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第12章

  "Mama!"
  Mrs。Adamslookedup。"It'sallright,"shesaid,inaloudwhisper。"Gertrudefelldownthecellarstairs。Somebodyleftabucketthere,and——"ShewasinterruptedbyagaspfromAlice,andhastenedtoreassureher。"Don'tworry,dearie。Shemaylimpalittle,but——"
  Adamsleanedoverthebanisters。"Didshebreakanything?"heasked。
  "Hush!"hiswifewhispered。"No。Sheseemsupsetandangryaboutit,morethananythingelse;butshe'srubbingherself,andshe'llbeallrightintimetobringinthelittlesandwiches。
  Alice!Thoseflowers!"
  "Iknow,mama。But——"
  "Hurry!"Mrs。Adamswarnedher。"Bothofyouhurry!IMUSTlethimin!"
  Sheturnedtothedoor,smilingcordially,evenbeforesheopenedit。"Docomerightin,Mr。Russell,"shesaid,loudly,liftinghervoiceforadditionalwarningtothoseabove。"I'mSOgladtoreceiveyouinformally,thisway,inourownlittlehome。
  There'sahat-rackhereunderthestairway,"shecontinued,asRussell,murmuringsomeresponse,cameintothehall。"I'mafraidyou'llthinkit'salmostTOOinformal,mycomingtothedoor,butunfortunatelyourhousemaid'sjusthadalittleaccident——oh,nothingtomention!Ijustthoughtwebetternotkeepyouwaitinganylonger。Willyoustepintoourliving-room,please?"
  Sheledthewaybetweenthetwosmallcolumns,andseatedherselfinoneoftheplushrocking-chairs,selectingitbecauseAlicehadoncepointedoutthatthechairs,themselves,werelessnoticeablewhentheyhadpeoplesittinginthem。"Dositdown,Mr。Russell;it'ssoverywarmit'sreallyquiteatrialjusttostandup!"
  "Thankyou,"hesaid,ashetookaseat。"Yes。Itisquitewarm。"Andthisseemedtobetheextentofhisresponsivenessforthemoment。Hewasgrave,ratherpale;andMrs。Adams'simpressionofhim,assheformeditthen,wasof"adistinguished-lookingyoungman,reallyelegantinthebestsenseoftheword,buttimidandformalwhenhefirstmeetsyou。"Shebeameduponhim,andusedwitheverythingshesaidacontinuousaccompanimentoflaughter,meaninglessexceptthatitwasmeanttoconveycordiality。"OfcourseweDOhaveagreatdealofwarmweather,"sheinformedhim。"I'mgladit'ssomuchcoolerinthehousethanitisoutdoors。"
  "Yes,"hesaid。"Itispleasanterindoors。"And,stoppingwiththissingleuntruth,hepermittedhimselfthebriefestglanceabouttheroom;thenhiseyesreturnedtohissmilinghostess。
  "Mostpeoplemakeagreatfussabouthotweather,"shesaid。
  "TheonlypersonIknowwhodoesn'tmindtheheatthewayotherpeopledoisAlice。Shealwaysseemsascoolasifwehadabreezeblowing,nomatterhowhotitis。Butthenshe'ssoamiableshenevermindsanything。It'sjusthercharacter。
  She'salwaysbeenthatwaysinceshewasalittlechild;alwaysthesametoeverybody,highandlow。Ithinkcharacter'sthemostimportantthingintheworld,afterall,don'tyou,Mr。
  Russell?"
  "Yes,"hesaid,solemnly;andtouchedhisbedewedwhiteforeheadwithahandkerchief。
  "Indeeditis,"sheagreedwithherself,neverfailingtocontinuehermurmuroflaughter。"That'swhatI'vealwaystoldAlice;butsheneverseesanythinggoodinherself,andshejustlaughsatmewhenIpraiseher。SheseesgoodineverybodyELSE
  intheworld,nomatterhowunworthytheyare,orhowtheybehavetowardHER;butshealwaysunderestimatesherself。Fromthetimeshewasalittlechildshewasalwaysthatway。Whensomeotherlittlegirlwouldbehaveselfishlyormeanlytowardher,doyouthinkshe'dcomeandtellme?Neverawordtoanybody!Thelittlethingwastooproud!Shewasthesamewayaboutschool。
  Theteachershadtotellmewhenshetookaprize;she'dbringithomeandkeepitinherroomwithoutawordaboutittoherfatherandmother。Now,Walterwasjusttheotherway。Walterwould——"ButhereMrs。Adamscheckedherself,thoughsheincreasedthevolumeofherlaughter。"Howsillyofme!"sheexclaimed。"IexpectyouknowhowmothersARE,though,Mr。
  Russell。Giveusachanceandwe'lltalkaboutourchildrenforever!AlicewouldfeelterriblyifsheknewhowI'vebeengoingonabouthertoyou。"
  InthisMrs。Adamswasright,thoughshedidnotherselfsuspectit,anduponanalmostinaudiblewordortwofromhimshewentonwithhertopic。"OfcoursemyexcuseisthatfewmothershaveadaughterlikeAlice。Isupposeweallthinkthesamewayaboutourchildren,butSOMEofusmustberightwhenwefeelwe'vegotthebest。Don'tyouthinkso?"
