EachmanbornintotheworldisbornlikeSheltoninthisbook——togoajourney,andforthemostpartheisbornonthehighroad。Atfirsthesitsthereinthedust,withhislittlechubbyhandsreachingatnothing,andhislittlesolemneyesstaringintospace。
Assoonashecantoddle,hemoves,bythequeerinstinctwecalltheloveoflife,straightalongthisroad,lookingneithertotherightnorleft,sopleasedishetowalk。Andheischarmedwitheverything——withtheniceflatroad,allbroadandwhite,withhisownfeet,andwiththeprospecthecanseeoneitherhand。Thesunshines,andhefindstheroadalittlehotanddusty;therainfalls,andhesplashesthroughthemuddypuddles。Itmakesnomatter——allispleasant;hisfatherswentthiswaybeforehim;theymadethisroadforhimtotread,and,whentheybredhim,passedintohisfibretheloveofdoingthingsastheythemselveshaddonethem。Sohewalksonandon,restingcomfortablyatnightsundertheroofsthathavebeenraisedtoshelterhim,bythosewhowentbefore。
Suddenlyoneday,withoutintendingto,henoticesapathoropeninginthehedge,leadingtorightorleft,andhestands,lookingattheundiscovered。Afterthathestopsatalltheopeningsinthehedge;
oneday,withabeatingheart,hetriesone。
Andthisiswherethefunbegins。
Outoftenofhimthattrythenarrowpath,nineofhimcomebacktothebroadroad,and,whentheypassthenextgapinthehedge,theysay:"No,no,myfriend,Ifoundyoupleasantforawhile,butafterthat-ah!afterthat!Thewaymyfatherswentisgoodenoughforme,anditisobviouslytheproperone;fornineofmecameback,andthatpoorsillytenth——Ireallypityhim!"
Andwhenhecomestothenextinn,andsnugglesinhiswell-warmed,bed,hethinksofthewildwasteofheatherwherehemighthavehadtospendthenightalonebeneaththestars;nordoesit,Ithink,occurtohimthatthebroadroadhetreadsalldaywasonceatracklessheathitself。
Butthepoorsillytenthisfaringon。Itisawindynightthatheistravellingthroughawindynight,withallthingsnewaround,andnothingtohelphimbuthiscourage。Ninetimesoutoftenthatcouragefails,andhegoesdownintothebog。Hehasseentheundiscovered,and——likeFerrandinthisbook——theundiscoveredhasengulfedhim;hisspirit,tougherthanthespiritoftheninethatburnedbacktosleepininns,wasyetnottoughenough。Thetenthtimehewinsacross,andonthetraceshehasleftothersfollowslowly,cautiously——anewroadisopenedtomankind!Atruesayinggoes:Whateveris,isright!Andifallmenfromtheworld'sbeginninghadsaidthat,theworldwouldneverhavebegun——atall。
Noteventheprotoplasmicjellycouldhavecommenceditsjourney;。
therewouldhavebeennomotiveforcetomakeitstart。
Andso,thatothersayinghadtobedevisedbeforetheworldcouldsetupbusiness:Whateveris,iswrong!ButsincetheCosmicSpiritfoundthatmattersmovedtoofastifthosethatfelt"Allthingsthatare,arewrong"equalledinnumberthosethatfelt"Allthingsthatare,areright,"Itsolemnlydevisedpolygamyall,beitsaid,inaspiritualwayofspeaking;andtoeachmalespiritcrowing"Allthingsthatare,arewrong"Itdecreedninefemalespiritsclucking"Allthingsthatare,areright。"TheCosmicSpirit,whowasverymuchanartist,knewitswork,andhadpreviouslydevisedaqualitycalledcourage,anddivideditinthree,namingthepartsspiritual,moral,physical。Toallthemale-birdspirits,buttonofemalespiritually,notcorporeallyspeaking,Itgavecouragethatwasspiritual;tonearlyall,bothmaleandfemale,Itgavecouragethatwasphysical;toverymanyhen-birdspiritsItgavemoralcouragetoo。But,becauseItknewthatifallthemale-birdspiritswerecomplete,theproportionofmaletofemale——onetoten——wouldbetoogreat,andcauseupheavals,Itsoarrangedthatonlyoneintenmale-
