首页 >出版文学> WIELAND,OR THE TRANSFORMATION>第9章
  Ihavealreadysaid,thattheentranceintothisclosetwasbesidemybed,which,ontwosides,wascloselyshrowdedbycurtains。Onthatsidenearestthecloset,thecurtainwasraised。AsIpassedalongIcastmyeyethither。Istarted,andlookedagain。Iborealightinmyhand,andbroughtitnearermyeyes,inordertodispelanyillusivemiststhatmighthavehoveredbeforethem。OncemoreIfixedmyeyesuponthebed,inhopethatthismorestedfastscrutinywouldannihilatetheobjectwhichbeforeseemedtobethere。
  ThisthenwasthesightwhichCarwinhadpredicted!Thiswastheeventwhichmyunderstandingwastofindinexplicable!Thiswasthefatewhichhadbeenreservedforme,butwhich,bysomeuntowardchance,hadbefallenonanother!
  Ihadnotbeenterrifiedbyemptymenaces。Violationanddeathawaitedmyentranceintothischamber。SomeinscrutablechancehadledHERhitherbeforeme,andthemercilessfangsofwhichIwasdesignedtobetheprey,hadmistakentheirvictim,andhadfixedthemselvesinHERheart。Butwherewasmysafety?Wasthemischiefexhaustedorflown?Thestepsoftheassassinhadjustbeenhere;theycouldnotbefaroff;
  inamomenthewouldrushintomypresence,andIshouldperishunderthesamepollutingandsuffocatinggrasp!
  Myframeshook,andmykneeswereunabletosupportme。I
  gazedalternatelyattheclosetdoorandatthedoorofmyroom。
  Atoneoftheseavenueswouldentertheexterminatorofmyhonorandmylife。Iwaspreparedfordefence;butnowthatdangerwasimminent,mymeansofdefence,andmypowertousethemweregone。Iwasnotqualified,byeducationandexperience,toencounterperilslikethese:or,perhaps,IwaspowerlessbecauseIwasagainassaultedbysurprize,andhadnotfortifiedmymindbyforesightandpreviousreflectionagainstascenelikethis。
  Fearsformyownsafetyagainyieldedplacetoreflectionsonthescenebeforeme。Ifixedmyeyesuponhercountenance。Mysister'swell-knownandbelovedfeaturescouldnotbeconcealedbyconvulsionorlividness。Whatdirefulillusionledtheehither?Bereftofthee,whatholdonhappinessremainstothyoffspringandthyspouse?Tolosetheebyacommonfatewouldhavebeensufficientlyhard;butthussuddenlytoperish——tobecomethepreyofthisghastlydeath!HowwillaspectaclelikethisbeenduredbyWieland?Todiebeneathhisgraspwouldnotsatisfythyenemy。Thiswasmercytotheevilswhichhepreviouslymadetheesuffer!Aftertheseevilsdeathwasaboonwhichthoubesoughtesthimtogrant。Heentertainednoenmityagainstthee:Iwastheobjectofhistreason;butbysometremendousmistakehisfurywasmisplaced。Buthowcomestthouhither?andwherewasWielandinthyhourofdistress?
  Iapproachedthecorpse:Iliftedthestillflexiblehand,andkissedthelipswhichwerebreathless。Herflowingdraperywasdiscomposed。Irestoredittoorder,andseatingmyselfonthebed,againfixedstedfasteyesuponhercountenance。I
  cannotdistinctlyrecollecttheruminationsofthatmoment。I
  sawconfusedly,butforcibly,thateveryhopewasextinguishedwiththelifeofCATHARINE。AllhappinessanddignitymusthenceforthbebanishedfromthehouseandnameofWieland:allthatremainedwastolingeroutinagoniesashortexistence;
  andleavetotheworldamonumentofblastedhopesandchangeablefortune。Pleyelwasalreadylosttome;yet,whileCatharinelivedlifewasnotadetestablepossession:butnow,severedfromthecompanionofmyinfancy,thepartakerofallmythoughts,mycares,andmywishes,Iwaslikeonesetafloatuponastormysea,andhanginghissafetyuponaplank;nightwasclosinguponhim,andanunexpectedsurgehadtornhimfromhisholdandoverwhelmedhimforever。
  ChapterXVII
  Ihadnoinclinationnorpowertomovefromthisspot。Formorethananhour,myfacultiesandlimbsseemedtobedeprivedofallactivity。Thedoorbelowcreakedonitshinges,andstepsascendedthestairs。Mywanderingandconfusedthoughtswereinstantlyrecalledbythesesounds,anddroppingthecurtainofthebed,Imovedtoapartoftheroomwhereanyonewhoenteredshouldbevisible;sucharethevibrationsofsentiment,thatnotwithstandingtheseemingfulfilmentofmyfears,andincreaseofmydanger,Iwasconscious,onthisoccasion,tonoturbulencebutthatofcuriosity。
