"Wewill,"saidPolly,andmountingachair,sheputup,bidin,andknockeddownFan'sentirewardrobetoanimaginarygroupoffriends,withsuchdrollimitationsofeachonethattheroomrangwithlaughter。
"That'senoughnonsense;nowwe'llreturntobusiness,"saidPolly,descendingbreathlessbutsatisfiedwiththeeffectofherfun。
"Thesewhitemuslinsandprettysilkswillkeepforyears,soIshouldlaythembytilltheyareneeded。Itwillsavebuying,andyoucangotoyourstockanytimeandmakeoverwhatyouwant。That'sthewayMotherdoes;we'vealwayshadthingssentusfromricherfriends,andwhateverwasn'tproperforustowearatthetime,Motherputawaytobeusedwhenweneededit。Suchfunnybundlesasweusedtohavesometimes,­;oddshoes,bonnetswithoutcrowns,stockingswithoutheelsortoes,andoldfineryofallsorts。Weusedtorushwhenabundlecame,andsitroundwhileMotheropenedit。Theboysalwaysmadefunofthethings,thoughtheywereasgrateful,really,asanyofus。Willmadeaverseonedaywhichwethoughtprettywellforalittlechap:­;'TopoorcountryfolksWhohaven'tanyclothes,Richfolks,torelievethem,Sendoldlacegownsandsatinbows。'""IthinkthatWillisgoingtobeasniceapoetasMr。Shakespeare,"remarkedMaudinatoneofseriousconviction。
"HeisalreadyaMilton;butIdon'tbelievehewilleverbeanythingbutapoetinname,"saidPolly,workingawaywhileshetalked。
"Didn'tyourmothereverletyouwearthenicethingsthatcame?"askedMaud。
"No,shethoughtitwasn'tthethingforapoorminister'sgirlstogoflourishingaboutinsecond-handfinery,soshedidwhatI'mdoingnow,putawaywhatwouldbeusefulandproperforusbyandby,andletusplaywiththeshabby,silkbonnetsanddirty,flouncedgowns。Suchfunasweusedtohaveupinourbiggarret!Irememberonedaywe'dbeenplayinghaveaball,andwereallriggedup,eventheboys。Somenewneighborscametocall,andexpressedawishtoseeus,havingbeentoldthatwewerepatternchildren。Mothercalledus,butwehadparadedoutintothegarden,afterourball,andwerehavingaconcert,aswesataboutonthecabbagesforgreensatinseats,sowedidn'thearthecall,andjustasthecompanywasgoing,agreatnoisearrestedthemonthedoorstep,androundthecornerofthehouserattledNedinfullcostume,wheelingKittyinabarrow,whileJimmy,Will,andIranscreamingafter,lookinglikeBedlamites;forwewereplayingthatLadyFitzPerkinshadfainted,andwasbeingbornehomesenselessinacab。Ithoughtmotherwouldkillherselfwithlaughing;andyoucanimaginewhatafineimpressionthestrangersreceivedofthemodelchildren。"
Maudwassotickledwiththisyouthfulprankthatsheunguardedlysatdowntolaughontheedgeofanopentrunk,immediatelydoubledup,fellin,andwaswithdifficultyextricated。
"Peopleinthecountryhavegreatdealnicertimesthanwedo。Ineverrodeinawheelbarrow,Ineversatoncabbages,andIdon'tthinkit'sfair,"shesaidwithaninjuredexpression。"Youneedn'tsaveanyoldsilkgownsforme;Idon'tmeantobeafineladywhenIgrowup,I
'mgoingtobeafarmer'swife,andmakebutterandcheese,andhavetenchildren,andraisepigs,"sheaddedinoneenthusiasticburst。
"Idobelieveshewillifshecanfindafarmeranywhere,"saidFanny。
"Oh,I'mgoingtohaveWill;Iaskedhimandhesaid,'Allright。'
He'sgoingtopreachSundays,andworkonthefarmtherestofthetime。
Well,heis,soyouneedn'tlaugh,forwe'vemadeallourplans,"saidMaudwithcomicaldignityasshetriedtheeffectofanoldwhitebonnet,wonderingiffarmers'wivescouldwearostrichfeatherswhentheywenttomeeting。
"Blessedinnocence!Don'tyouwishyouwereachild,anddaredtellwhatyouwant?"murmuredFanny。
"IwishIhadseenWill'sfacewhenMaudproposed,"answeredPolly,withanodwhichansweredherfriend'sspeechbetterthanherwords。
"Anynewsofanybody?"whisperedFan,affectingtoexamineasleevewithcare。
"StillattheSouth;don'tthinklateeventshavebeenreportedyet;
thataccountsforabsence,"answeredPolly。
"IthinkSirPhilipwashitharderthanwassupposed,"saidFan。
"Idoubtit,buttimecureswoundsofthatsortamazingquick。"
"Wishitdid!"
"WhoisSirPhilip?"demandedMaud,prickingupherears。
"AfamousmanwholivedinthetimeofQueenElizabeth,"answeredFan,withalookatPolly。
"Oh!"AndMaudseemedsatisfied,butthesharpchildhadhersuspicionsnevertheless。
"TherewillbeanimmensedealofworkinallthisfixingoverandI
hatetosew,"saidFanny,todivertacertainperson'sthoughts。
"JennyandIaregoingtohelp。Weareyourdebtors,aswellasBelle,anddemandtheprivilegeofpayingup。Blessings,likecurses,comehometoroost,Fan。"
"Minecomehomeagooddealbiggerthantheywent,"answeredFanny,lookingpleasedthatlittlefavorsshouldbesofaithfullyremembered。
"Theinterestonthatsortofinvestmentrollsupbeautifully,youknow。
NowripthatdressforJennytoputinorder,andI'lltossyouupabonnetinlessthannotime,"saidPolly,determinedtohavethingsgosmoothly,forsheknewFan'sfeelingshadbeenagooddealtriedlately,inmanyways。
"Imusthavesomethingtomatchmydress,andblueinside,"saidFanny,bringingoutherribbonboxes。
"Anythingyoulike,mydear;whenitcomestobonnets,Iamusuallyinspired。Ihaveit!Thereweare!Andnothingcouldbenicer,"criedPolly,makingadiveamongthesilksFanwasturningoverwithalostexpression。
"Thisbitofsilver-grayisallIask,here'senoughforakillingbonnet,andthoseforget-me-notsarebothprettyandappropriate。"
"Youwretch,bestill!"criedFanny,asPollylookedupatherwithawickedlaughinhereyes。
"Itwillbedoneintime,andthedresslikewise,solookyourprettiest,andacceptmyblessing,"continuedPolly,seeingthatFanlikedherraillery。
"Timeforwhat?"askedPaulinaPry。
"Yourwedding,dear,"sweetlyansweredFan,forPolly'spleasanthintsandpredictionsputherinacharminghumor,andevenmadeoldclothesoflittleconsequence。
Maudgaveanincreduloussniff,andwonderedwhy"biggirlsneedtobesodreadfulmysteriousabouttheiroldsecrets。"
"ThissilkremindsmeofKitty'sperformancelastsummer。AlittlecheckedsilkwassentinourspringbundlefromMrs。Davenport,andMothersaidKitmighthaveitifshecouldmakeitdo。SoIwasheditnicely,andwefussedandplanned,butitcameshortbyhalfofonesleeve。Igaveitup,butKitwenttoworkandmatchedeveryscrapthatwasleftsoneatlythatshegotoutthehalfsleeve,putitontheunderside,andnoonewasthewiser。Howmanypiecesdoyouthinksheputin,Maud?"
