首页 >出版文学> A Pair of Blue Eyes>第16章
  Shewaschildishlyfulloflifeandspirits,thoughinwalkingupanddownwithhimbeforetheotherpassengers,andgettingnoticedbythem,shewasatstartingratherconfused,itbeingthefirsttimeshehadshownherselfsoopenlyunderthatkindofprotection。'Iexpecttheyareenviousandsayingthingsaboutus,don'tyou?'shewouldwhispertoKnightwithastealthysmile。
  'Ohno,'hewouldanswerunconcernedly。'Whyshouldtheyenvyus,andwhatcantheysay?'
  'Notanyharm,ofcourse,'Elfridereplied,'exceptsuchasthis:
  "Howhappythosetwoare!sheisproudenoughnow。”Whatmakesitworse,'shecontinuedintheextremityofconfidence,'Iheardthosetwocricketingmensayjustnow,"She'sthenobbiestgirlontheboat。”ButIdon'tmindit,youknow,Harry。'
  'Ishouldhardlyhavesupposedyoudid,evenifyouhadnottoldme,'saidKnightwithgreatblandness。
  Shewasnevertiredofaskingherloverquestionsandadmiringhisanswers,good,bad,orindifferentastheymightbe。Theeveninggrewdarkandnightcameon,andlightsshoneuponthemfromthehorizonandfromthesky。
  'Nowlookthereaheadofus,atthathalointheair,ofsilverybrightness。Watchit,andyouwillseewhatitcomesto。'
  Shewatchedforafewminutes,whentwowhitelightsemergedfromthesideofahill,andshowedthemselvestobetheoriginofthehalo。
  'Whatadazzlingbrilliance!Whatdotheymark?'
  'TheSouthForeland:theywerepreviouslycoveredbythecliff。'
  'Whatisthatlevellineoflittlesparkles——atown,Isuppose?'
  'That'sDover。'
  Allthistime,andlater,softsheetlightningexpandedfromacloudintheirpath,enkindlingtheirfacesastheypacedupanddown,shiningoverthewater,and,foramoment,showingthehorizonasakeenline。
  Elfridesleptsoundlythatnight。HerfirstthoughtthenextmorningwasthethrillingonethatKnightwasascloseathandaswhentheywereathomeatEndelstow,andherfirstsight,onlookingoutofthecabinwindow,wastheperpendicularfaceofBeachyHead,gleamingwhiteinabrilliantsix-o'clock-in-the-
  morningsun。Thisfairdaybreak,however,soonchangeditsaspect。Acoldwindandapalemistdescendeduponthesea,andseemedtothreatenadrearyday。
  WhentheywerenearingSouthampton,Mrs。Swancourtcametosaythatherhusbandwassoillthathewishedtobeputonshorehere,andlefttodotheremainderofthejourneybyland。'Hewillbeperfectlywelldirectlyhetreadsfirmgroundagain。
  Whichshallwedo——gowithhim,orfinishourvoyageasweintended?'
  ElfridewascomfortablyhousedunderanumbrellawhichKnightwasholdingoverhertokeepoffthewind。'Oh,don'tletusgoonshore!'shesaidwithdismay。'Itwouldbesuchapity!'
  'That'sveryfine,'saidMrs。Swancourtarchly,astoachild。
  'See,thewindhasincreasedhercolour,theseaherappetiteandspirits,andsomebodyherhappiness。Yes,itwouldbeapity,certainly。'
  ''Tismymisfortunetobealwaysspokentofromapedestal,'
  sighedElfride。
  'Well,wewilldoasyoulike,Mrs。Swancourt,'saidKnight,'but——'
  'Imyselfwouldratherremainonboard,'interruptedtheelderlady。'AndMr。Swancourtparticularlywishestogobyhimself。
  Sothatshallsettlethematter。'
  Thevicar,nowadrabcolour,wasputashore,andbecameaswellaseverforthwith。
  Elfride,sittingaloneinaretiredpartofthevessel,sawaveiledwomanwalkaboardamongtheverylatestarrivalsatthisport。Shewasclothedinblacksilk,andcarriedadarkshawluponherarm。Thewoman,withoutlookingaroundher,turnedtothequarterallottedtothesecond-cabinpassengers。AllthecarnationMrs。Swancourthadcomplimentedherstep-daughteruponpossessingleftElfride'scheeks,andshetrembledvisibly。
  Sherantotheothersideoftheboat,whereMrs。Swancourtwasstanding。
  'Letusgohomebyrailwaywithpapa,afterall,'shepleadedearnestly。'Iwouldrathergowithhim——shallwe?'
  Mrs。Swancourtlookedaroundforamoment,asifunabletodecide。
  'Ah,'sheexclaimed,'itistoolatenow。Whydidnotyousaysobefore,whenwehadplentyoftime?'
