Shewaschildishlyfulloflifeandspirits,thoughinwalkingupanddownwithhimbeforetheotherpassengers,andgettingnoticedbythem,shewasatstartingratherconfused,itbeingthefirsttimeshehadshownherselfsoopenlyunderthatkindofprotection。'Iexpecttheyareenviousandsayingthingsaboutus,don'tyou?'shewouldwhispertoKnightwithastealthysmile。
'Ohno,'hewouldanswerunconcernedly。'Whyshouldtheyenvyus,andwhatcantheysay?'
'Notanyharm,ofcourse,'Elfridereplied,'exceptsuchasthis:
"Howhappythosetwoare!sheisproudenoughnow。”Whatmakesitworse,'shecontinuedintheextremityofconfidence,'Iheardthosetwocricketingmensayjustnow,"She'sthenobbiestgirlontheboat。”ButIdon'tmindit,youknow,Harry。'
'Ishouldhardlyhavesupposedyoudid,evenifyouhadnottoldme,'saidKnightwithgreatblandness。
Shewasnevertiredofaskingherloverquestionsandadmiringhisanswers,good,bad,orindifferentastheymightbe。Theeveninggrewdarkandnightcameon,andlightsshoneuponthemfromthehorizonandfromthesky。
'Nowlookthereaheadofus,atthathalointheair,ofsilverybrightness。Watchit,andyouwillseewhatitcomesto。'
Shewatchedforafewminutes,whentwowhitelightsemergedfromthesideofahill,andshowedthemselvestobetheoriginofthehalo。
'Whatadazzlingbrilliance!Whatdotheymark?'
'TheSouthForeland:theywerepreviouslycoveredbythecliff。'
'Whatisthatlevellineoflittlesparkles——atown,Isuppose?'
'That'sDover。'
Allthistime,andlater,softsheetlightningexpandedfromacloudintheirpath,enkindlingtheirfacesastheypacedupanddown,shiningoverthewater,and,foramoment,showingthehorizonasakeenline。
Elfridesleptsoundlythatnight。HerfirstthoughtthenextmorningwasthethrillingonethatKnightwasascloseathandaswhentheywereathomeatEndelstow,andherfirstsight,onlookingoutofthecabinwindow,wastheperpendicularfaceofBeachyHead,gleamingwhiteinabrilliantsix-o'clock-in-the-
morningsun。Thisfairdaybreak,however,soonchangeditsaspect。Acoldwindandapalemistdescendeduponthesea,andseemedtothreatenadrearyday。
WhentheywerenearingSouthampton,Mrs。Swancourtcametosaythatherhusbandwassoillthathewishedtobeputonshorehere,andlefttodotheremainderofthejourneybyland。'Hewillbeperfectlywelldirectlyhetreadsfirmgroundagain。
Whichshallwedo——gowithhim,orfinishourvoyageasweintended?'
ElfridewascomfortablyhousedunderanumbrellawhichKnightwasholdingoverhertokeepoffthewind。'Oh,don'tletusgoonshore!'shesaidwithdismay。'Itwouldbesuchapity!'
'That'sveryfine,'saidMrs。Swancourtarchly,astoachild。
'See,thewindhasincreasedhercolour,theseaherappetiteandspirits,andsomebodyherhappiness。Yes,itwouldbeapity,certainly。'
''Tismymisfortunetobealwaysspokentofromapedestal,'
sighedElfride。
'Well,wewilldoasyoulike,Mrs。Swancourt,'saidKnight,'but——'
'Imyselfwouldratherremainonboard,'interruptedtheelderlady。'AndMr。Swancourtparticularlywishestogobyhimself。
Sothatshallsettlethematter。'
Thevicar,nowadrabcolour,wasputashore,andbecameaswellaseverforthwith。
Elfride,sittingaloneinaretiredpartofthevessel,sawaveiledwomanwalkaboardamongtheverylatestarrivalsatthisport。Shewasclothedinblacksilk,andcarriedadarkshawluponherarm。Thewoman,withoutlookingaroundher,turnedtothequarterallottedtothesecond-cabinpassengers。AllthecarnationMrs。Swancourthadcomplimentedherstep-daughteruponpossessingleftElfride'scheeks,andshetrembledvisibly。
Sherantotheothersideoftheboat,whereMrs。Swancourtwasstanding。
'Letusgohomebyrailwaywithpapa,afterall,'shepleadedearnestly。'Iwouldrathergowithhim——shallwe?'
Mrs。Swancourtlookedaroundforamoment,asifunabletodecide。
'Ah,'sheexclaimed,'itistoolatenow。Whydidnotyousaysobefore,whenwehadplentyoftime?'