"Fifty,"wasthewisereply。
"No,onlyten,butthatwasprettywellforafourteen-year-olddressmaker。
Yououghttohaveseenthelittlewitchlaughinhersleevewhenanyoneadmiredthedress,forsheworeitallsummerandlookedasprettyasapinkinit。Suchthingsaregreatfunwhenyougetusedtothem;besides,contrivingsharpensyourwits,andmakesyoufeelasifyouhadmorehandsthanmostpeople。"
"Ithinkwe'llgetafarmnearyourhouse;IshouldliketoknowKitty,"
saidMaud,feelingacuriousinterestinagirlwhomadesuchpeculiarpatchwork。
"Thedress-paradeisover,andI'meversomuchobligedtoyou,Polly,forhelpingmethrough,andshowingmehowtomakethebestofthings。
Ihopeintimetohaveasmanyhandsasyou,"saidFangratefully,whenthesimplebonnetwasdoneandeverythingplannedoutreadytobefinished。
"Ihopeyouwillsoonhavetwogood,strongonesbesideyourown,mydear,"answeredPolly,asshevanished,withapartingtwinklethatkeptFan'sfacebrightallday。ChapterXVII。ChapterXVII。CHAPTERXVIIPLAYINGGRANDMOTHERITHINKTomhadthehardesttimeofall,forbesidesthefamilytroubles,hehadmanyofhisowntoperplexandharasshim。Collegescrapesweresoonforgotteningreaterafflictions;buttherewereplentyoftonguestoblame"thatextravagantdog,"andplentyofheadstowagominouslyoverpropheciesofthegoodtimeTomShawwouldnowmakeontheroadtoruin。
Asreportersflourishinthiscountry,ofcourseTomsoonheardallthefriendlycriticismspasseduponhimandhiscareer,andhesufferedmorethananybodyguessed;forthetruththatwasatthebottomofthegossipfilledhimwiththesharpregretandimpotentwrathagainsthimselfaswellasothers,whichdrivesmanyaproudfellow,soplaced,todestruction,ortheeffortthatredeemsboyishfolly,andmakesamanofhim。
Nowthathehadlosthisheritage,Tomseemedtoseeforthefirsttimehowgoodlyithadbeen,howrichinpower,pleasure,andgraciousopportunities。
Hefeltitsworthevenwhileheacknowledged,withthesenseofjusticethatisstronginmanlymen,howlittlehedeservedagiftwhichhehadsomisused。Hebroodedoverthisagooddeal,for,likethebatinthefable,hedidn'tseemtofindanyplaceinthenewlifewhichhadbegunforall。Knowingnothingofbusiness,hewasnotofmuchusetohisfather,thoughhetriedtobe,andgenerallyendedbyfeelingthathewasahindrance,notahelp。Domesticaffairswereequallyoutofhisline,andthegirls,morefrankthantheirfather,didnothesitatetotellhimhewasinthewaywhenheofferedtolendahandanywhere。Afterthefirstexcitementwasover,andhehadtimetothink,heartandenergyseemedtodieout,remorsegotholdofhim,and,asgenerous,thoughtlessnaturesareapttodowhensuddenlyconfrontedwithconscience,heexaggeratedhisfaultsandfolliesintosinsofthedeepestdye,andfanciedhewasregardedbyothersasavillainandanoutcast。Prideandpenitencemadehimshrinkoutofsightasmuchaspossible,forhecouldnotbearpity,evenwhensilentlyexpressedbyafriendlyhandorakindlyeye。Hestayedathomeagooddeal,andloafedaboutwithamelancholyandneglectedair,vanishedwhenanyonecame,talkedverylittle,andwaseitherpatheticallyhumbleortragicallycross。Hewantedtodosomething,butnothingseemedtoappear;
andwhilehewaitedtogethispoiseafterthedownfall,hewassoverymiserablethatI'mafraid,ifithadnotbeenforonething,mypoorTomwouldhavegotdesperate,andbeenafailure。Butwhenheseemedmostuseless,outcast,andforlorn,hediscoveredthatonepersonneededhim,onepersonneverfoundhimintheway,onepersonalwayswelcomedandclungtohimwiththestrongestaffectionofaveryfeeblenature。Thisdependenceofhismother'swasTom'ssalvationatthatcrisisofhislife;andthegossips,whosaidsoftlytooneanotherovertheirmuffinsandtea。"Itreallywouldbearelieftothatwholefamilyifpoor,dearMrs。Shawcouldbe­;ahem!­;mercifullyremoved,"didnotknowthattheinvalid'sweak,idlehandswereunconsciouslykeepingthesonsafeinthatquietroom,whereshegavehimallthatshehadtogive,mother-love,tillhetookheartagain,andfacedtheworldreadytofighthisbattlesmanfully。
"Dear,dear!howoldandbentpoorfatherdoeslook。Ihopehewon'tforgettoordermysweetbread,"sighedMrs。Shawoneday,asshewatchedherhusbandslowlygoingdownthestreet。
Tom,whostoodbyher,idlyspinningthecurtaintassel,followedthefamiliarfigurewithhiseye,andseeinghowgraythehairhadgrown,howcarewornthefloridface,andhowlikeawearyoldmanhisoncestrong,handsomefatherwalked,hewassmittenbyanewpangofself-reproach,andwithhisusualimpetuositysetaboutrepairingtheomissionassoonashediscoveredit。
"I'llseetoyoursweetbread,mum。Good-by,backtodinner,"andwithahastykiss,Tomwasoff。
Hedidn'tknowexactlywhathemeanttodo,butithadsuddenlycomeoverhim,thathewashidingfromthestorm,andlettinghisfathermeetitalone;fortheoldmanwenttohisofficeeverydaywiththeregularityofamachine,thatwouldgoitsusualrounduntilitstopped,whiletheyoungmanstayedathomewiththewomen,andlethismothercomforthim。
"Hehasarighttobeashamedofme,butIactasifIwasashamedofhim;daresaypeoplethinkso。I'llshowthemthatIain't;yes,bythepowers,Iwill!"andTomdrewonhisgloveswiththeairofamanabouttomeetandconqueranenemy。
"Haveanarm,sir?Ifyoudon'tmindI'llwalkdownwithyou。Littlecommissionformother,­;niceday,isn'tit?"
