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第30章

  "Youwereratherdistantthen,"Idaremarkedwithapiquantsmile.
  "ButamInow?Answermethat,"hesaidsoeagerlythatshewasagainmentallyenragedathertell-talecolor,andshesaidhastily:
  "ButwhereamItofindtheambrosiaandnectarthatyouwillexpectthisevening?"
  "Anymarketcanfurnishthecrudematerials.Itisthetouchofthehostessthattransmutesthem."
  "Alas,"saidIda,"Ineverlearnedhowtocook.IfIshouldprepareyourdinner,youwouldhaveanawfulmoodto-morrow,andprobablysendforthedoctor."
  "Iwouldneedanursemorethanadoctor."
  "Iknowofanancientwoman——aperfectMrs.Harris,"saidIda,gleefully.
  "Wouldn'tyoucomeandseemeifIwereveryill?"
  "Imightcallatthedoorandaskhowyouwere,"shereplied,hesitatingly.
  "Now,MissIda,theundertakerwoulddoasmuchasthat."
  "Ourmotivesmightdifferjustalittle,"shesaid,droppinghereyes.
  "Well,"saidtheartist,laughing,"ifyouwillpreparethedinner,I'llriskundertaker,ancientwoman,andall,ratherthanspendsuchanotherlongstupideveningasIdidlastnight.Iexpectedtomeetyouattheconcertgardenagain."
  "That'sstrange,"shesaid.
  "IshouldsayratherthatIhopedtomeetyouandyourfatherthere.
  WouldyouhavegoneifIhadaskedyou?"
  "Imight."
  "I'llsetthatdownasoneofthelostopportunitiesoflife."
  "Whydidn'tyoulistentothemusic?"
  "Well,Ididn't.IthoughtI'dinflictmystupidityonyouforawhile,andcameasfarasyourdoorstepsbeforeIrememberedthatIhadnotbeeninvited;soyouseewhatanarrowescapeyouhad."
  InspiteofherselfIdacouldnothelpappearingdisappointedasshesaid,alittlereproachfully,"Wouldafriendhavewaitedforaformalinvitation?"
  "Afrienddid,"repliedVanBergregretfully;"buthewon'tagain."
  "I'mnotsosureaboutthat;mymusicmusthavefrightenedyouaway."
  "IlisteneduntilIfearedthepolicemightthinkIhaddesignsagainstthehouse.Ididn'tknowyouwereamusician.MissMayhew,I'malwaysfindingoutsomethingnewaboutyou,andI'mgoingtoaskyouthiseveningtosingagainformeaballadthemelodyofwhichremindedmeofarunningbrook.Ittookholdonmyfancyandhasbeenrunninginmyheadeversince."
  "Oh,youwon'tlikethat;it'sasilly,sentimentallittlething.
  Idon'twonderyoupausedandretreated."
  "Spareme,MissIda;Ialreadyfeelthatitwasafaint-heartedretreat,inwhichIsufferedseriousloss.Ihaveaccountedformyselfsinceweparted;howdidYOUspendthetime?Ofcourseyouyawnedoveryourmorning'sfatigue,andtookalongnap."
  "IndeedIdidnotsleepawink.WhyshouldIbeanymoreindolentthanyourself?Ireadmostoftheafternoon,anddrummedonthepianointheevening."
  "IknowthatIlikeyourdrumming,butamnotyetsureaboutyourauthor;buthemustbeanexceedinglyinterestingone,toholdyourattentionalonghotafternoon."
  Idacoloredinsuddenembarrassment,butsaid,afteramoment:"I
  shallnotgratifyyourcuriosityanyfurther,foryouwouldlaughatmeagainifItoldyou."
  "Now,indeed,youhavepiquedmycuriosity."
  "Sinceyou,aman,admithavingsomuchofthisfeminineweakness,Iwhoamonlyawomanmaybepardonedforshowingjustalittle.
