Anewdoctrine,receivedwithscreamsalittlewhileagobycantingmoralists,andstillnotproperlyworkedintothebodyofourthoughts,lightsusastepfartherintotheheartofthisroughbutnobleuniverse。Fornowadaystheprideofmandeniesinvainhiskinshipwiththeoriginaldust。Hestandsnolongerlikeathingapart。Closeathisheelsweseethedog,princeofanothergenus:
andinhimtoo,weseedumblytestifiedthesamecultusofanunattainableideal,thesameconstancyinfailure。Doesitstopwiththedog?Welookatourfeetwherethegroundisblackenedwiththeswarmingant:acreaturesosmall,sofarfromusinthehierarchyofbrutes,thatwecanscarcetraceandscarcecomprehendhisdoings;andherealso,inhisorderedpoliticsandrigorousjustice,weseeconfessedthelawofdutyandthefactofindividualsin。Doesitstop,then,withtheant?Ratherthisdesireofwell-doingandthisdoomoffrailtyrunthroughallthegradesoflife:ratheristhisearth,fromthefrostytopofEveresttothenextmarginoftheinternalfire,onestageofineffectualvirtuesandonetempleofpioustearsandperseverance。
Thewholecreationgroanethandtravailethtogether。Itisthecommonandthegod-likelawoflife。Thebrowsers,thebiters,thebarkers,thehairycoatsoffieldandforest,thesquirrelintheoak,thethousand-footedcreeperinthedust,astheysharewithusthegiftoflife,sharewithustheloveofanideal:strivelikeus-likeusaretemptedtogrowwearyofthestruggle-todowell;likeusreceiveattimesunmeritedrefreshment,visitingsofsupport,returnsofcourage;andarecondemnedlikeustobecrucifiedbetweenthatdoublelawofthemembersandthewill。Aretheylikeus,Iwonder,inthetimidhopeofsomereward,somesugarwiththedrug?dothey,too,standaghastatunrewardedvirtues,atthesufferingsofthosewhom,inourpartiality,wetaketobejust,andtheprosperityofsuchas,inourblindness,wecallwicked?Itmaybe,andyetGodknowswhattheyshouldlookfor。Evenwhiletheylook,evenwhiletheyrepent,thefootofmantreadsthembythousandsinthedust,theyelpinghoundsburstupontheirtrail,thebulletspeeds,theknivesareheatinginthedenofthevivisectionist;orthedewfalls,andthegenerationofadayisblottedout。Forthesearecreatures,comparedwithwhomourweaknessisstrength,ourignorancewisdom,ourbriefspaneternity。
Andaswedwell,welivingthings,inourisleofterrorandundertheimminenthandofdeath,Godforbiditshouldbemantheerected,thereasoner,thewiseinhisowneyes-Godforbiditshouldbemanthatweariesinwell-doing,thatdespairsofunrewardedeffort,oruttersthelanguageofcomplaint。Letitbeenoughforfaith,thatthewholecreationgroansinmortalfrailty,striveswithunconquerableconstancy:Surelynotallinvain。
CHAPTERXII-ACHRISTMASSERMON
BYthetimethispaperappears,Ishallhavebeentalkingfortwelvemonths;anditisthoughtIshouldtakemyleaveinaformalandseasonablemanner。Valedictoryeloquenceisrare,anddeath-
bedsayingshavenotoftenhitthemarkoftheoccasion。CharlesSecond,witandsceptic,amanwhoselifehadbeenonelonglessoninhumanincredulity,aneasy-goingcomrade,amanoeuvringking-
rememberedandembodiedallhiswitandscepticismalongwithmorethanhisusualgoodhumourinthefamous"Iamafraid,gentlemen,I
amanunconscionabletimea-dying。"
I
