Thefatherlaunchedtowardshissonaglanceofbittercontempt。
`Iamafraid,Nelly,Ishalllosemylabour,'hemutteredtome。
`MissCatherine,astheninnycallsher,willdiscoverhisvalue,andsendhimtothedevil。Now,ifithadbeenHareton!——Doyouknowthat,twentytimesaday,IcovetHareton,withallhisdegradation?I'dhavelovedtheladhadhebeensomeoneelse。ButIthinkhe'ssafefromherlove。I'llpithimagainstthatpaltrycreature,unlessitbestiritselfbriskly。Wecalculateitwillscarcelylasttillitiseighteen。Oh,confoundthevapidthing!He'sabsorbedindryinghisfeet,andneverlooksather——Linton!'
`Yes,father,'answeredtheboy。
`Haveyounothingtoshowyourcousinanywhereabout?notevenarabbitoraweasel'snest?Takeherintothegarden,beforeyouchangeyourshoes;andintothestabletoseeyourhorse。
`Wouldn'tyourathersithere?'askedLinton,addressingCathyinatonewhichexpressedreluctancetomoveagain。
`Idon'tknow,'shereplied,castingalonginglooktothedoor,andevidentlyeagertobeactive。
Hekepthisseat,andshrankclosertothefire。Heathcliffrose,andwentintothekitchen,andfromthencetotheyard,callingoutforHareton。Haretonresponded,andpresentlythetworeentered。Theyoungmanhadbeenwashinghimself,aswasvisiblebytheglowonhischeeksandhiswettedhair。
`Oh,I'llaskyou,uncle,'criedMissCathy,recollectingthehousekeeper'sassertion。`Thatisnotmycousin,ishe?'
`Yes,'hereplied,`yourmother'snephew。Don'tyoulikehim?'
Catherinelookedqueer。`Ishenotahandsomelad?'hecontinued。Theuncivillittlethingstoodontiptoe,andwhisperedasentenceinHeathcliff'sear。Helaughed;Haretondarkened:Iperceivedhewasverysensitivetosuspectedslights,andhadobviouslyadimnotionofhisinferiority。Buthismasterorguardianchasedthefrownbyexclaiming:
`You'llbethefavouriteamongus,Hareton!Shesaysyouarea——Whatwasit?Well,somethingveryflattering。Here!yougowithherroundthefarm。Andbehavelikeagentleman,mind!Don'tuseanybadwords;anddon'tstarewhentheyoungladyisnotlookingatyou,andbereadytohideyourfacewhensheis;and,whenyouspeak,sayyourwordsslowly,andkeepyourhandsoutofyourpockets。Beoff,andentertainherasnicelyasyoucan。
Hewatchedthecouplewalkingpastthewindow。Earnshawhadhiscountenancecompletelyavertedfromhiscompanion。Heseemedstudyingthefamiliarlandscapewithastranger'sandanartist'sinterest。Catherinetookaslylookathim,expressingsmalladmiration。Shethenturnedherattentiontoseekingoutobjectsofamusementforherself,andtrippedmerrilyon,liltingatunetosupplythelackofconversation。
`I'vetiedhistongue,'observedHeathcliff。`He'llnotventureasinglesyllable,allthetime!Nelly,yourecollectmeathisage——nay,someyearsyounger。DidIeverlooksostupid:so``gaumless'',asJosephcallsit?'
`Worse,'Ireplied,`becausemoresullenwithit。'
`I'veapleasureinhim,'hecontinued,reflectingaloud。`Hehassatisfiedmyexpectations。IfhewereabornfoolIshouldnotenjoyithalfsomuch。Buthe'snofool;andIcansympathizewithallhisfeelings,havingfeltthemmyself。Iknowwhathesuffersnow,forinstance,exactly:
itismerelyabeginningofwhatheshallsuffer,though。Andhe'llneverbeabletoemergefromhisbathosofcoarsenessandignorance。I'vegothimfasterthanhisscoundrelofafathersecuredme,andlower;forhetakesaprideinhisbrutishness。I'vetaughthimtoscorneverythingextra-animalassillyandweak。Don'tyouthinkHindleywouldbeproudofhisson,ifhecouldseehim?almostasproudasIamofmine。Butthere'sthisdifference;
oneisgoldputtotheuseofpaving-stones,andtheotheristinpolishedtoapeaserviceofsilver。Minehasnothingvaluableaboutit;
yetIshallhavethemeritofmakingitgoasfarassuchpoorstuffcango。Hishadfirst-ratequalities,andtheyarelost:renderedworsethanunavailing。Ihavenothingtoregret;hewouldhavemorethananybutIareawareof。Andthebestofitis,Haretonisdamnablyfondofme!You'llownthatI'veoutmatchedHindleythere。Ifthedeadvillaincouldrisefromhisgravetoabusemeforhisoffspring'swrongs,Ishouldhavethefunofseeingthesaidoffspringfighthimbackagain,indignantthatheshoulddaretorailattheonefriendhehasintheworld!'