  Whatworkwasitthatsoabsorbedyouyesterdayafternoonthatyouceasedtobehumaninyourneeds?"
  "MissMayhew,youhavebeenlaughingatmeinyoursleeveeversinceyoucamethismorning.Ishalltakemyrevengeonyouatoncebyheapingcoalsoffireonyourhead,"andheturnedtowardsheralargepicture,allofwhichwasyetinoutline,saveMr.Eltinge'sbustandface.
  Idasprangdownonherkneesbeforeit,exclaiming:"O!mydear,kindoldfriend!He'sjustspeakingtome.Mr.VanBerg,I'llnowmaintainyouareageniusagainstalltheworld.Youhaveputkindness,love,fatherhoodintohisface.Youhavemadeitastrongandnoble,andyettenderandgentleasthemanhimself.I
  neverknewitwaspossibleforaportraittoexpresssomuch,"andtearsofstrong,gratefulfeelingfilledhereyes.
  Wasitsuccessinhisartorpraisefromherlipsthatgaveherlistenersuchanexquisitethrillofpleasure?Hedidnotstoptoconsider,forhewasnotinananalyticalmoodatthattime.
  Hewasonthecrestofthespiritualwavethatwassweepinghimheavenward,ortowardssomebeatificstateofwhichhehadnotdreamtbefore.Hisfaceglowedwithpleasureashesaid:
  "Sinceitpleasesyou,it'snomorethanjusticethatyoushouldknowthatyourvisitwasthecauseofmysuccess.Eitheryourlaughoryourkindpartingwordsbrushedthecobwebsfrommymind,andIwasabletodobetterworkinafewhoursthanImighthaveaccomplishedinweeks."
  Shetriedtolookatthepicturemoreclosely,butfast-comingtearsblindedher.Thensherose,andavertingherfacehastily,wipedhereyes,asshesaidinalowtone:"Ican'tunderstanditatall,andthememoryofMr.Eltinge'skindnessalwaysovercomesme.Pleasepardonmyweakness.There,Iwon'twasteanymoreofyourtime,"andshereturnedtoherchair.ButherfacestillworetheuncertaintyofanAprilday.
  "YouraffectionforMr.Eltinge,"hesaidgently,"isasbeautifulasitisnatural.Nomanifestationofitneedsanyapology,andleastofalltome,forIowetohimfarmorethanlife.ButIampainingyoubyrecallingthepast,"hesaidregretfully,asIda'stearsbegantogatheragain."Letmetrytomakeamendsbyreturningatoncetothepresentandtomywork.BeforeIgoonanyfartherwithyourportraitIwantyoutoputthisrose-budinyourhair,"
  andfromahiddennookhebroughtalittlevasecontainingonlyoneexquisitebud.Idahadbarelytimetoseethatitwasincolorandsizepreciselyliketheemblemofherselfthathehadthrownaway,andforafewminutessheutterlylostherself-control.Sheburiedherfaceinherhands,andherlow,stifledsobsfilledVanBergwiththekeenestdistressandperplexity.
  "MissIda,"hesaidearnestly,"Iwouldrathereverytearyouaresheddingwereadropofmyblood,"buthiswordsonlymadethemflowfasterstill.
  Suddenlyshesprangup,andturningherbackuponhim,dashedawayhertearsalmostfiercely."Oh!thisisshameful!"sheexclaimed,inlow,indignanttones."Mr.VanBerg,whatmustyouthinkofme?PleaseturnMr.Eltinge'sfaceaway,forheislookingatmejustashedidwhenmyheartwasbreaking,and——and——I'velostmyself-control,andIhadbetternotcomeheretillIcanceasebeingsoweakandfoolish."
  "Isitweaktobegrateful?"heasked,gently."Isitfoolishtoloveonesothoroughlyentitledtoyourlove?IhonoryouforyourdeepandtenderaffectionforMr.Eltinge,andeverytearyouhaveshedprovestomethatinthisperfectflowerIamnowfindingthetrueemblemofyourself."
