ThreehoursandahalfofstraininguphillsandjoggingdownbroughtthemtoSt。Launce's,themarkettownandrailwaystationnearesttoEndelstow,andtheplacefromwhichStephenSmithhadjourneyedoverthedownsonthe,tohim,memorablewintereveningatthebeginningofthesameyear。Thecarrier'svanwassotimedastomeetastartingup-train,whichStephenentered。Twoorthreehours'railwaytravelthroughverticalcuttingsinmetamorphicrock,throughoakcopsesrichandgreen,stretchingoverslopesanddowndelightfulvalleys,glens,andravines,sparklingwithwaterlikemany-rilledIda,andheplungedamidthehundredandfiftythousandpeoplecomposingthetownofPlymouth。
Therebeingsometimeuponhishandshelefthisluggageatthecloak-room,andwentonfootalongBedfordStreettothenearestchurch。HereStephenwanderedamongthemultifarioustombstonesandlookedinatthechancelwindow,dreamingofsomethingthatwaslikelytohappenbythealtarthereinthecourseofthecomingmonth。HeturnedawayandascendedtheHoe,viewedthemagnificentstretchofseaandmassivepromontoriesofland,butwithoutparticularlydiscerningonefeatureofthevariedperspective。Hestillsawthatinnerprospect——theeventhehopedforinyonderchurch。ThewideSound,theBreakwater,thelight-
houseonfar-offEddystone,thedarksteamvessels,brigs,barques,andschooners,eitherfloatingstilly,orglidingwithtiniestmotion,wereasthedream,then;thedreamed-ofeventwasasthereality。
SoonStephenwentdownfromtheHoe,andreturnedtotherailwaystation。Hetookhisticket,andenteredtheLondontrain。
ThatdaywasanirksometimeatEndelstowvicarage。NeitherfathernordaughteralludedtothedepartureofStephen。Mr。
Swancourt'smannertowardsherpartookofthecompunctiouskindnessthatarisesfromamisgivingastothejusticeofsomepreviousact。
Eitherfromlackofthecapacitytograspthewholecoupd'oeil,orfromanaturalendowmentforcertainkindsofstoicism,womenarecoolerthanmenincriticalsituationsofthepassiveform。
Probably,inElfride'scaseatleast,itwasblindnesstothegreatercontingenciesofthefutureshewaspreparingforherself,whichenabledhertoaskherfatherinaquietvoiceifhecouldgiveheraholidaysoon,toridetoSt。Launce'sandgoontoPlymouth。
Now,shehadonlyoncebeforegonealonetoPlymouth,andthatwasinconsequenceofsomeunavoidabledifficulty。Beingacountrygirl,andagood,nottosayawild,horsewoman,ithadbeenherdelighttocanter,withouttheghostofanattendant,overthefourteenorsixteenmilesofhardroadinterveningbetweentheirhomeandthestationatSt。Launce's,putupthehorse,andgoontheremainderofthedistancebytrain,returninginthesamemannerintheevening。Itwasthenresolvedthat,thoughshehadsuccessfullyaccomplishedthisjourneyonce,itwasnottoberepeatedwithoutsomeattendance。
ButElfridemustnotbeconfoundedwithordinaryyoungfeminineequestrians。Thecircumstancesofherlonelyandnarrowlifemadeitimperativethatintrottingabouttheneighbourhoodshemusttrotaloneorelsenotatall。Usagesoonrenderedthisperfectlynaturaltoherself。Herfather,whohadhadotherexperiences,didnotmuchliketheideaofaSwancourt,whosepedigreecouldbeasdistinctlytracedasathreadinaskeinofsilk,scamperingoverthehillslikeafarmer'sdaughter,eventhoughhecouldhabituallyneglecther。Butwhatwithhisnotbeingabletoaffordheraregularattendant,andhisinveteratehabitoflettinganythingbetosavehimselftrouble,thecircumstancegrewcustomary。Andsotherearoseachronicnotioninthevillagers'
mindsthatallladiesrodewithoutanattendant,likeMissSwancourt,exceptafewwhoweresometimesvisitingatLordLuxellian's。
'Idon'tlikeyourgoingtoPlymouthalone,particularlygoingtoSt。Launce'sonhorseback。Whynotdrive,andtaketheman?'