TheJuliethadatthatminuteletgo,theengineshadstarted,andtheywereglidingslowlyawayfromthequay。Therewasnohelpforitbuttoremain,unlesstheJulietcouldbemadetoputback,andthatwouldcreateagreatdisturbance。Elfridegaveuptheideaandsubmittedquietly。Herhappinesswassadlymutilatednow。
ThewomanwhosepresencehadsodisturbedherwasexactlylikeMrs。Jethway。SheseemedtohauntElfridelikeashadow。Afterseveralminutes'vainendeavourtoaccountforanydesignMrs。
Jethwaycouldhaveinwatchingher,Elfridedecidedtothinkthat,ifitwerethewidow,theencounterwasaccidental。SherememberedthatthewidowinherrestlessnesswasoftenvisitingthevillagenearSouthampton,whichwasheroriginalhome,anditwaspossiblethatshechosewater-transitwiththeideaofsavingexpense。
'Whatisthematter,Elfride?'Knightinquired,standingbeforeher。
'NothingmorethanthatIamratherdepressed。'
'Idon'tmuchwonderatit;thatwharfwasdepressing。Weseemedunderneathandinferiortoeverythingaroundus。Butweshallbeintheseabreezeagainsoon,andthatwillfreshenyou,dear。'
TheeveningclosedinandduskincreasedastheymadewaydownSouthamptonWaterandthroughtheSolent。Elfride'sdisturbanceofmindwassuchthatherlightspiritsoftheforegoingfourandtwentyhourshadentirelydesertedher。Theweathertoohadgrownmoregloomy,forthoughtheshowersofthemorninghadceased,theskywascoveredmorecloselythaneverwithdenseleadenclouds。
HowbeautifulwasthesunsetwhentheyroundedtheNorthForelandthepreviousevening!nowitwasimpossibletotellwithinhalfanhourthetimeoftheluminary'sgoingdown。Knightledherabout,andbeingbythistimeaccustomedtohersuddenchangesofmood,overlookedthenecessityofacauseinregardingtheconditions——
impressionablenessandelasticity。
Elfridelookedstealthilytotheotherendofthevessel。Mrs。
Jethway,orherdouble,wassittingatthestern——hereyesteadilyregardingElfride。
'Letusgototheforepart,'shesaidquicklytoKnight。'Seethere——themanisfixingthelightsforthenight。'
Knightassented,andafterwatchingtheoperationoffixingtheredandthegreenlightsontheportandstarboardbows,andthehoistingofthewhitelighttothemasthead,hewalkedupanddownwithhertilltheincreaseofwindrenderedpromenadingdifficult。
Elfride'seyeswereoccasionallytobefoundfurtivelygazingabaft,tolearnifherenemywerereallythere。Nobodywasvisiblenow。
'Shallwegobelow?'saidKnight,seeingthatthedeckwasnearlydeserted。
'No,'shesaid。'IfyouwillkindlygetmearugfromMrs。
Swancourt,Ishouldlike,ifyoudon'tmind,tostayhere。'ShehadrecentlyfanciedtheassumedMrs。Jethwaymightbeafirst-
classpassenger,anddreadedmeetingherbyaccident。
Knightappearedwiththerug,andtheysatdownbehindaweather-
clothonthewindwardside,justasthetworedeyesoftheNeedlesglareduponthemfromthegloom,theirpointedsummitsrisinglikeshadowyphantomfiguresagainstthesky。Itbecamenecessarytogobelowtoaneight-o'clockmealofnondescriptkind,andElfridewasimmenselyrelievedatfindingnosignofMrs。Jethwaythere。Theyagainascended,andremainedabovetillMrs。SnewsonstaggereduptothemwiththemessagethatMrs。
SwancourtthoughtitwastimeforElfridetocomebelow。Knightaccompaniedherdown,andreturnedagaintopassalittlemoretimeondeck。
Elfridepartlyundressedherselfandlaydown,andsoonbecameunconscious,thoughhersleepwaslightHowlongshehadlain,sheknewnot,whenbyslowdegreesshebecamecognizantofawhisperinginherear。
'Youarewellonwithhim,Icansee。Well,provokemenow,butmydaywillcome,youwillfind。'Thatseemedtobetheutterance,orwordstothateffect。
Elfridebecamebroadawakeandterrified。Sheknewthewords,ifreal,couldbeonlythoseofoneperson,andthatpersonthewidowJethway。
Thelamphadgoneoutandtheplacewasindarkness。Inthenextberthshecouldhearherstepmotherbreathingheavily,furtheronSnewsonbreathingmoreheavilystill。Theseweretheonlyotherlegitimateoccupantsofthecabin,andMrs。Jethwaymusthavestealthilycomeinbysomemeansandretreatedagain,orelseshehadenteredanemptyberthnextSnewson's。ThefearthatthiswasthecaseincreasedElfride'sperturbation,tillitassumedthedimensionsofacertainty,forhowcouldastrangerfromtheotherendoftheshippossiblycontrivetogetin?Couldithavebeenadream?