Anunconscionabletimea-dying-thereisthepicture"Iamafraid,gentlemen,"ofyourlifeandofmine。Thesandsrunout,andthehoursare"numberedandimputed,"andthedaysgoby;andwhenthelastofthesefindsus,wehavebeenalongtimedying,andwhatelse?Theverylengthissomething,ifwereachthathourofseparationundishonoured;andtohavelivedatallisdoubtlessinthesoldierlyexpressiontohaveserved。
ThereisataleinTicitusofhowtheveteransmutiniedintheGermanwilderness;ofhowtheymobbedGermanicus,clamouinggohome;andofhow,seizingtheirgeneral'shand,theseold,war-wornexilespassedhisfingeralongtheirtoothlessgums。SUNTLACRYMAE
RERUM:thiswasthemosteloquentofthesongsofSimeon。Andwhenamanhaslivedtoafairage,hebearshismarksofservice。
Hemayhaveneverbeenremarkeduponthebreachattheheadofthearmy;atleastheshallhavelosthisteethonthecampbread。
Theidealismofseriouspeopleinthisageofoursisofanoblecharacter。Itneverseemstothemthattheyhaveservedenough;
theyhaveafineimpatienceoftheirvirtues。Itwereperhapsmoremodesttobesinglythankfulthatwearenoworse。Itisnotonlyourenemies,thosedesperatecharacters-itisweourselveswhoknownotwhatwedo,-thencespringstheglimmeringhopethatperhapswedobetterthanwethink:thattoscramblethroughthisrandombusinesswithhandsreasonablycleantohaveplayedthepartofamanorwomanwithsomereasonablefulness,tohaveoftenresistedthediabolic,andattheendtobestillresistingit,isforthepoorhumansoldiertohavedonerightwell。Toasktoseesomefruitofourendeavourisbutatranscendentalwayofservingforreward;andwhatwetaketobecontemptofselfisonlygreedofhire。
Andagainifwerequiresomuchofourselves,shallwenotrequiremuchofothers?Ifwedonotgeniallyjudgeourowndeficiencies,isitnottobefearedweshallbeevensterntothetrespassesofothers?Andhewholookingbackuponhisownlifecanseenomorethanthathehasbeenunconscionablylonga-dying,willhenotbetemptedtothinkhisneighbourunconscionablylongofgettinghanged?Itisprobablethatnearlyallwhothinkofconductatall,thinkofittoomuch;itiscertainweallthinktoomuchofsin。Wearenotdamnedfordoingwrong,butfornotdoingright;
Christwouldneverhearofnegativemorality;THOUSHALTwaseverhisword,withwhichhesupersededTHOUSHALTNOT。Tomakeourideaofmoralitycentreonforbiddenactsistodefiletheimaginationandtointroduceintoourjudgmentsofourfellow-menasecretelementofgusto。Ifathingiswrongforus,weshouldnotdwelluponthethoughtofit;orweshallsoondwelluponitwithinvertedpleasure。Ifwecannotdriveitfromourminds-onethingoftwo:eitherourcreedisinthewrongandwemustmoreindulgentlyremodelit;orelse,ifourmoralitybeintheright,wearecriminallunaticsandshouldplaceourpersonsinrestraint。
Amarkofsuchunwholesomelydividedmindsisthepassionforinterferencewithothers:theFoxwithouttheTailwasofthisbreed,buthadifhisbiographeristobetrustedacertainantiquecivilitynowoutofdate。Amanmayhaveaflaw,aweakness,thatunfitshimforthedutiesoflife,thatspoilshistemper,thatthreatenshisintegrity,orthatbetrayshimintocruelty。Ithastobeconquered;butitmustneverhesufferedtoengrosshisthoughts。Thetruedutiesliealluponthefartherside,andmustbeattendedtowithawholemindsosoonasthispreliminaryclearingofthedeckshasbeeneffected。Inorderthathemaybekindandhonest,itmaybeneedfulheshouldbecomeatotalabstainer;lethimbecomesothen,andthenextdaylethimforgetthecircumstance。Tryingtobekindandhonestwillrequireallhisthoughts;amortifiedappetiteisneverawisecompanion;