  Atlengthheenteredtheapartment,andIrecognizedmybrother。ItwasthesameWielandwhomIhadeverseen。Yethisfeatureswerepervadedbyanewexpression。Isupposedhimunacquaintedwiththefateofhiswife,andhisappearanceconfirmedthispersuasion。AbrowexpandingintoexultationI
  hadhithertoneverseeninhim,yetsuchabrowdidhenowwear。
  Notonlywasheunapprizedofthedisasterthathadhappened,butsomejoyousoccurrencehadbetided。Whatareversewaspreparingtoannihilatehistransitorybliss!Nohusbandeverdoatedmorefondly,fornowifeeverclaimedsoboundlessadevotion。Iwasnotuncertainastotheeffectstoflowfromthediscoveryofherfate。Iconfidednotatallintheeffortsofhisreasonorhispiety。Therewerefewevilswhichhismodesofthinkingwouldnotdisarmoftheirsting;buthere,allopiatestogrief,andallcompellersofpatiencewerevain。
  Thisspectaclewouldbeunavoidablyfollowedbytheoutragesofdesperation,andarushingtodeath。
  Forthepresent,Ineglectedtoaskmyselfwhatmotivebroughthimhither。Iwasonlyfearfuloftheeffectstoflowfromthesightofthedead。Yetcoulditbelongconcealedfromhim?Sometimeandspeedilyhewouldobtainthisknowledge。Nostratagemscouldconsiderablyorusefullyprolonghisignorance。
  Allthatcouldbesoughtwastotakeawaytheabruptnessofthechange,andshutouttheconfusionofdespair,andtheinroadsofmadness:butIknewmybrother,andknewthatallexertionstoconsolehimwouldbefruitless。
  WhatcouldIsay?Iwasmute,andpouredforththosetearsonhisaccount,whichmyownunhappinesshadbeenunabletoextort。Inthemidstofmytears,Iwasnotunobservantofhismotions。Thesewereofanaturetorousesomeothersentimentthangriefor,atleast,tomixwithitaportionofastonishment。
  Hiscountenancesuddenlybecametroubled。Hishandswereclaspedwithaforcethatlefttheprintofhisnailsinhisflesh。Hiseyeswerefixedonmyfeet。Hisbrainseemedtoswellbeyonditscontinent。Hedidnotceasetobreathe,buthisbreathwasstifledintogroans。Ihadneverwitnessedthehurricaneofhumanpassions。Myelementhad,tilllately,beenallsunshineandcalm。Iwasunconversantwiththealtitudesandenergiesofsentiment,andwastransfixedwithinexplicablehorrorbythesymptomswhichInowbeheld。
  AfterasilenceandaconflictwhichIcouldnotinterpret,heliftedhiseyestoheaven,andinbrokenaccentsexclaimed,"Thisistoomuch!Anyvictimbutthis,andthywillbedone。
  HaveInotsufficientlyattestedmyfaithandmyobedience?Shethatisgone,theythathaveperished,werelinkedwithmysoulbytieswhichonlythycommandwouldhavebroken;buthereissanctityandexcellencesurpassinghuman。Thisworkmanshipisthine,anditcannotbethywilltoheapitintoruins。"
  Heresuddenlyunclaspinghishands,hestruckoneofthemagainsthisforehead,andcontinued——"Wretch!whomadetheequicksightedinthecouncilsofthyMaker?Deliverancefrommortalfettersisawardedtothisbeing,andthouarttheministerofthisdecree。"
  Sosaying,Wielandadvancedtowardsme。Hiswordsandhismotionswerewithoutmeaning,exceptononesupposition。ThedeathofCatharinewasalreadyknowntohim,andthatknowledge,asmighthavebeensuspected,haddestroyedhisreason。Ihadfearednothingless;butnowthatIbeheldtheextinctionofamindthemostluminousandpenetratingthateverdignifiedthehumanform,mysensationswerefraughtwithnewandinsupportableanguish。
  Ihadnottimetoreflectinwhatwaymyownsafetywouldbeeffectedbythisrevolution,orwhatIhadtodreadfromthewildconceptionsofamadman。Headvancedtowardsme。Somehollownoiseswerewaftedbythebreeze。Confusedclamoursweresucceededbymanyfeettraversingthegrass,andthencrowdingintOthepiazza。
