首页 >出版文学> Alice Adams>第1章

第1章

  Thepatient,anold-fashionedman,thoughtthenursemadeamistakeinkeepingbothofthewindowsopen,andhersprightlydisregardofhisprotestsaddedsomethingtohishatredofher。
  Everyeveninghetoldherthatanybodywithordinarygumptionoughttorealizethatnightairwasbadforthehumanframe。
  "Thehumanframewon'tstandeverything,MissPerry,"hewarnedher,resentfully。"Evenachild,ifithadjustordinarygumption,oughttoknowenoughnottoletthenightairblowonsickpeopleyes,norwellpeople,either!'Keepoutofthenightair,nomatterhowwellyoufeel。'That'swhatmymotherusedtotellmewhenIwasaboy。'Keepoutofthenightair,Virgil,'
  she'dsay。'Keepoutofthenightair。'"
  "Iexpectprobablyhermothertoldherthesamething,"thenursesuggested。
  "Ofcourseshedid。Mygrandmother——"
  "Oh,IguessyourGRANDmotherthoughtso,Mr。Adams!Thatwaswhenallthisflatcentralcountrywasswampishandhadn'tbeendrainedoffyet。Iguessthetruthmustbeentheswampmosquitoesbitpeopleandgave'emmalaria,especiallybeforetheybegantoputscreensintheirwindows。Well,wegotscreensinthesewindows,andnomosquitoesaregoin'tobiteus;sojustyoubeagoodboyandrestyourmindandgotosleeplikeyouneedto。"
  "Sleep?"hesaid。"Likely!"
  HethoughtthenightairworstofallinApril;hehadn'tadoubtitwouldkillhim,hedeclared。"It'smiraculouswhatthehumanframeWILLsurvive,"headmittedonthelasteveningofthatmonth。"Butyouandthedoctoroughttobothbetaughtitwon'tstandtoodangmuch!YoupoisonamanandpoisonandpoisonhimwiththisAprilnightair——"
  "Can'tpoisonyouwithmuchmoreofit,"MissPerryinterruptedhim,indulgently。"To-morrowit'llbeMaynightair,andI
  expectthat'llbealotbetterforyou,don'tyou?Nowlet'sjustsoberdownandbeagoodboyandgetsomenicesoundsleep。"
  Shegavehimhismedicine,and,havingsettheglassuponthecentertable,returnedtohercot,where,afterastillinterval,shesnoredfaintly。Uponthis,hisexpressionbecamethatofamangoadedoutofoverpoweringwearinessintoirony。
  "Sleep?Oh,CERTAINLY,thankyou!"
  However,hedidsleepintermittently,drowsedbetweentimes,andevendreamed;but,forgettinghisdreamsbeforeheopenedhiseyes,andhavingsomepartofhimallthewhileawareofhisdiscomfort,hebelieved,asusual,thathelayawakethewholenightlong。Hewasconsciousofthecityasofsomesinglegreatcreaturerestingfitfullyinthedarkoutsidehiswindows。Itlayallroundabout,inthedampcoverofitsnightcloudofsmoke,andtriedtokeepquietforafewhoursaftermidnight,butwastoopowerfulagrowingthingevertoliealtogetherstill。Evenwhileitstrovetosleepitmutteredwithdigestionsofthedaybefore,andthesealreadymergedwithrumblingsofthemorrow。"Owl"cars,bringinginlastpassengersoverdistanttrolley-lines,nowandthenhowledonacurve;farawaymetallicstirringscouldbeheardfromfactoriesinthesootysuburbsontheplainoutsidethecity;east,west,andsouth,switch-engineschuggedandsnortedonsidings;
  andeverywhereintheairthereseemedtobeafaint,voluminoushumasofinnumerablewirestremblingoverheadtovibrationofmachineryunderground。
  InhisyouthAdamsmighthavebeenlessresentfulofsoundssuchasthesewhentheyinterferedwithhisnight'ssleep:evenduringanillnesshemighthavetakensomeprideinthemasproofofhiscitizenshipina"livetown";butatfifty-fivehemerelyhatedthembecausetheykepthimawake。They"pressedonhisnerves,"
  asheputit;andsodidalmosteverythingelse,forthatmatter。
  Heheardthemilk-wagondriveintothecross-streetbeneathhiswindowsandstopateachhouse。Themilkmancarriedhisjarsroundtothe"backporch,"whilethehorsemovedslowlyaheadtothegateofthenextcustomerandwaitedthere。"He'sgoneintoPollocks',"Adamsthought,followingthisprogress。"Ihopeit'llsouron'embeforebreakfast。DeliveredtheAndersons'。
  Nowhe'sgettingoutours。Listentothedarnbrute!What'sHE
  carewhowantstosleep!"Hiscomplaintwasofthehorse,whocasuallyshiftedweightwithaclinkofsteelshoesonthewornbrickpavementofthestreet,andthenheartilyshookhimselfinhisharness,perhapstodislodgeaflyfaraheadofitsseason。
  Lighthadjustfilmedthewindows;andwiththatthefirstsparrowwoke,chirpedinstantly,androusedneighboursinthetreesofthesmallyard,includingaloud-voicedrobin。
  Vociferationsbeganirregularly,butweresoonunanimous。
  "Sleep?Danglikelynow,ain'tit!"
