Itwasnotlongbeforetheinevitablechangecameinthespiritofthesituation;moreandmorewasSheltonconsciousofaquaintuneasinessintheverybreathingofthehousehold。
"Curiousfellowyou'vegotholdofthere,Shelton,"Mr。Dennantsaidtohimduringagameofcroquet;"he'llneverdoanygoodforhimself,I'mafraid。"
"InonesenseI'mafraidnot,"admittedShelton。
"Doyouknowhisstory?Iwillbetyousixpence"——andMr。Dennantpausedtoswinghismalletwithaproperaccuracy"thathe'sbeeninprison。"
"Prison!"ejaculatedShelton。
"Ithink,"saidMr。Dennant,withbentkneescarefullymeasuringhisnextshot,"thatyououghttomakeinquiries——ah!missedit!
Awkwardthesehoops!Onemustdrawthelinesomewhere。"
"Inevercoulddraw,"returnedShelton,nettledanduneasy;"butI
understand——I'llgivehimahinttogo。"
"Don't,"saidMr。Dennant,movingafterhissecondball,whichSheltonhadsmittentothefartherend,"beoffended,mydearShelton,andbynomeansgivehimahint;heinterestsmeverymuch——
averyclever,quietyoungfellow。"
ThatthiswasnothisprivateviewSheltoninferredbystudyingMr。
Dennant'smannerinthepresenceofthevagabond。Underlyingthewell-bredbanterofthetranquilvoice,theguardedquizzicalityofhispalebrownface,itcouldbeseenthatAlgernonCuffeDennant,Esq。,J。P。,accustomedtolaughatotherpeople,suspectedthathewasbeinglaughedat。Whatmorenaturalthanthatheshouldgropeabouttoseehowthiscouldbe?AvagrantalienwasmakinghimselffeltbyanEnglishJusticeofthePeace——nosmalltribute,this,toFerrand'spersonality。Thelatterwouldsitsilentthroughameal,andyetmakehiseffect。He,theobjectoftheirkindness,education,patronage,inspiredtheirfear。Therewasnolongeranydoubt;itwasnotofFerrandthattheywereafraid,butofwhattheydidnotunderstandinhim;ofhorridsubtletiesmeanderinginthebrainunderthatstraight,wet-lookinghair;ofsomethingbizarrepoppingfromthecurvinglipsbelowthatthin,lopsidednose。
ButtoSheltoninthis,asinallelse,Antoniawaswhatmattered。
Atfirst,anxioustoshowherloverthatshetrustedhim,sheseemednevertiredofdoingthingsforhisyoungprotege,asthoughshetoohadsetherheartonhissalvation;but,watchinghereyeswhentheyrestedonthevagabond,SheltonwasperpetuallyremindedofhersayingonthefirstdayofhisvisittoHolmOaks,"Isupposehe'sreallygood——Imeanallthesethingsyoutoldmeaboutwereonly……"
Curiosityneverleftherglance,nordidthatstoryofhisfourdays'
starvingleavehermind;asentimentalpicturesquenessclungaboutthatincidentmorevaluablebyfarthanthismerehumanbeingwithwhomshehadsostrangelycomeincontact。ShewatchedFerrand,andSheltonwatchedher。Ifhehadbeentoldthathewaswatchingher,hewouldhavedenieditingoodfaith;buthewasboundtowatchher,tofindoutwithwhateyessheviewedthisvisitorwhoembodiedalltherebelliousunder-sideoflife,allthatwasabsentinherself。
"Dick,"shesaidtohimoneday,"younevertalktomeofMonsieurFerrand。"
"Doyouwanttotalkofhim?"
"Don'tyouthinkthathe'simproved?"
"He'sfatter。"
Antonialookedgrave。
"No,butreally?"
"Idon'tknow,"saidShelton;"Ican'tjudgehim。"
Antoniaturnedherfaceaway,andsomethinginherattitudealarmedhim。
"Hewasonceasortofgentleman,"shesaid;"whyshouldn'thebecomeoneagain?"
Sittingonthelowwallofthekitchen-garden,herheadwasframedbygoldenplums。Thesunlaybarredbehindthefoliageoftheholmoak,butalittlepatchfilteringthroughagaphadrestedintheplum-
tree'sheart。Itcrownedthegirl。Herraiment,thedarkleaves,theredwall,thegoldenplums,werewovenbythepassingglowtoablockofpagancolour。Andherfaceaboveit,chaste,serene,waslikethescentlesssummerevening。Abirdamongstthecurrantbusheskeptalittlechantvibrating;andalltheplum-tree'sshapeandcolourseemedalive。
"Perhapshedoesn'twanttobeagentleman,"saidShelton。
Antoniaswungherfoot。
"Howcanhehelpwantingto?"