  "No,"shesaid,almostpassionately,"Ihavenorighttoit.Theotheronethatyouthrewawayistrueofme,andalwayswillbe.
  Thisbutmocksmewithitsperfection.IwouldbeahypocriteifIshouldputitinmyhair,andsmilecomplacentlywhileyoupaintedit.Myheartclingstotheotheremblem,andIknowImustdevelopasbestIcan,asthatwouldhavedoneafteritsdestroyerwastakenaway.No,Mr.VanBerg.Ihaveseenmyselfinthestrong,sharplightoftruth.Ifyouarewillingtobemyfriend,pleasebeanhonestone.Myfaithfuloldfriendinthecountrywouldscarcelytakemyportraitifthisperfectflowerwereintroducedwithanysuchmeaningasyouattachtoit,andIcertainlywouldbeashamedtogiveittohim.Mr.Vanberg,weMUSTletbygonesbybygones,orwenevercangeton.SeehowabsurdlyIhaveactedbothyesterdayandto-day,andallthroughrecallingthepast.
  Indeed,indeed,itwillneverdoformetocomehereagain,andifyoucanmakesuchamarvellouslikenessofMr.Eltingeasyouhave,Iscarcelythinktherewillbeanyneed."
  "MysuccesswithMr.Eltinge'sportraitistheresultofafewhappystrokesthatImightnotbeabletogiveagainifItriedayear.
  Believeme,MissMayhew,Inotonlywishtobeanhonestfriend,butaveryconsiderateone.Ipromisenevertourgeyoutodoanythingthatwillcauseyoupain.Icanunderstandhowthefeaturesofyourkindfriendhavetouchedthetenderestchordsofyourheart,andIrespectyourstudyfidelitytoyourconscienceinrefusingtoletmepaintthisbudinyourhair;butyoumustalsodomethejusticetobelievethatImeantnohollowcomplimentwhenIsearchedforitamongtheflorists.MustIthrowthisoneaway,too?"heasked,withaglancethatwasveryardentforafriend;"forsinceIobtaineditforyou,itmustreceiveitsfateatyourhandsonly."
  "I'llwearit,simplyasyourgift,withpleasure,"andshefasteneditinherbreastpin,sothatitscrimsonblushrestedagainstthesnowywhitenessofherneck.
  Helookedherfullintheeyesandsaid,withlow,sademphasis:
  "Idonotdeservesuchrespect."Thentheknowledgethatshewasharboringapurposewhichtroubledherconscience,butwhichshecouldnotabandon,becamethecauseofatraceofheroldrecklessnessofmanner.Sheassumedasuddengayety,asifshehadsteppedoutofshadowsintotoostrongalight,asshesaid:
  "Mr.VanBerg,youmaywellhesitatetobringtheappetiteyousayhadlastnighttoourhousethisevening,andifIstayamomentlonger,youwillgetnodinneratall.Ihavenotbeenafterthecrudematerial——asyoucallit——yet,andI'mtoldthatthereisnotamanlivingsoamiableandphilosophical,butthatapoordinnerprovokesmartyr-likeexpression,ifnothingworse;"andwithasmileandapiquancyofmannerthatseemedpeculiarlybrilliantagainstthebackgroundofherdeepandrepressedfeeling,sheagainlefthim.