  Nightsoundswerebecomingdaysounds;thefar-awayhootingoffreight-enginesseemedbriskerthananhouragointhedark。A
  cheerfulwhistlerpassedthehouse,evenmorecarelessofsleepersthanthemilkman'shorsehadbeen;thenagroupofcolouredworkmencameby,andalthoughitwasimpossibletobesurewhethertheywerehomewardboundfromnight-workorontheirwaytoday-work,atleastitwascertainthattheywerejocose。
  Loose,aboriginallaughterprecededthemafar,andbeatontheairlongaftertheyhadgoneby。
  Thesick-roomnight-light,shieldedfromhiseyesbyanewspaperproppedagainstawater-pitcher,stillshowedathinglimmeringthathadgrownoffensivetoAdams。Inhiswanderingandenfeebledthoughts,whichweremuchmoreoftenimaginingsthanreasonings,theattemptofthenight-lighttoresistthedawnremindedhimofsomethingunpleasant,thoughhecouldnotdiscoverjustwhattheunpleasantthingwas。Herewasapuzzlethatirritatedhimthemorebecausehecouldnotsolveit,yetalwaysseemedjustonthepointofasolution。However,hemayhavelostnothingcheerfulbyremaininginthedarkuponthematter;forifhehadbeenalittlesharperinthisintrospectionhemighthaveconcludedthatthesqualorofthenight-light,initsseemingefforttoshowagainsttheforerunningofthesunitself,hadstimulatedsomehalf-buriedperceptionwithinhimtosketchthepainfullittlesynopsisofanautobiography。
  Inspiteofnoiseswithout,hedrowsedagain,notknowingthathedid;andwhenheopenedhiseyesthenursewasjustrisingfromhercot。Hetooknopleasureinthesight,itmaybesaid。Sheexhibitedtohimafacemismodelledbysleep,andsetlikeaclayfaceleftonitscheekinahotanddrystudio。Shewasstillonlyinpartawake,however,andbythetimeshehadextinguishedthenight-lightandgivenherpatienthistonic,shehadrecoveredenoughplasticity。"Well,isn'tthatgrand!We'vehadanothergoodnight,"shesaidasshedepartedtodressinthebathroom。
  "Yes,youhadanother!"heretorted,thoughnotuntilaftershehadclosedthedoor。
  Presentlyheheardhisdaughtermovingaboutinherroomacrossthenarrowhall,andsoknewthatshehadrisen。Hehopedshewouldcomeintoseehimsoon,forshewastheonethingthatdidn'tpressonhisnerves,hefelt;thoughthethoughtofherhurthim,as,indeed,everythoughthurthim。Butitwashiswifewhocamefirst。
  Sheworealankcottonwrapper,andacrescentofgrayhairescapedtoonetemplefrombeneaththehandkerchiefshehadwornuponherheadforthenightandstillretained;butshedideverythingpossibletomakeherexpressioncheering。
  "Oh,you'rebetteragain!Icanseethat,assoonasIlookatyou,"shesaid。"MissPerrytellsmeyou'vehadanothersplendidnight。"
  Hemadeasoundofirony,whichseemedtodisposeunfavourablyofMissPerry,andthen,inordertobemorecertainlyintelligible,headded,"Shesleptwell,asusual!"
  Buthiswife'ssmilepersisted。"It'sagoodsigntobecross;
  itmeansyou'repracticallyconvalescentrightnow。"
  "Oh,Iam,amI?"
  "Nodoubtintheworld!"sheexclaimed。"Why,you'repracticallyawellman,Virgil——allexceptgettingyourstrengthback,ofcourse,andthatisn'tgoingtotakelong。You'llberightonyourfeetinacoupleofweeksfromnow。"
  "Oh,Iwill?"
