首页 >出版文学> A Hazard of New Fortunes>第16章
  "Iknowhedidn'tsleeplastnight,afteryouallwentaway,"Conradpursued,"andofcoursethatmadehimmoreirritable;andhewastriedagooddealbysomeofthethingsthatMr。Lindausaid。"
  "Iwastriedagooddealmyself,"saidMarch。"Lindauoughtnevertohavebeenthere。"
  "No。"Conradseemedonlypartiallytoassent。
  "ItoldMr。Fulkersonso。IwarnedhimthatLindauwouldbeapttobreakoutinsomeway。Itwasn'tjusttohim,anditwasn'tjusttoyourfather,toaskhim。"
  "Mr。Fulkersonhadagoodmotive,"Conradgentlyurged。"Hediditbecausehehurthisfeelingsthatdayaboutthepension。"
  "Yes,butitwasamistake。HeknewthatLindauwasinflexibleabouthisprinciples,ashecallsthem,andthatoneofhisfirstprinciplesistodenouncetherichinseasonandoutofseason。Idon'trememberjustwhathesaidlastnight;andIreallythoughtI'dkepthimfrombreakingoutinthemostoffensiveway。Butyourfatherseemsverymuchincensed。"
  "Yes,Iknow,"saidConrad。
  "Ofcourse,Idon'tagreewithLindau。Ithinkthereareasmanygood,kind,justpeopleamongtherichasthereareamongthepoor,andthattheyareasgenerousandhelpful。ButLindauhasgotholdofoneofthosepartialtruthsthathurtworsethanthewholetruth,and——"
  "Partialtruth!"theyoungmaninterrupted。"Didn'ttheSaviourhimselfsay,'HowhardlyshalltheythathaverichesenterintothekingdomofGod?'"
  "Why,blessmysoul!"criedMarch。"DoyouagreewithLindau?"
  "IagreewiththeLordJesusChrist,"saidtheyoungman,solemnly,andastrangelightoffanaticism,ofexaltation,cameintohiswideblueeyes。
  "AndIbelieveHemeantthekingdomofheavenuponthisearth,aswellasintheskies。"
  Marchthrewhimselfbackinhischairandlookedathimwithakindofstupefaction,inwhichhiseyewanderedtothedoorway,wherehesawFulkersonstanding,itseemedtohimalongtime,beforeheheardhimsaying:"Hello,hello!What'stherow?ConradpitchingintoyouonoldLindau'saccount,too?"
  Theyoungmanturned,and,afteraglanceatFulkerson'slight,smilingface,wentout,asifinhispresentmoodhecouldnotbearthecontactofthatpersiflantspirit。
  Marchfelthimselfgettingprovisionallyveryangryagain。"Excuseme,Fulkerson,butdidyouknowwhenyouwentoutwhatMr。Dryfooswantedtoseemefor?"
  "Well,no,Ididn'texactly,"saidFulkerson,takinghisusualseatonachairandlookingoverthebackofitatMarch。"Isawhewasonhiscaraboutsomething,andIthoughtI'dbetternotmonkeywithhimmuch。
  IsupposedhewasgoingtobringyoutobookaboutoldLindau,somehow。"
  Fulkersonbrokeintoalaugh。
  Marchremainedserious。"Mr。Dryfoos,"hesaid,willingtoletthesimplestatementhaveitsownweightwithFulkerson,andnothingmore,"cameinhereandorderedmetodischargeLindaufromhisemploymentonthemagazine——toturnhimoff,asheputit。"
  "Didhe?"askedFulkerson,withunbrokencheerfulness。"Theoldmanisbusiness,everytime。Well,IsupposeyoucaneasilygetsomebodyelsetodoLindau'sworkforyou。Thistownisjustrunningoverwithhalf-
  starvedlinguists。Whatdidyousay?"
  "WhatdidIsay?"Marchechoed。"Lookhere,Fulkerson;youmayregardthisasajoke,butIdon't。I'mnotusedtobeingspokentoasifI
  weretheforemanofashop,andtoldtodischargeasensitiveandcultivatedmanlikeLindau,asifhewereadrunkenmechanic;andifthat'syourideaofme——"
  "Oh,hello,now,March!Youmustn'tmindtheoldman'sway。Hedon'tmeananythingbyit——hedon'tknowanybetter,ifyoucometothat。"
  "ThenIknowbetter,"saidMarch。"IrefusedtoreceiveanyinstructionsfromMr。Dryfoos,whomIdon'tknowinmyrelationswith'EveryOtherWeek,'andIreferredhimtoyou。"
  "Youdid?,"Fulkersonwhistled。"Heownsthething!"
  "Idon'tcarewhoownsthething,"saidMarch。"Mynegotiationswerewithyoualonefromthebeginning,andIleavethismatterwithyou。
  WhatdoyouwishdoneaboutLindau?"
  "Oh,betterlettheoldfooldrop,"saidFulkerson。"He'lllightonhisfeetsomehow,anditwillsavealotofrumpus。"
  "AndifIdeclinetolethimdrop?"
  "Oh,come,now,March;don'tdothat,"Fulkersonbegan。
  "IfIdeclinetolethimdrop,"Marchrepeated,"whatwillyoudo?"
  "I'llbedoggedifIknowwhatI'lldo,"saidFulkerson。"Ihopeyouwon'ttakethatstand。Iftheoldmanwentsofarastospeaktoyouaboutit,hismindismadeup,andwemightaswellknockunderfirstaslast。"
  "AnddoyoumeantosaythatyouwouldnotstandbymeinwhatI
  consideredmyduty-inamatterofprinciple?"
