MissBurton,withherkeen,delicateperceptions,recognizedthisdifferencemorefullythananyoftheothers;andherinstinct,ratherthananythingshesawinIda,enabledhertodivinethecauseinpart."IknowofbutonethingthatcanaccountforMissMayhew'sbehavior,"shethought,"andthoughsheguardshersecretwell,shecannotdeceiveawomanwhohaspassedthroughmyexperience.
Ibegintoseeitall.SheusedSibleyasablind,andshewasblindherself,poorchild,whenshedidso,toeverythingsavetheonewomanlynecessityofhidinganunsoughtlove.Well,well,myoutspokenloverhaseyesforhersweet,chastenedbeautyto-night.
Perhapshethinksheisstudyingherfaceasanartist.Perhapsheis.ButitstrikesmethathehaslostthecriticalandjudicialexpressionwhichIhavenoticedhitherto,"andaglimmerofasmilethatdidnotintheleastsuggestthe"green-eyedmonster"hoveredforamomentlikearayoflightoverJennieBurton'sface.
"Mother,"saidIda,inalow,sympathetictone,"Iseeoneofyourheadachescomingon.Letmebatheyourheadaftertea."
"Ida,"whisperedMrs.Mayhew,"youaresochangedIdon'tknowyou."
Theyounggirlflushedslightly,andbyaquick,warninglookcheckedallfurtherremarkofthistendency.
"Sheisindeedmarvelouslychanged,"thoughtMissBurton."IfeelitevenmorethanIcanseeit.Theremustbesomeotherinfluenceatwork.Whoarethesefriendssheisvisiting,andwhosendherbacktousdailywithsomeunexpectedgrace?Yesterdayitwastruthfulness——to-dayanindescribablecharmofmannerthathasbanishedtheelementofearthinessfromherbeauty.IthinkIwilljoinmyfriendwhoimagineshimselfsomethingmoreinthestudyofaproblemthatisbecomingintenselyinteresting."
"MissMayhew,"VanBergfoundachancetosayaftersupper,"youarebecomingagreaterenigmatomethanever."
"Well,"shereplied,avertingherfacetohidethecolorthatwouldriseathisratherabruptandpointedaddress,"I'dratherbeaChinesepuzzletoyouthanwhatIwas."
"AndInodoubthaveappearedtoyoulikeaChineseMandarin,GrandTurk,GreatMogul,notnameself-satisfiedPharisees,andallofthatilk."
"Ican'tsaythatyouhave,andyetI'vekeenlyfeltyoursuperiority.
Ithinkthecharacteryouarenowenactingismorebecomingthananyofthosewouldbe,however."
"Whatisthat?"heaskedquickly.
"Well,"shesaidhesitatingly,"Ihardlyknowhowtodescribeit,butitsuggestsalittlethekindnesswhich,theysay,makesalltheworldkin.Good-night,Mr.VanBerg."
"MissJennie,"hesaid,laterintheevening,"youhaveaninsightintocharacterwhichwegrossermortalsdonotpossess.DoyouthinkthatthereisamarkedchangetakingplaceinMissMayhew?"
"AndsoyouexpectmetoreadMissMayhew'ssecretsandgossipaboutthemwithyou?"sheansweredwithoneofherpiquantsmiles.
"Whatasweetbrieryouare!NowtellmeinyourownhappywayhowyouwoulddescribethischangewhichyouseeandunderstandfarmoreclearlythanI."
"I'llgiveyouonethoughtthathasoccurredtomeandthenleaveyoutosolvetheproblemforyourself.Haveyoueverseenapersonwhohadbeendeliriousorderangedbecomesandandquiet,simpleandnatural?AlthoughMissMayhew'sexpressionandmanneraresodifferentfromwhatwehaveseenhitherto,shelooksandactsto-nightjustasoneinstinctivelyfeelssheoughtalwaystoappearinordertobehertrueself.Beforetherewasdiscord;nowthereisharmony."
"IfIhadyoureyesI'dneverreadbooks.Yousuggesttheeffectperfectly,butwhatisthecause?"
"Wasamaneversatisfied?"
"Onecertainlyneveriswhereyouareconcerned,butwillalwaysechoOliverTwist'splaintiveappealfor'more.'"
"Oconstantmoon!registerthatvow,"saidMissBurton,laughing.