  "Yes。Yes,indeed。"
  "I'msure_I_am!"shelaughed。"I'lllettheothersspeakforthemselves。"Shepausedreflectively。"No;Ithinkamotherknowswhenshe'sgotatreasureinherfamily。IfsheHASN'Tgotone,she'llpretendshehas,maybe;butifshehas,sheknowsit。
  Icertainlyknow_I_have。She'salwaysbeenwhatpeoplecall'thejoyofthehousehold'——alwayscheerful,nomatterwhatwentwrong,andalwaysreadytosmooththingsoverwithsomebright,wittysaying。YoumustbesurenottoTELLwe'vehadthislittlechatabouther——she'djustbefuriouswithme——butsheISsuchadearchild!Youwon'ttellher,willyou?"
  "No,"hesaid,andagainappliedthehandkerchieftohisforeheadforaninstant。"No,I'll——"Hepaused,andfinishedlamely:
  "I'll——nottellher。"
  Thusreassured,Mrs。Adamssetbeforehimsomedetailsofherdaughter'spopularityatsixteen,dwellinguponAlice'simpartialityamongheryoungsuitors:"ShenevercouldBEARtohurttheirfeelings,andalwaystreatedallofthemjustalike。
  AbouthalfadozenofthemwerejustBOUNDtomarryher!
  Naturally,herfatherandIconsideredanysuchidearidiculous;
  shewastooyoung,ofcourse。"
  Thusthemotherwentonwithherbiographicalsketches,whilethepaleyoungmansatfacingherunderthehardoverheadlightofawhiteglobe,settotheceiling;andlistenedwithoutinterrupting。ShewasgladtohavethechancetotellhimafewthingsaboutAlicehemightnothaveguessedforhimself,and,indeed,shehadplannedtofindsuchanopportunity,ifshecould;butthiswasgettingtobealtogethertoomuchofone,shefelt。Astimepassed,shewaslikeanactorwhomustimprovisetokeeptheaudiencefromperceivingthathisfellow-playershavemissedtheircues;butheranxietywasnotbetrayedtothestilllistener;shehadavaliantsoul。
  Alice,meanwhile,hadarrangedherlittlerosesonthetableinasmanyways,probably,astherewereblossoms;andshewasstillatitwhenherfatherarrivedinthedining-roombywayofthebackstairsandthekitchen。
  "It'spulledoutagain,"hesaid。"ButIguessthere'snohelpforitnow;it'stoolate,andanywayitletssomeairintomewhenitbulges。Icansitso'sitwon'tbenoticedmuch,I
  expect。Isn'tittimeyouquitbotheringaboutthelooksofthetable?Yourmother'sbeentalkingtohimabouthalfanhournow,andIhadtheideahecameonyouraccount,nothers。Hadn'tyoubettergoand——"
  "Justaminute。"Alicesaid,piteously。"DoYOUthinkitlooksallright?"
  "Theflowers?Fine!Hadn'tyoubetterleave'emthewaytheyare,though?"
  "Justaminute,"shebeggedagain。"JustONEminute,papa!"AndsheexchangedaroseinfrontofRussell'splateforonethatseemedtoheralittlelarger。
  "Youbettercomeon,"Adamssaid,movingtothedoor。
  "JustONEmoresecond,papa。"Sheshookherhead,lamenting。
  "Oh,Iwishwe'drentedsomesilver!"
  "Why?"
  "Becausesomuchoftheplatinghasrubbedoffalotofit。JUST
  asecond,papa。"Andasshespokeshehastilywentroundthetable,gatheringtheknivesandforksandspoonsthatshethoughthadtheirplatingbestpreserved,andexchangingthemformoredamagedpiecesatRussell'splace。"There!"shesighed,finally。
  "NowI'llcome。"Butatthedoorshepausedtolookbackdubiously,overhershoulder。
  "What'sthematternow?"
  "Theroses。IbelieveafterallIshouldn'thavetriedthatvineeffect;Ioughttohavekepttheminwater,inthevase。It'ssohot,theyalreadybegintolookalittlewilted,outonthedrytableclothlikethat。IbelieveI'll——"
  "Why,lookhere,Alice!"heremonstrated,assheseemeddisposedtoturnback。"Everything'llburnuponthestoveifyoukeepon——"
  "Oh,well,"shesaid,"thevasewasterriblyugly;Ican'tdoanybetter。We'llgoin。"Butwithherhandonthedoor-knobshepaused。"No,papa。Wemustn'tgoinbythisdoor。Itmightlookasif——"
  "Asifwhat?"
  "Nevermind,"shesaid。"Let'sgotheotherway。"
  "Idon'tseewhatdifferenceitmakes,"hegrumbled,butneverthelessfollowedherthroughthekitchen,andupthebackstairsthenthroughtheupperhallway。Atthetopofthefrontstairsshepausedforamoment,drawingadeepbreath;andthen,beforeherfather'spuzzledeyes,atransformationcameuponher。
  Hershoulders,likehereyelids,hadbeendrooping,butnowshethrewherheadback:theshouldersstraightened,andthelashesliftedoversparklingeyes;vivacitycametoherwholebodyinaflash;andshetrippeddownthesteps,withherprettyhandsrisingintimetotheliltinglittletuneshehadbeguntohum。
  Atthefootofthestairs,oneofthoseprettyhandsextendeditselfatfullarm'slengthtowardRussell,andcontinuedtobeextendeduntilitreachedhisownhandashecametomeether。
  "Howterribleofme!"sheexclaimed。"Tobesolatecomingdown!
  Andpapa,too——Ithinkyouknoweachother。"
  Herfatherwasadvancingtowardtheyoungman,expectingtoshakehandswithhim,butAlicestoodbetweenthem,andRussell,alittleflushed,bowedtohimgravelyoverhershoulder,withoutlookingathim;whereuponAdams,slightlydisconcerted,puthishandsinhispocketsandturnedtohiswife。
  "Iguessdinner'smore'nready,"hesaid。"Webettergositdown。"
  Butsheshookherheadathimfiercely,"Wait!"shewhispered。
  "Whatfor?ForWalter?"