birdspiritsshouldhaveallthreekindsofcourage;sothattheothernine,havingspiritualcourage,butlackingeitherinmoralorinphysical,shouldfailintheirextensionsofthepoultry-run。Andhavingstartedthemupontheselines,itleftthemtogetalongasbesttheymight。
Thus,inthesubdivisionofthepoultry-runthatwecallEngland,theproportionoftheotherstothecompletemale-birdspirit,who,ofcourse,isnotinfrequentlyawoman,isninety-ninetoone;andwitheveryIslandPharisee,whenheorshestartsoutinlife,theinterestingquestionoughttobe,"AmIthatone?"Ninetyverysoonfindoutthattheyarenot,and,havingfounditout,lestothersshoulddiscover,theysaytheyare。Nineoftheotherten,blindedbytheirspiritualcourage,arehardertoconvince;butonebyonetheysink,stillproclaimingtheirvirility。ThehundredthPhariseealonesitsouttheplay。
Now,thejourneyofthisyoungmanShelton,whoissurelynotthehundredthPharisee,isbutaraggedefforttopresenttheworkingofthetruth"Allthingsthatare,arewrong,"uponthetruth"Allthingsthatare,areright。"
TheInstitutionsofthiscountry,liketheInstitutionsofallothercountries,arebuthalf-truths;theyaretheworkingdailyclothingofthenation;nomorethebody'spermanentdressthanisababy'sfrock。Slowlybutsurelytheywearout,orareoutgrown;andintheirfashiontheyarealwaysthirtyyearsatleastbehindthefashionsofthosespiritswhoareconcernedwithwhatshalltaketheirplace。Theconditionsthatdictateoureducation,thedistributionofourproperty,ourmarriagelaws,amusements,worship,prisons,andallotherthings,changeimperceptiblyfromhourtohour;themouldscontainingthem,beinginelastic,donotchange,butholdontothepointofbursting,andthenarehastily,oftenclumsily,enlarged。Theninetydesiringpeaceandcomfortfortheirspirit,theninetyofthewell-warmedbeds,willhaveitthatthefashionsneednotchange,thatmoralityisfixed,thatallisorderedandimmutable,thateveryonewillalwaysmarry,play,andworshipinthewaythattheythemselvesaremarrying,playing,worshipping。
Theyhavenospeculation,andtheyhatewithadeephatredthosewhospeculatewiththought。Thisisthefunctiontheyweremadefor。
Theyarethedough,andtheydislikethatyeastystuffoflifewhichcomesandworksaboutinthem。TheYeastyStuff——theotherten——chafedbyallthingsthatare,desirouseverofnewformsandmoulds,hateintheirturnthecomfortableninety。Eachpartyhasinventedfortheotherthehardestnamesthatitcanthinkof:
Philistines,Bourgeois,Mrs。Grundy,Rebels,Anarchists,andNe'er-do-weels。Sowegoon!Andso,aseachofusisborntogohisjourney,hefindshimselfintimerangedononesideorontheother,andjoinsthechorusesofname-slingers。
Butnowandthen——ah!veryseldom——wefindourselvessonearthatthingwhichhasnobreadth,themiddleline,thatwecanwatchthemboth,andpositivelysmiletoseethefun。
Whenthisbookwaspublishedfirst,manyofitscriticsfoundthatSheltonwastheonlyPharisee,andamostunsatisfactoryyoungman——
andso,nodoubt,heis。Belongingtothecomfortableninety,theyfelt,infact,theneedofslingingnamesatonewhoobviouslywasoftheten。Othersofitscritics,belongingtotheten,wieldedtheirepithetsuponAntonia,andtheserriedranksbehindher,andcalledthemPharisees;asdullasditch-water——andso,Ifear,theyare。
Oneofthegreatestcharmsofauthorshipistheprivilegeitgivestheauthorofstudyingthesecretspringsofmanyunseenpersons,ofanalysinghumannaturethroughthecriticismthathisworkevokes——
criticismwellingoutoftheinstinctivelikingsoraversions,outoftheveryfibreofthehumanbeingwhodeliversit;criticismthatoftenseemstoleapoutagainstthecritic'swill,startledlikeafawnfromsomedeepbed,ofsympathyorofantipathy。Andso,allauthorslovetobeabused——asanymancansee。
