"Ohno,"shecalled;"it'snotnotnearly。
"Keeponputtingthemtogether,ifyouloveme。"
"YouknowIloveyou,"answeredShelton,inasmotheredvoice。
Antoniagazedathimacrosshershoulder;puzzledandinquiringwasherface。
"I'mnotabitlikeyou,"shesaid。"Whatwillyouhaveforyourroom?"
"Choose!"
"Cornflowersandclovepinks。Poppiesaretoofrivolous,andpinkstoo——"
"White,"saidShelton。
"Andmignonettetoohardand——"
"Sweet。Whycornflowers?"
Antoniastoodbeforehimwithherhandsagainsthersides;herfigurewassoslimandyoung,herfaceuncertainandsograve。
"Becausethey'redarkanddeep。"
"Andwhyclovepinks?"
Antoniadidnotanswer。
"Andwhyclovepinks?"
"Because,"shesaid,and,flushing,touchedabeethathadsettledonherskirt,"becauseofsomethinginyouIdon'tunderstand。"
"Ah!AndwhatflowersshalltgiveYOU?"
Sheputherhandsbehindher。
"Therearealltheotherflowersforme。"
SheltonsnatchedfromthemassinfrontofhimanIcelandpoppywithstraightstemandacurvedneck,whitepinks,andsprigsofhard,sweetmignonette,andhelditouttoher。
"There,"hesaid,"that'syou。"ButAntoniadidnotmove。
"Ohno,itisn't!"andbehindherbackherfingersslowlycrushedthepetalsofablood-redpoppy。Sheshookherhead,smilingabrilliantsmile。Theblossomsfell,heflunghisarmsaroundher,andkissedheronthelips。
Buthishandsdropped;notfearexactly,norexactlyshame,hadcometohim。Shehadnotresisted,buthehadkissedthesmileaway;hadkissedastrange,cold,frightenedlook,intohereyes。
"Shedidn'tmeantotemptme,then,"hethought,insurpriseandanger。"Whatdidshemean?"and,likeascoldeddog,hekepthistroubledwatchuponherface。
CHAPTERXXV
THERIDE
"Wherenow?"Antoniaasked,wheelingherchestnutmare,astheyturnedupHighStreet,OxfordCity。"Iwon'tgobackthesameway,Dick!"
"WecouldhaveagalloponPortMeadow,crosstheUpperRivertwice,andgethomethatway;butyou'llbetired。"
Antoniashookherhead。Aslanthercheekthebrimofastrawhatthrewacurveofshade,herearglowedtransparentinthesun。
Adifferencehadcomeintheirrelationssincethatkiss;outwardlyshewasthesamegoodcomrade,coolandquick。Butasbeforeachangeonefeelsthesubtledifferenceinthetemperofthewind,soSheltonwasaffectedbytheinnerchangeinher。Hehadmadeablotuponhercandour;hehadtriedtorubitoutagain,buttherewasleftamark,anditwasineffaceable。Antoniabelongedtothemostciviliseddivisionoftheracemostcivilisedinalltheworld,whosecreedis"Letusloveandhate,letusworkandmarry,butletusnevergiveourselvesaway;togiveourselvesawayistoleaveamark,andthatispastforgiveness。Letourlivesbelikeourfaces,freefromeverykindofwrinkle,eventhoseoflaughter;inthiswayalonecanwebereallycivilised。"
Hefeltthatshewasruffledbyavaguediscomfort。Thatheshouldgivehimselfawaywasnatural,perhaps,andonlymadeherwonder,butthatheshouldgiveherthefeelingthatshehadgivenherselfawaywasaverydifferentthing。
"DoyoumindifIjustaskattheBishop'sHeadforletters?"hesaid,astheypassedtheoldhotel。
Adirtyandthinenvelopewasbroughttohim,addressed"Mr。RichardShelton,Esq。,"inhandwritingthatwaspassionatelyclear,asthoughthewriterhadputhissoulintosecuringdeliveryoftheletter。Itwasdatedthreedaysback,and,astheyrodeaway,Sheltonreadasfollows:
IMPERIALPEACOCKHOTEL,FOLKESTONE。
MONCHERMONSIEURSHELTON,ThisisalreadythethirdtimeIhavetakenuppentowritetoyou,but,havingnothingbutmisfortunetorecount,Ihesitated,awaitingbetterdays。Indeed,IhavebeensoprofoundlydiscouragedthatifI
hadnotthoughtitmydutytoletyouknowofmyfortunesIknownotevennowifIshouldhavefoundthenecessaryspirit。'Leschosesvontdemalenmal'。FromwhatIheartherehasneverbeensobadaseasonhere。Nothinggoingon。Allthesame,Iamtormentedbyamoboflittlematterswhichbringmenotsufficienttosupportmylife。Iknownotwhattodo;onethingiscertain,innocaseshallIreturnhereanotheryear。Thepatronofthishotel,mygoodemployer,isoneofthoseinnumerablespecimenswhodonotforgeorstealbecausetheyhavenoneed,andiftheyhadwouldlackthecourage;whoobservethemarriagelawsbecausetheyhavebeenbroughtuptobelieveinthem,andknowthatbreakingthembringsriskandlossofreputation;whodonotgamblebecausetheydarenot;donotdrinkbecauseitdisagreeswiththem;gotochurchbecausetheirneighboursgo,andtoprocureanappetiteforthemid-daymeal;
