'Youhaveseenhisletterscometomeeversincehisfirstvisit,papa,andyouknewtheywereasortof——love-letters;andsincehehasbeenhereyouhavelethimbealonewithmealmostentirely;
andyouguessed,youmusthaveguessed,whatwewerethinkingof,anddoing,andyoudidn'tstophim。Nexttolove-makingcomeslove-winning,andyouknewitwouldcometothat,papa。'
Thevicarparriedthiscommon-sensethrust。'Iknow——sinceyoupressmeso——IknowIdidguesssomechildishattachmentmightarisebetweenyou;IownIdidnottakemuchtroubletopreventit;butIhavenotparticularlycountenancedit;and,Elfride,howcanyouexpectthatIshouldnow?Itisimpossible;nofatherinEnglandwouldhearofsuchathing。'
'Butheisthesameman,papa;thesameineveryparticular;andhowcanhebelessfitformethanhewasbefore?'
'Heappearedayoungmanwithwell-to-dofriends,andalittleproperty;buthavingneither,heisanotherman。'
'Youinquirednothingabouthim?'
'IwentbyHewby'sintroduction。Heshouldhavetoldme。Soshouldtheyoungmanhimself;ofcourseheshould。Iconsideritamostdishonourablethingtocomeintoaman'shouselikeatreacherousI-don't-know-what。'
'Buthewasafraidtotellyou,andsoshouldIhavebeen。Helovedmetoowelltoliketoruntherisk。Andastospeakingofhisfriendsonhisfirstvisit,Idon'tseewhyheshouldhavedonesoatall。Hecamehereonbusiness:itwasnoaffairofourswhohisparentswere。Andthenheknewthatifhetoldyouhewouldneverbeaskedhere,andwouldperhapsneverseemeagain。Andhewantedtoseeme。Whocanblamehimfortrying,byanymeans,tostaynearme——thegirlheloves?Allisfairinlove。Ihaveheardyousaysoyourself,papa;andyouyourselfwouldhavedonejustashehas——sowouldanyman。'
'Andanyman,ondiscoveringwhatIhavediscovered,wouldalsodoasIdo,andmendmymistake;thatis,getshotofhimagain,assoonasthelawsofhospitalitywillallow。'ButMr。SwancourtthenrememberedthathewasaChristian。'Iwouldnot,fortheworld,seemtoturnhimoutofdoors,'headded;'butIthinkhewillhavethetacttoseethathecannotstaylongafterthis,withgoodtaste。'
'Hewill,becausehe'sagentleman。Seehowgracefulhismannersare,'Elfridewenton;thoughperhapsStephen'smanners,likethefeatsofEuryalus,owedtheirattractivenessinhereyesrathertotheattractivenessofhispersonthantotheirownexcellence。
'Ay;anybodycanbewhatyoucallgraceful,ifhelivesalittletimeinacity,andkeepshiseyesopen。Andhemighthavepickeduphisgentlemanlinessbygoingtothegalleriesoftheatres,andwatchingstagedrawing-roommanners。HeremindsmeofoneoftheworststoriesIeverheardinmylife。'
'Whatstorywasthat?'
'Ohno,thankyou!Iwouldn'ttellyousuchanimpropermatterfortheworld!'
'IfhisfatherandmotherhadlivedinthenorthoreastofEngland,'gallantlypersistedElfride,thoughhersobsbegantointerruptherarticulation,'anywherebuthere——you——wouldhave——
onlyregarded——HIM,andnotTHEM!Hisstation——wouldhave——beenwhat——hisprofessionmakesit,——andnotfixedby——hisfather'shumbleposition——atall;whomheneverliveswith——now。ThoughJohnSmithhassavedlotsofmoney,andisbetteroffthanweare,theysay,orhecouldn'thaveputhissontosuchanexpensiveprofession。Anditiscleverand——honourable——ofStephen,tobethebestofhisfamily。'
'Yes。"Letabeastbelordofbeasts,andhiscribshallstandattheking'smess。”'
'Youinsultme,papa!'sheburstout。'Youdo,youdo!HeismyownStephen,heis!'
'Thatmayormaynotbetrue,Elfride,'returnedherfather,againuncomfortablyagitatedinspiteofhimself'Youconfusefutureprobabilitieswithpresentfacts,——whattheyoungmanmaybewithwhatheis。Wemustlookatwhatheis,notwhatanimprobabledegreeofsuccessinhisprofessionmaymakehim。Thecaseisthis:thesonofaworking-maninmyparishwhomayormaynotbeabletobuymeup——ayouthwhohasnotyetadvancedsofarintolifeastohaveanyincomeofhisowndeservingthename,andthereforeofhisfather'sdegreeasregardsstation——wantstobeengagedtoyou。HisfamilyarelivinginpreciselythesamespotinEnglandasyours,sothroughoutthiscounty——whichistheworldtous——youwouldalwaysbeknownasthewifeofJackSmiththemason'sson,andnotunderanycircumstancesasthewifeofaLondonprofessionalman。Itisthedrawback,notthecompensatingfact,thatistalkedofalways。There,saynomore。Youmayargueallnight,andprovewhatyouwill;I'llsticktomywords。'
Elfridelookedsilentlyandhopelesslyoutofthewindowwithlargeheavyeyesandwetcheeks。
'Icallitgreattemerity——andlongtocallitaudacity——inHewby,'resumedherfather。'Ineverheardsuchathing——givingsuchahobbledehoynativeofthisplacesuchanintroductiontomeashedid。NaturallyyouweredeceivedaswellasIwas。Idon'tblameyouatall,sofar。'HewentandsearchedforMr。Hewby'soriginalletter。'Here'swhathesaidtome:"DearSir,——
Agreeablytoyourrequestofthe18thinstant,Ihavearrangedtosurveyandmakedrawings,"etcetera。"Myassistant,Mr。StephenSmith"——assistant,youseehecalledhim,andnaturallyI
understoodhimtomeanasortofpartner。Whydidn'thesay"clerk"?'