insofarashehashadtomortifyanappetite,hewillstillbetheworseman;andofsuchanoneagreatdealofcheerfulnesswillberequiredinjudginglife,andagreatdealofhumilityinjudgingothers。
Itmaybearguedagainthatdissatisfactionwithourlife'sendeavourspringsinsomedegreefromdulness。Werequirehighertasks,becausewedonotrecognisetheheightofthosewehave。
Tryingtobekindandhonestseemsanaffairtoosimpleandtooinconsequentialforgentlemenofourheroicmould;wehadrathersetourselvestosomethingbold,arduous,andconclusive;wehadratherfoundaschismorsuppressaheresy,cutoffahandormortifyanappetite。Butthetaskbeforeus,whichistoco-endurewithourexistence,isratheroneofmicroscopicfineness,andtheheroismrequiredisthatofpatience。ThereisnocuttingoftheGordianknotsoflife;eachmustbesmilinglyunravelled。
Tobehonest,tobekind-toearnalittleandtospendalittleless,tomakeuponthewholeafamilyhappierforhispresence,torenouncewhenthatshallbenecessaryandnotbeembittered,tokeepafewfriends,butthesewithoutcapitulation-aboveall,onthesamegrimcondition,tokeepfriendswithhimself-hereisataskforallthatamanhasoffortitudeanddelicacy。Hehasanambitioussoulwhowouldaskmore;hehasahopefulspiritwhoshouldlookinsuchanenterprisetobesuccessful。Thereisindeedoneelementinhumandestinythatnotblindnessitselfcancontrovert:whateverelseweareintendedtodo,wearenotintendedtosucceed;failureisthefateallotted。Itissoineveryartandstudy;itissoaboveallinthecontinentartoflivingwell。Hereisapleasantthoughtfortheyear'sendorfortheendoflife。Onlyself-deceptionwillbesatisfied,andthereneedbenodespairforthedespairer。
II
ButChristmasisnotonlythemile-markofanotheryear,movingustothoughtsofself-examination:itisaseason,fromallitsassociations,whetherdomesticorreligious,suggestingthoughtsofjoy。Amandissatisfiedwithhisendeavoursisamantemptedtosadness。Andinthemidstofthewinter,whenhisliferunslowestandheisremindedoftheemptychairsofhisbeloved,itiswellheshouldbecondemnedtothisfashionofthesmilingface。Nobledisappointment,nobleself-denial,arenottobeadmired,noteventobepardoned,iftheybringbitterness。Itisonethingtoenterthekingdomofheavenmaim;anothertomaimyourselfandstaywithout。Andthekingdomofheavenisofthechild-like,ofthosewhoareeasytoplease,wholoveandwhogivepleasure。Mightymenoftheirhands,thesmitersandthebuildersandthejudges,havelivedlonganddonesternlyandyetpreservedthislovelycharacter;andamongourcarpetinterestsandtwopennyconcerns,theshamewereindelibleifWEshouldloseit。Gentlenessandcheerfulness,thesecomebeforeallmorality;theyaretheperfectduties。Anditisthetroublewithmoralmenthattheyhaveneitheronenorother。Itwasthemoralman,thePharisee,whomChristcouldnotawaywith。Ifyourmoralsmakeyoudreary,dependuponittheyarewrong。Idonotsay"givethemup,"fortheymaybeallyouhave;butconcealthemlikeavice,lesttheyshouldspoilthelivesofbetterandsimplerpeople。
Astrangetemptationattendsuponman:tokeephiseyeonpleasures,evenwhenhewillnotshareinthem;toaimallhismoralsagainstthem。Thisveryyearaladysingulariconoclast!
