"Suchthingswehavetokeepsecret——thingsthatgoonrightbeforeYOUReyes!"
"Whydon'tsomeofyoutellus?"heasked。
"Wecan'ttellyou。"
"Toomuchhonour?"
"No。Noteventoomuchhonouramongthieves,Mr。Russell。Wedon'ttellyouaboutourtricksagainstoneanotherbecauseweknowitwouldn'tmakeanyimpressiononyou。Thetricksaren'tplayedagainstyou,andyouhaveasoftsideforcatswithlovelymanners!"
"Whataboutyourtricksagainstus?"
"Oh,those!"Alicelaughed。"Wethinkthey'rerathercute!"
"Bravo!"hecried,andhammeredtheferruleofhisstickuponthepavement。
"What'stheapplausefor?"
"Foryou。Whatyousaidwaslikerunninguptheblackflagtothemasthead。"
"Oh,no。Itwasjustamodestlittlesigninaprettyflower-bed:'Gentlemen,beware!'"
"IseeImust,"hesaid,gallantly。
"Thanks!ButImean,bewareofthewholebloomin'garden!"Then,pickingupathreadthathadalmostdisappeared:"Youneedn'tthinkyou'lleverfindoutwhetherI'mrightaboutMildred'snotbeinganexceptionbyaskingher,"shesaid。"Shewon'ttellyou:she'snotthesortthatevermakesaconfession。"
ButRussellhadnotfollowedhershifttotheformertopic。
"'Mildred'snotbeinganexception?'"hesaid,vaguely。"I
don't——"
"Anexceptionaboutthinkingshecouldbewonderfulthingonthestageifsheonlycaredto。IfyouaskedherI'mprettysureshe'dsay,'Whatnonsense!'Mildred'sthedearest,finestthinganywhere,butyouwon'tfindoutmanythingsaboutherbyaskingher。"
Russell'sexpressionbecamemoreserious,asitdidwheneverhiscousinwasmadetheirtopic。"Youthinknot?"hesaid。"Youthinkshe's——"
"No。Butit'snotbecausesheisn'tsincereexactly。It'sonlybecauseshehassuchalottoliveupto。Shehastoliveuptobeingagirlonthegrandstyletoherself,Imean,ofcourse。"
AndwithoutpausingAlicerippledon,"YououghttohaveseenME
whenIhadthestage-fever!Iusedtoplay'Juliet'allaloneinmyroom。'Sheliftedherarmsingracefulentreaty,pleadingmusically,"O,swearnotbythemoon,theinconstantmoon,Thatmonthlychangesinhercircledorb,Lestthyloveprove——"
Shebrokeoffabruptlywithalittleflourish,snappingthumbandfingerofeachoutstretchedhand,thenlaughedandsaid,"Papausedtomakesuchfunofme!Thankheaven,Iwasonlyfifteen;I
wasalloveritbythenextyear。"
"Nowonderyouhadthefever,"Russellobserved。"Youdoitbeautifully。Whydidn'tyoufinishtheline?"
"Whichone?'Lestthyloveprovelikewisevariable'?JulietwassayingittoaMAN,youknow。Sheseemstohavebeenreadytoworryabouthisconstancyprettyearlyintheiraffair!"
Hercompanionwasagainthoughtful。"Yes,"hesaid,seemingtoberatherirksomelyimpressedwithAlice'ssuggestion。"Yes;itdoesappearso。"
Aliceglancedathisseriousface,andyieldedtoanaudacioustemptation。"Youmustn'ttakeitsohard,"shesaid,flippantly。
"Itisn'taboutyou:it'sonlyaboutRomeoandJuliet。"
"Seehere!"heexclaimed。"Youaren'tatyourmind-readingagain,areyou?Therearetimeswhenitwon'tdo,youknow!"
Sheleanedtowardhimalittle,asifcompanionably:theywerewalkingslowly,andthisgenialityofhersbroughthershoulderinlightcontactwithhisforamoment。"Doyoudislikemymind-reading?"sheasked,and,acrosstheirtwojusttouchingshoulders,gavehimhersuddenlookofsmilingwistfulness。"Doyouhateit?"