'Itisnotnicetobesooverlooked。'Worm'scompanywouldnotseriouslyhaveinterferedwithherplans,butitwasherhumourtogowithouthim。
'Whendoyouwanttogo?'saidherfather。
Sheonlyanswered,'Soon。'
'Iwillconsider,'hesaid。
Onlyafewdayselapsedbeforesheaskedagain。AletterhadreachedherfromStephen。Ithadbeentimedtocomeonthatdaybyspecialarrangementbetweenthem。InithenamedtheearliestmorningonwhichhecouldmeetheratPlymouth。HerfatherhadbeenonajourneytoStratleigh,andreturnedinunusualbuoyancyofspirit。Itwasagoodopportunity;andsincethedismissalofStephenherfatherhadbeengenerallyinamoodtomakesmallconcessions,thathemightsteerclearoflargeonesconnectedwiththatoutcastloverofhers。
'NextThursdayweekIamgoingfromhomeinadifferentdirection,'saidherfather。'Infact,Ishallleavehomethenightbefore。Youmightchoosethesameday,fortheywishtotakeupthecarpets,orsomesuchthing,Ithink。AsIsaid,I
don'tlikeyoutobeseeninatownonhorsebackalone;butgoifyouwill。'
Thursdayweek。HerfatherhadnamedtheverydaythatStephenalsohadnamedthatmorningastheearliestonwhichitwouldbeofanyusetomeether;thatwas,aboutfifteendaysfromthedayonwhichhehadleftEndelstow。Fifteendays——thatfragmentofdurationwhichhasacquiredsuchaninterestingindividualityfromitsconnectionwiththeEnglishmarriagelaw。
Sheinvoluntarilylookedatherfathersostrangely,thatonbecomingconsciousofthelookshepaledwithembarrassment。Herfather,too,lookedconfused。Whatwashethinkingof?
ThereseemedtobeaspecialfacilityofferedherbyapowerexternaltoherselfinthecircumstancethatMr。Swancourthadproposedtoleavehomethenightprevioustoherwished-forday。
Herfatherseldomtooklongjourneys;seldomsleptfromhomeexceptperhapsonthenightfollowingaremoteVisitation。Well,shewouldnotinquiretoocuriouslyintothereasonoftheopportunity,nordidhe,aswouldhavebeennatural,proceedtoexplainitofhisownaccord。Inmattersoffacttherehadhithertobeennoreservebetweenthem,thoughtheywerenotusuallyconfidentialinitsfullsense。ButthedivergenceoftheiremotionsonStephen'saccounthadproducedanestrangementwhichjustatpresentwenteventotheextentofreticenceonthemostordinaryhouseholdtopics。
Elfridewasalmostunconsciouslyrelieved,persuadingherselfthatherfather'sreserveonhisbusinessjustifiedherinsecrecyasregardedherown——asecrecywhichwasnecessarilyaforegonedecisionwithher。Soanxiousisayoungconsciencetodiscoverapalliative,thattheexpostfactonatureofareasonisofnoaccountinexcludingit。
Theinterveningfortnightwasspentbyhermostlyinwalkingbyherselfamongtheshrubsandtrees,indulgingsometimesinsanguineanticipations;more,farmorefrequently,inmisgivings。
Allherflowersseemeddullofhue;herpetsseemedtolookwistfullyintohereyes,asiftheynolongerstoodinthesamefriendlyrelationtoherasformerly。Sheworemelancholyjewellery,gazedatsunsets,andtalkedtooldmenandwomen。Itwasthefirsttimethatshehadhadaninnerandprivateworldapartfromthevisibleoneabouther。Shewishedthatherfather,insteadofneglectingherevenmorethanusual,wouldmakesomeadvance——justoneword;shewouldthentellall,andriskStephen'sdispleasure。Thusbroughtroundtotheyouthagain,shesawhiminherfancy,standing,touchingher,hiseyesfullofsadaffection,hopelesslyrenouncinghisattemptbecauseshehadrenouncedhers;andshecouldnotrecede。
OntheWednesdayshewastoreceiveanotherletter。Shehadresolvedtoletherfatherseethearrivalofthisone,betheconsequenceswhattheymight:thedreadoflosingherloverbythisdeedofhonestypreventedheractingupontheresolve。Fiveminutesbeforethepostman'sexpectedarrivalsheslippedout,anddownthelanetomeethim。Shemethimimmediatelyuponturningasharpangle,whichhidherfromviewinthedirectionofthevicarage。Themansmilinglyhandedonemissive,andwasgoingontohandanother,acircularfromsometradesman。
'No,'shesaid;'takethatontothehouse。'
'Why,miss,youaredoingwhatyourfatherhasdoneforthelastfortnight。'
Shedidnotcomprehend。
'Why,cometothiscorner,andtakealetterofmeeverymorning,allwritinthesamehandwriting,andlettinganyothersforhimgoontothehouse。'Andonthepostmanwent。
Nosoonerhadheturnedthecornerbehindherbackthansheheardherfathermeetandaddresstheman。Shehadsavedherletterbytwominutes。Herfatheraudiblywentthroughpreciselythesameperformanceasshehadjustbeenguiltyofherself。
Thisstealthyconductofhiswas,tosaytheleast,peculiar。
Givenanimpulsiveinconsequentgirl,neglectedastoherinnerlifebyheronlyparent,andthefollowingforcesalivewithinher;todeterminearesultant:
Firstloveacteduponbyadeadlyfearofseparationfromitsobject:inexperience,guidingonwardafranticwishtopreventtheabove-namedissue:misgivingsastopropriety,metbyhopeofultimateexoneration:indignationatparentalinconsistencyinfirstencouraging,thenforbidding:achillingsenseofdisobedience,overpoweredbyaconscientiousinabilitytobrookabreakingofplightedfaithwithamanwho,inessentials,hadremainedunalteredfromthebeginning:ablessedhopethatoppositionwouldturnanerroneousjudgement:abrightfaiththatthingswouldmendthereby,andwindupwell。
Probablytheresultwould,afterall,havebeennil,hadnotthefollowingfewremarksbeenmadeonedayatbreakfast。
Herfatherwasinhisoldheartyspirits。Hesmiledtohimselfatstoriestoobadtotell,andcalledElfridealittlescampforsurreptitiouslypreservingsomeblindkittensthatoughttohavebeendrowned。Afterthisexpression,shesaidtohimsuddenly:
IfMr。Smithhadbeenalreadyinthefamily,youwouldnothavebeenmadewretchedbydiscoveringhehadpoorrelations?'
