'Noristhatprobable.'
'Thenhemayhavethoughtbetterofit.'
'Yes,hemayhavethoughtbetterofit;if,indeed,heisnothereallthetime——somewhereinthehollowbehindtheDevil'sDoor.Letusgoandsee;itwillservehimrighttosurprisehim.'
'O,he'snotthere.'
'Hemaybelyingveryquietbecauseofyou,'shesaidarchly.
'O,no——notbecauseofme!'
'Come,then.Ideclare,dearest,youlaglikeanunwillingschoolboyto-night,andthere'snoresponsivenessinyou!Youarejealousofthatpoorlad,anditisquiteabsurdofyou.'
'I'llcome!I'llcome!Saynomore,Harriet!'Andtheycrossedoverthegreen.
Wonderingwhattheywoulddo,theyoungshepherdleftthehut,anddoubledbehindthebeltoffurze,intendingtostandnearthetrilithonunperceived.But,incrossingthefewyardsofopengroundhewasforamomentexposedtoview.
'Ah,Iseehimatlast!'saidtheDuchess.
'Seehim!'saidtheDuke.'Where?'
'BytheDevil'sDoor;don'tyounoticeafigurethere?Ah,mypoorlover-cousin,won'tyoucatchitnow?'Andshelaughedhalf-
pityingly.'Butwhat'sthematter?'sheasked,turningtoherhusband.
'Itisnothe!'saidtheDukehoarsely.'Itcan'tbehe!'
'No,itisnothe.Itistoosmallforhim.Itisaboy.'
'Ah,Ithoughtso!Boy,comehere.'
Theyouthfulshepherdadvancedwithapprehension.
'Whatareyoudoinghere?'
'Keepingsheep,yourGrace.'
'Ah,youknowme!Doyoukeepsheephereeverynight?'
'Offandon,myLordDuke.'
'Andwhathaveyouseenhereto-nightorlastnight?'inquiredtheDuchess.'Anypersonwaitingorwalkingabout?'
Theboywassilent.
'Hehasseennothing,'interruptedherhusband,hiseyessoforbiddinglyfixedontheboythattheyseemedtoshinelikepointsoffire.'Come,letusgo.Theairistookeentostandinlong.'
Whentheyweregonetheboyretreatedtothehutandsheep,lessfearfulnowthanatfirst——familiaritywiththesituationhavinggraduallyoverpoweredhisthoughtsoftheburiedman.Buthewasnottobeleftalonelong.WhenanintervalhadelapsedofaboutsufficientlengthforwalkingtoandfromShakeforestTowers,thereappearedfromthatdirectiontheheavyformoftheDuke.Henowcamealone.
Thenobleman,onhispart,seemedtohaveeyesnolesssharpthantheboy's,forheinstantlyrecognizedthelatteramongtheewes,andcamestraighttowardshim.
'AreyoutheshepherdladIspoketoashorttimeago?'
'Ibe,myLordDuke.'
'Nowlistentome.HerGraceaskedyouwhatyouhadseenthislastnightortwouphere,andyoumadenoreply.Inowaskthesamething,andyouneednotbeafraidtoanswer.Haveyouseenanythingstrangethesenightsyouhavebeenwatchinghere?'
'MyLordDuke,Ibeapoorheedlessboy,andwhatIseeIdon'tbearinmind.'
'Iaskyouagain,'saidtheDuke,comingnearer,'haveyouseenanythingstrangethesenightsyouhavebeenwatchinghere?'
'O,myLordDuke!Ibebuttheunder-shepherdboy,andmyfatherhewasbutyourhumbleGrace'shedger,andmymotheronlythecinder-
womanintheback-yard!Ifallasleepwhenleftalone,andIseenothingatall!'
TheDukegraspedtheboybytheshoulder,and,directlyimpendingoverhim,stareddownintohisface,'Didyouseeanythingstrangedoneherelastnight,Isay?'
'O,myLordDuke,havemercy,anddon'tstabme!'criedtheshepherd,fallingonhisknees.'Ihaveneverseenyouwalkinghere,orridinghere,orlying-in-waitforaman,ordraggingaheavyload!'
'H'm!'saidhisinterrogator,grimly,relaxinghishold.'Itiswelltoknowthatyouhaveneverseenthosethings.Now,whichwouldyourather——SEEMEDOTHOSETHINGSNOW,orkeepasecretallyourlife?'
'Keepasecret,myLordDuke!'
'Sureyouareable?'
'O,yourGrace,tryme!'
'Verywell.Andnow,howdoyoulikesheep-keeping?'
'Notatall.'Tislonelyworkforthemthatthinkofspirits,andI'mbadlyused.'
'Ibelieveyou.Youaretooyoungforit.Imustdosomethingtomakeyoumorecomfortable.Youshallchangethissmock-frockforarealclothjacket,andyourthickbootsforpolishedshoes.Andyoushallbetaughtwhatyouhaveneveryetheardof;andbeputtoschool,andhavebatsandballsfortheholidays,andbemadeamanof.Butyoumustneversayyouhavebeenashepherdboy,andwatchedonthehillsatnight,forshepherdboysarenotlikedingoodcompany.
'Trustme,myLordDuke.'
'Theverymomentyouforgetyourself,andspeakofyourshepherddays——thisyear,nextyear,inschool,outofschool,orridinginyourcarriagetwentyyearshence——atthatmomentmyhelpwillbewithdrawn,andsmashdownyoucometoshepherdingforthwith.Youhaveparents,Ithinkyousay?'
'Awidowedmotheronly,myLordDuke.'
'I'llprovideforher,andmakeacomfortablewomanofher,untilyouspeakof——what?'
'Ofmyshepherddays,andwhatIsawhere.'
'Good.Ifyoudospeakofit?'
'Smashdownshecomestowidowingforthwith!'
'That'swell——verywell.Butit'snotenough.Comehere.'Hetooktheboyacrosstothetrilithon,andmadehimkneeldown.
