首页 >出版文学> A Changed Man and Other Tales>第6章
  'WewereoutintheEastwhenIwrotetohim.Everythinghadseemedtogowrongwithme.Justaftermyletterhadgonewewereorderedhome.That'showitisyouseemehere.AssoonaswegotintobarracksatCasterbridgeIheardo'thisDamnme!I'lldaretofollowmyfather,andmakeawaywithmyself,too.Itistheonlythinglefttodo!'
  'Don'tyeberash,LukeHolway,Isayagain;buttrytomakeamendsbyyourfuturelife.Andmaybeyourfatherwillsmileasmiledownfromheavenupon'eefor't.'
  Heshookhishead.'Idon'tknowaboutthat!'heansweredbitterly.
  'Tryandbeworthyofyourfatherathisbest.'Tisnottoolate.'
  'D'yethinknot?Ifancyitis!Well,I'llturnitover.
  Thankyouforyourgoodcounsel.I'llliveforonething,atanyrate.I'llmovefather'sbodytoadecentChristianchurchyard,ifI
  doitwithmyownhands.Ican'tsavehislife,butIcangivehimanhonourablegrave.Heshan'tlieinthisaccursedplace!'
  'Ay,asourpa'sonsays,'tisabarbarouscustomtheykeepupatSidlinch,andoughttobedoneawaywi'.Themana'oldsoldier,too.Yousee,ourpa'sonisnotlikeyoursatSidlinch.'
  'Hesaysitisbarbarous,doeshe?Soitis!'criedthesoldier.
  'Nowhearken,myfriends.'Thenheproceededtoinquireiftheywouldincreasehisindebtednesstothembyundertakingtheremoval,privately,ofthebodyofthesuicidetothechurchyard,notofSidlinch,aparishhenowhated,butofChalk-Newton.Hewouldgivethemallhepossessedtodoit.
  LotaskedEzraCattstockwhathethoughtofit.
  Cattstock,the'celloplayer,whowasalsothesexton,demurred,andadvisedtheyoungsoldiertosoundtherectoraboutitfirst.'Midbehewouldobject,andyet'amid'nt.Thepa'sono'Sidlinchisahardman,Iownye,and'asaidiffolkwillkilltheirselvesinhotbloodtheymusttaketheconsequences.Butoursdon'tthinklikethatatall,andmightallowit.'
  'What'shisname?'
  'ThehonourableandreverentMr.Oldham,brothertoLordWessex.Butyouneedn'tbeafeardo'enonthataccount.He'lltalkto'eelikeacommonman,ifsobeyouhaven'thadenoughdrinktogie'eebadbreath.'
  'O,thesameasformerly.I'llaskhim.Thankyou.Andthatdutydone——'
  'Whatthen?'
  'There'swarinSpain.Ihearournextmoveisthere.I'lltrytoshowmyselftobewhatmyfatherwishedme.Idon'tsupposeIshall——
  butI'lltryinmyfeebleway.ThatmuchIswear——hereoverhisbody.SohelpmeGod.'
  Lukesmackedhispalmagainstthewhitehand-postwithsuchforcethatitshook.'Yes,there'swarinSpain;andanotherchanceformetobeworthyoffather.'
  Sothematterendedthatnight.Thattheprivateactedinonethingashehadvowedtodosoonbecameapparent,forduringtheChristmasweektherectorcameintothechurchyardwhenCattstockwasthere,andaskedhimtofindaspotthatwouldbesuitableforthepurposeofsuchaninterment,addingthathehadslightlyknownthelatesergeant,andwasnotawareofanylawwhichforbadehimtoassenttotheremoval,theletteroftherulehavingbeenobserved.ButashedidnotwishtoseemmovedbyoppositiontohisneighbouratSidlinch,hehadstipulatedthattheactofcharityshouldbecarriedoutatnight,andasprivatelyaspossible,andthatthegraveshouldbeinanobscurepartoftheenclosure.'Youhadbetterseetheyoungmanaboutitatonce,'addedtherector.
  ButbeforeEzrahaddoneanythingLukecamedowntohishouse.Hisfurloughhadbeencutshort,owingtonewdevelopmentsofthewarinthePeninsula,andbeingobligedtogobacktohisregimentimmediately,hewascompelledtoleavetheexhumationandreintermenttohisfriends.Everythingwaspaidfor,andheimploredthemalltoseeitcarriedoutforthwith.
  Withthisthesoldierleft.ThenextdayEzra,onthinkingthematterover,againwentacrosstotherectory,struckwithsuddenmisgiving.Hehadrememberedthatthesergeanthadbeenburiedwithoutacoffin,andhewasnotsurethatastakehadnotbeendriventhroughhim.Thebusinesswouldbemoretroublesomethantheyhadatfirstsupposed.
  'Yes,indeed!'murmuredtherector.'Iamafraiditisnotfeasibleafterall.'
  Thenexteventwasthearrivalofaheadstonebycarrierfromthenearesttown;tobeleftatMr.EzraCattstock's;allexpensespaid.
  Thesextonandthecarrierdepositedthestoneintheformer'southouse;andEzra,leftalone,putonhisspectaclesandreadthebriefandsimpleinscription:-
  HERELYETHTHEBODYOFSAMUELHOLWAY,LATESERGEANTINHISMAJESTY'S——
  DREGIMENTOFFOOT,WHODEPARTEDTHISLIFEDECEMBERTHE20TH,180.
  ERECTEDBYL.H.
  'IAMNOTWORTHYTOBECALLEDTHYSON.'
  Ezraagaincalledattheriversiderectory.'Thestoneiscome,sir.
  ButI'mafeardwecan'tdoitnohow.'
  'Ishouldliketoobligehim,'saidthegentlemanlyoldincumbent.
  'AndIwouldforegoallfeeswillingly.Still,ifyouandtheothersdon'tthinkyoucancarryitout,Iamindoubtwhattosay.'
  Well,sir;I'vemadeinquiryofaSidlinchwomanastohisburial,andwhatIthoughtseemstrue.Theyburiedenwi'anewsix-foothurdle-sauldrough'sbody,fromthesheep-penupinNorthEweleasethoughtheywon'towntoitnow.Andthequestionis,Isthemovingworthwhile,consideringtheawkwardness?'
  'Haveyouheardanythingmoreoftheyoungman?'