Heshookhishead。"No,Idon't,"hesaid,gravely。"It'squitepleasant。ButIthinkitsays,'Gentlemen,beware!'"
Sheinstantlymovedawayfromhim,withthelawlessandfranklaughofonewhoisdelightedtobecaughtinapieceofhypocrisy。"Howlovely!"shecried。Thenshepointedahead。
"Ourwalkisnearlyover。We'recomingtothefoolishlittlehousewhereIlive。It'saqueerlittleplace,butmyfather'ssoattachedtoitthefamilyhaveaboutgivenuphopeofgettinghimtobuildarealhousefartherout。Hedoesn'tmindourbeingextravagantaboutanythingelse,buthewon'tletusalteronesinglethingabouthispreciouslittleoldhouse。Well!"Shehalted,andgavehimherhand。"Adieu!"
"Icouldn't,"hebegan;hesitated,thenasked:"Icouldn'tcomeinwithyouforalittlewhile?"
"Notnow,"shesaid,quickly。"Youcancome——"Shepaused。
"When?"
"Almostanytime。"Sheturnedandwalkedslowlyupthepath,buthewaited。"Youcancomeintheeveningifyoulike,"shecalledbacktohimoverhershoulder。
"Soon?"
"Assoonasyoulike!"Shewavedherhand;thenranindoorsandwatchedhimfromawindowashewentupthestreet。Hewalkedrapidly,afine,easyfigure,swinginghisstickinawaythatsuggestedexhilaration。Alice,staringafterhimthroughtheirregularaperturesofalacecurtain,showednosimilarbuoyancy。Upontheinstantsheclosedthedoorallsparklelefther:shehadbecomeatoncethesimpleandsometimestroubledgirlherfamilyknew。
"Whatisgoingonoutthere?"hermotherasked,approachingfromthedining-room。
"Oh,nothing,"Alicesaid,indifferently,assheturnedaway。
"ThatMr。Russellmetmedowntownandwalkedupwithme。"
"Mr。Russell?Oh,theonethat'sengagedtoMildred?"
"Well——Idon'tknowforcertain。Hedidn'tseemsomuchlikeanengagedmantome。"Andsheadded,inthetoneofthoughtfulpreoccupation:"Anyhow——notsoterribly!"
Thensheranupstairs,gaveherfatherhistobacco,filledhispipeforhim,andpettedhimashelightedit。
CHAPTERXI
Afterthat,shewenttoherroomandsatdownbeforeherthree-leavedmirror。Therewaswhereshenearlyalwayssatwhenshecameintoherroom,ifshehadnothinginmindtodo。Shewenttothatchairasnaturallyasadoggoestohiscorner。
Sheleanedforward,observingherprofile;gravityseemedtobehermood。Butafteralong,almostmotionlessscrutiny,shebegantoproducedramaticsketchesuponthatever-readystage,hercountenance:sheshowedgaiety,satire,doubt,gentleness,appreciationofacompanionandlove-in-hiding——allstudiedinprofilefirst,thenrepeatedfora"three-quarterview。"
Subsequentlysheranthroughthem,facingherselfinfull。
InthismannersheoutlinedaplayfulscenarioforhernextinterviewwithArthurRussell;butgrewsolemnagain,thinkingoftheimpressionshehadalreadysoughttogivehim。Shehadnotwingesforanyunderminingsofher"mostintimatefriend"——infact,shefeltthatherworkonanewportraitofMildredforMr。
Russellhadbeenhonestandaccurate。ButwhyhaditbeenherinstincttoshowhimanAliceAdamswhodidn'texist?
