"Mama!"
Mrs。Adamslookedup。"It'sallright,"shesaid,inaloudwhisper。"Gertrudefelldownthecellarstairs。Somebodyleftabucketthere,and——"ShewasinterruptedbyagaspfromAlice,andhastenedtoreassureher。"Don'tworry,dearie。Shemaylimpalittle,but——"
Adamsleanedoverthebanisters。"Didshebreakanything?"heasked。
"Hush!"hiswifewhispered。"No。Sheseemsupsetandangryaboutit,morethananythingelse;butshe'srubbingherself,andshe'llbeallrightintimetobringinthelittlesandwiches。
Alice!Thoseflowers!"
"Iknow,mama。But——"
"Hurry!"Mrs。Adamswarnedher。"Bothofyouhurry!IMUSTlethimin!"
Sheturnedtothedoor,smilingcordially,evenbeforesheopenedit。"Docomerightin,Mr。Russell,"shesaid,loudly,liftinghervoiceforadditionalwarningtothoseabove。"I'mSOgladtoreceiveyouinformally,thisway,inourownlittlehome。
There'sahat-rackhereunderthestairway,"shecontinued,asRussell,murmuringsomeresponse,cameintothehall。"I'mafraidyou'llthinkit'salmostTOOinformal,mycomingtothedoor,butunfortunatelyourhousemaid'sjusthadalittleaccident——oh,nothingtomention!Ijustthoughtwebetternotkeepyouwaitinganylonger。Willyoustepintoourliving-room,please?"
Sheledthewaybetweenthetwosmallcolumns,andseatedherselfinoneoftheplushrocking-chairs,selectingitbecauseAlicehadoncepointedoutthatthechairs,themselves,werelessnoticeablewhentheyhadpeoplesittinginthem。"Dositdown,Mr。Russell;it'ssoverywarmit'sreallyquiteatrialjusttostandup!"
"Thankyou,"hesaid,ashetookaseat。"Yes。Itisquitewarm。"Andthisseemedtobetheextentofhisresponsivenessforthemoment。Hewasgrave,ratherpale;andMrs。Adams'simpressionofhim,assheformeditthen,wasof"adistinguished-lookingyoungman,reallyelegantinthebestsenseoftheword,buttimidandformalwhenhefirstmeetsyou。"Shebeameduponhim,andusedwitheverythingshesaidacontinuousaccompanimentoflaughter,meaninglessexceptthatitwasmeanttoconveycordiality。"OfcourseweDOhaveagreatdealofwarmweather,"sheinformedhim。"I'mgladit'ssomuchcoolerinthehousethanitisoutdoors。"
"Yes,"hesaid。"Itispleasanterindoors。"And,stoppingwiththissingleuntruth,hepermittedhimselfthebriefestglanceabouttheroom;thenhiseyesreturnedtohissmilinghostess。
"Mostpeoplemakeagreatfussabouthotweather,"shesaid。
"TheonlypersonIknowwhodoesn'tmindtheheatthewayotherpeopledoisAlice。Shealwaysseemsascoolasifwehadabreezeblowing,nomatterhowhotitis。Butthenshe'ssoamiableshenevermindsanything。It'sjusthercharacter。
She'salwaysbeenthatwaysinceshewasalittlechild;alwaysthesametoeverybody,highandlow。Ithinkcharacter'sthemostimportantthingintheworld,afterall,don'tyou,Mr。
Russell?"
"Yes,"hesaid,solemnly;andtouchedhisbedewedwhiteforeheadwithahandkerchief。
"Indeeditis,"sheagreedwithherself,neverfailingtocontinuehermurmuroflaughter。"That'swhatI'vealwaystoldAlice;butsheneverseesanythinggoodinherself,andshejustlaughsatmewhenIpraiseher。SheseesgoodineverybodyELSE
intheworld,nomatterhowunworthytheyare,orhowtheybehavetowardHER;butshealwaysunderestimatesherself。Fromthetimeshewasalittlechildshewasalwaysthatway。Whensomeotherlittlegirlwouldbehaveselfishlyormeanlytowardher,doyouthinkshe'dcomeandtellme?Neverawordtoanybody!Thelittlethingwastooproud!Shewasthesamewayaboutschool。
Theteachershadtotellmewhenshetookaprize;she'dbringithomeandkeepitinherroomwithoutawordaboutittoherfatherandmother。Now,Walterwasjusttheotherway。Walterwould——"ButhereMrs。Adamscheckedherself,thoughsheincreasedthevolumeofherlaughter。"Howsillyofme!"sheexclaimed。"IexpectyouknowhowmothersARE,though,Mr。
Russell。Giveusachanceandwe'lltalkaboutourchildrenforever!AlicewouldfeelterriblyifsheknewhowI'vebeengoingonabouthertoyou。"
InthisMrs。Adamswasright,thoughshedidnotherselfsuspectit,anduponanalmostinaudiblewordortwofromhimshewentonwithhertopic。"OfcoursemyexcuseisthatfewmothershaveadaughterlikeAlice。Isupposeweallthinkthesamewayaboutourchildren,butSOMEofusmustberightwhenwefeelwe'vegotthebest。Don'tyouthinkso?"