  "No;hecan'tbecoming,"shereturned,hurriedly,andagainwarnedhimbyashakeofherhead。"Bequiet!"
  "Oh,well——"hemuttered。
  "Sitdown!"
  Hewasthoroughlymystified,butobeyedhergestureandwenttotherocking-chairintheoppositecorner,wherehesatdown,and,withanexpressionofmeekinquiry,awaitedevents。
  Meanwhile,Aliceprattledon:"It'sreallynotafaultofmine,beingtardy。TheshamefultruthisIwastryingtohurrypapa。
  He'sincorrigible:hestayssolateathisterribleoldfactory——terriblenewfactory,Ishouldsay。Ihopeyoudon'tHATEusformakingyoudinewithusinsuchfearfulweather!I'mnearlydyingoftheheat,myself,soyouhaveafellow-sufferer,ifthatpleasesyou。Whyisitwealwaysbearthingsbetterifwethinkotherpeoplehavetostandthem,too?"Andsheadded,withanexcitedlaugh:"SILLYofus,don'tyouthink?"
  Gertrudehadjustmadeherentrancefromthedining-room,bearingatray。Shecameslowly,withanairofresentment;andherskirtstillneededadjusting,whileherlowerjawmovedatintervals,thoughnotnowuponanysubstance,butreminiscently,ofhabit。ShehaltedbeforeAdams,facinghim。
  Helookedplaintive。"Whatyouwanto'me?"heasked。
  Forresponse,sheextendedthetraytowardhimwithagestureofindifference;buthestillappearedtobepuzzled。"Whatintheworld——?"hebegan,thencaughthiswife'seye,andhadpresenceofmindenoughtotakeadampandplasticsandwichfromthetray。"Well,I'llTRYone,"hesaid,butamomentlater,ashefulfilledthispromise,anexpressionofintensedislikecameuponhisfeatures,andhewouldhavereturnedthesandwichtoGertrude。However,asshehadcrossedtheroomtoMrs。Adamshecheckedthegesture,andsathelplessly,withthesandwichinhishand。Hemadeanotherefforttogetridofitasthewaitresspassedhim,onherwaybacktothedining-room,butsheappearednottoobservehim,andhecontinuedtobetroubledbyit。
  Alicewasaloyaldaughter。"Thesearedelicious,mama,"shesaid;andturningtoRussell,"Youmissedit;youshouldhavetakenone。Toobadwecouldn'thaveofferedyouwhatoughttogowithit,ofcourse,but——"
  ShewasinterruptedbythesecondentranceofGertrude,whoannounced,"Dinnerserve',"andretiredfromview。
  "Well,well!"Adamssaid,risingfromhischair,withrelief。
  "That'sgood!Let'sgoseeifwecaneatit。"Andasthelittlegroupmovedtowardtheopendoorofthedining-roomhedisposedofhissandwichbydroppingitintheemptyfireplace。
  Alice,glancingbackoverhershoulder,wastheonlyonewhosawhim,andsheshudderedinspiteofherself。Then,seeingthathelookedatherentreatingly,asifhewantedtoexplainthathewasdoingthebesthecould,shesmileduponhimsunnily,andbegantochattertoRussellagain。
  CHAPTERXXII
  Alicekepthersprightlychattergoingwhentheysatdown,thoughthetemperatureoftheroomandthesightofhotsoupmighthavediscouragedalessdeterminedgayety。Moreover,thereweredetailsasunpropitiousastheheat:theexpiringrosesexpressednotbeautybutpathos,andwhatfaintodourtheyexhaledwasnorivaltothelustyemanationsoftheBrusselssprouts;attheheadofthetable,Adams,sittinglowinhischair,appearedtobeunabletoflattentheuprisingwaveofhisstarchedbosom;andGertrude'smannerandexpressionwereofarecognizablehostilityduringthelongperiodofvainwaitingforthecupsofsouptobeemptied。OnlyMrs。Adamsmadeanyprogressinthisdirection;
  theothersmerelyfeinting,nowandthenliftingtheirspoonsasiftheyintendedtodosomethingwiththem。
  Alice'stalkwaslittlemorethancheerfulsound,but,tofilladesolateinterval,serveditspurpose;andhermothersupportedherwithever-faithfulcooingsofapplausivelaughter。"Whatafunnythingweatheris!"thegirlranon。"Yesterdayitwascool——angelshadchargeofit——andto-daytheyhadanengagementsomewhereelse,sothedevilsawhischanceandstartedtomovetheequatortotheNorthPole;butbythetimehegothalf-way,hethoughtofsomethingelsehewantedtodo,andwentoff;andlefttheequatorhere,rightontopofUS!Iwishhe'dcomebackandgetit!"
  "Why,Alicedear!"hermothercried,fondly。"Whatanimagination!Notaverypiousone,I'mafraidMr。Russellmightthink,though!"HereshegaveGertrudeahiddensignaltoremovethesoup;but,astherewasnoresponse,shehadtomakethesignalmoreconspicuous。Gertrudewasleaningagainstthewall,herchinmovinglikeaslowpendulum,herstreakedeyesfixedmutinouslyuponRussell。Mrs。Adamsnoddedseveraltimes,increasingtheemphasisofhergesture,whileAlicetalkedbriskly;butthebroodingwaitresscontinuedtobrood。Afaintsnapofthefingersfailedtodisturbher;norwasacoverthissingwhisperofavail,andMrs。Adamswasbeginningtoshowsignsofstrainwhenherdaughterrelievedher。
  "Imagineourtryingtoeatanythingsohotassouponanightlikethis!"Alicelaughed。"WhatCOULDhavebeeninthecook'smindnottogiveussomethingicedandjelliedinstead?Ofcourseit'sbecauseshe'sequatorial,herself,originally,andonlyfeelsathomewhenMr。Satanmovesitnorth。"ShelookedroundatGertrude,whostoodbehindher。"Dotakethisdreadfulsoupaway!"
