"No,youwouldn't;you'dhavewhiskedroundthecomerwhenyousawmecomingorhavestaredstraightbeforeyou,utterlyunconsciousoftheyoungwomaninthebaggagewagon。"
Pollylaughedinhisfacejustassheusedtodo,whenshesaidthat,and,inspiteofthedoubtcastuponhiscourtesy,Tomratherlikedit,thoughhehadnothingtosayforhimselfbutareproachful,­;
"Now,Polly,that'stoobad。"
"True,nevertheless。Youmustcomeandseemypets,Maud,formycatandbirdlivetogetherashappilyasbrotherandsister,"saidPolly,turningtoMaud,whodevouredeverywordshesaid。
"That'snotsayingmuchforthem,"mutteredTom,feelingthatPollyoughttoaddressmoreofherconversationtohim。
"Pollyknowswhatshe'stalkingabout;herbrothersappreciatetheirsisters,"observedFanny,inhersharptone。
"AndPollyappreciatesherbrothers,don'tforgettoaddthat,ma'am,"answeredTom。
"DidItellyouthatWillwasgoingtocollege?"brokeinPolly,toaverttherisingstorm。
"Hopehe'llenjoyhimself,"observedTom,withtheairofamanwhohadpassedthroughallthemysteries,andreachedthatstateofsublimeindifferencewhichjuniorsseemtopridethemselvesupon。
"Ithinkhewill,heissofondofstudy,andissoanxioustoimproveeveryopportunity。Ionlyhopehewon'toverworkandgetsick,assomanyboysdo,"saidsimplePolly,withsucharespectfulbeliefintheeagerthirstforknowledgeofcollegiansasaclass,thatTomregardedthedeludedgirlwithasmileofloftypity,fromtheheightsofhisvastandvariedexperience。
"Guesshewon'thurthimself。I'llseethathedon'tstudytoohard。"
AndTom'seyestwinkledastheyusedtodo,whenheplannedhisboyishpranks。
"I'mafraidyoucan'tbetrustedasaguide,ifvariousrumorsI'veheardaretrue,"saidPolly,lookingupathimwithawistfulexpression,thatcausedhisfacetoassumethesobrietyofanowl's。
"Baseslanders;I'massteadyasaclock,anornamenttomyclass,andamodelyoungman,ain'tI,mother?"AndTompattedherthincheekwithacaressinghand,sureofonefirmfriendinher;forwhenheceasedtobeaharum-scarumboy,Mrs。Shawbegantotakegreatprideinherson,andhe,missinggrandma,triedtofillherplacewithhisfeeblemother。
"Yes,dear,youareallIcouldask,"andMrs。Shawlookedupathimwithsuchaffectionandconfidenceinhereyes,thatPollygaveTomthefirstapprovinglookshehadvouchsafedhimsinceshecame。
WhyTomshouldlooktroubledandturngraveallatonce,shecouldn'tunderstand,butshelikedtoseehimstrokehismother'scheeksosoftly,ashestoodwithhisheadrestingonthehighbackofherchair,forPollyfanciedthathefeltaman'spityforherweakness,andwaslearningason'spatientloveforamotherwhohadhadmuchtobearwithhim。
"I'msogladyouaregoingtobehereallwinter,forwearetobeverygay,andIshallenjoytakingyouroundwithme,"beganFanny,forgettingPolly'splanforamoment。
Pollyshookherheaddecidedly。"Itsoundsverynice,butitcan'tbedone,Fan,forI'vecometowork,notplay;tosave,notspend;andpartieswillbequiteoutofthequestionforme。"
"Youdon'tintendtoworkallthetime,withoutabitoffun,Ihope,"
criedFanny,dismayedattheidea。
"ImeantodowhatI'veundertaken,andnottobetemptedawayfrommypurposebyanything。Ishouldn'tbefittogivelessonsifIwasuplate,shouldI?Andhowfarwouldmyearningsgotowardsdress,carriages,andallthelittleexpenseswhichwouldcomeifIsetupforayoungladyinsociety?Ican'tdoboth,andI'mnotgoingtotry,butIcanpickupbitsoffunasIgoalong,andbecontentedwithfreeconcertsandlectures,seeingyouprettyoften,andeverySundayWillistospendwithme,soIshallhavequiteasmuchdissipationasisgoodforme。"
"Ifyoudon'tcometomyparties,I'llneverforgiveyou,"saidFanny,asPollypaused,whileTomchuckledinwardlyattheideaofcallingvisitsfromabrother"dissipation。"
"Anysmallparty,whereitwilldotowearaplainblacksilk,Icancometo;butthebigonesmustn'tbethoughtof,thankyou。"
ItwascharmingtoseetheresolutionofPolly'sfacewhenshesaidthat;forsheknewherweakness,andbeyondthatblacksilkshehaddeterminednottogo。Fannysaidnomore,forshefeltquitesurethatPollywouldrelentwhenthetimecame,andsheplannedtogiveheraprettydressforaChristmaspresent,sothatoneexcuseshouldberemoved。
"Isay,Polly,won'tyougivesomeofusfellowsmusiclessons?Somebodywantsmetoplay,andI'dratherlearnofyouthananySenorTwankydillo,"
saidTom,whodidn'tfindtheconversationinteresting。
"Oh,yes;ifanyofyouboyshonestlywanttolearn,andwillbehaveyourselves,I'lltakeyou;butIshallchargeextra,"answeredPolly,withawickedsparkleoftheeye,thoughherfacewasquitesober,andhertonedelightfullybusiness-like。
"Why,Polly,Tomisn'taboy;he'stwenty,andhesaysImusttreathimwithrespect。Besides,he'sengaged,anddoesputonsuchairs,"brokeinMaudwhoregardedherbrotherasavenerablebeing。
"Whoisthelittlegirl?"askedPollytakingthenewsasajoke。
"Trix;why,didn'tyouknowit?"answeredMaud,asifithadbeenaneventofnationalimportance。
"No!isittrue,Fan?"andPollyturnedtoherfriendwithafacefullofsurprise,whileTomstruckanimposingattitude,andaffectedabsenceofmind。
"Iforgottotellyouinmylastletter;it'sjustout,andwedon'tlikeitverywell,"observedFanny,whowouldhavepreferredtobeengagedfirstherself。
"It'saverynicething,andIamperfectlysatisfied,"announcedMrs。Shaw,rousingfromaslightdoze。
"Pollylooksasifshedidn'tbelieveit。Haven'tItheappearanceof'thehappiestmanalive'?"askedTom,wonderingifitcouldbepitywhichhesawinthesteadyeyesfixedonhim。
"No,Idon'tthinkyouhave,"shesaid,slowly。
"Howthedeuceshouldamanlook,then?"criedTom,rathernettledathersoberreceptionofthegrandnews。
"Asifhehadlearnedtocareforsomeoneagreatdealmorethanforhimself,"answeredPolly,withsuddencolorinhercheeks,andasuddensofteningofthevoice,ashereyesturnedawayfromTom,whowasthepictureofacomplacentdandy,fromthetopmostcurlofhisauburnheadtothetipsofhisaristocraticboots。
"Tommy'squenched;Iagreewithyou,Polly;IneverlikedTrix,andIhopeit'sonlyaboy-and-girlfancy,thatwillsoondieanaturaldeath,"
saidMr。Shaw,whoseemedtofinditdifficulttohelpfallingintoabrownstudy,inspiteofthelivelychattergoingonabouthim。
Shaw,Jr。,beinghighlyincensedatthedisrespectfulmannerinwhichhisengagementwastreated,triedtoassumeasuperbairofindifference,andfindingthatadecidedfailure,wasabouttostrolloutoftheroomwithacomprehensivenod,whenhismothercalledafterhim:
"Whereareyougoing,dear?"