"Yes。Yes,indeed。"
"I'msure_I_am!"shelaughed。"I'lllettheothersspeakforthemselves。"Shepausedreflectively。"No;Ithinkamotherknowswhenshe'sgotatreasureinherfamily。IfsheHASN'Tgotone,she'llpretendshehas,maybe;butifshehas,sheknowsit。
Icertainlyknow_I_have。She'salwaysbeenwhatpeoplecall'thejoyofthehousehold'——alwayscheerful,nomatterwhatwentwrong,andalwaysreadytosmooththingsoverwithsomebright,wittysaying。YoumustbesurenottoTELLwe'vehadthislittlechatabouther——she'djustbefuriouswithme——butsheISsuchadearchild!Youwon'ttellher,willyou?"
"No,"hesaid,andagainappliedthehandkerchieftohisforeheadforaninstant。"No,I'll——"Hepaused,andfinishedlamely:
"I'll——nottellher。"
Thusreassured,Mrs。Adamssetbeforehimsomedetailsofherdaughter'spopularityatsixteen,dwellinguponAlice'simpartialityamongheryoungsuitors:"ShenevercouldBEARtohurttheirfeelings,andalwaystreatedallofthemjustalike。
AbouthalfadozenofthemwerejustBOUNDtomarryher!
Naturally,herfatherandIconsideredanysuchidearidiculous;
shewastooyoung,ofcourse。"
Thusthemotherwentonwithherbiographicalsketches,whilethepaleyoungmansatfacingherunderthehardoverheadlightofawhiteglobe,settotheceiling;andlistenedwithoutinterrupting。ShewasgladtohavethechancetotellhimafewthingsaboutAlicehemightnothaveguessedforhimself,and,indeed,shehadplannedtofindsuchanopportunity,ifshecould;butthiswasgettingtobealtogethertoomuchofone,shefelt。Astimepassed,shewaslikeanactorwhomustimprovisetokeeptheaudiencefromperceivingthathisfellow-playershavemissedtheircues;butheranxietywasnotbetrayedtothestilllistener;shehadavaliantsoul。
Alice,meanwhile,hadarrangedherlittlerosesonthetableinasmanyways,probably,astherewereblossoms;andshewasstillatitwhenherfatherarrivedinthedining-roombywayofthebackstairsandthekitchen。
"It'spulledoutagain,"hesaid。"ButIguessthere'snohelpforitnow;it'stoolate,andanywayitletssomeairintomewhenitbulges。Icansitso'sitwon'tbenoticedmuch,I
expect。Isn'tittimeyouquitbotheringaboutthelooksofthetable?Yourmother'sbeentalkingtohimabouthalfanhournow,andIhadtheideahecameonyouraccount,nothers。Hadn'tyoubettergoand——"
"Justaminute。"Alicesaid,piteously。"DoYOUthinkitlooksallright?"
"Theflowers?Fine!Hadn'tyoubetterleave'emthewaytheyare,though?"
"Justaminute,"shebeggedagain。"JustONEminute,papa!"AndsheexchangedaroseinfrontofRussell'splateforonethatseemedtoheralittlelarger。
"Youbettercomeon,"Adamssaid,movingtothedoor。
"JustONEmoresecond,papa。"Sheshookherhead,lamenting。
"Oh,Iwishwe'drentedsomesilver!"
"Why?"
"Becausesomuchoftheplatinghasrubbedoffalotofit。JUST
asecond,papa。"Andasshespokeshehastilywentroundthetable,gatheringtheknivesandforksandspoonsthatshethoughthadtheirplatingbestpreserved,andexchangingthemformoredamagedpiecesatRussell'splace。"There!"shesighed,finally。
"NowI'llcome。"Butatthedoorshepausedtolookbackdubiously,overhershoulder。
"What'sthematternow?"
"Theroses。IbelieveafterallIshouldn'thavetriedthatvineeffect;Ioughttohavekepttheminwater,inthevase。It'ssohot,theyalreadybegintolookalittlewilted,outonthedrytableclothlikethat。IbelieveI'll——"
"Why,lookhere,Alice!"heremonstrated,assheseemeddisposedtoturnback。"Everything'llburnuponthestoveifyoukeepon——"
"Oh,well,"shesaid,"thevasewasterriblyugly;Ican'tdoanybetter。We'llgoin。"Butwithherhandonthedoor-knobshepaused。"No,papa。Wemustn'tgoinbythisdoor。Itmightlookasif——"
"Asifwhat?"
"Nevermind,"shesaid。"Let'sgotheotherway。"
"Idon'tseewhatdifferenceitmakes,"hegrumbled,butneverthelessfollowedherthroughthekitchen,andupthebackstairsthenthroughtheupperhallway。Atthetopofthefrontstairsshepausedforamoment,drawingadeepbreath;andthen,beforeherfather'spuzzledeyes,atransformationcameuponher。
Hershoulders,likehereyelids,hadbeendrooping,butnowshethrewherheadback:theshouldersstraightened,andthelashesliftedoversparklingeyes;vivacitycametoherwholebodyinaflash;andshetrippeddownthesteps,withherprettyhandsrisingintimetotheliltinglittletuneshehadbeguntohum。
Atthefootofthestairs,oneofthoseprettyhandsextendeditselfatfullarm'slengthtowardRussell,andcontinuedtobeextendeduntilitreachedhisownhandashecametomeether。
"Howterribleofme!"sheexclaimed。"Tobesolatecomingdown!
Andpapa,too——Ithinkyouknoweachother。"
Herfatherwasadvancingtowardtheyoungman,expectingtoshakehandswithhim,butAlicestoodbetweenthem,andRussell,alittleflushed,bowedtohimgravelyoverhershoulder,withoutlookingathim;whereuponAdams,slightlydisconcerted,puthishandsinhispocketsandturnedtohiswife。
"Iguessdinner'smore'nready,"hesaid。"Webettergositdown。"
Butsheshookherheadathimfiercely,"Wait!"shewhispered。
"Whatfor?ForWalter?"