'Doyoumeaninthefamilybymarriage?'herepliedinattentively,andcontinuingtopeelhisegg。
Theaccumulatingscarlettoldthatwashermeaning,asmuchastheaffirmativereply。
'Ishouldhaveputupwithit,nodoubt,'Mr。Swancourtobserved。
'Sothatyouwouldnothavebeendrivenintohopelessmelancholy,buthavemadethebestofhim?'
Elfride'serraticmindhadfromheryouthupwardsbeenconstantlyinthehabitofperplexingherfatherbyhypotheticalquestions,basedonabsurdconditions。Thepresentseemedtobecastsopreciselyinthemouldofpreviousonesthat,notbeinggiventosynthesesofcircumstances,heanswereditwithcustomarycomplacency。
'Ifhewerealliedtousirretrievably,ofcourseI,oranysensibleman,shouldacceptconditionsthatcouldnotbealtered;
certainlynotbehopelesslymelancholyaboutit。Idon'tbelieveanythingintheworldwouldmakemehopelesslymelancholy。Anddon'tletanythingmakeyouso,either。'
'Iwon't,papa,'shecried,withaserenebrightnessthatpleasedhim。
CertainlyMr。Swancourtmusthavebeenfarfromthinkingthatthebrightnesscamefromanexhilaratingintentiontoholdbacknolongerfromthemadactionshehadplanned。
IntheeveninghedroveawaytowardsStratleigh,quitealone。Itwasanunusualcourseforhim。AtthedoorElfridehadbeenagainalmostimpelledbyherfeelingstopouroutall。
'WhyareyougoingtoStratleigh,papa?'shesaid,andlookedathimlongingly。
'Iwilltellyouto-morrowwhenIcomeback,'hesaidcheerily;
'notbeforethen,Elfride。Thouwiltnotutterwhatthoudostnotknow,andsofarwillItrustthee,gentleElfride。'
Shewasrepressedandhurt。
'IwilltellyoumyerrandtoPlymouth,too,whenIcomeback,'
shemurmured。
Hewentaway。Hisjocularitymadeherintentionseemthelighter,ashisindifferencemadehermoreresolvedtodoassheliked。
ItwasafamiliarSeptembersunset,dark-bluefragmentsofclouduponanorange-yellowsky。Thesesunsetsusedtotempthertowalktowardsthem,asanybeautifulthingtemptsanearapproach。
Shewentthroughthefieldtotheprivethedge,clamberedintothemiddleofit,andreclineduponthethickboughs。Afterlookingwestwardforaconsiderabletime,sheblamedherselffornotlookingeastwardtowhereStephenwas,andturnedround。
Ultimatelyhereyesfellupontheground。
Apeculiaritywasobservablebeneathher。Agreenfieldspreaditselfoneachsideofthehedge,onebelongingtotheglebe,theotherbeingapartofthelandattachedtothemanor-houseadjoining。Onthevicaragesideshesawalittlefootpath,thedistinctiveandaltogetherexceptionalfeatureofwhichconsistedinitsbeingonlyabouttenyardslong;itterminatedabruptlyateachend。
Afootpath,suddenlybeginningandsuddenlyending,comingfromnowhereandleadingnowhere,shehadneverseenbefore。
Yes,shehad,onsecondthoughts。Shehadseenexactlysuchapathtroddeninthefrontofbarracksbythesentry。
Andthisrecollectionexplainedtheoriginofthepathhere。Herfatherhadtroddenitbypacingupanddown,asshehadonceseenhimdoing。
Sittingonthehedgeasshesatnow,hereyescommandedaviewofbothsidesofit。Andafewminuteslater,Elfridelookedovertothemanorside。
Herewasanothersentrypath。Itwaslikethefirstinlength,anditbeganandendedexactlyoppositethebeginningandendingofitsneighbour,butitwasthinner,andlessdistinct。
Tworeasonsexistedforthedifference。Thisonemighthavebeentroddenbyasimilarweightoftreadtotheother,exercisedalessnumberoftimes;oritmighthavebeenwalkedjustasfrequently,butbylighterfeet。
