'WewereoutintheEastwhenIwrotetohim.Everythinghadseemedtogowrongwithme.Justaftermyletterhadgonewewereorderedhome.That'showitisyouseemehere.AssoonaswegotintobarracksatCasterbridgeIheardo'thisDamnme!I'lldaretofollowmyfather,andmakeawaywithmyself,too.Itistheonlythinglefttodo!'
'Don'tyeberash,LukeHolway,Isayagain;buttrytomakeamendsbyyourfuturelife.Andmaybeyourfatherwillsmileasmiledownfromheavenupon'eefor't.'
Heshookhishead.'Idon'tknowaboutthat!'heansweredbitterly.
'Tryandbeworthyofyourfatherathisbest.'Tisnottoolate.'
'D'yethinknot?Ifancyitis!Well,I'llturnitover.
Thankyouforyourgoodcounsel.I'llliveforonething,atanyrate.I'llmovefather'sbodytoadecentChristianchurchyard,ifI
doitwithmyownhands.Ican'tsavehislife,butIcangivehimanhonourablegrave.Heshan'tlieinthisaccursedplace!'
'Ay,asourpa'sonsays,'tisabarbarouscustomtheykeepupatSidlinch,andoughttobedoneawaywi'.Themana'oldsoldier,too.Yousee,ourpa'sonisnotlikeyoursatSidlinch.'
'Hesaysitisbarbarous,doeshe?Soitis!'criedthesoldier.
'Nowhearken,myfriends.'Thenheproceededtoinquireiftheywouldincreasehisindebtednesstothembyundertakingtheremoval,privately,ofthebodyofthesuicidetothechurchyard,notofSidlinch,aparishhenowhated,butofChalk-Newton.Hewouldgivethemallhepossessedtodoit.
LotaskedEzraCattstockwhathethoughtofit.
Cattstock,the'celloplayer,whowasalsothesexton,demurred,andadvisedtheyoungsoldiertosoundtherectoraboutitfirst.'Midbehewouldobject,andyet'amid'nt.Thepa'sono'Sidlinchisahardman,Iownye,and'asaidiffolkwillkilltheirselvesinhotbloodtheymusttaketheconsequences.Butoursdon'tthinklikethatatall,andmightallowit.'
'What'shisname?'
'ThehonourableandreverentMr.Oldham,brothertoLordWessex.Butyouneedn'tbeafeardo'enonthataccount.He'lltalkto'eelikeacommonman,ifsobeyouhaven'thadenoughdrinktogie'eebadbreath.'
'O,thesameasformerly.I'llaskhim.Thankyou.Andthatdutydone——'
'Whatthen?'
'There'swarinSpain.Ihearournextmoveisthere.I'lltrytoshowmyselftobewhatmyfatherwishedme.Idon'tsupposeIshall——
butI'lltryinmyfeebleway.ThatmuchIswear——hereoverhisbody.SohelpmeGod.'
Lukesmackedhispalmagainstthewhitehand-postwithsuchforcethatitshook.'Yes,there'swarinSpain;andanotherchanceformetobeworthyoffather.'
Sothematterendedthatnight.Thattheprivateactedinonethingashehadvowedtodosoonbecameapparent,forduringtheChristmasweektherectorcameintothechurchyardwhenCattstockwasthere,andaskedhimtofindaspotthatwouldbesuitableforthepurposeofsuchaninterment,addingthathehadslightlyknownthelatesergeant,andwasnotawareofanylawwhichforbadehimtoassenttotheremoval,theletteroftherulehavingbeenobserved.ButashedidnotwishtoseemmovedbyoppositiontohisneighbouratSidlinch,hehadstipulatedthattheactofcharityshouldbecarriedoutatnight,andasprivatelyaspossible,andthatthegraveshouldbeinanobscurepartoftheenclosure.'Youhadbetterseetheyoungmanaboutitatonce,'addedtherector.
ButbeforeEzrahaddoneanythingLukecamedowntohishouse.Hisfurloughhadbeencutshort,owingtonewdevelopmentsofthewarinthePeninsula,andbeingobligedtogobacktohisregimentimmediately,hewascompelledtoleavetheexhumationandreintermenttohisfriends.Everythingwaspaidfor,andheimploredthemalltoseeitcarriedoutforthwith.
Withthisthesoldierleft.ThenextdayEzra,onthinkingthematterover,againwentacrosstotherectory,struckwithsuddenmisgiving.Hehadrememberedthatthesergeanthadbeenburiedwithoutacoffin,andhewasnotsurethatastakehadnotbeendriventhroughhim.Thebusinesswouldbemoretroublesomethantheyhadatfirstsupposed.
'Yes,indeed!'murmuredtherector.'Iamafraiditisnotfeasibleafterall.'
Thenexteventwasthearrivalofaheadstonebycarrierfromthenearesttown;tobeleftatMr.EzraCattstock's;allexpensespaid.
Thesextonandthecarrierdepositedthestoneintheformer'southouse;andEzra,leftalone,putonhisspectaclesandreadthebriefandsimpleinscription:-
HERELYETHTHEBODYOFSAMUELHOLWAY,LATESERGEANTINHISMAJESTY'S——
DREGIMENTOFFOOT,WHODEPARTEDTHISLIFEDECEMBERTHE20TH,180.
ERECTEDBYL.H.
'IAMNOTWORTHYTOBECALLEDTHYSON.'
Ezraagaincalledattheriversiderectory.'Thestoneiscome,sir.
ButI'mafeardwecan'tdoitnohow.'
'Ishouldliketoobligehim,'saidthegentlemanlyoldincumbent.
'AndIwouldforegoallfeeswillingly.Still,ifyouandtheothersdon'tthinkyoucancarryitout,Iamindoubtwhattosay.'
Well,sir;I'vemadeinquiryofaSidlinchwomanastohisburial,andwhatIthoughtseemstrue.Theyburiedenwi'anewsix-foothurdle-sauldrough'sbody,fromthesheep-penupinNorthEweleasethoughtheywon'towntoitnow.Andthequestionis,Isthemovingworthwhile,consideringtheawkwardness?'
'Haveyouheardanythingmoreoftheyoungman?'
EzrahadonlyheardthathehadembarkedthatweekforSpainwiththerestoftheregiment.'Andifhe'sasdesperateas'aseemed,weshallneverseehimhereinEnglandagain.'