  TheJuliethadatthatminuteletgo,theengineshadstarted,andtheywereglidingslowlyawayfromthequay。Therewasnohelpforitbuttoremain,unlesstheJulietcouldbemadetoputback,andthatwouldcreateagreatdisturbance。Elfridegaveuptheideaandsubmittedquietly。Herhappinesswassadlymutilatednow。
  ThewomanwhosepresencehadsodisturbedherwasexactlylikeMrs。Jethway。SheseemedtohauntElfridelikeashadow。Afterseveralminutes'vainendeavourtoaccountforanydesignMrs。
  Jethwaycouldhaveinwatchingher,Elfridedecidedtothinkthat,ifitwerethewidow,theencounterwasaccidental。SherememberedthatthewidowinherrestlessnesswasoftenvisitingthevillagenearSouthampton,whichwasheroriginalhome,anditwaspossiblethatshechosewater-transitwiththeideaofsavingexpense。
  'Whatisthematter,Elfride?'Knightinquired,standingbeforeher。
  'NothingmorethanthatIamratherdepressed。'
  'Idon'tmuchwonderatit;thatwharfwasdepressing。Weseemedunderneathandinferiortoeverythingaroundus。Butweshallbeintheseabreezeagainsoon,andthatwillfreshenyou,dear。'
  TheeveningclosedinandduskincreasedastheymadewaydownSouthamptonWaterandthroughtheSolent。Elfride'sdisturbanceofmindwassuchthatherlightspiritsoftheforegoingfourandtwentyhourshadentirelydesertedher。Theweathertoohadgrownmoregloomy,forthoughtheshowersofthemorninghadceased,theskywascoveredmorecloselythaneverwithdenseleadenclouds。
  HowbeautifulwasthesunsetwhentheyroundedtheNorthForelandthepreviousevening!nowitwasimpossibletotellwithinhalfanhourthetimeoftheluminary'sgoingdown。Knightledherabout,andbeingbythistimeaccustomedtohersuddenchangesofmood,overlookedthenecessityofacauseinregardingtheconditions——
  impressionablenessandelasticity。
  Elfridelookedstealthilytotheotherendofthevessel。Mrs。
  Jethway,orherdouble,wassittingatthestern——hereyesteadilyregardingElfride。
  'Letusgototheforepart,'shesaidquicklytoKnight。'Seethere——themanisfixingthelightsforthenight。'
  Knightassented,andafterwatchingtheoperationoffixingtheredandthegreenlightsontheportandstarboardbows,andthehoistingofthewhitelighttothemasthead,hewalkedupanddownwithhertilltheincreaseofwindrenderedpromenadingdifficult。
  Elfride'seyeswereoccasionallytobefoundfurtivelygazingabaft,tolearnifherenemywerereallythere。Nobodywasvisiblenow。
  'Shallwegobelow?'saidKnight,seeingthatthedeckwasnearlydeserted。
  'No,'shesaid。'IfyouwillkindlygetmearugfromMrs。
  Swancourt,Ishouldlike,ifyoudon'tmind,tostayhere。'ShehadrecentlyfanciedtheassumedMrs。Jethwaymightbeafirst-
  classpassenger,anddreadedmeetingherbyaccident。
  Knightappearedwiththerug,andtheysatdownbehindaweather-
  clothonthewindwardside,justasthetworedeyesoftheNeedlesglareduponthemfromthegloom,theirpointedsummitsrisinglikeshadowyphantomfiguresagainstthesky。Itbecamenecessarytogobelowtoaneight-o'clockmealofnondescriptkind,andElfridewasimmenselyrelievedatfindingnosignofMrs。Jethwaythere。Theyagainascended,andremainedabovetillMrs。SnewsonstaggereduptothemwiththemessagethatMrs。
  SwancourtthoughtitwastimeforElfridetocomebelow。Knightaccompaniedherdown,andreturnedagaintopassalittlemoretimeondeck。
  Elfridepartlyundressedherselfandlaydown,andsoonbecameunconscious,thoughhersleepwaslightHowlongshehadlain,sheknewnot,whenbyslowdegreesshebecamecognizantofawhisperinginherear。
  'Youarewellonwithhim,Icansee。Well,provokemenow,butmydaywillcome,youwillfind。'Thatseemedtobetheutterance,orwordstothateffect。
  Elfridebecamebroadawakeandterrified。Sheknewthewords,ifreal,couldbeonlythoseofoneperson,andthatpersonthewidowJethway。
  Thelamphadgoneoutandtheplacewasindarkness。Inthenextberthshecouldhearherstepmotherbreathingheavily,furtheronSnewsonbreathingmoreheavilystill。Theseweretheonlyotherlegitimateoccupantsofthecabin,andMrs。Jethwaymusthavestealthilycomeinbysomemeansandretreatedagain,orelseshehadenteredanemptyberthnextSnewson's。ThefearthatthiswasthecaseincreasedElfride'sperturbation,tillitassumedthedimensionsofacertainty,forhowcouldastrangerfromtheotherendoftheshippossiblycontrivetogetin?Couldithavebeenadream?