ProbablyagentlemanfromScotland-yard,hadhebeenpassingatthetime,mighthaveconsideredthelatteralternativeasthemoreprobable。Elfridethoughtotherwise,sofarasshethoughtatall。ButherowngreatTo-Morrowwasnowimminent;allthoughtsinspiredbycasualsightsoftheeyewereonlyallowedtoexercisethemselvesininferiorcornersofherbrain,previouslytobeingbanishedaltogether。
Elfridewasatlengthcompelledtoreasonpracticallyuponherundertaking。Allherdefiniteperceptionsthereon,whentheemotionaccompanyingthemwasabstracted,amountedtonomorethanthese:
'Sayanhourandthree-quarterstoridetoSt。Launce's。
'SayhalfanhourattheFalcontochangemydress。
'SaytwohourswaitingforsometrainandgettingtoPlymouth。
'Sayanhourtosparebeforetwelveo'clock。
'TotaltimefromleavingEndelstowtilltwelveo'clock,fivehours。
'ThereforeIshallhavetostartatseven。'
Nosurpriseorsenseofunwontednessenteredthemindsoftheservantsatherearlyride。Themonotonyoflifeweassociatewithpeopleofsmallincomesindistrictsoutofthesoundoftherailwaywhistle,hasoneexception,whichputsintoshadetheexperienceofdwellersaboutthegreatcentresofpopulation——thatis,intravelling。Everyjourneythereismoreorlessanadventure;adventuroushoursarenecessarilychosenforthemostcommonplaceouting。MissElfridehadtoleaveearly——thatwasall。
Elfrideneverwentoutonhorsebackbutshebroughthomesomething——somethingfound,orsomethingbought。Ifshetrottedtotownorvillage,herburdenwasbooks。Iftohills,woods,ortheseashore,itwaswonderfulmosses,abnormaltwigs,ahandkerchiefofwetshellsorseaweed。
Once,inmuddyweather,whenPansywaswalkingwithherdownthestreetofCastleBoterel,onafair-day,apacketinfrontofherandapacketunderherarm,anaccidentbefellthepackets,andtheyslippeddown。Ononesideofher,threevolumesoffictionlaykissingthemud;ontheothernumerousskeinsofpolychromaticwoolslayabsorbingit。Unpleasantwomensmiledthroughwindowsatthemishap,themenalllookedround,andaboy,whowasmindingaginger-breadstallwhilsttheownerhadgonetogetdrunk,laughedloudly。Theblueeyesturnedtosapphires,andthecheekscrimsonedwithvexation。
Afterthatmisadventureshesetherwitstowork,andwasingeniousenoughtoinventanarrangementofsmallstrapsaboutthesaddle,bywhichagreatdealcouldbesafelycarriedthereon,inasmallcompass。Hereshenowspreadoutandfastenedaplaindarkwalking-dressandafewothertriflesofapparel。Wormopenedthegateforher,andshevanishedaway。
Oneofthebrightestmorningsoflatesummershoneuponher。Theheatherwasatitspurplest,thefurzeatitsyellowest,thegrasshopperschirpedloudenoughforbirds,thesnakeshissedlikelittleengines,andElfrideatfirstfeltlively。SittingateaseuponPansy,inherorthodoxriding-habitandnondescripthat,shelookedwhatshefelt。Butthemercuryofthosedayshadatrickoffallingunexpectedly。First,onlyforoneminuteintenhadsheasenseofdepression。Thenalargecloud,thathadbeenhanginginthenorthlikeablackfleece,cameandplaceditselfbetweenherandthesun。Ithelpedonwhatwasalreadyinevitable,andshesankintoauniformityofsadness。
Sheturnedinthesaddleandlookedback。Theywerenowonanopentable-land,whosealtitudestillgaveheraviewoftheseabyEndelstow。Shelookedlonginglyatthatspot。
DuringthislittlerevulsionoffeelingPansyhadbeenstilladvancing,andElfridefeltitwouldbeabsurdtoturnherlittlemare'sheadtheotherway。'Still,'shethought,'ifIhadamammaathomeIWOULDgoback!'