'Theynevercallthemclerksinthatprofession,becausetheydonotwrite。Stephen——Mr。Smith——toldmeso。SothatMr。Hewbysimplyusedtheacceptedword。'
'Letmespeak,please,Elfride!"Myassistant,Mr。StephenSmith,willleaveLondonbytheearlytrainto-morrowmorning……MANY
THANKSFORYOURPROPOSALTOACCOMMODATEHIM……YOUMAYPUTEVERY
CONFIDENCEINHIM,andmayrelyuponhisdiscernmentinthematterofchurcharchitecture。”Well,IrepeatthatHewbyoughttobeashamedofhimselfformakingsomuchofapoorladofthatsort。'
'ProfessionalmeninLondon,'Elfrideargued,'don'tknowanythingabouttheirclerks'fathersandmothers。Theyhaveassistantswhocometotheirofficesandshopsforyears,andhardlyevenknowwheretheylive。Whattheycando——whatprofitstheycanbringthefirm——that'sallLondonmencareabout。Andthatishelpedinhimbyhisfacultyofbeinguniformlypleasant。'
'Uniformpleasantnessisratheradefectthanafaculty。Itshowsthatamanhasn'tsenseenoughtoknowwhomtodespise。'
'Itshowsthatheactsbyfaithandnotbysight,asthoseyouclaimsuccessionfromdirected。'
'That'ssomemoreofwhathe'sbeentellingyou,Isuppose!Yes,I
wasinclinedtosuspecthim,becausehedidn'tcareaboutsaucesofanykind。Ialwaysdiddoubtaman'sbeingagentlemanifhispalatehadnoacquiredtastes。Anunedifiedpalateistheirrepressibleclovenfootoftheupstart。Theideaofmybringingoutabottleofmy'40Martinez——onlyelevenofthemleftnow——toamanwhodidn'tknowitfromeighteenpenny!ThentheLatinlinehegavetomyquotation;itwasverycut-and-dried,very;orI,whohaven'tlookedintoaclassicalauthorforthelasteighteenyears,shouldn'thaverememberedit。Well,Elfride,youhadbettergotoyourroom;you'llgetoverthisbitoftomfooleryintime。'
'No,no,no,papa,'shemoaned。Forofallthemiseriesattachingtomiserablelove,theworstisthemiseryofthinkingthatthepassionwhichisthecauseofthemallmaycease。
'Elfride,'saidherfatherwithroughfriendliness,'Ihaveanexcellentschemeonhand,whichIcannottellyouofnow。A
schemetobenefityouandme。Ithasbeenthrustuponmeforsomelittletime——yes,thrustuponme——butIdidn'tdreamofitsvaluetillthisafternoon,whentherevelationcame。Ishouldbemostunwisetorefusetoentertainit。'
'Idon'tlikethatword,'shereturnedwearily。'Youhavelostsomuchalreadybyschemes。Isitthosewretchedminesagain?'
'No;notaminingscheme。'
'Railways?'
'Norrailways。Itislikethosemysteriousoffersweseeadvertised,bywhichanygentlemanwithnobrainsatallmaymakesomuchaweekwithoutrisk,trouble,orsoilinghisfingers。
However,Iamintendingtosaynothingtillitissettled,thoughIwilljustsaythismuch,thatyousoonmayhaveotherfishtofrythantothinkofStephenSmith。Remember,Iwish,nottobeangry,butfriendly,totheyoungman;foryoursakeI'llregardhimasafriendinacertainsense。Butthisisenough;inafewdaysyouwillbequitemywayofthinking。There,now,gotoyourbedroom。Unityshallbringyouupsomesupper。Iwishyounottobeherewhenhecomesback。'
ChapterX
'Beneaththeshelterofanagedtree。'
Stephenretracedhisstepstowardsthecottagehehadvisitedonlytwoorthreehourspreviously。HedrewnearandundertherichfoliagegrowingabouttheoutskirtsofEndelstowPark,thespottylightsandshadesfromtheshiningmoonmaintainingaraceoverhisheadanddownhisbackinanendlessgambol。Whenhecrossedtheplankbridgeandenteredthegarden-gate,hesawanilluminatedfigurecomingfromtheenclosedplottowardsthehouseontheotherside。Itwashisfather,withhishandinasling,takingageneralmoonlightviewofthegarden,andparticularlyofaplotoftheyoungestofyoungturnips,previoustoclosingthecottageforthenight。
Hesalutedhissonwithcustomaryforce。'Hallo,Stephen!Weshouldha'beeninbedinanothertenminutes。Cometoseewhat'sthematterwi'me,Isuppose,mylad?'