Heathcliffchuckledafiendishlaughattheidea。Imadenoreply,becauseIsawthatheexpectednone。Meantime,ouryoungcompanion,whosattooremovedfromustohearwhatwassaid,begantoevincesymptomsofuneasiness,probablyrepentingthathehaddeniedhimselfthetreatofCatherine'ssocietyforfearofalittlefatigue。Hisfatherremarkedtherestlessglanceswanderingtothewindow,andthehandirresolutelyextendedtowardshiscap。
`Getup,youidleboy!'heexclaimed,withassumedheartiness。
`Awayafterthem!theyarejustatthecorner,bythestandofhives。'
Lintongatheredhisenergies,andleftthehearth。Thelatticewasopen,and,ashesteppedout,IheardCathyinquiringofherunsociableattendant,whatwasthatinscriptionoverthedoor?Haretonstaredup,andscratchedhisheadlikeatrueclown。
`It'ssomedamnablewriting,'heanswered。`Icannotreadit。'
`Can'treadit?'criedCatherine;`Icanreadit:it'sEnglish。
ButIwanttoknowwhyitisthere。'
Lintongiggled:thefirstappearanceofmirthhehadexhibited。
`Hedoesnotknowhisletters,'hesaidtohiscousin。`Couldyoubelieveintheexistenceofsuchacolossaldunce?'
`Isheallasheshouldbe?'askedMissCathyseriously;`orishesimple:notright?I'vequestionedhimtwicenow,andeachtimehelookedsostupidIthinkhedoesnotunderstandme。Icanhardlyunderstandhim,I'msure!'
Lintonrepeatedhislaugh,andglancedatHaretontauntingly;
whocertainlydidnotseemquiteclearofcomprehensionatthatmoment。
`There'snothingthematterbutlaziness;isthere,Earnshaw?'
hesaid。`Mycousinfanciesyouareanidiot。Thereyouexperiencetheconsequenceofscorning``book-larning'',asyouwouldsay。Haveyounoticed,Catherine,hisfrightfulYorkshirepronunciation?'
`Why,wherethedevilistheuseon't?'growledHareton,morereadyinansweringhisdailycompanion。Hewasabouttoenlargefurther,butthetwoyoungstersbrokeintoanoisyfitofmerriment;mygiddymissbeingdelightedtodiscoverthatshemightturnhisstrangetalktomatterofamusement。
`Whereistheuseofthedevilinthatsentence?'titteredLinton。
`Papatoldyounottosayanybadwords,andyoucan'topenyourmouthwithoutone。Dotrytobehavelikeagentleman,nowdo!'
`Ifthouweren'tmorealassthanalad,I'dfelltheethisminute,Iwould;pitifullathofacrater!'retortedtheangryboor,retreating,whilehisfaceburntwithmingledrageandmortification;forhewasconsciousofbeinginsulted,andembarrassedhowtoresentit。
MrHeathcliffhavingoverheardtheconversation,aswellasI,smiledwhenhesawhimgo;butimmediatelyafterwardscastalookofsingularaversionontheflippantpair,whoremainedchatteringinthedoorway:
theboyfindinganimationenoughwhilediscussingHareton'sfaultsanddeficiencies,andrelatinganecdotesofhisgoings-on;andthegirlrelishinghispertandspitefulsayings,withoutconsideringtheillnaturetheyevinced:butIbegantodislike,morethantocompassionateLinton,andtoexcusehisfather,insomemeasure,forholdinghimcheap。
Westayedtillafternoon:IcouldnottearMissCathyaway,before;
buthappilymymasterhadnotquittedhisapartment,andremainedignorantofourprolongedabsence。Aswewalkedhome,Iwouldfainhaveenlightenedmychargeonthecharactersofthepeoplewehadquitted;butshegotitintoherheadthatIwasprejudicedagainstthem。
`Aha!'shecried,`youtakepapa'sside,Ellen:youarepartial,Iknow;orelseyouwouldn'thavecheatedmesomanyyearsintothenotionthatLintonlivedalongwayfromhere。I'mreallyextremelyangry;onlyI'msopleasedIcan'tshowit!Butyoumustholdyourtongueaboutmyuncle:he'smyuncle,remember;andI'llscoldpapaforquarrellingwithhim。
Andsosheranon,tillIdroppedendeavouringtoconvinceherofhermistake。Shedidnotmentionthevisitthatnight,becauseshedidnotseeMrLinton。Nextdayitallcameout,sadlytomychagrin;andstillIwasnotaltogethersorry:Ithoughttheburdenofdirectingandwarningwouldbemoreefficientlybornebyhimthanme。ButhewastootimidingivingsatisfactoryreasonsforhiswishthatsheshouldshunconnectionwiththehouseholdoftheHeights,andCatherinelikedgoodreasonsforeveryrestraintthatharassedherpettedwill。
`Papa!'sheexclaimed,afterthemorning'ssalutations,`guesswhomIsawyesterday,inmywalkonthemoors。Ah,papa,youstarted!you'venotdoneright,haveyou,now?Isaw——Butlisten,andyoushallhearhowIfoundyouout;andEllen,whoisinleaguewithyou,andyetpretendedtopitymeso,whenIkepthoping,andwasalwaysdisappointedaboutLinton'scomingback!'
Shegaveafaithfulaccountofherexcursionanditsconsequences;
andmymaster,thoughhecastmorethanonereproachfullookatme,saidnothingtillshehadconcluded。Thenhedrewhertohim,andaskedifsheknewwhyhehadconcealedLinton'snearneighbourhoodfromher。Couldshethinkitwastodenyherapleasurethatshemightharmlesslyenjoy?
