"Iknowhedidn'tsleeplastnight,afteryouallwentaway,"Conradpursued,"andofcoursethatmadehimmoreirritable;andhewastriedagooddealbysomeofthethingsthatMr。Lindausaid。"
"Iwastriedagooddealmyself,"saidMarch。"Lindauoughtnevertohavebeenthere。"
"No。"Conradseemedonlypartiallytoassent。
"ItoldMr。Fulkersonso。IwarnedhimthatLindauwouldbeapttobreakoutinsomeway。Itwasn'tjusttohim,anditwasn'tjusttoyourfather,toaskhim。"
"Mr。Fulkersonhadagoodmotive,"Conradgentlyurged。"Hediditbecausehehurthisfeelingsthatdayaboutthepension。"
"Yes,butitwasamistake。HeknewthatLindauwasinflexibleabouthisprinciples,ashecallsthem,andthatoneofhisfirstprinciplesistodenouncetherichinseasonandoutofseason。Idon'trememberjustwhathesaidlastnight;andIreallythoughtI'dkepthimfrombreakingoutinthemostoffensiveway。Butyourfatherseemsverymuchincensed。"
"Yes,Iknow,"saidConrad。
"Ofcourse,Idon'tagreewithLindau。Ithinkthereareasmanygood,kind,justpeopleamongtherichasthereareamongthepoor,andthattheyareasgenerousandhelpful。ButLindauhasgotholdofoneofthosepartialtruthsthathurtworsethanthewholetruth,and——"
"Partialtruth!"theyoungmaninterrupted。"Didn'ttheSaviourhimselfsay,'HowhardlyshalltheythathaverichesenterintothekingdomofGod?'"
"Why,blessmysoul!"criedMarch。"DoyouagreewithLindau?"
"IagreewiththeLordJesusChrist,"saidtheyoungman,solemnly,andastrangelightoffanaticism,ofexaltation,cameintohiswideblueeyes。
"AndIbelieveHemeantthekingdomofheavenuponthisearth,aswellasintheskies。"
Marchthrewhimselfbackinhischairandlookedathimwithakindofstupefaction,inwhichhiseyewanderedtothedoorway,wherehesawFulkersonstanding,itseemedtohimalongtime,beforeheheardhimsaying:"Hello,hello!What'stherow?ConradpitchingintoyouonoldLindau'saccount,too?"
Theyoungmanturned,and,afteraglanceatFulkerson'slight,smilingface,wentout,asifinhispresentmoodhecouldnotbearthecontactofthatpersiflantspirit。
Marchfelthimselfgettingprovisionallyveryangryagain。"Excuseme,Fulkerson,butdidyouknowwhenyouwentoutwhatMr。Dryfooswantedtoseemefor?"
"Well,no,Ididn'texactly,"saidFulkerson,takinghisusualseatonachairandlookingoverthebackofitatMarch。"Isawhewasonhiscaraboutsomething,andIthoughtI'dbetternotmonkeywithhimmuch。
IsupposedhewasgoingtobringyoutobookaboutoldLindau,somehow。"
Fulkersonbrokeintoalaugh。
Marchremainedserious。"Mr。Dryfoos,"hesaid,willingtoletthesimplestatementhaveitsownweightwithFulkerson,andnothingmore,"cameinhereandorderedmetodischargeLindaufromhisemploymentonthemagazine——toturnhimoff,asheputit。"
"Didhe?"askedFulkerson,withunbrokencheerfulness。"Theoldmanisbusiness,everytime。Well,IsupposeyoucaneasilygetsomebodyelsetodoLindau'sworkforyou。Thistownisjustrunningoverwithhalf-
starvedlinguists。Whatdidyousay?"
"WhatdidIsay?"Marchechoed。"Lookhere,Fulkerson;youmayregardthisasajoke,butIdon't。I'mnotusedtobeingspokentoasifI
weretheforemanofashop,andtoldtodischargeasensitiveandcultivatedmanlikeLindau,asifhewereadrunkenmechanic;andifthat'syourideaofme——"
"Oh,hello,now,March!Youmustn'tmindtheoldman'sway。Hedon'tmeananythingbyit——hedon'tknowanybetter,ifyoucometothat。"
"ThenIknowbetter,"saidMarch。"IrefusedtoreceiveanyinstructionsfromMr。Dryfoos,whomIdon'tknowinmyrelationswith'EveryOtherWeek,'andIreferredhimtoyou。"
"Youdid?,"Fulkersonwhistled。"Heownsthething!"
"Idon'tcarewhoownsthething,"saidMarch。"Mynegotiationswerewithyoualonefromthebeginning,andIleavethismatterwithyou。
WhatdoyouwishdoneaboutLindau?"
"Oh,betterlettheoldfooldrop,"saidFulkerson。"He'lllightonhisfeetsomehow,anditwillsavealotofrumpus。"
"AndifIdeclinetolethimdrop?"
"Oh,come,now,March;don'tdothat,"Fulkersonbegan。
"IfIdeclinetolethimdrop,"Marchrepeated,"whatwillyoudo?"
"I'llbedoggedifIknowwhatI'lldo,"saidFulkerson。"Ihopeyouwon'ttakethatstand。Iftheoldmanwentsofarastospeaktoyouaboutit,hismindismadeup,andwemightaswellknockunderfirstaslast。"
"AnddoyoumeantosaythatyouwouldnotstandbymeinwhatI
consideredmyduty-inamatterofprinciple?"