Thedoctorhadcomeandgone,andthehandhadbeenpronouncedasinjuredbutslightly,thoughitmightpossiblyhavebeenconsideredafarmoreseriouscaseifMr。Smithhadbeenamoreimportantman。Stephen'sanxiousinquirydrewfromhisfatherwordsofregretattheinconveniencetotheworldofhisdoingnothingforthenexttwodays,ratherthanofconcernforthepainoftheaccident。Togethertheyenteredthehouse。
JohnSmith——brownasautumnastoskin,whiteaswinterastoclothes——wasasatisfactoryspecimenofthevillageartificerinstone。Incommonwithmostruralmechanics,hehadtoomuchindividualitytobeatypical'working-man'——aresultantofthatbeach-pebbleattritionwithhiskindonlytobeexperiencedinlargetowns,whichmetamorphosestheunitSelfintoafractionoftheunitClass。
Therewasnotthespecialityinhislabourwhichdistinguishesthehandicraftsmenoftowns。Thoughonlyamason,strictlyspeaking,hewasnotabovehandlingabrick,ifbricksweretheorderoftheday;oraslateortile,ifaroofhadtobecoveredbeforethewetweathersetin,andnobodywasnearwhocoulddoitbetter。
Indeed,ononeortwooccasionsinthedepthofwinter,whenfrostperemptorilyforbidsalluseofthetrowel,makingfoundationstosettle,stonestofly,andmortartocrumble,hehadtakentofellingandsawingtrees。Moreover,hehadpractisedgardeninginhisownplotforsomanyyearsthat,onanemergency,hemighthavemadealivingbythatcalling。
Probablyourcountrymanwasnotsuchanaccomplishedartificerinaparticulardirectionashistownbrethreninthetrades。Buthewas,intruth,likethatclumsypin-makerwhomadethewholepin,andwhowasdespisedbyAdamSmithonthataccountandrespectedbyMacaulay,muchmoretheartistnevertheless。
Appearingnow,indoors,bythelightofthecandle,hisstalwarthealthinesswasasighttosee。HisbeardwascloseandknottedasthatofachiselledHercules;hisshirtsleeveswerepartlyrolledup,hiswaistcoatunbuttoned;thedifferenceinhuebetweenthesnowylinenandtheruddyarmsandfacecontrastinglikethewhiteofanegganditsyolk。Mrs。Smith,onhearingthementer,advancedfromthepantry。
Mrs。Smithwasamatronwhosecountenanceaddresseditselftothemindratherthantotheeye,thoughnotexclusively。Sheretainedherpersonalfreshnessevennow,intheprosyafternoon-timeofherlife;butwhatherfeatureswereprimarilyindicativeofwasasoundcommonsensebehindthem;asawhole,appearingtocarrywiththemasortofargumentativecommentaryontheworldingeneral。
ThedetailsoftheaccidentwerethenrehearsedbyStephen'sfather,inthedramaticmanneralsocommontoMartinCannister,otherindividualsoftheneighbourhood,andtheruralworldgenerally。Mrs。Smiththrewinhersentimentsbetweentheacts,asCoryphaeusofthetragedy,tomakethedescriptioncomplete。
Thestoryatlastcametoanend,asthelongestwill,andStephendirectedtheconversationintoanotherchannel。
'Well,mother,theyknoweverythingaboutmenow,'hesaidquietly。
'Welldone!'repliedhisfather;'nowmymind'satpeace。'
'Iblamemyself——Inevershallforgivemyself——fornottellingthembefore,'continuedtheyoungman。
Mrs。Smithatthispointabstractedhermindfromtheformersubject。'Idon'tseewhatyouhavetogrieveabout,Stephen,'
shesaid。'Peoplewhoaccidentallygetfriendsdon't,asafirststroke,tellthehistoryoftheirfamilies。'
'Ye'vedonenowrong,certainly,'saidhisfather。
'No;butIshouldhavespokensooner。There'smoreinthisvisitofminethanyouthink——agooddealmore。'
'NotmorethanIthink,'Mrs。Smithreplied,lookingcontemplativelyathim。Stephenblushed;andhisfatherlookedfromonetotheotherinastateofutterincomprehension。
'She'saprettypieceenough,'Mrs。Smithcontinued,'andverylady-likeandclevertoo。Butthoughshe'sverywellfitforyouasfarasthatis,why,mercy'ponme,whateverdoyouwantanywomanatallforyet?'