  Thesesoundssuspendedmybrother'spurpose,andhestoodtolisten。Thesignalsmultipliedandgrewlouder;perceivingthis,heturnedfromme,andhurriedoutofmysight。Allaboutmewaspregnantwithmotivestoastonishment。Mysister'scorpse,Wieland'sfranticdemeanour,and,atlength,thiscrowdofvisitantssolittleaccordedwithmyforesight,thatmymentalprogresswasstopped。Theimpulsehadceasedwhichwasaccustomedtogivemotionandordertomythoughts。
  Footstepsthrongeduponthestairs,andpresentlymanyfacesshewedthemselveswithinthedoorofmyapartment。Theselookswerefullofalarmandwatchfulness。Theypryedintocornersasifinsearchofsomefugitive;nexttheirgazewasfixeduponme,andbetokenedallthevehemenceofterrorandpity。ForatimeIquestionedwhetherthesewerenotshapesandfaceslikethatwhichIhadseenatthebottomofthestairs,creaturesofmyfancyorairyexistences。
  Myeyewanderedfromonetoanother,tillatlengthitfellonacountenancewhichIwellknew。ItwasthatofMr。Hallet。
  Thismanwasadistantkinsmanofmymother,venerableforhisage,hisuprightness,andsagacity。Hehadlongdischargedthefunctionsofamagistrateandgoodcitizen。Ifanyterrorsremained,hispresencewassufficienttodispelthem。
  Heapproached,tookmyhandwithacompassionateair,andsaidinalowvoice,"Where,mydearClara,areyourbrotherandsister?"Imadenoanswer,butpointedtothebed。Hisattendantsdrewasidethecurtain,andwhiletheireyesglaredwithhorroratthespectaclewhichtheybeheld,thoseofMr。
  Halletoverflowedwithtears。
  Afterconsiderablepause,heoncemoreturnedtome。"Mydeargirl,thissightisnotforyou。Canyouconfideinmycare,andthatofMrs。Baynton's?Wewillseeperformedallthatcircumstancesrequire。"
  Imadestrenuousoppositiontothisrequest。Iinsistedonremainingnearhertillshewereinterred。Hisremonstrances,however,andmyownfeelings,shewedmetheproprietyofatemporarydereliction。Louisastoodinneedofacomforter,andmybrother'schildrenofanurse。Myunhappybrotherwashimselfanobjectofsolicitudeandcare。Atlength,I
  consentedtorelinquishthecorpse,andgotomybrother's,whosehouse,Isaid,wouldneedmistress,andhischildrenaparent。
  Duringthisdiscourse,myvenerablefriendstruggledwithhistears,butmylastintimationcalledthemforthwithfreshviolence。Meanwhile,hisattendantsstoodroundinmournfulsilence,gazingonmeandateachother。Irepeatedmyresolution,androsetoexecuteit;buthetookmyhandtodetainme。Hiscountenancebetrayedirresolutionandreluctance。Irequestedhimtostatethereasonofhisoppositiontothismeasure。Ientreatedhimtobeexplicit。I
  toldhimthatmybrotherhadjustbeenthere,andthatIknewhiscondition。Thismisfortunehaddrivenhimtomadness,andhisoffspringmustnotwantaprotector。Ifhechose,IwouldresignWielandtohiscare;buthisinnocentandhelplessbabesstoodininstantneedofnurseandmother,andtheseofficesI
  wouldbynomeansallowanothertoperformwhileIhadlife。
  EverywordthatIutteredseemedtoaugmenthisperplexityanddistress。Atlasthesaid,"Ithink,Clara,Ihaveentitledmyselftosomeregardfromyou。Youhaveprofessedyourwillingnesstoobligeme。NowIcalluponyoutoconferuponmethehighestobligationinyourpower。PermitMrs。Bayntontohavethemanagementofyourbrother'shousefortwoorthreedays;thenitshallbeyourstoactinitasyouplease。Nomatterwhataremymotivesinmakingthisrequest:perhapsI
  thinkyourage,yoursex,orthedistresswhichthisdisastermustoccasion,incapacitatesyoufortheoffice。SurelyyouhavenodoubtofMrs。Baynton'stendernessordiscretion。"
  Newideasnowrushedintomymind。IfixedmyeyesstedfastlyonMr。Hallet。"Aretheywell?"saidI。"IsLouisawell?AreBenjamin,andWilliam,andConstantine,andLittleClara,aretheysafe?Tellmetruly,Ibeseechyou!"
  "Theyarewell,"hereplied;"theyareperfectlysafe。"
  "Fearnoeffeminateweaknessinme:Icanbeartohearthetruth。Tellmetruly,aretheywell?"