'Now,thiswasonceaholyplace,'resumedtheDuke.'Analtarstoodhere,erectedtoavenerablefamilyofgods,whowereknownandtalkedoflongbeforetheGodweknownow.Sothatanoathswornhereisdoublyanoath.Saythisafterme:"Mayallthehostabove——
angelsandarchangels,andprincipalitiesandpowers——punishme;mayIbetormentedwhereverIam——inthehouseorinthegarden,inthefieldsorintheroads,inchurchorinchapel,athomeorabroad,onlandoratsea;mayIbeafflictedineatingandindrinking,ingrowingupandingrowingold,inlivinganddying,inwardlyandoutwardly,andforalways,ifIeverspeakofmylifeasashepherdboy,orofwhatIhaveseendoneonthisMarlburyDown.Sobeit,andsoletitbe.Amenandamen."Nowkissthestone.'
Thetremblingboyrepeatedthewords,andkissedthestone,asdesired.
TheDukeledhimoffbythehand.ThatnightthejuniorshepherdsleptinShakeforestTowers,andthenextdayhewassentawayfortuitiontoaremotevillage.Thencehewenttoapreparatoryestablishment,andinduecoursetoapublicschool.
FOURTHNIGHT
Onawintereveningmanyyearssubsequenttotheabove-mentionedoccurrences,theci-devantshepherdsatinawell-furnishedofficeinthenorthwingofShakeforestTowersintheguiseofanordinaryeducatedmanofbusiness.Heappearedatthistimeasapersonofthirty-eightorforty,thoughactuallyhewasseveralyearsyounger.
Awornandrestlessglanceoftheeyenowandthen,whenheliftedhisheadtosearchforsomeletterorpaperwhichhadbeenmislaid,seemedtodenotethathiswasnotamindsothoroughlyateaseashissurroundingsmighthaveledanobservertoexpect.
Hispallor,too,wasremarkableforacountryman.Hewasprofessedlyengagedinwriting,butheshapednotword.Hehadsatthereonlyafewminutes,when,layingdownhispenandpushingbackhischair,herestedahanduneasilyoneachofthechair-armsandlookedonthefloor.
Soonhearoseandlefttheroom.Hiscoursewasalongapassagewhichendedinacentraloctagonalhall;crossingthisheknockedatadoor.Afaint,thoughdeep,voicetoldhimtocomein.Theroomheenteredwasthelibrary,anditwastenantedbyasinglepersononly——hispatrontheDuke.
DuringthislongintervalofyearstheDukehadlostallhisheavinessofbuild.Hewas,indeed,almostaskeleton;hiswhitehairwasthin,andhishandswerenearlytransparent.'Oh——Mills?'
hemurmured.'Sitdown.Whatisit?'
'Nothingnew,yourGrace.Nobodytospeakofhaswritten,andnobodyhascalled.'
'Ah——whatthen?Youlookconcerned.'
'Oldtimeshavecometolife,owingtosomethingwakingthem.'
'Oldtimesbecursed——whicholdtimesarethey?'
'ThatChristmasweektwenty-twoyearsago,whenthelateDuchess'scousinFrederickimploredhertomeethimonMarlburyDowns.Isawthemeeting——itwasjustsuchanightasthis——andI,asyouknow,sawmore.Shemethimonce,butnotthesecondtime.'
'Mills,shallIrecallsomewordstoyou——thewordsofanoathtakenonthathillbyashepherd-boy?'
'Itisunnecessary.Hehasstrenuouslykeptthatoathandpromise.
Sincethatnightnosoundofhisshepherdlifehascrossedhislips——
eventoyourself.Butdoyouwishtohearmore,ordoyounot,yourGrace?'
'Iwishtohearnomore,'saidtheDukesullenly.
'Verywell;letitbeso.Butatimeseemscoming——maybequitenearathand——when,inspiteofmylips,thatepisodewillallowitselftogoundivulgednolonger.'
'Iwishtohearnomore!'repeatedtheDuke.
'Youneedbeundernofearoftreacheryfromme,'saidthesteward,somewhatbitterly.'Iamamantowhomyouhavebeenkind——nopatroncouldhavebeenkinder.Youhaveclothedandeducatedme;haveinstalledmehere;andIamnotunmindful.Butwhatofit——hasyourGracegainedmuchbymystanchness?Ithinknot.TherewasgreatexcitementaboutCaptainOgbourne'sdisappearance,butIspokenotaword.Andhisbodyhasneverbeenfound.Fortwenty-twoyearsI
havewonderedwhatyoudidwithhim.NowIknow.Acircumstancethatoccurredthisafternoonrecalledthetimetomemostforcibly.
Tomakeitcertaintomyselfthatallwasnotadream,Iwentuptherewithaspade;Isearched,andsawenoughtoknowthatsomethingdecaysthereinaclosedbadger'shole.'
'Mills,doyouthinktheDuchessguessed?'
'Sheneverdid,Iamsure,tothedayofherdeath.'
'Didyouleaveallasyoufounditonthehill?'
'Idid.'
'Whatmadeyouthinkofgoinguptherethisparticularafternoon?'
'WhatyourGracesaysyoudon'twishtobetold.'
TheDukewassilent;andthestillnessoftheeveningwassomarkedthattherereachedtheirearsfromtheouterairthesoundofatollingbell.
'Whatisthatbelltollingfor?'askedthenobleman.
'ForwhatIcametotellyouof,yourGrace.'
'Youtormentmeitisyourway!'saidtheDukequerulously.'Who'sdeadinthevillage?'
'Theoldestman——theoldshepherd.'
'Deadatlast——howoldishe?'
'Ninety-four.'
'AndIamonlyseventy.Ihavefour-and-twentyyearstothegood!'
'IservedunderthatoldmanwhenIkeptsheeponMarlburyDowns.
Andhewasonthehillthatsecondnight,whenIfirstexchangedwordswithyourGrace.Hewasonthehillallthetime;butIdidnotknowhewasthere——nordidyou.'
