Butthemaidenherself——whydidhiseyesturnsooftentoher,andwhydidhe,unasked,introduceherintothesketchwithacareandlingeringdelicacyoftouchthatmadeevenherpencilledimageseemalivinggirl?Whennotaffectedorrenderedconventionalbysociety,hervoicewassingularlygirlishandnatural,andtherewouldoftenbeatoneinaplaintiveandminorkeythatvibratedlikealow,sweetchordinhisheartratherthaninhisears.Itmustbeadmittedthathegavelittleheedtothesacredwordssheread;buttheflexiblemusicofhervoice,mingledwiththemurmurofthebrook,therustleoftheleavesandtheoccasionalsongofabird,allcombinedtoformthesweetestsymphonyhehadeverheard.
Asanartistheexulted.Hishandhadnotlostitscunning,andhisrulingpassion,whichthestrangeexperiencesofthepastfewweekshadheldinabeyance,wasreassertingitselfwithafuller,richerpowerthanhehadknownbefore.ThatWASIdaMayhew'sfacethatwasgrowingbeautifulandfullofhernewandbetterlifeunderhisappreciativeandskilfultouch,andtheconsciousnessofsuccessinthekindofeffortinwhichsuccessmeanttohimsomuch,filledhimwithastrongenthusiasm.
OnceortwiceIdaglancedshylyathim,andhisappearancedidnottendtofixherthoughtswhollyonthesacredtext.
AtlastMr.Eltingesaid:"Thatwilldoforto-day.Ithink,underthecircumstances,youhavegivenmostpraiseworthyattentiontowhatyouhaveread,andtowhatlittleIcouldsayinthewayofexplanation.Nowforthepicture,andIconfessI'maseagerasachildtoseeit;"andtheycameandlookedoverVanBerg'sshoulder.
AlmostinstantlyIdaclappedherhands,exclaimingwithdelight:
"Thetreeisperfect,andoh,Mr.Eltinge,Ishallalwayshaveyounow,withyourdearkindfaceturnedtowardsmeasIhaveseenitto-day!"Suddenlyhermannerchanged,andinatonefullofdisappointmentsheadded,"Oh,Mr.VanBerg,howcouldyouspoilmypicture?Youhaveputmeinit."
"Certainly,"hereplieddemurely,"youwereapartofthepicture."
"Notanecessarypart.Ididnotaskyoutodothat,"sheanswered,inawaythatprovedherfeelingswerehurt.
"Iamwillingtodomorethanyouask,andifyouinsistonitI
willeffaceyourimage,althoughIshouldmuchregrettodoso."
"Iprotestagainstthat,"criedMr.Eltinge."Sofarfromspoilingthepicture,yourbeingtheremakesitinvaluabletome.I'mgoingtotaxMr.VanBerg'sgenerosity,andaskforthisinthehopethathewillmakeanotherdrawingoftheoldmanandthetreeonly,foryou."
"Wouldyouliketohaveitsoverymuch?"saidIda,muchpleasedwiththisarrangement.
"Yes,mydear,verymuchindeed,andI'llplaceitnearmyfavoritechimneycorner,whereIcanseeyouallwinter.Mr.VanBerg,Icongratulateyou;I'mnotmuchofajudgeofart,butthisismylittlefriendhere,truetolife.YouhavebeenveryhappyincatchingtheexpressionwhichIamlearningtoknowsowell."
"Yourwordshaveafullermeaningthanyouthink,"repliedtheartist,heartily."Ihaveindeedbeenveryhappyinmywork.I
neverenjoyedamorningmoreinmylife."
"ButI'mtogohomewithoutanypicture,"saidIda,tryingtohideherpleasurebyassumedreproachfulness.
"Thereisnopictureyet,foranyone,"heanswered,"thisisonlyasketchfromwhichIshalltrytomaketwopicturesthatwillsuggestasceneparticularlyattractivetooneofmycalling,tosaytheleast."
Asheplacedthesketchinhisbook,theworkhehadbeenengagedonthatmorningwhenIdamethimbytheroadside,droppedout,andshesawherselfleaningonthebalusterrailofthestaircase,withherhandhalfextendedasatokenofforgivenessandreconciliation.