  EzrahadonlyheardthathehadembarkedthatweekforSpainwiththerestoftheregiment.'Andifhe'sasdesperateas'aseemed,weshallneverseehimhereinEnglandagain.'
  'Itisanawkwardcase,'saidtherector.
  Ezratalkeditoverwiththechoir;oneofwhomsuggestedthatthestonemightbeerectedatthecrossroads.Thiswasregardedasimpracticable.Anothersaidthatitmightbesetupinthechurchyardwithoutremovingthebody;butthiswasseentobedishonest.Sonothingwasdone.
  TheheadstoneremainedinEzra'southousetill,growingtiredofseeingitthere,heputitawayamongthebushesatthebottomofhisgarden.Thesubjectwassometimesrevivedamongthem,butitalwaysendedwith:'Consideringhow'awasburied,wecanhardlymakeajobo't.'
  TherewasalwaystheconsciousnessthatLukewouldnevercomeback,animpressionstrengthenedbythedisasterswhichwererumouredtohavebefallenthearmyinSpain.Thistendedtomaketheirinertnesspermanent.TheheadstonegrewgreenasitlayonitsbackunderEzra'sbushes;thenatreebytheriverwasblowndown,and,fallingacrossthestone,crackeditinthreepieces.Ultimatelythepiecesbecameburiedintheleavesandmould.
  LukehadnotbeenbornaChalk-Newtonman,andhehadnorelationsleftinSidlinch,sothatnotidingsofhimreachedeithervillagethroughoutthewar.ButafterWaterlooandthefallofNapoleontherearrivedatSidlinchonedayanEnglishsergeant-majorcoveredwithstripesand,asitturnedout,richinglory.ForeignservicehadsototallychangedLukeHolwaythatitwasnotuntilhetoldhisnamethattheinhabitantsrecognizedhimasthesergeant'sonlyson.
  HehadservedwithunswervingeffectivenessthroughthePeninsularcampaignsunderWellington;hadfoughtatBusaco,Fuentesd'Onore,CiudadRodrigo,Badajoz,Salamanca,Vittoria,QuatreBras,andWaterloo;andhadnowreturnedtoenjoyamorethanearnedpensionandreposeinhisnativedistrict.
  HehardlystayedinSidlinchlongerthantotakeamealonhisarrival.ThesameeveninghestartedonfootoverthehilltoChalk-
  Newton,passingthehand-post,andsayingasheglancedatthespot,'ThankGod:he'snotthere!'Nightfallwasapproachingwhenhereachedthelattervillage;buthemadestraightforthechurchyard.
  Onhisenteringitthereremainedlightenoughtodiscerntheheadstonesby,andthesehenarrowlyscanned.Butthoughhesearchedthefrontpartbytheroad,andthebackpartbytheriver,whathesoughthecouldnotfind——thegraveofSergeantHolway,andamemorialbearingtheinscription:'IAMNOTWORTHYTOBECALLEDTHY
  SON.'
  Heleftthechurchyardandmadeinquiries.Thehonourableandreverendoldrectorwasdead,andsoweremanyofthechoir;butbydegreesthesergeant-majorlearntthathisfatherstilllayatthecross-roadsinLongAshLane.
  Lukepursuedhiswaymoodilyhomewards,todowhich,inthenaturalcourse,hewouldbecompelledtorepassthespot,therebeingnootherroadbetweenthetwovillages.Buthecouldnotnowgobythatplace,vociferouswithreproachesinhisfather'stones;andhegotoverthehedgeandwandereddeviouslythroughtheploughedfieldstoavoidthescene.ThroughmanyafightandfatigueLukehadbeensustainedbythethoughtthathewasrestoringthefamilyhonourandmakingnobleamends.Yethisfatherlaystillindegradation.Itwasratherasentimentthanafactthathisfather'sbodyhadbeenmadetosufferforhisownmisdeeds;buttohissuper-sensitivenessitseemedthathiseffortstoretrievehischaracterandtopropitiatetheshadeoftheinsultedonehadendedinfailure.
  Heendeavoured,however,toshakeoffhislethargy,and,notlikingtheassociationsofSidlinch,hiredasmallcottageatChalk-Newtonwhichhadlongbeenempty.Herehelivedalone,becomingquiteahermit,andallowingnowomantoenterthehouse.
  TheChristmasaftertakinguphisabodehereinhewassittinginthechimneycornerbyhimself,whenheheardfaintnotesinthedistance,andsoonamelodyburstforthimmediatelyoutsidehisownwindow,itcamefromthecarol-singers,asusual;andthoughmanyoftheoldhands,EzraandLotincluded,hadgonetotheirrest,thesameoldcarolswerestillplayedoutofthesameoldbooks.Thereresoundedthroughthesergeant-major'swindow-shuttersthefamiliarlinesthatthedeceasedchoirhadrenderedoverhisfather'sgrave:-
  Hecomes'thepri'-sonersto're-lease',InSa'-tan'sbon'-dageheld'.
  Whentheyhadfinishedtheywentontoanotherhouse,leavinghimtosilenceandlonelinessasbefore.
  Thecandlewantedsnuffing,buthedidnotsnuffit,andhesatontillithadburntdownintothesocketandmadewavesofshadowontheceiling.
  TheChristmascheerfulnessofnextmorningwasbrokenatbreakfast-
  timebytragicintelligencewhichwentdownthevillagelikewind.
  Sergeant-MajorHolwayhadbeenfoundshotthroughtheheadbyhisownhandatthecross-roadsinLongAshLanewherehisfatherlayburied.
  Onthetableinthecottagehehadleftapieceofpaper,onwhichhehadwrittenhiswishthathemightbeburiedattheCrossbesidehisfather.Butthepaperwasaccidentallyswepttothefloor,andoverlookedtillafterhisfuneral,whichtookplaceintheordinarywayinthechurchyard.
  Christmas1897.
  ENTERADRAGOON
  Ilatelyhadamelancholyexperiencesaidthegentlemanwhoisanswerableforthetruthofthisstory.ItwasthatofgoingoveradoomedhousewithwhoseoutsideaspectIhadlongbeenfamiliar——ahouse,thatis,whichbyreasonofageanddilapidationwastobepulleddownduringthefollowingweek.Someofthethatch,brownandrottenasthegillsofoldmushrooms,had,indeed,beenremovedbeforeIwalkedoverthebuilding.Seeingthatitwasonlyaverysmallhouse——whichisusuallycalleda'cottage-residence'——situatedinaremotehamlet,andthatitwasnotmorethanahundredyearsold,ifsomuch,Iwasledtothinkinmyprogressthroughthehollowrooms,withtheircrackedwallsandslopingfloors,whatanexceptionalnumberofabruptfamilyincidentshadtakenplacetherein——toreckononlythosewhichhadcometomyownknowledge.