  "Why,ofcourse,March,"saidFulkerson,coaxingly,"Imeantodotherightthing。ButDryfoosownsthemagazine——"
  "Hedoesn'townme,"saidMarch,rising。"Hehasmadethelittlemistakeofspeakingtomeasifhedid;andwhen"——Marchputonhishatandtookhisovercoatdownfromitsnail——"whenyoubringmehisapologies,orcometosaythat,havingfailedtomakehimunderstandtheywerenecessary,youarepreparedtostandbyme,Iwillcomebacktothisdesk。Otherwisemyresignationisatyourservice。"
  Hestartedtowardthedoor,andFulkersoninterceptedhim。"Ah,now,lookhere,March!Don'tdothat!Hangitall,don'tyouseewhereitleavesme?Now,youjustsitdownaminuteandtalkitover。Icanmakeyousee——Icanshowyou——Why,confoundtheoldDutchbeer-buzzer!Twentyofhimwouldn'tbeworththetroublehe'smakin'。Lethimgo,andtheoldman'llcomeroundintime。"
  "Idon'tthinkwe'veunderstoodeachotherexactly,Mr。Fulkerson,"saidMarch,veryhaughtily。"Perhapswenevercan;butI'llleaveyoutothinkitout。"
  Hepushedon,andFulkersonstoodasidetolethimpass,withadazedlookandamechanicalmovement。TherewassomethingcomicinhisruefulbewildermenttoMarch,whowastemptedtosmile,buthesaidtohimselfthathehadasmuchreasontobeunhappyasFulkerson,andhedidnotsmile。HisindignationkepthimhotinhispurposetosufferanyconsequenceratherthansubmittothedictationofamanlikeDryfoos;
  hefeltkeenlythedegradationofhisconnectionwithhim,andallhisresentmentofFulkerson'soriginaluncandorreturned;atthesametimehisheartachedwithforeboding。Itwasnotmerelytheworkinwhichhehadconstantlygrownhappierthathesawtakenfromhim;buthefeltthemiseryofthemanwhostakesthesecurityandplentyandpeaceofhomeuponsomecast,andknowsthatlosingwillsweepfromhimmostthatmostmenfindsweetandpleasantinlife。Hefacedthefact,whichnogoodmancanfrontwithoutterror,thathewasriskingthesupportofhisfamily,andforapointofpride,ofhonor,whichperhapshehadnorighttoconsiderinviewofthepossibleadversity。Herealized,aseveryhirelingmust,nomatterhowskillfullyorgracefullythetieiscontrivedforhiswearing,thathebelongstoanother,whosewillishislaw。HisindignationwasshotwithabjectimpulsestogobackandtellFulkersonthatitwasallright,andthathegaveup。Toendtheanguishofhisstrugglehequickenedhissteps,sothathefoundhewasreachinghomealmostatarun。
  VIII。
  Hemusthavemademoreclatterthanhesupposedwithhiskeyattheapartmentdoor,forhiswifehadcometolethiminwhenheflungitopen。"Why,Basil,"shesaid,"what'sbroughtyouback?Areyousick?
  You'reallpale。Well,nowonder!ThisisthelastofMr。Fulkerson'sdinnersyoushallgoto。You'renotstrongenoughforit,andyourstomachwillbealloutoforderforaweek。Howhotyouare!andinadripofperspiration!Nowyou'llbesick。"Shetookhishataway,whichhungdanglinginhishand,andpushedhimintoachairwithtenderimpatience。"Whatisthematter?Hasanythinghappened?"
  "Everythinghashappened,"hesaid,gettinghisvoiceafteroneortwohuskyendeavorsforit;andthenhepouredoutaconfusedandhuddledstatementofthecase,fromwhichsheonlygotatthesituationbyprolongedcross-questioning。
  Attheendshesaid,"IknewLindauwouldgetyouintotrouble。"
  ThiscutMarchtotheheart。"Isabel!"hecried,reproachfully。
  "Oh,Iknow,"sheretorted,andthetearsbegantocome。"Idon'twonderyoudidn'twanttosaymuchtomeaboutthatdinneratbreakfast。
  Inoticedit;butIthoughtyouwerejustdull,andsoIdidn'tinsist。
  IwishIhad,now。IfyouhadtoldmewhatLindauhadsaid,Ishouldhaveknownwhatwouldhavecomeofit,andIcouldhaveadvisedyou——"
  "Wouldyouhaveadvisedme,"Marchdemanded,curiously,"tosubmittobullyinglikethat,andmeeklyconsenttocommitanactofcrueltyagainstamanwhohadoncebeensuchafriendtome?"
