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第11章

  Haven'tyousaidsoyourself?Formypart,Ilistentoyou;I
  understandyouagreatdealmorethanyouthinkIdo,——forIstillbearyouinmybosom,andyoureverythoughtstillstirsmeasyourslightestmotiondidinotherdays。"
  "Ishallneversucceedhere,mamma;andIdon'twantyoutowitnessthesightofmystruggles,mymisery,myanguish。Oh,mother,letmeleaveAlencon!Iwanttosufferawayfromyou。"
  "AndIwishtobeatyourside,"repliedhismother,proudly。"Sufferwithoutyourmother!——thatpoormotherwhowouldbeyourservantifnecessary;whowilleffaceherselfratherthaninjureyou;yourmother,whowillnevershameyou。No,no,Athanase;wemustnotpart。"
  Athanaseclungtohismotherwiththeardorofadyingmanwhoclingstolife。
  "ButIwishit,nevertheless。Ifnot,youwillloseme;thisdoublegrief,yoursandmine,iskillingme。YouwouldratherIlivedthandied?"
  MadameGransonlookedathersonwithahaggardeye。
  "Sothisiswhatyouhavebeenbrooding?"shesaid。"Theytoldmeright。Doyoureallymeantogo?"
  "Yes。"
  "Youwillnotgowithouttellingme;withoutwarningme?Youmusthaveanoutfitandmoney。Ihavesomelouissewnintomypetticoat;Ishallgivethemtoyou。"
  Athanasewept。
  "That'sallIwantedtotellyou,"hesaid。"NowI'lltakeyoutotheduRoncerets'。Come。"
  Themotherandthesonwentout。Athanaselefthismotheratthedoorofthehousewheresheintendedtopasstheevening。Helookedlongatthelightwhichcamethroughtheshutters;heclungcloselytothewall,andafrenziedjoycameoverhimwhenhepresentlyheardhismothersay,"Hehasgreatindependenceofheart。"
  "Poormother!Ihavedeceivedher,"hecried,ashemadehiswaytotheSarthe。
  Hereachedthenoblepoplarbeneathwhichhehadmeditatedsomuchforthelastfortydays,andwherehehadplacedtwoheavystonesonwhichhenowsatdown。Hecontemplatedthatbeautifulnaturelightedbythemoon;hereviewedoncemorethegloriousfuturehehadlongedfor;hepassedthroughtownsthatwerestirredbyhisname;heheardtheapplaudingcrowds;hebreathedtheincenseofhisfame;headoredthatlifelongdreamedof;radiant,hesprangtoradianttriumphs;heraisedhisstature;heevokedhisillusionstobidthemfarewellinalastOlympicfeast。Themagichadbeenpotentforamoment;butnowitvanishedforever。Inthatawfulhourheclungtothebeautifultreetowhich,astoafriend,hehadattachedhimself;thenheputthetwostonesintothepocketsofhisovercoat,whichhebuttonedacrosshisbreast。Hehadcomeintentionallywithoutahat。Henowwenttothedeeppoolhehadlongselected,andglidedintoitresolutely,tryingtomakeaslittlenoiseaspossible,and,infact,makingscarcelyany。
  When,athalf-pastnineo'clock,MadameGransonreturnedhome,herservantsaidnothingofAthanase,butgaveheraletter。Sheopeneditandreadthesefewwords,——
  "Mygoodmother,Ihavedeparted;don'tbeangrywithme。"
  "Aprettytrickhehasplayedme!"shethought。"Andhislinen!andthemoney!Well,hewillwritetome,andthenI'llfollowhim。Thesepoorchildrenthinktheyaresomuchclevererthantheirfathersandmothers。"
  Andshewenttobedinpeace。
  DuringtheprecedingmorningtheSarthehadrisentoaheightforeseenbythefisherman。Thesesuddenrisesofmuddywaterbroughteelsfromtheirvariousrunlets。ItsohappenedthatafishermanhadspreadhisnetattheveryplacewherepoorAthanasehadflunghimself,believingthatnoonewouldeverfindhim。Aboutsixo'clockinthemorningthemandrewinhisnet,andwithittheyoungbody。Thefewfriendsofthepoormothertookeveryprecautioninpreparinghertoreceivethedreadfulremains。Thenewsofthissuicidemade,asmaywellbesupposed,agreatexcitementinAlencon。Thepooryoungmanofgeniushadnoprotectorthenightbefore,butonthemorrowofhisdeathathousandvoicescriedaloud,"Iwouldhavehelpedhim。"Itissoeasyandconvenienttobecharitablegratis!