proclaimedacrusadeagainstdolls;andtheracysermonagainstlustisafeatureoftheage。Iventuretocallsuchmoralistsinsincere。Atanyexcessorperversionofanaturalappetite,theirlyresoundsofitselfwithrelishingdenunciations;butforalldisplaysofthetrulydiabolic-envy,malice,themeanlie,themeansilence,thecalumnioustruth,theback-biter,thepettytyrant,thepeevishpoisoneroffamilylife-theirstandardisquitedifferent。Thesearewrong,theywilladmit,yetsomehownotsowrong;thereisnozealintheirassaultonthem,nosecretelementofgustowarmsupthesermon;itisforthingsnotwronginthemselvesthattheyreservethechoicestoftheirindignation。A
manmaynaturallydisclaimallmoralkinshipwiththeReverendMr。
Zolaorthehobgoblinoldladyofthedolls;forthesearegrossandnakedinstances。Andyetineachofussomesimilarelementresides。Thesightofapleasureinwhichwecannotorelsewillnotsharemovesustoaparticularimpatience。Itmaybebecauseweareenvious,orbecausewearesad,orbecausewedislikenoiseandromping-beingsorefined,orbecause-beingsophilosophic-
wehaveanover-weighingsenseoflife'sgravity:atleast,aswegooninyears,wearealltemptedtofrownuponourneighbour'spleasures。Peoplearenowadayssofondofresistingtemptations;
hereisonetoberesisted。Theyarefondofself-denial;hereisapropensitythatcannotbetooperemptorilydenied。Thereisanideaabroadamongmoralpeoplethattheyshouldmaketheirneighboursgood。OnepersonIhavetomakegood:myself。ButmydutytomyneighbourismuchmorenearlyexpressedbysayingthatI
havetomakehimhappy-ifImay。
III
Happinessandgoodness,accordingtocantingmoralists,standintherelationofeffectandcause。Therewasneveranythinglessprovedorlessprobable:ourhappinessisneverinourownhands;
weinheritourconstitution;westandbuffetamongfriendsandenemies;wemaybesobuiltastofeelasneeroranaspersionwithunusualkeenness,andsocircumstancedastobeunusuallyexposedtothem;wemayhavenervesverysensitivetopain,andbeafflictedwithadiseaseverypainful。Virtuewillnothelpus,anditisnotmeanttohelpus。Itisnotevenitsownreward,exceptfortheself-centredand-Ihadalmostsaid-theunamiable。Nomancanpacifyhisconscience;ifquietbewhathewant,heshalldobettertoletthatorganperishfromdisuse。Andtoavoidthepenaltiesofthelaw,andtheminorCAPITISDIMINUTIO
ofsocialostracism,isanaffairofwisdom-ofcunning,ifyouwill-andnotofvirtue。
Inhisownlife,then,amanisnottoexpecthappiness,onlytoprofitbyitgladlywhenitshallarise;heisondutyhere;heknowsnothoworwhy,anddoesnotneedtoknow;heknowsnotforwhathire,andmustnotask。Somehoworother,thoughhedoesnotknowwhatgoodnessis,hemusttrytobegood;somehoworother,thoughhecannottellwhatwilldoit,hemusttrytogivehappinesstoothers。Andnodoubttherecomesinhereafrequentclashofduties。Howfarishetomakehisneighbourhappy?Howfarmustherespectthatsmilingface,soeasytocloud,sohardtobrightenagain?Andhowfar,ontheotherside,isheboundtobehisbrother'skeeperandtheprophetofhisownmorality?Howfarmustheresentevil?