  Thusdirectlyaddressed,Gertrudeyieldedherattention,thoughunwillingly,andasifshedecidedonlybyahair'sweightnottorevolt,instead。However,shefinallysetherselfinslowmotion;butoverlookedthesupposedheadofthetable,seemingtobeunawareoftheswelteringlittlemanwhosatthere。Asshedisappearedtowardthekitchenwithbutthreeofthecupsuponhertrayheturnedtolookplaintivelyafterher,andventuredanattempttorecallher。
  "Here!"hesaid,inalowvoice。"Here,you!"
  "Whatisit,Virgil?"hiswifeasked。
  "What'shername?"
  Mrs。Adamsgavehimaglanceofsuddenpanic,and,seeingthattheguestoftheeveningwasnotlookingather,butdownatthewhiteclothbeforehim,shefrownedhard,andshookherhead。
  UnfortunatelyAlicewasnotobservinghermother,andasked,innocently:"What'swhosename,papa?"
  "Why,thisyoungdarkywoman,"heexplained。"Sheleftmine。"
  "Nevermind,"Alicelaughed。"There'shopeforyou,papa。Shehasn'tgoneforever!"
  "Idon'tknowaboutthat,"hesaid,notcontentwiththisimpulsiveassurance。"SheLOOKEDlikesheis。"Andhisremark,consideredasaprediction,hadbeguntoseemwarrantedbeforeGertrude'sreturnwithchinapreliminarytothenextstageofthebanquet。
  Aliceprovedherselfequaltothelonggap,andrattledonthroughitwithaspiritrichlyjustifyinghermother'spraiseofheras"alwaysreadytosmooththingsover";forherewasmorethanlongdelaytobesmoothedover。ShesmoothedoverherfatherandmotherforRussell;andshesmoothedoverhimforthem,thoughhedidnotknowit,andremainedunawareofwhatheowedher。Withallthis,throughoutherprattlings,thegirl'sbrighteyeskeptseekinghiswithaneagergayety,whichbutlittleveiledbothinterrogationandentreaty——asifsheasked:
  "Isittoomuchforyou?Can'tyoubearit?Won'tyouPLEASE
  bearit?Iwouldforyou。Won'tyougivemeasignthatit'sallright?"
  Helookedatherbutfleetingly,andseemedtosufferfromtheheat,inspiteofeverymanlyeffortnottowipehisbrowtoooften。Hiscolour,afterrisingwhenhegreetedAliceandherfather,haddeparted,leavinghimagainmoistlypallid;aconditionarisingfromdiscomfort,nodoubt,but,consideredasadecoration,almostpoeticallybecomingtohim。Notlessbecomingwasthefaint,kindlysmile,whichshowedhiswishtoexpressamusementandapproval;andyetitwasasmileratherstrainedandplaintive,asifhe,likeAdams,couldonlydothebesthecould。
  HepleasedAdams,whothoughthimafineyoungman,anddecidedlythequietestthatAlicehadevershowntoherfamily。Inherfather'sopinionthiswasnosmallmerit;anditwastoRussell'scredit,too,thatheshowedembarrassmentuponthisfirstintimatepresentation;herewasanapplicantwithbothreserveandmodesty。"Sofar,heseemstobefirstrateamightyfineyoungman,"Adamsthought;and,promptedbynowishtopartfromAlicebutbyreminiscencesofapparentcandidateslesspleasing,headded,"Atlast!"
  Alice'slivelinessneverflagged。Hersmoothingoverofthingswasanalmostcontinuousperformance,andhadtobe。Yet,whileshechatteredthroughthehotandheavycourses,thequestionssheaskedherselfwereascontinuousastheperformance,andaspoignantaswhathereyesseemedtobeaskingRussell。Whyhadshenotprevailedoverhermother'sfearofbeing"skimpy?"Hadshebeen,indeed,ashermothersaidshelooked,"inatrance?"
  Butaboveall:WhatwasthematterwithHIM?Whathadhappened?
  Forshetoldherselfwithpainfulhumourthatsomethingevenworsethanthisdinnermustbe"thematterwithhim。"
  Thesmallroom,suffocatedwiththeodourofboiledsprouts,grewhotterandhotterasmoreandmorefoodappeared,slowlybornein,betweendeathlylongwaits,bytheresentful,loud-breathingGertrude。AndwhileAlicestillsoughtRussell'sglance,andreadthelookuponhisfaceadozendifferentways,fearingallofthem;andwhilethestragglinglittleflowersdieduponthestainedcloth,shefeltherheartgrowasheavyasthefood,andwonderedthatitdidnotdieliketheroses。
  Withthearrivalofcoffee,thehostbestirredhimselftomakeknownahospitableregret,"ByGeorge!"hesaid。"Imeanttobuysomecigars。"Headdressedhimselfapologeticallytotheguest。
  "Idon'tknowwhatIwasthinkingabout,toforgettobringsomehomewithme。Idon'tuse'emmyself——unlesssomebodyhandsmeone,youmightsay。I'vealwaysbeenapipe-smoker,pureandsimple,butIoughttorememberedforkindofanoccasionlikethis。"
  "Notatall,"Russellsaid。"I'mnotsmokingatalllately;butwhenIdo,I'mlikeyou,andsmokeapipe。"
  Alicestarted,rememberingwhatshehadtoldhimwhenheovertookheronherwayfromthetobacconist's;but,afteramoment,lookingathim,shedecidedthathemusthaveforgottenit。Ifhehadremembered,shethought,hecouldnothavehelpedglancingather。Onthecontrary,heseemedmoreatease,justthen,thanhehadsincetheysatdown,forhewasfavouringherfatherwithathoughtfulattentionasAdamsrespondedtotheintroductionofaman'stopicintotheconversationatlast。"Well,Mr。
  Russell,Iguessyou'reright,atthat。Idon'tsaybutwhatcigarsmaybeallrightforamanthatcanafford'em,ifhelikes'embetterthanapipe,butyoutakeagoodoldpipenow——"
  Hecontinued,andwasgettingwellintotheeulogiumcustomarilyprovokedbythistheme,whentherecameaninterruption:thedoor-bellrang,andhepausedinquiringly,rathersurprised。
  Mrs。AdamsspoketoGertrudeinanundertone:
  "Justsay,'Notathome。'"
  "What?"