  "Itwasanunluckydaywhenyoumethim。Isupposeweshallhavetogo。
  AndjustwhenwebadgotusedtoNewYork,andbeguntolikeit。Idon'tknowwhereweshallgonow;Bostonisn'tlikehomeanymore;andwecouldn'tliveontwothousandthere;Ishouldbeashamedtotry。I'msureIdon'tknowwherewecanliveonit。Isupposeinsomecountryvillage,wheretherearenoschools,oranythingforthechildren。I
  don'tknowwhatthey'llsaywhenwetellthem,poorthings。"
  EverywordwasastabinMarch'sheart,soweaklytendertohisown;hiswife'stears,aftersomuchexperienceofthecomparativelightnessofthegriefsthatweepthemselvesoutinwomen,alwaysseemedwrungfromhisownsoul;ifhischildrensufferedintheleastthroughhim,hefeltlikeamurderer。Itwasfarworsethanhecouldhaveimagined,thewayhiswifetooktheaffair,thoughhehadimaginedcertainwords,orperhapsonlylooks,fromherthatwerebadenough。Hehadallowedfortrouble,buttroubleonhisaccount:asvmpathythatmightburdenandembarrasshim;buthehadnotdreamedofthismerelydomestic,thispetty,thissordidviewoftheirpotentialcalamity,whichlefthimwhollyoutofthequestion,andembracedonlywhatwasmostcrushinganddesolatingintheprospect。Hecouldnotbearit。Hecaughtuphishatagain,and,withsomehopethathiswifewouldtrytokeephim,rushedoutofthehouse。Hewanderedaimlesslyabout,thinkingthesameexhaustingthoughtsoverandover,tillhefoundhimselfhorriblyhungry;
  thenhewentintoarestaurantforhislunch,andwhenhepaidhetriedtoimaginehowheshouldfeelifthatwerereallyhislastdollar。
  Hewenthometowardthemiddleoftheafternoon,baselyhopingthatFulkersonhadsenthimsomeconciliatorymessage,orperhapswaswaitingthereforhimtotalkitover;Marchwasquitewillingtotalkitovernow。Butitwashiswifewhoagainmethimatthedoor,thoughitseemedanotherwomanthantheonehehadleftweepinginthemorning。
  "Itoldthechildren,"shesaid,insmilingexplanationofhisabsencefromlunch,"thatperhapsyouweredetainedbybusiness。Ididn'tknowbutyouhadgonebacktotheoffice。"
  "DidyouthinkIwouldgobackthere,Isabel?"askedMarch,withahaggardlook。"Well,ifyousayso,Iwillgoback,anddowhatDryfoosorderedmetodo。I'msufficientlycowedbetweenhimandyou,Icanassureyou。"
  "Nonsense,"shesaid。"Iapproveofeverythingyoudid。Butsitdown,now,anddon'tkeepwalkingthatway,andletmeseeifIunderstanditperfectly。Ofcourse,Ihadtohavemysayout。"
  ShemadehimgoalloverhistalkwithDryfoosagain,andreporthisownlanguageprecisely。Fromtimetotime,asshegothispoints,shesaid,"Thatwassplendid,""Goodenoughforhim!"and"Oh,I'msogladyousaidthattohim!"Attheendshesaid:
  "Well,now,let'slookatitfromhispointofview。Let'sbeperfectlyjusttohimbeforewetakeanotherstepforward。"
  "Orbackward,"Marchsuggested,ruefully。"Thecaseissimplythis:heownsthemagazine。"
  "Ofcourse。"
  "AndhehasarighttoexpectthatIwillconsiderhispecuniaryinterests——"
  "Oh,thosedetestablepecuniaryinterests!Don'tyouwishtherewasn'tanymoneyintheworld?"
  "Yes;orelsethattherewasagreatdealmoreofit。AndIwasperfectlywillingtodothat。Ihavealwayskeptthatinmindasoneofmydutiestohim,eversinceIunderstoodwhathisrelationtothemagazinewas。"
  "Yes,Icanbearwitnesstothatinanycourtofjustice。You'vedoneitagreatdealmorethanIcould,Basil。Anditwasjustthesamewaywiththosehorribleinsurancepeople。"
  "Iknow,"Marchwenton,tryingtobeproofagainstherflatteries,oratleasttolookasifhedidnotdeservepraise;"IknowthatwhatLindausaidwasoffensivetohim,andIcanunderstandhowhefeltthathehadarighttopunishit。AllIsayisthathehadnorighttopunishitthroughme。"
  "Yes,"saidMrs。March,askingly。
  "Ifithadbeenaquestionofmaking'EveryOtherWeek'thevehicleofLindau'speculiaropinions——thoughthey'renotsoverypeculiar;hemighthavegotthemostofthemoutofRuskin——Ishouldn'thavehadanygroundtostandon,oratleastthenIshouldhavehadtoaskmyselfwhetherhisopinionswouldbeinjurioustothemagazineornot。"
  "Idon'tsee,"Mrs。Marchinterpolated,"howtheycouldhurtitmuchworsethanColonelWoodburn'sarticlecryingupslavery。"
  "Well,"saidMarch,impartially,"wecouldprintadozenarticlespraisingtheslaveryit'simpossibletohaveback,anditwouldn'thurtus。ButifweprintedonepaperagainsttheslaverywhichLindauclaimsstillexists,somepeoplewouldcallusbadnames,andthecounting-roomwouldbegintofeelit。Butthatisn'tthepoint。Lindau'sconnectionwith'EveryOtherWeek'isalmostpurelymechanical;he'smerelyatranslatorofsuchstoriesandsketchesashefirstsubmitstome,anditisn'tatallaquestionofhisopinionshurtingus,butofmybecominganagenttopunishhimforhisopinions。ThatiswhatIwouldn'tdo;that'swhatIneverwilldo。"
  "Ifyoudid,"saidhiswife,"Ishouldperfectlydespiseyou。Ididn'tunderstandhowitwasbefore。IthoughtyouwerejustholdingoutagainstDryfoosbecausehetookadictatorialtonewithyou,andbecauseyouwouldn'trecognizehisauthority。ButnowI'mwithyou,Basil,everytime,asthathorridlittleFulkersonsays。Butwhowouldeverhavesupposedhewouldbesobaseastosideagainstyou?"
  "Idon'tknow,"saidMarch,thoughtfully,"thatwehadarighttoexpectanythingelse。Fulkerson'sstandardsarelow;they'remerelybusinessstandards,andthegoodthat'sinhimisincidentalandsomethingquiteapartfromhismoralsandmethods。He'snaturallyagenerousandright-
  mindedcreature,butlifehastaughthimtotruckleandtrick,liketherestofus。"
  "Ithasn'ttaughtyouthat,Basil。"
  "Don'tbesosure。Perhapsit'sonlythatI'mapoorscholar。ButI
  don'tknow,really,thatIdespiseFulkersonsomuchforhiscoursethismorningasforhisgrossandfulsomeflatteriesofDryfooslastnight。
  Icouldhardlystomachit。"
  Hiswifemadehimtellherwhattheywere,andthenshesaid,"Yes,thatwasloathsome;Icouldn'thavebelieveditofMr。Fulkerson。"
  "Perhapsheonlydidittokeepthetalkgoing,andtogivetheoldmanachancetosaysomething,"Marchlenientlysuggested。"Itwasaworseeffectbecausehedidn'torcouldn'tfollowupFulkerson'slead。"
  "Itwasloathsome,allthesame,"hiswifeinsisted。"It'stheendofMr。Fulkerson,asfarasI'mconcerned。"
  "Ididn'ttellyoubefore,"Marchresumed,afteramoment,"ofmylittleinterviewwithConradDryfoosafterhisfatherleft,"andnowhewentontorepeatwhathadpassedbetweenhimandtheyoungman。
  "Isuspectthatheandhisfatherhadbeenhavingsomewordsbeforetheoldmancameuptotalkwithme,andthatitwasthatmadehimsofurious。"
  "Yes,butwhatastrangepositionforthesonofsuchamantotake!