  Hetriedtoreturntohiswork,butfoundhimselfoncemorepossessedbythedemonofunrestandimpatience.Thespiritualwavethathadbeenliftinghimhigherandhigherwaschangingitscharacterandbecomingasmoothlyglidingcurrent.Itwassoirresistiblethatheneverthoughtofresisting."Whyshouldheresist?"heaskedhimself.CircumstanceshadinterestedhiminthisrareUndinebeforeshereceivedawoman'ssoul;circumstanceshadentangledhislifeandhersinwhathadalmostbeenanawfultragedy;andnowcircumstances,orsomethingfarbeyond,wereswiftlydevelopingbeforehiseyesaspirituallovelinessthatwasthecounterpartofheroutwardbeauty,andheassuredhimselfthatitwouldbethegreatestfollyofhislifetoloseatraceoftheexquisiteprocessthathemightbeprivilegedtosee.WhatartistorpoethasnotpicturedhimselfthefairfaceofEveasGodfirstbreathedintoherperfectclaythebreathoflife,orhasnot,inimagination,seentheclosedeyesopeninginsurpriseandintelligenceorkindlingwiththelightoflove?AndyetthechangeinIdaMayhewseemedtoVanBergfarmorewonderfulandinteresting;andtohisfancyif,insteadoflyinginthebeautyofherbreathless,statuesquepreparationforlife,Evehadbeenpossessedbyalegionofdistortingimps,shewouldhavebeenthetypeofthemaidenhefirsthadrecognized.Buthehadseentheseevilspiritsexorcised,andintheirplacewascominganoble,womanlysoul——sweet,tender,andstrong——andtheperfectformandfeaturesseemedbutatransparentmould,acrystalvaseintowhichheavenwaspouringanewanddivinelife.Whyshouldhenotlongtoescapefromthedustymatter-of-factworldandwitnessthisspiritualrepetitionofthemostbeautifulstoryofthepast?ThushisphilosophicalmindwasableoncemoretoreasonthewholematteroutclearlyandprovethathiswishtoannihilatetheinterveninghoursbeforehecoulddaretopresenthimselftoIdaMayhew,wasthemostnaturalandproperdesireimaginable.HeconcludedthatawalkthroughCentralParkmightbanishhisdisquietude,andleavetimeforacarefultoilet,sinceforsomeoccultreasontheoccasionseemedtohimtorequireunusualpreparation.
  HeknewhewasunfashionablyearlywhenherangMr.Mayhew'sdoor-bell,buthehadfounditimpossibletocurbhisimpatiencetoseeinwhatnewaspectIdawouldpresentherselfthatevening.
  Ahundredtimeshehadqueriedhowshewouldappearinherownhome,howshewouldpresideashostess,andwhetherthetasteofthefloridandfashionablemotherwouldnotbesoapparentastoannoyhimlikeabadtoneinthepicture.yes,thatwasMrs.Mayhew'sparlorintowhichhewasshown.Itdidnotsuggestthemaidenwhohadcometovisit,northequiet,dignifiedgentlemanMr.Mayhewwasseentobewhenatthetouchoflove'swandadegradingvicefellawayfromhim.Buttheartistcouldfindnofaultwiththehostwhogreetedhimpromptly,andwhen,afewmomentslater,therewasabreezyrustleonthestairsandheturnedtogreethishostess,hisfaceflushedwithadmirationandpleasure.Itbecameevidentthattheworshipperofbeautywasinthepresenceofhisdivinity,andhiseveryglanceburnedincensetoherhonor.Shehadtwinedafewrose-leavesinherhair,butworenootherornamentsavetherosehehadgivenherinthemorning,whichevidentlyhadbeenkeptcarefullyfortheoccasion,foritwasunchanged,withtheexceptionthatitrevealeditsheartalittlemoreopenly,asdidIdaherself.Andyetshedidherbesttoinsurethathermannershouldbenomorecordialthanhercharacterofhostessdemanded.
  Butinspiteofallshecoulddo,thelightofexultationandintensejoywouldflashintohereyesandtrembleinhertonesthatevening.AmaidenwouldhavebeenblindindeedhadshenotbeenabletoreadtheriddleofVanBerg'sardentfriendshipnow,andIdahadseenthatexpressiontoooftennottoknowitsmeaningwell.Inthemorningshehadstronglyhoped,nowshebelieved.
  Shenolongerwalkedbyfaithbutinfullvision,andshetrodwiththegraceofaqueenwhoknowsherpowerintherealmthatwomanlovesbest.Theglowofhereyes,herrepressedexcitement,thatvitalizedeverythingshesaidordid,mystifiedwhiletheycharmedherguest."Shehasbecometruetonature,"hethought,"andlikenatureisfullofmysteriouschanges,forwhichweknownotthecause.Atonetimeitisasharpnorthwind,againthesouthwind.
