首页 >出版文学> A Pair of Blue Eyes>第11章
  'IamintendingtocrosstoCorkfromBristol,'returnedKnight;
  'andthenIgoontoDublin。'
  'Returnthisway,andstayalittlelongerwithus,'saidthevicar。'Aweekisnothing。Wehavehardlybeenabletorealizeyourpresenceyet。Irememberastorywhich——'
  Thevicarsuddenlystopped。HehadforgottenitwasSunday,andwouldprobablyhavegoneoninhisweek-daymodeofthoughthadnotaturninthebreezeblowntheskirtofhiscollegegownwithintherangeofhisvision,andsoremindedhim。Heatoncedivertedthecurrentofhisnarrativewiththedexteritytheoccasiondemanded。
  'ThestoryoftheLevitewhojourneyedtoBethlehem-judah,fromwhichItookmytexttheSundaybeforelast,isquitetothepoint,'hecontinued,withthepronunciationofamanwho,farfromhavingintendedtotellaweek-daystoryamomentearlier,hadthoughtofnothingbutSabbathmattersforseveralweeks。
  'Whatdidhegainafterallbyhisrestlessness?HadheremainedinthecityoftheJebusites,andnotbeensoanxiousforGibeah,noneofhistroubleswouldhavearisen。'
  'Buthehadwastedfivedaysalready,'saidKnight,closinghiseyestothevicar'scommendablediversion。'Hisfaultlayinbeginningthetarryingsystemoriginally。'
  'True,true;myillustrationfails。'
  'Butnotthehospitalitywhichpromptedthestory。'
  'Soyouaretocomejustthesame,'urgedMrs。Swancourt,forshehadseenanalmostimperceptiblefallofcountenanceinherstepdaughteratKnight'sannouncement。
  Knighthalfpromisedtocallonhisreturnjourney;buttheuncertaintywithwhichhespokewasquiteenoughtofillElfridewitharegretfulinterestinallhedidduringthefewremaininghours。Thecuratehavingalreadyofficiatedtwicethatdayinthetwochurches,Mr。Swancourthadundertakenthewholeoftheeveningservice,andKnightreadthelessonsforhim。Thesunstreamedacrossfromthedilapidatedwestwindow,andlightedalltheassembledworshipperswithagoldenglow,Knightashereadbeingilluminatedbythesamemellowlustre。Elfrideattheorganregardedhimwithathrobbingsadnessofmoodwhichwasfedbyasenseofbeingfarremovedfromhissphere。Ashewentdeliberatelythroughthechapterappointed——aportionofthehistoryofElijah——andascendedthatmagnificentclimaxofthewind,theearthquake,thefire,andthestillsmallvoice,hisdeeptonesechoedpastwithsuchapparentdisregardofherexistence,thathispresenceinspiredherwithaforlornsenseofunapproachableness,whichhisabsencewouldhardlyhavebeenabletocause。
  Atthesametime,turningherfaceforamomenttocatchthegloryofthedyingsunasitfellonhisform,hereyeswerearrestedbytheshapeandaspectofawomaninthewestgallery。ItwasthebleakbarrencountenanceofthewidowJethway,whomElfridehadnotseenmuchofsincethemorningofherreturnwithStephenSmith。Possessingthesmallestofcompetencies,thisunhappywomanappearedtospendherlifeinjourneyingsbetweenEndelstowChurchyardandthatofavillagenearSouthampton,whereherfatherandmotherwerelaid。
  Shehadnotattendedtheservicehereforaconsiderabletime,andshenowseemedtohaveareasonforherchoiceofseat。Fromthegallerywindowthetombofhersonwasplainlyvisible——standingasthenearestobjectinaprospectwhichwasclosedoutwardlybythechangelesshorizonofthesea。
  Thestreamingrays,too,floodedherface,nowbenttowardsElfridewithahardandbitterexpressionthatthesolemnityoftheplaceraisedtoatragicdignityitdidnotintrinsicallypossess。Thegirlresumedhernormalattitudewithanaddeddisquiet。
  Elfride'semotionwascumulative,andafterawhilewouldassertitselfonasudden。Aslighttouchwasenoughtosetitfree——apoem,asunset,acunninglycontrivedchordofmusic,avagueimagining,beingtheusualaccidentsofitsexhibition。ThelongingforKnight'srespect,whichwasleadinguptoanincipientyearningforhislove,madethepresentconjunctureasufficientone。Whilstkneelingdownprevioustoleaving,whenthesunnystreakshadgoneupwardtotheroof,andthelowerpartofthechurchwasinsoftshadow,shecouldnothelpthinkingofColeridge'smorbidpoem'TheThreeGraves,'andshudderingasshewonderedifMrs。Jethwaywerecursingher,sheweptasifherheartwouldbreak。
  Theycameoutofchurchjustasthesunwentdown,leavingthelandscapelikeaplatformfromwhichaneloquentspeakerhasretired,andnothingremainsfortheaudiencetodobuttoriseandgohome。Mr。andMrs。Swancourtwentoffinthecarriage,KnightandElfridepreferringtowalk,astheskilfuloldmatchmakerhadimagined。Theydescendedthehilltogether。
  'Ilikedyourreading,Mr。Knight,'Elfridepresentlyfoundherselfsaying。'Youreadbetterthanpapa。'
  'Iwillpraiseanybodythatwillpraiseme。Youplayedexcellently,MissSwancourt,andverycorrectly。'
  'Correctly——yes。'
  'Itmustbeagreatpleasuretoyoutotakeanactivepartintheservice。'
  'Iwanttobeabletoplaywithmorefeeling。ButIhavenotagoodselectionofmusic,sacredorsecular。IwishIhadanicelittlemusic-library——wellchosen,andthattheonlynewpiecessentmewerethoseofgenuinemerit。'
  'Iamgladtohearsuchawishfromyou。Itisextraordinaryhowmanywomenhavenohonestloveofmusicasanendandnotasameans,evenleavingoutthosewhohavenothinginthem。Theymostlylikeitforitsaccessories。IhavenevermetawomanwholovesmusicasdotenoradozenmenIknow。'
  'Howwouldyoudrawthelinebetweenwomenwithsomethingandwomenwithnothinginthem?'