"Mr.VanBerg,oneofthefirstrulesthatIteachmyyoungladiesistosaygood-eveningtoagentlemanwhenhegrowssentimental,"
andshesmilingvanishedthroughawindowthatopenedonthepiazza.
"JennieBurton,"hemuttered,"youareawraith,anexquisiteghostthatwillhauntmeallmydays,butonwhichIcanneverlaymyhands."
Thenextmorningtheartist,inhiskindlinginterest,wasguiltyofastratagem.Hetookanearlybreakfastbyhimself,underthepretencethathewasgoingonasketchingexpedition;buthewentstraighttothebrowofalittlehillthatoverlookedtheroadwhichIdamusttakeshouldshevisithernew-foundfriendsagain.
Hesoonbecameverybusywithhissketch-book,butinsteadofoutlinesofthelandscapebeforehimtakingshapeonthepaper,youmighthaveseentheformofayounggirlonastairwaywithherheadbowedonherrightarmthatrestedonthebalusterrail,whichshetimidlyheldoutherlefthandinthepaceofwordsshecouldnotspeak.
ItwaswithaforebodingsighthatIdarealizedhowmuchshemissedhimatbreakfast.
BeforethemealwasoveraletterwashandedtoMrs.Mayhew.Itcontainedonlythesewordsfromherhusband:"InmemoryofmylastvisitIconcludeitwillbemutuallyagreeabletousallthatIspendSundayelsewhere.Youneednotdreadmycoming."
Shehandedthelettertoherdaughterwithafrownandtheremark:
"It'sjustlikehim."
ButIdaseemedmuchpainedbyitscontents,andafteramomentsprangup,saying:"CousinIk,mayIspeakwithyou?"
Whentheywerealoneshecontinued:"Seewhatfatherhaswritten.Hemustcometo-nightorI'llgotohim.Can'tIsendhimatelegram?"
"Yes,Coz,andI'lltakeitovertothedepotatonce."
"Ah,Ik,youaredoingmeagreaterkindnessthanyouknow.Butit'salongdrive."
"Thelongerthebetter.Willyougowithme?"
"IwouldhadInotpromisedmyoldfriendsIvisitedyesterdayI'dcomeagainto-day.Theyaredoingmegood.I'lltellyouaboutitsometime,"andshewrotethefollowingtelegramtoherfather:
"CometoLakeHouseto-day.Veryimportant."
"IwishMissBurtonwouldgowithyou,"shesaidlookingupasthethoughtoccurredtoher."ShallIaskher?"
Stanton'swistfulfaceprovedhowgreatlyhewouldenjoysuchanarrangement,butafteramomenthesaiddecisively:"No.Itwouldpainhertodecline,butshewould."
"Youareveryconsiderateofher."
"Sheissorryforme,Ida.Icanseethat.Shehasneverexultedamomentinherpoweroverme.Myloveisonlyanotherburdentohersadlife.Ican'thelpit,butIcanmakeitaslightaspossible."
TearscameintoIda'seyesandshefaltered:"Ik,Iunderstandyou."
Alittlelatertheybothdroveofftheirdifferentways.
Inspiteofeverything,Idafoundthatherheartwouldgrowlightandglandasshepursuedherwayalongthequietcountryroad,nowintheshadewherethetreescrowdedupontheeasternside,andagaininthesunlightbetweenwidestubblefieldsinwhichthequailswerewhistlingmellowlytoeachother.
VanBergwatchedhercomingwithaheartthatbeatalittlequicklyforsocoolandphilosophicalaninvestigator,andwasgladthatherquietoldhorseresumedaslowwalkatthefirstsuggestionofthehillonwhichhehadpostedhimself.
Idaleanedbackinthephaetonwiththeabandonofthosewhothinkthemselvesalone,andsangasnatchfromanoldEnglishhymnthatVanBergrememberedasonehismotherhadcroonedoverhimwhenachild.Thismelody,doublysacredtohimfromitsassociations,wouldhavegratedharshlyonhisearifithadbeensungbyIdaMayhewaweekbefore;but,strangetosay,thegirlishvoicethatfloateduptohimwasallthesweeterforthusblendingitselfwithsomeofhisdearestmemories.
Whentheascentwashalfmadetheartistsprangdownfromhisrockyperch,andhorseandmaidenweresostartledthattheybothstoppedinstantly.
"Donotbealarmed,"saidVanBerg,laughing;"I'mnotaveryvicioustramp,andamarmedwithnothingworsethanasketch-book.