Almosteverythingshehadsaidtohimwasuponspontaneousimpulse,springingtoherlipsontheinstant;yetitallseemedtohavebeenfoundeduponacarefuldesign,asifsomehiddenselfkeptsuchdesignsinstockandhandedthemuptoher,ready-made,tobeusedforitsownpurpose。Whatappearedtobethedesiredresultwasafalse-colouredimageinRussell'smind;
butifhelikedthatimagehewouldn'tbelikingAliceAdams;norwouldanythinghethoughtabouttheimagebeathoughtabouther。
Nevertheless,sheknewshewouldgoonwithherfalse,fancycolouringsofthisnothingassoonasshesawhimagain;shehadjustbeenpracticingthem。"What'stheidea?"shewondered。
"Whatmakesmetellsuchlies?Whyshouldn'tIbejustmyself?"
Andthenshethought,"Butwhichoneismyself?"
Hereyesdweltonthesolemneyesinthemirror;andherlips,disquietedbyadeepeningwonder,partedtowhisper:
"Whointheworldareyou?"
Theapparitionbeforeherhadobeyedherlikeanalertslave,butnow,asshesubsidedtoacompletestillness,thataspectchangedtotheoldmockerywithwhichmirrorsavengetheirwrongs。Thenucleusofsomequeerthingseemedtogatherandshapeitselfbehindthenothingnessofthereflectedeyesuntilitbecamealmostanactualstrangepresence。Ifitcouldbeidentified,perhapsthepresencewasthatofthehiddendesignerwhohandedupthefalse,ready-madepictures,and,forunknownpurposes,madeAliceexhibitthem;butwhateveritwas,shesuddenlyfounditmonkey-likeandterrifying。Inafluttershejumpedupandwenttoanotherpartoftheroom。
Amomentortwolatershewaswhistlingsoftlyasshehungherlightcoatoverawoodentriangleinhercloset,andhermusingnowwasquainterthantheexperiencethatledtoit;forwhatshethoughtwasthis,"Icertainlyamaqueergirl!"Shetookalittleprideinsomuchoriginality,believingherselfprobablytheonlypersonintheworldtohavesuchthoughtsashadbeenherssincesheenteredtheroom,andthefirsttobedisturbedbyastrangepresenceinthemirror。Infact,theeffectofthetinyepisodebecameapparentinthatlookofpreoccupiedcomplacencytobeseenforatimeuponanygirlwhohasfoundreasontosuspectthatsheisabeingwithoutcounterpart。
Thisslightglow,stillfaintlyradiant,wasobservedacrossthedinner-tablebyWalter,buthemisinterpretedit。"WhatYOU
lookin'soself-satisfiedabout?"heinquired,andaddedinhisknowingway,"Isawyou,allright,cutie!"
"Where'dyouseeme?"
"Down-town。"
"Thisafternoon,youmean,Walter?"
"Yes,'thisafternoon,Imean,Walter,'"hereturned,burlesquinghervoiceatleasthappilyenoughtopleasehimself;
forhelaughedapplausively。"Oh,youneversawme!Ipassedyoucloseenoughtopullatooth,butyouwereawfulbusy。I
neverdidseeanybodyasbusyasyouget,Alice,whenyou'retowin'abarge。My,butyoukeepyourhandsgoin'!Lookedliketheairwasfullof'em!That'swhyI'montowhyyoulooksotickledthisevening;Isawyouwiththatbigfish。"
Mrs。Adamslaughedbenevolently;shewasnotdispleasedwiththisrallying。"Well,whatofit,Walter?"sheasked。"Ifyouhappentoseeyoursisteronthestreetwhensomeniceyoungmanisbeingattentivetoher——"
Walterbarkedandthencackled。"Whoa,Sal!"hesaid。"Yougotthepartsmixed。It'slittleAlicethatwas'beingattentive。'I
knowthebigfishshewasattentiveto,allright,too。"
"Yes,"hissisterretorted,quietly。"Ishouldthinkyoumighthaverecognizedhim,Walter。"
Walterlookedannoyed。"Stillharpin'onTHAT!"hecomplained。
"ThekindofwomenIlike,iftheygetsoretheyjusthityousomewhereonthefaceandthenthey'rethrough。Bytheway,I
heardthisRussellwassupposedtobeyourdear,old,sweetfriendMildred'ssteady。Whatyoudoin'walkin'asclosetohimasallthat?"