  'Well,'saidKnight,reflectingamoment,'Imeanbynothinginthemthosewhodon'tcareaboutanythingsolid。Thisisaninstance:Iknewamanwhohadayoungfriendinwhomhewasmuchinterested;infact,theyweregoingtobemarried。Shewasseeminglypoetical,andheofferedherachoiceoftwoeditionsoftheBritishpoets,whichshepretendedtowantbadly。Hesaid,"Whichofthemwouldyoulikebestformetosend?"Shesaid,"A
  pairoftheprettiestearringsinBondStreet,ifyoudon'tmind,wouldbenicerthaneither。”NowIcallheragirlwithnotmuchinherbutvanity;andsodoyou,Idaresay。'
  'Ohyes,'repliedElfridewithaneffort。
  Happeningtocatchaglimpseofherfaceasshewasspeaking,andnoticingthatherattemptatheartinesswasamiserablefailure,heappearedtohavemisgivings。
  'You,MissSwancourt,wouldnot,undersuchcircumstances,havepreferredthenicknacks?'
  'No,Idon'tthinkIshould,indeed,'shestammered。
  'I'llputittoyou,'saidtheinflexibleKnight。'Whichwillyouhaveofthesetwothingsofaboutequalvalue——thewell-chosenlittlelibraryofthebestmusicyouspokeof——boundinmorocco,walnutcase,lockandkey——orapairoftheveryprettiestearringsinBondStreetwindows?'
  'Ofcoursethemusic,'Elfriderepliedwithforcedearnestness。
  'Youarequitecertain?'hesaidemphatically。
  'Quite,'shefaltered;'ifIcouldforcertainbuytheearringsafterwards。'
  Knight,somewhatblamably,keenlyenjoyedsparringwiththepalpitatingmobilecreature,whoseexcitablenaturemadeanysuchthingaspeciesofcruelty。
  Helookedatherratheroddly,andsaid,'Fie!'
  'Forgiveme,'shesaid,laughingalittle,alittlefrightened,andblushingverydeeply。
  'Ah,MissElfie,whydidn'tyousayatfirst,asanyfirmwomanwouldhavesaid,Iamasbadasshe,andshallchoosethesame?'
  'Idon'tknow,'saidElfridewofully,andwithadistressfulsmile。
  'Ithoughtyouwereexceptionallymusical?'
  'SoIam,Ithink。Butthetestissosevere——quitepainful。'
  'Idon'tunderstand。'
  'Musicdoesn'tdoanyrealgood,orrather——'
  'ThatISathingtosay,MissSwancourt!Why,what——'
  'Youdon'tunderstand!youdon'tunderstand!'
  'Why,whatconceivableuseisthereinjimcrackjewellery?'
  'No,no,no,no!'shecriedpetulantly;'Ididn'tmeanwhatyouthink。Ilikethemusicbest,onlyIlike——'
  'Earringsbetter——ownit!'hesaidinateasingtone。'Well,I
  thinkIshouldhavehadthemoralcouragetoownitatonce,withoutpretendingtoanelevationIcouldnotreach。'
  LiketheFrenchsoldiery,Elfridewasnotbravewhenonthedefensive。Soitwasalmostwithtearsinhereyesthatsheanswereddesperately:
  'Mymeaningis,thatIlikeearringsbestjustnow,becauseIlostoneofmyprettiestpairlastyear,andpapasaidhewouldnotbuyanymore,orallowmetomyself,becauseIwascareless;andnowI
  wishIhadsomelikethem——that'swhatmymeaningis——indeeditis,Mr。Knight。'
  'IamafraidIhavebeenveryharshandrude,'saidKnight,withalookofregretatseeinghowdisturbedshewas。'Butseriously,ifwomenonlyknewhowtheyruintheirgoodlooksbysuchappurtenances,Iamsuretheywouldneverwantthem。'
  'Theywerelovely,andbecamemeso!'
  'Notiftheywereliketheordinaryhideousthingswomenstufftheirearswithnowadays——likethegovernorofasteam-engine,orapairofscales,orgoldgibbetsandchains,andartists'
  palettes,andcompensationpendulums,andHeavenknowswhatbesides。'
  'No;theywerenotoneofthosethings。Sopretty——likethis,'
  shesaidwitheageranimation。Andshedrewwiththepointofherparasolanenlargedviewofoneofthelamenteddarlings,toascalethatwouldhavesuitedagiantesshalf-a-milehigh。
  'Yes,verypretty——very,'saidKnightdryly。'Howdidyoucometolosesuchapreciouspairofarticles?'
  'Ionlylostone——nobodyeverlosesbothatthesametime。'
  Shemadethisremarkwithembarrassment,andanervousmovementofthefingers。SeeingthatthelossoccurredwhilstStephenSmithwasattemptingtokissherforthefirsttimeonthecliff,herconfusionwashardlytobewonderedat。Thequestionhadbeenawkward,andreceivednodirectanswer。
  Knightseemednottonoticehermanner。
  'Oh,nobodyeverlosesboth——Isee。Andcertainlythefactthatitwasacaseoflosstakesawayallodourofvanityfromyourchoice。'
  'AsIneverknowwhetheryouareinearnest,Idon'tnow,'shesaid,lookingupinquiringlyatthehairyfaceoftheoracle。Andcominggallantlytoherownrescue,'IfIreallyseemvain,itisthatIamonlyvaininmyways——notinmyheart。Theworstwomenarethosevainintheirhearts,andnotintheirways。'
  'Anadroitdistinction。Well,theyarecertainlythemoreobjectionableofthetwo,'saidKnight。
  'Isvanityamortaloravenialsin?Youknowwhatlifeis:tellme。'
  'Iamveryfarfromknowingwhatlifeis。Ajustconceptionoflifeistoolargeathingtograspduringtheshortintervalofpassingthroughit。'
  'Willthefactofawomanbeingfondofjewellerybelikelytomakeherlife,initshighersense,afailure?'