  AndnodoubtthereweremanymoreofwhichIhadneverheard.
  Itstoodatthetopofagardenstretchingdowntothelaneorstreetthatranthroughahermit-groupofdwellingsinMellstockparish.
  Fromagreengateatthelowerentrance,overwhichthethornhedgehadbeenshapedtoanarchbyconstantclippings,agravelpathascendedbetweentheboxedgesofoncetrimraspberry,strawberry,andvegetableplots,towardsthefrontdoor.Thiswasincolouranancientandbleachedgreenthatcouldberubbedoffwiththefinger,anditboreasmalllong-featuredbrassknockercoveredwithverdigrisinitscrevices.Forsomeyearsbeforethiseveofdemolitionthehomesteadhaddegenerated,andbeendividedintotwotenementstoserveascottagesforfarmlabourers;butinitsprimeithadindisputableclaimtobeconsideredneat,pretty,andgenteel.
  Thevarietyofincidentsabovealludedtowasmainlyowingtothenatureofthetenure,wherebytheplacehadbeenoccupiedbyfamiliesnotquiteofthekindcustomaryinsuchspots——peoplewhosecircumstances,position,orantecedentsweremoreorlessofacriticalhappy-go-luckycast.AndoftheseresidentsthefamilywhosetermcomprisedthestoryIwishtorelatewasthatofMr.JacobPaddockthemarket-gardener,whodweltthereforsomeyearswithhiswifeandgrown-updaughter.
  I
  Anevidentcommotionwasagitatingthepremises,whichjerkedbusysoundsacrossthefrontplot,resemblingthoseofadisturbedhive.
  Ifamemberofthehouseholdappearedatthedooritwaswithacountenanceofabstractionandconcern.
  Eveningbegantobendoverthescene;andtheotherinhabitantsofthehamletcameouttodrawwater,theircommonwellbeinginthepublicroadoppositethegardenandhouseofthePaddocks.Havingwounduptheirbucketsfullrespectivelytheylingered,andspokesignificantlytogether.Fromtheirwordsanycasuallistenermighthavegatheredinformationofwhathadoccurred.
  Thewoodmanwholivednearestthesiteofthestorytoldmostofthetale.Selina,thedaughterofthePaddocksopposite,hadbeensurprisedthatafternoonbyreceivingaletterfromheronceintendedhusband,thenacorporal,butnowasergeant-majorofdragoons,whomshehadhithertosupposedtobeoneoftheslainintheBattleoftheAlmatwoorthreeyearsbefore.
  'Shepickedupwi'enagainstherfather'swish,asweknow,andbeforehegothisstripes,'theirinformantcontinued.'Notbutthatthemanwasasheartyafellerasyou'dmeetthissideo'London.
  ButJacob,yousee,wishedhertodobetter,andonecanunderstandit.However,shewasdeterminedtosticktohimatthattime;andforwhathappenedshewasnotmuchtoblame,sonearastheyweretomatrimonywhenthewarbrokeoutandspoiledall.'
  'Eventheverypighadbeenkilledforthewedding,'saidawoman,'andthebarrelo'beerorderedin.O,themanmeanthonourableenough.Buttobeoffintwodaystofightinaforeigncountry——
  'twasnaturalofherfathertosaytheyshouldwaittillhegotback.'
  'Andhenevercame,'murmuredoneintheshade.
  'Thewarendedbuthermanneverturnedupagain.Shewasnotsurehewaskilled,butwastooproud,ortootimid,togoandhuntforhim.'
  'Onereasonwhyherfatherforgaveherwhenhefoundouthowmattersstoodwas,ashesaidplainatthetime,thathelikedtheman,andcouldseethathemeanttoactstraight.Sotheoldfolksmadethebestofwhattheycouldn'tmend,andkepthertherewith'em,whensomewouldn't.Timehasprovedseeminglythathedidmeantoactstraight,nowthathehaswrittoherthathe'scoming.She'dhavestucktohimallthroughthetime,'tismybelief;ift'otherhadn'tcomealong.'
  'Atthetimeofthecourtship,'resumedthewoodman,'theregimentwasquarteredinCasterbridgeBarracks,andheandshegotacquaintedbyhiscallingtobuyapenn'orthofrathe-ripesoffthattreeyonderinherfather'sorchard——though'twassaidheseedHERoverhedgeaswellastheapples.Hedeclared'twasakindofapplehemuchfancied;andhecalledforapenn'ortheverydaytillthetreewascleared.Itendedinhiscallingforher.'
  ''Twasathousandpitiestheydidn'tjineupatonceandha'donewi'
  it.
  'Well;betterlatethannever,ifsobehe'llhavehernow.But,Lord,she'dthatfaithin'enthatshe'dnomorebeliefthathewasalive,whena'didn'tcome,thanthattheundermostmaninourchurchyardwasalive.She'dneverhavethoughtofanotherbutforthat——Ono!'
  ''Tisawkward,altogether,forhernow.'
  'Stillshehadn'tmarriedwi'thenewman.Thoughtobesureshewouldhavecommitteditnextweek,eventhelicencebeinggot,theysay,forshe'dhavenobannsthistime,thefirstbeingsounfortunate.'
  'Perhapsthesergeant-majorwillthinkhe'sreleased,andgoashecame.'
  'O,notasIreckon.Soldiersbain'tparticular,andshe'satidypieceo'furniturestill.Whatwillhappenisthatshe'llhavehersoldier,andbreakoffwiththemaster-wheelwright,licenceorno——
  dazemeifshewon't.'
  Intheprogressofthesedesultoryconjecturestheformofanotherneighbouraroseinthegloom.Shenoddedtothepeopleatthewell,whoreplied'G'dnight,Mrs.Stone,'asshepassedthroughMr.
  Paddock'sgatetowardshisdoor.Shewasanintimatefriendofthelatter'shousehold,andthegroupfollowedherwiththeireyesupthepathandpastthewindows,whichwerenowlightedupbycandlesinside.