Johnmadehisnaturallyshortmouthalongone,andwrinkledhisforehead,'That'sthewaythewindd'blow,isit?'hesaid。
'Mother,'exclaimedStephen,'howabsurdlyyouspeak!Criticizingwhethershe'sfitformeorno,asiftherewereroomfordoubtonthematter!Why,tomarryherwouldbethegreatblessingofmylife——sociallyandpractically,aswellasinotherrespects。Nosuchgoodfortuneasthat,I'mafraid;she'stoofaraboveme。
Herfamilydoesn'twantsuchcountryladsasIinit。'
'Theniftheydon'twantyou,I'dseethemdeadcorpsesbeforeI'dwantthem,andgotobetterfamilieswhodowantyou。'
'Ah,yes;butIcouldneverputupwiththedistasteofbeingwelcomedamongsuchpeopleasyoumean,whilstIcouldgetindifferenceamongsuchpeopleashers。'
'Whatcrazytwisto'thinkingwillenteryourheadnext?'saidhismother。'Andcometothat,she'snotabittoohighforyou,oryoutoolowforher。SeehowcarefulIbetokeepmyselfup。I'msureIneverstopformorethanaminutetogethertotalktoanyjourneymenpeople;andIneverinviteanybodytoourpartyo'
Christmaseswhoarenotinbusinessforthemselves。AndItalktoseveraltoppermostcarriagepeoplethatcometomylord'swithoutsayingma'amorsirto'em,andtheytakeitasquietaslambs。'
'Youcurtseyedtothevicar,mother;andIwishyouhadn't。'
'ButitwasbeforehecalledmebymyChristianname,orhewouldhavegotverylittlecurtseyingfromme!'saidMrs。Smith,bridlingandsparklingwithvexation。'Yougoonatme,Stephen,asifIwereyourworstenemy!WhatelsecouldIdowiththemantogetridofhim,bangingitintomeandyourfatherbysideandbyseam,abouthisgreatness,andwhathappenedwhenhewasayoungfellowatcollege,andIdon'tknowwhat-all;thetongueo'
enfloppingroundhismouthlikeamop-ragroundadairy。That'adid,didn'the,John?'
'That'saboutthesizeo't,'repliedherhusband。
'Everywomannow-a-days,'resumedMrs。Smith,'ifshemarryatall,mustexpectafather-in-lawofaranklowerthanherfather。
Themenhavegoneupso,andthewomenhavestoodstill。Everymanyoumeetismorethedandthanhisfather;andyouarejustlevelwi'her。'
'That'swhatshethinksherself。'
'Itonlyshowshersense。Iknewshewasafter'ee,Stephen——I
knewit。'
'Afterme!GoodLord,whatnext!'
'AndIreallymustsayagainthatyououghtnottobeinsuchahurry,andwaitforafewyears。Youmightgohigherthanabankruptpa'son'sgirlthen。'
'Thefactis,mother,'saidStephenimpatiently,'youdon'tknowanythingaboutit。Ishallnevergohigher,becauseIdon'twantto,norshouldIifIlivedtobeahundred。Astoyousayingthatshe'safterme,Idon'tlikesucharemarkabouther,foritimpliesaschemingwoman,andamanworthschemingfor,bothofwhicharenotonlyuntrue,butludicrouslyuntrue,ofthiscase。
Isn'titso,father?'
'I'mafraidIdon'tunderstandthematterwellenoughtogiemyopinion,'saidhisfather,inthetoneofthefoxwhohadacoldandcouldnotsmell。
'Shecouldn'thavebeenverybackwardanyhow,consideringtheshorttimeyouhaveknownher,'saidhismother。'WellIthinkthatfiveyearshenceyou'llbeplentyyoungenoughtothinkofsuchthings。Andreallyshecanverywellaffordtowait,andwilltoo,takemyword。Livingdowninanout-stepplacelikethis,Iamsuresheoughttobeverythankfulthatyoutooknoticeofher。She'dmostlikelyhavediedanoldmaidifyouhadn'tturnedup。'
'Allnonsense,'saidStephen,butnotaloud。
'Anicelittlethingsheis,'Mrs。SmithwentoninamorecomplacenttonenowthatStephenhadbeentalkeddown;'there'snotawordtosayagainsther,I'llown。Iseehersometimesdeckedoutlikeahorsegoingtofair,andIadmireherfor't。A
perfectlittlelady。Butpeoplecan'thelptheirthoughts,andifshe'dlearnttomakefiguresinsteadofletterswhenshewasatschool'twouldhavebeenbetterforherpocket;forasIsaid,thereneverwereworsetimesforsuchasshethannow。'
'Now,now,mother!'saidStephenwithsmilingdeprecation。
'ButIwill!'saidhismotherwithasperity。'Idon'treadthepapersfornothing,andIknowmenallmoveupastagebymarriage。Menofherclass,thatis,parsons,marrysquires'
daughters;squiresmarrylords'daughters;lordsmarrydukes'
daughters;dukesmarryqueens'daughters。Allstagesofgentlemenmateastagehigher;andtheloweststageofgentlewomenareleftsingle,ormarryoutoftheirclass。'
'Butyousaidjustnow,dearmother——'retortedStephen,unabletoresistthetemptationofshowinghismotherherinconsistency。
Thenhepaused。
'Well,whatdidIsay?'AndMrs。Smithpreparedherlipsforanewcampaign。
Stephen,regrettingthathehadbegun,sinceavolcanomightbetheconsequence,wasobligedtogoon。
'YousaidIwasn'toutofherclassjustbefore。'
'Yes,there,there!That'syou;that'smyownfleshandblood。
I'llwarrantthatyou'llpickholesineverythingyourmothersays,ifyoucan,Stephen。Youarejustlikeyourfatherforthat;takeanybody'spartbutmine。WhilstIamspeakingandtalkingandtryingandslavingawayforyourgood,youarewaitingtocatchmeoutinthatway。Soyouareinherclass,but'tiswhatHERpeoplewouldCALLmarryingoutofherclass。Don'tbesoquarrelsome,Stephen!'