"No;hecan'tbecoming,"shereturned,hurriedly,andagainwarnedhimbyashakeofherhead。"Bequiet!"
"Oh,well——"hemuttered。
"Sitdown!"
Hewasthoroughlymystified,butobeyedhergestureandwenttotherocking-chairintheoppositecorner,wherehesatdown,and,withanexpressionofmeekinquiry,awaitedevents。
Meanwhile,Aliceprattledon:"It'sreallynotafaultofmine,beingtardy。TheshamefultruthisIwastryingtohurrypapa。
He'sincorrigible:hestayssolateathisterribleoldfactory——terriblenewfactory,Ishouldsay。Ihopeyoudon'tHATEusformakingyoudinewithusinsuchfearfulweather!I'mnearlydyingoftheheat,myself,soyouhaveafellow-sufferer,ifthatpleasesyou。Whyisitwealwaysbearthingsbetterifwethinkotherpeoplehavetostandthem,too?"Andsheadded,withanexcitedlaugh:"SILLYofus,don'tyouthink?"
Gertrudehadjustmadeherentrancefromthedining-room,bearingatray。Shecameslowly,withanairofresentment;andherskirtstillneededadjusting,whileherlowerjawmovedatintervals,thoughnotnowuponanysubstance,butreminiscently,ofhabit。ShehaltedbeforeAdams,facinghim。
Helookedplaintive。"Whatyouwanto'me?"heasked。
Forresponse,sheextendedthetraytowardhimwithagestureofindifference;buthestillappearedtobepuzzled。"Whatintheworld——?"hebegan,thencaughthiswife'seye,andhadpresenceofmindenoughtotakeadampandplasticsandwichfromthetray。"Well,I'llTRYone,"hesaid,butamomentlater,ashefulfilledthispromise,anexpressionofintensedislikecameuponhisfeatures,andhewouldhavereturnedthesandwichtoGertrude。However,asshehadcrossedtheroomtoMrs。Adamshecheckedthegesture,andsathelplessly,withthesandwichinhishand。Hemadeanotherefforttogetridofitasthewaitresspassedhim,onherwaybacktothedining-room,butsheappearednottoobservehim,andhecontinuedtobetroubledbyit。
Alicewasaloyaldaughter。"Thesearedelicious,mama,"shesaid;andturningtoRussell,"Youmissedit;youshouldhavetakenone。Toobadwecouldn'thaveofferedyouwhatoughttogowithit,ofcourse,but——"
ShewasinterruptedbythesecondentranceofGertrude,whoannounced,"Dinnerserve',"andretiredfromview。
"Well,well!"Adamssaid,risingfromhischair,withrelief。
"That'sgood!Let'sgoseeifwecaneatit。"Andasthelittlegroupmovedtowardtheopendoorofthedining-roomhedisposedofhissandwichbydroppingitintheemptyfireplace。
Alice,glancingbackoverhershoulder,wastheonlyonewhosawhim,andsheshudderedinspiteofherself。Then,seeingthathelookedatherentreatingly,asifhewantedtoexplainthathewasdoingthebesthecould,shesmileduponhimsunnily,andbegantochattertoRussellagain。
CHAPTERXXII
Alicekepthersprightlychattergoingwhentheysatdown,thoughthetemperatureoftheroomandthesightofhotsoupmighthavediscouragedalessdeterminedgayety。Moreover,thereweredetailsasunpropitiousastheheat:theexpiringrosesexpressednotbeautybutpathos,andwhatfaintodourtheyexhaledwasnorivaltothelustyemanationsoftheBrusselssprouts;attheheadofthetable,Adams,sittinglowinhischair,appearedtobeunabletoflattentheuprisingwaveofhisstarchedbosom;andGertrude'smannerandexpressionwereofarecognizablehostilityduringthelongperiodofvainwaitingforthecupsofsouptobeemptied。OnlyMrs。Adamsmadeanyprogressinthisdirection;
theothersmerelyfeinting,nowandthenliftingtheirspoonsasiftheyintendedtodosomethingwiththem。
Alice'stalkwaslittlemorethancheerfulsound,but,tofilladesolateinterval,serveditspurpose;andhermothersupportedherwithever-faithfulcooingsofapplausivelaughter。"Whatafunnythingweatheris!"thegirlranon。"Yesterdayitwascool——angelshadchargeofit——andto-daytheyhadanengagementsomewhereelse,sothedevilsawhischanceandstartedtomovetheequatortotheNorthPole;butbythetimehegothalf-way,hethoughtofsomethingelsehewantedtodo,andwentoff;andlefttheequatorhere,rightontopofUS!Iwishhe'dcomebackandgetit!"
"Why,Alicedear!"hermothercried,fondly。"Whatanimagination!Notaverypiousone,I'mafraidMr。Russellmightthink,though!"HereshegaveGertrudeahiddensignaltoremovethesoup;but,astherewasnoresponse,shehadtomakethesignalmoreconspicuous。Gertrudewasleaningagainstthewall,herchinmovinglikeaslowpendulum,herstreakedeyesfixedmutinouslyuponRussell。Mrs。Adamsnoddedseveraltimes,increasingtheemphasisofhergesture,whileAlicetalkedbriskly;butthebroodingwaitresscontinuedtobrood。Afaintsnapofthefingersfailedtodisturbher;norwasacoverthissingwhisperofavail,andMrs。Adamswasbeginningtoshowsignsofstrainwhenherdaughterrelievedher。
"Imagineourtryingtoeatanythingsohotassouponanightlikethis!"Alicelaughed。"WhatCOULDhavebeeninthecook'smindnottogiveussomethingicedandjelliedinstead?Ofcourseit'sbecauseshe'sequatorial,herself,originally,andonlyfeelsathomewhenMr。Satanmovesitnorth。"ShelookedroundatGertrude,whostoodbehindher。"Dotakethisdreadfulsoupaway!"