Mrs。Adamsaddressedhersoningentlereproof,"WhyWalter!"
"Oh,nevermind,mama,"Alicesaid。"Tothehorridallthingsarehorrid。"
"Getout!"Walterprotested,carelessly。"IheardallaboutthisRusselldownattheshop。YoungJoeLamb'ssuchatalkerI
wonderhedon'truinhisgrandfather'sbusiness;hekeepsalluscheaphelpstandin'roundlisteningtohimnine-tenthsofourtime。Well,JoetoldmethisRussell'ssomekinorothertothePalmerfamily,andhe'sgotsomelittlemoneyofhisown,andhe'sputtin'itintoolePalmer'strustcompanyandPalmer'sgoin'tomakehimavice-presidentofthecompany。Sortofakeep-the-money-in-the-familyarrangement,JoeLambsays。"
Mrs。Adamslookedthoughtful。"Idon'tsee——"shebegan。
"Why,thisRussell'ssupposedtobetieduptoMildred,"hersonexplained。"WhenolePalmerdiesthisRussellwillbehisson-in-law,andallhe'llhaf'todo'llbetobarelylifthisfeetandstepintotheoleman'sshoes。It'scertainlyamightyfathand-me-outforthisRussell!Youbetterlayoffo'there,Alice。Picksomebodythat'sgotlesstoloseandyou'llmakebettershowing。"
Mrs。Adams'sairofthoughtfulnesshadnotdeparted。"ButyousaythisMr。Russelliswelloffonhisownaccount,Walter。"
"Oh,JoeLambsayshe'sgotsomelittleofhisown。Didn'tknowhowmuch。"
"Well,then——"
Walterlaughedhislaugh。"Cutitout,"hebadeher。"Alicewouldn'truninfourthplace。"
Alicehadbeenlookingathiminadetachedway,asthoughestimatingthevalueofaspecimeninacollectionnotherown。
"Yes,"shesaid,indifferently。"YouREALLYarevulgar,Walter。"
Hehadfinishedhismeal;and,rising,hecameroundthetabletoherandpattedhergood-naturedlyontheshoulder。"GoodoleAllie!"hesaid。"HONEST,youwouldn'truninfourthplace。IfIwasyouI'dneverevenstartintheclass。Thatfrozen-face;
gangwillruleyouoffthetracksoonastheyseeyourcolours。"
"Walter!"hismothersaidagain。
"Well,ain'tIherbrother?"hereturned,seemingtobeentirelyseriousanddirect,forthemoment,atleast。"_I_liketheolegirlallright。Factis,sometimesI'mkindofsorryforher。"
"Butwhat'sitallABOUT?"Alicecried。"Simplybecauseyoumetmedown-townwithamanIneversawbutoncebeforeandjustbarelyknow!Whyallthispalaver?"
"'Why?'"herepeated,grinning。"Well,I'veseenyoustartbefore,youknow!"Hewenttothedoor,andpaused。"Igotnodateto-night。Takeyoutothemovies,youcaretogo。"
Shedeclinedcrisply。"No,thanks!"
"Comeon,"hesaid,aspleasantlyasheknewhow。
"Givemeachancetoshowyouabettertimethanwehadupatthatfrozen-facejoint。I'llgetyousomechopsueyafterward。"
"No,thanks!"
"Allright,"herespondedandwavedaflippantadieu。"Asthebarbersays,'Thebettertheadvice,theworseit'swasted!'
Good-night!"