"Why,ofcourse,March,"saidFulkerson,coaxingly,"Imeantodotherightthing。ButDryfoosownsthemagazine——"
"Hedoesn'townme,"saidMarch,rising。"Hehasmadethelittlemistakeofspeakingtomeasifhedid;andwhen"——Marchputonhishatandtookhisovercoatdownfromitsnail——"whenyoubringmehisapologies,orcometosaythat,havingfailedtomakehimunderstandtheywerenecessary,youarepreparedtostandbyme,Iwillcomebacktothisdesk。Otherwisemyresignationisatyourservice。"
Hestartedtowardthedoor,andFulkersoninterceptedhim。"Ah,now,lookhere,March!Don'tdothat!Hangitall,don'tyouseewhereitleavesme?Now,youjustsitdownaminuteandtalkitover。Icanmakeyousee——Icanshowyou——Why,confoundtheoldDutchbeer-buzzer!Twentyofhimwouldn'tbeworththetroublehe'smakin'。Lethimgo,andtheoldman'llcomeroundintime。"
"Idon'tthinkwe'veunderstoodeachotherexactly,Mr。Fulkerson,"saidMarch,veryhaughtily。"Perhapswenevercan;butI'llleaveyoutothinkitout。"
Hepushedon,andFulkersonstoodasidetolethimpass,withadazedlookandamechanicalmovement。TherewassomethingcomicinhisruefulbewildermenttoMarch,whowastemptedtosmile,buthesaidtohimselfthathehadasmuchreasontobeunhappyasFulkerson,andhedidnotsmile。HisindignationkepthimhotinhispurposetosufferanyconsequenceratherthansubmittothedictationofamanlikeDryfoos;
hefeltkeenlythedegradationofhisconnectionwithhim,andallhisresentmentofFulkerson'soriginaluncandorreturned;atthesametimehisheartachedwithforeboding。Itwasnotmerelytheworkinwhichhehadconstantlygrownhappierthathesawtakenfromhim;buthefeltthemiseryofthemanwhostakesthesecurityandplentyandpeaceofhomeuponsomecast,andknowsthatlosingwillsweepfromhimmostthatmostmenfindsweetandpleasantinlife。Hefacedthefact,whichnogoodmancanfrontwithoutterror,thathewasriskingthesupportofhisfamily,andforapointofpride,ofhonor,whichperhapshehadnorighttoconsiderinviewofthepossibleadversity。Herealized,aseveryhirelingmust,nomatterhowskillfullyorgracefullythetieiscontrivedforhiswearing,thathebelongstoanother,whosewillishislaw。HisindignationwasshotwithabjectimpulsestogobackandtellFulkersonthatitwasallright,andthathegaveup。Toendtheanguishofhisstrugglehequickenedhissteps,sothathefoundhewasreachinghomealmostatarun。
VIII。
Hemusthavemademoreclatterthanhesupposedwithhiskeyattheapartmentdoor,forhiswifehadcometolethiminwhenheflungitopen。"Why,Basil,"shesaid,"what'sbroughtyouback?Areyousick?
You'reallpale。Well,nowonder!ThisisthelastofMr。Fulkerson'sdinnersyoushallgoto。You'renotstrongenoughforit,andyourstomachwillbealloutoforderforaweek。Howhotyouare!andinadripofperspiration!Nowyou'llbesick。"Shetookhishataway,whichhungdanglinginhishand,andpushedhimintoachairwithtenderimpatience。"Whatisthematter?Hasanythinghappened?"
"Everythinghashappened,"hesaid,gettinghisvoiceafteroneortwohuskyendeavorsforit;andthenhepouredoutaconfusedandhuddledstatementofthecase,fromwhichsheonlygotatthesituationbyprolongedcross-questioning。
Attheendshesaid,"IknewLindauwouldgetyouintotrouble。"
ThiscutMarchtotheheart。"Isabel!"hecried,reproachfully。
"Oh,Iknow,"sheretorted,andthetearsbegantocome。"Idon'twonderyoudidn'twanttosaymuchtomeaboutthatdinneratbreakfast。
Inoticedit;butIthoughtyouwerejustdull,andsoIdidn'tinsist。
IwishIhad,now。IfyouhadtoldmewhatLindauhadsaid,Ishouldhaveknownwhatwouldhavecomeofit,andIcouldhaveadvisedyou——"
"Wouldyouhaveadvisedme,"Marchdemanded,curiously,"tosubmittobullyinglikethat,andmeeklyconsenttocommitanactofcrueltyagainstamanwhohadoncebeensuchafriendtome?"
