首页 >出版文学> When God Laughs and Other Stories>第3章
  "Whatwasyouthinkin'about,Jim?"
  Jimwasatrifleawkwardforthemoment。
  "Nothin',"heanswered。"OnlyIwasthinkin'justhowfunnyitwas——allthemjoolsathishouse。Whatmadeyouask?"
  "Nothin'。Iwasjustwonderin',thatwasall。"
  Thesilencesettleddown,brokenbyanoccasionallowandnervousgiggleonthepartofJim。Hewasovercomebythespreadofgems。Itwasnotthathefelttheirbeauty。Hewasunawarethattheywerebeautifulinthemselves。Butinthemhisswiftimaginationvisionedthejoysoflifetheywouldbuy,andallthedesiresandappetitesofhisdiseasedmindandsicklyfleshweretickledbythepromisetheyextended。Hebuildedwondrous,orgy-hauntedcastlesoutoftheirbrilliantfires,andwasappalledatwhathebuilded。Thenitwasthathegiggled。Itwasalltooimpossibletobereal。Andyettheretheyblazedonthetablebeforehim,fanningtheflameofthelustofhim,andhegiggledagain。
  "Iguesswemightaswellcount'em,"Mattsaidsuddenly,tearinghimselfawayfromhisownvisions。"Youwatchmean'seethatit'ssquare,becauseyouan'mehasgottobeonthesquare,Jim。Understand?"
  Jimdidnotlikethis,andbetrayeditinhiseyes,whileMattdidnotlikewhathesawinhispartner'seyes。
  "Understand?"Mattrepeated,almostmenacingly。
  "Ain'twealwaysbensquare?"theotherreplied,onthedefensivebecauseofthetreacheryalreadywhisperinginhim。
  "Itdon'tcostnothin',bein'squareinhardtimes,"Mattretorted。"It'sbein'squareinprosperitythatcounts。Whenweain'tgotnothin',wecan'thelpbein'square。We'reprosperousnow,an'we'vegottobebusinessmen——honestbusinessmen。Understand?"
  "That'sthetalkforme,"Jimapproved,butdeepdowninthemeagresoulofhim,——andinspiteofhim,——wantonandlawlessthoughtswerestirringlikechainedbeasts。
  Mattsteppedtothefoodshelfbehindthetwo-burnerkerosenecookingstove。Heemptiedtheteafromapaperbag,andfromasecondbagemptiedsomeredpeppers。Returningtothetablewiththebags,heputintothemthetwosizesofsmalldiamonds。Thenhecountedthelargegemsandwrappedthemintheirtissuepaperandchamoisskin。
  "Hundredan'forty-sevengood-sizedones,"washisinventory;"twentyrealbigones;twobigboysandonewhopper;an'acoupleoffistfulsofteenyonesan'dust。"
  HelookedatJim。
  "Correct,"wastheresponse。
  Hewrotethecountoutonaslipofmemorandumpaper,andmadeacopyofit,givingonesliptohispartnerandretainingtheother。
  "Justforreference,"hesaid。
  Againhehadrecoursetothefoodshelf,whereheemptiedthesugarfromalargepaperbag。Intothishethrustthediamonds,largeandsmall,wrappeditupinabandannahandkerchief,andstoweditawayunderhispillow。Thenhesatdownontheedgeofthebedandtookoffhisshoes。
  "An'youthinkthey'reworthahundredthousan'?"Jimasked,pausingandlookingupfromtheunlacingofhisshoe。
  "Sure,"wastheanswer。"Iseenadance-housegirldowninArizonaonce,withsomebigsparklersonher。Theywasn'treal。Shesaidiftheywasshewouldn'tbedancin'。Saidthey'dbeworthalloffiftythousan',an'
  shedidn'thaveadozenof'emalltold。"
  "Who'dworkforalivin'?"Jimtriumphantlydemanded。"Pickan'shovelwork!"hesneered。"Worklikeadogallmylife,an'saveallmywages,an'Iwouldn'thavehalfasmuchaswegottonight。"
  "Dishwashin'saboutyourmeasure,an'youcouldn'tgetmore'ntwentyamonthan'board。Yourfiggersis'wayoff,butyourpointiswelltaken。
  Letthemthatlikesit,work。IroderangeforthirtyamonthwhenIwasyoungan'foolish。Well,I'molder,an'Iain'tridin'range。"
  Hegotintobedononeside。Jimputoutthelightandfollowedhiminontheotherside。
  "How'syourarmfeel?"Jimqueriedamiably。
  Suchconcernwasunusual,andMattnotedit,andreplied——
  "Iguessthere'snodangerofhydrophoby。Whatmadeyouask?"
  Jimfeltinhimselfaguiltystir,andunderhisbreathhecursedtheother'swayofaskingdisagreeablequestions;butaloudheanswered——
  "Nothin',onlyyouseemedscaredofitatfirst。Whatareyougoin'todowithyourshare,Matt?"