  "Ifit'scallers,justsaywe'renotathome。"
  Gertrudespokeoutfreely:"Youmeanyouastin'meto'tendyou'
  frontdo'feryou?"
  Sheseemedbothincredulousandaffronted,butMrs。Adamspersisted,thoughsomewhatapprehensively。"Yes。
  Hurry——uh——please。Justsaywe'renotathomeifyouplease。"
  AgainGertrudeobviouslyhesitatedbetweencomplianceandrevolt,andagainthemeekercoursefortunatelyprevailedwithher。ShegaveMrs。Adamsastare,grimlyderisive,thendeparted。Whenshecamebackshesaid:
  "Hesayhewait。"
  "ButItoldyoutotellanybodywewerenotathome,"MrsAdamsreturned。"Whoisit?"
  "SayhenameMr。Law。"
  "Wedon'tknowanyMr。Law。"
  "Yes'm;heknowyou。SayheanxioustospeakMr。Adams。Sayhewait。"
  "TellhimMr。Adamsisengaged。"
  "Holdonaminute,"Adamsintervened。"Law?No。Idon'tknowanyMr。Law。Yousureyougotthenameright?"
  "SayhenameLaw,"Gertrudereplied,lookingattheceilingtoexpressherfatigue。"Law。'Sallhetellme;'sallIknow。"
  Adamsfrowned。"Law,"hesaid。"Wasn'titmaybe'Lohr?'"
  "Law,"Gertruderepeated。'Sallhetellme;'sallIknow。"
  "What'shelooklike?"
  "Heain'tmuch,"shesaid。"'Boutyou'age;gotbrustlywhitemoustache,niceeye-glasses。"
  "It'sCharleyLohr!"Adamsexclaimed。"I'llgoseewhathewants。"
  "But,Virgil,"hiswiferemonstrated,"dofinishyourcoffee;hemightstayallevening。Maybehe'scometocall。"
  Adamslaughed。"Heisn'tmuchofacaller,Iexpect。Don'tworry:I'lltakehimuptomyroom。"AndturningtowardRussell,"Ah——ifyou'lljustexcuseme,"hesaid;andwentouttohisvisitor。
  Whenhehadgone,Mrs。Adamsfinishedhercoffee,and,havingglancedintelligentlyfromherguesttoherdaughter,sherose。
  "IthinkperhapsIoughttogoandshakehandswithMr。Lohr,myself,"shesaid,addinginexplanationtoRussell,asshereachedthedoor,"He'sanoldfriendofmyhusband'sandit'saverylongtimesincehe'sbeenhere。"
  Alicenoddedandsmiledtoherbrightly,butupontheclosingofthedoor,thesmilevanished;allherlivelinessdisappeared;andwiththischangeofexpressionhercomplexionitselfappearedtochange,sothatherrougebecameobvious,forshewaspalebeneathit。However,Russelldidnotseethealteration,forhedidnotlookather;anditwasbutamomentarylapsethevacationofatiredgirl,whofortensecondsletsherselflookasshefeels。Thensheshothervivacitybackintoplaceasbysomepowerfulspring。
  "Pennyforyourthoughts!"shecried,andtossedoneofthewiltedrosesathim,acrossthetable。"I'llbidmorethanapenny;I'llbidtuppence——no,apoorlittledeadrosearoseforyourthoughts,Mr。ArthurRussell!Whatarethey?"
  Heshookhishead。"I'mafraidIhaven'tany。"
  "No,ofcoursenot,"shesaid。"Whocouldhavethoughtsinweatherlikethis?WillyouEVERforgiveus?"
  "Whatfor?"
  "Makingyoueatsuchaheavydinner——ImeanLOOKatsuchaheavydinner,becauseyoucertainlydidn'tdomorethanlookatit——onsuchanight!Butthecrimedrawstoaclose,andyoucanbegintocheerup!"Shelaughedgaily,and,rising,movedtothedoor。
  "Let'sgointheotherroom;yourfearfuldutyisalmostdone,andyoucanrunhomeassoonasyouwantto。That'swhatyou'redyingtodo。"
  "Notatall,"hesaidinavoicesofeeblethatshelaughedaloud。
  "Goodgracious!"shecried。"Ihadn'trealizeditwasTHATbad!"
  Forthis,thoughhecontrivedtolaugh,heseemedtohavenoverbalretortwhatever;butfollowedherintothe"living-room,"
  whereshestoppedandturned,facinghim。
  "Hasitreallybeensofrightful?"sheasked。
  "Why,ofcoursenot。Notatall。"
  "Ofcourseyes,though,youmean!"