"Hemayhaveadifferentphilosophyoflife。"
Antoniawasslowtoanswer。
"Iknownothingaboutphilosophiesoflife,"shesaidatlast。
Sheltonansweredcoldly,"Notwopeoplehavethesame。"
Withthefallingsun-glowthecharmpassedoffthetree。Chilledandharder,yetlessdeep,itwasnomoreablockofwovencolour,warmandimpassive,likeasoutherngoddess;itwasnowanortherntree,withagreylightthroughitsleaves。
"Idon'tunderstandyouintheleast,"shesaid;"everyonewishestobegood。"
"Andsafe?"askedSheltongently。
Antoniastared。
"Suppose,"hesaid——"Idon'tpretendtoknow,Ionlysuppose——whatFerrandreallycaresforisdoingthingsdifferentlyfromotherpeople?Ifyouweretoloadhimwithacharacterandgivehimmoneyonconditionthatheactedasweallact,doyouthinkhewouldacceptit?"
"Whynot?"
"Whyaren'tcatsdogs;orpagansChristians?"
Antoniasliddownfromthewall。
"Youdon'tseemtothinkthere'sanyuseintrying,"shesaid,andturnedaway。
Sheltonmadeamovementasifhewouldgoafterher,andthenstoodstill,watchingherfigureslowlypass,herheadoutlinedabovethewall,herhandsturnedbackacrosshernarrowhips。Shehaltedatthebend,lookedback,then,withanimpatientgesture,disappeared。
Antoniawasslippingfromhim!
Amoment'svisionfromwithouthimselfwouldhaveshownhimthatitwashewhomovedandshewhowasstandingstill,likethefigureofonewatchingthepassageofastreamwithclear,direct,andsulleneyes。
CHAPTERXXVIII
THERIVER
OnedaytowardstheendofAugustSheltontookAntoniaontheriver——
theriverthat,likesoftmusic,soothestheland;theriverofthereedsandpoplars,thesilverswan-sails,sunandmoon,woods,andthewhiteslumbrousclouds;wherecuckoos,andthewind,thepigeons,andtheweirsarealwayssinging;andintheflashofnakedbodies,theplayofwaterlilyleaves,queergoblinstumps,andthetwilightfacesofthetwistedtree-roots,Panlivesoncemore。
ThereachwhichSheltonchosewasinnocentoflaunches,champagnebottlesandloudlaughter;itwasuncivilised,andseldomtroubledbythesehumanisinginfluences。Hepaddledslowly,silentandabsorbed,watchingAntonia。Anunaccustomedlanguorclungabouther;hereyeshadshadows,asthoughshehadnotslept;colourglowedsoftlyinhercheeks,herfrockseemedallalightwithgoldenradiance。ShemadeSheltonpullintothereeds,andpluckedtworoundedliliessailinglikeshipsagainstslow-movingwater。
"Pullintotheshade,please,"shesaid;it'stoohotouthere。"
Thebrimofherlinenhatkeptthesunfromherface,butherheadwasdroopinglikeaflower'sheadatnoon。
Sheltonsawthattheheatwasreallyharmingher,astoohotadaywilldimtheicyfreshnessofanorthernplant。Hedippedhissculls,theripplesstartedoutandswamingravediminuendotilltheytouchedthebanks。
Heshottheboatintoacleft,andcaughtthebranchesofanoverhangingtree。Theskiffrested,balancingwithmutinousvibration,likealivingthing。
"IshouldhatetoliveinLondon,"saidAntoniasuddenly;"theslumsmustbesoawful。Whatapity,whenthereareplaceslikethis!Butit'snogoodthinking。"
"No,"answeredSheltonslowly!"Isupposeitisnogood。"
"TherearesomebadcottagesatthelowerendofCrossEaton。IwentthemonedaywithMissTruecote。Thepeoplewon'thelpthemselves。
It'ssodiscouragingtohelppeoplewhowon'thelpthemselves。"
Shewasleaningherelbowsonherknees,and,withherchinrestingonherhands,gazedupatShelton。Allaroundthemhungatentofsoft,thickleaves,and,below,thewaterwasdeep-dyedwithgreenrefraction。Willowboughs,swayingabovetheboat,caressedAntonia'sarmsandshoulders;herfaceandhairalonewerefree。
"Sodiscouraging,"shesaidagain。
Asilencefell……Antoniaseemedthinkingdeeply。
"Doubtsdon'thelpyou,"shesaidsuddenly;"howcanyougetanygoodfromdoubts?Thethingistowinvictories。"
"Victories?"saidShelton。"I'dratherunderstandthanconquer!"
Hehadrisentohisfeet,andgraspedstuntedbranch,cantingtheboattowardsthebank。
"Howcanyouletthingsslidelikethat,Dick?It'slikeFerrand。"
"Haveyousuchabadopinionofhim,then?"askedShelton。Hefeltonthevergeofsome,discovery。
Sheburiedherchindeeperinherhands。
"Ilikedhimatfirst,"shesaid;"Ithoughtthathewasdifferent。
Ithoughthecouldn'treallybe——"
"Reallybewhat?"