'Ah!'saidtheDuke,startingup.'Goon——Iyieldthepoint——youmaytell!'
'Iheardthisafternoonthathewasatthepointofdeath.Itwasthatwhichsetmethinkingofthatpasttime——andinducedmetosearchonthehillforwhatIhavetoldyou.ComingbackIheardthathewishedtoseetheVicartoconfesstohimasecrethehadkeptformorethantwentyyears——"outofrespecttomyLordtheDuke"——somethingthathehadseencommittedonMarlburyDownswhenreturningtotheflockonaDecembernighttwenty-twoyearsago.I
havethoughtitover.Hehadleftmeinchargethatevening;buthewasinthehabitofcomingbacksuddenly,lestIshouldhavefallenasleep.ThatnightIsawnothingofhim,thoughhehadpromisedtoreturn.Hemusthavereturned,and——foundreasontokeepinhiding.
Itisallplain.ThenextthingisthattheVicarwenttohimtwohoursago.FurtherthanthatIhavenotheard.'
'Itisquiteenough.IwillseetheVicaratdaybreakto-morrow.'
'Whattodo?'
'Stophistongueforfour-and-twentyyears——tillIamdeadatninety-
four,liketheshepherd.'
'YourGrace——whileyouimposesilenceonme,Iwillnotspeak,eventhoughnayneckshouldpaythepenalty.Ipromisedtobeyours,andIamyours.Butisthispersistenceofanyavail?'
'I'llstophistongue,Isay!'criedtheDukewithsomeofhisoldruggedforce.'Now,yougohometobed,Mills,andleavemetomanagehim.'
Theinterviewended,andthestewardwithdrew.Thenight,ashehadsaid,wasjustsuchanoneasthenightoftwenty-twoyearsbefore,andtheeventsoftheeveningdestroyedinhimallregardfortheseasonasoneofcheerfulnessandgoodwill.Hewentofftohisownhouseonthefurthervergeofthepark,whereheledalonelylife,scarcelycallinganymanfriend.Atelevenhepreparedtoretiretobed——butdidnotretire.Hesatdownandreflected.Twelveo'clockstruck;helookedoutatthecolourlessmoon,and,promptedbyheknewnotwhat,putonhishatandemergedintotheair.HereWilliamMillsstrolledonandon,tillhereachedthetopofMarlburyDowns,aspothehadnotvisitedatthishourofthenightduringthewholescore-and-oddyears.
Heplacedhimself,asnearlyashecouldguess,onthespotwheretheshepherd'shuthadstood.Nolambingwasinprogresstherenow,andtheoldshepherdwhohadusedhimsoroughlyhadceasedfromhislaboursthatveryday.Butthetrilithonstoodupwhiteasever;
and,crossingtheinterveningsward,thestewardfancifullyplacedhismouthagainstthestone.Restlessandself-reproachfulashewas,hecouldnotresistasmileashethoughtoftheterrifyingoathofcompact,sealedbyakissuponthestonesofaPagantemple.Buthehadkepthisword,ratherasapromisethanasaformalvow,withmuchworldlyadvantagetohimself,thoughnotmuchhappiness;tillincreaseofyearshadbredreactionaryfeelingswhichledhimtoreceivethenewsofto-nightwithemotionsakintorelief.
WhileleaningagainsttheDevil'sDoorandthinkingonthesethings,hebecameconsciousthathewasnottheonlyinhabitantofthedown.
Afigureinwhitewasmovingacrosshisfrontwithlong,noiselessstrides.Millsstoodmotionless,andwhentheformdrewquitenearheperceivedittobethatoftheDukehimselfinhisnightshirt——
apparentlywalkinginhissleep.Nottoalarmtheoldman,Millsclungclosetotheshadowofthestone.TheDukewentstraightonintothehollow.Therehekneltdown,andbeganscratchingtheearthwithhishandslikeabadger.Afterafewminuteshearose,sighedheavily,andretracedhisstepsashehadcome.
Fearingthathemightharmhimself,yetunwillingtoarousehim,thestewardfollowednoiselessly.TheDukekeptonhispathunerringly,enteredthepark,andmadeforthehouse,wherehelethimselfinbyawindowthatstoodopen——theoneprobablybywhichhehadcomeout.
Millssoftlyclosedthewindowbehindhispatron,andthenretiredhomewardtoawaittherevelationsofthemorning,deemingitunnecessarytoalarmthehouse.
However,hefeltuneasyduringtheremainderofthenight,nolessonaccountoftheDuke'spersonalconditionthanbecauseofthatwhichwasimminentnextday.EarlyinthemorninghecalledatShakeforestTowers.Theblindsweredown,andtherewassomethingsingularupontheporter'sfacewhenheopenedthedoor.ThestewardinquiredfortheDuke.
Theman'svoicewassubduedashereplied:'Sir,IamsorrytosaythathisGraceisdead!Helefthisroomsometimeinthenight,andwanderedaboutnobodyknowswhere.Onreturningtotheupperfloorhelosthisbalanceandfelldownstairs.'
ThestewardtoldthetaleoftheDownbeforetheVicarhadspoken.
MillshadalwaysintendedtodosoafterthedeathoftheDuke.Theconsequencestohimselfheunderwentcheerfully;buthislifewasnotprolonged.Hedied,afarmerattheCape,whenstillsomewhatunderforty-nineyearsofage.
ThesplendidMarlburybreedingflockisasrenownedasever,and,totheeye,seemsthesameineveryparticularthatitwasinearliertimes;buttheanimalswhichcomposeditontheoccasionoftheeventsgatheredfromtheJusticearedividedbymanyovinegenerationsfromitsmembersnow.LambingCornerhaslongsinceceasedtobeusedforlambingpurposes,thoughthenamestilllingersonastheappellationofthespot.Thisabandonmentofsitemaybepartlyowingtotheremovalofthehighfurzebusheswhichlentsuchconvenientshelteratthatdate.Partly,too,itmaybeduetoanothercircumstance.ForitissaidbypresentshepherdsinthatdistrictthatduringthenightsofChristmasweekflittingshapesareseenintheopenspacearoundthetrilithon,togetherwiththegleamofaweapon,andtheshadowofamandraggingaburdenintothehollow.Butofthesethingsthereisnocertaintestimony.