Andmakingoneofthosestealthymovementsbywhichwomenlettheirheartsjugglewiththeirbrains,shedidputthehorse'sheadabout,asifunconsciously,andwentatahand-galloptowardshomeformorethanamile。Bythistime,fromtheinveteratehabitofvaluingwhatwehaverenounceddirectlythealternativeischosen,thethoughtofherforsakenStephenrecalledher,andsheturnedabout,andcanteredontoSt。Launce'sagain。
Thismiserablestrifeofthoughtnowbegantorageinallitswildness。Overwroughtandtrembling,shedroppedthereinuponPansy'sshoulders,andvowedshewouldbeledwhitherthehorsewouldtakeher。
Pansyslackenedherpacetoawalk,andwalkedonwithheragitatedburdenforthreeorfourminutes。Attheexpirationofthistimetheyhadcometoalittleby-wayontheright,leadingdownaslopetoapoolofwater。Theponystopped,lookedtowardsthepool,andthenadvancedandstoopedtodrink。
ElfridelookedatherwatchanddiscoveredthatifsheweregoingtoreachSt。Launce'searlyenoughtochangeherdressattheFalcon,andgetachanceofsomeearlytraintoPlymouth——therewereonlytwoavailable——itwasnecessarytoproceedatonce。
Shewasimpatient。ItseemedasifPansywouldneverstopdrinking;andthereposeofthepool,theidlemotionsoftheinsectsandfliesuponit,theplacidwavingoftheflags,theleaf-skeletons,likeGenoesefiligree,placidlysleepingatthebottom,bytheircontrastwithherownturmoilmadeherimpatiencegreater。
Pansydidturnatlast,andwentuptheslopeagaintothehigh-
road。Theponycameuponit,andstoodcross-wise,lookingupanddown。Elfride'sheartthrobbederratically,andshethought,'Horses,iflefttothemselves,makeforwheretheyarebestfed。
Pansywillgohome。'
PansyturnedandwalkedontowardsSt。Launce'sPansyathome,duringsummer,hadlittlebutgrasstoliveon。
AfteraruntoSt。Launce'sshealwayshadafeedofcorntosupportheronthereturnjourney。Therefore,beingnowmorethanhalfway,shepreferredSt。Launce's。
ButElfridedidnotrememberthisnow。Allshecaredtorecognizewasadreamyfancythatto-day'srashactionwasnotherown。Shewasdisabledbyhermoods,anditseemedindispensabletoadheretotheprogramme。Sostrangelyinvolvedaremotivesthat,morethanbyherpromisetoStephen,moreeventhanbyherlove,shewasforcedonbyasenseofthenecessityofkeepingfaithwithherself,aspromisedintheinanevowoftenminutesago。
Shehesitatednolonger。Pansywent,likethesteedofAdonis,asifshetoldthesteps。PresentlythequaintgablesandjumbledroofsofSt。Launce'swerespreadbeneathher,andgoingdownthehillsheenteredthecourtyardoftheFalcon。Mrs。Buckle,thelandlady,cametothedoortomeether。
TheSwancourtswerewellknownhere。Thetransitionfromequestriantotheordinaryguiseofrailwaytravellershadbeenmorethanonceperformedbyfatheranddaughterinthisestablishment。
InlessthanaquarterofanhourElfrideemergedfromthedoorinherwalkingdress,andwenttotherailway。ShehadnottoldMrs。
Buckleanythingastoherintentions,andwassupposedtohavegoneoutshopping。
Anhourandfortyminuteslater,andshewasinStephen'sarmsatthePlymouthstation。Notupontheplatform——inthesecretretreatofadesertedwaiting-room。
Stephen'sfacebodedill。Hewaspaleanddespondent。
Whatisthematter?'sheasked。
'Wecannotbemarriedhereto-day,myElfie!Ioughttohaveknownitandstayedhere。InmyignoranceIdidnot。Ihavethelicence,butitcanonlybeusedinmyparishinLondon。Ionlycamedownlastnight,asyouknow。'
'Whatshallwedo?'shesaidblankly。
'There'sonlyonethingwecando,darling。'
'What'sthat?'
'GoontoLondonbyatrainjuststarting,andbemarriedthereto-morrow。'
'Passengersforthe11。5up-traintaketheirseats!'saidaguard'svoiceontheplatform。
'Willyougo,Elfride?'
'Iwill。'
Inthreeminutesthetrainhadmovedoff,bearingawaywithitStephenandElfride。
ChapterXII
'Adieu!shecries,andwavedherlilyhand。'
Thefewtatteredcloudsofthemorningenlargedandunited,thesunwithdrewbehindthemtoemergenomorethatday,andtheeveningdrewtoacloseindriftsofrain。Thewater-dropsbeatlikeduckshotagainstthewindowoftherailway-carriagecontainingStephenandElfride。
ThejourneyfromPlymouthtoPaddington,byeventhemostheadlongexpress,allowsquiteenoughleisureforpassionofanysorttocool。Elfride'sexcitementhadpassedoff,andshesatinakindofstuporduringthelatterhalfofthejourney。Shewasarousedbytheclangingofthemazeofrailsoverwhichtheytracedtheirwayattheentrancetothestation。
IsthisLondon?'shesaid。
'Yes,darling,'saidStepheninatoneofassurancehewasfarfromfeeling。Tohim,nolessthantoher,therealitysogreatlydifferedfromtheprefiguring。
Shepeeredoutaswellasthewindow,beadedwithdrops,wouldallowher,andsawonlythelamps,whichhadjustbeenlit,blinkinginthewetatmosphere,androwsofhideouszincchimney-
pipesindimreliefagainstthesky。Shewritheduneasily,aswhenathoughtisswellinginthemindwhichmustcausemuchpainatitsdeliveranceinwords。Elfridehadknownnomoreaboutthestingsofevilreportthanthenativewild-fowlknewoftheeffectsofCrusoe'sfirstshot。Nowshesawalittlefurther,andalittlefurtherstill。
Thetrainstopped。Stephenrelinquishedthesofthandhehadheldalltheday,andproceededtoassistherontotheplatform。
Thisactofalightinguponstrangegroundseemedallthatwaswantedtocompletearesolutionwithinher。
Shelookedatherbetrothedwithdespairingeyes。
'OStephen,'sheexclaimed,'Iamsomiserable!Imustgohomeagain——Imust——Imust!Forgivemywretchedvacillation。Idon'tlikeithere——normyself——noryou!'