Inthelittlematterofthetitleofthisbook,weareallPharisees,whetheroftheninetyortheten,andwecertainlydoliveuponanIsland。
JOHNGALSWORTHY。
January1,1908
PARTI
THETOWN
CHAPTERI
SOCIETY
Aquiet,well-dressedmannamedShelton,withabrownfaceandashort,fairbeard,stoodbythebookstallatDoverStation。HewasabouttojourneyuptoLondon,andhadplacedhisbaginthecornerofathird-classcarriage。
Afterhislongtravel,theflat-vowelledvoiceofthebookstallclerkofferingthelatestnovelsoundedpleasant——pleasanttheindependentanswersofabeardedguard,andthestodgyfarewellsayingsofamanandwife。Thelimberporterstrundlingtheirbarrows,thegreynessofthestationandthegoodstolidhumourclingingtothepeople,air,andvoices,allbroughttohimthesenseofhome。MeanwhilehewaveredbetweenpurchasingabookcalledMarketHayborough,whichhehadreadandwould,certainlyenjoyasecondtime,andCarlyle'sFrenchRevolution,whichhehadnotreadandwasdoubtfulofenjoying;hefeltthatheoughttobuythelatter,buthedidnotrelishgivinguptheformer。Whilehehesitatedthus,hiscarriagewasbeginningtofillup;so,quicklybuyingboth,hetookupapositionfromwhichhecoulddefendhisrights。"Nothing,"hethought,"showspeopleupliketravelling。"
Thecarriagewasalmostfull,and,puttinghisbag,upintherack,hetookhisseat。Atthemomentofstartingyetanotherpassenger,agirlwithapaleface,scrambledin。
"Iwasafooltogothird,"thoughtShelton,takinginhisneighboursfrombehindhisjournal。
Theywereseven。Agrizzledrusticsatinthefarcorner;hisemptypipe,bowldownwards,juttedlikeahandlefromhisface,allblearedwiththesmearofnothingnessthatgrowsonthosewhopasstheirlivesinthecurrentofhardfacts。Nexttohim,aruddy,heavy-
shoulderedmanwasdiscussingwithagrey-haired,hatchet-visagedpersontheconditionoftheirgardens;andSheltonwatchedtheireyestillitoccurredtohimhowcuriousalookwasinthem——awatchfulfriendliness,anallieddistrust——andthattheirvoices,cheerful,evenjovial,seemedtobecautiousallthetime。Hisglancestrayedoff,andalmostreboundedfromthesemi-Roman,slightlycross,andwhollyself-complacentfaceofastoutladyinablack-and-whitecostume,whowasreadingtheStrandMagazine,whileherother,sleek,plumphand,freedfromitsblackglove,andornamentedwithathickwatch-bracelet,restedonherlap。Ayounger,bright-cheeked,andself-consciousfemalewassittingnexther,lookingatthepalegirlwhohadjustgotin。
"There'ssomethingaboutthatgirl,"thoughtShelton,"theydon'tlike。"Herbrowneyescertainlylookedfrightened,herclotheswereofaforeigncut。Suddenlyhemettheglanceofanotherpairofeyes;theseeyes,prominentandblue,staredwithasortofsubtlerogueryfromaboveathin,lopsidednose,andwereatonceaverted。
TheygaveSheltontheimpressionthathewasbeingjudged,andmocked,enticed,initiated。Hisowngazedidnotfall;thissanguineface,withitstwo-daygrowthofreddishbeard,longnose,fulllips,andirony,puzzledhim。"Acynicalface!"hethought,andthen,"butsensitive!"andthen,"toocynical,"again。
Theyoungmanwhoowneditsatwithhislegspartedattheknees,hisdustytrouser-endsandbootsslantingbackbeneaththeseat,hisyellowfinger-tipscrispedasifrollingcigarettes。Astrangeairofdetachmentwasaboutthatyouthful,shabbyfigure,andnotascrapofluggagefilledtherackabovehishead。
Thefrightenedgirlwassittingnextthispaganpersonality;itwaspossiblythelackoffashioninhislooksthatcaused,hertoselecthimforherconfidence。
"Monsieur,"sheasked,"doyouspeakFrench?"
"Perfectly。"
"Thencanyoutellmewheretheytakethetickets?