`ItwasbecauseyoudislikedMrHeathcliff,'sheanswered。
`ThenyoubelieveIcaremoreformyownfeelingsthanyours,Cathy?'hesaid。`No,itwasnotbecauseIdislikedMrHeathcliff,butbecauseMrHeathcliffdislikesme;andisamostdiabolicalman,delightingtowrongandruinthosehehates,iftheygivehimtheslightestopportunity。
Iknewthatyoucouldnotkeepupanacquaintancewithyourcousin,withoutbeingbroughtintocontactwithhim;andIknewhewoulddetestyouonmyaccount;soforyourowngood,andnothingelse,ItookprecautionsthatyoushouldnotseeLintonagain。Imeanttoexplainthissometimeasyougrewolder,andI'msorryIdelayedit。'
`ButMrHeathcliffwasquitecordial,papa,'observedCatherine,notatallconvinced;`andhedidn'tobjecttoourseeingeachother:
hesaidImightcometohishousewhenIpleased;onlyImustnottellyou,becauseyouhadquarrelledwithhim,andwouldnotforgivehimformarryingauntIsabella。Andyouwon't。Youaretheonetobeblamed:
heiswillingtoletusbefriends,atleast;LintonandI;andyouarenot。
Mymaster,perceivingthatshewouldnottakehiswordforheruncle-in-law'sevildisposition,gaveahastysketchofhisconducttoIsabella,andthemannerinwhichWutheringHeightsbecamehisproperty。
Hecouldnotbeartodiscourselonguponthetopic;forthoughhespokelittleofit,hestillfeltthesamehorroranddetestationofhisancientenemythathadoccupiedhishearteversinceMrsLinton'sdeath。`Shemighthavebeenlivingyet,ifithadnotbeenforhim!'washisconstantbitterreflection;and,inhiseyes,Heathcliffseemedamurderer。MissCathy——conversantwithnobaddeedsexceptherownslightactsofdisobedience,injustice,andpassion,risingfromhottemperandthoughtlessness,andrepentedofonthedaytheywerecommitted——wasamazedattheblacknessofspiritthatcouldbroodonandcoverrevengeforyears,anddeliberatelyprosecuteitsplanswithoutavisitationofremorse。Sheappearedsodeeplyimpressedandshockedatthisnewviewofhumannature——excludedfromallherstudiesandallherideastillnow——thatMrEdgardeemeditunnecessarytopursuethesubject。Hemerelyadded:
`Youwillknowhereafter,darling,whyIwishyoutoavoidhishouseandfamily;nowreturntoyouroldemploymentsandamusements,andthinknomoreaboutthem。'
Catherinekissedherfatherandsatdownquietlytoherlessonsforacoupleofhours,accordingtocustom;thensheaccompaniedhimintothegrounds,andthewholedaypassedasusual:butintheevening,whenshehadretiredtoherroom,andIwenttohelphertoundress,Ifoundhercrying,onherkneesbythebedside。
`Oh,fie,sillychild!'Iexclaimed。`Ifyouhadanyrealgriefs,you'dbeashamedtowasteatearonthislittlecontrariety。Youneverhadoneshadowofsubstantialsorrow,MissCatherine。Suppose,foraminute,thatmasterandIweredead,andyouwerebyyourselfintheworld:howwouldyoufeelthen?Comparethepresentoccasionwithsuchanafflictionasthat,andbethankfulforthefriendsyouhave,insteadofcovetingmore。'
`I'mnotcryingformyself,Ellen,'sheanswered,`it'sforhim。
Heexpectedtoseemeagaintomorrow,andtherehe'llbesodisappointed:
andhe'llwaitforme,andIshan'tcome!'
`Nonsense,'saidI,`doyouimaginehehasthoughtasmuchofyouasyouhaveofhim?Hasn'theHaretonforacompanion?Notoneinahundredwouldweepatlosingarelationtheyhadjustseentwice,fortwoafternoons。Lintonwillconjecturehowitis,andtroublehimselfnofurtheraboutyou。'
`ButmayInotwriteanotetotellhimwhyIcannotcome?'sheasked,risingtoherfeet。`AndjustsendthosebooksIpromisedtolendhim?Hisbooksarenotasniceasmine,andhewantedtohavethemextremely,whenItoldhimhowinterestingtheywere。MayInot,Ellen?'