commitnomurderbecause,nottransgressinginanyotherfashion,theyarenotobliged。Whatistheretorespectinpersonsofthissort?Yettheyarehighlyesteemed,andformthreequartersofSociety。Therulewiththesegoodgentlemenistoshuttheireyes,neverusetheirthinkingpowers,andclosethedooronallthedogsoflifeforfeartheyshouldgetbitten。
Sheltonpaused,consciousofAntonia'seyesfixedonhimwiththeinquiringlookthathehadcometodread。Inthatchillyquestioningsheseemedtosay:"Iamwaiting。Iampreparedtobetoldthings——
thatis,usefulthings——thingsthathelponetobelievewithouttheriskoftoomuchthinking。"
"It'sfromthatyoungforeigner,"hesaid;andwentonreadingtohimself。
Ihaveeyes,andhereIam;Ihaveanose'pour,flairerlehumbug'。
Iseethatamongstthevalueofthingsnothingistheequalof"freethought。"Everythingelsetheycantakefromme,'onnepentpasm'otercela'!Iseenofutureformehere,andcertainlyshouldhavedepartedlongagoifIhadhadthemoney,but,asIhavealreadytoldyou,allthatIcandobarelysufficestoprocureme'dequoivivre'。
'Jemesensecceuye'。DonotpaytoomuchattentiontomyJeremiads;
youknowwhatapessimistIam。'Jeneperdspascourage'。
Hopingthatyouarewell,andinthecordialpressingofyourhand,I
subscribemyself,YourverydevotedLOUISFERRAND。
Herodewiththeletteropeninhishand,frowningatthecuriousturmoilwhichFerrandexcitedinhisheart。Itwasasthoughthisforeignvagranttwangedwithinhimaneglectedstring,whichgaveforthmoansofamutiny。
"Whatdoeshesay?"Antoniaasked。
Shouldheshowittoher?Ifhemightnot,whatshouldhedowhentheyweremarried?
"Idon'tquiteknow,"hesaidatlast;"it'snotparticularlycheering。"'
"Whatishelike,Dick——Imean,tolookat?Likeagentleman,orwhat?"
Sheltonstifledadesiretolaugh。
"Helooksverywellinafrock-coat,"hereplied;"hisfatherwasawinemerchant。"
Antoniaflickedherwhipagainstherskirt。
"Ofcourse,"shemurmured,"Idon'twanttohearifthere'sanythingIoughtnot。"
ButinsteadofsoothingShelton,thesewordshadjusttheoppositeeffect。Hisconceptionoftheidealwifewasnotthatofonefromwhomthehalfoflifemustbeexcluded。
"It'sonly,"hestammeredagain,"thatit'snotcheerful。"
"Oh,allright!"shecried,and,touchingherhorse,flewoffinfront。"Ihatedismalthings。"
Sheltonbithislips。Itwasnothisfaultthathalftheworldwasdark。Heknewherwordswereloosedagainsthimself,and,asalwaysatasignofherdispleasure,wasafraid。Hegallopedafterheronthescorchedturf。
"Whatisit?"hesaid。"You'reangrywithme!"
"Ohno!"
"Darling,Ican'thelpitifthingsaren'tcheerful。Wehaveeyes,"
headded,quotingfromtheletter。
Antoniadidnotlookathim;buttouchedherhorseagain。
"Well,Idon'twanttoseethegloomyside,"shesaid,"andIcan'tseewhyYOUshould。It'swickedtobediscontented";andshegallopedoff。
Itwasnothisfaultiftherewereathousanddifferentkindsofmen,athousanddifferentpointsofview,outsidethefenceofherexperience!"Whatbusiness,"hethought,digginginhisdummyspurs,"hasourclasstopatronise?We'retheonlypeoplewhohaven'tanideaofwhatlifereallymeans。"Chipsofdriedturfanddustcameflyingback,stinginghisface。Hegainedonher,drewalmostwithinreach,then,asthoughshehadbeenplayingwithhim,waslefthopelesslybehind。
Shestoopedunderthefarhedge,fanningherflushedfacewithdock-
leaves:
"Aha,Dick!Iknewyou'dnevercatchme"andshepattedthechestnutmare,whoturnedherblowingmuzzlewithcontemptuoushumourtowardsShelton'ssteed,whileherflanksheavedrapturously,graduallydarkeningwithsweat。
"We'dbettertakethemsteadily,"gruntedShelton,gettingoffandlooseninghisgirths,"ifwemeantogethomeatall。"
"Don'tbecross,Dick!"