  ThesuicidewasexplainedbytheChevalierdeValois。Herevealed,inaspiritofrevenge,theartless,sincere,andgenuineloveofAthanaseforMademoiselleCormon。MadameGranson,enlightenedbythechevalier,rememberedathousandlittlecircumstanceswhichconfirmedthechevalier'sstatement。Thestorythenbecametouching,andmanywomenweptoverit。MadameGranson'sgriefwassilent,concentrated,andlittleunderstood。Therearetwoformsofmourningformothers。
  Oftentheworldcanenterfullyintothenatureoftheirloss:theirson,admired,appreciated,young,perhapshandsome,withanoblepathbeforehim,leadingtofortune,possiblytofame,excitesuniversalregret;societyjoinsinthegrief,andalleviateswhileitmagnifiesit。Butthereisanothersorrowofmotherswhoaloneknowwhattheirchildwasreally;whoalonehavereceivedhissmilesandobservedthetreasuresofalifetoosooncutshort。Thatsorrowhidesitswoe,theblacknessofwhichsurpassesallothermourning;itcannotbedescribed;happilytherearebutfewwomenwhoseheart-stringsarethussevered。
  BeforeMadameduBousquierreturnedtotown,MadameduRonceret,oneofhergoodfriends,haddrivenouttoPrebaudettoflingthiscorpseupontherosesofherjoy,toshowhertheloveshehadignored,andsweetlyshedathousanddropsofwormwoodintothehoneyofherbridalmonth。AsMadameduBousquierdrovebacktoAlencon,shechancedtomeetMadameGransonatthecorneroftherueVal-Noble。Theglanceofthemother,dyingofhergrief,strucktotheheartofthepoorwoman。
  Athousandmaledictions,athousandflamingreproaches,wereinthatlook:MadameduBousquierwashorror-struck;thatglancepredictedandcalleddowneviluponherhead。
  Theeveningafterthecatastrophe,MadameGranson,oneofthepersonsmostopposedtotherectorofthetown,andwhohadhithertosupportedtheministerofSaint-Leonard,begantotrembleasshethoughtoftheinflexibleCatholicdoctrinesprofessedbyherownparty。Afterplacingherson'sbodyinitsshroudwithherownhands,thinkingofthemotheroftheSaviour,shewent,withasoulconvulsedbyanguish,tothehouseofthehatedrector。Thereshefoundthemodestpriestinanouterroom,engagedinputtingawaytheflaxandyarnswithwhichhesuppliedpoorwomen,inorderthattheymightneverbewhollyoutofwork,——aformofcharitywhichsavedmanywhowereincapableofbeggingfromactualpenury。TherectorlefthisyarnsandhastenedtotakeMadameGransonintohisdining-room,wherethewretchedmothernoticed,asshelookedathissupper,thefrugalmethodofhisownliving。
  "Monsieurl'abbe,"shesaid,"Ihavecometoimploreyou——"Sheburstintotears,unabletocontinue。
  "Iknowwhatbringsyou,"repliedthesaintlyman。"Imusttrusttoyou,madame,andtoyourrelation,MadameduBousquier,topacifyMonseigneurtheBishopatSeez。Yes,Iwillprayforyourunhappychild;yes,Iwillsaythemasses。Butwemustavoidallscandal,andgivenoopportunityforevil-judgingpersonstoassembleinthechurch。Ialone,withoutotherclergy,atnight——"
  "Yes,yes,asyouthinkbest;ifonlyhemaylieinconsecratedground,"saidthepoormother,takingthepriest'shandandkissingit。
  Towardmidnightacoffinwasclandestinelybornetotheparishchurchbyfouryoungmen,comradeswhomAthanasehadlikedthebest。AfewfriendsofMadameGranson,womendressedinblack,andveiled,werepresent;andhalfadozenotheryoungmenwhohadbeensomewhatintimatewiththislostgenius。Fourtorchesflickeredonthecoffin,whichwascoveredwithcrape。Therector,assistedbyonediscreetchoirboy,saidthemortuarymass。Thenthebodyofthesuicidewasnoiselesslycarriedtoacornerofthecemetery,whereablackwoodencross,withoutinscription,wasallthatindicateditsplacehereaftertothemother。Athanaselivedanddiedinshadow。Novoicewasraisedtoblametherector;thebishopkeptsilence。Thepietyofthemotherredeemedtheimpietyoftheson'slastact。