Thedifficultyisthatwehavelittleguidance;Christ'ssayingsonthepointbeinghardtoreconcilewitheachother,andthemostofthemhardtoaccept。Butthetruthofhisteachingwouldseemtobethis:inourownpersonandfortune,weshouldbereadytoacceptandtopardonall;itisOURcheekwearetoturn,OURcoatthatwearetogiveawaytothemanwhohastakenOURcloak。Butwhenanother'sfaceisbuffeted,perhapsalittleofthelionwillbecomeusbest。Thatwearetosufferotherstobeinjured,andstandby,isnotconceivableandsurelynotdesirable。Revenge,saysBacon,isakindofwildjustice;itsjudgmentsatleastaredeliveredbyaninsanejudge;andinourownquarrelwecanseenothingtrulyanddonothingwisely。Butinthequarrelofourneighbour,letusbemorebold。Oneperson'shappinessisassacredasanother's;whenwecannotdefendboth,letusdefendonewithastoutheart。Itisonlyinsofaraswearedoingthis,thatwehaveanyrighttointerfere:thedefenceofBisouronlygroundofactionagainstA。Ahasasgoodarighttogotothedevil,aswetogotoglory;andneitherknowswhathedoes。
Thetruthisthatalltheseinterventionsanddenunciationsandmilitantmongeringsofmoralhalf-truths,thoughtheybesometimesneedful,thoughtheyareoftenenjoyable,doyetbelongtoaninferiorgradeofduties。Ill-temperandenvyandrevengefindhereanarsenalofpiousdisguises;thisistheplaygroundofinvertedlusts。Withalittlemorepatienceandalittlelesstemper,agentlerandwisermethodmightbefoundinalmosteverycase;andtheknotthatwecutbysomefineheadyquarrel-sceneinprivatelife,or,inpublicaffairs,bysomedenunciatoryactagainstwhatwearepleasedtocallourneighbour'svices,mightyethavebeenunwovenbythehandofsympathy。
IV
Tolookbackuponthepastyear,andseehowlittlewehavestrivenandtowhatsmallpurpose;andhowoftenwehavebeencowardlyandhungback,ortemerariousandrushedunwiselyin;andhoweverydayandalldaylongwehavetransgressedthelawofkindness;-itmayseemaparadox,butinthebitternessofthesediscoveries,acertainconsolationresides。Lifeisnotdesignedtoministertoaman'svanity。Hegoesuponhislongbusinessmostofthetimewithahanginghead,andallthetimelikeablindchild。Fullofrewardsandpleasuresasitis-sothattoseethedaybreakorthemoonrise,ortomeetafriend,ortohearthedinner-callwhenheishungry,fillshimwithsurprisingjoys-thisworldisyetforhimnoabidingcity。Friendshipsfallthrough,healthfails,wearinessassailshim;yearafteryear,hemustthumbthehardlyvaryingrecordofhisownweaknessandfolly。Itisafriendlyprocessofdetachment。Whenthetimecomesthatheshouldgo,thereneedbefewillusionsleftabouthimself。HERELIESONEWHO
MEANTWELL,TRIEDALITTLE,FAILEDMUCH:-surelythatmaybehisepitaph,ofwhichheneednotbeashamed。Norwillhecomplainatthesummonswhichcallsadefeatedsoldierfromthefield:
defeated,ay,ifhewerePaulorMarcusAurelius!-butifthereisstilloneinchoffightinhisoldspirit,undishonoured。Thefaithwhichsustainedhiminhislife-longblindnessandlife-longdisappointmentwillscarceevenberequiredinthislastformalityoflayingdownhisarms。Givehimamarchwithhisoldbones;
there,outoftheglorioussun-colouredearth,outofthedayandthedustandtheecstasy-theregoesanotherFaithfulFailure!
Fromarecentbookofverse,wherethereismorethanonesuchbeautifulandmanlypoem,Itakethismemorialpiece:itsaysbetterthanIcan,whatIlovetothink;letitbeourpartingword。
"Alatelarktwittersfromthequietskies;
Andfromthewest,Wherethesun,hisday'sworkended,Lingersasincontent,Therefallsontheold,graycityAninfluenceluminousandserene,Ashiningpeace。
"ThesmokeascendsInarosy-and-goldenhaze。ThespiresShine,andarechanged。InthevalleyShadowsrise。Thelarksingson。Thesun,Closinghisbenediction,Sinks,andthedarkeningairThrillswithasenseofthetriumphingnight-
Night,withhertrainofstarsAndhergreatgiftofsleep。
"Sobemypassing!
Mytaskaccomplishedandthelongdaydone,Mywagestaken,andinmyheartSomelatelarksinging,Letmebegatheredtothequietwest,Thesundownsplendidandserene,Death。"
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