"Weoughtn'ttohavegallopedthemlikethis;they'renotincondition。"We'dbettergohomethewaywecame。"
Antoniadroppedthereins,andstraightenedherbackhair。
"There'snofuninthat,"shesaid。"Outandbackagain;Ihateadog'swalk。"
"Verywell,"saidShelton;hewouldhaveherlongertohimself!
Theroadledupandupahill,andfromthetopavisionofSaxonialaydisclosedinwavesofwoodandpasture。Theirwaybrancheddownagatelessglade,andSheltonsidledclosertillhiskneetouchedthemare'soff-flank。
Antonia'sprofileconjuredupvisions。Shewasyouthitself;hereyessobrilliant,andsoinnocent,hercheekssoglowing,andherbrowunruffled;butinhersmileandinthesettingofherjawlurkedsomethingresoluteandmischievous。Sheltonputhishandouttothemare'smane。
"Whatmadeyoupromisetomarryme?"hesaid。
Shesmiled。
"Well,whatmadeyou?"
"I?"criedShelton。
Sheslippedherhandoverhishand。
"Oh,Dick!"shesaid。
"Iwant,"hestammered,"tobeeverythingtoyou。DoyouthinkI
shall?"
"Ofcourse!"
Ofcourse!Thewordsseemedverymuchorverylittle。
Shelookeddownattheriver,gleamingbelowthegladeinacurvingsilverline。"Dick,therearesuchalotofsplendidthingsthatwemightdo。"
Didshemean,amongstthosesplendidthings,thattheymightunderstandeachother;orweretheyfatedtopretendtoonly,intheoldtime-honouredway?
Theycrossedtheriverbyaferry,androdealongtimeinsilence,whilethetwilightslowlyfellbehindtheaspens。Andallthebeautyoftheevening,withitsrestlessleaves,itsgraveyoungmoon,andlightedcampionflowers,wasbutapartofher;thescents,thewitcheryandshadows,thequaintfieldnoises,theyokels'whistling,andthesplashofwater-fowl,eachseemedtohimenchanted。Theflightingbats,theformsofthedimhayricks,andsweet-brierperfume-shesummedthemallupinherself。Thefingermarkshaddeepenedunderneathhereyes,alanguorcameuponher;itmadeherthemoresweetandyouthful。Hershouldersseemedtobearonthemtheveryimageofourland——graveandaspiring,eageryetcontained——
beforetherecameuponthatlandthegrinofgreed,thefoldsofwealth,thesimperofcontent。Fair,unconscious,free!
Andhewassilent,withabeatingheart。
CHAPTERXXVI
THEBIRD'OFPASSAGE
Thatnight,aftertheride,whenSheltonwasabouttogotobed,hiseyesfellonFerrand'sletter,andwithasleepysenseofdutyhebegantoreaditthroughasecondtime。Inthedark,oak-panelledbedroom,hisfour-postbed,withbackofcrimsondamaskanditsdaintysheets,waslightedbythecandleglow;thecopperpitcherofhotwaterinthebasin,thesilverofhisbrushes,andthelineofhiswell-polishedbootsallshone,andShelton'sfacealonewasgloomy,staringattheyellowishpaperinhishand。
"Thepoorchapwantsmoney,ofcourse,"hethought。Butwhygoonforeverhelpingonewhohadnoclaimonhim,ahopelesscase,incurable——onewhomitwashisdutytoletsinkforthegoodofthecommunityatlarge?Ferrand'svagabondrefinementhadbeguiledhimintocharitythatshouldhavebeenbestowedonhospitals,oranycharitableworkbutforeignmissions。Togiveahelpinghand,abitofhimself,anodoffellowshiptoanyfellow-beingirrespectiveofaclaim,merelybecausehehappenedtobedown,wassentimentalnonsense!Thelinemustbedrawn!Butinthemutteringofthisconclusionheexperiencedatwingeofhonesty。"Humbug!Youdon'twanttopartwithyourmoney,that'sall!"
So,sittingdowninshirt-sleevesathiswritingtable,hepennedthefollowingonpaperstampedwiththeHolmOaksaddressandcrest:
MYDEARFERRAND,Iamsorryyouarehavingsuchabadspell。Youseemtobedeadoutofluck。Ihopebythetimeyougetthisthingswillhavechangedforthebetter。Ishouldverymuchliketoseeyouagainandhaveatalk,butshallbeawayforsometimelonger,anddoubtevenwhenI
getbackwhetherIshouldbeabletorundownandlookyouup。Keepme'aucourant'astoyourmovements。Iencloseacheque。
Yourssincerely,RICHARDSHELTON。
Beforehehadwrittenoutthecheque,amothflutteringroundthecandledistractedhisattention,andbythetimehehadcaughtandputitouthehadforgottenthatthechequewasnotenclosed。Theletter,removedwithhisclothesbeforehewasawake,waspostedinanemptystate。
Onemorningaweeklaterhewassittinginthesmoking-roominthecompanyofthegentlemancalledMabbey,whowastellinghimhowmanygrousehehaddeprivedoflifeonAugust12lastyear,andhowmanyheintendedtodepriveoflifeonAugust12thisyear,whenthedoorwasopened,andthebutlerentered,carryinghisheadasthoughitheldsomefatalsecret。
"Ayoungmanisaskingforyou,sir,"hesaidtoShelton,bendingdowndiscreetly;"Idon'tknowifyouwouldwishtoseehim,sir。"
"Ayoungman!"repeatedShelton;"whatsortofayoungman?"