Aliceshruggedhershoulders;butamomentortwolater,asthejarofthecarelesslyslammedfrontdoorwentthroughthehouse,sheshookherhead,reconsidering。"PerhapsIoughttohavegonewithhim。Itmighthavekepthimawayfromwhateverdreadfulpeoplearehisfriends——atleastforonenight。"
"Oh,I'msureWalter'saGOODboy,"Mrs。Adamssaid,soothingly;
andthiswaswhatshealmostalwayssaidwheneitherherhusbandorAliceexpressedsuchmisgivings。"He'sodd,andhe'spickeduprightqueermanners;butthat'sonlybecausewehaven'tgivenhimadvantagesliketheotheryoungmen。ButI'msurehe'saGOODboy。"
Sherevertedtothesubjectalittlelater,whileshewashedthedishesandAlicewipedthem。"OfcourseWaltercouldtakehisplacewiththeotherniceboysofthetownevenyet,"shesaid。
"Imean,ifwecouldaffordtohelphimfinancially。Theyallbelongtothecountryclubsandhavecarsand——"
"Let'sdon'tgointothatanymore,mama,"thedaughterbeggedher。"What'stheuse?"
"ItCOULDbeofuse,"Mrs。Adamsinsisted。"Itcouldifyourfather——"
"ButpapaCAN'T。"
"Yes,hecan。"
"Buthowcanhe?HetoldmeamanofhisageCAN'Tgiveupabusinesshe'sbeeninpracticallyallhislife,andjustgogropingaboutforsomethingthatmightneverturnupatall。I
thinkhe'srightaboutit,too,ofcourse!"
Mrs。Adamssplashedamongtheplateswithanewvigourheightenedbyanoldbitterness。"Oh,yes,"shesaid。"Hetalksthatway;butheknowsbetter。"
"Howcouldhe'knowbetter,'mama?"
"HEknowshow!"
"Butwhatdoesheknow?"
Mrs。Adamstossedherhead。"Youdon'tsupposeI'msuchafoolI'dbeurginghimtogiveupsomethingfornothing,doyou,Alice?DoyousupposeI'dwanthimtojustgo'gropingaround'
likehewastellingyou?Thatwouldbecrazy,ofcourse。LittleashisworkatLamb'sbringsin,Iwouldn'tbesosillyastoaskhimtogiveitupjustonaCHANCEhecouldfindsomethingelse。
Goodgracious,Alice,youmustgivemecreditforalittleintelligenceonceinawhile!"
Alicewaspuzzled。"Butwhatelsecouldtherebeexceptachance?Idon'tsee——"
"Well,Ido,"hermotherinterrupted,decisively。"Thatmancouldmakeusallwelloffrightnowifhewantedto。Wecouldhavebeenrichlongagoifhe'deverreallyfeltasheoughttoabouthisfamily。"
"What!Why,howcould——"
"YouknowhowaswellasIdo,"Mrs。Adamssaid,crossly。"I
guessyouhaven'tforgottenhowhetreatedmeaboutittheSundaybeforehegotsick。"
Shewentonwithherwork,puttingintoitasuddenviolenceinspiredbytherecollection;butAlice,enlightened,gaveutterancetoalaughoflugubriousderision。"Oh,theGLUE
factoryagain!"shecried。"Howsilly!"Andsherenewedherlaughter。
Sooftendothegreatprojectsofparentsappearignominioustotheirchildren。Mrs。Adams'sconceptionofagluefactoryasafairygodmotherofthisfamilywasanabsurdoldstorywhichAlicehadnevertakenseriously。SherememberedthatwhenshewasaboutfifteenhermotherbegannowandthentosaysomethingtoAdamsabouta"gluefactory,"rathertimidly,andasavaguesuggestion,butneverwithoutirritatinghim。Then,foryears,thepreposteroussubjecthadnotbeenmentioned;possiblybecauseofsomeexplosiononthepartofAdams,whenhisdaughterhadnotbeenpresent。ButduringthelastyearMrs。Adamshadquietlygonebacktotheseoldhints,revivingthematintervalsandalsorevivingherhusband'sirritation。Alice'sboredimpressionwasthathermotherwantedhimtofound,orbuy,ordosomething,orother,aboutagluefactory;andthatheconsideredtheproposalsoimpracticableastobeinsulting。TheparentalconversationstookplacewhenneitherAlicenorWalterwasathand,butsometimesAlicehadcomeinupontheconclusionofone,tofindherfatherinashoutingmood,andshockingtheairbehindhimwithprofanemonosyllablesashedeparted。Mrs。Adamswouldbeleftquietandtroubled;andwhenAlice,sympathizingwiththegoadedman,inquiredofhermotherwhythesetiresomebickeringshadbeenrenewed,shealwaysgotthebroodingandcrypticanswer,"HeCOULDdoit——ifhewantedto。"Alicefailedtocomprehendthedesirabilityofagluefactory——tohermindafatherengagedinagluefactorylackedimpressiveness;hadnoadvantageoverafatheremployedbyLambandCompany;andshesupposedthatAdamsknewbetterthanhermotherwhethersuchanenterprisewouldbeprofitableornot。Emphatically,hethoughtitwouldnot,forshehadheardhimshoutingattheendofoneofthesepainfulinterviews,"YoucankeepupyourdangtalktillYOUdieand_I_
die,butI'llnevermakeoneGod'scentthatway!"