  Somemonthslater,thepoorwoman,halfbesideherselfwithgrief,andmovedbyoneofthoseinexplicablethirstswhichmiseryfeelstosteepitslipsinthebitterchalice,determinedtoseethespotwherehersonwasdrowned。Herinstinctmayhavetoldherthatthoughtsofhiscouldberecoveredbeneaththatpoplar;perhaps,too,shedesiredtoseewhathiseyeshadseenforthelasttime。Somemotherswoulddieofthesight;othersgivethemselvesuptoitinsaintlyadoration。
  Patientanatomistsofhumannaturecannottoooftenenunciatethetruthsbeforewhichalleducations,laws,andphilosophicalsystemsmustgiveway。Letusrepeatcontinually:itisabsurdtoforcesentimentsintooneformula:appearingastheydo,ineachindividualman,theycombinewiththeelementsthatformhisnatureandtakehisownphysiognomy。
  MadameGranson,asshestoodonthatfatalspot,sawawomanapproachit,whoexclaimed,——
  "Wasithere?"
  Thatwomanweptasthemotherwept。ItwasSuzanne。ArrivingthatmorningatthehotelduMore,shehadbeentoldofthecatastrophe。IfpoorAthanasehadbeenliving,shemeanttodoasmanynoblesouls,whoaremoneyless,dreamofdoing,andastherichneverthinkofdoing,——shemeanttohavesenthimseveralthousandfrancs,writinguptheenvelopethewords:"Moneyduetoyourfatherfromacomradewhomakesrestitutiontoyou。"ThistenderschemehadbeenarrangedbySuzanneduringherjourney。
  ThecourtesancaughtsightofMadameGransonandmovedrapidlyaway,whisperingasshepassedher,"Ilovedhim!"
  Suzanne,faithfultohernature,didnotleaveAlencononthisoccasionwithoutchangingtheorange-blossomsofthebridetorue。ShewasthefirsttodeclarethatMadameduBousquierwouldneverbeanythingbutMademoiselleCormon。WithonestabofhertonguesherevengedpoorAthanaseandherdearchevalier。
  AlenconnowwitnessedasuicidethatwasslowerandquitedifferentlypitifulfromthatofpoorAthanase,whowasquicklyforgottenbysociety,whichalwaysmakeshastetoforgetitsdead。ThepoorChevalierdeValoisdiedinlife;hissuicidewasadailyoccurrenceforfourteenyears。ThreemonthsaftertheduBousquiermarriagesocietyremarked,notwithoutastonishment,thatthelinenofthechevalierwasfrayedandrusty,thathishairwasirregularlycombedandbrushed。WithafrowsyheadtheChevalierdeValoiscouldnolongerbesaidtoexist!Afewofhisivoryteethdeserted,thoughthekeenestobserversofhumanlifewereunabletodiscovertowhatbodytheyhadhithertobelonged,whethertoaforeignlegionorwhethertheywereindigenous,vegetableoranimal;whetheragehadpulledthemfromthechevalier'smouth,orwhethertheywereleftforgotteninthedrawerofhisdressing-table。Thecravatwascrooked,indifferenttoelegance。Thenegroes'headsgrewpalewithdustandgrease。Thewrinklesofthefacewereblackenedandpuckered;theskinbecameparchment。Thenails,neglected,wereoftenseen,alas!withablackvelvetedging。Thewaistcoatwastrackedandstainedwithdroppingswhichspreaduponitssurfacelikeautumnleaves。Thecottonintheearswasseldomchanged。Sadnessreigneduponthatbrow,andslippeditsyellowingtintsintothedepthsofeachfurrow。Inshort,theruins,hithertosocleverlyhidden,nowshowedthroughthecracksandcrevicesofthatfineedifice,andprovedthepowerofthesouloverthebody;forthefairanddaintyman,thecavalier,theyoungblood,diedwhenhopedesertedhim。Untilthenthenoseofthechevalierwaseverdelicateandnice;neverhadadampblackblotch,noranamberdropfallfromit;butnowthatnose,smearedwithtobaccoaroundthenostrils,degradedbythedribletswhichtookadvantageofthenaturalgutterplacedbetweenitselfandtheupperlip,——thatnose,whichnolongercaredtoseemagreeable,revealedtheinfinitepainswhichthechevalierhadformerlytakenwithhisperson,andmadeobserverscomprehend,bytheextentofitsdegradation,thegreatnessandpersistenceoftheman'sdesignsuponMademoiselleCormon。