"Ishouldsayasortofforeigner,sir,"apologeticallyrepliedthebutler。"He'swearingafrock-coat,buthelooksasifhehadbeenwalkingagooddeal。"
Sheltonrosewithhaste;thedescriptionsoundedtohimominous。
"Whereishe?"
"Iputhimintheyoungladies'littleroom,sir。"
"Allright,"saidShelton;"I'llcomeandseehim。Now,whatthedeuce!"hethought,runningdownthestairs。
Itwaswithaqueercomminglingofpleasureandvexationthatheenteredthelittlechambersacredtothebirds,beasts,racquets,golf-clubs,andgeneralyoungladies'litter。Ferrandwasstandingunderneaththecageofacanary,hishandsfoldedonhispinched-uphat,anervoussmileuponhislips。HewasdressedinShelton'soldfrock-coat,tightlybuttoned,andwouldhavecutastylishfigurebutfarhislookoftravel。Heworeapairofpince-nez,too,whichsomewhatveiledhiscynicalblueeyes,andclashedalittlewiththepaganlookofhim。Inthemidstofthestrangesurroundingshestillpreservedthatairofknowing,andbeingmasterof,hisfate,whichwashischiefattraction。
"I'mgladtoseeyou,"saidShelton,holdingouthishand。
"Forgivethisliberty,"beganFerrand,"butIthoughtitduetoyouafterallyou'vedoneformenottothrowupmyeffortstogetemploymentinEnglandwithoutlettingyouknowfirst。I'mentirelyattheendofmyresources。"
ThephrasestruckSheltonasonethathehadheardbefore。
ButIwrotetoyou,"hesaid;"didn'tyougetmyletter?"
Aflickerpassedacrossthevagrant'sface;hedrewtheletterfromhispocketandhelditout。
"Hereitis,monsieur。"
Sheltonstaredatit。
"Surely,"saidhe,"Isentacheque?"
Ferranddidnotsmile;therewasalookabouthimasthoughSheltonbyforgettingtoenclosethatchequehaddonehimarealinjury。
Sheltoncouldnotquitehideaglanceofdoubt。
"Ofcourse,"hesaid,"I——I——meanttoencloseacheque。"
Toosubtletosayanything,Ferrandcurledhislip。,"Iamcapableofmuch,butnotofthat,"heseemedtosay;andatonceSheltonfeltthemeannessofhisdoubt。
"Stupidofme,"hesaid。
"Ihadnointentionofintrudinghere,"saidFerrand;"Ihopedtoseeyouintheneighbourhood,butIarriveexhaustedwithfatigue。I'veeatennothingsinceyesterdayatnoon,andwalkedthirtymiles。"Heshruggedhisshoulders。"Yousee,Ihadnotimetolosebeforeassuringmyselfwhetheryouwerehereornot。"
"Ofcourse——"beganShelton,butagainhestopped。
"Ishouldverymuchlike,"theyoungforeignerwenton,"foroneofyourgoodlegislatorstofindhimselfinthesecountryvillageswithapennyinhispocket。Inothercountriesbakersareobligedtosellyouanequivalentofbreadforapenny;heretheywon'tsellyouasmuchasacrustundertwopence。Youdon'tencouragepoverty。"
"Whatisyourideanow?"askedShelton,tryingtogaintime。
"AsItoldyou,"repliedFerrand,"there'snothingtobedoneatFolkestone,thoughIshouldhavestayedthereifIhadhadthemoneytodefraycertainexpenses";andagainheseemedtoreproachhispatronwiththeomissionofthatcheque。"Theysaythingswillcertainlybebetterattheendofthemonth。NowthatIknowEnglishwell,IthoughtperhapsIcouldprocureasituationforteachinglanguages。"
"Isee,"saidShelton。
Asafact,however,hewasfarfromseeing;heliterallydidnotknowwhattodo。ItseemedsobrutaltogiveFerrandmoneyandaskhimtoclearout;besides,hechancedtohavenoneinhispocket。
"ItneedsphilosophytosupportwhatI'vegonethroughthisweek,"
saidFerrand,shrugginghisshoulders。"OnWednesdaylast,whenI
receivedyourletter,Ihadjusteighteen-pence,andatonceImadearesolutiontocomeandseeyou;onthatsumI'vedonethejourney。
Mystrengthisnearlyatanend。"
Sheltonstrokedhischin。
"Well,"hehadjustbegun,"wemustthinkitover,"whenbyFerrand'sfacehesawthatsomeonehadcomein。Heturned,andsawAntoniainthedoorway。"Excuseme,"hestammered,and,goingtoAntonia,drewherfromtheroom。
Withasmileshesaidatonce:"It'stheyoungforeigner;I'mcertain。Oh,whatfun!"