  "BuyacattleranchinArizonaan'setdownan'payothermentoriderangeforme。There'ssomeseveralI'dliketoseeaskin'ajobfromme,damnthem!An'nowyoushutyourface,Jim。It'llbesometimebeforeIbuythatranch。JustnowI'mgoin'tosleep。"
  ButJimlaylongawake,nervousandtwitching,rollingaboutrestlesslyandrollinghimselfwideawakeeverytimehedozed。Thediamondsstillblazedunderhiseyelids,andthefireofthemhurt。Matt,inspiteofhisheavynature,sleptlightly,likeawildanimalalertinitssleep;andJimnoticed,everytimehemoved,thathispartner'sbodymovedsufficientlytoshowthatithadreceivedtheimpressionandthatitwastremblingonthevergeofawakening。Forthatmatter,Jimdidnotknowwhetherornot,frequently,theotherwasawake。Once,quietly,betokeningcompleteconsciousness,Mattsaidtohim:"Aw,gotosleep,Jim。Don'tworryaboutthemjools。They'llkeep。"AndJimhadthoughtthatatthatparticularmomentMatthadbeensurelyasleep。
  InthelatemorningMattwasawakewithJim'sfirstmovement,andthereafterheawokeanddozedwithhimuntilmidday,whentheygotuptogetherandbegandressing。
  "I'mgoin'outtogetapaperan'somebread,"Mattsaid。"Youboilthecoffee。"
  AsJimlistened,unconsciouslyhisgazeleftMatt'sfaceandrovedtothepillow,beneathwhichwasthebundlewrappedinthebandannahandkerchief。
  OntheinstantMatt'sfacebecamelikeawildbeast's。
  "Lookhere,Jim,"hesnarled。"You'vegottoplaysquare。Ifyoudomedirt,I'llfixyou。Understand?I'deatyou,Jim。Youknowthat。I'dbiterightintoyourthroatan'eatyoulikethatmuchbeefsteak。"
  Hissunburnedskinwasblackwiththesurgeofbloodinit,andhistobacco-stainedteethwereexposedbythesnarlinglips。Jimshiveredandinvoluntarilycowered。Therewasdeathinthemanhelookedat。Onlythenightbeforethatblack-facedmanhadkilledanotherwithhishands,andithadnothurthissleep。AndinhisownheartJimwasawareofasneakingguilt,ofatrainofthoughtthatmeritedallthatwasthreatened。
  Mattpassedout,leavinghimstillshivering。Thenahatredtwistedhisownface,andhesoftlyhurledsavagecursesatthedoor。Herememberedthejewels,andhastenedtothebed,feelingunderthepillowforthebandannabundle。Hecrusheditwithhisfingerstomakecertainthatitstillcontainedthediamonds。AssuredthatMatthadnotcarriedthemaway,helookedtowardthekerosenestovewithaguiltystart。Thenhehurriedlylightedit,filledthecoffee-potatthesink,andputitovertheflame。
  ThecoffeewasboilingwhenMattreturned,andwhilethelattercutthebreadandputasliceofbutteronthetable,Jimpouredoutthecoffee。
  Itwasnotuntilhesatdownandhadtakenafewsipsofthecoffee,thatMattpulledoutthemorningpaperfromhispocket。
  "Wewaswayoff,"hesaid。"ItoldyouIdidn'tdastfiggerouthowfatitwas。Lookatthat。"
  Hepointedtothehead-linesonthefirstpage。
  "SWIFTNEMESISONBUJANNOFF'STRACK,"theyread。"MURDEREDINHISSLEEP
  AFTERROBBINGHISPARTNER。"
  "Thereyouhaveit!"Mattcried。"Herobbedhispartner——robbedhimlikeadirtythief。"
  "Halfamillionofjewelsmissin',"Jimreadaloud。HeputthepaperdownandstaredatMatt。
  "That'swhatItoldyou,"thelattersaid。"Whatinhelldoweknowaboutjools?Halfamillion!——an'thebestIcouldfiggeritwasahundredthousan'。Goonan'readtherestofit。"
  Theyreadonsilently,theirheadssidebyside,theuntouchedcoffeegrowingcold;andeverandanononeortheotherburstforthwithsomesalientprintedfact。
  "I'dliketoseenMetzner'sfacewhenheopenedthesafeatthestorethismornin',"Jimgloated。
  "HehitthehighplacesrightawayforBujannoff'shouse,"Mattexplained。
  "Goonan'read。"
  "WastohavesailedlastnightattenontheSajodafortheSouthSeas——
  steamshipdelayedbyextrafreight——"
  "That'swhywecaught'minbed,"Mattinterrupted。"Itwasjustluck——
  likepickin'afifty-to-onewinner。"
  "Sajodasailedatsixthismornin'——"
  "Hedidn'tcatchher,"Mattsaid。"Isawhisalarm-clockwassetatfive。
  That'dgiven'mplentyoftime……onlyIcomealongan'putthekiboshonhistime。Goon。"
  "AdolphMetznerindespair——thefamousHaythornepearlnecklace——
  magnificentlyassortedpearls——valuedbyexpertsatfromfiftytoseventythousan'dollars。"
  Jimbrokeofftoswearvilelyandsolemnly,concludingwith,"Thosedamnoyster-eggsworthallthatmoney!"
  Helickedhislipsandadded,"Theywasbeautiesan'nomistake。"
  "BigBraziliangem,"hereadon。"Eightythousan'dollars——manyvaluablegemsofthefirstwater——severalthousan'smalldiamondswellworthfortythousan'。"
  "Whatyoudon'tknowaboutjoolsisworthknowin',"Mattsmiledgood-
  humouredly。
  "Theoryofthesleuths,"Jimread。"Thievesmusthaveknown——cleverlykeptwatchonBujannoff'sactions——musthavelearnedhisplanandtrailedhimtohishousewiththefruitsofhisrobbery——"
  "Clever——hell!"Mattbrokeout。"That'sthewayreputationsismade……
  inthenoospapers。How'dweknowhewasrobbin'hispardner?"