Stephenpreservedadiscreetsilence,inwhichhewasimitatedbyhisfather,andforseveralminutesnothingwasheardbutthetickingofthegreen-facedcase-clockagainstthewall。
'I'msure,'addedMrs。Smithinamorephilosophictone,andasaterminativespeech,'ifthere'dbeensomuchtroubletogetahusbandinmytimeasthereisinthesedays——whenyoumustmakeagod-almightyofamantogetentohaeye——I'dhavetrodclayforbricksbeforeI'deverhaveloweredmydignitytomarry,orthere'snobreadinnineloaves。'
Thediscussionnowdropped,andasitwasgettinglate,Stephenbadehisparentsfarewellfortheevening,hismothernonethelesswarmlyfortheirsparring;foralthoughMrs。SmithandStephenwerealwayscontending,theywereneveratenmity。
'Andpossibly,'saidStephen,'Imayleaveherealtogetherto-
morrow;Idon'tknow。SothatifIshouldn'tcallagainbeforereturningtoLondon,don'tbealarmed,willyou?'
'Butdidn'tyoucomeforafortnight?'saidhismother。'Andhaven'tyouamonth'sholidayaltogether?Theyaregoingtoturnyouout,then?'
'Notatall。Imaystaylonger;Imaygo。IfIgo,youhadbettersaynothingaboutmyhavingbeenhere,forhersake。AtwhattimeofthemorningdoesthecarrierpassEndelstowlane?'
'Seveno'clock。'
Andthenheleftthem。Histhoughtswere,thatshouldthevicarpermithimtobecomeengaged,tohopeforanengagement,orinanywaytothinkofhisbelovedElfride,hemightstaylonger。Shouldhebeforbiddentothinkofanysuchthing,heresolvedtogoatonce。Andthelatter,eventoyounghopefulness,seemedthemoreprobablealternative。
Stephenwalkedbacktothevicaragethroughthemeadows,ashehadcome,surroundedbythesoftmusicalpurlofthewaterthroughlittleweirs,themodestlightofthemoon,thefresheningsmellofthedewsout-spreadaround。Itwasatimewhenmereseeingismeditation,andmeditationpeace。StephenwashardlyphilosopherenoughtoavailhimselfofNature'soffer。Hisconstitutionwasmadeupofverysimpleparticulars;wasonewhich,rareinthespring-timeofcivilizations,seemstogrowabundantasanationgetsolder,individualityfades,andeducationspreads;thatis,hisbrainhadextraordinaryreceptivepowers,andnogreatcreativeness。Quicklyacquiringanykindofknowledgehesawaroundhim,andhavingaplasticadaptabilitymorecommoninwomanthaninman,hechangedcolourlikeachameleonasthesocietyhefoundhimselfinassumedahigherandmoreartificialtone。Hehadnotmanyoriginalideas,andyettherewasscarcelyanideatowhich,underpropertraining,hecouldnothaveaddedarespectableco-ordinate。
Hesawnothingoutsidehimselfto-night;andwhathesawwithinwasawearinesstohisflesh。Yettoadispassionateobserver,hispretensionstoElfride,thoughratherpremature,werefarfromabsurdasmarriagesgo,unlesstheaccidentalproximityofsimplebuthonestparentscouldbesaidtomakethemso。
Theclockstruckelevenwhenheenteredthehouse。Elfridehadbeenwaitingwithscarcelyamovementsincehedeparted。Beforehehadspokentohershecaughtsightofhimpassingintothestudywithherfather。Shesawthathehadbysomemeansobtainedtheprivateinterviewhedesired。
AnervousheadachehadbeengrowingontheexcitablegirlduringtheabsenceofStephen,andnowshecoulddonothingbeyondgoingupagaintoherroomasshehaddonebefore。Insteadoflyingdownshesatagaininthedarknesswithoutclosingthedoor,andlistenedwithabeatinghearttoeverysoundfromdownstairs。Theservantshadgonetobed。Sheultimatelyheardthetwomencomefromthestudyandcrosstothedining-room,wheresupperhadbeenlingeringformorethananhour。Thedoorwasleftopen,andshefoundthatthemeal,suchasitwas,passedoffbetweenherfatherandherloverwithoutanyremark,savecommonplacesastocucumbersandmelons,theirwholesomenessandculture,utteredinastiffandformalway。Itseemedtoprefigurefailure。
ShortlyafterwardsStephencameupstairstohisbedroom,andwasalmostimmediatelyfollowedbyherfather,whoalsoretiredforthenight。Notinclinedtogetalight,shepartlyundressedandsatonthebed,wheresheremainedinpainedthoughtforsometime,possiblyanhour。Thenrisingtocloseherdoorpreviouslytofullyunrobing,shesawastreakoflightshiningacrossthelanding。Herfather'sdoorwasshut,andhecouldbeheardsnoringregularly。ThelightcamefromStephen'sroom,andtheslightsoundsalsocomingthenceemphaticallydenotedwhathewasdoing。Intheperfectsilenceshecouldheartheclosingofalidandtheclickingofalock,——hewasfasteninghishat-box。Thenthebucklingofstrapsandtheclickofanotherkey,——hewassecuringhisportmanteau。Withtrebledforebodingsheopenedherdoorsoftly,andwenttowardshis。Onesensationpervadedhertodistraction。Stephen,herhandsomeyouthanddarling,wasgoingaway,andshemightneverseehimagainexceptinsecretandinsadness——perhapsnevermore。Atanyrate,shecouldnolongerwaittillthemorningtoheartheresultoftheinterview,asshehadintended。Sheflungherdressing-gownroundher,tappedlightlyathisdoor,andwhispered'Stephen!'Hecameinstantly,openedthedoor,andsteppedout。
'Tellme;arewetohope?'