  'Nobody'slifeisaltogetherafailure。'
  'Well,youknowwhatImean,eventhoughmywordsarebadlyselectedandcommonplace,'shesaidimpatiently。'BecauseIuttercommonplacewords,youmustnotsupposeIthinkonlycommonplacethoughts。MypoorstockofwordsarelikealimitednumberofroughmouldsIhavetocastallmymaterialsin,goodandbad;andthenoveltyordelicacyofthesubstanceisoftenlostinthecoarsetritenessoftheform。'
  'Verywell;I'llbelievethatingeniousrepresentation。Astothesubjectinhand——liveswhicharefailures——youneednottroubleyourself。Anybody'slifemaybejustasromanticandstrangeandinterestingifheorshefailsasifheorshesucceed。Allthedifferenceis,thatthelastchapteriswantinginthestory。Ifamanofpowertriestodoagreatdeed,andjustfallsshortofitbyanaccidentnothisfault,uptothattimehishistoryhadasmuchinitasthatofagreatmanwhohasdonehisgreatdeed。
  Itiswhimsicaloftheworldtoholdthatparticularsofhowaladwenttoschoolandsoonshouldbeasaninterestingromanceorasnothingtothem,preciselyinproportiontohisafterrenown。'
  Theywerewalkingbetweenthesunsetandthemoonrise。Withthedroppingofthesunanearlyfullmoonhadbeguntoraiseitself。
  Theirshadows,ascastbythewesternglare,showedsignsofbecomingobliteratedintheinterestofarivalpairintheoppositedirectionwhichthemoonwasbringingtodistinctness。
  'Iconsidermylifetosomeextentafailure,'saidKnightagainafterapause,duringwhichhehadnoticedtheantagonisticshadows。
  'You!How?'
  'Idon'tpreciselyknow。ButinsomewayIhavemissedthemark。'
  'Really?Tohavedoneitisnotmuchtobesadabout,buttofeelthatyouhavedoneitmustbeacauseofsorrow。AmIright?'
  'Partly,thoughnotquite。Forasensationofbeingprofoundlyexperiencedservesasasortofconsolationtopeoplewhoareconsciousofhavingtakenwrongturnings。Contradictoryasitseems,thereisnothingtruerthanthatpeoplewhohavealwaysgonerightdon'tknowhalfasmuchaboutthenatureandwaysofgoingrightasthosedowhohavegonewrong。However,itisnotdesirableformetochillyoursummer-timebygoingintothis。'
  'YouhavenottoldmeevennowifIamreallyvain。'
  'IfIsayYes,Ishalloffendyou;ifIsayNo,you'llthinkI
  don'tmeanit,'hereplied,lookingcuriouslyintoherface。
  'Ah,well,'shereplied,withalittlebreathofdistress,'"Thatwhichisexceedingdeep,whowillfinditout?"IsupposeImusttakeyouasIdotheBible——findoutandunderstandallIcan;andonthestrengthofthat,swallowtherestinalump,bysimplefaith。Thinkmevain,ifyouwill。Worldlygreatnessrequiressomuchlittlenesstogrowupin,thataninfirmitymoreorlessisnotamatterforregret。'
  'Asregardswomen,Ican'tsay,'answeredKnightcarelessly;'butitiswithoutdoubtamisfortuneforamanwhohasalivingtoget,tobebornofatrulynoblenature。Ahighsoulwillbringamantotheworkhouse;soyoumayberightinstickingupforvanity。'
  'No,no,Idon'tdothat,'shesaidregretfully。
  Mr。Knight,whenyouaregone,willyousendmesomethingyouhavewritten?IthinkIshouldliketoseewhetheryouwriteasyouhavelatelyspoken,orinyourbettermood。Whichisyourtrueself——thecynicyouhavebeenthisevening,orthenicephilosopheryouwereuptoto-night?'
  'Ah,which?YouknowaswellasI。'
  Theirconversationdetainedthemonthelawnandintheporticotillthestarsblinkedout。Elfrideflungbackherhead,andsaididly——
  'There'sabrightstarexactlyoverme。'
  'Eachbrightstarisoverheadsomewhere。'
  'Isit?Ohyes,ofcourse。Whereisthatone?'andshepointedwithherfinger。
  'ThatispoisedlikeawhitehawkoveroneoftheCapeVerdeIslands。'
  'Andthat?'
  'LookingdownuponthesourceoftheNile。'
  'Andthatlonelyquiet-lookingone?'
  'HewatchestheNorthPole,andhasnolessthanthewholeequatorforhishorizon。Andthatidleonelowdownupontheground,thatwehavealmostrolledawayfrom,isinIndia——overtheheadofayoungfriendofmine,whoverypossiblylooksatthestarinourzenith,asithangslowuponhishorizon,andthinksofitasmarkingwherehistruelovedwells。'
  ElfrideglancedatKnightwithmisgiving。Didhemeanher?Shecouldnotseehisfeatures;buthisattitudeseemedtoshowunconsciousness。
  'ThestarisoverMYhead,'shesaidwithhesitation。
  'Oranybodyelse'sinEngland。'
  'Ohyes,Isee:'shebreathedherrelief。
  'Hisparents,Ibelieve,arenativesofthiscounty。Idon'tknowthem,thoughIhavebeenincorrespondencewithhimformanyyearstilllately。Fortunatelyorunfortunatelyforhimhefellinlove,andthenwenttoBombay。SincethattimeIhaveheardverylittleofhim。'
  Knightwentnofurtherinhisvolunteeredstatement,andthoughElfrideatonemomentwasinclinedtoprofitbythelessonsinhonestyhehadjustbeengivingher,thefleshwasweak,andtheintentiondispersedintosilence。ThereseemedareproachinKnight'sblindwords,andyetshewasnotabletoclearlydefineanydisloyaltythatshehadbeenguiltyof。
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  'Adistantdearnessinthehill。'
  KnightturnedhisbackupontheparishofEndelstow,andcrossedovertoCork。
  Onedayofabsencesuperimposeditselfonanother,andproportionatelyweightedhisheart。HepushedontotheLakesofKillarney,rambledamidtheirluxuriantwoods,surveyedtheinfinitevarietyofisland,hill,anddaletheretobefound,listenedtothemarvellousechoesofthatromanticspot;butaltogethermissedthegloryandthedreamheformerlyfoundinsuchfavouredregions。