"Theyoungmanshookhishead。
"No,"saidhe,"Iamaforeigner。"
Thegirlsighed。
"Butwhatisthematter,ma'moiselle?"
Thegirldidnotreply,twistingherhandsonanoldbaginherlap。
Silencehadstolenonthecarriage——asilencesuchasstealsonanimalsatthefirstapproachofdanger;alleyeswereturnedtowardsthefiguresoftheforeigners。
"Yes,"brokeoutthered-facedman,"hewasabitsquiffythatevening——oldTom。"
"Ah!"repliedhisneighbour,"hewouldbe。"
Somethingseemedtohavedestroyedtheirlookofmutualdistrust。
Theplump,sleekhandoftheladywiththeRomannosecurvedconvulsively;andthismovementcorrespondedtothefeelingagitatingShelton'sheart。Itwasalmostasifhandandheartfearedtobeaskedforsomething。
"Monsieur,"saidthegirl,withatrembleinhervoice,"Iamveryunhappy;canyoutellmewhattodo?Ihadnomoneyforaticket。"
Theforeignyouth'sfaceflickered。
"Yes?"hesaid;"thatmighthappentoanyone,ofcourse。"
"Whatwilltheydotome?"sighedthegirl。
"Don'tlosecourage,ma'moiselle。"Theyoungmanslidhiseyesfromlefttoright,andrestedthemonShelton。"AlthoughIdon'tasyetseeyourwayout。"
"Oh,monsieur!"sighedthegirl,and,thoughitwasclearthatnonebutSheltonunderstoodwhattheyweresaying,therewasachillyfeelinginthecarriage。
"IwishIcouldassistyou,"saidtheforeignyouth;"unfortunately——
"heshruggedhisshoulders,andagainhiseyesreturnedtoShelton。
Thelatterthrusthishandintohispocket。
"CanIbeofanyuse?"heaskedinEnglish。
"Certainly,sir;youcouldrenderthisyoungladythegreatestpossibleservicebylendingherthemoneyforaticket。"
Sheltonproducedasovereign,whichtheyoungmantook。Passingit。
tothegirl,hesaid:
"Athousandthanks——'voilaunebelleaction'!"
ThemisgivingswhichattendoncasualcharitycrowdedupinShelton'smind;hewasashamedofhavingthemandofnothavingthem,andhestolecovertlooksatthisyoungforeigner,whowasnowtalkingtothegirlinalanguagethathedidnotunderstand。Thoughvagabondinessence,thefellow'sfaceshowedsubtlespirit,afortitudeandironynotfounduponthefaceofnormalman,andinturningfromittotheotherpassengersSheltonwasconsciousofrevolt,contempt,andquestioning,thathecouldnotdefine。Leaningbackwithhalf-
closedeyes,hetriedtodiagnosethisnewsensation。Hefounditdisconcertingthatthefacesandbehaviourofhisneighbourslackedanythinghecouldgraspandsecretlyabuse。Theycontinuedtoconversewithadmirableandslightlyconsciousphlegm,yetheknew,aswellasifeachonehadwhisperedtohimprivately,thatthisshadyincidenthadshakenthem。Somethingunsettlingtotheirnotionsofpropriety-somethingdangerousanddestructiveofcomplacency——hadoccurred,andthiswasunforgivable。Eachhadadifferentway,humorousorphilosophic,contemptuous,sour,orsly,ofshowingthisresentment。ButbyaflashofinsightSheltonsawthatatthebottomoftheirmindsandofhisownthefeelingwasthesame。Becausehesharedintheirresentmenthewasenragedwiththemandwithhimself。Helookedattheplump,sleekhandofthewomanwiththeRomannose。Theinsulationandcomplacencyofitspaleskin,thepassiverighteousnessaboutitscurve,theprimseparationfromtheothersofthefatlittlefinger,hadacquiredawhollyunaccountableimportance。Itembodiedtheverdictofhisfellow-
passengers,theverdictofSociety;forheknewthat,whetherornorepugnanttothewell-bredmind,eachassemblageofeightpersons,eveninathird-classcarriage,containsthekernelofSociety。