Antoniadidnotanswer。
"Idon'tknow,"shesaidatlast。"Ican'texplain。Ithought——"
Sheltonstillstood,holdingtothebranch,andtheoscillationoftheboatfreedaninfinityoftinyripples。
"Youthought——what?"hesaid。
Heoughttohaveseenherfacegrowyounger,morechildish,eventimid。Shesaidinavoicesmooth,round,andyoung:
"Youknow,Dick,Idothinkweoughttotry。IknowIdon'ttryhalfhardenough。Itdoesn'tdoanygoodtothink;whenyouthink,everythingseemssomixed,asiftherewerenothingtolayholdof。
Idosohatetofeellikethat。Itisn'tasifwedidn'tknowwhat'sright。SometimesIthink,andthink,andit'sallnogood,onlyawasteoftime,andyoufeelattheendasifyouhadbeendoingwrong。"
Sheltonfrowned。
"Whathasn'tbeenthroughfire'snogood,"hesaid;and,lettinggothebranch,satdown。Freedfromrestraint,theboatedgedouttowardsthecurrent。"ButwhataboutFerrand?"
"Ilayawakelastnightwonderingwhatmakesyoulikehimso。He'ssobitter;hemakesmefeelunhappy。Heneverseemscontentwithanything。Andhedespises"——herfacehardened——"Imean,hehatesusall!"
"SoshouldIifIwerehe,"saidShelton。
Theboatwasdriftingon,andgleamsofsunlightchasedacrosstheirfaces。Antoniaspokeagain。
"Heseemstobealwayslookingatdarkthings,orelseheseemsasif——asifhecould——enjoyhimselftoomuch。Ithought——Ithoughtatfirst,"shestammered,"thatwecoulddohimgood。"
"Dohimgood!Ha,ha!"
Astartledratwentswimmingforitslifeagainstthestream;andSheltonsawthathehaddoneadreadfulthing:hehadletAntoniawithajerkintoasecretnothithertoadmittedevenbyhimself——thesecretthathereyeswerenothiseyes,herwayofseeingthingsnothisnoreverwouldbe。Hequicklymuffleduphislaughter。Antoniahaddroppedhergaze;herfaceregaineditslanguor,butthebosomofherdresswasheaving。Sheltonwatchedher,rackinghisbrainstofindexcusesforthatfatallaugh;nonecouldhefind。Itwasalittlepieceoftruth。Hepaddledslowlyon,closetothebank,inthelongsilenceoftheriver。
Thebreezehaddiedaway,notafishwasrising;saveforthelostmusicofthelarksnobirdswerepiping;alone,asinglepigeonatbriefintervalscooedfromtheneighbouringwood。
Theydidnotstaymuchlongerintheboat。
Onthehomewardjourneyinthepony-cart,roundingacorneroftheroad,theycameonFerrandinhispince-nez,holdingacigarettebetweenhisfingersandtalkingtoatramp,whowassquattingonthebank。Theyoungforeignerrecognisedthem,andatonceremovedhishat。
"Thereheis,"saidShelton,returningthesalute。
Antoniabowed。
"Oh!"she,cried,whentheywereoutofhearing,"Iwishhe'dgo。
Ican'tbeartoseehim;it'slikelookingatthedark。"
CHAPTERXXIX
ONTHEWING
Thatnight,havinggoneuptohisroom,Sheltonfilledhispipeforhisunpleasantduty。HehadresolvedtohinttoFerrandthathehadbettergo。Hewasstilldebatingwhethertowriteorgohimselftotheyoungforeigner,whentherecameaknockandFerrandhimselfappeared。
"Ishouldbesorry,"hesaid,breakinganawkwardsilence,"ifyouweretothinkmeungrateful,butIseenofutureformehere。Itwouldbebetterformetogo。Ishouldneverbecontenttopassmylifeinteachinglanguages'cen'estgueredansmoncaractre'。"
Assoonaswhathehadbeencudgellinghisbrainstofindawayofsayinghadthusbeensaidforhim,Sheltonexperiencedasenseofdisapproval。
"Whatdoyouexpecttogetthat'sbetter?"hesaid,avoidingFerrand'seyes。
"Thankstoyourkindness,"repliedthelatter,"Ifindmyselfrestored。IfeelthatIoughttomakesomegoodeffortstodominatemysocialposition。"
"Ishouldthinkitwellover,ifIwereyou!"saidShelton。
"Ihave,anditseemstomethatI'mwastingmytime。Foramanwithanycouragelanguagesarenocareer;and,thoughI'vemanydefects,Istillhavecourage。"
Sheltonlethispipegoout,sopatheticseemedtohimthisyoungman'sfaithinhiscareer;itwasnopretendedfaith,butneitherwasit,hefelt,histruemotivefordeparture。"He'stired,"hethought;"that'sit。Tiredofoneplace。"AndhavingtheinstinctivesensethatnothingwouldkeepFerrand,heredoubledhisadvice。
"Ishouldhavethought,"hesaid,"thatyouwouldhavedonebettertohaveheldonhereandsavedalittlebeforegoingofftoGodknowswhat。"
"Tosave,"saidFerrand,"isimpossibleforme,but,thankstoyouandyourgoodfriends,I'veenoughtomakefronttofirstnecessities。I'mincorrespondencewithafriend;it'sofgreatimportanceformetoreachParisbeforealltheworldreturns。I'veachancetoget,apostinoneoftheWestAfricancompanies。Onemakesfortunesoutthere——ifonesurvives,and,asyouknow,Idon'tsettoomuchstorebylife。"
"Wehaveaproverb,"saidShelton,"'Abirdinthehandisworthtwobirdsinthebush!'"