  "Notatall。It'sbeenmostkindofyourmotherandfatherandyou。"
  "Doyouknow,"shesaid,"you'veneveroncelookedatmeformorethanasecondatatimethewholeevening?AnditseemedtomeI
  lookedratherniceto-night,too!"
  "Youalwaysdo,"hemurmured。
  "Idon'tseehowyouknow,"shereturned;andthensteppingclosertohim,spokewithgentlesolicitude:"Tellme:you'rereallyfeelingwretchedly,aren'tyou?Iknowyou'vegotafearfulheadache,orsomething。Tellme!"
  "Notatall。"
  "Youareill——I'msureofit。"
  "Notatall。"
  "Onyourword?"
  "I'mreallyquiteallright。"
  "Butifyouare——"shebegan;andthen,lookingathimwithadesperatesweetness,asifthiswereherlastresourcetorousehim,"What'sthematter,littleboy?"shesaidwithlispingtenderness。"Tellauntie!"
  Itwasamistake,forheseemedtoflinch,andtoleanbackward,however,slightly。Sheturnedawayinstantly,withaflippantliftanddropofbothhands。"Oh,mydear!"shelaughed。"I
  won'teatyou!"
  Andasthediscomfitedyoungmanwatchedher,seemingabletolifthiseyes,nowthatherbackwasturned,shewenttothefrontdoorandpushedopenthescreen。"Let'sgooutontheporch,"shesaid。"Wherewebelong!"
  Then,whenhehadfollowedherout,andtheywereseated,"Isn'tthisbetter?"sheasked。"Don'tyoufeelmorelikeyourselfouthere?"
  Hebeganamurmur:"Notat——"
  Butshecuthimoffsharply:"Pleasedon'tsay'Notatall'
  again!"
  "I'msorry。"
  "Youdoseemsorryaboutsomething,"shesaid。"Whatisit?
  Isn'tittimeyouweretellingmewhat'sthematter?"
  "Nothing。Indeednothing'sthematter。OfcourseoneISratheraffectedbysuchweatherasthis。Itmaymakeonealittlequieterthanusual,ofcourse。"
  Shesighed,andletthetiredmusclesofherfacerest。Underthehardlights,indoors,theyhadservedheruntiltheyached,anditwasaluxurytofeelthatinthedarknessnogrimacingsneedcalluponthem。
  "Ofcourse,ifyouwon'ttellme——"shesaid。
  "Icanonlyassureyouthere'snothingtotell。"
  "Iknowwhatanuglylittlehouseitis,"shesaid。"Maybeitwasthefurniture——ormama'svasesthatupsetyou。Orwasitmamaherself——orpapa?"
  "Nothing'upset'me。"
  Atthatsheutteredamonosyllableofdoubtinglaughter。"I
  wonderwhyyousaythat。"
  "Becauseit'sso。"
  "No。It'sbecauseyou'retookind,ortooconscientious,ortooembarrassed——anyhowtoosomething——totellme。"Sheleanedforward,elbowsonkneesandchininhands,inthereflectiveattitudesheknewhowtomakegraceful。"Ihaveafeelingthatyou'renotgoingtotellme,"shesaid,slowly。"Yes——eventhatyou'renevergoingtotellme。Iwonder——Iwonder——"
  "Yes?Whatdoyouwonder?"
  "Iwasjustthinking——Iwonderiftheyhaven'tdoneit,afterall。"
  "Idon'tunderstand。"
  "Iwonder,"shewenton,stillslowly,andinavoiceofreflection,"IwonderwhoHASbeentalkingaboutmetoyou,afterall?Isn'tthatit?"
  "Notat——"hebegan,butcheckedhimselfandsubstitutedanotherformofdenial。"Nothingis'it。'"
  "Areyousure?"
  "Why,yes。"
  "Howcurious!"shesaid。
  "Why?"
  "Becausealleveningyou'vebeensoutterlydifferent。"
  "Butinthisweather——"
  "No。Thatwouldn'tmakeyouafraidtolookatmeallevening!"
  "ButIdidlookatyou。Often。"
  "No。NotreallyaLOOK。"
  "ButI'mlookingatyounow。"
  "Yes——inthedark!"shesaid。"No——theweathermightmakeyouevenquieterthanusual,butitwouldn'tstrikeyousonearlydumb。No——anditwouldn'tmakeyouseemtobeundersuchastrain——asifyouthoughtonlyofescape!"
  "ButIhaven't——"
  "Youshouldn't,"sheinterrupted,gently。"There'snothingyouhavetoescapefrom,youknow。Youaren'tcommittedto——tothisfriendship。"
  "I'msorryyouthink——"hebegan,butdidnotcompletethefragment。
  Shetookitup。"You'resorryIthinkyou'resodifferent,youmeantosay,don'tyou?Nevermind:that'swhatyoudidmeantosay,butyoucouldn'tfinishitbecauseyou'renotgoodatdeceiving。"
  "Oh,no,"heprotested,feebly。"I'mnotdeceiving。"I'm——"
  "Nevermind,"shesaidagain。"You'resorryIthinkyou'resodifferent——andallinoneday——sincelastnight。Yes,yourvoiceSOUNDSsorry,too。Itsoundssorrierthanitwouldjustbecauseofmythinkingsomethingyoucouldchangemymindaboutinaminutesoitmeansyou'resorryyouAREdifferent。"
  "No——I——"
  Butdisregardingthefaintdenial,"Nevermind,"shesaid。"Doyourememberonenightwhenyoutoldmethatnothinganybodyelsecoulddowouldeverkeepyoufromcominghere?Thatifyou——ifyouleftmeitwouldbebecauseIdroveyouawaymyself?"