Butbeinginlove,andrecentlyengaged,Sheltonhadarighttobeimmunefromdiscontentofanykind,andherevertedtohismentalimageofthecool,fairface,quickmovements,andthebrilliantsmilethatnowinhisprobationaryexilehauntedhisimagination;hetookouthisfiancee'slastletter,butthevoiceoftheyoungforeigneraddressinghiminrapidFrenchcausedhimtoputitbackabruptly。
"Fromwhatshetellsme,sir,"hesaid,bendingforwardtobeoutofhearingofthegirl,"hersisanunhappycase。Ishouldhavebeenonlytoogladtohelpher,but,asyousee"——andhemadeagesturebywhichSheltonobservedthathehadpartedfromhiswaistcoat——"IamnotRothschild。ShehasbeenabandonedbythemanwhobroughtherovertoDoverunderpromiseofmarriage。Look"——andbyasubtleflickerofhiseyeshemarkedhowthetwoladieshadedgedawayfromtheFrenchgirl"theytakegoodcarenottolettheirgarmentstouchher。Theyarevirtuouswomen。Howfineathingisvirtue,sir!andfinertoknowyouhaveit,especiallywhenyouareneverlikelytobetempted。"
Sheltonwasunabletorepressasmile;andwhenhesmiledhisfacegrewsoft。
"Haven'tyouobserved,"wentontheyouthfulforeigner,"thatthosewhobytemperamentandcircumstanceareworstfittedtopronouncejudgmentareusuallythefirsttojudge?ThejudgmentsofSocietyarealwayschildish,seeingthatit'scomposedforthemostpartofindividualswhohaveneversmeltthefire。Andlookatthis:theywhohavemoneyruntoogreatariskofpartingwithitiftheydon'taccusethepennilessofbeingroguesandimbeciles。"
Sheltonwasstartled,andnotonlybyanoutburstofphilosophyfromanutterstrangerinpoorclothes,butatthissingularwordingofhisownprivatethoughts。Stiflinghissenseoftheunusualforthequeerattractionthisyoungmaninspired,hesaid:
"Isupposeyou'reastrangeroverhere?"
"I'vebeeninEnglandsevenmonths,butnotyetinLondon,"repliedtheother。"Icountondoingsomegoodthere——itistime!"Abitterandpatheticsmileshowedforasecondonhislips。"Itwon'tbemyfaultifIfail。YouareEnglish,Sir?"
Sheltonnodded。
"Forgivemyasking;yourvoicelackssomethingI'venearlyalwaysnoticedintheEnglishakindof——'commentcelas'appelle'——
cocksureness,comingfromyournation'sgreatestquality。"
"Andwhatisthat?"askedSheltonwithasmile。
"Complacency,"repliedtheyouthfulforeigner。
"Complacency!"repeatedShelton;"doyoucallthatagreatquality?"
"Ishouldrathersay,monsieur,agreatdefectinwhatisalwaysagreatpeople。Youarecertainlythemosthighly-civilisednationontheearth;yousufferalittlefromthefact。IfIwereanEnglishpreachermydesirewouldbetopricktheheartofyourcomplacency。"
Shelton,leaningback,consideredthisimpertinentsuggestion。
"Hum!"hesaidatlast,"you'dbeunpopular;Idon'tknowthatwe'reanycockierthanothernations。"
Theyoungforeignermadeasignasthoughconfirmingthisopinion。
"Ineffect,"saidhe,"itisasufficientlywidespreaddisease。Lookatthesepeoplehere"——andwitharapidglancehepointedtotheinmatesofthecarnage,——"veryaveragepersons!Whathavetheydonetowarranttheirmakingavirtuousnoseatthosewhodonotwalkastheydo?Thatoldrustic,perhaps,isdifferent——heneverthinksatall——butlookatthosetwooccupiedwiththeirstupiditiesaboutthepriceofhops,theprospectsofpotatoes,whatGeorgeisdoing,athousandthingsallofthatsort——lookattheirfaces;Icomeofthebourgeoisiemyself——havetheyevershownproofofanyqualitythatgivesthemtherighttopatthemselvesupontheback?Nofear!
