derivedfromtheseexploits;yetImeditatednothing。Myviewswereboundedtothepassingmoment,andcommonlysuggestedbythemomentaryexigence。
"Imustnotconcealanything。Yourprinciplesteachyoutoabhoravoluptuoustemper;but,withwhateverreluctance,I
acknowledgethistempertobemine。YouimagineyourservantJudithtobeinnocentaswellasbeautiful;butyoutookherfromafamilywherehypocrisy,aswellaslicentiousness,waswroughtintoasystem。Myattentionwascaptivatedbyhercharms,andherprincipleswereeasilyseentobeflexible。
"Deemmenotcapableoftheiniquityofseduction。Yourservantisnotdestituteoffeminineandvirtuousqualities;butshewastaughtthatthebestuseofhercharmsconsistsinthesaleofthem。MynocturnalvisitstoMettingenwerenowpromptedbyadoubleview,andmycorrespondencewithyourservantgaveme,atalltimes,accesstoyourhouse。
"Thesecondnightafterourinterview,sobriefandsolittleforeseenbyeitherofus,somedaemonofmischiefseizedme。
Accordingtomycompanion'sreport,yourperfectionswerelittlelessthandivine。Heruncouthbutcopiousnarrativesconvertedyouintoanobjectofworship。Shechieflydweltuponyourcourage,becausesheherselfwasdeficientinthatquality。Youheldapparitionsandgoblinsincontempt。Youtooknoprecautionsagainstrobbers。Youwerejustastranquilandsecureinthislonelydwelling,asifyouwereinthemidstofacrowd。
"Henceavagueprojectoccurredtome,toputthiscouragetothetest。Awomancapableofrecollectionindanger,ofwardingoffgroundlesspanics,ofdiscerningthetruemodeofproceeding,andprofitingbyherbestresources,isaprodigy。
Iwasdesirousofascertainingwhetheryouweresuchanone。
"Myexpedientwasobviousandsimple:Iwastocounterfeitamurderousdialogue;butthiswastobesoconductedthatanother,andnotyourself,shouldappeartobetheobject。I
wasnotawareofthepossibilitythatyoushouldappropriatethesemenacestoyourself。Hadyoubeenstillandlistened,youwouldhaveheardthestrugglesandprayersofthevictim,whowouldlikewisehaveappearedtobeshutupinthecloset,andwhosevoicewouldhavebeenJudith's。Thisscenewouldhavebeenanappealtoyourcompassion;andtheproofofcowardiceorcouragewhichIexpectedfromyou,wouldhavebeenyourremaininginactiveinyourbed,oryourenteringtheclosetwithaviewtoassistthesufferer。SomeinstanceswhichJudithrelatedofyourfearlessnessandpromptitudemademeadoptthelattersuppositionwithsomedegreeofconfidence。
"Bythegirl'sdirectionIfoundaladder,andmountedtoyourclosetwindow。Thisisscarcelylargeenoughtoadmitthehead,butitansweredmypurposetoowell。
"Icannotexpressmyconfusionandsurprizeatyourabruptandprecipitateflight。Ihastilyremovedtheladder;and,aftersomepause,curiosityanddoubtsofyoursafetyinducedmetofollowyou。Ifoundyoustretchedontheturfbeforeyourbrother'sdoor,withoutsenseormotion。Ifeltthedeepestregretatthisunlooked-forconsequenceofmyscheme。Iknewnotwhattodotoprocureyourelief。Theideaofawakeningthefamilynaturallypresenteditself。Thisemergencywascritical,andtherewasnotimetodeliberate。Itwasasuddenthoughtthatoccurred。Iputmylipstothekey-hole,andsoundedanalarmwhicheffectuallyrousedthesleepers。Myorganswerenaturallyforcible,andhadbeenimprovedbylongandassiduousexercise。
"LongandbitterlydidIrepentofmyscheme。Iwassomewhatconsoledbyreflectingthatmypurposehadnotbeenevil,andrenewedmyfruitlessvowsnevertoattemptsuchdangerousexperiments。ForsometimeIadhered,withlaudableforbearance,tothisresolution。
"Mylifehasbeenalifeofhardshipandexposure。InthesummerIprefertomakemybedofthesmoothturf,or,atmost,theshelterofasummer-housesuffices。InallmyramblesI
neverfoundaspotinwhichsomanypicturesquebeautiesandruraldelightswereassembledasatMettingen。Nocornerofyourlittledomainunitesfragranceandsecrecyinsoperfectadegreeastherecessinthebank。Theodourofitsleaves,thecoolnessofitsshade,andthemusicofitswater-fall,hadearlyattractedmyattention。Heremysadnesswasconvertedintopeacefulmelancholy——heremyslumbersweresound,andmypleasuresenhanced。
"Asmostfreefrominterruption,IchosethisasthesceneofmymidnightinterviewswithJudith。Oneevening,asthesundeclined,Iwasseatedhere,whenIwasalarmedbyyourapproach。ItwaswithdifficultythatIeffectedmyescapeunnoticedbyyou。
"Atthecustomaryhour,Ireturnedtoyourhabitation,andwasmadeacquaintedbyJudith,withyourunusualabsence。I