  Thismorningtherewasasuddenshoweroftears,andbeforeitwasoverthesunlightofsmilesflashedthroughthem.NowsheappearslikeaJunemorning,andIpraytheweatherholds."
  "Oh,"thoughtIda,inthewild,madgleeofherheart,"howcanI
  behavemyselfandlookinnocentandunconscious,seeingwhatIdo?
  Heismyverygoodfriendishe?Iwishforonlyonesuchfriendintheworld.Itwouldn'tbepropertohaveanother.Oh,butisn'titrichtoseehowunconsciousheisofhimself!Heispassingintoanexceedinglyacuteattackofmyowncomplaint,andthepoormandoesn'tknowwhatisthematter.Idon'tbelieveheeverlookedatJennieBurtonashelooksatme.Ah,JennieBurton!"Thejoyousnesssuddenlyfadedoutofherfaceandshesigheddeeply.
  ItseemedtoVanBergforatimethathisJunemorningmightbecomecloudedafterall,butwhilehisfacewasturnedtowardsherwiththeexpressionitnowworenosadthoughtsormisgivingscouldshadowIdaverylong.
  ChapterL.SweptAway.
  TherewasnovulgarprofusioninthedinnerwhichIdahadordered,norwereitscoursesinterminable;andasshegracefullyandquietlydirectedeverything,thethoughtwouldkeepinsinuatingitselfinVanBerg'smind,thatthehomeoverwhichshemighteventuallypresidewouldbeanearsuburbofParadise.HeheartilysecondedIda'spurposethatherfathershouldtakepartintheirconversation,anditwasanotherdeepsourceofhergladnessthattheonewhomshehadseensodepressedanddespairing,nowlookedasshewouldalwayswishhimtoappear."Oh,it'stoogoodtolast,"shesighed,asherheartfairlyachedwithitsexcessofjoy.
  AfterdinnerMr.MayhewaskedVanBergtolightacigarwithhiminhisstudy,buttheartistdeclinedandfollowedIdatotheparlor.
  "Mr.VanBerg,"shesaid,withagreatshowofsurprise,"howisityoudon'tsmokethisevening?ItseemedtomethatyouandCousinIkweredrawntoacertaincornerofMr.Burleigh'spiazzawiththecertaintyofgravitationafterdinner,andthenyouwerelostintheclouds."
  "OnthisoccasionIhavetakenmychoiceofpleasuresandhavefollowedyou."
  "Thisisaproudmomentforme,"shesaid,withamirthfultwinkleinhereyes."Ineverexpectedtorivalagentleman'scigar,andIdon'tthinkIeverdidbefore."
  "Anotherproofofmyfriendship,MissIda."
  "Yes,"shereplieddemurely,"anactlikethisgoesagoodwaytowardsmakingmebelieveyouaresincere."
  "MissIda,youarealwayslaughingatme.IwishIcouldfindsomewaytogetevenwithyou,andIwilltoo."
  "Youdomeinjustice.I,inturn,willlayanofferingonthealtaroffriendshipandwillgowithyouthiseveningtotheconcertgarden."
  "Ithinkyouexceedingly,butwillleavetheofferingonthealtar,ifyouwillpermitme.Iwouldmuchratherremaininyourparlor."
  "Why,Mr.VanBerg,youarebentonbeingamartyrformysakethisevening."
  "Yes,whollybentuponit."
  "Howamiablegentlemenareafterdinner!"sheexclaimed."Butwherewasyourappetitethisevening?ClearlyourcookknowsnothingofthepreparationofambrosianorIofnectar,althoughImadethecoffeemyself."
  "Didyou?Thataccountsforitsdivineflavor.Don'tyourememberItooktwocups?"