"Itwasanunluckydaywhenyoumethim。Isupposeweshallhavetogo。
AndjustwhenwebadgotusedtoNewYork,andbeguntolikeit。Idon'tknowwhereweshallgonow;Bostonisn'tlikehomeanymore;andwecouldn'tliveontwothousandthere;Ishouldbeashamedtotry。I'msureIdon'tknowwherewecanliveonit。Isupposeinsomecountryvillage,wheretherearenoschools,oranythingforthechildren。I
don'tknowwhatthey'llsaywhenwetellthem,poorthings。"
EverywordwasastabinMarch'sheart,soweaklytendertohisown;hiswife'stears,aftersomuchexperienceofthecomparativelightnessofthegriefsthatweepthemselvesoutinwomen,alwaysseemedwrungfromhisownsoul;ifhischildrensufferedintheleastthroughhim,hefeltlikeamurderer。Itwasfarworsethanhecouldhaveimagined,thewayhiswifetooktheaffair,thoughhehadimaginedcertainwords,orperhapsonlylooks,fromherthatwerebadenough。Hehadallowedfortrouble,buttroubleonhisaccount:asvmpathythatmightburdenandembarrasshim;buthehadnotdreamedofthismerelydomestic,thispetty,thissordidviewoftheirpotentialcalamity,whichlefthimwhollyoutofthequestion,andembracedonlywhatwasmostcrushinganddesolatingintheprospect。Hecouldnotbearit。Hecaughtuphishatagain,and,withsomehopethathiswifewouldtrytokeephim,rushedoutofthehouse。Hewanderedaimlesslyabout,thinkingthesameexhaustingthoughtsoverandover,tillhefoundhimselfhorriblyhungry;
thenhewentintoarestaurantforhislunch,andwhenhepaidhetriedtoimaginehowheshouldfeelifthatwerereallyhislastdollar。
Hewenthometowardthemiddleoftheafternoon,baselyhopingthatFulkersonhadsenthimsomeconciliatorymessage,orperhapswaswaitingthereforhimtotalkitover;Marchwasquitewillingtotalkitovernow。Butitwashiswifewhoagainmethimatthedoor,thoughitseemedanotherwomanthantheonehehadleftweepinginthemorning。
"Itoldthechildren,"shesaid,insmilingexplanationofhisabsencefromlunch,"thatperhapsyouweredetainedbybusiness。Ididn'tknowbutyouhadgonebacktotheoffice。"
"DidyouthinkIwouldgobackthere,Isabel?"askedMarch,withahaggardlook。"Well,ifyousayso,Iwillgoback,anddowhatDryfoosorderedmetodo。I'msufficientlycowedbetweenhimandyou,Icanassureyou。"
"Nonsense,"shesaid。"Iapproveofeverythingyoudid。Butsitdown,now,anddon'tkeepwalkingthatway,andletmeseeifIunderstanditperfectly。Ofcourse,Ihadtohavemysayout。"
ShemadehimgoalloverhistalkwithDryfoosagain,andreporthisownlanguageprecisely。Fromtimetotime,asshegothispoints,shesaid,"Thatwassplendid,""Goodenoughforhim!"and"Oh,I'msogladyousaidthattohim!"Attheendshesaid:
"Well,now,let'slookatitfromhispointofview。Let'sbeperfectlyjusttohimbeforewetakeanotherstepforward。"
"Orbackward,"Marchsuggested,ruefully。"Thecaseissimplythis:heownsthemagazine。"
"Ofcourse。"
"AndhehasarighttoexpectthatIwillconsiderhispecuniaryinterests——"
"Oh,thosedetestablepecuniaryinterests!Don'tyouwishtherewasn'tanymoneyintheworld?"
"Yes;orelsethattherewasagreatdealmoreofit。AndIwasperfectlywillingtodothat。Ihavealwayskeptthatinmindasoneofmydutiestohim,eversinceIunderstoodwhathisrelationtothemagazinewas。"
"Yes,Icanbearwitnesstothatinanycourtofjustice。You'vedoneitagreatdealmorethanIcould,Basil。Anditwasjustthesamewaywiththosehorribleinsurancepeople。"
"Iknow,"Marchwenton,tryingtobeproofagainstherflatteries,oratleasttolookasifhedidnotdeservepraise;"IknowthatwhatLindausaidwasoffensivetohim,andIcanunderstandhowhefeltthathehadarighttopunishit。AllIsayisthathehadnorighttopunishitthroughme。"
"Yes,"saidMrs。March,askingly。
"Ifithadbeenaquestionofmaking'EveryOtherWeek'thevehicleofLindau'speculiaropinions——thoughthey'renotsoverypeculiar;hemighthavegotthemostofthemoutofRuskin——Ishouldn'thavehadanygroundtostandon,oratleastthenIshouldhavehadtoaskmyselfwhetherhisopinionswouldbeinjurioustothemagazineornot。"
"Idon'tsee,"Mrs。Marchinterpolated,"howtheycouldhurtitmuchworsethanColonelWoodburn'sarticlecryingupslavery。"
"Well,"saidMarch,impartially,"wecouldprintadozenarticlespraisingtheslaveryit'simpossibletohaveback,anditwouldn'thurtus。ButifweprintedonepaperagainsttheslaverywhichLindauclaimsstillexists,somepeoplewouldcallusbadnames,andthecounting-roomwouldbegintofeelit。Butthatisn'tthepoint。Lindau'sconnectionwith'EveryOtherWeek'isalmostpurelymechanical;he'smerelyatranslatorofsuchstoriesandsketchesashefirstsubmitstome,anditisn'tatallaquestionofhisopinionshurtingus,butofmybecominganagenttopunishhimforhisopinions。ThatiswhatIwouldn'tdo;that'swhatIneverwilldo。"
"Ifyoudid,"saidhiswife,"Ishouldperfectlydespiseyou。Ididn'tunderstandhowitwasbefore。IthoughtyouwerejustholdingoutagainstDryfoosbecausehetookadictatorialtonewithyou,andbecauseyouwouldn'trecognizehisauthority。ButnowI'mwithyou,Basil,everytime,asthathorridlittleFulkersonsays。Butwhowouldeverhavesupposedhewouldbesobaseastosideagainstyou?"
"Idon'tknow,"saidMarch,thoughtfully,"thatwehadarighttoexpectanythingelse。Fulkerson'sstandardsarelow;they'remerelybusinessstandards,andthegoodthat'sinhimisincidentalandsomethingquiteapartfromhismoralsandmethods。He'snaturallyagenerousandright-
mindedcreature,butlifehastaughthimtotruckleandtrick,liketherestofus。"
"Ithasn'ttaughtyouthat,Basil。"
"Don'tbesosure。Perhapsit'sonlythatI'mapoorscholar。ButI
don'tknow,really,thatIdespiseFulkersonsomuchforhiscoursethismorningasforhisgrossandfulsomeflatteriesofDryfooslastnight。
Icouldhardlystomachit。"
Hiswifemadehimtellherwhattheywere,andthenshesaid,"Yes,thatwasloathsome;Icouldn'thavebelieveditofMr。Fulkerson。"
"Perhapsheonlydidittokeepthetalkgoing,andtogivetheoldmanachancetosaysomething,"Marchlenientlysuggested。"Itwasaworseeffectbecausehedidn'torcouldn'tfollowupFulkerson'slead。"
"Itwasloathsome,allthesame,"hiswifeinsisted。"It'stheendofMr。Fulkerson,asfarasI'mconcerned。"
"Ididn'ttellyoubefore,"Marchresumed,afteramoment,"ofmylittleinterviewwithConradDryfoosafterhisfatherleft,"andnowhewentontorepeatwhathadpassedbetweenhimandtheyoungman。
"Isuspectthatheandhisfatherhadbeenhavingsomewordsbeforetheoldmancameuptotalkwithme,andthatitwasthatmadehimsofurious。"
"Yes,butwhatastrangepositionforthesonofsuchamantotake!