  Doyousupposehesayssuchthingstohisfather?"
  "Idon'tknow;butIsuspectthatinhismeekwayConradwouldsaywhathebelievedtoanybody。Isupposewemustregardhimasakindofcrank。"
  "Pooryoungfellow!Healwaysmakesmefeelsad,somehow。Hehassuchapatheticface。Idon'tbelieveIeversawhimlookquitehappy,exceptthatnightatMrs。Horn's,whenhewastalkingwithMissVance;andthenhemademefeelsadderthanever。"
  "Idon'tenvyhimthelifeheleadsathome,withthoseconvictionsofhis。Idon'tseewhyitwouldn'tbeastolerablethereforoldLindauhimself。"
  "Well,now,"saidMrs。March,"letusputthemalloutofourmindsandseewhatwearegoingtodoourselves。"
  Theybegantoconsidertheirwaysandmeans,andhowandwheretheyshouldlive,inviewofMarch'sseveranceofhisrelationswith'EveryOtherWeek。'Theyhadnotsavedanythingfromthefirstyear'ssalary;
  theyhadonlypreparedtosave;andtheyhadnothingsolidbuttheirtwothousandtocountupon。ButtheybuiltafutureinwhichtheyeasilylivedonthatandonwhatMarchearnedwithhispen。Hebecameafreelance,andfoughtinwhatevercausehethoughtjust;hehadnoties,nochains。TheywentbacktoBostonwiththeheroicwilltodowhatwasmostdistasteful;theywouldhavereturnedtotheirownhouseiftheyhadnotrenteditagain;but,anyrate,Mrs。Marchhelpedoutbytakingboarders,orperhapsonlylettingroomstolodgers。Theyhadsomehardstruggles,buttheysucceeded。
  "Thegreatthing,"shesaid,"istoberight。I'mtentimesashappyasifyouhadcomehomeandtoldmethatyouhadconsentedtodowhatDryfoosaskedandhehaddoubledyoursalary。"
  "Idon'tthinkthatwouldhavehappenedinanyevent,"saidMarch,dryly。
  "Well,nomatter。Ijustuseditforanexample。"
  Theybothexperiencedabuoyantrelief,suchasseemstocometopeoplewhobeginlifeanewonwhateverterms。"Ihopeweareyoungenoughyet,Basil,"shesaid,andshewouldnothaveitwhenhesaidtheyhadoncebeenyounger。
  Theyheardthechildren'sknockonthedoor;theyknockedwhentheycamehomefromschoolsothattheirmothermightletthemin。"Shallwetellthematonce?"sheasked,andrantoopenforthembeforeMarchcouldanswer。
  Theywerenotalone。Fulkerson,smilingfromeartoear,waswiththem。
  "IsMarchin?"heasked。
  "Mr。Marchisathome,yes,"shesaidveryhaughtily。"He'sinhisstudy,"andsheledthewaythere,whilethechildrenwenttotheirrooms。
  "Well,March,"Fulkersoncalledoutatsightofhim,"it'sallright!
  Theoldmanhascomedown。"
  "Isupposeifyougentlemenaregoingtotalkbusiness——"Mrs。Marchbegan。
  "Oh,wedon'twantyoutogoaway,"saidFulkerson。"IreckonMarchhastoldyou,anyway。"
  "Yes,I'vetoldher,"saidMarch。"Don'tgo,Isabel。Whatdoyoumean,Fulkerson?"
  "He'sjustgoneonuphome,andhesentmeroundwithhisapologies。
  Heseesnowthathehadnobusinesstospeaktoyouashedid,andhewithdrawseverything。He'd'a'comeroundhimselfifI'dsaidso,butI
  toldhimIcouldmakeitallright。"
  Fulkersonlookedsohappyinhavingthewholeaffairputright,andtheMarchesknewhimtobesokindlyaffectedtowardthem,thattheycouldnotrefuseforthemomenttosharehismood。Theyfeltthemselvesslippingdownfromthemoralheightwhichtheyhadgained,andMarchmadeaclutchtostayhimselfwiththequestion,"AndLindau?"
  "Well,"saidFulkerson,"he'sgoingtoleaveLindautome。Youwon'thaveanythingtodowithit。I'lllettheoldfellowdowneasy。"
  "Doyoumean,"askedMarch,"thatMr。Dryfoosinsistsonhisbeingdismissed?"