'Itisanawkwardcase,'saidtherector.
Ezratalkeditoverwiththechoir;oneofwhomsuggestedthatthestonemightbeerectedatthecrossroads.Thiswasregardedasimpracticable.Anothersaidthatitmightbesetupinthechurchyardwithoutremovingthebody;butthiswasseentobedishonest.Sonothingwasdone.
TheheadstoneremainedinEzra'southousetill,growingtiredofseeingitthere,heputitawayamongthebushesatthebottomofhisgarden.Thesubjectwassometimesrevivedamongthem,butitalwaysendedwith:'Consideringhow'awasburied,wecanhardlymakeajobo't.'
TherewasalwaystheconsciousnessthatLukewouldnevercomeback,animpressionstrengthenedbythedisasterswhichwererumouredtohavebefallenthearmyinSpain.Thistendedtomaketheirinertnesspermanent.TheheadstonegrewgreenasitlayonitsbackunderEzra'sbushes;thenatreebytheriverwasblowndown,and,fallingacrossthestone,crackeditinthreepieces.Ultimatelythepiecesbecameburiedintheleavesandmould.
LukehadnotbeenbornaChalk-Newtonman,andhehadnorelationsleftinSidlinch,sothatnotidingsofhimreachedeithervillagethroughoutthewar.ButafterWaterlooandthefallofNapoleontherearrivedatSidlinchonedayanEnglishsergeant-majorcoveredwithstripesand,asitturnedout,richinglory.ForeignservicehadsototallychangedLukeHolwaythatitwasnotuntilhetoldhisnamethattheinhabitantsrecognizedhimasthesergeant'sonlyson.
HehadservedwithunswervingeffectivenessthroughthePeninsularcampaignsunderWellington;hadfoughtatBusaco,Fuentesd'Onore,CiudadRodrigo,Badajoz,Salamanca,Vittoria,QuatreBras,andWaterloo;andhadnowreturnedtoenjoyamorethanearnedpensionandreposeinhisnativedistrict.
HehardlystayedinSidlinchlongerthantotakeamealonhisarrival.ThesameeveninghestartedonfootoverthehilltoChalk-
Newton,passingthehand-post,andsayingasheglancedatthespot,'ThankGod:he'snotthere!'Nightfallwasapproachingwhenhereachedthelattervillage;buthemadestraightforthechurchyard.
Onhisenteringitthereremainedlightenoughtodiscerntheheadstonesby,andthesehenarrowlyscanned.Butthoughhesearchedthefrontpartbytheroad,andthebackpartbytheriver,whathesoughthecouldnotfind——thegraveofSergeantHolway,andamemorialbearingtheinscription:'IAMNOTWORTHYTOBECALLEDTHY
SON.'
Heleftthechurchyardandmadeinquiries.Thehonourableandreverendoldrectorwasdead,andsoweremanyofthechoir;butbydegreesthesergeant-majorlearntthathisfatherstilllayatthecross-roadsinLongAshLane.
Lukepursuedhiswaymoodilyhomewards,todowhich,inthenaturalcourse,hewouldbecompelledtorepassthespot,therebeingnootherroadbetweenthetwovillages.Buthecouldnotnowgobythatplace,vociferouswithreproachesinhisfather'stones;andhegotoverthehedgeandwandereddeviouslythroughtheploughedfieldstoavoidthescene.ThroughmanyafightandfatigueLukehadbeensustainedbythethoughtthathewasrestoringthefamilyhonourandmakingnobleamends.Yethisfatherlaystillindegradation.Itwasratherasentimentthanafactthathisfather'sbodyhadbeenmadetosufferforhisownmisdeeds;buttohissuper-sensitivenessitseemedthathiseffortstoretrievehischaracterandtopropitiatetheshadeoftheinsultedonehadendedinfailure.
Heendeavoured,however,toshakeoffhislethargy,and,notlikingtheassociationsofSidlinch,hiredasmallcottageatChalk-Newtonwhichhadlongbeenempty.Herehelivedalone,becomingquiteahermit,andallowingnowomantoenterthehouse.
TheChristmasaftertakinguphisabodehereinhewassittinginthechimneycornerbyhimself,whenheheardfaintnotesinthedistance,andsoonamelodyburstforthimmediatelyoutsidehisownwindow,itcamefromthecarol-singers,asusual;andthoughmanyoftheoldhands,EzraandLotincluded,hadgonetotheirrest,thesameoldcarolswerestillplayedoutofthesameoldbooks.Thereresoundedthroughthesergeant-major'swindow-shuttersthefamiliarlinesthatthedeceasedchoirhadrenderedoverhisfather'sgrave:-
Hecomes'thepri'-sonersto're-lease',InSa'-tan'sbon'-dageheld'.
Whentheyhadfinishedtheywentontoanotherhouse,leavinghimtosilenceandlonelinessasbefore.
Thecandlewantedsnuffing,buthedidnotsnuffit,andhesatontillithadburntdownintothesocketandmadewavesofshadowontheceiling.
TheChristmascheerfulnessofnextmorningwasbrokenatbreakfast-
timebytragicintelligencewhichwentdownthevillagelikewind.
Sergeant-MajorHolwayhadbeenfoundshotthroughtheheadbyhisownhandatthecross-roadsinLongAshLanewherehisfatherlayburied.
Onthetableinthecottagehehadleftapieceofpaper,onwhichhehadwrittenhiswishthathemightbeburiedattheCrossbesidehisfather.Butthepaperwasaccidentallyswepttothefloor,andoverlookedtillafterhisfuneral,whichtookplaceintheordinarywayinthechurchyard.
Christmas1897.
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Ilatelyhadamelancholyexperiencesaidthegentlemanwhoisanswerableforthetruthofthisstory.ItwasthatofgoingoveradoomedhousewithwhoseoutsideaspectIhadlongbeenfamiliar——ahouse,thatis,whichbyreasonofageanddilapidationwastobepulleddownduringthefollowingweek.Someofthethatch,brownandrottenasthegillsofoldmushrooms,had,indeed,beenremovedbeforeIwalkedoverthebuilding.Seeingthatitwasonlyaverysmallhouse——whichisusuallycalleda'cottage-residence'——situatedinaremotehamlet,andthatitwasnotmorethanahundredyearsold,ifsomuch,Iwasledtothinkinmyprogressthroughthehollowrooms,withtheircrackedwallsandslopingfloors,whatanexceptionalnumberofabruptfamilyincidentshadtakenplacetherein——toreckononlythosewhichhadcometomyownknowledge.