  WhilstinthecompanyofElfride,hergirlishpresencehadnotperceptiblyaffectedhimtoanydepth。Hehadnotbeenconsciousthatherentryintohisspherehadaddedanythingtohimself;butnowthatshewastakenawayhewasveryconsciousofagreatdealbeingabstracted。Thesuperfluityhadbecomeanecessity,andKnightwasinlove。
  StephenfellinlovewithElfridebylookingather:Knightbyceasingtodoso。Whenorhowthespiritenteredintohimheknewnot:certainhewasthatwhenonthepointofleavingEndelstowhehadfeltnoneofthatexquisitenicetyofpoignantsadnessnaturaltosuchseverances,seeinghowdelightfulasubjectofcontemplationElfridehadbeeneversince。Hadhebeguntoloveherwhenshemethiseyeafterhermishaponthetower?Hehadsimplythoughtherweak。Hadhegrowntoloveherwhilststandingonthelawnbrightenedalloverbytheeveningsun?Hehadthoughthercomplexiongood:nomore。Wasitherconversationthathadsowntheseed?Hehadthoughtherwordsingenious,andverycreditabletoayoungwoman,butnotnoteworthy。Hadthechess-
  playinganythingtodowithit?Certainlynot:hehadthoughtheratthattimearatherconceitedchild。
  Knight'sexperiencewasacompletedisproofoftheassumptionthatlovealwayscomesbyglancesoftheeyeandsympathetictouchesofthefingers:that,likeflame,itmakesitselfpalpableatthemomentofgeneration。Nottilltheywereparted,andshehadbecomesublimatedinhismemory,couldhebesaidtohaveevenattentivelyregardedher。
  Thus,havingpassivelygatheredupimagesofherwhichhisminddidnotactupontillthecauseofthemwasnolongerbeforehim,heappearedtohimselftohavefalleninlovewithhersoul,whichhadtemporarilyassumeditsdisembodimenttoaccompanyhimonhisway。
  Shebegantorulehimsoimperiouslynowthat,accustomedtoanalysis,healmosttrembledatthepossibleresultoftheintroductionofthisnewforceamongthenicelyadjustedonesofhisordinarylife。Hebecamerestless:thenheforgotallcollateralsubjectsinthepleasureofthinkingabouther。
  YetitmustbesaidthatKnightlovedphilosophicallyratherthanwithromance。
  Hethoughtofhermannertowardshim。Simplicityvergesoncoquetry。Wassheflirting?hesaidtohimself。Noforcibletranslationoffavourintosuspicionwasabletoupholdsuchatheory。Theperformancehadbeentoowelldonetobeanythingbutreal。Ithadthedefectswithoutwhichnothingisgenuine。Noactressoftwentyyears'standing,nobald-neckedladywhoseearliestseason'out'waslostinthediscreetmistofevasivetalk,couldhaveplayedbeforehimthepartofingenuousgirlasElfridelivedit。Shehadthelittleartfulwayswhichpartlymakeupingenuousness。
  Therearebachelorsbynatureandbachelorsbycircumstance:
  spinsterstheredoubtlessarealsoofbothkinds,thoughsomethinkonlythoseofthelatter。However,Knighthadbeenlookeduponasabachelorbynature。Whatwashecomingto?Itwasveryoddtohimselftolookathistheoriesonthesubjectoflove,andreadingthemnowbythefulllightofanewexperience,toseehowmuchmorehissentencesmeantthanhehadfeltthemtomeanwhentheywerewritten。Peopleoftendiscovertherealforceofatriteoldmaximonlywhenitisthrustuponthembyachanceadventure;butKnighthadneverbeforeknownthecaseofamanwholearntthefullcompassofhisownepigramsbysuchmeans。
  Hewasintenselysatisfiedwithoneaspectoftheaffair。Inbredinhimwasaninvincibleobjectiontobeanybutthefirstcomerinawoman'sheart。Hehaddiscoveredwithinhimselftheconditionthatifeverhedidmakeuphismindtomarry,itmustbeonthecertaintythatnocroppingoutofinconvenientoldletters,nobowandblushtoamysteriousstrangercasuallymet,shouldbeapossiblesourceofdiscomposure。Knight'ssentimentswereonlytheordinaryonesofamanofhisagewholovesgenuinely,perhapsexaggeratedalittlebyhispursuits。Whenmenfirstloveaslads,itiswiththeverycentreoftheirhearts,nothingelsebeingconcernedintheoperation。Withaddedyears,moreofthefacultiesattemptapartnershipinthepassion,tillatKnight'sagetheunderstandingisfaintohaveahandinit。
  Itmayaswellbeleftout。Amaninlovesettinguphisbrainsasagaugeofhispositionisasonedeterminingaship'slongitudefromalightatthemast-head。
  KnightarguedfromElfride'sunwontednessofmanner,whichwasmatteroffact,toanunwontednessinlove,whichwasmatterofinferenceonly。Increduleslespluscredules。'Elfride,'hesaid,'hadhardlylookeduponamantillshesawme。'
  Hehadneverforgottenhisseveritytoherbecauseshepreferredornamenttoedification,andhadsinceexcusedherahundredtimesbythinkinghownaturaltowomankindwasaloveofadornment,andhownecessarybecameamildinfusionofpersonalvanitytocompletethedelicateandfascinatingdyeofthefemininemind。
  Soattheendoftheweek'sabsence,whichhadbroughthimasfarasDublin,heresolvedtocurtailhistour,returntoEndelstow,andcommithimselfbymakingarealityofthehypotheticalofferofthatSundayevening。
  Notwithstandingthathehadconcoctedagreatdealofpapertheoryonsocialamenitiesandmodernmannersgenerally,thespecialounceofpracticewaswanting,andnowforhislifeKnightcouldnotrecollectwhetheritwasconsideredcorrecttogiveayoungladypersonalornamentsbeforearegularengagementtomarryhadbeeninitiated。ButthedaybeforeleavingDublinhelookedaroundanxiouslyforahigh-classjewelleryestablishment,inwhichhepurchasedwhatheconsideredwouldsuitherbest。
