Nevertheless,AliceforgotaboutWalterforafewminutes。Sheclosedthedoor,wentintothe"living-room"absently,andstaredvaguelyatoneoftheoldbrown-plushrocking-chairsthere。Uponherforeheadwerethelittleshadowsofanapprehensivereverie,andherthoughtsoverlappedoneanotherinafretfuljumble。"Whatwillhethink?Theseoldchairs——they'rehideous。I'llscrubthosesoot-streaksonthecolumns:itwon'tdoanygood,though。Thatlongcrackinthecolumn——nothingcanhelpit。Whatwillhethinkofpapa?Ihopemamawon'ttalktoomuch。WhenhethinksofMildred'shouse,orofHenrietta's,oranyof'em,besidethis——Shesaidshe'dbuyplentyofroses;thatoughttohelpsome。Nothingcouldbedoneaboutthesehorriblechairs:can'ttake'emupintheattic——aroom'sgottohavechairs!Mighthaverentedsome。No;ifheevercomesagainhe'dseetheyweren'there。'Ifheevercomesagain'——oh,itwon'tbeTHATbad!Butitwon'tbewhatheexpects。I'mresponsibleforwhatheexpects:heexpectsjustwhattheairsI'veputonhavemadehimexpect。WhatdidIwanttoposesotohimfor——asifpapawereawealthymanandallthat?WhatWILLhethink?ThephotographoftheColosseum'sarathergoodthing,though。Ithelpssome——asifwe'dboughtitinRomeperhaps。Ihopehe'llthinkso;hebelievesI'vebeenabroad,ofcourse。Theothernighthesaid,'YourememberthefeelingyougetintheSainte-Chapelle'——There'sanotherlieofmine,notsayingIdidn'trememberbecauseI'dneverbeenthere。
Whatmakesmedoit?PapaMUSTwearhiseveningclothes。ButWalter——"
Withthatsherecalledhermother'sadmonition,andwentupstairstoWalter'sdoor。Shetappeduponitwithherfingers。
"Timetogetup,Walter。Therestofushadbreakfastoverhalfanhourago,andit'snearlyeighto'clock。You'llbelate。
HurrydownandI'llhavesomecoffeeandtoastreadyforyou。"
Therecamenosoundfromwithintheroom,sosherappedlouder。
"Wakeup,Walter!"
Shecalledandrappedagain,withoutgettinganyresponse,andthen,findingthatthedooryieldedtoher,openeditandwentin。Walterwasnotthere。
Hehadbeenthere,however;hadsleptuponthebed,thoughnotinsidethecovers;andAlicesupposedhemusthavecomehomesolatethathehadbeentoosleepytotakeoffhisclothes。Nearthefootofthebedwasashallowclosetwherehekepthis"othersuit"andhiseveningclothes;andthedoorstoodopen,showingabarewall。Nothingwhateverwasinthecloset,andAlicewasrathersurprisedatthisforamoment。"That'squeer,"shemurmured;andthenshedecidedthatwhenhewokehefoundtheclotheshehadsleptin"somussy"hehadputonhis"othersuit,"andhadgoneoutbeforebreakfastwiththemussedclothestohavethempressed,takinghiseveningthingswiththem。
Satisfiedwiththisexplanation,andfailingtoobservethatitdidnotaccountfortheabsenceofshoesfromtheclosetfloor,shenoddedabsently,"Yes,thatmustbeit";and,whenhermotherreturned,toldherthatWalterhadprobablybreakfasteddown-town。Theydidnotdelayoverthis;thecolouredwomanhadarrived,andthebasket'sdisclosureswereimportant。
"IstoppedatWorlig'sonthewayback,"saidMrs。Adams,flushedwithhurryandexcitement。"Iboughtacanofcaviarthere。Ithoughtwe'dhavelittlesandwichesbroughtintothe'living-room'beforedinner,thewayyousaidtheydidwhenyouwenttothatdinneratthe——"
"ButIthinkthatwastogowithcocktails,mama,andofcoursewehaven't——"
"No,"Mrs。Adamssaid。"Still,Ithinkitwouldbenice。Wecanmakethemlookverydainty,onatray,andthewaitresscanbringthemin。Ithoughtwe'dhavethesoupalreadyonthetable;andwecanwalkrightoutassoonaswehavethesandwiches,soitwon'tgetcold。Then,afterthesoup,Malenasaysshecanmakesweetbreadpateswithmushrooms:andforthemeatcoursewe'llhavelardedfillet。Malena'sreallyafancycook,youknow,andshesaysshecandoanythinglikethattoperfection。We'llhavepeaswiththefillet,andpotatoballsandBrusselssprouts。Brusselssproutsarefashionablenow,theytoldmeatmarket。Thenwillcomethechickensalad,andafterthattheice-cream——she'sgoingtomakeanangel-foodcaketogowithit——andthencoffeeandcrackersandanewkindofcheeseI
gotatWorlig's,hesaysisveryfine。"
Alicewasalarmed。"Don'tyouthinkperhapsit'stoomuch,mama?"
"It'sbettertohavetoomuchthantoolittle,"hermothersaid,cheerfully。"Wedon'twanthimtothinkwe'rethekindthatskimp。Lordknowswehavetoenough,though,mostofthetime!