AndnodoubtthereweremanymoreofwhichIhadneverheard.
Itstoodatthetopofagardenstretchingdowntothelaneorstreetthatranthroughahermit-groupofdwellingsinMellstockparish.
Fromagreengateatthelowerentrance,overwhichthethornhedgehadbeenshapedtoanarchbyconstantclippings,agravelpathascendedbetweentheboxedgesofoncetrimraspberry,strawberry,andvegetableplots,towardsthefrontdoor.Thiswasincolouranancientandbleachedgreenthatcouldberubbedoffwiththefinger,anditboreasmalllong-featuredbrassknockercoveredwithverdigrisinitscrevices.Forsomeyearsbeforethiseveofdemolitionthehomesteadhaddegenerated,andbeendividedintotwotenementstoserveascottagesforfarmlabourers;butinitsprimeithadindisputableclaimtobeconsideredneat,pretty,andgenteel.
Thevarietyofincidentsabovealludedtowasmainlyowingtothenatureofthetenure,wherebytheplacehadbeenoccupiedbyfamiliesnotquiteofthekindcustomaryinsuchspots——peoplewhosecircumstances,position,orantecedentsweremoreorlessofacriticalhappy-go-luckycast.AndoftheseresidentsthefamilywhosetermcomprisedthestoryIwishtorelatewasthatofMr.JacobPaddockthemarket-gardener,whodweltthereforsomeyearswithhiswifeandgrown-updaughter.
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Anevidentcommotionwasagitatingthepremises,whichjerkedbusysoundsacrossthefrontplot,resemblingthoseofadisturbedhive.
Ifamemberofthehouseholdappearedatthedooritwaswithacountenanceofabstractionandconcern.
Eveningbegantobendoverthescene;andtheotherinhabitantsofthehamletcameouttodrawwater,theircommonwellbeinginthepublicroadoppositethegardenandhouseofthePaddocks.Havingwounduptheirbucketsfullrespectivelytheylingered,andspokesignificantlytogether.Fromtheirwordsanycasuallistenermighthavegatheredinformationofwhathadoccurred.
Thewoodmanwholivednearestthesiteofthestorytoldmostofthetale.Selina,thedaughterofthePaddocksopposite,hadbeensurprisedthatafternoonbyreceivingaletterfromheronceintendedhusband,thenacorporal,butnowasergeant-majorofdragoons,whomshehadhithertosupposedtobeoneoftheslainintheBattleoftheAlmatwoorthreeyearsbefore.
'Shepickedupwi'enagainstherfather'swish,asweknow,andbeforehegothisstripes,'theirinformantcontinued.'Notbutthatthemanwasasheartyafellerasyou'dmeetthissideo'London.
ButJacob,yousee,wishedhertodobetter,andonecanunderstandit.However,shewasdeterminedtosticktohimatthattime;andforwhathappenedshewasnotmuchtoblame,sonearastheyweretomatrimonywhenthewarbrokeoutandspoiledall.'
'Eventheverypighadbeenkilledforthewedding,'saidawoman,'andthebarrelo'beerorderedin.O,themanmeanthonourableenough.Buttobeoffintwodaystofightinaforeigncountry——
'twasnaturalofherfathertosaytheyshouldwaittillhegotback.'
'Andhenevercame,'murmuredoneintheshade.
'Thewarendedbuthermanneverturnedupagain.Shewasnotsurehewaskilled,butwastooproud,ortootimid,togoandhuntforhim.'
'Onereasonwhyherfatherforgaveherwhenhefoundouthowmattersstoodwas,ashesaidplainatthetime,thathelikedtheman,andcouldseethathemeanttoactstraight.Sotheoldfolksmadethebestofwhattheycouldn'tmend,andkepthertherewith'em,whensomewouldn't.Timehasprovedseeminglythathedidmeantoactstraight,nowthathehaswrittoherthathe'scoming.She'dhavestucktohimallthroughthetime,'tismybelief;ift'otherhadn'tcomealong.'
'Atthetimeofthecourtship,'resumedthewoodman,'theregimentwasquarteredinCasterbridgeBarracks,andheandshegotacquaintedbyhiscallingtobuyapenn'orthofrathe-ripesoffthattreeyonderinherfather'sorchard——though'twassaidheseedHERoverhedgeaswellastheapples.Hedeclared'twasakindofapplehemuchfancied;andhecalledforapenn'ortheverydaytillthetreewascleared.Itendedinhiscallingforher.'
''Twasathousandpitiestheydidn'tjineupatonceandha'donewi'
it.
'Well;betterlatethannever,ifsobehe'llhavehernow.But,Lord,she'dthatfaithin'enthatshe'dnomorebeliefthathewasalive,whena'didn'tcome,thanthattheundermostmaninourchurchyardwasalive.She'dneverhavethoughtofanotherbutforthat——Ono!'
''Tisawkward,altogether,forhernow.'
'Stillshehadn'tmarriedwi'thenewman.Thoughtobesureshewouldhavecommitteditnextweek,eventhelicencebeinggot,theysay,forshe'dhavenobannsthistime,thefirstbeingsounfortunate.'
'Perhapsthesergeant-majorwillthinkhe'sreleased,andgoashecame.'
'O,notasIreckon.Soldiersbain'tparticular,andshe'satidypieceo'furniturestill.Whatwillhappenisthatshe'llhavehersoldier,andbreakoffwiththemaster-wheelwright,licenceorno——
dazemeifshewon't.'
Intheprogressofthesedesultoryconjecturestheformofanotherneighbouraroseinthegloom.Shenoddedtothepeopleatthewell,whoreplied'G'dnight,Mrs.Stone,'asshepassedthroughMr.
Paddock'sgatetowardshisdoor.Shewasanintimatefriendofthelatter'shousehold,andthegroupfollowedherwiththeireyesupthepathandpastthewindows,whichwerenowlightedupbycandlesinside.