"That,"returnedFerrand,"likeallproverbs,isjusthalftrue。
Thisisanaffairoftemperament。It'snotinmycharactertodandleonewhenIseetwowaitingtobecaught;'voyager,apprendre,c'estplusfortquemoi'。"Hepaused;then,withanervousgoggleoftheeyesandanironicsmilehesaid:"Besides,'monchermonsieur',itisbetterthatIgo。Ihaveneverbeenonetohugillusions,andIseeprettyclearlythatmypresenceishardlyacceptableinthishouse。"
"Whatmakesyousaythat?"asked,Shelton,feelingthatthemurderwasnowout。"
"Mydearsir,alltheworldhasnotyourunderstandingandyourlackofprejudice,and,thoughyourfriendshavebeenextremelykindtome,Iaminafalseposition;Icausethemembarrassment,whichisnotextraordinarywhenyoureflectwhatIhavebeen,andthattheyknowmyhistory。"
"Notthroughme,"saidSheltonquickly,"forIdon'tknowitmyself。"
"It'senough,"thevagrantsaid,"thattheyfeelI'mnotabirdoftheirfeather。Theycannotchange,neithercanI。IhaveneverwantedtoremainwhereI'mnotwelcome。"
Sheltonturnedtothewindow,andstaredintothedarkness;hewouldneverquiteunderstandthisvagabond,sodelicate,socynical,andhewonderedifFerrandhadbeenswallowingdownthewords,"Why,evenyouwon'tbesorrytoseemyback!"
"Well,"hesaidatlast,"ifyoumustgo,youmust。Whendoyoustart?"
"I'vearrangedwithamantocarrymythingstotheearlytrain。I
thinkitbetternottosaygood-bye。I'vewrittenaletterinstead;
hereitis。Ileftitopenforyoutoreadifyoushouldwish,"
"Then,"saidShelton,withacuriousminglingofrelief,regret,good-will,"Isha'n'tseeyouagain?"
Ferrandgavehishandastealthyrub,andhelditout。
"Ishallneverforgetwhatyouhavedoneforme,"hesaid。
"Mindyouwrite,"saidShelton。
"Yes,yes"——the,vagrant'sfacewasoddlytwisted——"youdon'tknowwhatadifferenceitmakestohaveacorrespondent;itgivesonecourage。Ihopetoremainalongtimeincorrespondencewithyou。"
"Idaresayyoudo,"thoughtSheltongrimly,withacertainqueeremotion。
"YouwilldomethejusticetorememberthatIhaveneveraskedyouforanything,"saidFerrand。"Thankyouathousandtimes。
Good-bye!"
Heagainwrunghispatron'shandinhisdampgrasp,and,goingout,leftSheltonwithanoddsensationinhisthroat。"YouwilldomethejusticetorememberthatIhaveneveraskedyouforanything。"
Thephraseseemedstrange,andhismindflewbackoverallthisqueeracquaintanceship。Itwasafact:fromthebeginningtotheendtheyouthhadneverreallyaskedforanything。Sheltonsatdownonhisbed,andbegantoreadtheletterinhishand。ItwasinFrench。
DEARMADAMEitran,Itwillbeinsupportabletome,afteryourkindness,ifyoutakemeforungrateful。Unfortunately,acrisishasarrivedwhichplungesmeintothenecessityofleavingyourhospitality。Inalllives,asyouarewellaware,thereariseoccasionsthatonecannotgovern,andI
knowthatyouwillpardonmethatIenterintonoexplanationonaneventwhichgivesmegreatchagrin,and,aboveall,rendersmesubjecttoanimputationofingratitude,which,believeme,dearMadame,bynomeansliesinmycharacter。Iknowwellenoughthatitisabreachofpolitenesstoleaveyouwithoutinpersonconveyingtheexpressionofmyprofoundreconnaissance,butifyouconsiderhowharditisformetobecompelledtoabandonallthatissodistinguishedindomesticlife,youwillforgivemyweakness。Peoplelikeme,whohavegonethroughexistencewiththeireyesopen,haveremarkedthatthosewhoareendowedwithricheshavearighttolookdownonsuchasarenotbywealthandbreedingfittedtooccupythesameposition。Ishallneverdisputearightsonaturalandsalutary,seeingthatwithoutthisdistinction,thissuperiority,whichmakesofthewell-bornandthewell-bredaraceapart,therestoftheworldwouldhavenostandardbywhichtoruletheirlives,noanchortothrowintothedepthsofthatvastseaoffortuneandofmisfortuneonwhichweothersdrivebeforethewind。