Outsidepotatoestheyknownothing,andwhattheydonotunderstandtheydreadandtheydespise——therearemillionsofthatbreed。
'VoilalaSociete'!Thesolequalitythesepeoplehaveshowntheyhaveiscowardice。IwaseducatedbytheJesuits,"heconcluded;"ithasgivenmeawayofthinking。"
UnderordinarycircumstancesSheltonwouldhavemurmuredinawell-
bredvoice,"Ah!quiteso,"andtakenrefugeinthecolumnsoftheDailyTelegraph。Inplaceofthis,forsomereasonthathedidnotunderstand,helookedattheyoungforeigner,andasked,"Whydoyousayallthistome?"
Thetramp——forbyhisbootshecouldhardlyhavebeenbetter——
hesitated。
"Whenyou'vetravelledlikeme,"hesaid,asifresolvedtospeakthetruth,"youacquireaninstinctinchoosingtowhomandhowyouspeak。Itisnecessitythatmakesthelaw;ifyouwanttoliveyoumustlearnallthatsortofthingtomakefaceagainstlife。"
Shelton,whohimselfpossessedacertainsubtlety,couldnotbutobservethecomplimentarynatureofthesewords。Itwaslikesaying"I'mnotafraidofyoumisunderstandingme,andthinkingmearascaljustbecauseIstudyhumannature。"
"Butistherenothingtobedoneforthatpoorgirl?"
Hisnewacquaintanceshruggedhisshoulders。
"Abrokenjug,"saidhe;"——you'llnevermendher。She'sgoingtoacousininLondontoseeifshecangethelp;you'vegivenherthemeansofgettingthere——it'sallthatyoucando。Oneknowstoowellwhat'llbecomeofher。"
Sheltonsaidgravely,"Oh!that'shorrible!Couldn'tshebeinducedtogobackhome?I
shouldbeglad——"
Theforeignvagrantshookhishead。
"Monchermonsieur,"hesaid,"youevidentlyhavenotyethadoccasiontoknowwhatthe'family'islike。'Thefamily'doesnotlikedamagedgoods;itwillhavenothingtosaytosonswhosehandshavedippedintothetillordaughtersnolongertobemarried。Whatthedevilwouldtheydowithher?Betterputastoneaboutherneckandletherdrownatonce。AlltheworldisChristian,butChristianandgoodSamaritanarenotquitethesame。"
Sheltonlookedatthegirl,whowassittingmotionless,withherhandscrossedonherbag,andarevoltagainsttheunfairwaysoflifearosewithinhim。
"Yes,"saidtheyoungforeigner,asifreadingallhisthoughts,"what'scalledvirtueisnearlyalwaysonlyluck。"Herolledhiseyesasthoughtosay:"Ah!La,Conventions?Havethembyallmeans——butdon'tlooklikepeacocksbecauseyouarepreservingthem;itisbutcowardiceandluck,myfriends——butcowardiceandluck!"
"Lookhere,"saidShelton,"I'llgivehermyaddress,andifshewantstogobacktoherfamilyshecanwritetome。"
"She'llnevergoback;shewon'thavethecourage。"
Sheltoncaughtthecringingglanceofthegirl'seyes;inthedroopofherliptherewassomethingsensuous,andtheconvictionthattheyoungman'swordsweretruecameoverhim。
"Ihadbetternotgivethemmyprivateaddress,"hethought,glancingatthefacesopposite;andhewrotedownthefollowing:"RichardParamorShelton,c/oParamorandHerring,Lincoln'sInnFields。"
"You'reverygood,sir。MynameisLouisFerrand;noaddressatpresent。I'llmakeherunderstand;she'shalfstupefiedjustnow。"
Sheltonreturnedtotheperusalofhispaper,toodisturbedtoread;
theyoungvagrant'swordskeptsoundinginhisears。Heraisedhiseyes。TheplumphandoftheladywiththeRomannosestillrestedonherlap;ithadbeenrecasedinitsblackglovewithlargewhitestitching。Herfrowninggazewasfixedonhimsuspiciously,asifhehadoutragedhersenseofdecency。
"Hedidn'tgetanythingfromme,"saidthevoiceofthered-facedman,endingatalkontax-gatherers。Thetrainwhistledloudly,andSheltonrevertedtohispaper。Thistimehecrossedhislegs,determinedtoenjoythelatestmurder;oncemorehefoundhimselflookingatthevagrant'slong-nosed,mockingface。"Thatfellow,"hethought,"hasseenandfelttentimesasmuchasI,althoughhemustbetenyearsyounger。"