Tomratherbrokedownattheendofhisspeech,forthelookofpleasedsurprisewithwhichhisfathergreetedhim,thealacritywithwhichheacceptedandleanedonthestrongarmofferedhim,provedthatthedailywalkshadbeensolitaryanddoubtlesssadones。IthinkMr。Shawunderstoodtherealmeaningofthatlittleactofrespect,andfeltbetterforthehopefulchangeitseemedtoforetell。Buthetookitquietly,andleavinghisfacetospeakforhim,merelysaid,­;
"Thanky,Tom;yes,motherwillenjoyherdinnertwiceasmuchifyouorderit。"
Thentheybegantotalkbusinesswithalltheirmight,asiftheyfearedthatsometraceofsentimentmightdisgracetheirmasculinedignity。Butitmadenodifferencewhethertheydiscussedlawsuitsorlove,mortgagesormothers,thefeelingwasallrightandtheyknewit,soMr。Shawwalkedstraighterthanusual,andTomfeltthathewasinhisproperplaceagain。
Thewalkwasnotwithoutitstrials,however;forwhileitdidTom'sheartgoodtoseethecordialrespectpaidtohisfather,ittriedhispatiencesorelytoseealsoinquisitiveordisapprovingglancesfixeduponhimselfwhenhatswereliftedtohisfather,andtohearthehearty"Goodday,Mr。Shaw,"dropintoacoolorcareless,"That'stheson;it'shardonhim。Wildfellow,dohimgood。"
"Granted;butyouneedn'thitamanwhenhe'sdown,"mutteredTomtohimself,feelingeverymomentastrongerdesiretodosomethingthatshouldsilenceeverybody。"I'dcutawaytoAustraliaifitwasn'tformother;anything,anywheretogetoutofthewayofpeoplewhoknowme。
Inevercanrightmyselfhere,withallthefellowswatching,andlayingwagerswhetherIsinkorswim。HangGreekandLatin!wishI'dlearnedatrade,andhadsomethingtofallbackupon。Haven'tablessedthingnow,butdecentFrenchandmyfists。WonderifoldBelldon'twantaclerkfortheParisbranchofthebusiness?Thatwouldn'tbebad;faith,I'lltryit。"
AndwhenTomhadlandedhisfathersafelyattheoffice,tothegreatedificationofallbeholders,hescreweduphiscourage,andwenttopreferhisrequest,feelingthattheprospectbrightenedalittle。ButMr。Bellwasnotinagoodhumor,andonlygaveTomaseverelectureontheerrorofhisways,whichsenthimhomemuchdepressed,andcausedthehorizontoloweragain。
Asheroamedaboutthehousethatafternoon,tryingtocalculatehowmuchanAustralianoutfitwouldcost,thesoundoflivelyvoicesandclatteringspoonsattractedhimtothekitchen。TherehefoundPollygivingMaudlessonsincookery;forthe"newhelp"notbeingahigh-pricedarticle,couldnotbedependedonfordesserts,andMrs。Shawwouldhavefeltasifthewolfwasatthedooriftherewasnot"asweetdish"atdinner。Maudhadageniusforcooking,andFannyhatedit,sothatlittlepersonwasinherglory,studyingreceiptbooks,andtakinglessonswheneverPollycouldgivethem。
"Graciousme,Tom,don'tcomenow;weareawfulbusy!Mendon'tbelonginkitchens,"criedMaud,asherbrotherappearedinthedoorway。
"Couldn'tthinkwhatyouwereabout。Mumisasleep,andFanout,soIloafeddowntoseeiftherewasanyfunafoot,"saidTom,lingering,asiftheprospectwasagreeable。Hewasasocialfellow,andverygratefuljustthentoanyonewhohelpedhimtoforgethisworriesforatime。Pollyknewthis,feltthathissocietywouldnotbeagreatafflictiontoherselfatleast,andwhisperingtoMaud,"Hewon'tknow,"sheadded,aloud,­;
"Comeinifyoulike,andstirthiscakeforme;itneedsastronghand,andminearetired。There,putonthataprontokeepyoutidy,sithere,andtakeiteasy。"
"Iusedtohelpgrandmabatupcake,andratherlikedit,ifIrememberright,"saidTom,lettingPollytieacheckedaprononhim,putabigbowlintohishands,andsettlehimnearthetable,whereMaudwaspickingraisins,andsheherselfstirringbusilyaboutamongspice-boxes,rolling-pins,andbutter-pots。
"Youdoitbeautifully,Tom。I'llgiveyouaconundrumtolightenyourlabor:Whyarebadboyslikecake?"askedPolly,anxioustocheerhimup。
"Becauseagoodbeatingmakesthembetter。Idoubtthatmyself,though,"
answeredTom,nearlyknockingthebottomofthebowloutwithhisenergeticdemonstrations,foritreallywasarelieftodosomething。
"Brightboy!here'saplumforyou,"andPollythrewaplumpraisinintohismouth。
"Putinlots,won'tyou?I'mratherfondofplum-cake,"observedTom,likeninghimselftoHerculeswiththedistaff,andfindinghisemploymentpleasant,ifnotclassical。
"Ialwaysdo,ifIcan;there'snothingIlikebetterthantoshovelinsugarandspice,andmakenice,plummycakeforpeople。It'soneofthefewthingsIhaveagiftfor。"
"You'vehititthistime,Polly;youcertainlyhaveagiftforputtingagooddealofbotharticlesintoyourownandotherpeople'slives,whichislucky,as,weallhavetoeatthatsortofcake,whetherwelikeitornot,"observedTom,sosoberlythatPollyopenedhereyes,andMaudexclaimed,­;
"Idobelievehe'spreaching。"
"FeelasifIcouldsometimes,"continuedTom;thenhiseyefelluponthedimplesinPolly'selbows,andheadded,withalaugh,"That'smoreinyourline,ma'am;can'tyougiveusasermon?"