Itisbecauseofthis,dearMadame,thatIregardmyselfsodoublyfortunatetohavebeenableforafewminutesinthisbitterpilgrimagecalledlife,tositbeneaththetreeofsafety。Tohavebeenable,ifonlyforanhour,tositandsetthepilgrimspass,thepilgrimswiththeblisteredfeetandraggedclothes,andwhoyet,dearMadame,guardwithintheirheartsacertainjoyinlife,illegaljoy,likethedesertairwhichtravellerswilltellyoufillsmenaswithwinetobeablethustositanhour,andwithasmiletowatchthempass,lameandblind,inalltheragsoftheirdeservedmisfortunes,canyounotconceive,dearMadame,howthatmustbeforsuchasIacomfort?Whateveronemaysay,itissweet,fromapositionofsecurity,towatchthesufferingsofothers;itgivesoneagoodsensationintheheart。
Inwritingthis,IrecollectthatImyselfoncehadthechanceofpassingallmylifeinthisenviablesafety,andasyoumaysuppose,dearMadame,IcursemyselfthatIshouldeverhavehadthecouragetostepbeyondtheboundariesofthisfinetranquilstate。Yet,too,therehavebeentimeswhenIhaveaskedmyself:"Dowereallydifferfromthewealthy——weothers,birdsofthefields,whohaveourownphilosophy,grownfromthepainsofneedingbread——wewhoseethatthehumanheartisnotalwaysanaffairoffigures,orofthosegoodmaximsthatonefindsincopy-books——dowereallydiffer?"ItiswithshamethatIconfesstohaveaskedmyselfaquestionsoheretical。Butnow,whenforthesefourweeksIhavehadthefortuneofthisrestbeneathyourroof,IseehowwrongIwastoentertainsuchdoubts。Itisagreathappinesstohavedecidedonceforallthispoint,foritisnotinmycharactertopassthroughlifeuncertain——mistaken,perhaps——onpsychologicalmatterssuchasthese。
No,Madame;resthappilyassuredthatthereisagreatdifference,whichinthefuturewillbesacredforme。For,believeme,Madame,itwouldbecalamityforhighSocietyifbychancethereshouldariseamongstthemanyunderstandingofallthatsideoflifewhich——vastastheplainsandbitterasthesea,blackastheashesofacorpse,andyetmorefreethananywingsofbirdswhoflyaway——issojustlybeyondthegraspoftheirphilosophy。Yes,believeme,dearMadame,thereisnodangerintheworldsomuchtobeavoidedbyallthemembersofthatcircle,mostillustrious,mostrespectable,calledhighSociety。
>FromwhatIhavesaidyoumayimaginehowharditisformetotakemyflight。Ishallalwayskeepforyouthemostdistinguishedsentiments。Withtheexpressionofmyfullregardforyouandyourgoodfamily,andofagratitudeassincereasitisbadlyworded,Believeme,dearMadame,YourdevotedLOUISFERRAND。
Shelton'sfirstimpulsewastoteartheletterup,butthishereflectedhehadnorighttodo。Remembering,too,thatMrs。
Dennant'sFrenchwasorthodox,hefeltsureshewouldneverunderstandtheyoungforeigner'ssubtleinnuendoes。Heclosedtheenvelopeandwenttobed,hauntedstillbyFerrand'spartinglook。
Itwaswithnosmallfeelingofembarrassment,however,that,havingsentthelettertoitsdestinationbyanearlyfootman,hemadehisappearanceatthebreakfast-table。BehindtheAustriancoffee-urn,filledwithFrenchcoffee,Mrs。Dennant,whohadplacedfoureggsinaGermanegg-boiler,said"Good-morning,"withakindlysmile。
"Dick,anegg?"sheaskedhim,holdingupafifth。
"No,thankyou,"repliedShelton,greetingthetableandfittingdown。
Hewasalittlelate;thebuzzofconversationrosehilariouslyaround。
"Mydear,"continuedMr。Dennant,whowastalkingtohisyoungestdaughter,"you'llhavenochancewhatever——nottheleastlittlebitofchance。"
"Father,whatnonsense!Youknowweshallbeatyourheadsoff!"