  Alas,too,theanecdoteswentthewayoftheteeth;thecleversayingsgrewrare。Theappetite,however,remained;theoldnoblemansavednothingbuthisstomachfromthewreckofhishopes;thoughhelanguidlypreparedhispinchesofsnuff,heatealarmingdinners。
  PerhapsyouwillmorefullyunderstandthedisasterthatthismarriagewastothemindandheartofthechevalierwhenyoulearnthathisintercoursewiththePrincessGoritzabecamelessfrequent。
  OnedayheappearedinMademoiselleArmande'ssalonwiththecalfofhislegontheshin-bone。Thisbankruptcyofthegraceswas,Idoassureyou,terrible,andstruckallAlenconwithhorror。Thelateyoungmanhadbecomeanoldone;thishumanbeing,who,bythebreaking-downofhisspirit,hadpassedatoncefromfiftytoninetyyearsofage,frightenedsociety。Besides,hissecretwasbetrayed;hehadwaitedandwatchedforMademoiselle
  Cormon;hehad,likeapatienthunter,adjustedhisaimfortenwholeyears,andfinallyhadmissedthegame!Inshort,theimpotentRepublichadwonthedayfromValiantChivalry,andthat,too,undertheRestoration!Formtriumphed;mindwasvanquishedbymatter,diplomacybyinsurrection。And,Ofinalblow!amortifiedgrisetterevealedthesecretofthechevalier'smornings,andhenowpassedforalibertine。TheliberalscastathisdoorallthefoundlingshithertoattributedtoduBousquier。ButthefaubourgSaint-GermainofAlenconacceptedthemproudly:itevensaid,"Thatpoorchevalier,whatelsecouldhedo?"Thefaubourgpitiedhim,gatheredhimclosertotheircircle,andbroughtbackafewraresmilestohisface;butfrightfulenmitywaspiledupontheheadofduBousquier。ElevenpersonsdesertedtheCormonsalon,andpassedtothatofthed'Esgrignons。
  Theoldmaid'smarriagehadasignaleffectindefiningthetwopartiesinAlencon。Thesalond'EsgrignonrepresentedtheupperaristocracythereturningTroisvillesattachedthemselvestoit;theCormonsalonrepresented,underthecleverinfluenceofduBousquier,thatfatalclassofopinionswhich,withoutbeingtrulyliberalorresolutelyroyalist,gavebirthtothe221onthatfamousdaywhenthestruggleopenlybeganbetweenthemostaugust,grandest,andonlytruepower,ROYALTY,andthemostfalse,mostchangeful,mostoppressiveofallpowers,——thepowercalledPARLIAMENTARY,whichelectiveassembliesexercise。ThesalonduRonceret,secretlyalliedtotheCormonsalon,wasboldlyliberal。
  TheAbbedeSponde,afterhisreturnfromPrebaudet,boremanyandcontinualsufferings,whichhekeptwithinhisbreast,sayingnowordofthemtohisniece。ButtoMademoiselleArmandeheopenedhisheart,admittingthat,follyforfolly,hewouldmuchhavepreferredtheChevalierdeValoistoMonsieurduBousquier。Neverwouldthedearchevalierhavehadthebadtastetocontradictandopposeapooroldmanwhohadbutafewdaysmoretolive;duBousquierhaddestroyedeverythinginthegoodoldhome。Theabbesaid,withscantytearsmoisteninghisagedeyes,——
  "Mademoiselle,Ihaven'teventhelittlegrovewhereIhavewalkedforfiftyyears。Mybelovedlindensareallcutdown!AtthemomentofmydeaththeRepublicappearstomemorethaneverundertheformofahorribledestructionoftheHome。"
  "Youmustpardonyourniece,"saidtheChevalierdeValois。
  "Republicanideasarethefirsterrorofyouthwhichseeksforliberty;lateritfindsittheworstofdespotisms,——thatofanimpotentcanaille。Yourpoornieceispunishedwhereshesinned。"
  "Whatwillbecomeofmeinahousewherenakedwomenarepaintedonthewalls?"saidthepoorabbe。"WhereshallIfindotherlindensbeneathwhichtoreadmybreviary?"