  "Ofcourseyouwill!"Shelaughedbriskly,and,goingtothetableinthecenteroftheroom,movedhisglassofmedicineaninchortwo,turnedabookoversothatitlayuponitsotherside,andforafewmomentsoccupiedherselfwithsimilarfutilities,havingtakenontheairofapersonwhomakesthingsneat,thoughsheproducednosuchactualeffectuponthem。"Ofcourseyouwill,"sherepeated,absently。"You'llbeasstrongasyoueverwere;maybestronger。"Shepausedforamoment,notlookingathim,thenadded,cheerfully,"Sothatyoucanflyaroundandfindsomethingreallygoodtogetinto。"
  Somethingimportantbetweenthemcamenearthesurfacehere,forthoughshespokewithwhatseemedbutacasualcheerfulness,therewasalittlebetrayingbreakinhervoice,atremblingjustperceptibleintheutteranceofthefinalword。Andshestillkeptuptheaffectationofbeinghelpfullypreoccupiedwiththetable,anddidnotlookatherhusband——perhapsbecausetheyhadbeenmarriedsomanyyearsthatwithoutlookingsheknewjustwhathisexpressionwouldbe,andpreferredtoavoidtheactualsightofitaslongaspossible。Meanwhile,hestaredhardather,hislipsbeginningtomovewithlittledistortionsnotlackinginthepathosofasickman'sagitation。
  "Sothat'sit,"hesaid。"That'swhatyou'rehintingat。"
  "'Hinting?'"Mrs。Adamslookedsurprisedandindulgent。"Why,I'mnotdoinganyhinting,Virgil。"
  "Whatdidyousayaboutmyfinding'somethinggoodtogetinto?'"
  heasked,sharply。"Don'tyoucallthathinting?"
  Mrs。Adamsturnedtowardhimnow;shecametothebedsideandwouldhavetakenhishand,buthequicklymoveditawayfromher。
  "Youmustn'tletyourselfgetnervous,"shesaid。"Butofcoursewhenyougetwellthere'sonlyonethingtodo。Youmustn'tgobacktothatoldholeagain。"
  "'Oldhole?'That'swhatyoucallit,isit?"Inspiteofhisweakness,angermadehisvoicestrident,anduponthisstimulationshespokemoreurgently。
  "Youjustmustn'tgobacktoit,Virgil。It'snotfairtoanyofus,andyouknowitisn't。"
  "Don'ttellmewhatIknow,please!"
  Sheclaspedherhands,suddenlycarryingherurgencytoplaintiveentreaty。"Virgil,youWON'Tgobacktothathole?"
  "That'sanicewordtousetome!"hesaid。"Callaman'sbusinessahole!"
  "Virgil,ifyoudon'toweittometolookforsomethingdifferent,don'tyouoweittoyourchildren?Don'ttellmeyouwon'tdowhatweallwantyouto,andwhatyouknowinyourheartyououghtto!AndifyouHAVEgotintooneofyourstubbornfitsandareboundtogobacktherefornootherreasonexcepttohaveyourownway,don'ttellmeso,forIcan'tbearit!"
  Helookedupatherfiercely。"You'vegotafinewaytocureasickman!"hesaid;butshehadconcludedherappeal——forthattime——andinsteadofmakinganymorewordsinthematter,lethimseethatthereweretearsinhereyes,shookherhead,andlefttheroom。
  Alone,helaybreathingrapidly,hisemaciatedchestprovingitselfequaltothedemandshisemotionputuponit。"Fine!"herepeated,withhuskyindignation。"Finewaytocureasickman!
  Fine!"Then,afterasilence,hegaveforthwhisperingsoundsasoflaughter,hisexpressionthewhileremainingsoreandfarfromhumour。
  "Andgiveusourdailybread!"headded,meaningthathiswife'slittleperformancewasnonovelty。
  CHAPTERII
  Infact,theagitationofMrs。Adamswasgenuine,butsowellunderhercontrolthatitstracesvanishedduringthethreeshortstepsshetooktocrossthenarrowhallbetweenherhusband'sdoorandtheoneopposite。Herexpressionwasmatter-of-course,ratherthanpathetic,assheenteredtheprettyroomwhereherdaughter,halfdressed,satbeforeadressing-tableandplayedwiththereflectionsofathree-leafedmirrorframedinblueenamel。Thatis,justbeforethemomentofhermother'sentrance,Alicehadbeenplayingwiththemirror'sreflections——posturingherarmsandherexpressions,claspingherhandsbehindherneck,andtiltingbackherheadtoforeshortenthefaceinatableauconceivedtorepresentsauciness,thenoneofsmilingweariness,thenoneofscornfultoleration,andallverypiquant;butasthedooropenedshehurriedlyresumedthepractical,andoccupiedherhandsinthearrangementofherplentifulbrownishhair。