"Beforeit'stoolate,then,Iwilleatamuffin。Shelton,passthemuffins!"Butinmakingthisrequest,Mr。Dennantavoidedlookinginhisface。
Antonia,too,seemedtokeephereyesawayfromhim。ShewastalkingtoaConnoisseuronArtofsupernaturalappearances,andseemedinthehighestspirits。Sheltonrose,and,goingtothesideboard,helpedhimselftogrouse。
"WhowastheyoungmanIsawyesterdayonthelawn?"heheardtheConnoisseurremark。"Struckmeashavingan——er——quiteintelligentphysiog。"
Hisownintelligentphysiog,raisedataslightslantsothathemightlookthebetterthroughhisnose-nippers,wastheverypatternofapproval。"It'scurioushowone'salwaysmeetingwithintelligence;"itseemedtosay。Mrs。Dennantpausedintheactofaddingcream,andSheltonscrutinisedherface;itwashare-like,andsuperiorasever。Thankgoodnessshehadsmeltnorat!Hefeltstrangelydisappointed。
"YoumeanMonsieurFerrand,teachin'ToddlesFrench?Dobson,theProfessor'scup。"
"IhopeIshallseehimagain,"cooedtheConnoisseur;"hewasquiteinterestingonthesubjectofyoungGermanworkingmen。Itseemstheytrampfromplacetoplacetolearntheirtrades。Whatnationalitywashe,mayIask?"
Mr。Dennant,ofwhomheaskedthisquestion,liftedhisbrows,andsaid,"AskShelton。"
"HalfDutch,halfFrench。"
"Veryinterestingbreed;IhopeIshallseehimagain。"
"Well,youwon't,"saidTheasuddenly;"he'sgone。"
Sheltonsawthattheirgoodbreedingalonepreventedallfromadding,"Andthankgoodness,too!"
"Gone?Dearme,it'svery——"
"Yes,"saidMr。Dennant,"verysudden。"
"Now,Algie,"murmuredMrs。Dennant,"it'squiteacharmin'letter。
Musthavetakenthepooryoungmananhourtowrite。"
"Oh,mother!"criedAntonia。
AndSheltonfelthisfacegocrimson。HehadsuddenlyrememberedthatherFrenchwasbetterthanhermother's。
"Heseemstohavehadasingularexperience,"saidtheConnoisseur。
"Yes,"echoedMr。Dennant;"he'shadsomesingularexperience。Ifyouwanttoknowthedetails,askfriendShelton;it'squiteromantic。Inthemeantime,mydear;anothercup?"
TheConnoisseur,neverquitedevoidofabsent-mindedmalice,spurredhiscuriositytoafurthereffort;and,turninghiswell-defendedeyesonShelton,murmured,"Well,Mr。Shelton,youarethehistorian,itseems。"
"Thereisnohistory,"saidShelton,withoutlookingup。
"Ah,that'sverydull,"remarkedtheConnoisseur。
"MydearDick,"saidMrs。Dennant,"thatwasreallyamosttouchin'
storyabouthisgoin'withoutfoodinParis。"
SheltonshotanotherlookatAntonia;herfacewasfrigid。"Ihateyourd——dsuperiority!"hethought,staringattheConnoisseur。
"There'snothing,"saidthatgentleman,"moreenthrallingthanstarvation。Come,MrShelton。"
"Ican'ttellstories,"saidShelton;"nevercould。"
HecarednotastrawforFerrand,hiscoming,going,orhishistory;
for,lookingatAntonia,hisheartwasheavy。
CHAPTERXX
THELADYFROMBEYOND
Themorningwassultry,brooding,steamy。Antoniawasathermusic,andfromtheroomwhereSheltontriedtofixattentiononabookhecouldhearherpractisingherscaleswithacoldfurythatcastanaddedgloomuponhisspirit。Hedidnotseeheruntillunch,andthensheagainsatnexttheConnoisseur。Hercheekswerepale,buttherewassomethingfeverishinherchattertoherneighbour;shestillrefusedtolookatShelton。Hefeltverymiserable。Afterlunch,whenmostofthemhadleftthetable,therestfelltodiscussingcountryneighbours。
"Ofcourse,"saidMrs。Dennant,"therearetheFoliots;butnobodycallsonthem。"
"Ah!"saidtheConnoisseur,"theFoliots——theFoliots——thepeople——
er——who——quiteso!"
"It'sreallydistressin';shelookssosweetridin'about。Manypeoplewithworsestoriesgetcalledon,"continuedMrs。Dennant,withthatlargefranknessofintrusionupondoubtfulsubjectswhichmaybemadebycertainpeopleinacertainway,"but,afterall,onecouldn'taskthemtomeetanybody。"
"No,"theConnoisseurassented。"IusedtoknowFoliot。Thousandpities。Theysayshewasaveryprettywoman。"
"Oh,notpretty!"saidMrs。Dennant!"moreinterestinthanpretty,I
shouldsay。"
Shelton,whoknewtheladyslightly,noticedthattheyspokeofherasinthepast。HedidnotlooktowardsAntonia;for,thoughalittletroubledatherpresencewhilesuchasubjectwasdiscussed,hehatedhisconvictionthatherface,wasasunruffledasthoughtheFoliotshadbeenaseparatespecies。Therewas,infact,acuriosityabouthereyes,afaintimpatienceonherlips;shewasrollinglittlecrumbsofbread。Suddenlyyawning,shemutteredsomeremark,androse。Sheltonstoppedheratthedoor。
"Whereareyougoing?"