  "Anyway,we'vegotthegoods,"Jimgrinned。"Let'slookat'emagain。"
  Heassuredhimselfthatthedoorwaslockedandbolted,whileMattbroughtoutthebundleinthebandannaandopeneditonthetable。
  "Ain'ttheybeauties,though!"Jimexclaimedatsightofthepearls;andforatimehehadeyesonlyforthem。"Accordin'totheexperts,worthfromfiftytoseventythousan'dollars。"
  "An'womenlikethemthings,"Mattcommented。"An'they'lldoeverythingtoget'em——sellthemselves,commitmurder,anything。"
  "Justlikeyouan'me。"
  "Notonyourlife,"Mattretorted。"I'llcommitmurderfor'em,butnotfortheirownsakes,butforsakeofwhatthey'llgetme。That'sthedifference。Womenwantthejoolsforthemselves,an'Iwantthejoolsforthewomenan'suchthingsthey'llgetme。"
  "Luckythatmenan'womendon'twantthesamethings,"Jimremarked。
  "That'swhatmakescommerce,"Mattagreed;"peoplewantin'differentthings。"
  InthemiddleoftheafternoonJimwentouttobuyfood。Whilehewasgone,Mattclearedthetableofthejewels,wrappingthemupasbeforeandputtingthemunderthepillow。Thenhelightedthekerosenestoveandstartedtoboilwaterforcoffee。Afewminuteslater,Jimreturned。
  "Mostsurprising,"heremarked。"Streets,an'stores,an'peoplejustliketheyalwayswas。Nothin'changed。An'mewalkingalongthroughitallamillionaire。Nobodylookedatmean'guessedit。"
  Mattgruntedunsympathetically。Hehadlittlecomprehensionofthelighterwhimsandfanciesofhispartner'simagination。
  "Didyougetaporterhouse?"hedemanded。
  "Sure,an'aninchthick。It'sapeach。Lookatit。"
  Heunwrappedthesteakandhelditupfortheother'sinspection。Thenhemadethecoffeeandsetthetable,whileMattfriedthesteak。
  "Don'tputontoomuchofthemredpeppers,"Jimwarned。"Iain'tusedtoyourMexicancookin'。Youalwaysseasontoohot。"
  Mattgruntedalaughandwentonwithhiscooking。Jimpouredoutthecoffee,butfirst,intothenickedchinacup,heemptiedapowderhehadcarriedinhisvestpocketwrappedinarice-paper。Hehadturnedhisbackforthemomentonhispartner,buthedidnotdaretoglancearoundathim。
  Mattplacedanewspaperonthetable,andonthenewspapersetthehotfrying-pan。Hecutthesteakinhalf,andservedJimandhimself。
  "Eatherwhileshe'shot,"hecounselled,andwithknifeandforksettheexample。
  "She'sadandy,"wasJim'sjudgment,afterhisfirstmouthful。"ButItellyouonethingstraight。I'mnevergoin'tovisityouonthatArizonaranch,soyouneedn'taskme。"
  "What'sthematternow?"Mattasked。
  "Hell'sthematter,"wastheanswer。"TheMexicancookin'onyourranch'dbetoomuchforme。IfI'vegothella-comin'inthenextlife,I'mnotgoin'totormentmyinsidesinthisone。Damnedpeppers!"
  Hesmiled,expelledhisbreathforciblytocoolhisburningmouth,dranksomecoffee,andwentoneatingthesteak。
  "Whatdoyouthinkaboutthenextlifeanyway,Matt?"heaskedalittlelater,whilesecretlyhewonderedwhytheotherhadnotyettouchedhiscoffee。
  "Ain'tnonextlife,"Mattanswered,pausingfromthesteaktotakehisfirstsipofcoffee。"Norheavennorhell,nornothin'。Yougetallthat'scomin'righthereinthislife。"
  "An'afterward?"Jimqueriedoutofhismorbidcuriosity,forheknewthathelookeduponamanthatwassoontodie。"An'afterward?"herepeated。
  "Didyoueverseeamantwoweeksdead?"theotherasked。
  Jimshookhishead。
  "Well,Ihave。Hewaslikethisbeefsteakyouan'meiseatin'。Itwasoncesteercavortin'overthelandscape。Butnowit'sjustmeat。That'sall,justmeat。An'that'swhatyouan'mean'allpeoplecometo——meat。"
  Mattgulpeddownthewholecupofcoffee,andrefilledthecup。
  "Areyouscaredtodie?"heasked。
  Jimshookhishead。"What'stheuse?Idon'tdieanyway。Ipassonan'
  liveagain——"
  "Togostealin',an'lyin'an'snivellin'throughanotherlife,an'goonthatwayforeveran'everan'ever?"Mattsneered。
  "MaybeI'llimprove,"Jimsuggestedhopefully。"Maybestealin'won'tbenecessaryinthelifetocome。"
  Heceasedabruptly,andstaredstraightbeforehim,afrightenedexpressiononhisface。
  "What'sthematter!"Mattdemanded。
  "Nothin'。Iwasjustwonderin'"——Jimreturnedtohimselfwithaneffort——
  "aboutthisdyin',thatwasall。"
  Buthecouldnotshakeoffthefrightthathadstartledhim。Itwasasifanunseenthingofgloomhadpassedhimby,castinguponhimtheintangibleshadowofitspresence。Hewasawareofafeelingofforeboding。
  Somethingominouswasabouttohappen。Calamityhoveredintheair。Hegazedfixedlyacrossthetableattheotherman。Hecouldnotunderstand。
  Wasitthathehadblunderedandpoisonedhimself?No,Matthadthenickedcup,andhehadcertainlyputthepoisoninthenickedcup。
  Itwasallhisownimagination,washisnextthought。Ithadplayedhimtricksbefore。Fool!Ofcourseitwas。Ofcoursesomethingwasabouttohappen,butitwasabouttohappentoMatt。HadnotMattdrunkthewholecupofcoffee?
  Jimbrightenedupandfinishedhissteak,soppingbreadinthegravywhenthemeatwasgone。
  "WhenIwasakid——"hebegan,butbrokeoffabruptly。
  Againtheunseenthingofgloomhadfluttered,andhisbeingwasvibrantwithpremonitionofimpendingmisfortune。Hefeltadisruptiveinfluenceatworkinthefleshofhim,andinallhismusclestherewasaseemingthattheywereabouttobegintotwitch。Hesatbacksuddenly,andassuddenlyleanedforwardwithhiselbowsonthetable。Atremorrandimlythroughthemusclesofhisbody。Itwaslikethefirstrustlingofleavesbeforetheoncomingofwind。Heclenchedhisteeth。Itcameagain,aspasmodictensingofhismuscles。Heknewpanicattherevoltwithinhisbeing。Hismusclesnolongerrecognizedhismasteryoverthem。Againtheyspasmodicallytensed,despitethewillofhim,forhehadwilledthattheyshouldnottense。Thiswasrevolutionwithinhimself,thiswasanarchy;
  andtheterrorofimpotencerushedupinhimashisfleshgrippedandseemedtoseizehiminaclutch,chillsrunningupanddownhisbackandsweatstartingonhisbrow。Heglancedabouttheroom,andallthedetailsofitsmotehimwithastrangesenseoffamiliarity。Itwasasthoughhehadjustreturnedfromalongjourney。Helookedacrossthetableathispartner。Mattwaswatchinghimandsmiling。AnexpressionofhorrorspreadoverJim'sface。
  "MyGod,Matt!"hescreamed。"Youain'tdopedme?"