Stephenlookedbewildered,anddidnotspeak。
'Willyouallowmetogohome?'sheimplored。'Iwon'ttroubleyoutogowithme。Iwillnotbeanyweightuponyou;onlysayyouwillagreetomyreturning;thatyouwillnothatemeforit,Stephen!ItisbetterthatIshouldreturnagain;indeeditis,Stephen。'
'Butwecan'treturnnow,'hesaidinadeprecatorytone。
'Imust!Iwill!'
'How?Whendoyouwanttogo?'
'Now。Canwegoatonce?'
Theladlookedhopelesslyalongtheplatform。
'Ifyoumustgo,andthinkitwrongtoremain,dearest,'saidhesadly,'youshall。Youshalldowhateveryoulike,myElfride。
Butwouldyouinrealityrathergonowthanstaytillto-morrow,andgoasmywife?'
'Yes,yes——much——anythingtogonow。Imust;Imust!'shecried。
'Weoughttohavedoneoneoftwothings,'heansweredgloomily。
'Nevertohavestarted,ornottohavereturnedwithoutbeingmarried。Idon'tliketosayit,Elfride——indeedIdon't;butyoumustbetoldthis,thatgoingbackunmarriedmaycompromiseyourgoodnameintheeyesofpeoplewhomayhearofit。'
'Theywillnot;andImustgo。'
'OElfride!Iamtoblameforbringingyouaway。'
'Notatall。Iamtheelder。'
'Byamonth;andwhat'sthat?Butnevermindthatnow。'Helookedaround。'IsthereatrainforPlymouthto-night?'heinquiredofaguard。Theguardpassedonanddidnotspeak。
'IsthereatrainforPlymouthto-night?'saidElfridetoanother。
'Yes,miss;the8。10——leavesintenminutes。Youhavecometothewrongplatform;itistheotherside。ChangeatBristolintothenightmail。Downthatstaircase,andundertheline。'
Theyrandownthestaircase——Elfridefirst——tothebooking-office,andintoacarriagewithanofficialstandingbesidethedoor。
'Showyourtickets,please。'Theyarelockedin——menabouttheplatformacceleratetheirvelocitiestilltheyflyupanddownlikeshuttlesinaloom——awhistle——thewavingofaflag——ahumancry——asteamgroan——andawaytheygotoPlymouthagain,justcatchingthesewordsastheyglideoff:
'Thosetwoyoungstershadanearrunforit,andnomistake!'
Elfridefoundherbreath。
'Andhaveyoucometoo,Stephen?Whydidyou?'
'IshallnotleaveyoutillIseeyousafeatSt。Launce's。DonotthinkworseofmethanIam,Elfride。'
Andthentheyrattledalongthroughthenight,backagainbythewaytheyhadcome。Theweathercleared,andthestarsshoneinuponthem。Theirtwoorthreefellow-passengerssatformostofthetimewithclosedeyes。Stephensometimesslept;Elfridealonewaswakefulandpalpitatinghourafterhour。
Thedaybegantobreak,andrevealedthattheywerebythesea。
Redrocksoverhungthem,and,recedingintodistance,grewlividinthebluegreyatmosphere。Thesunrose,andsentpenetratingshaftsoflightinupontheirwearyfaces。Anotherhour,andtheworldbegantobebusy。Theywaitedyetalittle,andthetrainslackeneditsspeedinviewoftheplatformatSt。Launce's。
Sheshivered,andmusedsadly。
'Ididnotseealltheconsequences,'shesaid。'Appearancesarewofullyagainstme。Ifanybodyfindsmeout,Iam,Isuppose,disgraced。'
'Thenappearanceswillspeakfalsely;andhowcanthatmatter,eveniftheydo?Ishallbeyourhusbandsoonerorlater,forcertain,andsoproveyourpurity。'
'Stephen,onceinLondonIoughttohavemarriedyou,'shesaidfirmly。'Itwasmyonlysafedefence。IseemorethingsnowthanIdidyesterday。Myonlyremainingchanceisnottobediscovered;andthatwemustfightformostdesperately。'
Theysteppedout。Elfridepulledathickveiloverherface。
Awomanwithredandscalyeyelidsandglisteningeyeswassittingonabenchjustinsidetheoffice-door。ShefixedhereyesuponElfridewithanexpressionwhoseforceitwasimpossibletodoubt,butthemeaningofwhichwasnotclear;thenuponthecarriagetheyhadleft。Sheseemedtoreadasinisterstoryinthescene。
Elfrideshrankback,andturnedtheotherway。
'Whoisthatwoman?'saidStephen。'Shelookedhardatyou。'
'Mrs。Jethway——awidow,andmotherofthatyoungmanwhosetombwesatontheothernight。Stephen,sheismyenemy。WouldthatGodhadhadmercyenoughuponmetohavehiddenthisfromHER!'