  Theywereprettyhands,ofashapelinessdelicateandfine。"Thebestthingsshe'sgot!"acold-bloodedgirlfriendsaidofthem,andmeanttoincludeAlice'smindandcharacterintheimpliedlistofpossessionssurpassedbythenotablehands。Howeverthatmayhavebeen,therestofherwaswellenough。Shewasoftencalled"arightprettygirl"——temperatepraisemeaningagirlratherprettythanotherwise,andthisshedeserved,tosaytheleast。Eveninreposeshedeservedit,thoughreposewasanythingbutherhabit,beingseldomseenuponherexceptathome。Onexhibitionsheledalifeofgestures,theunkindsaidtomakeherlovelyhandsmorememorable;butallofherusuallyaccompaniedthegesturesofthehands,theshouldersevergivingthemtheirimpulsesfirst,andevenherfeetbeingcalledupon,atthesametime,foreloquence。
  Somuchlivelinesstookproperplaceasonlyaccessorytothatoftheface,wherehervivacityreacheditsclimax;anditwasunfortunatethatanungiftedyoungman,newinthetown,shouldhaveattemptedtodefinetheeffectuponhimofallthisgenerosityofemphasis。Hesaidthat"thewaysheusedhercutehazeleyesandthewonderfulglowofherfacialexpressiongaveheramightyspiritualquality。"Hisactualrenditionofthewordwas"spirichul";butitwasnothispronunciationthatembalmedthisoutburstintheperenniallaughterofAlice'sgirlfriends;theymadethemisfortunefarlesshisthanhers。
  Hermothercomfortedhertooheartily,insistingthatAlicehad"plentyenoughspiritualqualities,"certainlymorethanpossessedbytheothergirlswhoflungthephraseather,woodenthings,jealousofeverythingtheywereincapableofthemselves;
  andthenAlice,gettingmorechampionshipthanshesought,grewuneasylestMrs。Adamsshouldrepeatsuchdefenses"outsidethefamily";andMrs。Adamsendedbyweepingbecausethedaughtersodistrustedherintelligence。Alicefrequentlythoughtitnecessarytoinstructhermother。
  Hermorninggreetingwasaninstructionto-day;or,rather,itwasanadmonitioninthestyleofanentreaty,themorepetulantasAlicethoughtthatMrs。Adamsmighthavehadaglimpseoftheposturingstothemirror。Thiswasaneedlessworry;themotherhadcaughtathousandsuchglimpses,withAliceunaware,andshethoughtnothingoftheonejustflitted。
  "Forheaven'ssake,mama,comeclearinsidetheroomandshutthedoor!PLEASEdon'tleaveitopenforeverybodytolookatme!"
  "Thereisn'tanybodytoseeyou,"Mrs。Adamsexplained,obeying。
  "MissPerry'sgonedownstairs,and——"
  "Mama,Iheardyouinpapa'sroom,"Alicesaid,notdroppingthenoteofcomplaint。"Icouldhearbothofyou,andIdon'tthinkyououghttogetpooroldpapasoupset——notinhispresentcondition,anyhow。"
  Mrs。Adamsseatedherselfontheedgeofthebed。"He'sbetterallthetime,"shesaid,notdisturbed。"He'salmostwell。ThedoctorsayssoandMissPerrysaysso;andifwedon'tgethimintotherightframeofmindnowweneverwill。Thefirstdayhe'soutdoorshe'llgobacktothatoldhole——you'llsee!Andifheoncedoesthat,he'llsettledownthereandit'llbetoolateandwe'llnevergethimout。"
  "Well,anyhow,Ithinkyoucouldusealittlemoretactwithhim。"
  "Idotryto,"themothersighed。"Itneverwasmuchusewithhim。Idon'tthinkyouunderstandhimaswellasIdo,Alice。"
  "There'sonethingIdon'tunderstandabouteitherofyou,"Alicereturned,crisply。"Beforepeoplegetmarriedtheycandoanythingtheywanttowitheachother。Whycan'ttheydothesamethingafterthey'remarried?Whenyouandpapawereyoungpeopleandengaged,he'dhavedoneanythingyouwantedhimto。
  Thatmusthavebeenbecauseyouknewhowtomanagehimthen。Whycan'tyougoathimthesamewaynow?"
  Mrs。Adamssighedagain,andlaughedalittle,makingnootherresponse;butAlicepersisted。"Well,WHYcan'tyou?Whycan'tyouaskhimtodothingsthewayyouusedtoaskhimwhenyouwerejustinlovewitheachother?Whydon'tyouanyhowtryit,mama,insteadofding-dongingathim?"
  "'Ding-dongingathim,'Alice?"Mrs。Adamssaid,withapathossomewhatemphasized。"IsthathowmytryingtodowhatIcanforyoustrikesyou?"