Herepliedinadisturbedwhisper,andatearapproacheditsoutlet,thoughnonefell。
'Iamnottothinkofsuchapreposterousthing——that'swhathesaid。AndIamgoingto-morrow。Ishouldhavecalledyouuptobidyougood-bye。'
'Buthedidn'tsayyouweretogo——OStephen,hedidn'tsaythat?'
'No;notinwords。ButIcannotstay。'
'Oh,don't,don'tgo!Docomeandletustalk。Letuscomedowntothedrawing-roomforafewminutes;hewillhearushere。'
Sheprecededhimdownthestaircasewiththetaperlightinherhand,lookingunnaturallytallandthininthelongdove-coloureddressing-gownshewore。Shedidnotstoptothinkoftheproprietyorotherwiseofthismidnightinterviewundersuchcircumstances。Shethoughtthatthetragedyofherlifewasbeginning,and,forthefirsttimealmost,feltthatherexistencemighthaveagraveside,theshadeofwhichenvelopedandrenderedinvisiblethedelicategradationsofcustomandpunctilio。
Elfridesoftlyopenedthedrawing-roomdoorandtheybothwentin。
Whenshehadplacedthecandleonthetable,heenclosedherwithhisarms,driedhereyeswithhishandkerchief,andkissedtheirlids。
'Stephen,itisover——happyloveisover;andthereisnomoresunshinenow!'
'Iwillmakeafortune,andcometoyou,andhaveyou。Yes,I
will!'
'Papawillneverhearofit——never——never!Youdon'tknowhim。I
do。Heiseitherbiassedinfavourofathing,orprejudicedagainstit。Argumentispowerlessagainsteitherfeeling。'
'No;Iwon'tthinkofhimso,'saidStephen。'IfIappearbeforehimsometimehenceasamanofestablishedname,hewillacceptme——Iknowhewill。Heisnotawickedman。'
'No,heisnotwicked。Butyousay"sometimehence,"asifitwerenotime。Toyou,amongbustleandexcitement,itwillbecomparativelyashorttime,perhaps;oh,tome,itwillbeitsreallengthtrebled!Everysummerwillbeayear——autumnayear——
winterayear!OStephen!andyoumayforgetme!'
Forget:thatwas,andis,therealstingofwaitingtofond-
heartedwoman。TheremarkawokeinStephentheconversefear。
'You,too,maybepersuadedtogivemeup,whentimehasmademefainterinyourmemory。For,remember,yourloveformemustbenourishedinsecret;therewillbenolongvisitsfrommetosupportyou。Circumstanceswillalwaystendtoobliterateme。'
'Stephen,'shesaid,filledwithherownmisgivings,andunheedinghislastwords,'therearebeautifulwomenwhereyoulive——ofcourseIknowthereare——andtheymaywinyouawayfromme。'Hertearscamevisiblyasshedrewamentalpictureofhisfaithlessness。'Anditwon'tbeyourfault,'shecontinued,lookingintothecandlewithdolefuleyes。'No!Youwillthinkthatourfamilydon'twantyou,andgettoincludemewiththem。
Andtherewillbeavacancyinyourheart,andsomeotherswillbeletin。'
'Icouldnot,Iwouldnot。Elfie,donotbesofullofforebodings。'
'Ohyes,theywill,'shereplied。'Andyouwilllookatthem,notcaringatfirst,andthenyouwilllookandbeinterested,andafterawhileyouwillthink,"Ah,theyknowallaboutcitylife,andassemblies,andcoteries,andthemannersofthetitled,andpoorlittleElfie,withallthefussthat'smadeaboutherhavingme,doesn'tknowaboutanythingbutalittlehouseandafewcliffsandaspaceofsea,faraway。”Andthenyou'llbemoreinterestedinthem,andthey'llmakeyouhavetheminsteadofme,onpurposetobecrueltomebecauseIamsilly,andtheyarecleverandhateme。AndIhatethem,too;yes,Ido!'