  "Why,thereisn'tanydismissingaboutit,"Fulkersonargued。"Ifyoudon'tsendhimanymorework,hewon'tdoanymore,that'sall。Orifhecomesround,youcan——He'stobereferredtome。"
  Marchshookhishead,andhiswife,withasigh,feltherselfpluckedupfromthesoftcircumstanceoftheirlives,whichshehadsunkbackintosoquickly,andsetbesidehimonthatcoldpeakofprincipleagain。
  "Itwon'tdo,Fulkerson。It'sverygoodofyou,andallthat,butitcomestothesamethingintheend。IcouldhavegoneonwithoutanyapologyfromMr。Dryfoos;hetranscendedhisauthority,butthat'saminormatter。Icouldhaveexcusedittohisignoranceoflifeamonggentlemen;butIcan'tconsenttoLindau'sdismissal——itcomestothat,whetheryoudoitorIdoit,andwhetherit'sapositiveoranegativething——becauseheholdsthisopinionorthat。"
  "Butdon'tyousee,"saidFulkerson,"thatit'sjustLindau'sopinionstheoldmancan'tstand?Hehasn'tgotanythingagainsthimpersonally。
  Idon'tsupposethere'sanybodythatappreciatesLindauinsomewaysmorethantheoldmandoes。"
  "Iunderstand。Hewantstopunishhimforhisopinions。Well,Ican'tconsenttothat,directlyorindirectly。Wedon'tprinthisopinions,andhehasaperfectrighttoholdthem,whetherMr。Dryfoosagreeswiththemornot。"
  Mrs。Marchhadjudgeditdecorousforhertosaynothing,butshenowwentandsatdowninthechairnextherhusband。
  "Ah,dogonit!"criedFulkerson,rumplinghishairwithbothhishands。
  "WhatamItodo?Theoldmansayshe'sgottogo。"
  "AndIdon'tconsenttohisgoing,"saidMarch。
  "Andyouwon'tstayifhegoes。"
  Fulkersonrose。"Well,well!I'vegottoseeaboutit。I'mafraidtheoldmanwon'tstandit,March;Iam,indeed。Iwishyou'dreconsider。
  I——I'dtakeitasapersonalfavorifyouwould。Itleavesmeinafix。
  YouseeI'vegottosidewithoneortheother。"
  Marchmadenoreplytothis,excepttosay,"Yes,youmuststandbyhim,oryoumuststandbyme。"
  "Well,well!Holdonawhile!I'llseeyouinthemorning。Don'ttakeanysteps——"
  "Oh,therearenostepstotake,"saidMarch,withamelancholysmile。
  "Thestepsarestopped;that'sall。"HesankbackintohischairwhenFulkersonwasgoneanddrewalongbreath。"Thisisprettyrough。I
  thoughtwehadgotthroughit。"
  "No,"saidhiswife。"ItseemsasifIhadtomakethefightalloveragain。"
  "Well,it'sagoodthingit'saholywar。"
  "Ican'tbearthesuspense。Whydidn'tyoutellhimoutrightyouwouldn'tgobackonanyterms?"
  "Imightaswell,andgottheglory。He'llnevermoveDryfoos。I
  supposewebothwouldliketogoback,ifwecould。"
  "Oh,Isupposeso。"
  Theycouldnotregaintheirlostexaltation,theirlostdignity。AtdinnerMrs。MarchaskedthechildrenhowtheywouldliketogobacktoBostontolive。
  "Why,we'renotgoing,arewe?"askedTom,withoutenthusiasm。
  "Iwasjustwonderinghowyoufeltaboutit,now,"shesaid,withanunderlookatherhusband。
  "Well,ifwegoback,"saidBella,"IwanttoliveontheBackBay。It'sawfullyMickyattheSouthEnd。"
  "IsupposeIshouldgotoHarvard,"saidTom,"andI'droomoutatCambridge。ItwouldbeeasiertogetatyouontheBackBay。"
  Theparentssmiledruefullyateachother,and,inviewofthesegrandexpectationsofhischildren,MarchresolvedtogoasfarashecouldinmeetingDryfoos'swishes。Heproposedthetheatreasadistractionfromtheanxietiesthatheknewwerepressingequallyonhiswife。"Wemightgotothe'OldHomestead,'"hesuggested,withasadirony,whichonlyhiswifefelt。
  "Ohyes,let's!"criedBella。
  Whiletheyweregettingready,someonerang,andBellawenttothedoor,andthencametotellherfatherthatitwasMr。Lindau。"Hesayshewantstoseeyoujustamoment。He'sintheparlor,andhewon'tsitdown,oranything。"
  "Whatcanhewant?"groanedMrs。March,fromtheircommondismay。
  Marchapprehendedastormintheoldman'sface。Butheonlystoodinthemiddleoftheroom,lookingverysadandgrave。"YouareGoingoudt,"hesaid。"Iwon'tgeepyoulong。Ihafgometopringpackdosemacassinesanddismawney。Ican'tdoanymorevoarkforyou;andI
  can'tgeepthemawneyyouhafbaidmea'ready。Itissnothawnestmawney——thathassbeenoarnedpyvoark;itissmawneythathasspeenmatepysbeculation,andtheobbressionofflapor,andthenecessityoftheboor,pyaman——Hereitis,eferytollar,eferyzent。Dakeit;Ifeelasifderevasploodtonit。"
  "Why,Lindau,"Marchbegan,buttheoldmaninterruptedhim。
  "Ton'tdalktome,Passil!Icouldnothafbelievedtitofyou。WhenyouknowhowIfeelaboutdosetings,whytidn'tyoudellmewhosemawneyyoubayoudttome?Ach,Iton'tplameyou——Iton'trebroachyou。Youhafneferthoughtofit;boatIhavethought,andIshouldbeGuilty,Imustsharethatman'sGuilt,ifIgepthissmawney。Ifyouhattoldtmeatthepeginning——ifyouhatpeenfrankwithmeboatitissallrighdt;
  youcangoon;youton'tseedesetingsasIseethem;andyouhafcotafamily,andIamafreeman。Ivoarktomyself,andwhenIton'tvoark,Isdarfetomyself。But。Igeepmyhandtsglean,voarkorsdarfe。Gifhimhissmawneypack!Iamsawryforhim;Iwouldnothoarthissfeelings,boatIcouldnotpeartodouchhim,andhissmawneyisslikeboison!"