  II
  Mrs.Stonepausedatthedoor,knocked,andwasadmittedbySelina'smother,whotookhervisitoratonceintotheparlouronthelefthand,whereatablewaspartlyspreadforsupper.Onthe'beaufet'
  againstthewallstoodprobablytheonlyobjectwhichwouldhaveattractedtheeyeofalocalstrangerinanotherwiseordinarilyfurnishedroom,agreatplum-cakeguardedasifitwereacuriositybyaglassshadeofthekindseeninmuseums——square,withawoodenbacklikethoseenclosingstuffedspecimensofrarefeatherorfur.
  Thiswasthemummyofthecakeintendedinearlierdaysforthewedding-feastofSelinaandthesoldier,whichhadbeenreligiouslyandlovinglypreservedbytheformerasatestimonytoherintentionalrespectabilityinspiteofanuntowardsubsequentcircumstance,whichwillbementioned.Thisrelicwasnowasdryasabrick,andseemedtobelongtoapre-existentcivilization.Tillquiterecently,Selinahadbeeninthehabitofpausingbeforeitdaily,andrecallingtheaccidentwhoseconsequenceshadthrownashadowoverherlifeeversince——thatofwhichthewater-drawershadspoken——thesuddennewsonemorningthattheRoutehadcomeforthe——
  thDragoons,twodaysonlybeingtheintervalbeforedeparture;thehurriedconsultationastowhatshouldbedone,thesecondtimeofaskingbeingpastbutnotthethird;andthedecisionthatitwouldbeunwisetosolemnizematrimonyinsuchhaphazardcircumstances,evenifitwerepossible,whichwasdoubtful.
  Beforethefiretheyoungwomaninquestionwasnowseatedonalowstool,inthestillnessofreverie,andatoddlingboyplayedabouttheflooraroundher.
  'Ah,Mrs.Stone!'saidSelina,risingslowly.'Howkindofyoutocomein.You'llbidetosupper?Motherhastoldyouthestrangenews,ofcourse?'
  'No.ButIhearditoutside,thatis,thatyou'dhadaletterfromMr.Clark——Sergeant-MajorClark,astheysayheisnow——andthathe'scomingtomakeitupwith'ee.'
  'Yes;comingto-night——allthewayfromthenorthofEnglandwherehe'squartered.Idon'tknowwhetherI'mhappyor——frightenedatit.
  OfcourseIalwaysbelievedthatifhewasalivehe'dcomeandkeephissolemnvowtome.Butwhenitisprintedthatamaniskilled——
  whatcanyouthink?'
  'ItWASprinted?'
  'Why,yes.AftertheBattleoftheAlmathebookofthenamesofthekilledandwoundedwasnailedupagainstCasterbridgeTownHalldoor.
  'TwasonaSaturday,andIwalkedthereo'purposetoreadandseeformyself;forI'dheardthathisnamewasdown.Therewasacrowdofpeopleroundthebook,lookingforthenamesofrelations;andI
  canmindthatwhentheysawmetheymadewayforme——knowingthatwe'dbeenjustgoingtobemarried——andthat,asyoumaysay,I
  belongedtohim.Well,Ireachedupmyarm,andturnedoverthefarrelsofthebook,andunderthe"killed"Ireadhissurname,butinsteadof"John"they'dprinted"James,"andIthought'twasamistake,andthatitmustbehe.Whocouldhaveguessedthereweretwonearlyofonenameinoneregiment.'
  'Well——he'scomingtofinishtheweddingof'eeasmaybesaid;sonevermind,mydear.All'swellthatendswell.'
  'That'swhatheseemstosay.ButthenhehasnotheardyetaboutMr.Miller;andthat'swhatratherterrifiesme.Luckilymymarriagewithhimnextweekwastohavebeenbylicence,andnotbanns,asinJohn'scase;anditwasnotsowellknownonthataccount.Still,I
  don'tknowwhattothink.'
  'Everythingseemstocomejust'twixtcupandlipwith'ee,don'titnow,MissPaddock.Twoweddingsbrokeoff——'tisodd!HowcameyoutoacceptMr.Miller,mydear?'
  'He'sbeensogoodandfaithful!Notmindingaboutthechildatall;
  forheknewtherightsofthestory.He'sdearlyfondo'Johnny,youknow——justasif'twerehisown——isn'the,myduck?DoMr.Millerloveyouordon'the?'
  'Iss!An'IloveMr.Miller,'saidthetoddler.
  'Well,yousee,Mrs.Stone,hesaidhe'dmakemeacomfortablehome;
  andthinking'twouldbeagoodthingforJohnny,Mr.Millerbeingsomuchbetteroffthanme,Iagreedatlast,justasawidowmight——
  whichiswhatIhavealwaysfeltmyself;eversinceIsawwhatI
  thoughtwasJohn'snameprintedthere.IhopeJohnwillforgiveme!'
  'Sohewillforgive'ee,since'twasnomannerofwrongtohim.Heoughttohavesent'eealine,saying'twasanotherman.'
  Selina'smotherentered.'We'venotknownofthisanhour,Mrs.
  Stone,'shesaid.'TheletterwasbroughtupfromLowerMellstockPost-officebyoneoftheschoolchildren,onlythisafternoon.Mr.
  Millerwascomingherethisverynighttosettleabouttheweddingdoings.Hark!Isthatyourfather?OrisitMr.Milleralreadycome?'
  Thefootstepsenteredtheporch;therewasabrushingonthemat,andthedooroftheroomsprungbacktodisclosearubicundmanaboutthirtyyearsofage,ofthrivingmaster-mechanicappearanceandobviouslycomfortabletemper.Onseeingthechild,andbeforetakinganynoticewhateveroftheelders,thecomermadeanoiselikethecrowingofacockandflappedhisarmsasiftheywerewings,amethodofentrywhichhadtheunqualifiedadmirationofJohnny.
  'Yes——itishe,'saidSelinaconstrainedlyadvancing.
  'What——wereyoualltalkingaboutme,mydear?'saidthegenialyoungmanwhenhehadfinishedhiscrowingandresumedhumanmanners.'Whywhat'sthematter,'hewenton.'Youlookstruckallofaheap.'
  Mr.Millerspreadanaspectofconcernoverhisownface,anddrewachairuptothefire.
  'Omother,wouldyoutellMr.Miller,ifhedon'tknow?'