halfsuspectedthetruecause,andfeltuneasinessatthedangertherewasthatIshouldbedeprivedofmyretreat;or,atleast,interruptedinthepossessionofit。Thegirl,likewise,informedme,thatamongyourothersingularities,itwasnotuncommonforyoutoleaveyourbed,andwalkforthforthesakeofnight-airsandstarlightcontemplations。
"Idesiredtopreventthisinconvenience。Ifoundyoueasilyswayedbyfear。Iwasinfluenced,inmychoiceofmeans,bythefacilityandcertaintyofthattowhichIhadbeenaccustomed。
AllthatIforsawwas,that,infuture,thisspotwouldbecautiouslyshunnedbyyou。
"Ienteredtherecesswiththeutmostcaution,anddiscovered,byyourbreathings,inwhatconditionyouwere。Theunexpectedinterpretationwhichyouplaceduponmyformerproceeding,suggestedmyconductonthepresentoccasion。Themodeinwhichheavenissaidbythepoet,tointerfereforthepreventionofcrimes,**wassomewhatanalogoustomyprovince,andneverfailedtooccurtomeatseasonslikethis。Itwasrequisitetobreakyourslumbers,andforthisendIutteredthepowerfulmonosyllable,"hold!hold!"Mypurposewasnotprescribedbyduty,yetsurelyitwasfarfrombeingatrociousandinexpiable。Toeffectit,Iutteredwhatwasfalse,butitwaswellsuitedtomypurpose。Nothinglesswasintendedthantoinjureyou。Nay,theevilresultingfrommyformeract,waspartlyremovedbyassuringyouthatinallplacesbutthisyouweresafe。
*BILOQUIUM,orventrilocution。Soundisvariedaccordingtothevariationsofdirectionanddistance。Theartoftheventriloquistconsistsinmodifyinghisvoiceaccordingtoallthesevariations,withoutchanginghisplace。SeetheworkoftheAbbedelaChappelle,inwhichareaccuratelyrecordedtheperformancesofoneoftheseartists,andsomeingenious,thoughunsatisfactoryspeculationsaregivenonthemeansbywhichtheeffectsareproduced。Thispoweris,perhaps,givenbynature,butisdoubtlessimprovable,ifnotacquirable,byart。Itmay,possibly,consistinanunusualflexibilityorexertionofthebottomofthetongueandtheuvula。Thatspeechisproduciblebythesealonemustbegranted,sinceanatomistsmentiontwoinstancesofpersonsspeakingwithoutatongue。Inonecase,theorganwasoriginallywanting,butitsplacewassuppliedbyasmalltubercle,andtheuvulawasperfect。Intheother,thetonguewasdestroyedbydisease,butprobablyasmallpartofitremained。
Thispowerisdifficulttoexplain,butthefactisundeniable。Experienceshewsthatthehumanvoicecanimitatethevoiceofallmenandofallinferioranimals。Thesoundofmusicalinstruments,andevennoisesfromthecontactofinanimatesubstances,havebeenaccuratelyimitated。Themimicryofanimalsisnotorious;andDr。BurneyMusicalTravelsmentionsonewhoimitatedafluteandviolin,soastodeceiveevenhisears。
**——Peepsthroughtheblanketofthedark,andcriesHold!
Hold!——SHAKESPEARE。
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"Mymoralswillappeartoyoufarfromrigid,yetmyconductwillfallshortofyoursuspicions。Iamnowtoconfessactionslessexcusable,andyetsurelytheywillnotentitlemetothenameofadesperateorsordidcriminal。
"Yourhousewasrendered,byyourfrequentandlongabsences,easilyaccessibletomycuriosity。MymeetingwithPleyelwasthepreludetodirectintercoursewithyou。Ihadseenmuchoftheworld,butyourcharacterexhibitedaspecimenofhumanpowersthatwaswhollynewtome。Myintercoursewithyourservantfurnishedmewithcuriousdetailsofyourdomesticmanagement。Iwasofadifferentsex:Iwasnotyourhusband;
Iwasnotevenyourfriend;yetmyknowledgeofyouwasofthatkind,whichconjugalintimaciescangive,and,insomerespects,moreaccurate。Theobservationofyourdomesticwasguidedbyme。
"YouwillnotbesurprizedthatIshouldsometimesprofitbyyourabsence,andadventuretoexaminewithmyowneyes,theinteriorofyourchamber。Uprightandsincere,youusednowatchfulness,andpractisednoprecautions。Iscrutinizedeverything,andpriedeverywhere。Yourclosetwasusuallylocked,butitwasoncemyfortunetofindthekeyonabureau。I
openedandfoundnewscopeformycuriosityinyourbooks。Oneofthesewasmanuscript,andwrittenincharacterswhichessentiallyagreedwithashort-handsystemwhichIhadlearnedfromaJesuitmissionary。
"Icannotjustifymyconduct,yetmyonlycrimewascuriosity。Iperusedthisvolumewitheagerness。Theintellectwhichitunveiled,wasbrighterthanmylimitedandfeebleorganscouldbear。Iwasnaturallyinquisitiveastoyourideasrespectingmydeportment,andthemysteriesthathadlatelyoccurred。
"Youknowwhatyouhavewritten。Youknowthatinthisvolumethekeytoyourinmostsoulwascontained。IfIhadbeenaprofoundandmalignantimpostor,whatplenteousmaterialswerethusfurnishedmeofstratagemsandplots!