Doyousupposehesayssuchthingstohisfather?"
"Idon'tknow;butIsuspectthatinhismeekwayConradwouldsaywhathebelievedtoanybody。Isupposewemustregardhimasakindofcrank。"
"Pooryoungfellow!Healwaysmakesmefeelsad,somehow。Hehassuchapatheticface。Idon'tbelieveIeversawhimlookquitehappy,exceptthatnightatMrs。Horn's,whenhewastalkingwithMissVance;andthenhemademefeelsadderthanever。"
"Idon'tenvyhimthelifeheleadsathome,withthoseconvictionsofhis。Idon'tseewhyitwouldn'tbeastolerablethereforoldLindauhimself。"
"Well,now,"saidMrs。March,"letusputthemalloutofourmindsandseewhatwearegoingtodoourselves。"
Theybegantoconsidertheirwaysandmeans,andhowandwheretheyshouldlive,inviewofMarch'sseveranceofhisrelationswith'EveryOtherWeek。'Theyhadnotsavedanythingfromthefirstyear'ssalary;
theyhadonlypreparedtosave;andtheyhadnothingsolidbuttheirtwothousandtocountupon。ButtheybuiltafutureinwhichtheyeasilylivedonthatandonwhatMarchearnedwithhispen。Hebecameafreelance,andfoughtinwhatevercausehethoughtjust;hehadnoties,nochains。TheywentbacktoBostonwiththeheroicwilltodowhatwasmostdistasteful;theywouldhavereturnedtotheirownhouseiftheyhadnotrenteditagain;but,anyrate,Mrs。Marchhelpedoutbytakingboarders,orperhapsonlylettingroomstolodgers。Theyhadsomehardstruggles,buttheysucceeded。
"Thegreatthing,"shesaid,"istoberight。I'mtentimesashappyasifyouhadcomehomeandtoldmethatyouhadconsentedtodowhatDryfoosaskedandhehaddoubledyoursalary。"
"Idon'tthinkthatwouldhavehappenedinanyevent,"saidMarch,dryly。
"Well,nomatter。Ijustuseditforanexample。"
Theybothexperiencedabuoyantrelief,suchasseemstocometopeoplewhobeginlifeanewonwhateverterms。"Ihopeweareyoungenoughyet,Basil,"shesaid,andshewouldnothaveitwhenhesaidtheyhadoncebeenyounger。
Theyheardthechildren'sknockonthedoor;theyknockedwhentheycamehomefromschoolsothattheirmothermightletthemin。"Shallwetellthematonce?"sheasked,andrantoopenforthembeforeMarchcouldanswer。
Theywerenotalone。Fulkerson,smilingfromeartoear,waswiththem。
"IsMarchin?"heasked。
"Mr。Marchisathome,yes,"shesaidveryhaughtily。"He'sinhisstudy,"andsheledthewaythere,whilethechildrenwenttotheirrooms。
"Well,March,"Fulkersoncalledoutatsightofhim,"it'sallright!
Theoldmanhascomedown。"
"Isupposeifyougentlemenaregoingtotalkbusiness——"Mrs。Marchbegan。
"Oh,wedon'twantyoutogoaway,"saidFulkerson。"IreckonMarchhastoldyou,anyway。"
"Yes,I'vetoldher,"saidMarch。"Don'tgo,Isabel。Whatdoyoumean,Fulkerson?"
"He'sjustgoneonuphome,andhesentmeroundwithhisapologies。
Heseesnowthathehadnobusinesstospeaktoyouashedid,andhewithdrawseverything。He'd'a'comeroundhimselfifI'dsaidso,butI
toldhimIcouldmakeitallright。"
Fulkersonlookedsohappyinhavingthewholeaffairputright,andtheMarchesknewhimtobesokindlyaffectedtowardthem,thattheycouldnotrefuseforthemomenttosharehismood。Theyfeltthemselvesslippingdownfromthemoralheightwhichtheyhadgained,andMarchmadeaclutchtostayhimselfwiththequestion,"AndLindau?"
"Well,"saidFulkerson,"he'sgoingtoleaveLindautome。Youwon'thaveanythingtodowithit。I'lllettheoldfellowdowneasy。"
"Doyoumean,"askedMarch,"thatMr。Dryfoosinsistsonhisbeingdismissed?"