"ToseeTrix,ofcourse。Good-by,Polly,"andMr。Thomasdeparted,hopingthatbytheskillfulchangeoftone,fromardentimpatiencetocondescendingcoolness,hehadimpressedoneheareratleastwiththefactthatheregardedTrixasthestarofhisexistence,andPollyasapresuminglittlechit。
Ifhecouldhaveheardherlaugh,andFanny'sremarks,hiswrathwouldhaveboiledover;fortunatelyhewassparedthetrial,andwentawayhopingthatthecoquetriesofhisTrixwouldmakehimforgetPolly'slookwhensheansweredhisquestion。
"Mydear,thatboyisthemostdeludedcreatureyoueversaw,"beganFanny,assoonasthefrontdoorbanged。"BelleandTrixbothtriedtocatchhim,andtheslyestgothim;for,inspiteofhisairs,heisassoft-heartedasababy。YouseeTrixhasbrokenofftwoengagementsalready,andthethirdtimeshegotjiltedherself。Suchafussasshemade!Ideclare,itreallywasabsurd。ButIdothinkshefeltitverymuch,forshewouldn'tgooutatall,andgotthin,andpale,andblue,andwasreallyquitetouching。Ipitiedher,andhadherhereagooddeal,andTomtookherpart;healwaysdoesstandupforthecrushedones,andthat'sgoodofhim,Iallow。Well,shedidtheforsakenveryprettily;letTomamuseher,andledhimontillthepoorfellowlosthiswits,andfindinghercryingonedayaboutherhat,whichwasn'tbecoming,hethoughtshewasmourningforMr。Banks,andso,tocomforther,thegooseproposed。Thatwasallshewanted;shesnappedhimupatonce,andthereheisinanicescrape;
forsinceherengagementsheisasgayasever,flirtsawfullywithanyonewhocomesalong,andkeepsTominafumeallthetime。Ireallydon'tthinkhecaresforherhalfasmuchashemakesbelieve,buthe'llstandbyherthroughthickandthin,ratherthandoasBanksdid。"
"PoorTom!"wasallPollysaid,whenFanhadpouredthestoryintoherear,astheysatwhisperinginthesofacorner。
"MyonlyconsolationisthatTrixwillbreakofftheaffairbeforespring;
shealwaysdoes,sothatshemaybefreeforthesummercampaign。Itwon'thurtTom,butIhatetohavehimmakeafoolofhimselfoutofpity,forheismoreofamanthanheseems,andIdon'twantanyonetoplaguehim。"
"Noonebutyourself,"saidPolly,smiling。
"Well,that'sallfair;heisatormentsometimes,butI'mratherfondofhiminspiteofit。Igetsotiredoftheotherfellows,theyaresuchabsurdthingsandwhenTomisinhisgoodmoodheisveryniceandquiterefreshing。"
"I'mgladtohearit,"saidPolly,makingamentalnoteofthefact。
"Yes,andwhengrandmawasillhewasperfectlydevoted。Ididn'tknowtheboyhadsomuchgentlenessinhim。Hetookherdeathsadlytoheart,for,thoughhedidn'tsaymuch,hewasverygraveandsteadyforalongtime。Itriedtocomforthim,andwehadtwoorthreerealsweetlittletalkstogether,andseemedtogetacquaintedforthefirsttime。Itwasverynice,butitdidn'tlast;goodtimesneverdowithus。Wesoongotbackintotheoldway,andnowwehectoroneanotherjustasbefore。"
Fannysighed,thenyawned,andfellintoherusuallistlessattitude,asifthebriefexcitementofPolly'scominghadbeguntosubside。
"Walkhomewithmeandseemyfunnylittleroom。It'sbrightnow,andtheairwilldoyougood。Come,bothofyou,andhaveafrolicasweusedto,"saidPolly,fortheredsunsetnowburninginthewestseemedtoinvitethemout。
Theyagreed,andsoonthethreewerewalkingbrisklyawaytoPolly'snewhome,inaquietstreet,whereafewoldtreesrustledinthesummer,andthemorningsunshonepleasantlyinwintertime。"ThewayintomyparlorIsupawindingstair。"sangPolly,runninguptwoflightsofbroad,old-fashionedsteps,andopeningthedoorofabackroom,outofwhichstreamedthewelcomeglowoffirelight。
"Thesearemypets,Maud,"sheadded,pausingonthethreshold,andbeckoningthegirlstolookinquietly。
Ontherug,luxuriouslybaskinginthewarmth,layagraykitten,andcloseby,meditativelyroostingononeleg,stoodaplumpcanary,whocockedhisbrighteyeatthenew-comers,gavealoudchirpasiftowakehiscomrade,andthenflewstraighttoPolly'sshoulder,wherehebrokeintoajoyfulsongtowelcomehismistresshome。
"Allowmetointroducemyfamily,"saidPolly;"thisnoisylittlechaptheboysnamedNicodemus;andthisdozycatiscalledAshputtel,becausethejoyofherlifeistogetamongthecinders。Now,takeoffyourthings,andletmedothehonors,foryouaretostoptotea,andthecarriageistocomeforyouateight。Iarrangeditwithyourmotherwhileyouwereup-stairs。"
"Iwanttoseeeverything,"saidMaud,whenthehatswereoff,andthehandswarmed。
"Soyoushall;forIthinkmyhousekeepingarrangementswillamuseyou。"
ThenPollyshowedherkingdom,andthethreehadamerrytimeoverit。
Thebigpianotookupsomuchroomtherewasnoplaceforabed;butPollyproudlydisplayedtheresourcesofherchintz-coveredcouch,forthebackletdown,theseatliftedup,andinsidewereallthepillowsandblankets。
"Soconvenient,yousee,andyetoutofthewayinthedaytime,fortwoorthreeofmypupilscometome,"explainedPolly。
Thentherewasabrightdruggetoverthefadedcarpet,thelittlerocking-chairandsewing-tablestoodatonewindow,theivyranallovertheother,andhidthebanquetingperformanceswhichwentoninthatcorner。Book-shelveshungoverthesofa,apictureortwoonthewalls,andagreatvaseofautumnleavesandgrassesbeautifiedthelowchimney-piece。Itwasaveryhumblelittleroom,butPollyhaddoneherbesttomakeitpleasant,anditalreadyhadahome-likelook,withthecheeryfire,andthehouseholdpetschirpingandpurringconfidinglyontherug。
"Howniceitis!"exclaimedMaud,assheemergedfromthebigclosetwherePollykeptherstores。"Suchacunningteakettleandsaucepan,andatê;te-à;-tê;teset,andlotsofgoodthingstoeat。Dohavetoastfortea,Polly,andletmemakeitwiththenewtoastingfork;it'ssuchfuntoplaycook。"
Fannywasnotsoenthusiasticashersister,forhereyessawmanytracesofwhatseemedlikepovertytoher;butPollywassogay,sosatisfiedwithhersmallestablishment,sofullofhappyhopesandplans,thatherfriendhadnotthehearttofindafaultorsuggestanimprovement,andsatwhereshewastold,laughingandtalkingwhiletheothersgottea。
"Thiswillbeacountrysupper,girls,"saidPolly,bustlingabout。
"Hereisrealcream,brownbread,home-madecake,andhoneyfrommyownbeehives。Motherfittedmeoutwithsuchasupply,I'mgladtohaveaparty,forIcan'teatitallquickenough。Butterthetoast,Maudie,andputthatlittlecoveroverit。Tellmewhenthekettleboils,anddon'tsteponNicodemus,whateveryoudo。"
"Whatacapitalhouse-keeperyouwillmakesomeday,"saidFanny,asshewatchedPollyspreadhertablewithaneatnessanddespatchwhichwaspleasanttobehold。
"Yes,it'sgoodpractice,"laughedPolly,fillinghertinyteapot,andtakingherplacebehindthetray,withamatronlyair,whichwasthebestjokeofthewhole。
"ThisisthemostdeliciouspartyIeverwentto,"observedMaud,withhermouthfullofhoney,whenthefeastwaswellunderway。"IdowishIcouldhaveaniceroomlikethis,andacatandabirdthatwouldn'teateachotherup,andadearlittleteakettle,andmakejustasmuchtoastasIlike。"
SuchapealoflaughtergreetedMaud'spensiveaspiration,thatMissMillssmiledoverhersolitarycupoftea,andlittleNickburstintoaperfectecstasyofsong,ashesatonthesugar-bowlhelpinghimself。
"Idon'tcareforthetoastandthekettle,butIdoenvyyouyourgoodspirits,Polly,"saidFanny,asthemerrimentsubsided。"I'msotiredofeverybodyandeverything,itseemssometimesasifIshoulddieofennui。Don'tyoueverfeelso?"