`No,indeed!no,indeed!'repliedI,withdecision。`Thenhewouldwritetoyou,andthere'dneverbeanendofit。No,MissCatherine,theacquaintancemustbedroppedentirely:sopapaexpects,andIshallseethatitisdone。'
`Buthowcanonelittlenote——'sherecommenced,puttingonanimploringcountenance。
`Silence!'Iinterrupted。`We'llnotbeginwithyourlittlenotes。
Getintobed。'
Shethrewatmeaverynaughtylook,sonaughtythatIwouldnotkisshergoodnightatfirst:Icoveredherup,andshutherdoor,ingreatdispleasure;but,repentinghalfway,Ireturnedsoftly,andlo!therewasmissstandingatthetablewithabitofblankpaperbeforeherandapencilinherhand,whichsheguiltilyslippedoutofsight,onmyentrance。
`You'llgetnobodytotakethat,Catherine,'Isaid,`ifyouwriteit;andatpresentIshallputoutyourcandle。'
Isettheextinguisherontheflame,receivingasIdidsoaslaponmyhand,andpetulant`Crossthing!'Ithenquittedheragain,andshedrewtheboltinoneofherworst,mostpeevishhumours。Theletterwasfinishedandforwardedtoitsdestinationbyamilk-fetcherwhocamefromthevillage:butthatIdidn'tlearntillsometimeafterwards。Weekspassedon,andCathyrecoveredhertemper;thoughshegrewwondrousfondofstealingofftocornersbyherself;andoften,ifIcamenearhersuddenlywhilereading,shewouldstartandbendoverthebook,evidentlydesiroustohideit;andIdetectededgesofloosepaperstickingoutbeyondtheleaves。
Shealsogotatrickofcomingdownearlyinthemorningandlingeringaboutthekitchen,asifshewereexpectingthearrivalofsomething:andshehadasmalldrawerinacabinetinthelibrary,whichshewouldtrifleoverforhours,andwhosekeyshetookspecialcaretoremovewhensheleftit。
Oneday,assheinspectedthisdrawer,Iobservedthattheplaythings,andtrinketswhichrecentlyformeditscontents,weretransmutedintobitsoffoldedpaper。Mycuriosityandsuspicionswerearoused;Ideterminedtotakeapeepathermysterioustreasures;so,atnight,assoonassheandmymasterweresafeupstairs,Isearchedandreadilyfoundamongmyhousekeysonethatwouldfitthelock。Havingopened,Iemptiedthewholecontentsintomyapron,andtookthemwithmetoexamineatleisureinmyownchamber。ThoughIcouldnotbutsuspect,Iwasstillsurprisedtodiscoverthattheywereamassofcorrespondence——dailyalmost,itmusthavebeen——fromLintonHeathcliff:answerstodocumentsforwardedbyher。
Theearlierdatedwereembarrassedandshort;gradually,however,theyexpandedintocopiousloveletters,foolish,astheageofthewriterrenderednatural,yetwithtoucheshereandtherewhichIthoughtwereborrowedfromamoreexperiencedsource。Someofthemstruckmeassingularlyoddcompoundsofardourandflatness;commencinginstrongfeeling,andconcludingintheaffected,wordywaythataschoolboymightusetoafancied,incorporealsweetheart。WhethertheysatisfiedCathy,Idon'tknow;buttheyappearedveryworthlesstrashtome。AfterturningoverasmanyasIthoughtproper,Itiedtheminahandkerchiefandsetthemaside,relockingthevacantdrawer。
Followingherhabit,myyoungladydescendedearly,andvisitedthekitchen:Iwatchedhergotothedoor,onthearrivalofacertainlittleboy;and,whilethedairymaidfilledhiscan,shetuckedsomethingintohisjacketpocket,andpluckedsomethingout。Iwentroundbythegarden,andlaidwaitforthemessenger;whofoughtvalorouslytodefendhistrust,andwespiltthemilkbetweenus;butIsucceededinabstractingtheepistle;and,threateningseriousconsequencesifhedidnotlooksharphome,IremainedunderthewallandperusedMissCathy'saffectionatecomposition。
Itwasmoresimpleandmoreeloquentthanhercousin's;veryprettyandverysilly。Ishookmyhead,andwentmeditatingintothehouse。Thedaybeingwet,shecouldnotdivertherselfwithramblingaboutthepark;so,attheconclusionofhermorningstudies,sheresortedtothesolaceofthedrawer。Herfathersatreadingatthetable;andI,onpurpose,hadsoughtabitofworkinsomeunrippedfringesofthewindowcurtain,keepingmyeyesteadilyfixedonherproceedings。Neverdidanybirdflyingbacktoaplunderednestwhichithadleftbrimfulofchirpingyoungones,expressmorecompletedespairinitsanguishedcriesandflutterings,thanshebyhersingle`Oh!'andthechangethattransfiguredherlatehappycountenance。
MrLintonlookedup。
`Whatisthematter,love?Haveyouhurtyourself?'hesaid。
Histoneandlookassuredherhehadnotbeenthediscovererofthehoard。
`No,papa!'shegasped。`Ellen!Ellen!comeupstairs-I'msick!'
Iobeyedhersummons,andaccompaniedherout。
`Oh,Ellen!youhavegotthem,'shecommencedimmediately,droppingonherknees,whenwewereenclosedalone。`Oh,givethemtome,andI'llnever,neverdosoagain!Don'ttellpapa。Youhavenottoldpapa,Ellen?
sayyouhavenot?I'vebeenexceedinglynaughty,butIwon'tdoitanymore!'
Withagraveseverityinmymanner,Ibidherstandup。
`So,'Iexclaimed,`MissCatherine,youaretolerablyfaron,itseems:youmaywellbeashamedofthem!Afinebundleoftrashyoustudyinyourleisurehours,tobesure:why,it'sgoodenoughtobeprinted!
AndwhatdoyousupposethemasterwillthinkwhenIdisplayitbeforehim?Ihaven'tshownityet,butyouneedn'timagineIshallkeepyourridiculoussecrets。Forshame!andyoumusthaveledthewayinwritingsuchabsurdities:hewouldnothavethoughtofbeginning,I'mcertain。'
`Ididn't!Ididn't!'sobbedCathyfittobreakherheart。`I
didn'toncethinkoflovinghimtill——'
`Loving!'criedI,asscornfullyasIcoulduttertheword。
`Loving!Didanybodyeverhearthelike!Imightjustaswelltalkoflovingthemillerwhocomesonceayeartobuyourcorn。Prettyloving,indeed!andbothtimestogetheryouhaveseenLintonhardlyfourhoursinyourlife!Nowhereisthebabyishtrash。I'mgoingwithittothelibrary;
andwe'llseewhatyourfathersaystosuchloving。'
Shesprangatherpreciousepistles,butIheldthemabovemyhead;andthenshepouredoutfurtherfranticentreatiesthatIwouldburnthem——doanythingratherthanshowthem。Andbeingreallyfullyasinclinedtolaughasscold——forIesteemeditallgirlishvanity——Iatlengthrelentedinameasure,andasked:
`IfIconsenttoburnthem,willyoupromisefaithfullyneithertosendnorreceivealetteragain,norabookforIperceiveyouhavesenthimbooks,norlocksofhair,norrings,norplaythings?'