Hercheeksflushedinstantly,butshewasabletoremarkquietly:
"Isupposethatisthewayyouartistskeepamemorandumofcurrentevents."
Herepliedgravely,butwithsomeansweringcoloralso:"Yes,MissMayhew,whenthecurrentisdeepandstrong."
VanBergfelthimselfhappyinsecuringfromMr.Eltingeaninvitationtocomeagain.Astheywereridinghome,Idaremarked,shyly:
"Ididnotknowyoucoulddrawsowell."
"NordidIeitherbefore.Thatoldgardenisenchantedground."
"Yes,"saidIda,"poorEvewasdrivenoutoftheGardenofEden,butIfeelasifIhadfoundmywayintoit.IonlywishIcouldstaythere,"andhersighwaslonganddeep.
"Doestheworldoutsideseemveryfullofthornsandthistles?"heasked,kindly.
Afteramomentshereplied,simplyandbriefly,"Yes."
Helookedathersympatheticallyforamoment,andthensaidearnestly:
"MissIda,pardonmeifIventureaprediction.Whereveryoudwell,hereafter,allthatisgoodandbeautifulinlifeandcharacterwhichthegardentypifieswillbegintotaketheplaceofthornsandthistles."
"Ihopeso,"shefaltered,"butthatinvolvesbleedinghands,Mr.
VanBerg.Iamnotcastinheroicmould.Iamweakandwavering,andasaproofIamdwellingontheverysubjectthatIhadforbidden.
Itrustthatyouwillbetoomanlytotakeadvantageofmyweaknesshenceforthandwilltrytohelpmeforgetmyself."
"Thatmaybeahardertaskthanyouthink,butIwillattemptwhateveryouask,"andfromherpleasedandinterestedexpressionitwouldseemthatduringthenexthalfhourhesucceededremarkablywell.Suddenly,asifahappythoughthadstruckhim,hesaidalittleabruptly:
"IforeseethatyouandMissBurtonaredestinedtobecomegreatfriends.Youhavenotyetlearnedwhatalovelycharactershepossessesandhowbroadanddeeparehersympathies."
Ida'ssilencecausedhimtoturnandlookather,andhesawthatthelightandcolorhadfadedfromherface,butshesaid,emphatically:
"MissBurtonisevenmoreadmirablethanyouthinkhertobe,ifthatwerepossible."
"Iampleasedtohearoneladyspeaksostronglyandgenerouslyofanother.Itisnotusual.Ishalldomyutmosttomakeyoubetteracquaintedwitheachother,andinthispleasanttaskamsureI
shallrenderyouaverygreatservice."
"Mr.VanBerg,Ibegyouwillnot,"sheexclaimed,hastily,andhesawwithsurprisethatsheappearedpainfullyembarrassed.
"Pardonme,MissMayhew,"hesaid;"Ididnotmeantobeofficious."
Idasawnowayofextricatingherselfsavebypromptlychangingthesubject,andthisshedid;butshecouldnotfailtoobservethathercompanionwashurtbyherapparentunfriendlinesstowardsoneonwhomhebelievedhehadbestowedthebestamancouldgive.Theremainderofthedrivewasnotenjoyedbyeitherofthemastheearlierparthadbeen,andsomethinglikeconstrainttingedthemannerandwordsofboth.
AstheydroveuptothehotelStantongavealowwhistleofsurprise,butwasinnomoodforhisold-timebanter.
ChapterXLV.ProblemsBeyondArt.
WhenVanBergleftthegardenhethoughthehadlearnedtounderstandIdaalmostasclearlyashesawthepebblybedofthelittlebrookthroughthelimpidcurrentthatflowedoverit,andyetwithinabriefhalf-houranotherbafflingmysteryhadarisen.WhydidshedislikeJennieBurton?WhysheHADdislikedherwasplain,butitseemedtofollowinevitablythatonewhocouldloveoldMr.Eltingemustalsofindacongenialfriendinthewomanhesogreatlyadmired.