  Itwaswithamostawkwardandunwontedfeelingthatafterenteringandclosingthedoorofhisroomhesatdown,openedthemoroccocase,andheldupeachofthefragilebitsofgold-workbeforehiseyes。Manythingshadbecomeoldtothesolitarymanofletters,butthesewerenew,andhehandledlikeachildanoutcomeofcivilizationwhichhadneverbeforebeentouchedbyhisfingers。Asuddenfastidiousdecisionthatthepatternchosenwouldnotsuitherafterallcausedhimtoriseinaflurryandteardownthestreettochangethemforothers。Afteragreatdealoftroubleinreselecting,duringwhichhismindbecamesobewilderedthatthecriticalfacultyonobjectsofartseemedtohavevacatedhispersonaltogether,Knightcarriedoffanotherpairofear-rings。Theseremainedinhispossessiontilltheafternoon,when,aftercontemplatingthemfiftytimeswithagrowingmisgivingthatthelastchoicewasworsethanthefirst,hefeltthatnosleepwouldvisithispillowtillhehadimproveduponhispreviouspurchasesyetagain。Inaperfectheatofvexationwithhimselfforsuchtergiversation,hewentanewtotheshop-door,wasabsolutelyashamedtoenterandgivefurthertrouble,wenttoanothershop,boughtapairatanenormouslyincreasedprice,becausetheyseemedtheverything,askedthegoldsmithsiftheywouldtaketheotherpairinexchange,wastoldthattheycouldnotexchangearticlesboughtofanothermaker,paiddownthemoney,andwentoffwiththetwopairsinhispossession,wonderingwhatonearthtodowiththesuperfluouspair。Healmostwishedhecouldlosethem,orthatsomebodywouldstealthem,andwasburdenedwithaninterposingsensethat,asacapableman,withtrueideasofeconomy,hemustnecessarilysellthemsomewhere,whichhedidatlastforameresong。Mingledwithablankfeelingofawholedaybeinglosttohiminrunningaboutthecityonthisnewandextraordinaryclassoferrand,andofseveralpoundsbeinglostthroughhisbungling,wasaslightsenseofsatisfactionthathehademergedforeverfromhisantediluvianignoranceonthesubjectofladies'jewellery,aswellassecuredatrulyartisticproductionatlast。Duringtheremainderofthatdayhescannedtheornamentsofeveryladyhemetwiththeprofoundlyexperiencedeyeofanappraiser。
  NextmorningKnightwasagaincrossingSt。George'sChannel——notreturningtoLondonbytheHolyheadrouteashehadoriginallyintended,buttowardsBristol——availinghimselfofMr。andMrs。
  Swancourt'sinvitationtorevisitthemonhishomewardjourney。
  WeflitforwardtoElfride。
  Woman'srulingpassion——tofascinateandinfluencethosemorepowerfulthanshe——thoughoperantinElfride,wasdecidedlypurposeless。ShehadwantedherfriendKnight'sgoodopinionfromthefirst:howmuchmorethanthatelementaryingredientoffriendshipshenowdesired,herfearswouldhardlyallowhertothink。Inoriginallywishingtopleasethehighestclassofmanshehadeverintimatelyknown,therewasnodisloyaltytoStephenSmith。Shecouldnot——andfewwomencan——realizethepossiblevastnessofanissuewhichhasonlyaninsignificantbegetting。
  HerlettersfromStephenwerenecessarilyfew,andhersenseoffidelityclungtothelastshehadreceivedasawreckedmarinerclingstoflotsam。TheyounggirlpersuadedherselfthatshewasgladStephenhadsucharighttoherhandashehadacquiredinhereyesbytheelopement。Shebeguiledherselfbysaying,'PerhapsifIhadnotsocommittedmyselfImightfallinlovewithMr。Knight。'
  AllthismadetheweekofKnight'sabsenceverygloomyanddistastefultoher。SheretainedStepheninherprayers,andhisoldletterswerere-read——asamedicineinreality,thoughshedeceivedherselfintothebeliefthatitwasasapleasure。
  Theselettershadgrownmoreandmorehopeful。Hetoldherthathefinishedhisworkeverydaywithapleasantconsciousnessofhavingremovedonemorestonefromthebarrierwhichdividedthem。
  Thenhedrewimagesofwhatafinefiguretheytwowouldcutsomeday。Peoplewouldturntheirheadsandsay,'Whataprizehehaswon!'ShewasnottobesadaboutthatwildrunawayattemptoftheirsElfridehadrepeatedlysaidthatitgrievedher。
  Whateveranyotherpersonwhoknewofitmightthink,heknewwellenoughthemodestyofhernature。TheonlyreproachwasagentleonefornothavingwrittenquitesodevotedlyduringhervisittoLondon。Herletterhadseemedtohavealivelinessderivedfromotherthoughtsthanthoughtsofhim。
  Knight'sintentionofanearlyreturntoEndelstowhavingoriginallybeenfaint,hispromisetodosohadbeenfainter。Hewasamanwhokepthiswordswelltotherearofhispossibleactions。Thevicarwasrathersurprisedtoseehimagainsosoon:
  Mrs。Swancourtwasnot。Knightfound,onmeetingthemall,afterhisarrivalhadbeenannounced,thattheyhadformedanintentiontogotoSt。Leonardsforafewdaysattheendofthemonth。
  NosatisfactoryconjunctureoffereditselfonthisfirsteveningofhisreturnforpresentingElfridewithwhathehadbeenatsuchpainstoprocure。Hewasfastidiousinhisreadingofopportunitiesforsuchanintendedact。Thenextmorningchancingtobreakfineafteraweekofcloudyweather,itwasproposedanddecidedthattheyshouldalldrivetoBarwithStrand,alocallionwhichneitherMrs。SwancourtnorKnighthadseen。Knightscentedromanticoccasionsfromafar,andforesawthatsuchaonemightbeexpectedbeforethecomingnight。