Thusdirectlyaddressed,Gertrudeyieldedherattention,thoughunwillingly,andasifshedecidedonlybyahair'sweightnottorevolt,instead。However,shefinallysetherselfinslowmotion;butoverlookedthesupposedheadofthetable,seemingtobeunawareoftheswelteringlittlemanwhosatthere。Asshedisappearedtowardthekitchenwithbutthreeofthecupsuponhertrayheturnedtolookplaintivelyafterher,andventuredanattempttorecallher。
"Here!"hesaid,inalowvoice。"Here,you!"
"Whatisit,Virgil?"hiswifeasked。
"What'shername?"
Mrs。Adamsgavehimaglanceofsuddenpanic,and,seeingthattheguestoftheeveningwasnotlookingather,butdownatthewhiteclothbeforehim,shefrownedhard,andshookherhead。
UnfortunatelyAlicewasnotobservinghermother,andasked,innocently:"What'swhosename,papa?"
"Why,thisyoungdarkywoman,"heexplained。"Sheleftmine。"
"Nevermind,"Alicelaughed。"There'shopeforyou,papa。Shehasn'tgoneforever!"
"Idon'tknowaboutthat,"hesaid,notcontentwiththisimpulsiveassurance。"SheLOOKEDlikesheis。"Andhisremark,consideredasaprediction,hadbeguntoseemwarrantedbeforeGertrude'sreturnwithchinapreliminarytothenextstageofthebanquet。
Aliceprovedherselfequaltothelonggap,andrattledonthroughitwithaspiritrichlyjustifyinghermother'spraiseofheras"alwaysreadytosmooththingsover";forherewasmorethanlongdelaytobesmoothedover。ShesmoothedoverherfatherandmotherforRussell;andshesmoothedoverhimforthem,thoughhedidnotknowit,andremainedunawareofwhatheowedher。Withallthis,throughoutherprattlings,thegirl'sbrighteyeskeptseekinghiswithaneagergayety,whichbutlittleveiledbothinterrogationandentreaty——asifsheasked:
"Isittoomuchforyou?Can'tyoubearit?Won'tyouPLEASE
bearit?Iwouldforyou。Won'tyougivemeasignthatit'sallright?"
Helookedatherbutfleetingly,andseemedtosufferfromtheheat,inspiteofeverymanlyeffortnottowipehisbrowtoooften。Hiscolour,afterrisingwhenhegreetedAliceandherfather,haddeparted,leavinghimagainmoistlypallid;aconditionarisingfromdiscomfort,nodoubt,but,consideredasadecoration,almostpoeticallybecomingtohim。Notlessbecomingwasthefaint,kindlysmile,whichshowedhiswishtoexpressamusementandapproval;andyetitwasasmileratherstrainedandplaintive,asifhe,likeAdams,couldonlydothebesthecould。
HepleasedAdams,whothoughthimafineyoungman,anddecidedlythequietestthatAlicehadevershowntoherfamily。Inherfather'sopinionthiswasnosmallmerit;anditwastoRussell'scredit,too,thatheshowedembarrassmentuponthisfirstintimatepresentation;herewasanapplicantwithbothreserveandmodesty。"Sofar,heseemstobefirstrateamightyfineyoungman,"Adamsthought;and,promptedbynowishtopartfromAlicebutbyreminiscencesofapparentcandidateslesspleasing,headded,"Atlast!"
Alice'slivelinessneverflagged。Hersmoothingoverofthingswasanalmostcontinuousperformance,andhadtobe。Yet,whileshechatteredthroughthehotandheavycourses,thequestionssheaskedherselfwereascontinuousastheperformance,andaspoignantaswhathereyesseemedtobeaskingRussell。Whyhadshenotprevailedoverhermother'sfearofbeing"skimpy?"Hadshebeen,indeed,ashermothersaidshelooked,"inatrance?"
Butaboveall:WhatwasthematterwithHIM?Whathadhappened?