"Yes,"answeredSheltonslowly;"he'scometoseemeaboutgettingsomesortoftutorshiporother。DoyouthinkyourmotherwouldmindifItookhimuptohaveawash?He'shadalongishwalk。Andmighthehavesomebreakfast?Hemustbehungry。"
"Ofcourse!I'lltellDobson。ShallIspeaktomother?Helooksnice,Dick。"
Hegaveheragrateful,furtivelook,andwentbacktohisguest;animpulsehadmadehimhidefromherthetrueconditionofaffairs。
Ferrandwasstandingwherehehadbeenlefthisfacestillclothedinmordantimpassivity。
"Comeuptomyroom!"saidShelton;andwhilehisguestwaswashing,brushing,andotherwiseembellishinghisperson,hestoodreflectingthatFerrandwasbynomeansunpresentable,andhefeltquitegratefultohim。
Hetookanopportunity,whentheyoungman'sbackwasturned,ofexamininghiscounterfoils。Therewasnorecord,naturally,ofachequedrawninFerrand'sfavour。Sheltonfeltmoremeanthanever。
AmessagecamefromMrs。Dennant;sohetookthetravellertothedining-roomandlefthimthere,whilehehimselfwenttotheladyofthehouse。HemetAntoniacomingdown。
"Howmanydaysdidyousayhewentwithoutfoodthattime——youknow?"
sheaskedinpassing。
"Four。"
"Hedoesn'tlookabitcommon,Dick。"
Sheltongazedatherdubiously。
"They'resurelynotgoingtomakeashowofhim!"hethought。
Mrs。Dennantwaswriting,inadark-bluedressstarredoverwithwhitespots,whosefinelawncollarwasthreadedwithblackvelvet。
"HaveyouseenthenewhybridAlgy'sbroughtmebackfromKidstone?
Isn'titcharmin'?"andshebentherfacetowardsthisperfectrose。
"Theysayunique;I'mawfullyinterestedtofindoutifthat'strue。
I'vetoldAlgyIreallymusthavesome。"
Sheltonthoughtoftheuniquehybridbreakfastingdownstairs;hewishedthatMrs。Dennantwouldshowinhimtheinterestshehadmanifestedintherose。Butthiswasabsurdofhim,heknew,forthepotentlawofhobbiescontrolledtheupperclasses,forcingthemtotakemoreinterestinbirds,androses,missionaries,orlimitedandhighly-boundeditionsofoldbooksthings,inaword,intreatingwhichyouknewexactlywhereyouwerethaninthemanifestationsofmerelifethatcamebeforetheireyes。
"Oh,Dick,aboutthatyoungFrenchman。Antoniasayshewantsatutorship;now,canyoureallyrecommendhim?There'sMrs。RobinsonattheGatewayswantssomeonetoteachherboyslanguages;and,ifhewerequitesatisfactory,it'sreallytimeToddleshadafewlessonsinFrench;hegoestoEtonnexthalf。"
Sheltonstaredattherose;hehadsuddenlyrealisedwhyitwasthatpeopletakemoreinterestinrosesthaninhumanbeings——onecoulddoitwithaquietheart。
"He'snotaFrenchman,youknow,"hesaidtogainalittletime。
"He'snotaGerman,Ihope,"Mrs。Dennantanswered,passingherforgersroundapetal,toimpressitsfashiononherbrain;"Idon'tlikeGermans。Isn'thetheoneyouwroteabout——comedownintheworld?Suchapitywithsoyoungafellow!Hisfatherwasamerchant,Ithinkyoutoldus。Antoniasayshe'squiterefinedtolookat。"
"Oh,yes,"saidShelton,feelingonsafeground;"he'srefinedenoughtolookat。"
Mrs。Dennanttooktheroseandputittohernose。
"Deliciousperfume!Thatwasaverytouchin'storyabouthisgoin'
withoutfoodinParis。OldMrs。Hopkinshasaroomtolet;Ishouldliketodoheragoodturn。I'mafraidthere'saholeintheceilin',though。Orthere'stheroomhereintheleftwingontheground-floorwhereJohnthefootmanusedtosleep。It'squitenice;
perhapshecouldhavethat。"
"You'reawfullykind,"saidShelton,"but——"
"Ishouldliketodosomethingtorestorehisself-respect,",wentonMrs。Dennant,"if,asyousay,he'scleverandallthat。Seein'alittlerefinedlifeagainmightmakeaworldofdifferencetohim。
It'ssosadwhenayoungmanlosesself-respect。"
Sheltonwasmuchstruckbythepracticalwayinwhichshelookedatthings。Restorehisself-respect!Itseemedquiteasplendidnotion!Hesmiled,andsaid,"You'retookind。Ithink——"
"Idon'tbelieveindoin'thingsbyhalves,"saidMrs。Dennant;"hedoesn'tdrink,Isuppose?"