  Thejourneywasalongaroadbyneutralgreenhills,uponwhichhedgerowslaytrailinglikeropesonaquay。Gapsintheseuplandsrevealedthebluesea,fleckedwithafewdashesofwhiteandasolitarywhitesail,thewholebrimminguptoakeenhorizonwhichlaylikealineruledfromhillsidetohillside。Thentheyrolleddownapass,thechocolate-tonedrocksformingawallonbothsides,fromoneofwhichfellaheavyjaggedshadeoverhalftheroadway。Aspoutoffreshwaterburstfromanoccasionalcrevice,andpatteringdownuponbroadgreenleaves,ranalongasarivuletatthebottom。Unkemptlocksofheatheroverhungthebrowofeachsteep,whenceatdiverspointsabrambleswungforthintomid-air,snatchingattheirhead-dresseslikeaclaw。
  Theymountedthelastcrest,andthebaywhichwastobetheendoftheirpilgrimageburstuponthem。Theoceanbluenessdeepeneditscolourasitstretchedtothefootofthecrags,whereitterminatedinafringeofwhite——silentatthisdistance,thoughmovingandheavinglikeacounterpaneuponarestlesssleeper。
  Theshadowedhollowsofthepurpleandbrownrockswouldhavebeencalledbluehadnotthattintbeensoentirelyappropriatedbythewaterbesidethem。
  Thecarriagewasputupatalittlecottagewithashedattached,andanostlerandthecoachmancarriedthehamperofprovisionsdowntotheshore。
  Knightfoundhisopportunity。'Ididnotforgetyourwish,'hebegan,whentheywereapartfromtheirfriends。
  Elfridelookedasifshedidnotunderstand。
  'AndIhavebroughtyouthese,'hecontinued,awkwardlypullingoutthecase,andopeningitwhileholdingittowardsher。
  'OMr。Knight!'saidElfrideconfusedly,andturningtoalivelyred;'Ididn'tknowyouhadanyintentionormeaninginwhatyousaid。Ithoughtitameresupposition。Idon'twantthem。'
  Athoughtwhichhadflashedintohermindgavethereplyagreaterdecisivenessthanitmightotherwisehavepossessed。To-morrowwasthedayforStephen'sletter。
  'Butwillyounotacceptthem?'Knightreturned,feelinglesshermasterthanheretofore。
  'Iwouldrathernot。Theyarebeautiful——morebeautifulthananyIhaveeverseen,'sheansweredearnestly,lookinghalf-wishfullyatthetemptation,asEvemayhavelookedattheapple。'ButI
  don'twanttohavethem,ifyouwillkindlyforgiveme,Mr。
  Knight。'
  'Nokindnessatall,'saidMr。Knight,broughttoafullstopatthisunexpectedturnofevents。
  Asilencefollowed。Knightheldtheopencase,lookingratherwofullyattheglitteringformshehadforsakenhisorbittoprocure;turningitaboutandholdingitupasif,feelinghisgifttobeslightedbyher,hewereendeavouringtoadmireitverymuchhimself。
  'Shutthemup,anddon'tletmeseethemanylonger——do!'shesaidlaughingly,andwithaquaintmixtureofreluctanceandentreaty。
  'Why,Elfie?'
  'NotElfietoyou,Mr。Knight。Oh,becauseIshallwantthem。
  There,Iamsilly,Iknow,tosaythat!ButIhaveareasonfornottakingthem——now。'Shekeptinthelastwordforamoment,intendingtoimplythatherrefusalwasfinite,butsomehowthewordslippedout,andundidalltherest。
  'Youwilltakethemsomeday?'
  'Idon'twantto。'
  'Whydon'tyouwantto,ElfrideSwancourt?'
  'BecauseIdon't。Idon'tliketotakethem。'
  'Ihavereadafactofdistressingsignificanceinthat,'saidKnight。'Sinceyoulikethem,yourdisliketohavingthemmustbetowardsme?'
  'No,itisn't。'
  'What,then?Doyoulikeme?'
  Elfridedeepenedintint,andlookedintothedistancewithfeaturesshapedtoanexpressionofthenicestcriticismasregardedheranswer。
  'Ilikeyouprettywell,'sheatlengthmurmuredmildly。
  'Notverymuch?'
  'Youaresosharpwithme,andsayhardthings,andsohowcanI?'
  sherepliedevasively。
  'Youthinkmeafogey,Isuppose?'
  'No,Idon't——ImeanIdo——Idon'tknowwhatIthinkyou,Imean。
  Letusgotopapa,'respondedElfride,withsomewhatofaflurrieddelivery。
  'Well,I'lltellyoumyobjectingettingthepresent,'saidKnight,withacomposureintendedtoremovefromhermindanypossibleimpressionofhisbeingwhathewas——herlover。'YouseeitwastheveryleastIcoulddoincommoncivility。'
  Elfridefeltratherblankatthislucidstatement。
  Knightcontinued,puttingawaythecase:'Ifeltasanybodynaturallywouldhave,youknow,thatmywordsonyourchoicetheotherdaywereinvidiousandunfair,andthoughtanapologyshouldtakeapracticalshape。'
  'Ohyes。'
  Elfridewassorry——shecouldnottellwhy——thathegavesuchalegitimatereason。Itwasadisappointmentthathehadallthetimeacoolmotive,whichmightbestatedtoanybodywithoutraisingasmile。Hadsheknowntheywereofferedinthatspirit,shewouldcertainlyhaveacceptedtheseductivegift。Andthetantalizingfeaturewasthatperhapshesuspectedhertoimaginethemofferedasalover'stoken,whichwasmortifyingenoughiftheywerenot。
  Mrs。Swancourtcamenowtowheretheyweresitting,toselectaflatboulderforspreadingtheirtable-clothupon,and,amidthediscussiononthatsubject,thematterpendingbetweenKnightandElfridewasshelvedforawhile。Hereadherrefusalsocertainlyasthebashfulnessofagirlinanovelposition,that,uponthewhole,hecouldtoleratesuchabeginning。CouldKnighthavebeentoldthatitwasasenseoffidelitystrugglingagainstnewlove,whilstnolessassuringastohisultimatevictory,itmighthaveentirelyabstractedthewishtosecureit。
  Atthesametimeaslightconstraintofmannerwasvisiblebetweenthemfortheremainderoftheafternoon。Thetideturned,andtheywereobligedtoascendtohigherground。Thedayglidedontoitsendwiththeusualquietdreamypassivityofsuchoccasions——wheneverydeeddoneandthingthoughtisinendeavouringtoavoiddoingandthinkingmore。Lookingidlyoverthevergeofacrag,theybeheldtheirstonedining-tablegraduallybeingsplasheduponandtheircrumbsandfragmentsallwashedawaybytheincomingsea。Thevicardrewamorallessonfromthescene;Knightrepliedinthesamesatisfiedstrain。Andthenthewavesrolledinfuriously——theneutralgreen-and-bluetonguesofwatersliduptheslopes,andweremetamorphosedintofoambyacarelessblow,fallingbackwhiteandfaint,andleavingtrailingfollowersbehind。