'Donottalksohopelessly,'heremonstrated。'Idon'tthinksherecognizedus。'
'Ipraythatshedidnot。'
Heputonamorevigorousmood。
'Now,wewillgoandgetsomebreakfast。'
'No,no!'shebegged。'Icannoteat。IMUSTgetbacktoEndelstow。'
ElfridewasasifshehadgrownyearsolderthanStephennow。
'ButyouhavehadnothingsincelastnightbutthatcupofteaatBristol。'
'Ican'teat,Stephen。'
'Wineandbiscuit?'
'No。'
'Nortea,norcoffee?'
'No。'
'Aglassofwater?'
'No。Iwantsomethingthatmakespeoplestrongandenergeticforthepresent,thatborrowsthestrengthofto-morrowforuseto-
day——leavingto-morrowwithoutanyatallforthatmatter;oreventhatwouldtakealllifeawayto-morrow,solongasitenabledmetogethomeagainnow。Brandy,that'swhatIwant。Thatwoman'seyeshaveeatenmyheartaway!'
'Youarewild;andyougrieveme,darling。Mustitbebrandy?'
'Yes,ifyouplease。'
'Howmuch?'
'Idon'tknow。Ihaveneverdrunkmorethanateaspoonfulatonce。AllIknowisthatIwantit。Don'tgetitattheFalcon。'
Heleftherinthefields,andwenttothenearestinninthatdirection。Presentlyhereturnedwithasmallflasknearlyfull,andsomeslicesofbread-and-butter,thinaswafers,inapaper-
bag。Elfridetookasiportwo。
'Itgoesintomyeyes,'shesaidwearily。'Ican'ttakeanymore。
Yes,Iwill;Iwillclosemyeyes。Ah,itgoestothembyaninsideroute。Idon'twantit;throwitaway。'
However,shecouldeat,anddideat。HerchiefattentionwasconcentrateduponhowtogetthehorsefromtheFalconstableswithoutsuspicion。Stephenwasnotallowedtoaccompanyherintothetown。Sheactednowuponconclusionsreachedwithoutanyaidfromhim:hispoweroverherseemedtohavedeparted。
'Youhadbetternotbeseenwithme,evenherewhereIamsolittleknown。Wehavebegunstealthilyasthieves,andwemustendstealthilyasthieves,atallhazards。Untilpapahasbeentoldbymemyself,adiscoverywouldbeterrible。'
Walkingandgloomilytalkingthustheywaitedtillnearlynineo'clock,atwhichtimeElfridethoughtshemightcallattheFalconwithoutcreatingmuchsurprise。Behindtherailway-stationwastheriver,spannedbyanoldTudorbridge,whencetheroaddivergedintwodirections,oneskirtingthesuburbsofthetown,andwindingroundagainintothehigh-roadtoEndelstow。BesidethisroadStephensat,andawaitedherreturnfromtheFalcon。
Hesatasonesittingforaportrait,motionless,watchingthechequeredlightsandshadesonthetree-trunks,thechildrenplayingoppositetheschoolprevioustoenteringforthemorninglesson,thereapersinafieldafaroff。Thecertaintyofpossessionhadnotcome,andtherewasnothingtomitigatetheyouth'sgloom,thatincreasedwiththethoughtofthepartingnowsonear。
Atlengthshecametrottingroundtohim,inappearancemuchasontheromanticmorningoftheirvisittothecliff,butshornoftheradiancewhichglistenedaboutherthen。However,hercomparativeimmunityfromfurtherriskandtroublehadconsiderablycomposedher。Elfride'scapacityforbeingwoundedwasonlysurpassedbyhercapacityforhealing,whichrightlyorwronglyisbysomeconsideredanindexoftransientnessoffeelingingeneral。
'Elfride,whatdidtheysayattheFalcon?'
'Nothing。Nobodyseemedcuriousaboutme。TheyknewIwenttoPlymouth,andIhavestayedthereanightnowandthenwithMissBicknell。Irathercalculateduponthat。'
Andnowpartingaroselikeadeathtothesechildren,foritwasimperativethatsheshouldstartatonce。Stephenwalkedbesideherfornearlyamile。Duringthewalkhesaidsadly:
'Elfride,four-and-twentyhourshavepassed,andthethingisnotdone。'
'Butyouhaveinsuredthatitshallbedone。'
'HowhaveI?'