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Mrs.Stonepausedatthedoor,knocked,andwasadmittedbySelina'smother,whotookhervisitoratonceintotheparlouronthelefthand,whereatablewaspartlyspreadforsupper.Onthe'beaufet'
againstthewallstoodprobablytheonlyobjectwhichwouldhaveattractedtheeyeofalocalstrangerinanotherwiseordinarilyfurnishedroom,agreatplum-cakeguardedasifitwereacuriositybyaglassshadeofthekindseeninmuseums——square,withawoodenbacklikethoseenclosingstuffedspecimensofrarefeatherorfur.
Thiswasthemummyofthecakeintendedinearlierdaysforthewedding-feastofSelinaandthesoldier,whichhadbeenreligiouslyandlovinglypreservedbytheformerasatestimonytoherintentionalrespectabilityinspiteofanuntowardsubsequentcircumstance,whichwillbementioned.Thisrelicwasnowasdryasabrick,andseemedtobelongtoapre-existentcivilization.Tillquiterecently,Selinahadbeeninthehabitofpausingbeforeitdaily,andrecallingtheaccidentwhoseconsequenceshadthrownashadowoverherlifeeversince——thatofwhichthewater-drawershadspoken——thesuddennewsonemorningthattheRoutehadcomeforthe——
thDragoons,twodaysonlybeingtheintervalbeforedeparture;thehurriedconsultationastowhatshouldbedone,thesecondtimeofaskingbeingpastbutnotthethird;andthedecisionthatitwouldbeunwisetosolemnizematrimonyinsuchhaphazardcircumstances,evenifitwerepossible,whichwasdoubtful.
Beforethefiretheyoungwomaninquestionwasnowseatedonalowstool,inthestillnessofreverie,andatoddlingboyplayedabouttheflooraroundher.
'Ah,Mrs.Stone!'saidSelina,risingslowly.'Howkindofyoutocomein.You'llbidetosupper?Motherhastoldyouthestrangenews,ofcourse?'
'No.ButIhearditoutside,thatis,thatyou'dhadaletterfromMr.Clark——Sergeant-MajorClark,astheysayheisnow——andthathe'scomingtomakeitupwith'ee.'
'Yes;comingto-night——allthewayfromthenorthofEnglandwherehe'squartered.Idon'tknowwhetherI'mhappyor——frightenedatit.
OfcourseIalwaysbelievedthatifhewasalivehe'dcomeandkeephissolemnvowtome.Butwhenitisprintedthatamaniskilled——
whatcanyouthink?'
'ItWASprinted?'
'Why,yes.AftertheBattleoftheAlmathebookofthenamesofthekilledandwoundedwasnailedupagainstCasterbridgeTownHalldoor.
'TwasonaSaturday,andIwalkedthereo'purposetoreadandseeformyself;forI'dheardthathisnamewasdown.Therewasacrowdofpeopleroundthebook,lookingforthenamesofrelations;andI
canmindthatwhentheysawmetheymadewayforme——knowingthatwe'dbeenjustgoingtobemarried——andthat,asyoumaysay,I
belongedtohim.Well,Ireachedupmyarm,andturnedoverthefarrelsofthebook,andunderthe"killed"Ireadhissurname,butinsteadof"John"they'dprinted"James,"andIthought'twasamistake,andthatitmustbehe.Whocouldhaveguessedthereweretwonearlyofonenameinoneregiment.'
'Well——he'scomingtofinishtheweddingof'eeasmaybesaid;sonevermind,mydear.All'swellthatendswell.'
'That'swhatheseemstosay.ButthenhehasnotheardyetaboutMr.Miller;andthat'swhatratherterrifiesme.Luckilymymarriagewithhimnextweekwastohavebeenbylicence,andnotbanns,asinJohn'scase;anditwasnotsowellknownonthataccount.Still,I
don'tknowwhattothink.'
'Everythingseemstocomejust'twixtcupandlipwith'ee,don'titnow,MissPaddock.Twoweddingsbrokeoff——'tisodd!HowcameyoutoacceptMr.Miller,mydear?'
'He'sbeensogoodandfaithful!Notmindingaboutthechildatall;
forheknewtherightsofthestory.He'sdearlyfondo'Johnny,youknow——justasif'twerehisown——isn'the,myduck?DoMr.Millerloveyouordon'the?'
'Iss!An'IloveMr.Miller,'saidthetoddler.
'Well,yousee,Mrs.Stone,hesaidhe'dmakemeacomfortablehome;
andthinking'twouldbeagoodthingforJohnny,Mr.Millerbeingsomuchbetteroffthanme,Iagreedatlast,justasawidowmight——
whichiswhatIhavealwaysfeltmyself;eversinceIsawwhatI
thoughtwasJohn'snameprintedthere.IhopeJohnwillforgiveme!'
'Sohewillforgive'ee,since'twasnomannerofwrongtohim.Heoughttohavesent'eealine,saying'twasanotherman.'
Selina'smotherentered.'We'venotknownofthisanhour,Mrs.
Stone,'shesaid.'TheletterwasbroughtupfromLowerMellstockPost-officebyoneoftheschoolchildren,onlythisafternoon.Mr.
Millerwascomingherethisverynighttosettleabouttheweddingdoings.Hark!Isthatyourfather?OrisitMr.Milleralreadycome?'
Thefootstepsenteredtheporch;therewasabrushingonthemat,andthedooroftheroomsprungbacktodisclosearubicundmanaboutthirtyyearsofage,ofthrivingmaster-mechanicappearanceandobviouslycomfortabletemper.Onseeingthechild,andbeforetakinganynoticewhateveroftheelders,thecomermadeanoiselikethecrowingofacockandflappedhisarmsasiftheywerewings,amethodofentrywhichhadtheunqualifiedadmirationofJohnny.
'Yes——itishe,'saidSelinaconstrainedlyadvancing.
'What——wereyoualltalkingaboutme,mydear?'saidthegenialyoungmanwhenhehadfinishedhiscrowingandresumedhumanmanners.'Whywhat'sthematter,'hewenton.'Youlookstruckallofaheap.'
Mr.Millerspreadanaspectofconcernoverhisownface,anddrewachairuptothefire.
'Omother,wouldyoutellMr.Miller,ifhedon'tknow?'
'MISTERMiller!andgoingtobemarriedinsixdays!'heinterposed.