  LikeKant,whowasunabletocollecthisthoughtsafterthefir-treeatwhichhewasaccustomedtogazewhilemeditatingwascutdown,sothepoorabbecouldneverattaintheardorofhisformerprayerswhilewalkingupanddowntheshadelesspaths。DuBousquierhadplantedanEnglishgarden。
  "Itwasbest,"saidMadameduBousquier,withoutthinkingso;buttheAbbeCouterierhadauthorizedhertocommitmanywrongstopleaseherhusband。
  Theserestorationsdestroyedallthevenerabledignity,cordiality,andpatriarchalairoftheoldhouse。LiketheChevalierdeValois,whosepersonalneglectmightbecalledanabdication,thebourgeoisdignityoftheCormonsalonnolongerexistedwhenitwasturnedtowhiteandgold,withmahoganyottomanscoveredinbluesatin。Thedining-room,adornedinmoderntaste,wascolderintonethanitusedtobe,andthedinnerswereeatenwithlessappetitethanformerly。
  MonsieurduCoudraideclaredthathefelthispunsstickinhisthroatasheglancedatthefigurespaintedonthewalls,whichlookedhimoutofcountenance。Externally,thehousewasstillprovincial;butinternallyeverythingrevealedthepurveyoroftheDirectoryandthebadtasteofthemoney-changer,——forinstance,columnsinstucco,glassdoors,Greekmouldings,meaninglessoutlines,allstylesconglomerated,magnificenceoutofplaceandoutofseason。
  ThetownofAlencongabbledfortwoweeksoverthisluxury,whichseemedunparalleled;butafewmonthslaterthecommunitywasproudofit,andseveralrichmanufacturersrestoredtheirhousesandsetupfinesalons。Modernfurniturecameintothetown,andastrallampswereseen!