'OStephen,youaskhow!DoyouthinkIcouldmarryanothermanonearthafterhavinggonethusfarwithyou?HaveInotshownbeyondpossibilityofdoubtthatIcanbenobodyelse's?HaveInotirretrievablycommittedmyself?——pridehasstoodfornothinginthefaceofmygreatlove。Youmisunderstoodmyturningback,andIcannotexplainit。Itwaswrongtogowithyouatall;andthoughitwouldhavebeenworsetogofurther,itwouldhavebeenbetterpolicy,perhaps。Beassuredofthis,thatwheneveryouhaveahomeforme——howeverpoorandhumble——andcomeandclaimme,Iamready。'Sheaddedbitterly,'Whenmyfatherknowsofthisday'swork,hemaybeonlytoogladtoletmego。'
'Perhapshemay,then,insistuponourmarriageatonce!'Stephenanswered,seeingarayofhopeintheveryfocusofherremorse。
'Ihopehemay,evenifwehadstilltoparttillIamreadyforyou,asweintended。'
Elfridedidnotreply。
'Youdon'tseemthesamewoman,Elfie,thatyouwereyesterday。'
'NoramI。Butgood-bye。Gobacknow。'Andshereinedthehorseforparting。'OStephen,'shecried,'Ifeelsoweak!Idon'tknowhowtomeethim。Cannotyou,afterall,comebackwithme?'
'ShallIcome?'
Elfridepausedtothink。
'No;itwillnotdo。Itismyutterfoolishnessthatmakesmesaysuchwords。Buthewillsendforyou。'
'Saytohim,'continuedStephen,'thatwedidthisintheabsolutedespairofourminds。Tellhimwedon'twishhimtofavourus——
onlytodealjustlywithus。Ifhesays,marrynow,somuchthebetter。Ifnot,saythatallmaybeputrightbyhispromisetoallowmetohaveyouwhenIamgoodenoughforyou——whichmaybesoon。SayIhavenothingtoofferhiminexchangeforhistreasure——themoresorryI;butallthelove,andallthelife,andallthelabourofanhonestmanshallbeyours。Astowhenthishadbetterbetold,Ileaveyoutojudge。'
Hiswordsmadehercheerfulenoughtotoywithherposition。
'Andifillreportshouldcome,Stephen,'shesaidsmiling,'why,theorange-treemustsaveme,asitsavedvirginsinSt。George'stimefromthepoisonousbreathofthedragon。There,forgivemeforforwardness:Iamgoing。'
Thentheboyandgirlbeguiledthemselveswithwordsofhalf-
partingonly。
'Ownwifie,Godblessyoutillwemeetagain!'
'Tillwemeetagain,good-bye!'
Andtheponywenton,andshespoketohimnomore。Hesawherfigurediminishandherblueveilgrowgray——sawitwiththeagonizingsensationsofaslowdeath。
Afterthuspartingfromamanthanwhomshehadknownnonegreaterasyet,Elfrideroderapidlyonwards,atearbeingoccasionallyshakenfromhereyesintotheroad。Whatyesterdayhadseemedsodesirable,sopromising,eventrifling,hadnowacquiredthecomplexionofatragedy。
ShesawtherocksandseaintheneighbourhoodofEndelstow,andheavedasighofreliefWhenshepassedafieldbehindthevicaragesheheardthevoicesofUnityandWilliamWorm。Theywerehangingacarpetuponaline。Unitywasutteringasentencethatconcludedwith'whenMissElfridecomes。'
'Whend'yeexpecther?'
'Nottilleveningnow。She'ssafeenoughatMissBicknell's,blessye。'
Elfridewentroundtothedoor。Shedidnotknockorring;andseeingnobodytotakethehorse,Elfrideledherroundtotheyard,slippedoffthebridleandsaddle,drovehertowardsthepaddock,andturnedherin。ThenElfridecreptindoors,andlookedintoalltheground-floorrooms。Herfatherwasnotthere。
Onthemantelpieceofthedrawing-roomstoodaletteraddressedtoherinhishandwriting。Shetookitandreaditasshewentupstairstochangeherhabit。
STRATLEIGH,Thursday。
'DEARELFRIDE,——OnsecondthoughtsIwillnotreturnto-day,butonlycomeasfarasWadcombe。Ishallbeathomebyto-morrowafternoon,andbringafriendwithme——Yours,inhaste,C。S。'
Aftermakingaquicktoiletshefeltmorerevived,thoughstillsufferingfromaheadache。OngoingoutofthedoorshemetUnityatthetopofthestair。
'OMissElfride!Isaidtomyself'tishersperrit!Wedidn'tdreamo'younotcominghomelastnight。Youdidn'tsayanythingaboutstaying。'
'Iintendedtocomehomethesameevening,butalteredmyplan。I
wishedIhadn'tafterwards。Papawillbeangry,Isuppose?'
'Betternottellhim,miss,'saidUnity。
'Idofearto,'shemurmured。'Unity,wouldyoujustbegintellinghimwhenhecomeshome?'