"Ashortone。Life,mybrethren,islikeplum-cake,"beganPolly,impressivelyfoldingherflouryhands。"Insometheplumsareallonthetop,andweeatthemgayly,tillwesuddenlyfindtheyaregone。Inotherstheplumssinktothebottom,andwelookfortheminvainaswegoon,andoftencometothemwhenitistoolatetoenjoythem。Butinthewell-madecake,theplumsarewiselyscatteredallthrough,andeverymouthfulisapleasure。
Wemakeourowncakes,inagreatmeasure,thereforeletuslooktoit,mybrethren,thattheyaremixedaccordingtothebestreceipt,bakedinawellregulatedoven,andgratefullyeatenwithatemperateappetite。"
"Good!good!"criedTom,applaudingwiththewoodenspoon。"That'samodelsermon,Polly,­;short,sweet,sensible,andnotabitsleepy。
I'moneofyourparish,andwillseethatyougetyour'celerypunctooal,'
asoldDeaconMorseusedtosay。"
"'Thankyou,brother,mywantsisfew,andravensscurserthantheyusedtobe,'asdearoldParsonMillerusedtoanswer。Now,Maud,bringonthecitron;"andPollybegantoputthecaketogetherinwhatseemedamostcarelessandchaoticmanner,whileTomandMaudwatchedwithabsorbinginteresttillitwassafelyintheoven。
"Nowmakeyourcustards,dear;Tommayliketobeattheeggsforyou;
itseemstohaveagoodeffectuponhisconstitution。"
"First-rate;hand'emalong,"andTomsmoothedhisapronwithacheerfulair。"Bytheway,Syd'sgotback。Imethimyesterday,andhetreatedmelikeamanandabrother,"headded,asifanxioustocontributetothepleasuresofthehour。
"I'msoglad!"criedPolly,clappingherhands,regardlessoftheeggsheheld,whichdroppedandsmashedontheflooratherfeet。"Carelessthing!Pickitup,Maud,I'llgetsomemore;"andPollywhiskedoutoftheroom,gladofanexcusetorunandtellFan,whohadjustcomein,lest,hearingthenewsinpublic,shemightbestartledoutofthewell-bredcomposurewithwhichyoungladiesareexpectedtoreceivetidings,evenofthemostvitalimportance。
"Youknowallabouthistory,don'tyou?"askedMaud,suddenly。
"Notquite,"modestlyansweredTom。
"IjustwanttoknowiftherereallywasamannamedSirPhilip,inthetimeofQueenElizabeth。"
"YoumeanSirPhilipSidney?Yes,helivedthenandafineoldfellowhewastoo。"
"There;Iknewthegirlsdidn'tmeanhim,"criedMaud,withachopthatsentthecitronflying。
"Whatmischiefareyouuptonow,youlittlemagpie?"
"Ishan'ttellyouwhattheysaid,becauseIdon'tremembermuchofit;butIheardPollyandFantalkingaboutsomeonedreadfulmysterious,andwhenIaskedwhoitwas,Fansaid,'SirPhilip。'Ho!sheneedn'tthinkIbelieveit!Isaw'emlaugh,andblush,andpokeoneanother,andIknewitwasn'taboutanyoldQueenElizabethman,"criedMaud,turninguphernoseasfarasthatsomewhatlimitedfeaturewouldgo。
"Lookhere,youarelettingcatsoutofthebag。Nevermind,Ithoughtso。Theydon'ttellustheirsecrets,butwearesosharp,wecan'thelpfindingthemout,canwe?"saidTom,lookingsomuchinterested,thatMaudcouldn'tresistairingherknowledgealittle。
"Well,Idaresay,itisn'tproperforyoutoknow,butIamoldenoughnowtobetoldanything,andthosegirlsbettermindwhattheysay,forI'mnotastupidchit,likeBlanche。Ijustwishyoucouldhaveheardthemgoon。I'msurethere'ssomethingveryniceaboutMr。
Sydney,theylookedsopleasedwhentheywhisperedandgiggledonthebed,andthoughtIwasrippingbonnets,anddidn'thearaword。"
"Whichlookedmostpleased?"askedTom,investigatingthekitchenboilerwithdeepinterest。
"Well,'pearstomePollydid;shetalkedmost,andlookedfunnyandveryhappyallthetime。Fanlaughedagooddeal,butIguessPollyistheloveress,"repliedMaud,afteramoment'sreflection。
"Holdyourtongue;she'scoming!"andTombegantopumpasifthehousewasonfire。
DowncamePolly,withheightenedcolor,brighteyes,andnotasingleegg。Tomtookaquicklookatheroverhisshoulder,andpausedasifthefirewassuddenlyextinguished。SomethinginhisfacemadePollyfeelalittleguilty,soshefelltogratingnutmeg,withavigorwhichmaderedcheeksthemostnaturalthinginlife。Maud,thetraitor,satdemurelyatwork,lookingverylikewhatTomhadcalledher,amagpiewithmischiefinitshead。Pollyfeltachangeintheatmosphere,butmerelythoughtTomwastired,soshegraciouslydismissedhimwithastickofcinnamon,asshehadnothingelsejustthentolayupontheshrine。
"Fan'sgotthebooksandmapsyouwanted。Goandrestnow。I'mmuchobliged;here'syourwages,Bridget。"
"Goodlucktoyourmesses,"answeredTom,ashewalkedawaymeditativelycrunchinghiscinnamon,andlookingasifhedidnotfinditasspicyasusual。Hegothisbooks,butdidnotreadthem;for,shuttinghimselfupinthelittleroomcalled"Tom'sden,"hejustsatdownandbrooded。
Whenhecamedowntobreakfastthenextmorning,hewasgreetedwithageneral"Happybirthday,Tom!"andathisplacelaygiftsfromeverymemberofthefamily;notascostlyasformerly,perhaps,butinfinitelydearer,astokensofthelovethathadoutlivedthechange,andonlygrownthewarmerforthetestofmisfortune。Inhispresentstateofmind,Tomfeltasifhedidnotdeserveablessedthing;sowheneveryoneexertedthemselvestomakeitahappydayforhim,heunderstoodwhatitmeans"tobenearlykilledwithkindness,"andsternlyresolvedtobeanhonortohisfamily,orperishintheattempt。EveningbroughtPollytowhatshecalleda"festivetea,"andwhentheygatheredroundthetable,anothergiftappeared,which,thoughnotofasentimentalnature,touchedTommorethanalltherest。Itwasamostdelectablecake,withanosegayatop,androunditonthesnowyfrostingthereranapinkinscription,justasithadbeeneveryyearsinceTomcouldremember。
"Name,age,anddate,likeanicewhitetombstone,"observedMaud,complacently,atwhichfunerealremark,Mrs。Shaw,whowasdowninhonoroftheday,droppedhernapkin,anddemandedhersalts。
"Whosedoingisthat?"askedTom,surveyingthegiftwithsatisfaction;
foritrecalledthehappierbirthdays,whichseemedveryfarawaynow。
"Ididn'tknowwhattogiveyou,foryou'vegoteverythingamanwants,andIwasindespairtillIrememberedthatdeargrandmaalwaysmadeyoualittlecakelikethat,andthatyouoncesaiditwouldn'tbeahappybirthdaywithoutit。SoItriedtomakeitjustlikehers,andIdohopeitwillproveagood,sweet,plummyone。"
"Thankyou,"wasallTomsaid,ashesmiledatthegiver,butPollyknewthatherpresenthadpleasedhimmorethanthemosteleganttrifleshecouldhavemade。
"Itoughttobegood,foryoubeatitupyourself,Tom,"cried,Maud。