Gettheflowersinwater,child。Ibought'ematmarketbecausethey'resomuchcheaperthere,butthey'llkeepfreshandnice。
Youfix'emanywayyouwant。Hurry!It'sgottobeabusyday。"
Shehadboughtthreedozenlittleroses。Alicetookthemandbegantoarrangetheminvases,keepingthestemsseparatedasfaraspossiblesothattheclumpswouldlooklarger。Sheputhalfadozenineachofthreevasesinthe"living-room,"placingonevaseonthetableinthecenteroftheroom,andoneateachendofthemantelpiece。Thenshetooktherestoftherosestothedining-room;butshepostponedthearrangementofthemuntilthetableshouldbeset,justbeforedinner。Shewasthoughtful;
planningtodrythestemsandlaythemonthetableclothlikeavineofrosesrunninginadelicatedesign,ifshefoundthatthedozenandahalfshehadleftwereenoughforthat。Iftheyweren'tshewouldarrangetheminavase。
Shelookedalongtimeatthelittlerosesinthebasinofwater,whereshehadputthem;thenshesighed,andwentawaytoheaviertasks,whilehermotherworkedinthekitchenwithMalena。Alicedustedthe"living-room"andthedining-roomvigorously,thoughallthetimewithalookthatgrewmoreandmorepensive;andhavingdustedeverything,shewipedthefurniture;rubbedithard。Afterthat,shewashedthefloorsandthewoodwork。
Emergingfromthekitchenatnoon,Mrs。Adamsfoundherdaughteronhandsandknees,scrubbingthebasesofthecolumnsbetweenthehallandthe"living-room。"
"Now,dearie,"shesaid,"youmustn'ttireyourselfout,andyou'dbettercomeandeatsomething。Yourfathersaidhe'dgetabitedown-townto-day——hewasgoingdowntothebank——andWaltereatsdown-townallthetimelately,soIthoughtwewouldn'tbothertosetthetableforlunch。Comeonandwe'llhavesomethinginthekitchen。"
"No,"Alicesaid,dully,asshewentonwithhework。"Idon'twantanything。"
Hermothercameclosertoher。"Why,what'sthematter?"sheasked,briskly。"Youseemkindofpale,tome;andyoudon'tlook——youdon'tlookHAPPY。"
"Well——"Alicebegan,uncertainly,butsaidnomore。
"Seehere!"Mrs。Adamsexclaimed。"Thisisalljustforyou!
YououghttobeENJOYINGit。Why,it'sthefirsttimewe've——we'veentertainedinIdon'tknowhowlong!Iguessit'salmostsincewehadthatlittlepartywhenyouwereeighteen。
What'sthematterwithyou?"
"Nothing。Idon'tknow。"
"But,dearie,aren'tyoulookingFORWARDtothisevening?"
Thegirllookedup,showingapallidandsolemnface。"Oh,yes,ofcourse,"shesaid,andtriedtosmile。"Ofcoursewehadtodoit——Idothinkit'llbenice。OfcourseI'mlookingforwardtoit。"
CHAPTERXX
Shewasindeed"lookingforward"tothatevening,butinacloudofapprehension;and,althoughshecouldneverhaveguessedit,thiswasthesimultaneousconditionofanotherperson——noneotherthantheguestforwhosepleasuresomuchcookingandscrubbingseemedtobenecessary。Moreover,Mr。ArthurRussell'spremonitionswerenoproductofmerecoincidence;neitherhadanymagicalsympathyproducedthem。Hisstateofmindwasrathertheresultofrougherundercurrentswhichhadallthetimebeenrunningbeneaththesurfaceofaromanticfriendship。
Nevershrewderthanwhensheanalyzedthegentlemen,Alicedidnotlibelhimwhenshesaidhewasoneofthosequietmenwhoareabitflirtatious,bywhichshemeantthathewasabit"susceptible,"thesamething——andhehadprovedhimselfsusceptibletoAliceuponhisfirstsightofher。"There!"hesaidtohimself。"Who'sthat?"Andinthecrowdofgirlsathiscousin'sdance,allstrangerstohim,shewastheonehewantedtoknow。
Sincethen,hissummereveningswithherhadbeenassecludedasif,forthreehoursafterthefallingofdusk,theytwohaddrawnapartfromtheworldtosomedearboweroftheirown。Thelittleverandawasthatglamorousnook,withafaintgoldenlightfallingthroughtheglassofthecloseddooruponAlice,anddarknesselsewhere,exceptfortheoneroundglobeofthestreetlampatthecorner。Thepeoplewhopassedalongthesidewalk,nowandthen,wereonlyshadowswithvoices,movingvaguelyunderthemapletreesthatloomedinobscurecontoursagainstthestars。So,asthetwosattogether,thebackoftheworldwasthewallandcloseddoorbehindthem;andRussell,whenhewasawayfromAlice,alwaysthoughtofherassittingtherebeforethecloseddoor。Aglamourwasaboutherthus,andaspelluponhim;buthehadaformlessanxietyneverputintowords:allthepicturesofherinhismindstoppedatthecloseddoor。
Hehadanotheranxiety;and,forthegreaterpart,thiswasofherowncreating。Shehadtoooftenaskedhimnomatterhowgailywhatheheardabouther,toooftenbeggedhimnottohearanything。Then,hopingtoforestallwhateverhemighthear,shehadbeenattoogreatpainstoaccountforit,todiscreditandmockit;and,thoughhelaughedatherforthis,tellinghertruthfullyhedidnotevenhearhermentioned,theeverlastingironythatdealswithallsuchhumanforefendingsprevailed。
Lately,hehadhalfconfessedtoherwhatanervousnessshehadproduced。"YoumakemedreadthedaywhenI'llhearsomebodyspeakingofyou。You'regettingmesoupsetaboutitthatifI
everhearanybodysomuchassaythename'AliceAdams,'I'llrun!"Theconfessionwasbuthalfofonebecausehelaughed;andshetookitforanassuranceofloyaltyintheformofburlesque。
Shemisunderstood:helaughed,buthisnervousnesswasgenuine。
Afteranystrokeofevents,whetherahappyoneoracatastrophe,weseethatthematerialsforitwerealongtimegathering,andtheonlymarvelisthatthestrokewasnotprophesied。Whatboretheairoffatalcoincidencemayremainfatalindeed,tothislaterview;but,withthehaphazardaspectdispelled,thereisleftforscrutinythesameancienthintfromtheInfinitetotheeffectthatsinceeventshaveneveryetfailedtobelaw-abiding,perhapsitwerewellforustodeducethattheywillcontinuetobesountilfurthernotice……OnthedaythatwastoopenthecloseddoorinthebackgroundofhispicturesofAlice,Russelllunchedwithhisrelatives。Therewerebutthefourpeople,RussellandMildredandhermotherandfather,inthegreat,cooldining-room。
ArchedFrenchwindows,shadedbyawnings,admittedamellowlightandlookedoutuponagreenlawnendinginalongconservatory,whichrevealedthroughitsglasspanesacarnivalofplantsinluxuriantblossom。Fromhisseatatthetable,Russellglancedoutatthisprettydisplay,andinformedhiscousinsthathewassurprised。"Youhavesuchagloriousspreadofflowersalloverthehouse,"hesaid,"Ididn'tsupposeyou'dhaveanyleftoutyonder。Infact,Ididn'tknowthereweresomanysplendidflowersintheworld。"
Mrs。Palmer,large,calm,fair,likeherdaughter,respondedwithamildreproach:"That'sbecauseyouhaven'tbeencousinlyenoughtogetusedtothem,Arthur。You'vealmosttaughtustoforgetwhatyoulooklike。"
IndefenseRussellwavedahandtowardherhusband。"Yousee,he'sbeguntokeepmesohardatwork——"
ButMr。Palmerdeclinedtheresponsibility。"Uptofourorfiveintheafternoon,perhaps,"hesaid。"Afterthat,theyounggentlemanisasmuchastrangertomeasheistomyfamily。
I'vebeenwonderingwhoshecouldbe。"
"Whenaman'spreoccupiedtheremustbealadythen?"Russellinquired。
"Thatseemstobetheviewofyoursex,"Mrs;Palmersuggested。
"Itwasmyhusbandwhosaidit,notMildredorI。"
Mildredsmiledfaintly。"Papamaybesingularinhisideas;theymaycomeentirelyfromhisownexperience,andhavenothingtodowithArthur。"
"Thankyou,Mildred,"hercousinsaid,bowingtohergratefully。
"Youseemtounderstandmycharacter——andyourfather'squiteaswell!"