  "Isawthatyourpolitenessledyoutosendmeyourcupasecondtime.Isupposeyouaccomplishedavastdealagainto-dayafteryouwereoncefinallyridofanembodimentofAprilweather?"
  "IwouldloseyourrespectaltogetherifIshouldtellyouhowI
  havespenttheafternoon.Youwouldthinkmeanabsurdjumbleofmoodsandtenses.Imayaswellownup,Isuppose.Ihavedonenothingbutkilltime,andtothatendItookawalkthroughCentralPark."
  "Thishotafternoon!Mr.VanBerg,whatpossessedyou?"
  "Ademonofimpatience.ItseemedasifoldJoshuahadcommandedthesuntostandstillagain."
  "Youmustindeedbyagenius,Mr.VanBerg,forI'vealwaysheardthatthepeculiarlygiftedwerefullofunaccountablemoods."
  "Iunderstandthesatireofyourexpression'PECULIARLYgifted,'
  butmyturnwillcomebeforetheeveningisover,"andheleanedluxuriouslybackagainstthesofacushionwithalookofinfinitecontentwiththeprospectbeforehim."Blessme,whatisthisoverwhichIhavehalfbrokenmyback,"heexclaimed,andhedraggedoutofitspartialconcealmentahugevolume.
  "Pleaseletmetakethatoutofyourway,"saidIda,steppinghastilyforwardwithcrimsoncheeks.
  "Don'ttroubleyourself,MissMayhew;fortuneisfavoringmeoncemore,andIamonthepointofdiscoveringthefavoriteauthoryouwouldnotmentionthismorning.Anencyclopedia,asIlive!fromAtoB,withahair-pininsertedsharplyatthewordAmsterdam.
  Really,MissIda,Ican'taccountforyourabsorbinginterestinAmsterdam."
  "Mr.VanBerg,thereisnouseintryingtohideanythingfromyou.
  YoufindmeouteverytimeandI'mreallygrowingsuperstitiousaboutit."
  "Iwishyourwordsweretrue;but,forthelifeofme,Ican'tunderstandwhyyoushouldcraveencyclopaediasasAugustreading,norcanIseetheremotestconnectionbetweentheexquisitecolorofyourfaceandtheoldDutchcityofAmsterdam."
  "Well,theFatesareagainstmeoncemore.WhyIleftthatbookthereIdon'tknow,forI'mnotusuallysocareless.Mr.VanBerg,Iscarcelyneedtoremindyouofafactthatyoudiscoveredlongago——Idon'tknowanything.Doyounotrememberhowyoutriedtotalkwithmeoneevening?Youtouchedonalmostasmanysubjectsasthathugevolumecontains,andmyfaceremainedasvacantthroughthemallastheblankpagesinthatbookbeforetheprintedmatterbegins."
  "Butnow,MissIda,yourfaceistomelikethisbookaftertheprintedmatterbegins,onlyIreadtherethatwhichinterestsmefarmorethananythingwhichthisbulkytomecontains,evenunderthewordAmsterdam."
  "Youimaginefarmorethanyousee.Ithinkartistsarelikepoets,andaregiventogreatflights.Besides,youarebecomingversedinmysmalltalk.WhenyoutrieditontheeveningIreferredto,youwerejustatrifleponderous."
  "Yes,Icannowseemyselfperforminglikealameelephant.Didyouproposetoreadthisencyclopaediaentirelythrough?"
  "Imighthaveskippedartasasubjectfartoodeepforme."
  "Whenyoucometothatletmetaketheplaceoftheencyclopaedia.
  Iwillsitjustherewhereyoukeepyourbookandgiveyouaseriesoffamiliarlectures."
  "Ineverenjoyedbeinglectured,sir!"
  "ThenI'llteachyouaftertheSocraticmethod,andaskyouquestions."
  "Ifearsomeofthemmightbetoopersonal.Youhavesuchamaniaforsolvingeverything."