IfIcouldonlyinduceyoutobeanhourincomingupthishillI'dputyouandthephaetoninit.Iwishitwerepossibletoputthesongin,too.Why,MissMayhew!AmIanogre,thatIfrightenyouso?"
"Iwasnotexpectingtoseeyou,"shefaltered,deeplyvexedthathercheekswouldcrimsonandherhandthatheldthereinstremblesoplainly."YounaturallythinkIhaveaveryguiltyconsciencetobesofrightened,"sheaddedafterasecond,andregainingalittleself-control.
"Thatquaintoldhymntunedidnotsuggestaguiltyconscience,"
hesaidkindly.
"IthinkImusthavehearditatchurch,"shereplied."It'sbeenrunninginmyheadallthemorning."Henowrememberedwithsuddenpitythatnomemoriesofsacredwordsandsongcouldfollowherfromherhomeandchildhood."ButIsupposeyouthinkitisstrangeIcansingatall,Mr.VanBerg,"shecontinuedgravely.
"YoumustthinkmeverysuperficialthatIdonotappeartorealizemoreacrimethatmakesitexceedinglykindofyoueventospeaktome,sinceyouknowaboutit.ButIhaverealizedthewickednessofthatactmorebitterlythanyoucaneverknow."
"MissMayhew,IadmitthatIcan'tunderstandyouatall.Youhavebecomeagreatermysterytomethanever.Yousee,Iimitateyourtruthfulness."
"Thereisnonecessityofsolvingtheproblem,"shesaidinalowtone,andavertingherface.
"Doyoumean,"heasked,flushingslightly,"thatmyinterestisobtrusiveandnotagreeabletoyou?"
"Ifinspiredbycuriosity——yes,"andshelookedhimsteadilyintheface.
"Butifinspiredbyagenuineandearnestwishtobeyourfriendandtoatonefortheunpardonableinjusticewhichcameaboutfrommynotunderstandingyou?"
"IfIbelievedthat,"shesaid,withsomethinglikeasmile,"I'dtakeyouwithmethismorningandrevealallthemysterythereisaboutmypoorlittleselfinonebriefhour."
"HowcanIproveit?"heaskedeagerly.
"Sayit,"sheansweredsimply.
"Idosayit'strue,onmyhonor,"hereplied,givingherhishand.
"Youmaycome,then,ononeothercondition.Iwouldlikeyoutodrawformeayoungpear-tree,andanoldgentlemansittingunderit."
"Iwillagreetoanyconditions,"hesaid,springinginbyherside.
"Isitthetreethatborethepearyougaveme?Ihopeyoudon'tthinkIwascapableofeatingthatpear."
"Didyouthrowitaway?"sheasked,withashyglance.
"MissMayhew,I'vesomethingIwishyoutosee,"andhetookouthisnote-bookandshowedhertherose-budhehadtossedaway."Doyourecognizethat?"
Inspiteofherselfthebloodrushedtumultuouslyintoherface.
"Ithoughtthatwastrampledintodustlongago,"shesaidinalowtone.
"Ishallneverforgetyourwordsasyouleftmethatevening,MissMayhew.ItwastheseverestandmostdeservedrebukeIeverhad.
Ipickedupthebudimmediately,Iassureyou."
"Ithoughtyouleftitthere,"shesaid,inastilllowertone,andthenaddedhastily:"ButIhavenodoubtyouactedfromasenseofduty."
"Ican'tsaythatIdid,"heanswered,dryly.
"Willyoupleasegiveittome?"
"Notunlessyoucompelmeto,"andheclosedthebookandreturnedittoaninsidebreast-pocket."IwouldliketocarryitasatalismanagainstPhariseeism,themosthatefulofvices."
"Oh,verywell,"andsheturnedawayherfaceagain.
"Butpleasetellmeaboutthispear-tree,"heresumed.
"Itwon'tseemtoyouasitdidtome,"shereplied,withanembarrassedair,"andI'msorryIspokeofit,butnowthatIhaveImayaswellgoon.ToexplainImustgobackalittle.Mr.
VanBerg,I'mtakingyoutoseetheoldgentlemanwhosavedmefrom——from——"Herfacewaspaleenoughnow.
"MydearMissMayhew,don'tpainyourselfbyreferringtothat."
"Imust,"shesaidslowly."Bysomestrangefateyouhaveseenmeatmyworst,andsinceyousayyoucare,youshallknowtherest.