  MarchtriedtoreasonwithLindau,toshowhimthefolly,theinjustice,theabsurdityofhiscourse;itendedintheirbothgettingangry,andinLindau'sgoingawayinawhirlofGermanthatincludedBasilintheguiltofthemanwhomLindaucalledhismaster。
  "Well,"saidMrs。March。"Heisacrank,andIthinkyou'rewellridofhim。NowyouhavenoquarrelwiththathorridoldDryfoos,andyoucankeeprighton。"
  "Yes,"saidMarch,"Iwishitdidn'tmakemefeelsosneaking。Whatalongdayit'sbeen!ItseemslikeacenturysinceIgotup。"
  "Yes,athousandyears。Isthereanythingelselefttohappen?"
  "Ihopenot。I'dliketogotobed。"
  "Why,aren'tyougoingtothetheatre?"wailedBella,cominginuponherfather'sdesperateexpression。
  "Thetheatre?Ohyes,certainly!Imeantafterwegothome,"andMarchamusedhimselfatthepuzzledcountenanceofthechild。"Comeon!
  IsTomready?"
  IX。
  FulkersonpartedwiththeMarchesinsuchtroubleofmindthathedidnotfeelabletomeetthatnightthepeoplewhomheusuallykeptsogayatMrs。Leighton'stable。HewenttoMaroni'sforhisdinner,forthisreasonandforothersmoreobscure。HecouldnotexpecttodoanythingmorewithDryfoosatonce;heknewthatDryfoosmustfeelthathehadalreadymadeanextremeconcessiontoMarch,andhebelievedthatifhewastogetanythingmorefromhimitmustbeafterDryfooshaddined。
  Buthewasnotwithoutthehope,vagueandindefiniteasitmightbe,thatheshouldfindLindauatMaroni's,andperhapsshouldgetsomeconcessionfromhim,somewordofregretorapologywhichhecouldreporttoDryfoos,andatlestmakethemeansofreopeningtheaffairwithhim;
  perhapsLindau,whenheknewhowmattersstood,wouldbackdownaltogether,andforMarch'ssakewouldwithdrawfromallconnectionwith'EveryOtherWeek'himself,andsoleaveeverythingserene。Fulkersonfeltcapable,inhisdesperation,ofdelicatelysuggestingsuchacoursetoLindau,orevenofplainlyadvisingit:hedidnotcareforLindauagreatdeal,andhedidcareagreatdealforthemagazine。
  ButhedidnotfindLindauatMaroni's;heonlyfoundBeaton。HesatlookingatthedoorwayasFulkersonentered,andFulkersonnaturallycameandtookaplaceathistable。SomethinginBeaton'slarge-eyedsolemnityofaspectinvitedFulkersontoconfidence,andhesaid,ashepulledhisnapkinopenandstrungit,stillalittledampasthescanty,often-washedlinenatMaroni'swasapttobe,acrosshisknees,"Iwaslookingforyouthismorning,totalkwithyouabouttheChristmasnumber,andIwasagooddealworkedupbecauseIcouldn'tfindyou;butIguessImightaswellhavesparedmyselfmyemotions。"
  "Why?"askedBeaton,briefly。
  "Well,Idon'tknowasthere'sgoingtobeanyChristmasnumber。"
  "Why?"Beatonaskedagain。
  "Rowbetweenthefinancialangelandtheliteraryeditoraboutthechieftranslatorandpolyglotsmeller。"
  "Lindau?"
  "Lindauishisname。"
  "WhatdoestheliteraryeditorexpectafterLindau'sexpressionofhisviewslastnight?"
  "Idon'tknowwhatheexpected,butthegroundhetookwiththeoldmanwasthat,asLindau'sopinionsdidn'tcharacterizehisworkonthemagazine,hewouldnotbemadetheinstrumentofpunishinghimforthemtheoldmanwantedhimturnedoff,ashecallsit。"
  "Seemstobeprettygoodground,"saidBeaton,impartially,whilehespeculated,withadulltroubleatheart,ontheeffecttherowwouldhaveonhisownfortunes。Hislatevisithomehadmadehimfeelthattheclaimofhisfamilyuponhimforsomerepaymentofhelpgivencouldnotbemuchlongerdelayed;withhismothersickandhisfathergrowingold,hemustbegintodosomethingforthem,butuptothistimehehadspenthissalaryevenfasterthanhehadearnedit。WhenFulkersoncameinhewaswonderingwhetherhecouldgethimtoincreaseit,ifhethreatenedtogiveuphiswork,andhewishedthathewasenoughinlovewithMargaretVance,orevenChristineDryfoos,tomarryher,onlytoendinthesorrowfulconvictionthathewasreallyinlovewithAlmaLeighton,whohadnomoney,andwhohadapparentlynowishtobemarriedforlove,even。"Andwhatareyougoingtodoaboutit?"heasked,listlessly。
  "BedoggedifIknowwhatI'mgoingtodoaboutit,"saidFulkerson。
  "I'vebeenroundallday,tryingtopickupthepieces——rowbeganrightafterbreakfastthismorning——andonetimeIthoughtI'dgotthethingallputtogetheragain。IgottheoldmantosaythathehadspokentoMarchalittletooauthoritativelyaboutLindau;that,infact,heoughttohavecommunicatedhiswishesthroughme;andthathewaswillingtohavemegetridofLindau,andMarchneedn'thaveanythingtodowithit。
  Ithoughtthatwasprettywhite,butMarchsaystheapologiesandregretsareallwellenoughintheirway,buttheyleavethemainquestionwheretheyfoundit。"
  "Whatisthemainquestion?"Beatonasked,pouringhimselfoutsomeChianti。AshesettheflaskdownhemadethereflectionthatifhewoulddrinkwaterinsteadofChiantihecouldsendhisfatherthreedollarsaweek,onhisbackdebts,andheresolvedtodoit。
  "Themainquestion,asMarchlooksatit,isthequestionofpunishingLindauforhisprivateopinions;hesaysthatifheconsentstomybouncingtheoldfellowit'sthesameasifhebouncedhim。"
  "Itmighthavethatcomplexioninsomelights,"saidBeaton。HedrankoffhisChianti,andthoughthewouldhaveittwiceaweek,ormakeMaronikeepthehalf-bottlesoverforhim,andsendhisfathertwodollars。"Andwhatareyougoingtodonow?"