Astheremainderofthedaypassed,thisnewclouddarkenedandseemedtoshadowevenhimself.Whilehecoulddetectnoflawinhercourtesy,hecouldnothelpfeelingthatshemadeaconsciousefforttoavoidthemboth.Atdinnersheconversedchieflywithhercousin.VanBerg'seyeswouldwanderoftentoherface,butsheneverlookedtowardshimunlesshespoketoher.WhenheorMissBurtonaddressedhertherewasnotatraceofcoldnessinhermannerofresponding;asuperficialobserverwouldmerelythinktheywerepeopleinwhomshewasnotespeciallyinterested.
"Poorchild,"thoughtJennieBurton,"sheactsherpartwell,"andshepuzzledtheartiststillfurtherbytakinglessnoticeofIdathanusual.
"ButwhenIthinkofit,"hemused,"it'sjustlikemyuniquelittlefriend.Onlythoseintroubleinteresther,andMissMayhewisonastraightroadtohappinessnow,shebelieves,althoughtheyoungladyherselfseemstodreadaworldfullofthornsandthistles,andherfatherandmother,atleast,willinsureanabundanceofbothinherownhome.ButherrepulsionfromMissBurton,theveryonetowardswhomIsupposedshewouldbeattractedinhernewlife,iswhatperplexesmemost.Iimagineallwomenaremysterieswhenyoucometoscrutinizetheirmotivesandimpulsesclosely.Thetwowhohaveoccupiedmythoughtsthissummercertainlyare,andI'llsticktopaintingifIevergetoutofthismuddle."
AfterdinnerhefoundachancetoaskStantonifMr.Mayhewwasexpectedthatevening.
"Yes,"wasthereply."InmemoryoflastSundayhewrotehewouldnotcome,butIdasentatelegramaskinghimtobeherewithoutfail.Itookitovertothestationforher,andmadesurethatmyunclereceivedit.Shewillpuzzlehimmorethanshehastherestofus,Isuppose,andIamquitecurioustoseetheresult."
Theartistmadenoreply,butwenttohisroomandtriedtoworkonhispictures.Hewasmorethancurious——hewasdeeplyinterested,butfeltthathewastrenchingondelicateground.Therelationsbetweenthefatheranddaughterweretoosacred,hebelieved,forevensympatheticobservationonhispart.
Hesoonthrewasidehiswork.Theinspirationofthemorningwasallgone,andinitsplacehadcomeanunaccountabledissatisfactionwithhimselfandtheworldingeneral.Hehadleftthegardenwithasenseofexhilarationthatmadelifeappearbeautifulandfullofrichestpromise.Hehadbeensavedfromdisasterthatwouldhavebeencrushing;hisobjectincomingtothecountryhadbeenaccomplished,andtheUndinehediscoveredHADreceivedawoman'ssoulthatwasblendingtheperfectbutdiscordantfeaturesintoanexquisitelybeautifulface.Theresult,certainly,hadnotbeenbroughtaboutasheexpected,norinawaytendingtoincreasehisself-complacency,buthefeltthathewouldbeabroaderandbettermanfortheordealthroughwhichhehadpassed.HealsorealizedthatthechangesinIdawerenotthesuperficialoneshehadcontemplated.hehadregardedherfaceandcharacteraslittlebetterthanapieceofcanvasonwhichtherewasalreadyadrawingofgreatpromise,butverydefective.Byerasureshereandskillfultouchestherehehadhopedtoassistnatureincarryingoutherevidentintentions.Thetragedythatwell-nighresultedtaughthimthathumanlivesaredangerousplaythings,andthatquackeryinattemptingspiritualreforminvolvedmoreperilthanignorantinterferencewithphysicallaws.
Andyetthatmorninghadprovedthatthedesiredchangehadbeenaccomplished,evenmorethoroughlythanhehadhoped.Thedangerousperiodoftransitionhadbeensafelypassed,andthebeautifulfaceexpressedthatwhichwasmorethanwomanlyrefinement,thoughtandculture.Theseelementswoulddevelopwithtime.Butthecountenanceonwhichhehadseentheimpressofvanity,pride,andinsincerity,andlaterthedespairofawrongedanddesperatewoman,hadgrownopenandchildlikeagainasshetoldhimherstoryandreadtoMr.Eltinge;andinit,asthroughacleartransparency,hehadwitnessedthekindlinglightoftheChristianfaithhismotherhadtaughthimtorespectatleast,longyearsbefore.