Christmas1881.
ACOMMITTEE-MANOF'THETERROR'
WehadbeentalkingoftheGeorgiangloriesofourold-fashionedwatering-place,whichnow,withitssubstantialrusset-redanddunbrickbuildingsinthestyleoftheyeareighteenhundred,lookslikeonesideofaSohoorBloomsburyStreettransportedtotheshore,anddrawsasmilefromthemoderntouristwhohasnoeyeforsolidityofbuild.Thewriter,quiteayouth,waspresentmerelyasalistener.
Theconversationproceededfromgeneralsubjectstoparticular,untiloldMrs.H——,whosememorywasasperfectateightyasithadeverbeeninherlife,interestedusallbytheobviousfidelitywithwhichsherepeatedastorymanytimesrelatedtoherbyhermotherwhenouragedfriendwasagirl——adomesticdramamuchaffectingthelifeofanacquaintanceofhersaidparent,oneMademoiselleV——,ateacherofFrench.Theincidentsoccurredinthetownduringtheheydayofitsfortunes,atthetimeofourbriefpeacewithFrancein1802-3.
'Iwroteitdownintheshapeofastorysomeyearsago,justaftermymother'sdeath,'saidMrs.H.'Itislockedupinmydesktherenow.'
'Readit!'saidwe.
'No,'saidshe;'thelightisbad,andIcanrememberitwellenough,wordforword,flourishesandall.'Wecouldnotbechoosersinthecircumstances,andshebegan.
'Therearetwoinit,ofcourse,themanandthewoman,anditwasonaneveninginSeptemberthatshefirstgottoknowhim.TherehadnotbeensuchagrandgatheringontheEsplanadealltheseason.HisMajestyKingGeorgetheThirdwaspresent,withalltheprincessesandroyaldukes,whileupwardsofthreehundredofthegeneralnobilityandotherpersonsofdistinctionwerealsointhetownatthetime.CarriagesandotherconveyanceswerearrivingeveryminutefromLondonandelsewhere;andwhenamongtherestashabbystage-
coachcameinbyaby-routealongthecoastfromHavenpool,anddrewupatasecond-ratetavern,itattractedcomparativelylittlenotice.
'Fromthisdustyvehicleamanalighted,lefthissmallquantityofluggagetemporarilyattheoffice,andwalkedalongthestreetasiftolookforlodgings.
'Hewasaboutforty-five——possiblyfifty——andworealongcoatoffadedsuperfinecloth,withaheavycollar,andahunched-upneckcloth.Heseemedtodesireobscurity.
'Butthedisplayappearedpresentlytostrikehim,andheaskedofarustichemetinthestreetwhatwasgoingon;hisaccentbeingthatofonetowhomEnglishpronunciationwasdifficult.
'Thecountrymanlookedathimwithaslightsurprise,andsaid,"KingJargeishereandhisroyalCwort."
'Thestrangerinquirediftheyweregoingtostaylong.
'"Don'tknow,Sir.Sameastheyalwaysdo,Isuppose."
'"Howlongisthat?"
'"TillsometimeinOctober.They'vecomehereeverysummersinceeighty-nine."
'ThestrangermovedonwarddownSt.ThomasStreet,andapproachedthebridgeovertheharbourbackwater,thatthen,asnow,connectedtheoldtownwiththemoremodernportion.Thespotwassweptwiththeraysofalowsun,whichlituptheharbourlengthwise,andshoneunderthebrimoftheman'shatandintohiseyesashelookedwestward.Againsttheradiancefigureswerecrossingintheoppositedirectiontohisown;amongthemthisladyofmymother'slateracquaintance,MademoiselleV.ShewasthedaughterofagoodoldFrenchfamily,andatthatdateapalewoman,twenty-eightorthirtyyearsofage,tallandelegantinfigure,butplainlydressedandwearingthateveningshesaidasmallmuslinshawlcrossedoverthebosominthefashionofthetime,andtiedbehind.
'Atsightofhisface,which,assheusedtotellus,wasunusuallydistinctinthepeeringsunlight,shecouldnothelpgivingalittleshriekofhorror,foraterriblereasonconnectedwithherhistory,andafterwalkingafewstepsfurther,shesankdownagainsttheparapetofthebridgeinafaintingfit.
'Inhispreoccupationtheforeigngentlemanhadhardlynoticedher,butherstrangecollapseimmediatelyattractedhisattention.Hequicklycrossedthecarriageway,pickedherup,andcarriedherintothefirstshopadjoiningthebridge,explainingthatshewasaladywhohadbeentakenilloutside.
'Shesoonrevived;but,clearlymuchpuzzled,herhelperperceivedthatshestillhadadreadofhimwhichwassufficienttohinderhercompleterecoveryofself-command.Shespokeinaquickandnervouswaytotheshopkeeper,askinghimtocallacoach.
'Thistheshopkeeperdid,MademoiselleV——andthestrangerremaininginconstrainedsilencewhilehewasgone.Thecoachcameup,andgivingthemantheaddress,sheentereditanddroveaway.
'"Whoisthatlady?"saidthenewlyarrivedgentleman.
'"She'sofyournation,asIshouldmakeboldtosuppose,"saidtheshopkeeper.AndhetoldtheotherthatshewasMademoiselleV——,governessatGeneralNewbold's,inthesametown.
'"Youhavemanyforeignershere?"thestrangerinquired.
'"Yes,thoughmostlyHanoverians.ButsincethepeacetheyarelearningFrenchagooddealingenteelsociety,andFrenchinstructorsareratherindemand."
'"Yes,Iteachit,"saidthevisitor."Iamlookingforatutorshipinanacademy."