Heturnedfordistractiontothelandscape,withitsAprilclouds,trimhedgerows,homelycoverts。Butstrangeideaswouldcome,andhewasdiscontentedwithhimself;theconversationhehadhad,thepersonalityofthisyoungforeigner,disturbedhim。Itwasallasthoughhehadmadeastartinsomefreshjourneythroughthefieldsofthought。
CHAPTERII
ANTONIA
FiveyearsbeforethejourneyjustdescribedSheltonhadstoodoneafternoononthebargeofhisoldcollegeattheendofthesummerraces。Hehadbeen"down"fromOxfordforsomeyears,buttheseOlympiancontestsstillattractedhim。
Theboatswerepassing,andintheusualrushtothebargesidehisarmcameincontactwithasoftyoungshoulder。Hesawclosetohimayounggirlwithfairhairknottedinaribbon,whosefacewaseagerwithexcitement。Thepointedchin,longneck,thefluffyhair,quickgestures,andthecalmstrenuousnessofhergrey-blueeyes,impressedhimvividly。
"Oh,wemustbumpthem!"heheardhersigh。
"Doyouknowmypeople,Shelton?"saidavoicebehindhisback;andhewasgrantedatouchfromthegirl'sshy,impatienthand,thewarmerfingersofaladywithkindlyeyesresemblingahare's,thedryhand-claspofagentlemanwithathin,archednose,andaquizzicalbrownface。
"AreyoutheMr。Sheltonwhousedtoplaythe'bones'atEton?"saidthelady。"Oh;wesooftenheardofyoufromBernard!Hewasyourfag,wasn'the?Howdistressin'itistoseethesepoorboysintheboats!"
"Mother,theylikeit!"criedthegirl。
"Antoniaoughttoberowing,herself,"saidherfather,whosenamewasDennant。
Sheltonwentbackwiththemtotheirhotel,walkingbesideAntoniathroughtheChristchurchmeadows,tellingherdetailsofhiscollegelife。Hedinedwiththemthatevening,and,whenheleft,hadafeelinglikethatproducedbyafirstglassofchampagne。
TheDennantslivedatHolmOaks,withinsixmilesofOxford,andtwodayslaterhedroveoverandpaidacall。AmidsttheavocationsofreadingfortheBar,ofcricket,racing,shooting,itbutrequiredawhiffofsomefreshscent——hay,honeysuckle,clover——tobringAntonia'sfacebeforehim,withitsuncertaincolouranditsfrank,distanteyes。Buttwoyearspassedbeforeheagainsawher。Then,ataninvitationfromBernardDennant,heplayedcricketfortheManorofHolmOaksagainstaneighbouringhouse;intheeveningtherewasdancingohthelawn。Thefairhairwasnowturnedup,buttheeyeswerequiteunchanged。Theirstepswenttogether,andthey。
outlastedeveryothercoupleontheslipperygrass。Thence,perhaps,sprangherrespectforhim;hewaswiry,alittletallerthanherself,andseemedtotalkofthingsthatinterestedher。Hefoundoutshewasseventeen,andshefoundoutthathewastwenty-nine。
ThefollowingtwoyearsSheltonwenttoHolmOakswheneverhewasasked;tohimthiswasaperiodofenchantedgames,ofcub-hunting,theatricals,anddistantsoundsofpractisedmusic,andduringitAntonia'seyesgrewmorefriendlyandmorecurious,andhisownmoreshy,andschooled,morefurtiveandmoreardent。Thencamehisfather'sdeath,avoyageroundtheworld,andthatpeculiarhourofmixedsensationswhen,oneMarchmorning,abandoninghissteameratMarseilles,hetooktrainforHyeres。
HefoundheratoneofthoseexclusivehostelriesamongstthepineswherethebestEnglishgo,incommonwithAmericans,Russianprincesses,andJewishfamilies;hewouldnothavebeenshockedtofindherelsewhere,buthewouldhavebeensurprised。Hissunburntfaceandthenewbeard,onwhichhesetsomeundefinedvalue,apologeticallydisplayed,werescannedbythoseblueeyeswithrapidglances,atoncemorefriendlyandlessfriendly。"Ah!"theyseemedtosay,"hereyouare;howgladIam!But——whatnow?"