'Ah——hedon'tknowityet!'murmuredMrs.Paddock.
'Knowwhat?'
'Well——JohnClark——nowSergeant-MajorClark——wasn'tshotatAlmaafterall.'Twasanotherofalmostthesamename.'
'Nowthat'sinteresting!Therewereseveralcaseslikethat.'
'Andhe'shomeagain;andhe'scominghereto-nighttoseeher.'
'WhatevershallIsay,thathemaynotbeoffendedwithwhatI'vedone?'interposedSelina.
'Butwhyshoulditmatterifhebe?'
'O!Imustagreetobehiswifeifheforgivesme——ofcourseI
must.'
'Must!Butwhynotsaynay,Selina,evenifhedoforgive'ee?'
'Ono!HowcanIwithoutbeingwicked?Youwereveryverykind,Mr.
Miller,toaskmetohaveyou;noothermanwouldhavedoneitafterwhathadhappened;andIagreed,eventhoughIdidnotfeelhalfsowarmasIought.Yetitwasentirelyowingtomybelievinghiminthegrave,asIknewthatifhewerenothewouldcarryouthispromise;andthisshowsthatIwasrightintrustinghim.'
'YesHemustbeagoodishsortoffellow,'saidMr.Miller,foramomentsoimpressedwiththeexcellentlyfaithfulconductofthesergeant-majorofdragoonsthathedisregardeditseffectuponhisownposition.Hesighedslowlyandadded,'Well,Selina,'tisforyoutosay.Iloveyou,andIlovetheboy;andthere'smychimney-
cornerandstickso'furniturereadyfor'eeboth.'
'Yes,Iknow!ButImustn'thearitanymorenow,'murmuredSelinaquickly.'Johnwillbeheresoon.Ihopehe'llseehowitallwaswhenItellhim.IfsobeIcouldhavewrittenittohimitwouldhavebeenbetter.'
'Youthinkhedoesn'tknowasinglewordaboutourhavingbeenonthebrinko't.Butperhapsit'stheotherway——he'sheardofitandthatmayhavebroughthim.
'Ah——perhapshehas!'shesaidbrightening.'Andalreadyforgivesme.'
'Ifnot,speakoutstraightandfair,andtellhimexactlyhowitfellout.Ifhe'samanhe'llseeit.'
'Ohe'samantrueenough.ButIreallydothinkIshan'thavetotellhimatall,sinceyou'veputittomethatway!'
AsitwasnowJohnny'sbedtimehewascarriedupstairs,andwhenSelinacamedownagainhermotherobservedwithsomeanxiety,'I
fancyMr.Clarkmustbeheresoonifhe'scoming;andthatbeingso,perhapsMr.Millerwouldn'tmind——wishingusgood-night!sinceyouaresodeterminedtosticktoyoursergeant-major.'Alittlebitternessbubbledamidtheclosingwords.'Itwouldbelessawkward,Mr.Millernotbeinghere——ifhewillallowmetosayit.'
'Tobesure;tobesure,'themaster-wheelwrightexclaimedwithinstantconviction,risingalertlyfromhischair.'Lordblessmysoul,'hesaid,takinguphishatandstick,'andwetohavebeenmarriedinsixdays!ButSelina——you'reright.Youdobelongtothechild'sfathersincehe'salive.I'lltrytomakethebestofit.'
BeforethegenerousMillerhadgotfurthertherecameaknocktothedooraccompaniedbythenoiseofwheels.
'IthoughtIheardsomethingdrivingup!'saidMrsPaddock.
TheyheardMr.Paddock,whohadbeensmokingintheroomopposite,riseandgotothedoor,andinamomentavoicefamiliarenoughtoSelinawasaudiblysaying,'AtlastIamhereagain——notwithoutmanyinterruptions!Howisitwith'ee,Mr.Paddock?Andhowisshe?
Thoughtnevertoseemeagain,Isuppose?'
Astepwithaclinkofspursinitstruckupontheentryfloor.
'DangedifIbain'tcatched!'murmuredMr.Miller,forgettingcompany-speech.'Nevermind——Imayaswellmeethimhereaselsewhere;andIshouldliketoseethechap,andmakefriendswithen,asheseemsoneo'therightsort.'Hereturnedtothefireplacejustasthesergeant-majorwasusheredin.
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Hewasagoodspecimenofthelong-servicesoldierofthosedays;anotunhandsomeman,withacertainundemonstrativedignity,whichsomemighthavesaidtobepartlyowingtothestiffnessofhisuniformabouthisneck,thehighstockbeingstillworn.HewasmuchstouterthanwhenSelinahadpartedfromhim.Althoughshehadnotmeanttobedemonstrativesheranacrosstohimdirectlyshesawhim,andheheldherinhisarmsandkissedher.
Theninmuchagitationshewhisperedsomethingtohim,atwhichheseemedtobemuchsurprised.
'He'sjustputtobed,'shecontinued.'Youcangoupandseehim.
Iknewyou'dcomeifyouwerealive!ButIhadquitegi'dyouupfordead.You'vebeenhomeinEnglandeversincethewarended?'
'Yes,dear.'
'Whydidn'tyoucomesooner?'
'That'sjustwhatIaskmyself!WhywasIsuchasappyasnottohurryherethefirstdayIsetfootonshore!Well,who'dhavethoughtit——youareasprettyasever!'
Herelinquishedhertopeepupstairsalittleway,where,bylookingthroughtheballusters,hecouldseeJohnny'scotjustwithinanopendoor.OnhissteppingdownagainMr.Millerwaspreparingtodepart.
'Now,what'sthis?IamsorrytoseeanybodygoingthemomentI'vecome,'expostulatedthesergeant-major.'Ithoughtwemightmakeaneveningofit.There'saninegalloncasko'"Phoenix"beeroutsideinthetrap,andaham,andhalfarawmil'cheese;forIthoughtyoumightbeshorto'forageinalonelyplacelikethis;anditstruckmewemightliketoaskinaneighbourortwo.Butperhapsitwouldbetakingaliberty?'
'Ono,notatall,'saidMr.Paddock,whowasnowintheroom,inajudicialmeasuredmanner.'Verythoughtfulof'ee,only'twasnotnecessary,forwehadjustlaidinanextrystockofeatablesanddrinkablesinpreparationforthecomingevent.'