  "AnddidyoufearthatatsomeofthemanysittingsIshallneedthisfallImightagainbroacheverysubjectunderthesun,andsoyouwereledtoreadanencyclopaediatobeprepared?"
  "IsthatwhatyoumeanbytheSocraticmethod?Ideclineanylessonsconcerningartoranythingelseonthatplan,foryouwouldfindouteverything."
  "Ishall,anyway.HowlongagoitseemssincewetookthatstupidwalktogetheronMr.Burleigh'spiazza!Wearenearertogethernow,MissIda,thanwewerethen."
  "Oh!no,indeed,"sherepliedquickly;"Ihadyourarmonthatoccasion."
  "Butyouhavemysincerefriendshipandrespectnow.Ican'ttellyouhowpleasedIwaswhenIsawhowyouhadhonoredthelittleemblematicflowerIgaveyouthismorning.Thatyouwearitto-nightasyouronlyornamentgivesmehopethatyoudovaluemyrespectandregard."
  "IthinkIhadbetterlettherose-budansweryou,andIconfessIliketothinkhowperfectitiswhenIrememberthemeaningyougavetoit,thoughhowyoucanrespectmeatallIcannotunderstand.
  Still,Iamlikefather——nexttoGod'sfavortherespectofthoseIesteemdoesmosttosustainandreassureme.But,oh!Mr.VanBerg,youcan'tknowwhatanhonestsenseofill-desertIhave.Itissohardjusttodoright,nomatterwhattheconsequencesmaybe."
  "ThetroublewithmeisthatIamnottryingasyouare.ButI
  know,withabsolutecertainty,thatthestrongestimpulseoftruefriendship,oratleastofmine,inthisinstance,istorendersomeservicetomyfriend.YouwillmakemeveryhappyifyouwilltellmesomethingIcandoforyou."
  "Youarehelpingmeverymuchinyourmannertowardsfather,andIdothankyoufromtheverydepthsofmyheart.Innowaycouldyouhavewonfrommeadeepergratitude.And——well——yourkindnessalmosttemptsmetoaskforanotherfavor,Mr.VanBerg."
  Hesprangtohersideandtookherhand.
  Quicklywithdrawingit,shesaidwithalittledecisivenode:"Youmustsitdownandsitstill,forIhavealong,tiresomestorytotell,andaveryprosaicfavortoask;"forshehadresolved,"heshallgoforwardnowwithhiseyesopen,andheshallneversayI
  wonhimbyseemingwhatIwasnot.IfIcan'tdealrightbyJennieBurton,Iwillbyhim."
  "Ishallfindnoserviceprosaic;see,I'mallattention,"andhedidlookveryeagerindeed.
  "Thatencyclopaediasuggestsmystory,andImayhavetoreferincidentallytomyself."
  "Leavethebookout;I'lllistenforages."
  "Ishouldbeoutofbreathbeforethat.Mr.VanBerg,I'minearnest;
  Idon'tknowanythingworthknowing.Mylifehasbeenworsethanwasted,andtheonlytwothingsIunderstandwellaredancingandflirting.NowIknowyouaredisgusted,butitsthetruth.Myold,fashionablelifeseemstomelikethetawdryscenesofasecond-ratetheatre,whereeverythingisforeffectandnothingisreal.I
  havehostsofacquaintances,butIhaven'tanyfriendsexceptMr.
  Eltinge."
  "AndHaroldVanBerg,"putintheartist,promptly.
  "It'sgoodofyoutosaythataftersuchconfessions,"shecontinued,withashyglance."Ihopeitwasn'toutofpoliteness.Well,I'vewakedupatlast.Ithinkyoufirststartledmeoutofmyinsufferablestupidityandsillinessattheconcertgarden,andI'mverymuchobligedtoyoufortheremarkyoumadetoCousinIkonthatoccasion."
  "Yes,Iremember,"VanBerggroaned."IwakedyouupasifIweretryingtoputyourshoulderoutofjoint.Well,I'mwakingupalso."