  Mattsmiledandcontinuedtowatchhim。Intheparoxysmthatfollowed,Jimdidnotbecomeunconscious。Hismusclestensedandtwitchedandknotted,hurtinghimandcrushinghimintheirsavagegrip。Andinthemidstofitall,itcametohimthatMattwasactingqueerly。Hewastravellingthesameroad。Thesmilehadgonefromhisface,andtherewasonitanintentexpression,asifhewerelisteningtosomeinnertaleofhimselfandtryingtodivinethemessage。Mattgotupandwalkedacrosstheroomandbackagain,thensatdown。
  "Youdidthis,Jim,"hesaidquietly。
  "ButIdidn'tthinkyou'dtrytofixME,"Jimansweredreproachfully。
  "Oh,Ifixedyouallright,"Mattsaid,withteethclosetogetherandshiveringbody。"Whatdidyougiveme?"
  "Strychnine。"
  "SameasIgaveyou,"Mattvolunteered。"It'sahellofamess,ain'tit?"
  "You'relyin',Matt,"Jimpleaded。"Youain'tdopedme,haveyou?"
  "Isuredid,Jim;an'Ididn'toverdoseyou,neither。Icookeditinasneatasyoupleaseinyourhalftheporterhouse——Holdon!Where'reyougoin'?"
  Jimhadmadeadashforthedoor,andwasthrowingbackthebolts。Mattspranginbetweenandshovedhimaway。
  "Drugstore,"Jimpanted。"Drugstore。"
  "Noyoudon't。You'llstayrighthere。Thereain'tgoin'tobeanyrunnin'outan'makin'apoisonplayonthestreet——notwithallthemjoolsreposin'underthepillow。Savve?Evenifyoudidn'tdie,you'dbeinthehandsofthepolicewithawholelotofexplanationscomin'。Emeticsisthestuffforpoison。I'mjustasbadbitasyou,an'I'mgoin'totakeaemetic。That'sallthey'dgiveyouatadrugstore,anyway。"
  HethrustJimbackintothemiddleoftheroomandshottheboltsintoplace。Ashewentacrossthefloortothefoodshelf,hepassedonehandoverhisbrowandflungoffthebeadedsweat。Itspatteredaudiblyonthefloor。JimwatchedagonizedlyasMattgotthemustard-canandacupandranforthesink。Hestirredacupfulofmustardandwateranddrankitdown。Jimhadfollowedhimandwasreachingwithtremblinghandsfortheemptycup。AgainMattshovedhimaway。Ashemixedasecondcupful,hedemanded——
  "D'youthinkonecup'lldoforme?YoucanwaittillI'mdone。"
  Jimstartedtotottertowardthedoor,butMattcheckedhim。
  "Ifyoumonkeywiththatdoor,I'lltwistyourneck。Savve?YoucantakeyourswhenI'mdone。An'ifitsavesyou,I'lltwistyourneck,anyway。
  Youain'tgotnochance,nohow。Itoldyoumanytimeswhatyou'dgetifyoudidmedirt。"
  "Butyoudidmedirt,too,"Jimarticulatedwithaneffort。
  Mattwasdrinkingthesecondcupful,anddidnotanswer。ThesweathadgotintoJim'seyes,andhecouldscarcelyseehiswaytothetable,wherehegotacupforhimself。ButMattwasmixingathirdcupful,and,asbefore,thrusthimaway。
  "ItoldyoutowaittillIwasdone,"Mattgrowled。"Getoutamyway。"
  AndJimsupportedhistwitchingbodybyholdingontothesink,thewhileheyearnedtowardtheyellowishconcoctionthatstoodforlife。Itwasbysheerwillthathestoodandclungtothesink。Hisfleshstrovetodoublehimupandbringhimtothefloor。Mattdrankthethirdcupful,andwithdifficultymanagedtogettoachairandsitdown。Hisfirstparoxysmwaspassing。Thespasmsthatafflictedhimweredyingaway。Thisgoodeffectheascribedtothemustardandwater。Hewassafe,atanyrate。Hewipedthesweatfromhisface,and,intheintervalofcalm,foundroomforcuriosity。Helookedathispartner。
  AspasmhadshakenthemustardcanoutofJim'shands,andthecontentswerespilleduponthefloor。Hestoopedtoscoopsomeofthemustardintothecup,andthesucceedingspasmdoubledhimuponthefloor。Mattsmiled。
  "Staywithit,"heencouraged。"It'sthestuffallright。It'sfixedmeup。"
  Jimheardhimandturnedtowardhimastrickenface,twistedwithsufferingandpleading。Spasmnowfollowedspasmtillhewasinconvulsions,rollingonthefloorandyellowinghisfaceandhairinthemustard。
  Mattlaughedhoarselyatthesight,butthelaughbrokemidway。Atremorhadrunthroughhisbody。Anewparoxysmwasbeginning。Hearoseandstaggeredacrosstothesink,where,withprobingforefinger,hevainlystrovetoassisttheactionoftheemetic。Intheend,heclungtothesinkasJimhadclung,filledwiththehorrorofgoingdowntothefloor。
  Theother'sparoxysmhadpassed,andhesatup,weakandfainting,tooweaktorise,hisforeheaddripping,hislipsfleckedwithafoammadeyellowbythemustardinwhichhehadrolled。Herubbedhiseyeswithhisknuckles,andgroansthatwerelikewhinescamefromhisthroat。
  "Whatareyousnifflin'about?"Mattdemandedoutofhisagony。"Allyougottodoisdie。An'whenyoudieyou'redead。"
  "I……ain't……snifflin'……it's……the……mustard……
  stingin'……my……eyes,"Jimpantedwithdesperateslowness。
  Itwashislastsuccessfulattemptatspeech。Thereafterhebabbledincoherently,pawingtheairwithshakingarmstillafreshconvulsionstretchedhimonthefloor。