"Thecoincidenceofyourdreaminthesummer-housewithmyexclamation,wastrulywonderful。Thevoicewhichwarnedyoutoforbearwas,doubtless,mine;butmixedbyacommonprocessofthefancy,withthetrainofvisionaryincidents。
"Isawinastrongerlightthanever,thedangerousnessofthatinstrumentwhichIemployed,andrenewedmyresolutionstoabstainfromtheuseofitinfuture;butIwasdestinedperpetuallytoviolatemyresolutions。Bysomeperversefate,Iwasledintocircumstancesinwhichtheexertionofmypowerswasthesoleorthebestmeansofescape。
"Onthatmemorablenightonwhichourlastinterviewtookplace,IcameasusualtoMettingen。Iwasapprizedofyourengagementatyourbrother's,fromwhichyoudidnotexpecttoreturntilllate。Someincidentsuggestedthedesignofvisitingyourchamber。AmongyourbookswhichIhadnotexamined,mightbesomethingtendingtoillustrateyourcharacter,orthehistoryofyourfamily。Someintimationhadbeendroppedbyyouindiscourse,respectingaperformanceofyourfather,inwhichsomeimportanttransactioninhislifewasrecorded。
"Iwasdesirousofseeingthisbook;andsuchwasmyhabitualattachmenttomystery,thatIpreferredtheclandestineperusalofit。Suchwerethemotivesthatinducedmetomakethisattempt。Judithhaddisappeared,andfindingthehouseunoccupied,Isuppliedmyselfwithalight,andproceededtoyourchamber。
"Ifounditeasy,onexperiment,tolockandunlockyourclosetdoorwithouttheaidofakey。Ishutmyselfinthisrecess,andwasbusilyexploringyourshelves,whenIheardsomeoneentertheroombelow。Iwasatalosswhoitcouldbe,whetheryouoryourservant。Doubtful,however,asIwas,I
conceiveditprudenttoextinguishthelight。Scarcelywasthisdone,whensomeoneenteredthechamber。Thefootstepswereeasilydistinguishedtobeyours。
"Mysituationwasnowfullofdangerandperplexity。Forsometime,Icherishedthehopethatyouwouldleavetheroomsolongastoaffordmeanopportunityofescaping。Asthehourspassed,thishopegraduallydesertedme。Itwasplainthatyouhadretiredforthenight。
"Iknewnothowsoonyoumightfindoccasiontoenterthecloset。Iwasalivetoallthehorrorsofdetection,andruminatedwithoutceasing,onthebehaviourwhichitwouldbeproper,incaseofdetection,toadopt。Iwasunabletodiscoveranyconsistentmethodofaccountingformybeingthusimmured。
"ItoccurredtomethatImightwithdrawyoufromyourchamberforafewminutes,bycounterfeitingavoicefromwithout。Somemessagefromyourbrothermightbedelivered,requiringyourpresenceathishouse。IwasdeterredfromthisschemebyreflectingontheresolutionIhadformed,andonthepossibleevilsthatmightresultfromit。Besides,itwasnotimprobablethatyouwouldspeedilyretiretobed,andthen,bytheexerciseofsufficientcaution,Imighthopetoescapeunobserved。
"MeanwhileIlistenedwiththedeepestanxietytoeverymotionfromwithout。Idiscoverednothingwhichbetokenedpreparationforsleep。InsteadofthisIhearddeep-drawnsighs,andoccasionallyanhalf-expressedandmournfulejaculation。HenceIinferredthatyouwereunhappy。ThetruestateofyourmindwithregardtoPleyelyourownpenhaddisclosed;butIsupposedyoutobeframedofsuchmaterials,that,thoughamomentarysadnessmightaffectyou,youwereimpregnabletoanypermanentandheartfeltgrief。Inquietudeformyownsafetywas,foramoment,suspendedbysympathywithyourdistress。
"TotheformerconsiderationIwasquicklyrecalledbyamotionofyourswhichindicatedIknewnotwhat。Ifosteredthepersuasionthatyouwouldnowretiretobed;butpresentlyyouapproachedthecloset,anddetectionseemedtobeinevitable。
Youputyourhanduponthelock。Ihadformednoplantoextricatemyselffromthedilemmainwhichtheopeningofthedoorwouldinvolveme。Ifeltanirreconcilableaversiontodetection。Thussituated,Iinvoluntarilyseizedthedoorwitharesolutiontoresistyoureffortstoopenit。
"Suddenlyyourecededfromthedoor。Thisdeportmentwasinexplicable,butthereliefitaffordedmewasquicklygone。
Youreturned,andIoncemorewasthrownintoperplexity。Theexpedientthatsuggesteditselfwasprecipitateandinartificial。
IexertedmyorgansandcalleduponyouTOHOLD。
"Thatyoushouldpersistinspiteofthisadmonition,wasasubjectofastonishment。Iagainresistedyourefforts;forthefirstexpedienthavingfailed,Iknewnotwhatothertoresortto。Inthisstate,howwasmyastonishmentincreasedwhenI
heardyourexclamations!
"Itwasnowplainthatyouknewmetobewithin。Furtherresistancewasunavailinganduseless。Thedooropened,andI
shrunkbackward。SeldomhaveIfeltdeepermortification,andmorepainfulperplexity。IdidnotconsiderthatthetruthwouldbelessinjuriousthananyliewhichIcouldhastilyframe。ConsciousasIwasofacertaindegreeofguilt,I
conceivedthatyouwouldformthemostodioussuspicions。Thetruthwouldbeimperfect,unlessIwerelikewisetoexplainthemysteriousadmonitionwhichhadbeengiven;butthatexplanationwasoftoogreatmoment,andinvolvedtooextensiveconsequencestomakemesuddenlyresolvetogiveit。
"Iwasawarethatthisdiscoverywouldassociateitselfinyourmind,withthedialogueformerlyheardinthiscloset。