Forshetoldherselfwithpainfulhumourthatsomethingevenworsethanthisdinnermustbe"thematterwithhim。"
Thesmallroom,suffocatedwiththeodourofboiledsprouts,grewhotterandhotterasmoreandmorefoodappeared,slowlybornein,betweendeathlylongwaits,bytheresentful,loud-breathingGertrude。AndwhileAlicestillsoughtRussell'sglance,andreadthelookuponhisfaceadozendifferentways,fearingallofthem;andwhilethestragglinglittleflowersdieduponthestainedcloth,shefeltherheartgrowasheavyasthefood,andwonderedthatitdidnotdieliketheroses。
Withthearrivalofcoffee,thehostbestirredhimselftomakeknownahospitableregret,"ByGeorge!"hesaid。"Imeanttobuysomecigars。"Headdressedhimselfapologeticallytotheguest。
"Idon'tknowwhatIwasthinkingabout,toforgettobringsomehomewithme。Idon'tuse'emmyself——unlesssomebodyhandsmeone,youmightsay。I'vealwaysbeenapipe-smoker,pureandsimple,butIoughttorememberedforkindofanoccasionlikethis。"
"Notatall,"Russellsaid。"I'mnotsmokingatalllately;butwhenIdo,I'mlikeyou,andsmokeapipe。"
Alicestarted,rememberingwhatshehadtoldhimwhenheovertookheronherwayfromthetobacconist's;but,afteramoment,lookingathim,shedecidedthathemusthaveforgottenit。Ifhehadremembered,shethought,hecouldnothavehelpedglancingather。Onthecontrary,heseemedmoreatease,justthen,thanhehadsincetheysatdown,forhewasfavouringherfatherwithathoughtfulattentionasAdamsrespondedtotheintroductionofaman'stopicintotheconversationatlast。"Well,Mr。
Russell,Iguessyou'reright,atthat。Idon'tsaybutwhatcigarsmaybeallrightforamanthatcanafford'em,ifhelikes'embetterthanapipe,butyoutakeagoodoldpipenow——"
Hecontinued,andwasgettingwellintotheeulogiumcustomarilyprovokedbythistheme,whentherecameaninterruption:thedoor-bellrang,andhepausedinquiringly,rathersurprised。
Mrs。AdamsspoketoGertrudeinanundertone:
"Justsay,'Notathome。'"
"What?"
"Ifit'scallers,justsaywe'renotathome。"
Gertrudespokeoutfreely:"Youmeanyouastin'meto'tendyou'
frontdo'feryou?"
Sheseemedbothincredulousandaffronted,butMrs。Adamspersisted,thoughsomewhatapprehensively。"Yes。
Hurry——uh——please。Justsaywe'renotathomeifyouplease。"
AgainGertrudeobviouslyhesitatedbetweencomplianceandrevolt,andagainthemeekercoursefortunatelyprevailedwithher。ShegaveMrs。Adamsastare,grimlyderisive,thendeparted。Whenshecamebackshesaid:
"Hesayhewait。"
"ButItoldyoutotellanybodywewerenotathome,"MrsAdamsreturned。"Whoisit?"
"SayhenameMr。Law。"
"Wedon'tknowanyMr。Law。"
"Yes'm;heknowyou。SayheanxioustospeakMr。Adams。Sayhewait。"
"TellhimMr。Adamsisengaged。"
"Holdonaminute,"Adamsintervened。"Law?No。Idon'tknowanyMr。Law。Yousureyougotthenameright?"
"SayhenameLaw,"Gertrudereplied,lookingattheceilingtoexpressherfatigue。"Law。'Sallhetellme;'sallIknow。"
Adamsfrowned。"Law,"hesaid。"Wasn'titmaybe'Lohr?'"
"Law,"Gertruderepeated。'Sallhetellme;'sallIknow。"
"What'shelooklike?"
"Heain'tmuch,"shesaid。"'Boutyou'age;gotbrustlywhitemoustache,niceeye-glasses。"
"It'sCharleyLohr!"Adamsexclaimed。"I'llgoseewhathewants。"
"But,Virgil,"hiswiferemonstrated,"dofinishyourcoffee;hemightstayallevening。Maybehe'scometocall。"
Adamslaughed。"Heisn'tmuchofacaller,Iexpect。Don'tworry:I'lltakehimuptomyroom。"AndturningtowardRussell,"Ah——ifyou'lljustexcuseme,"hesaid;andwentouttohisvisitor。
Whenhehadgone,Mrs。Adamsfinishedhercoffee,and,havingglancedintelligentlyfromherguesttoherdaughter,sherose。
"IthinkperhapsIoughttogoandshakehandswithMr。Lohr,myself,"shesaid,addinginexplanationtoRussell,asshereachedthedoor,"He'sanoldfriendofmyhusband'sandit'saverylongtimesincehe'sbeenhere。"
Alicenoddedandsmiledtoherbrightly,butupontheclosingofthedoor,thesmilevanished;allherlivelinessdisappeared;andwiththischangeofexpressionhercomplexionitselfappearedtochange,sothatherrougebecameobvious,forshewaspalebeneathit。However,Russelldidnotseethealteration,forhedidnotlookather;anditwasbutamomentarylapsethevacationofatiredgirl,whofortensecondsletsherselflookasshefeels。Thensheshothervivacitybackintoplaceasbysomepowerfulspring。
"Pennyforyourthoughts!"shecried,andtossedoneofthewiltedrosesathim,acrossthetable。"I'llbidmorethanapenny;I'llbidtuppence——no,apoorlittledeadrosearoseforyourthoughts,Mr。ArthurRussell!Whatarethey?"
Heshookhishead。"I'mafraidIhaven'tany。"
"No,ofcoursenot,"shesaid。"Whocouldhavethoughtsinweatherlikethis?WillyouEVERforgiveus?"
"Whatfor?"
"Makingyoueatsuchaheavydinner——ImeanLOOKatsuchaheavydinner,becauseyoucertainlydidn'tdomorethanlookatit——onsuchanight!Butthecrimedrawstoaclose,andyoucanbegintocheerup!"Shelaughedgaily,and,rising,movedtothedoor。
"Let'sgointheotherroom;yourfearfuldutyisalmostdone,andyoucanrunhomeassoonasyouwantto。That'swhatyou'redyingtodo。"
"Notatall,"hesaidinavoicesofeeblethatshelaughedaloud。
"Goodgracious!"shecried。"Ihadn'trealizeditwasTHATbad!"