  Heagainassuredmethattheywerewell。
  "Whatthen,"resumedI,"doyoufear?Isitpossibleforanycalamitytodisqualifymeforperformingmydutytothesehelplessinnocents?IamwillingtodividethecareofthemwithMrs。Baynton;Ishallbegratefulforhersympathyandaid;
  butwhatshouldIbetodesertthematanhourlikethis!"
  Iwillcutshortthisdistressfuldialogue。Istillpersistedinmypurpose,andhestillpersistedinhisopposition。Thisexcitedmysuspicionsanew;butthesewereremovedbysolemndeclarationsoftheirsafety。Icouldnotexplainthisconductinmyfriend;butatlengthconsentedtogotothecity,providedIshouldseethemforafewminutesatpresent,andshouldreturnonthemorrow。
  Eventhisarrangementwasobjectedto。Atlengthhetoldmetheywereremovedtothecity。Whyweretheyremoved,Iasked,andwhither?Myimportunitieswouldnotnowbeeluded。Mysuspicionswereroused,andnoevasionorartificewassufficienttoallaythem。Manyoftheaudiencebegantogiveventtotheiremotionsintears。Mr。Hallethimselfseemedasiftheconflictweretoohardtobelongersustained。SomethingwhisperedtomyheartthathavochadbeenwiderthanInowwitnessed。Isuspectedthisconcealmenttoarisefromapprehensionsoftheeffectswhichaknowledgeofthetruthwouldproduceinme。Ioncemoreentreatedhimtoinformmetrulyoftheirstate。Toenforcemyentreaties,Iputonanairofinsensibility。"Icanguess,"saidI,"whathashappened——Theyareindeedbeyondthereachofinjury,fortheyaredead!Isitnotso?"Myvoicefalteredinspiteofmycourageousefforts。
  "Yes,"saidhe,"theyaredead!Deadbythesamefate,andbythesamehand,withtheirmother!"
  "Dead!"repliedI;"what,all?"
  "All!"repliedhe:"hesparedNOTONE!"
  Allowme,myfriends,toclosemyeyesupontheafter-scene。
  WhyshouldIprotractatalewhichIalreadybegintofeelistoolong?Overthissceneatleastletmepasslightly。Here,indeed,mynarrativewouldbeimperfect。Allwastempestuouscommotioninmyheartandinmybrain。Ihavenomemoryforoughtbutunconscioustransitionsandruefulsights。Iwasingeniousandindefatigableintheinventionoftorments。I
  wouldnotdispensewithanyspectacleadaptedtoexasperatemygrief。EachpaleandmangledformIcrushedtomybosom。
  Louisa,whomIlovedwithsoineffableapassion,wasdeniedtomeatfirst,butmyobstinacyconqueredtheirreluctance。
  Theyledthewayintoadarkenedhall。Alamppendantfromtheceilingwasuncovered,andtheypointedtoatable。Theassassinhaddefraudedmeofmylastandmiserableconsolation。
  Isoughtnotinhervisage,forthetingeofthemorning,andthelustreofheaven。Thesehadvanishedwithlife;butIhopedforlibertytoprintalastkissuponherlips。Thiswasdeniedme;forsuchhadbeenthemercilessblowthatdestroyedher,thatnotaLINEAMENTREMAINED!