"Forawalk。"
"Mayn'tIcome?"。
Sheshookherhead。
"I'mgoingtotakeToddles。"
Sheltonheldthedooropen,andwentbacktothetable。
"Yes,"theConnoisseursaid,sippingathissherry,"I'mafraidit'salloverwithyoungFoliot。"
"Suchapity!"murmuredMrs。Dennant,andherkindlyfacelookedquitedisturbed。"I'veknownhimeversincehewasaboy。Ofcourse,Ithinkhemadeagreatmistaketobringherdownhere。Notevenbein'abletogetmarriedmakesitdoublyawkward。Oh,Ithinkhemadeagreatmistake!"
"Ah!"saidtheConnoisseur,"butd'yousupposethatmakesmuchdifference?EvenifWhat's——his-namegaveheradivorce,Idon'tthink,don'tyouknow,that——"
"Oh,itdoes!Somanypeoplewouldbeinclinedtolookoveritintime。Butasitisit'shopeless,quite。Soveryawkwardforpeople,too,meetin'themabout。TheTelfordsandtheButterwicks——
bytheway,they'recomin'heretodineto-night——livenearthem,don'tyouknow。"
"Didyouevermeetherbefore-er-beforetheflood?"theConnoisseurinquired;andhislipspartingandunexpectedlyrevealingteethgavehimashadowyresemblancetoagoat。
"Yes;IdidmeetheronceattheBranksomes'。Ithoughtherquiteacharmin'person。"
"Poorfellow!"saidtheConnoisseur;"theytellmehewasgoingtotakethehounds。"
"Andtherearehisdelightfulcoverts,too。Algieoftenusedtoshootthere,andnowtheysayhejusthashisbrotherdowntoshootwithhim。It'sreallyquitetoomelancholy!Didyouknowhim,Dick?"
"Foliot?"repliedSheltonabsently。"No;Inevermethim:I'veseenheronceortwiceatAscot。"
ThroughthewindowhecouldseeAntoniainherscarletTam-o'-
shanter,swingingherstick,andhegotupfeigningunconcern。JustthenToddlescameboundingupagainsthissister。Theywentoffarminarm。Shehadseenhimatthewindow,yetshegavenofriendlyglance;Sheltonfeltmoremiserablethanever。Hesteppedoutuponthedrive。Therewasalurid,gloomycanopyabove;theelm-treesdroopedtheirheavyblackishgreen,thewontedrustleoftheaspen-
treewasgone,eventherooksweresilent。Astoreofforcelayheavyontheheartofnature。Hestartedpacingslowlyupanddown,hisprideforbiddinghimtofollowher,andpresentlysatdownonanoldstoneseatthatfacedtheroad。Hestayedalongtimestaringattheelms,askinghimselfwhathehaddoneandwhatheoughttodo。
Andsomehowhewasfrightened。Asenseoflonelinesswasonhim,soreal,sopainful,thatheshiveredintheswelteringheat。Hewasthere,perhaps,anhour,alone,andsawnobodypassalongtheroad。
Thencamethesoundofhorse'shoofs,andatthesametimeheheardamotor-carapproachingfromtheoppositedirection。Theridermadeappearancefirst,ridingagreyhorsewithanArab'shighsetheadandtail。Shewasholdinghimwithdifficulty,forthewhirroftheapproachingcargreweverymomentlouder。Sheltonrose;thecarflashedby。Hesawthehorsestaggerinthegate-way,crushingitsriderupagainstthegatepost。
Heran,butbeforehereachedthegatetheladywasonfoot,holdingtheplunginghorse'sbridle。
"Areyouhurt?"criedSheltonbreathlessly,andhe,too,grabbedthebridle。"Thosebeastlycars!"
"Idon'tknow,"shesaid。"Pleasedon't;hewon'tletstrangerstouchhim。"
Sheltonletgo,andwatchedhercoaxthehorse。Shewasrathertall,dressedinagreyhabit,withagreyRussiancapuponherhead,andhesuddenlyrecognisedtheMrs。Foliotwhomtheyhadbeentalkingofatlunch。
"He'llbequietnow,"shesaid,"ifyouwouldn'tmindholdinghimaminute。"
Shegavethereinstohim,andleanedagainstthegate。Shewasverypale。
"Idohopehehasn'thurtyou,"Sheltonsaid。Hewasquiteclosetoher,wellabletoseeherface——acuriousfacewithhighcheek-bonesandaflatfishmoulding,enigmatic,yetstrangelypassionateforallitslistlesspallor。Hersmiling,tightenedlipswerepallid;
pallid,too,hergreyanddeep-seteyeswithgreenishtints;aboveall,paletheashymassofhaircoiledunderhergreycap。
"Th-thanks!"shesaid;"Ishallbeallrightdirectly。I'msorrytohavemadeafuss。"
Shebitherlipsandsmiled。
"I'msureyou'rehurt;doletmegofor——"stammeredShelton。
"Icaneasilygethelp。"
"Help!"shesaid,withastonylittlelaugh;"oh,no,thanks!"