  TheAbbedeSpondewasamongthefirsttoperceivethesecretunhappinessthismarriagenowbroughttotheprivatelifeofhisbelovedniece。Thecharacterofnoblesimplicitywhichhadhithertoruledtheirliveswaslostduringthefirstwinter,whenduBousquiergavetwoballseverymonth。Oh,tohearviolinsandprofanemusicattheseworldlyentertainmentsinthesacredoldhouse!Theabbeprayedonhiskneeswhiletherevelslasted。Nextthepoliticalsystemofthesobersalonwasslowlyperverted。TheabbefathomedduBousquier;heshudderedathisimperioustone;hesawthetearsinhisniece'seyeswhenshefeltherselflosingallcontroloverherownproperty;forherhusbandnowleftnothinginherhandsbutthemanagementofthelinen,thetable,andthingsofakindwhicharethelotofwomen。
  Rosehadnolongeranyorderstogive。Monsieur'swillwasaloneregardedbyJacquelin,nowbecomecoachman,byRene,thegroom,andbythechef,whocamefromParis,Mariettebeingreducedtokitchenmaid。
  MadameduBousquierhadnoonetorulebutJosette。Whoknowswhatitcoststorelinquishthedelightsofpower?Ifthetriumphofthewillisoneoftheintoxicatingpleasuresinthelivesofgreatmen,itistheALLoflifetonarrowminds。OnemustneedshavebeenaministerdismissedfrompowertocomprehendthebitterpainwhichcameuponMadameduBousquierwhenshefoundherselfreducedtothisabsoluteservitude。Sheoftengotintothecarriageagainstherwill;shesawherselfsurroundedbyservantswhoweredistastefultoher;shenolongerhadthehandlingofherdearmoney,——shewhohadknownherselffreetospendmoney,anddidnotspendit。
  Allimposedlimitsmakethehumanbeingdesiretogobeyondthem。Thekeenestsufferingscomefromthethwartingofself-will。Thebeginningofthisstateofthingswas,however,rose-colored。Everyconcessionmadetomaritalauthoritywasaneffectofthelovewhichthepoorwomanfeltforherhusband。DuBousquierbehaved,inthefirstinstance,admirablytohiswife:hewaswise;hewasexcellent;hegaveherthebestofreasonsforeachnewencroachment。SoforthefirsttwoyearsofhermarriageMadameduBousquierappearedtobesatisfied。Shehadthatdeliberate,demurelittleairwhichdistinguishesyoungwomenwhohavemarriedforlove。Therushofbloodtoherheadnolongertormentedher。Thisappearanceofsatisfactionroutedthescoffers,contradictedcertainrumorsaboutduBousquier,andpuzzledallobserversofthehumanheart。Rose-Marie-Victoirewassoafraidthatifshedispleasedherhusbandoropposedhim,shewouldlosehisaffectionandbedeprivedofhiscompany,thatshewouldwillinglyhavesacrificedalltohim,evenheruncle。Hersillylittleformsofpleasuredeceivedeventhepoorabbeforatime,whoenduredhisowntrialsallthebetterforthinkingthathisniecewashappy,afterall。
  Alenconatfirstthoughtthesame。Buttherewasonemanmoredifficulttodeceivethanthewholetownputtogether。TheChevalierdeValois,whohadtakenrefugeontheSacredMountoftheupperaristocracy,nowpassedhislifeatthed'Esgrignons。Helistenedtothegossipandthegabble,andhethoughtdayandnightuponhisvengeance。HemeanttostrikeduBousquiertotheheart。
  Thepoorabbefullyunderstoodthebasenessofthisfirstandlastloveofhisniece;heshudderedas,littlebylittle,heperceivedthehypocriticalnatureofhisnephewandhistreacherousmanoeuvres。
  ThoughduBousquierrestrainedhimself,ashethoughtoftheabbe'sproperty,andwishednottocausehimvexation,itwashishandthatdealttheblowthatsenttheoldpriesttohisgrave。IfyouwillinterpretthewordINTOLERANCEasFIRMNESSOFPRINCIPLE,ifyoudonotwishtocondemninthecatholicsouloftheAbbedeSpondethestoicismwhichWalterScotthasmadeyouadmireinthepuritansoulofJeanieDeans'father;ifyouarewillingtorecognizeintheRomanChurchthePotiusmoriquamfoedarithatyouadmireinrepublicantenets,——youwillunderstandthesorrowoftheAbbedeSpondewhenhesawinhisniece'ssalontheapostatepriest,therenegade,thepervert,theheretic,thatenemyoftheChurch,theguiltytakeroftheConstitutionaloath。DuBousquier,whosesecretambitionwastolaydownthelawtothetown,wished,asafirstproofofhispower,toreconciletheministerofSaint-Leonardwiththerectoroftheparish,andhesucceeded。Hiswifethoughthehadaccomplishedaworkofpeacewheretheimmovableabbesawonlytreachery。ThebishopcametovisitduBousquier,andseemedgladofthecessationofhostilities。ThevirtuesoftheAbbeFrancoishadconqueredprejudice,exceptthatoftheagedRomanCatholic,whoexclaimedwithCornelle,"Alas!whatvirtuesdoyoumakemehate!"