  "Yes,"hesaid,huskily。"Itwastrue。"
  "Areyousure?"
  "IndeedIam,"heansweredinalowvoice,butwithconviction。
  "Then——"Shepaused。"Well——butIhaven'tdrivenyouaway。"
  "No。"
  "Andyetyou'vegone,"shesaid,quietly。
  "DoIseemsostupidasallthat?"
  "YouknowwhatImean。"Sheleanedbackinherchairagain,andherhands,inactiveforonce,laymotionlessinherlap。Whenshespokeitwasinaruefulwhisper:
  "IwonderifIHAVEdrivenyouaway?"
  "You'vedonenothing——nothingatall,"hesaid。
  "Iwonder——"shesaidoncemore,butshestopped。Inhermindshewasgoingbackovertheirtimetogethersincethefirstmeeting——fragmentsoftalk,momentsofsilence,littlethingsofnoimportance,littlethingsthatmightbeimportant;moonshine,sunshine,starlight;andherthoughtszigzaggedamongthejumblingmemories;but,asifshemadeforherselfapictureofallthesefragments,throwingthemuponthecanvashaphazard,shesawthemalljusttouchedwiththeonetaintingqualitythatgavethemcoherence,thefaint,falsehazeshehadputoverthisfriendshipbyherownpretendings。And,ifthisterribledinner,oranything,oreverything,hadshownthatsaffrontintinitstruecolourtothemanatherside,lastnightalmostalover,thenshehadindeedofherselfdrivenhimaway,andmightwellfeelthatshewaslost。
  "Doyouknow?"shesaid,suddenly,inaclear,loudvoice。"I
  havethestrangestfeeling。IfeelasifIweregoingtobewithyouonlyaboutfiveminutesmoreinalltherestofmylife!"
  "Why,no,"hesaid。"OfcourseI'mcomingtoseeyou——often。
  I——"
  "No,"sheinterrupted。"I'veneverhadafeelinglikethisbefore。It's——it'sjustSO;that'sall!You'reGOING——why,you'renevercominghereagain!"Shestoodup,abruptly,beginningtotrembleallover。"Why,it'sFINISHED,isn'tit?"
  shesaid,andhertremblingwasmanifestnowinhervoice。"Why,it'sallOVER,isn'tit?Why,yes!"
  Hehadrisenasshedid。"I'mafraidyou'reawfullytiredandnervous,"hesaid。"Ireallyoughttobegoing。"
  "Yes,ofCOURSEyouought,"shecried,despairingly。"There'snothingelseforyoutodo。Whenanything'sspoiled,peopleCAN'Tdoanythingbutrunawayfromit。Sogood-bye!"
  "Atleast,"hereturned,huskily,"we'llonly——onlysaygood-night。"
  Then,asmovingtogo,hestumbledupontheverandasteps,"YourHAT!"shecried。"I'dliketokeepitforasouvenir,butI'mafraidyouneedit!"
  Sheranintothehallandbroughthisstrawhatfromthechairwherehehadleftit。"Youpoorthing!"shesaid,withquaveringlaughter。"Don'tyouknowyoucan'tgowithoutyourhat?"
  Then,astheyfacedeachotherfortheshortmomentwhichbothofthemknewwouldbethelastofalltheirverandamoments,Alice'sbrokenlaughtergrewlouder。"Whatathingtosay!"shecried。
  "Whataromanticparting——talkingaboutHATS!"
  Herlaughtercontinuedasheturnedaway,butothersoundscamefromwithinthehouse,clearlyaudiblewiththeopeningofadoorupstairs——alongandwailingcryoflamentationinthevoiceofMrs。Adams。Russellpausedatthesteps,uncertain,butAlicewavedtohimtogoon。
  "Oh,don'tbother,"shesaid。"Wehavelotsofthatinthisfunnylittleoldhouse!Good-bye!"
  Andashewentdownthesteps,sheranbackintothehouseandclosedthedoorheavilybehindher。
  CHAPTERXXIII
  Hermother'swailingcouldstillbeheardfromoverhead,thoughmorefaintly;andoldCharleyLohrwascomingdownthestairsalone。
  HelookedatAlicecompassionately。"Iwasjustcomin'tosuggestmaybeyou'dexcuseyourselffromyourcompany,"hesaid。
  "Yourmotherwasboundnottodisturbyou,andtriedherbesttokeepyoufromhearin'howshe'stakin'on,butIthoughtprobablyyoubetterseetoher。"
  "Yes,I'llcome。What'sthematter?"
  "Well,"hesaid,"_I_onlysteppedovertooffermysympathyandservices,asitwere。_I_thoughtofcourseyoufolksknewallaboutit。Factis,itwasintheeveningpaper——justalittlebitofanitemonthebackpage,ofcourse。"
  "Whatisit?"