"Why,thereisn'tanydismissingaboutit,"Fulkersonargued。"Ifyoudon'tsendhimanymorework,hewon'tdoanymore,that'sall。Orifhecomesround,youcan——He'stobereferredtome。"
Marchshookhishead,andhiswife,withasigh,feltherselfpluckedupfromthesoftcircumstanceoftheirlives,whichshehadsunkbackintosoquickly,andsetbesidehimonthatcoldpeakofprincipleagain。
"Itwon'tdo,Fulkerson。It'sverygoodofyou,andallthat,butitcomestothesamethingintheend。IcouldhavegoneonwithoutanyapologyfromMr。Dryfoos;hetranscendedhisauthority,butthat'saminormatter。Icouldhaveexcusedittohisignoranceoflifeamonggentlemen;butIcan'tconsenttoLindau'sdismissal——itcomestothat,whetheryoudoitorIdoit,andwhetherit'sapositiveoranegativething——becauseheholdsthisopinionorthat。"
"Butdon'tyousee,"saidFulkerson,"thatit'sjustLindau'sopinionstheoldmancan'tstand?Hehasn'tgotanythingagainsthimpersonally。
Idon'tsupposethere'sanybodythatappreciatesLindauinsomewaysmorethantheoldmandoes。"
"Iunderstand。Hewantstopunishhimforhisopinions。Well,Ican'tconsenttothat,directlyorindirectly。Wedon'tprinthisopinions,andhehasaperfectrighttoholdthem,whetherMr。Dryfoosagreeswiththemornot。"
Mrs。Marchhadjudgeditdecorousforhertosaynothing,butshenowwentandsatdowninthechairnextherhusband。
"Ah,dogonit!"criedFulkerson,rumplinghishairwithbothhishands。
"WhatamItodo?Theoldmansayshe'sgottogo。"
"AndIdon'tconsenttohisgoing,"saidMarch。
"Andyouwon'tstayifhegoes。"
Fulkersonrose。"Well,well!I'vegottoseeaboutit。I'mafraidtheoldmanwon'tstandit,March;Iam,indeed。Iwishyou'dreconsider。
I——I'dtakeitasapersonalfavorifyouwould。Itleavesmeinafix。
YouseeI'vegottosidewithoneortheother。"
Marchmadenoreplytothis,excepttosay,"Yes,youmuststandbyhim,oryoumuststandbyme。"
"Well,well!Holdonawhile!I'llseeyouinthemorning。Don'ttakeanysteps——"
"Oh,therearenostepstotake,"saidMarch,withamelancholysmile。
"Thestepsarestopped;that'sall。"HesankbackintohischairwhenFulkersonwasgoneanddrewalongbreath。"Thisisprettyrough。I
thoughtwehadgotthroughit。"
"No,"saidhiswife。"ItseemsasifIhadtomakethefightalloveragain。"
"Well,it'sagoodthingit'saholywar。"
"Ican'tbearthesuspense。Whydidn'tyoutellhimoutrightyouwouldn'tgobackonanyterms?"
"Imightaswell,andgottheglory。He'llnevermoveDryfoos。I
supposewebothwouldliketogoback,ifwecould。"
"Oh,Isupposeso。"
Theycouldnotregaintheirlostexaltation,theirlostdignity。AtdinnerMrs。MarchaskedthechildrenhowtheywouldliketogobacktoBostontolive。
"Why,we'renotgoing,arewe?"askedTom,withoutenthusiasm。
"Iwasjustwonderinghowyoufeltaboutit,now,"shesaid,withanunderlookatherhusband。
"Well,ifwegoback,"saidBella,"IwanttoliveontheBackBay。It'sawfullyMickyattheSouthEnd。"
"IsupposeIshouldgotoHarvard,"saidTom,"andI'droomoutatCambridge。ItwouldbeeasiertogetatyouontheBackBay。"
Theparentssmiledruefullyateachother,and,inviewofthesegrandexpectationsofhischildren,MarchresolvedtogoasfarashecouldinmeetingDryfoos'swishes。Heproposedthetheatreasadistractionfromtheanxietiesthatheknewwerepressingequallyonhiswife。"Wemightgotothe'OldHomestead,'"hesuggested,withasadirony,whichonlyhiswifefelt。
"Ohyes,let's!"criedBella。
Whiletheyweregettingready,someonerang,andBellawenttothedoor,andthencametotellherfatherthatitwasMr。Lindau。"Hesayshewantstoseeyoujustamoment。He'sintheparlor,andhewon'tsitdown,oranything。"
"Whatcanhewant?"groanedMrs。March,fromtheircommondismay。
Marchapprehendedastormintheoldman'sface。Butheonlystoodinthemiddleoftheroom,lookingverysadandgrave。"YouareGoingoudt,"hesaid。"Iwon'tgeepyoulong。Ihafgometopringpackdosemacassinesanddismawney。Ican'tdoanymorevoarkforyou;andI
can'tgeepthemawneyyouhafbaidmea'ready。Itissnothawnestmawney——thathassbeenoarnedpyvoark;itissmawneythathasspeenmatepysbeculation,andtheobbressionofflapor,andthenecessityoftheboor,pyaman——Hereitis,eferytollar,eferyzent。Dakeit;Ifeelasifderevasploodtonit。"
"Why,Lindau,"Marchbegan,buttheoldmaninterruptedhim。
"Ton'tdalktome,Passil!Icouldnothafbelievedtitofyou。WhenyouknowhowIfeelaboutdosetings,whytidn'tyoudellmewhosemawneyyoubayoudttome?Ach,Iton'tplameyou——Iton'trebroachyou。Youhafneferthoughtofit;boatIhavethought,andIshouldbeGuilty,Imustsharethatman'sGuilt,ifIgepthissmawney。Ifyouhattoldtmeatthepeginning——ifyouhatpeenfrankwithmeboatitissallrighdt;
youcangoon;youton'tseedesetingsasIseethem;andyouhafcotafamily,andIamafreeman。Ivoarktomyself,andwhenIton'tvoark,Isdarfetomyself。But。Igeepmyhandtsglean,voarkorsdarfe。Gifhimhissmawneypack!Iamsawryforhim;Iwouldnothoarthissfeelings,boatIcouldnotpeartodouchhim,andhissmawneyisslikeboison!"