However,Mildredremainedgraveinthefaceofthiscustomarypleasantry,notbecausetheoldjest,wornround,likewhatprecededit,rolledinanoldgroove,butbecauseofsomepreoccupationofherown。Herfaintsmilehaddisappeared,and,ashercousin'sglancemethers,shelookeddown;yetnotbeforehehadseeninhereyestheflickerofsomethinglikeaquestion——aquestionbothpoignantanddismayed。Hemayhaveunderstoodit;forhisownsmilevanishedatonceinfavourofareciprocalsolemnity。
"Yousee,Arthur,"Mrs。Palmersaid,"Mildredisalwaysagoodcousin。SheandIstandbyyou,evenifyoudostayawayfromusforweeksandweeks。"Then,observingthatheappearedtobesooccupiedwithabunchoficedgrapesuponhisplatethathehadnotheardher,shebegantotalktoherhusband,askinghimwhatwas"goingondown-town。"
Arthurcontinuedtoeathisgrapes,butheventuredtolookagainatMildredafterafewmoments。She,also,appearedtobeoccupiedwithabunchofgrapesthoughsheatenone,andonlypulledthemfromtheirstems。Shesatstraight,herfeaturesascomposedandpureasthoseofanewmarblesaintinacathedralniche;yetherdowncasteyesseemedtoconcealmanythoughts;andhercousin,againsthiswill,wasmoreawareofwhatthesethoughtsmightbethanoftheleisurelyconversationbetweenherfatherandmother。Allatonce,however,heheardsomethingthatstartledhim,andhelistened——andherewastheeffectofallAlice'sforefendings;helistenedfromthefirstwithasinkingheart。
Mr。Palmer,mildlyamusedbywhathewastellinghiswife,hadjustspokenthewords,"thisVirgilAdams。"Whathehadsaidwas,"thisVirgilAdams——that'stheman'sname。Queercase。"
"Whotoldyou?"Mrs。Palmerinquired,notmuchinterested。
"AlfredLamb,"herhusbandanswered。"Hewaslaughingabouthisfather,attheclub。Youseetheoldgentlemantakesagreatprideinhisjudgmentofmen,andalwaysboastedtohissonsthathe'dneverinhislifemadeamistakeintrustingthewrongman。
NowAlfredandJamesAlbert,Junior,thinktheyhaveagreatjokeonhim;andthey'vetwittedhimsomuchaboutithe'llscarcelyspeaktothem。Fromthefirst,Alfredsays,theoldchap'sonlyreparteewas,'Youwaitandyou'llsee!'Andthey'veaskedhimsooftentoshowthemwhatthey'regoingtoseethathewon'tsayanythingatall!"
"He'safunnyoldfellow,"Mrs。Palmerobserved。"Buthe'ssoshrewdIcan'timaginehisbeingdeceivedforsuchalongtime。
Twentyyears,yousaid?"
"Yes,longerthanthat,Iunderstand。Itappearswhenthisman——thisAdams——wasayoungclerk,theoldgentlemantrustedhimwithoneofhisbusinesssecrets,aglueprocessthatMr。Lambhadspentsomemoneytogetholdof。TheoldchapthoughtthisAdamswasgoingtohavequiteafuturewiththeLambconcern,andofcourseneverdreamedhewasdishonest。AlfredsaysthisAdamshasn'tbeenofanyrealuseforyears,andtheyshouldhavelethimgoasdeadwood,buttheoldgentlemanwouldn'thearofit,andinsistedonhisbeingkeptonthepayroll;sotheyjustdecidedtolookonitasasortofpension。Well,onemorninglastMarchthemanhadanattackofsomesortdownthere,andMr。
Lambgothisowncaroutandwenthomewithhim,himself,andworriedabouthimandwenttoseehimnoend,allthetimehewasill。"
"Hewould,"Mrs。Palmersaid,approvingly。"He'sakind-heartedcreature,thatoldman。"
Herhusbandlaughed。"Alfredsayshethinkshiskind-heartednessisaboutcured!Itseemsthatassoonasthemangotwellagainhedeliberatelywalkedoffwiththeoldgentleman'sgluesecret。
Justcalmlystoleit!Alfredsayshebelievesthatifhehadastrokeintheofficenow,himself,hisfatherwouldn'tliftafingertohelphim!"
Mrs。Palmerrepeatedthenametoherselfthoughtfully。
"'Adams'——'VirgilAdams。'YousaidhisnamewasVirgilAdams?"
"Yes。"
Shelookedatherdaughter。"Why,youknowwhothatis,Mildred,"shesaid,casually。"It'sthatAliceAdams'sfather,isn'tit?Wasn'thisnameVirgilAdams?"