  Iwascarriedhencetothecity。Mrs。Halletwasmycompanionandmynurse。WhyshouldIdwellupontherageoffever,andtheeffusionsofdelirium?Carwinwasthephantomthatpursuedmydreams,thegiantoppressorunderwhosearmI
  wasforeveronthepointofbeingcrushed。Strenuousmuscleswererequiredtohindermyflight,andheartsofsteeltowithstandtheeloquenceofmyfears。InvainIcalleduponthemtolookupward,tomarkhissparklingrageandscowlingcontempt。AllIsoughtwastoflyfromthestrokethatwaslifted。ThenIheapeduponmyguardsthemostvehementreproaches,orbetookmyselftowailingsonthehaplessnessofmycondition。
  Thismalady,atlength,declined,andmyweepingfriendsbegantolookformyrestoration。Slowly,andwithintermittedbeams,memoryrevisitedme。ThescenesthatIhadwitnessedwererevived,becamethethemeofdeliberationanddeduction,andcalledforththeeffusionsofmorerationalsorrow。
  ChapterXVIII
  Ihadimperfectlyrecoveredmystrength,whenIwasinformedofthearrivalofmymother'sbrother,ThomasCambridge。Tenyearssince,hewenttoEurope,andwasasurgeonintheBritishforcesinGermany,duringthewholeofthelatewar。Afteritsconclusion,someconnectionthathehadformedwithanIrishofficer,madehimretireintoIreland。Intercoursehadbeenpunctuallymaintainedbyletterswithhissister'schildren,andhopesweregiventhathewouldshortlyreturntohisnativecountry,andpasshisoldageinoursociety。Hewasnowinanevilhourarrived。
  Idesiredaninterviewwithhimfornumerousandurgentreasons。WiththefirstreturnsofmyunderstandingIhadanxiouslysoughtinformationofthefateofmybrother。DuringthecourseofmydiseaseIhadneverseenhim;andvagueandunsatisfactoryanswerswerereturnedtoallmyinquires。IhadvehementlyinterrogatedMrs。Halletandherhusband,andsolicitedaninterviewwiththisunfortunateman;buttheymysteriouslyinsinuatedthathisreasonwasstillunsettled,andthathiscircumstancesrenderedaninterviewimpossible。Theirreserveontheparticularsofthisdestruction,andtheauthorofit,wasequallyinvincible。
  Forsometime,findingallmyeffortsfruitless,Ihaddesistedfromdirectinquiriesandsolicitations,determined,assoonasmystrengthwassufficientlyrenewed,topursueothermeansofdispellingmyuncertainty。Inthisstateofthingsmyuncle'sarrivalandintentiontovisitmewereannounced。I
  almostshudderedtobeholdthefaceofthisman。WhenI
  reflectedonthedisastersthathadbefallenus,Iwashalfunwillingtowitnessthatdejectionandgriefwhichwouldbedisclosedinhiscountenance。ButIbelievedthatalltransactionshadbeenthoroughlydisclosedtohim,andconfidedinmyimportunitytoextortfromhimtheknowledgethatI
  sought。
  Ihadnodoubtastothepersonofourenemy;butthemotivesthaturgedhimtoperpetratethesehorrors,themeansthatheused,andhispresentcondition,weretotallyunknown。Itwasreasonabletoexpectsomeinformationonthishead,frommyuncle。Ithereforewaitedhiscomingwithimpatience。Atlength,intheduskoftheevening,andinmysolitarychamber,thismeetingtookplace。
  Thismanwasournearestrelation,andhadevertreateduswiththeaffectionofaparent。Ourmeeting,therefore,couldnotbewithoutoverflowingtendernessandgloomyjoy。HeratherencouragedthanrestrainedthetearsthatIpouredoutinhisarms,andtookuponhimselfthetaskofcomforter。Allusionstorecentdisasterscouldnotbelongomitted。Onetopicfacilitatedtheadmissionofanother。Atlength,ImentionedanddeploredtheignoranceinwhichIhadbeenkeptrespectingmybrother'sdestiny,andthecircumstancesofourmisfortunes。
  IentreatedhimtotellmewhatwasWieland'scondition,andwhatprogresshadbeenmadeindetectingorpunishingtheauthorofthisunheard-ofdevastation。
  "Theauthor!"saidhe;"Doyouknowtheauthor?"
  "Alas!"Ianswered,"Iamtoowellacquaintedwithhim。Thestoryofthegroundsofmysuspicionswouldbepainfulandtoolong。Iamnotapprizedoftheextentofyourpresentknowledge。TherearenonebutWieland,Pleyel,andmyself,whoareabletorelatecertainfacts。"
  "Spareyourselfthepain,"saidhe。"AllthatWielandandPleyelcancommunicate,Iknowalready。Ifanythingofmomenthasfallenwithinyourownexclusiveknowledge,andtherelationbenottooarduousforyourpresentstrength,IconfessIamdesirousofhearingit。PerhapsyoualludetoonebythenameofCarwin。Iwillanticipateyourcuriositybysaying,thatsincethesedisasters,noonehasseenorheardofhim。Hisagencyis,therefore,amysterystillunsolved。"
  Ireadilycompliedwithhisrequest,andrelatedasdistinctlyasIcould,thoughingeneralterms,theeventstransactedinthesummer-houseandmychamber。HelistenedwithoutapparentsurprizetothetaleofPleyel'serrorsandsuspicions,andwithaugmentedseriousness,tomynarrativeofthewarningsandinexplicablevision,andtheletterfounduponthetable。Iwaitedforhiscomments。
  "Yougatherfromthis,"saidhe,"thatCarwinistheauthorofallthismisery。"
  "Isitnot,"answeredI,"anunavoidableinference?Butwhatknowyourespectingit?Wasitpossibletoexecutethismischiefwithoutwitnessorcoadjutor?Ibeseechyoutorelatetome,whenandwhyMr。Halletwassummonedtothescene,andbywhomthisdisasterwasfirstsuspectedordiscovered。Surely,suspicionmusthavefallenuponsomeone,andpursuitwasmade。"
  Myunclerosefromhisseat,andtraversedthefloorwithhastysteps。Hiseyeswerefixedupontheground,andheseemedburiedinperplexity。Atlengthhepaused,andsaidwithanemphatictone,"Itistrue;theinstrumentisknown。Carwinmayhaveplotted,buttheexecutionwasanother's。Thatotherisfound,andhisdeedisascertained。"
  "Goodheaven!"Iexclaimed,"whatsayyou?WasnotCarwintheassassin?Couldanyhandbuthishavecarriedintoactthisdreadfulpurpose?"