  "That'swhatIdon'tknow,"saidFulkerson,ruefully。Afteramomenthesaid,desperately,"Beaton,you'vegotaprettygoodhead;whydon'tyousuggestsomething?"
  "Whydon'tyouletMarchgo?"Beatonsuggested。
  "Ah,Icouldn't,"saidFulkerson。"IgothimtobreakupinBostonandcomehere;Ilikehim;nobodyelsecouldgetthehangofthethinglikehehas;he's——afriend。"Fulkersonsaidthiswiththenearestapproachhecouldmaketoseriousness,whichwasakindofunhappiness。
  Beatonshrugged。"Oh,ifyoucanaffordtohaveideals,Icongratulateyou。They'retooexpensiveforme。Then,supposeyougetridofDryfoos?"
  Fulkersonlaughedforlornly。"Goon,Bildad。Liketosprinkleafewashesovermyboils?Don'tmindme!"
  Theybothsatsilentalittlewhile,andthenBeatonsaid,"Isupposeyouhaven'tseenDryfoosthesecondtime?"
  "No。IcameinheretogirdupmyloinswithalittledinnerbeforeI
  tackledhim。ButsomethingseemstobethematterwithMaroni'scook。
  Idon'twantanythingtoeat。"
  "Thecooking'saboutasbadasusual,"saidBeaton。Afteramomentheadded,ironically,forhefoundFulkerson'smiseryakindofrelieffromhisown,andwaswillingtoprotractitaslongasitwasamusing,"Whynottryanenvoyextraordinaryandministerplenipotentiary?"
  "Whatdoyoumean?"
  "GetthatotheroldfooltogotoDryfoosforyou!"
  "Whichotheroldfool?Theoldfoolsseemtobeasthickasflies。"
  "ThatSouthernone。"
  "ColonelWoodburn?"
  "Mmmmm。"
  "Hedidseemtorathertaketothecolonel!"Fulkersonmusedaloud。
  "Ofcoursehedid。Woodburn,withhisidiotictalkaboutpatriarchalslavery,isthemanonhorsebacktoDryfoos'smuddyimagination。He'dlistentohimabjectly,andhe'ddowhateverWoodburntoldhimtodo。"
  Beatonsmiledcynically。
  Fulkersongotupandreachedforhiscoatandhat。"You'vestruckit,oldman。"Thewaitercameuptohelphimonwithhiscoat;Fulkersonslippedadollarinhishand。"Nevermindthecoat;youcangivetherestofmydinnertothepoor,Paolo。Beaton,shake!You'vesavedmylife,littleboy,thoughIdon'tthinkyoumeantit。"HetookBeaton'shandandsolemnlypressedit,andthenalmostranoutofthedoor。
  TheyhadjustreachedcoffeeatMrs。Leighton'swhenhearrivedandsatdownwiththemandbegantoputsomeofthelifeofhisnewhopeintothem。Hisappetiterevived,and,afterprotestingthathewouldnottakeanythingbutcoffee,hewentbackandatesomeoftheearliercourses。
  Butwiththepressureofhispurposedrivinghimforward,hedidnotconcealfromMissWoodburn,atleast,thathewaseagertogetherapartfromtherestforsomereason。Whenheaccomplishedthis,itseemedasifhehadcontriveditallhimself,butperhapshehadnotwhollycontrivedit。
  "I'msogladtogetachancetospeaktoyoualone,"hesaidatonce;andwhileshewaitedforthenextwordhemadeapause,andthensaid,desperately,"Iwantyoutohelpme;andifyoucan'thelpme,there'snohelpforme。"
  "Mahgoodness,"shesaid,"isthecasesobadasthat?Whatinthewoaldisthetrouble?"
  "Yes,it'sabadcase,"saidFulkerson。"Iwantyourfathertohelpme。"
  "Oh,Ithoatyousaidme!"
  "Yes;Iwantyoutohelpmewithyourfather。IsupposeIoughttogotohimatonce,butI'malittleafraidofhim。"
  "Andyouawenotafraidofme?Idon'tthinkthat'sveryflattering,Mr。
  Fulkerson。YououghttothinkAh'mtwahceasawfulaspapa。"
  "Oh,Ido!Yousee,I'mquiteparalyzedbeforeyou,andsoIdon'tfeelanything。"
  "Well,it'saprettylahvelykyandofparalysis。But——goon。"
  "Iwill——Iwill。IfIcanonlybegin。"
  "PohapsAhmaghtbeginfo'you。"
  "No,youcan't。Lordknows,I'dliketoletyou。Well,it'slikethis。"
  Fulkersonmadeaclutchathishair,andthen,afteranotherhesitation,heabruptlylaidthewholeaffairbeforeher。HedidnotthinkitnecessarytostatetheexactnatureoftheoffenceLindauhadgivenDryfoos,forhedoubtedifshecouldgraspit,andhewasprofuseofhisexcusesfortroublingherwiththematter,andofwonderathimselfforhavingdoneso。Intheraptureofhisconcernathavingperhapsmadeafoolofhimself,heforgotwhyhehadtoldher;butsheseemedtolikehavingbeenconfidedin,andshesaid,"Well,Ahdon'tseewhatyoucandowithyou'ahdealsoffriendshipexceptstandbahMr。Mawch。"
  "Myidealsoffriendship?Whatdoyoumean?"