  "Nevermindthat;it'snothingtohurtyourfeelings。"Alicedisposedofthepathosbriskly。"Whydon'tyouanswermyquestion?What'sthematterwithusingalittlemoretactonpapa?Whycan'tyoutreathimthewayyouprobablydidwhenyouwereyoungpeople,beforeyouweremarried?Ineverhaveunderstoodwhypeoplecan'tdothat。"
  "PerhapsyouWILLunderstandsomeday,"hermothersaid,gently。
  "Maybeyouwillwhenyou'vebeenmarriedtwenty-fiveyears。"
  "Youkeepevading。Whydon'tyouanswermyquestionrightstraightout?"
  "Therearequestionsyoucan'tanswertoyoungpeople,Alice。"
  "Youmeanbecausewe'retooyoungtounderstandtheanswer?I
  don'tseethatatall。Attwenty-twoagirl'ssupposedtohavesomeintelligence,isn'tshe?Andintelligenceistheabilitytounderstand,isn'tit?WhydoIhavetowaittillI'velivedwithamantwenty-fiveyearstounderstandwhyyoucan'tbetactfulwithpapa?"
  "Youmayunderstandsomethingsbeforethat,"Mrs。Adamssaid,tremulously。"Youmayunderstandhowyouhurtmesometimes。
  Youthcan'tknoweverythingbybeingintelligent,andbythetimeyoucouldunderstandtheansweryou'reaskingforyou'dknowit,andwouldn'tneedtoask。Youdon'tunderstandyourfather,Alice;youdon'tknowwhatittakestochangehimwhenhe'smadeuphismindtobestubborn。"
  Aliceroseandbegantogetherselfintoaskirt。"Well,Idon'tthinkmakingsceneseverchangesanybody,"shegrumbled。"I
  thinkalittlejollypersuasiongoestwiceasfar,myself。"
  "'Alittlejollypersuasion!'"Hermotherturnedtheechoofthisphraseintoanironiclament。"Yes,therewasatimewhenI
  thoughtthat,too!Itdidn'twork;that'sall。"
  "Perhapsyouleftthe'jolly'partofitout,mama。"
  Forthesecondtimethatmorning——itwasnowalittleafterseveno'clock——tearsseemedabouttooffertheirsolacetoMrs。Adams。
  "Imighthaveexpectedyoutosaythat,Alice;youneverdomissachance,"shesaid,gently。"Itseemsqueeryoudon'tsometimemissjustONEchance!"
  ButAlice,progressingwithhertoilet,appearedtobelittleconcerned。"Oh,well,Ithinktherearebetterwaysofmanagingamanthanjusthammeringathim。"
  Mrs。Adamsutteredalittlecryofpain。"'Hammering,'Alice?"
  "Ifyou'dleftitentirelytome,"herdaughterwenton,briskly,"Ibelievepapa'dalreadybewillingtodoanythingwewanthimto。"
  "That'sit;tellmeIspoileverything。Well,Iwon'tinterferefromnowon,youcanbesureofit。"
  "Pleasedon'ttalklikethat,"Alicesaid,quickly。"I'moldenoughtorealizethatpapamayneedpressureofallsorts;I
  onlythinkitmakeshimmoreobstinatetogethimcross。Youprobablydounderstandhimbetter,butthat'sonethingI'vefoundoutandyouhaven't。There!"Shegavehermotherafriendlytapontheshoulderandwenttothedoor。"I'llhopinandsayhellotohimnow。"
  Asshewent,shecontinuedthefasteningofherblouse,andappearedinherfather'sroomwithonehandstillthusengaged,butshepattedhisforeheadwiththeother。
  "Pooroldpapa-daddy!"shesaid,gaily。"Everytimehe'sbettersomebodytalkshimintogettingsomadhehasarelapse。It'sashame!"
  Herfather'seyes,beneaththeirmelancholybrows,lookedupatherwistfully。"Isupposeyouheardyourmothergoingforme,"
  hesaid。
  "Iheardyougoingforher,too!"Alicelaughed。"Whatwasitallabout?"
  "Oh,thesamedangedoldstory!"
  "Youmeanshewantsyoutotrysomethingnewwhenyougetwell?"
  Aliceasked,withcheerfulinnocence。"Sowecouldallhavealotmoremoney?"
  Atthishissorrowfulforeheadwasmoresorrowfulthanever。Thedeephorizontallinesmovedupwardtoapatternofsufferingsofamiliartohisdaughterthatitmeantnothingtoher;buthespokequietly。"Yes;sowewouldn'thaveanymoneyatall,mostlikely。"
  "Oh,no!"shelaughed,and,finishingwithherblouse,pattedhischeekswithbothhands。"Justthinkhowmanygrandopeningstheremustbeforamanthatknowsasmuchasyoudo!Ialwaysdidbelieveyoucouldgetrichifyouonlycaredto,papa。"
  Butuponhisforeheadthepainfulpatternstilldeepened。"Don'tyouthinkwe'vealwayshadenough,thewaythingsare,Alice?"