  'MISTERMiller!andgoingtobemarriedinsixdays!'heinterposed.
  'Ah——hedon'tknowityet!'murmuredMrs.Paddock.
  'Knowwhat?'
  'Well——JohnClark——nowSergeant-MajorClark——wasn'tshotatAlmaafterall.'Twasanotherofalmostthesamename.'
  'Nowthat'sinteresting!Therewereseveralcaseslikethat.'
  'Andhe'shomeagain;andhe'scominghereto-nighttoseeher.'
  'WhatevershallIsay,thathemaynotbeoffendedwithwhatI'vedone?'interposedSelina.
  'Butwhyshoulditmatterifhebe?'
  'O!Imustagreetobehiswifeifheforgivesme——ofcourseI
  must.'
  'Must!Butwhynotsaynay,Selina,evenifhedoforgive'ee?'
  'Ono!HowcanIwithoutbeingwicked?Youwereveryverykind,Mr.
  Miller,toaskmetohaveyou;noothermanwouldhavedoneitafterwhathadhappened;andIagreed,eventhoughIdidnotfeelhalfsowarmasIought.Yetitwasentirelyowingtomybelievinghiminthegrave,asIknewthatifhewerenothewouldcarryouthispromise;andthisshowsthatIwasrightintrustinghim.'
  'YesHemustbeagoodishsortoffellow,'saidMr.Miller,foramomentsoimpressedwiththeexcellentlyfaithfulconductofthesergeant-majorofdragoonsthathedisregardeditseffectuponhisownposition.Hesighedslowlyandadded,'Well,Selina,'tisforyoutosay.Iloveyou,andIlovetheboy;andthere'smychimney-
  cornerandstickso'furniturereadyfor'eeboth.'
  'Yes,Iknow!ButImustn'thearitanymorenow,'murmuredSelinaquickly.'Johnwillbeheresoon.Ihopehe'llseehowitallwaswhenItellhim.IfsobeIcouldhavewrittenittohimitwouldhavebeenbetter.'
  'Youthinkhedoesn'tknowasinglewordaboutourhavingbeenonthebrinko't.Butperhapsit'stheotherway——he'sheardofitandthatmayhavebroughthim.
  'Ah——perhapshehas!'shesaidbrightening.'Andalreadyforgivesme.'
  'Ifnot,speakoutstraightandfair,andtellhimexactlyhowitfellout.Ifhe'samanhe'llseeit.'
  'Ohe'samantrueenough.ButIreallydothinkIshan'thavetotellhimatall,sinceyou'veputittomethatway!'
  AsitwasnowJohnny'sbedtimehewascarriedupstairs,andwhenSelinacamedownagainhermotherobservedwithsomeanxiety,'I
  fancyMr.Clarkmustbeheresoonifhe'scoming;andthatbeingso,perhapsMr.Millerwouldn'tmind——wishingusgood-night!sinceyouaresodeterminedtosticktoyoursergeant-major.'Alittlebitternessbubbledamidtheclosingwords.'Itwouldbelessawkward,Mr.Millernotbeinghere——ifhewillallowmetosayit.'
  'Tobesure;tobesure,'themaster-wheelwrightexclaimedwithinstantconviction,risingalertlyfromhischair.'Lordblessmysoul,'hesaid,takinguphishatandstick,'andwetohavebeenmarriedinsixdays!ButSelina——you'reright.Youdobelongtothechild'sfathersincehe'salive.I'lltrytomakethebestofit.'
  BeforethegenerousMillerhadgotfurthertherecameaknocktothedooraccompaniedbythenoiseofwheels.
  'IthoughtIheardsomethingdrivingup!'saidMrsPaddock.
  TheyheardMr.Paddock,whohadbeensmokingintheroomopposite,riseandgotothedoor,andinamomentavoicefamiliarenoughtoSelinawasaudiblysaying,'AtlastIamhereagain——notwithoutmanyinterruptions!Howisitwith'ee,Mr.Paddock?Andhowisshe?
  Thoughtnevertoseemeagain,Isuppose?'
  Astepwithaclinkofspursinitstruckupontheentryfloor.
  'DangedifIbain'tcatched!'murmuredMr.Miller,forgettingcompany-speech.'Nevermind——Imayaswellmeethimhereaselsewhere;andIshouldliketoseethechap,andmakefriendswithen,asheseemsoneo'therightsort.'Hereturnedtothefireplacejustasthesergeant-majorwasusheredin.
  III
  Hewasagoodspecimenofthelong-servicesoldierofthosedays;anotunhandsomeman,withacertainundemonstrativedignity,whichsomemighthavesaidtobepartlyowingtothestiffnessofhisuniformabouthisneck,thehighstockbeingstillworn.HewasmuchstouterthanwhenSelinahadpartedfromhim.Althoughshehadnotmeanttobedemonstrativesheranacrosstohimdirectlyshesawhim,andheheldherinhisarmsandkissedher.
  Theninmuchagitationshewhisperedsomethingtohim,atwhichheseemedtobemuchsurprised.
  'He'sjustputtobed,'shecontinued.'Youcangoupandseehim.
  Iknewyou'dcomeifyouwerealive!ButIhadquitegi'dyouupfordead.You'vebeenhomeinEnglandeversincethewarended?'
  'Yes,dear.'
  'Whydidn'tyoucomesooner?'
  'That'sjustwhatIaskmyself!WhywasIsuchasappyasnottohurryherethefirstdayIsetfootonshore!Well,who'dhavethoughtit——youareasprettyasever!'
  Herelinquishedhertopeepupstairsalittleway,where,bylookingthroughtheballusters,hecouldseeJohnny'scotjustwithinanopendoor.OnhissteppingdownagainMr.Millerwaspreparingtodepart.
  'Now,what'sthis?IamsorrytoseeanybodygoingthemomentI'vecome,'expostulatedthesergeant-major.'Ithoughtwemightmakeaneveningofit.There'saninegalloncasko'"Phoenix"beeroutsideinthetrap,andaham,andhalfarawmil'cheese;forIthoughtyoumightbeshorto'forageinalonelyplacelikethis;anditstruckmewemightliketoaskinaneighbourortwo.Butperhapsitwouldbetakingaliberty?'
  'Ono,notatall,'saidMr.Paddock,whowasnowintheroom,inajudicialmeasuredmanner.'Verythoughtfulof'ee,only'twasnotnecessary,forwehadjustlaidinanextrystockofeatablesanddrinkablesinpreparationforthecomingevent.'