"Itwassofunnytoseeyouworkingaway,andneverguessingwhothecakewasfor。Iperfectlytrembledeverytimeyouopenedyourmouth,forfearyou'dasksomequestionaboutit。ThatwasthereasonPollypreachedandIkepttalkingwhenshewasgone。"
"Verystupidofme;butIforgotallaboutto-day。Supposewecutit;
Idon'tseemtocareforanythingelse,"saidTom,feelingnoappetite,butboundtodojusticetothatcake,ifhefellavictimtohisgratitude。
"Ihopetheplumswon'tallbeatthebottom,"saidPolly,assherosetodothehonorsofthecake,byuniversalappointment。
"I'vehadagoodmanyatthetopalready,youknow,"answeredTom,watchingtheoperationwithasmuchinterestasifhehadfaithintheomen。
Cuttingcarefully,sliceafterslicefellapart;eachfirmanddark,spicyandrich,underthefrostyrimeabove;andlayingaspeciallylargepieceinoneofgrandma'squaintlittlechinaplates,PollyaddedtheflowersandhandedittoTom,withalookthatsaidagooddeal,for,seeingthatherememberedhersermon,shewasgladtofindthatherallegoryheldgood,inonesenseatleast。Tom'sfacebrightenedashetookit,andafteraninspectionwhichamusedtheothersverymuchhelookedup,saying,withanairofrelief,"Plumsallthrough;I'mgladIhadahandinit,butPollydeservesthecredit,andmustweartheposy,"andturningtoher,heputtheroseintoherhairwithmoregallantrythantaste,forathornprickedherhead,theleavestickledherear,andtheflowerwasupsidedown。
Fannylaughedathiswantofskill,butPollywouldn'thaveitaltered,andeverybodyfelltoeatingcake,asifindigestionwasoneofthelostarts。Theyhadalivelytea,andweregettingonfamouslyafterward,whentwoletterswerebroughtforTom,whoglancedatone,andretiredratherprecipitatelytohisden,leavingMaudconsumedwithcuriosity,andtheoldergirlsslightlyexcited,forFanthoughtsherecognizedthehandwritingonone,andPolly,ontheother。
Onehalfanhourandthenanotherelapsed,andTomdidnotreturn。Mr。
Shawwentout,Mrs。ShawretiredtoherroomescortedbyMaud,andthetwogirlssattogetherwonderingifanythingdreadfulhadhappened。Allofasuddenavoicecalled,"Polly!"andthatyoungladystartedoutofherchair,asifthesoundhadbeenathunder-clap。
"Dorun!I'mperfectlyfaintingtoknowwhatthematteris,"saidFan。
"You'dbettergo,"beganPolly,wishingtoobey,yetfeelingalittleshy。
"Hedon'twantme;besides,Icouldn'tsayawordformyselfifthatletterwasfromSydney,"criedFanny,hustlingherfriendtowardsthedoor,inagreatflutter。
Pollywentwithoutanotherword,butsheworeacuriouslyanxiouslook,andstoppedonthethresholdoftheden,asifalittleafraidofitsoccupant。
Tomwassittinginhisfavoriteattitude,astrideofachair,withhisarmsfoldedandhischinonthetoprail;notanelegantposture,buttheonlyoneinwhich,hesaid,hecouldthinkwell。
"Didyouwantme,Tom?"
"Yes。Comein,please,anddon'tlookscared;IonlywanttoshowyouapresentI'vehad,andaskyouradviceaboutacceptingit。"
"Why,Tom,youlookasifyouhadbeenknockeddown!"exclaimedPolly,forgettingallaboutherself,asshesawhisfacewhenheroseandturnedtomeether。
"Ihave;regularlyfloored;butI'mupagain,andsteadierthanever。
Justyoureadthat,andtellmewhatyouthinkofit。"
Tomsnatchedaletteroffthetable,putitintoherhands,andbegantowalkupanddownthelittleroom,likeaveritablebearinitscage。
AsPollyreadthatshortnote,allthecolorwentoutofherface,andhereyesbegantokindle。Whenshecametotheend,shestoodaminute,asiftooindignanttospeak,thengavethepaperanervoussortofcrumpleanddroppeditonthefloor,saying,allinonebreath,­;
"Ithinksheisamercenary,heartless,ungratefulgirl!That'swhatIthink。"
"Oh,the­;deuce!Ididn'tmeantoshowthatone;it'stheother。"
AndTomtookupasecondpaper,lookinghalfangry,halfashamedathisownmistake。"Idon'tcare,though;everyonewillknowto-morrow;andperhapsyou'llbegoodenoughtokeepthegirlsfrombotheringmewithquestionsandgabble,"headded,asif,onsecondthoughts,hewasrelievedtohavethecommunicationmadetoPollyfirst。
"Idon'twonderyoulookedupset。Iftheotherletterisasbad,I'dbetterhaveachairbeforeIreadit,"saidPolly,feelingthatshebegantotremblewithexcitement。
"It'samilliontimesbetter,butitknockedmeworsethantheother;
kindnessalwaysdoes。"Tomstoppedshortthere,andstoodaminuteturningtheletteraboutinhishandasifitcontainedasweetwhichneutralizedthebitterinthatsmallernote,andtouchedhimverymuch。Thenhedrewupanarmchair,andbeckoningPollytotakeit,saidinasober,steadytone,thatsurprisedhergreatly,­;
"WheneverIwasinaquandary,Iusedtogoandconsultgrandma,andshealwayshadsomethingsensibleorcomfortabletosaytome。She'sgonenow,butsomehow,Polly,youseemtotakeherplace。Wouldyoumindsittinginherchair,andlettingmetellyoutwoorthreethings,asWilldoes?"
Mindit?PollyfeltthatTomhadpaidherthehighestandmostbeautifulcomplimenthecouldhavedevised。Shehadoftenlongedtodoit,for,beingbroughtupinthemostaffectionateandfrankrelationswithherbrothers,shehadearlylearnedwhatittakesmostwomensometimetodiscover,thatsexdoesnotmakenearlyasmuchdifferenceinheartsandsoulsaswefancy。
Joyandsorrow,loveandfear,lifeanddeathbringsomanyofthesameneedstoall,thatthewonderiswedonotunderstandeachotherbetter,butwaittilltimesoftribulationteachusthathumannatureisverymuchthesameinmenandwomen。Thankstothisknowledge,PollyunderstoodTominawaythatsurprisedandwonhim。Sheknewthathewantedwomanlysympathy,andthatshecouldgiveittohim,becauseshewasnotafraidtostretchherhandacrossthebarrierwhichourartificialeducationputsbetweenboysandgirls,andtosaytohiminallgoodfaith,"IfIcanhelpyou,letme。"
TenminutessoonerPollycouldhavedonethisalmostaseasilytoTomastoWill,butinthattenminutessomethinghadhappenedwhichmadethisdifficult。ReadingthatTrixhadgivenTombackhisfreedomchangedmanythingstoPolly,andcausedhertoshrinkfromhisconfidence,becauseshefeltasifitwouldbehardernowtokeepselfoutofsight;for,spiteofmaidenmodesty,loveandhopewouldwakeandsingatthegoodnews。
Slowlyshesatdown,andhesitatinglyshesaid,withhereyesontheground,andaveryhumblevoice,­;
"I'lldomybest,butIcan'tfillgrandma'splace,orgiveyouanywise,goodadvice。IwishIcould!"