'TheinformationgivenbytheburgesstotheFrenchmanseemedtoexplaintothelatternothingofhiscountrywoman'sconduct——which,indeed,wasthecase——andhelefttheshop,takinghiscourseagainoverthebridgeandalongthesouthquaytotheOldRoomsInn,whereheengagedabedchamber.
'Thoughtsofthewomanwhohadbetrayedsuchagitationatsightofhimlingerednaturallyenoughwiththenewcomer.Though,asI
stated,notmuchlessthanthirtyyearsofage,MademoiselleV——,oneofhisownnation,andofhighlyrefinedanddelicateappearance,hadkindledasingularinterestinthemiddle-agedgentleman'sbreast,andherlargedarkeyes,astheyhadopenedandshrunkfromhim,exhibitedapatheticbeautytowhichhardlyanymancouldhavebeeninsensible.
'Thenextday,havingwrittensomeletters,hewentoutandmadeknownattheofficeofthetown"Guide"andofthenewspaper,thatateacherofFrenchandcalligraphyhadarrived,leavingacardatthebookseller'stothesameeffect.Hethenwalkedonaimlessly,butatlengthinquiredthewaytoGeneralNewbold's.Atthedoor,withoutgivinghisname,heaskedtoseeMademoiselleV——,andwasshownintoalittlebackparlour,whereshecametohimwithagazeofsurprise.
'"MyGod!Whydoyouintrudehere,Monsieur?"shegaspedinFrenchassoonasshesawhisface.
'"Youweretakenillyesterday.Ihelpedyou.YoumighthavebeenrunoverifIhadnotpickedyouup.Itwasanactofsimplehumanitycertainly;butIthoughtImightcometoaskifyouhadrecovered?"
'Shehadturnedaside,andhadscarcelyheardawordofhisspeech.
"Ihateyou,infamousman!"shesaid."Icannotbearyourhelpingme.Goaway!"
'"Butyouareastrangertome."
'"Iknowyoutoowell!"
'"Youhavetheadvantagethen,Mademoiselle.Iamanewcomerhere.
Ineverhaveseenyoubeforetomyknowledge;andIcertainlydonot,couldnot,hateyou."
'"AreyounotMonsieurB——?"
'Heflinched."Iam——inParis,"hesaid."ButhereIamMonsieurG.
"
'"Thatistrivial.YouarethemanIsayyouare."
'"Howdidyouknowmyrealname,Mademoiselle?"
'"Isawyouinyearsgoneby,whenyoudidnotseeme.YouwereformerlyMemberoftheCommitteeofPublicSafety,undertheConvention."
"Iwas."
'"Youguillotinedmyfather,mybrother,myuncle——allmyfamily,nearly,andbrokemymother'sheart.Theyhaddonenothingbutkeepsilence.Theirsentimentswereonlyguessed.TheirheadlesscorpseswerethrownindiscriminatelyintotheditchoftheMousseauxCemetery,anddestroyedwithlime."
'Henodded.
'"Youleftmewithoutafriend,andhereIamnow,aloneinaforeignland."
'"Iamsorryforyou,"saidbe."Sorryfortheconsequence,notfortheintent.WhatIdidwasamatterofconscience,and,fromapointofviewindiscerniblebyyou,Ididright.Iprofitednotafarthing.ButIshallnotarguethis.Youhavethesatisfactionofseeingmehereanexilealso,inpoverty,betrayedbycomrades,asfriendlessasyourself."
'"Itisnosatisfactiontome,Monsieur."
'"Well,thingsdonecannotbealtered.Nowthequestion:areyouquiterecovered?"
'"Notfromdislikeanddreadofyou——otherwise,yes."
'"Goodmorning,Mademoiselle."
'"Goodmorning."
'Theydidnotmeetagaintilloneeveningatthetheatrewhichmymother'sfriendwaswithgreatdifficultyinducedtofrequent,toperfectherselfinEnglishpronunciation,theideasheentertainedatthattimebeingtobecomeateacherofEnglishinherowncountrylateron.Shefoundhimsittingnexttoher,anditmadeherpaleandrestless.
'"Youarestillafraidofme?"
'"Iam.Ocannotyouunderstand!"
'Hesignifiedtheaffirmative.
'"Ifollowtheplaywithdifficulty,"hesaid,presently.
'"SodoI——NOW,"saidshe.
'Heregardedherlong,andshewasconsciousofhislook;andwhileshekepthereyesonthestagetheyfilledwithtears.Stillshewouldnotmove,andthetearsranvisiblydownhercheek,thoughtheplaywasamerryone,beingnootherthanMr.Sheridan'scomedyof"TheRivals,"withMr.S.KembleasCaptainAbsolute.Hesawherdistress,andthathermindwaselsewhere;andabruptlyrisingfromhisseatatcandle-snuffingtimeheleftthetheatre.
'Thoughhelivedintheoldtown,andsheinthenew,theyfrequentlysaweachotheratadistance.Oneoftheseoccasionswaswhenshewasonthenorthsideoftheharbour,bytheferry,waitingfortheboattotakeheracross.HewasstandingbyCoveRow,onthequayopposite.Insteadofenteringtheboatwhenitarrivedshesteppedbackfromthequay;butlookingtoseeifheremainedshebeheldhimpointingwithhisfingertotheferry-boat.
'"Enter!"hesaid,inavoiceloudenoughtoreachher.
'MademoiselleV——stoodstill.
'"Enter!"hesaid,and,asshedidnotmove,herepeatedthewordathirdtime.
'Shehadreallybeengoingtocross,andnowapproachedandsteppeddownintotheboat.Thoughshedidnotraisehereyessheknewthathewaswatchingherover.Atthelandingstepsshesawfromunderthebrimofherhatahandstretcheddown.Thestepsweresteepandslippery.
'"No,Monsieur,"shesaid."Unless,indeed,youbelieveinGod,andrepentofyourevilpast!"
'"Iamsorryyouweremadetosuffer.ButIonlybelieveinthegodcalledReason,andIdonotrepent.Iwastheinstrumentofanationalprinciple.Yourfriendswerenotsacrificedforanyendsofmine."