ItmayrelieveyourmindofafearthatI'veseeninyourfacesince.Ididn'tthinkI'lleverbesowickedanddesperateagain,andIwishyoutoknowmyreasonsforthinkingso.Well,onthatdreadfulnightthepartyIwaswithwentintoaprayer-meeting,morebythewayoffrolicthananythingelse.Ididnotwishtogoin,but,strangeasitmayseemtoyou,Iwasafraidtowalkhome,andsohadtofollowmycompany.GoodoldMr.Eltingespoketous.HesaidheknewfromhisownlongexperiencethattherewasaDivineFriendwhowasableandwillingtocureeveryearthlytrouble,andhespokesosimplyandkindlythathecaughtmyattentionandrevivedmyhope.IfeltwhenIenteredthatplaceIhadn'tafriendintheworldoroutofit.Iwasjustblindanddesperatewithshameanddiscouragement,and——and——butperhapsyouhavereadtheletterIgaveyou?"
"MissMayhew,everywordofitisburnedintomymemory.Iscarcelymovedafterreadingittillthemorningdawned,andthenIwentoutandwalkedforhoursbeforeIcouldcomposemyselfanddaredtomeetanyone.AsItoldyouthen,soIsayagain,Ihadagreaterescapethanyouhad."
"I'mvery,verysorry,"shereplied,inatoneofdeepregret.
"Itooamvery,verysorry,butitisforyou."
Shelookedupquickly,andsawthathiseyeswerefulloftears.
"I'mnotashamedoftheminthisinstance,MissMayhew,"hesaid,dashingthemaway.
Shelookedathimwonderingly,andthenmurmured:"Oh,thankGodithasallturnedoutasithas."Afteramomentsheadded:"I'vemisjudgedyoualso,Mr.VanBerg."
"How?Pleasetellme,forIfeelIhavemorecausetobedisgustedwithmyselfthanyoueverhad."
"Well——howshallIsaywhatImean?Ithoughtyouhadmoremindthanheart."
"ItappearstomeI'vedisplayedalamentablelackofboth.Imusthaveseemedtoyoulikeananimatedinterrogationpoint."
"Isoonlearnedyouwereverygreatlymysuperior,"shesaidsimply.
"MissMayhew,spareme,"herepliedquickly,withadeprecatorygesture."Thestoryyouweretellinginterestsmemoredeeplythanyouwillbelieve,andIthinkweshallbebetteracquaintedbeforethedayisover."
"Well,therestofmystoryismoreeasilytoldthanunderstood,andperhapsyourman'sreasonmaynotfinditverysatisfactory.
YouknowtheoldsuperstitionthatthesingofthecrossputstoflighttheEvilOne.Idon'tbelievethat,butIbelievethattheOnewhosufferedonthecrossputshimtoflight.Mr.Eltinge'ssimple,downrightassertionthatJesuscouldremedyeveryearthlytrouble——thathewouldbeapatient,helpfulFriend——broketheevilspellbywhichdespairhadblindedme,andIresolvedtotryandliveifIcould.AftertheoldgentlemancameoutofthechurchI
askedhimtoletmevisithim,andhehasbeenvery,verykind.I
toldhimeverything.ThefirstdayhesawIwasgreatlydiscouraged,andtoldmethehistoryofayoungpear-treeagainstwhichhewasleaning,andwhichwasfullofbeautifulfruit.Hesaidthatonastormynightitwasbrokenbythewind,andtrampleduponbysomestraycattle,andhescarcelythoughtitcouldlive,foritwasprostrateontheground,butheliftedit,andtookcareofit,andgavenatureachancetorestoreit.Youwouldthinknaturewaslikeakindofmother,tohearhimtalk.ThenhereasonedthatJesus,theAuthorofnature,woulddoformewhatnaturehaddoneforthewoundedtree,butthatImustnotexpecttoomuchatfirst——thatImustbereceptiveandwillingtogrowpatientlyasthetreehaddone,inanewandbetterlife.Thusthetreehasbecometomeanemblemofhope,andItrustaprophecyofmyfuture,althoughIdonotexpectevertoreachanythingliketheperfectionsuggestedbythepear-treeanditsdeliciousfruit.Thefactsthathaveimpressedmemostarethatitwasbruised,prostrate,andreadytodie,andnowitisaliveanduseful.OldMr.Eltingelovesit,andlikestoleanagainstit,asyouwillsee."