Thencewouldyoursuspicionsbeaggravated,andtoescapefromthesesuspicionswouldbeimpossible。Butthemeretruthwouldbesufficientlyopprobrious,anddeprivemeforeverofyourgoodopinion。
"ThuswasIrendereddesperate,andmymindrapidlypassedtothecontemplationoftheusethatmightbemadeofpreviousevents。Somegoodgeniuswouldappeartoyoutohaveinterposedtosaveyoufrominjuryintendedbyme。Why,Isaid,sinceI
mustsinkinheropinion,shouldInotcherishthisbelief?Whynotpersonateanenemy,andpretendthatcelestialinterferencehasfrustratedmyschemes?Imustfly,butletmeleavewonderandfearbehindme。Elucidationofthemysterywillalwaysbepracticable。Ishalldonoinjury,butmerelytalkofevilthatwasdesigned,butisnowpast。
"ThusIextenuatedmyconducttomyself,butIscarcelyexpectthatthiswillbetoyouasufficientexplicationofthescenethatfollowed。ThosehabitswhichIhaveimbibed,therootedpassionwhichpossessesmeforscatteringaroundmeamazementandfear,youenjoynoopportunitiesofknowing。Thatamanshouldwantonlyimputetohimselfthemostflagitiousdesigns,willhardlybecredited,eventhoughyoureflectthatmyreputationwasalready,bymyownfolly,irretrievablyruined;andthatitwasalwaysinmypowertocommunicatethetruth,andrectifythemistake。
"Ileftyoutoponderonthisscene。Mymindwasfullofrapidandincongruousideas。Compunction,self-upbraiding,hopelesness,satisfactionattheviewofthoseeffectslikelytoflowfrommynewscheme,misgivingsastothebeneficialresultofthisschemetookpossessionofmymind,andseemedtostruggleforthemastery。
"Ihadgonetoofartorecede。Ihadpaintedmyselftoyouasanassassinandravisher,withheldfromguiltonlybyavoicefromheaven。Ihadthusrevertedintothepathoferror,andnow,havinggonethusfar,myprogressseemedtobeirrevocable。
Isaidtomyself,Imustleavetheseprecinctsforever。MyactshaveblastedmyfameintheeyesoftheWielands。Forthesakeofcreatingamysteriousdread,Ihavemademyselfavillain。Imaycompletethismysteriousplanbysomenewimposture,butIcannotaggravatemysupposedguilt。
"Myresolutionwasformed,andIwasswiftlyruminatingonthemeansforexecutingit,whenPleyelappearedinsight。Thisincidentdecidedmyconduct。ItwasplainthatPleyelwasadevotedlover,buthewas,atthesametime,amanofcoldresolvesandexquisitesagacity。TodeceivehimwouldbethesweetesttriumphIhadeverenjoyed。Thedeceptionwouldbemomentary,butitwouldlikewisebecomplete。Thathisdelusionwouldsosoonberectified,wasarecommendationtomyscheme,forIesteemedhimtoomuchtodesiretoentailuponhimlastingagonies。
"Ihadnotimetoreflectfurther,forheproceeded,withaquickstep,towardsthehouse。Iwashurriedonwardinvoluntarilyandbyamechanicalimpulse。Ifollowedhimashepassedtherecessinthebank,andshrowdingmyselfinthatspot,IcounterfeitedsoundswhichIknewwouldarresthissteps。
"Hestopped,turned,listened,approached,andoverheardadialoguewhosepurposewastovanquishhisbeliefinapointwherehisbeliefwasmostdifficulttovanquish。Iexertedallmypowerstoimitateyourvoice,yourgeneralsentiments,andyourlanguage。Beingmaster,bymeansofyourjournal,ofyourpersonalhistoryandmostsecretthoughts,myeffortswerethemoresuccessful。WhenIreviewedthetenorofthisdialogue,I
cannotbelievebutthatPleyelwasdeluded。WhenIthinkofyourcharacter,andoftheinferenceswhichthisdialoguewasintendedtosuggest,itseemsincrediblethatthisdelusionshouldbeproduced。
"Isparednotmyself。Icalledmyselfmurderer,thief,guiltyofinnumerableperjuriesandmisdeeds:thatyouhaddebasedyourselftothelevelofsuchanone,noevidence,methought,wouldsufficetoconvincehimwhoknewyousothoroughlyasPleyel;andyettheimpostureamountedtoproofwhichthemostjealousscrutinywouldfindtobeunexceptionable。
"Helefthisstationprecipitatelyandresumedhiswaytothehouse。Isawthatthedetectionofhiserrorwouldbeinstantaneous,since,nothavinggonetobed,animmediateinterviewwouldtakeplacebetweenyou。Atfirstthiscircumstancewasconsideredwithregret;butastimeopenedmyeyestothepossibleconsequencesofthisscene,Iregardeditwithpleasure。
"Inashorttimetheinfatuationwhichhadledmethusfarbegantosubside。Theremembranceofformerreasoningsandtransactionswasrenewed。HowoftenIhadrepentedthiskindofexertion;howmanyevilswereproducedbyitwhichIhadnotforeseen;whatoccasionsforthebitterestremorseithadadministered,nowpassedthroughmymind。Theblackcatalogueofstratagemswasnowincreased。Ihadinspiredyouwiththemostvehementterrors:Ihadfilledyourmindwithfaithinshadowsandconfidenceindreams:IhaddepravedtheimaginationofPleyel:Ihadexhibitedyoutohisunderstandingasdevotedtobrutalgratificationsandconsummateinhypocrisy。
Theevidencewhichaccompaniedthisdelusionwouldbeirresistibletoonewhosepassionhadpervertedhisjudgment,whosejealousywithregardtomehadalreadybeenexcited,andwho,therefore,wouldnotfailtooverratetheforceofthisevidence。Whatfatalactofdespairorofvengeancemightnotthiserrorproduce?