"Oh,no,"saidShelton。"He'sratheratobaccomaniac,ofcourse。"
"Well,that'samercy!Youwouldn'tbelievethetroubleI'vehadwithdrink,especiallyovercooksandcoachmen。AndnowBunyan'stakentoit。"
"Oh,you'dhavenotroublewithFerrand,"returnedShelton;"youcouldn'ttellhimfromagentlemanasfarasmannersgo。"
Mrs。Dennantsmiledoneofherrathersweetandkindlysmiles。
"MydearDick,"shesaid,"there'snotmuchcomfortinthat。LookatpoorBobbySurcingle,lookatOliverSemplesandVictorMedallion;
youcouldn'thavebetterfamilies。Butifyou'resurehedoesn'tdrink!Algy'lllaugh,ofcourse;thatdoesn'tmatter——helaughsateverything。"
Sheltonfeltguilty;beingquiteunpreparedforsorapidanadoptionofhisclient。
"Ireallybelievethere'salotofgoodinhim,"hestammered;"but,ofcourse,Iknowverylittle,andfromwhathetellsmehe'shadaverycuriouslife。Ishouldn'tlike——"
"Wherewasheeducated?"inquiredMrs。Dennant。"TheyhavenopublicschoolsinFrance,soI'vebeentold;but,ofcourse,hecan'thelpthat,pooryoungfellow!Oh,and,Dick,there'sonething——hasherelations?Onehasalwaystobesocarefulaboutthat。It'sonethingtohelpayoungfellow,butquiteanothertohelphisfamilytoo。Oneseessomanycasesofthatwheremenmarrygirlswithoutmoney,don'tyouknow。"
"Hehastoldme,"answeredShelton,"hisonlyrelationsaresomecousins,andtheyarerich。"
Mrs。Dennanttookoutherhandkerchief,and,bendingabovetherose,removedatinyinsect。
"Thesegreen-flygetineverywhere,"shesaid。
"Verysadstory;can'ttheydoanythingforhim?"andshemaderesearchesintherose'sheart。
"He'squarrelledwiththem,Ibelieve,"saidShelton;"Ihaven'tlikedtopresshim,aboutthat。"
"No,ofcoursenot,"assentedMrs。Dennantabsently——shehadfoundanothergreen-fly"Ialwaysthinkit'spainfulwhenayoungmanseemssofriendless。"
Sheltonwassilent;hewasthinkingdeeply。Hehadneverbeforefeltsodistrustfuloftheyouthfulforeigner。
"Ithink,"hesaidatlast,"thebestthingwouldbeforyoutoseehimforyourself。"
"Verywell,"saidMrs。Dennant。"Ishouldbesogladifyouwouldtellhimtocomeup。ImustsayIdothinkthatwasamosttouchin'
storyaboutParis。Iwonderwhetherthislight'sstrongenoughnowformetophotographthisrose。"
Sheltonwithdrewandwentdown-stairs。Ferrandwasstillatbreakfast。Antoniastoodatthesideboardcarvingbeefforhim,andinthewindowsatTheawithherPersiankitten。
Bothgirlswerefollowingthetraveller'smovementswithinscrutableblueeyes。AshiverrandownShelton'sspine。Tospeaktruth,hecursedtheyoungman'scoming,asthoughitaffectedhisrelationswithAntonia。
CHAPTERXXVII
SUBROSA
>Fromtheinterview,whichSheltonhadthemixeddelightofwatching,betweenFerrandandtheHonourableMrs。Dennant,certaindefiniteresultsaccrued,thechiefofwhichwasthepermissionaccordedtheyoungwanderertooccupytheroomwhichhadformerlybeentenantedbythefootmanJohn。SheltonwaslostinadmirationofFerrand'smannerinthisscene……Itssubtlecombinationofdeferenceanddignitywasalmostparalysing;paralysing,too,thesubterraneansmileuponhislips。
"Charmin'youngman,Dick,"saidMrs。Dennant,whenSheltonlingeredtosayoncemorethatheknewbutverylittleofhim;"IshallsendanoteroundtoMrs。Robinsonatonce。They'rerathercommon,youknow——theRobinsons。Ithinkthey'lltakeanyoneIrecommend。"
"I'msuretheywill,"saidShelton;"that'swhyIthinkyououghttoknow——"
ButMrs。Dennant'seyes,fervent,hare-like,werefixedonsomethingfaraway;turning,hesawtheroseinatallvaseonatallandspindlystool。Itseemedtonodtowardstheminthesunshine。Mrs。
Dennantdivedhernosetowardshercamera。
"Thelight'sperfectnow,"shesaid,inavoicemuffledbythecloth。
"Ifeelsurethatlivin'withdecentpeoplewilldowondersforhim。
Ofcourse,heunderstandsthathismealswillbeservedtohimapart。"
Shelton,doublyanxious,nowthathiseffortshadlodgedhisclientinaplaceoftrust,fell,backonhopingforthebest;hisinstincttoldhimthat,vagabondasFerrandwas,hehadacuriousself-
respect,thatwouldsavehimfromameaningratitude。