"Thingsworrymesometimes,butIjustcatchupabroomandsweep,orwashhard,orwalk,orgoatsomethingwithallmymight,andIusuallyfindthatbythetimeIgetthroughtheworryisgone,orI'vegotcourageenoughtobearitwithoutgrumbling,"answeredPolly,cuttingthebrownloafenergetically。
"Ican'tdothosethings,youknow;there'snoneedofit,andIdon'tthinkthey'dcuremyworrying,"saidFanny,languidlyfeedingAshputtel,whosatdecorouslybesideher,atthetable,winkingatthecreampot。
"Alittlepovertywoulddoyougood,Fan;justenoughnecessitytokeepyoubusytillyoufindhowgoodworkis;andwhenyouoncelearnthat,youwon'tcomplainofennuianymore,"returnedPolly,whohadtakenkindlythehardlessonwhichtwentyyearsofcheerfulpovertyhadtaughther。
"Mercy,no,Ishouldhatethat;butIwishsomeonewouldinventanewamusementforrichpeople。I'mdeadsickofparties,andflirtations,tryingtoout-dressmyneighbors,andgoingthesameroundyearafteryear,likeasquirrelinacage。"
Fanny'stonewasbitteraswellasdiscontented,herfacesadaswellaslistless,andPollyhadaninstinctivefeelingthatsometrouble,morerealthananyshehadeverknownbefore,waslyingheavyatherfriend'sheart。Thatwasnotthetimetospeakofit,butPollyresolvedtostandreadytooffersympathy,ifnothingmore,whenevertheconfidentialminutecame;andhermannerwassokind,socomfortable,thatFannyfeltitssilentmagic,grewmorecheerfulinthequietatmosphereofthatlittleroom,andwhentheysaidgood-night,afteranold-timegossipbythefire,shekissedherhostesswarmly,saying,withagratefullook,­;
"Polly,dear,Ishallcomeoften,youdomesomuchgood。"ChapterIX。ChapterIX。CHAPTERIXLESSONSTHEfirstfewweekswerehardones,forPollyhadnotyetoutgrownhernaturalshynessandgoingamongsomanystrangerscausedherfrequentpanics。
Butherpurposegavehercourage,andwhentheicewasoncebroken,herlittlepupilsquicklylearnedtoloveher。Thenoveltysoonworeoff,andthoughshethoughtshewaspreparedfordrudgery,shefounditverytedioustogoondoingthesamethingdayafterday。Thenshewaslonely,forWillcouldonlycomeonceaweek,herleisurehourswereFanny'sbusiest,andthe"bitsofpleasure"weresofewandfarbetweenthattheyonlytantalizedher。Evenhersmallhousekeepinglostitscharms,forPollywasasocialcreature,andthesolitarymealswereoftensadones。AshputtelandNickdidtheirbesttocheerher,buttheytoo,seemedtopineforcountryfreedomandhomeatmosphere。PoorPuttel,aftergazingwistfullyoutofthewindowatthegauntcitycatsskulkingabouttheyard,wouldretiretotherug,andcurlherselfupasifallhopeoffindingcongenialsocietyhadfailed;
whilelittleNickwouldsingtillhevibratedonhisperch,withoutreceivinganyresponseexceptaninquisitivechirpfromthepertsparrows,whoseemedtotwithimwithhiscaptivity。Yes,bythetimethelittleteakettlehadlostitsbrightness,Pollyhaddecidedthatgettingone'slivingwasnojoke,andmanyofherbrillianthopeshadsharedthefateofthelittlekettle。
Ifonecouldonlymakethesacrificeallatonce,anddonewithit,thenitwouldseemeasier;buttokeepupadailysacrificeofone'swishes,tastes,andpleasures,isratherahardtask,especiallywhenoneispretty,young,andgay。Lessonsallday,ahighlyinstructivelecture,booksoverasolitaryfire,ormusicwithnoaudiencebutasleepycatandabirdwithhisheadtuckedunderhiswing,foreveningentertainment,wasnotexactlywhatmightbecalledfestive;so,inspiteofherbraveresolutions,Pollydidlongforalittlefunsometimes,andaftersayingvirtuouslytoherselfatnine:"Yes,itismuchwiserandbetterformetogotobedearly,andbereadyforworktomorrow,"shewouldlieawakehearingthecarriagesrolltoandfro,andimaginingthegaygirlsinside,goingtoparty,opera,orplay,tillMrs。Dodd'shoppillowmightaswellhavebeenstuffedwithnettles,foranysleepitbrought,oranyuseitwas,excepttocatchandhidethetearsthatdroppedonitwhenPolly'sheartwasveryfull。
AnotherthornthatwoundedourPollyinherfirstattempttomakeherwaythroughthethicketthatalwaysbarsawoman'sprogress,wasthediscoverythatworkingforalivingshutsagoodmanydoorsinone'sfaceevenindemocraticAmerica。AsFanny'sguestshehadbeen,inspiteofpoverty,kindlyreceivedwhereverherfriendtookher,bothaschildandwoman。
Now,thingswerechanged;thekindlypeoplepatronized,thecarelessforgotallabouther,andevenFanny,withallheraffection,feltthatPollythemusicteacherwouldnotbewelcomeinmanyplaceswherePollytheyoungladyhadbeenacceptedas"MissShaw'sfriend。"
Someofthegirlsstillnoddedamiably,butneverinvitedhertovisitthem;othersmerelydroppedtheireyelids,andwentbywithoutspeaking,whileagoodmanyignoredherasentirelyasifshehadbeeninvisible。
ThesethingshurtPollymorethanshewouldconfess,forathomeeveryoneworked,andeveryonewasrespectedforit。Shetriednottocare,butgirlsfeellittleslightskeenly,andmorethanoncePollywasseverelytemptedtogiveupherplan,andrunawaytothesafeshelterathome。
FannyneverfailedtoaskhertoeverysortoffestivityintheShawmansion;butafterafewtrials,Pollyfirmlydeclinedeverythingbutinformalvisitswhenthefamilywerealone。Shesoonfoundthateventhenewblacksilkwasn'tfineenoughforFanny'ssmallestparty,and,afterreceivingafewoftheexpressiveglancesbywhichwomenconveytheiropinionoftheirneighbor'stoilet,andoverhearingajokeortwo"aboutthatinevitabledress,"and"thelittleblackbird,"Pollyfoldedawaytheoncetreasuredfrock,saying,withachokeinhervoice:­;
"I'llwearitforWill,helikesit,andclothescan'tchangehisloveforme。"