  ''Twasverykind,uponmyheart,'saidthesoldier,'tothinkmeworthsuchajocundpreparation,sinceyoucouldonlyhavegotmyletterthismorning.'
  Selinagazedatherfathertostophim,andexchangedembarrassedglanceswithMiller.ContrarytoherhopesSergeant-MajorClarkplainlydidnotknowthatthepreparationsreferredtowereforsomethingquiteotherthanhisownvisit.
  Themovementofthehorseoutside,andtheimpatienttappingofawhip-handleuponthevehicleremindedthemthatClark'sdriverwasstillinwaiting.Theprovisionswerebroughtintothehouse,andthecartdismissed.Miller,withverylittlepressureindeed,acceptedaninvitationtosupper,andafewneighbourswereinducedtocomeintomakeupacheerfulparty.
  Duringthelayingofthemeal,andthroughoutitscontinuance,Selina,whosatbesideherfirstintendedhusband,triedfrequentlytobreakthenewstohimofherengagementtotheother——nowterminatedsosuddenly,andsohappilyforherheart,andhersenseofwomanlyvirtue.Butthetalkranentirelyuponthelatewar;andthoughfortifiedbyhalfahornofthestrongalebroughtbythesergeant-majorshedecidedthatshemighthaveabetteropportunitywhensupperwasoverofrevealingthesituationtohiminprivate.
  Havingsupped,Clarkleanedbackateaseinhischairandlookedaround.'Weusedsometimestohaveadanceinthatotherroomaftersupper,Selinadear,Irecollect.Weusedtoclearoutallthefurnitureintothisroombeforebeginning.Haveyoukeptupsuchgoingson?'
  'No,notatall!'saidhissweetheart,sadly.
  'Wewerenotunlikelytoreviveitinafewdays,'saidMr.Paddock.
  'But,howsomever,there'sseeminglymanyaslip,asthesayingis.'
  'Yes,I'lltellJohnallaboutthatbyandby!'interposedSelina;atwhich,perceivingthatthesecretwhichhedidnotlikekeepingwastobekeptevenyet,herfatherheldhistonguewithsomeshowoftestiness.
  Thesubjectofadancehavingbeenbroached,toputthethoughtinpracticewasthefeelingofall.Soonafterthetablesandchairswerebornefromtheoppositeroomtothisbyzealoushands,andtwoofthevillagerssenthomeforafiddleandtambourine,whenthemajoritybegantotreadameasurewellknowninthatsecludedvale.
  Selinanaturallydancedwiththesergeant-major,notaltogethertoherfather'ssatisfaction,andtotherealuneasinessofhermother,bothofwhomwouldhavepreferredapostponementoffestivitiestilltherashlyanticipatedrelationshipbetweentheirdaughterandClarkinthepasthadbeenmadefactbythechurch'sordinances.Theydidnot,however,expressapositiveobjection,Mr.Paddockremembering,withself-reproach,thatitwasowingtohisoriginalstronglyexpresseddisapprovalofSelina'sbeingasoldier'swifethattheweddinghadbeendelayed,andfinallyhindered——withworseconsequencesthanwereexpected;andeversincethemisadventurebroughtaboutbyhisgovernmenthehadallowedeventstosteertheirowncourses.
  'Mytailswillsurelycatchinyourspurs,John!'murmuredthedaughterofthehouse,asshewhirledarounduponhisarmwiththeraptsoulandlookofasomnambulist.'Ididn'tknowweshoulddance,orIwouldhaveputonmyotherfrock.'
  'I'lltakecare,mylove.We'vedancedherebefore.Doyouthinkyourfatherobjectstomenow?I'veriseninrank.Ifancyhe'sstillalittleagainstme.'
  'Hehasrepented,timesenough.'
  'AndsohaveI!IfIhadmarriedyouthen'twouldhavesavedmanyamisfortune.IhavesometimesthoughtitmighthavebeenpossibletorushtheceremonythroughsomehowbeforeIleft;thoughwewereonlyinthesecondasking,werewe?AndevenifIhadcomebackstraightherewhenwereturnedfromtheCrimea,andmarriedyouthen,howmuchhappierIshouldhavebeen!'
  'DearJohn,tosaythat!Whydidn'tyou?'
  'O——dilatorinessandwantofthought,andafearoffacingyourfatheraftersolong.Iwasinhospitalagreatwhile,youknow.
  Buthowfamiliartheplaceseemsagain!What'sthatIsawonthebeaufetintheotherroom?Itneverusedtobethere.Asortofwitheredcorpseofacake——notanoldbride-cakesurely?'
  'Yes,John,ours.'Tistheveryonethatwasmadeforourweddingthreeyearsago.'
  'Sakesalive!Why,timeshutsuptogether,andallbetweenthenandnowseemsnottohavebeen!Whatbecameofthatwedding-gownthattheyweremakinginthisroom,Iremember——abluish,whitish,frothything?'
  'Ihavethattoo.'
  'Really!Why,Selina——'
  'Yes!'
  'Whynotputitonnow?'
  'Wouldn'titseem.Andyet,OhowIshouldliketo!Itwouldremindthemall,ifwetoldthemwhatitwas,howwereallymeanttobemarriedonthatbygoneday!'Hereyeswereagainladenwithwet.
  'YesThepitythatwedidn't——thepity!'Moodymournfulnessseemedtoholdsilentawhileonenotnaturallytaciturn.'Well——willyou?'hesaid.
  'Iwill——thenextdance,ifmotherdon'tmind.'
  Accordingly,justbeforethenextfigurewasformed,Selinadisappeared,andspeedilycamedownstairsinacreasedandbox-worn,butstillairyandpretty,muslingown,whichwasindeedtheveryonethathadbeenmeanttograceherasabridethreeyearsbefore.
  'Itisdreadfullyold-fashioned,'sheapologized.
  'Notatall.Whatagrandthoughtofmine!Now,let'sto'tagain.'
  Sheexplainedtosomeofthem,asheledhertotheseconddance,whatthefrockhadbeenmeantfor,andthatshehadputitonathisrequest.Andagainathwartandaroundtheroomtheywent.
  'Youseemthebride!'hesaid.