  Thepassingofaheavyshowerwasthenextscene——drivingthemtoshelterinashallowcave——afterwhichthehorseswereputin,andtheystartedtoreturnhomeward。Bythetimetheyreachedthehigherlevelstheskyhadagaincleared,andthesunsetraysglanceddirectlyuponthewetuphillroadtheyhadclimbed。Therutsformedbytheircarriage-wheelsontheascent——apairofLiliputiancanals——wereasshiningbarsofgold,taperingtonothinginthedistance。Uponthisalsotheyturnedtheirbacks,andnightspreadoverthesea。
  Theeveningwaschilly,andtherewasnomoon。KnightsatclosetoElfride,and,whenthedarknessrenderedthepositionofapersonamatterofuncertainty,particularlyclose。Elfrideedgedaway。
  'Ihopeyouallowmemyplaceungrudgingly?'hewhispered。
  'Ohyes;'tistheleastIcandoincommoncivility,'shesaid,accentingthewordssothathemightrecognizethemashisownreturned。
  Bothofthemfeltdelicatelybalancedbetweentwopossibilities。
  Thustheyreachedhome。
  ToKnightthismildexperiencewasdelightful。Itwastohimagentleinnocenttime——atimewhich,thoughtheremaynotbemuchinit,seldomrepeatsitselfinaman'slife,andhasapeculiardearnesswhenglancedatretrospectively。Heisnotinconvenientlydeepinlove,andislulledbyapeacefulsenseofbeingabletoenjoythemosttrivialthingwithachildlikeenjoyment。Themovementofawave,thecolourofastone,anything,wasenoughforKnight'sdrowsythoughtsofthatdaytoprecipitatethemselvesupon。Eventhesermonizingplatitudesthevicarhaddeliveredhimselfof——chieflybecausesomethingseemedtobeprofessionallyrequiredofhiminthepresenceofamanofKnight'sproclivities——wereswallowedwhole。ThepresenceofElfrideledhimnotmerelytotoleratethatkindoftalkfromthenecessitiesofordinarycourtesy;buthelistenedtoit——tookintheideaswithanenjoyablemake-believethattheywereproperandnecessary,andindulgedinaconservativefeelingthatthefaceofthingswascomplete。
  EnteringherroomthateveningElfridefoundapacketforherselfonthedressing-table。Howitcamethereshedidnotknow。Shetremblinglyundidthefoldsofwhitepaperthatcoveredit。Yes;
  itwasthetreasureofamoroccocase,containingthosetreasuresofornamentshehadrefusedinthedaytime。
  Elfridedressedherselfinthemforamoment,lookedatherselfintheglass,blushedred,andputthemaway。Theyfilledherdreamsallthatnight。Neverhadsheseenanythingsolovely,andneverwasitmoreclearthatasanhonestwomanshewasindutyboundtorefusethem。Whyitwasnotequallycleartoherthatdutyrequiredmorevigorousco-ordinateconductaswell,letthosewhodissecthersay。
  Thenextmorningglaredinlikeaspectreuponher。ItwasStephen'sletter-day,andshewasboundtomeetthepostman——tostealthilydoadeedshehadneverliked,tosecureanendshenowhadceasedtodesire。
  Butshewent。
  Thereweretwoletters。
  OnewasfromthebankatSt。Launce's,inwhichshehadasmallprivatedeposit——probablysomethingaboutinterest。Sheputthatinherpocketforamoment,andgoingindoorsandupstairstobesaferfromobservation,tremblinglyopenedStephen's。
  Whatwasthishesaidtoher?
  ShewastogototheSt。Launce'sBankandtakeasumofmoneywhichtheyhadreceivedprivateadvicestopayher。
  Thesumwastwohundredpounds。
  Therewasnocheck,order,oranythingofthenatureofguarantee。
  Infacttheinformationamountedtothis:themoneywasnowintheSt。Launce'sBank,standinginhername。
  Sheinstantlyopenedtheotherletter。Itcontainedadeposit-
  notefromthebankforthesumoftwohundredpoundswhichhadthatdaybeenaddedtoheraccount。Stephen'sinformation,then,wascorrect,andthetransfermade。
  'Ihavesavedthisinoneyear,'Stephen'sletterwentontosay,'andwhatsoproperaswellaspleasantformetodoastohanditovertoyoutokeepforyouruse?Ihaveplentyformyself,independentlyofthis。Shouldyounotbedisposedtoletitlieidleinthebank,getyourfathertoinvestitinyournameongoodsecurity。Itisalittlepresenttoyoufromyourmorethanbetrothed。Hewill,Ithink,Elfride,feelnowthatmypretensionstoyourhandareanythingbutthedreamofasillyboynotworthrationalconsideration。'
  Withanaturaldelicacy,Elfride,inmentioningherfather'smarriage,hadrefrainedfromallallusiontothepecuniaryresourcesofthelady。
  Leavingthismatter-of-factsubject,hewenton,somewhatafterhisboyishmanner:
  'Doyouremember,darling,thatfirstmorningofmyarrivalatyourhouse,whenyourfatherreadatprayersthemiracleofhealingthesickofthepalsy——whereheistoldtotakeuphisbedandwalk?Ido,andIcannowsowellrealizetheforceofthatpassage。ThesmallestpieceofmatisthebedoftheOriental,andyesterdayIsawanativeperformtheveryaction,whichremindedmetomentionit。ButyouarebetterreadthanI,andperhapsyouknewallthislongago……OnedayIboughtsomesmallnativeidolstosendhometoyouascuriosities,butafterwardsfindingtheyhadbeencastinEngland,madetolookold,andshippedover,Ithrewthemawayindisgust。
  'Speakingofthisremindsmethatweareobligedtoimportallourhouse-buildingironworkfromEngland。Neverwassuchforesightrequiredtobeexercisedinbuildinghousesashere。Beforewebegin,wehavetoordereverycolumn,lock,hinge,andscrewthatwillberequired。Wecannotgointothenextstreet,asinLondon,andgetthemcastataminute'snotice。Mr。L。sayssomebodywillhavetogotoEnglandverysoonandsuperintendtheselectionofalargeorderofthiskind。IonlywishImaybetheman。'