  Elfrideraisedherselfhigherandlookedoutofthewindow。Therewasthesea,flounderingandrushingagainsttheship'ssidejustbyherhead,andthencestretchingaway,dimandmoaning,intoanexpanseofindistinctness;andfarbeyondallthistwoplacidlightslikeraylessstars。Nowalmostfearingtoturnherfaceinwardsagain,lestMrs。Jethwayshouldappearatherelbow,ElfridemeditateduponwhethertocallSnewsontokeephercompany。'Fourbells'sounded,andsheheardvoices,whichgaveheralittlecourage。ItwasnotworthwhiletocallSnewson。
  AtanyrateElfridecouldnotstaytherepantinglonger,attheriskofbeingagaindisturbedbythatdreadfulwhispering。Sowrappingherselfuphurriedlysheemergedintothepassage,andbytheaidofafaintlightburningattheentrancetothesaloonfoundthefootofthestairs,andascendedtothedeck。Drearytheplacewasintheextreme。Itseemedanewspotaltogetherincontrastwithitsdaytimeself。Shecouldseetheglowwormlightfromthebinnacle,andthedimoutlineofthemanatthewheel;
  alsoaformatthebows。Notanothersoulwasapparentfromstemtostern。
  Yes,thereweretwomore——bythebulwarks。OneprovedtobeherHarry,theotherthemate。Shewasgladindeed,andondrawingcloserfoundtheywereholdingalowslowchataboutnauticalaffairs。SheranupandslippedherhandthroughKnight'sarm,partlyforlove,partlyforstability。
  'Elfie!notasleep?'saidKnight,aftermovingafewstepsasidewithher。
  'No:Icannotsleep。MayIstayhere?Itissodismaldownthere,and——andIwasafraid。Wherearewenow?'
  'DuesouthofPortlandBill。Thosearethelightsabeamofus:
  look。Aterriblespot,that,onastormynight。Anddoyouseeaverysmalllightthatdipsandrisestotheright?That'salight-
  shiponthedangerousshoalcalledtheShambles,wheremanyagoodvesselhasgonetopieces。BetweenitandourselvesistheRace——
  aplacewhereantagonisticcurrentsmeetandformwhirlpools——aspotwhichisroughinthesmoothestweather,andterrificinawind。Thatdark,drearyhorizonwejustdiscerntotheleftistheWestBay,terminatedlandwardsbytheChesilBeach。'
  'Whattimeisit,Harry?'
  'Justpasttwo。'
  'Areyougoingbelow?'
  'Ohno;notto-night。Ipreferpureair。'
  Shefanciedhemightbedispleasedwithherforcomingtohimatthisunearthlyhour。'Ishouldliketostayheretoo,ifyouwillallowme,'shesaidtimidly。
  'Iwanttoaskyouthings。'
  'Allowyou,Elfie!'saidKnight,puttinghisarmroundheranddrawinghercloser。'Iamtwiceashappywithyoubymyside。
  Yes:wewillstay,andwatchtheapproachofday。'
  Sotheyagainsoughtouttheshelterednook,andsittingdownwrappedthemselvesintherugasbefore。
  'Whatwereyougoingtoaskme?'heinquired,astheyundulatedupanddown。
  'Oh,itwasnotmuch——perhapsathingIoughtnottoask,'shesaidhesitatingly。Hersuddenwishhadreallybeentodiscoveratoncewhetherhehadeverbeforebeenengagedtobemarried。Ifhehad,shewouldmakethatagroundfortellinghimalittleofherconductwithStephen。Mrs。Jethway'sseemingwordshadsodepressedthegirlthatsheherselfnowpaintedherflightinthedarkestcolours,andlongedtoeaseherburdenedmindbyaninstantconfession。IfKnighthadeverbeenimprudenthimself,hemight,shehoped,forgiveall。
  'Iwantedtoaskyou,'shewenton,'if——youhadeverbeenengagedbefore。'Sheaddedtremulously,'Ihopeyouhave——Imean,Idon'tmindatallifyouhave。'
  'No,Ineverwas,'Knightinstantlyandheartilyreplied。
  'Elfride'——andtherewasacertainhappyprideinhistone——'Iamtwelveyearsolderthanyou,andIhavebeenabouttheworld,and,inaway,intosociety,andyouhavenot。AndyetIamnotsounfitforyouasstrict-thinkingpeoplemightimagine,whowouldassumethedifferenceinagetosignifymostsurelyanequaladditiontomypracticeinlove-making。'
  Elfrideshivered。
  'Youarecold——isthewindtoomuchforyou?'
  'No,'shesaidgloomily。Thebeliefwhichhadbeenhersheet-
  anchorinhopingforforgivenesshadprovedfalse。Thisaccountoftheexceptionalnatureofhisexperience,amatterwhichwouldhavesetherrejoicingtwoyearsago,chilledhernowlikeafrost。
  'Youdon'tmindmyaskingyou?'shecontinued。
  'Ohno——notatall。'
  'Andhaveyouneverkissedmanyladies?'shewhispered,hopinghewouldsayahundredattheleast。
  Thetime,thecircumstances,andthesceneweresuchastodrawconfidencesfromthemostreserved。'Elfride,'whisperedKnightinreply,'itisstrangeyoushouldhaveaskedthatquestion。ButI'llanswerit,thoughIhavenevertoldsuchathingbefore。I