  "YouhavenoideawhataperfectshamofalifeIled,"andshetoldhimfranklyofherwastedschooldaysandofhertripabroad,forwhichshehadnopreparationofmindorcharacter."Abutterflymighthaveflownoverthesamegroundandcomebackjustaswise,"
  shesaid."ButIhavesuddenlyenteredanewworldoftruthandduty,andIambewildered;Iamanxioustofitmyselfforthesocietyofsensible,cultivatedpeople,andIamdiscouragedbythetaskbeforeme.Iwenttofather'slibraryyesterdayandwasperfectlyappalledbythenumberofbooksandsubjectsthatIknownothingabout.ThefactthatIstumbledintothatencyclopaedia,whichgaveyouthelaughagainstme,showshowhelplessIam.
  Indeed,I'mlikealittlechildtryingtofinditswaythroughawildernessofknowledge.IblunderedonasfarasAmsterdam,andthereIstoppedindespair.Ididn'tknowwhatwasbeforeme,andIwasgettingeverythingIhadbeenoverconfusedandmixedupinmymind.Andnow,Mr.VanBerg,withyourthorougheducationandwideexperienceyoucantellmewhattoreadandhowtoread."
  VanBerg'sfacewasfairlyalivewithinterest,andhesaideagerly:
  "Thefavoryouasksuggestsafargreateroneonmypart.Letmegowithyouthroughthiswildernessofknowledge.Wecantakeupcoursesofreadingtogether."
  AtthismomentMr.Mayhewentered,andtheartisthesitatedtogoonwithhisfar-reachingoffers,and,indeed,hesuddenlybegantorealize,withsomeembarrassment,howmuchtheydidinvolve.
  ButIdamaintainedherpresenceofmind,andsaid,simply:"Thatwouldbeimpossible,thoughnodoubtexceedinglyhelpfultome.
  Here,asintheinstanceofthepictures,yourgood-natureandkindnesscarryyoufarbeyondwhatIeverdreamedofasking.I
  merelythoughtthatinsomeofyourmomentsofleisureyoucouldjotdownsomebooksandsubjectsthatwouldbethesameasifyouhadpointedoutsmoothandshadypaths.Yousee,inmyignorance,I'vetriedtopushmywaythroughthewildernessstraightacrosseverything.LasteveningIpesteredmyfatherwithsomanyquestionsaboutpoliticsandthetopicsoftheday,thathethoughtIhadlostmywits."
  Mr.Mayhewleanedbackinhischairandlaughedheartily,ashementallyejaculated:"Welldone,littlegirl!"
  "Iwillbrushupmyliteraryideas,anddothebestIcan,verygladly,"saidVanBerg."Butyougreatlyunderrateyourselfandoverratemyability.Iamstillbutontheedgeofthiswildernessofknowledgemyself,andincrossingawildernessonelikescompany."
  "Oh,Icouldneverkeepupwithyourmanlystrides,"saidIda,withasuddentrilloflaughter."Havingsecuredmywish,Ishallnowrewardyouwithsomeverypoormusic,whichwillsuggestmyneedoflessonsinthatdirectionalso."
  VanBergwasnotlongindiscoveringthatshewouldneverbecomeagreatmusician,nomatterhowmanylessonsshehad.Butsheplayedwithtasteandagracefulrhythm,whichprovedthatmusicinitssimplestformsmightbecomealanguagebywhichshecouldexpressherthoughtandfeeling.
  "Ida,"saidMr.Mayhew,alittleabruptly,"Iwishtoseeafriendattheclub.I'llbebackbeforetheeveningisover."
  "Pleasedon'tstaylong,"Idaanswered,lookingwistfullyafterhim.
  Thentheyfoundsomeballad-musicthattheycouldsingtogether,andVanBergexpressedgreatpleasureinfindinghowwelltheirvoicesblended.
  "Youhavemodestlykeptquiteallsummer,andIamjustfindingoutthatyouplayandsing,"hesaid.