HehadleftthegardenwiththebeliefthathehadsecuredthefriendshipofthisrareUndine,andthatshewouldbringtohisartaninspirationlikethatofwhichhewassograndlyconsciouswhilemakingthepictureinwhichsheformedtheloveliestfeature.
Hehadexpectedwithinstinctivecertaintythatshewouldnowbedrawntowardsthewomanhehopedtomakehiswife,andthatfriendshipswouldbecementedthatwouldlastthroughlife.
ButinsuggestingthishopeandexpectationtoIdaithadbeenasifacloudhadsuddenlypassedbeforethesun,andnowthewholeskywasdarkening.JennieBurtonseemedmoreshadowyandremotethanever——morewrappedupinapastinwhichshehadnopart;andthemaidenintowhoseverysoulhethoughthehadlookedbecameinscrutableagaininthedistantcourtesyofhermanner.Evenduringthebriefhourofdinnerhewasledtofeelthathehadnoinevitableplaceinthethoughtsofeitheroftheladies,andthisimpressionwasincreasedashesoughttheirsocietylaterintheday.
Moreover,inhischangedmoodheagainbegantochafeirritablyatIda'sassociations.Sheherselfhadbeenthoroughlyredeemedinanartisticpointofview,anditwashisnaturetolookatthingsinthislight.Whileheshudderedatherterriblepurposeherecognizedthehigh,strongspiritwhichinitperversionandwronghadrenderedthedeedpossible,andherdarkdesignmadeagrandandsombrebackgroundagainstwhichthemaidenhehadsketchedthatmorningwasallthemoreluminous.Hithertoeverythingconnectedwithherchangeofcharacterhadbeennotonlyconventional,buthadappealedtohisaesthetictemperamentassingularlybeautiful.
Thequaintgardenwithitsflowers,brook,andallegoricaltreewereassociationsthatharmonizedwithIda'sloveliness,whileMr.Eltinge,whohadrenderedsuchanimmeasurableservicetothemboth,realizedhisbestidealofdignifiedandvenerableage.
Butwhenhecomparedherspiritualfatherwiththemansheexpectedthatnight,hefoundhiswholenaturebecomingfullofirritableprotestanddissatisfaction.
"Thismorning,"hemuttered,"sheappearedcapableofrealizingapoet'sdreams,butalreadyIseethehardandprosaicconditionsofherlotdwarfinghergrowthandthrowingtheirgrotesqueshadowsacrossherbeauty.Whatcanshedowhileinseparablefromsuchafatherandmother?Themoreunlikethemshebecomesthemorehideoustheywillappear.Mrs.Mayhewisessentiallylackinginwomanlydelicacy,andmerecoarsenessismoretolerablethanfashionable,veneeredvulgarity.Mr.Mayhewisaspiritlesswretchwhoseonlyprotestagainsthiswife'soverbearanceandindifferencehasbeenintoxication.Linkedoneithersidetosomuchdeformity,whatchancehasthedaughterunlesssheescapesfromthemanddevelopsaseparatelife?Butarenotthetiesofnaturetooclosetopermitsuchescape,andwoulditnotbewrongtoseekit?ItcertainlywouldnotbeChristian,andIamconfidentMr.Eltingewouldnotadviseit.Herlotisindeedacruelone.NowondersheclingstoMr.Eltingeandthegarden,andthattheoutsideworldseemsfullofthornsandthistles.Well,Ipityherfromthedepthsofmyheart,andcannotseehowshewillsolvetheharshproblemofherlife.Iimagineshewillsoonbecomediscouragedandseekbymarriagetoobliterateherpresenttiesasfaraspossible."