"Thefactthathasimpressedmemostinthisallegory,"groanedVanBerg,"isthatIwasthebrutethattrampledonyou."
"Youaretoosevereonyourself,"shesaidearnestly."Ishallhavetotakeyourpart."
"Pleasedo.Ithrowmyselfwhollyonyourmercy."
"IbelieveShakespearewasright,"shesaid,withashylaughandavertedface."Mercyisalwaystwicebless'd.ButIhavenottoldyouall,Mr.VanBerg.Yesterdaywasthemostmemorabledayofmylife.OnThursdayMr.EltingesawIneededencouragement;
yesterdayhesawthatIhadnotrealizedthecrimeIhadalmostcommitted,andthatIwasstoppingshortofhimwhoalonecouldchangemywholenature.Indeed,IthinkhesawthatIwaseveninclinedtobecomewellpleasedwithmyself,andcontentwithmyprospectsofwinningbacktheesteemofothers.Hewasfaithfulwithmeaswellaskind.Byanillustration,whichyouwillpardonmefornotrepeating,hemadeitcleartomeasthelightthatintheintentofmyheartIhadbeenguiltyofmurder.Mr.VanBerg,mayyouneverknowtheagonyandremorsethatIsufferedforthefewmomentsIsawmysinsomewhatasitmustappeartoGod,andtogoodmenlikeMr.Eltinge.Iwasoverwhelmed.Itseemedasifmycrimewouldcrushme.Idon'tthinkIcouldhavelivedifthesenseofterroranddespairhadlasted.ButdearoldMr.Eltingestoodbymeinthatterriblemoment.Heputhishandonmyheadasafathermighthavedone,andintonesthatseemedlikeavoicefromheaven,said:'BeholdtheLambofGod,thattakethawaythesinoftheworld.'IfeltthatIcouldnotbearmysinaninstantlonger;itwaslikeamountainoflead,andwithadesperateimpulsetoescape,IlookedtoChrist——Ijustfledtohim,asitwere,anditwasthesameasifhehadopenedhisarmsandreceivedme.FromthatmomentIhavefeltsafe,andalmosthappy.Ican'texplainallthistoyou,Ionlytellyouwhathappened.Itdoesn'tseemlikesuperstitionorexcitedimagination,asI'veheardsomecharacterizethesethings.Itwasalltooreal:Mr.VanBerg,thesimpletruthis——I'vefoundaFriend,whoispledgedtotakecareofme.IKNOWIT.Iamreadingthestoryofhislife,underMr.
Eltinge'sguidance,andthatiswhyIcomehere.Nowyouknowallthemysterythereisaboutthefaultygirlinwhomcircumstanceshavegivenyouapassinginterest.Sinceyouknewsomuchthatwasagainstme,perhapsyouwillnotthinkitstrangethatIwaswillingyoushouldlearnwhatisnowinmyfavor.Itissimplythis——I'vefoundaDivineFriendwhowillhelpmeliveabetterlife."
TheyhadnowreachedMr.Eltinge'sgate,andVanBergsteppedouttoopenit.Butbeforedoingso,heturnedtohiscompanion,andwitheyesmoistwithfeeling,saidearnestly:
"MissMayhew,circumstancesmighthavegivenmebutapassinginterestinyou,butYOUhavewonanabidinginterest.Youhavebeengenerousenoughtoforgiveme,andnowyouwillhavetorepelmeresolutely,topreventmybeingyourfriend.IndeedIshallbeoneinhearthereafter,eventhoughyoumaynotpermitmetoenjoyyoursociety,foryoumayverynaturallywishtoshunonewhocannotfailtoremindyouofsomuchthatispainful.Asforyourstory,itisarevelationtome.Imayneverpossessyourhappyfaith,butIwillrespectit;"andalthoughheturnedhastilyawayshecouldnotfailtoseethathewasdeeplymoved.
Mr.Eltingereceivedtheyoungmanwithsomesurprise,anddidnotseemtoregardhispresenceasaltogetherwelcome.Theartistthoughttodisarmtheoldgentlemanbyadecidedmanifestationoffranknessandcourtesy:
"IfeelthatinacertainsenseIamanintruderinyourbeautifulgardento-day.MissMayhewmetmeontheroad,andIfearImustownthatIhadthebadgracealmostthesameastoinvitemyselfhither.AtleastshesawthatIwasexceedinglyanxioustocome."
"DoyouknowMissMayhew'smotiveincominghither?"askedMr.