IamafraidthewholesomesweetnessofPolly'snaturewasgettingalittlesouredbythesetroubles;butbeforelastingharmwasdone,shereceived,fromanunexpectedsource,someoftherealhelpwhichteachesyoungpeoplehowtobearthesesmallcrosses,byshowingthemtheheavieronestheyhaveescaped,andbygivingthemanideaofthehigherpleasuresonemayearninthegood,old-fashionedwaysthatkeepheartssweet,headssane,handsbusy。
EverybodyhastheirdaysofmisfortunelikelittleRosamond,andPollywasbeginningtothinkshehadmorethanhershare。Oneoftheseendedinawaywhichinfluencedherwholelife,andsowewillrecordit。Itbeganearly;forthehard-heartedlittlegratewouldn'tbehaveitselftillshehaduseduparuinousquantityofkindlings。ThenshescaldedpoorPuttelbyupsettinghercoffee-pot;andinsteadofaleisurely,cosymeal,hadtohurryawayuncomfortably,foreverythingwentwrongeventothecomingoffofbothbonnetstringsinthelastdreadfulscramble。Beinglate,sheofcourseforgothermusic,andhurryingbackforit,fellintoapuddle,whichcappedtheclimaxofherdespair。
Suchatryingmorningasthatwas!Pollyfeltoutoftuneherself,andallthepianosseemedtoneedatunerasmuchasshedid。Thepupilswereunusuallystupid,andtwoofthemannouncedthattheirmammawasgoingtotakethemtotheSouth,whithershewassuddenlycalled。Thiswasablow,fortheyhadjustbegun,andPollyhadn'tthefacetosendinabillforawholequarter,thoughherplansandcalculationsweresadlydisturbedbythefailureofthatsum。
Trudginghometodinner,tiredanddisappointed,poorPollyreceivedanotherblow,whichhurthermorethanthelossofallherpupils。Asshewenthurryingalongwithabigmusicbookinonehandandapaperbagofrollsforteaintheother,shesawTomandTrixcoming。Asshewatchedthemwhiletheyslowlyapproached,lookingsogayandhandsomeandhappy,itseemedtoPollyasifallthesunshineandgoodwalkingwasontheirsideofthestreet,allthewintrywindandmudonhers。Longingtoseeafriendlyfaceandreceiveakindword,shecrossedover,meaningtonodandsmileatleast。Trixsawherfirst,andsuddenlybecameabsorbedinthedistanthorizon。Tomapparentlydidnotseeher,forhiseyeswerefixedonafinehorsejustprancingby。Pollythoughtthathehadseenher,andapproachedwithacuriouslittleflutteratherheart,forifTomcuthershefeltthathercupwouldbefull。
Ontheycame,Trixintentontheview,Tomstaringatthehandsomehorse,andPolly,withredchecks,expectanteyes,andthebrownbundle,infullsight。Onedreadfulminuteastheycameparallel,andnoonespokeorbowed,­;thenitwasallover,andPollywenton,feelingasifsomeonehadslappedherintheface。"Shewouldn'thavebelieveditofTom;itwasallthedoingsofthathorridTrix;well,shewouldn'ttroublehimanymore,ifhewassuchasnobastobeashamedofherjustbecauseshecarriedbundlesandworkedforherbread。"Sheclutchedthepaperbagfiercelyasshesaidthistoherself,thenhereyesfilled,andherlipstrembled,assheadded,"Howcouldhedoit,beforeher,too?"
NowTomwasquiteguiltlessofthisoffence,andhadalwaysnoddedtoPollywhentheymet;butitsohappenedhehadalwaysbeenalonetillnow,andthatwaswhyitcutsodeeply,especiallyasPollyneverhadapprovedofTrix。Beforeshecouldclearhereyesorsteadyherface,agentlemanmether,liftedhishat,smiled,andsaidpleasantly,­;
"Goodmorning,MissPolly,I'mgladtomeetyou。"Then,withasuddenchangeofvoiceandmanner,headded,"Ibegpardon­;isanythingthematter­;canIbeofservice?"
Itwasveryawkward,butitcouldn'tbehelped,andallPollycoulddowastotellthetruthandmakethebestofit。
"It'sverysilly,butithurtsmetobecutbymyoldfriends。Ishallgetusedtoitpresently,Idaresay。"
Mr。Sydneyglancedback,recognizedthecouplebehindthem,andturnedroundwithadisgustedexpression。Pollywasfumblingforherhandkerchief,andwithoutawordhetookbothbookandbundlefromher,alittlebitofkindnessthatmeantagooddealjustthen。Pollyfeltit,anditdidhergood;hastilywipingthetraitorouseyes,shelaughedandsaidcheerfully,­;
"There,I'mallrightagain;thankyou,don'ttroubleyourselfwithmyparcels。"
"Notrouble,Iassureyou,andthisbookremindsmeofwhatIwasabouttosay。Haveyouanhourtospareformylittleniece?Hermotherwantshertobegin,anddesiredmetomaketheinquiry。"
"Didshe,really?"andPollylookedupathim,asifshesuspectedhimofinventingthewholething,outofkindness。
Mr。Sydneysmiled,andtakinganotefromhispocket,presentedit,saying,withareproachfullook,­;"Beholdtheproofofmytruth,andneverdoubtagain。"
Pollybeggedpardon,readthenotefromthelittlegirl'smother,whichwastohavebeenleftatherroomifshewasabsent,andgavethebeareraverygratefullookassheacceptedthiswelcomeadditiontoherpupils。
Wellpleasedatthesuccessofhismission,Sydneyartfullyledtheconversationtomusic,andforatimePollyforgotherwoes,talkingenthusiasticallyonherfavoritetheme。Asshereclaimedherbookandbag,atherowndoor,shesaid,inherhonestway,­;
"Thankyouverymuchfortryingtomakemeforgetmyfoolishlittletroubles。"
"Thenletmesayonethingmore;thoughappearancesareagainsthim,Idon'tbelieveTomShawsawyou。MissTrixisequaltothatsortofthing,butitisn'tlikeTom,forwithallhisfopperyheisagoodfellowatheart。"
AsMr。Sydneysaidthis,Pollyheldoutherhandwithahearty"Thankyouforthat。"Theyoungmanshookthelittlehandinthegraywoollenglove,gaveherexactlythesamebowwhichhedidtheHonorableMrs。Davenport,andwentaway,leavingPollytowalkupstairsandaddressPuttelwiththepeculiarremark,­;
"Youareatruegentleman!sokindtosaythataboutTom。I'llthinkit'sso,anyway;andwon'tIteachMinnieinmyverybeststyle!"