"Withregardtomyself,Ihadactedwithaphrenzythatsurpassedbelief。Ihadwarredagainstmypeaceandmyfame:
Ihadbanishedmyselffromthefellowshipofvigorousandpureminds:Iwasself-expelledfromascenewhichthemunificenceofnaturehadadornedwithunrivalledbeauties,andfromhauntsinwhichallthemusesandhumanitieshadtakenrefuge。
"Iwasthustornbyconflictingfearsandtumultuousregrets。
Thenightpassedawayinthisstateofconfusion;andnextmorninginthegazetteleftatmyobscurelodging,Ireadadescriptionandanofferofrewardfortheapprehensionofmyperson。IwassaidtohaveescapedfromanIrishprison,inwhichIwasconfinedasanoffenderconvictedofenormousandcomplicatedcrimes。
"Thiswastheworkofanenemy,who,byfalsehoodandstratagem,hadprocuredmycondemnation。Iwas,indeed,aprisoner,butescaped,bytheexertionofmypowers,thefatetowhichIwasdoomed,butwhichIdidnotdeserve。Ihadhopedthatthemaliceofmyfoewasexhausted;butInowperceivedthatmyprecautionshadbeenwise,forthattheinterventionofanoceanwasinsufficientformysecurity。
"Letmenotdwellonthesensationswhichthisdiscoveryproduced。IneednottellbywhatstepsIwasinducedtoseekaninterviewwithyou,forthepurposeofdisclosingthetruth,andrepairing,asfaraspossible,theeffectsofmymisconduct。
Itwasunavoidablethatthisgazettewouldfallintoyourhands,andthatitwouldtendtoconfirmeveryerroneousimpression。
"Havinggainedthisinterview,Ipurposedtoseeksomeretreatinthewilderness,inaccessibletoyourinquiryandtothemaliceofmyfoe,whereImighthenceforthemploymyselfincomposingafaithfulnarrativeofmyactions。Idesigneditasmyvindicationfromtheaspersionsthathadrestedonmycharacter,andasalessontomankindontheevilsofcredulityontheonehand,andofimpostureontheother。
"Iwroteyouabillet,whichwasleftatthehouseofyourfriend,andwhichIknewwould,bysomemeans,speedilycometoyourhands。Ientertainedafainthopethatmyinvitationwouldbecompliedwith。Iknewnotwhatuseyouwouldmakeoftheopportunitywhichthisproposalaffordedyouofprocuringtheseizureofmyperson;butthisfateIwasdeterminedtoavoid,andIhadnodoubtbutduecircumspection,andtheexerciseofthefacultywhichIpossessed,wouldenablemetoavoidit。
"Ilurked,throughtheday,intheneighbourhoodofMettingen:Iapproachedyourhabitationattheappointedhour:
Ientereditinsilence,byatrap-doorwhichledintothecellar。Thishadformerlybeenboltedontheinside,butJudithhad,atanearlyperiodinourintercourse,removedthisimpediment。Iascendedtothefirstfloor,butmetwithnoone,noranythingthatindicatedthepresenceofanhumanbeing。
"Icreptsoftlyupstairs,andatlengthperceivedyourchamberdoortobeopened,andalighttobewithin。Itwasofmomenttodiscoverbywhomthislightwasaccompanied。Iwassensibleoftheinconvenienciestowhichmybeingdiscoveredatyourchamberdoorbyanyonewithinwouldsubjectme;I
thereforecalledoutinmyownvoice,butsomodifiedthatitshouldappeartoascendfromthecourtbelow,'Whoisinthechamber?IsitMissWieland?"
"Noanswerwasreturnedtothissummons。Ilistened,butnomotioncouldbeheard。AfterapauseIrepeatedmycall,butnolessineffectually。
"Inowapproachednearerthedoor,andadventuredtolookin。
Alightstoodonthetable,butnothinghumanwasdiscernible。
Ienteredcautiously,butallwassolitudeandstillness。
"Iknewnotwhattoconclude。Ifthehousewereinhabited,mycallwouldhavebeennoticed;yetsomesuspicioninsinuateditselfthatsilencewasstudiouslykeptbypersonswhointendedtosurprizeme。Myapproachhadbeenwary,andthesilencethatensuedmycallhadlikewiseprecededit;acircumstancethattendedtodissipatemyfears。
"AtlengthitoccurredtomethatJudithmightpossiblybeinherownroom。Iturnedmystepsthither;butshewasnottobefound。Ipassedintootherrooms,andwassoonconvincedthatthehousewastotallydeserted。Ireturnedtoyourchamber,agitatedbyvainsurmisesandoppositeconjectures。Theappointedhourhadpassed,andIdismissedthehopeofaninterview。
"InthisstateofthingsIdeterminedtoleaveafewlinesonyourtoilet,andprosecutemyjourneytothemountains。
ScarcelyhadItakenthepenwhenIlaiditaside,uncertaininwhatmannertoaddressyou。Irosefromthetableandwalkedacrossthefloor。Aglancethrownuponthebedacquaintedmewithaspectacletowhichmyconceptionsofhorrorhadnotyetreached。
"Inthemidstofshudderingandtrepidation,thesignalofyourpresenceinthecourtbelowrecalledmetomyself。Thedeedwasnewlydone:Ionlywasinthehouse:whathadlatelyhappenedjustifiedanysuspicions,howeverenormous。Itwasplainthatthiscatastrophewasunknowntoyou:Ithoughtuponthewildcommotionwhichthediscoverywouldawakeninyourbreast:Ifoundtheconfusionofmyownthoughtsunconquerable,andperceivedthattheendforwhichIsoughtaninterviewwasnotnowtobeaccomplished。
"Inthisstateofthingsitwaslikewiseexpedienttoconcealmybeingwithin。Iputoutthelightandhurrieddownstairs。
Tomyunspeakablesurprize,notwithstandingeverymotivetofear,youlightedacandleandproceededtoyourchamber。
"Iretiredtothatroombelowfromwhichadoorleadsintothecellar。Thisdoorconcealedmefromyourviewasyoupassed。Ithoughtuponthespectaclewhichwasabouttopresentitself。Inanexigencesoabruptandsolittleforeseen,Iwasagainsubjectedtotheempireofmechanicalandhabitualimpulses。Idreadedtheeffectswhichthisshockingexhibition,burstingonyourunpreparedsenses,mightproduce。
"Thusactuated,Isteptswiftlytothedoor,andthrustingmyheadforward,oncemorepronouncedthemysteriousinterdiction。
Atthatmoment,bysomeuntowardfate,youreyeswerecastback,andyousawmeintheveryactofutterance。IfledthroughthedarksomeavenueatwhichIentered,coveredwiththeshameofthisdetection。
"Withdiligence,stimulatedbyathousandineffableemotions,Ipursuedmyintendedjourney。Ihaveabrotherwhosefarmissituatedinthebosomofafertiledesert,nearthesourcesoftheLeheigh,andthitherInowrepaired。
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"DeeplydidIruminateontheoccurrencesthathadjustpassed。Nothingexcitedmywondersomuchasthemeansbywhichyoudiscoveredmybeinginthecloset。Thisdiscoveryappearedtobemadeatthemomentwhenyouattemptedtoopenit。Howcouldyouhaveotherwiseremainedsolonginthechamberapparentlyfearlessandtranquil?Andyet,havingmadethisdiscovery,howcouldyoupersistindraggingmeforth:persistindefianceofaninterdictionsoemphaticalandsolemn?