"Ithinkitis,"Mildredsaid。
Mrs。Palmerturnedtowardherhusband。"You'veseenthisAliceAdamshere。Mr。Lamb'spetswindlermustbeherfather。"
Mr。Palmerpassedasmoothhandoverhisneatgrayhair,whichwasnotdisturbedbythisefforttostimulaterecollection。"Oh,yes,"hesaid。"Ofcourse——certainly。Quiteagood-lookinggirl——oneofMildred'sfriends。Howqueer!"
Mildredlookedup,asifinalittlealarm,butdidnotspeak。
Hermothersetmattersstraight。"FathersAREamusing,"shesaidsmilinglytoRussell,whowaslookingather,thoughhowfixedlyshedidnotnotice;forsheturnedfromhimatoncetoenlightenherhusband。"EverygirlwhomeetsMildred,andtriestopushtheacquaintancebycominghereuntilthepoorchildhastohide,isn'taFRIENDofhers,mydear!"
Mildred'seyesweredowncastagain,andafaintcolourroseinhercheeks。"Oh,Ishouldn'tputitquitethatwayaboutAliceAdams,"shesaid,inalowvoice。"Isawsomethingofherforatime。She'snotunattractiveinaway。"
Mrs。PalmersettledthewholecaseofAlicecarelessly。"A
pushingsortofgirl,"shesaid。"Averypushinglittleperson。"
"I——"Mildredbegan;and,afterhesitating,concluded,"I
ratherdroppedher。"
"Fortunateyou'vedoneso,"herfatherremarked,cheerfully。
"EspeciallysincevariousmembersoftheLambconnectionareherefrequently。Theymightn'tthinkyou'dshowgreattactinhavingherabouttheplace。"Helaughed,andturnedtohiscousin。
"Allthisisn'tveryinterestingtopoorArthur。Howterriblepeoplearewithanewcomerinatown;theytalkasifheknewallabouteverybody!"
"Butwedon'tknowanythingaboutthesequeerpeople,ourselves,"
saidMrs。Palmer。"Weknowsomethingaboutthegirl,ofcourse——sheusedtobeabittooconspicuous,infact!However,asyousay,wemightfindasubjectmoreinterestingforArthur。"
Shesmiledwhimsicallyupontheyoungman。"Tellthetruth,"shesaid。"Don'tyoufairlydetestgoingintobusinesswiththattyrantyonder?"
"What?Yes——Ibegyourpardon!"hestammered。
"Youwereright,"Mrs。Palmersaidtoherhusband。"You'veboredhimso,talkingaboutthievishclerks,hecan'tevenansweranhonestquestion。"
ButRussellwasbeginningtorecoverhisoutwardcomposure。"Trymeagain,"hesaid。"I'mafraidIwasthinkingofsomethingelse。"
Thiswasthebesthefoundtosay。Therewasapartofhimthatwantedtoprotestanddeny,buthehadnotheatenough,inthechillthathadcomeuponhim。Herewasthefirst"mention"ofAlice,andwithitthereasonwhyitwasthefirst:Mr。Palmerhaddifficultyinrecallingher,andshehappenedtobespokenof,onlybecauseherfather'sbetrayalofabenefactor'strusthadbeensopeculiarlyatrociousthat,intheviewofthebenefactor'sfamily,itcontainedenoughoftheelementofhumourtowarrantamildlaughataclub。Therewasthedeadlinessofthestory:itslackofmalice,evenofresentment。DeadlierstillwereMrs。Palmer'sphrases:"apushingsortofgirl,""averypushinglittleperson,"and"usedtobeabitTOO
conspicuous,infact。"Butshespokeplacidlyandbychance;
beingasobviouslywithoutunkindlymotiveasMr。PalmerwaswhenherelatedthecauseofAlfredLamb'samusement。Heropinionoftheobscureyoungladymomentarilyhertopichadbeenexpressed,moreover,toherhusband,andatherowntable。Shesatthere,large,kind,serene——aprotestmightastonishbutcouldnotchangeher;andRussell,crumplinginhisstrainedfingersthelace-edgedlittlewebofanapkinonhisknee,foundheartenoughtogrowred,butnotenoughtochallengeher。
Shenoticedhiscolour,andattributedittotheembarrassmentofascrupulouslygallantgentlemancaughtinalapseofattentiontoalady。"Don'tbedisturbed,"shesaid,benevolently。
"Peoplearen'texpectedtolistenallthetimetotheirrelatives。Ahighcolour'sverybecomingtoyou,Arthur;butitreallyisn'tnecessarybetweencousins。Youcanalwaysbeinformalenoughwithustolistenonlywhenyoucareto。"
Hiscomplexioncontinuedtoberuddierthanusual,however,throughoutthemeal,andwasstillsomewhattintedwhenMrs。
Palmerrose。"Theman'sbringingyoucigaretteshere,"shesaid,noddingtothetwogentlemen。"We'llgiveyouachancetodothesordidkindoftalkingweknowyoureallylike。Afterwhile,Mildredwillshowyouwhat'sinbloominthehothouse,ifyouwish,Arthur。"
Mildredfollowedher,and,whentheywerealoneinanotherofthespaciousrooms,wenttoawindowandlookedout,whilehermotherseatedherselfnearthecenteroftheroominagiltarmchair,mellowedwitholdAubussontapestry。Mrs。Palmerlookedthoughtfullyatherdaughter'sback,butdidnotspeaktoheruntilcoffeehadbeenbroughtforthem。
"Thanks,"Mildredsaid,notturning,"Idon'tcareforanycoffee,Ibelieve。"
"No?"Mrs。Palmersaid,gently。"I'mafraidourgood-lookingcousinwon'tthinkyou'reverytalkative,Mildred。Youspokeonlyabouttwiceatlunch。Ishouldn'tcareforhimtogettheideayou'repiquedbecausehe'scomeheresolittlelately,shouldyou?"
"No,Ishouldn't,"Mildredansweredinalowvoice,andwiththatsheturnedquickly,andcametositnearhermother。"Butit'swhatIamafraidof!Mama,didyounoticehowredhegot?"
"Youmeanwhenhewascaughtnotlisteningtoaquestionofmine?