Havingreachedthisunsatisfactoryconclusionhethrewhissketchimpatientlyasideandwentdowntothepiazza.Idaandhermotherwerealreadythere,foritwasabouttimeforarrivalsfromtheearliertrain.VanBergfeltalmostsurethatIdamusthavebeenawarethathewasstandingnearher,butsheexhibitednoconsciousnessofhispresence.Whenalittlelatertheymetinpromenadeshebowedpolitelybutabsently,andinawaythatwouldleadanywhowereobservingthemtothinkthathewasnotinherthoughts.Sohewasledtobelievehimself,butMissBurton,whowasreadinginoneoftheparlorwindows,smiledandwhisperedtoherself,"Welldone."
IdawasinhopesthatherfatherwouldtakethefirstopportunityofreachingtheLakeHouse,andshewasnotdisappointed.Thetelegramhadflashedintohisleaden-huedlifethatdaylikeameteor.Diditportendgoodorevil?Evilonly,hefeared,foritseemedtohimthatevilwouldeverbehisportion.Itwasthereforewithavaguesenseofapprehensionthathelookedforwardtomeetinghiswifeanddaughter.
AsheemergedfromthestagewiththeothershefoundIdahalf-waydownthestepstogreethim.
"I'msogladyou'vecome!"shesaidinalowearnestvoice,andshekissedhim,notintheoldformalway,asifitweretheonlyproperthingtodo,butasadaughtergreetingherfather.Then,beforehecouldrecoverfromhissurprise,hislighttravellingbagwastakenfromhimandtheyounggirl'sarmlinkedlovinglyinhis,andheledtoMrs.Mayhew,whoalsokissedhim,butinaway,itmustbeadmitted,thatsuggestedadutyratherthanapleasure.
Herhusbandscarcelygavetoheraglance,however,butkepthiseyesfixedonhisdaughter.
"Idaisbewitched,"saidMr.Mayhew.
"AndIhopeyouwillfindmebewitching,father,forIwantasmuchofyoursocietyasyouwillgivemeduringthisvisit."Shetriedtospeakplayfullyandnaturally,buttearsweregatheringinhereyes,forhisexpressionofperplexitywassingularlypatheticandfullofthekeenestreproach."OGod,"shemurmured,"whathaveIbeenthatheshouldbespeechlessfromsurprise,whenImerelygreethimasadaughtershould!"
VanBergturnedhastilyaway,forhefeltthatsceneswerecoming,onwhichhehadnorighttolook.TherewasnothingyettoindicateawishonIda'sparttoavoidinartisticassociations,anddeepinhishearthewascompelledtoadmitthatshehadneverappearedsosupremelybeautifulaswhenshelookedloveandwelcomeintotheeyesofthesmirchedanddisheartenedmantowhomnaturegavethebestrighttoclaimthesegifts.
"Comewithme,father,"saidIda,tryingtogivehimareassuringsmile,"andIwillansweryourscaredandquestioningglancesinyourroom,"andhewentwithherasifwalkinginadream.
TearsnowgatheredinJennieBurton'seyes,butshesmiledagainasshethought,"Betterdonestill,IdaMayhew,andMr.VanBerg,whoisstalkingawaysorapidlyyonder,isnotthemanIthinkhim,ifyouhavenotnowmadeyourbestanddeepestimpressiononhisheart."
"Ida,"herfatherfaltered,aftertheyhadreachedtheprivacyofhisroom,"whatdoesyourtelegrammean?Whatisimportant?"
"YOUaretome.Ofather,please,pleaseforgiveme,"andsheputherarmsaroundhisneckandburstintoapassionoftears.
Thebewilderedmanbegantotremble."Canit——canitbethatmydaughterhasaheart?"hemuttered.
"Yes,father,butit'sbrokenbecauseofmycrueltreatmentofyou;
Inowhopebetterdaysarecomingforusall."
Heheldherawayfromhimandlookedintoherfacewithalongingintensitythatsuggestedasoulperishingforthelackofloveandhope.
"Father,father,Ican'tbearthatlook.Oh,Godforgiveme,howIhavewrongedyou!"andsheburiedherfaceonhisshoulderagain.
"Ida,"hesaid,slowlyandpleadingly,"beverycareful——besurethisisnotapassingimpulse,amereremorsefultwingeofconscience.
I'vebeenhopingforyears——Iwouldhaveprayed,ifIdaredto——forsometokenthatIwasnotaburdentoyouandyourmother.Youseemedtolovemesomewhenyouwerelittle,butasyougrewolderyougrewawayfromme.I'vetriedtoforgetthatIhadaheart.