`Wedon'tsendplaythings!'criedCatherine,herprideovercominghershame。
`Noranythingatall,then,mylady,'Isaid。`Unlessyouwill,hereIgo。'
`Ipromise,Ellen!'shecried,catchingmydress。`Oh,puttheminthefire,do,do!'
ButwhenIproceededtoopenaplacewiththepoker,thesacrificewastoopainfultobeborne。SheearnestlysupplicatedthatIwouldspareheroneortwo。
`Oneortwo,Ellen,tokeepforLinton'ssake!'
Iunknottedthehandkerchief,andcommenceddroppingtheminfromanangle,andtheflamecurledupthechimney。
`Iwillhaveone,youcruelwretch!'shescreamed,dartingherhandintothefire,anddrawingforthsomehalfconsumedfragments,attheexpenseofherfingers。
`Verywell——andIwillhavesometoexhibittopapa!'Ianswered,shakingbacktherestintothebundle,andturninganewtothedoor。
Sheemptiedherblackenedpiecesintotheflames,andmotionedmetofinishtheimmolation。Itwasdone;Istirreduptheashes,andinterredthemunderashovelfulofcoals;andshemutely,andwithasenseofintenseinjury,retiredtoherprivateapartment。Idescendedtotellmymasterthattheyounglady'squalmofsicknesswasalmostgone,butIjudgeditbestforhertoliedownawhile。Shewouldn'tdine;butshereappearedattea,pale,andredabouttheeyes,andmarvellouslysubduedinoutwardaspect。NextmorningIansweredtheletterbyaslipofpaper,inscribed,`MasterHeathcliffisrequestedtosendnomorenotestoMissLinton,asshewillnotreceivethem。'And,thenceforth,thelittleboycamewithvacantpockets。
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MrLintonandhisdaughterwouldfrequentlywalkoutamongthereapers;
atthecarryingofthelastsheaves,theystayedtilldusk,andtheeveninghappeningtobechillanddamp,mymastercaughtabadcold,thatsettlingobstinatelyonhislungs,confinedhimindoorsthroughoutthewholeofthewinter,nearlywithoutintermission。
PoorCathy,frightenedfromherlittleromance,hadbeenconsiderablysadderanddullersinceitsabandonment;andherfatherinsistedonherreadingless,andtakingmoreexercise。Shehadhiscompanionshipnolonger;
Iesteemeditadutytosupplyitslack,asmuchaspossible,withmine:
aninefficientsubstitute;forIcouldonlysparetwoorthreehours,frommynumerousdiurnaloccupations,tofollowherfootsteps,andthenmysocietywasobviouslylessdesirablethanhis。
OnanafternooninOctober,orthebeginningofNovember——afreshwateryafternoon,whentheturfandpathswererustlingwithmoist,witheredleaves,andthecold,blueskywashalfhiddenbyclouds——darkgreystreamers,rapidlymountingfromthewest,andbodingabundantrain——Irequestedmyyoungladytoforegoherramble,becauseIwascertainofshowers。Sherefused;andIunwillinglydonnedacloak,andtookmyumbrellatoaccompanyheronastrolltothebottomofthepark;aformalwalkwhichshegenerallyaffectediflow-spirited——andthatsheinvariablywaswhenMrEdgarhadbeenworsethanordinary,athingneverknownfromhisconfession,butguessedbothbyherandme,fromhisincreasedsilenceandthemelancholyofhiscountenance。Shewentsadlyon:therewasnorunningorboundingnow,thoughthechillwindmightwellhavetemptedhertoarace。Andoften,fromthesideofmyeye,Icoulddetectherraisingahand,andbrushingsomethingoffhercheek。Igazedroundforameansofdivertingherthoughts。
Ononesideoftheroadroseahigh,roughbank,wherehazelsandstuntedoaks,withtheirrootshalfexposed,helduncertaintenure:thesoilwastoolooseforthelatter;andstrongwindshadblownsomenearlyhorizontal。
Insummer,MissCatherinedelightedtoclimbalongthesetrunks,andsitinthebranches,swingingtwentyfeetabovetheground;andI,pleasedwithheragilityandherlight,childishheart,stillconsidereditpropertoscoldeverytimeIcaughtheratsuchanelevation,butsothatsheknewtherewasnonecessityfordescending。Fromdinnertoteashewouldlieinherbreeze-rockedcradle,doingnothingexceptsingingoldsongs——mynurserylore——toherself,orwatchingthebirds,jointtenants,feedandenticetheiryoungonestofly:ornestlingwithclosedlids,halfthinking,halfdreaming,happierthanwordscanexpress。
`Look,miss!'Iexclaimed,pointingtoanookundertherootsofonetwistedtree。`Winterisnothereyet。There'salittleflowerupyonder,thelastbudfromthemultitudeofbluebellsthatcloudedthoseturfstepsinJulywithalilacmist。Willyouclamberup,andpluckittoshowtopapa?'