"Butyoursister'sdeathwasaneventdetestableandominous。
Shehadbeenthevictimofthemostdreadfulspeciesofassassination。How,inastatelikeyours,themurderousintentioncouldbegenerated,waswhollyinconceivable。
"IdidnotrelinquishmydesignofconfessingtoyouthepartwhichIhadsustainedinyourfamily,butIwaswillingtodeferittillthetaskwhichIhadsetmyselfwasfinished。Thatbeingdone,Iresumedtheresolution。Themotivestoincitemetothiscontinuallyacquiredforce。ThemoreIrevolvedtheeventshappeningatMettingen,themoreinsupportableandominousmyterrorsbecame。Mywakinghoursandmysleepwerevexedbydismalpresagesandfrightfulintimations。
"Catharinewasdeadbyviolence。Surelymymalignantstarshadnotmademethecauseofherdeath;yethadInotrashlysetinmotionamachine,overwhoseprogressIhadnocontroul,andwhichexperiencehadshewnmewasinfiniteinpower?Everydaymightaddtothecatalogueofhorrorsofwhichthiswasthesource,andaseasonabledisclosureofthetruthmightpreventnumberlessills。
"Fraughtwiththisconception,Ihaveturnedmystepshither。
Ifindyourbrother'shousedesolate:thefurnitureremoved,andthewallsstainedwithdamps。Yourownisinthesamesituation。Yourchamberisdismantledanddark,andyouexhibitanimageofincurablegrief,andofrapiddecay。
"Ihaveutteredthetruth。Thisistheextentofmyoffences。YoutellmeanhorridtaleofWielandbeingledtothedestructionofhiswifeandchildren,bysomemysteriousagent。Youchargemewiththeguiltofthisagency;butI
repeatthattheamountofmyguilthasbeentrulystated。TheperpetratorofCatharine'sdeathwasunknowntometillnow;
nay,itisstillunknowntome。"
Atthatmoment,theclosingofadoorinthekitchenwasdistinctlyheardbyus。Carwinstartedandpaused。"Thereissomeonecoming。Imustnotbefoundherebymyenemies,andneednot,sincemypurposeisanswered。"
Ihaddrunkin,withthemostvehementattention,everywordthathehaduttered。Ihadnobreathtointerrupthistalebyinterrogationsorcomments。Thepowerthathespokeofwashithertounknowntome:itsexistencewasincredible;itwassusceptibleofnodirectproof。
HeownsthathiswerethevoiceandfacewhichIheardandsaw。Heattemptstogiveanhumanexplanationofthesephantasms;butitisenoughthatheownshimselftobetheagent;histaleisalie,andhisnaturedevilish。Ashedeceivedme,helikewisedeceivedmybrother,andnowdoI
beholdtheauthorofallourcalamities!
Suchweremythoughtswhenhispauseallowedmetothink。I
shouldhavebadhimbegoneifthesilencehadnotbeeninterrupted;butnowIfearednomoreformyself;andthemilkinessofmynaturewascurdledintohatredandrancour。
Someonewasnear,andthisenemyofGodandmanmightpossiblybebroughttojustice。Ireflectednotthatthepreternaturalpowerwhichhehadhithertoexerted,wouldavailtorescuehimfromanytoilsinwhichhisfeetmightbeentangled。Meanwhile,looks,andnotwordsofmenaceandabhorrence,wereallthatI
couldbestow。
Hedidnotdepart。Heseemeddubious,whether,bypassingoutofthehouse,orbyremainingsomewhatlongerwherehewas,heshouldmostendangerhissafety。Hisconfusionincreasedwhenstepsofonebarefootwerehearduponthestairs。Hethrewanxiousglancessometimesatthecloset,sometimesatthewindow,andsometimesatthechamberdoor,yethewasdetainedbysomeinexplicablefascination。Hestoodasifrootedtothespot。
Astome,mysoulwasburstingwithdetestationandrevenge。
Ihadnoroomforsurmisesandfearsrespectinghimthatapproached。Itwasdoubtlessahumanbeing,andwouldbefriendmesofarastoaidmeinarrestingthisoffender。
Thestrangerquicklyenteredtheroom。MyeyesandtheeyesofCarwinwere,atthesamemoment,darteduponhim。Asecondglancewasnotneededtoinformuswhohewas。Hislocksweretangled,andfellconfusedlyoverhisforeheadandears。Hisshirtwasofcoarsestuff,andopenattheneckandbreast。Hiscoatwasonceofbrightandfinetexture,butnowtornandtarnishedwithdust。Hisfeet,hislegs,andhisarmswerebare。Hisfeaturesweretheseatofawildandtranquilsolemnity,buthiseyesbespokeinquietudeandcuriosity。
Headvancedwithfirmstep,andlookingasinsearchofsomeone。Hesawmeandstopped。Hebenthissightonthefloor,andclenchinghishands,appearedsuddenlyabsorbedinmeditation。SuchwerethefigureanddeportmentofWieland!
Such,inhisfallenstate,weretheaspectandguiseofmybrother!
Carwindidnotfailtorecognizethevisitant。Careforhisownsafetywasapparentlyswallowedupintheamazementwhichthisspectacleproduced。Hisstationwasconspicuous,andhecouldnothaveescapedtherovingglancesofWieland;yetthelatterseemedtotallyunconsciousofhispresence。
GriefatthissceneofruinandblastwasatfirsttheonlysentimentofwhichIwasconscious。Afearfulstillnessensued。
AtlengthWieland,liftinghishands,whichwerelockedineachother,tohisbreast,exclaimed,"Father!Ithankthee。Thisisthyguidance。Hitherthouhastledme,thatImightperformthywill:yetletmenoterr:letmehearagainthymessenger!"
Hestoodforaminuteasiflistening;butrecoveringfromhisattitude,hecontinued——"Itisnotneeded。Dastardlywretch!thuseternallyquestioningthebehestsofthyMaker!
weakinresolution!waywardinfaith!"