Herimpulsivewordshadpowertoimpresshimatanyratewiththerecognitionoftheuncertaintyofallthatisnotaccomplished。
And,worsethanthatgeneralfeeling,thereofcourseremainedthesadnesswhicharosefromthespecialfeaturesofhisowncase。
Howeverremoteadesiredissuemaybe,themerefactofhavingenteredthegroovewhichleadstoit,cheerstosomeextentwithasenseofaccomplishment。HadMr。Swancourtconsentedtoanengagementofnolesslengththantenyears,Stephenwouldhavebeencomparativelycheerfulinwaiting;theywouldhavefeltthattheyweresomewhereontheroadtoCupid'sgarden。But,withapossibilityofashorterprobation,theyhadnotasyetanyprospectofthebeginning;thezeroofhopehadyettobereached。
Mr。Swancourtwouldhavetorevokehisformidablewordsbeforethewaitingformarriagecouldevensetin。Andthiswasdespair。
'Iwishwecouldmarrynow,'murmuredStephen,asanimpossiblefancy。
'SodoI,'saidshealso,asifregardinganidledream。''Tistheonlythingthateverdoessweetheartsgood!'
'Secretlywoulddo,woulditnot,Elfie?'
'Yes,secretlywoulddo;secretlywouldindeedbebest,'shesaid,andwentonreflectively:'Allwewantistorenderitabsolutelyimpossibleforanyfuturecircumstancetoupsetourfutureintentionofbeinghappytogether;nottobeginbeinghappynow。'
'Exactly,'hemurmuredinavoiceandmannerthecounterpartofhers。'Tomarryandpartsecretly,andliveonaswearelivingnow;merelytoputitoutofanybody'spowertoforceyouawayfromme,dearest。'
'Oryouawayfromme,Stephen。'
'Ormefromyou。Itispossibletoconceiveaforceofcircumstancestrongenoughtomakeanywomanintheworldmarryagainstherwill:noconceivablepressure,uptotortureorstarvation,canmakeawomanoncemarriedtoherloveranybodyelse'swife。'
Nowuptothispointtheideaofanimmediatesecretmarriagehadbeenheldbybothasanuntenablehypothesis,wherewithsimplytobeguileamiserablemoment。DuringapausewhichfollowedStephen'slastremark,afascinatingperception,thenanalluringconviction,flashedalongthebrainofboth。TheperceptionwasthatanimmediatemarriageCOULDbecontrived;theconvictionthatsuchanact,inspiteofitsdaring,itsfathomlessresults,itsdeceptiveness,wouldbepreferredbyeachtothelifetheymustleadunderanyotherconditions。
Theyouthspokefirst,andhisvoicetrembledwiththemagnitudeoftheconceptionhewascherishing。'Howstrongweshouldfeel,Elfride!goingonourseparatecoursesasbefore,withoutthefearofultimateseparation!OElfride!thinkofit;thinkofit!'
Itiscertainthattheyounggirl'sloveforStephenreceivedafanningfromherfather'soppositionwhichmadeitblazewithadozentimestheintensityitwouldhaveexhibitedifleftalone。
Neverwereconditionsmorefavourablefordevelopingagirl'sfirstpassingfancyforahandsomeboyishface——afancyrootedininexperienceandnourishedbyseclusion——intoawildunreflectingpassionfervidenoughforanything。Alltheelementsofsuchadevelopmentwerethere,thechiefonebeinghopelessness——anecessaryingredientalwaystoperfectthemixtureoffeelingsunitedunderthenameoflovingtodistraction。
'Wewouldtellpapasoon,wouldwenot?'sheinquiredtimidly。
'Nobodyelseneedknow。Hewouldthenbeconvincedthatheartscannotbeplayedwith;loveencouragedbereadytogrow,lovediscouragedbereadytodie,atamoment'snotice。Stephen,doyounotthinkthatifmarriagesagainstaparent'sconsentareeverjustifiable,theyarewhenyoungpeoplehavebeenfavoureduptoapoint,aswehave,andthenhavehadthatfavoursuddenlywithdrawn?'
'Yes。Itisnotasifwehadfromthebeginningactedinoppositiontoyourpapa'swishes。Onlythink,Elfie,howpleasanthewastowardsmebutsixhoursago!Helikedme,praisedme,neverobjectedtomybeingalonewithyou。'
'IbelieveheMUSTlikeyounow,'shecried。'Andifhefoundthatyouirremediablybelongedtome,hewouldownitandhelpyou。'OStephen,Stephen,'sheburstoutagain,astheremembranceofhispackingcameafreshtohermind,'Icannotbearyourgoingawaylikethis!Itistoodreadful。AllIhavebeenexpectingmiserablykilledwithinmelikethis!'
Stephenflushedhotwithimpulse。'Iwillnotbeadoubttoyou——
thoughtofyoushallnotbeamiserytome!'hesaid。'Wewillbewifeandhusbandbeforewepartforlong!'