'Shethereuponwithheldherhand,andclamberedupunassisted.Hewenton,ascendingtheLook-outHill,anddisappearingoverthebrow.
Herwaywasinthesamedirection,hererrandbeingtobringhomethetwoyounggirlsunderhercharge,whohadgonetothecliffforanairing.Whenshejoinedthematthetopshesawhissolitaryfigureatthefurtheredge,standingmotionlessagainstthesea.Allthewhilethatsheremainedwithherpupilshestoodwithoutturning,asiflookingatthefrigatesintheroadstead,butmoreprobablyinmeditation,unconsciouswherehewas.Inleavingthespotoneofthechildrenthrewawayhalfasponge-biscuitthatshehadbeeneating.
Passingnearithestooped,pickeditupcarefully,andputitinhispocket.
'MademoiselleV——camehomeward,askingherself,"Canhebestarving?"
'Fromthatdayhewasinvisibleforsolongatimethatshethoughthehadgoneawayaltogether.Butoneeveninganotecametoher,andsheopenedittrembling.
'"Iamhereill,"itsaid,"and,asyouknow,alone.ThereareoneortwolittlethingsIwantdone,incasemydeathshouldoccur,——andIshouldprefernottoaskthepeoplehere,ifitcouldbeavoided.
Haveyouenoughofthegiftofcharitytocomeandcarryoutmywishesbeforeitistoolate?"
'Nowsoitwasthat,sinceseeinghimpossesshimselfofthebrokencake,shehadinsensiblybeguntofeelsomethingthatwasmorethancuriosity,thoughperhapslessthananxiety,aboutthisfellow-
countrymanofhers;anditwasnotinhernervousandsensitivehearttoresisthisappeal.ShefoundhislodgingtowhichhehadremovedfromtheOldRoomsinnforeconomytobearoomoverashop,half-
wayupthesteepandnarrowstreetoftheoldtown,towhichthefashionablevisitorsseldompenetrated.Withsomemisgivingsheenteredthehouse,andwasadmittedtothechamberwherehelay.
'"Youaretoogood,toogood,"hemurmured.Andpresently,"Youneednotshutthedoor.Youwillfeelsafer,andtheywillnotunderstandwhatwesay."
'"Areyouinwant,Monsieur?CanIgiveyou——"
'"No,no.ImerelywantyoutodoatriflingthingortwothatI
havenotstrengthenoughtodomyself.NobodyinthetownbutyouknowswhoIreallyam——unlessyouhavetold?"
'"IhavenottoldIthoughtyouMIGHThaveactedfromprincipleinthosesaddays,even——"
'"Youarekindtoconcedethatmuch.However,tothepresent.IwasabletodestroymyfewpapersbeforeIbecamesoweakButinthedrawerthereyouwillfindsomepiecesoflinenclothing——onlytwoorthree——markedwithinitialsthatmayberecognized.Willyouripthemoutwithapenknife?"
'Shesearchedasbidden,foundthegarments,cutoutthestitchesofthelettering,andreplacedthelinenasbefore.Apromisetopost,intheeventofhisdeath,aletterheputinherhand,completedallthatherequiredofher.
'Hethankedher."Ithinkyouseemsorryforme,"hemurmured."AndIamsurprised.Youaresorry?"
'Sheevadedthequestion."Doyourepentandbelieve?"sheasked.
'"No."
'Contrarytoherexpectationsandhisownherecovered,thoughveryslowly;andhermannergrewmoredistantthenceforward,thoughhisinfluenceuponherwasdeeperthansheknew.Weekspassedaway,andthemonthofMayarrived.Onedayatthistimeshemethimwalkingslowlyalongthebeachtothenorthward.
'"Youknowthenews?"hesaid.
'"YoumeanoftherupturebetweenFranceandEnglandagain?"
'"Yes;andthefeelingofantagonismisstrongerthanitwasinthelastwar,owingtoBonaparte'shigh-handedarrestoftheinnocentEnglishwhoweretravellinginourcountryforpleasure.Ifeelthatthewarwillbelongandbitter;andthatmywishtoliveunknowninEnglandwillbefrustrated.Seehere."
'Hetookfromhispocketapieceofthesinglenewspaperwhichcirculatedinthecountyinthosedays,andsheread-
"ThemagistratesactingundertheAlienActhavebeenrequestedtodirectaveryscrutinizingeyetotheAcademiesinourtownsandotherplaces,inwhichFrenchtutorsareemployed,andtoallofthatnationalitywhoprofesstobeteachersinthiscountry.ManyofthemareknowntobeinveterateEnemiesandTraitorstothenationamongwhosepeopletheyhavefoundalivelihoodandahome."
'Hecontinued:"Ihaveobservedsincethedeclarationofwaramarkeddifferenceintheconductoftherougherclassofpeopleheretowardsme.Ifagreatbattleweretooccur——asitsoonwill,nodoubt——feelingwouldgrowtoapitchthatwouldmakeitimpossibleforme,adisguisedmanofnoknownoccupation,tostayhere.Withyou,whosedutiesandantecedentsareknown,itmaybelessdifficult,butstillunpleasant.NowIproposethis.Youhaveprobablyseenhowmydeepsympathywithyouhasquickenedtoawarmfeeling;andwhatIsayis,willyouagreetogivemeatitletoprotectyoubyhonouringmewithyourhand?Iamolderthanyou,itistrue,butashusbandandwifewecanleaveEnglandtogether,andmakethewholeworldourcountry.ThoughIwouldproposeQuebec,inCanada,astheplacewhichoffersthebestpromiseofahome."
'"MyGod!Yousurpriseme!"saidshe.
'"Butyouacceptmyproposal?"
'"No,no!"
'"AndyetIthinkyouwill,Mademoiselle,someday!"
'"Ithinknot."
'"Iwon'tdistressyoufurthernow."
'"MuchthanksIamgladtoseeyoulookingbetter,Monsieur;I
meanyouarelookingbetter."