Therehadbeenaculmination。ReturningfromchurchontheSundayprecedingthecollapsewithwhichAdams'sillnesshadbegun,Alicefoundhermotherdownstairs,weepingandintimidated,whileherfather'sstampingfootstepswereloudlyaudibleashestrodeupanddownhisroomoverhead。Sowerehisendlessrepetitionsofinvectiveloudlyaudible:"Thatwoman!
Oh,thatwoman;Oh,thatdangedwoman!"
Mrs。Adamsadmittedtoherdaughterthatitwas"theoldgluefactory"andthatherhusband'swildnesshadfrightenedherintoa"solemnpromise"nevertomentionthesubjectagainsolongasshehadbreath。Alicelaughed。The"gluefactory"ideawasnotonlyabore,butridiculous,andhermother'sevidentseriousnessaboutitoneofthoseinexplicablevagarieswesometimesdiscoverinthepeopleweknowbest。ButthisSundayrampageappearedtobetheendofit,andwhenAdamscamedowntodinner,anhourlater,hewasunusuallycheerful。Alicewasgladhehadgonewildenoughtosettlethegluefactoryonceandforall;andshehadceasedtothinkoftheepisodelongbeforeFridayofthatweek,whenAdamswasbroughthomeinthemiddleoftheafternoonbyhisoldemployer,the"greatJ。A。Lamb,"inthelatter'scar。
Duringthelongillnessthe"gluefactory"wascompletelyforgotten,byAliceatleast;andherlaughwasruefulaswellasderisivenow,inthekitchen,whensherealizedthathermother'smindagaindweltuponthisabandonednuisance。"Ithoughtyou'dgotoverallthatnonsense,mama,"shesaid。
Mrs。Adamssmiled,pathetically。"Ofcourseyouthinkit'snonsense,dearie。Youngpeoplethinkeverything'snonsensethattheydon'tknowanythingabout。"
"Goodgracious!"Alicecried。"IshouldthinkIusedtohearenoughaboutthathorribleoldgluefactorytoknowsomethingaboutit!"
"No,"hermotherreturnedpatiently。"You'veneverheardanythingaboutitatall。"
"Ihaven't?"
"No。YourfatherandIdidn'tdiscussitbeforeyouchildren。
Allyoueverheardwaswhenhe'dgetinsucharage,afterwe'dbeenspeakingofit,thathecouldn'tcontrolhimselfwhenyoucamein。Wasn't_I_alwaysquiet?Did_I_evergoontalkingaboutit?"
"No;perhapsnot。Butyou'retalkingaboutitnow,mama,afteryoupromisednevertomentionitagain。"
"Ipromisednottomentionittoyourfather,"saidMrs。Adams,gently。"Ihaven'tmentionedittohim,haveI?"
"Ah,butifyoumentionittomeI'mafraidyouWILLmentionittohim。Youalwaysdospeakofthingsthatyouhaveonyourmind,andyoumightgetpapaallstirredupagainabout——"Alicepaused,alightofdivinationflickeringinhereyes。"Oh!"shecried。"ISEE!"
"Whatdoyousee?"
"YouHAVEbeenathimaboutit!"
"Notonesingleword!"