Forthis,thoughhecontrivedtolaugh,heseemedtohavenoverbalretortwhatever;butfollowedherintothe"living-room,"
whereshestoppedandturned,facinghim。
"Hasitreallybeensofrightful?"sheasked。
"Why,ofcoursenot。Notatall。"
"Ofcourseyes,though,youmean!"
"Notatall。It'sbeenmostkindofyourmotherandfatherandyou。"
"Doyouknow,"shesaid,"you'veneveroncelookedatmeformorethanasecondatatimethewholeevening?AnditseemedtomeI
lookedratherniceto-night,too!"
"Youalwaysdo,"hemurmured。
"Idon'tseehowyouknow,"shereturned;andthensteppingclosertohim,spokewithgentlesolicitude:"Tellme:you'rereallyfeelingwretchedly,aren'tyou?Iknowyou'vegotafearfulheadache,orsomething。Tellme!"
"Notatall。"
"Youareill——I'msureofit。"
"Notatall。"
"Onyourword?"
"I'mreallyquiteallright。"
"Butifyouare——"shebegan;andthen,lookingathimwithadesperatesweetness,asifthiswereherlastresourcetorousehim,"What'sthematter,littleboy?"shesaidwithlispingtenderness。"Tellauntie!"
Itwasamistake,forheseemedtoflinch,andtoleanbackward,however,slightly。Sheturnedawayinstantly,withaflippantliftanddropofbothhands。"Oh,mydear!"shelaughed。"I
won'teatyou!"
Andasthediscomfitedyoungmanwatchedher,seemingabletolifthiseyes,nowthatherbackwasturned,shewenttothefrontdoorandpushedopenthescreen。"Let'sgooutontheporch,"shesaid。"Wherewebelong!"
Then,whenhehadfollowedherout,andtheywereseated,"Isn'tthisbetter?"sheasked。"Don'tyoufeelmorelikeyourselfouthere?"
Hebeganamurmur:"Notat——"
Butshecuthimoffsharply:"Pleasedon'tsay'Notatall'
again!"
"I'msorry。"
"Youdoseemsorryaboutsomething,"shesaid。"Whatisit?
Isn'tittimeyouweretellingmewhat'sthematter?"
"Nothing。Indeednothing'sthematter。OfcourseoneISratheraffectedbysuchweatherasthis。Itmaymakeonealittlequieterthanusual,ofcourse。"
Shesighed,andletthetiredmusclesofherfacerest。Underthehardlights,indoors,theyhadservedheruntiltheyached,anditwasaluxurytofeelthatinthedarknessnogrimacingsneedcalluponthem。
"Ofcourse,ifyouwon'ttellme——"shesaid。
"Icanonlyassureyouthere'snothingtotell。"
"Iknowwhatanuglylittlehouseitis,"shesaid。"Maybeitwasthefurniture——ormama'svasesthatupsetyou。Orwasitmamaherself——orpapa?"
"Nothing'upset'me。"
Atthatsheutteredamonosyllableofdoubtinglaughter。"I
wonderwhyyousaythat。"
"Becauseit'sso。"
"No。It'sbecauseyou'retookind,ortooconscientious,ortooembarrassed——anyhowtoosomething——totellme。"Sheleanedforward,elbowsonkneesandchininhands,inthereflectiveattitudesheknewhowtomakegraceful。"Ihaveafeelingthatyou'renotgoingtotellme,"shesaid,slowly。"Yes——eventhatyou'renevergoingtotellme。Iwonder——Iwonder——"
"Yes?Whatdoyouwonder?"
"Iwasjustthinking——Iwonderiftheyhaven'tdoneit,afterall。"
"Idon'tunderstand。"
"Iwonder,"shewenton,stillslowly,andinavoiceofreflection,"IwonderwhoHASbeentalkingaboutmetoyou,afterall?Isn'tthatit?"
"Notat——"hebegan,butcheckedhimselfandsubstitutedanotherformofdenial。"Nothingis'it。'"
"Areyousure?"
"Why,yes。"
"Howcurious!"shesaid。
"Why?"
"Becausealleveningyou'vebeensoutterlydifferent。"
"Butinthisweather——"
"No。Thatwouldn'tmakeyouafraidtolookatmeallevening!"
"ButIdidlookatyou。Often。"
"No。NotreallyaLOOK。"
"ButI'mlookingatyounow。"
"Yes——inthedark!"shesaid。"No——theweathermightmakeyouevenquieterthanusual,butitwouldn'tstrikeyousonearlydumb。No——anditwouldn'tmakeyouseemtobeundersuchastrain——asifyouthoughtonlyofescape!"
"ButIhaven't——"
"Youshouldn't,"sheinterrupted,gently。"There'snothingyouhavetoescapefrom,youknow。Youaren'tcommittedto——tothisfriendship。"
"I'msorryyouthink——"hebegan,butdidnotcompletethefragment。
Shetookitup。"You'resorryIthinkyou'resodifferent,youmeantosay,don'tyou?Nevermind:that'swhatyoudidmeantosay,butyoucouldn'tfinishitbecauseyou'renotgoodatdeceiving。"
"Oh,no,"heprotested,feebly。"I'mnotdeceiving。"I'm——"
"Nevermind,"shesaidagain。"You'resorryIthinkyou'resodifferent——andallinoneday——sincelastnight。Yes,yourvoiceSOUNDSsorry,too。Itsoundssorrierthanitwouldjustbecauseofmythinkingsomethingyoucouldchangemymindaboutinaminutesoitmeansyou'resorryyouAREdifferent。"
"No——I——"
Butdisregardingthefaintdenial,"Nevermind,"shesaid。"Doyourememberonenightwhenyoutoldmethatnothinganybodyelsecoulddowouldeverkeepyoufromcominghere?Thatifyou——ifyouleftmeitwouldbebecauseIdroveyouawaymyself?"