"You'lldoitbetterthananyoneelse。Talktroublesmother,fatherhasenoughtothinkofwithoutanyofmyworries。Fanisagoodsoul,butsheisn'tpractical,andwealwaysgetintoasnarlifwetrytoworktogether,sowhohaveIbutmyothersister,Polly?Thepleasurethatletterwillgiveyoumaymakeupformyboringyou。"
Ashespoke,Tomlaidtheotherpaperinherlap,andwentofftothewindow,asiftoleaveherfreetoenjoyitunseen;buthecouldnothelpaglancenowandthen,andasPolly'sfacebrightened,hisownfell。
"Oh,Tom,that'sabirthdaypresentworthhaving,forit'ssobeautifullygivenIdon'tseehowyoucanrefuseit。ArthurSydneyisarealnobleman!"
criedPolly,lookingupatlast,withherfactglowing,andhereyesfullofdelight。
"Soheis!Idon'tknowanothermanliving,exceptfather,whowouldhavedonesuchathing,orwhoIcouldbringmyselftotakeitfrom。Doyousee,he'snotonlypaidtheconfoundeddebts,buthasdoneitinmyname,tosparemeallhecould?"
"Isee,it'slikehim;andIthinkhemustbeveryhappytobeabletodosuchathing。"
"Itisanimmenseweightoffmyshoulders,forsomeofthosemencouldn'taffordtowaittillI'dbegged,borrowed,orearnedthemoney。Sydneycanwait,buthewon'tlong,ifIknowmyself。"
"Youwon'ttakeitasagift,then?"
"Wouldyou?"
"No。"
"Thendon'tthinkIwill。I'maprettypooraffair,Polly,butI'mnotmeanenoughtodothat,whileI'vegotaconscienceandapairofhands。"
Aroughspeech,butitpleasedPollybetterthanthesmoothestTomhadevermadeinherhearing,forsomethinginhisfaceandvoicetoldherthatthefriendlyacthadrousedanoblersentimentthangratitude,makingthecancelledobligationsoftheboy,debtsofhonortotheman。
"Whatwillyoudo,Tom?"
"I'lltellyou;mayIsithere?"AndTomtookthelowfootstoolthatalwaysstoodneargrandma'soldchair。"I'vehadsomanyplansinmyheadlately,thatsometimesitseemsasifitwouldsplit,"continuedthepoorfellow,rubbinghistiredforehead,asiftopolishuphiswits。"I'vethoughtseriouslyofgoingtoCalifornia,Australia,orsomeout-of-the-wayplace,wheremengetrichinahurry。"
"Oh,no!"criedPolly,puttingoutherhandasittokeephim,andthensnatchingitbackagainbeforehecouldturnround。
"Itwouldbehardonmotherandthegirls,Isuppose;besides,Idon'tquitelikeitmyself;looksasifIshirkedandranaway。"
"Soitdoes,"saidPolly,decidedly。
"Well,youseeIdon'tseemtofindanythingtodounlessIturnclerk,andIdon'tthinkthatwouldsuit。Thefactis,Icouldn'tstandithere,whereI'mknown。Itwouldbeeasiertoscratchgravelonarailroad,withagangofPaddies,thantosellpinstomyfriendsandneighbors。Falsepride,Idaresay,butit'sthetruth,andthere'snouseindodging。"
"Notabit,andIquiteagreewithyou。"
"That'scomfortable。NowI'mcomingtothepointwhereIspeciallywantyouradvice,Polly。YesterdayIheardyoutellingFanaboutyourbrotherNed;howwellhegoton;howhelikedhisbusiness,andwantedWilltocomeandtakesomeplacenearhim。YouthoughtIwasreading,butIheard;
anditstruckmethatperhapsIcouldgetachanceoutWestsomewhere。
Whatdoyouthink?"
"Ifyoureallymeanwork,Iknowyoucould,"answeredPolly,quickly,asallsortsofplansandprojectswentsweepingthroughhermind。
"IwishyoucouldbewithNed;you'dgetontogether,I'msure;andhe'dbesogladtodoanythinghecould。I'llwriteandask,straightaway,ifyouwantmeto。"
"Supposeyoudo;justforinformation,youknow,thenIshallhavesomethingtogoupon。Iwanttohaveafeasibleplanallready,beforeIspeaktofather。There'snothingsoconvincingtobusinessmenasfacts,youknow。"
PollycouldnothelpsmilingatTom'snewtone,itseemedsostrangetohearhimtalkingaboutanythingbuthorsesandtailors,dancingandgirls。Shelikedit,however,asmuchasshedidthesoberexpressionofhisface,andthewayhehadlatelyofswinginghisarmsabout,asifhewantedtodosomethingenergeticwiththem。
"Thatwillbewise。Doyouthinkyourfatherwilllikethisplan?"
"Prettysurebewill。Yesterday,whenItoldhimImustgoatsomethingrightoff,hesaid,'Anythinghonest,Tom,anddon'tforgetthatyourfatherbegantheworldasashop-boy。'Youknewthat,didn'tyou?"