  Mattstruggledbacktothechair,and,doubleduponit,withhisarmsclaspedabouthisknees,hefoughtwithhisdisintegratingflesh。Hecameoutoftheconvulsioncoolandweak。Helookedtoseehowitwentwiththeother,andsawhimlyingmotionless。
  Hetriedtosoliloquize,tobefacetious,tohavehislastgrimlaughatlife,buthislipsmadeonlyincoherentsounds。Thethoughtcametohimthattheemetichadfailed,andthatnothingremainedbutthedrugstore。
  Helookedtowardthedooranddrewhimselftohisfeet。Therehesavedhimselffromfallingbyclutchingthechair。Anotherparoxysmhadbegun。
  Andinthemidstoftheparoxysm,withhisbodyandallthepartsofitflyingapartandwrithingandtwistingbackagainintoknots,heclungtothechairandshoveditbeforehimacrossthefloor。Thelastshredsofhiswillwereleavinghimwhenhegainedthedoor。Heturnedthekeyandshotbackonebolt。Hefumbledforthesecondbolt,butfailed。Thenheleanedhisweightagainstthedoorandsliddowngentlytothefloor。
  CREATEDHETHEM
  Shemethimatthedoor。
  "Ididnotthinkyouwouldbesoearly。"
  "Itishalfpasteight。"Helookedathiswatch。"Thetrainleavesat9。12。"
  Hewasverybusinesslike,untilhesawherlipstrembleassheabruptlyturnedandledtheway。
  "It'llbeallright,littlewoman,"hesaidsoothingly。"DoctorBodineau'stheman。He'llpullhimthrough,you'llsee。"
  Theyenteredtheliving-room。Hisglancequestedapprehensivelyabout,thenturnedtoher。
  "Where'sAl?"
  Shedidnotanswer,butwithasuddenimpulsecameclosetohimandstoodmotionless。Shewasaslender,dark-eyedwoman,inwhosefacewasstampedthestrainandstressofliving。Butthefinelinesandthehauntedlookintheeyeswerenotthehandiworkofmereworry。Heknewwhosehandiworkitwasashelookeduponit,andsheknewwhensheconsultedhermirror。
  "It'snouse,Mary,"hesaid。Heputhishandonhershoulder。"We'vetriedeverything。It'sawretchedbusiness,Iknow,butwhatelsecanwedo?You'vefailed。DoctorBodineau'sallthat'sleft。"
  "IfIhadanotherchance……"shebeganfalteringly。
  "We'vethreshedthatallout,"heansweredharshly。"You'vegottobuckup,now。Youknowwhatconclusionwearrivedat。Youknowyouhaven'ttheghostofahopeinanotherchance。"
  Sheshookherhead。"Iknowit。Butitisterrible,thethoughtofhisgoingawaytofightitoutalone。"
  "Hewon'tbealone。There'sDoctorBodineau。Andbesides,it'sabeautifulplace。"
  Sheremainedsilent。
  "Itistheonlything,"hesaid。
  "Itistheonlything,"sherepeatedmechanically。
  Helookedathiswatch。"Where'sAl?"
  "I'llsendhim。"
  Whenthedoorhadclosedbehindher,hewalkedovertothewindowandlookedout,drummingabsentlywithhisknucklesonthepane。
  "Hello。"
  Heturnedandrespondedtothegreetingofthemanwhohadjustentered。
  Therewasaperceptibledragtotheman'sfeetashewalkedacrosstowardthewindowandpausedirresolutelyhalfway。
  "I'vechangedmymind,George,"heannouncedhurriedlyandnervously。"I'mnotgoing。"
  Hepluckedathissleeve,shuffledwithhisfeet,droppedhiseyes,andwithastrongeffortraisedthemagaintoconfronttheother。
  Georgeregardedhimsilently,hisnostrilsdistendingandhisleanfingersunconsciouslycrookinglikeaneagle'stalonsabouttoclutch。
  Inlineandfeature,therewasmuchofresemblancebetweenthetwomen;andyet,inthestrongestresemblancestherewasaradicaldifference。Theirswerethesameblackeyes,butthoseofthemanatthewindowweresharpandstraightlooking,whilethoseofthemaninthemiddleoftheroomwerecloudyandfurtive。Hecouldnotfacetheother'sgaze,andcontinuallyandvainlystruggledwithhimselftodoso。Thehighcheekboneswiththehollowsbeneathwerethesame,yetthetextureofthehollowsseemeddifferent。Thethin-lippedmouthswerefromthesamemould,butGeorge'slipswerefirmandmuscular,whileAl'sweresoftandloose——thelipsofanasceticturnedvoluptuary。Therewasalsoasagatthecorners。Hisfleshhintedofgrossness,especiallysointheeagle-likeaquilinenosethatmustoncehavebeenliketheother's,butthathadlosttheausteritytheother'sstillretained。
  Alfoughtforsteadinessinthemiddleofthefloor。Thesilencebotheredhim。Hehadafeelingthathewasabouttobeginswayingbackandforth。
  Hemoistenedhislipswithhistongue。
  "I'mgoingtostay,"hesaiddesperately。
  Hedroppedhiseyesandpluckedagainathissleeve。
  "Andyouareonlytwenty-sixyearsold,"Georgesaidatlast。"Youpoor,feebleoldman。"
  "Don'tbesosureofthat,"Alretorted,withaflashofbelligerence。
  "Doyourememberwhenweswamthatmileandahalfacrossthechannel?"
  "Well,andwhatofit?"AsullenexpressionwascreepingacrossAl'sface。
  "Anddoyourememberwhenweboxedinthebarnafterschool?"