  "NotthewaythingsARE!"Shepattedhischeeksagain;laughedagain。"Itusedtobeenough,maybeanywaywedidskimpalongonit——butthewaythingsarenowIexpectmama'sreallyprettypracticalinherideas,though,Ithinkit'sashameforhertobotheryouaboutitwhileyou'resoweak。Don'tyouworryaboutit,though;justthinkaboutotherthingstillyougetstrong。"
  "Youknow,"hesaid;"youknowitisn'texactlytheeasiestthingintheworldforamanofmyagetofindthesegrandopeningsyouspeakof。Andwhenyou'vepassedhalf-wayfromfiftytosixtyyou'reapttoseesomeriskingivingupwhatyouknowhowtodoandtryingsomethingnew。"
  "My,whatafrown!"shecried,blithely。"Didn'tItellyoutostopthinkingaboutittillyougetALLwell?"Shebentoverhim,givinghimagaylittlekissonthebridgeofhisnose。"There!
  Imustruntobreakfast。Cheerupnow!Au'voir!"Andwithherprettyhandshewavedfurtherencouragementfromtheclosingdoorasshedeparted。
  Lightsomelydescendingthenarrowstairway,shewhistledasshewent,herfingersdrummingtimeontherail;and,stillwhistling,shecameintothedining-room,wherehermotherandherbrotherwerealreadyatthetable。Thebrother,athinandsallowboyoftwenty,greetedherwithoutmuchapprovalasshetookherplace。
  "Nothingseemstotroubleyou!"hesaid。
  "No;nothingmuch,"shemadeairyresponse。"What'stroublingyourself,Walter?"
  "Don'tletthatworryyou!"hereturned,seemingtoconsiderthistobereparteeofaneffectivesort;forhefurnishedashortlaughtogowithit,andturnedtohiscoffeewiththemannerofonewhohassatisfactorilyclosedanepisode。
  "Walteralwaysseemstohavesomanysecrets!"Alicesaid,studyinghimshrewdly,butwithafriendlyenoughamusementinherscrutiny。"Everythinghedoesorsaysseemstobeactedforthebenefitofsomemysteriousaudienceinsidehimself,andhealwaysgetsitsapplause。Takewhathesaidjustnow:heseemstothinkitmeanssomething,butifitdoes,why,that'sjustanothersecretbetweenhimandthesecretaudienceinsideofhim!
  Wedon'treallyknowanythingaboutWalteratall,dowe,mama?"
  Walterlaughedagain,inamannerthatsustainedhertheorywellenough;thenafterfinishinghiscoffee,hetookfromhispocketaflattenedpacketinglazedbluepaper;extractedwithstainedfingersabentandwrinkledlittlecigarette,lightedit,hitcheduphisbeltedtrouserswiththeairofapersonwhoturnsfromtriflestothingsbetterworthhisattention,andlefttheroom。
  Alicelaughedasthedoorclosed。"He'sALLsecrets,"shesaid。
  "Don'tyouthinkyoureallyoughttoknowmoreabouthim,mama?"
  "I'msurehe'sagoodboy,"Mrs。Adamsreturned,thoughtfully。
  "He'sbeenverybraveaboutnotbeingabletohavetheadvantagesthatareenjoyedbytheboyshe'sgrownupwith。I'veneverheardawordofcomplaintfromhim。"
  "Abouthisnotbeingsenttocollege?"Alicecried。"Ishouldthinkyouwouldn't!Hedidn'tevenhaveenoughambitiontofinishhighschool!"
  Mrs。Adamssighed。"ItseemedtomeWalterlosthisambitionwhennearlyalltheboyshe'dgrownupwithwenttoEasternschoolstoprepareforcollege,andwecouldn'taffordtosendhim。Ifonlyyourfatherwouldhavelistened——"
  Aliceinterrupted:"Whatnonsense!Walterhatedbooksandstudying,andathletics,too,forthatmatter。Hedoesn'tcareforanythingnicethatIeverheardof。Whatdoyousupposehedoeslike,mama?Hemustlikesomethingorothersomewhere,butwhatdoyousupposeitis?Whatdoeshedowithhistime?"