"Yes,"hesaid,huskily。"Itwastrue。"
"Areyousure?"
"IndeedIam,"heansweredinalowvoice,butwithconviction。
"Then——"Shepaused。"Well——butIhaven'tdrivenyouaway。"
"No。"
"Andyetyou'vegone,"shesaid,quietly。
"DoIseemsostupidasallthat?"
"YouknowwhatImean。"Sheleanedbackinherchairagain,andherhands,inactiveforonce,laymotionlessinherlap。Whenshespokeitwasinaruefulwhisper:
"IwonderifIHAVEdrivenyouaway?"
"You'vedonenothing——nothingatall,"hesaid。
"Iwonder——"shesaidoncemore,butshestopped。Inhermindshewasgoingbackovertheirtimetogethersincethefirstmeeting——fragmentsoftalk,momentsofsilence,littlethingsofnoimportance,littlethingsthatmightbeimportant;moonshine,sunshine,starlight;andherthoughtszigzaggedamongthejumblingmemories;but,asifshemadeforherselfapictureofallthesefragments,throwingthemuponthecanvashaphazard,shesawthemalljusttouchedwiththeonetaintingqualitythatgavethemcoherence,thefaint,falsehazeshehadputoverthisfriendshipbyherownpretendings。And,ifthisterribledinner,oranything,oreverything,hadshownthatsaffrontintinitstruecolourtothemanatherside,lastnightalmostalover,thenshehadindeedofherselfdrivenhimaway,andmightwellfeelthatshewaslost。
"Doyouknow?"shesaid,suddenly,inaclear,loudvoice。"I
havethestrangestfeeling。IfeelasifIweregoingtobewithyouonlyaboutfiveminutesmoreinalltherestofmylife!"
"Why,no,"hesaid。"OfcourseI'mcomingtoseeyou——often。
I——"
"No,"sheinterrupted。"I'veneverhadafeelinglikethisbefore。It's——it'sjustSO;that'sall!You'reGOING——why,you'renevercominghereagain!"Shestoodup,abruptly,beginningtotrembleallover。"Why,it'sFINISHED,isn'tit?"
shesaid,andhertremblingwasmanifestnowinhervoice。"Why,it'sallOVER,isn'tit?Why,yes!"
Hehadrisenasshedid。"I'mafraidyou'reawfullytiredandnervous,"hesaid。"Ireallyoughttobegoing。"
"Yes,ofCOURSEyouought,"shecried,despairingly。"There'snothingelseforyoutodo。Whenanything'sspoiled,peopleCAN'Tdoanythingbutrunawayfromit。Sogood-bye!"
"Atleast,"hereturned,huskily,"we'llonly——onlysaygood-night。"
Then,asmovingtogo,hestumbledupontheverandasteps,"YourHAT!"shecried。"I'dliketokeepitforasouvenir,butI'mafraidyouneedit!"
Sheranintothehallandbroughthisstrawhatfromthechairwherehehadleftit。"Youpoorthing!"shesaid,withquaveringlaughter。"Don'tyouknowyoucan'tgowithoutyourhat?"
Then,astheyfacedeachotherfortheshortmomentwhichbothofthemknewwouldbethelastofalltheirverandamoments,Alice'sbrokenlaughtergrewlouder。"Whatathingtosay!"shecried。
"Whataromanticparting——talkingaboutHATS!"
Herlaughtercontinuedasheturnedaway,butothersoundscamefromwithinthehouse,clearlyaudiblewiththeopeningofadoorupstairs——alongandwailingcryoflamentationinthevoiceofMrs。Adams。Russellpausedatthesteps,uncertain,butAlicewavedtohimtogoon。
"Oh,don'tbother,"shesaid。"Wehavelotsofthatinthisfunnylittleoldhouse!Good-bye!"
Andashewentdownthesteps,sheranbackintothehouseandclosedthedoorheavilybehindher。
CHAPTERXXIII
Hermother'swailingcouldstillbeheardfromoverhead,thoughmorefaintly;andoldCharleyLohrwascomingdownthestairsalone。
HelookedatAlicecompassionately。"Iwasjustcomin'tosuggestmaybeyou'dexcuseyourselffromyourcompany,"hesaid。
"Yourmotherwasboundnottodisturbyou,andtriedherbesttokeepyoufromhearin'howshe'stakin'on,butIthoughtprobablyyoubetterseetoher。"
"Yes,I'llcome。What'sthematter?"
"Well,"hesaid,"_I_onlysteppedovertooffermysympathyandservices,asitwere。_I_thoughtofcourseyoufolksknewallaboutit。Factis,itwasintheeveningpaper——justalittlebitofanitemonthebackpage,ofcourse。"
"Whatisit?"