Shehidherfaceonhisshoulder。'AnythingtomakeSURE!'shewhispered。
'Ididnotliketoproposeitimmediately,'continuedStephen。
'Itseemedtome——itseemstomenow——liketryingtocatchyou——agirlbetterintheworldthanI。'
'Notthat,indeed!AndamIbetterinworldlystation?What'stheuseofhavebeens?Wemayhavebeensomethingonce;wearenothingnow。'
Thentheywhisperedlongandearnestlytogether;Stephenhesitatinglyproposingthisandthatplan,Elfridemodifyingthem,withquickbreathings,andhecticflush,andunnaturallybrighteyes。Itwastwoo'clockbeforeanarrangementwasfinallyconcluded。
Shethentoldhimtoleaveher,givinghimhislighttogouptohisownroom。Theypartedwithanagreementnottomeetagaininthemorning。Afterhisdoorhadbeensometimeclosedheheardhersoftlyglidingintoherchamber。
ChapterXI
'Journeysendinloversmeeting。'
StephenlaywatchingtheGreatBear;Elfridewasregardingamonotonousparallelogramofwindowblind。Neithersleptthatnight。
Earlythenextmorning——thatistosay,fourhoursaftertheirstoleninterview,andjustastheearliestservantwasheardmovingabout——StephenSmithwentdownstairs,portmanteauinhand。
ThroughoutthenighthehadintendedtoseeMr。Swancourtagain,butthesharprebuffofthepreviouseveningrenderedsuchaninterviewparticularlydistasteful。Perhapstherewasanotherandlesshonestreason。Hedecidedtoputitoff。Whateverofmoraltimidityorobliquitymayhavelaininsuchadecision,noperceptionofitwasstrongenoughtodetainhim。Hewroteanoteinhisroom,whichstatedsimplythathedidnotfeelhappyinthehouseafterMr。Swancourt'ssuddenvetoonwhathehadfavouredafewhoursbefore;butthathehopedatimewouldcome,andthatsoon,whenhisoriginalfeelingsofpleasureasMr。Swancourt'sguestmightberecovered。
Heexpectedtofindthedownstairsroomswearingthegrayandcheerlessaspectthatearlymorninggivestoeverythingoutofthesun。Hefoundinthediningroomabreakfastlaid,ofwhichsomebodyhadjustpartaken。
Stephengavethemaid-servanthisnoteofadieu。ShestatedthatMr。Swancourthadrisenearlythatmorning,andmadeanearlybreakfast。Hewasnotgoingawaythatsheknewof。
Stephentookacupofcoffee,leftthehouseofhislove,andturnedintothelane。Itwassoearlythattheshadedplacesstillsmeltlikenighttime,andthesunnyspotshadhardlyfeltthesun。Thehorizontalraysmadeeveryshallowdipinthegroundtoshowasawell-markedhollow。Eventhechannelofthepathwasenoughtothrowshade,andtheverystonesoftheroadcasttaperingdashesofdarknesswestward,aslongasJael'stent-nail。
Ataspotnotmorethanahundredyardsfromthevicar'sresidencethelaneleadingthencecrossedthehighroad。Stephenreachedthepointofintersection,stoodstillandlistened。Nothingcouldbeheardsavethelengthy,murmuringlineoftheseaupontheadjacentshore。Helookedathiswatch,andthenmountedagateuponwhichheseatedhimself,toawaitthearrivalofthecarrier。Whilsthesatheheardwheelscomingintwodirections。
Thevehicleapproachingonhisrighthesoonrecognizedasthecarrier's。Thereweretheaccompanyingsoundsoftheowner'svoiceandthesmackofhiswhip,distinctinthestillmorningair,bywhichheencouragedhishorsesupthehill。
TheothersetofwheelssoundedfromthelaneStephenhadjusttraversed。Oncloserobservation,heperceivedthattheyweremovingfromtheprecinctsoftheancientmanor-houseadjoiningthevicaragegrounds。Acarriagethenlefttheentrancegatesofthehouse,andwheelingroundcamefullyinsight。Itwasaplaintravellingcarriage,withasmallquantityofluggage,apparentlyalady's。Thevehiclecametothejunctionofthefourwayshalf-
a-minutebeforethecarrierreachedthesamespot,andcrosseddirectlyinhisfront,proceedingbythelaneontheotherside。
InsidethecarriageStephencouldjustdiscernanelderlyladywithayoungerwoman,whoseemedtobehermaid。TheroadtheyhadtakenledtoStratleigh,asmallwatering-placesixteenmilesnorth。
Heheardthemanor-housegatesswingagain,andlookingupsawanotherpersonleavingthem,andwalkingoffinthedirectionoftheparsonage。'Ah,howmuchIwishIweremovingthatway!'feltheparenthetically。Thegentlemanwastall,andresembledMr。
Swancourtinoutlineandattire。Heopenedthevicaragegateandwentin。Mr。Swancourt,then,itcertainlywas。InsteadofremaininginbedthatmorningMr。Swancourtmusthavetakenitintohisheadtoseehisnewneighbouroffonajourney。Hemusthavebeengreatlyinterestedinthatneighbourtodosuchanunusualthing。
Thecarrier'sconveyancehadpulledup,andStephennowhandedinhisportmanteauandmountedtheshafts。'Whoisthatladyinthecarriage?'heinquiredindifferentlyofLickpanthecarrier。
'That,sir,isMrs。Troyton,awidderwi'aminto'money。She'stheownerofallthatpartofEndelstowthatisnotLordLuxellian's。Onlybeenhereashorttime;shecameintoitbylaw。Theownerformerlywasaterriblemysteriousparty——neverlivedhere——hardlyeverwasseenhereexceptinthemonthofSeptember,asImightsay。'
Thehorseswerestartedagain,andnoiserenderedfurtherdiscourseamatteroftoogreatexertion。Stephencreptinsideunderthetilt,andwassoonlostinreverie。