Puttelpurred,Nickchirpedapprovingly,andPollyateherdinnerwithabetterappetitethanshehadexpected。Butatthebottomofherhearttherewasasorespotstill,andtheafternoonlessonsdraggeddismally。
Itwasduskwhenshegothome,andasshesatinthefirelighteatingherbreadandmilk,severaltearsbedewedthelittlerolls,andeventhehomehoneyhadabittertaste。
"Nowthiswon'tdo,"shebrokeoutallatonce;"thisissillyandwicked,andcan'tbeallowed。I'lltrytheoldplanandputmyselfrightbydoingsomelittlekindnesstosomebody。Nowwhatshallitbe?O,Iknow!Fanisgoingtoapartyto-night;I'llrunupandhelpherdress;shelikestohaveme,andIenjoyseeingtheprettythings。Yes,andI'lltakehertwoorthreeclustersofmydaphne,it'ssosweet。"
UpgotPolly,andtakingherlittleposy,trottedawaytotheShaws',determinedtobehappyandcontentedinspiteofTrixandhardwork。
ShefoundFannyenduringtormentunderthehandsofthehair-dresser,whowasdoinghisbesttospoilherhair,anddistortherheadwithamassofcurls,braids,frizzles,andpuffs;forthoughIdiscreetlyrefrainfromanyparticulardescription,still,judgingfromthepresentfashions,Ithinkonemayventuretopredictthatsixyearshencetheywouldbesomethingfrightful。
"Howkindofyou,Polly;Iwasjustwishingyouwereheretoarrangemyflowers。Theselovelydaphneswillgiveodortomycamellias,andyouwereadeartobringthem。There'smydress;howdoyoulikeit?"saidFanny,hardlydaringtolifthereyesfromundertheyellowtoweronherhead。
"It'sregularlysplendid;buthowdoyouevergetintoit?"answeredPolly,surveyingwithgirlishinterestthecloudofpinkandwhitelacethatlayuponthebed。
"It'sfearfullyandwonderfullymade,butdistractinglybecoming,asyoushallsee。TrixthinksI'mgoingtowearblue,soshehasgotagreenone,andtoldBelleitwouldspoiltheeffectofmine,aswearemuchtogether,ofcourse。Wasn'tthatsweetofher?Bellecameandtoldmein,time,andIjustgotpink,somyamiablesister,thatistobe,won'tsucceedinherprettylittleplot。"
"IguessshehasbeenreadingthelifeofJosephine。Youknowshemadeaprettylady,ofwhomshewasjealous,sitbesideheronagreensofa,whichsetoffherownwhitedressandspoilttheblueoneofherguest,"
answeredPolly,busywiththeflowers。
"Trixneverreadsanything;youaretheonetopickupcleverlittlestories。I'llrememberandusethisone。AmIdone?Yes,thatischarming,isn'tit,Polly?"andFanrosetoinspectthesuccessofMonsieur'slonglabor。
"YouknowIdon'tappreciateastylishcoiffureasIought,soIlikeyourhairintheoldwaybest。Butthisis'thething,'Isuppose,andnotawordmustbesaid。"
"Ofcourseitis。Why,child,IhavefrizzedandburntmyhairsothatIlooklikeanoldmaniacwithitinitsnaturalstate,andhavetorepairdamagesaswellasIcan。Nowputtheflowersjusthere,"andFannylaidapinkcamelliainanestoffuzz,andstuckasprayofdaphnestraightupatthebackofherhead。
"O,Fan,don't,itlookshorridlyso!"criedPolly,longingtoaddalittlebeautytoherfriend'ssallowfacebyagracefuladjustmentoftheflowers。
"Can'thelpit,that'stheway,andsoitmustbe,"answeredFan,plantinganothersprighalf-wayupthetower。
Pollygroanedandofferednomoresuggestionsastheworkwenton;butwhenFanwasfinishedfromtoptotoe,sheadmiredallshehonestlycould,andtriedtokeepherthoughtstoherself。Butherfrankfacebetrayedher,forFannyturnedonhersuddenly,saying,­;
"Youmayaswellfreeyourmind,Polly,forIseebyyoureyesthatsomethingdon'tsuit。"
"Iwasonlythinkingofwhatgrandmaoncesaid,thatmodestyhadgoneoutoffashion,"answeredPolly,glancingatthewaistofherfriend'sdress,whichconsistedofabelt,abitoflace,andapairofshoulderstraps。
Fannylaughedgood-naturedly,saying,assheclaspedhernecklace,"IfIhadsuchshouldersasyours,Ishouldn'tcarewhatthefashionwas。
Nowdon'tpreach,butputmycloakonnicely,andcomealong,forI'mtomeetTomandTrix,andpromisedtobethereearly。"
PollywastobeleftathomeafterdepositingFanatBelle's。
"IfeelasifIwasgoingmyself,"shesaid,astheyrolledalong。
"Iwishyouwere,andyouwouldbe,Polly,ifyouweren'tsucharesolutething。I'veteased,andbegged,andofferedanythingIhaveifyou'llonlybreakyourabsurdvow,andcomeandenjoyyourself。"
"Thankyou;butIwon't,sodon'ttroubleyourkindheartaboutme;
I'mallright,"saidPolly,stoutly。
Butwhentheydrewupbeforethelightedhouse,andshefoundherselfinthemidstofthepleasantstiroffestivity,thecomingandgoingofcarriages,theglimpsesofbrightcolors,forms,andfaces,theburstsofmusic,andageneralatmosphereofgayety,Pollyfeltthatshewasn'tallright,andasshedroveawayforadulleveninginherlonelylittleroom,shejustcriedasheartilyasanychilddeniedastickofcandy。
"It'sdreadfulwickedofme,butIcan'thelpit,"shesobbedtoherself,inthecornerofthecarriage。"Thatmusicsetsmeallinatwitter,andIshouldhavelookedniceinFan'sbluetarlatan,andIknowIcouldbehaveaswellasanyone,andhavelotsofpartners,thoughI'mnotinthatset。Oh,justonegoodgallopwithMr。SydneyorTom!No,Tomwouldn'taskmethere,andIwouldn'tacceptifhedid。Oh,me!oh,me!IwishIwasasoldandhomely,andgoodandhappy,asMissMills!"
SoPollymadehermoan,andbythetimeshegothome,wasjustinthemoodtogotobedandcryherselftosleep,asgirlshaveawayofdoingwhentheirsmallafflictionbecomesunbearable。
ButPollydidn'tgetachancetobemiserableverylong,forasshewentupstairsfeelinglikethemostinjuredgirlintheworld,shecaughtaglimpseofMissMills,sewingawaywithsuchabrightfacethatshecouldn'tresiststoppingforawordortwo。
"Sitdown,mydear,I'mgladtoseeyou,butexcusemeifIgoonwithmywork,asI'minadrivinghurrytogetthesethingsdoneto-night,"
saidthebrisklittlelady,withasmileandanod,asshetookanewneedlefulofthread,andranupaseamasifforawager。
"Letmehelpyou,then;I'mlazyandcross,anditwilldomegood,"
saidPolly,sittingdownwiththeresignedfeeling。"Well,ifIcan'tbehappy,Icanbeuseful,perhaps。"
"Thankyou,mydear;yes,youcanjusthemtheskirtwhileIputinthesleeves,andthatwillbeagreatlift。"
Pollyputonherthimbleinsilence,butasMissMillsspreadthewhiteflanneloverherlap,sheexclaimed,"Why,itlookslikeashroud!Isitone?"