''Twasverykind,uponmyheart,'saidthesoldier,'tothinkmeworthsuchajocundpreparation,sinceyoucouldonlyhavegotmyletterthismorning.'
Selinagazedatherfathertostophim,andexchangedembarrassedglanceswithMiller.ContrarytoherhopesSergeant-MajorClarkplainlydidnotknowthatthepreparationsreferredtowereforsomethingquiteotherthanhisownvisit.
Themovementofthehorseoutside,andtheimpatienttappingofawhip-handleuponthevehicleremindedthemthatClark'sdriverwasstillinwaiting.Theprovisionswerebroughtintothehouse,andthecartdismissed.Miller,withverylittlepressureindeed,acceptedaninvitationtosupper,andafewneighbourswereinducedtocomeintomakeupacheerfulparty.
Duringthelayingofthemeal,andthroughoutitscontinuance,Selina,whosatbesideherfirstintendedhusband,triedfrequentlytobreakthenewstohimofherengagementtotheother——nowterminatedsosuddenly,andsohappilyforherheart,andhersenseofwomanlyvirtue.Butthetalkranentirelyuponthelatewar;andthoughfortifiedbyhalfahornofthestrongalebroughtbythesergeant-majorshedecidedthatshemighthaveabetteropportunitywhensupperwasoverofrevealingthesituationtohiminprivate.
Havingsupped,Clarkleanedbackateaseinhischairandlookedaround.'Weusedsometimestohaveadanceinthatotherroomaftersupper,Selinadear,Irecollect.Weusedtoclearoutallthefurnitureintothisroombeforebeginning.Haveyoukeptupsuchgoingson?'
'No,notatall!'saidhissweetheart,sadly.
'Wewerenotunlikelytoreviveitinafewdays,'saidMr.Paddock.
'But,howsomever,there'sseeminglymanyaslip,asthesayingis.'
'Yes,I'lltellJohnallaboutthatbyandby!'interposedSelina;atwhich,perceivingthatthesecretwhichhedidnotlikekeepingwastobekeptevenyet,herfatherheldhistonguewithsomeshowoftestiness.
Thesubjectofadancehavingbeenbroached,toputthethoughtinpracticewasthefeelingofall.Soonafterthetablesandchairswerebornefromtheoppositeroomtothisbyzealoushands,andtwoofthevillagerssenthomeforafiddleandtambourine,whenthemajoritybegantotreadameasurewellknowninthatsecludedvale.
Selinanaturallydancedwiththesergeant-major,notaltogethertoherfather'ssatisfaction,andtotherealuneasinessofhermother,bothofwhomwouldhavepreferredapostponementoffestivitiestilltherashlyanticipatedrelationshipbetweentheirdaughterandClarkinthepasthadbeenmadefactbythechurch'sordinances.Theydidnot,however,expressapositiveobjection,Mr.Paddockremembering,withself-reproach,thatitwasowingtohisoriginalstronglyexpresseddisapprovalofSelina'sbeingasoldier'swifethattheweddinghadbeendelayed,andfinallyhindered——withworseconsequencesthanwereexpected;andeversincethemisadventurebroughtaboutbyhisgovernmenthehadallowedeventstosteertheirowncourses.
'Mytailswillsurelycatchinyourspurs,John!'murmuredthedaughterofthehouse,asshewhirledarounduponhisarmwiththeraptsoulandlookofasomnambulist.'Ididn'tknowweshoulddance,orIwouldhaveputonmyotherfrock.'
'I'lltakecare,mylove.We'vedancedherebefore.Doyouthinkyourfatherobjectstomenow?I'veriseninrank.Ifancyhe'sstillalittleagainstme.'
'Hehasrepented,timesenough.'
'AndsohaveI!IfIhadmarriedyouthen'twouldhavesavedmanyamisfortune.IhavesometimesthoughtitmighthavebeenpossibletorushtheceremonythroughsomehowbeforeIleft;thoughwewereonlyinthesecondasking,werewe?AndevenifIhadcomebackstraightherewhenwereturnedfromtheCrimea,andmarriedyouthen,howmuchhappierIshouldhavebeen!'
'DearJohn,tosaythat!Whydidn'tyou?'
'O——dilatorinessandwantofthought,andafearoffacingyourfatheraftersolong.Iwasinhospitalagreatwhile,youknow.
Buthowfamiliartheplaceseemsagain!What'sthatIsawonthebeaufetintheotherroom?Itneverusedtobethere.Asortofwitheredcorpseofacake——notanoldbride-cakesurely?'
'Yes,John,ours.'Tistheveryonethatwasmadeforourweddingthreeyearsago.'
'Sakesalive!Why,timeshutsuptogether,andallbetweenthenandnowseemsnottohavebeen!Whatbecameofthatwedding-gownthattheyweremakinginthisroom,Iremember——abluish,whitish,frothything?'
'Ihavethattoo.'
'Really!Why,Selina——'
'Yes!'
'Whynotputitonnow?'
'Wouldn'titseem.Andyet,OhowIshouldliketo!Itwouldremindthemall,ifwetoldthemwhatitwas,howwereallymeanttobemarriedonthatbygoneday!'Hereyeswereagainladenwithwet.
'YesThepitythatwedidn't——thepity!'Moodymournfulnessseemedtoholdsilentawhileonenotnaturallytaciturn.'Well——willyou?'hesaid.
'Iwill——thenextdance,ifmotherdon'tmind.'
Accordingly,justbeforethenextfigurewasformed,Selinadisappeared,andspeedilycamedownstairsinacreasedandbox-worn,butstillairyandpretty,muslingown,whichwasindeedtheveryonethathadbeenmeanttograceherasabridethreeyearsbefore.
'Itisdreadfullyold-fashioned,'sheapologized.
'Notatall.Whatagrandthoughtofmine!Now,let'sto'tagain.'
Sheexplainedtosomeofthem,asheledhertotheseconddance,whatthefrockhadbeenmeantfor,andthatshehadputitonathisrequest.Andagainathwartandaroundtheroomtheywent.
'Youseemthebride!'hesaid.