  "Oh,don'tyousupposeweknow?Mr。Beatonsaidyouwe'apofectBahyardinfriendship,andyouwouldsacrificeanythingtoit。"
  "Isthatso?"saidFulkerson,thinkinghoweasilyhecouldsacrificeLindauinthiscase。Hehadneversupposedbeforethathewaschivalrousinsuchmatters,buthenowbegantoseeitinthatlight,andhewonderedthathecouldeverhaveentertainedforamomenttheideaofthrowingMarchover。
  "ButAhmostsay,"MissWoodburnwenton,"Ahdon'tenvyyouyou'nextinterviewwithMr。Dryfoos。Ahsupposeyou'llhavetoseehimatonceaboatit。"
  TheconjecturerecalledFulkersontotheobjectofhisconfidences。
  "Ah,there'swhereyourhelpcomesin。I'veexhaustedalltheinfluenceIhavewithDryfoos——"
  "Goodgracious,youdon'texpectAhcouldhaveany!"
  Theybothlaughedatthecomicdismaywithwhichsheconveyedthepreposterousnotion;andFulkersonsaid,"IfIjudgedfrommyself,Ishouldexpectyoutobringhimroundinstantly。"
  "Oh,thankyou,Mr。Fulkerson,"shesaid,withmockmeekness。
  "Notatall。Butitisn'tDryfoosIwantyoutohelpmewith;it'syourfather。IwantyourfathertointerviewDryfoosforme,andI-I'mafraidtoaskhim。"
  "Poo'Mr。Fulkerson!"shesaid,andsheinsinuatedsomethingthroughherburlesquecompassionthatliftedhimtotheskies。Hesworeinhisheartthatthewomanneverlivedwhowassowitty,sowise,sobeautiful,andsogood。"Comeraghtwithmethisminute,ifthecyoast'sclea'。"Shewenttothedoorofthediningroomandlookedinacrossitsgloomtothelittlegallerywhereherfathersatbesidealampreadinghiseveningpaper;Mrs。Leightoncouldbeheardincolloquywiththecookbelow,andAlmahadgonetoherroom。ShebeckonedFulkersonwiththehandoutstretchedbehindher,andsaid,"Goandaskhim。"
  "Alone!"hepalpitated。
  "Oh,whatacyowahd!"shecried,andwentwithhim。"Ahsupposeyou'llwantmetotellhimaboatit。"
  "Well,Iwishyou'dbegin,MissWoodburn,"hesaid。"Thefactis,youknow,I'vebeenoveritsomuchI'mkindofsickofthething。"
  MissWoodburnadvancedandputherhandonherfather'sshoulder。"Lookheah,papa!Mr。Fulkersonwantstoaskyousomething,andhewantsmetodoitfo'him。"
  Thecolonellookedupthroughhisglasseswiththesortofferocityelderlymensometimeshavetoputoninordertokeeptheirglassesfromfallingoff。Hisdaughtercontinued:"He'sgotintoanawfuldifficultywithhisedito'andhisproprieto',andhewantsyoutopacifythem。"
  "IdonotknowwhethahIunderstandthecaseexactly,"saidthecolonel,"butMr。Fulkersonmaycommandmetotheextentofmyability。"
  "Youdon'tunderstanditaftahwhatAh'vesaid?"criedthegirl。"ThenAhdon'tseebutwhatyou'llhavetoexplainityou'self,Mr。Fulkerson。"
  "Well,MissWoodburnhasbeensoluminousaboutit,colonel,"saidFulkerson,gladofthejokingshapeshehadgiventheaffair,"thatIcanonlythrowinalittleside-lighthereandthere。"
  ThecolonellistenedasFulkersonwenton,withagravediplomaticsatisfaction。Hefeltgratified,honored,even,hesaid,byMr。
  Fulkerson'sappealtohim;andprobablyitgavehimsomethingofthehighjoythatanaffairofhonorwouldhavebroughthiminthedayswhenhehadarrangedformeetingsbetweengentlemen。Nexttobearingachallenge,thisworkofcomposingadifficultymusthavebeengrateful。
  Buthegavenooutwardsignofhissatisfactioninmakingaresumeofthecasesoastogetthepointsclearlyinhismind。
  "Iwasafraid,sir,"hesaid,withthestateduetotheseriousnatureofthefacts,"thatMr。LindauhadgivenMr。Dryfoosoffencebysomeofhisquestionsatthedinner-tablelastnight。"
  "Perfectredragtoabull,"Fulkersonputin;andthenhewantedtowithdrawhiswordsatthecolonel'slookofdispleasure。
  "IhavenoreflectionstomakeuponMr。Landau,"ColonelWoodburncontinued,andFulkersonfeltgratefultohimforgoingon;"IdonotagreewithMr。Lindau;Itotallydisagreewithhimonsociologicalpoints;butthecourseoftheconversationhadinvitedhimtotheexpressionofhisconvictions,andhehadarighttoexpressthem,sofarastheyhadnopersonalbearing。"
  "Ofcourse,"saidFulkerson,whileMissWoodburnperchedonthearmofherfather'schair。
  "Atthesametime,sir,IthinkthatifMr。DryfoosfeltapersonalcensureinMr。Lindau'squestionsconcerninghissuppressionofthestrikeamonghisworkmen,hehadarighttoresentit。"
  "Exactly,"Fulkersonassented。
  "Butitmustbeevidenttoyou,sir,thatahigh-spiritedgentlemanlikeMr。March——Iconfessthatmyfeelingsarewithhimverywarmlyinthematter——couldnotsubmittodictationofthenatureyoudescribe。"
  "Yes,Isee,"saidFulkerson;and,withthatstrangeduplexactionofthehumanmind,hewishedthatitwashishair,andnotherfather's,thatMissWoodburnwaspokingapartwiththecornerofherfan。
  "Mr。Lindau,"thecolonelconcluded,"wasrightfromhispointofview,andMr。Dryfooswasequallyright。ThepositionofMr。Marchisperfectlycorrect——"
  Hisdaughterdroppedtoherfeetfromhischair-arm。"Mahgoodness!
  Ifnobody'sinthewrong,ho'aweyouevahgoingtogetthemattahstraight?"