"No,dear,thankGod,itisn't,butitmighthavebeen,ifwehadn'tsavedthepoorlittlesoul,"criedMissMills,withasuddenbrighteningoftheface,whichmadeitbeautifulinspiteofthestiffgraycurlthatbobbedoneachtemple,thewantofteeth,andacrookednose。
"Willyoutellmeaboutit?Iliketohearyouradventuresandgoodworkssomuch,"saidPolly,readytobeamusedbyanythingthatmadeherforgetherself。
"Ah,mydear,it'saverycommonstory,andthat'sthesaddestpartofit。I'lltellyouallaboutit,forIthinkyoumaybeabletohelpme。LastnightIwatchedwithpoorMaryFloyd。She'sdyingofconsumption,youknow,"beganMissMills,ashernimblefingersflew,andherkindoldfacebeamedoverthework,asifsheputablessinginwitheverystitch。
"Marywasverylow,butaboutmidnightfellasleep,andIwastryingtokeepthingsquiet,whenMrs。Finn­;she'sthewomanofthehouse­;cameandbeckonedmeout,withascaredface。'LittleJanehaskilledherself,andIdon'tknowwhattodo,'shesaid,leadingmeuptotheattic。"
"WhowaslittleJane?"brokeinPolly,droppingherwork。
"Ionlyknewherasapale,shyyounggirlwhowentinandout,andseldomspoketoanyone。Mrs。Finntoldmeshewaspoor,butabusy,honest,littlething,whodidn'tmixwiththeotherfolks,butlivedandworkedalone。'Shehaslookedsodown-heartedandpaleforaweek,thatIthoughtshewassick,andaskedheraboutit,'saidMrs。Finn,'butshethankedmeinherbashfulway,andsaidshewasprettywell,soIletheralone。
Butto-night,asIwentuplatetobed,Iwaskindofimpressedtolookinandseehowthepoorthingdid,forshehadn'tleftherroomallday。
Ididlookin,andhere'swhatIfound。'AsMrs。Finnendedsheopenedthedoorofthebackattic,andIsawaboutassadasightastheseoldeyeseverlookedat。"
"O,what?"criedPolly,palenowwithinterest。
"Abareroom,coldasabarn,andonthebedalittledead,whitefacethatalmostbrokemyheart,itwassothin,sopatient,andsoyoung。Onthetablewasabottlehalffulloflaudanum,anoldpocket-book,andaletter。Readthat,mydearanddon'tthinkhardoflittleJane。"
PollytookthebitofpaperMissMillsgaveher,andreadthesewords:
DEARMRS。FINN,­;PleaseforgivemeforthetroubleImakeyou,butIdon'tseeanyotherway。Ican'tgetworkthatpaysenoughtokeepme;
theDr。saysIcan'tbewellunlessIrest。Ihatetobeaburden,soI
'mgoingawaynottotroubleanybodyanymore。I'vesoldmythingstopaywhatIoweyou。PleaseletmebeasIam,anddon'tletpeoplecomeandlookatme。Ihopeitisn'tverywicked,buttheredon'tseemanyroomformeintheworld,andI'mnotafraidtodienow,thoughIshouldbeifIstayedandgotbadbecauseIhadn'tstrengthtokeepright。Givemylovetothebaby,andsogood-by,good-by。JANEBRYANT。
"O,MissMills,howdreadful!"criedPolly,withhereyessofullshecouldhardlyreadthelittleletter。
"Notsodreadfulasitmighthavebeen,butabitter,sadthingtoseethatchild,onlyseventeen,lyingthereinherlittleclean,oldnight-gown,waitingfordeathtocomeandtakeher,because'theredidn'tseemtobeanyroomforherintheworld。'Ah,well,wesavedher,foritwasn'ttoolate,thankheaven,andthefirstthingshesaidwas,'Oh,whydidyoubringmeback?'I'vebeennursingherallday,hearingherstory,andtryingtoshowherthatthereisroomandawelcomeforher。Hermotherdiedayearago,andsincethenshehasbeenstrugglingalongalone。Sheisoneofthetimid,innocent,humblecreatureswhocan'tpushtheirway,andsogetputasideandforgotten。Shehastriedallsortsofpoorlypaidwork,couldn'tliveonitdecently,gotdiscouraged,sick,frightened,andcouldseenorefugefromthebig,badworldbuttogetoutofitwhileshewasn'tafraidtodie。Averyoldstory,mydear,newanddreadfulasitseemstoyou,andIthinkitwon'tdoyouanyharmtoseeandhelpthislittlegirl,whohasgonethroughdarkplacesthatyouareneverliketoknow。"
"Iwill;indeed,IwilldoallIcan!Whereisshenow?"askedPolly,touchedtotheheartbythestory,sosimpleyetsosad。
"There,"andMissMillspointedtothedoorofherownlittlebedroom。
"Shewaswellenoughtobemovedto-night,soIbroughtherhomeandlaidhersafelyinmybed。Poorlittlesoul!shelookedaboutherforaminute,thenthelostlookwentaway,andshegaveagreatsigh,andtookmyhandinbothherthinbitsofones,andsaid,'O,ma'am,IfeelasifI'dbeenbornintoanewworld。Helpmetobeginagain,andI'lldobetter。'SoItoldhershewasmychildnow,andmightresthere,sureofahomeaslongasIhadone。"
AsMissMillsspokeinhermotherlytone,andcastaproudandhappylooktowardthewarmandquietnestinwhichshehadshelteredthisfriendlesslittlesparrow,feelingsurethatGodmeanthertokeepitfromfallingtotheground,Pollyputbotharmsaboutherneck,andkissedherwitheredcheekwithasmuchlovingreverenceasifshehadbeenasplendidsaint,forinthelikenessofthisplainoldmaidshesawthelovelycharitythatblessesandsavestheworld。
"Howgoodyouare!DearMissMills,tellmewhattodo,letmehelpyou,I'mreadyforanything,"saidPolly,veryhumbly,forherowntroubleslookedsosmallandfoolishbesidethesternhardshipswhichhadnearlyhadsotragicalanend,thatshefeltheartilyashamedofherself,andquiteburnedtoatoneforthem。
Miss,Millsstoppedtostrokethefreshcheekopposite,tosmile,andsay,­;
"Then,Polly,IthinkI'llaskyoutogoinandsayafriendlywordtomylittlegirl。Thesightofyouwilldohergood;andyouhavejusttherightwayofcomfortingpeople,withoutmakingafuss。"
"HaveI?"saidPolly,lookingmuchgratifiedbythewords。
"Yes,dear,you'vethegiftofsympathy,andtherareartofshowingitwithoutoffending。Iwouldn'tletmanygirlsintoseemypoorJenny,becausethey'donlyflutterandworryher;butyou'llknowwhattodo;
sogo,andtakethiswrapperwithyou;it'sdonenow,thankstoyournimblefingers。"
Pollythrewthewarmgarmentoverherarm,feelingathrillofgratitudethatitwastowrapalivinggirlin,andnottohideawayayoungheartthathadgrowncoldtoosoon。Pushingopenthedoor,shewentquietlyintothedimlylightedroom,andonthepillowsawafacethatdrewhertoitwithanirresistiblepower,foritwastouchedbyasolemnshadowthatmadeitsyouthpathetic。Asshepausedatthebedside,thinkingthegirlasleep,apairofhollow,darkeyesopenedwide,andlookedupather;
startledatfirst,thensofteningwithpleasure,atsightofthebonnyfacebeforethem,andthenahumble,beseechingexpressionfilledthem,asifaskingpardonfortherashactnearlycommitted,andpityforthehardfatethatpromptedit。Pollyreadthelanguageoftheseeyes,andansweredtheirmuteprayerwithasimpleeloquencethatsaidmorethananywordsforshejuststoopeddownandkissedthepoorchild,withherowneyesfull,andlipsthattrembledwiththesympathyshecouldnottell。
Jennyputbotharmsaboutherneck,andbegantoshedthequiettearsthatsorefreshandcomfortheavyheartswhenatendertouchunsealsthefountainwheretheylie。
"Everybodyissokind,"shesobbed,"andIwassowicked,Idon'tdeserveit。"
"Oh,yes,youdo;don'tthinkofthat,butrestandletuspetyou。
Theoldlifewastoohardforsuchalittlethingasyou,andwearegoingtotryandmakethenewoneeversomucheasierandhappier,"saidPolly,forgettingeverythingexceptthatthiswasagirllikeherself,whoneededhearteningup。
"Doyoulivehere?"askedJenny,whenhertearswerewipedaway,stillclingingtothenew-foundfriend。
"Yes,MissMillsletsmehavealittleroomupstairs,andthereIhavemycatandbird,mypianoandmyposypots,andlivelikeaqueen。Youmustcomeupandseemeto-morrowifyouareable。I'moftenlonely,fortherearenoyoungpeopleinthehousetoplaywithme,"answeredPolly,smilinghospitably。
"Doyousew?"askedJenny。
"No,I'mamusicteacher,andtrotroundgivinglessonsallday。"
"Howbeautifulitsounds,andhowhappyyoumustbe,sostrongandpretty,andabletogoroundmakingmusicallthetime,"sighedJenny,lookingwithrespectfuladmirationattheplump,firmhandheldinbothherthinandfeebleones。