  "HaveInotsaid,"returnedhe,"thattheperformancewasanother's?Carwin,perhaps,orheaven,orinsanity,promptedthemurderer;butCarwinisunknown。Theactualperformerhas,longsince,beencalledtojudgmentandconvicted,andis,atthismoment,atthebottomofadungeonloadedwithchains。"
  Iliftedmyhandsandeyes。"Whothenisthisassassin?Bywhatmeans,andwhitherwashetraced?Whatisthetestimonyofhisguilt?"
  "Hisown,corroboratedwiththatofaservant-maidwhospiedthemurderofthechildrenfromaclosetwhereshewasconcealed。Themagistratereturnedfromyourdwellingtoyourbrother's。Hewasemployedinhearingandrecordingthetestimonyoftheonlywitness,whenthecriminalhimself,unexpected,unsolicited,unsought,enteredthehall,acknowledgedhisguilt,andrenderedhimselfuptojustice。
  "Hehassincebeensummonedtothebar。Theaudiencewascomposedofthousandswhomrumoursofthiswonderfuleventhadattractedfromthegreatestdistance。Alongandimpartialexaminationwasmade,andtheprisonerwascalleduponforhisdefence。Incompliancewiththiscallhedeliveredanamplerelationofhismotivesandactions。"Therehestopped。
  Ibesoughthimtosaywhothiscriminalwas,andwhattheinstigationsthatcompelledhim。Myunclewassilent。Iurgedthisinquirywithnewforce。Irevertedtomyownknowledge,andsoughtinthissomebasistoconjecture。IranoverthescantycatalogueofthemenwhomIknew;Ilightedonnoonewhowasqualifiedforministeringtomalicelikethis。AgainI
  resortedtoimportunity。HadIeverseenthecriminal?Wasitsheercruelty,ordiabolicalrevengethatproducedthisoverthrow?
  Hesurveyedme,foraconsiderabletime,andlistenedtomyinterrogationsinsilence。Atlengthhespoke:"Clara,Ihaveknowntheebyreport,andinsomedegreebyobservation。Thouartabeingofnovulgarsort。Thyfriendshavehithertotreatedtheeasachild。Theymeantwell,but,perhaps,theywereunacquaintedwiththystrength。Iassuremyselfthatnothingwillsurpassthyfortitude。
  "Thouartanxioustoknowthedestroyerofthyfamily,hisactions,andhismotives。ShallIcallhimtothypresence,andpermithimtoconfessbeforethee?ShallImakehimthenarratorofhisowntale?"
  Istartedonmyfeet,andlookedroundmewithfearfulglances,asifthemurdererwascloseathand。"Whatdoyoumean?"saidI;"putanend,Ibeseechyou,tothissuspence。"
  "Benotalarmed;youwillnevermorebeholdthefaceofthiscriminal,unlesshebegiftedwithsupernaturalstrength,andseverlikethreadstheconstraintoflinksandbolts。Ihavesaidthattheassassinwasarraignedatthebar,andthatthetrialendedwithasummonsfromthejudgetoconfessortovindicatehisactions。Areplywasimmediatelymadewithsignificanceofgesture,andatranquilmajesty,whichdenotedlessofhumanitythangodhead。Judges,advocatesandauditorswerepanic-struckandbreathlesswithattention。Oneofthehearersfaithfullyrecordedthespeech。Thereitis,"continuedhe,puttingarollofpapersinmyhand,"youmayreaditatyourleisure。"
  Withthesewordsmyuncleleftmealone。Mycuriosityrefusedmeamoment'sdelay。Iopenedthepapers,andreadasfollows。
  ChapterXIX
  "TheodoreWieland,theprisoneratthebar,wasnowcalleduponforhisdefence。Helookedaroundhimforsometimeinsilence,andwithamildcountenance。Atlengthhespoke:
  "Itisstrange;Iamknowntomyjudgesandmyauditors。WhoistherepresentastrangertothecharacterofWieland?whoknowshimnotasanhusband——asafather——asafriend?yethereamIarraignedascriminal。Iamchargedwithdiabolicalmalice;Iamaccusedofthemurderofmywifeandmychildren!