I'vetriedtobecomeabeastbecauseitwasagonytobeaman.whyIhavelivedIscarcelyknow.IthoughtIhadsufferedallthatI
couldsufferinthisworld,butIwasmistaken.IleftthisplacelastMondaywiththefearthatmybeautifuldaughterwasgivingherlovetoamanevenbaserthanIam,baseandlowfromchoice,baseandcorruptineveryfibreofhissoulandbody,andfromthathourtothisithasseemedasifIweregroundbetweentwomillstones,"andheshudderedasifsmittenwithanague."Ida,"
heconcludedpiteously,"I'mtooweak,I'mtoofargonetobeardisappointment.Thisismorethananimpulse,isitnot?Youwillnotthrowyourselfaway?Oh,Ida,myonlychild,ifyoucouldbeinheartwhatyouwereinyourfaceasyougreetedmeto-night,I
coulddiecontent!"
Forafewminutesthepoorgirlcouldonlysobconvulsivelyonhisbreast.Atlastshefalteredbrokenly:
"Yes,father——itisanimpulse——animpulsefromheaven;butIshallpraydailythatitbenotapassingone.I——Ihavelostconfidenceinmyself,butwithmySaviour'shelp,Iwilltrytobealovingdaughtertoyouandmakeyourwishesfirstineverything."
"GreatGod!"hemuttered,"canthisbetrue?"
"Yes,father,becauseGodISgreat,andvery,VERY,kind."
Hisbentformbecameerectandalmoststeelyinitstenseness.Hegentlybutfirmlyplacedherinachair,andthenpacedtheroomrapidlyamomentortwo,hisdarkeyesglowingwithastrongandkindlingexcitement.Idabegantoregardhimwithwonderandalmostalarm.Suddenlyheraisedhishandtoheaven,andsaidsolemnly:
"Thisshallbenoone-sidedaffairsohelpmeGod!"
Thenopeninghisvalise,hetookoutabottleofbrandyandthewit,withacrash,intotheemptygrate.
Idasprangtowardshimwithagladcry,exclaiming,"Ofather,nowIunderstandyou!ThankGod!thankGod!"
Hekissedhertearful,upturnedfaceagainandagain,asifhefoundtheretheveryelixiroflife.
"Ida,mydearlittleIda,"hesaid,huskily,"youhavesavedyourfatherfromadrunkard'send——fromadrunkard'sgrave.Iwasinadrunkard'shellalready."
Mr.Mayhewrequestedthatsuppershouldbeservedinhisownroom,forneitherhenorhisdaughterwasinamoodtomeetstrangersthatevening.Idacalledhermother,andtriedtoexplaintoherwhytheydidnotwishtogodown,butthepoorwomanwasnotabletograspverymuchofthetruth,andwasdecidedlymystifiedbythedomesticchangeswhichshehadverylimitedpowertoappreciate,andinwhichshehadsolittlepart.Shewasnotacoarsewoman,butmatteroffact,superficial,andworldlytothelastdegree.
VanBergcouldscarcelybelievehiseyeswhenMr.MayhewcamedowntobreakfastwithhisfamilySundaymorning.Thebondmanhadbecomefree;theslaveofadegradingvicehadbeentransformedintoaquiet,dignifiedgentleman.Hisformwaserect,andwhilehisbearingwassingularlymodestandretiring,therewasnothingoftheoldcowering,shrinkingmannerwhichsuggesteddefeat,lossofself-respect,andhopelessdejection.Allwhoknewhiminstinctivelyfeltthattheprostratemanhadrisentohisfeet,andtherewassomethinginhismannerthatmadethembelievehewouldholdhisfootingamongothermenhereafter.
Theartistfoundhimselfbowingtothe"spiritlesswretch"withapolitenessthatwasbynomeansassumed,andfromthenaturalandalmostcordialmannerinwhichMr.Mayhewreturnedhissalutation,hewasverygladtobelievethatIdahadnottoldhimthedeeperanddarkersecretsofherexperienceduringthepastweek.