Cathystaredalongtimeatthelonelyblossomtremblinginitsearthyshelter,andreplied,atlength:
`No,I'llnottouchit:butitlooksmelancholy,doesitnot,Ellen?'
`Yes,'Iobserved,`aboutasstarvedandsacklessasyou:yourcheeksarebloodless;letustakeholdofhandsandrun。You'resolow,IdaresayIshallkeepupwithyou。
`No,'sherepeated,andcontinuedsaunteringon,pausing,atintervals,tomuseoverabitofmoss,oratuftofblanchedgrass,orafungusspreadingitsbrightorangeamongtheheapsofbrownfoliage;and,everandanon,herhandwasliftedtoheravertedface。
`Catherine,whyareyoucrying,love?'Iasked,approachingandputtingmyarmoverhershoulder。`Youmustn'tcrybecausepapahasacold;
bethankfulitisnothingworse。
Shenowputnofurtherrestraintonhertears;herbreathwasstifledbysobs。
`Oh,itwillbesomethingworse,'shesaid。`AndwhatshallIdowhenpapaandyouleaveme,andIambymyself?Ican'tforgetyourwords,Ellen;theyarealwaysinmyear。Howlifewillbechanged,howdrearytheworldwillbe,whenpapaandyouaredead。'
`Nonecantell,whetheryouwon'tdiebeforeus,'Ireplied。`It'swrongtoanticipateevil。We'llhopethereareyearsandyearstocomebeforeanyofusgo:masterisyoung,andIamstrong,andhardlyforty-five。
Mymotherlivedtilleighty,acantydametothelast。AndsupposeMrLintonweresparedtillhesawsixty,thatwouldbemoreyearsthanyouhavecounted,miss。Andwoulditnotbefoolishtomournacalamityabovetwentyyearsbeforehand?'
`ButAuntIsabellawasyoungerthanpapa,'sheremarked,gazingupwithtimidhopetoseekfurtherconsolation。
`AuntIsabellahadnotyouandmetonurseher,'Ireplied。`Shewasn'tashappyasmaster:shehadn'tasmuchtolivefor。Allyouneeddo,istowaitwellonyourfather,andcheerhimbylettinghimseeyoucheerful;andavoidgivinghimanxietyonanysubject:mindthat,Cathy!
I'llnotdisguisebutyoumightkillhim,ifyouwerewildandreckless,andcherishedafoolish,fancifulaffectionforthesonofapersonwhowouldbegladtohavehiminhisgrave;andallowedhimtodiscoverthatyoufrettedovertheseparationhehadjudgeditexpedienttomake。'
`Ifretaboutnothingonearthexceptpapa'sillness,'answeredmycompanion。`Icarefornothingincomparisonwithpapa。AndI'llnever——never——oh,never,whileIhavemysenses,doanactorsayawordtovexhim。Ilovehimbetterthanmyself,Ellen;andIknowitbythis:IprayeverynightthatImayliveafterhim;becauseIwouldratherbemiserablethanthatheshouldbe:thatprovesIlovehimbetterthanmyself。'
`Goodwords,'Ireplied。`Butdeedsmustproveitalso;andafterheiswell,rememberyoudon'tforgetresolutionsformedinthehouroffear。'
Aswetalked,wenearedadoorthatopenedontheroad;andmyyounglady,lighteningintosunshineagain,climbedupandseatedherselfonthetopofthewall,reachingovertogathersomehipsthatbloomedscarletonthesummitbranchesofthewildrosetrees,shadowingthehighwayside:thelowerfruithaddisappeared,butonlybirdscouldtouchtheupper,exceptfromCathy'spresentstation。Instretchingtopullthem,herhatfelloff;andasthedoorwaslocked,sheproposedscramblingdowntorecoverit。Ibidherbecautiouslestshegotafall,andshenimblydisappeared。
Butthereturnwasnosucheasymatter:thestonesweresmoothandneatlycemented,andtherose-bushesandblackberrystragglerscouldyieldnoassistanceinre-ascending。I,likeafool,didn'trecollectthat,tillIheardherlaughingandexclaiming:
`Ellen,you'llhavetofetchthekey,orelseImustrunroundtotheporter'slodge。Ican'tscaletherampartsonthisside!'
`Staywhereyouare,'Ianswered,`Ihavemybundleofkeysinmypocket:perhapsImaymanagetoopenit;ifnotI'llgo。'
Catherineamusedherselfwithdancingtoandfrobeforethedoor,whileItriedallthelargekeysinsuccession。Ihadappliedthelast,andfoundthatnonewoulddo;so,repeatingmydesirethatshewouldremainthere,IwasabouttohurryhomeasfastasIcould,whenanapproachingsoundarrestedme。Itwasthetrotofahorse;Cathy'sdancestopped,andinaminutethehorsestoppedalso。
`Whoisthat?'Iwhispered。
`Ellen,Iwishyoucouldopenthedoor,'whisperedbackmycompanionanxiously。
`Ho,MissLinton!'criedadeepvoicetherider's,`I'mgladtomeetyou。Don'tbeinhastetoenter,forIhaveanexplanationtoaskandobtain。'
`Ishan'tspeaktoyou,MrHeathcliff,'answeredCatherine。`Papasaysyouareawickedman,andyouhatebothhimandme;andEllensaysthesame。'
`Thatisnothingtothepurpose,'saidHeathcliff。Heitwas。
`Idon'thatemyson,Isuppose;anditisconcerninghimthatIdemandyourattention。Yes;youhavecausetoblush。Twoorthreemonthssince,wereyounotinthehabitofwritingtoLinton?makingloveinplay,eh?