ItdidsoundpleasanteventoPolly'sears,andshefeltsuddenlysorich,andsocontented,thatsheseemedadifferentcreaturefromthesillygirlwhocriedbecauseshecouldn'tgototheparty。Itpassedthroughhermindlikeaflash,thecontrastbetweenherlife,andthatofthewancreaturelyingbeforeher,andshefeltasifshecouldnotgiveenoughoutofherabundancetothisneedylittlesister,whohadnothinginthewideworldbutthelifejustsavedtoher。ThatminutedidmoreforPollythanmanysermons,orthewisestbooks,foritbroughtherfacetofacewithbittertruths,showedherthedarksideoflife,andseemedtoblowawayherlittlevanities,herfrivolousdesires,likeawintrywind,thatleftawholesomeatmospherebehind。Sittingonthebedside,PollylistenedwhileJanetoldthestory,whichwassonewtoherlistener,thateverywordsankdeepintoherheart,andneverwasforgotten。
"Nowyoumustgotosleep。Don'tcrynorthink,nordoanythingbutrest。ThatwillpleaseMissMillsbest。I'llleavethedoorsopen,andplayyoualullabythatyoucan'tresist。Goodnight,dear。"Andwithanotherkiss,Pollywentawaytositinthedarknessofherownroom,playinghersoftestairstillthetiredeyesbelowwereshut,andlittleJaneseemedtofloatawayonaseaofpleasantsounds,intothehappierlifewhichhadjustdawnedforher。
Pollyhadfullyintendedtobeverymiserable,andcryherselftosleep;
butwhenshelaydownatlast,herpillowseemedverysoft,herlittleroomverylovely,withthefire-lightflickeringonallthehome-likeobjects,andhernew-blownrosesbreathingherasweetgood-night。Shenolongerfeltaninjured,hard-working,unhappyPolly,butasifquiteburdenedwithblessings,forwhichshewasn'thalfgratefulenough。Shehadheardofpovertyandsuffering,inthevague,far-offway,whichisallthatmanygirls,safeinhappyhomes,everknowofit;butnowshehadseenit,inashapewhichshecouldfeelandunderstand,andlifegrewmoreearnesttoherfromthatminute。Somuchtodointhegreat,busyworld,andshehaddonesolittle。Whereshouldshebegin?Then,likeananswercamelittleJenny'swords,nowtakinga,'newsignificance'toPolly'smind,"Tobestrong,andbeautiful,andgoroundmakingmusicallthetime。"
Yes,shecoulddothat;andwithaveryearnestprayer,Pollyaskedforthestrengthofanuprightsoul,thebeautyofatenderheart,thepowertomakeherlifeasweetandstirringsong,helpfulwhileitlasted,rememberedwhenitdied。
LittleJane'slastthoughthadbeentowishwithallhermight,that"Godwouldblessthedear,kindgirlupthere,andgiveherallsheasked。"
Ithinkbothprayers,althoughtoohumbletobeputinwords,wentuptogether,forinthefulnessoftimetheywerebeautifullyanswered。ChapterX。ChapterX。CHAPTERXBROTHERSANDSISTERSPOLLY'ShappiestdaywasSunday,forWillneverfailedtospenditwithher。Insteadofsleepinglaterthanusualthatmorning,shewasalwaysupbrightandearly,flyingroundtogetreadyforherguest,forWillcametobreakfast,andtheymadealongdayofit。Willconsideredhissisterthebestandprettiestgirlgoing,andPolly,knowingwellthatatimewouldcomewhenhewouldfindabetterandaprettier,wasgratefulforhisgoodopinion,andtriedtodeserveit。Soshemadeherroomandherselfasneatandinvitingaspossible,andalwaysrantomeethimwithabrightfaceandamotherlygreeting,whenhecametrampingin,ruddy,brisk,andbeaming,withthebrownloafandthelittlepotofbeansfromthebake-housenearby。
Theylikedagoodcountrybreakfast,andnothinggavePollymoresatisfactionthantoseeherbigboyclearthedishes,emptythelittlecoffee-pot,andthensitandlaughatheracrosstheravagedtable。Anotherpleasurewastolethimhelpclearaway,astheyusedtodoathome,whilethepealsoflaughterthatalwaysaccompaniedthisperformancedidMissMills'heartgoodtohear,fortheroomwassosmallandWillsobigthatheseemedtobeeverywhereatonce,andPollyandPuttelwerecontinuallydodginghislongarmsandlegs。Thentheyusedtoinspecttheflowerpots,payNickavisit,andhavealittlemusicasagoodbeginningfortheday,afterwhichtheywenttochurchanddinedwithMissMills,whoconsideredWill"anexcellentyoungman。"Iftheafternoonwasfair,theytookalongwalktogetheroverthebridgesintothecountry,oraboutthecitystreetsfullofSabbathquietude。Mostpeoplemeetingthemwouldhaveseenonlyanawkwardyoungman,withaboy'sfaceatopofhistallbody,andaquietlydressed,freshfacedlittlewomanhangingonhisarm;butafewpeople,witheyestoreadromancesandpleasanthistorieseverywhere,foundsomethingveryattractiveinthiscouple,andsmiledastheypassed,wonderingiftheywereyoung,lovers,orcountrycousins"lookinground。"
Ifthedaywasstormy,theystayedathome,reading,writingletters,talkingovertheiraffairs,andgivingeachothergoodadvice;for,thoughWillwasnearlythreeyearsyoungerthanPolly,hecouldn'tforthelifeofhimhelpassumingamusinglyvenerableairs,whenhebecameaFreshman。
Inthetwilighthehadagoodloungeonthesofa,andPollysungtohim,whicharrangementheparticularlyenjoyed,itwasso"cosyandhomey。"
Atnineo'clock,Pollypackedhisbagwithcleanclothes,nicelymended,suchremnantsofthefestiveteaasweretransportable,andkissedhim"good-night,"withmanyinjunctionstomuffleuphisthroatgoingoverthebridge,andbesurethathisfeetweredryandwarmwhenhewenttobed。AllofwhichWilllaughedat,acceptedgraciously,anddidn'tobey;
buthelikedit,andtrudgedawayforanotherweek'swork,rested,cheered,andstrengthenedbythatquiet,happydaywithPolly,forhehadbeenbroughtuptobelieveinhomeinfluences,andthisbrotherandsisterlovedoneanotherdearly,andwerenotashamedtoownit。
OneotherpersonenjoyedthehumblepleasuresoftheseSundaysquiteasmuchasPollyandWill。Maudusedtobegtocometotea,andPolly,gladtodoanythingforthosewhohaddoneagooddealforher,madeapointofcallingforthelittlegirlastheycamehomefromtheirwalk,orsendingWilltoescortherinthecarriage,whichMaudalwaysmanagedtosecureifbadweatherthreatenedtoquenchherhopes。TomandFannylaughedatherfancy,butshedidnottireofit,forthechildwaslonely,andfoundsomethinginthatlittleroomwhichthegreathousecouldnotgiveher。
Maudwastwelvenow;apale,plainchild,withsharp,intelligenteyes,andabusylittlemind,thatdidagooddealmorethinkingthananybodyimagined。Shewasjustattheunattractive,fidgetyagewhennooneknewwhattodowithher,andsoletherfumbleherwayupasshecould,findingpleasureinoddthings,andlivingmuchalone,forshedidnotgotoschool,becausehershouldersweregrowinground,andMrs。Shawwouldnot"allowherfiguretobespoiled。"ThatsuitedMaudexcellently;andwheneverherfatherspokeofsendingheragain,orgettingagoverness,shewasseizedwithbadheadaches,apaininherback,orweaknessoftheeyes,atwhichMr。Shawlaughed,butletherholidaygoon。Nobodyseemedtocaremuchforplain,pug-nosedlittleMaudie;herfatherwasbusy,hermothernervousandsick,Fannyabsorbedinherownaffairs,andTomregardedherasmostyoungmendotheiryoungersisters,asapersonbornforhisamusementandconvenience,nothingmore。MaudadmiredTomwithallherheart,andmadealittleslaveofherselftohim,feelingwellrepaidifhemerelysaid,"Thankyou,chicken,"ordidn'tpinchhernose,ornipherear,ashehadawayofdoing,"justasifIwasadoll,oradog,andhadn'tgotanyfeelings,"shesometimessaidtoFanny,whensomeserviceorsacrificehadbeenacceptedwithoutgratitudeorrespect。ItneveroccurredtoTom,whenMaudsatwatchinghimwithherfacefullofwistfulness,thatshewantedtobepettedasmuchaseverhedidinhisneglectedboyhood,orthatwhenhecalledher"Pug"beforepeople,herlittlefeelingswereasdeeplywoundedashisusedtobe,whentheboyscalledhim"Carrots。"Hewasfondofherinhisfashion,buthedidn'ttakethetroubletoshowit,soMaudworshippedhimafaroff,afraidtobetraytheaffectionthatnorebuffcouldkillorcool。
OnesnowySundayafternoonTomlayonthesofainhisfavoriteattitude,reading"Pendennis"forthefourthtime,andsmokinglikeachimneyashedidso。Maudstoodatthewindowwatchingthefallingflakeswithananxiouscountenance,andpresentlyagreatsighbrokefromher。
"Don'tdothatagain,chicken,oryou'llblowmeaway。What'sthematter?"