Eltinge,gravely.
"Ido,andIrespectit."
"Youtakesafegroundthere,sir,"saidMr.Eltinge,withincreasingdignity."Christianityisatleastrespectable.Butdoyoubelieveittobeabsolutelytrueandbindingontheconscience?"
Theartistwassilent.
"Mr.VanBerg,"resumedtheoldgentleman,withagravitythattendedeventowardssternness,"Iwouldnotfailinanyactofcourtesytowardsyou,especiallyheratmyownhome;butjustice,mercy,andtruthareaboveallotherconsiderations.BothyouandIknowthischild'shistorysufficientlywelltobeawarethatitisadangerousthingtoexertaninfluenceatrandomonhumanlives.Yousayyouknowhermotiveincominghither.Letmestatethetruthveryplainly:shehasturnedherfaceheavenward;sheistakingherfirstuncertainstepsasapilgrimtowardsthebetterhome.Injusticetoyouandinmercytoyoubothletmequotethewordsofhimbeforewhomweallshallstand;"andplacinghishandonIda'sshoulderherepeatedwiththeaspectofoneofGod'sancientprophetsthosesolemnwordsthattoomanydaretoignore:"'Whososhalloffendoneoftheselittleoneswhichbelieveinme,itwerebetterforhimthatamillstonewerehangedabouthisneck,andthatheweredrownedinthedepthofthesea.'Mr.VanBerg,inmemoryofthepast,bewarelestconsciouslyorevenunconsciously,throughyourindifferencetoherfaith,youlayastrawinthischild'sway.
TheweakandthehelplessareveryneartotheheartofGod,andthemostdangerousactamanevercommitsiswhenhecausesoneoftheselittleonestooffend."
Idatrembledbeneathherfriend'shandandwishedshehadnotpermittedtheartisttocome,buttheyoungman'ssincerityandgood-breedingenabledhimtopasstheordeal.Removinghishat,herepliedtoMr.Eltingewithafineblendingofdignityandhumility:
"Ihonoryou,sir,"hesaid,"foryourfaithfulnesstotheonewhohascometoyouforcounselandinacertainsenseforprotection;
andIcondemnmyselfwithbitternessthatyouwillneverunderstand,thatIwrongedherinmythoughtsandwoundedherbyanymanner.I
ameagertomakeanyandeveryatonementinmypower.Nolanguagecanexpressmygladnessthatsheheardandheededyourwords.
Pardonme,sir,whenIsayIamnotindifferenttoherfaith.Itis,indeed,amysterytome,butanoblemysterywhichIreverefromthefruitsthatIhavealreadywitnessed.Inmyunpardonablestupidityandprejudice——inaPharisaicpride——IhavecausedMissMayhewtooffend.Shehasgenerouslyforgivenme.MyselfIshallneverforgive.Ifshewillhonormewithherfriendshiphereafter,Ipledgeyoumywordthatnoactofmine,sofarasIcanhelpit,shallevercauseyouanxietyforoneinwhomyouhavesostrongandnaturalaninterest."
Mr.Eltinge'smannerchangeddecidedly,andwhenVanBergconcludedheextendedhishandandsaidcordially:
"Aftersuchmanly,straightforwardwordsIcangiveyoutherighthandofrespectandconfidence,ifnotoffellowship.Totellyouthetruth,sir,Iwasinclinedtobelievethatmylittlefriendherehadabetteropinionofyouthanyoudeserved,butnowIcanwelcomeyouinsteadofscoldingherforbringingyou."
AtthereferencetoherselfIda,seemingly,hadanimpulsetopluckaflowerthatwasbloomingatalittledistance.ThemomenthewasunobservedVanBergseizedtheoldgentleman'shandandsaid,earnestly,whiletearssprangtohiseyes:
"Godblessyouforthewordsyouspoketothatpoorchild.Ioweyoumorethanshedoes.YouhavesavedmefromalifethatIwoulddreadmorethandeath,"andthenhe,too,turnedawayhastilyandpretendedtobeverybusyinfindingthematerialsforhissketch.
Idareturnedshyly,anditwouldseemthatsomeofthecolorofherflowerhadfounditswayintohercheeks.