  "Why,thepoorboy'satLambandCompany'sallday。Hedoesn'tgetthroughuntilfiveintheafternoon;hedoesn'tHAVEmuchtime。"
  "Well,weneverhavedinneruntilaboutseven,andhe'salwayslatefordinner,andgoesout,heavenknowswhere,rightafterward!"Aliceshookherhead。"Heusedtogowithourfriends'boys,butIdon'tthinkhedoesnow。"
  "Why,howcouldhe?"Mrs。Adamsprotested。"Thatisn'thisfault,poorchild!Theboysheknewwhenhewasyoungerarenearlyallawayatcollege。"
  "Yes,buthedoesn'tseeanythingof'emwhenthey'rehereatholiday-timeorvacation。Noneof'emcometothehouseanymore。"
  "Isupposehe'smadeotherfriends。It'snaturalforhimtowantcompanions,athisage。"
  "Yes,"Alicesaid,withdisapprovingemphasis。"Butwhoarethey?I'vegotanideaheplayspoolatsomeroughplacedown-town。"
  "Oh,no;I'msurehe'sasteadyboy,"Mrs。Adamsprotested,buthertonewasnotthatofthoroughgoingconviction,andsheadded,"Lifemightbeaverydifferentthingforhimifonlyyourfathercanbebroughttosee——"
  "Nevermind,mama!Itisn'tmethathastobeconvinced,youknow;andwecandoalotmorewithpapaifwejustlethimaloneaboutitforadayortwo。Promisemeyouwon'tsayanymoretohimuntil——well,untilhe'sabletocomedownstairstotable。
  Willyou?"
  Mrs。Adamsbitherlip,whichhadbeguntotremble。"IthinkyoucantrustmetoknowaFEWthings,Alice,"shesaid。"I'malittleolderthanyou,youknow。"
  "That'sagoodgirl!"Alicejumpedup,laughing。"Don'tforgetit'sthesameasapromise,anddojustcheerhimupalittle。
  I'llsaygood-byetohimbeforeIgoout。"
  "Whereareyougoing?"
  "Oh,I'vegotlotstodo。IthoughtI'drunouttoMildred'stoseewhatshe'sgoingtowearto-night,andthenIwanttogodownandbuyayardofchiffonandsomenarrowribbontomakenewbowsformyslippers——you'llhavetogivemesomemoney——"
  "Ifhe'llgiveittome!"hermotherlamented,astheywenttowardthefrontstairstogether;butanhourlatershecameintoAlice'sroomwithabillinherhand。
  "Hehassomemoneyinhisbureaudrawer,"shesaid。"Hefinallytoldmewhereitwas。"
  Thereweretracesofemotioninhervoice,andAlice,lookingshrewdlyather,sawmoistureinhereyes。
  "Mama!"shecried。"Youdidn'tdowhatyoupromisedmeyouwouldn't,didyou——NOTbeforeMissPerry!"
  "MissPerry'sgettinghimsomebroth,"Mrs。Adamsreturned,calmly。"Besides,you'remistakeninsayingIpromisedyouanything;IsaidIthoughtyoucouldtrustmetoknowwhatisright。"
  "Soyoudidbringitupagain!"AndAliceswungawayfromher,strodetoherfather'sdoor,flungitopen,wenttohim,andputalighthandsoothinglyoverhisunrelaxedforehead。
  "Pooroldpapa!"shesaid。"It'sashamehoweverybodywantstotroublehim。Heshan'tbebotheredanymoreatall!Hedoesn'tneedtohaveeverybodytellinghimhowtogetawayfromthatoldholehe'sworkedinsolongandbegintomakeusallniceandrich。HEknowshow!"
  Thereuponshekissedhimaconsolinggood-bye,andmadeanothergaydeparture,thecharminghandagainflutteringlikeawhitebutterflyintheshadowoftheclosingdoor。
  CHAPTERIII
  Mrs。AdamshadremainedinAlice'sroom,buthermoodseemedtohavechanged,duringherdaughter'slittlemorethanmomentaryabsence。
  "WhatdidheSAY?"sheasked,quickly,andhertonewashopeful。
  "'Say?'"Alicerepeated,impatiently。"Why,nothing。Ididn'tlethim。Really,mama,Ithinkthebestthingforyoutodowouldbetojustkeepoutofhisroom,becauseIdon'tbelieveyoucangointhereandnottalktohimaboutit,andifyoudotalkwe'llnevergethimtodotherightthing。Never!"
  Themother'sresponsewasagrievingsilence;sheturnedfromherdaughterandwalkedtothedoor。
  "Now,forgoodness'sake!"Alicecried。"Don'tgomakingtragedyoutofmyofferingyoualittlepracticaladvice!"