"No!"Alicecried。"NotaWORD,butthat'swhatyou'vemeantallalong!Youhaven'tspokenthewordstohim,butallthisurginghimtochange,to'findsomethingbettertogointo'——it'sallbeenaboutnothingonearthbutyourfoolisholdgluefactorythatyouknowupsetshim,andyougaveyoursolemnwordnevertospeaktohimaboutagain!Youdidn'tsayit,butyoumeantit——andheKNOWSthat'swhatyoumeant!Oh,mama!"
Mrs。Adams,withherhandsstillautomaticallyatworkinthefloodeddishpan,turnedtofaceherdaughter。"Alice,"shesaid,tremulously,"whatdoIaskformyself?"
"What?"
"Isay,WhatdoIaskformyself?Doyousuppose_I_wantanything?Don'tyouknowI'dbeperfectlycontentonyourfather'spresentincomeifIweretheonlypersontobeconsidered?WhatdoIcareaboutanypleasureformyself?I'dbewillingnevertohaveamaidagain;_I_don'tminddoingthework。Ifwedidn'thaveanychildrenI'dbegladtodoyourfather'scookingandthehouseworkandthewashingandironing,too,fortherestofmylife。Iwouldn'tcare。I'mapoorcookandapoorhousekeeper;Idon'tdoanythingwell;butitwouldbegoodenoughforjusthimandme。Iwouldn'teverutteronewordofcom——"
"Oh,goodness!"Alicelamented。"WhatISitallabout?"
"It'saboutthis,"saidMrs。Adams,swallowing。"YouandWalterareanewgenerationandyououghttohavethesameastherestofthenewgenerationget。PoorWalter——askingyoutogotothemoviesandaChineserestaurant:thebesthehadtooffer!Don'tyousuppose_I_seehowthepoorboyisdeteriorating?Don'tyousupposeIknowwhatYOUhavetogothrough,Alice?AndwhenI
thinkofthatmanupstairs——"Theagitatedvoicegrewlouder。
"WhenIthinkofhimandknowthatnothingintheworldbuthisSTUBBORNNESSkeepsmychildrenfromhavingalltheywantandwhattheyOUGHTtohave,doyousupposeI'mgoingtoholdmyselfboundtokeeptotheabsoluteletterofasillypromisehegotfrommebybehavinglikeacrazyman?Ican't!Ican'tdoit!Nomothercouldsitbyandseehimlockupahornofplentylikethatinhisclosetwhenthechildrenwerestarving!"
"Oh,goodness,goodnessme!"Aliceprotested。"Wearen'tprecisely'starving,'arewe?"
Mrs。Adamsbegantoweep。"It'sjustthesame。Didn'tIseehowflushedandprettyyoulooked,thisafternoon,afteryou'dbeenwalkingwiththisyoungmanthat'scomehere?Doyousupposehe'dLOOKatagirllikeMildredPalmerifyouhadwhatyououghttohave?Doyousupposehe'dbegoingintobusinesswithherfatherifYOURfather——"
"Goodheavens,mama;you'reworsethanWalter:Ijustbarelyknowtheman!DON'Tbesoabsurd!"
"Yes,I'malways'absurd,'"Mrs。Adamsmoaned。"AllIcandoiscry,whileyourfathersitsupstairs,andhishornofplenty——"
ButAliceinterruptedwithapealofdesperatelaughter。"Oh,that'hornofplenty!'Docomedowntoearth,mama。HowcanyoucallaGLUEfactory,thatdoesn'texistexceptinyourmind,a'hornofplenty'?Dolet'sbealittlerational!"
"ItCOULDbeahornofplenty,"thetearfulMrs,Adamsinsisted。
"Itcould!Youdon'tunderstandathingaboutit。"
"Well,I'mwilling,"Alicesaid,withtiredskepticism。"Makemeunderstand,then。Where'dyouevergettheidea?"
Mrs。Adamswithdrewherhandsfromthewater,driedthemonatowel,andthenwipedhereyeswithahandkerchief。"Yourfathercouldmakeafortuneifhewantedto,"shesaid,quietly。"Atleast,Idon'tsayafortune,butanyhowagreatdealmorethanhedoesmake。"
"Yes,I'veheardthatbefore,mama,andyouthinkhecouldmakeitoutofagluefactory。WhatI'maskingis:How?"