  Hecoughed。"Well,itain'tanythingsoterrible,"hesaid。
  "Factis,yourbrotherWalter'sgotinalittletrouble——well,I
  supposeyoumightcallitquiteagooddealoftrouble。Factis,he'squiteconsiderableshortinhisaccountsdownatLambandCompany。"
  Aliceranupthestairsandintoherfather'sroom,whereMrs。
  Adamsthrewherselfintoherdaughter'sarms。"Ishegone?"shesobbed。"Hedidn'thearme,didhe?Itriedsohard——"
  Alicepattedtheheavingshouldersherarmsenclosed。"No,no,"
  shesaid。"Hedidn'thearyou——itwouldn'thavemattered——hedoesn'tmatteranyway。"
  "Oh,POORWalter!"Themothercried。"Oh,thePOORboy!Poor,poorWalter!Poor,poor,poor,POOR——"
  "Hush,dear,hush!"Alicetriedtosootheher,butthelamentcouldnotbeabated,andfromtheothersideoftheroomarepetitioninadifferentspiritwasascontinuous。Adamspacedfuriouslythere,poundinghisfistintohisleftpalmashestrode。"Thedangboy!"hesaid。"Danglittlefool!Dangidiot!Dangfool!Whyn'theTELLme,thedanglittlefool?"
  "HeDID!"Mrs。Adamssobbed。"HeDIDtellyou,andyouwouldn'tGIVEittohim。"
  "HeDID,didhe?"Adamsshoutedather。"Whathebeggedmeforwasmoneytorunawaywith!Heneverdreamedofputtingbackwhathetook。Whatthedangnationyoutalkingabout——accusingme!"
  "HeNEEDEDit,"shesaid。"Heneededittorunawaywith!HowcouldheexpecttoLIVE,afterhegotaway,ifhedidn'thavealittlemoney?Oh,poor,poor,POORWalter!Poor,poor,poor——"
  Shewentbacktothisrepetition;andAdamswentbacktohisown,thenpaused,seeinghisoldfriendstandinginthehallwayoutsidetheopendoor。
  "Ah——I'lljustbegoin',Iguess,Virgil,"Lohrsaid。"Idon'tseeasthere'sanyusemytryin'tosayanymore。I'lldoanythingyouwantmeto,youunderstand。"
  "Waitaminute,"Adamssaid,and,groaning,cameandwentdownthestairswithhim。"Yousayyoudidn'tseetheoldmanatall?"
  "No,Idon'tknowathingaboutwhathe'sgoingtodo,"Lohrsaid,astheyreachedthelowerfloor。"Notathing。Butlookhere,Virgil,Idon'tseeasthiscallsforyouandyourwifetotakeonsohardabout——anyhownotashardasthewayyou'vestarted。"
  "No,"Adamsgulped。"Italwaysseemsthatwaytotheotherpartythat'sonlylookingon!"
  "Oh,well,Iknowthat,ofcourse,"oldCharleyreturned,soothingly。"Butlookhere,Virgil:theymaynotcatchtheboy;
  theydidn'tevenseemtobesurewhattrainhemade,andiftheydogethim,why,theolemanmightdecidenottoprosecuteif——"
  "HIM?"Adamscried,interrupting。"Himnotprosecute?Why,that'swhathe'sbeenwaitingfor,allalong!Hethinksmyboyandmebothcheatedhim!Why,hewasjustlettingWalterwalkintoatrap!Didn'tyousaythey'dbeensuspectinghimforsometimeback?Didn'tyousaythey'dbeenwatchinghimandwerejustaboutfixingtoarresthim?"
  "Yes,Iknow,"saidLohr;"butyoucan'ttell,especiallyifyouraisethemoneyandpayitback。"
  "Everycent!"Adamsvociferated。"Everylastpenny!Icanraiseit——IGOTtoraiseit!I'mgoingtoputaloanonmyfactoryto-morrow。Oh,I'llgetitforhim,youtellhim!Everylastpenny!"
  "Well,olefeller,youjusttryandgetquieteddownsomenow。"
  Charleyheldouthishandinparting。"Youandyourwifejustquietdownsome。YouAIN'Tthehealthiestmanintheworld,youknow,andyoualreadybeenunderquitesomestrainbeforethishappened。Youwanttotakecareofyourselfforthesakeofyourwifeandthatsweetlittlegirlupstairs,youknow。Now,good-night,"hefinished,steppingoutupontheveranda。"Yousendformeifthere'sanythingIcando。"
  "Do?"Adamsechoed。"Thereain'tanythingANYBODYcando!"Andthen,ashisoldfriendwentdownthepathtothesidewalk,hecalledafterhim,"YoutellhimI'llpayhimeverylastcent!
  Everylast,dang,dirtyPENNY!"
  Heslammedthedoorandwentrapidlyupthestairs,talkingloudlytohimself。"Everydang,last,dirtypenny!ThinksEVERYBODYinthisfamilywantstostealfromhim,doeshe?
  Thinkswe'reALLyellow,doeshe?I'llshowhim!"Andhecameintohisownroomvociferating,"Everylast,dang,dirtypenny!"
  Mrs。Adamshadcollapsed,andAlicehadputheruponhisbed,whereshelaytossingconvulsivelyandsobbing,"Oh,POOR
  Walter!"overandover,butafteratimeshevariedthesorrytune。"Oh,poorAlice!"shemoaned,clingingtoherdaughter'shand。"Oh,poor,POORAlicetohaveTHIScomeonthenightofyourdinner——justwheneverythingseemedtobegoingsowell——atlast——oh,poor,poor,POOR——"
  "Hush!"Alicesaid,sharply。"Don'tsay'poorAlice!'I'mallright。"
  "YouMUSTbe!"hermothercried,clutchingher。"You'vejustGOT
  tobe!ONEofushasgottobeallright——surelyGodwouldn'tmindjustONEofusbeingallright——thatwouldn'thurtHim——"
  "Hush,hush,mother!Hush!"
  ButMrs。Adamsonlyclutchedherthemoretightly。"HeseemedSUCHaniceyoungman,dearie!Hemaynotseethisinthepaper——Mr。Lohrsaiditwasjustalittlebitofanitem——heMAY
  notseeit,dearie——"