'"Ah,yes.Iamimproving.Iwalkinthesuneveryday."
'Andalmosteverydayshesawhim——sometimesnoddingstifflyonly,sometimesexchangingformalcivilities."Youarenotgoneyet,"shesaidononeoftheseoccasions.
'"No.AtpresentIdon'tthinkofgoingwithoutyou."
'"Butyoufindituncomfortablehere?"
'"Somewhat.Sowhenwillyouhavepityonme?"
'Sheshookherheadandwentonherway.Yetshewasalittlemoved.
"Hediditonprinciple,"shewouldmurmur."Hehadnoanimositytowardsthem,andprofitednothing!"
'Shewonderedhowhelived.Itwasevidentthathecouldnotbesopoorasshehadthought;hispretendedpovertymightbetoescapenotice.Shecouldnottell,butsheknewthatshewasdangerouslyinterestedinhim.
'Andhestillmended,tillhisthin,palefacebecamemorefullandfirm.Ashemendedshehadtomeetthatrequestofhis,advancedwithevenstrongerinsistency.
'ThearrivaloftheKingandCourtfortheseasonasusualbroughtmatterstoaclimaxforthesetwolonelyexilesandfellowcountry-
people.TheKing'sawkwardpreferenceforapartofthecoastinsuchdangerousproximitytoFrancemadeitnecessarythatastrictmilitaryvigilanceshouldbeexercisedtoguardtheroyalresidents.
Half-a-dozenfrigateswereeverynightpostedinalineacrossthebay,andtwolinesofsentinels,oneatthewater'sedgeandanotherbehindtheEsplanade,occupiedthewholesea-frontaftereighteverynight.Thewatering-placewasgrowinganinconvenientresidenceevenforMademoiselleV——herself,herfriendshipforthisstrangeFrenchtutorandwriting-masterwhoneverhadanypupilshavingbeenobservedbymanywhoslightlyknewher.TheGeneral'swife,whosedependentshewas,repeatedlywarnedheragainsttheacquaintance;
whiletheHanoverianandothersoldiersoftheForeignLegion,whohaddiscoveredthenationalityofherfriend,weremoreaggressivethantheEnglishmilitarygallantswhomadeittheirbusinesstonoticeher.
'Inthistensestateofaffairsheranswersbecamemoreagitated."O
Heaven,howcanImarryyou!"shewouldsay.
'"Youwill;surelyyouwill!"heansweredagain."Idon'tleavewithoutyou.AndIshallsoonbeinterrogatedbeforethemagistratesifIstayhere;probablyimprisoned.Youwillcome?"
'Shefeltherdefencesbreakingdown.Contrarytoallreasonandsenseoffamilyhonourshewas,bysomeabnormalcraving,incliningtoatendernessforhimthatwasfoundedonitsopposite.Sometimesherwarmsentimentsburntlowerthanatothers,andthentheenormityofherconductshoweditselfinmorestaringhues.
'Shortlyafterthishecamewitharesignedlookonhisface."ItisasIexpected,"hesaid."Ihavereceivedahinttogo.Ingoodsooth,IamnoBonapartist——IamnoenemytoEngland;butthepresenceoftheKingmadeitimpossibleforaforeignerwithnovisibleoccupation,andwhomaybeaspy,toremainatlargeinthetown.Theauthoritiesarecivil,butfirm.Theyarenomorethanreasonable.Good.Imustgo.Youmustcomealso."
'Shedidnotspeak.Butshenoddedassent,hereyesdrooping.
'OnherwaybacktothehouseontheEsplanadeshesaidtoherself,"Iamglad,Iamglad!Icouldnotdootherwise.Itisrenderinggoodforevil!"Butsheknewhowshemockedherselfinthis,andthatthemoralprinciplehadnotoperatedonejotinheracceptanceofhim.Intruthshehadnotrealizedtillnowthefullpresenceoftheemotionwhichhadunconsciouslygrownupinherforthislonelyandsevereman,who,inhertradition,wasvengeanceandirreligionpersonified.Heseemedtoabsorbherwholenature,and,absorbing,tocontrolit.
'AdayortwobeforetheonefixedfortheweddingtherechancedtocometoheraletterfromtheonlyacquaintanceofherownsexandcountryshepossessedinEngland,onetowhomshehadsentintelligenceofherapproachingmarriage,withoutmentioningwithwhom.Thisfriend'smisfortuneshadbeensomewhatsimilartoherown,whichfacthadbeenonecauseoftheirintimacy;herfriend'ssister,anunoftheAbbeyofMontmartre,havingperishedonthescaffoldatthehandsofthesameComitedeSalutPublicwhichhadnumberedMademoiselleV——'saffiancedamongitsmembers.Thewriterhadfeltherpositionmuchagainoflate,sincetherenewalofthewar,shesaid;andtheletterwoundupwithafreshdenunciationoftheauthorsoftheirmutualbereavementandsubsequenttroubles.
'Comingjustthen,itscontentsproduceduponMademoiselleV——theeffectofapailofwateruponasomnambulist.Whathadshebeendoinginbetrothingherselftothisman!Wasshenotmakingherselfaparricideaftertheevent?Atthiscrisisinherfeelingsherlovercalled.Hebeheldhertrembling,and,inreplytohisquestion,shetoldhimofherscrupleswithimpulsivecandour.
'Shehadnotintendedtodothis,buthisattitudeoftendercommandcoercedherintofrankness.Thereuponheexhibitedanagitationneverbeforeapparentinhim.Hesaid,"Butallthatispast.YouarethesymbolofCharity,andwearepledgedtoletbygonesbe."
'Hiswordssoothedherforthemoment,butshewassadlysilent,andhewentaway.