  "Icouldtakeallyougaveme。"
  "AllIgaveyou!"George'svoicerosemomentarilytoahigherpitch。"Youlickedmefourafternoonsoutoffive。YouweretwiceasstrongasI——
  threetimesasstrong。AndnowI'dbeafraidtolandonyouwithasofacushion;you'dcrumpleuplikealastyear'sleaf。You'ddie,youpoor,miserableoldman。"
  "Youneedn'tabusemejustbecauseI'vechangedmymind,"theotherprotested,thehintofawhineinhisvoice。
  Hiswifeentered,andhelookedappealinglytoher;butthemanatthewindowstrodesuddenlyuptohimandburstout——
  "Youdon'tknowyourownmindfortwosuccessiveminutes!Youhaven'tanymind,youspineless,crawlingworm!"
  "Youcan'tmakemeangry。"Alsmiledwithcunning,andglancedtriumphantlyathiswife。"Youcan'tmakemeangry,"herepeated,asthoughtheideawerethoroughlygratifyingtohim。"Iknowyourgame。
  It'smystomach,Itellyou。Ican'thelpit。BeforeGod,Ican't!Isn'titmystomach,Mary?"
  SheglancedatGeorgeandspokecomposedly,thoughshehidatremblinghandinafoldofherskirt。
  "Isn'tittime?"sheaskedsoftly。
  Herhusbandturneduponhersavagely。"I'mnotgoingtogo!"hecried。
  "That'sjustwhatI'vebeentelling……him。AndItellyouagain,allofyou,I'mnotgoing。Youcan'tbullyme。"
  "Why,Al,dear,yousaid——"shebegan。
  "NevermindwhatIsaid!"hebrokeout。"I'vesaidsomethingelserightnow,andyou'veheardit,andthatsettlesit。"
  HewalkedacrosstheroomandthrewhimselfwithemphasisintoaMorrischair。Buttheothermanwasswiftlyuponhim。Thetalon-likefingersgrippedhisshoulders,jerkedhimtohisfeet,andheldhimthere。
  "You'vereachedthelimit,Al,andIwantyoutounderstandit。I'vetriedtotreatyoulike……likemybrother,buthereafterIshalltreatyoulikethethingthatyouare。Doyouunderstand?"
  Theangerinhisvoicewascold。Theblazeinhiseyeswascold。Itwasvastlymoreeffectivethananyoutburst,andAlcringedunderitandundertheclutchinghandthatwasbruisinghisshouldermuscles。
  "Itisonlybecauseofmethatyouhavethishouse,thatyouhavethefoodyoueat。Yourposition?Anyothermanwouldhavebeenshownthedoorayearago——twoyearsago。Ihaveheldyouinit。Yoursalaryhasbeencharity。Ithasbeenpaidoutofmypocket。Mary……herdresses……
  thatgownshehasonismadeover;shewearsthediscardeddressesofhersisters,ofmywife。Charity——doyouunderstand?Yourchildren——theyarewearingthediscardedclothesofmychildren,ofthechildrenofmyneighbourswhothinktheclotheswenttosomeorphanasylum。Anditisanorphanasylum……oritsoonwillbe。"
  Heemphasizedeachpointwithanunconscioustighteningofhisgripontheshoulder。Alwassquirmingwiththepainofit。Thesweatwasstartingoutonhisforehead。
  "Nowlistenwelltome,"hisbrotherwenton。"Inthreeminutesyouwilltellmethatyouaregoingwithme。Ifyoudon't,Maryandthechildrenwillbetakenawayfromyou——to-day。Youneedn'tevercometotheoffice。
  Thishousewillbeclosedtoyou。AndinsixmonthsIshallhavethepleasureofburyingyou。Youhavethreeminutestomakeupyourmind。"
  Almadeastranglingmovement,andreachedupwithweakfingerstotheclutchinghand。
  "Myheart……letmego……you'llbethedeathofme,"hegasped。
  ThehandthrusthimdownforciblyintotheMorrischairandreleasedhim。
  Theclockonthemantletickedloudly。Georgeglancedatit,andatMary。
  Shewasleaningagainstthetable,unabletoconcealhertrembling。Hebecameunpleasantlyawareofthefeelingofhisbrother'sfingersonhishand。Quiteunconsciouslyhewipedthebackofthehanduponhiscoat。
  Theclocktickedoninthesilence。ItseemedtoGeorgethattheroomreverberatedwithhisvoice。Hecouldhearhimselfstillspeaking。
  "I'llgo,"camefromtheMorrischair。
  Itwasaweakandshakenvoice,anditwasaweakandshakenmanthatpulledhimselfoutoftheMorrischair。Hestartedtowardthedoor。
  "Whereareyougoing?"Georgedemanded。
  "Suitcase,"cametheresponse。"Mary'llsendthetrunklater。I'llbebackinaminute。"
  Thedoorclosedafterhim。Amomentlater,struckwithsuddensuspicion,Georgewasopeningthedoor。Heglancedin。Hisbrotherstoodatasideboard,inonehandadecanter,intheotherhand,bottomupandtohislips,awhiskyglass。
  AcrosstheglassAlsawthathewasobserved。Itthrewhimintoapanic。
  Hastilyhetriedtorefilltheglassandgetittohislips;butglassanddecanterweresentsmashingtothefloor。Hesnarled。Itwaslikethesoundofawildbeast。Butthegriponhisshouldersubduedandfrightenedhim。Hewasbeingpropelledtowardthedoor。
  "Thesuitcase,"hegasped。"It'sthereinthatroom。Letmegetit。"
  "Where'sthekey?"hisbrotherasked,whenhehadbroughtit。
  "Itisn'tlocked。"
  Thenextmomentthesuitcasewasspreadopen,andGeorge'shandwassearchingthecontents。Fromonesideitbroughtoutabottleofwhisky,fromtheothersideaflask。Hesnappedthecaseto。
  "Comeon,"hesaid。"Ifwemissonecar,wemissthattrain。"
  Hewentoutintothehallway,leavingAlwithhiswife。Itwaslikeafuneral,Georgethought,ashewaited。
  Hisbrother'sovercoatcaughtontheknobofthefrontdooranddelayeditsclosinglongenoughforMary'sfirstsobtocometotheirears。George'slipswereverythinandcompressedashewentdownthesteps。Inonehandhecarriedthesuitcase。Withtheotherhandheheldhisbrother'sarm。
  Astheynearedthecorner,heheardtheelectriccarablockaway,andurgedhisbrotheron。Alwasbreathinghard。Hisfeetdraggedandshuffled,andheheldback。