'ButIcouldn'twearthisgowntobemarriedinnow!'shereplied,ecstatically,'orIshouldn'thaveputitonandmadeitdusty.Itisreallytooold-fashioned,andsofoldedandfrettedout,youcan'tthink.Thatwaswithmytakingitoutsomanytimestolookat.I
haveneverputiton——never——tillnow!'
'Selina,Iamthinkingofgivingupthearmy.WillyouemigratewithmetoNewZealand?I'veanuncleouttheredoingwell,andhe'dsoonhelpmetomakingalargerincome.TheEnglisharmyisglorious,butitain'taltogetherenriching.'
'Ofcourse,anywherethatyoudecideupon.IsithealthythereforJohnny?'
'Alovelyclimate.AndIshallneverbehappyinEnglandAha!'
heconcludedagain,withabitternessofunexpectedstrength,'wouldtoHeavenIhadcomestraightbackhere!'
Asthedancebroughtroundoneneighbourafteranotherthere-unitedpairwerethrownintojuxtapositionwithBobHeartallamongtherestwhohadbeencalledin;onewhosechronicexpressionwasthathecarriedinsidehimajokeonthepointofburstingwithitsownvastness.Hetookoccasionnowtoletoutalittleofitsquality,shakinghisheadatSelinaasheaddressedherinanundertone-
'Thisisabitofatoppertothebridegroom,hoho!'Twillteachenthelibertyyou'llexpectwhenyou'vemarrieden!'
'Whatdoeshemeanbya"topper,"'thesergeant-majorasked,who,notbeingoflocalextraction,despisedthevenerablelocallanguage,andalsoseemedtosuppose'bridegroom'tobeananticipatorynameforhimself.'IonlyhopeIshallneverbeworsetreatedthanyou'vetreatedmeto-night!'
Selinalookedfrightened.'Hedidn'tmeanyou,dear,'shesaidastheymovedon.'Wethoughtperhapsyouknewwhathadhappened,owingtoyourcomingjustatthistime.Hadyou——heardanythingabout——
whatIintended?'
'Notabreath——howshouldI——awayupinYorkshire?ItwasbythemerestaccidentthatIcamejustatthisdatetomakepeacewithyouformydelay.'
'IwasengagedtobemarriedtoMr.BartholomewMiller.That'swhatitis!Iwouldhavelet'eeknowbyletter,buttherewasnotime,onlyhearingfrom'eethisafternoonYouwon'tdesertmeforit,willyou,John?Because,asyouknow,Iquitesupposedyoudead,and——and——'Hereyeswerefulloftearsoftrepidation,andhemighthavefeltasobheavingwithinher.
IV
Thesoldierwassilentduringtwoorthreedoublebarsofthetune.
'WhenwereyoutohavebeenmarriedtothesaidMr.BartholomewMiller?'heinquired.
'Quitesoon.'
'Howsoon?'
'Nextweek——Oyes——justthesameasitwaswithyouandme.There'sastrangefateofinterruptionhangingoverme,Isometimesthink!
Hehadboughtthelicence,whichIpreferredsothatitmightn'tbelike——ours.Butitmadenodifferencetothefateofit.'
'Hadboughtthelicence!Thedevil!'
'Don'tbeangry,dearJohn.Ididn'tknow!'
'No,no,I'mnotangry.'
'Itwassokindofhim,considering!'
'YesIsee,ofcourse,hownaturalyouractionwas——neverthinkingofseeingmeanymore!IsittheMr.Millerwhoisinthisdance?'
'Yes.'
ClarkglancedrounduponBartholomewandwassilentagain,forsomelittlewhile,andshestolealookathim,tofindthatheseemedchanged.'John,youlookill!'shealmostsobbed.''Tisn'tme,isit?'
'Odear,no.ThoughIhadn't,somehow,expectedit.Ican'tfindfaultwithyouforamoment——andIdon'tThisisadeuceofalongdance,don'tyouthink?We'vebeenatittwentyminutesifasecond,andthefiguredoesn'tallowonemuchrest.I'mquiteoutofbreath.'
'Theylikethemsodreadfullylonghere.Shallwedropout?OrI'llstopthefiddler.'
'Ono,no,IthinkIcanfinish.ButalthoughIlookhealthyenoughIhaveneverbeensostrongasIformerlywas,sincethatlongillnessIhadinthehospitalatScutari.'
'AndIknewnothingaboutit!'
'Youcouldn't,dear,asIdidn'twrite.WhatafoolIhavebeenaltogether!'Hegaveatwitch,asofoneinpain.'Iwon'tdanceagainwhenthisoneisover.ThefactisIhavetravelledalongwayto-day,anditseemstohaveknockedmeupabit.'
Therecouldbenodoubtthatthesergeant-majorwasunwell,andSelinamadeherselfmiserablebystillbelievingthatherstorywasthecauseofhisailment.Suddenlyhesaidinachangedvoice,andsheperceivedthathewaspalerthanever:'Imustsitdown.'
Lettinggoherwaisthewentquicklytotheotherroom.Shefollowed,andfoundhiminthenearestchair,hisfacebentdownuponhishandsandarms,whichwererestingonthetable.
'What'sthematter?'saidherfather,whosattheredozingbythefire.
'Johnisn'twellWearegoingtoNewZealandwhenwearemarried,father.Alovelycountry!John,wouldyoulikesomethingtodrink?'
'Adropo'thatSchiedamofoldOwlett's,that'sunderstairs,perhaps,'suggestedherfather.'Notthatnowadays'tismuchbetterthanlicensedliquor.'
'John,'shesaid,puttingherfaceclosetohisandpressinghisarm.
'Willyouhaveadropofspiritsorsomething?'
Hedidnotreply,andSelinaobservedthathisearandthesideofhisfacewerequitewhite.Convincedthathisillnesswasserious,agrowingdismayseizedholdofher.Thedanceended;hermothercamein,andlearningwhathadhappened,lookednarrowlyatthesergeant-
major.
'Wemustnotlethimlielikethat,lifthimup,'shesaid.'Lethimrestinthewindow-benchonsomecushions.'
Theyunfoldedhisarmsandhandsastheylayclaspeduponthetable,andonliftinghisheadfoundhisfeaturestobeartheveryimpressofdeathitself.BartholomewMiller,whohadnowcomein,assistedMr.Paddocktomakeacomfortablecouchinthewindow-seat,wheretheystretchedoutClarkuponhisback.