MarchtriedtoreasonwithLindau,toshowhimthefolly,theinjustice,theabsurdityofhiscourse;itendedintheirbothgettingangry,andinLindau'sgoingawayinawhirlofGermanthatincludedBasilintheguiltofthemanwhomLindaucalledhismaster。
"Well,"saidMrs。March。"Heisacrank,andIthinkyou'rewellridofhim。NowyouhavenoquarrelwiththathorridoldDryfoos,andyoucankeeprighton。"
"Yes,"saidMarch,"Iwishitdidn'tmakemefeelsosneaking。Whatalongdayit'sbeen!ItseemslikeacenturysinceIgotup。"
"Yes,athousandyears。Isthereanythingelselefttohappen?"
"Ihopenot。I'dliketogotobed。"
"Why,aren'tyougoingtothetheatre?"wailedBella,cominginuponherfather'sdesperateexpression。
"Thetheatre?Ohyes,certainly!Imeantafterwegothome,"andMarchamusedhimselfatthepuzzledcountenanceofthechild。"Comeon!
IsTomready?"
IX。
FulkersonpartedwiththeMarchesinsuchtroubleofmindthathedidnotfeelabletomeetthatnightthepeoplewhomheusuallykeptsogayatMrs。Leighton'stable。HewenttoMaroni'sforhisdinner,forthisreasonandforothersmoreobscure。HecouldnotexpecttodoanythingmorewithDryfoosatonce;heknewthatDryfoosmustfeelthathehadalreadymadeanextremeconcessiontoMarch,andhebelievedthatifhewastogetanythingmorefromhimitmustbeafterDryfooshaddined。
Buthewasnotwithoutthehope,vagueandindefiniteasitmightbe,thatheshouldfindLindauatMaroni's,andperhapsshouldgetsomeconcessionfromhim,somewordofregretorapologywhichhecouldreporttoDryfoos,andatlestmakethemeansofreopeningtheaffairwithhim;
perhapsLindau,whenheknewhowmattersstood,wouldbackdownaltogether,andforMarch'ssakewouldwithdrawfromallconnectionwith'EveryOtherWeek'himself,andsoleaveeverythingserene。Fulkersonfeltcapable,inhisdesperation,ofdelicatelysuggestingsuchacoursetoLindau,orevenofplainlyadvisingit:hedidnotcareforLindauagreatdeal,andhedidcareagreatdealforthemagazine。
ButhedidnotfindLindauatMaroni's;heonlyfoundBeaton。HesatlookingatthedoorwayasFulkersonentered,andFulkersonnaturallycameandtookaplaceathistable。SomethinginBeaton'slarge-eyedsolemnityofaspectinvitedFulkersontoconfidence,andhesaid,ashepulledhisnapkinopenandstrungit,stillalittledampasthescanty,often-washedlinenatMaroni'swasapttobe,acrosshisknees,"Iwaslookingforyouthismorning,totalkwithyouabouttheChristmasnumber,andIwasagooddealworkedupbecauseIcouldn'tfindyou;butIguessImightaswellhavesparedmyselfmyemotions。"
"Why?"askedBeaton,briefly。
"Well,Idon'tknowasthere'sgoingtobeanyChristmasnumber。"
"Why?"Beatonaskedagain。
"Rowbetweenthefinancialangelandtheliteraryeditoraboutthechieftranslatorandpolyglotsmeller。"
"Lindau?"
"Lindauishisname。"
"WhatdoestheliteraryeditorexpectafterLindau'sexpressionofhisviewslastnight?"
"Idon'tknowwhatheexpected,butthegroundhetookwiththeoldmanwasthat,asLindau'sopinionsdidn'tcharacterizehisworkonthemagazine,hewouldnotbemadetheinstrumentofpunishinghimforthemtheoldmanwantedhimturnedoff,ashecallsit。"
"Seemstobeprettygoodground,"saidBeaton,impartially,whilehespeculated,withadulltroubleatheart,ontheeffecttherowwouldhaveonhisownfortunes。Hislatevisithomehadmadehimfeelthattheclaimofhisfamilyuponhimforsomerepaymentofhelpgivencouldnotbemuchlongerdelayed;withhismothersickandhisfathergrowingold,hemustbegintodosomethingforthem,butuptothistimehehadspenthissalaryevenfasterthanhehadearnedit。WhenFulkersoncameinhewaswonderingwhetherhecouldgethimtoincreaseit,ifhethreatenedtogiveuphiswork,andhewishedthathewasenoughinlovewithMargaretVance,orevenChristineDryfoos,tomarryher,onlytoendinthesorrowfulconvictionthathewasreallyinlovewithAlmaLeighton,whohadnomoney,andwhohadapparentlynowishtobemarriedforlove,even。"Andwhatareyougoingtodoaboutit?"heasked,listlessly。
"BedoggedifIknowwhatI'mgoingtodoaboutit,"saidFulkerson。
"I'vebeenroundallday,tryingtopickupthepieces——rowbeganrightafterbreakfastthismorning——andonetimeIthoughtI'dgotthethingallputtogetheragain。IgottheoldmantosaythathehadspokentoMarchalittletooauthoritativelyaboutLindau;that,infact,heoughttohavecommunicatedhiswishesthroughme;andthathewaswillingtohavemegetridofLindau,andMarchneedn'thaveanythingtodowithit。
Ithoughtthatwasprettywhite,butMarchsaystheapologiesandregretsareallwellenoughintheirway,buttheyleavethemainquestionwheretheyfoundit。"
"Whatisthemainquestion?"Beatonasked,pouringhimselfoutsomeChianti。AshesettheflaskdownhemadethereflectionthatifhewoulddrinkwaterinsteadofChiantihecouldsendhisfatherthreedollarsaweek,onhisbackdebts,andheresolvedtodoit。
"Themainquestion,asMarchlooksatit,isthequestionofpunishingLindauforhisprivateopinions;hesaysthatifheconsentstomybouncingtheoldfellowit'sthesameasifhebouncedhim。"
"Itmighthavethatcomplexioninsomelights,"saidBeaton。HedrankoffhisChianti,andthoughthewouldhaveittwiceaweek,ormakeMaronikeepthehalf-bottlesoverforhim,andsendhisfathertwodollars。"Andwhatareyougoingtodonow?"