"How?Why,bymakingglueandsellingit。Don'tyouknowhowbadmostglueiswhenyoutrytomendanything?Agoodglueisoneoftherarestthingsthereis;anditwouldjustsellitself,onceitgotstarted。Well,yourfatherknowshowtomakeasgoodaglueasthereisintheworld。"
Alicewasnotinterested。"Whatofit?Isupposeprobablyanybodycouldmakeitiftheywantedto。"
"ISAIDyoudidn'tknowanythingaboutit。Nobodyelsecouldmakeit。Yourfatherknowsaformulaformakingit。"
"Whatofthat?"
"It'sasecretformula。Itisn'tevendownonpaper。It'sworthanyamountofmoney。"
"'Anyamount?'"Alicesaid,remainingincredulous。"Whyhasn'tpapasolditthen?"
"Justbecausehe'stoostubborntodoanythingwithitatall!"
"Howdidpapagetit?"
"Hegotitbeforeyouwereborn,justafterweweremarried。I
didn'tthinkmuchaboutitthen:itwasn'ttillyouweregrowingupandIsawhowmuchweneededmoneythatI——"
"Yes,buthowdidpapagetit?"Alicebegantofeelalittlemorecuriousaboutthispossibleburiedtreasure。"Didheinventit?"
"Partly,"Mrs。Adamssaid,lookingsomewhatpreoccupied。"Heandanothermaninventedit。"
"Thenmaybetheotherman——"
"He'sdead。"
"Thenhisfamily——"
"Idon'tthinkheleftanyfamily,"Mrs。Adamssaid。"Anyhow,itbelongstoyourfather。Atleastitbelongstohimasmuchasitdoestoanyoneelse。He'sgotanabsolutelyperfectrighttodoanythinghewantstowithit,anditwouldmakeusallcomfortableifhe'ddowhatIwanthimto——andheKNOWSitwould,too!"
Aliceshookherheadpityingly。"Poormama!"shesaid。"Ofcourseheknowsitwouldn'tdoanythingofthekind,orelsehe'dhavedoneitlongago。"
"Hewould,yousay?"hermothercried。"Thatonlyshowshowlittleyouknowhim!"
"Poormama!"Alicesaidagain,soothingly。"Ifpapawerelikewhatyousayheis,he'dbe——why,he'dbecrazy!"
Mrs。Adamsagreedwithavehemencenearpassion。"You'rerightabouthimforonce:that'sjustwhatheis!Hesitsupthereinhisstubbornnessandletsusslavehereinthekitchenwhenifhewantedto——ifhe'dsomuchaslifthislittlefinger——"
"Oh,come,now!"Alicelaughed。"Youcan'tbuildevenagluefactorywithjustonelittlefinger。"
Mrs。Adamsseemedabouttoreplythatfindingfaultwithafigureofspeechwasbesidethepoint;butaringingofthefrontdoorbellforestalledtheretort。"Now,whodoyousupposethatis?"shewonderedaloud,thenherfacebrightened。"Ah——didMr。
Russellaskifhecould——"
"No,hewouldn'tbecomingthisevening,"Alicesaid。"Probablyit'sthegreatJ。A。Lamb:heusuallystopsforaminuteonThursdaystoaskhowpapa'sgettingalong。I'llgo。"
Shetossedherapronoff,andasshewentthroughthehouseherexpressionwasthoughtful。Shewasthinkingvaguelyaboutthegluefactoryandwonderingiftheremightbe"somethinginit"
afterall。IfhermotherwasrightabouttherichpossibilitiesofAdams'ssecret——butthatwasasfarasAlice'sspeculationsuponthematterwentatthistime:theywerechecked,partlybythethoughtthatherfatherprobablyhadn'tenoughmoneyforsuchanenterprise,andpartlybythefactthatshehadarrivedatthefrontdoor。
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