"Thisisherwork,"hethought,andIda'sradiantfaceconfirmedtheimpression.Shethenfeltthatafterherfather'swords,"Youhavesavedme,"shecouldneverbeveryunhappyagain.Ahundredtimesshehadmurmured,"Oh,howmuchbetterGod'swayoutoftroublehasbeenthanmine!"
Mr.MayhewhadalwayshadpeculiarattractionsforMissBurton,andtheyatonceenteredintoconversation.Butassherecognizedthemarvellouschangeinhim,thepleasedwonderofherfacegrewsoapparent,thatherepliedtoitinlowtones:
"Inowbelieveinyour'remedies,'MissBurton;butagreatdealdependsonwhoadministersthem.MylittlegirlandIhavebeendiscoveringhownearlyrelatedweare."
Hereyesgrewmoistwithhersympathyandgladness."Mr.Mayhew,"
shesaid,"I'minclinedtothinkthatheavenisalwayswithinasteportwoofus,ifwecouldonlytaketherightsteps."
"Tomeithasseemedbeyondthefartheststar,"hereplied,verygravely."Tosome,however,thewordisasindefiniteastheplace,andacessationofpainappearsheaven.IcouldbecontenttoasknothingbetterthanthisSabbathmorninghasbroughtme.IhavefoundwhatIthoughtlostforever."
JennieBurtonbecameverypale,asdeepfromherheartrosethequery,"ShallIeverfindwhatIhavelost?"Thenwithastronginstincttomaintainherself-controlandshunaperilousnearnesstoherhiddensorrow,shechangedthesubject.
ItwastouchingtoseehowoftenMr.Mayhew'seyesturnedtowardshisdaughter,asiftoreassurehimselfthatthechangeinhermannertowardshimwasnotadream,andtheexpressionofherfaceasshemethisscrutinyseemedtobrightenandcheerhimlikeacomingdawn.
"WhatheavenlymagicistransformingMissMayhew?"JennieBurtonaskedofVanBerg,astheysaunteredoutonthepiazza.
"Withyourwontedfelicity,youexpressitexactly,"hereplied.
"ItisaheavenlymagicwhichIdon'tunderstandintheleast,butmustbelievein,sincecauseandeffectaredirectlyundermyeyes.Ithasbeenmygoodfortunetowitnessasbeautifulasceneasevermortalsaw.Sincesherefersnaturallyandopenlytothefriendswhomshehasvisitedduringthepastweek,ImaytellyouaboutMr.Eltinge'sinfluenceandteachingwithoutviolatinganyconfidence,"andinharmonywiththefrankandfriendlyrelationswhichhenowsustainedtoMissBurton,herelatedhisexperienceofthepreviousday,remainingscrupulouslyreticentoneverypoint,however,thatheevenimaginedIdawouldwishveiledfromtheknowledgeofothers."Icannottellyou,"heconcluded,"howdeeplythesceneaffectedme.Itnotonlyawokealltheartistinme,butthemanalso.InonebriefhourIlearnedtoreverethatnobleoldgentleman,andifyoucouldhaveseenhimleaningagainsttheemblematictree,asIdid,Ithinkhewouldhaverealizedyouridealofage,whollydevoidofweaknessandbleakness.AndthenMissMayhew'sface,asshereadandlistenedtohim,seemedindeed,initscontrastwithwhatwehaveseenduringthepastsummer,theresultof'heavenlymagic.'ItwillbenoheavytasktofulfiltheconditionsonwhichIwaspermittedtoentertheenchantedgarden.
Theyexpectmorepencilsketches,butIshalleventuallygivethemastruthfulapictureasIamcapableofpainting,foritisraregoodfortunetofindthemessoinspiring."