  "AhellofabrotherYOUare,"hepanted。
  Forreply,hereceivedaviciousjerkonhisarm。Itremindedhimofhischildhoodwhenhewashurriedalongbysomeangrygrown-up。Andlikeachild,hehadtobehelpedupthecarstep。Hesankdownonanoutsideseat,panting,sweating,overcomebytheexertion。HefollowedGeorge'seyesasthelatterlookedhimupanddown。
  "AhellofabrotherYOUare,"wasGeorge'scommentwhenhehadfinishedtheinspection。
  MoisturewelledintoAl'seyes。
  "It'smystomach,"hesaidwithself-pity。
  "Idon'twonder,"wastheretort。"Burntoutlikethecraterofavolcano。
  Ferventheatisn'tacircumstance。"
  Thereaftertheydidnotspeak。Whentheyarrivedatthetransferpoint,Georgecametohimselfwithastart。Hesmiled。Withfixedgazethatdidnotseethehousesthatstreamedacrosshisfieldofvision,hehadhimselfbeensunkdeepinself-pity。Hehelpedhisbrotherfromthecar,andlookeduptheintersectingstreet。Thecartheyweretotakewasnotinsight。
  Al'seyeschanceduponthecornergroceryandsaloonacrosstheway。Atoncehebecamerestless。Hishandspassedbeyondhiscontrol,andheyearnedhungrilyacrossthestreettothedoorthatswungopenevenashelookedandletinahappypilgrim。Andinthatinstanthesawthewhite-
  jacketedbartenderagainstanarrayofglitteringglass。Quiteunconsciouslyhestartedtocrossthestreet。
  "Holdon。"George'shandwasonhisarm。
  "Iwantsomewhisky,"heanswered。
  "You'vealreadyhadsome。"
  "Thatwashoursago。Goon,George,letmehavesome。It'sthelastday。
  Don'tshutoffonmeuntilwegetthere——Godknowsitwillbesoonenough。"
  Georgeglanceddesperatelyupthestreet。Thecarwasinsight。
  "Thereisn'ttimeforadrink,"hesaid。
  "Idon'twantadrink。Iwantabottle。"Al'svoicebecamewheedling。
  "Goon,George。It'sthelast,theverylast。"
  "No。"ThedenialwasasfinalasGeorge'sthinlipscouldmakeit。
  Alglancedattheapproachingcar。Hesatdownsuddenlyonthecurbstone。
  "What'sthematter?"hisbrotherasked,withmomentaryalarm。
  "Nothing。Iwantsomewhisky。It'smystomach。"
  "Comeonnow,getup。"
  Georgereachedforhim,butwasanticipated,forhisbrothersprawledflatonthepavement,oblivioustothedirtandtothecuriousglancesofthepassers-by。Thecarwasclangingitsgongatthecrossing,ablockaway。
  "You'llmissit,"Algrinnedfromthepavement。"Anditwillbeyourfault。"
  George'sfistsclenchedtightly。
  "FortwocentsI'dgiveyouathrashing。"
  "Andmissthecar,"wasthetriumphantcommentfromthepavement。
  Georgelookedatthecar。Itwashalfwaydowntheblock。Helookedathiswatch。Hedebatedasecondlonger。
  "Allright,"hesaid。"I'llgetit。Butyougetonthatcar。Ifyoumissit,I'llbreakthebottleoveryourhead。"
  Hedashedacrossthestreetandintothesaloon。Thecarcameinandstopped。Therewerenopassengerstogetoff。Aldraggedhimselfupthestepsandsatdown。Hesmiledastheconductorrangthebellandthecarstarted。Theswingingdoorofthesaloonburstopen。Clutchinginhishandthesuitcaseandapintbottleofwhisky,Georgestartedinpursuit。
  Theconductor,hishandonthebellcord,waitedtoseeifitwouldbenecessarytostop。Itwasnot。Georgeswunglightlyaboard,satdownbesidehisbrother,andpassedhimthebottle。
  "Youmighthavegotaquart,"Alsaidreproachfully。
  Heextractedthecorkwithapocketcorkscrew,andelevatedthebottle。
  "I'msick……mystomach,"heexplainedinapologetictonestothepassengerwhosatnexttohim。
  Inthetraintheysatinthesmoking-car。Georgefeltthatitwasimperative。Also,havingsuccessfullycaughtthetrain,hisheartsoftened。Hefeltmorekindlytowardhisbrother,andaccusedhimselfofunnecessaryharshness。Hestrovetoatonebytalkingabouttheirmother,andsisters,andthelittleaffairsandinterestsofthefamily。ButAlwasmorose,anddevotedhimselftothebottle。Asthetimepassed,hismouthhunglooserandlooser,whiletheringsunderhiseyesseemedtopuffoutandallhisfacialmusclestorelax。
  "It'smystomach,"hesaid,once,whenhefinishedthebottleanddroppeditundertheseat;buttheswifthardeningofhisbrother'sfacedidnotencouragefurtherexplanations。
  Theconveyancethatmetthematthestationhadallthedignityandluxuriousnessofaprivatecarriage。George'seyeswerekeenfortheearmarksoftheinstitutiontowhichtheyweregoing,buthisapprehensionswereallayedfrommomenttomoment。Astheyenteredthewidegatewayandrolledonthroughthespaciousgrounds,hefeltsurethattheinstitutionalsideoftheplacewouldnotjaruponhisbrother。Itwasmorelikeasummerhotel,or,betteryet,acountryclub。Andastheysweptonthroughthespringsunshine,thesongsofbirdsinhisears,andinhisnostrilsthebreathofflowers,Georgesighedforaweekofrestinsuchaplace,andbeforehiseyesloomedthearidvistaofsummerintownandattheoffice。Therewasnotroominhisincomeforhisbrotherandhimself。
  "Letustakeawalkinthegrounds,"hesuggested,aftertheyhadmetDoctorBodineauandinspectedthequartersassignedtoAl。"Thecarriageleavesforthestationinhalfanhour,andwe'lljusthavetime。"
  "It'sbeautiful,"heremarkedamomentlater。Underhisfeetwasthevelvetgrass,thetreesarchedoverhead,andhestoodinmottledsunshine。
  "IwishIcouldstayforamonth。"
  "I'lltradeplaceswithyou,"Alsaidquickly。
  Georgelaugheditoff,buthefeltasinkingoftheheart。
  "Lookatthatoak!"hecried。"Andthatwoodpecker!Isn'theabeauty!"