"Yes,hetoldmethestoryonce,andIalwayslikedtohearit,becauseitwaspleasanttoseehowwellhehadsucceeded。"
"Ineverdidlikethestory,alittlebitashamed,I'mafraid;butwhenwetalkeditoverlastnight,itstruckmeinanewlight,andIunderstoodwhyfathertookthefailuresowell,andseemssocontentedwiththispoorishplace。Itisonlybeginningagain,hesays;andhavingworkedhiswayuponce,hefeelsasifhecouldagain。Ideclaretoyou,Polly,thatsortofconfidenceinhimself,andenergyandcourageinamanofhisyears,makesmeloveandrespectthedearoldgentlemanasIneverdidbefore。"
"I'msogladtohearyousaythat,Tom!I'vesometimesthoughtyoudidn'tquiteappreciateyourfather,anymorethanheknewhowmuchofamanyouwere。"
"Neverwastillto-day,youknow,"saidTom,laughing,yetlookingasifhefeltthedignityofhisoneandtwentyyears。"Odd,isn'tit,howpeoplelivetogethereversolong,anddon'tseemtofindoneanotherout,tillsomethingcomestodoitforthem。Perhapsthissmash-upwassenttointroducemetomyownfather。"
"There'sphilosophyforyou,"saidPolly,smiling,evenwhileshefeltasifadversitywasgoingtodomoreforTomthanyearsofprosperity。
Theybothsatquietforaminute,Pollyinthebigchairlookingathimwithanewrespectinhereyes,Tomonthestoolnearbyslowlytearingupafoldedpaperhehadabsentlytakenfromthefloorwhilehetalked。
"Didthissurpriseyou?"heasked,asalittlewhiteshowerflutteredfromhishands。
"No。"
"Well,itdidme;foryouknowassoonaswecametogriefIofferedtoreleaseTrixfromtheengagement,andshewouldn'tletme,"continuedTom,asif,havingbegunthesubject,hewishedtoexplainitthoroughly。
"Thatsurprisedme,"saidPolly。
"Soitdidme,forFanalwaysinsisteditwasthemoneyandnotthemanshecaredfor。Herfirstanswerpleasedmeverymuch,forIdidnotexpectit,andnothingtouchesafellowmorethantohaveawomanstandbyhimthroughthickandthin。"
"Shedon'tseemtohavedoneit。"
"Fanwasright。Trixonlywaitedtoseehowbadthingsreallywere,orratherhermotherdid。She'sascool,hard,andworldlymindedanoldsoulasIeversaw,andTrixisboundtoobey。Shegetsrounditveryneatlyinhernote,'Iwon'tbeaburden,''willsacrificeherhopes,''andalwaysremainmywarmfriend,'butthetruthis,TomShawrichwasworthmakingmuchof,butTomShawpoorisintheway,andmaygotothedevilasfastashelikes。"
"Well,heisn'tgoing!"criedPolly,defiantly,forherwrathburnedhotlyagainstTrix,thoughsheblessedherforsettingthebondmanfree。
"Camewithinanaceofit,"mutteredTomtohimself;addingaloud,inatoneofcalmresignationthatassuredPollyhisheartwouldnotbebrokenthoughhisengagementwas,­;
"Itneverrainsbutitpours,'speciallyinhardtimes,butwhenamanisdown,araportwomoredon'tmattermuch,Isuppose。It'sthefirstblowthathurtsmost。"
"Gladtoseeyoutakethelastblowsowell。"Therewasanironicallittletwangtothatspeech,andPollycouldn'thelpit。Tomcoloredupandlookedhurtforaminute,thenseemedtorighthimselfwithashrug,andsaid,inhisoutspokenway,­;
"Totellthehonesttruth,Polly,itwasnotaveryhardone。
I'vehadafeelingforsometimethatTrixandIwerenotsuitedtooneanother,anditmightbewisertostopshort。Butshedidnotorwouldnotseeit;andIwasnotgoingtobackout,andleavehertowearanymorewillows,sohereweare。Idon'tbearmalice,buthopeshe'lldobetter,andnotbedisappointedagain,uponmywordIdo。"
"That'sverygoodofyou,quiteSydneyesque,andnoble,"saidPolly,feelingratherillatease,andwishingshecouldhideherselfbehindacapandspectacles,ifshewastoplayGrandmatothisconfidingyouth。
"ItwillbeallplainsailingforSyd,Ifancy,"observedTom,gettingupasifthelittlecricketsuddenlyceasedtobecomfortable。
"Ihopeso,"murmuredPolly,wonderingwhatwascomingnext。
"Hedeservestheverybestofeverything,andIpraytheLordhemaygetit,"addedTom,pokingthefireinadestructivemanner。
Pollymadenoanswer,fearingtopaytoomuch,forsheknewFanhadmadenoconfidantofTom,andsheguardedherfriend'ssecretasjealouslyasherown。
"You'llwritetoNedto-morrow,willyou?I'lltakeanythinghe'sgot,forIwanttobeoff,"saidTom,castingdownthepoker,andturningroundwitharesoluteairwhichwaslostonPolly,whosattwirlingtherosethathadfallenintoherlap。
"I'llwriteto-night。WouldyoulikemetotellthegirlsaboutTrixandSydney?"sheaskedassherose,feelingthatthecouncilwasover。
"Iwishyouwould。Idon'tknowhowtothankyouforallyou'vedoneforme;IwishtoheavenIdid,"saidTom,holdingouthishandwithalookthatPollythoughtagreatdealtoogratefulforthelittleshehaddone。
Asshegavehimherhand,andlookedupathimwiththoseconfidingeyesofhers,Tom'sgratitudeseemedtoflytohishead,for,withouttheslightestwarning,hestoopeddownandkissedher,­;aproceedingwhichstartledPollysothatherecoveredhimselfatonce,andretreatedintohisdenwiththeincoherentapology,­;
"Ibegpardon­;couldn'thelpit­;grandmaalwaysletmeonmybirthday。"
WhilePollytookrefugeupstairs,forgettingallaboutFan,asshesatinthedarkwithherfacehidden,wonderingwhyshewasn'tveryangry,andresolvingneveragaintoindulgeinthedelightfulbutdangerouspastimeofplayinggrandmother。ChapterXVIII。ChapterXVIII。CHAPTERXVIIITHEWOMANWHODIDNOTDAREPOLLYwroteenthusiastically,Nedansweredsatisfactorily,andaftermuchcorresponding,talking,andplanning,itwasdecidedthatTomshouldgoWest。Nevermindwhatthebusinesswas;itsufficestosaythatitwasagoodbeginningforayoungmanlikeTom,who,havingbeenbornandbredinthemostconservativeclassofthemostconceitedcityinNewEngland,neededjustthehealthy,hearty,socialinfluencesoftheWesttowidenhisviewsandmakeamanofhim。
Ofcoursetherewasmuchlamentationamongthewomen,buteveryonefeltitwasthebestthingforhim;sowhiletheysighedtheysewed,packedvisionsofabrilliantfutureawaywithhisnewpockethandkerchiefs,andrejoicedthatthewaywasopenbeforehimevenintheactofbedewinghisbootswithtears。Sydneystoodbyhimtothelast,"likeamanandabrother"
whichexpressionofTom'sgaveFannyinfinitesatisfaction,andWillfeltentirelyconsoledforNed'sdisappointmentathisrefusaltogoandjoinhim,sinceTomwastotaketheplaceNedhadkeptforhim。
Fortunatelyeveryonewassobusywiththenecessarypreparationsthattherewasnotimeforromanceofanysort,andthefouryoungpeopleworkedtogetherassoberlyandsensiblyasifallsortsofemotionswerenotbottledupintheirrespectivehearts。Butinspiteofthesilence,thework,andthehurry,Ithinktheycametoknowoneanotherbetterinthatbusylittlespaceoftimethaninalltheyearsthathadgonebefore,forthebestandbravestineachwasupandstirring,andthesmallhousewasasfullofthemagnetismofloveandfriendship,self-sacrificeandenthusiasm,astheworldoutsidewasfullofspringsunshineandenchantment。Pitythattheendshouldcomesosoon,butthehourdiditsworkandwentitsway,leavingacleareratmospherebehind,thoughtheyoungfolksdidnotseeitthen,fortheireyesweredimbecauseofthepartingsthatmustbe。
TomwasofftotheWest;Pollywenthomeforthesummer;MaudwastakentotheseasidewithBelle;andFannyleftalonetowrestlewithhousekeeping,"help,"andheartache。Ifithadnotbeenfortwothings,Ifearsheneverwouldhavestoodasummerintown,butSydneyoftencalled,tillhisvacationcame,andavoluminouscorrespondencewithPollybeguiledthelongdays。
Tomwroteonceaweektohismother,buttheletterswereshortandnotverysatisfactory,formenneverdotelltheinterestinglittlethingsthatwomenbestliketohear。FannyforwardedherbitsofnewstoPolly。
PollysentbackalltheextractsfromNed'slettersconcerningTom,andbyputtingthetworeportstogether,theygainedthecomfortableassurancethatTomwaswell,ingoodspirits,hardatwork,andintentoncomingoutstronginspiteofallobstacles。
Pollyhadaquietsummerathome,restingandgettingreadyinmindandbodyforanotherwinter'swork,forintheautumnshetriedherplanagain,tothesatisfactionofherpupilsandthegreatjoyofherfriends。
Sheneversaidmuchofherselfinherletters,andFanny'sfirstexclamationwhentheymetagain,wasananxious­;
"Why,Polly,dear!Haveyoubeensickandnevertoldme?"