Yes;it'sverybecomingtohim。"
"Mama,Idon'tthinkthatwasthereason。Idon'tthinkitwasbecausehewasn'tlistening,Imean。"
"No?"
"Ithinkhiscolourandhisnotlisteningcamefromthesamereason,"Mildredsaid,andalthoughshehadcometositnearhermother,shedidnotlookather。"Ithinkithappenedbecauseyouandpapa——"Shestopped。
"Yes?"Mrs。Palmersaid,good-naturedly,toprompther。"YourfatherandIdidsomethingembarrassing?"
"Mama,itwasbecauseofthosethingsthatcameoutaboutAliceAdams。"
"HowcouldthatbotherArthur?Doesheknowher?"
"Don'tyouremember?"thedaughterasked。"ThedayaftermydanceImentionedhowoddIthoughtitwasinhim——Iwasalittledisappointedinhim。I'dbeenseeingthathemeteverybody,ofcourse,butshewastheonlygirlHEaskedtomeet;andhediditassoonashenoticedher。Ihadn'tmeanttohavehimmeether——infact,IwasrathersorryI'dfeltIhadtoaskher,becausesheoh,well,she'sthesortthat'triesforthenewman,'ifshehashalfachance;andsometimestheyseemquitefascinated——foratime,thatis。IthoughtArthurwasaboveallthat;orattheveryleastIgavehimcreditforbeingtoosophisticated。"
"Isee,"Mrs。Palmersaid,thoughtfully。"Iremembernowthatyouspokeofit。Yousaiditseemedalittlepeculiar,butofcourseitreallywasn't:a'newman'hasnothingtogoby,excepthisownfirstimpressions。Youcan'tblamepoorArthur——she'squiteapiquantlookinglittleperson。Youthinkhe'sseensomethingofhersincethen?"
Mildrednoddedslowly。"Ineverdreamedsuchathingtillyesterday,andeventhenIratherdoubtedit——tillhegotsored,justnow!Iwassurprisedwhenheaskedtomeether,buthejustdancedwithheronceanddidn'tmentionherafterward;Iforgotallaboutit——infact,IvirtuallyforgotallaboutHER。I'dseenquitealittleofher——"
"Yes,"saidMrs。Palmer。"Shedidkeepcominghere!"
"ButI'djustaboutdecidedthatitreallywouldn'tdo,"Mildredwenton。"Sheisn't——well,Ididn'tadmireher。"
"No,"hermotherassented,andevidentlyfollowedadirectconnectionofthoughtinaspeechapparentlyirrelevant。"I
understandtheyoungMalonewantstomarryHenrietta。Ihopeshewon't;heseemsratheragrosstypeofperson。"
"Oh,he'sjustone,"Mildredsaid。"Idon'tknowthatheandAliceAdamswereeverengaged——shenevertoldmeso。Shemaynothavebeenengagedtoanyofthem;shewasjustenoughamongtheothergirlstogettalkedabout——andoneofthereasonsIfeltalittleinclinedtobenicetoherwasthattheyseemedtoberatheredgingheroutofthecircle。Itwasn'tlongbeforeIsawtheywereright,though。IhappenedtomentionIwasgoingtogiveadanceandshepretendedtotakeitasamatterofcoursethatImeanttoinviteherbrother——atleast,Ithoughtshepretended;shemayhavereallybelievedit。Atanyrate,Ihadtosendhimacard;butIdidn'tintendtobeletinforthatsortofthingagain,ofcourse。She'swhatyousaid,'pushing';
thoughI'mawfullysorryyousaidit。"
"Whyshouldn'tIhavesaidit,mydear?"
"OfcourseIdidn'tsay'shouldn't。'"Mildredexplained,gravely。"ImeantonlythatI'msorryithappened。"
"Yes;butwhy?"
"Mama"——Mildredturnedtoher,leaningforwardandspeakinginaloweredvoice——"Mama,atfirstthechangewassolittleitseemedasifArthurhardlyknewithimself。He'dbeenlovelytomealways,andhewasstilllovelytomebut——oh,well,you'veunderstood——aftermydanceitwasmoreasifitwasjusthisnatureandhistrainingtobelovelytome,ashewouldbetoeveryoneakindofpoliteness。He'dneversaidheCAREDforme,butafterthatIcouldseehedidn't。Itwasclear——afterthat。
Ididn'tknowwhathadhappened;Icouldn'tthinkofanythingI'ddone。Mama——itwasAliceAdams。"
Mrs。Palmersetherlittlecoffee-cupuponthetablebesideher,calmlyfollowingherownmotionwithhereyes,andnotseemingtorealizewithwhatseriousentreatyherdaughter'sgazewasfixeduponher。Mildredrepeatedthelastsentenceofherrevelation,andintroducedastressofinsistence。
"Mama,itWASAliceAdams!"
ButMrs。Palmerdeclinedtobegreatlyimpressed,sofarasherappearancewent,atleast;andtoemphasizeherrefusal,shesmiledindulgently。"Whatmakesyouthinkso?"
"Henriettatoldmeyesterday。"
AtthisMrs。Palmerpermittedherselftolaughsoftlyaloud。
"Goodheavens!IsHenriettaasoothsayer?OrissheArthur'sparticularconfidante?"
"No。EllaDowlingtoldher。"
Mrs。Palmer'slaughtercontinued。"Nowwehaveit!"sheexclaimed。"It'sagameofgossip:ArthurtellsElla,EllatellsHenrietta,andHenriettatells——"
"Don'tlaugh,please,mama,"Mildredbegged。"OfcourseArthurdidn'ttellanybody。It'sroundaboutenough,butit'strue。I
knowit!Ihadn'tquitebelievedit,butIknewitwastruewhenhegotsored。Helooked——oh,forasecondorsohelooked——stricken!HethoughtIdidn'tnoticeit。Mama,he'sbeentoseeheralmosteveryeveninglately。Theytakelongwalkstogether。That'swhyhehasn'tbeenhere。"
OfMrs。Palmer'slaughtertherewasleftonlyherindulgentsmile,whichshehadnotallowedtovanish。"Well,whatofit?"
shesaid。
"Mama!"
"Yes,"saidMrs。Palmer。"Whatofit?"