Headvancedtome,and,afteranotherpause,resumed:"Poorgirl!adismalfatehassetitsmarkuponthee。Thylifeisdemandedasasacrifice。Preparetheetodie。Makenotmyofficedifficultbyfruitlessopposition。Thyprayersmightsubduestones;butnonebuthewhoenjoinedmypurposecanshakeit。"
Thesewordswereasufficientexplicationofthescene。Thenatureofhisphrenzy,asdescribedbymyuncle,wasremembered。
Iwhohadsoughtdeath,wasnowthrilledwithhorrorbecauseitwasnear。Deathinthisform,deathfromthehandofabrother,wasthoughtuponwithundescribablerepugnance。
Inastatethusverginguponmadness,myeyeglanceduponCarwin。Hisastonishmentappearedtohavestruckhimmotionlessanddumb。Mylifewasindanger,andmybrother'shandwasabouttobeembruedinmyblood。IfirmlybelievedthatCarwin'swastheinstigation。Icouldrescuemefromthisabhorredfate;Icoulddissipatethistremendousillusion;I
couldsavemybrotherfromtheperpetrationofnewhorrors,bypointingoutthedevilwhoseducedhim;tohesitateamomentwastoperish。Thesethoughtsgavestrengthtomylimbs,andenergytomyaccents:Istartedonmyfeet。
"Obrother!spareme,sparethyself:Thereisthybetrayer。
Hecounterfeitedthevoiceandfaceofanangel,forthepurposeofdestroyingtheeandme。Hehasthismomentconfessedit。Heisabletospeakwhereheisnot。Heisleaguedwithhell,butwillnotavowit;yetheconfessesthattheagencywashis。"
Mybrotherturnedslowlyhiseyes,andfixedthemuponCarwin。Everyjointintheframeofthelattertrembled。Hiscomplexionwaspalerthanaghost's。HiseyedarednotmeetthatofWieland,butwanderedwithanairofdistractionfromonespacetoanother。
"Man,"saidmybrother,inavoicetotallyunlikethatwhichhehadusedtome,"whatartthou?Thechargehasbeenmade。
Answerit。Thevisage——thevoice——atthebottomofthesestairs——atthehourofeleven——Towhomdidtheybelong?Tothee?"
TwicedidCarwinattempttospeak,buthiswordsdiedawayuponhislips。Mybrotherresumedinatoneofgreatervehemence——
"Thoufalterest;falteringisominous;sayyesorno:onewordwillsuffice;butbewareoffalsehood。Wasitastratagemofhelltooverthrowmyfamily?Wastthoutheagent?"
Inowsawthatthewrathwhichhadbeenpreparedformewastobeheapeduponanother。ThetalethatIheardfromhim,andhispresenttrepidations,wereabundanttestimoniesofhisguilt。ButwhatifWielandshouldbeundeceived!Whatifheshallfindhisactstohaveproceedednotfromanheavenlyprompter,butfromhumantreachery!Willnothisragemountintowhirlwind?Willnothetarelimbfromlimbthisdevotedwretch?
InstinctivelyIrecoiledfromthisimage,butitgaveplacetoanother。Carwinmaybeinnocent,buttheimpetuosityofhisjudgemaymisconstruehisanswersintoaconfessionofguilt。
Wielandknowsnotthatmysteriousvoicesandappearanceswerelikewisewitnessedbyme。Carwinmaybeignorantofthosewhichmisledmybrother。Thusmayhisanswersunwarilybetrayhimselftoruin。
Suchmightbetheconsequencesofmyfranticprecipitation,andthese,itwasnecessary,ifpossible,toprevent。I
attemptedtospeak,butWieland,turningsuddenlyuponme,commandedsilence,inatonefuriousandterrible。Mylipsclosed,andmytonguerefuseditsoffice。
"Whatartthou?"heresumed,addressinghimselftoCarwin。
"Answerme;whoseform——whosevoice——wasitthycontrivance?
Answerme。"
Theanswerwasnowgiven,butconfusedlyandscarcelyarticulated。"Imeantnothing——Iintendednoill——ifI
understand——ifIdonotmistakeyou——itistootrue——Ididappear——intheentry——didspeak。Thecontrivancewasmine,but——"
Thesewordswerenosooneruttered,thanmybrotherceasedtowearthesameaspect。Hiseyesweredowncast:hewasmotionless:hisrespirationbecamehoarse,likethatofamanintheagoniesofdeath。Carwinseemedunabletosaymore。Hemighthaveeasilyescaped,butthethoughtwhichoccupiedhimrelatedtowhatwashorridandunintelligibleinthisscene,andnottohisowndanger。
PresentlythefacultiesofWieland,which,foratime,werechainedup,wereseizedwithrestlessnessandtrembling。Hebrokesilence。Thestoutestheartwouldhavebeenappalledbythetoneinwhichhespoke。HeaddressedhimselftoCarwin。
"Whyartthouhere?Whodetainsthee?Goandlearnbetter。
Iwillmeetthee,butitmustbeatthebarofthyMaker。ThereshallIbearwitnessagainstthee。"
PerceivingthatCarwindidnotobey,hecontinued;"Dostthouwishmetocompletethecataloguebythydeath?Thylifeisaworthlessthing。Temptmenomore。Iambutaman,andthypresencemayawakenafurywhichmayspurnmycontroul。
Begone!"
Carwin,irresolute,strivinginvainforutterance,hiscomplexionpallidasdeath,hiskneesbeatingoneagainstanother,slowlyobeyedthemandateandwithdrew。
ChapterXXV
AfewwordsmoreandIlayasidethepenforever。YetwhyshouldInotrelinquishitnow?AllthatIhavesaidispreparatorytothisscene,andmyfingers,tremulousandcoldasmyheart,refuseanyfurtherexertion。Thismustnotbe。Letmylastenergiessupportmeinthefinishingofthistask。ThenwillIlaydownmyheadinthelapofdeath。Hushedwillbeallmymurmursinthesleepofthegrave。
Everysentimenthasperishedinmybosom。Evenfriendshipisextinct。Yourloveformehaspromptedmetothistask;butI
wouldnothavecompliedifithadnotbeenaluxurythustofeastuponmywoes。Ihavejustlycalculateduponmyremnantofstrength。WhenIlaydownthepenthetaperoflifewillexpire:myexistencewillterminatewithmytale。
NowthatIwasleftalonewithWieland,theperilsofmysituationpresentedthemselvestomymind。Thatthisparoxysmshouldterminateinhavockandrageitwasreasonabletopredict。Thefirstsuggestionofmyfearshadbeendisprovedbymyexperience。Carwinhadacknowledgedhisoffences,andyethadescaped。ThevengeancewhichIhadharbouredhadnotbeenadmittedbyWieland,andyettheevilswhichIhadendured,comparedwiththoseinflictedonmybrother,wereasnothing。
Ithirstedforhisblood,andwastormentedwithaninsatiableappetiteforhisdestruction;yetmybrotherwasunmoved,andhaddismissedhiminsafety。Surelythouwastmorethanman,whileIamsunkbelowthebeasts。
DidIplacearightconstructionontheconductofWieland?