Youdeserved,bothofyou,floggingforthat!Youespecially,theelder;
andlesssensitive,asitturnsout。I'vegotyourletters,andifyougivemeanypertnessI'llsendthemtoyourfather。Ipresumeyougrewwearyoftheamusementanddroppedit,didn'tyou?Well,youdroppedLintonwithitintoasloughofdespond。Hewasinearnest:inlove,really。AstrueasIlive,he'sdyingforyou;breakinghisheartatyourfickleness:
notfiguratively,butactually。ThoughHaretonhasmadehimastandingjestforsixweeks,andIhaveusedmoreseriousmeasures,andattemptedtofrightenhimoutofhisidiotcy,hegetsworsedaily;andhe'llbeunderthesodbeforesummer,unlessyourestorehim!'
`Howcanyouliesoglaringlytothepoorchild?'Icalledfromtheinside。`Prayrideon!Howcanyoudeliberatelygetupsuchpaltryfalsehoods?MissCathy,I'llknockthelockoffwithastone:youwon'tbelievethatvilenonsense。Youcanfeelinyourself,itisimpossiblethatapersonshoulddieforloveofastranger。'
`Iwasnotawaretherewereeavesdroppers,'mutteredthedetectedvillain。`WorthyMrsDean,Ilikeyou,butIdon'tlikeyourdouble-dealing,'
headdedaloud。`Howcouldyouliesoglaringly,astoaffirmIhatedthe``poorchild''?andinventbugbearstoriestoterrifyherfrommydoorstones?
CatherineLintontheverynamewarmsme,mybonnielass,Ishallbefromhomeallthisweek;goandseeifIhavenotspokentruth:do,there'sadarling!Justimagineyourfatherinmyplace,andLintoninyours;thenthinkhowyouwouldvalueyourcarelessloverifherefusedtostirasteptocomfortyou,whenyourfatherhimselfentreatedhim;anddon't,frompurestupidity,fallintothesameerror。Iswear,onmysalvation,he'sgoingtohisgrave,andnonebutyoucansavehim!'
ThelockgavewayandIissuedout。
`IswearLintonisdying,'repeatedHeathcliff,lookinghardatme。`Andgriefanddisappointmentarehasteninghisdeath。Nelly,ifyouwon'tlethergo,youcanwalkoveryourself。ButIshallnotreturntillthistimenextweek;andIthinkyourmasterhimselfwouldscarcelyobjecttohervisitinghercousin!'
`Comein,'saidI,takingCathybythearmandhalf-forcinghertore-enter;forshelingered,viewingwithtroubledeyesthefeaturesofthespeaker,toosterntoexpresshisinwarddeceit。
Hepushedhishorseclose,and,bendingdown,observed:
`MissCatherine,I'llowetoyouthatIhavelittlepatiencewithLinton;andHaretonandJosephhaveless。I'llownthathe'swithaharshset。Hepinesforkindness,aswellaslove;andakindwordfromyouwouldbehisbestmedicine。Don'tmindMrsDean'scruelcautions;butbegenerous,andcontrivetoseehim。Hedreamsofyoudayandnight,andcannotbepersuadedthatyoudon'thatehim,sinceyouneitherwritenorcall。'
Iclosedthedoor,androlledastonetoassisttheloosenedlockinholdingit;andspreadingmyumbrella,Idrewmychargeunderneath:
fortherainbegantodrivethroughthemoaningbranchesofthetrees,andwarnedustoavoiddelay。OurhurrypreventedanycommentontheencounterwithHeathcliff,aswestretchedtowardshome;butIdivinedinstinctivelythatCatherine'sheartwascloudednowindoubledarkness。Herfeaturesweresosad,theydidnotseemhers:sheevidentlyregardedwhatshehadheardaseverysyllabletrue。
Themasterhadretiredtorestbeforewecamein。Cathystoletohisroomtoinquirehowhewas;hehadfallenasleep。Shereturned,andaskedmetositwithherinthelibrary。Wetookourteatogether;
andafterwardsshelaydownontherug,andtoldmenottotalk,forshewasweary。Igotabook,andpretendedtoread。Assoonasshesupposedmeabsorbedinmyoccupation,sherecommencedhersilentweeping:itappeared,atpresent,herfavouritediversion。Isufferedhertoenjoyitawhile;
thenIexpostulated:deridingandridiculingallMrHeathcliff'sassertionsabouthisson,asifIwerecertainshewouldcoincide。Alas!Ihadn'tskilltocounteracttheeffecthisaccounthadproduced:itwasjustwhatheintended。
`Youmayberight,Ellen,'sheanswered;`butIshallneverfeelateasetillIknow。AndImusttellLintonitisnotmyfaultthatIdon'twrite,andconvincehimthatIshallnotchange。'
Whatusewereangerandprotestationsagainsthersillycredulity?