  'ButIcouldn'twearthisgowntobemarriedinnow!'shereplied,ecstatically,'orIshouldn'thaveputitonandmadeitdusty.Itisreallytooold-fashioned,andsofoldedandfrettedout,youcan'tthink.Thatwaswithmytakingitoutsomanytimestolookat.I
  haveneverputiton——never——tillnow!'
  'Selina,Iamthinkingofgivingupthearmy.WillyouemigratewithmetoNewZealand?I'veanuncleouttheredoingwell,andhe'dsoonhelpmetomakingalargerincome.TheEnglisharmyisglorious,butitain'taltogetherenriching.'
  'Ofcourse,anywherethatyoudecideupon.IsithealthythereforJohnny?'
  'Alovelyclimate.AndIshallneverbehappyinEnglandAha!'
  heconcludedagain,withabitternessofunexpectedstrength,'wouldtoHeavenIhadcomestraightbackhere!'
  Asthedancebroughtroundoneneighbourafteranotherthere-unitedpairwerethrownintojuxtapositionwithBobHeartallamongtherestwhohadbeencalledin;onewhosechronicexpressionwasthathecarriedinsidehimajokeonthepointofburstingwithitsownvastness.Hetookoccasionnowtoletoutalittleofitsquality,shakinghisheadatSelinaasheaddressedherinanundertone-
  'Thisisabitofatoppertothebridegroom,hoho!'Twillteachenthelibertyyou'llexpectwhenyou'vemarrieden!'
  'Whatdoeshemeanbya"topper,"'thesergeant-majorasked,who,notbeingoflocalextraction,despisedthevenerablelocallanguage,andalsoseemedtosuppose'bridegroom'tobeananticipatorynameforhimself.'IonlyhopeIshallneverbeworsetreatedthanyou'vetreatedmeto-night!'
  Selinalookedfrightened.'Hedidn'tmeanyou,dear,'shesaidastheymovedon.'Wethoughtperhapsyouknewwhathadhappened,owingtoyourcomingjustatthistime.Hadyou——heardanythingabout——
  whatIintended?'
  'Notabreath——howshouldI——awayupinYorkshire?ItwasbythemerestaccidentthatIcamejustatthisdatetomakepeacewithyouformydelay.'
  'IwasengagedtobemarriedtoMr.BartholomewMiller.That'swhatitis!Iwouldhavelet'eeknowbyletter,buttherewasnotime,onlyhearingfrom'eethisafternoonYouwon'tdesertmeforit,willyou,John?Because,asyouknow,Iquitesupposedyoudead,and——and——'Hereyeswerefulloftearsoftrepidation,andhemighthavefeltasobheavingwithinher.
  IV
  Thesoldierwassilentduringtwoorthreedoublebarsofthetune.
  'WhenwereyoutohavebeenmarriedtothesaidMr.BartholomewMiller?'heinquired.
  'Quitesoon.'
  'Howsoon?'
  'Nextweek——Oyes——justthesameasitwaswithyouandme.There'sastrangefateofinterruptionhangingoverme,Isometimesthink!
  Hehadboughtthelicence,whichIpreferredsothatitmightn'tbelike——ours.Butitmadenodifferencetothefateofit.'
  'Hadboughtthelicence!Thedevil!'
  'Don'tbeangry,dearJohn.Ididn'tknow!'
  'No,no,I'mnotangry.'
  'Itwassokindofhim,considering!'
  'YesIsee,ofcourse,hownaturalyouractionwas——neverthinkingofseeingmeanymore!IsittheMr.Millerwhoisinthisdance?'
  'Yes.'
  ClarkglancedrounduponBartholomewandwassilentagain,forsomelittlewhile,andshestolealookathim,tofindthatheseemedchanged.'John,youlookill!'shealmostsobbed.''Tisn'tme,isit?'
  'Odear,no.ThoughIhadn't,somehow,expectedit.Ican'tfindfaultwithyouforamoment——andIdon'tThisisadeuceofalongdance,don'tyouthink?We'vebeenatittwentyminutesifasecond,andthefiguredoesn'tallowonemuchrest.I'mquiteoutofbreath.'
  'Theylikethemsodreadfullylonghere.Shallwedropout?OrI'llstopthefiddler.'
  'Ono,no,IthinkIcanfinish.ButalthoughIlookhealthyenoughIhaveneverbeensostrongasIformerlywas,sincethatlongillnessIhadinthehospitalatScutari.'
  'AndIknewnothingaboutit!'
  'Youcouldn't,dear,asIdidn'twrite.WhatafoolIhavebeenaltogether!'Hegaveatwitch,asofoneinpain.'Iwon'tdanceagainwhenthisoneisover.ThefactisIhavetravelledalongwayto-day,anditseemstohaveknockedmeupabit.'
  Therecouldbenodoubtthatthesergeant-majorwasunwell,andSelinamadeherselfmiserablebystillbelievingthatherstorywasthecauseofhisailment.Suddenlyhesaidinachangedvoice,andsheperceivedthathewaspalerthanever:'Imustsitdown.'
  Lettinggoherwaisthewentquicklytotheotherroom.Shefollowed,andfoundhiminthenearestchair,hisfacebentdownuponhishandsandarms,whichwererestingonthetable.
  'What'sthematter?'saidherfather,whosattheredozingbythefire.
  'Johnisn'twellWearegoingtoNewZealandwhenwearemarried,father.Alovelycountry!John,wouldyoulikesomethingtodrink?'
  'Adropo'thatSchiedamofoldOwlett's,that'sunderstairs,perhaps,'suggestedherfather.'Notthatnowadays'tismuchbetterthanlicensedliquor.'
  'John,'shesaid,puttingherfaceclosetohisandpressinghisarm.
  'Willyouhaveadropofspiritsorsomething?'
  Hedidnotreply,andSelinaobservedthathisearandthesideofhisfacewerequitewhite.Convincedthathisillnesswasserious,agrowingdismayseizedholdofher.Thedanceended;hermothercamein,andlearningwhathadhappened,lookednarrowlyatthesergeant-
  major.
  'Wemustnotlethimlielikethat,lifthimup,'shesaid.'Lethimrestinthewindow-benchonsomecushions.'
  Theyunfoldedhisarmsandhandsastheylayclaspeduponthetable,andonliftinghisheadfoundhisfeaturestobeartheveryimpressofdeathitself.BartholomewMiller,whohadnowcomein,assistedMr.Paddocktomakeacomfortablecouchinthewindow-seat,wheretheystretchedoutClarkuponhisback.