"No,I'monlytired,hadagooddealtodolately,andthedullweathermakesmejustatrifleblue。IshallsoonbrightenupwhenIgettomyworkagain,"answeredPolly,bustlingabouttoputawayherthings。
"Youdon'tlookabitnatural。Whathaveyoubeendoingtoyourpreciouslittleself?"persistedFanny,troubledbythechange,yetfindingithardtosaywhereinitlay。
Pollydidnotlooksick,thoughhercheekswerethinnerandhercolorpalerthanformerly,butsheseemedspiritless,andtherewasatiredlookinhereyesthatwenttoFanny'sheart。
"I'mallrightenough,asyou'llseewhenI'minorder。I'mpropergladtofindyoulookingsowellandhappy。Doesallgosmoothly,Fan?"askedPolly,beginningtobrushherhairindustriously。
"Answermeonequestionfirst,"saidFanny,lookingasifasuddenfearhadcomeoverher。"Tellme,truly,haveyouneverrepentedofyourhinttoSydney?"
"Never!"criedPolly,throwingbackthebrownveilbehindwhichshehadhalfhiddenherfaceatfirst。
"Onyourhonor,asanhonestgirl?"
"Onmyhonor,asanythingyouplease。Whydoyoususpectmeofit?"
demandedPolly,almostangrily。
"Becausesomethingiswrongwithyou。It'snousetodenyit,foryou'vegotthelookIusedtoseeinthatveryglassonmyownfacewhenI
thoughthecaredforyou。Forgiveme,Polly,butIcan'thelpsayingit,foritisthere,andIwanttobeastruetoyouasyouweretomeifIcan。"
Fanny'sfacewasfullofagitation,andshespokefastandfrankly,forshewastryingtobegenerousandfounditveryhard。Pollyunderstoodnowandputherfearatrestbysayingalmostpassionately,­;
"ItellyouIdon'tlovehim!Ifhewastheonlymanintheworld,Iwouldn'tmarryhim,becauseI­;don'twantto。"
Thelastthreewordswereaddedinadifferenttone,forPollyhadcheckedherselftherewithahalf-frightenedlookandturnedawaytohideherfacebehindherhairagain。
"Thenifit'snothim,it'ssomeoneelse。You'vegotasecret,Polly,andIshouldthinkyoumighttellit,asyouknowmine,"saidFanny,unabletoresttilleverythingwastold,forPolly'smannertroubledher。
Therewasnoanswertoherquestion,butshewassatisfiedandputtingherarmroundherfriend,shesaid,inhermostpersuasivetone,­;
"MypreciousPolly,doIknowhim?"
"Youhaveseenhim。"
"Andisheverywise,good,andsplendid,dear?"
"No。"
"Heoughttobeifyoulovehim。Ihopeheisn'tbad?"criedFan,anxiously,stillholdingPolly,whokeptherheadobstinatelyturned。
"I'msuited,that'senough。"
"Oh,pleasejusttellmeonethingmore。Don'thelovebackagain?"
"No。Nowdon'tsayanotherword,Ican'tbearit!"andPollydrewherselfaway,asshespokeinadesperatesortoftone。
"Iwon't,butnowI'mnotafraidtotellyouthatIthink,Ihope,IdobelievethatSydneycaresalittleforme。He'sbeenverykindtousall,andlatelyhehasseemedtoliketoseemealwayswhenhecomesandmissmeifI'mgone。Ididn'tdaretohopeanything,tillPapaobservedsomethinginhismanner,andteasedmeaboutit。Itrynottodeceivemyself,butitdoesseemasiftherewasachanceofhappinessforme。"
"Thankheavenforthat!"criedPolly,withtheheartiestsatisfactioninhervoice。"Nowcomeandtellmeallaboutit,"sheadded,sittingdownonthecouchwiththeairofonewhohasescapedagreatperil。
"I'vegotsomenotesandthingsIwanttoaskyouropinionabout,iftheyreallymeananything,youknow,"saidFanny,gettingoutabundleofpapersfromtheinmostrecessesofherdesk。"There'saphotographofTom,cameinhislastletter。Good,isn'tit?Helooksolder,butthat'sthebeardandtheroughcoat,Isuppose。Dearoldfellow,heisdoingsowellIreallybegintofeelquiteproudofhim。"
Fantossedherthephotograph,andwentonrummagingforacertainnote。
ShedidnotseePollycatchupthepictureandlookatitwithhungryeyes,butshedidhearsomethinginthelowtoneinwhichPollysaid,­;
"Itdon'tdohimjustice,"andglancingoverhershoulder,Fan'squickeyecaughtaglimpseofthetruth,thoughPollywashalfturnedawayfromher。Withoutstoppingtothink,Fandroppedherletters,tookPollybytheshoulders,andcriedinatonefullofastonishment,­;
"Polly,isitTom?"
PoorPollywassotakenbysurprise,thatshehadnotawordtosay。
Nonewereneeded;hertelltalefaceansweredforher,aswellastheimpulsewhichmadeherhideherheadinthesofacushion,likeafoolishostrichwhenthehuntersareafterit。