Sheleftthegate,andcrossedtheroadtowhereheheldthehorse。
Shelton,toconcealembarrassment,lookedatthehorse'slegs,andnoticedthatthegreywasrestingoneofthem。Heranhishanddown。
"I'mafraid,"hesaid,"yourhorsehasknockedhisoffknee;it'sswelling。"
Shesmiledagain。
"Thenwe'rebothcripples。"
"He'llbelamewhenhegetscold。Wouldn'tyouliketoputhiminthestablehere?I'msureyououghttodrivehome。"
"No,thanks;ifI'mabletoridehimhecancarryme。Givemeahandup。"
Hervoicesoundedasthoughsomethinghadoffendedher。Risingfrominspectionofthehorse'sleg,SheltonsawAntoniaandToddlesstandingby。Theyhadcomethroughawicketgateleadingfromthefields。
Thelatterranuptohimatonce。
"Wesawit,"hewhispered——"jollysmash-up。Can'tIhelp?"
"Holdhisbridle,"answeredShelton,andhelookedfromoneladytotheother。
Therearemomentswhentheexpressionofafacefixesitselfwithpainfulclearness;toSheltonthiswassuchamoment。Thosetwofacesclosetogether,undertheircoveringsofscarletandofgrey,showedacontrastalmostcruellyvivid。Antoniawasflushed,hereyeshadgrowndeepblue;herlookofstartleddoubthadpassedandleftaquestioninherface。
"Wouldyouliketocomeinandwait?Wecouldsendyouhome,inthebrougham,"shesaid。
TheladycalledMrs。Foliotstood,onearmacrossthecrupperofhersaddle,bitingherlipsandsmilingstillherenigmaticsmile,anditwasherfacethatstayedmostvividlyonShelton'smind,itsashyhail,itspallor,andfixed,scornfuleyes。
"Oh,no,thanks!You'reverykind。"
OutofAntonia'sfacethetimid,doubtingfriendlinesshadfled,andwasreplacedbyenmity。Withalong,coldlookatbothofthemsheturnedaway。Mrs。Foliotgavealittlelaugh,andraisedherfootforShelton'shelp。Heheardahissofpainasheswungherup,butwhenhelookedathershesmiled。
"Anyway,"hesaidimpatiently,"letmecomeandseeyoudon'tbreakdown。
Sheshookherhead。"It'sonlytwomiles。I'mnotmadeofsugar。"
"ThenIshallsimplyhavetofollow。"
Sheshruggedhershoulders,fixingherresoluteeyesonhim。
"Wouldthatboyliketocome?"sheasked。
Toddlesleftthehorse'shead。
"ByJove!"hecried。"Wouldn'tIjust!"
"Then,"shesaid,"Ithinkthatwillbebest。You'vebeensokind。"
Shebowed,smiledinscrutablyoncemore,touchedtheArabwithherwhip,andstarted,Toddlestrottingatherside。
SheltonwasleftwithAntoniaunderneaththeelms。Asuddenpuffoftepidairblewintheirfaces,likeawarningmessagefromtheheavy,purpleheatclouds;lowrumblingthundertravelledslowlyfromafar。
"We'regoingtohaveastorm,"hesaid。
Antonianodded。Shewaspalenow,andherfacestillworeitscoldlookofoffence。
"I'vegotaheadache,"shesaid,"Ishallgoinandliedown。"
Sheltontriedtospeak,butsomethingkepthimsilent——submissiontowhatwascoming,likethemutesubmissionofthefieldsandbirdstothemenaceofthestorm。
Hewatchedhergo,andwentbacktohisseat。Andthesilenceseemedtogrow;theflowersceasedtoexudetheirfragrance,numbedbytheweightyair。Allthelonghousebehindhimseemedasleep,deserted。
Nonoisecameforth,nolaughter,theechoofnomusic,theringingofnobell;theheathadwrappeditroundwithdrowsiness。Andthesilenceaddedtothesolitudewithinhim。Whatanunluckychance,thatwoman'saccident!DesignedbyProvidencetoputAntoniafurtherfromhimthanbefore!Whywasnottheworldcomposedoftheimmaculatealone?Hestartedpacingupanddown,torturedbyadreadfulheartache。
"Imustgetridofthis,"hethought。"I'llgoforagoodtramp,andchancethestorm。"
LeavingthedriveheranonToddles,returninginthehighestspirits。
"Isawherhome,"hecrowed。"Isay,whataripper,isn'tshe?
She'llbeaslameasatreeto-morrow;sowillthegee。Jollyhot!"
ThismeetingshowedSheltonthathehadbeenanhouronthestoneseat;hehadthoughtitsometenminutes,andthediscoveryalarmedhim。Itseemedtobringtheimportofhismiserablefearrighthometohim。Hestartedwithaswingingstride,keepinghiseyesfixedontheroad,theperspirationstreamingdownhisface。
CHAPTERXXXI
THESTORM
第12章