  "Itistrue,theywereslainbyme;theyallperishedbymyhand。Thetaskofvindicationisignoble。WhatisitthatIamcalledtovindicate?andbeforewhom?
  "Youknowthattheyaredead,andthattheywerekilledbyme。Whatmorewouldyouhave?Wouldyouextortfrommeastatementofmymotives?Haveyoufailedtodiscoverthemalready?Youchargemewithmalice;butyoureyesarenotshut;
  yourreasonisstillvigorous;yourmemoryhasnotforsakenyou。
  Youknowwhomitisthatyouthuscharge。Thehabitsofhislifeareknowntoyou;histreatmentofhiswifeandhisoffspringisknowntoyou;thesoundnessofhisintegrity,andtheunchangeablenessofhisprinciples,arefamiliartoyourapprehension;yetyoupersistinthischarge!Youleadmehithermanacledasafelon;youdeemmeworthyofavileandtormentingdeath!
  "WhoaretheywhomIhavedevotedtodeath?Mywife——thelittleones,thatdrewtheirbeingfromme——thatcreaturewho,asshesurpassedtheminexcellence,claimedalargeraffectionthanthosewhomnaturalaffinitiesboundtomyheart。Thinkyethatmalicecouldhaveurgedmetothisdeed?Hideyouraudaciousfrontsfromthescrutinyofheaven。Takerefugeinsomecavernunvisitedbyhumaneyes。Yemaydeploreyourwickednessorfolly,butyecannotexpiateit。
  "ThinknotthatIspeakforyoursakes。Hugtoyourheartsthisdetestableinfatuation。Deemmestillamurderer,anddragmetountimelydeath。Imakenotanefforttodispelyourillusion:Iutternotawordtocureyouofyoursanguinaryfolly:butthereareprobablysomeinthisassemblywhohavecomefromfar:fortheirsakes,whosedistancehasdisabledthemfromknowingme,IwilltellwhatIhavedone,andwhy。
  "ItisneedlesstosaythatGodistheobjectofmysupremepassion。Ihavecherished,inhispresence,asingleanduprightheart。Ihavethirstedfortheknowledgeofhiswill。
  Ihaveburntwithardourtoapprovemyfaithandmyobedience。
  "Mydayshavebeenspentinsearchingfortherevelationofthatwill;butmydayshavebeenmournful,becausemysearchfailed。Isoliciteddirection:Iturnedoneverysidewhereglimmeringsoflightcouldbediscovered。Ihavenotbeenwhollyuninformed;butmyknowledgehasalwaysstoppedshortofcertainty。Dissatisfactionhasinsinuateditselfintoallmythoughts。Mypurposeshavebeenpure;mywishesindefatigable;
  butnottilllatelywerethesepurposesthoroughlyaccomplished,andthesewishesfullygratified。
  "Ithankthee,myfather,forthybounty;thatthoudidstnotaskalesssacrificethanthis;thatthouplacedstmeinaconditiontotestifymysubmissiontothywill!WhathaveI
  withheldwhichitwasthypleasuretoexact?NowmayI,withdauntlessanderecteye,claimmyreward,sinceIhavegiventheethetreasureofmysoul。
  "Iwasatmyownhouse:itwaslateintheevening:mysisterhadgonetothecity,butproposedtoreturn。ItwasinexpectationofherreturnthatmywifeandIdelayedgoingtobedbeyondtheusualhour;therestofthefamily,however,wereretired。
  "Mymindwascontemplativeandcalm;notwhollydevoidofapprehensiononaccountofmysister'ssafety。Recentevents,noteasilyexplained,hadsuggestedtheexistenceofsomedanger;butthisdangerwaswithoutadistinctforminourimagination,andscarcelyruffledourtranquillity。
  "Timepassed,andmysisterdidnotarrive;herhouseisatsomedistancefrommine,andthoughherarrangementshadbeenmadewithaviewtoresidingwithus,itwaspossiblethat,throughforgetfulness,ortheoccurrenceofunforeseenemergencies,shehadreturnedtoherowndwelling。
  "HenceitwasconceivedproperthatIshouldascertainthetruthbygoingthither。Iwent。Onmywaymymindwasfulloftheseideaswhichrelatedtomyintellectualcondition。Inthetorrentoffervidconceptions,Ilostsightofmypurpose。SometimesIstoodstill;sometimesIwanderedfrommypath,andexperiencedsomedifficulty,onrecoveringfrommyfitofmusing,toregainit。