Wastheerrorthatmisledhimsoeasilyrectified?Wereviewssovividandfaithsostrenuousthusliabletofadingandtochange?Wastherenotreasontodoubttheaccuracyofmyperceptions?Withimageslikethesewasmymindthronged,tillthedeportmentofmybrothercalledawaymyattention。
Isawhislipsmoveandhiseyescastuptoheaven。Thenwouldhelistenandlookback,asifinexpectationofsomeone'sappearance。Thriceherepeatedthesegesticulationsandthisinaudibleprayer。Eachtimethemistofconfusionanddoubtseemedtogrowdarkerandtosettleonhisunderstanding。
Iguessedatthemeaningofthesetokens。ThewordsofCarwinhadshakenhisbelief,andhewasemployedinsummoningthemessengerwhohadformerlycommunedwithhim,toattestthevalueofthosenewdoubts。Invainthesummonswasrepeated,forhiseyemetnothingbutvacancy,andnotasoundsalutedhisear。
Hewalkedtothebed,gazedwitheagernessatthepillowwhichhadsustainedtheheadofthebreathlessCatharine,andthenreturnedtotheplacewhereIsat。Ihadnopowertoliftmyeyestohisface:Iwasdubiousofhispurpose:thispurposemightaimatmylife。
Alas!nothingbutsubjectiontodanger,andexposuretotemptation,canshowuswhatweare。BythistestwasInowtried,andfoundtobecowardlyandrash。Mencandeliberatelyuntiethethreadoflife,andofthisIhaddeemedmyselfcapable;yetnowthatIstooduponthebrinkoffate,thattheknifeofthesacrificerwasaimedatmyheart,Ishudderedandbetookmyselftoanymeansofescape,howevermonstrous。
CanIbeartothink——canIenduretorelatetheoutragewhichmyheartmeditated?Whereweremymeansofsafety?Resistancewasvain。NoteventheenergyofdespaircouldsetmeonalevelwiththatstrengthwhichhisterrificprompterhadbestoweduponWieland。Terrorenablesustoperformincrediblefeats;butterrorwasnotthenthestateofmymind:wherethenweremyhopesofrescue?
Methinksitistoomuch。Istandaside,asitwere,frommyself;Iestimatemyowndeservings;ahatred,immortalandinexorable,ismydue。Ilistentomyownpleas,andfindthememptyandfalse:yes,Iacknowledgethatmyguiltsurpassesthatofallmankind:Iconfessthatthecursesofaworld,andthefrownsofadeity,areinadequatetomydemerits。Isthereathingintheworldworthyofinfiniteabhorrence?ItisI。
WhatshallIsay!Iwasmenaced,asIthought,withdeath,and,toeludethisevil,myhandwasreadytoinflictdeathuponthemenacer。Invisitingmyhouse,IhadmadeprovisionagainstthemachinationsofCarwin。Inafoldofmydressanopenpenknifewasconcealed。ThisInowseizedanddrewforth。Itlurkedoutofview:butInowseethatmystateofmindwouldhaverenderedthedeedinevitableifmybrotherhadliftedhishand。Thisinstrumentofmypreservationwouldhavebeenplungedintohisheart。
O,insupportableremembrance!hidetheefrommyviewforatime;hideitfrommethatmyheartwasblackenoughtomeditatethestabbingofabrother!abrotherthussupremeinmisery;
thustoweringinvirtue!
Hewasprobablyunconsciousofmydesign,butpresentlydrewback。Thisintervalwassufficienttorestoremetomyself。
Themadness,theiniquityofthatactwhichIhadpurposedrusheduponmyapprehension。ForamomentIwasbreathlesswithagony。AtthenextmomentIrecoveredmystrength,andthrewtheknifewithviolenceonthefloor。
Thesoundawokemybrotherfromhisreverie。Hegazedalternatelyatmeandattheweapon。Withamovementequallysolemnhestoopedandtookitup。Heplacedthebladeindifferentpositions,scrutinizingitaccurately,andmaintaining,atthesametime,aprofoundsilence。
Againhelookedatme,butallthatvehemenceandloftinessofspiritwhichhadsolatelycharacterizedhisfeatures,wereflown。Fallenmuscles,aforeheadcontractedintofolds,eyesdimwithunbiddendrops,andaruefulnessofaspectwhichnowordscandescribe,werenowvisible。
Hislookstouchedintoenergythesamesympathiesinme,andIpouredforthafloodoftears。Thispassionwasquicklycheckedbyfear,whichhadnow,nolonger,myown,buthissafetyfortheirobject。Iwatchedhisdeportmentinsilence。
Atlengthhespoke:
"Sister,"saidhe,inanaccentmournfulandmild,"Ihaveactedpoorlymypartinthisworld。Whatthinkestthou?ShallInotdobetterinthenext?"
Icouldmakenoanswer。Themildnessofhistoneastonishedandencouragedme。Icontinuedtoregardhimwithwistfulandanxiouslooks。
"Ithink,"resumedhe,"Iwilltry。Mywifeandmybabeshavegonebefore。Happywretches!Ihavesentyoutorepose,andoughtnottolingerbehind。"
Thesewordshadameaningsufficientlyintelligible。I