Elfrideraisedherselfhigherandlookedoutofthewindow。Therewasthesea,flounderingandrushingagainsttheship'ssidejustbyherhead,andthencestretchingaway,dimandmoaning,intoanexpanseofindistinctness;andfarbeyondallthistwoplacidlightslikeraylessstars。Nowalmostfearingtoturnherfaceinwardsagain,lestMrs。Jethwayshouldappearatherelbow,ElfridemeditateduponwhethertocallSnewsontokeephercompany。'Fourbells'sounded,andsheheardvoices,whichgaveheralittlecourage。ItwasnotworthwhiletocallSnewson。
AtanyrateElfridecouldnotstaytherepantinglonger,attheriskofbeingagaindisturbedbythatdreadfulwhispering。Sowrappingherselfuphurriedlysheemergedintothepassage,andbytheaidofafaintlightburningattheentrancetothesaloonfoundthefootofthestairs,andascendedtothedeck。Drearytheplacewasintheextreme。Itseemedanewspotaltogetherincontrastwithitsdaytimeself。Shecouldseetheglowwormlightfromthebinnacle,andthedimoutlineofthemanatthewheel;
alsoaformatthebows。Notanothersoulwasapparentfromstemtostern。
Yes,thereweretwomore——bythebulwarks。OneprovedtobeherHarry,theotherthemate。Shewasgladindeed,andondrawingcloserfoundtheywereholdingalowslowchataboutnauticalaffairs。SheranupandslippedherhandthroughKnight'sarm,partlyforlove,partlyforstability。
'Elfie!notasleep?'saidKnight,aftermovingafewstepsasidewithher。
'No:Icannotsleep。MayIstayhere?Itissodismaldownthere,and——andIwasafraid。Wherearewenow?'
'DuesouthofPortlandBill。Thosearethelightsabeamofus:
look。Aterriblespot,that,onastormynight。Anddoyouseeaverysmalllightthatdipsandrisestotheright?That'salight-
shiponthedangerousshoalcalledtheShambles,wheremanyagoodvesselhasgonetopieces。BetweenitandourselvesistheRace——
aplacewhereantagonisticcurrentsmeetandformwhirlpools——aspotwhichisroughinthesmoothestweather,andterrificinawind。Thatdark,drearyhorizonwejustdiscerntotheleftistheWestBay,terminatedlandwardsbytheChesilBeach。'
'Whattimeisit,Harry?'
'Justpasttwo。'
'Areyougoingbelow?'
'Ohno;notto-night。Ipreferpureair。'
Shefanciedhemightbedispleasedwithherforcomingtohimatthisunearthlyhour。'Ishouldliketostayheretoo,ifyouwillallowme,'shesaidtimidly。
'Iwanttoaskyouthings。'
'Allowyou,Elfie!'saidKnight,puttinghisarmroundheranddrawinghercloser。'Iamtwiceashappywithyoubymyside。
Yes:wewillstay,andwatchtheapproachofday。'
Sotheyagainsoughtouttheshelterednook,andsittingdownwrappedthemselvesintherugasbefore。
'Whatwereyougoingtoaskme?'heinquired,astheyundulatedupanddown。
'Oh,itwasnotmuch——perhapsathingIoughtnottoask,'shesaidhesitatingly。Hersuddenwishhadreallybeentodiscoveratoncewhetherhehadeverbeforebeenengagedtobemarried。Ifhehad,shewouldmakethatagroundfortellinghimalittleofherconductwithStephen。Mrs。Jethway'sseemingwordshadsodepressedthegirlthatsheherselfnowpaintedherflightinthedarkestcolours,andlongedtoeaseherburdenedmindbyaninstantconfession。IfKnighthadeverbeenimprudenthimself,hemight,shehoped,forgiveall。
'Iwantedtoaskyou,'shewenton,'if——youhadeverbeenengagedbefore。'Sheaddedtremulously,'Ihopeyouhave——Imean,Idon'tmindatallifyouhave。'
'No,Ineverwas,'Knightinstantlyandheartilyreplied。
'Elfride'——andtherewasacertainhappyprideinhistone——'Iamtwelveyearsolderthanyou,andIhavebeenabouttheworld,and,inaway,intosociety,andyouhavenot。AndyetIamnotsounfitforyouasstrict-thinkingpeoplemightimagine,whowouldassumethedifferenceinagetosignifymostsurelyanequaladditiontomypracticeinlove-making。'
Elfrideshivered。
'Youarecold——isthewindtoomuchforyou?'
'No,'shesaidgloomily。Thebeliefwhichhadbeenhersheet-
anchorinhopingforforgivenesshadprovedfalse。Thisaccountoftheexceptionalnatureofhisexperience,amatterwhichwouldhavesetherrejoicingtwoyearsago,chilledhernowlikeafrost。
'Youdon'tmindmyaskingyou?'shecontinued。
'Ohno——notatall。'
'Andhaveyouneverkissedmanyladies?'shewhispered,hopinghewouldsayahundredattheleast。
Thetime,thecircumstances,andthesceneweresuchastodrawconfidencesfromthemostreserved。'Elfride,'whisperedKnightinreply,'itisstrangeyoushouldhaveaskedthatquestion。ButI'llanswerit,thoughIhavenevertoldsuchathingbefore。I
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