"Butdon'tyousee?"Mildred'swell-tutoredvoice,thoughmodulatedandrepressedeveninherpresentemotion,neverthelesshadatendencytoquaver。"It'strue。FrankDowlingwasgoingtoseeheroneeveningandhesawArthursittingonthestoopwithher,anddidn'tgoin。AndEllausedtogotoschoolwithagirlwholivesacrossthestreetfromhere。ShetoldElla——"
"Oh,Iunderstand,"Mrs。Palmerinterrupted。"Supposehedoesgothere。Mydear,Isaid,'Whatofit?'"
"Idon'tseewhatyoumean,mama。I'msoafraidhemightthinkweknewaboutit,andthatyouandpapasaidthosethingsaboutherandherfatheronthataccount——asifweabusedthembecausehegoesthereinsteadofcominghere。"
"Nonsense!"Mrs。Palmerrose,wenttoawindow,and,turningthere,stoodwithherbacktoit,facingherdaughterandlookingathercheerfully。"Nonsense,mydear!Itwasperfectlyclearthatshewasmentionedbyaccident,andsowasherfather。Whatanextraordinaryman!IfArthurmakesfriendswithpeoplelikethat,hecertainlyknowsbetterthantoexpecttohearfavourableopinionsofthem。Besides,it'sonlyalittlepassingthingwithhim。"
"Mama!Whenhegoestherealmostevery——"
"Yes,"Mrs。Palmersaid,dryly。"ItseemstomeI'veheardsomewherethatotheryoungmenhavegonethere'almostevery!'
Shedoesn'tlast,apparently。Arthur'sgallant,andhe'simpressionable——buthe'sfastidious,andfastidiousnessisalwaysthecheckonimpressionableness。Agirlbelongstoherfamily,too——andthisonedoesespecially,itstrikesme!
Arthur'sverysensible;heseesmorethanyou'dthink。"
Mildredlookedatherhopefully。"Thenyoudon'tbelievehe'slikelytoimaginewesaidthosethingsofherinanymeaningway?"
Atthis,Mrs。Palmerlaughedagain。"There'sonethingyouseemnottohavenoticed,Mildred。"
"What'sthat?"
"Itseemstohaveescapedyourattentionthatheneversaidaword。"
"Mightn'tthatmean——?"Mildredbegan,butshestopped。
"No,itmightn't,"hermotherreplied,comprehendingeasily。"Onthecontrary,itmightmeanthatinsteadofhisfeelingittoodeeplytospeak,hewasgettingalittleillumination。"
Mildredroseandcametoher。"WHYdoyousupposehenevertoldushewentthere?Doyouthinkhe's——doyouthinkhe'spleasedwithher,andyetashamedofit?WHYdoyousupposehe'sneverspokenofit?"
"Ah,that,"Mrs。Palmersaid,——"thatmightpossiblybeherowndoing。Ifitis,she'swellpaidbywhatyourfatherandIsaid,becausewewouldn'thavesaiditifwe'dknownthatArthur——"
Shecheckedherselfquickly。Lookingoverherdaughter'sshoulder,shesawthetwogentlemencomingfromthecorridortowardthewidedoorwayoftheroom;andshegreetedthemcheerfully。"Ifyou'vefinishedwitheachotherforawhile,"
sheadded,"Arthurmayfinditarelieftoputhisthoughtsonsomethingprettierthanatrustcompany——andmorefragrant。"
ArthurcametoMildred。
"Yourmothersaidatlunchthatperhapsyou'd——"
"Ididn'tsay'perhaps,'Arthur,"Mrs。Palmerinterrupted,tocorrecthim。"Isaidshewould。Ifyoucaretoseeandsmellthoselovelythingsoutyonder,she'llshowthemtoyou。Runalong,children!"
Halfanhourlater,glancingfromawindow,shesawthemcomefromthehothousesandslowlycrossthelawn。Arthurhadafineroseinhisbuttonholeandlookedprofoundlythoughtful。
CHAPTERXXI
Thatmorningandnoonhadbeenwarm,thoughthestirringsofafeeblebreezemadeweathernotflagrantlyintemperate;butataboutthreeo'clockintheafternoontherecameoutofthesouthwestaheatlikeanafflictionsentuponanaccursedpeople,andtheairwassoondeadofit。Drippingnegroditch-diggerswhoopedwithsatirespraisinghellandhotweather,asthetossingshovelsflickereduptothestreetlevel,wheresluggishmalepedestrianscarriedcoatsuponhotarms,andfannedthemselveswithstrawhats,or,remainingcovered,woresoakedhandkerchiefsbetweenscalpandstraw。Clerksdroopedinsilent,bigdepartmentstores,stenographersinofficeskeptasclosetoelectricfansastheinterveningbulkoftheiremployerswouldletthem;guestsinhotelsleftthelobbiesandwenttolieuncladupontheirbeds;whileinhospitalsthepatientsmurmuredquerulouslyagainsttheheat,andperhapsagainstsomenoisymotoristwhostrovetofeeltheairbysplittingit,nottroubledbyanyfore-bodingthathe,too,thathournextweek,mightneedquietnearahospital。The"hotspell"wasatruespell,oneuponmen'sspirits;foritwassohotthat,insuburbanoutskirts,golferscreptslowlybackoverthelowundulationsoftheirclublands,abandoningtheirmatchesandreturningtoshelter。
Evenonsuchaday,sizzlingworkhadtobedone,asinwinter。
Therewereglowingfurnacestobestoked,liquidmetalstobepoured;butsuchtasksfoundseasonedmenstandingtothem;andinallthecityprobablynobravesoulchallengedtheheatmoregamelythanMrs。Adamsdid,when,inacornerofhersmallandfierykitchen,wherealldaylongherhiredAfricanimmunecookedfiercely,shepressedherhusband'seveningclotheswithahotiron。Nodoubtsheriskedherlife,butsheriskeditcheerfullyinsogoodandnecessaryaserviceforhim。Shewouldhavegivenherlifeforhimatanytime,andbothhisandherownforherchildren。
Unconsciousofherownheroism,shewassurprisedtofindherselfratherfaintwhenshefinishedherironing。However,shetookhearttobelievethattheclotheslookedbetter,inspiteofoneortwoscorchedplaces;andshecarriedthemupstairstoherhusband'sroombeforeincreasingblindnessforcedhertogropeforthenearestchair。Then,tryingtoriseandwalk,withouthavingsufficientlyrecovered,shehadtositdownagain;butafteralittlewhileshewasabletogetuponherfeet;and,keepingherhandagainstthewall,movedsuccessfullytothedoorofherownroom。Hereshewavered;mighthavegonedown,hadshenotbeenstimulatedbythethoughtofhowmuchdependeduponher;——shemadeafinalgreateffort,andflounderedacrosstheroomtoherbureau,whereshekeptsomesimplerestoratives。
Theyservedherneed,orherfaithinthemdid;andshereturnedtoherwork。
Shewentdownthestairs,keepingastilltremuloushandupontherail;butshesmiledbrightlywhenAlicelookedupfrombelow,wherethewoodworkwasagainbeingtormentedwithsuperfluousattentions。
"Alice,DON'T!"hermothersaid,commiseratingly。"Youdidallthatthismorninganditlookslovely。What'stheuseofwearingyourselfoutonit?Yououghttobelyingdown,so'stolookfreshforto-night。"
"Hadn'tyoubetterliedownyourself?"thedaughterreturned。
"Areyouill,mama?"