Hecoughed。"Well,itain'tanythingsoterrible,"hesaid。
"Factis,yourbrotherWalter'sgotinalittletrouble——well,I
supposeyoumightcallitquiteagooddealoftrouble。Factis,he'squiteconsiderableshortinhisaccountsdownatLambandCompany。"
Aliceranupthestairsandintoherfather'sroom,whereMrs。
Adamsthrewherselfintoherdaughter'sarms。"Ishegone?"shesobbed。"Hedidn'thearme,didhe?Itriedsohard——"
Alicepattedtheheavingshouldersherarmsenclosed。"No,no,"
shesaid。"Hedidn'thearyou——itwouldn'thavemattered——hedoesn'tmatteranyway。"
"Oh,POORWalter!"Themothercried。"Oh,thePOORboy!Poor,poorWalter!Poor,poor,poor,POOR——"
"Hush,dear,hush!"Alicetriedtosootheher,butthelamentcouldnotbeabated,andfromtheothersideoftheroomarepetitioninadifferentspiritwasascontinuous。Adamspacedfuriouslythere,poundinghisfistintohisleftpalmashestrode。"Thedangboy!"hesaid。"Danglittlefool!Dangidiot!Dangfool!Whyn'theTELLme,thedanglittlefool?"
"HeDID!"Mrs。Adamssobbed。"HeDIDtellyou,andyouwouldn'tGIVEittohim。"
"HeDID,didhe?"Adamsshoutedather。"Whathebeggedmeforwasmoneytorunawaywith!Heneverdreamedofputtingbackwhathetook。Whatthedangnationyoutalkingabout——accusingme!"
"HeNEEDEDit,"shesaid。"Heneededittorunawaywith!HowcouldheexpecttoLIVE,afterhegotaway,ifhedidn'thavealittlemoney?Oh,poor,poor,POORWalter!Poor,poor,poor——"
Shewentbacktothisrepetition;andAdamswentbacktohisown,thenpaused,seeinghisoldfriendstandinginthehallwayoutsidetheopendoor。
"Ah——I'lljustbegoin',Iguess,Virgil,"Lohrsaid。"Idon'tseeasthere'sanyusemytryin'tosayanymore。I'lldoanythingyouwantmeto,youunderstand。"
"Waitaminute,"Adamssaid,and,groaning,cameandwentdownthestairswithhim。"Yousayyoudidn'tseetheoldmanatall?"
"No,Idon'tknowathingaboutwhathe'sgoingtodo,"Lohrsaid,astheyreachedthelowerfloor。"Notathing。Butlookhere,Virgil,Idon'tseeasthiscallsforyouandyourwifetotakeonsohardabout——anyhownotashardasthewayyou'vestarted。"
"No,"Adamsgulped。"Italwaysseemsthatwaytotheotherpartythat'sonlylookingon!"
"Oh,well,Iknowthat,ofcourse,"oldCharleyreturned,soothingly。"Butlookhere,Virgil:theymaynotcatchtheboy;
theydidn'tevenseemtobesurewhattrainhemade,andiftheydogethim,why,theolemanmightdecidenottoprosecuteif——"
"HIM?"Adamscried,interrupting。"Himnotprosecute?Why,that'swhathe'sbeenwaitingfor,allalong!Hethinksmyboyandmebothcheatedhim!Why,hewasjustlettingWalterwalkintoatrap!Didn'tyousaythey'dbeensuspectinghimforsometimeback?Didn'tyousaythey'dbeenwatchinghimandwerejustaboutfixingtoarresthim?"
"Yes,Iknow,"saidLohr;"butyoucan'ttell,especiallyifyouraisethemoneyandpayitback。"
"Everycent!"Adamsvociferated。"Everylastpenny!Icanraiseit——IGOTtoraiseit!I'mgoingtoputaloanonmyfactoryto-morrow。Oh,I'llgetitforhim,youtellhim!Everylastpenny!"
"Well,olefeller,youjusttryandgetquieteddownsomenow。"
Charleyheldouthishandinparting。"Youandyourwifejustquietdownsome。YouAIN'Tthehealthiestmanintheworld,youknow,andyoualreadybeenunderquitesomestrainbeforethishappened。Youwanttotakecareofyourselfforthesakeofyourwifeandthatsweetlittlegirlupstairs,youknow。Now,good-night,"hefinished,steppingoutupontheveranda。"Yousendformeifthere'sanythingIcando。"
"Do?"Adamsechoed。"Thereain'tanythingANYBODYcando!"Andthen,ashisoldfriendwentdownthepathtothesidewalk,hecalledafterhim,"YoutellhimI'llpayhimeverylastcent!
Everylast,dang,dirtyPENNY!"
Heslammedthedoorandwentrapidlyupthestairs,talkingloudlytohimself。"Everydang,last,dirtypenny!ThinksEVERYBODYinthisfamilywantstostealfromhim,doeshe?
Thinkswe'reALLyellow,doeshe?I'llshowhim!"Andhecameintohisownroomvociferating,"Everylast,dang,dirtypenny!"
Mrs。Adamshadcollapsed,andAlicehadputheruponhisbed,whereshelaytossingconvulsivelyandsobbing,"Oh,POOR
Walter!"overandover,butafteratimeshevariedthesorrytune。"Oh,poorAlice!"shemoaned,clingingtoherdaughter'shand。"Oh,poor,POORAlicetohaveTHIScomeonthenightofyourdinner——justwheneverythingseemedtobegoingsowell——atlast——oh,poor,poor,POOR——"
"Hush!"Alicesaid,sharply。"Don'tsay'poorAlice!'I'mallright。"
"YouMUSTbe!"hermothercried,clutchingher。"You'vejustGOT
tobe!ONEofushasgottobeallright——surelyGodwouldn'tmindjustONEofusbeingallright——thatwouldn'thurtHim——"
"Hush,hush,mother!Hush!"
ButMrs。Adamsonlyclutchedherthemoretightly。"HeseemedSUCHaniceyoungman,dearie!Hemaynotseethisinthepaper——Mr。Lohrsaiditwasjustalittlebitofanitem——heMAY
notseeit,dearie——"
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