Stillheseemedunconscious.'Wemustgetadoctor,'saidSelina.
'O,mydearJohn,howisityoubetakenlikethis?'
'Myimpressionisthathe'sdead!'murmuredMr.Paddock.'Hedon'tbreatheenoughtomoveatomtit'sfeather.'
Therewereplentytovolunteertogoforadoctor,butasitwouldbeatleastanhourbeforehecouldgettherethecaseseemedsomewhathopeless.Thedancing-partyendedasunceremoniouslyasithadbegun;buttheguestslingeredroundthepremisestillthedoctorshouldarrive.Whenhedidcomethesergeant-major'sextremitieswerealreadycold,andtherewasnodoubtthatdeathhadovertakenhimalmostatthemomentthathehadsatdown.
ThemedicalpractitionerquiterefusedtoaccepttheunhappySelina'stheorythatherrevelationhadinanywayinducedClark'ssuddencollapse.Bothheandthecoronerafterwards,whofoundtheimmediatecausetobeheart-failure,heldthatsuchasuppositionwasunwarrantedbyfacts.Theyassertedthatalongday'sjourney,ahurrieddrive,andthenanexhaustingdance,weresufficientforsucharesultuponaheartenfeebledbyfattydegenerationaftertheprivationsofaCrimeanwinterandothertryingexperiences,thecoincidenceofthesadeventwithanydisclosureofhersbeingapureaccident.
Thisconclusion,however,didnotdislodgeSelina'sopinionthattheshockofherstatementhadbeentheimmediatestrokewhichhadfelledaconstitutionsoundermined.
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AtthisdatetheCasterbridgeBarrackswerecavalryquarters,theiradaptationtoartilleryhavingbeeneffectedsomeyearslater.Ithadbeenowingtothefactthatthe——thDragoons,inwhichJohnClarkhadserved,happenedtobelyingtherethatSelinamadehisacquaintance.AtthetimeofhisdeaththebarrackswereoccupiedbytheScotsGreys,butwhenthepatheticcircumstancesofthesergeant-
major'sendbecameknowninthetowntheofficersoftheGreysofferedtheservicesoftheirfinereedandbrassband,thathemighthaveafuneralmarkedbyduemilitaryhonours.Hisbodywasaccordinglyremovedtothebarracks,andcarriedthencetothechurchyardintheDurnoverquarteronthefollowingafternoon,oneoftheGreys'mostancientanddocilechargersbeingblackeduptorepresentClark'shorseontheoccasion.
EverybodypitiedSelina,whosestorywaswellknown.Shefollowedthecorpseastheonlymourner,Clarkhavingbeenwithoutrelationsinthispartofthecountry,andacommunicationwithhisregimenthavingbroughtnonefromadistance.Shesatinalittleshabbybrown-blackmourningcarriage,squeezingherselfupinacornertobeasmuchaspossibleoutofsightduringtheslowanddramaticmarchthroughthetowntothetunefromSaul.Whentheintermenthadtakenplace,thevolleysbeenfired,andthereturnjourneybegun,itwaswithsomethinglikeashockthatshefoundthemilitaryescorttobemovingataquickmarchtothelivelystrainsof'Offshegoes!'asifallcareforthesergeant-majorwasexpectedtobeendedwiththelatedischargeofthecarbines.Itwas,bychance,theverytunetowhichtheyhadbeenfootingwhenhedied,andunabletobearitsnotes,shehastilytoldherdrivertodropbehind.ThebandandmilitarypartydiminisheduptheHighStreet,andSelinaturnedoverSwanbridgeandhomewardtoMellstock.
Thenrecommencedforheralifewhoseincidentswerepreciselyofasuitwiththosewhichhadprecededthesoldier'sreturn;buthowdifferentinherappreciationofthem!Hernarrowmissoftherecoveredrespectabilitytheyhadhopedforfromthattardyeventworkeduponherparentsasanirritant,andafterthefirstweekortwoofhermourningherlifewiththemgrewalmostinsupportable.
Shehadimpulsivelytakentoherselftheweedsofawidow,forsuchsheseemedtoherselftobe,andclothedlittleJohnnyinsableslikewise.Thisassumptionofamoralrelationshiptothedeceased,whichsheassertedtobeonlynotalegalonebytwomostunexpectedaccidents,ledtheoldpeopletoindulgeinsarcasmatherexpensewhenevertheybeheldherattire,thoughallthewhileitcostthemmorepaintoutterthanitgavehertohearit.Havingbecomeaccustomedbyherresidenceathometothebusinesscarriedonbyherfather,shesurprisedthemonedaybygoingoffwiththechildtoChalk-Newton,inthedirectionofthetownofIvell,andopeningaminiaturefruitandvegetableshop,attendingIvellmarketwithherproduce.Herbusinessgrewsomewhatlarger,anditwassoonsufficienttoenablehertosupportherselfandtheboyincomfort.
Shecalledherself'Mrs.JohnClark'fromthedayofleavinghome,andpaintedthenameonhersignboard——nomanforbiddingher.
Bydegreesthepainofherstatewasforgotteninhernewcircumstances,andgettingtobegenerallyacceptedasthewidowofasergeant-majorofdragoons——anassumptionwhichhermodestandmournfuldemeanourseemedtosubstantiate——herlifebecameaplacidone,hermindbeingnourishedbythemelancholyluxuryofdreamingwhatmighthavebeenherfutureinNewZealandwithJohn,ifhehadonlylivedtotakeherthere.HeronlytravelsnowwereajourneytoIvellonmarket-days,andonceafortnighttothechurchyardinwhichClarklay,theretotend,withJohnny'sassistance,aswidowsarewonttodo,theflowersshehadplanteduponhisgrave.
Onadayabouteighteenmonthsafterhisunexpecteddecease,SelinawassurprisedinherlodgingoverherlittleshopbyavisitfromBartholomewMiller.Hehadcalledonheronceortwicebefore,onwhichoccasionshehadusedwithoutawordofcommentthenamebywhichshewasknown.
'I'vecomethistime,'hesaid,'lessbecauseIwasinthisdirectionthantoaskyou,Mrs.Clark,whatyoumidwellguess.I'vecomeo'
purpose,inshort.'
Shesmiled.
''Tistoaskmeagaintomarryyou?'