"Certainlynot。Whatintheworldmakesyouthinkso?"
"Youlookprettypale,"Alicesaid,andsighedheavily。"Itmakesmeashamed,havingyouworksohard——forme。"
"Howfoolish!Ithinkit'sfun,gettingreadytoentertainalittleagain,likethis。Ionlywishithadn'tturnedsohot:
I'mafraidyourpoorfather'llsuffer——histhingsareprettyheavy,Inoticed。Well,it'lldohimgoodtobearsomethingforstyle'ssakethisonce,anyhow!"Shelaughed,andcomingtoAlice,bentdownandkissedher。"Dearie,"shesaid,tenderly,"wouldn'tyoupleaseslipupstairsnowandtakejustalittleteenynaptopleaseyourmother?"
ButAlicerespondedonlybymovingherheadslowly,intokenofrefusal。
"Do!"Mrs。Adamsurged。"Youdon'twanttolookwornout,doyou?"
"I'llLOOKallright,"Alicesaid,huskily。"DoyoulikethewayI'vearrangedthefurniturenow?I'vetriedallthedifferentwaysit'llgo。"
"It'slovely,"hermothersaid,admiringly。"Ithoughtthelastwayyouhaditwaspretty,too。Butyouknowbest;Ineverknewanybodywithsomuchtaste。Ifyou'donlyjustquitnow,andtakealittlerest——"
"There'dhardlybetime,evenifIwantedto;it'safterfivebutIcouldn't;really,Icouldn't。HowdoyouthinkwecanmanageaboutWalter——toseethathewearshiseveningthings,Imean?"
Mrs。Adamspondered。"I'mafraidhe'llmakealotofobjections,onaccountoftheweatherandeverything。Iwishwe'dhadachancetotellhimlastnightorthismorning。I'dhavetelephonedtohimthisafternoonexcept——well,Iscarcelyliketocallhimupatthatplace,sinceyourfather——"
"No,ofcoursenot,mama。"
"IfWaltergetshomelate,"Mrs。Adamswenton,"I'lljustslipoutandspeaktohim,incaseMr。Russell'sherebeforehecomes。I'lljusttellhimhe'sgottohurryandgethisthingson。"
"Maybehewon'tcomehometodinner,"Alicesuggested,ratherhopefully。"Sometimeshedoesn't。"
"No;Ithinkhe'llbehere。Whenhedoesn'tcomeheusuallytelephonesbythistimetosaynottowaitforhim;he'sverythoughtfulaboutthat。Well,itreallyisgettinglate:Imustgoandtellhersheoughttobepreparingherfillet。Dearie,DO
restalittle。"
"You'dmuchbetterdothatyourself,"Alicecalledafterher,butMrs。Adamsshookherheadcheerily,notpausingonherwaytothefierykitchen。
Alicecontinuedheruselesslaboursforatime;thencarriedherbuckettotheheadofthecellarstairway,wheresheleftituponthetopstep;and,closingthedoor,returnedtothe"living-room;"Againshechangedthepositionsoftheoldplushrocking-chairs,movingthemintothecornerswhereshethoughttheymightbeleastnoticeable;andwhilethusengagedshewasstartledbyaloudringingofthedoor-bell。Foramomentherfacewaspanic-stricken,andshestoodstaring,thensherealizedthatRussellwouldnotarriveforanotherhour,attheearliest,andrecoveringherequipoise,wenttothedoor。
Waitingthere,inalanguidattitude,wasayoungcolouredwoman,withasmallbundleunderherarmandsomethingmalleableinhermouth。"Listen,"shesaid。"Youfolksexpectin'acolouredlady?"
"No,"saidAlice。"Especiallynotatthefrontdoor。"
"Listen,"thecolouredwomansaidagain。"Listen。Say,listen。
Ain'ttheyanothercolouredladyawreadyherebytheday?
Listen。Ain'tMizMalenaBurnsherebythedaythisevenin'?
Say,listen。ThisthenumberhouseshegiveME。"
"Areyouthewaitress?"Aliceasked,dismally。
"Yes'm,ifMalenahere。"
"Malenaishere,"Alicesaid,andhesitated;butshedecidednottosendthewaitresstothebackdoor;itmightbearisk。Sheletherin。"What'syourname?"
"Me?I'mname'Gertrude。MissGertrudeCollamus。"
"Didyoubringacapandapron?"
Gertrudetookthelittlebundlefromunderherarm。"Yes'm。I'mallfix'。"
"I'vealreadysetthetable,"Alicesaid。"I'llshowyouwhatwewantdone。"
Sheledthewaytothedining-room,and,afterofferingsomeinstructionthere,receivedbyGertrudewithlanguorandaslowlymovingjaw,shetookherintothekitchen,wherethecapandapronwereputon。Theeffectwasnotfortunate;Gertrude'seyeswerenoticeablybloodshot,anafflictionmademoreapparentbythewhitecap;andAlicedrewhermotherapart,whisperinganxiously,"Doyousupposeit'stoolatetogetsomeoneelse?"