  Stillheseemedunconscious.'Wemustgetadoctor,'saidSelina.
  'O,mydearJohn,howisityoubetakenlikethis?'
  'Myimpressionisthathe'sdead!'murmuredMr.Paddock.'Hedon'tbreatheenoughtomoveatomtit'sfeather.'
  Therewereplentytovolunteertogoforadoctor,butasitwouldbeatleastanhourbeforehecouldgettherethecaseseemedsomewhathopeless.Thedancing-partyendedasunceremoniouslyasithadbegun;buttheguestslingeredroundthepremisestillthedoctorshouldarrive.Whenhedidcomethesergeant-major'sextremitieswerealreadycold,andtherewasnodoubtthatdeathhadovertakenhimalmostatthemomentthathehadsatdown.
  ThemedicalpractitionerquiterefusedtoaccepttheunhappySelina'stheorythatherrevelationhadinanywayinducedClark'ssuddencollapse.Bothheandthecoronerafterwards,whofoundtheimmediatecausetobeheart-failure,heldthatsuchasuppositionwasunwarrantedbyfacts.Theyassertedthatalongday'sjourney,ahurrieddrive,andthenanexhaustingdance,weresufficientforsucharesultuponaheartenfeebledbyfattydegenerationaftertheprivationsofaCrimeanwinterandothertryingexperiences,thecoincidenceofthesadeventwithanydisclosureofhersbeingapureaccident.
  Thisconclusion,however,didnotdislodgeSelina'sopinionthattheshockofherstatementhadbeentheimmediatestrokewhichhadfelledaconstitutionsoundermined.
  V
  AtthisdatetheCasterbridgeBarrackswerecavalryquarters,theiradaptationtoartilleryhavingbeeneffectedsomeyearslater.Ithadbeenowingtothefactthatthe——thDragoons,inwhichJohnClarkhadserved,happenedtobelyingtherethatSelinamadehisacquaintance.AtthetimeofhisdeaththebarrackswereoccupiedbytheScotsGreys,butwhenthepatheticcircumstancesofthesergeant-
  major'sendbecameknowninthetowntheofficersoftheGreysofferedtheservicesoftheirfinereedandbrassband,thathemighthaveafuneralmarkedbyduemilitaryhonours.Hisbodywasaccordinglyremovedtothebarracks,andcarriedthencetothechurchyardintheDurnoverquarteronthefollowingafternoon,oneoftheGreys'mostancientanddocilechargersbeingblackeduptorepresentClark'shorseontheoccasion.
  EverybodypitiedSelina,whosestorywaswellknown.Shefollowedthecorpseastheonlymourner,Clarkhavingbeenwithoutrelationsinthispartofthecountry,andacommunicationwithhisregimenthavingbroughtnonefromadistance.Shesatinalittleshabbybrown-blackmourningcarriage,squeezingherselfupinacornertobeasmuchaspossibleoutofsightduringtheslowanddramaticmarchthroughthetowntothetunefromSaul.Whentheintermenthadtakenplace,thevolleysbeenfired,andthereturnjourneybegun,itwaswithsomethinglikeashockthatshefoundthemilitaryescorttobemovingataquickmarchtothelivelystrainsof'Offshegoes!'asifallcareforthesergeant-majorwasexpectedtobeendedwiththelatedischargeofthecarbines.Itwas,bychance,theverytunetowhichtheyhadbeenfootingwhenhedied,andunabletobearitsnotes,shehastilytoldherdrivertodropbehind.ThebandandmilitarypartydiminisheduptheHighStreet,andSelinaturnedoverSwanbridgeandhomewardtoMellstock.
  Thenrecommencedforheralifewhoseincidentswerepreciselyofasuitwiththosewhichhadprecededthesoldier'sreturn;buthowdifferentinherappreciationofthem!Hernarrowmissoftherecoveredrespectabilitytheyhadhopedforfromthattardyeventworkeduponherparentsasanirritant,andafterthefirstweekortwoofhermourningherlifewiththemgrewalmostinsupportable.
  Shehadimpulsivelytakentoherselftheweedsofawidow,forsuchsheseemedtoherselftobe,andclothedlittleJohnnyinsableslikewise.Thisassumptionofamoralrelationshiptothedeceased,whichsheassertedtobeonlynotalegalonebytwomostunexpectedaccidents,ledtheoldpeopletoindulgeinsarcasmatherexpensewhenevertheybeheldherattire,thoughallthewhileitcostthemmorepaintoutterthanitgavehertohearit.Havingbecomeaccustomedbyherresidenceathometothebusinesscarriedonbyherfather,shesurprisedthemonedaybygoingoffwiththechildtoChalk-Newton,inthedirectionofthetownofIvell,andopeningaminiaturefruitandvegetableshop,attendingIvellmarketwithherproduce.Herbusinessgrewsomewhatlarger,anditwassoonsufficienttoenablehertosupportherselfandtheboyincomfort.
  Shecalledherself'Mrs.JohnClark'fromthedayofleavinghome,andpaintedthenameonhersignboard——nomanforbiddingher.
  Bydegreesthepainofherstatewasforgotteninhernewcircumstances,andgettingtobegenerallyacceptedasthewidowofasergeant-majorofdragoons——anassumptionwhichhermodestandmournfuldemeanourseemedtosubstantiate——herlifebecameaplacidone,hermindbeingnourishedbythemelancholyluxuryofdreamingwhatmighthavebeenherfutureinNewZealandwithJohn,ifhehadonlylivedtotakeherthere.HeronlytravelsnowwereajourneytoIvellonmarket-days,andonceafortnighttothechurchyardinwhichClarklay,theretotend,withJohnny'sassistance,aswidowsarewonttodo,theflowersshehadplanteduponhisgrave.
  Onadayabouteighteenmonthsafterhisunexpecteddecease,SelinawassurprisedinherlodgingoverherlittleshopbyavisitfromBartholomewMiller.Hehadcalledonheronceortwicebefore,onwhichoccasionshehadusedwithoutawordofcommentthenamebywhichshewasknown.
  'I'vecomethistime,'hesaid,'lessbecauseIwasinthisdirectionthantoaskyou,Mrs.Clark,whatyoumidwellguess.I'vecomeo'
  purpose,inshort.'
  Shesmiled.
  ''Tistoaskmeagaintomarryyou?'