"That'swhatIdon'tknow,"saidFulkerson,ruefully。Afteramomenthesaid,desperately,"Beaton,you'vegotaprettygoodhead;whydon'tyousuggestsomething?"
"Whydon'tyouletMarchgo?"Beatonsuggested。
"Ah,Icouldn't,"saidFulkerson。"IgothimtobreakupinBostonandcomehere;Ilikehim;nobodyelsecouldgetthehangofthethinglikehehas;he's——afriend。"Fulkersonsaidthiswiththenearestapproachhecouldmaketoseriousness,whichwasakindofunhappiness。
Beatonshrugged。"Oh,ifyoucanaffordtohaveideals,Icongratulateyou。They'retooexpensiveforme。Then,supposeyougetridofDryfoos?"
Fulkersonlaughedforlornly。"Goon,Bildad。Liketosprinkleafewashesovermyboils?Don'tmindme!"
Theybothsatsilentalittlewhile,andthenBeatonsaid,"Isupposeyouhaven'tseenDryfoosthesecondtime?"
"No。IcameinheretogirdupmyloinswithalittledinnerbeforeI
tackledhim。ButsomethingseemstobethematterwithMaroni'scook。
Idon'twantanythingtoeat。"
"Thecooking'saboutasbadasusual,"saidBeaton。Afteramomentheadded,ironically,forhefoundFulkerson'smiseryakindofrelieffromhisown,andwaswillingtoprotractitaslongasitwasamusing,"Whynottryanenvoyextraordinaryandministerplenipotentiary?"
"Whatdoyoumean?"
"GetthatotheroldfooltogotoDryfoosforyou!"
"Whichotheroldfool?Theoldfoolsseemtobeasthickasflies。"
"ThatSouthernone。"
"ColonelWoodburn?"
"Mmmmm。"
"Hedidseemtorathertaketothecolonel!"Fulkersonmusedaloud。
"Ofcoursehedid。Woodburn,withhisidiotictalkaboutpatriarchalslavery,isthemanonhorsebacktoDryfoos'smuddyimagination。He'dlistentohimabjectly,andhe'ddowhateverWoodburntoldhimtodo。"
Beatonsmiledcynically。
Fulkersongotupandreachedforhiscoatandhat。"You'vestruckit,oldman。"Thewaitercameuptohelphimonwithhiscoat;Fulkersonslippedadollarinhishand。"Nevermindthecoat;youcangivetherestofmydinnertothepoor,Paolo。Beaton,shake!You'vesavedmylife,littleboy,thoughIdon'tthinkyoumeantit。"HetookBeaton'shandandsolemnlypressedit,andthenalmostranoutofthedoor。
TheyhadjustreachedcoffeeatMrs。Leighton'swhenhearrivedandsatdownwiththemandbegantoputsomeofthelifeofhisnewhopeintothem。Hisappetiterevived,and,afterprotestingthathewouldnottakeanythingbutcoffee,hewentbackandatesomeoftheearliercourses。
Butwiththepressureofhispurposedrivinghimforward,hedidnotconcealfromMissWoodburn,atleast,thathewaseagertogetherapartfromtherestforsomereason。Whenheaccomplishedthis,itseemedasifhehadcontriveditallhimself,butperhapshehadnotwhollycontrivedit。
"I'msogladtogetachancetospeaktoyoualone,"hesaidatonce;andwhileshewaitedforthenextwordhemadeapause,andthensaid,desperately,"Iwantyoutohelpme;andifyoucan'thelpme,there'snohelpforme。"
"Mahgoodness,"shesaid,"isthecasesobadasthat?Whatinthewoaldisthetrouble?"
"Yes,it'sabadcase,"saidFulkerson。"Iwantyourfathertohelpme。"
"Oh,Ithoatyousaidme!"
"Yes;Iwantyoutohelpmewithyourfather。IsupposeIoughttogotohimatonce,butI'malittleafraidofhim。"
"Andyouawenotafraidofme?Idon'tthinkthat'sveryflattering,Mr。
Fulkerson。YououghttothinkAh'mtwahceasawfulaspapa。"
"Oh,Ido!Yousee,I'mquiteparalyzedbeforeyou,andsoIdon'tfeelanything。"
"Well,it'saprettylahvelykyandofparalysis。But——goon。"
"Iwill——Iwill。IfIcanonlybegin。"
"PohapsAhmaghtbeginfo'you。"
"No,youcan't。Lordknows,I'dliketoletyou。Well,it'slikethis。"
Fulkersonmadeaclutchathishair,andthen,afteranotherhesitation,heabruptlylaidthewholeaffairbeforeher。HedidnotthinkitnecessarytostatetheexactnatureoftheoffenceLindauhadgivenDryfoos,forhedoubtedifshecouldgraspit,andhewasprofuseofhisexcusesfortroublingherwiththematter,andofwonderathimselfforhavingdoneso。Intheraptureofhisconcernathavingperhapsmadeafoolofhimself,heforgotwhyhehadtoldher;butsheseemedtolikehavingbeenconfidedin,andshesaid,"Well,Ahdon'tseewhatyoucandowithyou'ahdealsoffriendshipexceptstandbahMr。Mawch。"
"Myidealsoffriendship?Whatdoyoumean?"