Wepartedthatnight——hostile;butnextdaybeheldmeontheroadtoWutheringHeights,bythesideofmywilfulyoungmistress'spony。Icouldn'tbeartowitnesshersorrow:toseeherpaledejectedcountenance,andheavyeyes;andIyielded,inthefainthopethatLintonhimselfmightprove,byhisreceptionofus,howlittleofthetalewasfoundedonfact。
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WutheringHeights[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter23Therainynighthadusheredinamistymorning——halffrost,halfdrizzleandtemporarybrookscrossedourpath——gurglingfromtheuplands。Myfeetwerethoroughlywetted;Iwascrossandlow;exactlythehumoursuitedformakingthemostofthesedisagreeablethings。Weenteredthefarmhousebythekitchenway,toascertainwhetherMrHeathcliffwerereallyabsent;
becauseIputslightfaithinhisownaffirmation。
Josephseemedsittinginasortofelysiumalone,besidearoaringfire;aquartofaleonthetablenearhim,bristlingwithlargepiecesoftoastedoatcake;andhisblack,shortpipeinhismouth。Catherinerantothehearthtowarmherself。Iaskedifthemasterwasin?Myquestionremainedsolongunanswered,thatIthoughttheoldmanhadgrowndeaf,andrepeateditlouder。
`Na-ay!'hesnarled,orratherscreamedthroughhisnose。`Na-ay!
yahmuhgoabackwhearyahcoomfrough。'
`Joseph!'criedapeevishvoice,simultaneouslywithme,fromtheinnerroom。`HowoftenamItocallyou?Thereareonlyafewredashesnow。Joseph!comethismoment。
Vigorouspuffs,andaresolutestareintothegratedeclaredhehadnoearforthisappeal。ThehousekeeperandHaretonwereinvisible;
onegoneonanerrand,andtheotherathiswork,probably。WeknewLinton'stones,andentered。
`Oh,Ihopeyou'lldieinagarret!starvedtodeath,'saidtheboy,mistakingourapproachforthatofhisnegligentattendant。
Hestopped,onobservinghiserror;hiscousinflewtohim。
`Isthatyou,MissLinton?'hesaid,raisinghisheadfromthearmofthegreatchair,inwhichhereclined。`No——don'tkissme:ittakesmybreath。Dearme!Papasaidyouwouldcall,'continuedhe,afterrecoveringalittlefromCatherine'sembrace;whileshestoodbylikingverycontrite。
`Willyoushutthedoor,ifyouplease?youleftitopen;andthose——thosedetestablecreatureswon'tbringcoalstothefire。It'ssocold!'
Istirredupthecinders,andfetchedascuttlefulmyself。Theinvalidcomplainedofbeingcoveredwithashes;buthehadatiresomecough,andlookedfeverishandill,soIdidnotrebukehistemper。
`Well,Linton,'murmuredCatherine,whenhiscorrugatedbrowrelaxed。
`Areyougladtoseeme?CanIdoyouanygood?'
`Whydidn'tyoucomebefore?'heasked。`Youshouldhavecome,insteadofwriting。Ittiredmedreadfully,writingthoselongletters。
I'dfarratherhavetalkedtoyou。Now,Icanneitherbeartotalk,noranythingelse。IwonderwhereZillahis!Willyoulookingatmestepintothekitchenandsee?'
Ihadreceivednothanksformyotherservice;andbeingunwillingtorunouttoandfroathisbehest,Ireplied:
`NobodyisouttherebutJoseph。'
`Iwanttodrink,'heexclaimedfretfully,turningaway。`ZillahisconstantlygaddingofftoGimmertonsincepapawent:it'smiserable!
AndI'mobligedtocomedownhere——theyresolvednevertohearmeupstairs。'
`Isyourfatherattentivetoyou,MasterHeathcliff?'Iasked,perceivingCatherinetobecheckedinherfriendlyadvances。
`Attentive?Hemakesthemalittlemoreattentiveatleast,'
hecried。`Thewretches!Doyouknow,MissLinton,thatbruteHaretonlaughsatme!Ihatehim!indeed,Ihatethemall:theyareodiousbeings。'
Cathybegansearchingforsomewater;shelightedonapitcherinthedresser,filledatumbler,andbroughtit。Hebidheraddaspoonfulofwinefromabottleonthetable;andhavingswallowedasmallportion,appearedmoretranquil,andsaidshewasverykind。
`Andareyougladtoseeme?'askedshe,reiteratingherformerquestion,andpleasedtodetectthefaintdawnofasmile。
`Yes,Iam。It'ssomethingnewtohearavoicelikeyours!'hereplied。`ButIhavebeenvexed,becauseyouwouldn'tcome。Andpapasworeitwasowingtome:hecalledmeapitiful,shuffling,worthlessthing;andsaidyoudespisedme;andifhehadbeeninmyplace,hewouldbemorethemasteroftheGrangethanyourfather,bythistime。Butyoudon'tdespiseme,doyou,Miss——
`IwishyouwouldsayCatherine,orCathy,'interruptedmyyounglady。`Despiseyou?No!NexttopapaandEllen,Iloveyoubetterthananybodyliving。Idon'tloveMrHeathcliff,though;andIdarenotcomewhenhereturns;willhestayawaymanydays?'
`Notmany,'answeredLinton;`buthegoesontothemoorsfrequently,sincetheshootingseasoncommenced;andyoumightspendanhourortwowithmeinhisabsence。Dosayyouwill。IthinkIshouldnotbepeevishwithyou:you'dnotprovokeme,andyou'dalwaysbereadytohelpme,wouldn'tyou?'
`Yes,'saidCatherine,strokinghislongsofthair;`ifIcouldonlygetpapa'sconsent,I'dspendhalfmytimewithyou。PrettyLinton!
Iwishyouweremybrother。'
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