  "Theseriesofmythoughtsiseasilytraced。Atfirsteveryveinbeatwithrapturesknownonlytothemanwhoseparentalandconjugalloveiswithoutlimits,andthecupofwhosedesires,immenseasitis,overflowswithgratification。Iknownotwhyemotionsthatwereperpetualvisitantsshouldnowhaverecurredwithunusualenergy。Thetransitionwasnotnewfromsensationsofjoytoaconsciousnessofgratitude。Theauthorofmybeingwaslikewisethedispenserofeverygiftwithwhichthatbeingwasembellished。Theservicetowhichabenefactorlikethiswasentitled,couldnotbecircumscribed。Mysocialsentimentswereindebtedtotheiralliancewithdevotionforalltheirvalue。Allpassionsarebase,alljoysfeeble,allenergiesmalignant,whicharenotdrawnfromthissource。
  "Foratime,mycontemplationssoaredaboveearthanditsinhabitants。Istretchedforthmyhands;Iliftedmyeyes,andexclaimed,O!thatImightbeadmittedtothypresence;thatminewerethesupremedelightofknowingthywill,andofperformingit!Theblissfulprivilegeofdirectcommunicationwiththee,andoflisteningtotheaudibleenunciationofthypleasure!
  "WhattaskwouldInotundertake,whatprivationwouldInotcheerfullyendure,totestifymyloveofthee?Alas!thouhidestthyselffrommyview:glimpsesonlyofthyexcellenceandbeautyareaffordedme。Wouldthatamomentaryemanationfromthyglorywouldvisitme!thatsomeunambiguoustokenofthypresencewouldsalutemysenses!
  "Inthismood,Ienteredthehouseofmysister。Itwasvacant。ScarcelyhadIregainedrecollectionofthepurposethatbroughtmehither。Thoughtsofadifferenttendencyhadsuchabsolutepossessionofmymind,thattherelationsoftimeandspacewerealmostobliteratedfrommyunderstanding。Thesewanderings,however,wererestrained,andIascendedtoherchamber。
  "Ihadnolight,andmighthaveknownbyexternalobservation,thatthehousewaswithoutanyinhabitant。Withthis,however,Iwasnotsatisfied。Ienteredtheroom,andtheobjectofmysearchnotappearing,Ipreparedtoreturn。
  "Thedarknessrequiredsomecautionindescendingthestair。
  IstretchedmyhandtoseizethebalustradebywhichImightregulatemysteps。HowshallIdescribethelustre,which,atthatmoment,burstuponmyvision!
  "Iwasdazzled。Myorganswerebereavedoftheiractivity。
  Myeye-lidswerehalf-closed,andmyhandswithdrawnfromthebalustrade。Anamelessfearchilledmyveins,andIstoodmotionless。Thisirradiationdidnotretireorlessen。Itseemedasifsomepowerfuleffulgencecoveredmelikeamantle。
  "Iopenedmyeyesandfoundallaboutmeluminousandglowing。Itwastheelementofheaventhatflowedaround。
  Nothingbutafierystreamwasatfirstvisible;but,anon,ashrillvoicefrombehindcalleduponmetoattend。
  "Iturned:ItisforbiddentodescribewhatIsaw:Words,indeed,wouldbewantingtothetask。Thelineamentsofthatbeing,whoseveilwasnowlifted,andwhosevisagebeameduponmysight,nohuesofpenciloroflanguagecanpourtray。
  "Asitspoke,theaccentsthrilledtomyheart。"Thyprayersareheard。Inproofofthyfaith,rendermethywife。ThisisthevictimIchuse。Callherhither,andhereletherfall。"——Thesound,andvisage,andlightvanishedatonce。
  "Whatdemandwasthis?ThebloodofCatharinewastobeshed!Mywifewastoperishbymyhand!Isoughtopportunitytoattestmyvirtue。LittledidIexpectthataprooflikethiswouldhavebeendemanded。
  "Mywife!Iexclaimed:OGod!substitutesomeothervictim。
  Makemenotthebutcherofmywife。Myownbloodischeap。
  ThiswillIpouroutbeforetheewithawillingheart;butspare,Ibeseechthee,thispreciouslife,orcommissionsomeotherthanherhusbandtoperformthebloodydeed。
  "Invain。Theconditionswereprescribed;thedecreehadgoneforth,andnothingremainedbuttoexecuteit。Irushedoutofthehouseandacrosstheintermediatefields,andstoppednottillIenteredmyownparlour。