  Therebeforeherlaythedeposit-receiptforthetwohundredpounds,andbesideittheelegantpresentofKnight。Elfridegrewcold——thenhercheeksfeltheatedbybeatingblood。Ifbydestroyingthepieceofpaperthewholetransactioncouldhavebeenwithdrawnfromherexperience,shewouldwillinglyhavesacrificedthemoneyitrepresented。Shedidnotknowwhattodoineithercase。Shealmostfearedtoletthetwoarticleslieinjuxtaposition:soantagonisticweretheintereststheyrepresentedthatamiraculousrepulsionofonebytheotherwasalmosttobeexpected。
  Thatdayshewasseenlittleof。Bytheeveningshehadcometoaresolution,andacteduponit。Thepacketwassealedup——withatearofregretassheclosedthecaseupontheprettyformsitcontained——directed,andplaceduponthewriting-tableinKnight'sroom。AndaletterwaswrittentoStephen,statingthatasyetshehardlyunderstoodherpositionwithregardtothemoneysent;
  butdeclaringthatshewasreadytofulfilherpromisetomarryhim。Afterthisletterhadbeenwrittenshedelayedpostingit——
  althoughneverceasingtofeelstrenuouslythatthedeedmustbedone。
  Severaldayspassed。TherewasanotherIndianletterforElfride。
  Comingunexpectedly,herfathersawit,butmadenoremark——why,shecouldnottell。Thenewsthistimewasabsolutelyoverwhelming。Stephen,ashehadwished,hadbeenactuallychosenasthemostfittingtoexecutetheiron-workcommissionhehadalludedtoasimpending。Thisdutycompletedhewouldhavethreemonths'leave。Hislettercontinuedthatheshouldfollowitinaweek,andshouldtaketheopportunitytoplainlyaskherfathertopermittheengagement。Thencameapageexpressiveofhisdelightandhersatthereunion;andfinally,theinformationthathewouldwritetotheshippingagents,askingthemtotelegraphandtellherwhentheshipbringinghimhomeshouldbeinsight——
  knowinghowacceptablesuchinformationwouldbe。
  Elfridelivedandmovednowasinadream。Knighthadatfirstbecomealmostangryatherpersistentrefusalofhisoffering——andnolesswiththemannerthanthefactofit。Buthesawthatshebegantolookwornandill——andhisvexationlessenedtosimpleperplexity。
  Heceasednowtoremaininthehouseforlonghourstogetherasbefore,butmadeitamerecentreforantiquarianandgeologicalexcursionsintheneighbourhood。Throwuphiscardsandgoawayhefainwouldhavedone,butcouldnot。And,thus,availinghimselfoftheprivilegesofarelative,hewentinandoutthepremisesasfancyledhim——butstilllingeredon。
  'Idon'twishtostayhereanotherdayifmypresenceisdistasteful,'hesaidoneafternoon。'AtfirstyouusedtoimplythatIwasseverewithyou;andwhenIamkindyoutreatmeunfairly。'
  'No,no。Don'tsayso。'
  Theoriginoftheiracquaintanceshiphadbeensuchastorendertheirmannertowardseachotherpeculiaranduncommon。Itwasofakindtocausethemtospeakouttheirmindsonanyfeelingsofobjectionanddifference:tobereticentongentlermatters。
  'Ihaveagoodmindtogoawayandnevertroubleyouagain,'
  continuedKnight。
  Shesaidnothing,buttheeloquentexpressionofhereyesandwanfacewasenoughtoreproachhimforharshness。
  'Doyoulikemetobehere,then?'inquiredKnightgently。
  'Yes,'shesaid。Fidelitytotheoldloveandtruthtothenewwererangedonoppositesides,andtruthvirtuelesslyprevailed。
  'ThenI'llstayalittlelonger,'saidKnight。
  'Don'tbevexedifIkeepbymyselfagooddeal,willyou?Perhapssomethingmayhappen,andImaytellyousomething。'
  'Merecoyness,'saidKnighttohimself;andwentawaywithalighterheart。Thetrickofreadingtrulytheenigmaticalforcesatworkinwomenatgiventimes,whichwithsomemenisanunerringinstinct,ispeculiartomindslessdirectandhonestthanKnight's。
  Thenextevening,aboutfiveo'clock,beforeKnighthadreturnedfromapilgrimagealongtheshore,amanwalkeduptothehouse。
  HewasamessengerfromCamelton,atownafewmilesoff,towhichplacetherailwayhadbeenadvancedduringthesummer。
  'AtelegramforMissSwancourt,andthreeandsixpencetopayforthespecialmessenger。'MissSwancourtsentoutthemoney,signedthepaper,andopenedherletterwithatremblinghand。Sheread:
  'Johnson,Liverpool,toMissSwancourt,Endelstow,nearCastleBoterel。
  'AmaryllistelegraphedoffHolyhead,fouro'clock。ExpectwilldockandlandpassengersatCanning'sBasinteno'clockto-morrowmorning。'
  Herfathercalledherintothestudy。
  'Elfride,whosentyouthatmessage?'heaskedsuspiciously。
  'Johnson。'
  'WhoisJohnson,forHeaven'ssake?'
  'Idon'tknow。'
  'Thedeuceyoudon't!Whoistoknow,then?'
  'Ihaveneverheardofhimtillnow。'
  'That'sasingularstory,isn'tit。'
  'Idon'tknow。'
  'Come,come,miss!Whatwasthetelegram?'
  'Doyoureallywishtoknow,papa?'
  'Well,Ido。'
  'Remember,Iamafull-grownwomannow。'
  'Well,whatthen?'
  'Beingawoman,andnotachild,Imay,Ithink,haveasecretortwo。'
  'Youwill,itseems。'
  'Womenhave,asarule。'
  'Butdon'tkeepthem。Sospeakout。'
  'Ifyouwillnotpressmenow,Igivemywordtotellyouthemeaningofallthisbeforetheweekispast。'
  'Onyourhonour?'
  'Onmyhonour。'
  'Verywell。Ihavehadacertainsuspicion,youknow;andIshallbegladtofinditfalse。Idon'tlikeyourmannerlately。'
  'Attheendoftheweek,Isaid,papa。'