  "Idon'tlikeithere,"heheardhisbrothermutter。
  George'slipstightenedinpreparationforthestruggle,buthesaid——
  "I'mgoingtosendMaryandthechildrenofftothemountains。Sheneedsit,andsodothey。Andwhenyou'reinshape,I'llsendyourightontojointhem。Thenyoucantakeyoursummervacationbeforeyoucomebacktotheoffice。"
  "I'mnotgoingtostayinthisdamnedhole,forallyoutalkaboutit,"Alannouncedabruptly。
  "Yesyouare,andyou'regoingtogetyourhealthandstrengthbackagain,sothatthelookofyouwillputthecolourinMary'scheekswhereitusedtobe。"
  "I'mgoingbackwithyou。"Al'svoicewasfirm。"I'mgoingtotakethesametrainback。It'sabouttimeforthatcarriage,Iguess。"
  "Ihaven'ttoldyouallmyplans,"Georgetriedtogoon,butAlcuthimoff。
  "Youmightaswellquitthat。Idon'twantanyofyoursoapytalking。Youtreatmelikeachild。I'mnotachild。Mymind'smadeup,andI'llshowyouhowlongitcanstaymadeup。Youneedn'ttalktome。Idon'tcarearapforwhatyou'regoingtosay。"
  Abalefullightwasinhiseyes,andtohisbrotherheseemedforalltheworldlikeacorneredrat,desperateandreadytofight。AsGeorgelookedathimherememberedbacktotheirchildhood,anditcametohimthatatlastwasarousedinAlthesameoldstubbornstrainthathadenabledhim,asachild,tostandagainstallforceandpersuasion。
  Georgeabandonedhope。Hehadlost。Thiscreaturewasnothuman。Thelastfineinstinctofthehumanhadfled。Itwasabrute,sluggishandstolid,impossibletomove——justtherawstuffoflife,combative,rebellious,andindomitable。Andashecontemplatedhisbrotherhefeltinhimselftherisingupofasimilarbrute。Hebecamesuddenlyawarethathisfingersweretensingandcrookinglikeathug's,andheknewthedesiretokill。Andhisreason,turnedtraitoratlast,counselledthatheshouldkill,thatitwastheonlythingleftforhimtodo。
  Hewasarousedbyaservantcallingtohimthroughthetreesthatthecarriagewaswaiting。Heanswered。Then,lookingstraightbeforehim,hediscoveredhisbrother。Hehadforgottenitwashisbrother。Ithadbeenonlyathingthemomentbefore。Hebegantotalk,andashetalkedthewaybecamecleartohim。Hisreasonhadnotturnedtraitor。Thebruteinhimhadmerelyorientatedhisreason。
  "Youarenoearthlygood,Al,"hesaid。"Youknowthat。You'vemadeMary'slifeahell。Youareacursetoyourchildren。Andyouhavenotmadelifeexactlyaparadisefortherestofus。"
  "There'snouseyourtalking,"Alinterjected。"I'mnotgoingtostayhere。"
  "That'swhatI'mcomingto,"Georgecontinued。"Youdon'thavetostayhere。"Al'sfacebrightened,andheinvoluntarilymadeamovement,asthoughabouttostarttowardthecarriage。"Ontheotherhand,itisnotnecessarythatyoushouldreturnwithme。Thereisanotherway。"
  George'shandwenttohishippocketandappearedwitharevolver。Itlayalonghispalm,thebutttowardAl,andtowardAlheextendedit。Atthesametime,withhishead,heindicatedthenear-bythicket。
  "Youcan'tbluffme,"Alsnarled。
  "Itisnotabluff,Al。Lookatme。Imeanit。Andifyoudon'tdoitforyourself,Ishallhavetodoitforyou。"
  Theyfacedeachother,theprofferedrevolverstillextended。Aldebatedforamoment,thenhiseyesblazed。Withaquickmovementheseizedtherevolver。
  "MyGod!I'lldoit,"hesaid。"I'llshowyouwhatI'vegotinme。"
  Georgefeltsuddenlysick。Heturnedaway。Hedidnotseehisbrotherenterthethicket,butheheardthepassageofhisbodythroughtheleavesandbranches。
  "Good-bye,Al,"hecalled。
  "Good-bye,"camefromthethicket。
  Georgefeltthesweatuponhisforehead。Hebeganmoppinghisfacewithhishandkerchief。Heheard,asfromaremotedistance,thevoiceoftheservantagaincallingtohimthatthecarriagewaswaiting。Thewoodpeckerdroppeddownthroughthemottledsunshineandlightedonthetrunkofatreeadozenfeetaway。Georgefeltthatitwasalladream,andyetthroughitallhefeltsupremejustification。Itwastherightthingtodo。Itwastheonlything。
  Hiswholebodygaveaspasmodicstart,asthoughtherevolverhadbeenfired。ItwasthevoiceofAl,closeathisback。
  "Here'syourgun,"Alsaid。"I'llstay。"
  Theservantappearedamongthetrees,approachingrapidlyandcallinganxiously。Georgeputtheweaponinhispocketandcaughtbothhisbrother'shandsinhisown。
  "Godblessyou,oldman,"hemurmured;"and"——withafinalsqueezeofthehands——"goodluck!"
  "I'mcoming,"hecalledtotheservant,andturnedandranthroughthetreestowardthecarriage。
  THECHINAGO
  "Thecoralwaxes,thepalmgrows,butmandeparts。"——
  Tahitianproverb。