"Mr.Eltinge,"shesaid,hesitatingly,"Idon'tbelieveIcanmakeyouunderstandhowmuchIwouldlikeapictureofthispear-treeandyourselfsittingunderitasIhaveseenyouforthepasttwodays.ImustadmitthatthewishtohavesuchasketchwasoneofthemotivesthatledmetobringMr.VanBerg."Thensheadded,withdeepeningcolorstill,"myconsciencetroublesmewhenIhearMr.VanBergcondemnhimselfsoharshly.IhavelearnedthatI
misjudgedhimastrulyashedidme,andIhavesincerealizedhowsadlybothfactsandappearanceswereagainstme."
"Well,MissIda,"saidtheoldgentleman,musingly,"Iaminclinedtothinktherehasbeenmoreofmisunderstandingthanofintentionalanddeliberateharshness.Mylonglifehastaughtmethatitisastonishinghowblindweoftenaretothethoughtsandfeelingsofothers.ButIwarneverybodytobecarefulhowtheyvisitthisoldgarden,forit'sawonderfulplaceforbringingoutthetruth.
Natureisintheascendanthere,"andhelookedkeenlyandhumorouslyattheartist,whoremained,however,unconsciousofhisscrutiny,forhiseyeswerefollowingIda.Shehadsuddenlyturnedherbackuponthembothagain,andwassoonbendingoverthelittlebrookwhosemurmurhefaintlyheard.
"Theseallusionstothepastareallpainfultoher,"hethought,"andshereferstothemonlybecause,asshesays,herconsciencecompelsherto.Itmustbemytasktomakeherforgetthepastinthepresentandfuture."
"Mr.VanBerg,"shesaid,returning,"youhavevisitedtheJordanIbelieve,butIdoubtwhetheritswatersdidyoumoregoodthanthatlittlebrookovertheredoesme.That'sright,"sheadded,lookingoverhisshoulderattheoutlineshewasrapidlytracing;
"I'mgladyouarelosingnotime."
"Iremembertheconditiononwhichyouallowedmetocome,"hereplied,lookingupwithasmileintoherface,"andI'vealreadylearned,asMr.Eltingesuggests,thatnothingwilldointhisgardenbutdownrighthonesty."Somethinginherfacecausedhiseyestolinger,andheaddedhastily:"You'rerightabouttheJordan.Thebrookseemsmuchmorepotent,forapparentlyithaswashedyourtroubleallaway,buthasleft——wellyoumightthinkitflatteryifIshouldtellyouallIsee.thisgardenseemstocontaintheelixiroflifeforyou,MissIda.Myheartwasachingtoseehowpaleyouwerebecoming,buthere——"
"Mr.VanBerg,"saidIda,abruptly,"willyoupardonasuggestion?"
Helookedupatheragainalittlewonderinglyandbowed.
"Therehasbeenasortofnecessity,"sheresumed,"thatmyfaultyselfshouldbethethemeofourconversationto-day,butallthemysteryinwhichyouimaginedmeenvelopedmusthavevanishedsinceyoucamehere.InowmustaskthatwedwellhereafteronmoreagreeablesubjectsthanIdaMayhew."
"Imustbringthistendencytopersonalallusionstoanendatonce,"
shethought,"orelseIshallbetraymyselftomybittermortification."
Helookedupwithadeprecatingsmile,"Iamatyourmercy,"hereplied,"andasIsaidbeforeIwillsubmittoanyconditions."
"Thisisaneasyone,"saidIda,withemphasis,andthenshetookuptheBibleandbeganreadingtoMr.Eltinge,whofromhisseatunderthepear-treehadbeenwatchingthemwithapleasedandplacidinterestonhissereneoldface.Theiryounglifeappearedbeautifulnow,andfullofhopeandpromise,buthedidnotenvyit.Theprospectbeforehimwasbetterthanthebestthatearthcouldoffer.
VanBergneverforgotthehourthatfollowed.Hispencilwasbusybuthisthoughtswerebusier.Hefelthisartistlifeandpowerkindlingwithinhiminawaythatwasexhilaratingandgrand.Whilehisthemesweresimplehefeltthattheywerenobleandbeautifulinthehighestdegree.Thetree——aprettyobjectinitself——hadbeenendowedwithahumaninterestandsuggestedadivinephilosophy.
Mr.Eltinge,whosatatitsfoot,becametohimoneoftheworld'schiefheroes——amanwhohadmetandvanquishedevilforalmostacentury.Hiswhitehairandsilverbeardwereahaloofgloryaroundthequietfacethatwasturnedinkindlysympathytowardshiscompanion,andVanBergdidhisbesttobringoutthenobleprofile.
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