Infact,asMrs。Dennant,whowasbynomeansvoidofcommon-sense,foresaw,thearrangementworkedallright。FerrandenteredonhisdutiesasFrenchtutortothelittleRobinsons。IntheDennants'
householdhekepthimselftohisownroom,which,dayandnight,heperfumedwithtobacco,emergingatnoonintothegarden,or,ifwet,intothestudy,toteachyoungToddlesFrench。Afteratimeitbecamecustomaryforhimtolunchwiththehouse-party,partlythroughamistakeofToddles,whoseemedtothinkthatitwasnatural,andpartlythroughJohnNoble,oneofShelton'sfriends,whohadcometostay,anddiscoveredFerrandtobeamostawfullyinterestingpersonhewasalways,indeed,discoveringthemostawfullyinterestingpersons。Inhisgraveandtonelessvoice,brushinghishairfromoffhisbrow,hedescanteduponFerrandwithenthusiasm,towhichwasjoinedakindofshockedamusement,aswhoshouldsay,"Ofcourse,Iknowit'sveryodd,butreallyhe'ssuchanawfullyinterestingperson。"ForJohnNoblewasapolitician,belongingtooneofthosetwoPeculiarparties,which,thoroughlyinearnest,ofanhonestyabovesuspicion,andalwaysverybusy,areconstitutionallyaversetoanythingpeculiarforfearoffindingtheyhaveoversteppedthelimitofwhatispracticalinpolitics。Assuchheinspiredconfidence,notcaringforthingsunlesshesawsomeimmediatebenefittobehadfromthem,havingaperfectsenseofdecency,andasmallimagination。HediscussedallsortsofthingswithFerrand;ononeoccasionSheltonoverheardthemarguingonanarchism。
"NoEnglishmanapprovesofmurder,"Noblewassaying,inthegloomyvoicethatcontrastedwiththeoptimisticcastofhisfinehead,"butthemainprincipleisright。Equalisationofpropertyisboundtocome。Isympathisewiththen,notwiththeirmethods。"
"Forgiveme,"struckinFerrand;"doyouknowanyanarchists?"
"No,"returnedNoble;"Icertainlydonot。"
"Yousayyousympathisewiththem,butthefirsttimeitcomestoaction——"
"Well?"
"Oh,monsieur!onedoesn'tmakeanarchismwiththehead。"
Sheltonperceivedthathehadmeanttoadd,"butwiththeheart,thelungs,theliver。"Hedrewadeepermeaningfromthesaying,andseemedtosee,curlingwiththesmokefromFerrand'slips,thewords:
"Whatdoyou,anEnglishgentleman,ofexcellentposition,andalltheprejudicesofyourclass,knowaboutusoutcasts?Ifyouwanttounderstandusyoumustbeanoutcasttoo;wearenotplayingatthegame。"
Thistalktookplaceuponthelawn,attheendofoneofToddles'sFrenchlessons,andSheltonleftJohnNoblemaintainingtotheyouthfulforeigner,withstubbornlogic,thathe,JohnNoble,andtheanarchistshadmuch,incommon。Hewasreturningtothehouse,whensomeonecalledhisnamefromunderneaththeholmoak。There,sittingTurkishfashiononthegrass,apipebetweenhisteeth,hefoundamanwhohadarrivedthenightbefore,andimpressedhimbyhisfriendlytaciturnity。HisnamewasWhyddon,andhehadjustreturnedfromCentralAfrica;abrown-faced,large-jawedman,withsmallbutgoodandsteadyeyes,andstrong,sparefigure。
"Oh,Mr。Shelton!"hesaid,"IwonderedifyoucouldtellmewhattipsIoughttogivetheservantshere;aftertenyearsawayI'veforgottenallaboutthatsortofthing。"
Sheltonsatdownbesidehim;unconsciouslyassuming,too,across-
leggedattitude,whichcausedhimmuchdiscomfort。
"Iwaslistening,"saidhisnewacquaintance,"tothelittlechaplearninghisFrench。I'veforgottenmine。Onefeelsahopelessdufferknowingno,languages。"
"IsupposeyouspeakArabic?"saidShelton。
"Oh,Arabic,andadialectortwo;theydon'tcount。Thattutorhasacuriousface。"
"Youthinkso?"saidShelton,interested。"He'shadacuriouslife。"
Thetravellerspreadhishands,palmsdownwards,onthegrassandlookedatSheltonwith,asmile。
"Ishouldsayhewasarollingstone,"hesaid。"It'sodd,I'veseenwhitemeninCentralAfricawithagooddealofhislookaboutthem。
"Yourdiagnosisisagoodone,"answeredShelton。
"I'malwayssorryforthosefellows。There'sgenerallysomegoodinthem。Theyaretheirownenemies。Abadbusinesstobeunabletotakeprideinanythingonedoes!"Andtherewasalookofpityonhisface。
"That'sexactlyit,"saidShelton。"I'veoftentriedtoputitintowords。Isitincurable?"
"Ithinkso。"
"Canyoutellmewhy?"