  "I'mnot,"Mrs。Adamsgulped,halting。"I'mjust——justgoingtodustthedownstairs,Alice。"Andwithherfacestillaverted,shewentoutintothelittlehallway,closingthedoorbehindher。Amomentlatershecouldbehearddescendingthestairs,thesoundofherfootstepscarryingsomehowaneffectofresignation。
  Alicelistened,sighed,and,breathingthewords,"Oh,murder!"
  turnedtocheeriermatters。Sheputonalittleapple-greenturbanwithadimgoldbandroundit,andthen,havingshroudedtheturbaninawhiteveil,whichshekeptpushedupaboveherforehead,shegotherselfintoatancoatofsoftclothfashionedwithrakishseverity。Afterthat,havingstudiedherselfgravelyinalongglass,shetookfromoneofthedrawersofherdressing-tableablackleathercard-casecorneredinsilverfiligree,butfounditempty。
  Sheopenedanotherdrawerwhereinweretwowhitepasteboardboxesofcards,theonesetshowingsimply"MissAdams,"theotherengravedinGothiccharacters,"MissAlysTuttleAdams。"ThelatterbelongedtoAlice's"Alys"period——mostgirlsgothroughit;andAlicemusthavefeltthatshehadgraduated,for,afterfrowningthoughtfullyattheexhibitthismorning,shetooktheboxwithitscontents,andletthewhiteshowerfallfromherfingersintothewaste-basketbesidehersmalldesk。Shereplenishedthecard-casefromthe"MissAdams"box;then,havingfoundapairoffreshwhitegloves,shetuckedanivory-toppedMalaccawalking-stickunderherarmandsetforth。
  Shewentdownthestairs,buttoningherglovesandstillwearingthefrownwithwhichshehadput"Alys"finallyoutofherlife。
  Shedescendedslowly,andpausedontheloweststep,lookingaboutherwithanexpressionthatneededbutaslightdeepeningtobetokenbitterness。Itsconnectionwithherdropping"Alys"
  foreverwasslight,however。
  Thesmallframehouse,aboutfifteenyearsold,wasalreadyincliningtobecomeanewColonialrelic。TheAdamseshadbuiltit,movingintoitfromthe"QueenAnne"housetheyhadrenteduntiltheytookthisstepinfashion。Butfifteenyearsisalongtimetostandstillinthemidlandcountry,evenforahouse,andthisonewaslightlymade,thoughtheAdamseshadnotrealizedhowflimsilyuntiltheyhadlivedinitforsometime。
  "Solid,compact,andconvenient"weretheinstructionstothearchitect,andhehadmadeitcompactsuccessfully。Alice,pausingatthefootofthestairway,wasatthesametimefairlyinthe"living-room,"fortheonlyseparationbetweenthe"livingroom"andthehallwasademarcationsuggestedtowillingimaginationsbyapairofwoodencolumnspaintedwhite。Thesecolumns,pineunderthepaint,werebruisedandchippedatthebase;oneofthemshowedacrackthatthreatenedtobecomeasplit;the"hard-wood"floorhadbecomeuneven;andinacornerthewallsapparentlyfailedofsolidity,wherethewall-paperhaddeclinedtoaccompanysomestaggeringsoftheplasterbeneathit。
  Thefurniturewasingreatpartanaccumulationbegunwiththeweddinggifts;thoughsomeofitwasolder,twolargepatentrocking-chairsandafootstoolhavingbelongedtoMrs。Adams'smotherinthedaysofhardbrownplushandveneer。Fordecorationtherewerepicturesandvases。Mrs。Adamshadalwaysbeenfondofvases,shesaid,andeveryyearherhusband'sChristmaspresenttoherwasavaseofonesortoranother——whatevertheclerkshowedhim,markedatabouttwelveorfourteendollars。Thepicturesweresomeofthemetchingsframedingilt:Rheims,Canterbury,schoonersgroupedagainstawharf;
  andAlicecouldrememberhow,inherchildhood,herfathersometimespointedoutthewateryreflectionsinthislastasveryfine。Butitwasalongtimesincehehadshowninterestinsuchthings——"orinanythingmuch,"asshethought。
  Otherpicturesweretwowater-coloursinbaroqueframes;onebeingtheAmalfimonkonapergolawall,whilethesecondwasayard-widedisplayofirisblossoms,paintedbyAliceherselfatfourteen,asabirthdaygifttohermother。Alice'sglancepauseduponitnowwithnogreatpride,butshowedmoreapprovalofanenormousphotographoftheColosseum。Thisshethoughtofas"theonlygoodthingintheroom";itpossessedandbestoweddistinction,shefelt;andshedidnotregrethavingwonherstruggletogetithunginitsconspicuousplaceofhonouroverthemantelpiece。Formerlythatplacehadbeenheldforyearsbyasteel-engraving,anaccuraterepresentationoftheSuspensionBridgeatNiagaraFalls。Itwasalmostaslargeasitssuccessor,the"Colosseum,"andithadbeenpresentedtoMr。