"Oh,don'tyousupposeweknow?Mr。Beatonsaidyouwe'apofectBahyardinfriendship,andyouwouldsacrificeanythingtoit。"
"Isthatso?"saidFulkerson,thinkinghoweasilyhecouldsacrificeLindauinthiscase。Hehadneversupposedbeforethathewaschivalrousinsuchmatters,buthenowbegantoseeitinthatlight,andhewonderedthathecouldeverhaveentertainedforamomenttheideaofthrowingMarchover。
"ButAhmostsay,"MissWoodburnwenton,"Ahdon'tenvyyouyou'nextinterviewwithMr。Dryfoos。Ahsupposeyou'llhavetoseehimatonceaboatit。"
TheconjecturerecalledFulkersontotheobjectofhisconfidences。
"Ah,there'swhereyourhelpcomesin。I'veexhaustedalltheinfluenceIhavewithDryfoos——"
"Goodgracious,youdon'texpectAhcouldhaveany!"
Theybothlaughedatthecomicdismaywithwhichsheconveyedthepreposterousnotion;andFulkersonsaid,"IfIjudgedfrommyself,Ishouldexpectyoutobringhimroundinstantly。"
"Oh,thankyou,Mr。Fulkerson,"shesaid,withmockmeekness。
"Notatall。Butitisn'tDryfoosIwantyoutohelpmewith;it'syourfather。IwantyourfathertointerviewDryfoosforme,andI-I'mafraidtoaskhim。"
"Poo'Mr。Fulkerson!"shesaid,andsheinsinuatedsomethingthroughherburlesquecompassionthatliftedhimtotheskies。Hesworeinhisheartthatthewomanneverlivedwhowassowitty,sowise,sobeautiful,andsogood。"Comeraghtwithmethisminute,ifthecyoast'sclea'。"Shewenttothedoorofthediningroomandlookedinacrossitsgloomtothelittlegallerywhereherfathersatbesidealampreadinghiseveningpaper;Mrs。Leightoncouldbeheardincolloquywiththecookbelow,andAlmahadgonetoherroom。ShebeckonedFulkersonwiththehandoutstretchedbehindher,andsaid,"Goandaskhim。"
"Alone!"hepalpitated。
"Oh,whatacyowahd!"shecried,andwentwithhim。"Ahsupposeyou'llwantmetotellhimaboatit。"
"Well,Iwishyou'dbegin,MissWoodburn,"hesaid。"Thefactis,youknow,I'vebeenoveritsomuchI'mkindofsickofthething。"
MissWoodburnadvancedandputherhandonherfather'sshoulder。"Lookheah,papa!Mr。Fulkersonwantstoaskyousomething,andhewantsmetodoitfo'him。"
Thecolonellookedupthroughhisglasseswiththesortofferocityelderlymensometimeshavetoputoninordertokeeptheirglassesfromfallingoff。Hisdaughtercontinued:"He'sgotintoanawfuldifficultywithhisedito'andhisproprieto',andhewantsyoutopacifythem。"
"IdonotknowwhethahIunderstandthecaseexactly,"saidthecolonel,"butMr。Fulkersonmaycommandmetotheextentofmyability。"
"Youdon'tunderstanditaftahwhatAh'vesaid?"criedthegirl。"ThenAhdon'tseebutwhatyou'llhavetoexplainityou'self,Mr。Fulkerson。"
"Well,MissWoodburnhasbeensoluminousaboutit,colonel,"saidFulkerson,gladofthejokingshapeshehadgiventheaffair,"thatIcanonlythrowinalittleside-lighthereandthere。"
ThecolonellistenedasFulkersonwenton,withagravediplomaticsatisfaction。Hefeltgratified,honored,even,hesaid,byMr。
Fulkerson'sappealtohim;andprobablyitgavehimsomethingofthehighjoythatanaffairofhonorwouldhavebroughthiminthedayswhenhehadarrangedformeetingsbetweengentlemen。Nexttobearingachallenge,thisworkofcomposingadifficultymusthavebeengrateful。
Buthegavenooutwardsignofhissatisfactioninmakingaresumeofthecasesoastogetthepointsclearlyinhismind。
"Iwasafraid,sir,"hesaid,withthestateduetotheseriousnatureofthefacts,"thatMr。LindauhadgivenMr。Dryfoosoffencebysomeofhisquestionsatthedinner-tablelastnight。"
"Perfectredragtoabull,"Fulkersonputin;andthenhewantedtowithdrawhiswordsatthecolonel'slookofdispleasure。
"IhavenoreflectionstomakeuponMr。Landau,"ColonelWoodburncontinued,andFulkersonfeltgratefultohimforgoingon;"IdonotagreewithMr。Lindau;Itotallydisagreewithhimonsociologicalpoints;butthecourseoftheconversationhadinvitedhimtotheexpressionofhisconvictions,andhehadarighttoexpressthem,sofarastheyhadnopersonalbearing。"
"Ofcourse,"saidFulkerson,whileMissWoodburnperchedonthearmofherfather'schair。
"Atthesametime,sir,IthinkthatifMr。DryfoosfeltapersonalcensureinMr。Lindau'squestionsconcerninghissuppressionofthestrikeamonghisworkmen,hehadarighttoresentit。"
"Exactly,"Fulkersonassented。
"Butitmustbeevidenttoyou,sir,thatahigh-spiritedgentlemanlikeMr。March——Iconfessthatmyfeelingsarewithhimverywarmlyinthematter——couldnotsubmittodictationofthenatureyoudescribe。"
"Yes,Isee,"saidFulkerson;and,withthatstrangeduplexactionofthehumanmind,hewishedthatitwashishair,andnotherfather's,thatMissWoodburnwaspokingapartwiththecornerofherfan。
"Mr。Lindau,"thecolonelconcluded,"wasrightfromhispointofview,andMr。Dryfooswasequallyright。ThepositionofMr。Marchisperfectlycorrect——"
Hisdaughterdroppedtoherfeetfromhischair-arm。"Mahgoodness!
Ifnobody'sinthewrong,ho'aweyouevahgoingtogetthemattahstraight?"