Whyddonpondered。
"Iratherthink,"hesaidatlast,"itmustbebecausetheyhavetoostrongafacultyofcriticism。Youcan'tteachamantobeproudofhisownwork;thatliesinhisblood";foldinghisarmsacrosshisbreast,heheavedasigh。Underthedarkfoliage,hiseyesonthesunlight,hewasthetypeofallthoseEnglishmenwhokeeptheirspiritsbrightandweartheirbodiesoutinthedarkplacesofhardwork。"Youcan'tthink,"hesaid,showinghisteethinasmile,"howdelightfulitistobeathome!Youlearntolovetheoldcountrywhenyou'reawayfromit。"
Sheltonoftenthought,afterwards;ofthisdiagnosisofthevagabond,forhewasalwaysstumblingoninstancesofthatpowerofsubtlecriticismwhichwastheyoungforeigner'sprimeclaimtobe"amostawfullyinteresting"andperhapsarathershockingperson。
Anoldschool-fellowofShelton'sandhiswifewerestayinginthehouse,whoofferedtotheeyethepictureofaperfectdomesticity。
Passionlessandsmiling,itwasimpossibletoimaginetheycouldeverhaveadifference。Shelton,whosebedroomwasnexttotheirs,couldheartheminthemorningstalkinginexactlythetonestheyusedatlunch,andlaughingthesamelaughs。Theirlifeseemedtoaccordthemperfectsatisfaction;theyweresuppliedwiththeirconvictionsbySocietyjustas,whenathome,theyweresuppliedwithalltheothernecessariesoflifebysomeco-operativestores。Theirfairlyhandsomefaces,withthefairlykindexpressions,quicklyandcarefullyregulatedbyasenseofcompromise,begantoworryhimsomuchthatwheninthesameroomhewouldevenreadtoavoidtheneedoflookingatthem。Andyettheywerekind——thatis,fairlykind——
andcleanandquietinthehouse,exceptwhentheylaughed,whichwasoften,andatthingswhichmadehimwanttohowlasadoghowlsatmusic。
"Mr。Shelton,"Ferrandsaidoneday,"I'mnotanamateurofmarriage——neverhadthechance,asyoumaywellsuppose;but,inanycase,youhavesomepeopleinthehousewhowouldmakememarktimebeforeIwentcommittingit。Theyseemtheidealyoungmarriedpeople——don'tquarrel,haveperfecthealth,agreewitheverybody,gotochurch,havechildren——butIshouldliketohearwhatisbeautifulintheirlife,"andhegrimaced。"ItseemstomesouglythatIcanonlygasp。Iwouldmuchrathertheyill-treatedeachother,justtoshowtheyhadthecornerofasoulbetweenthem。Ifthatismarriage,'Dieum'engarde!'"
ButSheltondidnotanswer;hewasthinkingdeeply。
ThesayingofJohnNoble's,"He'sreallyamostinterestingperson,"
grewmoreandmoreuponhisnerves;itseemedtodescribetheDennantattitudetowardsthisstrangerwithintheirgates。Theytreatedhimwithasortofwonderonthe"don'ttouch"system,likeanobjectinanexhibition。Therestoration,however,of,hisself-respectproceededwithsuccess。ForallthesemblanceofhavinggrowntoobigforShelton'sclothes,forallhisvividlyburntface,andthequickbutguardedplayofcynicismonhislips——hedidmuchcredittohispatrons。Hehadsubduedhisterrorofarazor,andlookedwellinasuitofShelton'sflannels。For,afterall,hehadonlybeeneightyearsexiledfrommiddle-classgentility,andhehadbeenawaiterhalfthattime。ButSheltonwishedhimatthedevil。Notforhismanners'sake——hewasnevertiredofwatchinghowsubtlythevagabondadaptedhisconducttotheconductofhishosts,whilekeepinguphiscriticaldetachment——butbecausethatcriticaldetachmentwasaconstantspurtohisownvision,compellinghimtoanalysethelifeintowhich,hehadbeenbornandwasabouttomarry。
Thisprocesswasdisturbing;andtofindoutwhenithadcommenced,hehadtogobacktohismeetingwithFerrandonthejourneyupfromDover。
Therewaskindnessinahospitalitywhichopenedtosostrangeabird;admittingthekindness,Sheltonfelltoanalysingit。Tohimself,topeopleofhisclass,theuseofkindnesswasaluxury,notsignificantofsacrifice,butproductiveofapleasantfeelingintheheart,suchasmassagewillsetupinthelegs。"Everybody'skind,"hethought;"thequestionis,Whatunderstandingisthere,whatrealsympathy?"Thisproblemgavehimfoodforthought。
Theprogress,whichMrs。Dennantnotunfrequentlyremarkedupon,inFerrand'sconquestofhisstrangeposition,seemedtoSheltonbutasignthathewasgettingwhathecouldoutofhissuddenvisittogreenpastures;underthesamecircumstances,Sheltonthoughtthathehimselfwoulddothesame。Hefeltthattheyoungforeignerwasmakingaconvenientbowtoproperty,buthehadmorerespectforthesarcasticsmileonthelipsofFerrand'sheart。
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