'Thatnightshesawasshefirmlybelievedtotheendofherlifeadivinelysentvision.Aprocessionofherlostrelatives——father,brother,uncle,cousin——seemedtocrossherchamberbetweenherbedandthewindow,andwhensheendeavouredtotracetheirfeaturessheperceivedthemtobeheadless,andthatshehadrecognizedthembytheirfamiliarclothesonly.Inthemorningshecouldnotshakeofftheeffectsofthisappearanceonhernerves.Allthatdayshesawnothingofherwooer,hebeingoccupiedinmakingarrangementsfortheirdeparture.Itgrewtowardsevening——themarriageeve;but,inspiteofhisre-assuringvisit,hersenseoffamilydutywaxedstrongernowthatshewasleftalone.Yet,sheaskedherself,howcouldshe,aloneandunprotected,goatthiseleventhhourandreasserttoanaffiancedhusbandthatshecouldnotandwouldnotmarryhimwhileadmittingatthesametimethatshelovedhim?Thesituationdismayedher.Shehadrelinquishedherpostasgoverness,andwasstayingtemporarilyinaroomnearthecoach-office,wheresheexpectedhimtocallinthemorningtocarryoutthebusinessoftheirunionanddeparture.
'Wiselyorfoolishly,MademoiselleV——cametoaresolution:thatheronlysafetylayinflight.Hiscontiguityinfluencedhertoosensibly;shecouldnotreason.Sopackingupherfewpossessionsandplacingonthetablethesmallsumsheowed,shewentoutprivately,securedalastavailableseatintheLondoncoach,and,almostbeforeshehadfullyweighedheraction,shewasrollingoutofthetownintheduskoftheSeptemberevening.
'Havingtakenthisstartlingstepshebegantoreflectuponherreasons.HehadbeenoneofthattragicCommitteethesoundofwhosenamewasahorrortothecivilizedworld;yethehadbeenonlyoneofseveralmembers,and,itseemed,notthemostactive.Hehadmarkeddownnamesonprinciple,hadfeltnopersonalenmityagainsthisvictims,andhadenrichedhimselfnotasououtoftheofficehehadheld.Nothingcouldchangethepast.Meanwhilehelovedher,andherheartinclinedtoasmuchofhimasshecoulddetachfromthatpast.Whynot,ashehadsuggested,burymemories,andinaugurateanewerabythisunion?Inotherwords,whynotindulgehertenderness,sinceitsnullificationcoulddonogood.
'Thussheheldself-communioninherseatinthecoach,passingthroughCasterbridge,andShottsford,andontotheWhiteHartatMelchester,atwhichplacethewholefabricofherrecentintentionscrumbleddown.Betterbestaunchhavinggotsofar;letthingstaketheircourse,andmarryboldlythemanwhohadsoimpressedher.Howgreathewas;howsmallwasshe!Andshehadpresumedtojudgehim!
Abandoningherplaceinthecoachwiththeprecipitancythathadcharacterizedhertakingit,shewaitedtillthevehiclehaddrivenoff,somethinginthedepartingshapesoftheoutsidepassengersagainstthestarlitskygivingherastart,assheafterwardsremembered.Presentlythedowncoach,"TheMorningHerald,"enteredthecity,andshehastilyobtainedaplaceonthetop.
'"I'llbefirm——I'llbehis——ifitcostmemyimmortalsoul!"shesaid.Andwithtroubledbreathingsshejourneyedbackovertheroadshehadjusttraced.
'Shereachedourroyalwatering-placebythetimethedaybroke,andherfirstaimwastogetbacktothehiredroominwhichherlastfewdayshadbeenspent.WhenthelandladyappearedatthedoorinresponsetoMademoiselleV——'snervoussummons,sheexplainedhersuddendepartureandreturnasbestshecould;andnoobjectionbeingofferedtoherre-engagementoftheroomforonedaylongersheascendedtothechamberandsatdownpanting.Shewasbackoncemore,andherwildtergiversationswereasecretfromhimwhomalonetheyconcerned.
'Asealedletterwasonthemantelpiece."Yes,itisdirectedtoyou,Mademoiselle,"saidthewomanwhohadfollowedher."Butwewerewonderingwhattodowithit.Atownmessengerbroughtitafteryouhadgonelastnight."
'Whenthelandladyhadleft,MademoiselleV——openedtheletterandread-
"MYDEARANDHONOUREDFRIEND——Youhavebeenthroughoutouracquaintanceabsolutelycandidconcerningyourmisgivings.ButI
havebeenreservedconcerningmine.Thatisthedifferencebetweenus.Youprobablyhavenotguessedthateveryqualmyouhavefeltonthesubjectofourmarriagehasbeenparalleledinmyhearttothefull.Thusithappenedthatyourinvoluntaryoutburstofremorseyesterday,thoughmechanicallydeprecatedbymeinyourpresence,wasalastiteminmyowndoubtsonthewisdomofourunion,givingthemaforcethatIcouldnolongerwithstand.Icamehome;and,onreflection,muchasIhonourandadoreyou,Idecidetosetyoufree.
"Asonewhoselifehasbeendevoted,andImaysaysacrificed,tothecauseofLiberty,Icannotallowyourjudgmentprobablyapermanentonetobefetteredbeyondreleasebyafeelingwhichmaybetransientonly.
"ItwouldbenolessthanexcruciatingtoboththatIshouldannouncethisdecisiontoyoubywordofmouth.Ihavethereforetakenthelesspainfulcourseofwriting.BeforeyoureceivethisIshallhaveleftthetownbytheeveningcoachforLondon,onreachingwhichcitymymovementswillberevealedtonone.
"Regardme,Mademoiselle,asdead,andacceptmyrenewedassurancesofrespect,remembrance,andaffection."
'Whenshehadrecoveredfromhershockofsurpriseandgrief,sherememberedthatatthestartingofthecoachoutofMelchesterbeforedawn,theshapeofafigureamongtheoutsidepassengersagainstthestarlitskyhadcausedheramomentarystart,fromitsresemblancetothatofherfriend.Knowingnothingofeachother'sintentions,andscreenedfromeachotherbythedarkness,theyhadleftthetownbythesameconveyance."He,thegreater,persevered;I,thesmaller,returned!"shesaid.