GuardedasVanBergwasinhisnarrative,MissBurtonwasabletoreadmore"betweenthelines"thaninhiswords.Hedidnotunderstandhermotivewhenshesaid,asifitwereherfirstobviousthought:
"Thepicturewhichyouhavepresented,eventotheeyeofmyfancy,isuniquelybeautiful,andIthinkitmustredeemMissMayhewinyourmind,fromallherdisagreeableassociations.Butinmyestimationsheappearedtoevenbetteradvantageinthegreetingshegaveherfatherlastevening.Wasthereeveramoredelicioussurpriseonearth,thanthatpoormanhadwhenhereturnedandfoundatrueandlovingdaughterawaitinghim?Withherfilialhandsshehasalreadyliftedhimoutofthemireofhisdegradation,andto-dayheisagentlemanwhomyouinvoluntarilyrespect.O
Mr.VanBerg,Icannottellouhowinexpressiblybeautifulandreassuringsuchthingsaretome!Youlookatthechangeswearewitnessingfromthestandpointofanartist,Ifromthatofpoorwoundedhumanity;andwhatIhaveseeninIdaMayhewandherfather,isprooftomethatthereisagoodGodaboveallthechaosaroundme,whichIcannotunderstandandwhichattimesdisheartensme.
Theirhappierandennobledfacesareaprophecyandanearnestofthattimewhentheswayofevilshallbebroken,whenfamishingsoulsandemptyheartsshallbefilled,whenbroken,thwartedlivesaremadeperfect,andwhatwasmissedandlostregained."
Shelookedawayfromhimintothesummersky,whichthesunwasfloodingwithcloudlesslight.Therewerenotearsinhereyes,butanexpressionofintenseandsorrowfullongingthatwasfarbeyondsuchsimpleandnaturalexpression.
"JennieBurton,"saidVanBerg,inalow,earnestvoice,"therearetimeswhenIcouldsufferallthingstomakeyouhappy."
Shestartedasifshehadalmostforgottenhispresence,andansweredquietly:"Youcouldnotmakemehappybysuffering.OnlyasI
canbanishalittlepainandgloomhereandtheredoIfindsolace.
ButIcandosovery,verylittle.ItreassuresmetoseeGoddoingthisworkinhisgrand,largeway.Andyetitseemstomethathemightbrightentheworldasthesunfillsthisskywithlight.Asitis,theraysthatillumineheartsandfacesglintonlyhereandtherebetweenthethreateningcloudsofevil.Mr.
VanBerg,youdonotknow——youneverrealizedhowshadowedhumanityis.Withinamileofyourstudio,thatisfulloflightandbeauty,therearethousandswhoareperishinginaslow,remorselesspain.
Itisthisawfulmysteryofevil——thiscontinuousgroanandcryofanguishthathasgoneuptoheaventhroughalltheages——thatappallsmyheartandstaggersmyfaith.Butthere——afterwhatIhaveseento-dayIhavenorighttosuchgloomythoughts.Isupposemyreligionseemstoyounomorethanaclingingfaithinafar-away,incomprehensibleGod,andsoisnotveryattractive?IwishIcouldsuggesttoyousomethingmoresatisfactory,butsinceIcannotI'llleaveyoutofindbetterinfluences."
"Itdoesseemtomethatrash,faultyIdaMayhewhasabetterfaiththanthis,"hethought;"shebelievesshehasfoundanearandhelpfulFriend,whilemysad-eyedsainthasonlyaGod,andisalwaysinpatheticdoubtwhetherherprayercanbridgetheinfinitedistancebetweenthem.Whoisright?Iseitherright?IusedtobeimpressedwithhowmuchIknew;I'mgladtheoppositeimpressionisbecomingsostrong,for,asMissBurtonsays,thehopelessfoolsarethosewhoneverfindthemselvesout.
"Shewasright.IdaMayhewwilleverappeartobetteradvantageinaidingherpoorfathertoregainhismanhood,thanbythemostartisticcombinationofcircumstancesthatIcouldimagine.Allthemaninmerecognizesthesacrednessofthedutyandthebeautyofitsperformance.AndyetbutyesterdayIwasstupidenoughtobelievethatherbestchancefordevelopmentwastoescapefromherfatherandliveaseparatelife.Ithastakenonlyafewhourstoprovehowsuperficialwasmyphilosophyoflife.Guidedsimplybytheinstinctofloveandduty,thisfaultygirlhasaccomplishedmorethanIhadsupposedpossible.Buthermotherwillcontinueathorninherside,"andVanBergwasnotfarastray.
ChapterXLVI.AResolutePhilosopher.
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