askedTom,throwingdownhisbookwithayawnthatthreateneddislocation。
"I'mafraidIcan'tgotoPolly's,"answeredMaud,disconsolately。
"Ofcourseyoucan't;it'ssnowinghard,andfatherwon'tbehomewiththecarriagetillthisevening。WhatareyoualwayscuttingofftoPolly'sfor?"
"Ilikeit;wehavesuchnicetimes,andWillisthere,andwebakelittlejohnny-cakesinthebakerbeforethefire,andtheysing,anditissopleasant。"
"Warblingjohnny-cakesmustbeinteresting。Comeandtellmeallaboutit。"
"No,you'llonlylaughatme。"
"IgiveyoumywordIwon't,ifIcanhelpit;butIreallyamdyingofcuriositytoknowwhatyoudodownthere。Youliketohearsecrets,sotellmeyours,andI'llbeasdumbasanoyster。"
"Itisn'tasecret,andyouwouldn'tcareforit。Doyouwantanotherpillow?"sheadded,asTomgavehisathump。
"Thiswilldo;butwhyyouwomenalwayssticktasselsandfringealloverasofa-cushion,toteaseandtickleafellow,iswhatIdon'tunderstand。"
"OnethingthatPollydoesSundaynights,istotakeWill'sheadinherlap,andsmoothhisforehead。Itrestshimafterstudyingsohard,shesays。Ifyoudon'tlikethepillow,Icoulddothatforyou,'causeyoulookasifyouweremoretiredofstudyingthanWill,"saidMaud,withsomehesitation,butanevidentdesiretobeusefulandagreeable。
"Well,Idon'tcareifyoudotryit,forIamconfoundedlytired。"
AndTomlaughed,asherecalledthefrolichehadbeenonthenightbefore。
Maudestablishedherselfwithgreatsatisfaction,andTomownedthatasilkapronwasnicerthanafuzzycushion。
"Doyoulikeit?"sheasked,afterafewstrokesoverthehotforehead,whichshethoughtwasfeveredbyintenseapplicationtoGreekandLatin。
"Notbad;playaway,"wasthegraciousreply,asTomshuthiseyes,andlaysostillthatMaudwascharmedatthesuccessofherattempt。Presently,shesaid,softly,­;
"Tom,areyouasleep?"
"Justturningthecomer。"
"BeforeyougetquiteroundwouldyoupleasetellmewhataPublicAdmonitionis?"
"Whatdoyouwanttoknowfor?"demandedTom,openinghiseyesverywide。
"IheardWilltalkingaboutPublicsandPrivates,andImeanttoaskhim,butIforgot。"
"Whatdidhesay?"
"Idon'tremember;itwasaboutsomebodywhocutprayers,andgotaPrivate,andhaddoneallsortsofbadthings,andhadoneortwoPublics。
Ididn'thearthenameanddidn'tcare;Ionlywantedtoknowwhatthewordsmeant。"
"SoWilltellstales,doeshe?"andTom'sforeheadwrinkledwithafrown。
"No,hedidn't;Pollyknewaboutitandaskedhim。"
"Will'sa'dig,'"growledTom,shuttinghiseyesagain,asifnothingmorecouldbesaidofthedelinquentWilliam。
"Idon'tcareifheis;Ilikehimverymuch,andsodoesPolly。"
"HappyFresh!"saidTom,withacomicalgroan。
"Youneedn'tsniffathim,forheisnice,andtreatsmewithrespect,"criedMaud,withanenergythatmadeTomlaughinherface。
"He'sgoodtoPollyalways,andputsonhercloakforher,andsays'mydear,'andkissesher'goodnight,'anddon'tthinkit'ssilly,andIwishIhadabrotherjustlikehim,yes,Ido!"AndMaudshowedsignsofwoe,forherdisappointmentaboutgoingwasverygreat。
"Blessmyboots!what'sthechickenrufflingupherlittlefeathersandpeckingatmefor?IsthatthewayPollysoothesthebestofbrothers?"
saidTom,stilllaughing。
"Oh,Iforgot!there,Iwon'tcry;butIdowanttogo,"andMaudswallowedhertears,andbegantostrokeagain。
NowTom'shorseandsleighwereinthestable,forhemeanttodriveouttoCollegethatevening,buthedidn'ttakeMaud'shint。Itwaslesstroubletoliestill,andsayinaconciliatorytone,­;
"Tellmesomemoreaboutthisgoodboy,it'sveryinteresting。"
"No,Ishan't,butI'lltellaboutPuttel'splayingonthepiano,"
saidMaud,anxioustoeffacethememoryofhermomentaryweakness。"Pollypointstotherightkeywithalittlestick,andPuttelsitsonthestoolandpatseachkeyasit'stouched,anditmakesatune。It'ssofunnytoseeher,andNickperchesontherackandsingsasifhe'dkillhimself。"
"Verythrilling,"saidTom,inasleepytone。
Maudfeltthatherconversationwasnotasinterestingasshehoped,andtriedagain。
"PollythinksyouarehandsomerthanMr。Sydney。"
"Muchobliged。"
"Iaskedwhichshethoughthadthenicestface,andshesaidyourswasthehandsomest,andhisthebest。"
"Doesheevergothere?"askedasharpvoicebehindthem;andlookingroundMaudsawFannyinthebigchair,cookingherfeetovertheregister。
"Ineversawhimthere;hesentupsomebooksoneday,andWillteasedheraboutit。"
"Whatdidshedo?"demandedFanny。
"Oh,sheshookhim。"
"Whataspectacle!"andTomlookedasifhewouldhaveenjoyedseeingit,butFanny'sfacegrewsoforbidding,thatTom'slittledog,whowasapproachingtowelcomeher,puthistailbetweenhislegsandfledunderthetable。
"Thenthereisn'tany'SparkingSundaynight'?"sungTom,whoappearedtohavewakedupagain。
"Ofcoursenot。Pollyisn'tgoingtomarryanybody;she'sgoingtokeephouseforWillwhenhe'saminister,Iheardhersayso,"criedMaud,withimportance。