"I'mafraiditis,"Mrs。Adamssaid。"MalenasaysitwashardenoughtogetHER!Youhavetopaythemsomuchthattheyonlyworkwhentheyfeellikeit。"
"Mama,couldyouaskhertowearhercapstraighter?Everytimeshemovesherheadshegetsitononeside,andherskirt'stoolongbehindandtooshortinfront——andoh,I'veNEVERseensuchFEET!"Alicelaugheddesolately。"AndsheMUSTquitthatterriblechewing!"
"Nevermind;I'llgettoworkwithher。I'llstraightenheroutallIcan,dearie;don'tworry。"Mrs。Adamspattedherdaughter'sshoulderencouragingly。"NowYOUcan'tdoanotherthing,andifyoudon'trunandbegindressingyouwon'tbeready。It'llonlytakemeaminutetodress,myself,andI'llbedownlongbeforeyouwill。Run,darling!I'lllookaftereverything。"
Alicenoddedvaguely,wentuptoherroom,and,afteronlyamomentwithhermirror,broughtfromherclosetthedressofwhiteorgandieshehadwornthenightwhenshemetRussellforthefirsttime。Shelaiditcarefullyuponherbed,andbegantomakereadytoputiton。Hermothercamein,halfanhourlater,to"fasten"her。
"I'Malldressed,"Mrs。Adamssaid,briskly。"Ofcourseitdoesn'tmatter。Hewon'tknowwhattherestofusevenlooklike:Howcouldhe?IknowI'manoldSIGHT,butallIwantistolookrespectable。DoI?"
"Youlooklikethebestwomanintheworld;that'sall!"Alicesaid,withalittlegulp。
Hermotherlaughedandgaveherafinalscrutiny。"Youmightusejustatinybitmorecolour,dearie——I'mafraidtheexcitement'smadeyoualittlepale。AndyouMUSTbrightenup!There'ssortofalookinyoureyesasifyou'dgotinatranceandcouldn'tgetout。You'vehaditallday。Imustrun:yourfatherwantsmetohelphimwithhisstuds。Walterhasn'tcomeyet,butI'lllookafterhim;don'tworry,AndyoubetterHURRY,dearie,ifyou'regoingtotakeanytimefixingtheflowersonthetable。"
Shedeparted,whileAlicesatatthemirroragain,tofollowheradviceconcerninga"tinybitmorecolour。"Beforeshehadfinished,herfatherknockedatthedoor,and,whensheresponded,camein。Hewasdressedintheclotheshiswifehadpressed;buthehadlostsubstantiallyinweightsincetheyweremadeforhim;noonewouldhavethoughtthattheyhadbeenpressed。Theyhungfromhimvoluminously,seemingtobetheclothesofalargerman。
"Yourmother'sgonedownstairs,"hesaid,inavoiceofdistress。
"OneofthebuttonholesinmyshirtistoolargeandIcan'tkeepthedangthingfastened。_I_don'tknowwhattodoaboutit!I
onlygotoneotherwhiteshirt,andit'skindofruined:ItrieditbeforeIdidthisone。Doyous'poseyoucoulddoanything?"
"I'llsee,"shesaid。
"Mycollar'sgotafrayededge,"hecomplained,assheexaminedhistroublesomeshirt。"It'sagooddeallikewearingasaw;butIexpectit'llwiltdownflatprettysoon,andnotbothermelong。I'mliabletowiltdownflat,myself,Iexpect;Idon'tknowasIrememberanysuchhotnightinthelasttenortwelveyears。"Heliftedhisheadandsniffedtheflaccidair,whichwasladenwithaheavyodour。"My,butthatsmellisprettystrong!"hesaid。
"Standstill,please,papa,"Alicebeggedhim。"Ican'tseewhat'sthematterifyoumovearound。Howabsurdyouareaboutyouroldgluesmell,papa!Thereisn'tavestigeofit,ofcourse。"
"Ididn'tmeanglue,"heinformedher。"Imeancabbage。Isthatfashionablenow,tohavecabbagewhenthere'scompanyfordinner?"
"Thatisn'tcabbage,papa。It'sBrusselssprouts。"
"Oh,isit?Idon'tminditmuch,becauseitkeepsthatgluesmelloffme,butit'sfairlystrong。Iexpectyoudon'tnoticeitsomuchbecauseyoubeeninthehousewithitallalong,andgotusedtoitwhileitwasgrowing。"
"Itisprettydreadful,"Alicesaid。"Areallthewindowsopendownstairs?"
"I'llgodownandsee,ifyou'lljustfixthatholeupforme。"
"I'mafraidIcan't,"shesaid。"Notunlessyoutakeyourshirtoffandbringittome。I'llhavetosewtheholesmaller。"
"Oh,well,I'llgoaskyourmotherto——"
"No,"saidAlice。"She'sgoteverythingonherhands。Runandtakeitoff。Hurry,papa;I'vegottoarrangetheflowersonthetablebeforehecomes。"
Hewentaway,andcamebackpresently,halfundressed,bringingtheshirt。"There'sONEcomfort,"heremarked,pensively,assheworked。"I'vegotthatcollaroff——forawhile,anyway。IwishIcouldgototablelikethis;Icouldstanditagooddealbetter。Doyouseemtobemakinganyheadwaywiththedangthing?"
"IthinkprobablyIcan——"
Downstairsthedoor-bellrang,andAlice'sarmsjerkedwiththeshock。
"Golly!"herfathersaid。"Didyoustickyourfingerwiththatfoolneedle?"
Shegavehimablankstare。"He'scome!"
Shewasnotmistaken,for,uponthelittleveranda,Russellstoodfacingthecloseddooratlast。However,itremainedclosedforaconsiderabletimeafterherang。Insidethehousethewarningsummonsofthebellwasimmediatelyfollowedbyanothersound,audibletoAliceandherfatherasacrashprecedingaseriesofmuffledfalls。Thencameadistantvoice,bitterincomplaint。
"Oh,Lord!"saidAdams。"What'sthat?"
Alicewenttothetopofthefrontstairs,andhermotherappearedinthehallbelow。
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